Tonight,I check in with mixed emotions.After a pretty smooth work day,I had to have a negative verbal scuffle with an unreasonable person.It was a misunderstanding over snack foods that were left around the social club when a person said that I could help myself.I did and what happens,this guy comes off the street after having a cigarette and gets apprehensive about it.Apparently,the food was meant for something else but when I tried to tell him calmly that somebody offered it to me,he still remained apprehensive.After three tries,I gave up and told the staff about it.It worked out pretty good.Fortunately for me,I had to go home because my work day was through.I did not let it get to me because I felt that the coordinator will do his job and everything will turn out for the better.Again,though minor,I did not let it get to me.My day was over and it was pretty smooth up to that point.
I also had to help my mother out today after I got home from work.After that,I did some work around the house and I also had to help my niece out.It was not too bad of a night.
The only really good thing to happen tonight was a Buffalo Sabres victory.They defeated the Ottawa Senators in a shootout by a score of 6-5.There was a really big brawl tonight at the game between several Senators and Sabres players in which even the goaltenders got in a scuffle.The big brawl lasted 15 minutes.There was also a shouting match between Sabres coach Lindy Ruff and Senators coach Bryan Murray behind the benches.What a night it was for the Buffalo Sabres and even the fans who were at the game.I just caught the footage on the news and it was intense.The only noteable thing is that it marked the debut of a hometown boy named Pat Kaleta.Plus,the best thing was Drew Stafford scoring the game winner in the shootout.Still,what a night it was for the Sabres and the fans.This game is truly one of those "unforgettable experiences" in the game.Ice Hockey can be a rough sport but it is always FUN and EXCITING to watch.
Tomorrow is another work day.After that,it's the weekend and I will again be entertaining the crowd as I usually do.I can hardly wait for that.
That was my day and night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling good.I had a wonderful day and night.Today,after dropping off the laundry at work,I went and did a little shopping at a thrift store.I found some really nice clothes that fit me pretty good.I did not even have to try them on.I just went over to a ruler they had and they were my size.The vast majority of them did not fit me but I found a few that did,which was great.This coming Monday,I might go out to another thrift store and see if there is anything more that do.Not only that,I also managed to add a few more record albums and singles to my ever growing record collection,which was also great.
Plus,I had a great session with my sexual abuse support counselor this afternoon.She gave me a little bit more good advice on how I can effectively handle my emotional problems and not be afraid to write what I am feeling down whenever an old feeling of anger comes around and all of a sudden,I am wound up in it.She is showing me how to handle the rage of emotions properly and tactfully so I do not get wound up in it.That made feel good.
Tonight,I went to my support group at the church and that went terrific.I made up for lost time from the cancellation last week and talked about everything that I wanted to get off my chest and that made me feel good.I shared what my sexual abuse support counselor advised me to do and the men simply nodded to indicate that they were listening,which was great.Again,I am glad to have found this group and I am also glad that I am attending the meetings.It feels great to finally feel accepted and have other men listen to you,which is better than ignoring you.Ignoring others is the worst form of emascualtion.
Tomorrow night,the Buffalo Sabres are hosting the Ottawa Senators.I am hoping for another win by them.
That was my day and night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling good.I had a wonderful day and night.Today,after dropping off the laundry at work,I went and did a little shopping at a thrift store.I found some really nice clothes that fit me pretty good.I did not even have to try them on.I just went over to a ruler they had and they were my size.The vast majority of them did not fit me but I found a few that did,which was great.This coming Monday,I might go out to another thrift store and see if there is anything more that do.Not only that,I also managed to add a few more record albums and singles to my ever growing record collection,which was also great.
Plus,I had a great session with my sexual abuse support counselor this afternoon.She gave me a little bit more good advice on how I can effectively handle my emotional problems and not be afraid to write what I am feeling down whenever an old feeling of anger comes around and all of a sudden,I am wound up in it.She is showing me how to handle the rage of emotions properly and tactfully so I do not get wound up in it.That made feel good.
Tonight,I went to my support group at the church and that went terrific.I made up for lost time from the cancellation last week and talked about everything that I wanted to get off my chest and that made me feel good.I shared what my sexual abuse support counselor advised me to do and the men simply nodded to indicate that they were listening,which was great.Again,I am glad to have found this group and I am also glad that I am attending the meetings.It feels great to finally feel accepted and have other men listen to you,which is better than ignoring you.Ignoring others is the worst form of emascualtion.
That was my day and night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling good.It was a pretty good day today and I had a very smooth work day.The day went by pretty well and that was great.I even managed to make it to a store to try on some clothes.The only disappointment is that they did not fit.But then again,what can you expect at times from a second hand store.Sometimes you will find something that fits and sometimes you don't.But it is fun wanting to try something on before you buy it.
I even talked to a friend of mine tonight and he's doing good.He and his girlfriend were watching the Buffalo Sabres hosting the Philadelphia Flyers in Buffalo.I had the game on the radio because I do not have the luxury of cable TV at the moment.But that can change later on.Right now,cable TV is expensive and even satellite,though cheaper by comparison,is also expensive.But when I can afford it,I would like to get it.But now,I will just have to settle on the old radio.
Speaking of the Sabres game tonight,they clobbered the Philadelphia Flyers by a score of 6-3.It was non-stop Sabres scoring the whole game that made it.It was like that they scored 2 goals a period.It was AWESOME!Yes it was.The Buffalo Sabres host the Ottawa Senators on Thursday night.I am hoping that they can close their home stand with a victory over the Senators.After that,the Sabres travel to Ottawa for a re-match on Saturday night.I am hoping that the Sabres can get two consecutive wins over the Senators.They did defeat them in Buffalo on the 7th of this month by a score of 3-2.Again,I am hoping that the Sabres can do it again.
Tomorrow morning is a pick-up.Tomorrow afternoon is my appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.Tomorrow night is my support group meeting at the church tomorrow night.I am hooping that all goes well throughout the day.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.It was a pretty quiet day and it also was a holiday.Nothing really to do on a holiday except stay at home and take it easy.I did manage to run a few errands today.I also managed to help out a relative who was quite appreciative in me helping her.I went home and I took it easy for the rest of the night.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the work day goes smoothly.They have been going better since I have made some changes to the way I do things during the day and that is making me feel better.I have been keeping my emotions under control and I have been complimented on my progress by my supervisor and my counselors.The compliments have made me feel good.But still,I am taking this one day at a time.If I go through one day without getting angry and/or enraged,that is good.There is always another day and that day has it's challenges.Not only that,I can not think of "never getting angry again" because I will get angry at times and when it happens and how I express it,I'll just have to cross that bridge when I come to it.
Tomorrow night,the Buffalo Sabres are hosting the Philadelphia Flyers and I am hoping for a Buffalo Sabres victory.A victory would be really great.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling good.I have a very eventful day.I had to run errands for my mom and I also helped out a friend tonight.That made feel good.He also thanked me for helping me,which really made feel great inside.It is great to help a friend out and have him show his appreciation to you for helping him.It also makes a man feel really good.I really like that.I am going to strive to help out people more often when asked.
Last night,I went out and had a ball.I sang the three new songs that I was planning and the crowd really enjoyed them.They said that it was wonderful what I did and they showed their appreciation in more ways than one.I really enjoy what I do.I also enjoy it when others enjoy what I do.It makes me feel good inside.That is why I do it every week because it makes me feel good to make them feel good.
The Buffalo Sabres lost in a shootout to the Boston Bruins last night by a score of 4-3.But the Sabres put a great effort in the game and for that I am proud.The Sabres host the Philadelphia Flyers on Tuesday night.I am hoping that they can emerge victorious after that disappointing loss.A win would be awesome.
That was my day and my night last night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.I had a pretty decent day today in my neck of the woods.I took it easy for most of the day.I did run a small errand for my mom today and I also had to help my niece out earlier tonight.Again,it was pretty decent day today and I got at least a little bit done.It was still an accomplishment and it made me feel good.I am at home at the moment relaxing until I go out to entertain the crowd tonight.I hope that it goes well.Again,though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.I am hoping to try out a few new songs tonight and I hope that it works out.
Right now,the Sabres are playing the Bruins tonight.The Bruins are leading 3-1 at the moment but I am still hoping for a Sabres win tonight.I hope that they can win.Right now,the Bruins have been penalized for a delay of game.The Sabres are going to be on the power play for the next two minutes.I hope that they can tie the score.It is in the second period at the moment.Again,I hope that the Sabres can get another victory tonight.Another victory would be totally sweet.
That was my day and my hoped for night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.The work day went by as smoothly as expected and it was wonderful.I just did my job and the day went by pretty well.I had a good day and that was pretty good.
The weather is still COLD and the wind is blowing.I am at home relaxing as the wind blows the snow all over the place.According to the National Weather Service,we have to endure two more days of extreme COLD before it starts warming up starting next week.On Monday,it will be in the upper 20's before going in the 30's on Tuesday.There is nothing to do when the weather is COLD and there is no place to go in the area where I live.But I am not complaining.It is just the way of the season and I am just going with the flow.That is all I can do.But I am remaing hopeful that things will get better weatherwise and I also hope that the jet stream does not change and we get it COLD again.But again,that is the way of the season and I am just going with it.
Tomorrow night is the night that I go out to entertain the crowds and I am hoping for a wonderful night.The Boston Bruins are coming to town to play the Buffalo Sabres and I am hoping for another Sabres win.Regarding my entertaining the crowds every Saturday night,I rarely have an off night but I still hope for things to go good.You never know.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling a little bit better than yesterday.Yesterday I was depressed due to the fact that the weather was COLD and that the meeting that I was supposed to go to was cancelled.Again,I understand why they had to cancel and I respect their reason for doing so,mainly due to the weather.But it was still depressing.I was looking forward to the meeting.But again,I understand the reasons why and I respect them.There is always next Wednesday night and I am going to that meeting.I hope that the meeting goes great.
Today was yet another work day and it was a full day.It went by as smoothly as expected and that was good.I got a lot done and that made me feel good.Yes it did.It was a pretty good day.The weather was cold but not as cold as it was yesterday.Tonight,it is pretty COLD and the wind is lightly blowing.I can not wait until next week when it starts to warm up starting Tuesday.Until then,we have to deal with and endure more frigid winter conditions and some more bitterly COLD temperatures.Boy,I can not wait for it to get warmer.I know that it's winter and this type of weather is to be expected during this time of the year.But again,I still can not wait for it to get warmer.
Tonight,I am feeling better because the Buffalo Sabres were victorious yet again.The defeated the Edmonton Oilers in overtime by a score of 2-1.Thanks once again to Daniel Briere for the game winner in overtime.
Tomorrow is Friday.It is another work day and then,the weekend will be upon us.I can hardly wait to entertain the crowds again Saturday night.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in with mixed emotions.The reason being is that the meeting that I was supposed to go to was cancelled due to the snow storm that we are having.Don't get me wrong,I do respect the reasons why the meeting was cancelled and I understand that the weather is really treacherous at the moment with all the snowfall and bitter wind chills and travel would be dangerous in this type of weather.I was disappointed but it was for a good reason.It also saved me from making a phone call and it also saved me a trip and some gas.The only good thing is that there will be one next Wednesday night and I will be looking forward to that.It was disappointing,yes.But still,it is better to be safe than sorry.
Right now,the weather is COLD.The snow is falling and the wind chills are in the minus teens.But the snow is supposed to taper off by tomorrow early morning.I hope so.We are going to get another snow fall in the area Thursday night into Friday morning.We are supposed to get a break on Saturday but it will start again Saturday night into Sunday morning that will progress on into Sunday evening.The cycle of winter.Then again,we have not had it that bad in this neck of the woods this year,so far.By comparison to the rest of the state of New York,specifically the Southern Tier and Ski Country's,we have a light dusting by comparison.It has not been this bad in 30 years since the infamous Blizzard Of '77.But still,this snowfall pales in comparison and though the weather has been COLD,we still have a light dusting by comparison to the rest of New York state.Still,it's winter and we have to expect this.
Tomorrow is another work day.It will be a full day.Tomorrow night,the Buffalo Sabres are playing the Edmonton Oilers when they come to Buffalo.I hope that the Sabres can beat the Oilers tomorrow night.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.The work day went by as smoothly as expected and that was good.I concentrated on my job and the day went by pretty smoothly.It makes me feel a bit better.Tomorrow is just a pick up day.I am just going to pick up and go home.
Tonight,the snow is falling and it is COLD.The heavy snow warning that was issued was originally supposed to expire at 5:00p.m. tomorrow but that has been changed to 2:00p.m. tomorrow.I am still hoping to go to the meeting tomorrow night at the church and I am hoping that the snow is not too heavy for my half-hour drive to get there.I am geting a lot out of these meetings and I am enjoying them.The men in the group are a swell bunch and they are actually making me feel right at home with them,which is terrific.Again,I am planning to be there.I am going to get an awful lot out of the meeting as I have been.
The Buffalo Sabres are playing again on Thursday night when the Edmonton Oilers come to town.I am hoping for another Buffalo Sabres win.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling pretty good.The weather is still COLD but I am hanging in there.We will have a Hevay Snow Warning in effect for my area from 5:00 p.m.Tuesday to 5:00p.m. Wednesday.But again,it's winter and we have to expect these things to happen.According to the National Weather Service,there will be heavy snowfall during the afternoon,evening and overnight and will taper off by mid afternoon on Wednesday.I hope that it does not get too heavy because I am still planning to go to my group on Wednesday night to get a lot out of what I am getting out of it at the moment.These group metings have been helping me a lot and they have been very awarding.Again,I am hoping that it does not get too heavy.I am still planning to go to the group meeting.
Today,I just took it easy for most of the day.I only ran a couple of errands for two of my members and that was it.Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the work day goes as smoothly as expected.
The next time the Sabres play is Thursday night when the Edmonton Oilers come to town.I hope that the Sabres can beat the Oilers.They have been doing great since February began and I hope that they can continue to do great.
That was my day and night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.I am at home right now relaxing.The weather is still COLD with bitter wind chills in the minus single digits with no end in sight for the foreseeable future.February is definitely the coldest month in the winter and the weather right now shows it.
Last night,I went out to entertain the crowd and the night was yet another huge success for me.The crowd enjoyed my song selections and they did show their appreciation in more ways than one.That made me feel good.It was a wonderful night.I enjoyed myself and the crowd enjoyed me.Not only that,the Buffalo Sabres won in a shootout last night over the Calgary Flames by a score of 3-2.Ales Kotalik was the hero last night who won it for Buffalo in the shootout.It was a great night with the crowd enjoying me and the Buffalo Sabres won.It was a wonderful night.I had a ball and that made me feel good.
Today,I had to run an errand for my mom to get something for dinner tonight.That went well as planned.The weather was cold but not as cold as it is tonight.But still,I got something done and that made me feel good.
I did have a talk with a friend from New Jersey and he is doing good.I had a nice talk with him and that made my night a little bit better.Again,I am right now relaxing and taking it easy.
Tomorrow is a day off for me.I am going to take it easy tomorrow and enjoy my day off.I am also going to get ready for Tuesday,which is a work day for me.
That was my day and my night last night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling a little bit better than the past couple of days.I have been feeling just okay the last couple of days/nights and now tonight,I can say that I am feeling a bit better.Tonight is my night to entertain the crowds again.I am looking forward to that with a lot of enthusiasm and anticipation.I am hoping that the night goes great.Again,I rarely if ever have an off night,I still hope for things to go good.You never know what might happen.Plus,after what happened to me on Thursday,I can now forget that and be where there are people who do indeed appreciate me and what I do.If the night's a success,I can say YES within myself and smile brightly.Why?Because my night was a success and those who like to put me down for my talent and show off how jealous they are,they actually know where they can go and what they can do to themselves.That is why I will be smiling.
Another reason why I am feeling better is this;I have now added a few more friends to my friends list over on My Space and they are entertainers themselves.It's great to meet other people who have something in common with you.I am feeling a bit better and that is great.
Tonight,the Buffalo Sabres are playing the Calgary Flames in Buffalo.I hope that the Sabres can win another one tonight.It was wonderful finally seeing them defeat the Ottawa Senators on Wednesday night.Now tonight,I hope that they can beat Calgary.Another win would be SUPER.Yes it would.
That was my day and again,I am hoping that the night goes well.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.The work day went as well as expected.Not too bad of a day with nothing negative to write home about.I am at home at the moment typing up this post and sharing what went on im my day.Nothing really negative happened.I just did my job and when the time came to leave,I just did.Today was a bit warmer with some cold staying around.Right now,it is a bit windy.I have no place to go tonight and I am just going to stay home and relax.
The weekend will be here any minute.I can hardly wait for that.I am going to be singing up a storm tomorrow night.I always look forward to entertaining the crowds on Saturday night.I do not know what I am going to do tomorrow night,but I know it will be great.Again,I am looking forward to that.
Later on,I am just going to sit down in the living room and watch a movie.After that,I am going to go to bed.I do have the day off tomorrow and Sunday so I am just going to watch a movie and go to bed afterwards.
The Buffalo Sabres are playing tomorrow night against the Calgary Flames in Buffalo.I am hoping for another Buffalo Sabres win tomorrow night.I am glad that the Buffalo Sabres are doing great this year.I hope that they continue to do great through the rest of the season.It would be great to finally have a world championship team in Buffalo.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.The work day went by as smoothly as it should and it was pretty good.I simply did my job and let nothing get in the way of doing it.I also had to do a couple of favors for my mom today before I went home.When I got home,I simply took it easy for a while and did my personal computer work.It was not too bad of a day today despite a negative occurance that happened between me and some jerk who loves to criticize other people's talents because he does not have that certain talent.After I told him to "Go To Hell!",he simply left and did not return.It just goes to show that if you can't take it,don't give it.
Tonight,the weather is once again COLD.The winds are blowing and the wind chill is -8 below freezing.The winds are making it feel COLDER than it really is.But I am in the house and I am relaxing.The wind can blow all it wants to.I am just going to stay inside and get ready for the next day.It is another work day and I am hoping that it goes smoothly as the work day for me did today despite that negative occurance.But hey,that person was just showing off how jealous he was of my singing talent.I happen to be a respected entertainer in my hometown and I always look forward to doing that every Saturday night in front of the people who truly appreciate me.I can hardly wait for that.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I am checking in feeling really good.It was another wonderful Wednesday night for me.I went to my group meeting tonight at the church and it went great.I had another wonderful meeting with them.I really like going to these groups.They are really swell.The men in the group are a swell bunch.I have said it before.I'll say it again.I am glad to have found out about this group.It has been doing me a lot of good.I am looking forward to the next meeting.I hope that it's just as wonderful as tonights.
Tonight,I am also jumping for joy.The Buffalo Sabres defeated the Ottawa Senators tonight by a score of 3-2.This finally ends Ottawa's domination over Buffalo.Ever since this season began,the Senators have owned the Sabres.It was hard to believe that the Sabres eliminated the Senators from the playoffs last year in overtime.But tonight,the Sabres finally turned the tables on the Senators by defeating them on home ice.How sweet it is!Their next game,on home ice,is Saturday night when the Calgary Flames come to town.Tonight's game is the start of a 6 game home stretch.I am hoping for a third consecutive win Saturday night.Yes I do.They are in 1st Place in their division at the moment.That is totally AWESOME.A win Saturday night would be even more AWESOME.I hope that it happens.
That was my night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.The work day went as well as expected.I am now at home relaxing and listening to the hockey game.The game,between the Buffalo Sabres and the Atlanta Thrashers,is tied 3-3.I am hoping that the Sabres can win this game tonight.It will be neat for them to win this game after two consecutive disappointing losses.Again,I am hoping for a Buffalo win.Right now,they are in overtime.
Tonight,the weather is COLD.The wind chill is -15 below freezing at the moment and I am in the house.Earlier today,when I returned to my vehicle after sorting out the laundry while my vehicle was still running,I saw that my coolant gage was in the middle,which was unusual.I drove to find a parking space and I turned on my heater and the gage went back to just before the middle,where it normally is when I am driving.After waiting a while after parking my vehicle,I went out to it around lunch time to check my radiator and I noticed that it was low.I filled it with a little bit of anti-freeze and closed the radiator.Later,when I went out to my vehicle to warm it up,no problems as I was driving it home.But still,I am going to have my mechanic check it out to be on the safe side because I have a group meeting tomorrow night and I don't want nothing to go wrong as I am going down or even coming back.I want to go to my meeting and I want to get what I am getting out of these meetings whenever I attend them.Again,I am hoping that nothing is really wrong.I am determined to go to the meeting.
Tomorrow is another appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.I am hoping that the meeting with her goes well.
This just in,the Buffalo Sabres defeat the Atlanta Thrashers in a shootout by a score of 4-3.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.I am at home at the moment.It is bitterly COLD out and there is nothing to do nor is there anywhere to go on a night like this when the weather is as COLD as it is tonight.It can be boring when there is a situation like this one.Yes it can be.But I am just going with the flow,staying home and getting ready for the work day tomorrow.I am hoping that the work day goes good tomorrow.
I had my couseling session today for anger management and that went well.My next session,which is next month,will be my last session with him and I will be going back to regular med management.My counselor is impressed with the progress that I have made in the last several months and so is my supervisor.It is a great feeling knowing that you are accomplishing something that you have been trying to accomplish for a long time and not getting anywhere.I have seen that I have come a long way since then.But still,I am taking life one day at a time and looking at terms of overcoming and controlling emotions as one day at a time accomplishments.If you suceed one day,enjoy it.But the next day will be different and it has it's own challenges as the previous day.It goes on every day and you can't let any good progress go to your head.You have to keep on,press on and take it,again,one day at a time.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.I had to run a few errands today and that kept me busy.It was a bitterly COLD day today as I was doing them.Yes it was.But I was just getting on with my business and getting my errands done so I could relax and take it easy for the rest of the day.There is really nothing to do in my area with the weather being as bitterly COLD as it is at the moment.Right now,I am at home and it is COLD at the moment.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowds was another success.The only drawback was that there was not an awful lot of people there last night due to the COLD weather but it was still a great night.I had a ball and the crowd enjoyed my song selections and that made me feel good.The only disappointment was that the Buffalo Sabres lost to the New Jersey Devils last night by a score of 3-2.Their next game is on Tuesday night against the Atlanta Thrashers in Atlanta.I hope that they can beat them on Tuesday night.A win would be totally sweet and it would make me feel better after that disappointing loss to the New Jersey Devils.
Tonight,I am sitting at home relaxing.Again,the night is bitterly COLD and windy with wind chils in the -15 range.If that's not COLD,then I don't know what is.During the superbowl,my mom and I watched the Beatles movie A Hard Day's Night in my VCR/DVD Player combo on DVD and that was neat.It was wonderful to have this film on DVD and watch it on that format.It was a wonderful night despite the FRIGID COLD temperatures.But I had nothing else to do due to the weather,so it was a wonderful night.
The National Weather Service has already stated that there is no relief in sight at the moment from the weather we are having.The weather will continue for quite a while with no relief in the near future as far as the rest of this week and the next few weeks go.But still,that could change,though I will not hold my breath on it.
That was my day and night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.I am right now at home taking it easy.I am getting ready for tonight.I will be entertaining the crowds again as I usually do.I am hoping that the night goes good.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.But again,I hope that everything goes well.
Tonight,the Buffalo Sabres are playing the New Jersey Devils.At the moment,the Sabres are leading 1-0 after the first period.Two more periods to go.Again,I am hoping for a Buffalo win.
Tonight,at the moment,the weather is COLD.The wind is blowing and there is snow all over the place.For much of the day,the visibility was not the way it should have been.I was out driving today doing some personal purchases and the area that I had to travel to was almost zero visibility.In weather like this,you do have to be careful that you do not get hit or that you do not hit anybody.You do have to be careful.So,I am going to be careful tonight.
There probably will not be an awful lot of people tonight at the place.If that is the case,I just might call it an early night and hope that the next week will be better.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.The work day went as well as to be expected.It was a pretty good day.I also had to run a few errands before going home from work.The weather at the moment is very COLD and windy.I am in the house and I am relaxing.It is great to be in the house on a COLD night.In my area,there is really nothing to do on a COLD day or night.So,I just stay home and relax and get ready for the next week.
Tomorrow night,I will be entertaining the crowds again at the place where I do that.I always look forward to doing that every Saturday night.It always makes me feel really good to entertain others and the people always showing their appreciation.I am just overjoyed that the weekend is finally here.I can concentarte on the next week and hope for the week to go good.It was a great week for me this week.I hope that the next is even better.
I also hope for a Buffalo Sabres victory tomorrow night when they play against the New Jersey Devils in New Jersey.A third consecutive win would be totally neat.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling pretty good.The day went by pretty well.I had a pretty good day at work as well.It just went by as smoothly as expected.I simply did my job and it was great.During my lunch break,I picked up a few things for the home so I could go straight home and relax.When I got home today,a DVD that I was waiting for finally came in and that was great.I even tried it out in my VCR/DVD combo and it works good.It was the classic Beatles movie HELP!,which I have been eagerly wanting to add to my DVD library.I now have it and that is totally cool.Yes it is.If only they would bring Let It Be to DVD.That would be "IT!"
Tonight,the Buffalo Sabres were victorious again.The defeated the Boston Bruins by a score of 3-1.Two back to back victories over the Bruins is totally neato.Their next game is Saturday night against the New Jersey Devils in New Jersey.I am hoping for a third consecutive win.The Sabres already have a great record and it would be greater to add to it with another win.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that it goes as good as today did.After that,it's the weekend.I will be doing my usual entertaining the crowds on Saturday night.I hope that it goes well.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.I had a very stressful day.After I got home from work,I got a rude awakening from my auto insurance company about my money being due.I never received a bill this month and when I called my company via their automated service,I was told that I owed no money until February.When I returned the call,they told me that my insurance was past due and it would be cancelled if I did not pay bu February 5th.Well,I did pay it and it's out of the way and I have nothing to worry about until next month.While it was upsetting getting that telephone call without knowing that there was a payment due,I was relieved that I was reminded about it and it's paid for until February.I also had to run another errand for my mother.
You know something,despite these stressful situations,I was surprised that I did not get angry or lose my temper over them.I must be doing something right.Despite this good progress,I am still taking life and my issues one day at a time.
Tonight,I went to my support group at the church and the meeting was awesome.I got a lot out of it and that was super.I always look forward to the meetings every Wednesday night.I am looking forward to the next one.I am hoping that it's as awesome as the last one.
Tomorrow is another full work day.I hope that the day goes well.
That was my day and night.FJ

Tonight,I am checking in feeling really good.It was yet another wonderful day for me.I went to work and that went as smoothly as it did.I simply did my job and everything just worked out that way it was supposed to.Yes it did.I had a great day.It was truly a wonderful day even though it was cold out and snowy.This evening,I took a drive out to a town in the next county and bought some more horror DVD's.I am hoping to watch them over the next few weeks.I am hoping that they are great films.I love a great scary movie.
Tonight,I am feeling good for another reason.The Buffalo Sabres were victorious tonight.They clobbered the Boston Bruins by a score of 7-1 tonight.It was a truly awesome game.The Sabres scored non-stop all throughout the game playing the game like they did when the season started.It was a totally awesome happening game.They are playing the Bruins again on Thursday.I am hoping for another win.Back to back wins against the Bruins would be totally neato.Yes it would.Again,I am hoping for a win.
Tomorrow is a work day.But I am only doing a pick-up and that is all.After that,I can relax and take it easy for the rest of the day until the evening.I will be attending my group tomorrow night.
That was my day and night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.Today was a mild day outside with only a little snowfall.There was also some snow melted during the mildness of today.I even managed to shovel up some snow and ice off and even sprinkle some ice melt to ensure that the mail carrier will not get hurt when he/she delivers the mail.It was another eventful day.I had to run an errand for my mom today and even got a couple of things done for myself.It was a great day out.I am right now at home relaxing and the weather is cold out.I am not going anyplace else tonight so I am just going to stay home and prepare for the work day tomorrow.Yes,tomorrow is a work day and I am hoping that it goes good.I hope that nothing negative happens to me on the job.I hope that it goes as smoothly as it can and nothing frustrating happens.
Today went by pretty fast.It was sunny,mild and not too cold.Right now,as I have stated earlier,the weather is cold but not too cold.But I have no place to go.So,I am just going to take it easy and prepare for the work day.Again,I hope that the work day goes good.
Tomorrow night,the Buffalo Sabres are playing against the Boston Bruins in Buffalo and I am hoping that they win.After two consecutive disappointing losses,a win would be totally neat.Again,I hope that they can beat the Bruins.
That was my day today.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.It is a very cold night.I am at home right now resting comfortably and I am anticipating the coming week.I am in the house because there is really no place to go on a cold night like this.So,I am staying home tonight.
Last night,I went out to entertain the crowd and I had a great time.A friend that has not come out in a while actually came out and we both had a great time singing up a storm.I just love to entertain people.The night went by well and it made me feel good.I am looking forward to next Saturday.I am hoping that next Saturday goes as well as last night.I always have a ball entertaining the crowd and it makes me feel good when they feel good.
The only disappointing thing is that the Buffalo Sabres lost to the New York Islanders by a score of 4-3.Tuesday,they are playing the Boston Bruins.I am hoping for a win.That would be totally neat.I would be overjoyed if the Sabres can beat the Bruins.
Today,I ran a few errands.I got everything done that I had to get done and that gave me a sense of accomplishment.I even had a talk with a friend of mine fron New Jersey and that was great.It was great to hear from him.
Tomorrow is a day off for me.I will be taking it easy and prepare for the work week at the same time.I hope that the week goes by smoothly and I get everything that I need to get done throughout the week.You never know what might happen.
That was my day and night for both nights.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling good.At the moment,the Buffalo Sabres and the New York Islanders are tied 3-3.I am hoping that the Sabres can win tonight after that disappointing loss on Friday night.It would be truly neat to see that they win tonight.It would make me happy to hear that they won tonight.I am hoping for a victory tonight.A victory tonight would be totally sweet.Again,I hope that they can win one tonight.
Tonight,I am going to be singing again for my friends and I am hoping that it goes well.Though I rarely have an off night singing and entertaining,I still always hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.Again,I hope that things go well.
I had a pretty good day today.The weather was a bit warmer today and some of the snow melted.I also shoveled a little bit for the mail carrier so he/she would not slip and fall.The minute that I got done and went back in,the mail carrier left a little mail.I also ran an errand today for myself while for most of the day,I had the place to myself because my mother went shopping.It is now evening and the temps have dropped some and it is kind of cold but not as it has been over the past couple of weeks.It will be back in the 20's when the new week begins.Again,I will be looking forward to entertaining the crowds tonight.I am hoping that everything goes good.
That was my day and what my night will hopefully be like.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.Tonight is bitterly cold.The wind chill factor is -12 below zero.It is COLD.This has been the coldest that it's ever been all winter.Tomorrow,we are supposed to get up to the 30's again.The roller coaster ride begins again.We have had it cold the past couple of weeks and now,we are going to back in the 30's tomorrow.WOW!Pretty topsy turvy weather we have been having lately.One minute it's COLD.The next minute it warms up a tad.I guess the atmosphere will be topsy turvy for a while.
Today was yet another work day.I did my job and that went as well as could be expected.Nothing really negative to write about.It was a pretty good day.When I got home,I simply went upstairs to lie down because I was tired and mainly,my niece's kids were over.I just needed some peace and quiet for a while.So,I layed down for almost an hour and it was good.I also had a headache as well so I needed some peace and quiet to get rid of it.I felt better later after having dinner.I am in the house right now relaxing.I am just happy that the weekend is here.
The only disappointing thing to happen tonight was that the Buffalo Sabres lost tonight to the Columbus Blue Jackets by a score of 3-2.
Tomorrow night,I will be singing for my friends.I am hoping that the night goes good.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling good.It was yet another wonderful day for me.It was totally awesome.Today was another work day and the work day went by smoothly.I got a lot done with no trouble at all.I am simply paying more attention to my job and paying less attention to what is around me.I do pay attention to when my supervisor tells me something and that is all I pay attention.Again,the day went by well and that was rewarding in itself.Yes it was.
I also had to run an errand for my mother when I got home from work.After that was done,I stayed home and took it easy.It was yet another bitterly cold day today with blowing and drifting snow that seemed to never end as it got a little worse.Yes it did.I managed to make it home today even though it was storming a little.It takes a bit longer for my vehicle to warm up when it is really COLD outside.Then again,it's the winter season and that is what's to be expected.We did have some nice warm weather for a while but the arctic blast that we got brought us back to reality.Again,it's winter.It is what the season is all about.
Tomorrow is yet another work day.After that,it will be the weekend and I will be doing my usual singing for the crowd on Saturday night.I am hoping that my work day goes well and that my night of singing goes well.Tomorrow night,the Buffalo Sabres are back on the ice.They are playing the Columbus Blue Jackets in Columbus tomorrow night.I am hoping for a win.Though the Eastern Conference All Star's lost 12-9 to the Western Conference All Star's,I am glad that Daniel Brieire won the All Star Game's MVP award.That in itself is better than nothing.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I am checking in feeling really good.I had a wonderful night.I went to my group and it was yet another wonderful meeting.We talked for a little bit about what was going on with us and how our weeks were going so far.I shared my story and that was great.It is great and rewarding to have some men who are listening and actually caring about you at the same time.Yes it is.I am looking forward to next weeks meeting and talking with them again.Yes I am.I am going to continue going to these.It is truly amazing.
Today,I went to see my sexual abuse support counselor and that went well.I had a wonderful talk with her.We talked about the usual stuff,with part of it being about the harsh time that I spent with my father when I was younger.I have said it before and I will say it again.It is rewarding to find caring and wonderful people who are there to listen to you without being judgemental alongside ignoring you for no reason.Again,it was a wonderful day and night overall.Yes it was.
Tomorrow is yet another work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day and night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.I had a pretty frustrating day today on the job.I,once again,had to pick up after those people at the rehab center where I pick up laundry every week.It was not a big mess but I had to back a lot of loose dirty laundry that was on the shelves in the laundry room there and it was frustrating because this took time off of my schedule and I was hoping to be right on time.But I wound up picking up after people who can actually pick up after themselves without having to be told what to do or shown how to do it.I hate it when that happens.I hope that the rest of the week goes by smoothly.The work day,despite a couple of minor mishaps,went by superbly.I did my job for the day and went home.I did have to run a couple of errands tonight and now,I am just relaxing while preparing for bed.
I finaly heard from a friend of mine that I have not heard from in a while.He is feeling better and we are still hoping to get together in the near future.I hope that it does indeed happen and we can finally patch up things between us.It will be great to do so.I have had some problems with him in the past and again,I am hoping that everything goes great.Yes I do.
Tomorrow is an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.Tomorrow night is another group meeting.I hope that both go well.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling pretty good.It was a wonderful day and I got a lot done.I helped my mother out today.I even managed to get some personal stuff done myself.It was not easy due to the bitterly cold weather that we have been having but still,I got a lot done.It was a nice day despite the freezing temperatures.But I got a lot done and that gives me a good feeling.
Tomorrow is another work day.I hope that the work day goes by well.I am also hoping that the week goes by well enough as well.After the frustrating work day that I had on Friday,I am going to need a great week to get over that.Again,I am hoping that the work day and week goes by well.If it does,I will feel a bit better.
The Sabres are not playing until Friday.They will be playing the Columbus Bluejackets on Friday night.I hope that they can start off their first post all star break game with a win.It was very depressing that they lost to the Montreal Canadians in Montreal on Saturday night.Again,a win Friday night can make me forget about that disappointing loss.
Wednesday afternoon is when I will be meeting my sexual abuse support counselor.It is my first meeting with her since the new year began.I am hoping for a wonderful meeting with her.I have a lot to tell her.I hope that the meeting goes well.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling pretty good.I had a wonderful day.I ran an errand for my mother.I even checked up on a friend of mine and he's doing good.I even had a nice talk with a friend of mine from Jersey and he's doing good.Plus,I just sent an e-mail to my new friend in California.Everything is good.Yes it is.I am feeling good and that gives me a wonderful feeling.Yes it does.I feel great and that feeling is better than nothing.
Last night,I sang up a storm for my friends and I had a ball.It was a truly wonderful evening for me and it was wonderful that everybody enjoyed my song selections last night.I came home with a smile on my face and had a wonderful nights sleep.I had no bad dreams and that was wonderful.
The only disappointing thing was that the Buffalo Sabres lost 4-3 to the Montreal Canadians last night.They have the week off for the all star game before resuming play on the 26th against the Columbus Blue Jackets in Coulmbus.The best thing is that three of the Sabres are going to play in the all star game.They are Daniel Briere,Brian Campbell and Ryan Miller.They will be playing on the first team.It will be an interesting game.Lindy Ruff is also going to coach the team that Briere,Campbell and Miller will be playing.Again,it will be an interesting game.
That was my day and night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling really good.It is Saturday night and I am looking forward to singing up a storm tonight.I hope that the night goes by well.Again,though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.Still,I look forward to singing tonight and I am hoping that the night goes good.
Today,I got a lot done.I managed to get to the drug store to pick up my medication and I even took a friend to work today.It was a pretty good day.The weather was bitterly cold and it was a little bit icy and freezing.Despite this,I managed to get a lot accomplished.Again,I look forward to entertaining the crowd tonight and I hope that everything goes well tonight.I enjoy entertaining the crowds every Saturday night and it always makes me feel good when they feel good.Yes it does.
Right now,the Buffalo Sabres are playing.I am hoping that they can win tonight.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling pretty good.It was a wonderful day.I worked a full day today and it worked out pretty good.The day did start out frustrating as I had to pick up an unholy mess in the laundry room over at the drug/alcohol rehab center that I had to pick up the laundry from.Fortunately for me,I had a couple of helpers helping me to pick it up.After that,I simply put the laundry in my vehicle and went to my work place to start my job.The day went by well.I did my work and the day went by pretty fast.I had a good day.It all worked out and everything turned out for the better.
Tonight,the Buffalo Sabres were victorious again.They beat the Vancouver Canucks tonight in a shootout by a score of 4-3.The Sabres travel to Montreal to play the Canadians.This will be the Sabres last game until the All-Star break is over with.I hope that they can win another one again.
I will also be singing tomorrow night.I am hoping that the night goes by well.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for everything to go well.You never know what might happen.Again,I also hope for another win by the Buffalo Sabres.
That was my day and night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling pretty good.It was a very good day today.Though I had a disappointing work day where I only had half a day,I managed to keep myself busy with some stuff.My mother and I got some much needed grocery shopping done.I figured that since I had the afternoon of,why not use it to my advantage.I got a lot done today and that is wonderful.Yes it is.I had a great group night last night and today,I made a new friend who I met in an online Yahoo forum.It is a young lady who's from Hawaii and lives in California.I am communicating with her via e-mail and through other means.She is such a sweetie.I love her as a person.She is truly nice.I like her.We have a lot in common.She likes the same type of movies that I do.Yes she does.It is great to meet new people and make new friends.I am feeling good about that.Yes I am.
Tomorrow is another work day.It will be a full day this time.I will be glad about that.Yes I will.Next week,it will be back to normal as I will now be working full weeks,except when there is a holiday during the week.
Overall,a pretty good day.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling better.I had a wonderful group meeting tonight.It was awesome to let out some more steam.It was a great meeting.The weather might have been cold tonight but it did not dull the mood of teh men who were meeting.It was yet another wonderful meeting.I am looking forward to the next meeting.Yes I am.I always look forward to all the weekly meetings.I am hoping that the next meeting is just as great as the last.Yes I do.
Today,I got a rude awakening.I learned that I will only be working half a day tomorrow.I was a little peeved at this because I was planning to work a full week.I am going to lose a little bit of money and that is disappointing.But I am going to fill it up with something.My mom and I are going to do some grocery shopping.It's going to be cold over the next few days and we feel that it's necessary to do that.At least,I will have something to do.I will be keeping my nimble self busy.It will not be on the job.But it's better than nothing.I was angry that this is happening.But I was surprised that I did not lose my temper.I am normally not very good at keeping my cool.But I have been doing good in that area as of late.WOW!
Tonight,the Buffalo Sabres defeated the Boston Bruins by a score of 6-3.The Sabres three game losing streak is over.It is totally sweet hearing that my #1 team is a winner.It is also sweeter that they are doing great.Their next game is a home game when the Vancouver Canucks come to town.I am hoping that the Buffalo Sabres can win another one.Two consecutive wins at home would be totally sweet.
That was my day and night.FJ

Tonight,I check in with mixed emotions.I am very disappointed with myself tonight.I am really feeling torn apart at the seems and I feel like I am unworthy of a lot of things.Earlier today,I wound up masturbating again.I felt bad about this.It is the same old pattern again.I was once again having those same old dreams about being surrounded by naked men and feeling powerless.I was trying to take a nap today after I had a hard day at work and I weakened.I feel so dirty right now.I want to overcome this terrible SSA that I am going through and it is really bringing me down when I failed today.I did ask God to forgive me for giving in but I still feel guilty.I know that I need to learn to forgive myself after asking from forgiveness from up above and even though I said to myself,albiet mentally,that I forgive you FJ as well,but I still feel miserable.I need all the help that I can get.I want to stop this stuff and I want to overcome SSA but I am having a hard time.I am going to have anothet talk with the Lord in Heaven again before I turn in for the night.I hope that I feel better afterwards.I am feeling depressed as well as angry with myself for falling short.I know that God does not expect me to be a "Superhero". He knows that I am imperfect and will fall short.Plus,I know that he is merciful and forgiving.I am still trusting in him to accomplish my goals but I am still feeling guilty.Again,I will have another talk with him tonight before I turn in for the night and I hope that I feel better after doing so.I still feel miserable.But again,after another talk with the Lord,I hope that I feel better.
Those are my thoughts and ramblings.I would appreciate a few prayers.Thanks.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling disappointed.Why?Because due to the weather we had today,which was a lot of freezing rain,I could not go to my appointment because I had a difficult time trying to get ice off of the driver and passenger side windows of my vehicle.I had no problem getting the ice off of my windshield but those windows were a pain.I tried everything but everything failed.So,I poured Prestone windshield de-icer fluid all over my windows to loosen the ice.It worked but not in time for my appointment.I had to cancel it today and I had it rescheduled for next month.I was hoping to terminate the counseling but I now have to wait another month.Oh well!Mother Nature really let ys have it today,didn't she?The only thing that I get accomplished today was that I had to go to the store to get a couple of things for the home.That is the only thing I did.
I actually fell back into the old thought patterns.I gave into temptation when I kept playing with my genitals.I was also having verbal daydreamed styled fantasies of my past sexual relations with other men.I was also talking to myself on top of it all.I had to say,in my brain,"STOP!THIS IS NOT YOU,BOY!YOU ARE NOT HOMOSEXUAL!YOU JUST HAVE THOSE DESIRES BECAUSE OF WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH THROUGHOUT YOUR LIFE!YOU'RE A HETEROSEXUAL/STRAIGHT GUY WITH A HOMOSEXUAL PROBLEM!"I had to say a little prayer for the lord to forgive me in this because it was wrong.After I done that,I felt better and I listened to some spiritual music to clear my head.I will be listening to it again before I go to sleep.I hope that I can sleep well.I did weaken last night a few hours after posting and I masturbated.I also asked the lord to forgive me for falling short.Plus,the Buffalo Sabres lost to the Boston Bruins in a shootout tonight by a score of 3-2.
We have a winter weather advisory in effect tonight until midnight.I hope that we do not get any more for tonight and a while.We escaped the full brunt of the storm system,but still,anything can happen.
That was my day and night.FJ

Tonight,I am checking feeling a little bit better than yesterday.I had a ball last night entertaining the crowds doing my tribute to Elvis Presley.They all enjoyed it very much and even got some Thumbs Up from several young ladies who were Elvis Presley fans,which was wonderful.I also had a nice conversation with a friend of mine in New Jersey and that also was wonderful.It has been a very nice night.I am feeling better tonight and I am hoping that the week goes by good.I did receive some news from the National Weather Service that there is a Winter storm WARNING in effect from 1:00am Monday morning to 7:00pm Monday evening.I am hoping that we can escape the full brunt of the storm and only get a little bit.We are supposed to get FREEZING rain and that will cause roads to ice up and make travel difficult.But I am hoping that it will not be that bad.If it happens,It happens.If it don't,It don't.But again,there is nothing wrong with hoping.
The only problem that I am going to have is with my appointment tomorrow.It is downtown in the city that I am living in and if we get the worst of it,I am going to have a hard time getting to that appointment.But maybe,we might escape the worst.
Regarding my appointment tomorrow,it will be my last meeting with my anger management counselor and after tomorrow,I can terminate it.I will then go back to regular medication management.I am feling pretty good at the moment and that is a wonderful feeling.
That was my day and night last night.FJ

Tonight,I check in with mixed emotions.Today was a day for me to get some errands done.I had to go pick up a couple of things at the store for the home.I also picked up a few things for myself and even had a light,but late,lunch.I even managed to check up on a couple of friends and see how they were doing.They were doing okay and that gave me a litle bit of happiness.It is reassuring to find that certain people are okay.I actually missed them last week when I went out to entertain hoping to see them but they never showed up.I learned why.It is because one of their relatives was sick.I was disappointed but felt relieved that they wre doing good and their relative was doing good as well.
I managed to get that one thing accomplished today.I did pick up a couple of get well cards for the people I was supposed to get together with yesterday and that made me feel good.I hope that they appreciate the cards.
The only disappointing thing is that the Buffalo Sabres lost to the Tampa Bay Lightning tonight by a score of 3-2.
Tonight,I am going to do my usual entertaining the crowds tonight.I will be doing an Elvis Presley tribute because this is the week of Elvis' birthday.I hope that everything goes well.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I am checking in with mixed emotions.I had a pretty decent day on the job.Nothing really negative happened at work today.I simply did my job and I went home.Nothing to really write home about.
The disappointing thing to happen today was that I was supposed to go over somebody's house for a get together but he and his wife were sick.They were both battling the common cold and were taking medication.They called while I was on a long distance call with a guy who I do business with.It was disappointing.But I am going to buy them a couple of get well cards tomorrow and I hope that they both are feeling better soon.It is a shame but they did not want me to catch what they had.Apparently,his wife got it first and he caught it from her.Again,I will be buying them each a get well card and hope that they are feeling better soon.
A DVD that I have been waiting on had finally arrived.I was on my way out to the bank to cash my paycheck and the UPS delivery guy handed it to me.I opened it and it was the DVD.It was an episode of the classic educational show Big Blue Marble.I watched it after I arrived home from the bank and it was wonderful.I will be ordering another one real soon.I am looking forward to getting a few more in the near future.
The weekend is finally here.I will be going out tomorrow night to entertain the crowd and I will be taking it easy on Sunday.Monday is a holiday.I have an appointment with my anger management counselor.It will also be my last meeting with him.After this,I can terminate it.I will go back to regular medication management after this.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.It was a pretty good day today.It was a typical work day and that went fair.There was no laundry for me to pick up this morning,but I still had some laundry to do in the basement at work.I did it and I went home.On the way home,I picked up a little something and I dropped off a prescription.I went home and relaxed a bit.Tonight is pretty cold out tonight and I am hoping to sleep well tonight.
The only disappointing thing to happen tonight is that the Buffalo Sabres lost to the Toronto Maple Leafs by a score of 4-2.They will be playing again on Saturday night against the Tampa Bay Lightning,which will also be in Buffalo.I am hoping for a win.It will be great after that embarrassing loss to the Leafs.I know that the Sabres can not win every game but it is still disappointing when they lose.
Tomorrow is another work day and I am hoping that the day goes better than today.The weekend will be here and then I can take it easy for a couple of days.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I am checking feeling really good.Yes I am.I had my group tonight and it was totally awesome.We had yet another nice discussion within the group and that was neat.I am already starting to fit in with these guys.It's great to finally have some men finally listening to me rather than ignoring me.WOW!I am glad to have found out about this group.I am now looking forward to every meeting with them every week.Yes I am.
Tonight,the Buffalo Sabres won tonight.They defeated the Chicago Blackhawks by a score of 2-1.It's wonderful that my hockey team is finally doing great.Yes it is.They will be playing the Toronto Maple Leafs in Buffalo tomorrow night.I am hoping for another win.That would be totally sweet.Yes it would.
The first two days of the week went by pretty well.I had the day off on Monday.I just took it easy and ran a couple of errands.Yesterday,I went to work and even that went well.Nothing really negative to write about.It worked out pretty good.Today,the only thing I had to do was a laundry pick-up and that went by pretty easily.Nothing to pick up off the floor.It was all bagged for me,which was super.
That is my report of the past few days.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.I had a wonderful time entertaining the crowd last night.It was totally awesome.I had a ball entertaining the people and I had some talks with a guy who I have been trying to make amends with.Our time together was great.I loved it.I had a wonderful time hanging out with him and his wife.We were laughing,smiling and joking.I think that our reconciliation is going to work out fine.At least,that's how I am feeling at the moment.I am going to take this one day at a time and hope for the best.It actually took my mind off the tragedy that happened on Friday.I still feel sadness that it did happen and I hope that the poor guy's spirit find peace and contentment.It is a shame that it happened.I wish that he were still here right now.I have accepted the fact that he is gone.I will always miss him.Yes I will. The only really great thing to happen last night was that the Buffalo Sabres defeated the Toronto Maple Leafs by a score of 4-3.
Tomorrow is a day off for me as it always is on Monday's.I go back to work Tuesday and I hope that it works out okay.Things have been so-so at work but I hope for better days.I managed to get a little bit of shopping for the home done today and I even managed to see if a friend of mine is okay,which he is.He and his girlfriend were supposed to come and habg out with me last night but somebody in his family got really badly sick last night and he chose to help them rather than go out.There's always next Saturday night.
That was my night last night and my day today.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling a little bit better.I am not on edge as much as I was last night.But I am still being careful.I do not want to do anything that might ruin the evening for me.Though I am a bit calmer and not feeling as angry as yesterday,I still have to be careful.I do not want to do or even say anything that I might regret later.I am going to be careful on what I say and do.
Tonight,the Buffalo Sabres were victorious.They defeated the Toronto Maple Leafs by a score of 4-3.Their next game will be against the Chicago Blackhawks on Wednesday night.I hope that they can make it two in a row.That would be sweet.Yes it would.
I am still feeling a little sadness over the tragedy that happened yesterday.It was truly a shocking thing to happen.I am always going to miss him.It's sad.Even though death is a part of life,it should not happen too soon.The person I knew that died was 33.
I hope that tonight goes well.I am going to meeting a couple of friends tonight where I am goingto be singing.Again,I hope that the night goes well.
I did get a lot done today.I had to do some laundry and a little bit of personal shopping.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in once again with mixed emotions.I am feeling a little at edge at the moment and I am also feeling sadness and depression.Today,I received some distressing news over the television.A person that I have known for 10 years died early this morning in a house fire.Apparently,he fell asleep with a lit cigarette in his hand and he did not know what hit him.The first tragedy of the year for me involving somebody I knew.Him and I were not the best of friends but we did talk about a lot of things whenever we ran into each other.Now he's gone.The news really hit me like a ton of bricks when I heard about it this evening on the TV news.It was shocking because I had just talked with him a month ago and he was in good spirits.Again,now he's gone.I am going to miss him.
Today was yet another work day and it went as well as it could.Tonight,the Sabres lost to the Penguins 4-2.They play tomorrow night against the Toronto Maple Leafs.I hope that they can win that game.
I hope that tomorrow will be a better day.Tomorrow is Saturday and I am hoping that the day goes good.I am also going to be singing tomorrow night and I hope that this also goes well.
Well that was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in with mixed emotions.I had a so-so work day.Nothing negative happened but I just felt depressed for no particular reason.The Sabres lost to the Ottawa Senators 6-3 last night in Ottawa and I actually misplaced a newspaper that I picked up during my lunch break.I looked all over the house for it but there was no trace of it.I went out to pick up another copy.Fortunately,it was a free newspaper.Right now,it is raining outside and there is really nothing around for me to do.I do not know what is wrong with me.I have never misplaced anything where I could not find it anymore.I am feeling depressed for no reason at the moment.I do not know what the problem is.I am hoping that I feel better in the next few days.Maybe when I go out Saturday night I will feel better and I am also hoping that tomorrow,which is a work day,goes well.If it does,hopefully I will feel better.I guess that I am still feeling down about what happened to me on Tuesday regarding my tire.Every time something bad happens to me,I have an anxiety about the rest of the week and I always hope that nothing bad happens during the week.Again,I hope that I am feeling better soon.
Those are my thoughts and feelings.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling really good.I had a wonderful meeting tonight with my group at the church and that really made the night.I told the men about what had hapend to me yesterday and it was great to share this woth them.It made me feel better to talk about it with them.It was wonderful.The men in the group are a really swell bunch.It is great that I found out about them.I have been going to every meeting and every meeting has been doing me a lot of good.I am going to continue going to those meetings.I have been getting an awful lot of them.Ever since I have been going,I have not been losing it lately.I mean,what happened yesterday made me angry but I did not lose my temper nor did I shout curses at the sky like I have done previously in the past.I guess going to that group has been helping me.Yes it has.I have not been at edge as much lately nor have I lost my temper as of late.I feel a great sense of accomplishment coming over me.WOW!It seems like only yesterday that I was a guy who always was at edge and was ready to explode when somebody said the wrong thing or when something happens that should not have happened.But I am still keeping on guard because I could fall short anytime when I least expect it.But still,I feel that I have accomplished something.
Tomorrow is yet another work day.I am hoping that all goes well tomorrow and the rest of the week.If nothing negative happens during the rest of the week,I will really feel good.Yes I will.
That was my night.FJ

Tonight,I check in with mixed emotions.The day that I had started out promising but would take a turn for the worse later on.I did my job and the first half of the day went by very smoothly.The second half of the day not so smoothly.The afternoon started when I was moving my vehicle to another parking space and was surprised to see that my passenger side rear tire was flat.It appeared that it was slashed.That really made me angry.Tires are expensive nowadays.I had to pay over $70.00 for that tire,including maintenance.The new year started out positive with the Sabres winning and then this happens.The reason why I was angry was not just because this happened but there was no police patrolling the area.If there was enough police patrolling the area,this would not have happened.I remember back in the years before,there was adequate police patrols.Police were on the streets 24/7 and the crime rate where I lived was scarcely low.Now,there are hardly any police on the streets and the crime rate is so high that the elected officials are doing little if nothing to bring back the adequate police protection that we need to keep the rate low.This year,we need to elect a new mayor in my hometown so they can bring policemen back to the streets.Playing politics with law enforcement is not only wrong but it's unacceptable.We need to get politicians back who care about public safety and who will never take public safety for granted.It stinks.
I hope that tomorrow will be better.I have to do a pick up of laundry for the Wednesday afternoon person.I am hoping that tomorrow goes by smoother than today.
Well that was my day.FJ

HAPPY NEW YEAR,EVERYBODY!
Tonight,I am checking in feeling pretty good.Last night,the New Year's party was an awesome success.It was truly wonderful.I entertained the crowd and they were very appreciative.It was a truly awesome night.Yes it was.I did eat a lot of food but that is part of the holiday celebration.I am looking forward to the new year with a lot of optimism and enthusiasm.I am hoping that the new year goes great.My resolution is to continue working on my emotional problems,such as my problem with anger.I have been doing well,so far and that makes me feel good.Again,I hope that the new year gows well.
The Buffalo Sabres were victorious yet again.They defeated the New York Islanders by a score of 3-1.That was truly the event of the day.Yes it is.I am happy that the new year is starting off on a promising and positive note.A Buffalo Sabres win to start off the new year is something.Yes it is.
Tomorrow is another work day.The post office and other government agencies will be closed for a day of mourning for former vice president/president Gerald R.Ford.The mail delivery will resume on Wednesday.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight is New Year's Eve.In just under five hours,we will be ringing in another year.It will be 2007 very soon.I can hardly wait for the new year to start.In under five hours,it will begin.I will be doing my typical entertaining on New Year's.I will be celebrating with my friends and singing up a storm for them.I know that it will be a fun night.I always have fun singing on New Year's Eve and helping to ring in the new year with everyone.It is always a BLAST.Yes it is.
The Buffalo Sabres defeated the Atlanta Thrashers last night 4-1.It was truly a great game and a great way to ring in the new year with a big bang.With this win,Lindy Ruff is going to be coaching the All-Star team when the All-Star break comes.That is really AWESOME.I hope that Lindy Ruff does a great job in coaching that team.
I am looking forward to the new year and I am looking forward to the party tonight when I am going to be singing.It will be a fun night.Yes it will.
Well,I hope that everybody has a Happy New Year.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay and with a little optimism.I am going to be singing for my friends tonight and I am hoping that all does go well.Though I rarely have an off night,there nothing wrong with hoping for things to go well.I have a feeling that it will be a wonderful night and I am looking forward to it with a lot of enthusiasm and optimism.Again,I hope that all goes well.
Today,was a very good day.I went out to have my hair cut and I also had to forward a package to someone in New York state and I am hoping that the package that I am expecting gets here on Wednesday.The post office will be closed to pay tribute to the recently deceased former vice president/president Gerald R.Ford.All other government agencies will also be closed as well.I will be looking forwrad to receiving it on Wednesday.I also have to mail a check out for a bill that is due on Friday.I will send it Priority Mail.
Tomorrow is New Year's Eve.I am looking forward to that with a lot of enthusiasm.I will be entertaining the crowds tonight and tomorrow.I can hardly wait.
Tonight,the Sabres are playing the Atlanta Thrashers and they are leading 1-0.I hope for another win.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.Today went by as any other day.I went to work and it went as well as expected.Nothing negative happened to talk about.It was a pretty good day.Since I have been paying more attention to my work and spending less time at that so called social club,I have been feeling better about myself and I feel that I have been managing my emotions better.It is a good feeling when you feel that you are accomplishing something.Yes it is.I am hoping for better things to come.
I am glad that the weekend is finally here.It is the New Year holiday weekend and I am looking forward to it.I will be entertainingthe crowds for two straight nights.It will be a blast.I know it will be.I love to entertain during the New Year holiday time.It is great to ring in the new year and sing up a storm.Yes it is.I can hardly wait for that.
The Sabres also won last night.They defeated the Carolina Hurricanes by a score of 4-1.
Well that was my day and my anticipation.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.It was a typical work day.Nothing negative happened and that is good.It just went on as it did and I feel pretty well about it.Since I reduced the time I spend at a special social club for other emotionally/mentally challenged individulas,I have been doing good in keeping my emotions under control and learning that spending too much time with other people who have emotional problems,who at times can be ignorant,is just not healthy.I am trying to better myself and trying to succeed and spending too much time with others who do not want to take the time to better themselves and try to get out of the emotional ruts that they are in.I have seen that this is the order of the day with those individuals and I now realize that I will never grow or even improve if I keep hanging around those people all the time.So,I only spend an hour in the morning and the rest of the day,I pay more attention to my job and doing it.I feel that I am improving now and that gives me a good feeling about myself.Now,I look forward to doing better and getting more improvement in my emotional state and seeking out more opportunities.I feel pretty good and that is better than nothing.
At the moment,I am listening to the Buffalo Sabres game and they are leading 3-0 after two periods.There was no scoring in the first period and the scoring started in the second courtesy of Jason Pominville,Chris(The Goose)Drury and Thomas Vanek.They are giving the Carolina Hurricanes the run for the puck.It's hard to believe that the Carolina Hurricanes eliminated the Buffalo Sabres from the playoffs last season.Since this season began,the Sabres have owned the Hurricanes.I hope that the Sabres continue playing tonight like they are.I hope that they win another game.That would be totally neat.
Tomorrow is another work day.Then the long holiday weekend.I am looking forward to that.Yes I am.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling good.It was another wonderful group meeting that I had tonight.It was terrific to let off some more steam and share what went on during the holiday and the work day.It was great.I am now feeling a connection to these guys and that is awesome.Yes it is.I am feeling better than I have been feeling in a long time.Again,I feel that I am finally accomplishing something.Yes I am.That is a wonderful feeling.
The Buffalo Sabres kicked ass last night by beating the Washington Capitols 6-3 on home ice.That was an awesome game.It was great that the Sabres avenged their loss over the Capitals a few weeks ago.Their next game is tomorrow night where they will be playing the Carolina Hurricanes on home ice.I am hoping for yet another Buffalo Sabres victory.That would be totally sweet.Yes it would.
Tomorrow is yet another work day for me.I am hoping that the day goes well for me.Though I have not had any bad days in a while,I still hope for it to go well.It if does,I will feel better.If not,then OH WELL!You Can't Win Them All.
That was my night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.Today was back to work day and the work day worked out the way I had hoped that it would.I simply did my job and after I was finished,I went home and relaxed.It was not too bad of a day.The weather was cold and it was a bit snowy with nothing accumilated.But still,it was not too bad of a day.I am now paying more attention to my work and I am feeling that I am finally accomplishing something.
Tomorrow,it is a pick up day.I can just pick up the laundry,drop it off at work and go home.Tomorrow is another night with my group and I am hoping that the meeting goes well.Though the groups are going good,I always hope for it to go well.Yes I do.There is nothing wrong with hoping for something to go well.At the moment,the Sabres are playing the Washington Capitals at home and are leading 6-1 after 1 period.WOW!If they keep playing good tonight,they can avenge the 7-4 loss from a few weeks ago.I am hoping that they win tonight.A win tonight would be sweet.
Well,that was my day.FJ

Merry Christmas Everybody!
It was a wonderful day for me today.I spent the day at my sister's house and it was a wonderful time.Yes it was.I got a couple of Buffalo Sabres shirts and that was awesome.I also got the usual stuff and that also was great.We had a wonderful traditional Christmas dinner and a little dessert.We also had a nice talk about life and how it was going.It was truly wonderful.My neice and her children were also there as well.We actually forgot about my neice's marital problems although her about to be ex-husband was brought up in conversation by my sister but we did not let it spoil the mood.Again,it was truly a wonderful day.
The holiday is almost over.I am now at home and I am feeling tired from all the festivities.But still,it was a wonderful day and that was great.Tomorrow is yet another work day.It's life.After a holiday or two,we always have to return to our lives and deal with the rest of the week.But I am hoping that the rest of the week goes by well.It that goes well,then it will be a great week.Of course,the New Year holiday weekend is coming up and I am looking forward to that.I hope that the party will be a blast.
I hope thet everybody had a Merry Christamas today and I hope that everybody's week works out well.FJ

Merry Christmas Everybody!
I hope that everybody's holiday was nice.It was a wonderful day for me today.I spent most of the day at my sister's house and it was nice.We had our dinner and dessert and we also had a nice talk.My neice and my grand neices and grand nephew were all there.I did get a couple of great Buffalo Sabres shirts and that was awesome.I also got the usual stuff and that too was also great.It was a very good day and we all had a great time.For that one day,we forgot all about the problems in the family especially my niece's marital troubles.Even though my niece's about to be ex-husband was brought up in conversation tonight by my sister,it did not spoil the mood and that was good.
The holiday is almost over.I am now at home and I am feeling a bit tired from all the festivities today.Tomorrow is yet another work day.It's life.After a holiday or two,we have to go back to our lives and I am looking forward to working.I hope that the rest of the week goes by well enough.
Again,I hope that everybody in here had a very Merry Christmas.Peace to all of you out there.Let's hope that the rest of the week goes by well.FJ

Tonight,I am anticipating the holiday.It is almost here.Yes it is.I am eagerly awaiting it.I am hoping that everything works out the way it should.I am only hoping because of all the negative stuff that has happened within my family during this past year.So,I am hoping that the holiday works out well.
Last night,I had an awesome time at the Christmas party.I sang "Weird Al" Yankovic's Christmas At Ground Zero and it got a rousingly loud round of applause.That was great to finally do that song.I also sang a couple more holiday songs before ending with a non-holiday song and wishing everybody a very Merry Christmas and a very Happy New Year.It was an awesome night.They had non-stop pepperoni pizza and I ate quite a bit of it.I am hoping that the party on New Years is also awesome.I will be entertaining the crowds on that night as well as on the preceding Saturday night.It will be a pretty busy time for me but I am looking forward to it.Yes I am.I enjoy what I do.Yes I do.
I wish everybody a very Merry Christmas and a very Happy New Year.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling pretty good and with a lot of great optimism.Tonight is the Christmas party at the place where I sing and I am looking forward to it.I am bringing with me that karaoke Christmas CD and I am hoping to do that song Christmas At Ground Zero by "Weird Al" Yankovic and I hope that it goes well.I have always wanted to try out that song but never had the chance due to it's not being in the book.But now,I am going to do it and I hope that it goes well.Again,I rarely have an off night but I still always hope for things to go well.Again,I am looking forward to tonight and I am hoping that it goes well.I feel that it will be a grand night for singing.It will also be a grand night for partying up a storm.Yes Indeed.
Tomorrow will be Christmas Eve.I am eagerly awaiting it.Monday will be the holiday and I hope that the holiday goes by without anything negative happening.I do feel that nothing will happen but I still hope.
Well that is my note for tonight.FJ

Tonight,I check in with mixed emotions.The work day went pretty well.Nothing negative to write about with the exception of what had happened in the lunch line today when an inconsiderate person gave me an attitude when I could not let him by due to the longevity of the line.That is why I am feeling mixed emotions.The day started out promising and it was for a while but than this happened.I was feeling at edge for the rest of the day after that had happened.But I am feeling hopeful that the holiday weekend will turnn out pretty good.I can not believe that the Christmas holiday is almost here.The time goes by so fast.It's like nothing ever happened.But the holiday is almost here and I am hoping for it to go good.
Tomorrow,my mom and I will be doing some last minute grocery shopping for the holiday and even I have to get some things accomplished.I will be checking up on a friend tomorrow to see how he's doing and I am hoping that he is doing good.
When I got home today,I received a Christmas card from the people at work.That was wonderful.That actually made the whold day prettty good.Not only that,last night,the Buffalo Sabres clobbered the Nashville Predators by a score of 7-2.That was also a wonderful thing.It's kind of like an early Christmas present for the fans.A win by the Buffalo Sabres.Totally sweet.
Well,that was my day and night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.It was not too bad of a day today.The work day went by pretty well.Nothing really negative to write about.I am anticipating the weekend right now.I am going to be singing at the Christmas party Saturday night.I will be bringing with me that new karaoke CD that I purchased online and I can hardly wait to sing Christmas At Ground Zero by "Weird Al" Yankovic.I have been meaning to try out that song for a long time.I hope that it works out pretty good.I am also hoping to sing a few more holiday songs that night.I hope that the night goes well.
Right now,I am listening to the hockey game.The Buffalo Sabres are leading the Nashville Predators 3-1 in the second period and they are doing great.I am hoping that their losing streak comes to an end tonight.A win before the Christmas holiday comes would be truly neat.I am hoping for that.
The holiday shopping is finally done.I do not have to do any more with the exception of a little bit more grocery shopping tomorrow.The holiday is almost here.I hope that it goes great.
That is all for now.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling really good.I had a wonderful group meeting tonight.I got to share a little bit more about myself and that was great.It is great to be a part of a group of men and not have to worry about being silenced,emasculated and judged.Truly wonderful.Despite a negative circumstance that happened after the group tonight involving a woman who screamed at me for no particular reason,I did not get angry or upset with her.When I pulled into a small donut shop,I had a talk with a man who witnessed the whole thing and he simply advised me to just brush it off and forget it.I did not do what she tried to accuse me of.It was a relief that nothing really happened except that a lady got mad at me who possibly had a bad night and wanted to take it out on somebody.Oh well.Things happen.
Tomorrow is yet another work day for me.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.Yesterday went by great and I am hoping that the next two days go well.The holiday is Monday and I am hoping for at least two wonderful days of work before the holiday happens.I am also eagerly anticipating the Christmas party at the cafe.I got a new karaoke CD with a Christmas song that I had always wanted to try out.I hope that the party goes well.
By the way,my meting with my Sexual Abuse support counselor went by terrifically and that was also wonderful.My next meeting will be in the new year.
That was my day and night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling good.Tonight is a cold night and I am feeling pretty good.Today,I got a lot accomplished.I went to work today and that went by smoothly.Tomorrow is a pick up day and I hope that this works out well.I also have an appointment with my Sexual Abuse support counselor tomorrow afternoon and I also have my support group meeting at the church tomorrow night.I am hoping that both go well.Though I rarely have a bad day and night with both,I still hope for everything to go well.You never know.But again,I got a lot accomplished.That gives me a good feeling.
Last night,my mother did some more holiday shopping and that was pretty good.She picked up a lot for the family and I am hoping for the family to be pleased with what they are about to receive.I am hoping for the holiday to go well too.Yesterday,my dental appointment was cancelled and I had to reschedule.It was a nice day yesterday and I did watch Elmo Saves Christmas during the early afternoon while I was having dinner.Elmo Saves Christmas teaches us a valuable lesson about why we have the holiday once a year and the negative effects it would have if it were every day when Elmo wished for it to be every day,It was a funny,musical and wonderful holiday DVD.Tomorrow or Thursday,I am hoping to watch Happy Holidays with Elmo.I hope that this is as wonderful as Elmo Saves Chrsitmas and Christmas Eve On Sesame Street.
Again,I hope all goes well tomorrow afternoon and night.I even mailed out some Christmas Cards today. I will be mailing out some tomorrow.
That was the past two days.Thoughts are welcomed.FJ

Tonight,I check in with mixed emotions.It was a somewhat eventful day.I checked in on a friend today and he's doing good.I also bought another holiday DVD set.This time,I bought the Sesame Street holiday DVD set with the classic Christmas Eve On Sesame Street that featured Mr.Hooper.The actor who portrayed Mr.Hooper,Will Lee,died in 1982 and PBS never showed that classic holiday themed special ever again.It was great to see that again after over 20 years of not seeing it.That was the only real highlight of the day.The rest of the day was boring.There was really nothing to do at all except watch TV.I did have a talk with my friend from New Jersey and that was a great conversation.I enjoyed it immensely.When tomorrow comes,there will only be one week to the holiday.I am hoping that the holiday goes well.It will be at my sister's house and even though I am not in the mood to celebrate,I am just going to go with it and hope for the best.Again,I hope that it goes well.
Tomorrow is yet another appointment.I have an appointment with the dentist to refill one of my lower teeth.It will be painful and I am going to be tired after it's done.I am anticipating that.
Well that is how my day went.I am glad that it's almost over.I will be getting some sleep.I will be checking in tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling good.It was truly a wonderful day for me.My mother got some shopping done.We had a nice dinner and we watched one of my new holiday DVD's.It was truly wonderful.A lot got done today and that was good.It is great to get everything you want to get done as said,done.Again,it was truly a wonderful day.
Though I am feeling good,I am a little disappointed.The Buffalo Sabres lost to the Ottawa Senators tonight 3-1.Their next game is against the Montreal Canadians on Tuesday night in Buffalo.I hope that they can beat them.That would be totally cool.
Tonight,I will be going out to sing for my friends and I am hoping that it goes well.I rarely if ever have an off night singing but it does not hurt to hope.Again,I hope that my night goes well.
That was my day and night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling good.It was truly a wonderful day for me.My mother got some shopping done.We had a nice dinner and we watched one of my new holiday DVD's.It was truly wonderful.A lot got done today and that was good.It is great to get everything you want to get done as said,done.Again,it was truly a wonderful day.
Though I am feeling good,I am a little disappointed.The Buffalo Sabres lost to the Ottawa Senators tonight 3-1.Their next game is against the Montreal Canadians on Tuesday night in Buffalo.I hope that they can beat them.That would be totally cool.
Tonight,I will be going out to sing for my friends and I am hoping that it goes well.I rarely if ever have an off night singing but it does not hurt to hope.Again,I hope that my night goes well.
That was my day and night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling pretty good.Today was a work day for me and that went by smoothly as expected.I also got my Christmas shopping done today by buying one more gift for a member of my family.That was truly an amazing accomplishment.With Christmas almost a week away,it's great that I have finally bought that gift.I can now take it easy until Christmas.I also got a gift card from work and I also bought a holiday special DVD set alongside that final gift.It is an accomplishment to finally get something done.Yes it is.I feel proud of myself and that is a very good feeling.
Tonight,I went to a festival of lights at a Roman Catholic basilica in the county that I live and that was wonderful.I even said a couple of prayers for my family and for my friend who died on Thursday morning.I even had a talk with a man who had his two sons with him and it was a wonderful talk.I could also tell that man and his two boys were close and that he loved those boys with all his heart and soul.I could just feel the warmth when they talked to each other.Again,it was a wonderful conversation and it was also wonderful to see that festival of lights.
That was my day and night.Comments are welcomed.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling pretty good.It was a pretty good night for me.I got a little bit of a break today when most of the people from work went to a Christmas party.I chose to sit it out and had myself a little bit of a break today.I went to a mall to have lunch.It was great.I even looked around a bit in a record store at the mall.There was nothing that I was looking for so I went home for a bit.I watched a little bit of TV and read some e-mail.I went back to work to finish off my job and delivered the laundry to the location that I had to take it to.It was a prety good day.Tomorrow,it's back to normal with the normal time shift and I am hoping that it goes smoothly.So far,nothing really negative to talk about here regarding work and that is good.Though I am feeling good,I am feeling a little bit of sadness tonight because a friend of mine who lived in Kentucky died.She died of cancer at a young age.I am going to miss her.She was a very sweet down to earth lady.
The Buffalo Sabres were victorious tonight.They avenged themselves over the Florida Panthers tonight by a score of 2-1.That was really neat.Their next game is Saturday night against the Ottawa Senators in Buffalo.The Senators have been giving the Sabres a hard time as of late but I am hoping that the Sabres can beat them for a change.A win over the Senators on Saturday night would be totally awesome.Again,I hope that they win Saturday night.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling good.I had a great night tonight.My support group meeting went well.I talked about what happened to me yesterday and even got some more excessive emotional baggage off of my shoulders.It was awesome.I also had a talk with a friend of mine from North Carolina on the phone and it was a wonderful conversation.I had a great group meeting and I had a wonderful conversation with my friend from North Carolina.It was a very awesome night for me.I feel better about myself than I have in a long time and that gives me a wonderful feeling.I feel like I've accomplished something somehow.WOW!It gives me a wonderful feeling to have felt that I accomplished something.WOW!What a night this has been.
Tomorrow is another work day.I hope that the work day goes well with nothing negative happening.It I can get through a day of that and even Friday,that would be terrific.Yes it would.
The Buffalo Sabres are playing tomorrow night.I hope that they can avenge that loss to the Florida Panthers from a few weeks ago.That would be great.I hope that they win.
Well,that was my night.FJ

Tonight,I check in with mixed emotions.The last two days have been a mixed bag of feelings.Yesterday was my day off.I had two appointments yesterday.One with the Social Security office and one with my anger management counselor.The meeting with the social security people went well enough.But my anger management counseling session was not so successful.I was repeatedly emasculated by my counselor.I was accused of male chauvanism and he blamed me for why I had anger problems.This is not the type of counseling I was looking for nor needy for.I know that I need to learn to control my anger but this is the type of counseling that I really do not need.After one more month,I am terminating this.My supervisor at work assured me that it was okay for me to do so.Even my supervisor told me that I really did not need it anymore and that I was doing really good.So,after one more month,I am terminating this.I am going to go back to my regular medication management sessions at the hospital after next month.Regarding my anger management counselor,it was like he was telling me that I did not have the right to feel any way I want to.I do have to disagree with this.I am a person.I do have feelings.I do have the right to feel any way that I want to.I am also a man and I am going to be a man whether he likes it or not and I am going to be the man that I want to be whether it gets approval from people or not.I am determined to be a man and be the man I want to be.
Today was a work day.The work day went by fairly smoothly.The only setback was that a fellow colleague brought up to my attention a pornagraphic file picture that was supposedly found in the history during my time and I did not even see it before until he showed it to me.I simply said that I knew nothing about it and that was the first time that I had seen it.That actually went well and that also surprised me.The last time something like this happened I got so extremely angry because I was innocent of the charges that were brought against me at the time I knew that it was not mine.That last time,I was suspended from work and wound up in anger management counseling as a result because my supervisor felt it was best for me to do so at the time to save me from getting terminated.But this time,I did not get upset.I will still bring it up in prayer tonight with the creator up in Heaven and hope that this can be resolved in time.I hope that the real person will be found soon.But after that happened,I simply paid more attention to my work and spent more time doing more of my job and forgetting what happened.Though I was not upset,I was still angry because that file was not mine and I did not plant it in there.But still,I will bring it up in prayer tonight with God and hope that this can be resolved soon.I also hope that this does not happen again.
Tonight,I am feeling a bit better because the Buffalo Sabres have defeated the New Jersey Devils 3-2 in the Meadowlands.Their next game is Thursday night at home,which is a rematch with the Florida Panthers.I hope that the Sabres can avenge themselves for the loss on the 7th when the Panthers beat them in Florida by a score of 3-1.I hope that they can defeat them and avenge that embarrasing loss.
Well,that was the last two days.Thoughts are welcomed.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.It was a pretty fair day and I managed to get a couple of things done.Right now,the wind is blowing hard and it's cold out tonight.But I am in the house taking it easy and enjoying the evening for what it's worth.I am just feeling a bit upbeat after having a talk with a friend of mine from New Jersey.It was a very pleasant conversation.I also watched a very emotional holiday episode of 7th Heaven,which is one of my favorite TV shows.It was a very awesome episode.I am feeling a bit well and that is good.At least,that is what I think about it.
Last night,my tribute to John Lennon went well.It was a blast to entertain the crowds and pay tribute to one of the greatest men who ever lived.John Lennon was one of the greatest men who had ever lived.I still miss John Lennon to this day.R.I.P.John wherever you may be.May your soul find peace and contentment.
Tomorrow is my day off but it will be a very busy day.I have two appointments that I have to keep.The first is with the Social Security office in my hometown and later,it's with my anger management counselor.I hope that both go well.
That was my day and night.FJ