Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth work day today.Nothing negative to write home about.I am just taking it easy at home at the moment.The night is pretty cool but a little bit warm.Again,I had a pretty smooth work day and everything worked out for the best today.
The schedule for the Buffalo Sabres series with the Ottawa Senators will be starting Thursday night at 7:00p.m.in Buffalo.It is going to be an interesting series.Both teams are matched for speed,toughness and agility.It is going to be interesting to see what will happen in this series.Both teams seem to have some of the same things in common.
Though I am feeling okay,I am also feeling a little at edge.I am again constantly muttering angry things to myself pretending that there are people there.This was a little bit of a problem with me today.I did not do it in front of other people but I did it when I was alone.The thing is that I want to stop doing this but I do not know how to do it.The reason why I want to STOP doing this is because I do not want to do it while I am out in the community and I do not want to risk hurting someone else or even myself.I want to stop doing that for those reasons.I do not want people to be afraid of me or even afraid to approach me.I want people to approach me and accept me and not reject me.I also do not want them to be afraid of me in general.If anybody has any ideas on how I can STOP doing this,I want you to share them.I will try to apply them the best way that I know how.I am open to any advice that is given.Thanks.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day for me.I did have an appointment tomorrow with my sexual abuse support counselor but she cancelled it and I have to call her tomorrow to reschedule.Tomorrow night is my weekly support group meeting at the church and I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today.FJ

Monday, May 07, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good today.I did not do too much.I had the day off from work today and I thought that I would catch up on some stuff that I needed to do.These were personal things that I had put off for a while and I thought that today was a good day to catch up.
The first thing that I had to do was to mail an important personal business letter.After that,I paid a little visit to a friend to give him something that I had been meaning to give him for a long time.I even visited another friend to give him something that I had been meaning to give him.I also paid a visit to my auto mechanic to see when he was going to put the much needed repair work on the car that I had just bought.After these things,I finished the day by running an errand for my mother that was much needed by her.After that,I took it easy for a bit and had dinner.
I am now relaxing at home.I am feeling a bit better after the stress of the previous weekend.I am just glad that nothing happened on Saturday night.My attitude is that I have come too far in my recovery and healing processes to even think of heading back to the Gay lifestyle and indulging in the sinful degrading pleasures that it offers.I know too much about what lead me to having a Homosexual identity to even think of regressing.I have made a commitment never to act out with another man.I have also made a commitment never to even think about having anything sexual with another man.I know that I have to stay on guard.I can not revert back to the old sinful thought patterns or even the same old sinful activities that lead to nowhere because the Gay sexual lifestyle is a road to nowhere where the only thing that men in that lifestyle can have is never ending sexual promoscuity that can lead to AIDS or other diseases with the former being the worst of them all.Promoscuity is the only option for any man in that lifestyle and I do not want no part of it nor do I ever want any part of it at all.I am trying to save myself much heartache down the road and from catching AIDS,which is a disease I do not even want.I am just thankful that I am no longer ensnared by the lure of the Gay lifestyle and not being enslaved to an image of a nude man with an erect penis.I am happier that I am not indulging in that terrible sexual cycle anymore.I am also happier that I know the truth about Homosexuality and that truth was what set me free.Though I do weaken at times when I masturbate,I never let the failure discourage me.I just ask the creator in Heaven to forgive me and then I forgive myself.After that,the slate is clean.Again,I am determined to do whatever it takes to continue my personal journey of healing and recovery from unwanted SSA.I want to be the Heterosexual man that I want to be.This is my journey.I am going to continue on it even if it takes me the rest of my life.
While out today,I did manage to buy a couple of my favorite movies on DVD,I bought Sixteen Candles and The Breakfast Club.I am glad to have these favorites on DVD so I can preserve my VHS tapes of these.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today.FJ

Sunday, May 06, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very exciting day today as I was going about my business.Today was a Buffalo Sabres game against the New York Rangers at Madison Square Garden.It was Game 6 in the conference semi-finals and with the Sabres leading 3 games to 2 in the series,they had the controlling lead.A lot was riding on this game because one team could win and eliminate the other or one team could win to force a Game 7.The odds were 1,000,000 to 1 against the Sabres going into today's game.Why?Because in this series,the Rangers won two consecutive games at Madison Square Garden.But today,those odds faded into obscurity as the Sabres emerged victorious to win the series by a score 0f 5-4.The Sabres really played their second best in this series this year against the Rangers even though the Rangers were really pouring on the pressure.But again,the Sabres emerged victorious today to eliminate the New York Rangers and advance to the conference finals against another tough team,the Ottawa Senators.This match-up is a rematch against the two teams from last season with the only difference being that it was the conference semi-finals last season and this season,it's the conference finals.But again,I am hoping that the Sabres can also eliminate the Senators.I do not how many games it will take but I hope that the Sabres can do it again against the Senators.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd was another big success.I tried out a new song and it went over pretty well.I even reaquainted myself with a few songs that I had not done in a while.Again,the night was a success.It made me happy to entertain the crowd and it also made me feel good that the enjoyed every minute of it.
But the night was also a real challenge to my healing of unwanted SSA.An old school mate of mine who I had not seen in a long time and whom that I graduated with,came into the place last night.At first,I did not recognize her but when she came over to where I was sitting and she said Hello,I then recognized her.The challenge came when a male friend of her's who was with her came over to the table and on an invitation by another friend of mine,sat with us.She had told me that he was an openly Homosexual/Gay man.It made me feel very uncomfortable because here I am,a guy who is determined to heal from unwanted SSA desires towards members of my own gender and will do whatever it takes to do so,has an openly Gay man sitting next to me.Don't get me wrong,I have no hatred towards any man who has embraced Homosexuality nor do I condemn him for doing so.I use Jesus Christ's attitude of "Hate The Sin.Not The Sinner" regarding this.Still,it made me feel uncomfortable because he was open about who he was and I was a guy yearning to heal from these unwanted and inappropriate desires.At least,that is how I feel about the matter.But when he did sit next to me,I went into the men's restroom,locked the door and said a little prayer to God and asked for guidance and strength to deal with this situation and to help deliver me from any possible temptations that could happen.After doing so,I felt better and when I returned to sit down,the uncomfortableness was a lot easier to deal with.The best thing about it was that nothing happend.The guy did not lay a hand on me nor did he make a pass at me.While that did not happen and I was glad and relieved that nothing did,I had to keep on guard that anything can happen in a situation like this and it can be a real test to my strength,endurance and determination to overcome SSA and emerge as the Heterosexual man that I truly want to be.I have left the Gay lifestyle behind and I am no longer into that.It is not what I am all about as a man nor as a person.Nor is it who I am all about as a man nor as a person.I am still determined to heal from these unwanted desires towards other men and want to feel total sexual attraction towards women.Right now,my attraction towards the opposite is slowly developing and that is good.The worst part of it was that I had to be careful in what I had said in conversation because anything I might have said could have had an impact on the night and I did not want to think about it.So,I kept my mind focused and used caution in my words.Again,the night was a success but it also was a challenge to my determination to heal from and overcome unwanted SSA.I am not going to let nothing stand in my way of that goal.
Tomorrow is my day off from work.I do have to do a few personal things tomorrow for myself to make the day seem wonderful.Again,I am overjoyed that the Sabres are advancing into the conference finals and I am hoping that the Sabres can do it again.
That was my day today,my night last night and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Saturday, May 05, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.It is my night to entertain the crowd with my singing.I am hoping that evening goes by pretty well.Though I rarely have an off night,I always hope for things to go well.I am hoping to try out a new song or two.One of them will be a country oldie that I have been meaning to try out for a long time.I had heard it on the radio during the week and I am hoping that I can do it pretty good.Again,I am hoping that the night goes well.
Today was a pretty decent day.I ran an errand for my mother.I even did some personal shopping for myself and I had my hair cut.I got it done in one day without any problems.There was an accident in an area that I was driving towards and I had to do a detour around it.But I managed to make it home.I bathed for the night and had a nice dinner.At the moment,I am relaxing at home and taking it easy.Overall,a pretty decent day.
Tomorrow,the Buffalo Sabres are playing the New York Rangers at Madison Square Garden on Sunday afternoon.I am hoping that the Sabres can eliminate the Rangers from the playoffs.I would love to see Buffalo advance to the next round.Again,I am hoping for another Sabres win.
That was my day today and my hoped for night tonight,including what I hope for tomorrow.FJ

Friday, May 04, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling very good.It was a wonderful day today and it has been a wonderful night.Yes it has.I was listening to the hockey game tonight on my computer and it was an action packed game tonight.The Buffalo Sabres were really playing their game tonight.For the vast majority of the game,there was no score until the final 3 minutes of the game when The New York Rangers Strakka scored to make it 1-0.With only 7.7 seconds left,Chris Drury scored to tie the game at 1-1 on an assist by Daniel Brieire.The best thing about the game was the Buffalo Sabres won the game tonight in overtime by a score of 2-1.Maxim Afinagenov scored the game winner while the Sabres were on the power play during the overtime.The series now heads back to New York at Madison Square Garden Sunday afternoon.I am hoping that the Sabres can eliminate the Rangers on Sunday afternoon.I know that the Sabres have lost two consecutive games in Madison Square Garden.But I still hope that they can do it there.I would love to see the Sabres advance into the next round.Again,I am hoping that the Sabres can eliminate the Rangers on Sunday.That would be great.
Though I had a pretty good day,I still had to deal with old thought patterns.While I was waiting for a load of laundry to get done,I was getting plagued by images of naked men asking me for sexual favors while I was in the cellar doing my job.I was even talking to myself while doing this.It got so extreme that I had to say a little prayer to myself to stop it.I kept it up until the images faded away.It was difficult but I managed to rely on the Lord to help me.I also felt better afterwards.After my job was completed,I went home.
I also helped my mother out with a small errand.My eldest grand niece is 7 years old this month and my mother wanted to buy her something for her birthday.I even manged to purchase a little something for myself.While my mom and I were out,I did a virus scan on my computer and there was no viruses nor spyware on my computer.I also restarted my computer afterwards and now,the computer is working very good.Thankfully,there was nothing on my computer for me to cause any worries.That is the second best thing tonight.The Buffalo Sabres winning tonight is the really BEST thing tonight.WOW!
I am glad that the weekend is finally here.I will be singing for the crowd tomorrow night and I am hoping that the night goes well.I am hoping to try out at least one new song tomorrow night.Again,I am hoping that the night goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day & night tomorrow.FJ

Thursday, May 03, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.Despite some setbacks tonight regarding my use of the internet,I am still feeling pretty good.My personal computer was having some issues tonight.There were times during the evening that I could not get the computer to cooperate.Some places that I was visiting took too much time to download and it did,at times,made me feel a little edgy.But I managed to complete the stuff that I had to complete and I am feeling better.The day went by pretty smoothly.I did my job and the rest took care of itself.I even helped out somebody today during my lunch break.All in all,a pretty decent day.I managed to get a lot accomplished and it made me feel pretty good.
As stated above,my work day went by pretty smoothly.It was a pretty good day.It has been pretty quiet around my work place as of late.No problems or anything negative to write home about and that is something.It is hard to believe that we have been having it pretty well around there.Everybody is now getting along.The troublemakers who were a problem have not been coming around as of late.That is pretty good.Don't get me wrong,I would never wish for anybody to be around,even though,at times,I might've said to myself that if I had my way,certain people would not be allowed.But that was because I was angry and I did not mean these things.But I do like it that it has been pretty quiet lately.With no negativisms happening,the days have been pretty smooth and everybody seems to appreciate everyone's presence.
Tomorrow is another work day for me.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.Tomorrow night,the Buffalo Sabres are playing the New York Rangers in Game 5 in their series in Buffalo.After two disappointing losses in Madison Square Garden,a win in the HSBC Arena in Buffalo would be great.I am hoping for a Buffalo Sabres victory tomorrow night.A victory by the Sabres would be totally neat.
After tomorrow,it will be the weekend.I am looking forward to that.I will be singing for the crowd as usual.I am hoping that the night goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow and my hopes for the weekend.FJ

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.It was a pretty good day today for me.Today was simply a pick-up day and that went pretty well.There was not a mess in the laundry room at the pick up place and that made it pretty good.After I had done that,I went and did an errand for my mother and also went out and did some fun stuff for myself.I found some more rare records for my ever growing record collection.The weather was also nice.It was a bright sunny day and I enjoyed my day out.It was wonderful.
I also went to my support group meeting at the church and that went great.We also had a new person in our group and that was great.It was great to hear the other men talk about what they needed to talk about.It is awesome that these guys are a swell bunch who always listen to you and never judge you.That is terrific.It was a wonderful meeting and I had a great time talking things out with the guys.I am looking forward to my next meeting next Wednesday night.I am still happy to have found out about this group.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
Thatw as my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.The day started out pretty good.There was nothing exciting to really talk about.The work day went by pretty smoothly.I simply did what I had to do and the day went by pretty fast.It was a pretty decent day.We were supposed to get a rain storm but it bypassed us.We could still get one tonight while the city sleeps.Again,a pretty decent work day.
I am disappointed tonight because the Buffalo Sabres lost again to the New York Rangers.They lost by a score of 2-1 tonight in regulation.Lindy Ruff did say that the team has to play a little more aggressively but I am not seeing it.The Sabres almost had a game tying goal but it was ruled "NO Goal" by the referees.What a disappointment.The Sabres lost and now the series is tied at 2 games a piece.Their next game is back in Buffalo on Friday night and I am hoping for a Buffalo Sabres win.I know that the team can not win every game but this is the playoffs where it all comes down to the nitty gritty.But again,I am still hoping for a Buffalo Sabres win on Friday night.A win would make me happy.I am hoping for that.I hope that it happens.
Tomorrow is simply a pick up day.I also have to run an errand for my mom and I am also hoping to get at least a little bit of personal stuff done for myself.Tomorrow night is my weekly support group meeting at the church.I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Monday, April 30, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty decent day today.Nothing really exciting happened,but I did get what I had to do accomplished.It gives me a sense of confidence when I finally get something done.
Today,I had to go to an F.Y.E.store in another area of Western New York to renew my backstage pass membership card.The due date was tomorrow but I felt that I should do it a day ahead of time.It is now out of the way and I can take it easy for a year.
Last night,I went to see the movie Grindhouse and I really enjoyed it.I am now waiting for it to come to DVD.I know that it will be a while when it does come out but I am going to wait patiently until it does.This movie was two movies rolled into one with a few fake trailers at the beginning and in between the films.It was directed by Robert Rodriguez and Quentin Tarentino.They each directed the two parts.The first was Planet Terror,which Rodriguez directed.The second was Death Proof,which Tarentino directed.I really enjoyed this film.I cracked up in a few spots.It was a great viewing experience.It was a little over 3 hours long but it was well worth watching and the length was not a problem.Again,I enjoyed the movie and I am eagerly awaiting the DVD release.Again,I know that it will be a while but the wait will be worth it.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.Tomorrow night is another game in the Buffalo Sabres-New York Rangers playoff series.After the disappointing loss in double overtime on Sunday afternoon,a Buffalo Sabres win would be it.I hope that the Sabres will take a 3-1 lead in the series tomorrow.After that disappointing loss on Sunday,a win would make me really happy.
I even had a talk with a friend today who lives out of town.It was a very good conversation.Again,nothing to exciting today.But the day was pretty decent.
That was my day today and my hoped for day and night tomorrow.FJ

Sunday, April 29, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.the day started out pretty promising.It was a beautiful sunny day today.I went out to grab a few slices of pizza for lunch so I could have a snack to watch the hockey game today when I got home.Before that,I had to stop at a store to buy something needed for home.When I got home,I turned on the hockey game to watch the Buffalo Sabres play the New York Rangers at Madison Square Garden.That game is why I am feeling mixed emotions because the Buffalo Sabres lost in double overtime by a score of 2-1.The Sabres did not play too well of a game for most of the first two periods.They made a lot of mistakes.Not only that,the Sabres were rarely in front of Ryan Miller when the Rangers players played the puck around the Sabres net.Ryan Miller played another sold game but the score in the second overtime gave the Rangers the victory and now the series is 2-1 with Buffalo stillleading by one win.Their next game is Tuesday night at Madison Square Garden at 7:00pm.After that disappointing overtime loss,a Buffalo Sabres win would be totally sweet.I was disappointed to see them lose in the second overtime.But again,I am still hoping that they can beat them on Tuesday night.The Sabres have to work on not making too many costly mistakes such as interference or delay of game penalties and they have to surround Ryan Miller whenever the Rangers come on the attack in front of him.These are things that they need to work on.
Tonight,I am going to see a movie.It is my first movie in several months.I hope that it's a good one.
That was my day today.FJ

Saturday, April 28, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.It was a pretty decent today.Despite a slow and cold start,it turned out to be a pretty decent day.Nothing really negative to write about.
I helped my mom out today by taking her shopping.She had to get some groceries in the house because the month is almost out and we needed to have some food in the house.That was the whole day.I also had to turn in some beer and pop bottles and cans that had been in the rear seat of my vehicle for a while.I got a small amount of change from them but it was great to finally get them out of the car and get some change.It also relieves me of hearing them go clunk and clink every time I hit a bump or pothole.That noise can be irritating after a while.But again,I am glad to be rid of them.
Tonight,we got an unexpected surprise at the house when my oldest sister came for a visit.This was a nice surprise.She was only in town for a few days and thouht that she would stop by and say hello before going back home.She was only here for half an hour and left.After that,we had a light supper.My mom just did not feel like cooking so we heated up a couple of frozen dinners and had a tossed salad on the side.
Tonight,I am going to be singing.I can hardly wait for that.I always look forward to entertain the crowd each and every Saturday night.I am going to simply reaquaint myself with some songs that I have done before and hope for the best.I rarely,if ever,have an off night,but I still always hope for things to go well.Again,I hope that things go well for me.
The Buffalo Sabres are playing the New York Rangers tomorrow afternoon at Madison Square Garden.I am hoping for a third consecutive Buffalo Sabres win.I am also hoping that the Sabres play better than they did last night.They can not make too many mistakes in their own end and they can not make any mistakes that can lead to penalties such as the interference call made on Mixim Afinagenov.They have to work on these things.Plus,they need to concentrate on the game itself and not on what the critics and other news people are saying.They have to concentrate on the game and play like the team they are.Again,they need to do that in order to dominate and not be worn down.Again,they need to do those things.
That was my day today and my hoped for night tonight.FJ

Friday, April 27, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.My work day went by pretty well despite a frustrating start.
The frustrating thing happened when I arrived at work.I was hoping to get my paycheck today after I had arrived.But the lady who handed them out to everybody actually took the afternoon off and I had to wait for a little over an hour for it.I did get it and I was relieved.I still felt the frustration for waiting a long time.It took a while to fade away.But I did feel relieved that I got my check and now,my weekend will be off and running.On the way home today,I had to pick up a few things for dinner tonight.I am just glad that the weekend is finally here.I will be doing my usual entertaining the crowd tomorrow night.I am hoping that the night goes well.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I still always hope for things to go well.But again,I am looking forward to doing that.I love what I do.It is great to entertain others and be appreciated.Again,I hope that everything goes well tomorrow night.
Tonight,I am jumping for joy because the Buffalo Sabres won again.They are now leading the series 2-0 as they defeated the New York Rangers by a score of 3-2.The Sabres barely escaped this game.They made too many mistakes with some of them leading to penalties and power play opportunities that lead to goals for the Rangers.Thomas Vanek scored the game winner on the power play for the Sabres to win.They were fortunate to escape this one.Within the final seconds,the Rangers were really pouring the pressure on Ryan Miller but he stopped every shot near the net.It was incredible the way he played tonight in the game within the final seconds.He also read some seemingly unstoppable shots on goal.Ryan Miller was awesome.Yes he was.But the Sabres have to work on not making too many mistakes in the games,especially those that lead to costly penalties and turnovers.I hope that the Sabres will indeed work on their game and avoid making costly mistake.I know that there is no such thing as a mistake free game.But if the Sabres can work on their game and avoid making costly mistakes,they will improve greatly.The Sabres next game is Sunday afternoon at 2:00pm in New York at Madison Square Garden.I am hoping that the Sabres can win a third straight game.That would be totally neato.The win tonight made me feel better after the frustrating day that I had.
That was my day today and my hoped for night tomorrow night.FJ

Thursday, April 26, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.The weather for much of the day was fair.It was sunny but mostly cloudy and a little cool.I really was not anticipating very much today as I was driving to work.When I got to the pick-up point where the laundry was,I did not have very much to pick up but I am hoping for more tomorrow.Apparently,there were some new check ins at the center where they help drug and alcohol dependant people try to live a life without drugs or alcohol.It was only verl little but better than nothing.At least,I had a little bit to do.
The work day went by smoothly as usual.I simply did my job and the day went by pretty fast.I had a pretty good day on the job.After I finished,I dropped off the clean laundry at the center and went straight home.It was a chore getting home today because of all the hard rain falling.I guess that this is the month for it.It is April,after all.But I did not let it dampen my spirits.I just went with it and got home.After that,I stayed home for the rest of the day.Since it was raining and thundering,there was not much to do except to just hang out at the house.Again,it was not too bad of a day.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that my shift goes by smoothly.Tomorrow night,the Sabres are playing the Rangers in Buffalo again.After winning game one,I am hoping that the Sabres can win another one.Game 1 was an exciting game.I hope that Game 2 is just as exciting and that they also pull out a win.It would be great for them to take a 2 games to none lead.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling good.I had a pretty good day today.Nothing really negative to write home about and that is good.
Today was simply a laundry pick-up day for me.I simply picked them up and dropped the bags off at work.After that,I picked up a few things for dinner at the store and went home.I did my personal computer work in the afternoon and had a light lunch.The weather was a mixed bag.It rained for much of the day before it turned cooler.But still,I did not let it dampen my spirits.
I also had a wonderful meeting with my sexual abuse support counselor this afternoon.It was great to get a lot more emotional baggage off of me.She also gave me some more zeroxed copies of some pages from a book on anger management.I am going to be checking these out tomorrow morning while I am waiting for loads of laundry to get done.I hope that they are helpful.
I also had a wonderful support group meeting tonight at the church.It was wonderful to get even more emotional baggage off of me.It was great.It is wonderful to find a group of men who will listen to you and not ignore you.It is also great that they thank you for sharing what you shared.Again,I am glad to have found out about this group.I am looking forward to the next meeting next Wednesday night.I am hoping that the meeting next week goes well.
I am also full of joy because the Buffalo Sabres really let the New York Rangers have it tonight.They defeated the Rangers by a score of 5-1.The next game is Friday night.I am hoping for another Buffalo Sabres win.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth work day today.The day just went by pretty fast and I got a lot done.After work,I ran a couple of errands and that worked out pretty good.It was a pretty good day today and I got a lot done.
Even though it was a pretty smooth work day today for me,I was feeling a little tensed up.I started saying angry things to myself again pretending that there were people ther.I have not done this in a long time myself but it has been starting again.It doesn't happen as much as it used to but I do not know what triggered it nor do I know what the root cause of it is.The days have been going from fair to good lately but I still do not know what could be the root cause of it.But I figured that maybe I should get a little exercise.
After doing my computer work,I went for a long walk.The walk did me good.I was not as tensed up as I was earlier when I got home.I also was not saying angry things to myself either.I felt better.When I got home,I took a bath and that also made me feel better.I am now relaxing and taking it easy at home.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day for me.I also have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor in the afternoon.Tomorrow night,it is my support group meeting at the church.I am hoping that the day works out well for me.
Tomorrow night is also when the series between the Buffalo Sabres and the New York Rangers starts.I am hoping that the Sabres cann beat the Rangers.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Monday, April 23, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.It was a pretty good day for me today.I made it out to another thrift shop today in Depew and I found a lot of great stuff.It was wonderful.While there,it rained for a while.The rain was really coming down.It was like that it was coming down in buckets.Fortunately,I was still shopping in the shop when it was coming down.I simply waited patiently for the rain to stop and when it did,I checked out.On the way home,I stopped at a shopping mall and had a slice of pizza to tie me over until dinner.I had a blast.Despite the hard rainy day,I had a pretty good day.I had fun and I am looking forward to going to another in the near future.I have done enough shopping in them for now.Right now,I am going to concentrate on the rest of the NHL playoffs and hope that all goes well.
It is now official.The Buffalo Sabres playoff series with the New York Rangers starts this Wednesday night in Buffalo.I can hardly wait for that.I am hoping that that Sabres can do great against the Rangers.I am also hoping that the Sabres can advance into the Conference finals.I would LOVE to see that.The series starts Wednesday night in Buffalo and I am hoping that the Sabres can do it again.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the work day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Sunday, April 22, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling good.It was a pretty good day today.The sun was shining and the winds were very light.I went out to run a personal errand today and I actually enjoyed the day out even if I was not out for too long.I just had a good day with nothing negative to write about.
Tonight,I learned that the Buffalo Sabres will be playing against the New York Rangers in the next round.The game day and the time will be determined by the league.At least,I am glad to know who will now play the Sabres in the next round.I am hoping that the Sabres can do it again.I would like to see the Sabres advance into the conference finals.But according to their head coach Lindy Ruff,the Rangers will be tougher than the Islanders in terms of goal scoring and game play.But again,I am hoping that the Sabres can do it again.It would be really great to see the Sabres go to the next level in the Eastern Conference finals.
Last night,I had a blast.It was simply a wonderful night.I decided to reaquaint myself with songs that I have not done in a long time.The night was still a success and I had a blast.The crowd loved everything that I did.Again,it was a wonderful night.I am glad that the crowd enjoyed it.I also enjoyed doing what I did.I always do.It is great to have such an appreciative crowd.
Tomorrow,I am going to go to another thrift shop.It will be in Depew New York.I am hoping to find some really nice stuff.I am also hoping to have a great day.It is also supposed to a nice day tomorrow.I am hoping that the day works out good.
Tonight,I had a talk with a person who I have not talked too in a long time and that was really neat.It was the wife of a friend of mine.I was overjoyed to hear from her.I am hoping to hear from her husband soon.It would be great to talk with him again.It was a wonderful talk.Again,I am hoping to talk with her husband soon.
That was my day today,my night last night and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Saturday, April 21, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay but optimistic.The weather here has been really nice over the past few days.The sun has been shining and it has been feeling warm.Today was the first time that I went out without a winter jacket on.I was waiting very eagerly for this nice weather to come.I am glad that it's finally here.
I really did not too much today.I simply ran a few errands for my mom today and I even had my window down in my vehicle where I was blaring my music while I was driving.It was really neat.I had a really decent day running the errands and I had a smile on my face that would not leave.It was great to finally feel Spring in the air.I hope that this weather lasts a long time.
Tonight is my night to entertain the crowd.I am hoping that the night goes well.Though I rarely if ever have an off night,I still hope for everything to go well.You never know what might happen.But I am feeling a little optimistic.I think that the evening is going to go by swell but as always,I still hope for everything to go well.
I will also be celebrating tonight.The Buffalo Sabres eliminated the New York Islanders last night by a score of 4-3.I am going to be celebrating that victory tonight while entertaining the crowd.The only thing that is still up in the air is who the Sabres will be playing against in the next round.It will be either the New York Rangers or the Tampa Bay Lightning.Until the next few days,that will remain a big question mark.I am going to be patient until then.
That was my day today and my hoped for night tonight.FJ

Friday, April 20, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling really good.It was a wonderful day today.My work day went by pretty smoothly and that was great.Since it went by smoothly,it went by pretty fast and nothing negative to write about.That,in itself,is terrific.I had a wonderful day today and that was terrific.
I am just glad that the weekend is finally here.I will be singing up a storm tomorrow night and I will enjoy myself.At least,I am determined to enjoy myself and get the best out of my night.I do not know what I will be singing tomorrow night but I know that it will be special.I am hoping that the night goes well for me.Though I rarely have an off night,I always still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.Again,I am hoping that the night goes well.
Tonight,I am jumping for joy.The Buffalo Sabres have eliminated the New York Islanders by a score of 4-3.The Buffalo Sabres held a strong 3-0 going into the third period until the Islanders scored 3 unanswered goals in the third period.It looked like that the Islanders were mounting a strong comeback but Ryan Miller made some impressive saves in the final seconds of the game as if he were saying to the Islanders "OH NO YOU DON'T!" when they were trying in desperation to score a goal to tie the game to send the game into overtime.Not only that,the Sabres have to work on not making too many costly mistakes in a game because they could have lost tonight and they would have had to go back to New York to play another game against the Islanders if that would have happened.But still,they managed to escape this game tonight.The only thing that is up in the air at the moment is who the Sabres will be playing against in the next round.It will either be the New York Rangers or the Tampa Bay Lightning.I am hoping that this comes very soon.I am anxious to see who they are going up against in the next round.
It is going to be a great weekend.I will not only be singing tomorrow night.I will be celebrating the Sabres victory in this first playoff round.How Sweet It Is.
That was my day,night and my hoped for night tomorrow.FJ

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.My day did not start out too good.It actually started out pretty frustrating.
My youngest grand niece was over here at the house for most of the morning.After my neice dropped her off,she started crying and screaming.She also threw a very mean temper at my mother this morning.The constant crying and screaming by her really made my morning very frustrating.I just could not take it.My head was starting to hurt and I was getting an uneasy feeling in my stomach.My youngest grand niece never exhibited this type of behavior before nor did she ever subject anyone in the family to these constant mean spirited fits of temper.It was really distressing.I was glad to get out of the door to get to work.When I got to the laundry pick-up point,there was no laundry to pick up.Though I was disappointed,it really did not get to me because I did pick up a lot on Tuesday and Wednesday and I still had plenty to do today.The work day actually went by as smoothly as it has been going.After the frustrations of the morning,the work day did me a lot of good.It was very quiet today and I got my job done.I also ran an errand for someone at work during the lunch break.I got quite a bit done.Not too shabby.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the day also goes smoothly.I am now working in the afternoon on Friday's so it should go by well.
Tomorrow night,the Buffalo Sabres are playing at home against the New York Islanders.The Sabres are leading the series 3-1 and if they win tomorrow night,they will advance to the conference semi-finals.I am hoping that the Sabres defeat the Islanders and eliminate them from the playoffs.After that,it's the weekend.I will be doing my usual entertaining the crowd on Saturday night.I am hoping that it goes well.
That was my day.FJ

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling really good.I had a wonderful meeting tonight.It was great to talk and get a lot off of my chest.It was also wonderful to be around them again.I have been getting a lot out of these meetings.They have been really helping me.I have been getting a hold of my emotional problems one day at a time.I am looking forward to the next meeting and I am hoping that the next meeting is as wonderful as this one.Again,I am glad to have found out about these meetings through that friend in Texas.It was wonderful that he told me about them.Again,I am looking forward to the next meeting.
The Buffalo Sabres were victorious yet again.They defeated the New York Islanders tonight by a score of 4-2.The Islanders did try to tie the game up late in the third period when it was 3-2 but the referees signaled it as a no goal.After a few minute review,the referees ruling was sustained.It did look bad for that few minutes but I was glad when the ruling was affirmed after the review.They now have a commanding lead in the series of 3-1 over the Islanders.Their next game is back in Buffalo on Friday night.The Sabres can take the series with a victory over the Islanders on Friday night.I am hoping that they can do it.It would be fantastic to see them go to the semi-finals in the conference.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that it goes by smoothly.
Thatw as my day today and my night tonight.FJ

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I am relaxing at home at the moment.The weather this evening is COLD and windy.The weather is going to continue to be COLD until this weekend.I can hardly wait for that.I am sick of this cold weather because we are supposed to be in the season of Spring but it does not feel like it at the moment.I hope that this is the last of the COLD weather we have been having.I want it to be truly Spring,which includes the weather being warm and nice.Again,I hope that this is the last of the COLD weather.
Today,the work day went by smoothly.I actually got a lot done in the hours that I worked.I am actually feeling better that I have gotten a hold of my emotions.Still,I am taking life one day at a time.If I can get through one day without losing it,that's good.There is always the next day and the day after that and so on.But I feel good that I have been getting a hold of this problem but I still have to take it one day at a time.I can never think of getting angry again.I simply think in terms of controlling it one day at a time.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I simply have to pick it up and drop it off.After that,I have to go to the post office and get a money order to pay for those Buffalo Sabres medallions so I can have them.I will be so happy to get those.I know that I have to wait 4-7 weeks for them.But it's well worth the wait.
Tomorrow night is another meeting night.I am hoping that the meeting goes well.The Buffalo Sabres are also playing tomorrow night against the New York Islanders in game 4 of their series.I hope that the Sabres can win again like they did on Monday night.A win would be totally sweet.
That was my day and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Monday, April 16, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very exciting day today.I went to thrift shop in Buffalo and I had a blast.I found a couple of rare record albums and I found a couple of rare movies on video.I also found some more nice clothes.I am simply loving going to thrift shops.I am having a ball.I was hopinbg to go to another one but the weather was getting worse so I decided to go home early.But I had a very good day today.I am having a blast going to different thift shops and buying things.I am going to go to another one next Monday and I hope to find some more.That will be nice.
Tonight,I am feeling really good for one reason.The Buffalo Sabres were victorious tonight.They defeated the New York Islanders by a score of 3-2.Thanks to some great goal scoring and solid defense by the Sabres.The New York Islanders played pretty good as well.But the Sabres had a few things over them and that was really swell.I listened to the game on the radio and on the computer.I watched the show Two & A Half Men while concentrating on the game.The Sabres won tonight.I hope that they can win on Wednesday night as well.That would be really neat.
I also went to several stores in my area to buy up quite a few newspapers so I can send away for a set of Buffalo Sabres medallions.I will be so thrilled to get these.They are totally awesome.The Sabres are doing great at the moment and that is making feel like jumping for joy.I hope that the Sabres continue to do better.GO SABRES!
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the work day goes by smoothly.It has been going good for me,so far.But I always still hope for things to go smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for today tomorrow.FJ

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.It was a fairly decent day today.I only had to run to a few places and I am now taking it easy.I have just had a nice hearty dinner and now I am feeling better.It is not that I have not eaten today.I did eat cereal for breakfast and I had a couple of pepperoni pizza slices for lunch.It is just that I now feel better after having a good dinner.Again,I am now relaxing and taking it esy.
Today,the weather was raining pretty heavily.It started out as a light rain shower and it escalated into a heavy downpour with high winds gusting at a pretty high rate of speed.The weather is also COLD.The wind chill temps are above freezing but the bitterly COLD feeling is still there whether there is a wind chill or not.I am still hoping that the weather warms up soon.I am getting sick of these winter type weather patterns and temperatures.We are supposed to be in the season of Spring but it does not feel like it.Again,I hope that warms up very soon.We are supposed to get warmer temperatures this coming week and I hope that we really do.If and/or when it happens,I hope that the warmer weather stays for a while.
Last night,I had a wonderful time entertaining the crowd.I did those two new songs that I was hoping to do and it all worked out.I had a blast doing that.The crowd loved everything I did and they did show their appreciation in more ways than one.It actually made me forget the disappointing loss the Buffalo Sabres suffered.They lost 3-2 to the New York Islanders last night to even the series at one game apiece.The next game is tomorrow night in New York.I hope that the Sabres can beat the Islanders after that disappointing loss last night.A win would make me feel better.
Tomorrow,I am hoping to go thrift shop hopping.I am also hoping to find some nice things.I love doing that and it makes me feel good to get out of my hometown once in a while.
That was my day today.FJ

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good and I am also feeling hopeful & optimistic.Tonight is the night that I am going to sing for the crowd.I always look forward to singing and entertaining the crowd every Saturday night.It is always fun to do that and it is also great for me to do that and have the crowd appreciate everything that I do for them.I am hoping that the night goes well.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night singing,I always hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.
Right now,the Buffalo Sabres are playing against the New York Islanders and the Islanders are leading the Sabres 2-1.I am hoping that the Sabres can come from behind to win.They played great on Thursday night and I am hoping that they can do so again tonight.Again,the score is 2-1 in favor of the Islanders.I hope that the Sabres can still make it two wins in a row.
Today was a pretty fair day.It was cold much of the day with a little bit of snow.I am still hoping that the COLD weather ends soon.It's supposed to be Spring but it doesn't feel like it.Again,I am hoping that the COLD weather ends soon.I had to run some errands for my mother today and that really kept me out and about.But I got them done.I also bathed and shaved before dinner and I am now ready for the evening.
That was my day and my hoped for night tonight.FJ

Friday, April 13, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very smooth working day today.My hours at work were reduced because a new trainee was starting today.I now have Friday mornings free.I still have to work Friday afternoons.But I am still working and proud of it.It is just that I now do the pick ups in the afternoon rather than the morning.I am actually happy that we have a new person on the job.The more the merrier.I wished him the best of success with the job.
Last night,the Buffalo Sabres were victorious.They defeated the New York Islanders by a score of 4-1.Of course,this is just Game 1 but the win made me happy.Another win tomorrow night would make me really happy.
Tomorrow night,I am also going to sing for the crowd.I always look forward to entertaining the crowd with my singing.I am hoping to try out a couple of new songs tomorrow night.I am hoping that the night goes well.
I also have to say that today,I hardly said anything angry to myself.That made me feel pretty good.Tomorrow,I am hoping to go through another day without doing so.If I succeed,that will be great.I know that I have to take it one day at a time.If I succeed one day,I have another day to try and succeed.
Nothing negative happened today.I am glad about that.I am hoping that nothing negative happens tomorrow.
That was my day and my hoped for night tomorrow.FJ

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth work day.Despite a minor setback,the day was pretty smooth.I also had a pretty easy pick-up day.There was no mess to clean up where I have to pick it up.Again,it was a pretty smooth day.
Right now,I have the game on.The Buffalo Sabres are playing tonight hosting the New York Islanders in Buffalo.This is the very first game of this playoff series for both teams and it is a very much anticipated series.The game is sold out and the game is about to start.I am hoping that the Sabres can start it off on a positive note by winning the first game.That would be neat.Again,this is the very first game in the series and I am hoping for a win.
Right now,I am sitting down and relaxing.It is a pretty fair night with the weather being only a tad cold around my neck of the woods.I am hoping that the weather warms up very soon.I am getting sick and tired of this cold weather.We are supposed to be in the season of Spring but it does not feel like it.No it does not.Again,I am hoping that weather warms up soon because I am getting sick of this cold weather.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.After that,it's the weekend.I can hardly wait for that.I will be singing up a storm on Saturday night.
That was my day today.FJ

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay tonight.I went to my support group meeting at the church and the meeting was wonderful.I had a wonderful time talking with the men in the group and getting a lot out of it.The men all shared their stuff and were authentic in the way the spoke about themselves and that was rewarding in itself.It was just a great meeting and I enjoyed every minute of it.It was fantastic hearing the men and being heard by them.I am looking tforward to next weeks meeting and I am hoping that it is as wonderful as this one.Maybe it will be even better.You never know.
The reason I am feeling okay is because I was hoping to check my e-mail for some last minute messages and to journal my day today on here before turning in.But when I got home,I got a rude awakening.My niece,who was picking up her kids after she was done with work,was on it checking her e-mail.This is something that I do not really mind.I know that she hardly has any time due to her overly busy work schedule but even after my mom told her not to shut it down,she does so anyway.That really made me a little edgy.I had to wait for a few minutes while the computer shut down due to the installation of new updates to the program.Not only that,after shutting it down,I had to turn it back on and manually delete any pop ups that come whenever I have to turn it on for my own use.I also have to manually turn the firewall program because that turns off whenever the computer is shut down.At the momoent,the installed programs are working correctly.I will still be doing a scan at the end of the week.You never know what could be on your personal computer until you scan and see if something is wrong.I am hoping that nothing is wrong.
Today at work,it was a pick up day but there was a mess.This mess was not as bad as other messes that I have endured in the past but I still had to clean it.There was simply too much laundry in one bag so I had to seperate some laundry and put it in a new bag.Not too bad.
Tomorrow night,the Buffalo Sabres playoff series against the New York Islanders starts.I am hoping that Buffalo Sabres can eliminate the Islanders.
Thatw as my day and night tonight.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a nice talk with a friend of mine who lives in the city where I live and he's doing okay.Him and his girlfriend have two little kittens who they named after the main characters of The Dukes Of Hazzard,which I thought was kinda funny.Again,he is doing good.I am glad that he is.I always like to hear that a friend is doing good.It also makes me feel good.
Today was another work day.The work day went by smoothly.Nothing really negative to write about tonight.I simply had a typical day.I did my job and when I was done,I went home.Again,a typical day on the job.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I have to pick up the laundry tomorrow morning and make sure that the afternoon person has something to do.I have the rest of the day off to relax and take it easy.Tomorrow night is another meeting with my support group at the church.I am hoping that the meeting goes well.The meetings have been doing me a lot of good since I have been going to them.The men are a swell bunch and it's great that they listen to a single word I say without being judgemental or even overly critical.I am glad to have found out about this group and I am also glad that I am a part of it.I always thank that friend of mine in Texas for telling me about it.It is really super to have people listen to you and offer you advice whenever necessary.Again,it has been doing me a lot of good and I always look forward to every meeting every Wednesday night.
That was my day today and my hoped for day and night tomorrow.FJ

Monday, April 09, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling great.I had a wonderful day today out thrift shop hopping.It was fantastic.I found a lot of great stuff.
The best thing that I found were a whole bunch of Elvis Presley 45's.They were all in very good shape.I have never seen or even found so many records by "The King Of Rock & Roll".That was the great find of the day.I did find some other nice things.I managed to find a few more hard to find records.I found all of these at a Salvation Army thrift shop in Buffalo.I did manage to find some nice clothes as well.But those Elvis Presley records were the find of the day.I was so overjoyed.I now have a whole bunch of valuable records in my 45 r.p.m. collection.I also went to am Amvets store and I found some more great stuff,including more clothes.I had a terrific day.It was awesome.
I found out early this morning on the news that the Buffalo Sabres playoff series against the New York Islanders starts on Thursday.The Sabres will be hosting the Islanders in Buffalo as part of the home ice advantage that they have due to the fact that the won the President's Trophy this season for having the best record in the league.Plus,this is also a first in the history of the team.The Sabres have never won that trophy until now.Still,it is a great thing for the Sabres to have.I am really proud of them.They have overcome a lot of terrible obstacles to get where they are.I hope that they can eliminate the Islanders.
Before I went thrift shop hopping today,I did manage to pay the guy for the car that I am buying.The car is now officially mine.Before I put it on the road,my mechanic has to put some much needed minor repair on it.I am not in a hurry.He can take his time.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the work day goes smoothly.
That was my day today.FJ

Sunday, April 08, 2007

Happy Easter,Everybody
Tonight,I am feeling okay.It was a wonderful Easter today.We had a nice family dinner here at my mother's house today.My sister and her family came over to eat and it was pretty good.My nephews and I watched the final regular season Buffalo Sabres game with them.The Sabres lsot 4-3 in Philadelphia to the Flyers but I was not very disappointed.This game was actually a type that you'd call a "meaningless game."The Buffalo Sabres are President's Trophy winners and they are going to have home ice advantage throughout the playoffs.This means that they will start playing at home for the first two games of every series throughout their playoff run.I have also learned that the Buffalo Sabres will be playing against the New York Islanders in the first round.The Islanders will be coming to Buffalo to play the Sabres in the first round.Officially,the NHL playoffs start on Wednesday.But I am not sure when the Sabres are going to start their playoff run.I am going to keep checking the Sabres website over the next few days to see when they start in their playoff run.I am hoping for the Sabres to eliminate the Islanders.
After the dinner,we had some nice talks with hardly any negative happening with the exception of my sister meddling in my personal stuff by asking what I was doing in my room upstairs all the time I was up there.I felt that she had no right asking a question like that.I always dislike it when you invite relatives over for dinner and they start meddling in your personal life. Just because you invite them over doesn't mean that it's an invitation to be meddlesome.The best thing is to mind your own business and don't ask no personal questions,especially those that meddle in your personal stuff.But then again,you can't always expect people,including relatives,to do just that.There are always going to be meddlesome relatives no matter what.Thank goodness that holidays,like Easter,come only once a year.
Right now,I am now relaxing at home.The weather is COLD tonight.I am hoping that the cold weather ends soon.It's supposed to be Spring but it doesn't feel like it.Again,I am hoping that it ends soon.I am sick of the cold weather.
Last night,I went to entertain the crowd and it was yet another success.I had another blast entertaining the crowd.The crowd really enjoyed the songs that I sang last night and that gave me a great feeling.I really enjoy what I do and this always motivates me.I look forward to next week even more.
Tomorrow morning,I will be meeting with the guy who is selling his car to me.I am hoping that the meeting goes well.I am really going to appreciate this new used car.It will make my job a little easier.
That was my day and my night last night.FJ

Saturday, April 07, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling good,hopeful & optimistic.Today was a pretty good day.I ran some last minute errands for my mother because tomorrow is the holiday and my mother wanted to make sure that everything is going right.She wanted everything to be superb and fitting if not perfect.I ran the errands and I even did a few things for myself alongside the errands.The cold weather did little to dull my spirits today as I did what I had to do.The only drawback was the the stores were really busy and full of people all doing last minute shopping because most of the stores will be closed tomorrow.This is always the same every year.No matter what holiday it is.The stores are always full with last minute shoppers and the store traffic ranges from treacherous to severe.It is always "Excuse Me,I Would Like To Get By." whenever a holiday always falls anytime.It doesn't matter what holiday it is.There will always be some last minute shoppers trying to get some last minute stuff before the holiday comes around.It was pretty stressful but I did not let it get to me.I just went with the flow and I got out.The best thing out of it was that I got my errands finished and that was better than nothing.
Tonight,the Buffalo Sabres are officially the President's Cup winners.They defeated the Washington Capitals by a score of 2-0.Ryan Miller finally got a shutout after struggling all season to try and accomplish one.He has finally did it.He has his shutout.Tomorrow night,the Sabres are playing the Philadelphia Flyers in Philadelphia and they will going up against former teammate Martin Biron.This will be an interesting game.I am hoping that the Sabres will win tomorrow night over the Flyers.
Tonight,I will be singing up a storm for the crowd.I am hoping that the night goes well.I enjoy what I do.
That was my day today and my hoped for night tonight.FJ

Friday, April 06, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day off today.I used my day off to help my mother out.I had really nothing else to do today so I decided to help her out today.She had a lot to do.It was great to help her out.I also managed to get a few personal things done for myself.Not a bad day.
Right now,I am at home relaxing and taking it easy.I had a very busy day and it was very rewarding.I got out today.I helped somebody in my family.I even managed to get a few things done for myself and that made me feel good.I had a wonderful day off today and it was a pleasure to get out and do a lot.Yes it was.I had a blast.It was rewarding and it was also a great way to loosen up and use my energy.
Today,I did not say angry things to myself too much.I did not do an awful lot of that today.I guess the idea of reducing my coffee consumption to 2 cups instead of having 3 cups worked.I also found that I have a lot of energy that I am not using and that could be a contributor as to why I am saying a lot of angry things to myself as of late.I felt that maybe I was consuming too much coffee,which has a lot of caffeine,and that was contributing to why I was saying angry things to myself pretending that there were people there.I still did so but not as much.I am going to give this a try for a while and see how it goes in the long run.If it continues to work,I will keep it up.
Tomorrow is the weekend.I can hardly wait for that.I am going to be singing up a storm tomorrow night and I am hoping that the night goes well.Tomorrow night,the Buffalo Sabres are going against the Washington Capitals in Washington.I am hoping for another Buffalo Sabres win.Why?Because the Sabres need one more win to become the winners of the President's Cup for the best record in the NHL.Again,I am hoping for a Buffalo Sabres win tomorrow night.
Thatw as my day and my hoped for night tomorow.FJ

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Tonight,I am having mixed emotions.Why?Because I had a really hard day today on the job.
When I arrived at the pick up point to pick up the laundry,I saw that the laundry room was another mess.It was terrible.There was laundry all over the place.I spent nearly 15 minutes picking up the laundry off the and bagging it.This really took a lot of my time away.After bagging it,I left for the work place and when I arrived,I sorted out the laundry.I then started a couple of loads and simply waited for them to get done.While waiting,I visited some people at the social club next door and talked with the a bit.After that,I went back to the basement and concentrated on my job.
Despite the frustrating start to the day,the rest of the day went by pretty smoothly and I read from my book while waiting for loads of laundry to get done.I even eat my lunch down in the basement alone so I can be there when the loads get finished.Since I have been doing this,I have not lost my temper nor have I gotten mad when something goes wrong or when somebody tries to get on my nerves.Still,I am taking my anger management and control one day at a time.If I can get through a day without getting angry and/or upset,which includes losing my temper,then that is good.There is still the next day and the day after that and so and so on and so on.
The really great thing to happen tonight is that the Buffalo Sabres are victorious again.They defeated the Boston Bruins by a score of 4-2.That really made my night.The Sabres next games are over the weekend.They will be playing that Washington Capitals on Saturday night and the Philadelphia Flyers on Sunday night.I am hoping for two more back to back wins.That would be totally neat.
Tomorrow is Good Friday.I have the day off and I will be helping my mother out tomorrow.I just have to do a couple of personal things before that.Saturday night,I am going to do my usual entertainment.I am hoping that the night goes well.
That was my day today.FJ

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.It was a wonderful day for me today.I accomplished everything that I set out to do.That gives me a feeling of accomplishment and it also makes me feel good.
Today was simply a pick up day for me today.The best thing about it was that there was no mess to clean up.I simply picked up the bag of laundry and dropped it off at the work zone.No trouble at all.
I also had a great meeting with my sexual abuse support counselor.It went terrifically well.It was great to finally get a lot of steam lifted off my shoulders and my brain.I went home feeling great.I also had a wonderful meeting with my support group at the church tonight and that went wonderful as well.It was wonderful to hear stories from the other men about their week and and it was wonderful for me to talk and be heard alongside being listened to at the same time.The weather going down was decent but coming home was a chore.There was non-stop heavy snow fall on the way home.I did make it back to my hometown in one piece and it was only snowing lightly when I reached there.Again,it was a wonderful day for me.I got everything that I set out to do accomplished and that makes me feel good.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the work day goes by smoothly.Tomorrow night,the Buffalo Sabres are hosting the Boston Bruins in Buffalo.I am hoping that Sabres can defeat the Bruins.
Friday is a holiday.So,I will have the day off from work the whole day.
That was my day and my night tomight.FJ

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.It was a pretty good day.Work went by pretty smoothly.Nothing really negative to write home about.I did my job and the rest took care of itself.I had a pretty smooth day.
I also ran a few errands for my mom today.I had to go to the bank and get some money for her and I also had to pay a bill to the bank.I also had to mail a bill out to a finance company.It was just a typical day.It went pretty smoothly and I had a pretty good day.
After dinner,I went out to get some gas because I wanted to make sure my tank was full because it is supposed to get cold tonight.I decided to do some window shopping today at a few shopping malls in my area.It was great to get out and look at a few things.I also walked around the malls for a while to get some exercise.I even talked with a few people.Nothing too special,just a few things about the Buffalo Sabres.But still,I had a pretty good time looking around the malls and walking around it to get some exercise.I even looked around at Wal-Mart and that too was fun.I even talked with a few people there as well.Again,a pretty good time was had.When I get money next time,I am going to start buying some dress shirts to go along with some suits that I have.I have been combing second hand stores for some dress shirts that are my size but have had no luck nor finding the style that I was looking for.Overall,a nice time was had.I got to get out and I even got to talk with some people.
The best thing to happen tonight was that the Buffalo Sabres are now officially Northeast Division champions.They defeated the Pittsburgh Penguins tonight by a score of 4-1 in Pittsburgh.Their next game is a home game on Thursday night when they host the Boston Bruins.Though the Sabres are diviosn champions officially thanks to tonights game,I still hope that the Sabres can pull off another victory over Boston.The Sabres still have a chance of capturing the President's Cup,which is awarded to the team who finishes first in the league when the regular season ends.
Tomorrow is simply a pick up day.I also have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor tomorrow afternoon and I also have my support group at the church tomorrow night.I am hoping that both of these go well.
That was my day today.FJ

Monday, April 02, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a very good day today.The weather was decent.It was a sunny day with only a few clouds.I had a very good time today.I went thrift shop hopping like I planned.I went to a couple of them in another area of Western New York.
I found some really nice clothes today.I also found some more hard to find record albums and several oldie 45's.It's hard to believe that I found some really nice clothes that actually fit me real good.I have been to some in the last several weeks over the span of Monday's that I have been going and most of what I found did not fit too good or even not at all.I have been fortunate to have found some in many of the thrift shops that I have been going to.It's great.I also manage to add a few more hard to find record albums to my ever growing collection of vinyl records and even several singles.It's fun to thrift shop hop.I am going to do it again next Monday.I really love it.It's fun.I always have a good time and I have been fortunate to find what I am looking for.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the work day goes by pretty smoothly.The work days have been going well for me,so far.But I always hope for things to go smoothly because you never know what might happen because each and every new day has it's anxieties and anticipations.Again,I hope that the work day goes by smoothly.
That was my today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very good day today.I ran an errand for my mother today and I also did something for myself.I even took a ride around town and I enjoyed it.I even had my window rolled down and my music blaring.It was a very nice day.I had a good Sunday and it was a beautiful day.
Last night,I went out to sing and I had a blast.I tried out a couple of new songs and I reaquainted myself with a couple of songs that I had not done in a while.I had a great night and the people enjoyed what I did as well.In fact,even a young lady I have known for quite a while complimented me by telling me that I am awesome.That was great.Those words really made my night last night and it motivates me to feel good about what I do even more.I can hardly wait until next week to do the same thing again.I am going to be practicing some new songs for Saturday night.Compliments like that motivate me even more to eagerly await next Saturday night to entertain the crowd.I really enjoy being an entertainer and entertaining the crowd.I enjoy singing and I enjoy it when other people enjoy it.It was a wonderful night.Again,I can hardly wait to do it again next week.
The only disappointment last night was that the Buffalo Sabres lost to the Montreal Canadians by a score of 4-3.Their next game is Tuesday night against the Pittsburgh Penguins in Pittsburgh.I am hoping that the Sabres can beat the Penguins and finally clinch the Northeast Division on Tuesday night.
Tomorrow,I am hoping to go out thrift shop hopping.I am also hoping to find some nice stuff tomorrow.
That was day and my night last night.FJ

Saturday, March 31, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better than I have had in recent day.I am also feeling very hopeful and optimistic.Today was a nice day weather wise and I did manage to get a couple of errands out of the way.I feel pretty good.I am just glad that the weekend is finally here.I am always glad for the weekends.Not only is it because I eagerly await it after a work week,it is because I get to do what I enjoy doing and that is entertaining people.I always look forward to entertaining the crowd every Saturday night with my singing.They always enjoy me and I enjoy the fact that they do.It's always a pleasure to entertain and sing to make others happy.It always gives me a measure of satisfaction.Still,I always hope for things to go well even though I rarely if ever have an off night.I always hope because you never know what might happen.I still enjoy what I do.
Tonight,the Buffalo Sabres are playing against the Montreal Canadians in Montreal.Right now,the Sabres are leading 1-0 in the opening period after Daniel Briere scored a few seconds ago.I am hoping that they can defeat the Montreal Canadians tonight.If they do,they will become the Northeast Division champions.It will be their first division championship in a little over a decade.The last time they won the Northeast Division was when Ted Nolan was the head coach.Again,I am hoping for a Buffalo Sabres victory tonight.It will be awesome to have them as the Northeast Division champions.The playoffs are not too far away.They have already clinched a playoff berth and that is awesome in itself.
The Canadians have just scored.The game is tied 1-1.
That was my day and my hoped for night tonight.FJ

Friday, March 30, 2007

Tonight,I am again feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth day on the job.Nothing really negative to write home about happened today.It was a pretty good day and I got a lot done.It was really great.I had a pretty easy day and that gave me a little satisfaction.
Despite having a good day,I still said some angry things to myself.I have been having difficulty with this as of late and it has been really getting me down.It started today within the area that I work.I work in the basement of the organization that I work and it started there today.When I got home,it continued.I did not know why I was doing this.I had a pretty good day and the work day went by smoothly but I still wound up saying very angry things to myself pretending that there are people there in front of me.After I ate dinner,I went for a walk and the walk made me feel better.I felt renewed and not so tensed up.But it did happen again when I got home only not as bad as it was when I was at home.I relaxed for a while and took it easy.But I still have this main problem with saying angry things to myself and it is making me even more miserable because it seems that it's unstoppable.I want to STOP doing this.Again,if anybody has any advice,please share it.Thanks.
The Buffalo Sabres were victorious yet again.They defeated the New York Islanders by a score of 6-4 tonight.Tomorrow night,they are going against the Montreal Canadians in Montreal.I hope that the Sabres can win a third consecutive game.They only need two points to clinch the Northeast Division.I hope that they can do it.
Tomorrow night is my night to entertain the crowd.I am hoping that it goes well.
That was my day.FJ

Thursday, March 29, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.It was a pretty smooth day today and everything worked out the way it should.My day on the job was a pretty easy one.Despite a setback in the morning due to the previous day's workers not finishing his job,I had a pretty smooth day.I just managed to get the whole thing done that I needed to do and it was pretty smooth.There were no messes to clean up at the pick-up site and that made it a little easier.Again,a very smooth day on the job.
Earlier this afternoon,I did have a spell where I once again said angry statements to myself while at home.It just seemed unstoppable.I could not quit even after I had dinner.I had a very smooth day today on the job,but somehow I just had a chip on my shoulder for something and/or somebody and I really did not know what it iwas or even who it was.It's something that I could not understand and I still do not understand this.I have searched for answers and I am hitting dead ends.I do not know what the problem could be.This has been a problem for quite some time and I do not know whait it is or what is bringing it on.
Since it was becoming too much,I said a prayer tonight and asked for forgiveness for this.I am trying to get a grip on my anger.I do not want it having a grip on me.It has had a grip on me for a long time and I do not want it to have a grip on me any more.
After saying that prayer,I simply went for a long walk.I had to get out of the house for a while.I thought that it would do me a world of good.The walk did me a lot of good.I felt better afterwards and it was refreshing.When I got home,I was in a better mood and I did not feel so tensed up.I guess that I will walk more often or maybe I should get my bicycle fixed and start riding it again.Again,the walk made me feel better and that gave me an excellent feeling.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.Tomorrow night is another Buffalo Sabres hockey game where they are hosting the New York Islanders in Buffalo.I am hoping that the Sabres can win another game.
That was my day.FJ

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling really good.I had a wonderful meeting tonight.I had a ball talking with the guys and hearing them share their stuff as well.It was terrific.It was great relating to a bunch of men on a normal level playing field rather than talking and not getting anything in return.I have had my share of that and I do not want any more of it.Again,I had a wonderful meeting tonight and it was great to talk with the guys and share my stuff and also listening to the other guys share their stuff.I am looking forward to the next one and I am hoping that it goes as well as this one did tonight.
Today,I talked to the guy who was selling the car and I gave the car a little run and it is a good car.My mechanic even thinks that it is a good car.That is wonderful.I am going to be driving a regular car again after driving a compact 4X4 for quite a while.It is also a four door and it will make my job a little easier when it comes to picking up the laundry and dropping it off.It will have a back seat and a trunk.That way,I can simply put the laundry bags in the back seat and there are no more hassles.Again,I am glad that everything worked out the way it did.
Today was simply a pick up day and that went smoothly without any hassles.There was no mess to pick up off the floor and that was good.I really hate picking up a mess in that room.I just hate to pick up after people who can pick up after themselves in the first place.Again,nothing like that today and that was great.
The Buffalo Sabres were victorious tonight.They defeated the New Jersey Devils by a score of 4-3.Their next game is Friday night when they host the New York Islanders in Buffalo.I am hoping that the Sabres can get a second consecutive victory and add more points to their record. That was day today and night.FJ

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a very good day today.The work day went by smoothly.It was wonderful to be back at work again making my money.Again,the work day went by smoothly and I had a very good day.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day for me.After that,the rest of the day is free.I also have an appointment to look at that car that a friend of my mechanic is selling.I am hoping that the car is as good as he says it is.I have been looking to get back into a regular car again.Again,I am hoping that this car is as good as my mechanic's friend says it is.
Tomorrow night is also my next meeting with my support group at the church.I am hoping that the meeting goes well.I really enjoy going to these meetings and they have been really helping me.I am getting an awful lot out of these.The men in my group listen to every word I say and they give me good advice as to how I can handle some of the issues that I have been trying to get resolved.Again,they are a swell bunch of guys who always listen and never judge.That is a great thing to be a part of.I am looking forward to tomorrow night and again,I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
I am still working on that problem of saying angry things to myself pretending that there are people there that I venting at.I am hoping that I can nip this problem in the butt soon because this is not a good thing.I want to STOP this thing once and for all but I do not know how to go about doing that.If anybody out there has some advice on how I can go about doing this,please share.I am desperate.Again,any advice is appreciated.
The Buffalo Sabres are hosting the New Jersey Devils tomorrow night in Buffalo.I am hoping that Sabres can win this game after that disappointing loss to the Maple Leafs in Toronto last Saturday night.
That was my day and my hoped for night tomorrow night.FJ

Monday, March 26, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling better.I felt a bit uplifted today after a good nights sleep.I also got some news today from my mechanic regarding a car for sale.The car belongs to a fellow customer of his.According to the customer,the car is in very good shape and and runs good.I am going to be looking at it on Wednesday and I hope that it's as good as he said it is.
Today,despite having a very bad thundershower,I went thrift shop hopping.I found some really nice stuff.I even found some clothing that fits me pretty good.It was a very good day.We had some sunny weather and then some rainy weather.It was a roller coaster ride today regarding the weather but I did not let it dampen my spirit today.I simply went thrift shop hopping and I had fun.After shopping,I had a light lunch at a chinese restaurant,which was an egg roll.After that,I went home.I had no problem getting home.I simply came back the way that I went only in the opposite direction.Again,I had a wonderful day and that was great.I am going to do it again next Monday.I just love doing this on my day off.It's better than just staying home and doing nothing.Plus,I just can't stay in my city and go shopping.I have to go out and check out other thrift shops in other areas.Again,I really enjoy this and it gives me some satisfaction when I do.Plus,it's also great to get out of my boring hometown for a few hours.Once again,a wonderful day.
The Buffalo Sabres next game is Wednesday night when they host the New Jersey Devils in Buffalo.After that disappointing loss to the Toronto Maple Leafs on Saturday night,a win would be great to make me forget about that loss.
Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that it goes by smoothly.
That was my day.FJ

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I am feeling depressed at the moment.It is just an occasional spell of the blues that I get when I least expect it.But I took a couple of St.John's Wort capsules and I am hoping that I feel better.Again,this is just an occasional spell of depression.I am not a chronically depressed person.There are times that I feel great and there are times that I feel not so great.But I did take a couple of herbal capsules and I am hoping that the spell passes soon.I just hate being depressed.But I know that it is a natural human emotion and since it's not chronic,I don't have to be dependant on anti-depressants.I have heard so much in the news about those types of drugs and what I have heard in the news regarding them is not so good.
Last night,I went out to entertain and that went pretty good.I managed to try out one new song while reaquainting myself with a few old ones.It was a very good night for me.I had a blast entertaining the crowd with my singing and that was awesome.I always have a very good night entertaining and I enjoy what I do.I also enjoy it when other people enjoy what I do.This actually motivates me to do it every week even more.Again,I love what I do and I enjoy it every step of the way.
Today,there was nothing much to do.I just ran an errand and that was it.It was a pretty boring day today.There wasn't anything to do around my home town.Then again,there never is anything to do where I live anyway.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am going to do some more thrift shop hopping.I am hoping to some more nice clothes for myself.I can hardly wait for that.I enjoy going thrift shop hopping on my day's off.It's fun.
That was my day today and my night last night.FJ

Saturday, March 24, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.It was a semi decent day today for me.I got to spend a few hours home alone.I rarely ever have time to myself anymore.So,when my mother was going shopping with my sister and my niece,I smiled because I got to spend much of the day at home by myself while my mom and my sister and niece went out and about.I watched a few classic cartoons on DVD while I was doing a computer scan to see if there were any viruses on my database.Though I did one last night,I did another one because while I was opening up e-mail files in my Yahoo e-mail box,the top of the internet page showed black in some areas and I signed out and closed off the internet and started over.After I was done with my personal e-mail work,I deleted some and emptied the trash before signing out.I did a thorough virus scan to see if my computer had any viruses and after about an hour and a half,there were none.I was relieved that there were no viruses or even spyware on the computer.After that,I took it easy for the rest of the day.
I only had to run one errand for my mother today.I had to get a couple of extras for dinner and some more soap because I was almost out of it.After eating,I checked my messages and had only a few.Right now,I am relaxing and getting ready to entertain the crowd tonight.I am hoping that everything goes well.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I still always hope for things to go well.
Tonight,the Buffalo Sabres are having a rematch with the Toronto Maple Leafs in Toronto.Right now,the Sabres are division leaders and are still hoping to clinch a playoff berth.Toronto,on the other hand,is below the top 8 for playoff contention.I hope that the Sabres can defeat the Leafs a second consecutive time tonight.A second consecutive win would be totally sweet.
That was my day today and my hoped for night.FJ

Friday, March 23, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.The work day went by pretty smoothly.I did my job and that went by fast.I also did some reading of The Anger Wprkbook today.This,unlike The Anger Trap,is more of a spiritual book rather than a secular.It shares scriptures from the Holy Bible and it also offers some ideas on how I can keep my emotions under control.Today,nothing really negative happened to write about and that was good.Again,it was a pretty smooth work day and that was also pretty good.
I am still having the problem of saying angry things to myself pretending that there are people there and it is still crushing me.I still would like to STOP doing that because it is bringing me down.I just do not know what I am going to do.If there is a way that I can stop this habit,I would like some advice.Thanks in advance.Though I have not done this in front of other people,I still would like to STOP this.As I have stated previously,I could wind up unintentionally hurting myself or others and that would not be good.I do not want to do that.I want people to approach me and not be afraid to do so.I would also like for them to talk to me and even like having me around.If I don't stop this,the opposite just might happen.That is something that I don't want to happen.
On a positive side,I had a good day and I got through another day without losing my temper.Not only that,the Buffalo Sabres defeated the Toronto Maple Leafs tonight by a score of 5-4.It did look bad for Buffalo for most of the game when the Leafs took a 4-1 lead and held on to it for most of the game.Buffalo would rally to come from behind by scoring 4 consecutive goals to defeat the Leafs.The Sabres and Leafs are having a rematch tomorrow night in Toronto.I hope that the Sabres can pull another win over the Leafs tomorrow night and I also hope that they do not make the same mistakes that they made tonight like costly turnovers and stupid penalties.The Sabres barely escaped this one tonight and that was great.I hope that that they can pull it off again and this time without any more costly mistakes.
Tomorrow night is my night to entertain the crowds.I am hoping that the night goes well.
That was my day.FJ

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.It was a very good day at work for me.The work day went by smoothly and I got a lot done.The work day was a pretty good one today.
I started reading a new book by Les Carter and Frank Minirth called The Anger Workbook.I am going to start doing the work in the workbook tomorrow and jot down some of the issues that have contributed to why I am having a tough time controlling my anger.So far,I have not lost my temper in quite a while since the last time I did and it got me into trouble.But I do have one problem.I am constantly always saying angry things to myself pretending that there are people there in front of me when there is nobody there.I don't do this in front of other people but when I am alone.I work alone in a basement as part of my job with the rehabilitation agency that I work for.It has been a problem with me for quite a while and I would like to stop this habit because I could wind up hurting somebody else unintentionally or even hurt myself where people would not want me around.Though I have been making progress,according to my counselors,my supervisor and other people that I know,I would like to nip this other problem in the butt.It has really been crushing me.I want to STOP saying/shouting angry things to myself because as I have stated above,I do not want to accidently hurt myself or others.Again,it's been really crushing me and I feel that I am never going to be free of this.I want to be free.I want to control my emotions,including anger.I don't want my emotions controlling me.I feel as if I am walking on a bridge that is gonna crash down if I do not walk carefully enough to prevent it from falling.
On a positive note,I am still living and still trying to enjoy life the best way I know how.Despite my problems,I am still hanging in there and trying to keep myself under control one day at a time.But this problem that I have is really bringing me down and I,at times,feel miserable whenever it happens.I just want to be free and live without having my emotions ensnaring me.
Again,the work day went well and that was good.
But I need any advice on how I can contain this problem and keep it contained.Any advice would be helpful.Thanks so much.FJ

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very wonderful day today.It was simply awesome and I feel a little bit better today.
Today was simply a pick-up day at work for me.I picked up a couple bags of laundry and they were all bagged and ready for me when I arrived to pick them up.After I dropped them off and sorted the laundry out,I turned in some bottles at a local supermarket and got some extra cash that I really needed.I did my personal computer work and had a light lunch.
I also had a wonderful meeting with my sexual abuse support counselor this afternoon.I am glad that this went well.I also had a wonderful group meeting tonight and I am also glad that it went well.It was wonderful to talk and let all that emotional baggage go as you do so.We also had three new men join our group and that was even more wonderful.It makes our little group look a whole lot bigger.It was terrific to have some new guys in the group.We all let ourselves go in conversation and it was great to let it all out.It was a wonderful meeting and I am looking forward to the next meeting next Wednesday night.
Tonight,the Buffalo Sabres were victorious.The defeated the Washington Capitals tonight by a score of 5-2.Their next game is Friday night when they host the Toronto Maple Leafs in Buffalo.I hope that the Sabres can make it two in a row on Friday night.
Tomorow is another work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day.FJ

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very smooth work day today and that was great.I even had a nice talk with one of the job coaches today on the job and it was short,but pleasant.I have really nothing negative to talk about regarding today on the job.So,I will leave it at that.
I am at home right now.The night is COLD but tonight will be the last blast of arctic weather because it will be warmer tomorrow.It is going to be in the upper 40's and there will be rain tomorrow night to melt the snow and ice.I hope that the warm weather will stay awhile because I have had it with the freezing cold.I know that it is Winter but the COLD wintry weather does get tiresome after a while.After taking out the trash,I am going to bathe and get ready for bed.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I only have to pick up the laundry and drop it off at the work site and go home.I also have a meeting with my sexual abuse support counselor tomorrow afternoon and i am hoping that it goes well.I also have my group meeting at the church tomorrow night and likewise,I am also hoping that it goes well.Tomorrow is special for one other reason,it will be my 7th anniversary of giving up smoking cigarettes.I am glad that I no longer smoke and not having to be dependant on an ash tray whenever I least expect it.But again,I have gotten through 7 years and I am taking not smoking as a one day at a time thing and not thinking of "never doing it again".But I am glad that I have gotten this far and I am ready to go at it again for another year.I still feel that I have accomplished something by this and that gives me a great feeling.Tomorrow night,the Buffalo Sabres are hosting the Washington Capitals at home.I am hoping for a Sabres victory tomorrow night.
That was my day.FJ

Monday, March 19, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling good.I had a wonderful day today.It was truly something.I went thrift shop hopping today as planned and I found some really great stuff.Aside fron finding some nice clothes that fit,I found some more great records to add to my record collection.I did find one that I have been looking for,which made me feel great.It was a nice record album by The Mystic Moods Orchestra.I even listened to it today when I got home as I was sorting out the stuff that I bought.I can now get rid of the really scratched copy that I have been holding onto for a long time.I am glad to have found this album.Again,I had a really great day out.It was great to get out of the city for a while and go somewhere else.I am still hoping to take that trip that I have been holding off on for a long time.I am hoping to take it this year sometime in the near future because I am tired of putting it off so much.Again,I am hoping to make the trip this year and I hope that nothing stands in my way of finally taking it.New York state is nice but I want to go elsewhere for a change.I did leave town for a few days back in 2004 and that was a wonderful experience.It was the first time that I went away since going to summer camp when I was 13.
Again,today was a wonderful day.I got out for a while and that was great.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day.FJ

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.There was not too much to do today because the weather was not too pleasing.But I did get out for a while and I managed to get some stuff done.First,I ran an errand for my mom.Second,I bought a couple slices of pizza and I even managed to visit a shopping mall in my home town and walked around a bit.I simply browsed the stores to see if they had anything nice in stock.They did,but the prices were expensive.I did not have any money with me today anyway.I just went in to look and I walked around the mall for a bit.I left and I went home.After dinner,I relaxed,catched up on my e-mail and even had a talk with a friend of mine from New Jersey.He's doing good.I am glad that he is.
Last night,I went out to do my usual entertaining the crowd.What a night!The place I entertain at was having a St.Patrick's Day party and there was also a raffle.It was also a birthday for one of the semi-regulars and we all sang Birthday by The Beatles off The White Album.I even managed to sing a couple of new songs.It was a very exciting night.I did not leave until a little after 3:00 a.m. in the morning.While on the way home last night,I stopped to get some gas so I would be able to start my vehicle up the next day after a bitterly cold night.Again,last night was great and today was pretty good.I even had a friend who lives in my hometown with me along with his girlfriend.We all had a blast.I did not wake up today until 11:45 a.m.Next week,I am hoping that everything returns to normal.
The only disappointment today was that the Buffalo Sabres lost this afternoon by a score of 4-3 in overtime to the Atlanta Thrashers.But I am happy that the Sabres played a great game and did not try to let the Thrashers walk all over them.The Sabres host the Washingtom Capitals on Wednesday night in Buffalo.I am hoping for a Buffalo Sabres win.
Tomorrow is a day off.I am hoping to do some more thrift shop hopping tomorrow.I am hoping to find some nice things to wear.
That was day and my night last night.FJ

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.I am going out tonight to entertain the crowd and I am hoping that it will go well.Though I rarely have an off night,I still always hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.I will be trying out a few new songs tonight and I am hoping that they go over well enough.I always practice and after that,I hope for the best.Tonight,I wil be having a couple of friends along with me as I am doing that.Again,I am hoping that all goes well.
Today,I ran a few errands.That actually worked out pretty well.I managed to find what I was looking for.After the snowfall last night,the weather was a bit cold but it was not very cold.Some of the snow that fell last night was actually melting little by little.Right now,the weather has cooled down somewhat and the snow has stopped melting.Tomorrow,I am hoping that a little more will melt.Before that,we are supposed to get a little bit more snow tonight.Thank goodness that the first day of Spring is almost here.I will be happy for that.Aside from Winter being over,I will be celebrating 7 happy years of not smoking.I gave up smoking cigarettes on the first day of Spring in 2000.If I can still stay smoke free until Wednesday,it will be a full happy 7 years.I don't really miss them any more.
Again,I am hoping that the night goes well.Tomorrow,the Buffalo Sabres are playing an afternoon game against the Atlanta Thrashers.I am hoping that the Sabres can get a third consecutive victory.
That was my day and my hoped for night.FJ

Friday, March 16, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.It was a very good day for me.The work day went by smoothly and that was good.Again,it was a very good day.
After I got home from work,I turned on my computer and I did a virus scan on my computer while helping my mother out by taking her to do some last minute grocery shopping.It was a wonderful time out.The only drawback was that it's snowing again.It started snowing around 4:45 pm today and it is still snowing.According to the National Weather Service,there will not be too much accumulation and we are supposed to get back to warmer temperatures on Monday.I am hoping to do some more thrift shop hopping on Monday.I am still hoping to find some nice clothes that will fit.When I got home,I checked my computer and there were no viruses or spyware on it.YAY!I did my personal work and that was good.
Tonight,the Buffalo Sabres won again.They defeated the Tampa Bay Lightning by a score of 3-2.Their next game is Sunday afternoon against the Atlanta Thrashers.I am hoping for a third consecutive win.
Tomorrow night is my night to sing for the crowd.I am hoping that the night goes well.
That was my day.FJ