Tonight,I am feeling okay.It was a pretty good day today.The work shift went by smoothly.I simply did my job and the rest took care of itself.I also had a pretty good lunch.I even had some nice conversations with a few people at work and that was good.
After I came home,I went out again to do a couple of things for my mom.I also went to pay my car insurance bill today and it is now paid for this month.I had to pay this because it was due today and it is now paid to avoid late fees.Afterwards,I took it easy at home and I had a very good dinner.I also went for a drive.The reason why I did was because I am thinking of trying a sexual addicts support group at another church in another area.I heard about it through someone who goes to my Wednesday night meetings at the church in another area.The only difference is that this group at the Catholic church is non-spiritually based.The Wednesday night Baptist church ones are spiritually based.Again,I have been thinking of trying this because I do struggle with sexual addiction.I have been looking into attending a sexual addiction support group for quite a while and now that I have heard about this,I am thinking about giving it a try.My addiction at the moment is masturbation.But in the past,my addictions were simply performing oral sex on other males.Though I have not performed any sexual activity,oral or otherwise,with any man in quite a while,I still have fleeting thoughts surrounding this area and this has been contributing to my problems with masturbation.My emotional state due to my niece not complying with the verbal agreement that we made regarding the car insurance at the moment and that one issue with that friend who has said that he wants to patch things up with me but he's not returning my phone calls has made my SSA sky-rocket as of late and I feel that I need extra support regarding this.As I have previously stated,I do not want to act out on my desires because that will not give me the fulfillment that I am seeking or looking for.Nor will it give me the satisfaction that I truly need to feel like A MAN among men.Plus,I made a commitment to change my orientation and not reaffirm the Homosexual/Gay identity that I am trying to get rid of.Performing anything sexual,including oral sex,on a man will only reaffirm this identity that I do not want nor do I want to be affiliated with because I am trying to show that I am stronger than my desires and that they do not control me.I know that I did masturbate yesterday but I have been forgiven for that and I am moving on.Deep down,I do not believe in Homosexuality and I know that deep down,I do not find men sexually attractive.I was sexually abused by other males while I was groing up and this has really made it rough because the sexual abuse that I endured,including the rape episode that I endured when I was 16,really confused me and made me think that I was Gay,which I am not.I do not want to even be labeled this because in reality,there is no such thing as such.It is only the desires and the condition,which is emotional in nature and not sexual.But I know that deep down,I am not that at all,nor do I believe in having sexual relations with other men.I believe in the law that was set forth by the creator and that is man and woman.Again,I have to let my desires know that I control them.It is not them that control me.It is going to be tough but I am determined to do that.If I have to attend another group,than I have to.Again,I am thinking of giving this group a try in the near future.It if works out,great.If not,then it was worth a try.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.After that,it's the weekend.I am looking forward to that.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a wonderful meeting tonight at the church.The meetings are always wonderful.It is always great to get a lot of emotional baggage off of my chest.After the relapse I had today,I really needed that lift.
Earlier this afternoon,when I was home alone and my mom was at the beauty parlor,I was in such an emotional tirade over what has been happening to me this week,I wound up masturbating.My emotional state for much of the day was not very good.My niece giving me a hard time regarding the money that she owes for the insurance this month and my wanting to patch things up with somebody that is not even getting off of the ground by his lack of returning phone calls to me when I leave them on his answering machine.Still,I am holding on to the hope that it will get off of the ground soon enough.But my relapse really made me feel down but after I said a little prayer to ask for forgiveness and even forgave myself,I felt better.Still,the guilt did hang on to me for a while afterwards.But over the course of the day,I felt better.The meeting tonight was wonderful and it really made feel better.It is great that I found out about this group and to finally belong and be a part of a group is very rewarding and reassuring.I am looking forward to my next meeting next Wednesday night.
Tonight,when I got home,I got some rather distressing news.My little grandniece is sick.She has strep throat and scarlet fever.My niece had to pay some money because she does not have any medical insurance with her in between jobs at the moment.But my niece has already assured me that she will pay me back on Friday and that everything will work out.I am just hoping that my little grandniece gets better soon.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.I am also going to be paying the car insurance tomorrow so I can keep it current.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.It was a very good day today.I had a very smooth work day today.The day went by pretty fast.I simply did my job and the rest took care of itself.After dropping off the clean laundry,I simply went home.I took it easy for a while at home because it was a very hot and humid day today.I had to go to the laundromat today to do my dirty underwear.Since it was hot and humid,I waited for the weather to cool for a while before leaving to do so.Before I went to the laundromat,I went to Sears to pick up some extra underwear because I did not have enough undershirts and socks to go along with the underpants that I had.So,I bought those to make it even.
The time at the laundromat was very positive.I talked with a few people and the conversations were nice.After my laundry was done,I bagged it and went home.
I am now at home relaxing.I am anticipating tomorrow because I have to do a pick-up in the morning.I also have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor in the afternoon and I have my weekly support group meeting at the church tomorrow night.I am hoping that both of these meetings go well.Again,I am anticipating tomorrow and I am hoping that everything works out for the best for me.
Thatw as my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a not too eventful day today.I simply ran a few errands for my mom today.The day was also pretty sunny and bright today alongside being humid.But I just went about my business today and let nothing get between what I had to do.I simply went about the day.
I have been under a lot of stress as of late.The stress has been coming from my niece's uncooperation with a verbal agreement that we made late last year.My neice is currently on my insurance so she can drive her mini van to get here kids to school and to get back and forth to work.She agreed to give me her half of the money a week before the due date but she has not been cooperating.I have explained this to her but apparently,I don't think that what I am trying to get through is doing any good.She always says that she agrees but she always pays late.I always keep making sacrifices that I feel that I should not have to make in order to keep paying the insurance on time so I will not get in bad with my company.This has been going on for a long time and no matter what I say to her,it seems to fall on deaf ears.I understand that she has three kids and that she always has to think of them firsthand.But a verbal agreement is a verbal agreement.At least,that is the way I feel about it.I just hope that I do not have to make any more of these because I feel that I am really going to go crazy if I have to do that again.I am going to pay the bill tomorrow and I am hoping that this will not be a problem in the long run.I am just hoping that the rest of the week goes well.
Whenever my stress level goes up,my SSA skyrockets.I am trying to heal from unwanted SSA attractions but this is making them worse.Whenever my SSA skyrockets,I crave acting out sexually with other men and I do not want to do that.Deep down,it's what I want to do because it is all I have ever known but I am trying to leave the Gay sexual subculture behind and on the surface,it is not what I want to do.I truly believe that sexual relations between two men is unnatural and I do not want to go back there.I know the minute that I have sexual relations with one man,I want to have sexual relations with another man and so on until I am right back where I was before I started my healing from unwanted SSA.I don't want to indulge in this stuff because I do not believe in it nor do I think is the right way for a man to be or do.I am determined to heal and I am determined to be the Heterosexual man that I want to be as well as the man that I have always wanted to be.I want REAL male friends who I can confide in and trust and have the healthy relationships that every guy needs in order to be and even feel like a REAL man.I do not want to think of men as potential sexual partners nor do I want to think of them as anything having to do with that.I truly and way deep down believe that Homosexual sexual behavior is wrong and unnatural and it is not a healthy alternative to Heterosexuality.Again,I am determined to be a Heterosexual man and I am determined to overcome SSA at all costs.I am just hoping that the rest of the week goes by smoothly and that I do not have to make unneccessary sacrifices just to keep up with life.I am trying to save up money,not spend more.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.I could use a smooth work day and I could also use a smooth week.If the rest of the week goes by smoothly,that will be good.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I was out of the house for most of the day.I ran a few errands for my mom.I had to pick up a couple of her prescriptions at the drug store.I also had lunch,which was my usual pepperroni pizza.I also manged to look around a few stores to look for IPOD players and compare prices.They are pretty expensive but they will get lower priced in the next few years.What I am interested in most is finding a CD recorder.I would like to transfer a few out of print LP's that I have onto CD.That way,I can preserve the vinyl records and keep them looking good.I am going to keep looking until I find one.I know that I have to save up for one but it will be well worth it.I would like to have some of my favorite records on CD because some of what I have in my vinyl collection are rare and hard to find and I want to keep the vinyl in good to great condition.I am a collector of rare records and again,I want to make sure that I keep my collection in good to near mint shape.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd was another big success.I really wowed them with the new songs that I tried out.The two new songs that I tried out were by Jethro Tull.The audience really showed their appreciation to me for what I did.It was another successful night for me and I am looking forward to the next time.I am hoping that the next night is as successful as last night.I really enjoy what I do.It is always a pleasure to entertain a crowd who always enjoys what I do.
Today,I did have a fun time out.I did not buy anything but I still had a wonderful time out.It was just great to get out and simply be out in the community getting some air and exercise.Yes,I enjoyed myself today.
Tomorrow is my day off.I have nothing planned but I know that something will come up.
That was my day today,my night last night and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.It was a very good day today.After I picked up a DVD set that I borrowed to a friend from his place,I went to have light lunch and picked up a couple of things for my mom.The day was a beautiful sunny day and it was less humid.I had a pretty good day.I also took my mom grocery shopping so she could stock up for the month.After we got home,I bathed and we had dinner.Overall,a very good day.
I am now relaxing at home.I am getting ready to entertain the crowd tonight.I am feeling pretty good as I am anticipating this.The nights are always super and I always have a blast entertaining the crowd.I am hoping that the night goes well.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.It is a habit of mine to hope because you never know what might happen.But still,I rarely have an off night.But again,I still hope for things to go well.But I feel that the night is going to be another big success and everything will work out fine.Though I do have that feeling,I still hope that things go well for me tonight.
That was mny day today and my hoped for night tonight.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very smooth work day today.The day just went by pretty fast.I did my duties and after that,I headed for home.Before that,I had to make a few stops along the way.I stopped at a store to pick a few things for diner and I also went to the bank to cash my paycheck.The day,weatherwise, was very hot hazy and humid.But I did not let it get me down.I was just glad to get home and when I got home,we had a very bad thunderstorm that only lasted for mostly an hour.Again,I did not let the weather dampen my spirits.I worked to stay upbeat and whatever I did,it worked.
I am now at home relaxing.For most of the evening,I simply watched a movie while a virus scan was being done on my computer.I watched the original Alien movie from 1979.It was part of a special limited edition 3 DVD pack that I bought at Target on Sunday after I did my laundry.This was the first time that I had watched this movie.I had already seen Aliens and Alien 3.Alien was actually pretty good.The whole movie took place on a spaceship.It all starts when one of the crew members gets an alien creature clutched onto his face and afther that,all hell breaks loose on board the ship.The DVD also had deleted scenes and trailers.Overall,it was a good movie and well worth the wait all these years.I did manage to read the novelization of the film in junior high school years ago but the movie was better than the book.I enjoyed it and I highly recommend the film to anyone who is interested.
The weekend is finally here.I am going to be entertaining the crowd tomorow night at the place where I do so.I am looking forward to that because I really enjoy what I do.It is always a blast getting to use my talents and having people enjoy me.Again,I am looking forward to that.I am hoping that the evening goes well.
By the way,the virus scan was negative.No viruses or spyware was on my computer.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.It was a pretty good day today.I had a very smooth work shift today and that was great.I had the afternoon off,which will be what I will have from now on.I look at this extra free time to work on my issues and to continue working on keeping my emotions,including anger,under control and in check.I guess that this could be something that the creator in Heaven wants for me.Still,I am going to miss working Thursday afternoons.I am just going to have to fill it with some constructive activity.I do not know what that will be but I will figure it out eventually.Right now,I am just going to have to think about it for now and see what I can come up with.Until then,I'll just take it easy for now.
Today was also a hot,humid day.I was sweating pretty much but when I got home,I stayed there until the weather cooled down.After that,I went to run an errand for my mom and had me a Dilly Bar at a Dairy Queen in my area.A pretty good day.It was nice and I was glad to get a lot accomplished.Again,I am just going to take it easy until I figure on how I am going to fill my time with the extra free time that I will now have.I know that I will think of something.
Tomorrow is yet another work day and I am hoping that the day goes as smoothly as today.After that,it's the weekend.
Last night,the Anaheim Mighty Ducks became Stanley Cup champions.I was glad to see them win the cup.Don't get me wrong,I am still a Sabres fan and they are still my team.But since the Ottawa Senators eliminated the Sabres from the playoffs,I was hoping that the Mighty Ducks would win the cup.The hopes came through and now,I am happy.I look at this as revenge for the Senators eliminating the Sabres.Now,I look at it as revenge set and met.I can now forget that the Senators eliminated the Sabres from the playoffs.But again,as previously stated,I am still proud of my team for their accomplishments this season.They won the President's Trophy for having the best record in the league this season and they got pretty far in the playoffs.They did put a solid team effort in everything that they did this season and for that,I am still as proud as I am for them.I am hoping that the Sabres can do better next season.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.The pick-up day for me went by pretty well.There was no mess to pick up at the pick-up place and that was great.After dropping it off,I went for a little drive around the city.I had a few errands to run and I figured that I would get them done right away.I had to pick up a few things for myself and for my mom.Afterwards,I went to do my personal computer work.Everything was going good for a while until I ran into some trouble.A friend of mine from the UK sent me a hello message via MSN messenger but in the middle of the conversation,I tried to access a movie theatre website for showtimes and was inundated with pop-ups.I had a hard time getting rid of those and the MSN messenger thing disappeared during all this insanity.I even tried to get back to doing my personal work but the internet explorer was not cooperating.I tried to access my personal e-mail box but it was not responding.I had to close off the internet and restart the computer so I could get it going the right away again.Afterwards,I finished my work and had dinner.There were no problems after that and I managed to get my work done.
Tonight,I had a wonderful meeting with my support group at the church.It was great to get rid of a lot of emotional baggage that I was carrying around for the past few days.It was great that they were listening and that made me feel appreciated.It is great that I found out about this group.It was a wonderful meeting and I am looking forward to the next meeting.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth work day today.Nothing really negative to write about and the day went by pretty fast.I just did my job and that gave me a sense of accomplishment.The day was a bit cooler today with a little tad of rain.We were supposed to get a downpour but that bypassed.Again,I had a pretty smooth day today.
When I got home today,my mom was watching my grand nieces and grand nephew.There was not really a lot of quiet this afternoon.But I winged it and around 6:30 this evening,my niece came and picked them up.
Right now,it is very quiet and I am relaxing.I really like it this way.I can now relax and rest my mind.I also had to do some running around today after I ate.I went to get some gas in my tank and I also had to get a quart of motor oil because I found that I was a quart low.After that,I went home and I stayed there for the rest of evening.
Tomorrow is a pick up day.After that,I am taking my mom to the beauty parlor so she can get her hair done.I will have the house all to myself for a short time.It will be great to be on my own for a while so I can relax my thoughts and prepare for my support group meeting at the church tomorrow night.I am eagerly awaiting the meeting tomorrow night.It will be great to talk with the guys again.I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day off today.I mostly helped out my mom today.I took her to buy a new coffee maker.While she was busy checking them out,I went to do some shopping for her.She needed a few things for herself and I went to a supermarket that was not too far away from the department store where she was looking for a new coffee maker.After doing that,I picked my mom and we went home.
Before I helped her out,I managed to help my neighbor do some pruning.She wanted to trim some branches off of a tree and I helped her out.It only took a few minutes.
I am at home at the moment.I am relaxing and taking it easy.I am getting prepared for the work week.Tomorrow is the start of the work week for me and I am hoping that the day goes by pretty well.I am also hoping that there is no mess to clean at the spot where I have to pick-up.I always hate it when there is a mess to pick up.The people there can actually pick up after themselves and there is no need to just throw the dirty laundry just about anywhere.Again,I am hoping that it goes by smoothly the whole day.
The best thing to happen is that I finally got my Buffalo Sabres medallions.I ordered them back in mid-May and I got them today in the mail.They are truly neat.I am glad to have these because I am a fan of one of the greatest teams in the world.The Buffalo Sabres are truly that and then some.Again,I am glad to have these.
Tomorrow,it is going to be raining pretty much.According to the National Weather Service,it will be a heavy downpour that will last much of the day.It is a good thing because we do need rain after some of the heat and humidity that we have been having.It has been pretty hot,hazy and humid.But now,we are supposed to have a cool down starting tomorrow with rain.I am glad for that much welcome break from the heat and humidity from the past few days.
Thatw as my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.It was a fairly decent day today.I got a lot accomplished today and that contributes to why I am feeling the way that I feel.
I had to go the laundromat today to do my dirty underwear.My mom's washer is still under the weather and I had to do it at the laundromat once again.Still,I got it done and I now have clean underwear to get me through the week.While waiting for it,I enjoyed a pepperoni pizza lunch at the laundromat.After that was done,I made a couple of stops on the way home.I stoped at a Target store in my area and picked up the Alien 3 pack that they had.It was only available through them and there was a clearance sale on them.I figured that I would pick it up while I could before they were gone.After that,I went to a supermarket on the same plaza to pick up some ice cream.While waiting to cash it out,I ran into an inconsiderate lady who had the nerve to actually ring up two seperate orders at same manual cash out register.There were several other people waiting alongside me and this inconsiderate lady was ringing up two seperate orders.She finished one order and then started ringing up more after that.I was really mad that I was waiting with only item and she was just slowly and deliberately taking up so much time to do just one order on two seperate intervals on the same manual register.I complained and when she was finally finished,I sighed and said "It's about time!"Than that lady griped by saying "There's Something Wrong With You!You Need Help!"I answered by saying that she was the one that needed help because she was being inconsiderate.She just gave me a dirty look and took off.I rang up my ice cream,paid for it and left.Before leaving,I brought it up with a customer service manager and she said that these things do happen at times and that she understood how I felt and there was nothing wrong with that.I went home shortly afterwards.
Last night,I had a blast singing.I did three songs from The Beatles album Sargeant Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band to commemorate the 40th anniversary of the release of the album by singing a few songs from it.Again,the night was a success and I had a great time.I look forward to the next week to entertain the crowd and I am hoping that the night goes as well as this one.
Tomorrow is a day off as usual.I will be helping out my mom again.She wants to get a new coffee maker because our old one conked out.We have been using an old stand-by for a while and my mom would like to store the old stand-by again because she doesn't want it to break down.I am hoping that the whole day goes well.
That was my day today,my night last night and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.It was a very good day for me.The weather might have been hot hazy and humid but I managed to get a lot done.I went to do some personal shopping for myself and I managed to get everything that I needed.I now have plenty to last me throughout this month.That gives me a feeling of accomplishment and that makes feel pretty good.I am glad to have gotten everything that I needed to get done and that was great.I now have a good month of supplies to last me through.
Tonight,I am going to be singing for the crowds.I do not know what I will be doing tonight but I know that it will be special.I am also hoping for everything to go well.I rarely,if ever,have an off night singing but I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.But again,I always hope for things to go well.Usually they do,but you never know.
I also had to run one more errand before checking into here tonight.I had to pick up a submarine sandwich for dinner.It was great to have a fresh submarine sandwich instead of one that sits around waiting to be bought.It was very good.I enjoyed it.My mom and I shared it by splitting it in half.Again,it was really good.
Tomorrow,I am going back to the laundromat to do more of my dirty underwear.Just one of those things that you have to do before the new week begins.You always got to have clean underwear.
That was my day today and my hoped for night tonight.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay yet again.I had a pretty smooth work shift and I was glad to get my job done and await the weekend.I am just glad that the month of May is over with.May was a terrible month for me moneywise.My bank account was overdrawn twice last month so I had to make two deposits to remove the overdrawn funds.After that,my account stayed in the black for the rest of the month.I really had to hold onto money last month because I had to pay cash consisitently for my regular fill ups on gasoline.I can not believe that gas has jumped to over $3.00 per gallon.It is insane.I have never paid that much for a gallon of gas.I will be glad to get my new car on the road soon.I am already feeling the pain at the pump by constantly filling up my compact 4X4 vehicle everytime that I turn around.Again,I will be glad to get my new car on the road and start saving on gas.It will be great to do that.It will also be great to driving a very economical car for a change.
As stated above,the work day was pretty smooth.After I left work,I had to do a few things for my mom before coming home.I also had to cash some checks for her and myself.I also had to pay a bill at my bank as well.But I am glad to get that out of the way.I can now take it easy for the rest of the evening.I also bought a couple of DVD's for myself.
When I got home,I did some more personal computer work and went back out to get some dinner for me and my mom.Nothing special,just some specials at Taco Bell.But it was pretty good.The dinner was filling and we both enoyed it.
Tonight,the reason why I am posting this early is because I am going to a birthday party.A friend invited me to his house for a small party and I will be going.It is great that I am going to be visiting with him for a while.It will be great to talk with him face to face again.I am looking forward to this tonight.
Tomorrow is the weekend.I am going to be doing my usual singing for the crowd tomorrow night.I do not know what I will do but I know that it will be special.I am looking forward to that.I am hoping that it all goes well.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.
That was my day today and my hoped for day & night tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth work day today.I learned today that my hours are once again being cut.You see,the recently hired new trainee is going to be taking over Thursday afternoons.I wil still be workingthe mornings but the afternoons are going to the trainee.It is sad but I guess that the trainee needs to get a litle bit more in so he can better prepare himself for the world of work on the outside.It is sad that I am losing a couple of hours but I guess that is how life is.Life has it's ups and downs.Oh well!I am still going to be working a full day on Tuesday and I will be working mornings on Thursday and afternoons on Friday.I am still going to be doing pick-ups 4 days a week.Still,what I got is better than nothing.I am still with a job and it is better than being unemployed.I am still glad that I am still working and it will still keep me busy.
Today was a very hot and humid day.I had to do some stuff before going home today after work.I had to drop off a screen at a hardware store in my area to get fixed.I also had a doctor's appointment today but I was waiting for 45 minutes to see him.My appointment time was 3:45 p.m. and I waited until 4:30 p.m. to see the doctor.I talked to the doctor about my life and how my job was going and that was it.I got my prescription and I dropped it off at the drug store.Before that,I had to mail out something for my mom.But due to the time that I had to wait to see the doctor,I almost did not make it to the post office.I just made it with only 10 minutes to spare and I got out what I had to get out.After that,I went home.
I am now at home taking it easy.I also have a lot to do tomorrow.I have to go to the bank after work to cash my paycheck and to withdrawl some money for my mom and myself.It is the first of the month and it is also payday.I also have to buy some take-out food for dinner tomorrow for me and my mother.I am also hoping that my work shift goes well tomorrow afternoon.After that,it's the weekend and I am looking forward to that.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a wonderful day today.Today was simply a pick-up day and that went as well as expected.No mess to clean up and everything went good.On the way home,I stopped and bought a meatball submarine for lunch and it was great.I enjoyed it.After lunch,I went and finished off my personal computer work and that gave me a feeling of accomplishment.For dinner,I simply had a bowl of hot tomato soup with a garlic flavored muffin.That was great.The day went by pretty well and made me feel a bit better.
Tonight,I went to my support group meeting at the church and that was wonderful.I simply shared what I had to get off of my chest.It was simply everything that happened to me during the last few days and it was great to get rid of all that emotional baggage.I feel much better at the moment.On the way home from the meeting,I had my window down with music blaring from my vehicle's CD player.It was wonderful to have the music blaring and have the window down.After I left the meeting,I had a smile on my face that would not leave.I guess that since the day went by smoothly,it gave me a wonderful feeling of satisfaction.That can not be bought at a store nad that is what makes that feeling even better.
I am now at home taking it easy.It is a wonderful semi-cool evening outside and i am hoping for a good nights rest.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a bit better than I have been over the past couple of days.Nothing negative to write about happened and that is pretty good.The work day went by prety smoothly and that also made me feel a bit better.I am looking forward to my support group metting tomorrow night at the church so I can blow off a little more steam.It is great to do that.It is also even greater to have men listening rather than ignoring you.I am looking forward to tomorrow night's meeting.I hope that the meeting goes well.
Today,after coming home from work,I took my mom to the bank that currently holds her checking account so she could straighten out a computer error.While she was going about her business,I decided to take a look around a few of the stores that were in the area.There was really nothing new to see at thoe stores but the walk did me good.After I returned to my vehicle,my mom was in there waiting for me and we headed for home.After that,I did my personal computer work,had dinner and took it easy.I even went for a drive to get some gas and a little bit of ice cream.I was in the mood for some of that and it was great to get out.The big difference is that I did not have to deal with inconsiderate drivers this time around and that also made me feel a bit better.I am glad that nothing negative happened today that was worth writing about.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up works out well.As stated,I also have a support group meeting tomorrow night at the church.Again,I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Happy Memorial Day Everybody.
Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.The day started out pretty good.I had a wonderful afternoon taking it easy at home and enjoying the day.My mom was laying down and I was watching a movie for the vast majority of the afternoon.I watched Zombie Honeymoon this afternoon and I enjoyed it.It was about a young couple who have just gotten married and decide to spend their honeymoon in a beach house on the Jersey shore.When they are on the beach soaking up the sun,a zombie emerges dressed in a rubber wet suit and attacks the man.He does not bite him but he vomits on him.Afterwards,he starts turning into a bloodthirsty and flesh hungry zombie who starts attacking people who live in the area and eating them.But he tries to control his appetite by not hurting his wife but soon she has to choose whether to live with this or put him to death.I am not going to ruin it for all of you but I do recommend the movie for any horror film fan who wants something different for a change instead of the same old same old type of stuff.It is a combination zombie film and romantic comedy.It is a fun movie.Again,I highly recommend it for any scary movie lover who would like something different for a change regarding horror films.
This late afternoon after dinner,I went out for some ice cream at an ice cream parlor.I enjoyed the ice cream that I had and I had a wonderful time out.But the wonderful time out turned pretty dreadful when I was on the road in a rural part of the area that I live.On that road,an inconsiderate driver tried to play a game of chicken with me by trying to cross the line in the opposite lane but I dodged off the road and he went back into that lane and actually gave me the middle finger while driving off.A minute later,I was at a traffic light and when the light turned green,I proceeded to go straight but another inconsiderate driver,who was turning left,actually had the nerve to proceed with his left turn while I was going straight and had the right of way.I beeped my horn but he also gave me the middle finger.I hate it when inconsiderate drivers break the law and there are no police officers in the area to pull them over because they are in the wrong and give them the appropriate discipline when they do indeed break the driving laws.It is a shame but I still hate it when that happens.I am hoping that when teh new officials are elected this year,that the increase the police patrols in many areas by hiring more officers or bringing the laid off ones back to work.When there is little police protection,chaos becomes the order of the day whereas order disappears altogether and people think that they can do whatever they want providing they don't get caught.That has got to STOP.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.The day started out pretty good but it soon went downhill.
After waking up this morning and I had breakfast,I decided to go for a little drive around town and get a few pepperoni pizza slices.After that,I took a drive out to a shopping mall and took a walk around.I learned via a guy who ran a sports card and memoriabilia shop that the legendary French Connection line-up from the 1970's were coming to the shop in late August.I immediately went home to get some money so I could buy a ticket for the occasion.I always manage to go anywhere that the French Connection line goes so I can get their autographs and talk to them.For those unfamiliar with who the French Connection are,I will share.The French Connection were a trio of hockey players who played for the Buffalo Sabres in the 1970's.The line-up consisted of Rick Martin,Rene Robert(pronounced Robear)and Gilbert Perreault(pronounced jillbear pearou)and they were famous for scoring a lot of goals and keepuing the defenders of the opposing teams hands full whenever they played the Sabres in Buffalo.I will be going there in late August to get their autographs and get my pictures taken with them.I am looking forward to that day.It will be in the next two months but it is well worth the wait.I can hardly wait for that.
The thing that happened that made the rest of the day go downhill was when a lady picked a fight with me.The whole thing started when I got out of my vehicle to check and see if my vehicle was not blocking any driveways because it is against the law to block a driveway.While walking to a sidewalk,I dropped a pen on the street accidently and bent over to pick it up.When I got to the sidewalk,the lady accused me of trying to steal something from the trunk of her family's car,which I responded by saying that I did not,which was the truth.She accused me of being a liar and continued pointing that finger of hers by insisting that I did,which I didn't.An argument ensued with her calling me a "Nutcase" and then her young son shouted that if I did not stop arguing with his mother,he would bite my nose off.I repeatedly pleaded my case but she continued shouting at me until her husband came out and approached and asked "What's The Problem?"I told her husband the whole story of her accusing me of trying to steal something out of the trunk of their car and I even assured him that I was not.Plus,during that ordeal,one of the neighborhood kids got involved,which was none of his business to do so,and told me to knock it off.I told him to mind his own business but he continued to butt in.Even his mother advised him not to get involved and to mind his own business but he ignored her.After that,the lady's husband said "Okay,Knock It Off!This Whole Thing Is Over & Done With!He Said He Did Not Do That!The Case Is Closed!"After which,they all got into their car and drove off.Even a couple of my neighbors said that I did not attempt to take anything out of their trunk and that further affirmed that I was telling her the truth.Though I was glad that it was over,I still frustrated that the emotional strain that I suffered from that I wound up masturbating.I have not masturbated in a while and the frustrating feeling that I suffered wound up making me feel emotionally drained and still upset that made me give into the temptation to masturbate.I did feel lousy afterwards and it made feel repentant of giving into that and even the angry disposition that I had being accused of something that I did not do,which insulted my personal integrity as a human being.I am just hoping that the new week is a good one.After what happened this afternoon,I am going to need a good week to forget all about this stuff.
Tomorrow is the Memorial Day holiday.I am just going to stay home and take it easy for the day to prepare for the rest of the week regarding my job.Again,I am hoping that the rest of the week goes well.I am going to need a good week to help me get over the negative stuff had happened today.
That was my day today and my hoped for week that is coming up.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling hopeful,good and optimistic.I had the house all to myself this afternoon.My mom went to my grand niece's birthday party this afternoon and I decided to spend the afternoon on my own at home while my mom was over there.It was nice and quiet having the house all to myself for a while.I just needed some peace and quiet to myself and I figured that this was a perfect opportunity.I actually enjoyed it.
While my mom was over at my niece's house,I watched a movie on my VCR/DVD combo while I was having dinner.My dinner was simply two hot dogs and a heaping bowl of low sodium tomato soup.It was great.I simply ate it while I was watching the movie.It was a neat horror film called Motor Home Massacre.I enjoyed it.It was about a bunch of college aged kids getting lost in the woods after they "borrow" the motor home of somebody's parents.When they get there,the usual events ensue.The ending really surprised me.But it was worth watching.I had a ball being here alone at home today.My mom had told me that she had a wonderful time and she bought home some cupcakes.Overall,it was a wonderful afternoon.I am looking forward to the next time that I have this opportunity.I like having some time to myself.
Tonight,I am going out to sing up a storm for my friends and I am hoping that the evening goes well.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I always still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.But I always hope for it and I feel that there is nothing wrong with that.I sometimes think the more you hope.The better that you feel,or something like that.But I am looking forward to the night tonight as I always do.Becuase you never know what might happen.But again,I rarely have any problems regarding my entertaining people on a Saturday night.
That was my day today and my hoped for night tonight.

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth working day today.Nothing much happened.I just did my job and the rest took care of itself.The only thing was that it was a very HOT and HUMID day today.It has now cooled down somewhat but it was a very hazy day today.The heat did make it hard but I was just glad to get home after the work day today.I relaxed for most of the afternoon after I got home.After I ate dinner,I caught up on some personal computer work that I had been meaning to catch up on.After doing so,I went to the laundromat to do my underwear.My mother's washer started leaking a week ago as she was doing laundry and at the moment,we have no washer.While I was at the laundromat,I did a scan on my computer and there were no viruses or spyware on it.I got a lot accomplished today.I now have clean underwear to last me a while and that is great.The work week,despite one frustrating thing that happened this week,went by better than expected.I am glad that it did.Because when you get through something without a lot of frustration,it gives you a feeling of accomplishment and it makes you look forward to the next week.It also makes you better appreciate the weekend when it comes.
I am glad that the weekend is here.I am looking forward to singing tomorrow night for the crowd.Then again,I always look forward to singing and entertaining the crowd on Saturday night.I love what I do.It is fun and it always makes me feel good when the crowd is always satisfied.It makes me look forward to entertaining the crowd even more.I can hardly wait for that tomorrow night.
This weekend is the Memorial Day weekend.It is a very special weekend where we honor war veterans past and present.We also honor those who served in the US Armed Forces.Those brave men who fought for our freedom really deserve the honor.It also makes us realize that freedom truly ain't FREE.It comes with a price.Those brave men paid a big price for our freedom.
I am hoping that Saturday night goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day and night tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty hard day today.The work day went by pretty smoothly but I had to haul four heavy bags full of laundry from the basement to the upstairs where I had to load the laundry into my vehicle to drop it off at the drug and alcohol rehabilitation center.The staff there reported that they were low on fitted sheets and that if I had seen any in any of the loads that I had picked up in the past few days,please make sure that I had them delivered by this afternoon.I did find quite a few and I did those so they would have them in their stock as needed.They did show their appreciation by thanking me,which made me feel a little bit good.On the way home,I had to stop and get gas at a gas station.I also had to mail out something that I had to mail out right away.Not only that,the hot humid weather was also a contributor to why I was feeling the way I was.It just brought me a more tired feeling.But again,I was glad to have gotten something accomplished.
But it was not that way when I got home.My mom asked me if I could borrow her more money.I mean,I loaned her some this month and no matter how many times I try to get through to her about my cash situation,it seems to do me no good.I sometimes wish that I did not have to do these things.I know that if I live at home,I do have to do something extra when I least expect it.But this is ridiculous.May has not been a good month for me money wise.I am happy that the last week is coming and I can put this month behind me and forget about all this stuff that has happened.I mean this month,I had to make two deposits in my checking account when I wound being overdrawn twice.But right now,I only have a little bit of money to keep my account open when the next direct deposit comes in on June 1st.I am hoping that June is a better month for me money wise.I can't hardly want for this month to end.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.It was a pretty decent day today despite a minor frustration that had happened earlier in the day.When I arrived at the pick up spot to pick up the laundry,the laundry room was in a big mess.I had to search for empty laundry bags today and I succeeded in finding them.I put the remaining laundry that was all over the place and bagged it.When I arrived at the work site,I dropped it off after weighing it and sorting it out.I left to go home.On the way,I stopped at a small restaurant and had lunch.I even stopped by my mechanic's garage to see if he had started the car as of yet but he didn't.He said that the the part had not come as of yet and he is hoping that it would arrive today so he could start tomorrow.I am hoping to get it on the road by next month.I am anxious to get it going so I can drive it.I would love to start driving it pretty soon.I have been eagerly awaiting this for quite a while.I am hoping that he does start it soon.
I had a wonderful meeting with my sexual abuse support counselor.It was great to get off all the excess emotional baggage that I had been carrying around for a couple of weeks.I did tell her about the experience that I had two weeks ago and I also told her that nothing had happened.She was glad to know that nothing happened and that the stuff that I was scared of did not become a reality.But still,the fear was there because an experience did happen when an inconsiderate guy at one time grabbed me without permission and he was thrown out after he done so.That experience was why I was scared of what happened two weeks ago.But I have put that behind me and I am moving on.
I had a wonderful meeting tonight with my support group at the church.It was great to get some emotional baggage off of me in the group as well.These meetings have been helping me with a lot of what heas been going on in my life by giving me an understanding attitude and listening to every word I say.That is great.I am looking forward to the next meeting.I hope that the next meeting goes as well as this one.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly for me.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.The work day went by smoothly.But when I got home,that is when some frustrating stuff started.It did not start right away.It started later on in the day and it had to do with my computer having issues.
When I got home from doing an errand for my mother,I tried to get online but the internet service provider was having problems.Apparently in the area that I live in,there were people whose internet service was knocked out for most of the evening.I had learned that from the local chapter of the phone company who also provides internet.They said that it would be a matter of time before the service was restored.So after they informed me of this,I simply took a bath to forget about the problems.When I got out,I saw by my router that all the lights were green.I tried to get on but the internet explorer was not cooperating.I tried several times but no go.I had to restart my computer several times before I could get it working.The fourth time turned out to be the charm.I can now catch up on my work before I turn in for the night.I am now glad to be back online.It is wonderful.I was lost for a while but now,I am feeling a little bit better.I am still feeling some frustration from what happened most of the evening.But again,I am feeling a little bit better.I will just have to have a good nights sleep in order to feel a lot better.
I even had a talk with an old school mate.We talked for over 45 minutes.We talked about a lot of things.I was glad that she was doing well and that she is trying to get her life back on track.That made me feel better.I am glad that she is trying.
Tomorrow morning is simply a pck-up day.Tomorrow afternoon is my appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.Tomorrow night is my support group meeting at the church.I am hoping that they all go well tomorrow.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very good day today.I got what I had to get done today and that gave me a feeling of accomplishment.After a wonderful weekend,I am looking forward to this week with a lot of optimism and enthusiasm.I am hoping that this week turns out better than last week.Today was a pretty good day.This makes me hope that the rest of the week goes by smoothly.Again,I hope that it's better than last week.
Today,I had an appointment with the new medication manager and that first meeting with her went great.We talked for nearly an hour about my life and what I was doing to amuse myself.The new medication manager was a lady who used to work for the organization that I work for.I know that this is going to work out fine.I am looking forward to my next appointment with her in a few months.This week,my next appointment is with my sexual abuse support counselor.I am hoping that my next meeting with her goes well.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.After last week,I need the week to go by smoothly.I do not think that I can handle another week of frustration.So,I am hoping that the week goes well.I am taking it one day at a time.If tomorrow goes smoothly,that is good.I now have to look to the next work day and the one after that.Again,I hope that this week goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.Despite the disappointing loss that the Sabres suffered,I went out and I had a great time.I went out to entertain the crowd and I had a wonderful night.I Sang up a storm for my friends and it was a great night.The place where I sing at was ccelebrating their 7th anniversary of opening up.There was food galore. There was mostly pepperoni pizza to go around but it was great.The people there make great pepperoni pizza.I had a blast entertaining the crowd and they had a blast having me entertain them.I did a new song last night and it got a rousingly loud round of applause.I even reaquainted myself with a few standards that I had not done in quite a while and that still got a lot of positive responses.It was simply terrific.I am glad to have the opportunity to entertain people who always appreciate it.It makes me feel really good to see people happy when I give my all to please them and me being pleased with what I do.It is always a pleasure.
Despite the disappointing loss that the Sabres suffered at the hands of the Senators and being eliminated,I did not let the disappointment get to me.I simply let loose and had a ball.I had some joking and ribbing with the guys there and it was really FUN.Again,it was a wonderful night.I am hoping that next Saturday night is as wonderful as last night.I always have a good time entertaining the crowd and I always enjoy it when they enjoy it.I always look forward to the next time.I am looking forward to next Saturday night.I hope that it's as wonderful as last night. Today,I went out for a while.I ran an errand and I also got some gas for my vehicle.The day,though chilly,was nice and sunny.It was a little chilly and I had to wear a jacket while I was out.But still,it was a pretty good day.I stayed home most of the dya afterwards and I simply took it easy and relaxed.It is now evening and I am still relaxing.I have am appointment tomorrow with the new medication manager at the local hospital and I am hoping that it goes over well.Tomorrow is a day off and I am just going to take it easy.I am also hoping that the new week goes a lot more smoothly than the last week did.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling disappointment.My hopes for another Sabres win were shattered when the Ottawa Senators scored a goal in overtime 3-2.I am disappointed.But it was a great run that the Sabres had.They did play their hardest in this game and they did give it their all.But the end result was not the result that we were hoping for.But again they did give it their best shot.There is always next season.I am hoping that the next season will be better and that the playoff run next season will be with a better end result.
I was out for much of the day.I paid a visit with a friend of mine for a short time today and he is doing good.I also had to run an errand for my mother today and that went as well as expected.I had the game on the radio much of the time when I was out and about.Again,It was a great run for the Sabres while it lasted and I am happy that they achieved something that was better than not achieving anything.They did win the Prseident's Trophy this season and that is better than nothing.I also paid a visit to a charity yard sale today and found that an old school mate of mine was behind it.It was a young lady that I graduated with 17 years ago.I was glad to see that she's doing pretty good.I did buy a little Kool Aid for the charity and it tasted delicious.Again,not too eventful of a day but it was great to be out for a while.
Tonight,I am going to be entertaining the crowd as always.I am hoping that the night goes well.Though I rarely have an off night,I always still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.I always hope for things to go well.Tonight is also an anniversary party that the place I entertain at is celebrating.It is the anniversary of their grand opening.Again,I am hoping that the night goes well.
Despite the disappointments,I am still glad that the weekend is here after the frustrations of this past work week.I am hoping that the next week goes better.It is frustrating when your fellow employees will not do their share of the work and expect others to do it for them.Again,I am hoping that the next work week goes better.
That was my day today and my hoped for night tonight.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a bit better than I have been in recent days.I am just happy that this work week is over because of all the frustration that I endured this week.Today was no exception.When I arrived to start my shift,I entered the lunch line at work so I could eat before I start my job.I asked,because it was a "Chef's Surprise" on the menu,what was on the menu.One of the guys there said very nastily "Nothing For You,That's What!",which really frosted me because I wasn't talking to him and I even told him so.One of the other staffers reprimanded him afterwards even though that guy insisted that he was only "Kidding Around"and did not mean anything by what he said.After I ate my meal,I went to do my job.Fortunately,the rest of the work day went by smoothly.I simply did my job and the time went by pretty fast.After I finished,I simply dropped the clean laundry off and did a few things before going home.Again,I am just glad that the weekend is finally here.I am looking forward to that.I am going to do my usual and I hope that it goes good.
Tomorrow afternoon,the Buffalo Sabres are playing the Ottawa Senators in Game 5 of the Eastern Conference Finals series.The Sabres won on Wednesday night and that was great.I am hoping that the Sabres can pull another victory out.The win Wednesday night was great.But a victory tomorrow afternoon would be even greater.Tomorrow night,I am going to be singing as I always do.I am hoping that the night goes well.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.Again,I am hoping that everything goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a really frustrating day today on the job.It was from stuff that was carried over from yesterday.Yesterday,the morning person was not there to finish his job when he left a couple loads of laundry in the washers yesterday.As stated last night,I simply removed the loads from the washer and due to an awful odor that I sensed on one of the blankets when I sorted out the loads that I brought in,I put the blankets that had the odors on them in the wash alongside a comforter in the other washer.The frustrating thing today was the afternoon person who was supposed to take over for the morning person did not even bother to show up to do his job.The loads that I started yesterday morning were still in the washers this morning when I arrived.This was really frustrating because I arrived there to start my job and here were both of the washers full of laundry that was supposed to be taken out and dried.Today,I had to finish what he was supposed to finish yesterday.I did manage to get my job going but it was not easy dealing with the dilemma that I had to deal with today.The work day was not so smooth as I had hoped for it to be.I really do not like it when somebody does not do their job accordingly and leaves other people to finish their job for them.If you have a job to do,simply do it and finish it yourself.It is not right to leave it for somebody else to finish it for you.It is also appropriate to simply tell the supervisor that you are not going to show up and explain why you can't.I am hoping that this does not happen again for a long time.
Right now,I am at home relaxing.I am still at edge over what I saw today at the worksite because it is something that I do not like to see.I am still feeling a little edgy over what happened and I am again hoping that it does not happen again for quite a while.I am also hoping that my shift tomorrow will go smoothly over today's work day.I know that not every day is going to work out the way I would like it to be.But still,I always hope for the days to go by smoothly and that everything works out the way it should.Again,I am hoping that tomorrow goes by smoothly.
After the work day tomorrow,it will be the weekend.I am going to be singing for the crowd on Saturday night and I am hoping for that night to go well.The Buffalo Sabres are also playing Saturday afternoon in Buffalo at 2:00p.m. in Game 5 against the Ottawa Senators.After the win on Wednesday night,I am hoping for yet another win on Saturday afternoon.That would be totally neato.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.It was a great night for me tonight.I went to my support group meeting at the church tonight and it was another wonderful meeting.It was great to get a lot of emotional baggage off of me.Not only that,the Buffalo Sabres were finally victorious tonight.They defeated the Ottawa Senators tonight by a score of 3-2 to keep the Eastern Conference finals series alive.This also means that the two teams are returning to Buffalo.They are playing Saturday afternoon at 2:00p.m.They will have two days off to practice and rest off.I am hoping for another Buffalo Sabres win.I was happy for the win tonight but another win will be something.I can hardly wait for the game Saturday afternoon.Again,I am hoping for another Sabres win.
Despite my night being great with those two great things happening,the day started off pretty frustrating.I arrived at the pick-up spot today and that went well.But when I got to the worksite,that is when the frustration was there.When I arrived there,the morning worker for today was not even there and he left two washing machines full.After weighing the laundry bags and seperating the laundry,I removed the two loads from the washers and placed them in the dryers.I also started two more loads because one of the blankets of the loads I brought in smelled horrible.Fearing that this odor could make the whole cellar smell horrible,I started the loads with the smelly blanket an dhoped for the best.I also informed the supervisor about the absense of the Wednesday morning person and the loads left behind in the washers.She assured me that she would look into that.
After I left work,I stopped at a gas station to get gas in my tank and had a light lunch at a small restaurant before going home.I also helped my mom by taking her grocery shopping so she could get some food in the house.I had a light dinner before going to my meeting tonight.Again,the meeting was wonderful and the Sabres victory tonight made me forget the minor frustration that had happened at work today.Fortunately,this was a pick-up day today.If this were a full work day,the day would have been really frustrating for me.But again,I am just glad that it was simply a pick-up day.
Tomorrow is a full work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth work day today.I had four big loads of laundry to pick up today and that was really something.The minute that I arrived at the work site and started,I simply took it easy while I waited for the loads of laundry to get done.The hours went by pretty fast and I got a lot done in the time that I worked.After the shift was over,I dropped off the clean laundry and went home after making a couple of stops along the way.
I am now at home taking it easy.I went out for only a brief walk after dinner and I stayed close to home due to the storm warnings that we have for the area that we live in.Right now,it is windy with winds going very high and hard.We are supposed to get some thunderstorms tonight while we are sleeping and the rain is supposed to be coming down hard and fast.It is supposed to carry on until tomorrow.I have to do a pick up tomorrow morning and I am hoping that the weather will not be that bad.I also have a support group meeting tomorrow night at the church and I am hoping that the rain stops when I have to go.I would hate to get caught in the rain.I know that I drive down to the meetings every Wednesday night but I still do not like getting caught in a rainstorm.Again,I am hoping that the rain stops before I go to the meeting tomorrow night.
Last night,I had a hard time getting to sleep.The emotional state that I was in made it difficult for me to close my eyes amd try to sleep.I also felt a little at edge and because of that,I wound up masturbating when images of naked men were flooding my mind.I felt really bad afterwards when that happened.But after asking the creator for forgiveness,I felt a little bit better.I went to sleep though I still had some difficulty in getting to sleep.I am hoping that tonight I will be able to sleep better.
Again,as stated above,tomorrow is a pick-up day and I have my support group meeting tomorrow night at the church.I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty good day today.I ran a few errands for my mother today and that worked out the way I hoped it would.I also paid a visit with a friend today and he is doing great.I am glad that he was doing well and that his family was doing good.It was also a nice day today.The sun was shining and it was beautiful.The winds were blowing lightly but it was still nice and warm.The day went by pretty well and that was good.
But I am disappointed tonight.The Buffalo Sabres lost their third consecutive game to the Ottawa Senators tonight by a score of 1-0.Though the Sabres put a team effort in the game,it did not produce the outcome that I and the rest of the fans were expecting.The Senators have a commanding 3-0 lead as far as games in the series go.The Sabres now really NEED to WIN to keep the series alive on Wednesday night so they can come back to Buffalo.I am hoping that they can win on Wednesday night.It is disappointing seeing your team win the President's Trophy and go down like this.I know that it is not over yet though it feels like it is.Again,I am hoping for a Sabres win on Wednesday night to keep the series alive.I am disappointed but I am going to still hold on to the hope that I have always had ever since I have been a fan.Hope never fades.It just keeps renewing itself each and every year,especially when the Ice Hockey season rolls around in my case.Again,I am still holding on.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.It was a pretty decent day today.My mom and my sister had their typical mother-daughter thing for today since it was Mother's Day.I dropped her off and said Hello to everybody and then left to do some personal stuff.I went to visit a friend of mine who owned a record store to show him the latest record album that I had gotten in the mail.He was overjoyed to see that.The record album that I showed him is a hard to find album in every sense.After that,I went home.But when I got there,my mom was already there and having the furnace checked out because it broke down overnight while we were sleeping.It was a good thing that I covered up last night when I got home.I would have felt really cold if I did not.Overall,it was a pretty decent day and I got to do a lot today.Not too shabby.
Last night,I had a real good time entertaining the crowd.It was a super night.The audience enjoyed my selections and that was really great.I had a wonderful time and the crowd liked everything that I did.Though I was disappointed that the Buffalo Sabres lost last night in double overtime by a score of 4-3 and now the Ottaw Senators have a 2-0 lead in the series,I did not let the disappointment get to me.I still had a great time last night and the crowd enjoyed me.I also had the honor to do something nice for somebody because they did something for me.I bought a guy his favorite beer after he paid for one of the non-alcoholic beers that I drank last night.That really made me feel really good.That guy was also a Buffalo Sabres fan in his own right and even he was disappointed with the loss like I was.Though I was disappointed,I was proud that the Buffalo Sabres put a great team effort in the game.They really tried hard this time and that was better than the pathetic way they played on Thursday night.The only thing was that it didn't turn out the way we hoped it would.But the series is not over yet.They are now travelling to Ottawa to play them for games 3 and 4.I am hoping that the Sabres can come from behind to tie the series at 2 games a piece.I hope that they can do it.That would be really great.
Tomorrow is my day off as usual.I am just going to take it easy tomorrow and concentrate on the days ahead.
That was my day today and my night last night.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.I had a pretty decent day today.I went to several garage sales in my area today and found quite a few good record albums at one of them.I also ran an errand for my mother today.I even found the time to get something for my mom for tomorrow.It is Mother's Day tomorrow.I could not forget my mother.Overall,as stated,a pretty decent day.
Tonight,I am going to entertaining the crowd as I usually do every Saturday night.I am hoping that the night goes well.I am simply going to reaquaint myself with a few songs that I have not done in a long time.I have not had the chance to really practice anything new is a while because I have not had the time due to my busy schedule.But I am just glad to be doing what I am doing and there is really no demand for me to do anything new.Though I rarly,if ever,have an off night,I always still hope for things to go well.But I have the feeling that it's going to be a great night.I do not why I feel this way.I just have the feeling that I am going to have a wonderful night.But still,I hope that things do indeed go well.You never know what might happen.
Tonight,the Buffalo Sabres are playing the Ottawa Senators in Game 2 of their playoff series.The game starts at 8:00p.m.I am hoping for a Buffalo Sabres victory to even the series at 1 game apiece.After that disappointing loss on Thursday night,a win would be IT.I really hated it when the Sabres lost on Thursday night.They really played pathetically that night.It was embarrassing.But I am hoping tonight for a win to even the series.A win would really make me happy.
That was my day today and my hoped for night tonight.FJ

Tonight,I am again feeling mixed emotions.After a very good work day,I had to deal with a frustrating thing that I wasn't expecting.When I got home,I got a rude awakening from my mom.She asked to borrow money from me.I know that I do have to help her out with a little extra because I still with her but I am trying to save up for something and this is not helping me.I know that she is going to pay me back but it is still frustrating when you are trying to save up and when you get a little bit ahead,this happens.I really don't like it.She doesn't do it often but it is still frustrating when you try to get ahead and you are asked to loan out money.I am hoping that she doesn't do it again for a while.I was hoping to replace the money that I had to spend on the radiator that my new car needs so I can put it on the road.Again,I am hoping that she doesn't ask me again for a while.
The only really good thing that I received was a DVD set that I was waiting on.It is the Mission:Magic DVD set.This was a short lived 1970's Saturday morning cartoon show that starred Rick Springfield way before he became a big name star in the 1980's.The series,though it was a funny show,only lasted 16 episodes.I remember watching this when it used to come on after Big Blue Marble on a syndicated station in my area.It was a very fun show where a bunch of kids,led by a magical school teacher named Miss Tickle,would go on adventures to imaginary lands through a magical door drawn on a chalkboard by a cat named Tut-Tut who is brought back to life after the teacher says the magic words.At first,it's a statue but it turns into a real cat.Rick Springfield would always join them on their adventures and would also sing a song or two.It was a great show that never got the chance it truly deserved.I watched a couple of episodes after receiving it and it was still FUN to watch after all these years.It really brought back some great memories of the time before my father took me to live with him and the harsh abuse that I had to endure.Still,I enjoyed seeing it again after all this time.The picture was crystal clear and it felt like that it was Saturday morning from years ago all over again.
I am just glad that the weekend is finally here.I am going to be singing tomorrow night.I am hoping that the night goes well.I am looking forward to entertaining the crowd tomorrow night and again,I am hoping that it goes well.Tomorrow afternoon is also a Buffalo Sabres game at 8:00 p.m.I am hoping that the Sabres can defeat the Ottawa Senators tomorrow night.After that disappointing loss last night,a win would really make me happy alongside other Buffalo Sabres fans in the area.Again,I hope that the Sabres win tomorrow afternoon.
That was my day today and my hoped for day and night tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a very good work day today.The work day went by smoothly.I simply did my job and the day went by pretty fast.I also had to do an errand for my mom on the way home from work.Overall,a pretty good start to the day.
But things started changing when I arrived home.I turned on my computer to do my personal computer work and it was starting to have issues.At first,there were no problems.I managed to turn on my firewall and and that was no problem.After I opened up Internet Explorer,I tried to read a bit of my e-mail but it was slow going.I had to close off the internet and even that was a problem because I got a "Not Responding" message and even when I tried to push "End Now",the problems remained.I had to restart my computer three times to get the kinks out so I could do my computer work and get it over with.After the third time,there were no problems for a while.I managed to get through the day doing my work.While it made me feel better,I was still feeling at edge because the issues regarding the computer were the start of some negative things to come,such as a disappointment that I am now feeling at the moment as well as the issues that I was having tonight trying to sign in to here to post my day here.But now,I am hoping that these issues are now resolved.I really hate it when my computer does not want to do it's duties and give me a hard time when I am trying to get things done.I know that the computer is a man made machine and it will fail to do it's duties at times but I still really disliked it.
The worst thing to happen tonight,which is the cause of my disappointment,is that the Buffalo Sabres lost to the Ottawa Senators tonight by a score of 5-2.What a way to start the Conference Finals series.It was disappointing.On top of my computer issues that plagued me for most of the day when I got home,this loss really drained me of some energy.It was also an embarrassing loss because the Sabres were playing in front of a sold out crowd in Buffalo.Their next game is Saturday at 8:00p.m.and this time,it will be televised.After that disappointing loss tonight,I am hoping for a Sabres win.It will make me feel better after this disappointing night.That loss was also mortifying.I know that the series is not over yet.I know that it just started but I still feel sad about it.Again,I am hoping for a Buffalo Sabres win on Saturday afternoon.
Tomorrow is another work day for me.I am hoping that the shift goes well for me.After that,it's the weekend and I am hoping for a wonderful Saturday night.
I am still feeling at edge for what happened today regarding my computer and the issues that it had today.I am hoping that it's better tomorrow.I really can't stand it when things don't work out like they should.Again,I am hoping that everythings works better tomorrow.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.The only disappointment was that there was no laundry to pick up.There have been some new check ins at the drug and alcohol help center and there was no laundry.Though disappointed,I did pick up an awful lot on Tuesday morning so there was still plenty to do for the afternoon guy.I even helped out somebody today and they appreciated it.That made me feel good.After I had my lunch at work,I went home.I also had to run an errand for my mother today and that was great to get accomplished.Again,a pretty good day.
Tonight,I went to my support group meeting at the church and that meeting went great.It was wonderful to share my stuff with the group of guys that I meet with.It was wonderful that they listened and thanked me for sharing.I am looking forward to the next meeting next Wednesday night.I am enjoying these meetings and I am really feeling the acceptance in the group.It is a wonderful feeling to feel acceptance after feeling and being subjected to continuous rejection.I am glad to have found out about thi sgroup.I know that I have said that lots of times but I am always feeling great about going and feeling the positive energy that is being spread.I am looking forward to the next meeting.I hope that it is as wonderful as the last one.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that it goes by smoothly.Tomorrow night is the start of the Buffalo Sabres-Ottaw Senators series.The game starts at 7.p.m.tomorrow night in Buffalo.After some of the negative things that the Senators have said about the Sabres in the press,I am hoping that the Sabres can defeat them and I hope that the defeat is an ugly one for the Senators.I want the Senators to really feel what the Sabres are really all about.I hope that the Sabres defeat the Senators.
That was my day today and my night tonight.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth work day today.Nothing negative to write home about.I am just taking it easy at home at the moment.The night is pretty cool but a little bit warm.Again,I had a pretty smooth work day and everything worked out for the best today.
The schedule for the Buffalo Sabres series with the Ottawa Senators will be starting Thursday night at 7:00p.m.in Buffalo.It is going to be an interesting series.Both teams are matched for speed,toughness and agility.It is going to be interesting to see what will happen in this series.Both teams seem to have some of the same things in common.
Though I am feeling okay,I am also feeling a little at edge.I am again constantly muttering angry things to myself pretending that there are people there.This was a little bit of a problem with me today.I did not do it in front of other people but I did it when I was alone.The thing is that I want to stop doing this but I do not know how to do it.The reason why I want to STOP doing this is because I do not want to do it while I am out in the community and I do not want to risk hurting someone else or even myself.I want to stop doing that for those reasons.I do not want people to be afraid of me or even afraid to approach me.I want people to approach me and accept me and not reject me.I also do not want them to be afraid of me in general.If anybody has any ideas on how I can STOP doing this,I want you to share them.I will try to apply them the best way that I know how.I am open to any advice that is given.Thanks.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day for me.I did have an appointment tomorrow with my sexual abuse support counselor but she cancelled it and I have to call her tomorrow to reschedule.Tomorrow night is my weekly support group meeting at the church and I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good today.I did not do too much.I had the day off from work today and I thought that I would catch up on some stuff that I needed to do.These were personal things that I had put off for a while and I thought that today was a good day to catch up.
The first thing that I had to do was to mail an important personal business letter.After that,I paid a little visit to a friend to give him something that I had been meaning to give him for a long time.I even visited another friend to give him something that I had been meaning to give him.I also paid a visit to my auto mechanic to see when he was going to put the much needed repair work on the car that I had just bought.After these things,I finished the day by running an errand for my mother that was much needed by her.After that,I took it easy for a bit and had dinner.
I am now relaxing at home.I am feeling a bit better after the stress of the previous weekend.I am just glad that nothing happened on Saturday night.My attitude is that I have come too far in my recovery and healing processes to even think of heading back to the Gay lifestyle and indulging in the sinful degrading pleasures that it offers.I know too much about what lead me to having a Homosexual identity to even think of regressing.I have made a commitment never to act out with another man.I have also made a commitment never to even think about having anything sexual with another man.I know that I have to stay on guard.I can not revert back to the old sinful thought patterns or even the same old sinful activities that lead to nowhere because the Gay sexual lifestyle is a road to nowhere where the only thing that men in that lifestyle can have is never ending sexual promoscuity that can lead to AIDS or other diseases with the former being the worst of them all.Promoscuity is the only option for any man in that lifestyle and I do not want no part of it nor do I ever want any part of it at all.I am trying to save myself much heartache down the road and from catching AIDS,which is a disease I do not even want.I am just thankful that I am no longer ensnared by the lure of the Gay lifestyle and not being enslaved to an image of a nude man with an erect penis.I am happier that I am not indulging in that terrible sexual cycle anymore.I am also happier that I know the truth about Homosexuality and that truth was what set me free.Though I do weaken at times when I masturbate,I never let the failure discourage me.I just ask the creator in Heaven to forgive me and then I forgive myself.After that,the slate is clean.Again,I am determined to do whatever it takes to continue my personal journey of healing and recovery from unwanted SSA.I want to be the Heterosexual man that I want to be.This is my journey.I am going to continue on it even if it takes me the rest of my life.
While out today,I did manage to buy a couple of my favorite movies on DVD,I bought Sixteen Candles and The Breakfast Club.I am glad to have these favorites on DVD so I can preserve my VHS tapes of these.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very exciting day today as I was going about my business.Today was a Buffalo Sabres game against the New York Rangers at Madison Square Garden.It was Game 6 in the conference semi-finals and with the Sabres leading 3 games to 2 in the series,they had the controlling lead.A lot was riding on this game because one team could win and eliminate the other or one team could win to force a Game 7.The odds were 1,000,000 to 1 against the Sabres going into today's game.Why?Because in this series,the Rangers won two consecutive games at Madison Square Garden.But today,those odds faded into obscurity as the Sabres emerged victorious to win the series by a score 0f 5-4.The Sabres really played their second best in this series this year against the Rangers even though the Rangers were really pouring on the pressure.But again,the Sabres emerged victorious today to eliminate the New York Rangers and advance to the conference finals against another tough team,the Ottawa Senators.This match-up is a rematch against the two teams from last season with the only difference being that it was the conference semi-finals last season and this season,it's the conference finals.But again,I am hoping that the Sabres can also eliminate the Senators.I do not how many games it will take but I hope that the Sabres can do it again against the Senators.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd was another big success.I tried out a new song and it went over pretty well.I even reaquainted myself with a few songs that I had not done in a while.Again,the night was a success.It made me happy to entertain the crowd and it also made me feel good that the enjoyed every minute of it.
But the night was also a real challenge to my healing of unwanted SSA.An old school mate of mine who I had not seen in a long time and whom that I graduated with,came into the place last night.At first,I did not recognize her but when she came over to where I was sitting and she said Hello,I then recognized her.The challenge came when a male friend of her's who was with her came over to the table and on an invitation by another friend of mine,sat with us.She had told me that he was an openly Homosexual/Gay man.It made me feel very uncomfortable because here I am,a guy who is determined to heal from unwanted SSA desires towards members of my own gender and will do whatever it takes to do so,has an openly Gay man sitting next to me.Don't get me wrong,I have no hatred towards any man who has embraced Homosexuality nor do I condemn him for doing so.I use Jesus Christ's attitude of "Hate The Sin.Not The Sinner" regarding this.Still,it made me feel uncomfortable because he was open about who he was and I was a guy yearning to heal from these unwanted and inappropriate desires.At least,that is how I feel about the matter.But when he did sit next to me,I went into the men's restroom,locked the door and said a little prayer to God and asked for guidance and strength to deal with this situation and to help deliver me from any possible temptations that could happen.After doing so,I felt better and when I returned to sit down,the uncomfortableness was a lot easier to deal with.The best thing about it was that nothing happend.The guy did not lay a hand on me nor did he make a pass at me.While that did not happen and I was glad and relieved that nothing did,I had to keep on guard that anything can happen in a situation like this and it can be a real test to my strength,endurance and determination to overcome SSA and emerge as the Heterosexual man that I truly want to be.I have left the Gay lifestyle behind and I am no longer into that.It is not what I am all about as a man nor as a person.Nor is it who I am all about as a man nor as a person.I am still determined to heal from these unwanted desires towards other men and want to feel total sexual attraction towards women.Right now,my attraction towards the opposite is slowly developing and that is good.The worst part of it was that I had to be careful in what I had said in conversation because anything I might have said could have had an impact on the night and I did not want to think about it.So,I kept my mind focused and used caution in my words.Again,the night was a success but it also was a challenge to my determination to heal from and overcome unwanted SSA.I am not going to let nothing stand in my way of that goal.
Tomorrow is my day off from work.I do have to do a few personal things tomorrow for myself to make the day seem wonderful.Again,I am overjoyed that the Sabres are advancing into the conference finals and I am hoping that the Sabres can do it again.
That was my day today,my night last night and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.It is my night to entertain the crowd with my singing.I am hoping that evening goes by pretty well.Though I rarely have an off night,I always hope for things to go well.I am hoping to try out a new song or two.One of them will be a country oldie that I have been meaning to try out for a long time.I had heard it on the radio during the week and I am hoping that I can do it pretty good.Again,I am hoping that the night goes well.
Today was a pretty decent day.I ran an errand for my mother.I even did some personal shopping for myself and I had my hair cut.I got it done in one day without any problems.There was an accident in an area that I was driving towards and I had to do a detour around it.But I managed to make it home.I bathed for the night and had a nice dinner.At the moment,I am relaxing at home and taking it easy.Overall,a pretty decent day.
Tomorrow,the Buffalo Sabres are playing the New York Rangers at Madison Square Garden on Sunday afternoon.I am hoping that the Sabres can eliminate the Rangers from the playoffs.I would love to see Buffalo advance to the next round.Again,I am hoping for another Sabres win.
That was my day today and my hoped for night tonight,including what I hope for tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling very good.It was a wonderful day today and it has been a wonderful night.Yes it has.I was listening to the hockey game tonight on my computer and it was an action packed game tonight.The Buffalo Sabres were really playing their game tonight.For the vast majority of the game,there was no score until the final 3 minutes of the game when The New York Rangers Strakka scored to make it 1-0.With only 7.7 seconds left,Chris Drury scored to tie the game at 1-1 on an assist by Daniel Brieire.The best thing about the game was the Buffalo Sabres won the game tonight in overtime by a score of 2-1.Maxim Afinagenov scored the game winner while the Sabres were on the power play during the overtime.The series now heads back to New York at Madison Square Garden Sunday afternoon.I am hoping that the Sabres can eliminate the Rangers on Sunday afternoon.I know that the Sabres have lost two consecutive games in Madison Square Garden.But I still hope that they can do it there.I would love to see the Sabres advance into the next round.Again,I am hoping that the Sabres can eliminate the Rangers on Sunday.That would be great.
Though I had a pretty good day,I still had to deal with old thought patterns.While I was waiting for a load of laundry to get done,I was getting plagued by images of naked men asking me for sexual favors while I was in the cellar doing my job.I was even talking to myself while doing this.It got so extreme that I had to say a little prayer to myself to stop it.I kept it up until the images faded away.It was difficult but I managed to rely on the Lord to help me.I also felt better afterwards.After my job was completed,I went home.
I also helped my mother out with a small errand.My eldest grand niece is 7 years old this month and my mother wanted to buy her something for her birthday.I even manged to purchase a little something for myself.While my mom and I were out,I did a virus scan on my computer and there was no viruses nor spyware on my computer.I also restarted my computer afterwards and now,the computer is working very good.Thankfully,there was nothing on my computer for me to cause any worries.That is the second best thing tonight.The Buffalo Sabres winning tonight is the really BEST thing tonight.WOW!
I am glad that the weekend is finally here.I will be singing for the crowd tomorrow night and I am hoping that the night goes well.I am hoping to try out at least one new song tomorrow night.Again,I am hoping that the night goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day & night tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.Despite some setbacks tonight regarding my use of the internet,I am still feeling pretty good.My personal computer was having some issues tonight.There were times during the evening that I could not get the computer to cooperate.Some places that I was visiting took too much time to download and it did,at times,made me feel a little edgy.But I managed to complete the stuff that I had to complete and I am feeling better.The day went by pretty smoothly.I did my job and the rest took care of itself.I even helped out somebody today during my lunch break.All in all,a pretty decent day.I managed to get a lot accomplished and it made me feel pretty good.
As stated above,my work day went by pretty smoothly.It was a pretty good day.It has been pretty quiet around my work place as of late.No problems or anything negative to write home about and that is something.It is hard to believe that we have been having it pretty well around there.Everybody is now getting along.The troublemakers who were a problem have not been coming around as of late.That is pretty good.Don't get me wrong,I would never wish for anybody to be around,even though,at times,I might've said to myself that if I had my way,certain people would not be allowed.But that was because I was angry and I did not mean these things.But I do like it that it has been pretty quiet lately.With no negativisms happening,the days have been pretty smooth and everybody seems to appreciate everyone's presence.
Tomorrow is another work day for me.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.Tomorrow night,the Buffalo Sabres are playing the New York Rangers in Game 5 in their series in Buffalo.After two disappointing losses in Madison Square Garden,a win in the HSBC Arena in Buffalo would be great.I am hoping for a Buffalo Sabres victory tomorrow night.A victory by the Sabres would be totally neat.
After tomorrow,it will be the weekend.I am looking forward to that.I will be singing for the crowd as usual.I am hoping that the night goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow and my hopes for the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.It was a pretty good day today for me.Today was simply a pick-up day and that went pretty well.There was not a mess in the laundry room at the pick up place and that made it pretty good.After I had done that,I went and did an errand for my mother and also went out and did some fun stuff for myself.I found some more rare records for my ever growing record collection.The weather was also nice.It was a bright sunny day and I enjoyed my day out.It was wonderful.
I also went to my support group meeting at the church and that went great.We also had a new person in our group and that was great.It was great to hear the other men talk about what they needed to talk about.It is awesome that these guys are a swell bunch who always listen to you and never judge you.That is terrific.It was a wonderful meeting and I had a great time talking things out with the guys.I am looking forward to my next meeting next Wednesday night.I am still happy to have found out about this group.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
Thatw as my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.The day started out pretty good.There was nothing exciting to really talk about.The work day went by pretty smoothly.I simply did what I had to do and the day went by pretty fast.It was a pretty decent day.We were supposed to get a rain storm but it bypassed us.We could still get one tonight while the city sleeps.Again,a pretty decent work day.
I am disappointed tonight because the Buffalo Sabres lost again to the New York Rangers.They lost by a score of 2-1 tonight in regulation.Lindy Ruff did say that the team has to play a little more aggressively but I am not seeing it.The Sabres almost had a game tying goal but it was ruled "NO Goal" by the referees.What a disappointment.The Sabres lost and now the series is tied at 2 games a piece.Their next game is back in Buffalo on Friday night and I am hoping for a Buffalo Sabres win.I know that the team can not win every game but this is the playoffs where it all comes down to the nitty gritty.But again,I am still hoping for a Buffalo Sabres win on Friday night.A win would make me happy.I am hoping for that.I hope that it happens.
Tomorrow is simply a pick up day.I also have to run an errand for my mom and I am also hoping to get at least a little bit of personal stuff done for myself.Tomorrow night is my weekly support group meeting at the church.I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty decent day today.Nothing really exciting happened,but I did get what I had to do accomplished.It gives me a sense of confidence when I finally get something done.
Today,I had to go to an F.Y.E.store in another area of Western New York to renew my backstage pass membership card.The due date was tomorrow but I felt that I should do it a day ahead of time.It is now out of the way and I can take it easy for a year.
Last night,I went to see the movie Grindhouse and I really enjoyed it.I am now waiting for it to come to DVD.I know that it will be a while when it does come out but I am going to wait patiently until it does.This movie was two movies rolled into one with a few fake trailers at the beginning and in between the films.It was directed by Robert Rodriguez and Quentin Tarentino.They each directed the two parts.The first was Planet Terror,which Rodriguez directed.The second was Death Proof,which Tarentino directed.I really enjoyed this film.I cracked up in a few spots.It was a great viewing experience.It was a little over 3 hours long but it was well worth watching and the length was not a problem.Again,I enjoyed the movie and I am eagerly awaiting the DVD release.Again,I know that it will be a while but the wait will be worth it.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.Tomorrow night is another game in the Buffalo Sabres-New York Rangers playoff series.After the disappointing loss in double overtime on Sunday afternoon,a Buffalo Sabres win would be it.I hope that the Sabres will take a 3-1 lead in the series tomorrow.After that disappointing loss on Sunday,a win would make me really happy.
I even had a talk with a friend today who lives out of town.It was a very good conversation.Again,nothing to exciting today.But the day was pretty decent.
That was my day today and my hoped for day and night tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.the day started out pretty promising.It was a beautiful sunny day today.I went out to grab a few slices of pizza for lunch so I could have a snack to watch the hockey game today when I got home.Before that,I had to stop at a store to buy something needed for home.When I got home,I turned on the hockey game to watch the Buffalo Sabres play the New York Rangers at Madison Square Garden.That game is why I am feeling mixed emotions because the Buffalo Sabres lost in double overtime by a score of 2-1.The Sabres did not play too well of a game for most of the first two periods.They made a lot of mistakes.Not only that,the Sabres were rarely in front of Ryan Miller when the Rangers players played the puck around the Sabres net.Ryan Miller played another sold game but the score in the second overtime gave the Rangers the victory and now the series is 2-1 with Buffalo stillleading by one win.Their next game is Tuesday night at Madison Square Garden at 7:00pm.After that disappointing overtime loss,a Buffalo Sabres win would be totally sweet.I was disappointed to see them lose in the second overtime.But again,I am still hoping that they can beat them on Tuesday night.The Sabres have to work on not making too many costly mistakes such as interference or delay of game penalties and they have to surround Ryan Miller whenever the Rangers come on the attack in front of him.These are things that they need to work on.
Tonight,I am going to see a movie.It is my first movie in several months.I hope that it's a good one.
That was my day today.FJ