Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very smooth work shift today.Nothing negative happened today on the job nor when I left for home.I simply did my job and went home.Since I now have the afternoons off on Thursday and mornings off on Friday,I am now going to use the extra time to work on my issues,mainly emotional.I have to try and work on my sanity.I have been on the verge of losing it lately and I do want to work on keeping my cool.As stated last night,I do not want to lose my temper and I do want to keep my cool because I do not want to get in trouble again.After the trouble that I got into last year,which led me to undergo anger management counseling by order of my supervisor's supervisor in order to keep my job.Since,according to my counseling,I have been making progress,I do not want to blow my wad(so to speak)and risk getting into trouble.If I am making progress as they counselors have been saying,I want to continue progressing and doing good.Yes I do.I don't want to make mistakes that could ruin me as far as my job goes.I want to keep my job and I want to keep working.I don't want to make any terrible mistakes.I want to keep doing good and continue striving towards my goals.
After dinner and when the weather cooled,I went out because I had a whole bunch of empty bottles and cans in the trunk of my car.I wanted to turn them in so when my mother needs to do her grocery shopping,there will be plenty of room in the trunk for the grocery bags to be placed in there.I had a good sum of money from turning in those bottles.After I am done here,I am going to register the bills at Where's George.When I got done,I went to a Dairy Queen in my area and bought an ice cream sandwich.I am now at home relaxing and getting ready to turn in for the night.I had a very eventful day.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.The pick-up went well today.I did not have any messes to clean up at the pick up point today and that was great.After I dropped off and sorted out the laundry,I made a couple of stops on the way home.I visited a friend of mine who I do not talk to very much.We had a very good conversation today as we talked about a lot of things,mostly about a couple of documentary films that I picked up on DVD about a week ago.I have not watched them as of yet but I plan to.I have a few movies that I have not watched as of yet but I plan on watching them every Friday night until I am caught up.I have just been so busy as of late that I have not been able to really watch anything.I did manage to see a movie in the last two weeks and I enjoyed that.But again,I need to catch up on some movies that I have been meaning to watch but have not had the chance.I am going to watch another movie on Friday night before I go to sleep.
Today,weatherwise,the weather was "HAZY,HOT & HUMID!"The temps were in the low 90's again.Tonight,we are supposed to get a thunderstorm and afterwards,some cooler temps stating Thursday.
My meeting with my sexual abuse support counselor went great.I talked with her a lot of what has happened over the past two weeks.I told her the problem about my attempts to reach this certain guy that I have been meaning to patch things up with for quite a while.I also pointed out that I understood why he possibly has not been returning my calls.She understood how I felt but she did point out that if I am not careful,I could lose my temper again before I know it.She also told me that I have been letting my frustrations pile up on top of each other and I am already on the verge of exploding in a rage if I keep this up.The only advice she gave me is to simply let it go for now.She also advised me that if I do call him again,simply tell him to "call me whenever he can and when he gets a chance." I said okay and that was it.Again,she said afterwards,simply move on and let it go for now and to continue exercising patience regarding this.She also said that if he is truly serious about wanting to fix things,he will call me at an opportune time when he does have the time.I am still going to try but I will let it go if I do choose to call him again.
She made me realize that this is why I am saying angry things to myself.I have been doing that as of late and I now realize why I have been doing so lately.I am going to take her advice and I will let it go.The ball is now in his court.I am also going to continue exercising patience regarding this.I do not want to lose my temper again.I have been doing pretty good regarding this and I do not want to do so.Because I could ruin myself if I do this time.That is a chance that I am not willing to take.
My support group meeting tonight at the church went great.It was great to finally let go of all the emotional baggage that I had.It was also great to hear what the other men in the group had to say as well.I also shared with them what I shared with my sexual abuse support counselor today as well.Again,it was a great meeting and I am looking forward to the 4th of July when we are going to get together at a park out in the country.I am hoping that this is a fun thing.I can hardly wait.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth work day today.Since it was smooth,the day went by pretty fast with nothing negative to write about.I also had some pretty interesting conversations with some of my colleagues while having lunch.Again,a pretty smooth work day.It was a little bit easier now that I have a four door car to help with the laundry loads.It makes hauling the laundry back and forth a little bit easier.I am glad to have this.It is wonderful to have a little something to make the days go by easier.
The weather for most of the day was very HAZY,HOT & HUMID.It was in the lower 90's for most of the day.Fortunately,I had air conditioning where I work and it was cooler inside.But when I got outside,it was HOT.Right now,it has cooled down somewhat but it still feels warm.We are supposed to get rain tomorrow and then the temps are supposed to cool down a little starting Thursday.A little rain is better than nothing and I do hope that it does get a little cooler.
Tomorrow is simply a pick up day.All I have to do is pick up the laundry and sort it out at the work place.I do have a couple more things on my agenda tomorrow.I have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor in the afternoon.Tomorrow evening,I have my support group meeting at the church.I am hoping that both of these go well.The meeting have been going well with me but I still hope for things to go well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling very good.I had a very good day today.I finally have my new car on the road and that is the best thing to happen all day.I drove it around for most of the day.I had to get the feel of it.I also celebrated by getting a cassette adaptor for my portable CD player.It was great to listen to some CD's in my new car and that was awesome.I also bought the car to make my work a little easier.Now,my work is a little easier.I now have plenty of room for all the laundry bags and that is something.
Today,weather wise,was sunny,hazy,hot and humid.The fans were going on all day where I am living.It was a chore trying to keep the house cool.But I think that we did good.I was just enjoying the weather and enjoying my new car.It was a great day today.I had a blast and I was really enjoying life today.I know that I will be enjoying my life a little more now.But still,I have to take life one day at a time and always keep a straight face.I also have to continue keeping on guard because you never know what might happen.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.It was a not too exciting day today.I simply took a drive around town today.It was a nice sunny day today so I felt that a nice cruise around the town was appropriate.Much of the day,I took a trip around the town and stopping at video stores to see if there was anything new to buy in the previously viewed DVD sections.I really did not find anything too interesting nor did I have any real money with me to buy anything anyway,but I did get a chance to look around and it was great.I did see some things but not enough to arouse my interests.Before I did that,I simply went to pick up a few slices of pepperoni pizza as a late lunch.Again,not too exciting but I did get out for some air and I did have a pretty decent time even though the day was not too exciting.
Last night,my entertaining of the crowd was very successful.The crowd enjoyed everything I did and I even had some laughs with a few guys at the bar.I had a wonderful time and I the crowd enjoyed me.There were not too many people there last night because of a carnival that was in town at one of the local churches.I figured that most of the people were there and did not feel like coming to the place where I sing.Thanks goodness that this happens only once a year and that the people will come back next week,which is usually the case.Still,I had a great time and the crowd,though it was small,enjoyed me.A small crowd is better than no crowd.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping to finally get my new car on the road.I have been putting it off for far too long.Again,I hope that I can get it on the road.
That was day today,my night last night and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a not too exciting day today.I did not do too much today.I only ran a few errands for my mom and that was it.The weather was nice and sunny today and the atmosphere was mild.It was not too humid today.To put it mildly,it was just right.
The errands that I ran for my mother were to get stuff for dinner.I had to go to three different places today to get everything.But I did accomplish everything that I set out to do.That gives me a feeling of accomplishment.Yes it does.I feel very good that I accomplished something.
After I ate a great dinner,I decided to do a little bit more personal PC work.I am now at home relaxing.The weather is still a bit cool.I am saving my energy for tonight.
Tonight,I am going to be entertaining the crowd as I always do.I am looking forward to that.I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.As stated before,you never know what might happen.Again,I hope that things go well.
For the rest of the weekend,I am going to simply take it easy.I have to be prepared for the work week ahead.I am hoping that the week goes by good.
That was my day today and my hoped for night tonight.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.The work shift went by as smoothly as it should and that made me feel good.After I dropped the clean laundry off,I simply went home and dropped off some stuff that I needed to drop off.After that,I went to the bank to cash my paycheck and I went back home.After dinner,I did some more personal PC work and after doing so,I did a virus scan on my PC and again,no viruses or spyware were found.That was great.It shows that my anti-virus and firewall programs are working great.Still,I do a scan on my computer once a week to be on the safe side.You never know what might happen or what might be on your computer.Again,there was nothing on my computer to cause me any worries.
I have just gotten back from a walk and I do feel better.It was the first walk that I have taken in a long time.It was also pretty long.But again,I do feel better.It was great to finally get out and stretch my legs for a bit and feel a little bit better.
Though I did have a pretty good day.I did start out this morning feeling a little at edge.I started mumbling angry things to myself once again.I do not know why I do that but again,it just happened.I have not done this in a long time.I do not why it happened.It just did.I am hoping that I can stop this.I do not want to be enslaved to anger for the rest of my life nor do I want it to overwhelm me.If anybody can help with any advice,please do so.Thanks.
I am just glad that the weekend is finally here.Tomorrow night,I am going to be singing for the crowd again.I am hoping that the night goes well.I always look forward to entertaining the crowd every Saturday night.Again,I am hoping that the night goes well.
That was my day today and my for day and night tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth work shift today.I am now working only mornings on Thursday's and I now use the spare time to work on my issues.I do have quite a few issues that I need to work out and resolve.I am still working on keeping my anger under control and my temper in check.My counselors are always telling me that I am doing a great job but I always have a hard time receiving compliments.I am used to always getting emasculated and insulted.I always used to people not giving me compliments.I know that it is something that I need to work on.I am willing to do that work.I need to start appreciating other's compliments of me.I really do not know how I am going to do that.I need some advice.I also have a hard time giving myself compliments when I do good.If I am making progress,that is good.But I still need to keep working on my anger problems no matter how much progress I have made.Again,I am willing to do the work regarding compliments receptions and giving them to myself.If anybody out there can offer advice,I would appreciate that.Thanks.
By the way,before I forget,the movie Vacancy was pretty good.I really enjoyed it.I can hardly wait for it to come to DVD.The DVD is supposed to have deleted scenes and other surprises.Again,I can hardly wait for the DVD to come out.I did manage to add a few more DVD's to my library.One of them is a Neil Young concert movie.I am looking forward to watching that.
I am working tomorrow.I will be on the afternoon shift.I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly.So far,nothing negative to talk about regarding work but I still hope for things to go well.After that,it's the weekend.I can hardly wait for that.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.The pick up I made this morning was very clean with nothing to pick up off the floor.I simply picked up the bags and when I got to the workplace,I weighed them,sorted them out and left.Before I did,I went over to my mechanic's garage in hopes of getting my new car on the road.But my mechanic advised me to hold off on doing that until he thoroughly checked it over.He also advised me to check back with him tomorrow afternoon and get the whole story from him.I simply said okay and went off to do the pick up.While I was downtown,I had a light lunch and I picked up a can of soup for dinner.
I went to my support group meeting at the church tonight and it was yet another meeting.It was great once again to let go of some more emotional baggage and air out some more of what was on my mind.It was wonderful to have the men listen to you and also to listen to them air out what was on thier minds.Again,the meeting was wonderful.I am feeling so much a part of them.It seems like only yesterday where we hardly knew each other and now,we are having some great talks and really feeling a positive atmosphere each and everytime.I am looking forward to the next meeting.I am hoping that the next is as wonderful as the last one.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.I also hope that the day goes well,too.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay yet again.I had a pretty smooth work day today.I did my job and the rest took care of itself.After I dropped off the laundry,I went home to relax and while I did,we had a torrential rainstorm where I am living.The rain really came down and it was also thundering and lightning everywhere.I stayed home for much of this because I had really nothing to do.I was going to return some bottles for a refund but thought that I would wait until the rain stopped before doing so.Now that it has,I am going to return them and get the money from them.I know that it is not going to be much but it will make my vehicle cleaner.I still have to get rid of a mess that is currently in the one that I drive and I will get around to it.I just hope that there will be no more rain.I mean,we needed this rain but that is enough for now.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.That will be easy.I am hoping that tomorrow,I can finally get that new car of mine on the road.I have been putting it off for quite some time and now,I am hoping to finally get it on the road tomorrow.That would be great.I can hardly wait to start driving it.It will be a relief to finally be driving something different and a lot more familiar with.Again,I can hardly wait.
I have been feeling pretty fluxed as of late.I have been trying and wanting to patch things up with this one guy but nothing really much has happened.I try calling him but all I get is his answering machine saying that he "will get back to you".But so far,I have left messages,left notes at his door but still,I have not heard from him.I am wondering if I am doing anything wrong.He says to me "Don't Be A Stranger" but he is being a stranger to me.Don't any of you hate it when somebody tells you not to be a stranger but they're being a stranger to you.I am still holding on to the hope that one day,I will hear from him.No matter how long it will take.I am going to keep trying.I am also thinking that maybe I will start new elsewhere.
Tomorrow is also a meeting night.I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.It was a very nice day today despite the humidity.The sun was shining and I got to go out and do a lot.I paid a visit to a friend of mine in town and I even managed to have a light lunch,though it was a little late because it was too close to dinner.But I wanted to have something in my system before dinner.Again,it was a very nice day.
I also managed to have a talk with another friend today and he is doing good.When he answered the phone,he informed me that he had just gotten back from Pennsylvania and that he had a nice trip.He even invited me out tomorrow night but I do not know if I am going to go out tomorrow night becuase Wednesday is a day that I have to get up and do a pick up.I guess that I will just have to cross that bridge when i come to it.If I do,I will stay a few minutes.If not,then I will do it when I can.
After a light dinner,I finished my personal computer work and I watched a little TV.I even visited some people that I knew in my neighborhood and they were doing good.Though I did not do an awful lot today,I did get out to do quite a bit of stuff and I did have a pretty good day.I guess that it's better than nothing.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a not too exciting of a day.I ran a couple of errands today and I had a short but pretty good talk with my father.The conversation was not too long but it was,as stated,pretty good.The weather today was pretty nice and warm but there was a little bit of humidity.Again,not too exciting of a day but I did get a couple of things done.
Last night,my entertaining of the crowd went over very well.I reaquaited myself with a few songs that I had done previously and I even tried out a new song that I had never done before.Again,it was a wonderful night and I had a blast.It is great to entertain such an appreciative crowd.I had a great time and that was great.
But my attempts to leave the place were almost hampered when I was walking to my vehicle and somebody tried to stop me because there was somebody,a borderline diabetic lady,urinating in the back lot on the grass.I had to plead with the person that I was not going to pay attention to that.But they insisted on holding me for a while until that lady was finished.It almost became an argument but eventually,she let me pass and as true to my word,I did not pay any attention as I left but the lady who was supposed to be urinating was not even doing that because the person who brought her there did not have any toilet tissue of any kind.But I left and went straight home.Though I did have a blast entertaining the crowd,I really did not like being stopped from going home.I am not a pervert.I do not peep on anybody unless I have permission to do that.I am not a peeper.I know that it is wrong to invade another's privacy and I do respect other's privacy,especially when it is a lady.But I did not let it get to me.I left and I made it home.
I am only posting this now because I am going to see a movie later.I am going to see Vacancy at a local bargain movie theatre in my area.I have been waiting for that movie to come to that theatre for quite a while and I am going to see it tonight.I am hoping that the movie is good.I have heard some mixed reviews of it but I need to see it for myself.Again,I am hoping that it's good.
Tomorrow is a day off.But I hope that it is a good day.
That was my day today,my night last night and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay,hopeful and optimistic.It was a typical Saturday for me.I woke up,had breakfast and did my personal computer work.Nothing really negative to write about,it was just typical personal stuff.But I got it done and after that,I closed the internet off for a while and ran an errand for my mom.Just typical Saturday stuff.But I got them done and that gave me a feeling of accomplishment.
After I ran the errands,I stopped at the drug store that my niece worked at and she gave me the money that she owed me.I really did not expect to see her there but at least,I got the money and after buying a couple of things,I left for home.
When I got home,I bathed before eating so I could get cleaned up for tonight.I ate a pretty good dinner and checked some more e-mail.I did not get too much this evening.I also checked up on a couple of online groups that I am a moderator of and there was nothing negative happening in either of them,which made me feel good.
I am now relaxing at home and I am getting ready to entertain tonight.I am looking forward to doing that because I always enjoy what I do and I always know that the crowd enjoys it as well.As always,I am hoping that the evening goes well.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I always hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.Again,I am getting ready to do that and I am hoping that the night goes over well.
That was my day today and my hoped for night tonight.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a bit better.I had a pretty smooth work shift today.After having a pretty good lunch,I started my work shift.It went by pretty well.I simply did my job today and after dropping off the laundry that was clean,I went home.After I dropped some stuff off,I went to the bank to cash my paycheck and to make a small deposit into my checking account to remove some overdrawn funds in it.I am hoping that I do not have to make any more deposits until the direct deposit of my disability check next month.I am just going to be checking my account daily to see if I am still in the black.I hate being overdrawn even if it's only a few dollars.At least,my bills were paid before that.I can now take it easy for now.
I am feeling a bit better than I have in the past few days.I am still battling the SSA demon because I am still at edge over what has happened the past few days.I am feeling more downs than ups.But I am hoping that I can get over this in time.I really hate having SSA.But I am stillin the battle to change that about myself.I am accepting that life will have it's ups and downs but lately,the downs have really been dominating me and it has made my SSA skyrocket.But now,the SSA is gradually going down.I still have to take all of this one day at a time and get through little by little each day.I can never think of never being sexually attracted to men forever.I look at terms of relieving myself of this emotional condition one day at a time.Again,as stated previously,I am not going to let these desires,which are,again,emotional in nature and represent unmet needs that are NOT sexual in nature but are,as stated already,emotional and only represent the drive to be accepted as A MAN and to fulfill myself with relating and identifying with my fellow men on a normal,level and healthy plain and simply just being one of the guys and feeling like one of the guys.Again,I have to take this in terms of one day at a time and handle the desires as they come.The only thing that I have to learn is how to cope with the desires the right way rather than the old false coping mechanisms that I am used to using.I feel that I am learning little by little how to do that but I still need to learn new ways of coping.If anybody out there can help,I will be glad to read some suggestions that any of you might have.
Tomorrow is the weekend.I am looking forward to that.I will be singing up a storm tomorrow night and I am hoping that the night goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for night tomorrow night.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.It was a pretty good day today.The work shift went by smoothly.I simply did my job and the rest took care of itself.I also had a pretty good lunch.I even had some nice conversations with a few people at work and that was good.
After I came home,I went out again to do a couple of things for my mom.I also went to pay my car insurance bill today and it is now paid for this month.I had to pay this because it was due today and it is now paid to avoid late fees.Afterwards,I took it easy at home and I had a very good dinner.I also went for a drive.The reason why I did was because I am thinking of trying a sexual addicts support group at another church in another area.I heard about it through someone who goes to my Wednesday night meetings at the church in another area.The only difference is that this group at the Catholic church is non-spiritually based.The Wednesday night Baptist church ones are spiritually based.Again,I have been thinking of trying this because I do struggle with sexual addiction.I have been looking into attending a sexual addiction support group for quite a while and now that I have heard about this,I am thinking about giving it a try.My addiction at the moment is masturbation.But in the past,my addictions were simply performing oral sex on other males.Though I have not performed any sexual activity,oral or otherwise,with any man in quite a while,I still have fleeting thoughts surrounding this area and this has been contributing to my problems with masturbation.My emotional state due to my niece not complying with the verbal agreement that we made regarding the car insurance at the moment and that one issue with that friend who has said that he wants to patch things up with me but he's not returning my phone calls has made my SSA sky-rocket as of late and I feel that I need extra support regarding this.As I have previously stated,I do not want to act out on my desires because that will not give me the fulfillment that I am seeking or looking for.Nor will it give me the satisfaction that I truly need to feel like A MAN among men.Plus,I made a commitment to change my orientation and not reaffirm the Homosexual/Gay identity that I am trying to get rid of.Performing anything sexual,including oral sex,on a man will only reaffirm this identity that I do not want nor do I want to be affiliated with because I am trying to show that I am stronger than my desires and that they do not control me.I know that I did masturbate yesterday but I have been forgiven for that and I am moving on.Deep down,I do not believe in Homosexuality and I know that deep down,I do not find men sexually attractive.I was sexually abused by other males while I was groing up and this has really made it rough because the sexual abuse that I endured,including the rape episode that I endured when I was 16,really confused me and made me think that I was Gay,which I am not.I do not want to even be labeled this because in reality,there is no such thing as such.It is only the desires and the condition,which is emotional in nature and not sexual.But I know that deep down,I am not that at all,nor do I believe in having sexual relations with other men.I believe in the law that was set forth by the creator and that is man and woman.Again,I have to let my desires know that I control them.It is not them that control me.It is going to be tough but I am determined to do that.If I have to attend another group,than I have to.Again,I am thinking of giving this group a try in the near future.It if works out,great.If not,then it was worth a try.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.After that,it's the weekend.I am looking forward to that.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a wonderful meeting tonight at the church.The meetings are always wonderful.It is always great to get a lot of emotional baggage off of my chest.After the relapse I had today,I really needed that lift.
Earlier this afternoon,when I was home alone and my mom was at the beauty parlor,I was in such an emotional tirade over what has been happening to me this week,I wound up masturbating.My emotional state for much of the day was not very good.My niece giving me a hard time regarding the money that she owes for the insurance this month and my wanting to patch things up with somebody that is not even getting off of the ground by his lack of returning phone calls to me when I leave them on his answering machine.Still,I am holding on to the hope that it will get off of the ground soon enough.But my relapse really made me feel down but after I said a little prayer to ask for forgiveness and even forgave myself,I felt better.Still,the guilt did hang on to me for a while afterwards.But over the course of the day,I felt better.The meeting tonight was wonderful and it really made feel better.It is great that I found out about this group and to finally belong and be a part of a group is very rewarding and reassuring.I am looking forward to my next meeting next Wednesday night.
Tonight,when I got home,I got some rather distressing news.My little grandniece is sick.She has strep throat and scarlet fever.My niece had to pay some money because she does not have any medical insurance with her in between jobs at the moment.But my niece has already assured me that she will pay me back on Friday and that everything will work out.I am just hoping that my little grandniece gets better soon.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.I am also going to be paying the car insurance tomorrow so I can keep it current.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.It was a very good day today.I had a very smooth work day today.The day went by pretty fast.I simply did my job and the rest took care of itself.After dropping off the clean laundry,I simply went home.I took it easy for a while at home because it was a very hot and humid day today.I had to go to the laundromat today to do my dirty underwear.Since it was hot and humid,I waited for the weather to cool for a while before leaving to do so.Before I went to the laundromat,I went to Sears to pick up some extra underwear because I did not have enough undershirts and socks to go along with the underpants that I had.So,I bought those to make it even.
The time at the laundromat was very positive.I talked with a few people and the conversations were nice.After my laundry was done,I bagged it and went home.
I am now at home relaxing.I am anticipating tomorrow because I have to do a pick-up in the morning.I also have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor in the afternoon and I have my weekly support group meeting at the church tomorrow night.I am hoping that both of these meetings go well.Again,I am anticipating tomorrow and I am hoping that everything works out for the best for me.
Thatw as my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a not too eventful day today.I simply ran a few errands for my mom today.The day was also pretty sunny and bright today alongside being humid.But I just went about my business today and let nothing get between what I had to do.I simply went about the day.
I have been under a lot of stress as of late.The stress has been coming from my niece's uncooperation with a verbal agreement that we made late last year.My neice is currently on my insurance so she can drive her mini van to get here kids to school and to get back and forth to work.She agreed to give me her half of the money a week before the due date but she has not been cooperating.I have explained this to her but apparently,I don't think that what I am trying to get through is doing any good.She always says that she agrees but she always pays late.I always keep making sacrifices that I feel that I should not have to make in order to keep paying the insurance on time so I will not get in bad with my company.This has been going on for a long time and no matter what I say to her,it seems to fall on deaf ears.I understand that she has three kids and that she always has to think of them firsthand.But a verbal agreement is a verbal agreement.At least,that is the way I feel about it.I just hope that I do not have to make any more of these because I feel that I am really going to go crazy if I have to do that again.I am going to pay the bill tomorrow and I am hoping that this will not be a problem in the long run.I am just hoping that the rest of the week goes well.
Whenever my stress level goes up,my SSA skyrockets.I am trying to heal from unwanted SSA attractions but this is making them worse.Whenever my SSA skyrockets,I crave acting out sexually with other men and I do not want to do that.Deep down,it's what I want to do because it is all I have ever known but I am trying to leave the Gay sexual subculture behind and on the surface,it is not what I want to do.I truly believe that sexual relations between two men is unnatural and I do not want to go back there.I know the minute that I have sexual relations with one man,I want to have sexual relations with another man and so on until I am right back where I was before I started my healing from unwanted SSA.I don't want to indulge in this stuff because I do not believe in it nor do I think is the right way for a man to be or do.I am determined to heal and I am determined to be the Heterosexual man that I want to be as well as the man that I have always wanted to be.I want REAL male friends who I can confide in and trust and have the healthy relationships that every guy needs in order to be and even feel like a REAL man.I do not want to think of men as potential sexual partners nor do I want to think of them as anything having to do with that.I truly and way deep down believe that Homosexual sexual behavior is wrong and unnatural and it is not a healthy alternative to Heterosexuality.Again,I am determined to be a Heterosexual man and I am determined to overcome SSA at all costs.I am just hoping that the rest of the week goes by smoothly and that I do not have to make unneccessary sacrifices just to keep up with life.I am trying to save up money,not spend more.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.I could use a smooth work day and I could also use a smooth week.If the rest of the week goes by smoothly,that will be good.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I was out of the house for most of the day.I ran a few errands for my mom.I had to pick up a couple of her prescriptions at the drug store.I also had lunch,which was my usual pepperroni pizza.I also manged to look around a few stores to look for IPOD players and compare prices.They are pretty expensive but they will get lower priced in the next few years.What I am interested in most is finding a CD recorder.I would like to transfer a few out of print LP's that I have onto CD.That way,I can preserve the vinyl records and keep them looking good.I am going to keep looking until I find one.I know that I have to save up for one but it will be well worth it.I would like to have some of my favorite records on CD because some of what I have in my vinyl collection are rare and hard to find and I want to keep the vinyl in good to great condition.I am a collector of rare records and again,I want to make sure that I keep my collection in good to near mint shape.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd was another big success.I really wowed them with the new songs that I tried out.The two new songs that I tried out were by Jethro Tull.The audience really showed their appreciation to me for what I did.It was another successful night for me and I am looking forward to the next time.I am hoping that the next night is as successful as last night.I really enjoy what I do.It is always a pleasure to entertain a crowd who always enjoys what I do.
Today,I did have a fun time out.I did not buy anything but I still had a wonderful time out.It was just great to get out and simply be out in the community getting some air and exercise.Yes,I enjoyed myself today.
Tomorrow is my day off.I have nothing planned but I know that something will come up.
That was my day today,my night last night and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.It was a very good day today.After I picked up a DVD set that I borrowed to a friend from his place,I went to have light lunch and picked up a couple of things for my mom.The day was a beautiful sunny day and it was less humid.I had a pretty good day.I also took my mom grocery shopping so she could stock up for the month.After we got home,I bathed and we had dinner.Overall,a very good day.
I am now relaxing at home.I am getting ready to entertain the crowd tonight.I am feeling pretty good as I am anticipating this.The nights are always super and I always have a blast entertaining the crowd.I am hoping that the night goes well.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.It is a habit of mine to hope because you never know what might happen.But still,I rarely have an off night.But again,I still hope for things to go well.But I feel that the night is going to be another big success and everything will work out fine.Though I do have that feeling,I still hope that things go well for me tonight.
That was mny day today and my hoped for night tonight.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very smooth work day today.The day just went by pretty fast.I did my duties and after that,I headed for home.Before that,I had to make a few stops along the way.I stopped at a store to pick a few things for diner and I also went to the bank to cash my paycheck.The day,weatherwise, was very hot hazy and humid.But I did not let it get me down.I was just glad to get home and when I got home,we had a very bad thunderstorm that only lasted for mostly an hour.Again,I did not let the weather dampen my spirits.I worked to stay upbeat and whatever I did,it worked.
I am now at home relaxing.For most of the evening,I simply watched a movie while a virus scan was being done on my computer.I watched the original Alien movie from 1979.It was part of a special limited edition 3 DVD pack that I bought at Target on Sunday after I did my laundry.This was the first time that I had watched this movie.I had already seen Aliens and Alien 3.Alien was actually pretty good.The whole movie took place on a spaceship.It all starts when one of the crew members gets an alien creature clutched onto his face and afther that,all hell breaks loose on board the ship.The DVD also had deleted scenes and trailers.Overall,it was a good movie and well worth the wait all these years.I did manage to read the novelization of the film in junior high school years ago but the movie was better than the book.I enjoyed it and I highly recommend the film to anyone who is interested.
The weekend is finally here.I am going to be entertaining the crowd tomorow night at the place where I do so.I am looking forward to that because I really enjoy what I do.It is always a blast getting to use my talents and having people enjoy me.Again,I am looking forward to that.I am hoping that the evening goes well.
By the way,the virus scan was negative.No viruses or spyware was on my computer.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.It was a pretty good day today.I had a very smooth work shift today and that was great.I had the afternoon off,which will be what I will have from now on.I look at this extra free time to work on my issues and to continue working on keeping my emotions,including anger,under control and in check.I guess that this could be something that the creator in Heaven wants for me.Still,I am going to miss working Thursday afternoons.I am just going to have to fill it with some constructive activity.I do not know what that will be but I will figure it out eventually.Right now,I am just going to have to think about it for now and see what I can come up with.Until then,I'll just take it easy for now.
Today was also a hot,humid day.I was sweating pretty much but when I got home,I stayed there until the weather cooled down.After that,I went to run an errand for my mom and had me a Dilly Bar at a Dairy Queen in my area.A pretty good day.It was nice and I was glad to get a lot accomplished.Again,I am just going to take it easy until I figure on how I am going to fill my time with the extra free time that I will now have.I know that I will think of something.
Tomorrow is yet another work day and I am hoping that the day goes as smoothly as today.After that,it's the weekend.
Last night,the Anaheim Mighty Ducks became Stanley Cup champions.I was glad to see them win the cup.Don't get me wrong,I am still a Sabres fan and they are still my team.But since the Ottawa Senators eliminated the Sabres from the playoffs,I was hoping that the Mighty Ducks would win the cup.The hopes came through and now,I am happy.I look at this as revenge for the Senators eliminating the Sabres.Now,I look at it as revenge set and met.I can now forget that the Senators eliminated the Sabres from the playoffs.But again,as previously stated,I am still proud of my team for their accomplishments this season.They won the President's Trophy for having the best record in the league this season and they got pretty far in the playoffs.They did put a solid team effort in everything that they did this season and for that,I am still as proud as I am for them.I am hoping that the Sabres can do better next season.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.The pick-up day for me went by pretty well.There was no mess to pick up at the pick-up place and that was great.After dropping it off,I went for a little drive around the city.I had a few errands to run and I figured that I would get them done right away.I had to pick up a few things for myself and for my mom.Afterwards,I went to do my personal computer work.Everything was going good for a while until I ran into some trouble.A friend of mine from the UK sent me a hello message via MSN messenger but in the middle of the conversation,I tried to access a movie theatre website for showtimes and was inundated with pop-ups.I had a hard time getting rid of those and the MSN messenger thing disappeared during all this insanity.I even tried to get back to doing my personal work but the internet explorer was not cooperating.I tried to access my personal e-mail box but it was not responding.I had to close off the internet and restart the computer so I could get it going the right away again.Afterwards,I finished my work and had dinner.There were no problems after that and I managed to get my work done.
Tonight,I had a wonderful meeting with my support group at the church.It was great to get rid of a lot of emotional baggage that I was carrying around for the past few days.It was great that they were listening and that made me feel appreciated.It is great that I found out about this group.It was a wonderful meeting and I am looking forward to the next meeting.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth work day today.Nothing really negative to write about and the day went by pretty fast.I just did my job and that gave me a sense of accomplishment.The day was a bit cooler today with a little tad of rain.We were supposed to get a downpour but that bypassed.Again,I had a pretty smooth day today.
When I got home today,my mom was watching my grand nieces and grand nephew.There was not really a lot of quiet this afternoon.But I winged it and around 6:30 this evening,my niece came and picked them up.
Right now,it is very quiet and I am relaxing.I really like it this way.I can now relax and rest my mind.I also had to do some running around today after I ate.I went to get some gas in my tank and I also had to get a quart of motor oil because I found that I was a quart low.After that,I went home and I stayed there for the rest of evening.
Tomorrow is a pick up day.After that,I am taking my mom to the beauty parlor so she can get her hair done.I will have the house all to myself for a short time.It will be great to be on my own for a while so I can relax my thoughts and prepare for my support group meeting at the church tomorrow night.I am eagerly awaiting the meeting tomorrow night.It will be great to talk with the guys again.I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day off today.I mostly helped out my mom today.I took her to buy a new coffee maker.While she was busy checking them out,I went to do some shopping for her.She needed a few things for herself and I went to a supermarket that was not too far away from the department store where she was looking for a new coffee maker.After doing that,I picked my mom and we went home.
Before I helped her out,I managed to help my neighbor do some pruning.She wanted to trim some branches off of a tree and I helped her out.It only took a few minutes.
I am at home at the moment.I am relaxing and taking it easy.I am getting prepared for the work week.Tomorrow is the start of the work week for me and I am hoping that the day goes by pretty well.I am also hoping that there is no mess to clean at the spot where I have to pick-up.I always hate it when there is a mess to pick up.The people there can actually pick up after themselves and there is no need to just throw the dirty laundry just about anywhere.Again,I am hoping that it goes by smoothly the whole day.
The best thing to happen is that I finally got my Buffalo Sabres medallions.I ordered them back in mid-May and I got them today in the mail.They are truly neat.I am glad to have these because I am a fan of one of the greatest teams in the world.The Buffalo Sabres are truly that and then some.Again,I am glad to have these.
Tomorrow,it is going to be raining pretty much.According to the National Weather Service,it will be a heavy downpour that will last much of the day.It is a good thing because we do need rain after some of the heat and humidity that we have been having.It has been pretty hot,hazy and humid.But now,we are supposed to have a cool down starting tomorrow with rain.I am glad for that much welcome break from the heat and humidity from the past few days.
Thatw as my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.It was a fairly decent day today.I got a lot accomplished today and that contributes to why I am feeling the way that I feel.
I had to go the laundromat today to do my dirty underwear.My mom's washer is still under the weather and I had to do it at the laundromat once again.Still,I got it done and I now have clean underwear to get me through the week.While waiting for it,I enjoyed a pepperoni pizza lunch at the laundromat.After that was done,I made a couple of stops on the way home.I stoped at a Target store in my area and picked up the Alien 3 pack that they had.It was only available through them and there was a clearance sale on them.I figured that I would pick it up while I could before they were gone.After that,I went to a supermarket on the same plaza to pick up some ice cream.While waiting to cash it out,I ran into an inconsiderate lady who had the nerve to actually ring up two seperate orders at same manual cash out register.There were several other people waiting alongside me and this inconsiderate lady was ringing up two seperate orders.She finished one order and then started ringing up more after that.I was really mad that I was waiting with only item and she was just slowly and deliberately taking up so much time to do just one order on two seperate intervals on the same manual register.I complained and when she was finally finished,I sighed and said "It's about time!"Than that lady griped by saying "There's Something Wrong With You!You Need Help!"I answered by saying that she was the one that needed help because she was being inconsiderate.She just gave me a dirty look and took off.I rang up my ice cream,paid for it and left.Before leaving,I brought it up with a customer service manager and she said that these things do happen at times and that she understood how I felt and there was nothing wrong with that.I went home shortly afterwards.
Last night,I had a blast singing.I did three songs from The Beatles album Sargeant Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band to commemorate the 40th anniversary of the release of the album by singing a few songs from it.Again,the night was a success and I had a great time.I look forward to the next week to entertain the crowd and I am hoping that the night goes as well as this one.
Tomorrow is a day off as usual.I will be helping out my mom again.She wants to get a new coffee maker because our old one conked out.We have been using an old stand-by for a while and my mom would like to store the old stand-by again because she doesn't want it to break down.I am hoping that the whole day goes well.
That was my day today,my night last night and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.It was a very good day for me.The weather might have been hot hazy and humid but I managed to get a lot done.I went to do some personal shopping for myself and I managed to get everything that I needed.I now have plenty to last me throughout this month.That gives me a feeling of accomplishment and that makes feel pretty good.I am glad to have gotten everything that I needed to get done and that was great.I now have a good month of supplies to last me through.
Tonight,I am going to be singing for the crowds.I do not know what I will be doing tonight but I know that it will be special.I am also hoping for everything to go well.I rarely,if ever,have an off night singing but I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.But again,I always hope for things to go well.Usually they do,but you never know.
I also had to run one more errand before checking into here tonight.I had to pick up a submarine sandwich for dinner.It was great to have a fresh submarine sandwich instead of one that sits around waiting to be bought.It was very good.I enjoyed it.My mom and I shared it by splitting it in half.Again,it was really good.
Tomorrow,I am going back to the laundromat to do more of my dirty underwear.Just one of those things that you have to do before the new week begins.You always got to have clean underwear.
That was my day today and my hoped for night tonight.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay yet again.I had a pretty smooth work shift and I was glad to get my job done and await the weekend.I am just glad that the month of May is over with.May was a terrible month for me moneywise.My bank account was overdrawn twice last month so I had to make two deposits to remove the overdrawn funds.After that,my account stayed in the black for the rest of the month.I really had to hold onto money last month because I had to pay cash consisitently for my regular fill ups on gasoline.I can not believe that gas has jumped to over $3.00 per gallon.It is insane.I have never paid that much for a gallon of gas.I will be glad to get my new car on the road soon.I am already feeling the pain at the pump by constantly filling up my compact 4X4 vehicle everytime that I turn around.Again,I will be glad to get my new car on the road and start saving on gas.It will be great to do that.It will also be great to driving a very economical car for a change.
As stated above,the work day was pretty smooth.After I left work,I had to do a few things for my mom before coming home.I also had to cash some checks for her and myself.I also had to pay a bill at my bank as well.But I am glad to get that out of the way.I can now take it easy for the rest of the evening.I also bought a couple of DVD's for myself.
When I got home,I did some more personal computer work and went back out to get some dinner for me and my mom.Nothing special,just some specials at Taco Bell.But it was pretty good.The dinner was filling and we both enoyed it.
Tonight,the reason why I am posting this early is because I am going to a birthday party.A friend invited me to his house for a small party and I will be going.It is great that I am going to be visiting with him for a while.It will be great to talk with him face to face again.I am looking forward to this tonight.
Tomorrow is the weekend.I am going to be doing my usual singing for the crowd tomorrow night.I do not know what I will do but I know that it will be special.I am looking forward to that.I am hoping that it all goes well.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.
That was my day today and my hoped for day & night tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth work day today.I learned today that my hours are once again being cut.You see,the recently hired new trainee is going to be taking over Thursday afternoons.I wil still be workingthe mornings but the afternoons are going to the trainee.It is sad but I guess that the trainee needs to get a litle bit more in so he can better prepare himself for the world of work on the outside.It is sad that I am losing a couple of hours but I guess that is how life is.Life has it's ups and downs.Oh well!I am still going to be working a full day on Tuesday and I will be working mornings on Thursday and afternoons on Friday.I am still going to be doing pick-ups 4 days a week.Still,what I got is better than nothing.I am still with a job and it is better than being unemployed.I am still glad that I am still working and it will still keep me busy.
Today was a very hot and humid day.I had to do some stuff before going home today after work.I had to drop off a screen at a hardware store in my area to get fixed.I also had a doctor's appointment today but I was waiting for 45 minutes to see him.My appointment time was 3:45 p.m. and I waited until 4:30 p.m. to see the doctor.I talked to the doctor about my life and how my job was going and that was it.I got my prescription and I dropped it off at the drug store.Before that,I had to mail out something for my mom.But due to the time that I had to wait to see the doctor,I almost did not make it to the post office.I just made it with only 10 minutes to spare and I got out what I had to get out.After that,I went home.
I am now at home taking it easy.I also have a lot to do tomorrow.I have to go to the bank after work to cash my paycheck and to withdrawl some money for my mom and myself.It is the first of the month and it is also payday.I also have to buy some take-out food for dinner tomorrow for me and my mother.I am also hoping that my work shift goes well tomorrow afternoon.After that,it's the weekend and I am looking forward to that.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a wonderful day today.Today was simply a pick-up day and that went as well as expected.No mess to clean up and everything went good.On the way home,I stopped and bought a meatball submarine for lunch and it was great.I enjoyed it.After lunch,I went and finished off my personal computer work and that gave me a feeling of accomplishment.For dinner,I simply had a bowl of hot tomato soup with a garlic flavored muffin.That was great.The day went by pretty well and made me feel a bit better.
Tonight,I went to my support group meeting at the church and that was wonderful.I simply shared what I had to get off of my chest.It was simply everything that happened to me during the last few days and it was great to get rid of all that emotional baggage.I feel much better at the moment.On the way home from the meeting,I had my window down with music blaring from my vehicle's CD player.It was wonderful to have the music blaring and have the window down.After I left the meeting,I had a smile on my face that would not leave.I guess that since the day went by smoothly,it gave me a wonderful feeling of satisfaction.That can not be bought at a store nad that is what makes that feeling even better.
I am now at home taking it easy.It is a wonderful semi-cool evening outside and i am hoping for a good nights rest.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a bit better than I have been over the past couple of days.Nothing negative to write about happened and that is pretty good.The work day went by prety smoothly and that also made me feel a bit better.I am looking forward to my support group metting tomorrow night at the church so I can blow off a little more steam.It is great to do that.It is also even greater to have men listening rather than ignoring you.I am looking forward to tomorrow night's meeting.I hope that the meeting goes well.
Today,after coming home from work,I took my mom to the bank that currently holds her checking account so she could straighten out a computer error.While she was going about her business,I decided to take a look around a few of the stores that were in the area.There was really nothing new to see at thoe stores but the walk did me good.After I returned to my vehicle,my mom was in there waiting for me and we headed for home.After that,I did my personal computer work,had dinner and took it easy.I even went for a drive to get some gas and a little bit of ice cream.I was in the mood for some of that and it was great to get out.The big difference is that I did not have to deal with inconsiderate drivers this time around and that also made me feel a bit better.I am glad that nothing negative happened today that was worth writing about.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up works out well.As stated,I also have a support group meeting tomorrow night at the church.Again,I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Happy Memorial Day Everybody.
Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.The day started out pretty good.I had a wonderful afternoon taking it easy at home and enjoying the day.My mom was laying down and I was watching a movie for the vast majority of the afternoon.I watched Zombie Honeymoon this afternoon and I enjoyed it.It was about a young couple who have just gotten married and decide to spend their honeymoon in a beach house on the Jersey shore.When they are on the beach soaking up the sun,a zombie emerges dressed in a rubber wet suit and attacks the man.He does not bite him but he vomits on him.Afterwards,he starts turning into a bloodthirsty and flesh hungry zombie who starts attacking people who live in the area and eating them.But he tries to control his appetite by not hurting his wife but soon she has to choose whether to live with this or put him to death.I am not going to ruin it for all of you but I do recommend the movie for any horror film fan who wants something different for a change instead of the same old same old type of stuff.It is a combination zombie film and romantic comedy.It is a fun movie.Again,I highly recommend it for any scary movie lover who would like something different for a change regarding horror films.
This late afternoon after dinner,I went out for some ice cream at an ice cream parlor.I enjoyed the ice cream that I had and I had a wonderful time out.But the wonderful time out turned pretty dreadful when I was on the road in a rural part of the area that I live.On that road,an inconsiderate driver tried to play a game of chicken with me by trying to cross the line in the opposite lane but I dodged off the road and he went back into that lane and actually gave me the middle finger while driving off.A minute later,I was at a traffic light and when the light turned green,I proceeded to go straight but another inconsiderate driver,who was turning left,actually had the nerve to proceed with his left turn while I was going straight and had the right of way.I beeped my horn but he also gave me the middle finger.I hate it when inconsiderate drivers break the law and there are no police officers in the area to pull them over because they are in the wrong and give them the appropriate discipline when they do indeed break the driving laws.It is a shame but I still hate it when that happens.I am hoping that when teh new officials are elected this year,that the increase the police patrols in many areas by hiring more officers or bringing the laid off ones back to work.When there is little police protection,chaos becomes the order of the day whereas order disappears altogether and people think that they can do whatever they want providing they don't get caught.That has got to STOP.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.The day started out pretty good but it soon went downhill.
After waking up this morning and I had breakfast,I decided to go for a little drive around town and get a few pepperoni pizza slices.After that,I took a drive out to a shopping mall and took a walk around.I learned via a guy who ran a sports card and memoriabilia shop that the legendary French Connection line-up from the 1970's were coming to the shop in late August.I immediately went home to get some money so I could buy a ticket for the occasion.I always manage to go anywhere that the French Connection line goes so I can get their autographs and talk to them.For those unfamiliar with who the French Connection are,I will share.The French Connection were a trio of hockey players who played for the Buffalo Sabres in the 1970's.The line-up consisted of Rick Martin,Rene Robert(pronounced Robear)and Gilbert Perreault(pronounced jillbear pearou)and they were famous for scoring a lot of goals and keepuing the defenders of the opposing teams hands full whenever they played the Sabres in Buffalo.I will be going there in late August to get their autographs and get my pictures taken with them.I am looking forward to that day.It will be in the next two months but it is well worth the wait.I can hardly wait for that.
The thing that happened that made the rest of the day go downhill was when a lady picked a fight with me.The whole thing started when I got out of my vehicle to check and see if my vehicle was not blocking any driveways because it is against the law to block a driveway.While walking to a sidewalk,I dropped a pen on the street accidently and bent over to pick it up.When I got to the sidewalk,the lady accused me of trying to steal something from the trunk of her family's car,which I responded by saying that I did not,which was the truth.She accused me of being a liar and continued pointing that finger of hers by insisting that I did,which I didn't.An argument ensued with her calling me a "Nutcase" and then her young son shouted that if I did not stop arguing with his mother,he would bite my nose off.I repeatedly pleaded my case but she continued shouting at me until her husband came out and approached and asked "What's The Problem?"I told her husband the whole story of her accusing me of trying to steal something out of the trunk of their car and I even assured him that I was not.Plus,during that ordeal,one of the neighborhood kids got involved,which was none of his business to do so,and told me to knock it off.I told him to mind his own business but he continued to butt in.Even his mother advised him not to get involved and to mind his own business but he ignored her.After that,the lady's husband said "Okay,Knock It Off!This Whole Thing Is Over & Done With!He Said He Did Not Do That!The Case Is Closed!"After which,they all got into their car and drove off.Even a couple of my neighbors said that I did not attempt to take anything out of their trunk and that further affirmed that I was telling her the truth.Though I was glad that it was over,I still frustrated that the emotional strain that I suffered from that I wound up masturbating.I have not masturbated in a while and the frustrating feeling that I suffered wound up making me feel emotionally drained and still upset that made me give into the temptation to masturbate.I did feel lousy afterwards and it made feel repentant of giving into that and even the angry disposition that I had being accused of something that I did not do,which insulted my personal integrity as a human being.I am just hoping that the new week is a good one.After what happened this afternoon,I am going to need a good week to forget all about this stuff.
Tomorrow is the Memorial Day holiday.I am just going to stay home and take it easy for the day to prepare for the rest of the week regarding my job.Again,I am hoping that the rest of the week goes well.I am going to need a good week to help me get over the negative stuff had happened today.
That was my day today and my hoped for week that is coming up.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling hopeful,good and optimistic.I had the house all to myself this afternoon.My mom went to my grand niece's birthday party this afternoon and I decided to spend the afternoon on my own at home while my mom was over there.It was nice and quiet having the house all to myself for a while.I just needed some peace and quiet to myself and I figured that this was a perfect opportunity.I actually enjoyed it.
While my mom was over at my niece's house,I watched a movie on my VCR/DVD combo while I was having dinner.My dinner was simply two hot dogs and a heaping bowl of low sodium tomato soup.It was great.I simply ate it while I was watching the movie.It was a neat horror film called Motor Home Massacre.I enjoyed it.It was about a bunch of college aged kids getting lost in the woods after they "borrow" the motor home of somebody's parents.When they get there,the usual events ensue.The ending really surprised me.But it was worth watching.I had a ball being here alone at home today.My mom had told me that she had a wonderful time and she bought home some cupcakes.Overall,it was a wonderful afternoon.I am looking forward to the next time that I have this opportunity.I like having some time to myself.
Tonight,I am going out to sing up a storm for my friends and I am hoping that the evening goes well.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I always still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.But I always hope for it and I feel that there is nothing wrong with that.I sometimes think the more you hope.The better that you feel,or something like that.But I am looking forward to the night tonight as I always do.Becuase you never know what might happen.But again,I rarely have any problems regarding my entertaining people on a Saturday night.
That was my day today and my hoped for night tonight.

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth working day today.Nothing much happened.I just did my job and the rest took care of itself.The only thing was that it was a very HOT and HUMID day today.It has now cooled down somewhat but it was a very hazy day today.The heat did make it hard but I was just glad to get home after the work day today.I relaxed for most of the afternoon after I got home.After I ate dinner,I caught up on some personal computer work that I had been meaning to catch up on.After doing so,I went to the laundromat to do my underwear.My mother's washer started leaking a week ago as she was doing laundry and at the moment,we have no washer.While I was at the laundromat,I did a scan on my computer and there were no viruses or spyware on it.I got a lot accomplished today.I now have clean underwear to last me a while and that is great.The work week,despite one frustrating thing that happened this week,went by better than expected.I am glad that it did.Because when you get through something without a lot of frustration,it gives you a feeling of accomplishment and it makes you look forward to the next week.It also makes you better appreciate the weekend when it comes.
I am glad that the weekend is here.I am looking forward to singing tomorrow night for the crowd.Then again,I always look forward to singing and entertaining the crowd on Saturday night.I love what I do.It is fun and it always makes me feel good when the crowd is always satisfied.It makes me look forward to entertaining the crowd even more.I can hardly wait for that tomorrow night.
This weekend is the Memorial Day weekend.It is a very special weekend where we honor war veterans past and present.We also honor those who served in the US Armed Forces.Those brave men who fought for our freedom really deserve the honor.It also makes us realize that freedom truly ain't FREE.It comes with a price.Those brave men paid a big price for our freedom.
I am hoping that Saturday night goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day and night tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty hard day today.The work day went by pretty smoothly but I had to haul four heavy bags full of laundry from the basement to the upstairs where I had to load the laundry into my vehicle to drop it off at the drug and alcohol rehabilitation center.The staff there reported that they were low on fitted sheets and that if I had seen any in any of the loads that I had picked up in the past few days,please make sure that I had them delivered by this afternoon.I did find quite a few and I did those so they would have them in their stock as needed.They did show their appreciation by thanking me,which made me feel a little bit good.On the way home,I had to stop and get gas at a gas station.I also had to mail out something that I had to mail out right away.Not only that,the hot humid weather was also a contributor to why I was feeling the way I was.It just brought me a more tired feeling.But again,I was glad to have gotten something accomplished.
But it was not that way when I got home.My mom asked me if I could borrow her more money.I mean,I loaned her some this month and no matter how many times I try to get through to her about my cash situation,it seems to do me no good.I sometimes wish that I did not have to do these things.I know that if I live at home,I do have to do something extra when I least expect it.But this is ridiculous.May has not been a good month for me money wise.I am happy that the last week is coming and I can put this month behind me and forget about all this stuff that has happened.I mean this month,I had to make two deposits in my checking account when I wound being overdrawn twice.But right now,I only have a little bit of money to keep my account open when the next direct deposit comes in on June 1st.I am hoping that June is a better month for me money wise.I can't hardly want for this month to end.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.It was a pretty decent day today despite a minor frustration that had happened earlier in the day.When I arrived at the pick up spot to pick up the laundry,the laundry room was in a big mess.I had to search for empty laundry bags today and I succeeded in finding them.I put the remaining laundry that was all over the place and bagged it.When I arrived at the work site,I dropped it off after weighing it and sorting it out.I left to go home.On the way,I stopped at a small restaurant and had lunch.I even stopped by my mechanic's garage to see if he had started the car as of yet but he didn't.He said that the the part had not come as of yet and he is hoping that it would arrive today so he could start tomorrow.I am hoping to get it on the road by next month.I am anxious to get it going so I can drive it.I would love to start driving it pretty soon.I have been eagerly awaiting this for quite a while.I am hoping that he does start it soon.
I had a wonderful meeting with my sexual abuse support counselor.It was great to get off all the excess emotional baggage that I had been carrying around for a couple of weeks.I did tell her about the experience that I had two weeks ago and I also told her that nothing had happened.She was glad to know that nothing happened and that the stuff that I was scared of did not become a reality.But still,the fear was there because an experience did happen when an inconsiderate guy at one time grabbed me without permission and he was thrown out after he done so.That experience was why I was scared of what happened two weeks ago.But I have put that behind me and I am moving on.
I had a wonderful meeting tonight with my support group at the church.It was great to get some emotional baggage off of me in the group as well.These meetings have been helping me with a lot of what heas been going on in my life by giving me an understanding attitude and listening to every word I say.That is great.I am looking forward to the next meeting.I hope that the next meeting goes as well as this one.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly for me.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.The work day went by smoothly.But when I got home,that is when some frustrating stuff started.It did not start right away.It started later on in the day and it had to do with my computer having issues.
When I got home from doing an errand for my mother,I tried to get online but the internet service provider was having problems.Apparently in the area that I live in,there were people whose internet service was knocked out for most of the evening.I had learned that from the local chapter of the phone company who also provides internet.They said that it would be a matter of time before the service was restored.So after they informed me of this,I simply took a bath to forget about the problems.When I got out,I saw by my router that all the lights were green.I tried to get on but the internet explorer was not cooperating.I tried several times but no go.I had to restart my computer several times before I could get it working.The fourth time turned out to be the charm.I can now catch up on my work before I turn in for the night.I am now glad to be back online.It is wonderful.I was lost for a while but now,I am feeling a little bit better.I am still feeling some frustration from what happened most of the evening.But again,I am feeling a little bit better.I will just have to have a good nights sleep in order to feel a lot better.
I even had a talk with an old school mate.We talked for over 45 minutes.We talked about a lot of things.I was glad that she was doing well and that she is trying to get her life back on track.That made me feel better.I am glad that she is trying.
Tomorrow morning is simply a pck-up day.Tomorrow afternoon is my appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.Tomorrow night is my support group meeting at the church.I am hoping that they all go well tomorrow.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very good day today.I got what I had to get done today and that gave me a feeling of accomplishment.After a wonderful weekend,I am looking forward to this week with a lot of optimism and enthusiasm.I am hoping that this week turns out better than last week.Today was a pretty good day.This makes me hope that the rest of the week goes by smoothly.Again,I hope that it's better than last week.
Today,I had an appointment with the new medication manager and that first meeting with her went great.We talked for nearly an hour about my life and what I was doing to amuse myself.The new medication manager was a lady who used to work for the organization that I work for.I know that this is going to work out fine.I am looking forward to my next appointment with her in a few months.This week,my next appointment is with my sexual abuse support counselor.I am hoping that my next meeting with her goes well.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.After last week,I need the week to go by smoothly.I do not think that I can handle another week of frustration.So,I am hoping that the week goes well.I am taking it one day at a time.If tomorrow goes smoothly,that is good.I now have to look to the next work day and the one after that.Again,I hope that this week goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.Despite the disappointing loss that the Sabres suffered,I went out and I had a great time.I went out to entertain the crowd and I had a wonderful night.I Sang up a storm for my friends and it was a great night.The place where I sing at was ccelebrating their 7th anniversary of opening up.There was food galore. There was mostly pepperoni pizza to go around but it was great.The people there make great pepperoni pizza.I had a blast entertaining the crowd and they had a blast having me entertain them.I did a new song last night and it got a rousingly loud round of applause.I even reaquainted myself with a few standards that I had not done in quite a while and that still got a lot of positive responses.It was simply terrific.I am glad to have the opportunity to entertain people who always appreciate it.It makes me feel really good to see people happy when I give my all to please them and me being pleased with what I do.It is always a pleasure.
Despite the disappointing loss that the Sabres suffered at the hands of the Senators and being eliminated,I did not let the disappointment get to me.I simply let loose and had a ball.I had some joking and ribbing with the guys there and it was really FUN.Again,it was a wonderful night.I am hoping that next Saturday night is as wonderful as last night.I always have a good time entertaining the crowd and I always enjoy it when they enjoy it.I always look forward to the next time.I am looking forward to next Saturday night.I hope that it's as wonderful as last night. Today,I went out for a while.I ran an errand and I also got some gas for my vehicle.The day,though chilly,was nice and sunny.It was a little chilly and I had to wear a jacket while I was out.But still,it was a pretty good day.I stayed home most of the dya afterwards and I simply took it easy and relaxed.It is now evening and I am still relaxing.I have am appointment tomorrow with the new medication manager at the local hospital and I am hoping that it goes over well.Tomorrow is a day off and I am just going to take it easy.I am also hoping that the new week goes a lot more smoothly than the last week did.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling disappointment.My hopes for another Sabres win were shattered when the Ottawa Senators scored a goal in overtime 3-2.I am disappointed.But it was a great run that the Sabres had.They did play their hardest in this game and they did give it their all.But the end result was not the result that we were hoping for.But again they did give it their best shot.There is always next season.I am hoping that the next season will be better and that the playoff run next season will be with a better end result.
I was out for much of the day.I paid a visit with a friend of mine for a short time today and he is doing good.I also had to run an errand for my mother today and that went as well as expected.I had the game on the radio much of the time when I was out and about.Again,It was a great run for the Sabres while it lasted and I am happy that they achieved something that was better than not achieving anything.They did win the Prseident's Trophy this season and that is better than nothing.I also paid a visit to a charity yard sale today and found that an old school mate of mine was behind it.It was a young lady that I graduated with 17 years ago.I was glad to see that she's doing pretty good.I did buy a little Kool Aid for the charity and it tasted delicious.Again,not too eventful of a day but it was great to be out for a while.
Tonight,I am going to be entertaining the crowd as always.I am hoping that the night goes well.Though I rarely have an off night,I always still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.I always hope for things to go well.Tonight is also an anniversary party that the place I entertain at is celebrating.It is the anniversary of their grand opening.Again,I am hoping that the night goes well.
Despite the disappointments,I am still glad that the weekend is here after the frustrations of this past work week.I am hoping that the next week goes better.It is frustrating when your fellow employees will not do their share of the work and expect others to do it for them.Again,I am hoping that the next work week goes better.
That was my day today and my hoped for night tonight.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a bit better than I have been in recent days.I am just happy that this work week is over because of all the frustration that I endured this week.Today was no exception.When I arrived to start my shift,I entered the lunch line at work so I could eat before I start my job.I asked,because it was a "Chef's Surprise" on the menu,what was on the menu.One of the guys there said very nastily "Nothing For You,That's What!",which really frosted me because I wasn't talking to him and I even told him so.One of the other staffers reprimanded him afterwards even though that guy insisted that he was only "Kidding Around"and did not mean anything by what he said.After I ate my meal,I went to do my job.Fortunately,the rest of the work day went by smoothly.I simply did my job and the time went by pretty fast.After I finished,I simply dropped the clean laundry off and did a few things before going home.Again,I am just glad that the weekend is finally here.I am looking forward to that.I am going to do my usual and I hope that it goes good.
Tomorrow afternoon,the Buffalo Sabres are playing the Ottawa Senators in Game 5 of the Eastern Conference Finals series.The Sabres won on Wednesday night and that was great.I am hoping that the Sabres can pull another victory out.The win Wednesday night was great.But a victory tomorrow afternoon would be even greater.Tomorrow night,I am going to be singing as I always do.I am hoping that the night goes well.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.Again,I am hoping that everything goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a really frustrating day today on the job.It was from stuff that was carried over from yesterday.Yesterday,the morning person was not there to finish his job when he left a couple loads of laundry in the washers yesterday.As stated last night,I simply removed the loads from the washer and due to an awful odor that I sensed on one of the blankets when I sorted out the loads that I brought in,I put the blankets that had the odors on them in the wash alongside a comforter in the other washer.The frustrating thing today was the afternoon person who was supposed to take over for the morning person did not even bother to show up to do his job.The loads that I started yesterday morning were still in the washers this morning when I arrived.This was really frustrating because I arrived there to start my job and here were both of the washers full of laundry that was supposed to be taken out and dried.Today,I had to finish what he was supposed to finish yesterday.I did manage to get my job going but it was not easy dealing with the dilemma that I had to deal with today.The work day was not so smooth as I had hoped for it to be.I really do not like it when somebody does not do their job accordingly and leaves other people to finish their job for them.If you have a job to do,simply do it and finish it yourself.It is not right to leave it for somebody else to finish it for you.It is also appropriate to simply tell the supervisor that you are not going to show up and explain why you can't.I am hoping that this does not happen again for a long time.
Right now,I am at home relaxing.I am still at edge over what I saw today at the worksite because it is something that I do not like to see.I am still feeling a little edgy over what happened and I am again hoping that it does not happen again for quite a while.I am also hoping that my shift tomorrow will go smoothly over today's work day.I know that not every day is going to work out the way I would like it to be.But still,I always hope for the days to go by smoothly and that everything works out the way it should.Again,I am hoping that tomorrow goes by smoothly.
After the work day tomorrow,it will be the weekend.I am going to be singing for the crowd on Saturday night and I am hoping for that night to go well.The Buffalo Sabres are also playing Saturday afternoon in Buffalo at 2:00p.m. in Game 5 against the Ottawa Senators.After the win on Wednesday night,I am hoping for yet another win on Saturday afternoon.That would be totally neato.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.It was a great night for me tonight.I went to my support group meeting at the church tonight and it was another wonderful meeting.It was great to get a lot of emotional baggage off of me.Not only that,the Buffalo Sabres were finally victorious tonight.They defeated the Ottawa Senators tonight by a score of 3-2 to keep the Eastern Conference finals series alive.This also means that the two teams are returning to Buffalo.They are playing Saturday afternoon at 2:00p.m.They will have two days off to practice and rest off.I am hoping for another Buffalo Sabres win.I was happy for the win tonight but another win will be something.I can hardly wait for the game Saturday afternoon.Again,I am hoping for another Sabres win.
Despite my night being great with those two great things happening,the day started off pretty frustrating.I arrived at the pick-up spot today and that went well.But when I got to the worksite,that is when the frustration was there.When I arrived there,the morning worker for today was not even there and he left two washing machines full.After weighing the laundry bags and seperating the laundry,I removed the two loads from the washers and placed them in the dryers.I also started two more loads because one of the blankets of the loads I brought in smelled horrible.Fearing that this odor could make the whole cellar smell horrible,I started the loads with the smelly blanket an dhoped for the best.I also informed the supervisor about the absense of the Wednesday morning person and the loads left behind in the washers.She assured me that she would look into that.
After I left work,I stopped at a gas station to get gas in my tank and had a light lunch at a small restaurant before going home.I also helped my mom by taking her grocery shopping so she could get some food in the house.I had a light dinner before going to my meeting tonight.Again,the meeting was wonderful and the Sabres victory tonight made me forget the minor frustration that had happened at work today.Fortunately,this was a pick-up day today.If this were a full work day,the day would have been really frustrating for me.But again,I am just glad that it was simply a pick-up day.
Tomorrow is a full work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth work day today.I had four big loads of laundry to pick up today and that was really something.The minute that I arrived at the work site and started,I simply took it easy while I waited for the loads of laundry to get done.The hours went by pretty fast and I got a lot done in the time that I worked.After the shift was over,I dropped off the clean laundry and went home after making a couple of stops along the way.
I am now at home taking it easy.I went out for only a brief walk after dinner and I stayed close to home due to the storm warnings that we have for the area that we live in.Right now,it is windy with winds going very high and hard.We are supposed to get some thunderstorms tonight while we are sleeping and the rain is supposed to be coming down hard and fast.It is supposed to carry on until tomorrow.I have to do a pick up tomorrow morning and I am hoping that the weather will not be that bad.I also have a support group meeting tomorrow night at the church and I am hoping that the rain stops when I have to go.I would hate to get caught in the rain.I know that I drive down to the meetings every Wednesday night but I still do not like getting caught in a rainstorm.Again,I am hoping that the rain stops before I go to the meeting tomorrow night.
Last night,I had a hard time getting to sleep.The emotional state that I was in made it difficult for me to close my eyes amd try to sleep.I also felt a little at edge and because of that,I wound up masturbating when images of naked men were flooding my mind.I felt really bad afterwards when that happened.But after asking the creator for forgiveness,I felt a little bit better.I went to sleep though I still had some difficulty in getting to sleep.I am hoping that tonight I will be able to sleep better.
Again,as stated above,tomorrow is a pick-up day and I have my support group meeting tomorrow night at the church.I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty good day today.I ran a few errands for my mother today and that worked out the way I hoped it would.I also paid a visit with a friend today and he is doing great.I am glad that he was doing well and that his family was doing good.It was also a nice day today.The sun was shining and it was beautiful.The winds were blowing lightly but it was still nice and warm.The day went by pretty well and that was good.
But I am disappointed tonight.The Buffalo Sabres lost their third consecutive game to the Ottawa Senators tonight by a score of 1-0.Though the Sabres put a team effort in the game,it did not produce the outcome that I and the rest of the fans were expecting.The Senators have a commanding 3-0 lead as far as games in the series go.The Sabres now really NEED to WIN to keep the series alive on Wednesday night so they can come back to Buffalo.I am hoping that they can win on Wednesday night.It is disappointing seeing your team win the President's Trophy and go down like this.I know that it is not over yet though it feels like it is.Again,I am hoping for a Sabres win on Wednesday night to keep the series alive.I am disappointed but I am going to still hold on to the hope that I have always had ever since I have been a fan.Hope never fades.It just keeps renewing itself each and every year,especially when the Ice Hockey season rolls around in my case.Again,I am still holding on.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.It was a pretty decent day today.My mom and my sister had their typical mother-daughter thing for today since it was Mother's Day.I dropped her off and said Hello to everybody and then left to do some personal stuff.I went to visit a friend of mine who owned a record store to show him the latest record album that I had gotten in the mail.He was overjoyed to see that.The record album that I showed him is a hard to find album in every sense.After that,I went home.But when I got there,my mom was already there and having the furnace checked out because it broke down overnight while we were sleeping.It was a good thing that I covered up last night when I got home.I would have felt really cold if I did not.Overall,it was a pretty decent day and I got to do a lot today.Not too shabby.
Last night,I had a real good time entertaining the crowd.It was a super night.The audience enjoyed my selections and that was really great.I had a wonderful time and the crowd liked everything that I did.Though I was disappointed that the Buffalo Sabres lost last night in double overtime by a score of 4-3 and now the Ottaw Senators have a 2-0 lead in the series,I did not let the disappointment get to me.I still had a great time last night and the crowd enjoyed me.I also had the honor to do something nice for somebody because they did something for me.I bought a guy his favorite beer after he paid for one of the non-alcoholic beers that I drank last night.That really made me feel really good.That guy was also a Buffalo Sabres fan in his own right and even he was disappointed with the loss like I was.Though I was disappointed,I was proud that the Buffalo Sabres put a great team effort in the game.They really tried hard this time and that was better than the pathetic way they played on Thursday night.The only thing was that it didn't turn out the way we hoped it would.But the series is not over yet.They are now travelling to Ottawa to play them for games 3 and 4.I am hoping that the Sabres can come from behind to tie the series at 2 games a piece.I hope that they can do it.That would be really great.
Tomorrow is my day off as usual.I am just going to take it easy tomorrow and concentrate on the days ahead.
That was my day today and my night last night.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.I had a pretty decent day today.I went to several garage sales in my area today and found quite a few good record albums at one of them.I also ran an errand for my mother today.I even found the time to get something for my mom for tomorrow.It is Mother's Day tomorrow.I could not forget my mother.Overall,as stated,a pretty decent day.
Tonight,I am going to entertaining the crowd as I usually do every Saturday night.I am hoping that the night goes well.I am simply going to reaquaint myself with a few songs that I have not done in a long time.I have not had the chance to really practice anything new is a while because I have not had the time due to my busy schedule.But I am just glad to be doing what I am doing and there is really no demand for me to do anything new.Though I rarly,if ever,have an off night,I always still hope for things to go well.But I have the feeling that it's going to be a great night.I do not why I feel this way.I just have the feeling that I am going to have a wonderful night.But still,I hope that things do indeed go well.You never know what might happen.
Tonight,the Buffalo Sabres are playing the Ottawa Senators in Game 2 of their playoff series.The game starts at 8:00p.m.I am hoping for a Buffalo Sabres victory to even the series at 1 game apiece.After that disappointing loss on Thursday night,a win would be IT.I really hated it when the Sabres lost on Thursday night.They really played pathetically that night.It was embarrassing.But I am hoping tonight for a win to even the series.A win would really make me happy.
That was my day today and my hoped for night tonight.FJ

Tonight,I am again feeling mixed emotions.After a very good work day,I had to deal with a frustrating thing that I wasn't expecting.When I got home,I got a rude awakening from my mom.She asked to borrow money from me.I know that I do have to help her out with a little extra because I still with her but I am trying to save up for something and this is not helping me.I know that she is going to pay me back but it is still frustrating when you are trying to save up and when you get a little bit ahead,this happens.I really don't like it.She doesn't do it often but it is still frustrating when you try to get ahead and you are asked to loan out money.I am hoping that she doesn't do it again for a while.I was hoping to replace the money that I had to spend on the radiator that my new car needs so I can put it on the road.Again,I am hoping that she doesn't ask me again for a while.
The only really good thing that I received was a DVD set that I was waiting on.It is the Mission:Magic DVD set.This was a short lived 1970's Saturday morning cartoon show that starred Rick Springfield way before he became a big name star in the 1980's.The series,though it was a funny show,only lasted 16 episodes.I remember watching this when it used to come on after Big Blue Marble on a syndicated station in my area.It was a very fun show where a bunch of kids,led by a magical school teacher named Miss Tickle,would go on adventures to imaginary lands through a magical door drawn on a chalkboard by a cat named Tut-Tut who is brought back to life after the teacher says the magic words.At first,it's a statue but it turns into a real cat.Rick Springfield would always join them on their adventures and would also sing a song or two.It was a great show that never got the chance it truly deserved.I watched a couple of episodes after receiving it and it was still FUN to watch after all these years.It really brought back some great memories of the time before my father took me to live with him and the harsh abuse that I had to endure.Still,I enjoyed seeing it again after all this time.The picture was crystal clear and it felt like that it was Saturday morning from years ago all over again.
I am just glad that the weekend is finally here.I am going to be singing tomorrow night.I am hoping that the night goes well.I am looking forward to entertaining the crowd tomorrow night and again,I am hoping that it goes well.Tomorrow afternoon is also a Buffalo Sabres game at 8:00 p.m.I am hoping that the Sabres can defeat the Ottawa Senators tomorrow night.After that disappointing loss last night,a win would really make me happy alongside other Buffalo Sabres fans in the area.Again,I hope that the Sabres win tomorrow afternoon.
That was my day today and my hoped for day and night tomorrow.FJ