Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very good day today.The stores were having their after Thanksgiving sales.It was really hustling and bustling.Again,while at a shopping mall,I had a pretty tough time trying to find a parking space in the parking lot.But I managed to find one.After parking my car,I walked right into the mall and headed for an Old Navy store.They were having select clothing on sale.I simply bought a belt and a pair of slippers.After paying for them,I went to a music store and bought a copy of the Deluxe Edition of Paul McCartney's Memory Almost Full with a few bonus tracks and a bonus DVD.I managed to also make it out to that Roman Catholic shrine again to say a prayer for guidance and strength to help me with my anger issues and my sexual addictions,which are Gay pornography and masturbation to name a few.After the prayers,I felt better and felt more optimistic.I also had lunch at a Mighty Taco in my area and last but not least,I went back to the shopping mall to go to the "A Dollar" store to pick up a package of toilet tissue.I headed for home.
After I got home,I did a scan on my computer to check for viruses and spyware and my computer is clean.There was nothing in it that should not be on there.That was great.While this was going on,I had a light dinner.After dinner,I went back to the shopping mall and agaion,went back to the music store.I picked up The McCartney Years,which is a 3 DVD set of music videos and select concert performances.I also watched my DVD copy of Christmas Eve On Sesame Street after dinner because I was in the mood for it due to the weather being the way it is.It has been cold and snowy for the past few days.Though it was a little early and it isn't that close to Christmas,I watched this and it was wonderful.Again,the weather motivated me to watch this classic special and asin,it was wonderful.I am going to be watching this again soon enough.
Tomorrow starts the weekend.I am looking forward to entertaining the crowd tomorrow night.I am also looking forward to a hopeful great night.So far,the Thanksgiving holiday weekend has been going great for me.I bought some new clothes and I also bought a couple things that I really enjoy.It was a nice holiday for me and the rest of the weekend has been really grand,so far.I am hoping that the rest of the weekend goes well for me.There are only two days left,which are tomorrow and Sunday.Tomorrow is my night to entertain the crowd and Sunday is where I have nothing scheduled.But whatever I do,I am hoping that it will help me out in a positive way.
The best thing to happen tonight is that the Buffalo Sabres won tonight.They defeated the Montreal Canadians on home ice by a score of 4-2.They also defeated the Ottawa Senators on Wednesday night on home ice by the same score.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the holiday weekend.FJ

Happy Thanksgiving Everybody!
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very good day today.As usual,I went over to my sister's house for dinner and it was great.My niece and her kids alongside her new boyfriend were there.My other sister,whose a flight attendant,was also there.I ate so much food and I was stuffed after I ate what was on my plate.I couldn't have any desert if I could.I simply cut a piece of pie and wrapped it up to take home.During the time there,my brother in-law and I talked about Crosby,Stills,Nash & Young because we were listening to a CD of their songs in the DVD Player and we started talking about their music.The CD was simply a mix of songs from CSN and CSN&Y rolled onto one CD.It was neat.My mom wanted to go home and so we left.
After we left my sister's house,my mom and I took a drive around to warm up the engine.I had a tough time trying to unlock the doors on my car due to it being very cold.The locks were frozen.But after that drive,we went home and that is where I am at right now.
I am now relaxing and taking it easy.When we got home,I simply put in my copy of Mr.Magoo's Christmas Carol in the VCR part of my VCR/DVD combo(I haven't gotten the DVD of it as of yet)and watched it because there was not much on TV when we got in.It was wonderful.I am hoping to get the DVD of it soon this year when I have some money.That way,I can preserve the VHS tape of it for collector reasons.Overall,a very good holiday.
Tomorrow is a day off for me.I will be trying to fill the gap in somehow.I am going to need the extended weekend off.I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride as of late and I am going to need it to rest off and hope to get back on an even keel.Again,I am just going to have to fill in the gap.I will also be entertaining the crowd again on Saturday night and I am hoping that this also goes well enough.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.After I finished the laundry pick-up and had lunch,I went to run a couple of errands for my mom.First,I had to pick up a couple of things at a supermarket and I also had to drop off a tax exemption application at City Hall so my mom could have some certain taxes exempt and have other taxes cut in half.After that was done,I went to a Roman Catholic shrine to pray for help.First,I prayed for myself and asked for help in dealing with my anger problems and sexual addiction and I also prayed for a friend of mine who was having some really serious issues with his ex-wife.After the prayers,I felt better and I felt that everything would be okay.I left the shrine feeling optimistic and hopeful.I will be going back on Friday afternoon to pray again.I really need the guidance and support each and every time I pray and need to feel hopeful and optimistic after doing so.Again,I will be going back again Friday afternoon.
I went to my support group meeting at the church tonight and it was wonderful.Since we are winding down,we shared our feelings about the groups not meeting anymore and how we are going to try to fill in the gaps after we go our separate ways.It is not going to be easy.When I was speaking,I was almost in tears.But the door is being closed and now,we have to move on and seek other groups.But as stated last week,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.I have a feeling that there will be another group lined up soon enough.When that happens,I will be going to that.Next week,we will be having our final meeting and than after that,we will just have to wait and see,especially me.
Tomorrow is the Thanksgiving holiday.I have the day off from work and I will be spending the day with my family.I have the entire weekend off.It will be a great five day weekend.At least,I am hoping that it will be.
That was my day today and my hopes for the upcoming holiday and accompanying weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good work day today.Despite a shaky start,which involved me picking up a mess in the laundry room,the rest of the day worked out well.I simply did my job and the rest took care of itself.After I was done,I dropped off what I did after bagging it and went home.
I had to go out and pick up something that I ordered at a local music store.It was a DVD of a horror movie that I plan to watch during the Thanksgiving weekend.It is going to be a long one.It will be four days for me.I am eagerly awaiting this.I can use the four day weekend to rest up and try to overcome some of the stuff that has piled up on me emotionally.The last few weeks have been an emotional roller coaster ride for me.I am hoping that the weekend will do me a lot of good.I feel that I need this weekend to cool off and restart myself.Again,I am hoping that it will help me out a lot.
I am now at home relaxing.I am anticipating the next day.The only thing that I will be doing is a laundry pick up.But I am hoping that there will not be another mess.I can't stand cleaning up messes in the laundry room at the drug/alcohol rehab center.I hate cleaning up after people who can clean up after themselves.It is such a chore.But again,I am hoping that there will be no mess to clean.
Aside from the pick-up,I do have my support group meeting at the church tomorrow night.This will be the next to last meeting tomorrow night.After next Wednesday,there will be no more.But I have heard that there may be another group being started at another church.I will be checking to see if it is a go.I hope that it will be.I look forward to attending that group if it is a go.
As stated above,I am hoping that everything goes well tomorrow.
That was my day today and my hopes for tomorrow and the holiday weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good,if not too exciting,of a day today.I woke up late today around a little bit after 1:00 p.m. today.I went to sleep late last night after coming home.I watched bits and pieces of certain movies in my DVD library until I got tired.Plus,I was also posting messages in an online forum that I am the owner of on Yahoo.It has been bustling on there over the past few days and that is great.I am glad that the forum is now seeing light.The members of the forum are really swell.It was great to communicate with them.
Today was a pretty quite day.I did not do to much.I just did some personal PC work and I also had to make some readjustments on my database,including the desktop screen saver.Somehow,while I was online,my desktop screen saver was switched to something that I did not want.I tried restarting the computer but that did not work,I just fiddled with my computer until I found out how.I simply opened up one of the programs files regarding the desktop and I fixed in in no time at all.My computer is back to the way that it should be and that is great to have it that way.Little by little,I am learning how to work on my own computer regarding programs and all of that.I am learning little by little and that is very grand.
I went to my anger management/conflict resolution group tonight and it was great.It was wonderful to hear other people and also to be heard.It is wonderful also to learn how to better manage my anger and how to react properly when a situation goes awry.One day at a time is how I am learning to manage.It makes me feel good.But still,I need to work on not saying angry things to myself when I am alone and there is nobody in the room with me.I still need to work on that.
I am now at home relaxing.I am anticipating the new day ahead.I am hoping that the day works out for the better and that everything goes as planned.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.The only disappointment that I had was that I was supposed to get together with a friend but I did not hear from him.I left him a few messages on his voice mail but he hasn't returned any phone calls that I had made over the past two days.I will leave another message for him over the next few days.I am hoping to hear from him.
Today,I did a few errands for my mom.It was just some last minute stuff that my mom needed before the holiday.They supermarket that I went to didn't have everything that she needed but I did get most of the stuff.I also had a couple slices of pizza for lunch.It was a late lunch but I needed to eat.Fortunately,we had another light dinner.
I am now at home relaxing.I am anticipating the upcoming holiday weekend.I don't have too many work days this week but whatever money that I make,it's better than nothing.It won't be much but again,it will be better than nothing.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd was a huge success.There was also a birthday party going on at the same time and a friend that I have had for a few years also came out.It was a total blast.There was plenty of audience members in the place.The guest of honor left early mainly because he wasn't feeling to well.He had gotten really depressed all of a sudden as the real festivities were getting underway.He left home not feeling well enough to celebrate and the leftover food that was originally strictly for the party guests was then open to the rest of teh people of the place.I ate at least four slices of pepperoni pizza and some penne pasta with meatballs.My friend who was there also had some as well.We were both full.I also talked with the guest of honor's sister and hoped that her brother was feeling better soon.She said simply Thanks and I also said that I hoped to see her and her friends there again one of these days.She said Thanks again and left.What a night it was.I had another blast.
Tomorrow is a day off as usual.I do have my weekly anger management/conflict resolution tomorrow night and I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
As for the rest of the night,I am thinking of going out and having a friendly drink at the place where I entertain for a bit.
That was my day today and how my night went last night and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty decent day today.I ran a small errand for my mom and I also did something for myself.It wasn't anything much.I simply judt did what I had to do and that was it.The day,weatherwise,was pretty cold but it was not freezing.It was mild but it felt like it was freezing just a tad.A pretty decent day.
I also had myself a late but light lunch.I had a Wendy's burger today.It was pretty good.It was something to tie me over until dinner.After I did all of this,I headed for home.
We had a light dinner.It was baked chicken with scalloped potatoes and beans.It was nice and filling.After dinner,I finished my personal computer work that I started earlier.
I am now at home relaxing.I am just getting ready for the night.I am going to be singing up a storm for the crowd.I am looking forward to this.I always look forward to singing up a storm.I am anticipating a pretty good time and I am hoping that the evening goes well.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.Still,I have a feeling that it will be a wonderful evening.But I always continue to hope for everything to go well no matter what.
As for Sunday,I am hoping to get together with a friend who I talked with last week.If it happens,I hope that it is a wonderful time.
That was my day today and my hopes for tonight and the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty good day today.The work day went by a lot smoother than yesterday.Nobody left their work for me to finish.That was great.I simply did the work that I needed to do and that was it.After my shift was over,I simply bagged the clean laundry and dropped it off at the drug/alcohol rehab center and went to cash my paycheck.I also got a few Buffalo Sabres themed DVD's as a freebie at the bank where I cashed it.I got one for myself and a couple more for my nephews.I am going to surprise them this Christmas when I give them as gifts alongside the usual CD's that I give.After doing that,I headed for home.
When I got home,I did some personal computer work for a while before dinner.I had to register some bills at Where's George and I did some e-mail work.
While I was eating my dinner,I did a scan on my computer to check for viruses and spyware and there were two viruses in my database.They were both Trojan.Byte Verify viruses and according to the Symantic website,they were mild but were still a low risk.I had to restart my compute two times with the system recovery turned off to get rid of them.I also deleted my temporary internet files and deleted cookies at the same time.I also checked my Norton program to delete these viruses that were captured in my system and did another scan.The result from the new scan was that the viruses were successfully removed.
While the initial scan was going on,I was upstairs in my room making my mom a CD for Christmas.I was burning her vinyl copy of Christmas With Eddy Arnold onto the CD-R.I tried out by sampling some of the music track by track and it sounded pretty good.I know that my mom will be surprised when she hears this on the CD-R that I burned for her.I will be doing another one for her later on.It will be Mario Lanza singing Christmas carols.It is also on a vinyl record and I know that she will be surprised.
I am now at home relaxing.I am anticipating the weekend,which I am glad is here.I will be doing my usual entertaining the crowd on Saturday night and I am hoping that it goes well.I always look forward to singing for the crowd every Saturday night.I am hoping that the night goes well.
Earlier this evening,I went out to an A.J.Wright store in my area and I picked up a mini keychain digital camera and I can hardly wait to use it.I have to upload the program that was included with the camera when I got it.I can hardly wait to do that.I also picked up a couple of big cans of sweet potatoes so my mom can prepare them for Thanksgiving,which is next Thursday.I also have the entire holiday weekend off and that is great.I can use a break from all of the hustle and bustle from this week.It will be great.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead and the upcoming holiday weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay with a little bit of edginess.I was hoping for a great work day but that all ended when I arrived at the work and found that the person from the previous day did not finish his job.I had to finish it for him.He overloaded one of the washers and one of the dryers.This really put my schedule out of proportion.I had to finish his job before I could do anything.First,I had to separate the load in the dryer.I had to take one of the articles out and put it in the other dryer due to dampness.I had to start with only a small load due to the fact of the other washer being overloaded.When those loads were done,I had to once again separate the loads and put each separate load in the dryer.This really was not too thrilling.I mean,I try to do my job and try my best to finish it.But when somebody does not finish their job,it does put me at edge.Fortunately,I managed to get everything done in the time period that I had to do it and I also informed the supervisor's about this morning.They again said that the would look into it.After I was done,I dropped off the laundry and I also went to the post office to mail out an important letter for my mom before heading home.
After I got home,I rested for a bit and did some personal computer work.I also helped my mom get a few things for a birthday party.One of my grand-nieces and my niece alongside my brother in law were celebrating birthdays tonight so my mom went over there for a while.After I dropped my mom off at my niece's house,I went home because I did not feel too good.I had the runs twice and I had to take medicine for it.I did manage to eat dinner but I still had a gnawing pain in my stomach that lasted for a while.I am hoping to feel better before the night is over.
While my mom was over at my niece's,I spent some time home alone and caught up on some much needed stuff.It was great to have some quiet time in the house.I did not even turn on the TV during this time.I actually felt better emotionally and I am hoping that the day tomorrow is a great one.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty topsy-turvy day today.First of all,the laundry pick up went smoothly.There was no mess to clean up and that was great.I sorted out the laundry at the work site and afterwards,I went shopping for my mom to pick up some last minuet stuff before the holiday.So far,the day was going by pretty good.
But that all changed when I had an experience with an inconsiderate Canadian driver in the parking lot of a Target department store in my area.I was going straight in the parking lot when all of a sudden,he had the nerve to make a left turn while I was going straight.According to law in the area I live alone,people driving straight have the right of way in any situation,including a parking lot.An argument ensued between him and I,with him almost threatening me out loud.If it weren't for the department store security guard getting involved,it would have probably turned uglier than it was already.I simply continued to my original destination,which was the bank and I withdrew some money for my mom.
One thing,I don't mind Canadians coming here to shop.But at least they should be courteous by obeying the laws,including those pertaining to driving.Too many times when Canadians have come here to shop,they have broken driving laws and have caused accidents as a result of breaking them.Not only that,they also throw trash around everywhere when they do shop rather than use the proper receptacles to throw their trash in.I have sen trash left by them when I am driving on certain roads in my area where a shopping mall is at and I have had to swerve past where the trash was so I would not hit it and it would cause me to swerve and hit something causing damage to my vehicle.
Before I did the pick-up,I went to my insurance agent to pay the renewal fee on my auto insurance.I also had to return later in the day to pick up change because my agent's receptionists were not in the office earlier in the day.But I am glad that this has been paid and I await the next bill.
Tonight's support group meeting at the church went great.It was wonderful to let loose some more emotional baggage once again.It was great to be heard and also to hear what the other men had to say.I am also sad to say that in a couple of weeks,the meetings will no longer be there due to a lack of attendance at the meetings as of late.But I did talk with one of the men in the group,they are hoping that another group will be stared at another church and they will let me know when that starts.I am looking forward to hearing when it will start.I will be checking next week to see when it will be a go.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.I also have to help my mom with a few things tomorrow after work.I am hoping that tomorrow goes better than today.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.The work day went by smoothly but I was tired when I got in.I had an awful lot of work to do.I picked up four heaping and heavy bags of laundry today.It was a chore getting them to the car.But I managed.When I got to the work site,I sorted everything out,which took me nealy half an hour to do.I started a couple loads the minute that I was finished with that.It was an awful lot of laundry and it was a chore getting it to teh site after the pick-up.But I managed to get everything that I needed to get done accomplished.But I was tired by the end of the day.After I dropped the laundry off,I simply went home to relax.I was tired and I needed to rest.I was planning to go to the laundromat to get some of my laundry done but didn't get to that.Hopefully,I'll get that done on Thursday.
I am now at home relaxing.I am simply getting ready for bed.I am also anticipating the next day.I have to do a pick-up as usual tomorrow morning and I also have to run an errand for my mom after I am done doing that.I also have my weekly Wednesday night support group meeting at the church tomorrow night.I am hoping that all will go well tomorrow.
I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride lately.I am working on rebounding.I am hoping that things will get better as the days progress.I will be paying my car insurance renewal tomorrow.I am also hoping that my niece is careful where she parks the next time.I can not afford any hassles from the police department in any area.That would not sit well with me.I know that for a fact.
Before the evening was through,I managed to stop at a Big Lots store in my area and bought a few more CD-R's and I even went to a supermarket in teh same area and picked up the latest copy of Ebony magazine that features an interview with Michael Jackson.I hope that it is a good read.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a not too exciting of a day today.Most of the day,I was at home because my car was in the shop.It needed to have some front break work done.Initially,I dropped it off to get the front break calipers put on and to have an oil change done.But later,I received a phone call from the garage that it also needed pads and rotors and I said okay.I also promised them another $100.00 deposit when they did that.I don't owe very much to them.It is great to have a mechanic who catches something when really needed.I drove for a while and the breaks are working great.They are working better than ever.While waiting for the repairs,I was at home for much of the day.I also went back to bed when I got home.I was still sleepy and I drove the car still half drowsy but I am fortunate that nothing happened nor did I fall asleep.I got the car there and my mechanic's step-daughter drove me home.
A friend of my mom's was here for much of the afternoon.They were having a conversation and as they talked,I was on my computer doing my personal work.When two ladies talk,it's best to let them have their talk.I also spent most of teh time upstairs in my room cleaning up.A little later,some boxes containing my 45 r.p.m.singles collection toppled over and I had to pick them up and stack the back up again.I also tried to put the in a way so at least,they would not fall again.I hope that whatever I am trying to do works.
Today was a holiday.It was Veteran's Day.There was no anger management/conflict resolution meeting today due to it being that.To take it's place,I went to a Salvation Army thrift shop in my area and picked up a few more vinyl records to add to my ever growing collection.I also managed to find a Scooby Doo air popcorn popper.I thought that it looked really neat.I now have it on display on my computer desk.I think that it makes a nice conversation piece and also,I think that it looks right on my desk.The store was having a 1/2 off sale today so I felt that this would be great to have.You never know what you'll find at those thrift shops.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that day goes by well.After work,I am going to be washing some of my clothes at the laundromat.I need to get these things clean.I am hoping that this also goes as well as I hope it will.
It's hard to believe that Thanksgiving is only a week away starting this coming Thursday.I have a four day weekend coming up when that happens.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.I visited a friend of mine that I had not seen in quite a while.I had talked with him over the phone many times and it was always great to talk with him.But seeing him face to face was really neato.I had not seen him in quite a while and he was in a very happy mood.It was great to see him and it was also great to meet his new girlfriend.His girlfriend is a very sweet doen to earth gal.Him and I talked about a lot of things.We talked about music and we both shared some music trivia.We talked for about twenty minutes.I also showed him the DVD that I have of The Paul Lynde Halloween Special with KISS on the special.After we talked and I helped him out with something,I left.He and her had some stuff that they needed to do.
Afterwards,I went to get a few slices of pizza to help tie me over until dinner.While eating them in the parking lot of a city park,I saw a 1973 Winnebago motor home in the same lot.It was in very good condition body wise and it was hard to believe that I was seeing one.I thought that most of these disappeared after a while because I hardly ever see one.But it was neat to see one after all these years.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a bit vefore having dinner.We had a light supper and it was filling.I even talked with a friend of mine who lived in New Jersey.He is doing good.I talked with him about the emotional roller coaster that I was on this week.He assured me that I will be okay.I hope that I will be.
Tonight,I did mange to go to the place where I entertain at to have a friendly drink.When I got there,I was the only one there because there was a dart tournament going on somewhere else.It was great to talk with the bartender there and have a nice drink while talking to her.While I was talking with her,another person came in while they were on their way home from work.He stopped to also have a drink and we talked for a bit.After I finished,I bid them a fond farewell and left.I stopped for gas at a convienience store on the way home and I also stopped at an all night supermarket to pick up a few things.Overall,a pretty good day and night.
Tomorrow is a holiday.There will be no anger management/conflict resolution group meeting tomorrow due to it being a holiday.But I still have my Wednesday night support group meeting at the church to look forward to.
That was my day today and my night tonight.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty hectic day today.The first thing that I did today was to get my haircut.When I got to the shopping mall to where the place where I go to get my hair cut is,I saw that the parking lot was really full.I spent nearly ten minutes trying to find a parking space.I did manage to get one but it was frustrating trying to accomplish this.I was fortunate to catch a car leaving it's spot and I snatched it.After parking my car,I walked into the mall to get my hair cut.When I was leaving the mall,I had a tough time trying to find my car.I did find it but it took a bit of doing.But it was difficult in that huge parking lot.Again,I did manage to find it.
While I was waiting for my time to come,I had a slice of pizza to tie me over until dinner.When I was finished with that,I went to the hair place and my hair was cut.I also had to do a few more things before I went home.I checked on a friend of mine to see if he was doing good,which he was but his live in girlfriend was not feeling well.I also had to do some shopping for my mom and I also had to pick up some things for myself at a local Wal-Mart.When I finally accomplished everything that I set out to accomplish,I headed for home.
When I got home,I saw that my mom was not home.She was over at my sister's house having some pizza and chicken wings with some cake and ice cream for dessert.I did go over there for some and I went home after eating because I had to get ready for tonight.
When I got home again,I sorted out my stuff and I tried to complete my computer work but my computer was giving me issues.After several restarts,I finally got online.But all the stress and strain of all that happened today combined with the issues with the computer caused me to masturbate again.I feel better now but it was a big letdown for myself.I am hoping that the rest of the weekend works out for me,including tonight.
Tonight,I am going to be entertaining the crowd again as usual.I am hoping that the night goes well for me.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night singing.I still hope for things to go well.Tomorrow will be Sunday.I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it affects me in a positive way.I also hope that Sunday is a good day.Afterwards,I can look forward to the week ahead.
That was my day today and my hopes for tonight and the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a very good day today.The work shift went by smoothly and I also had a great lunch before I began my shift.I also had some great conversations with some of the social club members while I was eating my lunch.It was wonderful to let loose some steam and have some great talks where information can be shared.Again,a great shift and a great lunch.After I dropped off the laundry at the rehab center,I went home.
After I got home,I had to drop my mom off at the supermarket so she could get some shopping done.While she was shopping,I went to another supermarket to turn in some empty bottles and cans that had accumulated in my trunk over the past few weeks.While I was busy putting the aluminum cans in the proper deposit machines,I saw a couple of people that I had not seen in a while.It was the bartender from the previous bar that I used to entertain at before it closed and her daughter.I talked with them both for only a couple of minutes while they were leaving the market and after that,I went to pick up my mom at the other supermarket and hoped that she would be done when I got there.She wasn't but she almost was and I simply helped her to get it done.After that,we went home.
When we got home,I checked my computer to see if my usual weekly virus scan was done and it was.I am also glad to say that my computer was clean with no viruses or spyware on it.That was great.After that,we had a light dinner.
I am glad that the weekend is here.I will be doing my usual entertaining the crowd tomorrow night and I am hoping that it goes well.I always enjoy entertaining the crowd every Saturday night.It always goes great and it's always a blast.I can hardly wait for that tomorrow night.Again,I am hoping that it goes well.
Earlier this evening,I made my mom a CD for her birthday.It is a compilation of Teresa Brewer songs that I had in my singles and old fashioned 78's collections.My mom likes Teresa Brewer and I am hoping that she enjoys this CD that I made for her.I hope that it makes her happy.Her birthday is tomorrow.Again,I am hoping that she enjoys it.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty smooth work day today and I had a wonderful meeting with my sexual abuse support counselor.I also managed to buy a new portable CD player today and even a new car adaptor where I can plug it into my car cigarette lighter socket.It played better than my previous one,especially the CD-R's that I made of a few of my vinyl albums.
But it all took a turn for the worse when I got an extremely rude awakening in my mail today.I got a letter from another area in the county that I live in.The letter was from the Police department in that area.My niece is on my insurance and her vehicle is on my vehicle registration.The letter was a reminder to pay for a parking ticket that she received last year over the Thanksgiving weekend.Apparently,she stayed too long in a NO PARKING zone and was issued a parking citation.I knew nothing about it until I got that letter in the mail today.This really put me at edge and my emotional state today drastically changed.The worse part of it was that all of that unneeded and even unwanted stress and strain that I received from this really got me in such a tizzy that I masturbated,which really made me feel bad afterwards.But I am feeling a little bit better.I am just hoping that this does not happen for quite a while because I did this for her as a favor because she needed her vehicle to go back and forth to work and take her children to school.But when things like this happen,it sends my SSA up too many notches and my emotional state worsens.Again,I hope that this doesn't happen again or for quite a while.I hate it when stuff like this happens.
I am now relaxing.I am also anticipating the day ahead.I am hoping that the day works out well tomorrow.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.I also have to take my mom grocery shopping because we need to get groceries in the house before the holiday rush happens.I am hoping that this also goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.The laundry pick up that I had to do went over well.There was no mess to clean up and that made me feel happier.I just hate to pick up after people who can pick up after themselves.It made me feel pretty good.When I got to the work site,I dropped off and sorted out the laundry and after paying everyone at the social club a visit,I left for home.
After I got home,I simply relaxed for a bit.I also finished my personal computer work,which I started this morning before I went to do the laundry pick-up.It was a pretty good day.I also went to a Target in my area and checked out their stock of portable CD players that I can hook up to my car's radio w/cassette player.I have been trying to find a portable CD player that will play CD-R's better.The current one that I have doesn't play them too well.I guess that when this one was made,they really did not make it to really play CD-R's.But again,I am going to buy a new one when I can and I am hoping that it works out better for me.
My support group meeting at the church went over great.Our first meeting in two weeks and it was super.It was great to be around the men again and just be a man.It was wonderful to have them to listen and also to listen to them.A lot of us have issues in our lives that we are trying to resolve and sometimes,a group of this sort is the best thing to have.There are not a lot of support groups out there which can accomodate this sort of thing.Again,a wonderful meeting and I am looking forward to the next meeting.
When I was out,I got a call from somebody that I have been trying to get ahold of for a long time.He finally called and it was a relief that I heard from him.He said that he would call me tomorrow night and we can talk then.I look forward to talking to him.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes over well.I also have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor tomorow and I hope that this goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good work day today.The work day went by smoothly.I did the pick-up at the rehab center and there was NO mess to clean.That was great.When I arrived at the work site,I seperated the laundry and started working immediately.It was pretty smooth.There was no work left behind by the previous days workers and that was good.After my job was done,I bagged the clean laundry and dropped it off at the rehab center and went to a supermarket in the area and picked up a few things for dinner.Afterwards,I went home.
Earlier today,before I went to work,I voted.It was my duty and I did it.It is also an end to all the negative campaign TV and newspaper ads that are rampant whenever this day rolls around and it does get irritating and monotonous after a while when you hear too much.I am just glad that the day is about over.
I am now at home relaxing.I am just anticipating the day ahead.
Earlier this evening,I went to a Radio Shack in my area and asked for some advice on portable CD players.I do have one but lately,it has not been performing up to par.It has been shutting off at times and when I try to play a burned CD from my CD recorder,it does not play at all too well.But when I try them out on my CD-ROM drive on my computer,they play beautifully with no problems.I guess that I have to look at buying a new portable in the near future when I have some money.OH WELL!
Tomorrow is a pick-up day.I am hoping that there is no mess to clean up.I am hoping that I can just pick up and drop off at the work site.Tomorrow night is my support group meeting at the church.I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day and night ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.I did not do too much.I simply went to the post office to mail out a money order.I also had to pay an installment on my line of credit at the bank today beforehand.Afterwards,I simply went back home.
The only thing was that I woke up late when I wanted to wake up early.Oh well.
The rest of the day's activities were not an awful lot.I simply did some personal stuff.Not too special.I also went to check up on another friend of mine who lived a few blocks down from me.He and his wife and family are doing good.That made me feel good.
The only other things that I did today was that I went to get dinner at a Subway restaurant in my area and they were having a customer appreciation day.It was where you could get two 6 inch subs when you bought two 21 ounce drinks.I simply bought two Hi-C's and the cost was only $3.00 even.That was great.The sandwiches were fresh as well and they tasted really good.It was a good dinner.It was also something different for a change over fast food,which is sometimes what we have on certain Monday's when my mom is not in the mood to cook.Again,it was a wonderful meal and then some.
My anger management/conflict resolution group went great.We talked about a lot of things.It was wonderful having people listnening and hearing me.It was also great to listne and hear them.It was a great meeting.Next Monday,there will not be a meeting due to it being Veteran's Day next week.There will be one in two weeks.It will be a pretty good wait but I'm going to hang in there.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.Tomorrow is also Election Day.It will be a day where we elect new officials.I am hoping that it works out for the good of everybody.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty decent day today.I really did not do too much.I ran an errand for my mom and I also went to get a few slices of pizza to munch on.The day was also not too bad weatherwise.The sun was shining but it was pretty cool weatherwise.At least,it was not bitterly cold.I also stopped in a few stores on the way home from running the errands.I did not buy too much but still,I had a pretty good time simply window shopping.Overall,a pretty decent day.
My night of entertaining the crowd went great.I had a pretty good time.It was great to sing up a storm from the crowd and as always,they appreciated it.It is great to sing for a bunch of appreciative people.I am looking forward to doing it again next Saturday night.I have not decided what I am going to do yet for next week but whatever it is,I hope that the crowd is as appreciative as they were last night.
I am now at home relaxing.I had a light dinner tonight and it filled me up.I am also anticipating what I might do for the rest of the night.I mighyt just take it easy for a while and I am hoping that whatever I do,I hope that it helps me in a positive way.I am thinking of going out and having a friendoly drink with a few of the guys tonight.If I do,I hope that there are lots of guys to talk to and the conversations are also great.
Tomorrow is my day off.I do have my anger management/conflict resolution group tomorrow night.I am hoping that the meeting goes over well.Aside from the day,I hope that whatever I choose to do,I hope that it also affects me in a positive way.
That was my day today,alongside my hopes for the night and the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.I went to the post office to mail out some bills for my mom and myself.I was glad that I had that accomplished.The bills will now be paid when they get to where they are going.Afterwards,I went over to a friends house to check up on him and his live-in girlfriend and they are okay as well.The only thing is that they are feeling "under the weather" for now.I also went over there because I had to give him something and he appreciated it.That made me feel good.Afterwards,I left to finish what I had to do.I was also running another errand for my mom.I got everything that she was needing and that is great.
I am glad that the weekend is finally here.I am looking forward to singing up a storm for my friends tonight.I am hoping that the night goes well for me.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I still hope for thinsg to go well.You never know what might happen.Still,the nights always go pretty good.I am not worried.I have a feeling that everything is going to go great for me tonight.But I still hope for things to go well.
For most of the day when I got home,I was having computer issues.I kept turning off and even restarting my computer to get it working good.After several attempts,I finally succeeded in getting the computer to work.I have done my computer work and I am glad that I have gotten that accomplished.
Tomorrow is Sunday.I have not made up my mind as to what I am going to do tomorrow.But whatever I do,I hope that it works out and affects me in a positive way.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.My work shift went smoothly but I am feeling a little sadness tonight as I had heard from a friend that I had just made over the past several days is not going to be communicating with me for a while.I am sad.She left comments on here for me and that actually made me feel good that somebody was finally reading them and we were communicating for the past several days via e-mail but now,she has said that she will not be communicating with me for quite a while because of some issues that she is going through.I am sad because of this.But I am hoping that she is feeling better soon and that she will be communicating with me soon.I am going to miss her.
But as stated,the work shift went by smoothly.I am glad for that.The pick-up went great with no mess to clean up and the rest of the day went over well.After the shift was over,I dropped the laundry off at the rehab center and I cashed my paycheck before heading for home.
After I got home,I tried to go online but my computer wouldn't let me.I also had to restart my computer several times when this happened because when I did get an internet window,I got "That Page Can Not Be Displayed" over and over again.But I finally got online after dinner and when I did,I registered a whole bunch of bills at Where's George.I also managed to get some more e-mail work done.I also did a thorough scan on my computer to see if there was any viruses or spyware on my computer and once again,my computer was clean.There was nothing in it to worry me.That is great.I can now breathe a sigh of relief,at least until next week when I do another one.
I am glad that the weekend is finally here.I am looking forward to singing up a storm tomorrow night.I am hoping that the night goes over well.I rarely have a bad night but I still hope for things to go well.For Sunday,I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it will benefit me in a positive way.
Tomorrow,I am going to be checking up on a friend to see if he and his live-in girlfriend are okay.I also have a surprise for him and I hope that he likes it.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.My day did not start too good.One of the employees who worked in the same building that I did actually parked he car in a spot and took a little bit too much space.I did ask her nicely and politely if she would move her car a little bit so I wouldn't be blocking the sidewalk because I would get a parking ticket if I were.She flat out refused to do it.This really did not settle in too good with me.I needed to park as close to the building as possible because I have to haul laundry bags back and forth on a constant basis and I need to be as close to the building where I work in as possible so I can place the bags in the back seat of my car.Instead of arguing with the lady,I simply found another place to park and when the shift was over,I simply drove into the spot to pack the laundry bags in the back seat.Fortunately,the rest of the day went by smoothly but I was still just a tad bit at edge for what happened at the start of the day.The pick-up went well.There was no mess to clean but I really did not appreciate the inconsiderate nature of this female staff person not caring about what she was doing wrong and not even caring about the way I felt about it.I guess that you can't win them all.But at least,the rest of the shift went by well enough.
Before I went home,I had to stop at the post office to mail out an important business letter for my mom.It just had to get to where it is going to go.I mailed it out immediately after I dropped off the laundry at the rehab center.After doing that,I went home.
When I got home,I got a package that I had been waiting on for the past few days.I was glad to see that it finally arrived.It was another episode of the classic educational series Big Blue Marble.It was wonderful to see another episode of this.I used to watch this show when I was younger and it was great to learn how other kids in other countries did for fun in their spare time.I also got a wonderful surprise from the guy I ordered the episode from and that made me feel great.I sent him a couple of things and he was thankful enough to sent me something extra.It was awesome getting this.I was waiting on this for the past few days.How wonderful.I also watched the episode and it was wonderful as well.I am going to order another episode of this show from him soon.I will mail the payment out on Monday.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that it goes smoother than today.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Happy Halloween Everybody!
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty decent day today.The laundry pick-up went well.There was only one minor problem with one of the rehab center's clients putting dirty slacks in the bags meant for the dirty blankets,linens and comforters.But I did report it to the staff at the center and they said that they would look into it.After dropping off the laundry and sorting it out at the work site,I went to have lunch at the social club and that was good.After I ate,I hung around for a while and chit chatted with some of the people and I went home afterwards.
My support group meeting at the church was cancelled tonight due to the church having a Halloween party for the kids.While I was disappointed,I did have a nice ride out in the countryside for a while.I even stopped to admire a nicely decorated house with all the horror movie icons all over the front yard.It was awesome seeing that.Not only that,as a nice trick,the house owner even dressed up as the Grim Reaper and stood quietly to see if any kids would come by so he could give them a friendly BOO! when they decided to do just that.It did scare the daylights out of two kids that came by and it just made me laugh when he did that.I did not want to give anything away so I let the house owner have his fun.Again,it was an awesome sight seeing that house decorated with all the horror movie icons.It actually made me wish that I was a kid again.Regarding Halloween,it is the only holiday where I really miss childhood.I used to love going trick or treating on Halloween and getting all sorts of candy.I remember one Halloween going out years ago,I actually found a 20 Dollar bill on the ground that somebody had lost and didn't know it.That was the most money that I ever made on Hallowen night.It was also my luckiest night.I still remember the night very well to this day.Again,I really miss childhood whenever Halloween rolls around.Still,I always feel like a kid at heart whenever I watch a horror movie.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling very good.I had a great day today.My work day went by smoothly and that was great.After I left work,I went home to relax and take it easy for a bit before doing some stuff for my mom and myself.I went to a small store to get a roll of paper towels for my mom and I went to a Salvation Army thrift shop in my hometown and bought a few more recrd albums to add to my ever growing vinyl collection.I also bought a cover to use to cover up the new nostalgic looking compact stereo with a CD recorder.It is an awesome system.I am now making my own CD's and that is great.I am having a wonderful time making all of them.It is truly awesome.
I also watched It's The Great Pumpkin,Charlie Brown on TV tonight and even though I have seen this animated cartoon special lots of times,I still enjoy it.Another Peanuts special followed called You're Not Elected,Charlie Brown and that too was also pretty good.During the time that the former was on,I remarked to my mom that I wished that Charles M.Schulz were still alive.If he were,I would've wrote to him and suggested that he make another Peauts Halloween special where The Great Pumpkin actually appears at the end of the special and wishes everyone a Happy Halloween while it would rain candy on the ground rather than toys as Linus keep saying.It would also have the rest of the Peanuts gang scared out of their wits actually witnessing this happening and staring in disbelief.Afterwards,The Great Pumpkin would disappear and all the gang would help Linus pick up all the candy.That is what would be my suggestion if he were still alive today and I would have wrote to him.
I am now at home relaxing.It is great to be home.The weather is cool and there is really no place to go.I am simply getting ready for the new day ahead.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well with no messes to clean up.I also have a support group meeting at the church tomorrow night.I am hoping that the meeting also goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.I did not do too much.I simply stayed home and took it easy for a while.There really wasn't much to do.The day was pretty cold and there was limited sunshine.But I did manage to find something to do at home.I simply recorded one of my vinyl albums on CD today.I also managed to record a couple of them previously late last night/early this morning.They actually came out pretty good.I even tried them out on a few CD players at home and they came out beautifully.It was great making those.I am going to be stocking up on these in the near future so I can make more.I am thinking of making a few for my mom.I think that she would like that.Again,I stayed home and took it easy for much of the day.It was still fun and I did something that was fun.
I just got back from my anger management/conflict resolution group meeting and it went great.It was wonderful to relieve myself of more emotional baggage that had accumulated over the past few days.It was wonderful.It is also great to have a support network that really wants to help and see that you get a lot out of it.I am looking forward to next week.I am hoping that the next meeting goes well enough.
Tomorrow is simply a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day and my hopes for the work day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very good day today.I did not do too much.I just ran another errand for my mom to pick up a few things for dinner tonight.We simply had frozen mini pizzas with a little bit of something extra on top of the pizzas.It was great.I also managed to stop at a few stores to look around and that was great to simply window shop.I did not find too much in them though I did manage to pick up a couple packs of recordable music CDR's so I can start making my own CD's.Overall,a pretty good day.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd was a huge success.I had a blast last night just singing up a storm and feeding some of the candy that they were handing out to all the patrons.Yes,the party was awesome.There were lots of people dressed up for the big Halloween party and the party was also a blast.I had a great time entertaining the crowd last night.I also had a great time just talking with the patrons and sharing lots of fun and enthusiasm with everybody.I enjoy entertaining the crowd as I always do.I always look forward to doing just that each and every Saturday night.I am looking forward to doing it again next week and I am hoping that it is as much a blast as it is every Saturday night.
I am at home relaxing at the moment.The evening is cool and I am feeling rather comfortable at home.I may go out tonight just to have a nice friendly drink with the gang at the place.Afterwards,I'll just relax and I might watch a movie before I turn in for the night.
Tomorrow is my day off.I do have a meeting with my anger management/conflict resolution support group tomorrow evening.I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was how it went for me last night and today,including my anticipation for the rest of night.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.I had a pretty decent day today.I had to run another errand for my mom and I also went too check up on a friend of mine to see if he and his live-in girlfriend were okay.I was happy to see that they were okay.I spent a few minutes talking with him and he said that he is hoping to make it out tonight to the Halloween party tonight over at the place where I entertain on Saturday nights.I am hoping to see him tonight and I am hoping that the night goes well.
Yes,I will be going out to entertain the crowd as always.I am hoping that it will be a great night for me.As stated,tonight is going to be a big Halloween party over at the place.I know that it will be a really fun and busy night for the people and the place.Though I always look forward to entertaining the people on Saturday night,I really look forward to the yearly Halloween party that always happens around this week during this month.There is always going to be plenty of people dressing up and having a ball.There is always lots of food,including pepperoni pizza galore.It is just a happening party that happens every year.As always,I am going to sing my usual Halloween standard songs alongside a couple more favorite songs.I hope that the evening goes well for me.As I always state here;though I rarely,if ever,have an off night singing up a storm for the crowd every Saturday night,I still always hope for things to go well for me.You never know what might happen.Again,I hope that the night goes over well.
Tomorrow is Sunday.I have not really made any plans for tomorrow but whatever I do,I hope that it will benefit me in a positive way.I just might finish up sorting out things in my room like I started today.
That was my day today and night tonight as well my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good work day today.This time,there were no loads left behind by anyone.That was really neat.The only thing for me to do was to do a couple of loads and cal it a day.With this,the work shift went by great.It was also fast.Before I did begin my job,I had lunch at the social club and it was very good.After I finished with the loads,I simply dropped off the clean laundry at the rehab center and went home.
After relaxing for a short time at home.I went to cash my paycheck at the bank and to pick up a couple of boxes of herbal tea.When I arrived at home,I had dinner and after doing some more personal computer work,I did a scan on my computer for viruses and once again,my computer is clean.There were no security risks or threats in my database.That really made my night.What also really made my night was that the Buffalo Sabres won tonight.They defeated the Florida Panthers by a score of 4-2.After losing their last few games,it was great to see them win tonight.That was terrific.
I am glad that the weekend is finally here.This week seemed to go by slowly but surely.It just seemed to drag on very slowly.But I am glad that it's here.I will be doing my usual entertaining the crowd tomorrow night.Tomorrow night is a big Halloween party at the place where I entertain.I can hardly wait for that tomorrow night.It is going to be a really busy night.I can almost anticipate a really big crowd.I always look forward to these Halloween parties every year because the place is booming with people dressed up and having a good time.I especially like the parties for all the food that is served,including lots of pepperoni pizza.I am looking forward to tomorrow night.I am going to be doing my usual Halloween standard songs alongside a couple of other favorites.I am hoping that the night goes well for me.
That was my day today and my hopes for tomorrow night.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I did not have a good work day today.When I arrived at the work site,I was greeted by the sight of seeing the washers still filled.Apparently,the person who worked the previous afternoon did not finish his job.When I arrived this morning,I had to finish his job and this really blew my schedule out of proportion.The person left blankets in the washer and they were really soaked.Not only that,he also overloaded the washer.There were 4 blankets in the washer when there were supposed to be only three.I did remind one of the supervisor's about the problem and they said that they would take care of it.I had to spent most of the morning trying to do a few things that I had to do and finish the other person's job that should have been finished the previous day.Again,I did handle it the normal way and I hope that a resolution is reached.
After work,I dropped off the clean laundry at the rehab center and went home.I relaxed for a while before I dropped my mom at the supermarket to do some grocery shopping and I went to another supermarket to turn in some bottles and cans that accumulated over the last several weeks in my trunk.After that,I went to a couple of other stores to see where I could get DVD-R's cheap and went to pick my mom up from shopping.Of course,the money that I had from all the bottles went for dinner tonight but I will get it back on the 1st of next month.I was planning to use that money for gas but I guess that at times,we have to give of ourselves to help our families.But again,I will get it back on the 1st of November.I am also getting paid tomorrow so it is also not a big loss.Once again,I am going to get it back on the 1st of November.
I am now relaxing.The night is pretty cool but I am not going anywhere.I am just going to take it easy for the rest of the evening until I go to sleep.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

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Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty good work day today.But for most of the day,it rained.It rained so hard that my mom was hoping to get some grocery shopping done but we didn't due to the rain.But I did manage to get one thing done.My mom had me run an errand for her tonight.It was simple.I had to get some coffe from the store and some snacking food.Afterwards,I went to a local K-Mart to see if they had some Buffalo Sabres T-Shirts but they did not have any.All they had were shirts of the Buffalo Bills and New York Yankees.I was disappointed.I was hoping to find some more of them but didn't.Oh Well.I asked there and they told me that they did not know when they were going to get them in.I just bought a gallon of milk and left for home.I was hoping to catch the yearly special called It's The Great Pumpkin,Charlie Brown but later learned when I got home that it was next week.Oh well.At least,I now know that it will be on next Tuesday.
The reason why I am feeling mixed emotions is that I relapsed again for the second consecutive time.I masturbated again.I was trying to take a nap when the old images of men begging me to relieve them were lining up wanting oral sex.I wound up masturbating after playing with myself.Though I did ask God to forgive me,I still feel miserable.If I am thinking of "never masturbating again",then I need to STOP thinking of that.I have to accept that I am going to relapse when I least expect it.But I do know that I do not want to have sex with another man.I also looked at some pornographic images online as well just before signing on to here.I really need some help.I am going crazy.All I am thinking of is having sex with men.I don't want to have sex with a man.Because I have not had any sex with any men for a long time.I do not want to do that because I know that if I do that,I am going to be back to the same old dull and pointless routine all over again.It will be back to the pattern of giving blowjobs constantly to different guys and looking forward to an eternity of "one-blow stands" where I am enslaved to the image of a man with an erect penis and wanting to suck it until it ejaculates in my mouth.I don't want to go back to that.Because it's not what I am looking for.I am looking for healthy relationships with other guys where I can be a guy and be one of the guys.That is what I want.What I don't want are guys one minute saying to me;"I Like You.You're A Great Guy.I Like Having You Around" and then the next minute "Hey,Dude.Do You Want To Suck My Cock?"The former is what I am looking for.It is not the latter.After my prayers tonight and then tomorrow.I am hoping that I feel better.That would be great.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick up goes well without any mess to clean up.I also have my support group meeting at the church tomorrow night.I am also hoping that the meeting goes well,too.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very good day today.I ran a small errand for my mom today and that was to buy something for tonight's dinner.I also had to pick up a prescription refill for myself at a local drug store.I called in the refill over the phone when I woke up and took my last pill.It was for my high blood pressure.I have been checking it lately and so far,it has been pretty good.It has been in the 130's range but as long as it does not go any higher,I am okay.
Last night,I went to see the musical Hairspray and it was awesome.I was hoping that it was going to be just as good as the original 1988 film that inspired the Broadway musical of the same name and then inspired the movie.Again,my hopes for it to be as good as the original film were actually fulfilled.Not only that,it was actually better than I hoped that it would be.The movie was filled with music and even a little bit of comedy mixed in to sweeten it.It was great.I enjoyed every minute of it.It was an awesome movie with a surprising ending.John Travolta was wonderful as Mrs.Edna Turnblad.You can tell by watching this film that he was having the time of his life portraying Mrs.Turnblad just singing and dancing away and again,simply having a ball.The best thing about me seeeing this film was that I was the only person in the theatre watching the movie.There was nobody else in the theatre with me.I was the lone member of the audience.That actually made me enjoy it more.Aside from John Travolta,the whole cast was wonderful as well.It was nearly 2 hours of singing,dancing and comedy.I am going to get this on DVD when it comes out.I have the original 1988 film on DVD and now,I am going to buy this version the minute that it hits the shelves.Again,an awesome movie.
After I saw the movie,I went to have a friendly drink with some of the gang at the place that I entertain at.I only stayed a few minutes and left.The Karaoke DJ almost took it personally when I wasn't planning on singing.I simply told him that it was nothing personal against him and that I was only coming in for a vistit and have a nice friendly drink with the gang.We shook hands and hopefully,that made him feel better.
I went to my anger management/conflict resolution meeting tonight and it was wonderful.I got quite a bit out of it tonight.The only setback was that a man who came there left after 20 minutes saying that this was not helping him.But we moved on and it was wonderful.I am looking forward to the next meeting next Monday night.The only other thing going on is my weekly support group meeting at the church on Wednesday night.I am hoping that this meeting goes just as well as tonight's meeting that I attended did.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my night last night as well my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty decent day today.I simply went to have a pasta dinner at a church in my area.The organization that I work for was sponsoring this and I thought that I would go and have myself some lunch there since it was early in the afternoon.It was a great meal and I enjoyed it.After that,I left.
My night of entertaining the crowd went great.I even tried out a new song that I had been meaning to try out.It all worked out.I also had a friend join me.I drove past him in my car and he saw me driving past him while on his bike and he turned around the minute that he saw that it was me.When I arrived there,I waited for him to arrive back and when he did,I joined him at a table.It was wonderful to have him out.He did not stay too long because he was a little tired but he wanted to come out for a bit.After he was done with his drink,he rode home on his bike.After I had my lunch,I went over to his house to see if he had made it home okay and he did.He was waiting for his girlfriend to come home so they could wait for her father to come over and take them to their house to spend Sunday over there.
After I keft his house,I went out to a store on an Indian reservation within the county that I live in and I picked up a few movies on DVD.They were for $1.00 each and since it was on the reservation,I did not have to pay no tax on the purchase.I also bought a relaxation music CD with the sounds of nature blended in.I also had an ice cream cone.It was delicious.Again,a pretty decent day.
I am going to the movies.I am going to see the new filmed version of Hairspray.It is a filmed version of the Broadway musical that was based on the original 1988 film of the same name.I am hoping that it is as good as the original film.Afterwards,I might go the place and have a friendly drink with a few of the people.
Tomorrow is my day off.I do have a meeting tomorrow with my anger management/conflict resolution support group.I am hoping that the meeting goes good.
That was my day today,my night last night and my hopes for tonight and the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very good day today.I ran an errand for my mom and I also had a light lunch to tie me over until dinner.It was simply a slice of pizza but it was good.I also had to buy some more allergy medication for myself because I was running out.I now have only one pill left.I needed to buy another box so I could have some when I need themI suffer from seasonal allergies and I need to be prepared.So,I bought the pills so I could be prepared.Now I am.
I am now relaxing at home.I had a nice dinner of homemade soup.It was awesome.While eating my dinner,I watched the Paul Lynde Halloween Special that featured Margaret Hamilton as her most famous persona,which was the Wicked Witch of the West from The Wizard Of Oz and Billie Hayes as her most famous persona as Witchiepoo from the H.R.Pufnstuf TV series and a rocking performance by KISS.Not only that,Florence Henderson,Billy Barty and Roz"Pinky Tuscadero"Kelly.This was the first time that I had seen this in over 30 years.The last time I had seen this was back in 1976 when I was 6 years old after I was finished trick or treating.It was awesome seeing it after all these years.I enjoyed it.It was funny and clever.
Tonight,I am going out to entertain the crowd.I am hoping that it will be an awesome night.I hope that the evening goes well.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night.I still hope for things to go well.I am feeling optimistic but I still hope.You never know.
Tomorrow is Sunday.I am still hoping to catch a movie tomorrow night.I would like to see the new Hairspray film.If I do,I am hoping that it's as good as the first one.
That was my day today,my hopes for the night tonights and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty good day today.I also had a better day than yesterday.When I arrived at work during the lunch period and sat down to eat,none of the people who tried to pick a fight with me the other day even tried.I guess that the coordinator of the social club talked to these people who tried to start some stuff and that was it.I had a very good lunch and that in turn made the rest of the day.
The work shift went by well enough.Plus,the pick-up went great.There was no mess to clean up and all I had to do was take the two bags full of dirty and take it to the work site and do the job.Again,nothing negative happened on the job and I also got other things accomplished.I got back some Music CDR's that I had a colleague make for me for a small price.I had three made.One for myself and two more for a couple of friends.I am hoping that the friends enjoy what I did for them.It would be great.After the shift was over,I bagged the clean laundry and dropped it off at the center.I went home afterwards.
After doing some much needed computer work,I did another scan on my computer and again,it was clean.There were no viruses or spyware to worry me and that made me feel good.I will be doing another one next week.
I am glad that the weekend is finally here.I am looking forward to entertaining the crowd again tomorrow night.I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.Regarding Sunday,I am thinking of going to see another movie.I might see the new Hairspray film.I have the original 1988 film on DVD and it's one of my favorite movies.I am hoping that this updated version,based on the Broadway musical,is going to good.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good work shift today.Despite a minor mishap that happened in the early morning,when I had to finish the job of the previous day's worker,I had a pretty good day.It went by pretty fast and I when I packed the clean laundry to drop off at the drug/alcohol rehab center,I felt good that I had accomplished something.
I dropped some stuff at home and went to run an errand for my mom.It was nothing much.I had to get a couple boxes of oatmeal for breakfast.Afterwards,I did some shopping for myself and went to check on a friend to see if he and his live in girlfriend were doing good.I also helped him by taking him to a gas station to get a little bit of gas that he needed to get some work done.I talked with him in the car about the day that I had and it was wonderful to have him hear everything that I shared and understand as well as sympathize.I dropped him off at home and I started off for home.
Despite a good day,I had an experience during the lunch hour with a couple of inconsiderate people.One of them was very testy with me regarding what another person and I talked about regarding vinyl records and how they have been making a serious comeback in the USA alone after being deemed "obsolete" by the US Music Industry.Some people are way too sold on the digital revolution that has really killed the US Music Industry because they stopped pressing vinyl records and jumped on the CD bandwagon.Plus,he got even more testy when I made a reference to The Flintstones with someone else when another person was getting their lunch and said that he wanted "No Gravy" on anything on his plate reagarding the episode when Fred walked into a place called Mother's Place and ordered a HOT Bronto Sandwich w/No Gravy.Plus,I was singing the theme song from That '70's Show and he had the nerve to yell at me saying "You Watch Too Much Television!".Not only that,another guy there got on me for what I was sharing with someone else regarding the Bee Gees classic song New York Mining Disaster 1941 and he had the nerve to say that if he wanted to hear all of what I shared with that person,he would buy cable and watch the History Channel in a very disrespectful tone of voice.Instead of getting angry and losing my temper,I simply went to the social club coordinator and explained the situation to him and he said that he would take care of it when he got the chance.Afterwards,I placed the bag of laundry in my car,dropped it off and went home.Overall,despite these mishaps,a pretty good day.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes by smoothly and I hope that no more mishaps happen tomorrow.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty good day today.The pick-up went as well as expected.I had no mess to clean up.After I dropped the laundry off at the work site and sorted it all out,I went to have lunch at the social club.It was really good.I still felt hungry so I stopped an had a hot dog at a stand while I was on my way to pay the local property taxes.It was great.
I went to the local city building to pay the taxes and now,they're paid.We are done for the year regarding the city taxes and now,all we need to do is to pay the county taxes.We will pay those in a couple of months.I also paid my mechanic off for the repairs that he had done on the car that I am now driving.It's great to have a feeling of accomplishment and knowing that at leats something that you really needed to do has been done.Yes,it feels really good.
I also attended my weekly support group meeting at the church tonight and it went great.It was great to let loose some more emotional baggage that I was carrying and it was also wonderful to hear and be heard.It is great to know that I am not all alone in my struggles and that there are people that are just like me who have issues that they are struggling with and what they are doing to resolve them.It isn't easy but at times,it's wonderful to know people like yourself.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth work day today.Even the pick-up went well enough.I did not have no mess to clean up,which was great.I also had a great lunch and after my day was finished,I dropped the laundry off and headed home.
When I did get home today,I was eeling slightly at edge.Why?Earlier in the day while at work,I got a reminder to come into one of the job coaches offices and the anxiety that something was wrong came over me.I know that I should not have to have this anxiety but I have these anxiety attacks for a long time ever since my work history began.I did learn that there was something there for me courtesy of the organization.I sighed but the anxiety really had a hold on me for that brief time.Not only that,there were a few mishaps.When I went to the bank to withdraw some money for my mom,the withdrawl went great but when I went to cash a check that I had gotten from the organization,they accidently put my mom's account number on the back of the check instead.Though they fixed it,I was feeling a little angry over this and this anger really enveloped me.Not only that,earlier at work,one of the ladies at the work site had to nerve to bam on the door and give me a hard time about me saying something to myself while in the bathroom.This happens to be one of my problems and I was saying angry things to myself much of the afternoon.I also exploded at a couple of ladies who were looking at me in a strange way.Of course,I did not mean it but I still felt miserable.The only really good things to happen was that I bought the movies Planet Terror and The US VS John Lennon at a Blockbuster Video store in my area.
I was also feeling at edge because I have just learned that the movie about Lenon's murderer entitled Chapter 27 is going to be released in theatres next year in March.This really caught me off guard because I was hoping that we had heard the last of this film and the people behind it.As I have sated previously,I am going to honor the memory and legacy of John Lennon by not going to see this film.I also won't acknowledge that it exists.I will not see it.I will not rent it.I will not acknowledge the movie,either.Long Live The Memory Of John Lennon.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well.I also will have lunch and I will also pay the long overdue city tax bill tomorrow.I also have my usual Wednesday night support group meeting at the church.I am hoping that the evening goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.I finally managed to get that unit out that I ordered previously that was defective.It is going to take about 3 weeks for the people I bought this off of to process the return and get a new one out to me.I will be very patient as I await this but I will check back during the week of the 25th-29th of this month to see if it has been received.I'm in no hurry.It is not a big thing.Again,I will be patient as I await the business at hand.
Last night,I went to see Halloween and it was pretty good.It is a faithful readapting of the 1978 film by John Carpenter and Debra Hill.But this time,Rob Zombie,who directed the film,went deeper into the background of the film's main villian,who is Michael Myers.Apparently,Rob Zombie wanted to point out what lead Michael Myers to being the psychotic murderer seeking revenge on his hometown nearly 17 years after he was committed when he murdered his older sister,her boyfriend and his step-father.There were also some triggering instances like his step father yelling and cursing at Michael and his mother.This brought back a little of what I witnesses when my sister's boyfriend used to assault her and emasculate her.But again,it was only a movie.Again,I still felt that the movie was pretty good and I enjoyed the film.It was as good as the original 1978 film and as stated,it brought more of Michael Myers background to the surface.After the movie,I went to have a couple of drinks with the guys where I entertain and it was also excellent.
I went to my anger management/conflict resolution group meeting tonight and it went well.It was great to let loose some more emotional baggage from the previous two weeks afetr there was no meeting last week due to it being a holiday.But again,it was wonderful to be around the group again and share in the conversations that were being talked and shared how we were both feeling and why we felt it.I am looking forward to the next meeting and I am hoping that the rest of the week goes good.
Tomorrow is a work day.I'm hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my night last night alongside my hopes for the day and week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.I did not do too much.I simply ran an errand or two for the house.It wasn't anything much.It was just a personal thing.I also paid a visit with a friend of mine while I was out on my errand.He is doing good but his live in girlfriend wasn't feeling well.I did not stay too long due to this.I went home and I had a light dinner.After doing some more personal PC work,I bathed because I am going to see a movie tonight.I am going to see Rob Zombie's updating of the 1978 classic horror film Halloween.I have heard some mixed feelings about it from people that I know and I am going to see it myself because I did watch the classic 1978 film by John Carpenter and Debra Hill and it was as good as I remember it.I am now going to give this updating a chance.I hope that it is as good as the classic version.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.It was an awesome night.I simply reaquainted myself with a few songs that I had not done in a long time.It was really neat.I had a great night and I am looking forward to entertaining the crowd again next Saturday night.I hope that it as good as it was last night.I might go have a friendly drink with the guys tonight after the movie.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes pretty good.I do have a meeting tomorrow evening with my anger management/conflict resolution group and I am hoping that the meeting goes well.I also have to get ready for the week ahead.I do not know what to expect but whatever happens,I hope that it will be good.
That was my day today and my hopes for tonight and the week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.I went to a church bazaar in my hometown this morning.I simply looked around but did not find too much of anything.So,I bought a homemade cream puff and I left.I went home afterwards.
The only other things that I did were that I ran a couple of errands for my mom today.I had to pick up a few things at a couple of stores in the area for dinner.My mom and I decided to eat light again.We simply had homemade tomato soup with garlic bread on the side.It was filling and I enjoyed it.
I am now at home relaxing.It was a pretty good day today.Despite the weather being chilly,it was sunny and it made the day look goood despite the bitter cold that we were having.Plus,the light dinner that we had was really good.Not to exciting of a day,but pretty good.
I am looking forward to singing up a storm tonight.I look forward to entertaining the crowd every Saturday night.I am hoping that the night goes well for me tonight.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night.I still hope for things to go well for me regardless.You never know what might happen.Again,I hope that the night goes well for me.
Regarding tomorrow,I might go see a movie.I would like to see the new version of the movie Halloween by rock star turned film maker Rob Zombie.I have heard mixed views about it from critics and from some of the people that I know.But last night,I watched the original 1978 movie by John Carpenter and starring Jamie Lee Curtis.Now,I would like to see the new updated version.I am hoping that the movie is a good one.
That was my day today.My hoped for night tonight and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a smooth work day today but when I came home,I had a really bad stomach ache.It was awful.I did take Alka-Seltzer to get rid of it and I also laid down for a little over an hour when I did.As a result of this,I ate a light dinner and relaxed.I am feeling better now but it was really painful feeling my stomach aching for much of the time that I came home.Again,I am feeling better and that is good.
The work day went by pretty well.The shift was a breeze.There were no loads left in the washers like on Thursday and there was no mess where I had to pick-up the dirty loads.I simply did my job and I dropped it off.Afterwards,I went to a supermarket to pick up a few things.I also cashed my paycheck and I went home to rest due to my stomach ache.But again,I am feeling better.I now have to be careful when I eat.I had two meatball submarines at work for lunch before my shift started and I think that this was what contibuted to my stomach ache.I guess that I now have to stick to one helping rather than have two.I will try that for a while and see what the results will be.
I am glad that the weekend is finally here.I am looking forward to singing for my friends tomorrow night.I am hoping that the night goes over well for me.I rarely have an off night but I still hope for things to go well each and every Saturday night.You never know.Regarding Sunday,I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it will be a very positive experience.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.The work day started out promising but soon turned frustrating.After I picked up three filled bags of dirty laundry at the drug/alcohol rehab center,I arrived at the work site and found that one of the washers was overfilled.It was filled with 5 blankest.Not only that,the blankets were extremely soaked with water from being left in the washer the entire night.I simply removed the wet blankets and placed them in both the dryers after seperating them.I started a few loads to begin my shift.But for most of the shift,I had to keep putting back a certain blanket that still came out damp each and every time I put it back in the dryer.This was frustrating.Before I put the last loads that I did in each dryer,I put the blanket in the opposite dryer and it finally came out dry.I was relieved because if it did not come out as dry,I felt like that I was going to scream.Not only that,I had to work overtime because I was waiting for the last loads that I did to dry so I could bag them and drop them off at the drug/alcohol rehab center.I was not about to leave it for the afternoon guy to finish.The worst part of it was that I am not going to be paid for overtime because my supervisor will only pay me for the shift that I am assigned.But again,I was glad that I got everything done and I dropped it off at the center.After paying the water bill to the city,I went home afterwards.
I am at home relaxing as I am typing this.I am just getting ready for the day ahead and I am hoping that the shift that I am working tomorrow in the afternoon goes by a lot more smoothly than this morning.I can not stand people who start jobs and do not finish them.I mean,I would get into trouble if I do something like that and believe me,I would get some serious criticism and discipline for doing something like that.I might go to sleep early tonight to prepare for the day ahead.
Tomorrow is simply another work day.As stated,I am hoping that the shift goes better than today.After that,it's the weekend.I am looking forward to that after what happened today.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead and the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.After I dropped off the laundry at the work site,I went straight to the eye doctor to get a follow-up evaluation on my eye.The doctor gave me a good report on my eyes,including the one that I accidently injured a little over two weeks ago.He told me that my right eye healed up really good and that he wants me to come back in a year.That made me feel pretty good.When I got home,I had a light lunch and I rested for about a couple of hours on my bed.
I went to my support group meeting at the church tonight and it went great.It was wonderful to let loose some more emotional baggage and even to listen to the other men let loose some of theirs as well.It was aweosme.I shared the good news that I got from the eye doctor and that got a positive response from the moderator.That also made me feel pretty good.Before I went home,I stopped at a Rite Aid in the area where the group was and I bought another DVD from there.They are currently selling classic horror movie DVD's at a bargain price over there and that is great.I did buy the original Hallowen recently from a location in my area and even that was also great.I am going to add more to my ever growing DVD library soon.October is a great month to buy horror films,especially classic stuff.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shuft goes well.After work,I am going to pay the water bill on my mom's behalf.I am hoping that the day goes over well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good work day today.It did start out messy because I had to pick up a mess in the laundry room over at the drug/alcohol rehab center and bag it.The worst thing about it was that nobody even bothered to lift a finger to help me while I was picking it up.I picked it up by myself.But when I got to the work site,I sorted out the laundry and started doing it.The rest would go by very well and it made up for the frustrations of the early morning.
While I was waiting for the laundry to get done,I brought a movie with me to share with the social club.It was The Beatles first feature film A Hard Day's Night.I did this to commemorate the occasion of John Lennon's birthday,which was today.John Lennon would have been 67 years of age today if he were alive.But he isn't.He is dead thanks to a man who was obsessed because Lennon was famous and he found himself to be a nothing.While it is a shame that John Lennon is dead,I still remember him year after year when his birthday and his anniversary of his murder roll around.I also remember him every day whenever I play any of my Beatle records or even Lennon's solo records.I miss him.
My session with the substitute sexual abuse support counselor went great.I let loose some steam and some more emotional baggage.It was a great meeting and I goyt a lot out of it.My next appointment with her will be in November.I can hardly wait for that.
Tomorrow is a pick-up day.I hope that it goes well.I also have an appointment with an eye doctor to examine my eye that goy hurt a little over two weeks ago.I also have a meting with my support group at the church tomorrow night.I am hoping that all goes well.
That was my day todaya nd my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a not too bad of a day today.It was a sunny day.Not too hot not cold.Just right in the middle.But there was a tad bit of humidity.I dd not do too much.I did go to a Salvation Army thrift shop in my area and I bought some more collectable records over there.It was neat.Not only that,I also managed to look around there to see if they had anything else but it was the same old same old.
I then went home after leaving there and I finished my personal PC work.I also had dinner and I even posted a few e-mails to a few friends who lived in other parts of the United States.Overall,not too bad of a day.
Last night,I had a friendly drink with a few friends over at the place where I sing and it was wonderful.I also had a talk with a regular guy who also stopped in and it was wonderful.We talked about the effects of Christopher Columbus discovering America and why it happened.The reason why is because he wanted to show that the world was round and not flat like many sailors and explorers believed.Well,he did prove it in more ways than one and it was a history making event.Whether Columbus discovering America was a good or bad thing is up to debate but he did bring some stuff with him that had a negative effect on the world late such as STD's.Not only that,he also imposed the foreign religion on the Native Americans(i.e.Indians) and many of the crew members also raped the women of the Indians.This is from what I have read and from many other documents shared over the years.Sometimes,I felt that Columbus should have left well enough alone.
Last night,after I went to bed,I tried to go to sleep but couldn't.I tossed and turned but to no avail.All of a sudden,images from the past started coming back to haunt me again.I also had a vision of me wearing a princess costume at a masquerade party rather than a Prince Charming costume.I wound up masturbating until ejeculating.I did go to the bathroom to wash and I asked God in Heaven to forgive me.Afterwards,I forgave myself and I finally went to sleep.I woke up today around 1:15p.m.I had a horrible dream last night that I was bound in a tower and it was dark everywhere around.I called out but nobody heard me.All of a sudden,I lost my voice in teh dream and what ended it was hearing the alarm.I turned off the alarm and I proceeded to get on with my day.
I do not care what these recurring images and/or bad dreams try to amount to.I am not abandonning my healing process.I know the right thing and I know what is wrong.I am going to continue on in my healing and I am determined to overcome Homosexuality/SSA no matter what.I may be weak and imperfect but I am going to stand my ground and stay strong.I will not act out with another man.No way.No How.
Tomorrow is simply a work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.I also have an appointment with my substitute sexaul abuse support counselor and I am hoping that the session with her goes well.
That was my night last night and my day today alongside my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.I went out for a bit today.I went to a shopping mall where there was a used record and music store.I bought a used colored vinyl album and it is a beauty.I am glad to have this.It is a rare album called Tuxedo Junction(not to be confused with the formal wear store of the same name)and it was pressed on GOLD vinyl.It is in awesome shape and I am glad to have it.
Afterwards,I went to a store to pick up some dish detergent for my mom and I went home.The minute that I arrived home,I got ready for dinner and it was a very good dinner that was made.
After that,I finished my personal PC work.It was not too much.I simply had to finish up my e-mail work and I also had to type up some posts in a Yahoo forum that I am a member of.It was a pretty good day.I kept myself busy and that was neat.I had a very good day out and getting some stuff done was great.
My night of entertaining the crowd went great.My tribute to the great John Lennon went over well.Each and every one liked my Lennon tribute and that made me feel really good.It was a wonderful night and it was wonderful that it all worked out for the better.The next time that I will pay a tribute to John Lennon will be the week of his asassination this coming December.I will also be doing a George Harrison tribute the week before because George dies a week before Lennon's murder anniversary.Next week,it will back to normal.Regarding the rest of the night,I have not made any plans but I just might go out and have a nice,friendly drink with a few of teh guys tonight.If I do,then cool.
Tomorrow is Columbus Day.It is a holiday and I will not be going to a meeting tomorrow night for anger management/conflict resolution due to it being a holiday.There will be one next Monday night.I will just take it easy for the day.
The only things that are happening this week is that I have an appointment with my substitute sexual abuse support counselor on Tuesday afternoon and I have an appointment with an eyte doctor for a check-up after I injured my eye two weeks ago.I also have my support group meeting at the church on Wednesday night.I hope that each of these go well.
That was my day today,my night last night and my hopes for tonight and the week ahead.FJ