Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Merry Christmas Everybody!
Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.The holiday did turn out better than I thought it would and everything went well.But I am still feeling anger at my father due to what he has done to our family.I am also feeling anger at my sister who lives here in the city that I live in.How can she go about saying that everything's okay when everything really is not okay?My father inflicted so much pain in the family and tries to blame everyone else but himself.Plus,him coming into town unannounced with my other sister who is a flight attendant in town despite her feelings for him did not rub me the right way.After I ate dinner,I took a little ride around town for a bit before going home.I needed to look around he town and think a little bit.Plus,I really needed to get rid of these feelings of anger that I had.After the drive,I went home to be by myself.
When I did get home.I popped in the movie Planet Terror in the DVD player part of my VCR/DVD Combo.I saw this movie several months ago at a movie theatre in my hometown when it was a part of the super long movie Grindhouse w/Death Proof as the latter film w/fake preview trailers to spice it up a bit to make it look like we are actually a double feature.But when released on DVD,they were released separate rather than as one.But I needed to watch something to eleviate the boredom and negative feelings that I had and watching Planet Terror took my mind off of my father being in town and the negative vibes that I was feeling.Planet Terror is a spoof of zombie flicks so it really wasn't scary but it was funny and action packed.It is a very entertaining movie that is not a waste of time.It was great.Again,it took my mind off of the negative vibes that I was feeling.If the rest of the week goes by well and if I have a wonderful New Year's Eve,than I'll be alright.I am also hoping that my father will leave town soon so I can even forget that he was here.I was thinking of going out for a drink tonight but I do have to get up in the morning for work to do a laundry pick up and I need some sleep for that.Not only that,I am still feeling somewhat at edge over the negative vibes so I felt that it would be better if stayed home rather than go out.Besides,I need to get up in the morning anyway and I can wait until Saturday night to go out.There is also New Year's Eve to go out as well so I am going to have fun for 2 nights before this month is out.After New Year's Day is over,the holiday season will be officially over.I will be sad to see it end but I will also be happy about it as well so I can forget some of the negativisms that happened over the course of the holiday season this year.
As stated,tomorrow is simply a pick up day.I am hoping that the pick up goes over well with no messes or hassles.After that,I can take it easy for the rest of the day.
That was my day today and my hopes for tomorrow and the rest of the holiday week.FJ

Monday, December 24, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty hectic day today.It would not be hectic if it were not for my father being in town coming in unannounced and when I wanted to drop something off and asked for help in bringing it in,they simply got angry at me and I had to bring it in myself.This really disgusted me.It is bad enough that my father just wizzes into town unannounced with my flight attendant sister in town for the holiday at the same time but not helping me with a simple task so I could be on my way in a hurry was a little too much for me to take.I had to bring it in myself and left disgustedly.
I am now at home relaxing.But I am still feeling perterbed over what happened.I have talked to a lot of people that I know and even they said that it was inconsiderate of my father not calling to say that he was coming into town.I also have the feeling that my sister who lives in this town actually set it up for him to be here at the same time as my other sister.Don't ask me how and why I have this feeling but I do have it.I also have a feeling that something terrible is going to happen and I am hoping that it doesn't.The holiday is tomorrow and instead of feeling joy,happiness and anticipation,I am feeling angry and at edge.Again,though I have the feeling that something is going to happen tomorrow,I hope that nothing happens.I want to enjoy the holiday and I want to be happy but I am feeling depressed and anger.But then again,depression is anger turned inward.Again,I hope that the holiday is nice and I am hoping to Heaven that nothing negative happens.If anyone is reading this,please say a prayer for me that nothing happens tomorrow while I am at my local sister's house.Thanks in advance.
As stated,tomorrow is the Christmas holiday.I hope that the holiday goes well despite the negative circumstances that is going on at the moment.
That was my hectic day today and my hopes for the holiday tomorrow.FJ

Sunday, December 23, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had yet another not too eventful day.I simply ran another last minute errand for my mom and I also managed to pick up something for myself along the way.Not only that,I also had to get some gas for my car so it will be full.
At the moment,the weather is windy and the winds are really blowing hard.Earlier today,we also had sleet falling for a short time.But other than that,it has been blowing wind like crazy and the winds are blowing strong and hard.The region that I am living is under a High Wind Warning until early tomorrow morning.Right now,the wind is blowing and the winds are blowing strong and hard.
I am now at home relaxing.My mom and I watched another holiday special tonight while we were eating.It was Ziggy's Gift.It's a Christmas special starring the comic strip Ziggy wanting to spread some holiday cheer to everyone.It's a pity that this is only a Christmas special and there are no other Ziggy cartoons available for everyday watching.Still,it was wonderful to watch and after Christmas,I know that I have to put my Christmas videos and DVD's away until next year.But for now,I am just going to sit and enjoy them while the season lasts.
Last night,the Christmas party was a blast.I sang some Christmas songs last night and ate too much pizza.But I enjoyed myself and I the crowd enjoyed my selections and it was all wonderful.Again,the party was a blast and I had a blast entertaining the crowd.My next party night to entertain will be New Year's Eve.I am looking forward to that as well.I also have my night to entertain the Saturday night prior to New Year's Eve and I'm also looking forward to that.It's hard to believe that the holiday season is upon us and that Christmas is almost here,which will be in 2 more days.While I do enjoy this time of the year very much,it is also a relief when it's over with.It takes very long for the season to get here but it always ends very fast.
As stated,the holiday is just two days away.I am looking forward to that.I am also hoping that the holiday goes by good.
Regarding the rest of the night,I might go out and have a drink or two with the guys.If I do,I hope that it will be a wonderful experience.
That was my day today and my night last night,including my hopes for the rest of the holiday weekend.FJ

Saturday, December 22, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a not too eventful of a day today.I dropped off a record album at a friend's house as his Christmas gift and I also ran an errand for my mom.It was simply last minute food shopping for the holiday.It was cool.They also had all the things that my mom needed,which was a surprise for me.Usually,they are out of certain things during this time of the year.But they had everything that was on my mom's list.I also had to go to a Dollar Tree to pick up a couple more rolls of Scotch tape.
I am now relaxing at home.I am anticipating the party tonight.It is the annual Christmas party at the place where I entertain.It will be something indeed.I am hoping that the night goes well for me entertainmentwise.I will be doing my usual holiday standards during the party and as always,I am hoping that the party goes well and that my night of entertainment goes well.
It's hard to believe that the holiday is almost here.It will be here in 3 days.I can hardly wait for that.I am hoping that the holiday goes great.The only bad thing is that my father has come to town as a surprise.I really do not know how that will come about and how it will be.But if I can get through the day with him being there,then I will be alright.I just hope nothing negative happens nor any trouble brews.
Again,I am anticipating the Christmas party tonight.I hope that it's a blast and I also hope that my entertaining the crowd goes well.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night.I still hope for things to go well.But again,it is the Christmas party and I am hoping that both the party and my night of entertaining the crowd is a real blast.
Regarding Sunday,I have not decided what I will do.But whatever I do,I hope that it will affect me in a positive way.
That was my day today and my hopes for tonight and for tomorrow.FJ

Friday, December 21, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.The work shift went by smoothly and I also had a pretty good lunch period prior to starting my job.It was pretty well.After I got the laundry done,I simply dropped it off at the drug/alcohol rehab center and I went to an area supermarket to pick up a couple cans of kidney beans for tonight's dinner.After that,I went to teh bank to cash my paycheck and headed for home.
When I got home,I had dinner and I also registered some bills over on Where's George.After I had done that,I did a scan on my computer to check for viruses as well as spyware and the great news is that my computer is clean.There were no viruses or spyware in my computer database.After the scan was done,I bathed and I registered a few more bills on Where's George and did some last minute e-mail work.
While the scan was going on,I decided to finish my holiday shopping.I had to pick up a couple more things for a few family members and now,it's done.Good thing,too.I just heard from BMG Music Service via e-mail and my order was just shipped.It will not be here in time for the holiday.Oh well.But the family members that I bought for will not be left out.
I also went shopping and picked up 4 quarts of Egg Nog.That way,we have some for drinking when we have some Christmas time munchies.The holiday season is not complete without Egg Nog.Of course,it is alcohol free,which is the way we like it.
I am just glad that the holiday weekend is here.I have been waiting for this.Tomorrow night is the big Christmas party at the place where I entertain and I know that it will be something.I am going to be singing for the crowd and it will be Christmas songs.It is a Christmas party.Again,I am looking forward to this and I am hoping that the party is a real blast.I also hope that my night of entertaining the crowd goes over well.
As far as the rest of the weekend,I really have not decided.I might have a drink with the guys on Sunday night and the rest of the weekend,I will be spending the days with my family.I am hoping that the weekend will be great.
That was my day today and my hopes for the entire holiday weekend.FJ

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a not too exciting of a day today.The work shift went by pretty well.But I also had some stuff that I had to do today after I got home.
When I got home,I had to drop something off at a friend of mom's house.It was some money for some Christmas gifts that my mom needed before the holiday.One thing that I do have to admit,the holiday season is nice but can be a hassle.The hectic shopping for gifts and trying to find the right one for a certain person in your family or for a friend can be stressful.But again,it is a nice time but can be hectic.For me,I have only two more things that I need to buy and I am done.I did order a few CD's from BMG Music Service but they are going to be late.I was hoping that I would have them by Christmas but it seems that they will arrive after Christmas.But I will check my BMG account online to see if my order was received.
I also went shopping at a local K-Mart.I got a $20.00 gift card from work today and I went there to use it.I picked up Rob Zombie's Halloween on DVD and a couple pairs of warm hunting socks.The latter thing was a Christmas gift and now,I have only two more to go.I am just going to get two more pairs of hunting socks.My brother in law and nephews are the hunters in the family and I know that they will get some use out of those hunting socks.
I am now at home relaxing.Earlier tonight,my mom and I watched Cricket On The Hearth on DVD.Cricket On The Hearth is a Christmas special dated 1967 that has not been shown on regular TV for a long time.It was wonderful to watch this special again.My mom and I watched it last year when I first purchased this on DVD as part of a Christmas special DVD set.Again,it was wonderful.
At the moment,weatherwise,it is mild.The weather has warmed up slightly since the weekend snow storm.It has been a mixed bag of cold and warm weather.There is still some snow on the ground but it isn't as icy as it was this past weekend.But I am glad that it isn't.I know that colder temps will be coming back but I am going to enjoy this while it lasts.The one thing that I find hard to believe is that the Christmas holiday is almost here.It will be here soon.After that,it will be back to normal again until the New Year holiday.I am looking forward to New Years Eve when I will be entertaining the crowd as well.I always do that.New Years Eve is my busiest night to entertain.But at the moment,I am anticipating Christmas and I will be glad when it's here.
The best thing to happen last night was that the Buffalo Sabres defeated the New York Islanders by a score of 2-1.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well for me.After that,it's the weekend and the holiday approaches.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead and the upcoming holiday weekend.FJ

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.The laundry pick up that I had to make worked out pretty well.I simply picked up a filled bag and dropped it off at the work site,sorted it out and went home.
On the way,I went and bought another last minute gift for my family and mailed out an important package for my mom and picked up a two roll pack of Scotch tape at a Dollar Tree store in the area that I live.I had lunch and went home.
When I got home,I finished the computer work that I needed to finish.I also received a few things that I had been waiting on for about a couple of weeks in the mail.They were a few DVD's and a rare record album.I also received the Big Blue Marble episodes that I ordered.
After my work here at home was done,I went to a Salvation Army thrift shop in another area of Western New York and found a few nice things there.One thing I can say is that you'll usually find what you are looking for at those thrift stores,especially the Salvation Army ones.When I got home,there were the Big Blue Marble DVD's that I ordered on the kitchen table.Aside from those things,I also received a few more Christmas cards.Overall,a pretty good day today and I also had fun.
I am now at home relaxing.I do have to do a few more personal things before I can consider my day done.As stated,I am just glad that the holiday season comes once a year.I wouldn't want to go through something like this every day.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day tomorrow.FJ

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better than I have been.I had a pretty good day today.My day,though it was pretty good,did not get off to a good start.
When I arrived at work,I saw that the washers were filled with laundry.The person from yesterday did not finish the job that he started.He simply left them in the washer overnight and when I took them out to be dried,they were sopping wet.At that time,I couldn't use both washers because of this.I had to wait for two loads that I had to separate from one of the washers to get done before I could use both.I had to use one to start my job and I also had to finish somebody elses job before I could really start mine.But I managed to get it done and after that,it wasn't so hard.After a nice lunch,I simply finished up and dropped it off at the drug/alcohol rehab center.I then headed for home.
Before I could relax and take it easy,I had to run a couple of errands for my mom.They were partly some last minute stuff before the holiday begins.I still have one more thing to get for her before the holiday.I also had to get some ice melt stuff from a Home Depot in the area before I headed for home.
After I got home,I had a light dinner.It was leftover pasta and it was good.I had a meeting that I had to go to tonight.It was my weekly support group meeting at the church tonight.The meeting,which was only attended by only a small group of men,was wonderful.We shared an awful lot and it was wonderful to hear and be heard.This is also the last support group at the church meeting for the month.For the next two weeks,due to the Christmas and New Year holidays,there will be no meetings.They will resume in January after the holiday season is officially over.It has been lovely but I will be glad when it is over.The holiday season,while very nice and worthy of joy and fun,can be very stressful.Again,while I will be sad to see it end,I will also be glad for it to be over with.After Christmas,there will be a New Year to start fresh and anew,which is what I am anxiously awaiting this minute.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well.After that,I have to get that one more thing for my mom.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead and the upcoming holidays.FJ

Monday, December 17, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.Today wasn't as hectic as yesterday.This time,I managed to get to the drug store to pick up those prescriptions.With that completed,I went back home again to have dinner.It was a light dinner of chicken flavored noodle soup.It was also very filling.I enjoyed it very much.
Tonight's anger management/conflict resolution group was cancelled.I was a little disappointed because I did not hear anything about until I got to the building where it was tonight.I drove all the way there and discovered that there was no meeting.After buying a box of hot chocolate,I drove home.
I am now at home relaxing.I am wearing a warm sweatsuit and I am feeling pretty warm in it.I am just going to sit and relax and watch a few holiday themed videos on TV.There isn't really much on TV due to that dreaded writers strike going on in Hollywood.But I am glad that it is the season for watching Christmas specials and that is what I and my mom will watch until a certain time tonight.The weather is COLD and snowy and there is no place to go on a night like this anyway.So,I am just going to stay home and take it easy for tonight.I am going to save my energy for tomorrow.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day tomorrow.FJ

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a very hectic day today.Last night,as predicted,the winter storm started coming.It snowed a little here and there but overnight,the fall got even stronger and bigger.When I woke up this afternoon after my nights sleep,I saw that the streets were covered with snow and that my car was covered in snow and plowed in by the city's snowplows.
When I got out to warm up my car and dust the snow off,including scraping off all the ice,I couldn't get my car out.It was stuck.I couldn't even get my neighbors to help me get it out.I was hoping to go to the drug store and pick up a few prescriptions but the darned snow all around prevented this.Though I did get my day 2/3 accomplished,it still felt incomplete.After my brother in-law towed me out of the snow pile,I got to a supermarket to pick up a few things.I wasn't done yet.I also had to go to another one to get a couple boxes of herbal cold remedy teas.But on the way,I got stuck again.But thanks to a passing motorist,I got out again and managed to make it to the other supermarket to get those boxes of herbal cold remedy teas.What a hectic day.The snow was falling and the wind was blowing and drifting the snow all around.But again,I got at least 2/3 of what I had to get done accomplished.Tomorrow,I have to make up for today by getting to that drug store and picking up those prescriptions.After that,at least everything will be accomplished.
I am now at home relaxing.The weather is COLD and snowy but I am feeling snug as a bug in a rug.I was going to go out tonight but due to the storm,I have chosen to stay home.I even called the place where I entertain to tell them that I am not coming out tonight due to the storm to let them know.But next Sunday,if the weather is better,I just might go out and have a drink with the guys over there.
Speaking of which,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.Due to the weather last night,there was a low turnout.But I still managed to sing and make the crowd happy.I did several Christmas songs and the response was favorable.I am looking forward to next week.Because the place is having it's annual Christmas party.I always look forward to that.I will be doing my usual party standard next week and I have a feeling that it's going to be wonderful.I am looking forward to that with a lot of enthusiasm.
Tomorrow is my day off as usual.Regarding whether there will be a anger management/conflict resolution group meeting tomorrow night is uncertain.But I am hoping to hear something tomorrow night.
That was my day today,my night last night and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.But I am also feeling hopeful and optimistic.The day today was pretty good.
My mom and I went grocery shopping to get some food in the house and to prepare.We are supposed to get a huge winter storm tonight and my mom wanted to make sure that the food was in the house just in case.At least,this has been accomplished and all we need to do is get the last minute holiday shopping in.There are still a few more people we need to get stuff for.But that will be done next week.
Tonight is my night to entertain the crowd.Starting tonight and next week,I will be doing Christmas music during my nights of entertainment.I have not decided what I am going to do but whatever songs that I choose,I am hoping that the night goes over well.As I have stated my times,though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.But I have a feeling that everything will go well tonight.But still,I always hope.
I am now at home relaxing.The weather is COLD and it is icy.Again,we are supposed to get a terrible winter storm but I am still going out.I will have to be careful driving home.Though I have gotten home many times in some really bad winter weather,I will still be careful and I will exercise safe winter driving skills.But I am hoping that the snow will not be as bad as it is predicted to be.But still,I will need to be careful.
Regarding tomorrow,I have not decided what I am going to do.But whatever I do,I hope that it affects me in a positive way.
That was my day today and my hopes for tonight and for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Friday, December 14, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.The work shift went by well and I did not have too much to do except what I had to do.The morning wroker does a very good job and I actually like how he works.I simply did what I had to do and bagged all clean and dropped it all off at the drug/alcohol rehab center and started home.
On the way home,I went to pay the car insurance.My niece paid me for the insurance this afternoon before I left for work and that was great.Again,on the way home,I paid for it and I am now all set for the month.
After that,I went and cashed my paycheck at the bank and went home.
My mom was already making dinner when I got home.It was homemade soup.The weather has been pretty cold as of late and a bowl of homemade soup really was the thing for it.It was wonderful.The soup really filled me up.After dinner,I did some more computer work and afterwards,I did a scan on my computer for viruses and spyware and my computer was clean.There were no viruses or spyware to be found and that was great.
Whiel teh scan was going on,my mom and I watched the classic animated specil Olive The Other Reindeer,which is about a dog who goes to the North Pole to help pull Santa's sleigh after Blitzen gets hurt.It was great.I own this on video and it was wonderful to watch without commercial interruptions.There was a repeat of one of my mom's favorite shows and we thought that we would watch this instead.Again,it was wonderful.
Tomorrow night is my night to entertain the crowd.I am looking forward to that.I am hoping that the night goes well.For the next two weeks,I am going to be singing Christmas songs.Because the holiday is near and I would like to get everybody into the spirit of things.I am hoping that evening goes well.
I will also be helping my mom with the grocery shopping tomorrow afternoon.I am hoping that we can get everything we need.
Regarding the rest of the weekend,I don't know what I will do.But whatever it is,I am hoping that it will have a positive affect on me.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.The work day went by pretty smoothly but I am now feeling angry.
After work,I went home to relax a bit before taking my mom holiday shopping.I was a little tired and I needed some relaxation time to collect my thoughts and to recharge.
The shopping trip went as well as planned.My mother got almost everything that she needed to forget but she forgot a few other people.After shopping,we had two homemade sandwiches from Subway when we got home after purchasing them at a Wal-Mart location.
It was after we bought the sandwiches that my mom forgot the few other people that she was supposed to buy for.This is one of the reasons why I am feeling anger.The major reason is because my mom asked if she could borrow some money to make up for this.I am just wondering to myself WHY?!
It never fails.Each and every time I get ahead financially,I always have to loan my mom money.I am beginning to wonder.Is that woman psychic?Does she always know every time that I am ahead financially is the time to pester me for money?This is the main reason why I am feeling angry.I have my own money problems and this is what I don't need.I am already having enough stress trying to get my niece to pay her half of the insurance money ahead of the due date and now this.This is really starting to drive me up the wall.I understand that I sometimes have to do a little bit more for my mom but this is getting ridiculous.I felt that my mom should have thought twice before buying sandwiches from Subway because each time she makes a mistake,I end up bailing her out.This is becoming monotonous.I know that I will get paid back next month but I was hoping to use that money for gas for my car.Oh well.I guess that I will be bailing my mom out each and every time I turn around.This is why I am thinking of trying to be on my own.I am getting tired of taking care of this lady.I need to take care of myself and I sometimes can not bail my mom each and every time.If I am ahead money wise,I want to stay ahead.I should not have to bail out certain family members each and every time.At least,it is the way that I feel about it.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly.I am also hoping that the weekend goes better for me as well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day and weekend ahead.FJ

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a not too exciting of a day today.I simply did the scheduled laundry pick-up that I was supposed to do and I also had lunch at work after doing so.After that,I simply got some gas in my tank and I also managed to mail out a few more holiday cards.It was pretty well.It was just getting on with life as always and trying to keep a positive attitude about it.
When I got home,I simply changed back into my PJ's to lay down.I had a difficult time trying to get to sleep last night after going to bed.Though I did take my medication and tried to go to sleep,I had a tough time.While trying to do so,I managed to have those damned flashbacks of me having sexual relations with men and I wound up masturbating to them.After I got back up to wash my hands and use the bathroom,I asked the creator to forgive me before I finally got to sleep.When I got home,I simply went back to bed to take a nap to catch up on some lost sleep and afterwards,I felt better.
When I woke up,I simply checked the daily mail that I had received and I also finished my personal computer work after having a light dinner.Before doing that,I washed my hair because I did not want my hair to look messy if I went out.I do believe in being neat and looking neat.
For much of the day,I was also feeling at edge.My mom has been harping me to help her with her holiday shopping and I keep telling her that it was on my agenda and I was going to do that and also that I had not forgotten it.I did promise to do it tomorrow.My mom has been harping me so much as of late.She has never let up.It has been like this the past several days.I am hoping that after tomorrow,I won't have to hear it anymore.
Earlier tonight,I went back to the Roman Catholic shrine to pray.I had to say prayers because of the sexual addictions that I have been trying to overcome and I also had to pray for a friend who had suffered a heart attack last week.My relapse last night coupled with my falling short by watching Gay pornography online over a few days span was the motivation for me to go out there and pray.After doing so,I felt better and I also left with a cleaner feeling about myself.When I drove home,I felt really good driving home and I also felt better about myself.I am hoping that the next few days are better for me.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well for me.After work,I will be helping my mom with her holiday shopping.I still need to complete my holiday shopping.It is almost done.I only have a couple more things to get.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day tomorrow.FJ

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Tonight,I am actually feeling great.I had a pretty good day today.Though the work day went by pretty tough and I also had to take some guff from my mother when I got home from work today,I managed to have a pretty good day today.The day weather wise was pretty rough.It was mostly a lot of rain and sleet but it was just a part of the season.It was also very cold today but not freezing.I still managed to get some things done today.I managed to do my job and get that done over all else and also drop the clean laundry off.Again,though the day was rough and I also had some really bad downs,I still hung in there and it was really neat.
I really did not have much time to relax after work.I was anticipating this evening and going to the new support group at another church.After I ate dinner,I managed to get some computer work done and leave to get to the meeting tonight on time.The church that I go to for meetings now is closer to home for me.It is just a 10-15 minute drive away for me.It's more convenient for me and I am glad.
I went there tonight and it was wonderful.I met some new men there and they are an awesome bunch of guys.I had a wonderful time talking with all of them and sharing the issues that I am dealing with,which is SSA and anger problems.It was really neat.I had a great time and the meeting was wonderful.I am looking forward to next week's meeting.I am looking forward to going to quite a few of the meetings in the next several weeks.I am also hoping that they are as wonderful as this one.But it was a wonderful meeting tonight and I am confident and sure that each and every meeting will be that way.Still,I will continue to hope.
Tomorrow is a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes smoothly.As for the rest of the day,I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it affects me in a positive way,.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Monday, December 10, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.I ran an errand for my mom and I also managed to get some more mailing done.I had to mail a money order out to a friend of mine in California to get a few more DVD's of Big Blue Marble episodes.I am hoping that the money order gets there soon.I had delivery confirmation put on it so I can track it in the next few days.Again,I am hoping that the money order gets there soon.
Aside from that,I just had to do a little something for my mom and that was all.It was nothing much.It was just a personal thing that I had to do.But I got it done and that gives me a feeling of accomplishment.
Last night,I went out to have a few drinks with the guys at the place where I entertain and it was great.I had some laughs and great chit chats with the guys and gals who were there.I even played a few songs on the jukebox that was there.It was great to just be there and have some laughs and talk with the patrons.I will be going to do that again next Sunday.I will still be singing up a storm every Saturday night there but it is always great to just sit and chill with the people for just a few minutes.Again,I will be doing that again next Sunday night.
Tonight,my anger management/conflict resolution group meeting went great.It was wonderful to be in the group and share some stuff with them.I am looking forward to next week's meeting.
I also heard from a former support group at the church member that another church is starting another group.The first meeting will be tomorrow night.I will have to get directions to that church so I can go there tomorrow night.I am hoping that it will be as wonderful as the one that I used to go to.I know that I will be meeting some new people and getting to know them.I am looking forward to that tomorrow night.
The Buffalo Sabres lost tonight to the Boston Bruins by a score of 4-1 at home.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day tomorrow.FJ

Sunday, December 09, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.I ran a few errands for my mom and I also mailed out the vast majority of my Christmas cards that had to be sent.These were staying in the USA and I wanted to get these out so they would get to the people on time before the holiday sets in.I still have a few more to be mailied out tomorrow,but those will be going out to other country's ;ike Canada and England.I also have one more local one to be sent out.I also have to send out a money order to a friend of mine in California to get a few more Big Blue Marble DVD's.I only have a few more things to buy for the holiday's.My shopping is almost done.I have only a few more things to buy.I am hoping that I can obtain them.With this being the holiday season,you never know if a store is going to have what you are looking for or if they are going to be out of stock.But I hope that I can get them.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.I did a tribute to John Lennon because it was the anniversary of his murder that happened 27 years ago.I still miss John Lennon to this very day.I am still feeling sadness and anger.Sadness because John Lennon is no longer with us.Anger at the man who murdered him.It was horrible what happened to John Lennon back in 1980.Again,my tribute to John Lennon went great and I also had a blast doing it.
The best thing about last night is that the Buffalo Sabres kicked ass.They clobbered the San Jose Sharks by a score of 7-1.It was great seeing them win after those two pathetic consecutive losses.But it is great that they won and it also made the night more wonderful.
Regarding the rest of the night,I might go out and have a friendly drink with the guys over at the place where I entertain.If not,I will just stay home and take it easy.
That was my day today and my night last night and my possible plans for the rest of the evening.FJ

Saturday, December 08, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good,hopeful and optimistic.I had a pretty good day today.I simply ran a few errands for my mom and I also got some stamps so I can mail out my Christmas cards on Monday.But I am thinking of mailing them out on Sunday evening so they can go out on Monday morning first thing.The rest of the stuff that I had to get was just minor things such as coffee and a can of diced tomatoes for tonight's pasta dinner.
Tonight is my night to entertain the crowd.I am looking forward to this with a lot of enthusiasm and optimism,including a little hope to sweeten it.I will be doing my yearly tribute to John Lennon.Tonight is the 27th anniversary of his passing.I am looking forward to this as I look forward to singing every Saturday night.I am hoping that the night goes over well for me.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night singing,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.But I feel that everything is going to go well for me as it has always went.But I still hope for things to go well.I feel that there is nothing wrong with a little bit of hope.
I am now at home relaxing.I am feeling hopeful.I will be getting ready to go out later to really do what I really love to do.I really enjoy what I do.It is always a pleasure to entertain for some really appreciative people.It is always wonderful.But still,I always hope for the night to go good no matter what.
Tomorrow is Sunday.I have no plans but whatever I do,I hope that it affects me in a positive way.
That was my day today and my hopes for tonight and for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Friday, December 07, 2007

Tonight,I am actually feeling pretty good.The work shift went by smoothly and I also had a very good lunch.There was no problem at work today.There were no loads left behind in the washers to finish and I simply did my work and dropped off what was clean at the drug/alcohol rehab center.After that,I only made a couple of stops along the way before going home.
After I got home,I did some personal computer work that needed to get done.It was nothing much.It was just some e-mail work that I had to do.After I had done that,I had a light dinner.
While I was eating my dinner,I did a virus scan on my computer and I also wrote out some Christmas cards that I have to send out on Monday.I also listened to a few of my Christmas 8-Tracks(Yes,8-Tracks) that I have in my personal collection.Most of the 8-Tracks that I played worked great and sounded great.I simply hooked up an old Bradford 8-Track player that I had to my Crosley nostalgic styled mini stereo with built in turntable,cassette player,radio and CD recorder.It was wonderful to listen to those after all those years.Plus,they were Christmas themed.It was awesome.I also had an awesome time writing out all those Christmas cards.These are actually going out out of or within the state of New York and out of the country.I still have more to write out but I am resting my hands at the moment from all that writing.Tomorow or Sunday afternoon,I will resume writing more for the local people that I know who I sent to regularly.
The best news all day is that there were no viruses or spyware on my computer and that made me feel better.
I am now relaxing at home.I am also getting ready for tomorrow night.I am going to entertaining the crowd as always by singing.I will be doing my yearly tribute to John Lennon.I will be singing songs that he did during his solo career and when he was in The Beatles.I am hoping that the evening goes well.
I also have to go to the post office and pick up some stamps so I can send out my Christmas cards.I will be sending out 56 in all.I still have more to send out when I get around to writing them.Most of these are going to my friends who are members of a couple of online forums that I am a member of.It is going to be wonderful to send them out on Monday.
I also watched two favorite holiday specials.They were Frosty The Snowman and Frosty Returns.I watched them on DVD so I could watch them without commercials.Overall,a pretty good day.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Thursday, December 06, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty good day today.The work shift went by smoothly.I also had a very good,if light,lunch.It was awesome.After my shift was done,I simply dropped off the clean laundry at the drug/alcohol rehab center and went home to relax a bit before going to my appointment with my substitute sexual absue support counselor.
I did a fraction of my personal computer work when I got home today while I was relaxing.It was not too much to do.I simply read a portion of my e-mails.After my relazation,I got dressed and went to my appointment.
While on the way there,I stopped at a post office to mail out an important letter.It was a purchase order that I was making so I could get a few CD's for a few members of my family for the holiday.I am hoping that these will be well received.I mailed them out by 3 day Priority Mail so it can get there in 3 days or less.I also had delivery confirmation put on it so I can check in a few days to see if it got there.
My session with my substitute sexual abuse support counselor went well.It wasn't a very long session as there was nothing mych to talk about.My next appointment will be with my regular counselor will be in January of the new year.It will be wonderful to have my regular counselor back after her long maternal leave.On the way home,I stopped at a couple of stores to pick a couple of things for my mom.I also went to do some personal shopping at a Wal-Mart in my hometown also while on the way home and at a Big Lots not too far away from there.
After a light dinner,I finished my personal computer work.I also did some last minute personal shopping before the evening was through.I had to get a few more personal items that I had forgotten to get earlier.Plus,the weather has been really COLD as of late but we are now supposed to get relief from the cold temps within the next few days.It will not be much.It will just be in the 30's and that's it.But it will be nice to have a break from all the cold temps where it will not be so cold.Overall,a pretty good day.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a not too exciting of a day today.I simply spent all day running errands for myself and my mom.After I completed the laundry pick-up and had lunch over at work,I ran the errands.I had to mail out a few important letters for my mom today so they would get to their destinations.They were simply bills.After that,I went home to take a nap because I did not get an awful lot of sleep last night.But even that was a chore.I had yet another flashback from my past when I used to have sexual relations with other men.I wound up masturbating to these.Though I felt miserable afterwards,I did feel better after asking for forgiveness from the creator.I still need to learn how I can overcome SSA and the stuff that accompanies it.I am going to take the advice of a friend and order that DVD of Overcoming Masturbation from that site called Evergreen International and see if it will help me out.It will have to wait until next month due to this being the Christmas season.But I am going to hold my head high and try to keep fighting.I need to know what it is I am doing wrong.
Tonight was also a first for me in a long time.I stayed home tonight and watched Santa Claus Is Coming To Town on DVD.The special was on the ABC network tonight but I watched the DVD so I would get no commercial interruptions.It was wonderful to watch that with no commercials.
The strange thing about tonight is that I no longer have those meetings to go to.The support group meetings at the church were closed off due to the problem of not having any co-leaders to take over.Not only that,attendance had dropped because members were getting more involved in their personal lives and taking on new responsibilities.But I am hanging in there.I feel that another group will be started soon.I am going to be talking to that lady again before the week is out.She did tell me that the group might start in January but I still would like to talk with her again about it.
Before the night was through for me,I did manage to get to a local drug store to drop off a prescription and pick up some Rolaids.I also got some Christmas cards that I need to send out next week to some friends of mine out of town and across the globe.I am hoping that they get them in time for the holiday.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes by smoothly.I also have to mail out something tomorrow and I also have an appointment with my substitute sexual abuse support counselor.I am hoping that the session goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day tomorrow.FJ

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I am feeling depressed,angry and lonely.Most of the depression has something to do with the weather we've been having.The weather has been COLD and snowy.Plus,today at work,I had to buy my own lunch as a result of there being no lunch to be served.We were supposed to have fried chicken but the coordinator is out sick and he did not fill the purchase order for the lunch ahead of time.I had to buy my own lunch today.I had a homemade burrito from a take out place.It was good and filling.No total loss but it was a pretty big shock.The rest of the day went by not too smoothly.I had to finish a job that was not finished by the previous day's person.That really made ne feel at edge,which is contributing to the anger that I am feeling at the moment.At least,I got my job done and that gave me a feeling of accomplishment.
Plus,I am feeling angry because these SSA feelings are not leaving me alone.Plus,an online forum that I am a part of is having divisions where one guy wants to throw in the towel and act out on his desires rather than resist and fight them.The men in the group are having mixed reactions,with a few of them being sympathetic to the case of Gay civil unions.I did e-mail the group moderator and I am going to be e-mailing the group owner after I am done here.I am hoping that this can be resolved soon without having to kick anyone out.Plus,I also had the intention of acting out with a Gay man that I knew but I did not let it happen.Or maybe,God did not let it happen.Instead,I gave him a ride to a local drug store so he could get his medication.Regarding my fight to resist these Gay desires,I did get rid of some Gay porn videos that I had in my closet to free up some room for the suits that I had in it.They were simply being bunched up together all at once and I needed to free up the space.At least,the Gay porn videos are no longer there for me to watch anymore.In fact,a TV that I used to watch them on with an accompanying VCR hooked up to it,broke down years ago and since it is an old tubed TV,I can never fix it since there are no tubes available anywhere anymore.No big loss there.I am glad to be rid of them.
My feelings of being lonely are there because tomorrow night,I will be staying home.As stated last week,there are no more support group meetings at the church that used to have them.Also as stated,the members are now busy with their own lives and the leaders could not find any co-leaders to take the helm when the leaders were doing other things with their lives.But I am hoping that there will be another group coming up soon that is supposed to help men and women with SSA.I am hoping that the group will start soon,which is supposed to be January.I will just have to hang in there until something happens.I will just have to pray hard until something happens.But I feel that something will happen soon for me before I know it,
Tomorrow is simply a pick up day.I am hoping that the pick up goes smoothly.I am also hoping to have lunch at work once that is done.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Monday, December 03, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a not too exciting of a day today.I stayed home most of the day due to the COLD winter weather.We are still in Autumn at the moment but it is beginning to feel like Winter.I stayed home much of the day as a result of the weather.I tried to take it easy but couldn't.I guess that I was still feeling at edge over something.I did not know what it was.I really do not know what made me feel a little angry but whatever it was,it made me masturbate again.Plus,I was still getting images of naked men begging me for a blowjob and wanting me to relieve them.I don't know what triggered this.But I am hoping that I feel better tomorrow.I am hoping that a good night sleep will make me feel better.I did have a hard time getting to sleep last night as well.Again,I really don't know what triggered this round of negative emotions.My theory is that I am frustrated because I haven't had any sexual relations with another man in a long time.If that is the case why I am feeling this way,I am not going to let this frustrating rut that I am in make me decide what I am going to do.I will not weaken nor will I give into unnatural desires with another man.No way.I am going to try to remain strong.I will not let my desires control me.I am going to try to control them.Men craving other men is as unnatural as women craving women and humans craving animals for sex(please pardon that extreme example)and I am not going to let my desires dictate to me how I am going to be nor will I let them decide who I am going to be,I am a Straight(i.e.Heterosexual) man with a Homosexual problem.I am not Gay.Nor will I be Gay.I refuse to be Gay.Plus,since I don't have to be Gay,I am not going to be Gay.Plus,there is no such thing as a Gay man.Each and every man is a Straight(i.e.Heterosexual)man and is biologically hardwired for sexual compatibility with a woman.Plus,the way it is according to the laws of nature and Heaven is that it is man and woman.It is not man and man nor woman and woman.Nobody is born anything regarding sexual orientation.It is a learned and aquired through the environments that each and every one of us grew up around.As I have many times stated,I am not going to go back to the Gay lifestyle nor will I go back to being enslaved to the image of a naked man with an erect penis nor a man standing tall with his erect penis sticking out of his pants.Plus,I do not want to go back to all those one blow stands where I am always sucking another guy's penis(i.e.dick,cock,prick)and being used for their own pleasure and I am not getting any pleasure out of it in return.No way I'm going back to that.No way at all.
Tonight,my anger management/conflict resolution group went well.It was another wonderful meeting.We also discussed what we would be going to do for the month of December.We are planning some very special things for this month.I am looking forward to the next meeting next Monday night.
Tomorrow is simply a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day tomorrow.FJ

Sunday, December 02, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a not too eventful day today.I went to run an errand for my mom today.While I was doing that,I also ran a couple for myself.I bought a new billfold at Big Lot's today and I also bought a jar of turkey gravy for dinner tonight at Rite-Aid.I also picked up a few slices of pizza that I will be eating for lunch tomorrow.The thing that I had to do for my mom was that I had to pick up a container of Frozen Orange Juice for her.All in all,not too eventful of a day but it was pretty good.
My night of entertaining the crowd went well.As I planned,I did my yearly tribute to George Harrison.There was not too many people due to the weather,which while just COLD initially,turned really snowy.The snow was really coming down last night as the night for me was winding down.When I drove home,I had to use extreme caution to avoid slipping and crashing into someone else because the roads were really covered with a blanket of snow.Plus,I had to be careful for hidden icy patches.But I did make it home safe and sound.The roads were rough and snowy but I did make it home.It was a chore but I made it and that made me feel better.
Right now,weatherwise,it is now raining.It is not freezing rain but it is still rain.Tomorrow,we are supposed to get high winds and there is a High Wind Warning in effect until 1:00p.m.tomorrow afternoon.
Regarding the rest of the night,I might go out for a bit and have a drink with the guys at the place where I entertain.If I do,I hope that it will be great.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes well.I do have my anger management/conflict resolution group tomorrow night.I am hoping that the meeting goes well for me,too.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Saturday, December 01, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I am also feeling hopeful and optimistic.I had a not too eventful of a day today.I only ran a few errands for myself and my mom today.I also had a talk with a friend of mine over the phone.I was glad that he finally got his phone reconnected.He told me that one of his brother's and his girlfriend were moving back into the city.He was overjoyed.He also said that he was going to help his brother move his stuff in the new place that he is hoping to move into.I wished them the best of success and I hope that everything worked out for the better.
The errands that I ran for my mom was that I went to the bank to withdraw some money for her.We needed to buy coffee and something to eat for tonight.After I bought the coffee at Dunkin Donuts,I went to Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things for myself.They were soap and a Christmas special DVD set.After that,I went to Quiznos to pick up a couple of 6 inch sandwiches for dinner.They were nice,toasty and delicious.After dinner,I finished my personal computer work and registered a few more bills at Where's George.Not too bad of a day if I say so myself.
I am now at home relaxing.I am anticipating the night ahead.I will be doing my yearly tribute to George Harrison tonight while I am singing.I am hoping that the night goes well.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what could happen.But I have a good feeling that everything is going to work out fine.Still,there's nothing wrong with a little bit of hope.
Tomorrow is Sunday.I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it will have a positive affect on me.
That was my day today and my hopes for tonight and tomorrow.FJ

Friday, November 30, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty good work day today.The shift went by smoothly and I also had a nice lunch.After my shift was done,I simply bagged the laundry and dropped it off at the drug/alcohol rehab center.I went home afterwards.
For most of the afternoon,I had a difficult time trying to get online.My computer was having issues and I had to keep restarting the machine in order to get it to work properly.I also had a tough time trying to get the firewall to open up so I could turn it on and feel more secure when I am online.After several tries,I managed to get the firwall on and I also got online.I registered several bills on Where's George and also managed to catch up on some much needed e-mail work.I also had a light supper tonight.
Right now,I am at home relaxing.The weather is COLD!!!The wind is blowing and for a while this afternoon,it was blowing snow all over.There was no acumulation of the snow.It was just flurries and that was all.The windstorm was so strong that it blew some tree branches off the trees at a nearby park.The road near the park was blocked while the city cleaned up the mess.They wanted to make the streets safer and make sure that no car accidents happened and to prevent people from getting hurt.Before the evening is through,I am going to do a virus scan on my computer.I am hoping that there are no viruses on my computer.
I can't believe that the weekend is finally here.I am hoping that the weekend goes well.I will be singing tomorrow night and I will be doing a tribute to George Harrison tomorrow night while I am singing tomorrow night.I am hoping that night goes well for me.Regarding Sunday,I have not made up my mind what I am going to do but whatever I do,I hope that it affects me in a positive way.
Tomorrow morning,I have to go to the bank to make a much needed and mandatory deposit to remove some overdrawn funds from my checking account.That way,it wil be in the black with only a few cents.
That was my day and my hopes for the upcoming weekend.FJ

Thursday, November 29, 2007

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Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty good work day today.The laundry pick-up went well enough and I also had no problem dropping it off at the work site and sorting it out.I even had a pretty good lunch today as well.The day got off to a good start and I also had a very god afternoon.It was nothing special.I simply stayed home and took it easy.I did not watch much on TV because I really did not feel like it.I simply finished my personal PC work and took care of a personal money matter regarding business that I was doing with a person online.Before I did come home,I had to pick up a few things at a supermarket near me so my mom could have things to prepare dinner tonight.It was really neat.My mom made homemade turkey soup.
While that went well,I am also feeling sadness.Because tonight was my last support group meeting at the church.After tonight,they are no more.During our last meeting,we shared a lot of things and talked about how the meetings had helped them combat the issues that each and every one had that brought them there.I am going to miss going to those meetings.I am also going to miss all the guys that I met there and had fellowship with.It was awesome.But after tonight,the meetings are no more.Apparently,most of the members are now getting really busy with their lives and that is starting to take up a lot of their time.But again,it was wonderful while they lasted.It was also wonderful to have those guys to talk to each and every week whenever we would meet.
Regarding what I am going to do with this happening at the moment.I am going to hang in there and wait anxiously for another group to start.It will be a group helping people who struggle with SSA,including those who struggle with the sexual addictions that come with it.I will wait patiently and when they start,I'll start going to those.I will call up the leader to see if we could meet before that starts.I hope that we can.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my night tonight,including what I am hoping to strive for in the day ahead.FJ

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty decent day today.Despite a minor mishap that happened when I arrived at the work site,which was the person from the previous day leaving loads of laundry in the washers,I had a pretty smooth work day today.I did report this to the supervisors and they said that they would look into this and hopefully come to a solution.I simply did my job and after it was finished,I dropped the clean laundry at the drug/alcohol rehab center and ran a couple of errands for myself before going home.
I finally received a DVD that I was waiting on for the past several days.It was another episode of the classic education show Big Blue Marble.It was wonderful to watch.It is awesome to be seeing this show again.I know that I have other episodes of the series but each and new episode that I purchase is always exciting and neat to watch.I am going to be ordering more again next month.I watched it this afternoon when I got home.Again,watching that was awesome.Since it was on DVD,it was more colorful and it was great.Again,I am going to be ordering more next month.
I only ran a small errand tonight.I had to get a gallon of milk,a recordable VHS video tape and get some gas in my gas tank.I ran this errand before 8:00 p.m. so I could watch A Charlie Brown Christmas.Even though it was on TV,I watched it on video without commercial interruptions.After that,I watched It's Christmas Time Again,Charlie Brown on video and that was great.
I am now relaxing.I am anticipating the new day.I don't have much to do tomorrow.I only have to do a simple laundry pick up and drop it off at the work site.After that,I can do whatever I like until the evening.Tomorrow night is my last meeting with the support group at the church.It is going to be strange not going to these meetings every Wednesday night.But I am looking into getting involved with another one.If not,I'll just have to hang in there until another one comes around.Again,it will be sad that this will be no more.I am going to be missing those guys.It was wonderful to go there and be heard and also to hear others.As stated,it is going to be sad to see that this will be no more.
As stated,tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I hope that it goes well.After that,it will be the last support group at the church meeting.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Monday, November 26, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had an okay day today.Nothing special really happened today.I simply went about my day and did what I had to get done.
Last night,after I got home from having a drink with the gang at the place where I entertain to go to bed,I couldn't get to sleep.For a while,I had to keep getting out of bed to go to the bathroom.It was not constant urination but defecation.I had to take a dump at least 6 times during the night.I wanted to get some sleep but couldn't for most of the night.Each and every time I got comfortable in my bed and almost asleep,I had to get up and use the bathroom.It was horrible.Not only that,my anal region was starting to hurt due to all this defecating.Each and every time my anal region hurts,it is a vivid reminder of the rape that I endured when I was 16,which was where a man who lived in my neighborhood tried to shove his genitals up my rectum without the use of a condom.I still remember it each time I get that pain.It can be anything from a simple itch to a stabbing pain.The pain was unbearable for the length of time that I had to keep taking a dump.Plus,it was causing me great emotional stress and strain that I wound up masturbating,which made feel even more lousy.But after asking the creator for forgiveness,I felt better but I did not get to sleep until 3:45 a.m. in the morning.As a result of that,I only got five hours of sleep,which was why I felt lousy and a little bit at edge when I got out of bed this morning.I had to drink 3-4 cups of coffee to stay awake.I had to be awake because I had an appointment today at the hospital with the medication manager over at the local hospital.I had to drive there and I did not want to fall asleep behind the wheel while driving there.
My session with the medication manager went great.We talked about a lot of things and how some of the people around the social club react to me when I share my knowledge and how my life has been going.I am the victim at times of some of the social club member's rants and taunts regarding my knowledge and how far I have come within the agency,especially working within the agency.Again,the session went great and I also had to renew an appointment that I accidentally forgot.It was an appointment with the hospital's in-house psychiatrist.I have a new appointment and I am going to mark it down on the calender so I don't forget it this time.
After the session,I went straight home and got back into bed to take a nap.It was a 2 hour one that I took to catch up on some lost sleep from last night.After the nap,I felt better and I also had a light dinner.
My anger management/conflict resolution group went great.I met a few new people and we shared a lot.I did share my experiences from the last few days and it was great to have them listen to me and to listen to what they had to say.I am looking forward to the next group meeting,which is next Monday night.
Overall,I had a wonderful holiday weekend.I feel refreshed and rejuvenated.Not only that,the Buffalo Sabres won again tonight.They defeated the Washington Capitols in Washington by a score of 3-1.The next game is a home game Wednesday night when the St.Louis Blues come to town.I hope that the Sabres can win another one.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my night last night,including my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a not too exciting of a day today.I simply ran and did something personal for myself.First,I had a couple slices of pizza for lunch and I also went to Wal-Mart to get me a new nose and ear hair trimmer.The other ones that I had were not up to par anymore so I bought this one.I even tried it out when I got home.I used it get rid of some nose hair that was noticeably sticking out.It was a bit unsavory and unattractive but I managed to get rid of it.I now feel a bit better about myself.I also got rid of a little bit of ear hair.Afterwards,I cleaned off the blade and let it dry.I also put the saftey applicator on it when it was fully dry.
When I got home,I finished off my personal computer work and had a nice dinner.My mom and I had our own Thanksgiving dinner without the hassle and hussle of being over at my sister's house.Don't get me wrong,we had a nice time at my sister's but I did like having a little quite time here at home.It was very good.I was pretty filled up after eating.But again,it was great.
My night of entertaining the crowds went over great.The crowd really appreciated the songs that I did.Each and everybody complimented me on the songs that I chose and again,it was wonderful.I am looking forward to next Saturday night for sure.Next week,it will be my yearly tribute to George Harrison because this week will be the anniversary of his death of cancer in 2001.I am looking forward to that.
Tonight,I even talked with a couple of friends.One from my city and another from out of town.They were varied in how they were.The one from my city was doing good and the one from out of town was fight cold symptoms.But it was great to hear from them.I enjoyed the tiem spent talking with them.
The Thanksgiving holiday weekend will be over soon.For me,it was a wonderful weekend and I had some fun.I did some shopping for myself and I also had a nice holiday overall.It was great.But for me,the weekend isn't over yet.I still have my day off tomorrow.I have a couple of appointments tomorrow.The first at the local hospital and the next with my anger management/conflict resolution support group.I am hoping that both go well.
Regarding the rest of the night,I might go out and have a nice drink at the place where I entertain and have some great talks with the guys.
The best thing about the weekend is that the Buffalo Sabres won last night.They shutout the Montreal Canadians in Montreal by a score of 3-0.
As stated,tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that my appointments work out well enough.I also hope that the day goes by smoothly.
That was ny day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Saturday, November 24, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay but also,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.I really did not do too much today.I simply went to check up on a friend of mine,which is my usual Saturday thing to do.He was okay but his live in girlfriend was not feeling too well.Apparently,she possibly had a case of the flu.I only stayed a few minutes and left.I then went to back to the shopping mall to have a light but quick lunch,which was a couple of vegetable spring rolls with sweet and sour sauce to dip them in.It was pretty good.I went home afterwards.
After I had a quick bath,I ate a light dinner and finished my computer work.It was nothing much,really.It was something that I started when I woke up and I finished this evening.I also did a little searching while I was online.It was nothing much.I was trying to find where I could purchase upcoming DVD sets that are supposed to be coming out in Canada soon and I am hoping to see if I can purchase them myself.They were cartoon series that I used to watch when I was younger.I am hoping that I can purchase them soon from any source that is going to sell them.I would love to have them.
I am getting ready for tonight.I will be doing my usual singing up a storm for the crowd.I am hoping that the night goes well for me.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.But I have a feeling that it going to work out fine.
Tomorrow is Sunday.I am hoping that the day goes well.I have not really decided what I am going to do but whatever I do,I hope that it affects me in a positive way.
That was my day today and my hopes for tonight and the day ahead.FJ

Friday, November 23, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very good day today.The stores were having their after Thanksgiving sales.It was really hustling and bustling.Again,while at a shopping mall,I had a pretty tough time trying to find a parking space in the parking lot.But I managed to find one.After parking my car,I walked right into the mall and headed for an Old Navy store.They were having select clothing on sale.I simply bought a belt and a pair of slippers.After paying for them,I went to a music store and bought a copy of the Deluxe Edition of Paul McCartney's Memory Almost Full with a few bonus tracks and a bonus DVD.I managed to also make it out to that Roman Catholic shrine again to say a prayer for guidance and strength to help me with my anger issues and my sexual addictions,which are Gay pornography and masturbation to name a few.After the prayers,I felt better and felt more optimistic.I also had lunch at a Mighty Taco in my area and last but not least,I went back to the shopping mall to go to the "A Dollar" store to pick up a package of toilet tissue.I headed for home.
After I got home,I did a scan on my computer to check for viruses and spyware and my computer is clean.There was nothing in it that should not be on there.That was great.While this was going on,I had a light dinner.After dinner,I went back to the shopping mall and agaion,went back to the music store.I picked up The McCartney Years,which is a 3 DVD set of music videos and select concert performances.I also watched my DVD copy of Christmas Eve On Sesame Street after dinner because I was in the mood for it due to the weather being the way it is.It has been cold and snowy for the past few days.Though it was a little early and it isn't that close to Christmas,I watched this and it was wonderful.Again,the weather motivated me to watch this classic special and asin,it was wonderful.I am going to be watching this again soon enough.
Tomorrow starts the weekend.I am looking forward to entertaining the crowd tomorrow night.I am also looking forward to a hopeful great night.So far,the Thanksgiving holiday weekend has been going great for me.I bought some new clothes and I also bought a couple things that I really enjoy.It was a nice holiday for me and the rest of the weekend has been really grand,so far.I am hoping that the rest of the weekend goes well for me.There are only two days left,which are tomorrow and Sunday.Tomorrow is my night to entertain the crowd and Sunday is where I have nothing scheduled.But whatever I do,I am hoping that it will help me out in a positive way.
The best thing to happen tonight is that the Buffalo Sabres won tonight.They defeated the Montreal Canadians on home ice by a score of 4-2.They also defeated the Ottawa Senators on Wednesday night on home ice by the same score.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the holiday weekend.FJ

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Happy Thanksgiving Everybody!
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very good day today.As usual,I went over to my sister's house for dinner and it was great.My niece and her kids alongside her new boyfriend were there.My other sister,whose a flight attendant,was also there.I ate so much food and I was stuffed after I ate what was on my plate.I couldn't have any desert if I could.I simply cut a piece of pie and wrapped it up to take home.During the time there,my brother in-law and I talked about Crosby,Stills,Nash & Young because we were listening to a CD of their songs in the DVD Player and we started talking about their music.The CD was simply a mix of songs from CSN and CSN&Y rolled onto one CD.It was neat.My mom wanted to go home and so we left.
After we left my sister's house,my mom and I took a drive around to warm up the engine.I had a tough time trying to unlock the doors on my car due to it being very cold.The locks were frozen.But after that drive,we went home and that is where I am at right now.
I am now relaxing and taking it easy.When we got home,I simply put in my copy of Mr.Magoo's Christmas Carol in the VCR part of my VCR/DVD combo(I haven't gotten the DVD of it as of yet)and watched it because there was not much on TV when we got in.It was wonderful.I am hoping to get the DVD of it soon this year when I have some money.That way,I can preserve the VHS tape of it for collector reasons.Overall,a very good holiday.
Tomorrow is a day off for me.I will be trying to fill the gap in somehow.I am going to need the extended weekend off.I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride as of late and I am going to need it to rest off and hope to get back on an even keel.Again,I am just going to have to fill in the gap.I will also be entertaining the crowd again on Saturday night and I am hoping that this also goes well enough.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.After I finished the laundry pick-up and had lunch,I went to run a couple of errands for my mom.First,I had to pick up a couple of things at a supermarket and I also had to drop off a tax exemption application at City Hall so my mom could have some certain taxes exempt and have other taxes cut in half.After that was done,I went to a Roman Catholic shrine to pray for help.First,I prayed for myself and asked for help in dealing with my anger problems and sexual addiction and I also prayed for a friend of mine who was having some really serious issues with his ex-wife.After the prayers,I felt better and I felt that everything would be okay.I left the shrine feeling optimistic and hopeful.I will be going back on Friday afternoon to pray again.I really need the guidance and support each and every time I pray and need to feel hopeful and optimistic after doing so.Again,I will be going back again Friday afternoon.
I went to my support group meeting at the church tonight and it was wonderful.Since we are winding down,we shared our feelings about the groups not meeting anymore and how we are going to try to fill in the gaps after we go our separate ways.It is not going to be easy.When I was speaking,I was almost in tears.But the door is being closed and now,we have to move on and seek other groups.But as stated last week,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.I have a feeling that there will be another group lined up soon enough.When that happens,I will be going to that.Next week,we will be having our final meeting and than after that,we will just have to wait and see,especially me.
Tomorrow is the Thanksgiving holiday.I have the day off from work and I will be spending the day with my family.I have the entire weekend off.It will be a great five day weekend.At least,I am hoping that it will be.
That was my day today and my hopes for the upcoming holiday and accompanying weekend.FJ

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good work day today.Despite a shaky start,which involved me picking up a mess in the laundry room,the rest of the day worked out well.I simply did my job and the rest took care of itself.After I was done,I dropped off what I did after bagging it and went home.
I had to go out and pick up something that I ordered at a local music store.It was a DVD of a horror movie that I plan to watch during the Thanksgiving weekend.It is going to be a long one.It will be four days for me.I am eagerly awaiting this.I can use the four day weekend to rest up and try to overcome some of the stuff that has piled up on me emotionally.The last few weeks have been an emotional roller coaster ride for me.I am hoping that the weekend will do me a lot of good.I feel that I need this weekend to cool off and restart myself.Again,I am hoping that it will help me out a lot.
I am now at home relaxing.I am anticipating the next day.The only thing that I will be doing is a laundry pick up.But I am hoping that there will not be another mess.I can't stand cleaning up messes in the laundry room at the drug/alcohol rehab center.I hate cleaning up after people who can clean up after themselves.It is such a chore.But again,I am hoping that there will be no mess to clean.
Aside from the pick-up,I do have my support group meeting at the church tomorrow night.This will be the next to last meeting tomorrow night.After next Wednesday,there will be no more.But I have heard that there may be another group being started at another church.I will be checking to see if it is a go.I hope that it will be.I look forward to attending that group if it is a go.
As stated above,I am hoping that everything goes well tomorrow.
That was my day today and my hopes for tomorrow and the holiday weekend.FJ

Monday, November 19, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good,if not too exciting,of a day today.I woke up late today around a little bit after 1:00 p.m. today.I went to sleep late last night after coming home.I watched bits and pieces of certain movies in my DVD library until I got tired.Plus,I was also posting messages in an online forum that I am the owner of on Yahoo.It has been bustling on there over the past few days and that is great.I am glad that the forum is now seeing light.The members of the forum are really swell.It was great to communicate with them.
Today was a pretty quite day.I did not do to much.I just did some personal PC work and I also had to make some readjustments on my database,including the desktop screen saver.Somehow,while I was online,my desktop screen saver was switched to something that I did not want.I tried restarting the computer but that did not work,I just fiddled with my computer until I found out how.I simply opened up one of the programs files regarding the desktop and I fixed in in no time at all.My computer is back to the way that it should be and that is great to have it that way.Little by little,I am learning how to work on my own computer regarding programs and all of that.I am learning little by little and that is very grand.
I went to my anger management/conflict resolution group tonight and it was great.It was wonderful to hear other people and also to be heard.It is wonderful also to learn how to better manage my anger and how to react properly when a situation goes awry.One day at a time is how I am learning to manage.It makes me feel good.But still,I need to work on not saying angry things to myself when I am alone and there is nobody in the room with me.I still need to work on that.
I am now at home relaxing.I am anticipating the new day ahead.I am hoping that the day works out for the better and that everything goes as planned.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.The only disappointment that I had was that I was supposed to get together with a friend but I did not hear from him.I left him a few messages on his voice mail but he hasn't returned any phone calls that I had made over the past two days.I will leave another message for him over the next few days.I am hoping to hear from him.
Today,I did a few errands for my mom.It was just some last minute stuff that my mom needed before the holiday.They supermarket that I went to didn't have everything that she needed but I did get most of the stuff.I also had a couple slices of pizza for lunch.It was a late lunch but I needed to eat.Fortunately,we had another light dinner.
I am now at home relaxing.I am anticipating the upcoming holiday weekend.I don't have too many work days this week but whatever money that I make,it's better than nothing.It won't be much but again,it will be better than nothing.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd was a huge success.There was also a birthday party going on at the same time and a friend that I have had for a few years also came out.It was a total blast.There was plenty of audience members in the place.The guest of honor left early mainly because he wasn't feeling to well.He had gotten really depressed all of a sudden as the real festivities were getting underway.He left home not feeling well enough to celebrate and the leftover food that was originally strictly for the party guests was then open to the rest of teh people of the place.I ate at least four slices of pepperoni pizza and some penne pasta with meatballs.My friend who was there also had some as well.We were both full.I also talked with the guest of honor's sister and hoped that her brother was feeling better soon.She said simply Thanks and I also said that I hoped to see her and her friends there again one of these days.She said Thanks again and left.What a night it was.I had another blast.
Tomorrow is a day off as usual.I do have my weekly anger management/conflict resolution tomorrow night and I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
As for the rest of the night,I am thinking of going out and having a friendly drink at the place where I entertain for a bit.
That was my day today and how my night went last night and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Saturday, November 17, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty decent day today.I ran a small errand for my mom and I also did something for myself.It wasn't anything much.I simply judt did what I had to do and that was it.The day,weatherwise,was pretty cold but it was not freezing.It was mild but it felt like it was freezing just a tad.A pretty decent day.
I also had myself a late but light lunch.I had a Wendy's burger today.It was pretty good.It was something to tie me over until dinner.After I did all of this,I headed for home.
We had a light dinner.It was baked chicken with scalloped potatoes and beans.It was nice and filling.After dinner,I finished my personal computer work that I started earlier.
I am now at home relaxing.I am just getting ready for the night.I am going to be singing up a storm for the crowd.I am looking forward to this.I always look forward to singing up a storm.I am anticipating a pretty good time and I am hoping that the evening goes well.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.Still,I have a feeling that it will be a wonderful evening.But I always continue to hope for everything to go well no matter what.
As for Sunday,I am hoping to get together with a friend who I talked with last week.If it happens,I hope that it is a wonderful time.
That was my day today and my hopes for tonight and the day ahead.FJ

Friday, November 16, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty good day today.The work day went by a lot smoother than yesterday.Nobody left their work for me to finish.That was great.I simply did the work that I needed to do and that was it.After my shift was over,I simply bagged the clean laundry and dropped it off at the drug/alcohol rehab center and went to cash my paycheck.I also got a few Buffalo Sabres themed DVD's as a freebie at the bank where I cashed it.I got one for myself and a couple more for my nephews.I am going to surprise them this Christmas when I give them as gifts alongside the usual CD's that I give.After doing that,I headed for home.
When I got home,I did some personal computer work for a while before dinner.I had to register some bills at Where's George and I did some e-mail work.
While I was eating my dinner,I did a scan on my computer to check for viruses and spyware and there were two viruses in my database.They were both Trojan.Byte Verify viruses and according to the Symantic website,they were mild but were still a low risk.I had to restart my compute two times with the system recovery turned off to get rid of them.I also deleted my temporary internet files and deleted cookies at the same time.I also checked my Norton program to delete these viruses that were captured in my system and did another scan.The result from the new scan was that the viruses were successfully removed.
While the initial scan was going on,I was upstairs in my room making my mom a CD for Christmas.I was burning her vinyl copy of Christmas With Eddy Arnold onto the CD-R.I tried out by sampling some of the music track by track and it sounded pretty good.I know that my mom will be surprised when she hears this on the CD-R that I burned for her.I will be doing another one for her later on.It will be Mario Lanza singing Christmas carols.It is also on a vinyl record and I know that she will be surprised.
I am now at home relaxing.I am anticipating the weekend,which I am glad is here.I will be doing my usual entertaining the crowd on Saturday night and I am hoping that it goes well.I always look forward to singing for the crowd every Saturday night.I am hoping that the night goes well.
Earlier this evening,I went out to an A.J.Wright store in my area and I picked up a mini keychain digital camera and I can hardly wait to use it.I have to upload the program that was included with the camera when I got it.I can hardly wait to do that.I also picked up a couple of big cans of sweet potatoes so my mom can prepare them for Thanksgiving,which is next Thursday.I also have the entire holiday weekend off and that is great.I can use a break from all of the hustle and bustle from this week.It will be great.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead and the upcoming holiday weekend.FJ

Thursday, November 15, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay with a little bit of edginess.I was hoping for a great work day but that all ended when I arrived at the work and found that the person from the previous day did not finish his job.I had to finish it for him.He overloaded one of the washers and one of the dryers.This really put my schedule out of proportion.I had to finish his job before I could do anything.First,I had to separate the load in the dryer.I had to take one of the articles out and put it in the other dryer due to dampness.I had to start with only a small load due to the fact of the other washer being overloaded.When those loads were done,I had to once again separate the loads and put each separate load in the dryer.This really was not too thrilling.I mean,I try to do my job and try my best to finish it.But when somebody does not finish their job,it does put me at edge.Fortunately,I managed to get everything done in the time period that I had to do it and I also informed the supervisor's about this morning.They again said that the would look into it.After I was done,I dropped off the laundry and I also went to the post office to mail out an important letter for my mom before heading home.
After I got home,I rested for a bit and did some personal computer work.I also helped my mom get a few things for a birthday party.One of my grand-nieces and my niece alongside my brother in law were celebrating birthdays tonight so my mom went over there for a while.After I dropped my mom off at my niece's house,I went home because I did not feel too good.I had the runs twice and I had to take medicine for it.I did manage to eat dinner but I still had a gnawing pain in my stomach that lasted for a while.I am hoping to feel better before the night is over.
While my mom was over at my niece's,I spent some time home alone and caught up on some much needed stuff.It was great to have some quiet time in the house.I did not even turn on the TV during this time.I actually felt better emotionally and I am hoping that the day tomorrow is a great one.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty topsy-turvy day today.First of all,the laundry pick up went smoothly.There was no mess to clean up and that was great.I sorted out the laundry at the work site and afterwards,I went shopping for my mom to pick up some last minuet stuff before the holiday.So far,the day was going by pretty good.
But that all changed when I had an experience with an inconsiderate Canadian driver in the parking lot of a Target department store in my area.I was going straight in the parking lot when all of a sudden,he had the nerve to make a left turn while I was going straight.According to law in the area I live alone,people driving straight have the right of way in any situation,including a parking lot.An argument ensued between him and I,with him almost threatening me out loud.If it weren't for the department store security guard getting involved,it would have probably turned uglier than it was already.I simply continued to my original destination,which was the bank and I withdrew some money for my mom.
One thing,I don't mind Canadians coming here to shop.But at least they should be courteous by obeying the laws,including those pertaining to driving.Too many times when Canadians have come here to shop,they have broken driving laws and have caused accidents as a result of breaking them.Not only that,they also throw trash around everywhere when they do shop rather than use the proper receptacles to throw their trash in.I have sen trash left by them when I am driving on certain roads in my area where a shopping mall is at and I have had to swerve past where the trash was so I would not hit it and it would cause me to swerve and hit something causing damage to my vehicle.
Before I did the pick-up,I went to my insurance agent to pay the renewal fee on my auto insurance.I also had to return later in the day to pick up change because my agent's receptionists were not in the office earlier in the day.But I am glad that this has been paid and I await the next bill.
Tonight's support group meeting at the church went great.It was wonderful to let loose some more emotional baggage once again.It was great to be heard and also to hear what the other men had to say.I am also sad to say that in a couple of weeks,the meetings will no longer be there due to a lack of attendance at the meetings as of late.But I did talk with one of the men in the group,they are hoping that another group will be stared at another church and they will let me know when that starts.I am looking forward to hearing when it will start.I will be checking next week to see when it will be a go.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.I also have to help my mom with a few things tomorrow after work.I am hoping that tomorrow goes better than today.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.The work day went by smoothly but I was tired when I got in.I had an awful lot of work to do.I picked up four heaping and heavy bags of laundry today.It was a chore getting them to the car.But I managed.When I got to the work site,I sorted everything out,which took me nealy half an hour to do.I started a couple loads the minute that I was finished with that.It was an awful lot of laundry and it was a chore getting it to teh site after the pick-up.But I managed to get everything that I needed to get done accomplished.But I was tired by the end of the day.After I dropped the laundry off,I simply went home to relax.I was tired and I needed to rest.I was planning to go to the laundromat to get some of my laundry done but didn't get to that.Hopefully,I'll get that done on Thursday.
I am now at home relaxing.I am simply getting ready for bed.I am also anticipating the next day.I have to do a pick-up as usual tomorrow morning and I also have to run an errand for my mom after I am done doing that.I also have my weekly Wednesday night support group meeting at the church tomorrow night.I am hoping that all will go well tomorrow.
I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride lately.I am working on rebounding.I am hoping that things will get better as the days progress.I will be paying my car insurance renewal tomorrow.I am also hoping that my niece is careful where she parks the next time.I can not afford any hassles from the police department in any area.That would not sit well with me.I know that for a fact.
Before the evening was through,I managed to stop at a Big Lots store in my area and bought a few more CD-R's and I even went to a supermarket in teh same area and picked up the latest copy of Ebony magazine that features an interview with Michael Jackson.I hope that it is a good read.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day tomorrow.FJ

Monday, November 12, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a not too exciting of a day today.Most of the day,I was at home because my car was in the shop.It needed to have some front break work done.Initially,I dropped it off to get the front break calipers put on and to have an oil change done.But later,I received a phone call from the garage that it also needed pads and rotors and I said okay.I also promised them another $100.00 deposit when they did that.I don't owe very much to them.It is great to have a mechanic who catches something when really needed.I drove for a while and the breaks are working great.They are working better than ever.While waiting for the repairs,I was at home for much of the day.I also went back to bed when I got home.I was still sleepy and I drove the car still half drowsy but I am fortunate that nothing happened nor did I fall asleep.I got the car there and my mechanic's step-daughter drove me home.
A friend of my mom's was here for much of the afternoon.They were having a conversation and as they talked,I was on my computer doing my personal work.When two ladies talk,it's best to let them have their talk.I also spent most of teh time upstairs in my room cleaning up.A little later,some boxes containing my 45 r.p.m.singles collection toppled over and I had to pick them up and stack the back up again.I also tried to put the in a way so at least,they would not fall again.I hope that whatever I am trying to do works.
Today was a holiday.It was Veteran's Day.There was no anger management/conflict resolution meeting today due to it being that.To take it's place,I went to a Salvation Army thrift shop in my area and picked up a few more vinyl records to add to my ever growing collection.I also managed to find a Scooby Doo air popcorn popper.I thought that it looked really neat.I now have it on display on my computer desk.I think that it makes a nice conversation piece and also,I think that it looks right on my desk.The store was having a 1/2 off sale today so I felt that this would be great to have.You never know what you'll find at those thrift shops.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that day goes by well.After work,I am going to be washing some of my clothes at the laundromat.I need to get these things clean.I am hoping that this also goes as well as I hope it will.
It's hard to believe that Thanksgiving is only a week away starting this coming Thursday.I have a four day weekend coming up when that happens.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Sunday, November 11, 2007

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.I visited a friend of mine that I had not seen in quite a while.I had talked with him over the phone many times and it was always great to talk with him.But seeing him face to face was really neato.I had not seen him in quite a while and he was in a very happy mood.It was great to see him and it was also great to meet his new girlfriend.His girlfriend is a very sweet doen to earth gal.Him and I talked about a lot of things.We talked about music and we both shared some music trivia.We talked for about twenty minutes.I also showed him the DVD that I have of The Paul Lynde Halloween Special with KISS on the special.After we talked and I helped him out with something,I left.He and her had some stuff that they needed to do.
Afterwards,I went to get a few slices of pizza to help tie me over until dinner.While eating them in the parking lot of a city park,I saw a 1973 Winnebago motor home in the same lot.It was in very good condition body wise and it was hard to believe that I was seeing one.I thought that most of these disappeared after a while because I hardly ever see one.But it was neat to see one after all these years.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a bit vefore having dinner.We had a light supper and it was filling.I even talked with a friend of mine who lived in New Jersey.He is doing good.I talked with him about the emotional roller coaster that I was on this week.He assured me that I will be okay.I hope that I will be.
Tonight,I did mange to go to the place where I entertain at to have a friendly drink.When I got there,I was the only one there because there was a dart tournament going on somewhere else.It was great to talk with the bartender there and have a nice drink while talking to her.While I was talking with her,another person came in while they were on their way home from work.He stopped to also have a drink and we talked for a bit.After I finished,I bid them a fond farewell and left.I stopped for gas at a convienience store on the way home and I also stopped at an all night supermarket to pick up a few things.Overall,a pretty good day and night.
Tomorrow is a holiday.There will be no anger management/conflict resolution group meeting tomorrow due to it being a holiday.But I still have my Wednesday night support group meeting at the church to look forward to.
That was my day today and my night tonight.FJ