Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good work day today.The work shift went by well and there was not a problem and I also had no messes to clean when I did the pick up.I had a pretty good day and I went home shortly after cashing my paycheck.
I heard from that lady who is going to be setting up a support group for 12 weeks to help men in overcoming SSA.I am looking forward to that group.It will be a 12 week educational process where we will be watching videos and answering questions in the form of open verbal discussions.I am looking forward to that and I will also be meeting up with her tomorrow afternoon.I can hardly wait to meet her and talk about the whole thing that is going to be coming up soon.
After I ate a light dinner,I registered all my bills at Where's George and even caught up on some last minute e-mails.I also did a scan for viruses and spyware on my computer and the best news was that the database was clean.There were no viruses or spyware in my database.That really made me feel better.It's great to have anti-virus software to check for viruses and spyware so that you can keep your computer clean and warn you of potential threats now and then.
I am now relaxing.I am anticipating the weekend and I am hoping that the weekend is a super duper one indeed.I will be doing my usual entertaining the crowd tomorrow night and I am hoping that the night goes well.As for the rest of the weekend,I haven't made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it benefits me in a positive way.
That was my day today and my hopes for the upcoming weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.The work shift went by smoothly and there was no messes to clean up nor any other's work to finish.It was a very good day.After having my lunch,I finished off by bagging everything and going home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and really didn't do much else until I checked my mail.When I did,I saw that my new Smurfs DVD arrived.I have been waiting on this since I pre-ordered this several weeks ago.It was well worth the wait.The colors are very bright and it did bring back some positive memories.I really enjoyed watching part of this today when I got it.I can hardly wait for the next Smurfs DVD release to come out.I know that it will be as well worth the wait as it was for this one.
I also took a nap for a while.I was feeling tired and I felt that a nap would do me a world of good.I did feel better and I was now able to relax a little bit more without feeling tensed.But still,it was a pretty good day and I had some fun.
After having a light dinner,I finished my personal PC work.I felt that it was a nice way to end a pretty good day.I am now relaxing and getting ready for tomorrow.I am hoping that the work shift goes rather smoothly for me tomorrow.I would really hate it if something would go wrong for me.But it has been going good for me for a while and I am hoping that it continues to do so.
As stated,tomorrow is a work day and I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling very good.I had a very good day today.The laundry pick-up went great.There was no mess to clean up and that made me feel good.After I dropped the laundry off at the work site and sorted everything out,I had a wonderful lunch.After I ate,I went home.
I relaxed for a while after I got in.After that,I went to file my income tax return today and I am getting back some money.It is going to be awesome.I have been trying to save up some money for a long time and now with this refund,I am going to be having a pretty good chunk of change.Not only that,I may possibly be getting another refund check in May.If I don't,OH WELL!This refund will be better than nothing.But I am glad to have filed my return today because it gives me a feeling of accomplishment.
I am now relaxing.The weather outside is COLD!We just had another Winter storm end and the wind chils are in the minus single digits at the moment.We are supposed to get some warmer weather coming up this weekend.I am hoping that the warm-up will do me a lot of good.I am still having excruciating foot pain in my right leg caused by the heel spur in my right foot.I am also feeling pain in my left foot but that is not as bad as the pain in my right foot.I will be glad for the warmer weather to come here because I am tired of the bitterly COLD temps and I am also tired of this excruciating foot and leg pain in my right foot and leg.Again,I am hoping that the warmer weather comes soon.
When I got home today,I saw that the pair of shoes that I ordered came in.I even tried them on when I got them and they fit perfectly.They have a very comfortable fit and I can walk real good in them as well.I hardly felt any pain while walking in them.Still,I am going to get those arch supports because I feel that I still need them because I would like to reduce and/or eliminate the pain that I am feeling.I can hardly wait to start going back to church one of these days.It will be great to worship in a church again.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the work day tomorrow.FJ

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Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.My appointment with the medication manager over at the local hospital went great.We had a nice long talk and I also had to fill in some forms to keep the hospital updated on my medical situation.Again,it was wonderful and I had great talk.I also have a new appointment.I also learned through her that the current psychiatrist is going to retire and they really don't know who they might set me up with after he does.I'll just have to wait and see.
My anger management/conflict resolution meeting also went well tonight.It was great to hear what the other people had to say and it was also wonderful that a member of our group came back after a lengthy illness.It was a wonderful meeting and it was also wonderful to hear and be heard.I left feeling good after the meeting was over and I also bought something that my mother needed for the house.Overall,a pretty good day.
I am now relaxing.I am anticipating the work day tomorrow and I am hoping that the day goes well for me.I would hate it if something went wrong for me at work.Again,I hope that the day goes by smoothly.
We are now under a "Winter Storm Warning" starting tomorrow morning at 7:00 am.I hope that we escape the full brunt of the winter storm and that only the south towns get it.I guess that I also have to put up with more excruciating foot and leg pain again for the next few days.But Ia m hoping that this storm is just a short one and that we are back to normal in a few days.But if not,OH WELL!!I'll just have to put up with more pain again.
As stated,tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes over smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a not too eventful of a day today.I simply went and ran an errand for my mom and I also went and got something to eat.It was a couple slices of pizza and I needed to have something to tie me over until dinner.After all of that was done,I simply went home and finished my personal PC work.
I had a light dinner tonight.It was a slice of ham with scalloped potatoes and string beans.It was very good.I wasn't too hungry anyway.I have been eating light for quite a while.I guess that I would like to lose some weight.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.It was an awesome night.As I stated yesterday,a friend and I alongside his live in girlfriend were celebrating his girlfriend's birthday and it was a blast.After we sang the song Birthday by The Beatles for her last night,we had cake and it was delicious.It was a chocolate cake with lots of delicious frosting.It was aweome.As always,the crowd really liked the selections that I sang and it made me feel great.I left for home last night with a smile on my face.
I am now at home relaxing.There is really nothing much to do on a day like this.The weather was pretty nice today but we are not going to have this nice weather for too long.After today,we are going to be going back to bitterly COLD temps.I guess that I will have to put up with foot and leg pain again in my right leg once again.But I am still holding on to the hope that this weather will be going away very soon.I know that the Groundhog saw his shadow on the 2nd of this month.But I am letting the weather progress as it is going.That is the only thing that I can do.Nature does have to run it's course.
Tomorrow is my day off.I do have a couple of appointments tomorrow.My first is with the medication manager at the local hopsital and I also have my anger management/conflict resolution group meeting tomorrow night.I am hoping that both of these go well.
As for the rest of the night,I may go out and have a drink with the guys.I can't stay too long because of my appointment with the med manager tomorrow.When I get home,I'll just go to bed.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the day and the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.My mom finally got her grocery shopping done.While she was shopping,I decided to go to an area supermarket to turn in some empty bottles that had accumulated in my trunk.I only did this so there would be enough room in the trunk for the bags full of groceries.After I did that,I went to an area Wendy's to have something to eat to tie me over until dinner.It was a Jr.Bacon Cheeseburger with some fries on the side.After eating that,I went to pick my mother up and we got the groceries home.I bathed afterwards so I could be ready for tonight.
After a light dinner,I registered a few more bills at Where's George.They were simply the bottle return money and the change that I got from the food at Wendy's.I also wanted to finish up on some last minute PC work so I can be ready for tonight.
I will be doing my usual entertaining the crowd tonight.I will also be having a friend along w/ his live-in girlfriend included.It is her birthday today and we are going out to celebrate the day tonight.I am hoping that the night goes over well for all of us.Though I rarely have an off night,I still always hope.You never know what might happen.I also hope that it will be a truly Happy Birthday for his girlfriend.
I am now relaxing and getting ready for the night ahead.I just hope that everything goes okay for my friend and her.
I am still dealing with the foot and leg pain.Though it's not as bad as it was for the last couple of weeks,I am stil enduring the effects.I am hoping that pain dies down pretty soon.I am still limping but now,I am gradually losing the limp.I am hoping that I can walk normal like I used to without feeling any pain.
As for tomorrow,I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I am hoping that it will affect me in a positive way.
That was my day today and my hopes for tonight and the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.The work shift went smoothly and that was great.After I dropped the clean laundry off,I went to cash my paycheck and went home.
When I got home,I started to register some bills at Where's George but got sidetracked by a phone call.It was from a woman that I have been talking to regarding a group of people who are working to recover from unwanted SSA and are looking for ways to do that.I have been waiting and anticipating this for months.It will be starting soon.The only sacrifice that I have to make is that I have to cancel going out to my Tuesday night support group meetings at the church where I attend them.I will be breaking it to the group this coming Tuesday night and I know that it will be hard to do that because I am going to miss them.This SSA recovery group is going to be meeting at a church outside of my city and I am going to start attending it in a few weeks.I am hoping that this really works out for me.The group will be for just 12 weeks and it will cost a little bit of money but I am willing to give it a try.I have been trying to find a group where I can get help in my SSA recovery because lately I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride where I have been masturbating quite a bit.I have not done it every day or every night but I have relapsed here and there.I am going to be needing all the support that I can get.I am hoping that this will work out for me in the long run.The next thing that I need to do is to also start going back to church again after all these years.I am hoping to be doing that soon.
After I ate,I finished registering my money at Where's George and started doing a scan on my computer to see if there were any viruses and/or spyware on my computer.While the scan was going on,I went out for a while to see if I could get a pair of new shoes.I went to a Sear's in my area when I printed a page from their corporate website and decided to go to the store to see if I could purchase them there.Unfortunately,they didn't have them in stock in the store but they did specially order them for me.They are in the size that I need for my feet and I am hoping to receive them soon.The store salesclerk informed me that they should arrive in 6-8 business days.It will be a while but when I receive them,I will be trying them on.I hope that they will look nice on me and that they will fit comfortably.
While I was out,I also went to a Wal-Mart in my area to get some new sneakers.Most of the sneakers there were mostly wide and though they were the size of my feet,they were loosely due to them being wide.I bought a pair of medically based sneakers instead and they fit comfortably.When I get the arch supports for both my shoes and sneakers,I will have to take out the inlay soles in them so the arch supports can work properly on my feet and keep me alligned.I also had to pick up my prescription at a local Rite-Aid.After doing all that,I went home to charge my Tracfone because it was beeping indicating that the battery was low.
I am now at home relaxing.I am eagerly awaiting tomorrow night.I will be entertaining the crowd tomorrow night and I will also have a friend and his live in girlfriend with me as well.It will be her birthday tomorrow and we will be out celebrating.I am hoping that the night goes well for all of us.
The results of my viral scan came back with a clean report.There were no viruses and/or spyware on my computer.That made me feel better.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I am hoping that it will affect me in a positive way.
That was my day today and my hopes for the upcoming weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.The work shift went by pretty well.It weny smoothly.I also had a great lunch period.After I ate,I left work after I was done and went to do some shopping for my mom.I then went home.
I managed to finish my personal PC work when I got home.I also went out to look for some comfortable dress shoes that also would fit me.I didn't find any but I am not giving up.I am determined to find some shoes for myself.I am not going to quit until I find some.
I also had a light dinner.After that,I continued in my quest to find some proper fitting and comfortable shoes.As stated,I am not going to give up until I do.
I am still dealing with foot and leg pain.But that is slowly dying down.I am hoping that this painful experience ends soon.
I am now at home relaxing.The weather is bitterly COLD out and I want to save some energy for the next day.It is another work day tomorrow and I want to save some energy for work tomorrow.I am also hoping that the shift goes well for me.I would hate it if something would go wrong.So far,the days have been pretty good and I haven't had any anger flare-ups for a long time.That makes me feel like that I am keeping my anger problem in check and trying to keep it under control.But still,I need to keep working on it one day at a time.If I can get through one day without losing it,GOOD.There is always the next day and the day after that and so on.But right now,accoring to the people that I am around day in and day out,I am doing good and that makes me feel better.
As stated,tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.The laundry pick-up went by as smoothly as it could.I also had lunch over at the social club and after that,I went to the bank to withdraw some money for my mom.After registering the bills at Where's George,I went to my appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.
The session with my sexual abuse support counselor went great.It was wonderful to share with her what had been going on with me for the last two weeks since our last session.I told her everything that had been going on with me,including the excruciating pain that I have been experiencing lately with my right foot and leg.I also said that it is slowly dying down and with the warmer weather approaching,I am hoping to not feel any pain in my right foot and leg any longer.I also told her that I am looking forward to getting arch supports in my sneakers and shoes.I also have to get new sneakers and shoes because my current sneakers are going bad and that the shoes I now have do not fit anymore.She informed me that she hoped that I am feeling better soon and that everything works out for me.I thanked her and I left her office to complete a couple of things for myself and my mom.
I went to a local Wal-Mart and bought a Tracfone card to add some more minutes and to extend my service date for another 90 days.I also had to purchase some groceries for my mom so we could have some dinner tonight.Tonight's dinner was homemade vegetable soup.It was delicious.After that,I added the minutes and extension to my Tracfone cell phone and now,I have 90 days of service and over 120 minutes.I am glad that this has been accomplished.
I am now relaxing.I am also anticipating the day ahead.It is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well for me.After work,my mom and I are hoping to get some grocery shopping done.After that,I don't know what else needs to be done until I find out.
As stated,tomorrow is work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better but still feeling at least a moderate pain in my right foot.I had a pretty good day today.The work day went by smoothly and I also had some pretty good conversations with some of the people during the lunch period.Overall,a pretty good day.
I am still feeling pain in my right foot and leg.Right now,the pain is moiderate.It is slowly dying down.We are supposed to have warmer weather coming at the end of the week and I am hoping so because this excruciating pain that I am feeling,though it is slowly dying down,will go away when it does get warmer.The pain is becoming practically unbearable.I cam walking a litle bit better but I am still walking with a limp.Again,I am hoping that the warmer weather comes soon so the pain in my right foot and leg goes away.Though I do have a heel spur,I rarely feel pain most of the time and the only time that I really get it is when it gets really COLD and freezing.I am also still going to get arch supports for my feet so my feet will be properly aligned and I won't feel much pain anymore and if I can feel no pian,that will be even better.Again,I am looking forward to getting those supports.I also have to get a new pair of sneakers and a new pair of shoes that fit better so they will help the arch supports work better.I will be getting them,hopefully,next month.
I went to my support group meeting at the church tonight and it went wonderfully well.It was wonderful to get an awful lot more off of mu mind and to share what was going on with me over the last couple of weeks.It was wonderful to be with them again after having to miss last week.I am hoping that I will not have to miss any more meetings.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick up goes well enough.I also have a meeting with my sexual abuse support counselor tomorrow afternoon.I am hoping that the session with her goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.I really did not do too much.I simply went window shopping(so to speak)to look for a new pair of shoes.I went to a Wal-Mart in my area but they did not have the size that I was looking for.They had a little bit bigger size but it wasn't was I was looking for.I left when I didn't find what I was looking for.I did stop at another shoes store in the area but they were a little too expensive,even though they did have the size that I was looking for.Afterwards,I went home.
After I had a light dinner,I simply went and finished my personal PC work.I am now relaxing.As stated previously,I did not have a meeting with my anger management/conflict resolution support group today due to the President's Day holiday.But I will have a meeting with them next Monday.I am hoping that the meeting goes well next week.
I am now at home relaxing.I do not have too much to do tonight.I am getting ready to go to work tomorrow and I am hoping that the work day goes well.I also have my support group meeting at the church tomorrow night and I am hoping that the meeting goes well tomorrow night.Though they do go well,I still always hope.
I did go out last night to have a drink or two with the guys.There were not too many there but I had a laugh or two with the ones that were there.Better than nothing,I suppose.But I did have a good conversation with them.
That was my day today and my hopes for tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay but I am also feeling a bit edgy.I had a pretty good day today.The reason why I am feeling a bit edgy is because my right foot is still hurting me very bad.I can hardly walk on this foot without limping on it and even that hurts.I am still looking to get arch supports for my feet.I am hoping that I can get them soon.Because the pain has become quite unbearable.I am also hoping that this bad weather ends soon.We had some warmer temps today and there was some melting ice and snow for much of the day.This morning,I was hoping to start going back to church but the foot pain kept me in bed.I hate having a dreaded terrible heel spur in my right foot.It limits my ability to do things.It is especially painful when the weather gets bitterly cold.Each and every step that I take is painful.Again,I guess that I will have to get those arch supports sooner than later because I just can't take this foot pain any longer.I am also hoping that this foot pain dies down soon.I can't stand it.It is like I am walking on hot rocks barefoot.
I just got a call from a friend of mine who was supposed to go with me last night but cancelled out because his live in girlfriend was sick.Fortunately,she's feeling better and he also told me that he might have the money that he owes me tomorrow.I am hoping that he will because I am going to need it at the moment.
My night of entertaining the crowd went great.It wasn't so busy last night and there were plenty of opportunities.I got through it pretty fast and it was a blast.I tried a new song out last night and it was well received.There was also a new bartender there and she is a sweet girl.I am hoping that she stays for a while.It will be wonderful to have someone different.It was swell last night and she also liked my rendition of a classic Sinatra classic.Again,an awesome night.
I am now at home relaxing.I am thinking of going out tonight to have a drink or two with guys.I am hoping that I get to have some great conversations tonight when I go out to the place to have a drink or two.
Tomorrow is President's Day.I do not have an anger management/conflict resolution group meeting tomorrow night as a result of it being a holiday but there is always next Monday.I will still have my support group meeting at the church and I am hoping that the meeting goes well.It will be wonderful to be there with them after having to have missed it last week due to my foot pain.
That was my day today and my night last night and my hopes for the next two days ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.I really did not do too much.I simply ran an errand for my mom and I also had a quick lunch at a nearby Wendy's.It was simply a Jr.Bacon Cheeseburger w/extra pickles and it was good.I only had to run a small errand for my mom to get something to eat for tonight.After I finished with that,I went home.
After a light dinner,which was a frozen pizza with extra toppings,I once again registered some more bills at Where's George and to check up on some much needed e-mails.Overall,a pretty good day.
I am glad that the weekend is finally here.I am looking forward to entertaining the crowd tonight.I am hoping that the night goes well for me.I will also have a friend along for the ride and that will also be super.I rarely have an off night.But I still hope for things to go well for me.You never know.I am looking forward to singing tonight and having a blast.I will also have a friend along for the night and that will be really grand.Again,I am hoping that the night goes well.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I am hopibng that it will affect me in a positive manner.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.The work shift went well.There wasn't an awful lot of work for me to do.I did what I had to do under the circumstances and I dropped off the clean laundry at the rehab center.I was glad to get this out of the way and simply go home.
On the way home,I did do a little bit of shopping for my mom and I went to cash my paycheck at a nearby bank.Afterwards,I went home and I dropped off what I needed to drop off at home.Before I ate,I went to a drug store in my area to pick up my mom's prescription.I was going to get something at the local Sear's and buy a new TV antenna but it looks like that my mom fixed the old one for a while.I am going to give this a few days and then decide whether or not to buy a new antenna.
After I ate a light supper,I registered some bills at Where's George and I checked to see if I had some e-mail in my e-mail box,which I did and I took care of it.I am going to be doing a scan on my computer to check for viruses and spyware and I am hoping that there will be none.
I am now relaxing.I am glad that the weekend is finally here because I will be doing my usual entertaining the crowd tomorrow night.I am hoping that the night goes well enough for me.I always hope for things to go well for me because you never know what might happen.As for the rest of the weekend,I really don't knwo what I'll do.But whatever I do,I hope that it will affect me in a positive manner.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay but a little edgy.I had a pretty fair day today.The work shift went by well enough but I got a surprise when I was about to finish my job.Apparently,there was a meeting that most of the staff workers were attending and that meant that they were closing up shop early.I just bagged whatever laundry I had done and what was done the previous day and dropped it off at the rehab center.I also went to my insurance agent to pay my auto insurnace bill for the month of February and I went home.
The reason why I am feeling a bit edgy is that I wound up relapsing by masturbating when I was trying to take a nap.I asked for forgiveness from the creator for it and I felt better afterwards.Though I still feel guilty,I know that I will get over this pretty soon.
I also received word from the USPS site that the shipment of stuff that I sent arrived at it's destination.I feel relieved.I was glad that it left the Nashville postal station enroute to Texas.Again,I am glad that it got there and I am eagerly awaiting the return of the stuff.They are tapes that I sent out to get repaired.Again,I am eagerly awaiting the return of them once they're fixed.I am already getting the next shipment ready for next month.
For dinner,I simply had a bowl of chicken soup for dinner.It was just the thing for a day/night like this.It is cold and snowy but I am in my house relaxing and taking it easy.I do have another work day tomorrow and I am hoping that the shift goes over well.After that,it's the weekend.
I am also hoping that the pain in my right foot goes away soon.It has been really hurting me since this dreaded cold weather has started.Again,I am hoping that the pain goes away soon.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.There was no laundry to pick up today so I went and had lunch at work.It was nice.I had a tasty meatball sub with cool ranch flavored tortilla chips and a star crunch snack.It was great.Afterwards,I went home to take it easy and relax.
After a nap,I went to a supermarket to get a few cans of soup and a box of herbal tea.When I got home,my mom started heating up the soup right away we ate a few minutes later.
After that,I registered a few bills at Where's George.While trying to get online,I was having some PC issues.I had a tough time getting certain programs on my PC to work properly.I also had a tough time getting online.After three restarts,I finally got on.I registered the bills and I even checked to see and read any new e-mail that I had received.I did do a special scan on my computer last night to check for viruses and spyware and there was none of that.I guess that it was the server having some issues today and also,probably the program was just renewing and rejuvenating itself after being dormant for a while.But I managed to get what I had to done accomplished.I will be doing another scan on my computer on Friday anyway and I hope that everything is up to par.
The weather warmed up a little but it was still a little cold.I managed to shovel some snow up and I even applied some ice melt on a big chunk of ice that was on the front porch steps.I will be checking to see if I can remove the ice from the steps.I want to make sure that the steps are okay for the mailperson.I don't want the mailperson to get hurt.It's bad enough that they have to carry heavy bags of mail with them on a Monday through Saturday basis.I don't want to give them any more hardships.Again,I am hoping that I can remove the ice from the steps.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay but exausted.I had a pretty fair day today.The work day started a little rocky but wound up getting better.I also had some issues with one of the dryers in the cellar.It wasn't just the one that was not working properly.It was also with the one that was.When I opened up the dryer to take a load out,I felt but the load was still cold and wet.I had to run them in again.I felt that maybe I put a little too much in because I put in at least three laundry bags in with the load of blankets.If they are dry tomorrow when I go to check after I finish the pick-up,then the philosophy will be true.I just hate it when things do not work the way they're supposed to.But they are man-made machines and anything man made will fail once in a while.It's just a part of life.
Tonight,there is a winter storm warning in effect until tomorrow morning.Right now,the snow is coming down.There is no wind blowing but it is COLD.As a result of this,I chose to stay home rather than drive to the meeting.I did call the church and left a message that I would not be able to make it due to the storm warning and that I wasn't feeling good.I wasn't.I was having some really bad pains in my right foot.I have been having them since the really COLD weather began.I have a heel spur in my right foot and it does cause pain when I least expect it,especially during really COLD weather.I was limping for much of the day when I was trying to walk and I slipped but did not fall.I actually succeeded in restraining myself before the fall.As a result of this,I chose to stay home and rest.Plus,I chose not to drive out to the city within the county where the church was because I wanted to play it safe.I will be going next week and I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick up goes well.After that,I can sit back and take it easy for awhile.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good,.I had a pretty good day today.I made it to the post office to get some stuff that I needed to send out right away and I am sending them out by 3 day Priority Mail.I am hoping that the stuff gets there soon.I also had to run an errand for my mom today and even that went well.I also withdrew some money for my mom and I went home.
I had a light dinner tonight and I started my personal PC work.I finished it just now because I had to go to a meeting.I also got a phone call from a friend that I had been concerned about.He's doing good and I am glad.
My anger management/conflict resolution support group went great.It was wonderful to talk and get feedback and it was also wonderful to listne to what the others had to say.Next week,there will be no meeting due to it being President's Day.I will just have to take it easy next week.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes over well.I also have my weekly support group meeting at the church.I am hoping that this meeting also goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.I had a couple slices of pizza for lunch and I also managed to get an errand done for my mom as well.She wanted me to get a couple canisters of salt to pour on the way to get the ice melted.I also managed to get a another thing doen today for myself.Not too shabby.Despite the high winds and bitter COLD,I had a good day.I got some stuff done and it gave me a feeling of accomplishment.
When I was leaving,I slipped and fell on the sidewalk next to the house but I didn't get too badly hurt.It was just a little painful but I am okay.Again,I did get a lot done and once again,that gave me a feeling of accomplishment.
Last night,my night of singing went great.It was fun and I gots lots of compliments for what I did.I even tried out a new song and according to the crowd,I did that song great.It was the first time that I was trying out that particular song.I had a wonderful night and I also had a friend with me and his girlfriend along for the whole shindig and that was terrific.I left that night with a warm feeling and that made me feel good.
I am now at home relaxing.I may or may not go out tonight for a bit.If I do,I will just have a drink or two with the guys and then go home.I have not decided which movie I may watch but whatever I watch,I hope that it will keep me entertained.
Tomorrow is my day off.I have my anger management/conflict resolution support group meeting tomorrow night and I hope that the meeting goes wonderfully well.
That was my day today and my night last night,alongside my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.I finally managed to get my haircut.After nearly two months of not being able to keep my hair in place,I finally got it done.It was great.After that,I went to a supermarket in my area to pick up a couple bags of frozen mixed vegetables.Before that,I went to a Home Depot in my area to pick up some ice melting stuff.I then went home.
After bathing when I got home,I took a bath to get cleaned up for tonight.After my bath,I had dinner,which was leftover homemade lasagna.It was good.After a brief talk with a friend,I went and did my computer work and despite an issue,I managed to get it done.Also,last night,I did another scan on my computer and there were no viruses in my database.The software successfully got rid of the virus.I feel better about that.
I am looking forward to tonight.I will be singing up a storm tonight.I am hoping that the night goes well for me.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know.But I have a feeling that everything is going to go well.
As for Sunday,I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it affects me in a positive manner.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good work day today.The shift went by smoothly and I also had a nice lunch.After I did my job,I did my usual dropping off the clean laundry and went home.
On the way,I did go to the bank to cash my paycheck and I also ran an errand for my mom.Not too bad of a day.
After a light dinner,I registered some bills on the Where's George site and I also managed to finish my personal PC work.After that,I did a scan on my computer for viruses and spyware and there was one in my database.It was a Trojan Horse type virus called Trojan.Jakposh and I had to remove it.Fortunately,my anti-virus software contained it so I could easily delete it and then restart my computer with the system recovery off.I will be doing another scan in a minute after I finish this post to see if it got rid of it successfully.While that is going,I will bathe and watch a movie.
I am glad that the weekend is finally here.I am looking forward to tomorrow night because I will be singing up a storm.I have not decided what songs that I am going to do but whatever I do,I hope that the night goes well for me.As for the rest of the weekend,I have no plans but I hope that whatever I do,I hope that it will benefit me in a positive way.
I am now relaxing and anticipating the weekend.I am hoping that the weekend goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay but a little drained and tired.I had a pretty fair day today.I learned that one of the dryers at work was not working right.It wasn't drying like it should.I learned this today when I was trying to get a load of linens dry.I simply had to switch the dryers.I had to get the linens dry.Now,we are down to only one dryer and using only one washer until the other dryer can be repaired,which I hope will be soon.I hate it that we have only one dryer to work with.For most of the past two weeks,I thought that it was just because the normal Monday and Wednesday afternoon worker wasn't doing his job right.Now,I see that I was wrong to judge the man and I am hoping that I will be forgiven for what I did.It was wrong for me to judge the man.Again,I am hoping for forgiveness and I am hoping that the dryer gets fixed soon.Again,I hate it that only one dryer is working.
I also relapsed again.I masturbated while trying to take a nap this afternoon.I did ask for forgiveness and the roots of that relapse was that I judged another man and I was wrong in my judgement.Again,I am hoping that I can be forgiven and that I can feel better.
As for the rest of the night,I am hoping that I can get some sleep.I did manage to get an almost full night but I did lack a couple of hours.I am hoping to get a full night of sleep.I have been drained and feeling tired as of late due to all the stress of my job and feeling frustrated because of the dryer complications and all the loads that were not getting dry due to the problems and the other co-workers lack of not fulfilling their responsibilities in informing the job coaches and other staff about the dryer not working the way it should.I am hoping that this dryer situation can be resolved soon and we can have two working dryers again.
Tomorrow is simply a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.The laundry pick up went as smoothly as planned.There was no mess to clean up and that made me feel pretty good.After I dropped the laundry off and sorted it out,I had lunch at the social club with the rest of the members and I left to run a couple of errands for my mom.
I had to stop at a supermarket in the area to pick up a box of frozen chopped spinach and I also mailed out an important letter for my mom.But on the way home,I realized that I forgot to mail out a post card for my mom.Fortunately,I saw a mail carrier close to home and I asked if she could take it for me.She did and I thanked her.
When I got home,I had to get ready for my appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.I was hoping to get my personal e-mail work finished before going there but my PC was giving me issues during that time.So,I went to my session and it went wonderfully well.My counselor and I talked for a while and it was a wonderful talk.I did get a few compliments on my progress in controlling my anger and keeping my temper in check.
I think that going to those anger management/conflict resolution support group meetings are helping me out a lot.I am feeling more confident that I can better manage and control my anger rather than it controlling me.But still,I have to take this as a One Day At A Time thing.If I can get by without losing my temper or getting angry,Great.But there is always the next day and the day after that and so on.I still need to work on this day to day and hope for the best.I think that finally I am being listned to and being heard by a group.It is wonderful.Still,I need to continue working on this One Day At A Time.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good but again,a little exausted.I had a pretty bad day today.When I got to the work site,I found that there were still loads of laundry in the dryers.That really was no big deal until I felt them.Apparently,the guy who did them the previous day forgot to turn on the dryers because they were still pretty wet.I had to run them through the dryers again while doing a couple of laundry loads in the washers.But I had to run them again because they still were not drying the laundry.I had to continue drying them until they got dry.It took three tries but I finally got them dry.This really offset my schedule.I was hoping to do my usual but I wound up finishing someone else's job once again.I can't believe that this guy still continues to work while slacking.I know that if I did something like that,I would get a schalacking like I wouldn't believe.I try to do a good job but I wind up finishing off what another guy didn't finish.But I just went with it and I managed to get only a little bit done.After that,I bagged the clean laundry and dropped it off at the drug/alcohol rehab center before heading for home.
When I got home,I had to leave again to run an errand for my mom.It was something personal that I had to complete and I also had to do something for myself.I picked up the new DVD release of the classic TV show Perfect Strangers at a local Target.My mom and I watched the pilot episode and it was wonderful to see that.For dinner,when we watched the pilot,we each had two Whopper Juniors and two French Fries from Burger King.It was pretty good.
My support group meeting at the church tonight went wonderfully well.It was awesome to share some more stuff at the meeting tonight.I learned that I had a few more things in common with the men in the group.It was great to learn that and it was also wonderful to hear and be heard.I am looking forward to next Tuesday's meeting and I am hoping that it will be as wonderful as tonight's.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well tomorrow.After that,in the afternoon,I have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.I am hoping that the session goes well for me.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good but a little exausted.I had a pretty hectic day today.I had to rush some stuff out today at the post office.Most of what I had to rush out was my mom's.But I also had a few things of my own to rush out.They were simply a couple of bills that I had to pay.Plus,I had to rush out a money order for some stuff that I had bought off of Ebay when I won an auction early Friday morning.After I had finally gotten them out,I had to rush to the bank to withdraw some money.Fortunately,I managed to get to the bank on time to withdraw the money.After that,I went to a supermarket to pick up a few things there for my mom.I had done it all within one hour.After that,I had a light dinner before I went to my anger management/conflict resolution support group.
The meeting tonight went well.It was wonderful that I had a chance to share what I had to share tonight.I did share what went on during my day today and all the rushing that I had to do to get everything done.That was wonderful.The meeting went well and I feel pretty good that it did.I am looking forward to next Monday's meeting.
I also managed to receive a movie that I had been waiting on since I ordered it on Friday.I had the people that I ordered it from ship it via Priority Mail.I received it today.The movie is called Champions Forever:The Formula One Drivers(a.k.a.One By One & The Quick and the Dead) ,which is a documentary film about the 1973 American Grand Prix race.It is narrated by Stacy Keach.I did try it out when I got it and it works beautifully.I can hardly wait to watch the movie during the week.It will be the first time that I have watched this film in nearly 20 years.I am hoping that it is as good as I remembered it when I did initially watch it back in 1979 on HBO.Again,I am hoping to watch it this week.
I am now relaxing.I am hoping to sleep well tonight because I had a pretty hectic day.But at least I got it all done.That gives me a feeling of accomplishment.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by well.I also have ny support group at the church meeting tomorrow night.I am hoping that the meeting goes wonderfully.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.I ran mostly errands for my mom today and I also had to do something for myself.It was nothing too special.The stuff that I had to get for my mom were a few things that she needed.I also had to buy some important personal things for myself.I also managed to get a few slices of pepperoni pizza for myself,which I will heat up for lunch tomorrow afternoon.
When I got home,I had a light dinner and relaxed for a bit.While I was relaxing,my mom and I watched The Beatles movie HELP! during most of the Superbowl.We also watched an episode of the classic animated show Mission:Magic.My mom,at the moment,is watching one of her favorite shows.I am just relaxing and sharing what went on during my day.It wasn't too eventful of a day but I did get what I needed to get done accomplished.
Last night,I only managed to sing only a couple of songs.The night at the place was very busy and there were quite a few singers there last night that put their slips up.But I did manage to share in a couple of other songs last night.I did back-up on one song and a friend and I sang on another as a duet.But still,I was a little disappointed.I am hoping to maybe do a couple more tonight when I go out.If not,OH WELL!I'll be content with having a drink or two.
Tomorrow is my day off.I do have my anger management/conflict resolution support group meeting tomorrow night and I am hoping that the meeting goes well.I am hoping that the day goes by well.
That was my day today,my night last night and my hopes for the rest of the night.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.But I am also feeling hopeful and optimistic.I am only feeling this way because the weekend is here.Tonight is the night that I will be singing as I do every Saturday night.
For most of the day,I stayed home.I did not have too much to do.After I awoke this morning,I had a bowl of cereal for breakfast and I started to do my personal PC work.But I couldn't finish it all at once.After doing at least 2/3's of it,I shut the computer down and started to get cleaned up.
I only went to one place earlier this evening.I went to a newly opened Wendy's that was in the area that I am living.It just opened up not too long ago and I felt like having a Jr.Bacon Cheeseburger.I was also feeling a little hungry and I wanted to have something to tie me over until dinner.After having that,I headed back for home.
Before I ate dinner,I took a bath to finish cleaning myself up.I washed my hair earlier and I wanted to be clean before going out tonight.After my bath,I ate a light dinner and I finished my personal PC work.
I am now relaxing.I am anticipating the night tonight.I am hoping that the night goes well for me.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.But I have a feeling that everything is going to go great for me.But I always still hope.You never know.I will also be having a friend along with me on the ride there tonight.I am hoping that the night goes well and that it makes me look forward to the next week.
As for tomorrow,I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I am hoping that it will benefit me in a positive manner.
That was my day today and my hopes for tonight and the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth work shift today.But it was cut short due to the current weather situation that we are having at the moment.
The weather has been a mixed bag today.We started off with freezing rain and it changed to all rain before becoming snow.When they let me go early,I was a little disappointed but I understood that it was for the workers personal safety and they didn't want to take any chances.After I did what I had to do,I simply bagged everything and dropped it off at the drug/alcohol rehab center and headed for home.While on the way,I picked up a box of frozen fish at a nearby supermarket for dinner.
When I got home,I stayed home due to the weather.I had no place to go anyway and I decided to take it easy.After I had a light dinner,I registered some more bills at Where's George and I also finished my personal PC work.I also did a scan for viruses and spyware and my computer was clean.There were no security risks at all.That made me feel good.I am glad to have the anti virus software working for me and that it is doing a great job in keeping unwelcome threats out of my database.
I am now relaxing.I am hoping that this winter weather situation is over soon.I can't stand this constant weather pattern where it is all topsy-turvy and seemingly,the atmosphere can't seem to make up it's mind.But again,I am hoping that it's over soon.
The weekend is finally here.I am looking forward to entertaing the crowd tomorrow night and i am hoping that it goes well.As for the rest of the time,I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I am hoping that it will help me in a positive manner.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth work shift today.I picked up some more laundry and went to the work site to do the work.It went by pretty well as planned.After I did my work,I simply bagged what was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center and went home.On the way,I picked up a prescription for my mom at a local drug store and took it home.
When I got home,I simply went to bed to take a little nap because I was feeling a little tired.It was wonderful to sleep for about an hour and a half.
After a light dinner,I finished my personal PC work.It wasn't easy due to my computer having some issues.My computer,while I was on the internet,kept giving me a "Not Responding" type of problem.Fortunately,I will be shutting down after I am finished here and I can finish what I have to get finished.I have to run an errand for my mom after I am done here and I would like to get it dione before she brings it up again.I have more than enough stress in my life already and I really don't need anymore.Again,I am going to get it done after I am finished here so I can take it easy for the rest of the night.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes by smoothly.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good despite the weather situation outside.I had a very stressful day today mainly due to the weather.The weather was very windy with winds gusting over 60 miles an hour.When I arrived at the drug/alcohol rehab center to do the pick-up,my sunglasses blew off my face and I ran to get them but the wind made me slip on an icy patch where my car was blocked.I was hurt only a little but I did manage to pick my sunglasses up and put them in my car so I wouldn't lose them again.After that,I went inside to get the laundry bags.
When I got out with the first two bags,my hat was blown off my head by the high winds and I had to jump over a frozen grassy hill to get it back.Fortunately,I didn't slip this time and I managed to get my hat back without the property owner catching me in the act of coming onto his property.I then put my hat in the car so I wouldn't lose it again.After that,I went and got two more filled bags.Everything was almost going as well as planned until I tried to close my passenger side rear door.It wouldn't close.The cold weather overnight must've made the door freeze and that is why I couldn't close it.It was giving me a hard time to say the least.But I managed to fix the problem myself by holding the door closed for about 5 minutes with the door locked.When I managed to get that fixed,I drove to the work site to drop the dirth laundry off.
The drop-off went well without a hitch.I simply dropped the bags into the cellar and walked down the stairs to sort it all out.That also went well without a hitch.I also had a light lunch with a few of the people at the social club.I also helped out someone I knew by dropping them off at a bank before resuming what I had to do.I simply went to pick up some important papers for my mom regarding the house we live in and headed for the post office.I had to send out a money order to someone in Buffalo.
When I got to the post office,I got out of my car and the wind blew my hat off my head again.I chased after it while trying to avoid the oncoming cars behind me.I succeeded in retrieving it again and I put it in my car so it wouldn't blow away again.After I purchased the money order and sent it out,I got back into my car and headed for home.On the way,I stopped at a Dollar General store to pick up a small tube of toothpaste because I was running out of toothpaste.That small tube will do nicely until I get a really big tube next month.
When I got home,I decided that I wasn't going to go anywhere today due to the wickedly windy weather.I stayed home for the rest of the day and I decided to relax and take it easy.The day,though stressful and exciting,was actually not too bad.I managed to get a lot done and I had a feeling of accomplishment as a result.
I even managed to finish my personal PC work as well.I also watched one of the videos that I received on Monday.It was The Great Space Coaster Supershow video and it was awesome.I used to watch this show when I was younger.It was an awesome show.It was knee slapping fall down hilarious.This show brought back some pleasant memories.The best thing about it is that it took my mind off the windy weather that was outside,which was a treat.Overall,it was a nice way to end a pretty hectic day.
I am now relaxing.I am anticipating the new day,which will be a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes by smoothly.After the hectic day that I had today,I am going to need another smooth work day to make me feel better.I actually feel pretty good because I did enjoy watching that Great Space Coaster video but I will still need a smooth work day to get me back into a better mood for working again.
As stated,tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes by pretty well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

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Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I did not have a very eventful day today.I did manage to get a couple of important things done.I had to go to a drug store to pick up a prescription refill and I also went to get some gas in my tank.After that,I went back home.
When I checked my mail today,I was thrilled to finally receive the videos that I have been waiting on.I bought these off an Ebay seller about a couple weeks ago.I finally received them today.I was glad to do so.One of them was The Great Space Show Supershow on VHS.I used to watch this show when I was younger and I am now glad to finally have this rare hard to find video of the show.This was an awesome show.I miss it and now,I have the supershow video tape in my video library.I am happy to finally have this.
After I had a late dinner,I finished my computer work.I also had to rush because I was in a hurry.I had my anger management/conflict resolution group meeting and I wanted to attend.So,after rushing through my work,I shut down my computer and went to the meeting.
The meeting was wonderful.There were only 4 people that and we called it a night after 1/2 an hour.On the way home,I stopped at a Family Dollar store in the area where the meeting was and picked up a few things that my mom needed.I went home afterwards.
I am now at home relaxing.I am getting ready for the work day today.I am hoping that the work day goes by smoothly.I am hoping that the whole day goes by smoothly.I wouldhate it if something went wrong.But I am hoping that everything goes great.
As stated,tomorrow is work day.I am hoping that the day goes smmothly.Tomorrow night is also my weekly support group meeting at the church,which I also hope goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a not too eventful of a day today.I simply did a few things for myself.I had a couple slices of pizza for lunch.I also went and did a little shopping.It was nothing special.I simply bought another DVDE.The Dvd was Tom and Jerry's Greatest Chases.I loved Tom and Jerry when I was a kid and I still do.They had this DVD at Target for only $5.50.I bought it and went home.
When I got home,I tried the DVD out in my DVD player and it works great.It is very colorful.Plus,there was closed captioning for the hearing impaired.It is really neat.
I also had a light dinner.It was simply cheese and spinach rolled into lasagna with breaded chicken breast covered in tomato sauce.It was really great.After dinner,I registered a few more bills at Where's George,which was the change that I got when I bought the DVD.I have a few more dollars at the moment and it is wonderful.
I also had a talk with a lady who is hoping to start a group for people who are struggling with SSA.I told her about an experience that I had last week regarding a woman who claimed to be a lesbian and even the bartender,who was also a female,claimed to be bisexual.This really surprised me.This happened at the place where I entertain and I was there to enjoy a drink or two when this was happening.I could not believe this.These women were making a hullabaloo over lesbianism and making it look so cool.This didn't rub me the right way.After I finished my drink,I simply left to go home and just tried to get it out of my system.After talking with that lady hoping to start the group,I felt better.It was a relief to talk with someone who understands what you're trying to accomplish and what you're trying to escape from and overcome.It was wonderful to talk with that lady over the phone.
I am now relaxing.The day wasn't too eventful but it was nice to get out.The weather warmed up pretty much and there was no more snow falling.It was a nice afternoon.
As for the rest of the night.I might go out and have a couple of drinks at teh place again.I am just hoping that the experience that happened last week does not happen tonight.
Tomorrow is my anger management/conflict resolution group meeting.I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the night and the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.For the first part of the day,I ran an errand for my mom and I went to the store to turn in some bottles that had accumulated in my trunk and in my car.It came out to $17.00.Afterwards,I went home to drop off the stuff that my mom had me buy her and I bathed.I had to get cleaned up because I am going out to entertain the crowd tonight.I am hoping that the night goes well.
After my bath,I went to a KFC in my area to pick up dinner for me and my mom.It was just a few pieces of fried chicken and a couple of side dishes.It was pretty good and it was very filling.
I have just gotten done registering some more money at Where's George.Most of it was from the bottles and cans that I had in my car.I now have some additional money for tonight and I also have some money for a money order that I need to get for a diskette with a picture of me on it.It is a picture of me meeting Butch Patrick from The Munsters.That I am going to remember forever.
I am now at home relaxing.I am just glad that I am going to be entertaining the crowd tonight.I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.Though I rarely have an off night singing up a storm,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.But I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.I have a feeling that everything is going to work out fine.But I still hope,which I feel there is nothing wrong with.
As for tomorrow,I have not made any plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it affects me in a positive manner.
That was my day today and my hopes for tonight and the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay but a little tired.I had a pretty smooth work day today.After I had a great lunch period,I started to do my job.It wasn't an awful lot.It was just a couple bags full.I simply did a little and I saved some for the Monday people.After I finished,I simply dropped off the clean laundry and headed for home.
When I got home,I dropped off some personal stuff and I went back out.I had to put some gas in my tank and cash a couple of checks.One for my mom and my paycheck.After that,I went home and had a light dinner.After that,I went online after a few hassles with the computer to register the bills at Where's George.After I had done that,I did some e-mail checking and did a virus scan on my computer to check for viruses,spyware or other risks.While that was going on,I laid down on my bed to listen to some music.I popped in a few of my old 8-Tracks and relaxed.I also read a book while relaxing.I also managed to have a talk with a friend of mine over the phone and I periodically checked on my computer to see if the scan was completed.When it was completed,I was relieved that there was no viruses or spyware on my computer.I simply clicked finish and started to catch up on some more computer work.
I am now relaxing.I am glad that the weekend is finally here.I can hardly wait to go out tomorrow night to entertain the crowd.It is something that I always look forward to.I am hoping that the night goes well for me.I rarely have an off night,but I still hope for things to go well.But I am feeling optimistic.I have a feeling that the night will work out well.
As for the entire weekend,I know that I will be entertaining the crowd tomorrow but as for Sunday,I have not really made any plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it will affect me in a positive manner.
That was my day today and my hopes for the upcoming weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth work shift today.Plus,lunch time was fun.I had some pretty good talks with a few of the people at the social club today while eating my lunch.When I finished,I simply went back to the basement to finish what I started.I simply bagged the clean laundry and dropped it off at the drug/alcohol rehab center and headed for home.
While on the way home,I stopped at a nearby supermarket to pick up a few more things.It was nothing much.It was simply a couple of food items that my mom needed.
When I did get home,I took it easy for a while by lying down on my bed.I was a little tired and I thought that if I laid down,I'd feel better.I didn't sleep but I did lay down to read and listen to a little bit of music.While I was laying down,I almost gave into temptation.My mind was all of a suddenly clouded by the old images and thought patterns from my past.I was playing with myself but I did stop it.Fortunately,it did not lead to masturbation.But I had to stop myself before it did.I do not want to masturbate.I want to stop this.I am hoping that I can.
I am now relaxing.I am also anticipating the next day.I am hoping that the day goes by well.
Regarding this afternoon,the package from Canada that I was expecting did not come as of yet.If I do not get it by tomorrow.I am going to have to e-mail the guy and see what the problem could be.But I am hoping that I receive it tomorrow.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes by well.After that,it is the weekend.I am hoping that the weekend will go well.
That was my day today and my hopes for tomorrow and the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.The pick-up today went by pretty weel as there was no mess to clean up.That made me feel pretty good.After I had lunch,I sorted out everything and went home.'
On the way home,I went to a nearby supermarket to pick up something for my mom and I also wanted to get prepared for my appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor this afternoon.
After I got home,I finished the vast majority of my computer work and I also waited for the mail to come.I am still eagerly awaiting a package that I am getting from Canada.It still has not shown up yet.But the Buffalo Sabres calendar that I was eagerly awaiting on came in.I checked it out before taking it upstairs to my room and it is a very wonderful and colorful calendar.I can hardly wait to hang this up on my wall in my room.I am hoping that the package from Canada comes soon.It has been a little over a week.I know that Monday was a holiday and that probably played a role in why it hasn't arrived yet.But I am still being patient and I am hoping that it gets here soon.
My session with my sexual abuse support counselor went great.We talked about a lot of things,especially what I am trying to work on and where I'm improving and where I need improvement.My next appointment is in 2 weeks and I am hoping that this goes well,too.On the way home from that,I also stopped at a couple of stores to pick up a couple of things.
I am now relaxing.I am anticipating tomorrow.I will be working tomorrow and I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly.It is the morning shift and I am hoping that everything goes as well as I hope it will.
As stated,tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.The work went by smoothly and I also mangaged to get a few things done.During my lunch hour,I went to a supermarket not too far away from my work place and picked up a couple of things for my mom and after I got done with my job,I simply dropped off the laundry and went home.
When I got home,my day was not done yet.I still had to run another errand for my mom.I had to drop off something at one of my mom's friends.It wasn't easy driving today due to there being a snow storm.It was blowing and drifting snow everywhere.I also had to be extra careful while I was driving because the roads were pretty treacherous even with a little bit of snow on them,mainly because I had to be careful for any slick spots that might've been on the road underneath the snow.As a result of the weather,I chose not to go to my weekly support group meeting at the church as a safety precaution because there was a winter weather advisory in effect for the area of Western New York that I am living in.But I will go next Tuesday night when the weather will,hopefully,be better.
When I got home from completing the second errand,I brought the garbage out for the garbage collectors and I had a light dinner.After that,I finished my personal computer work and now,I feel that my day is complete.
I am now relaxing and getting ready for tomorrow.Tomorrow is simply a pick up day and I am hoping that the pick up goes well without having any mess to clean up.As far as the rest of the day tomorrow,I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I am hoping that it will affect me in a positive manner.
I also relapsed again.I masturbated later this afternoon.It made me feel miserable but after asking the creator for forgiveness,I felt better.This just means that I have to start over from square one.
As stated,tomorrow is simply a pick up day.I am hoping that the day goes over well enough.I also have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor tomorrow afternoon.I hope that the session goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a not too eventful of a day today.I simply ran a couple of errands today.One for my mom and one for myself.I had to buy a couple of things for my mom and something for myself.Afterwards,I went to Burger King to have a Whopper Jr.to tie me over until dinner,which was a light dinner of pea soup and garlic toast covered with melted cheese.It was really neat.
After dinner,I finished my personal PC work and I am now relaxing.I am anticipating the day tomorrow.Tomorrow will be a work day for me and I am getting ready for it.I am hoping that there will be a lot for me to pick up in order to keep me busy for a while and hopefully,have some for the rest of the crew for the remainder of the week.I would hate it if there was nothing for me or the rest to do.
At the moment,I am getting ready and looking forward to watching Terminator:The Sarah Connor Chronicles tonight at 9:00pm.I am hoping that tonights episode will be as thrilling as last week's 2 part premiere.So far,it's pretty good.I like this and I am hoping that there will be more if and/or when this stupid writer's strike ends.I am already getting sick of hearing so much about it and I am hoping that this stupid strike is over soon.But again,I am still looking forward to tonight's episode of that Terminator show.As stated,I am hoping that it is as thrilling as the 2 part premeire.
As stated,tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that there is a lot for me to pick up and I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very good day today.I was out and about the town today.I had some places that I had to go.First,I went to a gas station to get some gas and I went to a local supermarket to pick up a couple packs of shredded pizza cheese.After those things,I bought a couple slices of pizza for lunch and I went to K-Mart to exchange a bottle of Melatonin that I biought yesterday.I bought the wrong bottle and I went to return it to get another kind.I also managed to buy myself a new calendar while at K-Mart.Though the weather was cold and really windy,I didn't let it get me down.Not only that,I also failed in getting what I really wanted to get,which was a Buffalo Sabres calendar.But when I got home and went online,I found that a seller on Ebay that had a brand new Buffalo Sabres calendar was up for sale.I bought it right away.It was a seller out of Buffalo.I know that it won't be mailed out until Tuesday due to Monday being a holiday,I will be eagerly awaiting it.Overal,a very good day.
When I did get home,I had pizza for dinner.It was simply a frozen pizza with all the trimmings added on before heating it up,which were mushrooms,black olives and extra cheese and pepperoni.It was great.It also tasted very good.After dinner,I finished my personal computer work and as stated above,I bought the calendar.Again,I am eagerly awaiting this and I am hoping to have it on my wall soon.
My night of entertaining the crowd went great.It was a wonderful night and the crowd actually enjoyed the songs that I selected and it really made me feel great.I am looking forward to next Saturday night.I am hoping that it will be as wonderful as last night.
I am now relaxing.The weather is now calm.The winds have died down and it looks like that it will not be windy tonight.Regarding what I might do before the night is through,I might go out and have a drink or two with a few of the guys at the place where I entertain and I am hoping to have some pretty good conversations with the guys who I hope will be there when I get there.
Tomorrow is a holiday,There will be no anger management/conflict resolution group tomorrow night as a result of the holiday.But I will still have my support group meeting at the church on Tuesday night.
Earlier this morning,I relapsed by masturbating.Yes I did.Though I felt miserable,I did ask the creator for forgiveness and I felt better.The day that I had today actually made me forget all about the relapse.I am hoping that I can truly beat this habit and successfully overcome it.
That was my day today,my night last night and my hopes for the rest of the night and the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.My mom went shopping because my grand newphew turned 5 today and she wanted to get him something for his birthday.After I let her go at a Target in the area that I live,I went to get a couple of things for her.After that,I managed to drop in on here at Target when she was all done and I brought her home so she could wrap the gifts up.I dropped her off at my niece's house and I went to get a couple of things for myself.After getting them,I went over to my niece's house to have some spaghetti with the gang and a little bit of ice cream.I also managed to take a slice of the birthday cake home with me so I could eat it later.I then went home.Overall,a pretty good day.
The weekend is finally here.Tonight is the night that I am going out to entertain the crowd with my singing and to just be around the people.It is always wonderful.I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.Though I rarely have an off night,I always still hope for things for things to go well.You never know what might happen.Still,I have a feeling that everything is going to work out for me.I also have a feeling that the evening is going to be wonderful.But I always still hope.
Regarding tomorrow,I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I am hoping that it will benefit me in a positive manner.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth work day today.After having my lunch,I went right to work and it went great.There wasn't an awful lot for me to do.I simply did the work that I had to do and drop it off at the center.Afterwards,I went to a supermarket in the area where I worked and went home.
After I got home,I had a light dinner and I registered some more bills at the Where's George site and while I relaxed for a bit after dinner,I did a virus scan to see if there was anything in my database that wasn't supposed to be here.Since the scan was going to be awhile,I decided to lay down upstairs in my room on my bed and listen to some music.I popped in some 8-Tracks and listened to them for a while while relaxing.
After several hours,I checked my computer and the scan came back with a good news report.My computer is clean with no viruses or spyware in my database.That was a relief to me.Last week,there was a virus and even a little bit of spyware on my computer but I got rid of it.I felt better knowing that my computer had nothing wrong with it and that there was no threat(s)to my security as far as my computer goes.That is great.
I am now relaxing.The weekend is almost here.I can hardly wait to entertain the crowd tomorrow night at the place where I sing and I am hoping that the night goes well for me.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know.But I have a feeling that things are going to work out pretty good.
As for the rest of the night,I am just going to stay home and watch a movie.I have not decided what movie I am going to watch but whatever I watch,I am hoping that it is a good movie that I will really enjoy and recommend to people that I know.
That was my day today and my hopes for the upcoming weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.The work shift went by smoothly and I simply bagged everything after I was finished and dropped it all off at the drug/alcohol rehab center and went home.I also had a light lunch before going home.It was a pretty smooth work day and I felt better that it was smooth.I still felt a little hungry,so I stopped at a Burger King in my area and had a Whopper Jr.while I was on my way home.It was pretty good.
After I got home,I took it easy for a while before my mom and I did the grocery shopping.I still felt a little tired.Though the work day went by smoothly,I did take some stuff from a member of the social club next door.But I did not let it get the better of me.I simply paid more attention to the work that I was doing by looking up at the clock to check the time.When it was time for me to get back to the basement,I simply went there to start two more loads of laundry after two that I had started when I got there were done.
My mom and I finally got the grocery shopping done.We wanted to get this done because we are supposed to get a really bad winter storm over the weekend.My mom and I are hoping that it will really not be as bad as it is predicted to be,but we are preparing ahead of time just in case.You never know.Afterwards,while my mom was heating up a couple cans of soup for us,I went to Wendy's to pick up a couple more Jr.Bacon Cheeseburgers to have with our soup.It was really neat.
I am now at home relaxing.I am anticipating the next day.I am hoping that the shift that I am working tomorrow will go well.I am also hoping that nothing negative happens tomorrow like today.But even if it does,I will not let it get to me.
As stated,tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty smooth day today.The laundry pick-up went great.There was no mess to clean and there was no problem getting it to the work site and sorting it out.Afterwards,I had a light lunch and went home.
When I got home,my mom was getting ready to do some more grocery shopping before the week is out.But I was feeling tired and I wanted to lay down for a while first,which she let me do.We were going to do the shopping when I woke up.I only felt tired because I had a difficult time trying to get to sleep.I was waiting much of the night for my computer to get done with an emergency scan to see if there was anything in the system that should not have been there because my security center icon was flashing a warning that there was 1 item affecting my security status and that it was mandatory that an emergency scan be performed.The results were negative after the scan,meaning that there were no viruses or spyware in my system.Basically,this was a typical false alarm and after I restarted my computer to straighten everything out after the scan came up negative,I shut down and went to bed.I still felt a little anxious over what had happened but I also felt relieved that it was a false alarm.
My mom and I did not get the grocery shopping done because my brother in-law came over to talk while I was taking my nap.So as a result of this,we did not get any grocery shopping done.For dinner,we had a bowl of Progresso Hearty Tomato soup with a Jr.Bacon Cheeseburger from Wendy's for each of us.It was great.Before I went to get the sandwiches from Wendy's,I went to my mechanic's garage to pay off the remainder of what I had owed him for the brake work and oil change that he did on my car last year.But he had to put new tires on my car due to the car vibrating at speeds up to 55 m.p.h.or more.So,I owe him at least a little bit more.I am hoping to have this paid off in about three months.I am just hoping that nothing else happens in the long run after this.
My mom and I are hoping to get the grocery shopping done tomorrow after I get home from work.There is supposed to be a snow storm coming and we want to get some food in the house before it hits.We are hoping that it will only hit the southtowns where we are living but it can happen here as well and we just want to be prepared.
As stated above,tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly.After that,my mom and I are hoping to get the grocery shopping done.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.Despite a minor mishap at the worksite,I managed to have a pretty smooth work day.I simply did my job and when finished,I simply bagged the laundry and dropped it off at the drug/alcohol rehab center.Afterwards,I went home after making a few stops on the way.
The other thing that happened today was that a guy who I had known for a long time came back to the social club after many years.He also asked me to give him a ride somewhere and even insisted on it after I told him that I couldn't do it due to my busy work schedule.I am learning that some people just don't care about your situation or how you feel.Though I had already known this,I am learning this again more and more each and every day.But I am still hanging in there and feeling hopeful.I did not really let him bother me nor did I let him get to me.I simply left the social club and concentrated on finishing my job.
Though I had a pretty good day at work,I still felt a little edgy and I wound up masturbating while I was online.It wasn't to pornography online but I did give in.I felt miserable but after asking the creator for forgiveness,I felt better.It is wonderful to feel that you've been forgiven for what you did wrong or from relapsing.But I am still going to work on this one day at a time.
I went to my support group meeting at the church tonight and it was wonderful.I had a great time talking with the guys there.We also had two new men come in and even that was wonderful.It was great to meet two new guys and hear them share and even for myself to be heard.I am looking forward to the next meeting next Tuesday and I am hoping that it is as wonderful as this one is.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that everything goes smoothly.As for the rest of the day,I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it benefits me in a positive way.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.The day was not too eventful but I managed to get some stuff done.I went to the bank to withdraw some money for my mom and I also went shopping.The supermarket that I went to was having a sale on Progresso soups and Banquet brown and serve sausages and I managed to pick up some of them.We had one of the soups for dinner tonight and it was really good.It was wonderful.
Most of the day,I simply relaxed and took it easy.The day was not very good weatherwise.It was cold and rainy.There is really nothing to do on a cold and rainy day where I live so I stayed home for much of the day.I also woke up late in the early afternoon.But still,I took it easy and I just let everything go on it's own.
I attended my weekly anger management/conflict resolution group meeting tonight and the meeting went great.It was wonderful to be in the group and participate in the conversations.I simply shared what was going on with me and how I was feeling and it was wonderful to be heard and to hear what others had to say.I left getting a lot out of it and hoping to get some stuff out of it again in two weeks.There will be no meeting next week due to the observance of Martin Luther King's birthday being observed.But I do have one in two weeks and that is better than not having anything to go to.
Tonight is also the conclusion of the premiere of Terminator:The Sarah Connor Chronicles and I am hoping that it is as awesome as last night's first part.I have been looking forward to watching this since I heard about it during the Christmas season and so far,it is pretty good.Again,I am hoping that the conclusion is just as awesome as the opener.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.I also have my weekly support group meeting at the church and I am hoping that the meeting also goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very good day today.I went and did a little shopping for myself and for my mom.I bought myself another new DVD.The DVD that I bought was the movie Reservoir Dogs,which is a Quentin Tarantino film.I have been a fan of Quentin Tarantino films since Pulp Fiction.I have several of his films in my DVD library.I still have only a VHS of Pulp Fiction but I am still working on getting the DVD of it.When I do,I can preserve my VHS video of it.But I am glad to now have Reservoir Dogs in my library.I can hardly wait to give this movie a spin in my DVD player.
Tonight,I watched the first installment in the new TV series Terminator:The Sarah Connor Chronicles.It is an awesome show.I am looking forward to watching the 2nd part of the premiere tomorrow night.I am hoping that it's as awesome as the first part.I also hope that the series comes to DVD as well.I will buy it the minute that it comes to DVD.For now,I am just going to enjoy this.It is a welcome breath of fresh air in the midst of this terrible writers strike that is going on in Hollywood right now.I am also hoping that the strike is over soon.I am sick of seeing constant TV reruns.I hope that this writers strike is over soon.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went terrific.It was back to normal and it was really great.I did my tribute to Elvis and the tribute was wonderfully received.I had a great time.I also had a friend with me to share this and even that was awesome.I left last night feeling pretty good and eagerly awaiting next Saturday night.I am hoping that it will be as wonderful as last night.
I also had a talk with a friend of mine who lives out of town and it was wonderful.It was only for a few minutes but it was still wonderful.He is doing pretty good as well.I am looking forward to talking with him next week.
The only negative drawback about last night was that a lady made me feel uncomfortable while I was singing my last song of the night.While I was singing,she was providing a little back up but she was also rubbing my butt while this was happening and as stated,it made me feel uncomfortable because no member of the opposite sex has done that to me in quite a long time.But I continued singing and trying to forget about it happening.Of course,I could not risk hurting her when she complimented me on having an awesome singing voice and that it was great to hear me do the songs that I have chosen.So I let it go at that and went home.
As for the rest of tonight,I might go out and have a drink or two with the guys over at the place where I sing for a while.After that,I'll go back home and watch another movie.
Tomorrow is my day off.My mom and I are hoping to get some grocery shopping done.I also have my anger management/conflict resolution support group tomorrow night.I am hoping that all goes well for me tomorrow.
That was my day today and my night last night,including my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay but with a little hope and optimism.I had a pretty good day today.I simply ran a couple of errands for my mom and myself today.I had to go to a Wal-Mart in my area to pick up a few personal items for myself and I also went to a supermarket to pick up some stuff for dinner tomorrow night.When I was done,I headed for home.While in the midst of this,I stopped at a nearby Wendy's to have a small burger to tie me over until dinner.
When I got home with the stuff,I bathed and I had a light dinner,which was the rest of the homemade chicken noodle soup.I also managed to finish my personal computer work as well in spite of a couple of tough obstacles in the form of some program and server problems.But again,I managed to get it done and I was glad.
Tonight is the night that I am entertaining the crowd.I am hoping that all goes well for me.I am hoping that the night goes well and that everything is going to be good.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.But I am feeling hopeful that everything will work out and go well.
Last night,while watching a movie,I did another scan on my computer to check and see if I had successfully removed the virus and the spyware that were in my system last night after I did my initial scan.When the scan was completed,they were removed successfully and I felt better.It's great to have anti-virus software working 24/7 to make sure that your computer stays free of any security threats.
Again,I am hoping that the night goes well for me.I will be doing a tribute to Elvis Presley tonight because this is the week of his birthday.Again,I am hoping that the evening goes well.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I am hoping that everything goes well and that it affects me in a positive way.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.The work shift went by smoothly and despite a minor frustrating thing to happen at the drug/alcohol rehab center,I managed to get out of it pretty well.It was a very good day and I had a smooth work shift.I simply did my job and when I finished,I dropped the clean laundry off and headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to cash my paycheck and afterwards,I went home.When I got home,I registered my bills at Where's George and afterwards,we had a light dinner.
While I was eating,I did a scan on my computer to check for viruses and spyware and there were a couple of security threats.One of them being a virus,which was quarantined,and the other being spyware.I had to remove both of these from my system.At first,I was having a hard time but I managed to get everything done and I also managed to finally turn off my system restore to get everything done.Plus,I deleted all the stuff that was invading the database on my computer and turned off the system restore.After I am done here and after I type up a couple more e-mails,I am going to do another scan to see if the stuff was successfully removed from the system.I am hoping that it was.So far,I have had no problems with teh virus software,I have normally been fortunate to successfully get rid of any security risks.But again,I will do another scan just to make sure.
I am now at home relaxing.The weather outside is pretty windy and rainy at the moment.But I am safe and sound here at home and I am anticipating tomorrow.I am going to be doing my usual entertaining the crowd.I am hoping that the evening goes well and that everything will back to normal.It was a darg just doing only a couple of songs but tomorrow night,I am hoping that all will be well.Again,I am hoping that everything will be back to the way it was before.
During the time of the scan,I relaxed upstairs in my room for a while and I listened to several of my old 8-Track tapes that I have.Quite a few of these are still in good working condition and they play pretty good.It was wonderful to listen to these again.It was neat to just lay on my bed reading and listening to music.
As stated,tomorrow is my usual night to entertain the crowd.I am hoping that it goes well.Earlier in the afternoon,my mom and I are hoping to get some grocery shopping done.
At the moment,my emotional state is pretty calm and serene.I've been having some ups and downs but I am hanging in there.I have been pretty close to the point where I was going to msturbate but I did not do it.I was playing with myself but I managed to stop myself.I now know that I have to be on guard because I do not want to masturbate and I do not want to start thinking about having sex with other men nor do I want to start doing that again.I am glad to be free of this and I no longer want to do that again.I could use some prayers right now.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day and evening ahead.FJ