Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went by pretty well.It was also the first time in a long time that I did a laundry pick-up and drop off using my vehicle.It was awesome.I am slowly getting back to normal.
I also did some running around.I had to buy some more ice melting stuff and I also sprinkled some on our sidewalk as well as the porches and the steps.I also went out and bought myself some extra stuff for myself.It was pretty awesome.I had a pretty good day and it was great to be out in the community and enjoy myself.
When I was finally at home,I took it easy and waited for dinner to be ready.It was a light dinner of chicken nuggets,baked potato wedges and baked beans.It was a pretty good dinner and after that,I registered a few more bills at the Where's George website.I also did my personal PC work and watched several more classic Popeye shorts on YouTube.Overall,a pretty good day.
But I also have something to share that I am not proud of.I have been falling short lately and have been wrestling with images of men flooding my head.I also have been masturbating frequently.As a result,I have also been feeling mighty depressed as a result of these fallings.
It all started when I had my accident with my previous car.I crashed it accidentally and I also totaled it.For nearly two months,I was without a vehicle and I couldn't go out and sing for my friends nor be with them.As a result,visions of naked men with erections have flooded my head and I have also been talking to myself as if there was another guy in the room with me and I am agreeing to perform a sexual act,such as fellatio,on him.I have masturbated to these thoughts and cravings.I haven't had any contact with others as of late and I have been feeling miserable.I have been overwhelmed by all of this and I am feeling down as a result.I will NEVER accept the popular opinion that I was born Homosexual/Gay because I know that it was my environment that made me the way I am,including the sexual abuse that I endured when I was younger and all the physical,emotional and spiritual abuse that I have endured at the hands of my overbearring religious fanatic father.I am still feeling the effects of all of the abuse to this day and I really want to escape and move on.I have been trapped as of late in this SSA and I want to really get out.I want to break free and I want to do it rightly.I know that acting out these desires won't get me the fulfillment that I really need.I know that I need healthy same-sex relationships where I am truly accepted by other guys and also feeling and being them.I want to discover the joys of male bonding because I am a male.If anyone out there has any advice on how I can obtain this,please let me know.I will take whatever advice that is gven me and I will try to follow it and apply the best way that I can.Thanks in advance for any help.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well.We are also under a winter storm warning that is going to start at 11:00pm tonight with it expiring at 11:00pm tomorrow night.I am hoping that where I am living escapes the tale end of it and we don't get an awful lot of snow.
That was my day today,my hopes for the day tomorrow and what I have been too scared to share as of late on this blog.I am hoping that someone reads this and gives me some good advice.I am going to be needing it.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I used the day to catch up on some things.First,I went to the local hospital to pick up a new script and the practitioner wants me to try a new medicine rather than the one that I am currently taking now.This is going to be interesting.I will be starting the new year with a new medication and I am hoping that things start to work out better for me.
After that,I went to a nearby post office to buy and mail out two money orders that I had to mail out.There were for payments on a couple of collectable records that I bought online and I promised to mail out the money orders this week.They are now mailed out and I can rest easy.
After that,I visited with my mechanic for a bit and I went to do some grocery shopping.They were things that were needed in the house and I am glad to have gotten them.I also bought some more ice melt for the steps of our house and I need to buy some more because we are supposed to get even more bitterly and very brisk COLD!!!! temperatures before the week is through.I am hoping that any store that I go to to buy it has some.We might be needing it before this winetr,which has been the WORST that we had in a long time is over with.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work.I can now take it easy for the rest of the night.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping the day goes well.
That was my day and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The only thing that i did today was an errand that I had to run for my mom.It was to simply buy a few things that my mom needed for dinner tonight as well as a few batteries that were needed.It was the only thing that I had to do and since I had really no place else to go,I just thought that this would be the only thing to do and that I would stay home for the rest of the day.
On the way home from the supermarket,I stopped at a local drug store to pick up some salt,ice melting stuff and a bag of Combos.After I paid for these,I headed for home.
When I got home,I relaxed a bit and I also waited for dinner to get done.While I did that,I did some last minute personal PC work.I did most of that this morning when I woke up and after that,I did the shopping.
After eating,I did some more catching up on some personal PC work and now,I can rest easy for the rest of the night.
I also had a talk with one of the city council members who lives on my street.I told him about the street being extremely icy and slippery and he also told me that he sympathized with me.He also said that he felt that it sucked and he was trying to get the mayor to increase the snow plowing and ice removal on streets that really needed it but so far,it has been falling on deaf ears.I am hoping that this can be resolved soon.I hate it that the road on my street is extremely icy and slick and I really have to drive slow so I won't slip and crash into someone or somebody else's vehicle.
Tomorrow is my day off.I have an appointment at the local hospital tomorrow,which is with the practitioner and I also have to mail out a couple of money orders right away when I go to the post office on the way home.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,after doing my personal PC work,I went out to do some last minute grocery shopping for my mom.My mom needed these things for the rest of the month.We were going to go to another store but due to the icy weather conditions,we opted to go to another supermarket not too far away.I also managed to buy a birthday card for my grand-nephew and after buying all the groceries,I headed straight home and that is where I am for the night.
It is great to be driving again.I missed not having a vehicle for almost three months,not counting the brief times that I had it until more complications arose.But again,I am now happy that I am driving again and it will take some adjusting to but I will be back in the spirit of things within a few weeks.I am looking forward to getting my life back on track.
The minute that I got home,I relaxed for a bit and had a light dinner.I also registered a few more bills at the Where's George site and I also have plans for the rest of the weekend.I am going to do some last minute shopping for myself and taking it easy.
Since it is a bitterly COLD!!!! evening and because my mom is feeling under the weather,I am going to stay home just one more weekend night to keep an eye on her and I am hoping that the doctor can give her something to make her feel better when she goes to see him on Wednesday morning.Plus,I don't have much money either because I have to hold onto what I have because I have to send out a couple of money orders on Monday for some rare and collectable records that I am buying.I also have an appointment on Monday with the practitioner at the hospital and I am hoping that the session with her goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend ahead,including the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what little I had to do and I got it done in the length of time that I had.After completeing the shift,I headed for home by walking to the nearest transit center.
On the way home,I got off near my regular bank.I withdrew some money for my mom and I cashed my paycheck.After that,I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I got some surprising news.My mechanic called and told me that my 4X4 was ready and that I could pick it up anytime.I called my niece and she dropped me off at the garage so I could drive it home.Affter paying him the amount of money that I promised to pay him weekly,I drove straight home and that is where I am at.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work.While doing that,my mom and I waited for a food shipment to come in.It was late due to the bad roads because of this being the winter season but we got it.It is awesome that we have this in the house.I am just glad that we got a lot of meats and potatoes.
As for tomorrow,though I now have wheels,I am going to stay home just one more weekend to look after my mom who is still not feeling good.I am hoping that she is feeling better by next week.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time allotted.After I ate lunch,I headed straight home.I was feeling tired and I wanted to get home pretty quickly.
After I got there,I immediately changed back into pajamas and went back to bed.I was feeling tired and I felt that a nap could do me good.It did.I felt refreshed and well rested after I woke up.
After I ate a light dinner,which was leftover chicken and vegetables,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work before the day was through.I was also on YouTube for much of the afternoon watching some vintage Popeye cartoons that I haven't seen in years since I was a child.It was wonderful to see these shorts after all these years.I had a blast watching them and I look forward to watching some more in the near future.It was really neat seeing them.There are more that I haven't seen and I am saving those for a future date.Since it has been bitterly COLD!!!! outside with nothing to do and no place to go as a result of me not having a car,I felt that this is a great way to fill in time until my 4X4 is fixed and back on the road.I am hoping that it is back on the road soon.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I had lots of running around to do.First,I had to go to the local drug store to pick up a prescription that was prepared for me in advance of my next appointment with a practitioner at the local hospital.After getting home,I picked up a check that my mom made out and I went out to cash the check because we needed groceries in the house really bad because we were running low on food.
Before I went grocery shopping,I stopped at a nearby Taco Bell and had triple decker nachos for lunch.I went to the nearby supermarket after that to do the shopping.
Fortunately for me,the store had everything that I was looking for and I really didn't have to look that hard.But when I was done,it was quite a lot and I had to take a taxi cab home to get all of those groceries home.
The minute that I got home,I relaxed a bit as I awaited dinner to get done.It was a light dinner of chicken,potatoes and vegetables and it was filling.It was also wonderful to get all of that done and feel great.
I am now relaxing and I am anticipating the next day.Tomorrow is going to be a busy day for me.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty up and down day today.
The work day went by pretty well.I simply did what I had to do in the time that I had and I got quite a bit done.After I was done,I left.
The frustrating thing that had happened to me today was trying to get the hospital to give me a back-up prescription for my medication that I am currently taking.I have only one pill left and I needed to get more to keep me good until my appointment on Monday at the hospital's mental clinic.For the whole day,I was trying to get some answers but I kepy getting the story that it wasn't in at the moment.I even called the hospital and they told me that they wouldn't be able to do until tomorrow.But I did get a call from the drug store today and they told me that it was ready and I told them that I would pick it up tomorrow.
I relaxed for a bit after that and I had a light dinner my rest.Overall,a pretty up and down day.
Tomorrow,I will be picking up my medicine and I will also be running an errand for my mom.I need to pick up some stuff at the supermarket that we need for the home and it will be a lot.It is my day off and I hope that I can get everything that is needed.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was a holiday and I managed to get everything that I needed to get done accomplished.Firstly,I stopped over at my mechanic's garage and dropped off the money that I promised him and I also gave him a CD that I made for him.He was pretty greatful for that.He even thanked me for dropping off the money that I had promised him and now,he said that he was going to work on getting the radiator that my 4X4 needs so I can start driving it again.I have been missing out on a lot of things lately as a result of me not having a vehicle.The minute that I start driving again,I am going to work on being more courteous,considerate and careful of other drivers.After what had happened to me back in November,I need to work on that.I don't want that to happen to me again.
I also managed to get a lift home from my mechanic's step-daughter.On the way home,we stopped at a Dollar General store so I could pick up some hot cereal for breakfast.I picked up three boxes so we will have plenty to last us for a while.
After I was dropped off at home,I shoveled the walk because the walk really needed it.It was really coated with snow.It is now shoveled and I relaxed for the rest of the time.Iverall,a pretty good day,
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty uneventful day today.
The only things that I did was that I ran a couple of errands that I needed to run.I picked up another prescription for my mom and I also went to a local supermarket to pick up a roasted chicken for dinner.I also bought a box of cereal and a bottle of pain relievers for her.After paying for the items,I called a taxi to go home.
After I got home,we ate.It was pretty good.I didn't want to eat too much so after I ate a few bits,I decided to get up from the table and burn a CD for my mechanic.I am going to give it to him tomorrow while I drop off some money for him.It is money that is owed him for repairs that he has done and money for a part that I need for my 4X4 so he can fix it.I am hoping that my vehicle can be fixed pretty soon and I will be driving soon.I miss driving and I miss going out to entertain my friends.But I am hanging in there and I am hoping that this can be resolved soon.
Before I did any of these errands,I had a light breakfast and I did my personal PC work.It was quite a bit and I am glad that I got it done.
I am now at home relaxing and taking it easy.I am anticipating the next day.I have lots of running around to do tomorrow and I am hoping that I can get everything that I need to get done accomplished.It will take a bit of doing becuase tomorrow is a holiday.The bus service is going to run on a Saturday schedule as a result of the holiday.But if I get it accomplished,I will feel much better.
Tomorrow is my usual day off but it will be a holiday.I am hoping that everything works out for the better tomorrow.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling alright with some depression.I had a not too eventful day today.
I started out the day by eating a light breakfast and I did my personal PC work.I overslept due to me not getting to bed at the time that I wanted to.Still,I had a pretty good nights sleep and that was good.
After finishing my work,I went out to run a small errand to pick up a few things.These were things that were needed.It was a chore just getting to the store but I made it there and made it back.It was bitterly COLD!!!! and the wind was blowing snow all over the place and with new snow falling,it was really tough seeing where I was going,but I managed.I am just trying to get by the best way that I can until I start driving again.
When I got home,I heated up some leftover pizza in the microwave for dinner and I relaxed and watched an episode of The Red Green Show on DVD.Overall,a pretty uneventful day but I managed to get an errand done.
My mom is still feeling under the weather.She is still feeling the aches and paind that she contracted yesterday.I am hoping that she is feeling better soon.I did call my sister who lives locally in the city and I am hoping to hear from her soon.
As I stated yesterday,I am staying home as a result of me not having a vehicle as well as no money due to it going to my mechanic.But I am hoping to have it back on the road soon.As for tomorrow,my plans are to simply stay home and take it easy.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I had simply did my job in the time alloted and I did what I had to do.After I was finished,I headed for the nearby transit center.I had just caught the bus as I was nearing it.
On the way home,after getting off,I stopped at my regular bank to cash my paycheck.I also had to withdraw some money so I could add to the money that I am saving for my radiator.I now have the full amount and on Monday,I will be heading over to my mechanic's garage to pay him for it.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and I had a bowl of soup for dinner.I also did my personal PC work and it is all finished.I have been at home since I got here and I am stayin here due to the extreme COLD!!!! that we are having at the moment.The temperature is 9 with a wind chill of -17 below.According to the National Weather Service,we are supposed to be gradually warming up starting this weekend.I hope so.This COLD!!!! weather,though it has been only 3 days,has been pretty dull and depressing.This is the coldest that we have ever been in quite a while.It has been feeling like 1977 all over again.I am hoping that the weekend will bring a warmup.I need to go and get some more milk because I am running out.
I am now at home relaxing.I am just going to pop a movie in and enjoy it before I turn in.
Since I still have no car,I am staying home this weekend.I am hoping that my 4X4 will be back on the road soon.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty fair day today.
The work shift,though smooth,was over an hour early so staff could attend a special holiday brunch somewhere.I simply did my job in the time alloted and I left.I was fortunate to catch a bus as I was heading for the nearby transit center.I boarded the bus and headed for home.
When I got off,I stopped at a local pizzeria and bought myself a home made taco for lunch.I ate it the minute that I got home and after that,I watched the movie Lost in America,which stars Albert Brooks and Julie Hagerty.After that,I decided to go to bed and take a nap for an hour.
But I had problems when I tried to do that.I wound up having more visions of other men and having sex with them.I wound up masturbating to these images and I felt miserable.After asking the creator for forgiveness,I fell asleep.I need to start getting back into the spirit of things.I know that it will still be a long time before I get my 4X4 back on the road but when it is,I am going to start going back out again.I am hoping that in time,my need to be around my friends will be great to get me back on my feet again.
At the moment,my mom is not feeling well.She is having an earache.I am hoping that she will be feeling better soon.I will be praying really hard tonight and I am hoping that she will be feeling better soon.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,the weather was very COLD!!!! with wind chill factors in the minus double digits.But I didn't let it hinder my plans.I wore my long winter underwear and it gave me some warmth along with my regular underwear.I paid my auto insurance bill and I also paid my mechanic the money that I promised him.After that,I did some personal shopping that I needed to do for myself.I had to pick up a few things at the local K-Mart.I walked all the way to the nearby transit center to take a bus to the post office so I could mail out my payment for the line of credit account that I have with another finance company.The last thing that I needed to do was that I had to do some grocery shopping for my mom and that was last on my agenda.I also managed to buy a couple of important things at a nearby Dollar Tree store.I took a taxi cab home and after I got there,I stayed home.It was a bitterly COLD!!!! day but I managed to get everything that I needed to do accomplished and I am glad for that.I am hoping that by the end of the week,I will have the money that I need for the radiator for my 4X4 and I will be driving again.At the moment,I am just trying to get by the best way that I know how.So far,I have been getting things accomplished despite the circumstances that I am in.That is making me feel better.
I am now relaxing and taking it easy.I am also anticipating the next day and I am hoping that the day goes well.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty roller coaster day today.
The work day was pretty frustrating.The frustrating thing was that I couldn't get a ride to help with the laundry pick-up for most of the morning.I had to wait until after lunch.But I did manage to do a little bit of laundry and after that,I headed for home.
When I got home,I dropped off most of my stuff and I decided to go to a nearby Target store to pick up a few things.I had to buy two pairs of long thermal underwear and a couple of other things that I needed.I have to be prepare for tomorrow because we are going to be in a real deep freeze that will be going on until Friday.According to the National Weather Service,we are going to have very bitter wind chills in the minus single to double digits with temps at an all time low.I had to buy the long underwear to prepare for this because I have a lot of walking to do.I have to pay my insurance bill,pay my mechanic the money that I owe him for the week and I also have to mail out my payment to the finance company that holds a line of credit in my name.I will have a lot to do tomorrow and I will be glad to get them all accomplished.It will be tough with the bitterly COLD weather but I have to do it all.Not only that,I am also hoping that my mom and I can get our grocery shopping done tomorrow as well.Because on Thursday,I don't want to go anywhere or do anything.Since it's going to be cold,I just want to stay home and relax and just let the COLD weather dominate the outside.I really don't have any place to go since I don't have a car at the moment.
Tomorrow is a day off and I have lots of plans that I am hoping to get accomplished despite the cold.I am hoping that I can get them done.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
I didn't get to go to the post office today.I simply went to a local store to pick up a couple of half gallons of milk.I needed them for the house and I just went in and bought them.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
After I got home,I decided to finish my personal PC work.It took some doing but I managed to get it done.There were issues with my internet server and I had to restart my computer three times to get the issues resolved.I also ate dinner while waiting for my computer to complete the restart process.
Tonight,my mom and I had pepperoni pizza for dinner.We ordered it and it was delivered.It was delicious.I had a few slices and the rest is going to be kept for lunch for me at the end of the week.Overall,a pretty fair day.
I am now relaxing and I am anticipating the next day.It is going to be a snowy day weatherwise tomorrow and I need to be prepared.We are also going to have a bitterly COLD week for the rest of the week.It will be tough but I am hoping to get through it.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today was Sunday and I really didn't have too much to do day.I am feeling very bored,depressed and lonesome.Since I haven't had a car for a very long time,I haven't gone out and I haven't been able to do a lot of things since I haven't had my vehicle on the road.Not only that,I have been masturbating so much,it's insane.I don't know whether I am coming or going.I am also feeling like I am at my wits end.I need help really bad and I am feeling so lonesome that I really don't knw how I can resolve this until I have my car running on the street.Plus,the weather has been pretty treacherous with snow and ice everywhere on the road.It has also been cold and I am am also getting sick and tired of staying home.I want to go out and I want to enjoy my life.I have been so bored just staying home and watching one movie after another.I am just hoping that my vehicle will be back on the road soon.I just can't take this anymore.Please someone say some prayers for me.Thanks.
My SSA has skyrocketed.I have been thinking of images of men and their genitals lately.This is what has been making me masturbate.I don't want to think of these things anymore.I don't want to have sex with any man.I don't want to act out.I have been masturbating so much that it seems that I can't beat it.I am hoping that someone out there can give me some helpful advice.Thanks in advance for any helpful advice given.
After eating a light dinner,I did some last minute catching up on some personal PC work.I can now relax and take it easy for the rest of the evening.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes well.I have to drop off some money at my mechanic's garage tomorrow and I also have to mail out a payment to a finance company so they will get my payment before the end of next week.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was the start of another weekend.It started out pretty typically.I woke up and had a light breakfast and I did some of my personal PC work.I finished it after running an errand for my mom.
Today,the weather was COLD and snowy.There was some ice and snow on the ground and though it made the walk a little more difficult,I managed to make it to my destination.I finished the errand and I also turned in some bottles that I had found on the way.I walked home after that and that is where I stayed.I have no place to go since I don't have a vehicle at the moment but I am managing.I am still holding onto the hope that I will have a vehicle on the road soon.
After eating a light dinner,I finished my personal PC work.It took a bit of doing but I managed to get it done.I managed to get onto my Yahoo e-mail account and I managed to finish that off.There was a minor issue with my internet server but again,I got it done and that was great.
As I stated last night,I am staying home again tonight due to me lacking a car at the moment.But again,I am still hoping to have it back on the raod very soon.
As for tomorrow,I am not making any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it benefits me in a positive manner.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I did a little bit in the time allotted.After doing my job,I headed for home.
On the way home by bus,I went to my regular bank to cash my paycheck and I also bought a few things at the store for dinner tonight.Because of all that I had,I took a cab home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day.
Before eating,I took a nap for about an hour.I was feeling tired and I felt that I needed.After that,I ate dinner,which was a submarine sandwich.
I also decided to do some much needed catching up on personal PC work.I am at the moment having a hard time trying to access my Yahoo e-mail account.Each and every time I have tried to get into it,I kept getting the screen freeze and the reboot.I am hoping that this doesn't continue because I have to e-mail a friend of mine who lives in California.I am hoping that this is resolved soon.For now,I will just have to use my other e-mail accounts until I can get into my Yahoo account.
I have just gotten the news that another winter storm is in the forecast for the weekend.I am hoping that it isn't that bad.If it is,I will have to be careful when doing my errands for tomorrow.I have to pick up a prescription for my mom tomorrow at the local drug store.Tomorrow,if it is storming,I will have to be careful going there and coming home.But I know that I will manage.
I will be staying home again tomorrow night as a result of me not having a car.OH WELL!
That was my day today and my plans for the day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the period of time allotted and I got it done.After the shift was over,I had lunch and I headed for home.
When I got home,I simply went back to bed and took a nap.I was feeling tired and I felt that a nap would do me a world of good.I had a tough time getting to sleep last night but I managed to fall asleep.
I did have one major fall.While trying to take my nap,I had images flying in my head of men in a sexual way.I tried to get rid of them,but I couldn't.I wound up manipulating myself sexually and masturbating.Though I did ask to be forgiven afterwards,I still felt miserable.The nap that I took made me feel better afterwards but still,I felt miserable for a while after that.I am hoping that anyone out there can help me out regarding this.
After my nap,I decided to finish my personal PC work.I had a hard time trying to finish it due to server issues.As a result of that,I had to restart the computer as a way of trying to get the server issues resolved.It is now working better and I am hoping that I have no more issues for a long time.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to relax a bit and take it easy in my room.At the moment,I have no particular place to go because the weather is bitterly COLD!!!! with snow blowing and drifting.But I am hoping that this streak of weather ends soon.
I am now relaxing at home and I am hoping that the next day will be better.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes as well as today's did.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty busy day today.
Since I had the day off,I went to the post office today to send out important letters.These letters were bills that needed to be paid.Now that they are on the way to their destination,we can now rest easy and hopefully,everything will take care of itself.Before heading over to the post office,I had to go to my regular bank to payoff my line of credit account with them.On Friday,I will be talking with them to close it off.After that,I'll have one less bill to worry about.I still have a Sears credit card bill and another line of credit that I am also paying monthly on.But I only pay when I use the Sears credit card for purchases.I pay no annual fees,which is good.
On the way home,I stopped at a local drug store to pick up 2 rolls of toilet tissue and a bottle of nighttime pain pills that my mom needed.Overall,it was a pretty busy day and I am glad to have gotten the things done that I needed to get done.
The only drawback was the nasty weather that we had today.We had sleet and freezing rain and I had a hard time walking on the streets as a result.I had to really walk slow so I wouldn't slip.I managed to make it to my destinations and home,but it was really difficult.I am hoping that the weather does ease up soon.I would hate for this to keep on going.I know that it's winter and I do have to expect these things.But still,I am just hoping that the conditions do indeed improve and I am also hoping that we do get a thaw that usually comes in January.When I did get home,I chose to stay there and I took a nap when I got home.
After having a light dinner,I decided to do some last minute catching up on my personal PC work.That is now done and I can take it easy for the rest of the evening and get ready for work in the morning.
As stated,tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time alloted and I also got to drop off some clean laundry and also picked up some dirty.After I dropped off the dirty laundry and sorted it out,I headed for a bus stop to catch a bus to go home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local drug store to pick up a few personal things and I also dropped a couple of newspapers off at a house.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I checked with the garage to see if they had checked my 4X4 as to what was causing the anti-freeze leak and they hadn't.But tonight,I heard from my mechanic and he said that it was the radiator.I will have to get the money together for that and though it will take me a while,it is better for me to get that part replaced and also,get the ball joint fixed.My mechanic offered to get the radiator replaced first but I told him that it would be better for him to fix the ball joint since the part was there already.I also advised him to wait until I get the money together and then,order the part.I will have to wait a little while longer but oh well.That is life when you own a car/truck or any type of vehicle.
It took me a while but I got my personal PC work done.I also had to deal with some issues regarding the server but I managed to get it done.I feel that I have accomplished something here.
Tomorrow is my day off.I have lots of personal stuff to do and I am hoping to get it done in one day.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I had quite a bit to do today.First,I had a light breakfast and I went out to drop off the money that I promised my mechanic.I also had the CD that I made for him and I figured that now was the right time to give it to him now that he was home.He thanked me for teh CD and he told me that he hoped to get around to seeing what the problem was with my 4X4 tonight,but he also told me that he couldn't promise anything.I told him "Okay" and I left for home.
After I got home,I simply told my mom what my mechanic said and that he is hoping to get around to checking it out later tonight.After doing that,I relaxed on my bed and put a record album on.I have been doing this to see what I feel that my mechanic would like.I am hoping that he enjoys the CD that I made for him.I will be making another one for him during the week when I have the time and as always,I hope that he enjoys it,too.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to finish my personal PC work.I started it today and went to my mechanic's garage to drop off the money and the CD.I finished it tonight despite a minor issue with the internet server.But I am glad to have gotten it done.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and myu hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was a pretty dull day.But I did manage to get out and do something.The only thing that I did was that I went to a nearby drug store to pick up a few things that my mom needed.It was quite a bit of things.But I managed to get it all in one day.I also picked up a few things for myself and that was great.After paying for them,I called a taxi cab to go home because it was quite a lot of things and the bags were heavy.Plus,my mom felt that I would be a target for robbers and thieves.After I got home,I ate dinner and I relaxed for a bit.
On the way to the store,I almost was the target of an inconsiderate driver in a Ford Explorer.I was waiting to cross the street while climbing up a small mountain of snow,the driver drove through an All-Way Stop sign and didn't even bother to stop.This really scared me.Fortunately,I hesitated crossing because I probably would have been hit by that driver if I didn't do that.The only positive thing to happen was that I ran into a lady that I graduated with 18 years ago.She told me that she was doing fine and asked me how I was.I answered the same.I then did my shopping.
After eating,I decided to do some CD recording for my mechanic.I was hoping to do 2 of them but only wound up doing 1.I will be taking this to my mechanic tomorrow and I hope that he enjoys it.I also had a talk with a friend of mine who lives out of town and that was a great conversation.
I also have some confessions to make.I have been hiding some stuff from here.It is regarding my struggles with SSA.I have been hiding things that I should be confessing.
I have been falling into sin as of late.I have been scoping up Gay pornography and looking at pictures of naked men and I have also had lustful thoughts of other men.I have also manipulated my own sexuality and masturbated at the point where I was almost at an orgasm until the ejaculation happened.I did regret this but ever since I have had no vehicle as a result of the non-stop repair work.On Tuesday,my joy turned to depression when I had to have my 4X4 towed back to the garage as a result of an anti-freeze leak.I feel that if my mechanic's assistant fixed that ball joint problem,he would have noticed the leak and informed me of it.I had to learn about it while driving it.This really made me angry.All of that anger transformed into me having lustful thoughts and I have been falling into sin and regreting it later.I need help and I need some prayers.If anyone out there is readingthis,please say some prayers for me so I will not fall again.I am also hoping that my 4X4 will be ready by next week.I miss my friends and I miss going out and having fun.Again,please say some prayers for me.Thanks in advance.
Tomorrow is my day off.I do have to drop off some money tomorrow at my mechanic's garage alongside the CD that I made for him.I hope that everything goes well for me tomorrow.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
I really didn't do too much of anything.There wasn't anything for me to do.I simply started out the day by having a light breakfast and doing my personal PC work.It was quite a bit and I managed to get it done despite an issue with the server.I also watched some Popeye cartoons online over at YouTube and that was wonderful.
After shutting down,I simply watched a little bit of TV and I relaxed a bit.During this time,my mom and I talked about what we wanted to eat for dinner tonight.Initially,we wanted to buy a small submarine sandwich for each of us.But we decided to get a couple cans of soup instead.
The weather was cold but not as cold as it has been lately.The walk down to the store was a nice one and the sidewalks and streets were not that slippery.We are now having less snow than we had when we had that big powerful blizzard just as the first day of Winter was coming around.After I came home,my mom heated up the soup and we ate.We also had a couple slices of garlic toast as a side dish.
After eating,I relaxed on my bed while listening to some music.Tomorrow afternoon,after I am done running an errand for my mom,I am going to make a couple more CD's for my mechanic.I will also be dropping them off on Monday when I drop off some money.
I will be staying home again tonight as a result of me not having a car.But hopefully,I will have my 4X4 next week.
Tomorrow,I am just going to stay home and take it easy.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The holiday season of 2008 is officially over.I returned to work today after the holiday and it went very smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the short allotment of time that I had and after I was finished,I left to go to the nearby transit center for the bus.It took a while but it got there and when I got on,I was glad to be heading for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to cash my paycheck and to withdraw some money for my mom.After that,which only took a few minutes,I headed straight home and didn't stop for anything except that I had to use the restroom at a nearby Burger King.
When I got home,I took it easy for a while and I had a light dinner.I also relaxed for a bit on my bed and listened to some music.It was a pretty good day today and I had some great talks with some of the people over at the nearby social club.It was also very quiet there with nobody there to make any trouble with anyone.I actually enjoyed the day there and I had a pretty good lunch period.
I am now relaxing.I have really nothing else to do.I am just going to relax for the rest of the night and take it easy.I might just watch a movie before going to bed.
As for the weekend,I will be staying home again since I have no car.But on Monday,I will be going to the garage to drop some money off and I am hoping that they will be working on my car when I get there.
That was my day today and my plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Happy New Year,Everybody!!!!
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
Since I had the day off from work due to the holiday,I decided to stay home and take it easy.I simply listened to a little bit of music and I watched a few movies.There really wasn't an awful lot for me to do today.I felt that I should just relax for the day and save some of my energy for tomorrow when I return to work.The only drawback is that New Year's Day wasn't on a Friday.But we just have to accept reality as it is.But there is the upcoming weekend so I can take it easy then and eagerly await my mechanic to start working on my 4X4 when he gets back to the garage.I am hoping that it doesn't need anything major to fix the anti-freeze leak.I already know that a ball joint needs to be put on but again,I am hoping that it doesn't need anything major to fix the anti-freeze leak.
After eating dinner,I went out of the house to shovel the walk and free up some snow for the mail person to come tomorrow to leave the mail.I am eagerly awaiting the arrival of a Buffalo Sabres calendar to come in.It is the new 2009 edition.I was looking online for this.Most of the places were out but I found one on Amazon.com and it is on the way to me.I hope that I get this soon.
After shovelling the walk,I decided to do some catching up on some much needed personal PC work.
As stated,tomorrow is back to work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the dat ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a not too eventful of a day today.
Today,I only an a small errand for myself.I mailed out a credit card payment for the month ahead of time because it was due on Tuesday.I am glad to get that out and I am also happy that I got that accomplished.After I made a small purchase at a convienience store,I boarded a bus after a long 25 minute wait and headed for home.The weather today was extremely COLD!!!!!!
I had to make one more stop on the way.I went to a beverages store to pick up a 6-pack of non-alcoholic beer for tonight at the stroke of midnight.Since I am staying home tonight,I feel that I should make the best of it.I simply bought something to celebrate with at home and after it is the new year,I will put a movie in the DVD player and watch it.Since I don't have to get up in the morning due to the New Year holiday,I can stay up longer and watch a good movie.I will be sleeping in tomorrow morning.
I have to admit that I do miss being with my friends.I have had this feeling since I haven't had a vehicle.Yesterday,I had it and I was driving but I had to have it towed back to the shop due to an anti-freeze leak.But I am hoping to have it back by next week so I can get my life back on track and I can start going out and having fun again singing for my friends.I do miss singing for them and I do miss being around them in general.Again,I am hoping that by next week,I will have my 4X4 back on the road and get my life back on track.
Tomorrow is a day off due to it being a holiday.I am just going to take it easy.After tomorrow,the holiday season of 2008 will be officially over.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty stressful day today.
The work day went by smoothly.I did everything that I needed to do in the amount of time that I had and when I was done,I dropped the laundry off at the rehab center.I also had to run an errand for my mom while I was out.I had to pick up a couple of boxes of hot cereal for her.
While the work day went smoothly,some of the day didn't go so smoothly.One of the things to happen today was an incident at the social club.One of the social club members was ranting and raving like a crazed maniac.He also shouted that he wanted to kill Olympic Gold Medal swimmer Michael Phelps.This threat was taken seriously and the local Police special task force arrived on the scene to take care of the situation as well as resolve it and make sure nobody else got hurt.Apparently,the situation worked out where the guy was taken to the local hospital's mental ward for a psychiatric evaluation and to see how they can adjust his medication.This was a very scary situation and everyone around had the daylights scared out of them.I also was scared and even when the situation was resolved,I still felt tensed up because of it.I was just glad to get out of there and finish up my job.
When I was running the errand,I ran into some trouble.I discovered that I had an anti-freeze leak.I discovered this when I was reversing out of the parking lot and I saw white smoke coming from my engine.I opened up the hood and saw that there was a lot of smoke and I smelled anti-freeze while I was waiting for the tow truck getting all the stuff that I needed to get out of my 4X4 so I could take a bus home.After the tow truck came,I hopped a bus to a nearby transit and transfered to another bus to go home.Overall,what a day.
I am now at home relaxing and awaiting the next day.Since there will be no laundry pick up tomorrow as a result of me not having a vehicle,I will have to go to a local post office to mail out an important credit card payment.After that,I will just have to stay home and take it easy.For the first time in 9 years,I will be ringing in the new year at home.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off and I went to the garage to drop off some money at the garage.It went really well.Though the ball joint is not on my 4X4 as of yet,I decided to drive it since there is hardly any snow and icy patches on the road.I now have it and I am only feeling slightly better.Still,I wished that the lone mechanic at the garage would have fixed the ball joint for me so I wouldn't have to worry about the steering problems.But I have to endure this until the boss gets back from his vacation.
I am only concerned about one thing.I saw that there was a leak coming from somewhere and the radiator was smoking.I noticed this when I went to a local shopping mall.Despite this,I drove to a nearby supermarket but I didn't see any leaks nor did my radiator smoke.But still,I might have to get my vehicle towed to the garage to have it checked out.I am hoping that this is nothing serious.But if it is,I will just have to get it fixed.
After doing my shopping,I went straight home and I had a light pasta dinner.After eating,I am now relaxing and getting ready for the new day.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
As with yesterday,I had only one errand to run.I went to the local drug store to pick up some additional cookies for snacking.I went out to endure the high winds that we were having.After all the rain that we had to melt most of the snow that we had from the terrible blizzard that happened a week ago,we now had high winds to endure.Not only that,they day was also COLD!!!!Fortunately,most of the snow was gone and there were not too many slick spots anywhere.Most of them went away.In other areas of Western New York,there was lots of flooding.But we here in my hometown were fortunate not to receive any flooding.Again,I ran an errand and I endured high winds going about 55-60 miles per hour.But I made it home in one piece.My mom was actually concerned about why I went out just for cookies but I told her that it was close to home and that we were running low.
While eating a light supper,we watched The Little Drummer Boy on DVD.There was a lot of sports on today and we wanted to watch another holiday special again because we felt bored.After eating,I simply relaxed in my room and listened to some music.I also received a phone call from a friend of mine in New Jersey.It was a short conversation but it was great.
I am now relaxing.I am anticipating the new day tomorrow.It's hard to believe that the holiday season is almost over.In just 4 days,the 2008 holiday season and the year will be history.Though I do hate to see it end,I am also glad that I don't have to endure it for another year.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes well.Tomorrow,I will also go to the garage to drop off some money that I owe and I am hoping that the ball joint will finally be on my 4X4.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
I had only one errand to run.I had to pick up a few things from a local drug store that were needed in the home.The weather was rainy for much of the day so I waited for the rain to calm down so I could go out and get the stuff.It was a very good walk and I managed to get everything that was needed.I headed straight home afterwards.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and I had a light dinner.While eating,we watched the special Nestor,The Long Eared Christmas Donkey on DVD.The holiday season is almost over and so,my mom and I are simply rewatching what we can until after New Year's Day is over,which will be the official end of the holiday season for another year.Overall,this holiday season,despite the setbacks,was very good.I enjoyed it and everybody was happy.
The only unfortunate thing to happen was that my father came into town unexpectedly.He came into town yesterday looking for me,but I was working.He is currently at my sister's house and will be leaving for North Carolina tomorrow morning.He just wanted to stop in and say Hello and now,he is going back home.Though I really didn't want to,I called my sister's house and talked with him for a bit.But he is going back home tomorrow morning and I hope that he makes it home safely.
As I stated yesterday,I will be staying home tonight due to the fact that I still haven't got my 4X4 back on the road as of yet.But I am hoping that it will be ready on Monday so I can at least go out on New Year's Eve.I am hoping.
As for tomorrow,I am just going to stay home and take it easy.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly and fast.I did not have too much to do today.I did what I had to do in the short period of time that I had.They also let me off early because there was really nothing going on and most of the people who worked at the offices were all home on holiday break.But I managed to get some work done and that was great.Not only that,there was also a radio on and the station that they had it on was still playing some holiday music because I guess that there were still some people celebrating somewhere and that is cool.
After I cashed my paycheck,I walked home from the bank after I went to a nearby Burger King to use the restroom.It wasn't a very long walk and I got to at least exercise.It was also not too cold out because of some of the warm weather that we had.We had lots of rain on Christmas Eve and it did melt some of the snow and ice.But it did cool down but not to the point where it was freezing.But there are still some icy patches here and there and it is still pretty slippery in some spots around.But we are supposed to get some more warm rain tomorrow and it will melt some more of the mess that we got from the blizzard that we had for much of last week and early this week.
I laid down for much of the afternoon when I got home.I also had a light dinner of homemade soup that my mom made.It was awesome.My mom and I also watched some more holiday themed videos and DVD's.There were mostly reruns on the TV tonight and we decided that these were a reasonable substitution.Reruns can be quite boring and sometimes,there isn't an awful lot of choice when they come on.But my mom and I felt that watching holiday specials on video and DVD were better than that.We still have some snow on the ground and it still feels like the holiday season.The feeling never really goes away until Spring hits and all the snow melts.But that is the way it goes.
I still don't have my 4X4 back as of yet.But I am hoping that Monday will be the day I get it back on the road.As a result of that,I will have to stay home tomorrow night again.But I am hoping to go back out and sing for my friends next week or even better yet,New Year's Eve.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead.FJ

Merry Christmas,Everybody!
Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.Though I am still feeling over the edge over the situation regarding my vehicle,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.
The holiday today went surprisingly well.I really wasn't expecting much today but I got a lot.Of course,I didn't get too much today but seeing everyone happy when they got what I bought for them was better than nothing and it made me feel good.I actually forgot about my situation.I also had a nice dinner and I felt full even with only one helping.But it was wonderful.
At the moment,I am home.The holiday is almost over and I am now anticipating the work day tomorrow.
When we got home,my mom and I watched a few holiday specials on video and DVD.It was neat.The last one that we watched was Rudolph and Frosty's Christmas in July.It is about when two of Christmas time's most popular icons Rudolph and Frosty's family decide to take part in a 4th of July circus with the hopes that Santa Claus will come and take them back home to the North Pole when the whole affair is over.But there is evil afoot because an evil winter magician wants to end the icon's lives for good and is also behind this whole plot to let them do the performance so he can do just that.It is a very interesting crossover and it is always worth watching each and every Christmas season.Overall,it was a wonderful holiday today.
When the holiday officially ends tonight at midnight,I have to be prepared to go back to work tomorrow.I will be sleeping when the clock strikes midnight.But I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly and that everything will start working out for me again before the year draws to a close,including getting my 4X4 back soon so I can get my life back on track.I am sick of being at home each and every weekend and I am now facing the concept of staying home and missing the New Year's party at the place where I entertain the crowd.This is what not having my vehicle is doing to me.The only thing that needs to be done is a simple ball joint job.But it hasn't been done as of yet and it has been driving me up the wall.I am hoping that by Monday when I bring some money into the garage as a payment,that my 4X4 has the ball joint on and I can drive it again and I will have my life back.I can only hope.
As previously stated,tomorrow is return to work day after the holiday today.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead and that I will have my vehicle back finally on Monday.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty so-so day today.
Today was my day off.I simply did some catching up on some shopping.It was an accomplishment.Since I haven't had a vehicle for much of the month(as of this writing,I still don't have a vehicle),I couldn't do much of what I wanted to do.I have missed some very great things this month because of me not having a vehicle.I am feeling really angry at the moment because my mechanic's assistant at the garage hasn't gotten around to it and I keep getting the same old "BULLSHIT STORY!!!!" as to why he hasn't started it yet.I understand that he is all alone there and that he is only one man.But my 4X4 has been there for over a month.The fuel leak has been fixed but it is in desperate need of that new ball joint on the driver side.Since we have been having some treacherous winter weather lately,I don't want to take any chances.A bad ball joint is bad news because it means that the vehicle is not safe.I am afraid that I could be endangering the lives of other drivers and even pedestrians as a result of this.I don't want to put other people's lives in danger nor do I want to endanger myself.This is a big deal to me because I am trying to love my neighbor and I feel that this is the best way I can do that.They have been insisting that I drive the vehicle with that bad ball joint on it but I keep saying NO.I feel that they are not being considerate of my feelings regarding this.Again,I don't want to hurt nobody.I just want my vehicle to be safe and I want it to be totally fixed so it will be.The minute that the ball joint is on my vehicle,it will be safe.Right now,it isn't.As I am writing this,my anger is really INTENSE!I don't want to be angry.I want to feel joy and happiness.But right now,I am not feeling that way.I am hoping that I can get some answers on Monday when I have to bring in some money.I just want this whole thing to be over with so I can have my vehicle back and I can start driving as well as getting my life back on track.I haven't had a real life since this whole thing happened and I am feeling INTENSELY ANGRY as a result.I want my 4X4 back and I want it to be safe for driving.I feel that I am not asking for too much.
As for the shopping,I got practically everything that I needed to get.My shopping is now complete.It took a bit of doing but I am glad to get that done.The only thing that I need is for my vehicle to be back on the road.I have to wait another weekend.But I am hoping that this can get finished and I can drive it without feeling any source of guilt or fear.
Tomorrow is Christmas.I am hoping that the day will go greatly and that everything will work out for the better.I could use a nice holiday in helping me get over this whole thing that I am going through right now.
That was my day today and my hopes for the holiday ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.I did quite a bit in the period of time that I had.After the work day had ended,with help from a job coach,I dropped off some clean laundry at the rehab center and was dropped off at a nearby transit center to take the bus home.
When I got home,I helped my mom out with a few little things and I made my bed.I also finished my personal PC work.I was glad to get that accomplished.
After I ate a light dinner,I watched some TV for a bit and I went to the movies.I went to see the movie Quarantine and I enjoyed it immensely.It was well worth waiting for to come to the local bargain theater that I like to go to when movies come there to be shown.It had been a long wait and the wait was well worth it.I enjoyed it immensely and I was glad to have gotten out to see this film.I am now waiting for it to come out on DVD.It will be quite a while but it will be well worth it.
I have the day off tomorrow.I am hoping to finally get some shopping done and I am also hoping to get a lot of things out of the way so I can finally take it easy and enjoy the holiday.I am hoping that the holiday is truly a great one indeed.I will also be checking with the garage to see if my 4X4 will be ready tomorrow.I can hardly wait for that.If I start driving it again,I hope that I will not have any problems for a long time.I have to go to the garage to drop some money off tomorrow and I am hoping that my vehicle will be ready by tomorrow as they promise.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a not too eventful of a day today.
Today was my day off.I did not have too much to do.I was hoping to drop off some money to my mechanic today but the weather kept me home.The wind was really blowing and it was COLD!!!!But I am hoping to drop the money off Wednesday morning after I wake up.I am still hoping to get to the movies that night and I am not going to let nothing stop me from seeing the movie Quarantine.I have been dying to see this movie for a long time and I am determined to see it.As stated,I am hoping that this is a very good film.
The only thing that I really did today was that I shoveled the walk for my mom today and also for the mail person so they will have an open walk to bring the mail.Apparently,we didn't receive any mail today but that is cool.We were'nt expecting anything much anyway so that is cool.At least,I shoveled the sidewalk and that is better than doing nothing.
We are supposed to get warmer temperatures in the midst of this week.Apparently,though the temps will be warmer on Wednesday,we are supposed to get snow and sleet.But again,it will be warmer and that will be nice.We are supposed to get rain on Wednesday night before Christmas.That will be a nice change of pace.
I am hoping to have my vehicle back on Wednesday.According to my mechanic's step-daughter,the ball joint is supposed to go on my 4X4 on Wednesday.I hope that this can be done.I have been without my vehicle for over a month and I am going crazy without it.I hope that it can be fixed by Wednesday.
I am now relaxing and hoping for the next day.
Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that the day goes well.I am also hoping that I can get to Wal-Mart after work and get a few things for the holidays.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had another hectic day today.
Today,I only went out once to run an errand for myself and my mom.It was to simply go to the drug store to pick up a few prescriptions and to buy another bag of salsa tortilla Combos.It was a chore just getting to that drug store.It was because that the winter storm that we started on Friday has revamped itself and is now wreaking unholy havoc on the town.The wind chills are ranging from 0 to -5 below zero.The winds are blowing very violently and there is snow blowing and drifting everywhere.It has been like Hell here with all of this.It is bitterly COLD!!!!, CHILLY!!!! and very BLUSTERY.The weather pattern is going to be continuing into tomorrow.I am just hoping that this insanity ends soon.It is supposed to warm up on Wednesday into the lower 40's with rain to melt this mess all over.It won't necessarily be "The January Thaw" but it will be better than what we are going through now.This Wednesday,which will be Christmas Eve,I am hoping to go see a movie.It is the movie Quarantine,which is a remake of a 2007 Spanish thriller named Rec.I have been waiting for this movie to come for a long time since I heard about it earlier this year.Again,this Wednesday,I am hoping to go see it and I am hoping that it is a very good film.I have been dying to see this since it was released late this year.I am going to see this and again,I hope that it is a good one.
I also had a talk with a friend out of town.He is doing good and he also tells me that he is also having a horrendous weather pattern where he is living.We talked for only 10 minutes before hanging up.
Right now,I am relaxing.I have no place to go since I have no car and because it is bitterly COLD!!!!I am just going to pop a movie in and relax for a bit before going to bed.
I do have some stufff that I need to do tomorrow and I am hoping to get them done.It will be some last minute shopping that needs to be done.Again,I am hoping to get that done.It will also be my day off.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty eventful day today.
I did quite a bit.I dropped a holiday card off at a house that I had forgotten to send it too when I initially sent out the holiday cards.After that,I went to a local drug store and bought a Hannah Montana calendar for my eldest grand niece and I hope that she really enjoys that.
But before I did any of these things,I had to shovel the sidewalk by the house and I also had to clear the way for the mail person on the front porch.That way,we would get our mail and there would be no problems.It was a very hard job doing all of that shovelling because of the high volume of snow that was on the sidewalk due to the terrible snowstorm that we had yesterday.According to the National Weather Service,we are supposed to get more snow.Oh well.This is the winter season and it is to be expected.I will have to shovel again when the time comes.
My mom and I went out to do some holiday shopping and to finally get the grocery shopping done.It took us several hours to get done.It also took me over 8 dollars in cab fare.But this couldn't be avoided.We were glad to get this done.We still need to do a little more holiday shopping before the holiday comes around.
Right now,the weather is COLD!!!!There is no snow falling at the moment but the weather is bitterly COLD and CHILLY!!!!Again,it is to be expected for this time of the year.My legs are hurting and the bone spur in my right foot is also hurting.The pain is excruciating.But I am hoping that it will pass.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to do some catching up on some personal PC work.It wasn't an awful lot but I am glad to get it done.
The only really disappointing thing is that I am staying home again tonight.The roads are really terrible and I still don't my 4X4 back on the road.It is still in the shop.But I am hoping to have it back on the road just in time for the holiday.
As for tomorrow,I will just stay home and take it easy.I have nothing else to do or anyplace to go.
That was my day today and my plans for the day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty hectic day today.
I had an unexpected surprise when I arrived at work this morning.I found that I had the day off.At the moment,we are in the middle of a terrible snowstorm.It is blowing and drifting everywhere.It is also COLD!!!!The weather is really horrendous and the snow is really coming down.After I ate a light lunch,I left my work to go to the bus stop.
I waited for over 20 minutes for the bus to come.It was really blowing and the visibility was really terrible.I could hardly see down the street when I was looking out for a bus on my way to work and on my way home.I had to wear my sunglases so I could keep my eyes open because the snow was really falling into my eyes thanks to the high winds and I could hardly keep them open because of that.But when the bus came,I boarded and I headed for the bank.
Though the bank was a short distance away from the stop,I had a tough time getting there because of the weather.I almost slipped on some ice on the street and that was no help.But I made it.I cashed my paycheck and headed for the nearby stores in the area.
I went to a Dollar Tree in the area and bought some things at the store.I also went to a nearby supermarket and bought a few important things that were needed,especially one that I needed.After doing the shopping,I called a cab and headed for home.
When I got home,I opened the door but it got hit by a passing motorist.Fortunately,I didn't get hurt but the door got a small nick on it.It had to be beaten into shape again and the guy that did it offered to do it.I apologized to the cab driver for opening the door too early and that was great to work out.
When I got into the house,I got out of my clothes and into my pajamas to relax and lay down.I really did not do too much.I simply relaxed a bit because I was feeling tired.I didn't go to sleep but it was just great to lay down and take it easy from enduring the Winter storm that is happening right now.I am glad to be inside.
After I ate a light pasta dinner,I decided to do some catching up on some personal PC work.I also registered a whole bunch of new bills at the Where's George site.It was quite a lot.I had fun and now,they are on the site.
I did hear from the garage.Though my mechanic is on vacation for the last two weeks of the month,I heard from his sideman.He told me that the gas tank is on my 4X4,but he told me that there is still a leak.He is trying to locate the part that is needed.He also informed me that he has tried every auto parts store in town but they didn't have it.He told me that he would have to check with auto dealerships parts departments to see if they have it.He told me that he would resume the search on Monday and he hopes to have it soon.I will be heading to the garage on Monday anyway.I have to drop off some money at the garage as I promised my mechanic.I am hoping that the weather will be decent so I can bring it there.
I am now relaxing.I am just taking it easy and I am hoping that the storm we are currently having will end soon.
Since I have no car and because of the storm,I will have to stay home again.This will be the first time that I will be missing the annual Christmas party at the place where I entertain.If the weather does change,I will go out.If now,I'll stay home to be on the safe side.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.II had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.It was pretty easy.I had only a little bit to do and when I was finished,I I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby post office.I had to mail out my monthly payment to the finance company.When I got that accomplished,I headed for a nearby bus stop to take the bus home.
When I got home,I simply relaxed for a bit and took it easy.I also phoned my mechanic and he assured me that he was working on my 4X4 well into the evening.He desperately wants me to get this back on the road again.He also wants to go on a two week vacation to visit with his family during the holidays and that is why he is working and racing against time.I am hoping that he can get this done tonight.I would hate having to wait two weeks for my vehicle to get back on the road.I have a temptation to call and see if the work is now completed.I am hoping that it is completed so I can pick it up and start driving it again.I would hate to wait another two weeks.I hope that it will be done by tomorrow.
Earlier this evening,I had to walk to a supermarket in my hometown to pick up a few things.I am glad that I did this.I just had to get out for a while.I was going bonkers just waiting for my vehicle to get out of the shop.It was a nice walk.I bought a few things that were needed and I managed to make it home.It is a bitterly cold night but I managed to get something accomplished.
I am now at home releaxing and I am just anticipating the next day.As stated,I am hoping that my 4X4 will be ready tomorrow morning.That would be really great.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Since I had the day off today,I decided to do some catching up on some much needed important things that I had to do.I mailed out a bunch of Christmas cards.I also managed to stop over at my mechanic's garage to drop off the CD's that I had made for him.He really appreciated that.He also told me,in a hopeful manner,that my 4X4 could be ready by tomorrow or Friday.I was thrilled.After hearing this,I headed for a nearby bus stop to catch the bus to the nearby transit center.
Before heading for home,I headed for a local Dollar General store to pick up a couple of things that we needed at home.After paying for them,I headed for a nearby bus stop to go home.It took half an hour but when the bus came,I got on and headed for home.
When I got home,I took off my wet sneakers and my wet socks.I put a pair of clean and dry socks and changed into my sweatsuit.My mom and I decided to order a pizza for dinner and while eating,we watched another holiday video,which was The Flintstones:Christmas in Bedrock.It was really neat.
After that,I decided to do some catching up on some personal PC work.I am now done.
The only thing that I didn't get accomplished was that I forgot my payment for my monthly finance company bill.There is always tomorrow,which is what I will do after I am done with work.
As stated,tomorrow is a work day and I am hoping that the shift goes well.I am also hoping that when I call my mechanic tomorrow,my 4X4 will be all set for me to drive.After that,if that happens,I can finally get my life back on track.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.The reason is that they haven't gotten around to putting the parts on my 4X4 yet.This really gotten me feeling at edge.I understand the dillemma that they are having at the garage but they have been promising me that they are going to start my vehicle soon,but I keep hearing the same old story everytime I turn around.I am getting tired of this.
Despite that,the work day went smoothly with no problems.But the news from my mechanic really threw me.I understand what he is going through.But I am also having problems.I can't help my family out with their stuff and I haven't even finished my shopping as of yet.This has been very stressful for me and I can't take it anymore.
Fortunately for me,I will be able to use the extra time that I have tomorrow to catch on some stuff.I have to mail out a check and a money order to the finance company this month for my payment on my line of credit.I also have several Christmas cards that I have to mail out.I have the day off and I am going to use the day to catch up on some much needed important things that I need to do before the month is out.This has been a very nerve wracking month for me.It has been one thing after another concerning my vehicle and all the other things.I am hoping that this situation gets resolved very soon.I don't think that I will be able to take much more of this.I am feeling anger and rage and I am also feeling over the edge over this.Why did that accident that happened to me over a month ago had to happen to me at a time like this?!I am just hoping that this whole thing is over soon and I wil be driving again.Again,this has been a very nerve wracking month and I don't know whether I'm coming or going.
Any prayers will be appreciated.Thanks in advance for them.
That was my day today.I am just hoping that everything works out for me tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty fair day today but I did receive some very good news.
I managed to have a talk with my mechanic today and he is hoping to start on my vehicle eitehr later tonight or early tomorrow.He really wants me to start having a vehicle again and I am hoping that this can happen.I even told him that the CD's that I made for him were done and he thanked me.I hung up and started to get through the rest of the day.
I finished my personal PC work and I also ran an errand for my mom.I walked to a local convienience store to pick up a can of pasta sauce for dinner tonight.We had a light pasta dinner tonight and it was pretty filling.I also managed to get something for myself.
After eating and watching the news,I decided to do some catching up on some much needed personal PC work.I am glad that this is done and I can now relax and take it easy for the rest of the evening.
I am hoping that my vehicle will be ready by tomorrow.I have been without a vehicle for over a month now and it has been driving me crazy.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
I really did not do too much today.The weather was a little chilly and it was raining for only a short time.I only went out to run one errand,which was to get a couple of things that my mom needed at a near by drug store.
After I got home,I decided to go upstairs and make another copy of a CD that I was making for my mechanic.I only did that because the first one did not turn out so well.There was a chunk of music missing on one song and I had to redo the whole thing all over again.Before I finalized the disc,Itest played it and this time,there were no problems.I just got done playing them both on my computer's CD-ROM drive and they both came out great.My mechanic,at least I hope,will really like these.Tomorrow,I will be calling him to let him know that they are ready and I would like to drop them off at his garage.I will be making him another CD in the near future.This time,it will be a CD of mixed songs.I will make it when I have another opportunity.Right now,the only thing that I am hoping is that my 4X4 will be on the road this coming week.
This morning,I listened to a sermon online and while listening to it,I did my personal PC work.It was an interesting sermon about the real meaning of Christmas and why Jesus Christ came to earth in the form of a man to save mankind.It was really nice and i enjoyed it immensely.I will be looking forward to next week's sermon.
While eating a light dinner,we watched the classic holiday story The Little Drummer Boy on DVD.It was really great to see this without commercial interruptions of any kind.Overall,a pretty good day.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes great.I will have to get to the post office tomorrow because I have to mail out my payment to the finance company and some Christmas cards.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
I really did not do too much.I only ran a small errand today for my mom and myself.I bought a few things that were needed for the house.I bought them at a nearby Rite-Aid.On the way there,I saw that there was a small blue Sears shopping basket on the street.I simply picked it up and took it with me to Rite-Aid and used it to carry all the groceries that I had to buy home.The minute that I get my 4X4 back on the road,I am going to make sure that it's returned to Sears because it is the right thing to do.
When I got home,I relaxed and put in Elmo Saves Christmas in my DVD player and also watched the classic Cricket on the Hearth.We watched them while we were having a light pasta dinner.It was pretty good.
Earlier today,I managed to make a CD for my mechanic.He wanted me to burn the entire Soft Cell album Non-Stop Erotic Cabaret for him.I did that and managed to finish it despite a minor problem having with the CD burner that I have.I am going to make one more CD for my mechanic because he wants me to make two of them for him.I am glad to do it.I am hoping that he enjoys them when I am finished.
As with last Saturday night,I am staying home on the ground that I do not have a car.But I am hoping that my vehicle will be up and running next week.
Tomorrow,I have to buy a copy of the Buffalo News because they are starting another Buffalo Sabres picture thing.I need the coupon to buy a Ryan Miller puck with his picture on it.I am hoping that I can get mine and that there are still some left.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.Though I am still feeling a little at edge,I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply dropped off quite a bit of clean laundry with the help of a job coach.I only picked up a little bit and that was it.After the shift was over,I headed for the nearest transit center to take a bus to the bank and head for home.
On the way there,I stopped at a nearby Dollar Tree to pick up a box of Christmas cards and a small roll of duct tape.I also stopped at a nearby Rite-Aid to buy a box of penne pasta.After that,I waited at the transit center for the bus.
Whiel waiting for the bus to leave,I received a phone call from my mechanic to inform me that he needed to pick up the money that I had for him for the new gas tank.He said that it was mandatory and that he needed it now.I called my mom to tell her where the money was and where she would find it.After talking with her,I called my mechanic back and told him that it was set and he could go and pick it up right then and there.
After cashing my paycheck,I headed straight home by taking a cab home and when I got home,my mom informed me that my mechanic came and picked up the money.I paid her back the money that she put on top of it so he wouldn't have to come back later on in the evening.After that,I dressed up in my sweats and I relaxed for a bit before eating a light dinner.
After dinner,I finished my personal PC work and my day is now complete.I am just hoping that my compact 4X4 will be back on the road soon so I can start driving again.My life has been really plain since my 4X4 has been in the shop and getting fixed,including when I had a crash over a month ago.But I am hoping that I will be driving very soon.
I will be staying home tomorrow night once again since I haven't had a car.But I am hoping to go out next Saturday night.Tomorrow night,I will be watching a movie again.
That was my day today and my plans for tomorrow night.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a roller coaster ride of a day today.
The work shift managed to go smoothly.I did what I had to do in the period of time that I had.After I was done,I simply went home for the day.
When I got home,I relaxed a bit and took it easy.But it wasn't for long.I had to run a a couple of important errands for my mom today.I had to pick up somethine from the house of a friend of hers and I also had to go to the drug store to pick up a few things.Two of them were prescriptions that she needed.I had the help of my niece today for those things and I was greatful.After she dropped me off at home,I got out of my clothes and into my sweats.
Early this evening,I watched a holiday special on video that I have had for several years,which was A Flintstones Christmas Carol.It was a sweet treat watching this.
I also had a talk with my mechanic early this evening after I ate a light dinner.He told me that the parts that I needed,which were a ball joint and a fuel tank were in and they will be putting them on next week.All I need to do is give him the money for the fuel tank and I am set.I will be giving him more money in the near future each and every week.I am still waiting on a reimbursement from my work of money that I spent on my auto repair work that I had done so far.I am hoping that it will be enough to offset the balance that I owe him.
The reason why I am feeling mixed emotions is because I had to do a lot of work in my vinyl room tonight.After straightening out some piles of records that I have,I had to go back into that room to do a lot more work when a stack of records toppled over and made another pile topple over.I spent over an hour straightening out those piles again and to make sure that this wouldn't happen again for quite a while.I worked for over 2 and 1/2 hours initially and I had to work another hour,which totaled over 3 hours.I am hoping that I do not have to do this again for quite a while.I will be glad to get those boxes that I need so I can put my record albums in them and stack the boxes neatly so I will not have to worry about them anymore.It is becoming a pain in the butt to maintain this room each and every time I turn around.Fortunately,none of them are broken or cracked and that is a relief.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes over smoothly and that tomorrow is a better day.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I managed to get something accomplished today.
I couldn't do the laundry pick-up because there was nobody there to help me out with it.Oh well.There's always tomorrow.
But when i got home,I called my brother in-law to see if he could still take me to the finance company to pick up the check that I needed so I will have some money to give my mechanic to pay for the new fuel tank.That went well.I picked the check up and the trip went smoothly.I also cashed it when I got back into the city and I also withdrew some more money from my checking account to have some additional money.I have almost all of what I need to get the part.On Friday,I will have it all.
When I got home,I saw that a package that I was expecting had come in.It was three hard to find record albums.I am glad to have these.I also got a couple more important things that I was waiting on.Overall,a really great day.
I am also feeling better because there was no trouble at the social club today.It was a pretty quite day with nobody there to rub me the wrong way.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to catch up on some much needed personal PC work.I can now take it easy for the rest of the evening.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am again feeling mixed emotions.I had a very hard day today.
The work day started very rocky.I had another run in with an inconsiderate person while at the social club.This was the same person that started with me the day before Thanksgiving and he tried to do it again with me this time over the radio.I assured him that it was at the volume level that the club requires but he wouldn't take my word for it.He even accused me of not being in my right mind,which I was.Apparently,this guy always tries to start stuff with me and this time,a loud disagreement happened and he even called me some really dirty names.This led to even more shouting and conferences with the social club coordinator.Fortunately,I chose to focus more on my job and less on the social club.The rest of the day went smoothly.But I was still feeling at edge over this whole thing and I am hoping that a good nights sleep will help me out.I also hope that everything works out tomorrow when I will be going to a finance company that is currently holding a line of credit account in my name so I can pick up a check with some money so I can put it towards the new fuel tank.I am hoping that everything works out tomorrow.
After having a bowl of homemade soup,I finished my personal PC work.I can now relax.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that this goes smoothly with no messes to clean up.After that,it is off to the finance company to pick up the money.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty uneventful day today.
Today,I only ran a few errands that I needed to get out of the way.It was nothing really special.It was just some things that I needed to get for the home.I also had to go later and get a few other things.I had to get some soap for myself and a couple boxes of cookies.I also had to withdraw some money for my mom and myself.I had to take a taxi cab home due to all the money that I had on me.
I also got a phone call from my mechanic.It is going to take over $300.00 to replace the fuel tank.I am hoping that by the end of the week,I can get all of it together.I just have to make some sacrifices and take whatever I can get.I need my 4X4 back on the road soon.I am hoping for a reimbursement to come in from work so I can at least give my mechanic something.But I am hoping to have that money by the end of the week.
Aside from that,I have nothing else new to report.It is just the same old things on a different day.I hope that things will get better for me.
Tomorrow is a work day and I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions once again.Today was a very uneventful day.
Since I have no vehicle,I am staying home tonight.I will not be doing my usual singing tonight.It is depressing but what can you do when you have no vehicle and hardly any money.I had a blast last week singing but I have no meny for cab fare back and forth this week.The money that I got when I cashed my paycheck had to be used to buy some food.But I am hoping that I will have my vehicle back soon so I can start going out again.
The only thing that I did get done tonight was that I had to drop off some keys at my mechanic's garage today.He was doing some last minute repair work for a friend of his on his truck.Apparently,this friend needed to get his truck fixed up so he could go away to spend he holiday with his family in another state.But I managed to get the key there and I am glad.This coming Monday,I have to make a withdrawl from my mom's and my account so my mom will have some money to pay the county tax bill and so I can pay my half of the insurance when it is due.All I will need is my niece's half and I am set.I still have one more bill to pay and after that,I have some extra money for myself.The only other thing that I have done is that I stopped at a local drug store to pick up some more snacking food.
I am hoping to have my 4X4 back soon so I can start doing what I need to do this season.Thank goodness that this holiday only comes once a year.I am going to miss driving for a while but it is reality.
As for tomorrow,I will just have to take it easy once again.I will just watch a movie or two and then,I don't know.
That was my day today and my plans for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty shaky and hard day today.
After a promising start,I was caught off guard by a fuel leak on my 4x4.After filling up my tank,I saw that some fuel leaked out near my passenger side rear wheel.I drove to work immediately after that.But when I got there,I saw that I was still leaking and that there was a puddle of fuel underneath the vehicle.After sorting out the laundry pretty fast,I had to move my vehicle onto the street and the maintenance crew had to come over to clean up all the fuel on the driveway.Fortunately,my laundry work shift was not compromised and I managed to get a little bit done in the short time that I had to do it.After getting my 4x4 back on the road and having to have a minor ball joint repair done on Monday,I find that I need a new fuel tank and fuel line to get this back into the best running condition.It is running good but now,I have to have this get more repairs.That is life,I know.But it is still pretty sad and depressing.I was hoping to go out tomorrow and entertain the crowd but now,I have to stay home.Hopefully,by next week,I can have these repairs done and my vehicle back on the road.
To be on the safe side,I had my vehicle towed to my mechanic's garage so he can check it out on Monday.The only thing that is looking up is that someone is interested in buying my smashed up 1994 Toyota Corolla.If that guys pays well enough,I will have to say yes.This will make it a little bit easier for me.I am hoping that the guy is till interested when my mechanic calls him when the keys are there.I will also have to get the title ready so it can be sold to that guy.I am hoping that something can come of this.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work.I will be taking it easy for the rest of the night.I will just have to get used to being home for a while until I start driving again.
That was my day today and my plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the short period of time that I had and I did quite a bit.After eating lunch,I bagged all the clean while my 4X4 was warming up and when I got to the vehicle,I saw that my coolant gage was right in the middle.I drove for a while and while it did go back to just before the middle,I felt that I needed a bottle of anti-freeze just in case.After dropping off the laundry,I went right to a local drug store on the way home and bought a bottle.I filled my coolant reservoir clear to the top and I headed for home.Before topping off my radiator to be on the safe side,I waited for my vehicle to cool down for a few hours.Before eating,I topped off my radiator and visited with a neighbor of mine for just a few minutes.
After eating a light dinner,I finished my personal PC work.It was quite a bit to do and I am glad to have gotten it done.I can now take it easy for the rest of the day.
Earlier this afternoon,when I first got in,I wound up giving into temptation by masturbating.I was playing with myself and wound up masturbating later until ejaculation.I felt miserable after that but after asking for forgiveness,I felt better.But I need to work on not touching myself in my genital area so I can avoid the trapfalls.I have been overwhelmed lately by images of men and also of having sexual relations with them in visions.I've even been talking to myself pretending that there are there in the room with me,agreeing to perform sexual favors for them,such as fellatio.I need to get my mind off of sex and having sex with men.If anyone can help me get these things off of my mind and how I can go about ridding myself of these things,please let me know.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.But I am also feeling tired and exhausted.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was simply a pick-up day.The pick-up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean and that was great.I headed over to the work site after that.
Before I sorted out the laundry,I hung out at the social club for a while and after I ate lunch,I did my duties.I sorted out the laundry and after that,I left for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby post office.I had to mail out a credit card payment and I also mailed out a payment for some record albums that I ordered.The people that I ordered from found these for me and I am glad to have them.I will have to wait for a little over a week to get them,but I don't care.It will be well worth the wait.
After that,I had to withdraw some money from my account for some further repair work to be done on my 4X4.A ball joint has to be replaced.Each and every time that I steer it,I hear a squeak.My mechanic already said that this was a ball joint and on Monday,I am going to have it replaced.I also need an oil change done as well and that will be done on the same day.It will be great to have this in good working and driving condition.
I ran several errands today for my mom and myself.I simply bought some more holiday DVD's for myself and I bought some groceries for my mom.I was out for much of the day.I also managed to go to a local Salvation Army thrift shop and bought some more stuff there as well.Overall,a pretty good day.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,I have to pick up something for my mom on the way home.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty fair work day today and I'm also driving again.
I started driving my compact 4X4 today after I got home from work and I am happy to be driving again.After not having a vehicle for over 3 weeks,I am driving again and I am feeling a little bit better.
The work day went fairly well.I simply did my job and it was easy.I had to do a lot more than I was used to because the rehab center really needed some clean stuff so I did double the amount but I kept it clean and neat.It was great.After dropping off the clean,with the help of a job coach,I was let out at a nearby bus stop to get on a bus and go home.
After getting off,I dropped off a couple of newspapers at a house and I walked home.When I got home,I waited until 4:00p.m.before calling my mechanic.
When I did,I received the greatest news.My 4x4 was ready to be driven.After paying for the repairs,I drove off to get some gas and after that,I headed for home.
Wnen I got home,I had a light dinner of homemade chicken soup and it was delicious.I also finished my personal PC work and I can take it easy for now.I have no place to go tonight so I am going to take it easy for a while.Though I do have wheels now,I am still going to stay home.The weather is windy,snowy,wet and COLD!
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes smoothly with no messes to clean up.
That was my day today and my hopes for teh day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
I talked with my mechanic today.He told me to get back to him in over 1/2 hour.After I ran an errand,I called and got his stepdaughter and she advised me to cal tomorrow afternoon around 2:00p.m.I said okay and I hung up.
I ran a small errand for my mom today.I had to buy a few things that were needed in the house and I went to a nearby drug store to get the items.After purchasing them,I headed straight home to make the aforementioned phone call and I sat down to eat dinner,which was mostly leftovers but it was great.
After eating,I decided to do some last minute catching up on personal PC work.I am just glad that I got that errand done because it is now windy and rainy outside.The winds are very high and blowing pretty fast.It is also raining outside.On top of all that,it is COLD!I am glad to be in the house right now.I am also gald that I don't have to go out anymore tonight.But I still have to brave the elements tomorrow morning when I have to go to work.I am just hoping that it will not be that bad as it is right now.
I am hoping that tomorrow will finally be the day that I can start driving again.I have been waiting for a little over 3 weeks.Again,I hope that I can start driving again tomorrow.
As stated,tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ