Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time that I had.It wasn't hard.After I was done,I bagged everything that was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at my regular bank to cash my paycheck and I also withdrew some money that my mom needed.After that,I headed for a nearby drug store to buy a bottle of hydrogen peroxide for my mom.I headed straight home afterwards.
After getting home,I relaxed for a bit while waiting for dinner to get ready.I was waiting for a website to come up to connect me to the renewal process of my Norton anti-virus software.I now can simply go to my renewal next week so I can renew my subscription.I am going to be needing this to keep my protection going for another year.You never know when a virus or some spyware will invade or even try to invade the database.
After eating,I registered the bills at the Where's George site and I did some other personal work.Overall,a pretty good day.
I am glad that the weekend is here.I am looking forward to singing tomorrow night.I always look forward to entertaining the crowd and it makes me feel great to do that.I am hoping that the night goes well.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I did not have any images nor did I have any cravings creeping up on my mentality.It is great that I am no longer enslaved to SSA and that I really don't have to act out if I really don't want to.I am hoping to get through the weekend unscathed.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have made no plans but whatever I do,I am hoping that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the new weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good but busy day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time allotted.Despite a shaky start to the day,the day went well and I was pleased with the results.After my job was finished,I bagged everything and I dropped it off at the rehab center before heading straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched another After School Special episode on my DVD set.I also got ready to go to my appointment with the new sexual abuse support counselor.
On the way to my appointment,I stopped to check up on a friend but he wasn't home.After that,I went to get some gas and I headed for the office to wait to see the counselor.
I didn't wait too long.I was called into the office a few minutes after arriving.We talked for about 20 minutes and we ended the session.It did go fairly well but we are looking forward to talking more on my next appointment,which will be in two weeks.
Before heading for home,I headed for the local hospital's emergency ward.I was feeling a resurgence of the same cold symptoms that I had two weeks ago.The in-house doctor there prescribed a nasal spray and some strong cough remedy.I got the prescriptions filled on the way home because I needed them right away.I headed straight home after they were filled.When I got home,I started using the nasal spray right away.I am feeling a little bit better nasal wise but I am still coughing a little.I will be taking a cough pill before I go to sleep tonight.
After eating a light dinner,I finished my personal PC work and I did some online browsing.Overall,a pretty good but busy day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems nor did I have any images or cravings creeping up into my mentality.I am hoping that I can get through the day tomorrow unscathed.I am feeling pretty good as a result.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.I also had a helping hand when I arrived at the work site to drop it off and sort it out.After sorting out the laundry,I headed to my appointment to meet with the minister.
On the way there,I stopped at a Burger King in the area and I had a Veggie burger for lunch.I wanted to have some food in me before anything else.After eating,I headed for my appointment.
It took a bit of doing getting there.I also got lost a couple of times before I had to ask for help from a lady who was working by the side of the road.After she gave me some direction,I took the way she gave me and I found the street that I was looking for and the place where my meeting was going to be.
When I walked into the church,the minister greeted me and I apologized for being a few minutes late due to me getting lost.We talked for almost and hour and it was a very pleasant conversation.He simply advised me to find a church that teaches the bible on a regular basis but also,try to find one that believes in doing the right thing and refuse to compromise due to law.I said that I would try and do that and that I would let him know when I do.He walked me out and I drove away heading for home.
On the way home,I made a couple of stops.Firstly,I stopped at my mechanic's garage to clean out my old car of some cans and bottles that had accumulated in the trunk.I bagged them in a garbage bag and put them in the back seat of my 4X4 before heading off to a local supermarket to return some beer bottles and some cans for the little bit of money that they would give me.I headed straight home after that and I am staying here for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I watched another After School Special from the DVD set that I bought and I laid down for a short while before I had dinner.
After eating,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work and to browse some internet pages.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems whatsoever.I had no cravings nor images creeping up on me.The meeting with the minister really helped me to forget about anything sexual.Plus,all the concentration that I had to do regarding the road also helped.I feel pretty good as a result of this and the day turned out to be pretty wonderful.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.I also have an appointment with a new sexual abuse support counselor and I am hoping that this first session will go well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time allotted.It wasn't quite a bit to do.After finishing,I simply bagged what was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar General store to buy a box of garbage bags and some baby wipes.I headed straight home after paying for them.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched an episode of my new DVD set of After School Specials and it was a treat to watch it.I got this on Monday and I watched one that day that I had missed when I was younger.It was also a treat to watch that one as well.After watching that,I registered a couple of bills at the Where's George site.I then proceeded to go out and get dinner for me and my mom.
I bought a $4.00 sandwich at Quizno's shop and it was delicious.I also had them slice the sandwich in half so me and my mom could eat it.Again,the sandwich was delicious and my mom and I enjoyed it.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work.It was quite a lot but I got it done.I also visited a few other webpages and checked my Yahoo Messenger to see if I had any offline messages and to add a few contacts to my Yahoo messengers list.I didn't stay on messenger for too long as I signed out and closed the messenger.I will be checking it again before I shut down to see if there has been any changes.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images nor cravings creeping up on me.Plus,I had no desire to act out.That actually makes me feel pretty good.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick up goes well.I also have an appointment to meet with a minister tomorrow afternoon and I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I did have a few errands that I needed to run.Firstly,I went to my mechanic's garage so he could check my horn out and see why it was giving out on me.He simply did some cleaning of some dirt on the connectors and after that,the horn worked better than ever.I went straight home after that and got back into bed,where I slept for a little over an hour.
After getting back up,I did my personal PC work and had a light lunch.I also managed to bring my mail in and I got the DVD set that I was waiting on.I then proceeded to continue on with my day.
I went to the post office to mail out a couple of bills that I needed to pay and I also went after picking up my mom's prescription refill.I then went to a mom's friends house to pick up something that she had for her.Lastly,I went to a local supermarket to pick up a bag of bagels.I headed straight home after that and waited for dinner to get done.
After eating,I decided to do some more last minute personal PC work.In between all the errands,I managed to withdraw some money for my mom and I registered all the bills at the Where's George site.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.There were no images nor cravings.I guess that keeping myself busy was what kept my mind off of sex with men and sex in general.I feel pretty good because of it.I hope that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers of the world.
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today despite a shaky start.
When I got out of bed,I had a light breakfast and I did my personal PC work.It was quite a lot and I did have a few issues with the browser that I was using.But again,I managed to get everything done and I proceeded to get on with the day.
I really didn't have too much to do.After I gave my mom her Mother's Day gift,which was the CD that I made for her,I cleaned up,got dressed and went out for a while.My eldest sister was in town visiting with mom and I felt that I should leave them alone for a while.
Firstly,I got some gas at a local gas station and I went to a nearby shopping mall.When I got there,I had a slice of pizza as a late lunch and I headed back home after I was done eating.
When I did get home,my eldest sister was still talking with mom and I chose to browse the internet for a while.I would eventually take my eldest sister to my other sister's house when she felt a little tired.
After getting home,I ate a late dinner and after eating,I chose to do some last minute personal PC work.I also did some browsing and visited a few pages on Wikipedia and Muppet Wiki.Overall,a pretty good day.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.There were quite a few guys there who were having a bachelor party downstairs in the place's basement and they decided to come up and watch the entertainment upstairs once their party ended.It was great to have all of these guys there and I did get some really loud positive responses from them as one by one,most of them left for home.Still,it was a great night and I had a good time.I am looking forward to next week.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had an episode where I wound up masturbating.Images of men with erections crept up into my mentality while I was still in bed sleeping and as stated,I masturbated.I did feel miserable after that but after cleaning up all the seminal residue,I asked the creator to forgive me.I felt better after that.I guess that I need to learn to make alternate decisions before acting out.I have been doing so good but I wound up falling short.There is a new week ahead and I am hoping that I can get through the week unscathed.
I am thinking of going out and having a drink with the guys over at the bar tonight.I am hoping for some good conversations with them.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes well.I do have an appointment with my mechanic tomorrow so he can check out my horn mechanism to see why it has been giving out on me a lot lately.I hope that the problem is not very serious.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was a pretty busy day.After I woke up,I ate and I did my personal PC work.It was quite a lot and I was glad to have gotten it done.After doing that,I started to get on with my day.
I ran a whole bunch of errands today.Firstly,I went and had my hair cut and I had a light lunch at a nearby supermarket.I also went to the local Wal-Mart and bought some new razor blades.Last but not least,I stopped at a local supermarket to buy a few things that my mom needed.I headed for home after that.
When I got home,I unloaded the groceries and I bathed while mom prepared dinner.After the bath,I registered a couple of bills that I got in change after I had my hair cut.After doing a little bit of some personal stuff,I ate dinner.
After eating,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work before shutting the computer down.
I am going to be singing up a storm tonight.I am looking forward to entertaining the crowd as I always do every weekend.I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.I rarely have any bad nights but I always hope that things go well.It is a habit of mine.I do have the feeling that things will work out for me.Still,I hope.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images creeping up on me nor did I have any cravings to act out.I am feeling pretty good as a result.I am just hoping that I can get through the rest of the weekend unscathed.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I had only a small amount of laundry during the pick-up phase but it was better than nothing.I had lunch before starting my job.I had only a couple of small loads to do and it didn't take too much of my time.After I was done.I simply dropped the clean laundry off and headed for home.
I went home before going to the bank because I needed to charge my cell phone.It was beeping repeatedly because the battery was low and it was driving me crazy.After plugging in my phone,I headed for the bank.
After cashing my check,I headed straight home but I went back out again after dropping off my money because my mom needed tartar sauce.I went back out to get it.
When I got home,I ate a light dinner and I made a CD set for my mom for Mother's Day.I am hoping that my mom enjoys this CD set of songs that I made for her.I will be giving it to her on Sunday.Again,I am hoping that she enjoys it.
I also ran one more errand tonight.I ran out to the local Wal-Mart to purchase a few things that I needed for myself.I also had no problems finding the stuff that I needed.Overall,a pretty good day.
I am just glad that the weekend is here.I am looking forward to singing tomorrow night and I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.I haven't made any plans on what I will do the rest of the weekend but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no cravings nor did any images creep up into my mentality.Plus,I haven't watched any pornography nor have I visited any pornographic websites in over two months.I am feeling pretty good as a result.I am hoping that I can get through the weekend unscathed.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling alright.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.The only drawback was that there was no laundry for me to pick up.Fortunately,there was some stuff for me to do at the work site and it wasn't a total loss.I simply did what I had to do job wise and everything worked out.After dropping off the clean laundry at the rehab center,I headed for home.
On the way home,I made a couple of stops.I firstly stopped at a gas station to get some gas and I made a stop at a Dollar Tree store to buy a few things that my mom needed and after paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I laid down for a little over an hour because I was feeling tired after my work day.I slept for a while before finishing my personal PC work.
After eating a light dinner,I read from a local newspaper that I bought at the Dollar Tree store while listening to some music.They were a couple of records that I had bought off of an Ebay seller.
The day started pretty dismal but later wound up nice.For much of the morning,the weather was wet and foggy.It turned sunny after a while but was still pretty cool.Overall,a pretty good work day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images creeping up into my mind nor did I have any cravings.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly despite a minor setback.After I arrived at the work site,I had lunch before sorting out the laundry.There were only a couple of semi-heaping full bags and I had plenty of time before sorting them.After eating,I did what I had to do and I headed for home.
On the way home,I made a couple of stops.I first mailed out some cards for my mom and I stopped at a local Dollar General to pick up a few things that my mom needed.After paying for the items,I stopped at a local Salvation Army thrift shop to look around but couldn't find anything that I wanted.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I decided to lay down for a while and was hoping to rest for an hour but was interrupted by a phone call.The phone call was from a new sexual abuse support counselor that I will be having sessions with.She called to reschedule because something had come up for this coming Monday and she needed to give me a new date.After I jotted down the new appointment date,I hung up and sat down for a while.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to run one last errand for my mom today.I had forgotten to pick up a roll of paper towels for my mom and I went out to buy the roll.My mom said that it could have waited until tomorrow,but I wanted to get it done tonight so they would be in the house.
When I got home,I did some last minute personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems today.There were no images or cravings creeping up on me.I hope that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly despite a shaky start with the laundry pick-up.After the pick-up,I went to the work site to sort the laundry out and start a couple of loads.After doing that,I hung out at the social club for a while and had a pretty good conversation with one of the guys there.
After the social club,I concentrated on my job and getting it done.I only went back to the social club just to have lunch and after that,I finished the work that I needed to finish and dropped the clean laundry off at the rehab center.I headed for home after that.
On the way home,I made some stops along the way.Firstly,I dropped off a couple of newspapers at a couple of friends houses and I picked up my mom's prescription at the drug store while also picking up some cookies.The last things that I did was that I went to get some gas and I also picked up a gallon of milk.I headed straight home after that and that is where I am for the night.
I relaxed for a bit at home while waiting for dinner to get done.I napped on my bed for about an hour after taking a prescription cough pill.I felt better after my nap and I had dinner shortly after getting up.I also received a phone call from a minister that I was waiting to hear from.We have an appointment set up in a week.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work and despite a couple of issues with the internet browser that I was using,I managed to get it done.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images nor cravings to act out in any way,shape or form.Nothing to complain or gripe about.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty busy day today.
Firstly,when I woke up,I ate and I started to get on with my day.I had a lot to do and I wanted to start getting everything that I needed to do.
I did briefly check my e-mail and I deleted some very unimportant things and after closing off the internet,I cleaned up and got dresses and started to do the things that I needed to do.
Firstly,I went shopping to pick up several things for dinner and several Mother's Day cards that my mom had asked me to get.After getting all of these things,I headed for my appointment.
When I got to the office,I learned that my appointment was canceled.This really came as a surprise to me.I was hoping to meet with the counselor but the meeting was canceled.The counselor later apologized for not letting me know of the changes ahead of time and I got a new appointment with a new counselor and I left the office.
After having a light but late lunch,I went to a nearby post office to buy some stamps to mail out some letters that my mom had asked me to mail and I also mailed out my monthly credit card payment by 3 day Priority Mail so it will get there by the date due.After doing that,I visited with someone that I knew for a while before heading for home.
After I got home,I started to do my personal PC work as I awaited dinner too be ready.I had to do it in two separate intervals today.It was quite a lot.When I did bring in the mail,I received some records that I bought off an Ebay seller.I am still awaiting two more that I bought off of the same seller.I even tried them out on my record player and they play great.
After eating dinner,I finished my personal PC work and I also browsed for a while online.Overall,a pretty busy day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems today.I had no images nor cravings creeping up on me.I guess that keeping myself busy with everything that I had to do was what kept my mind off of sex with other men.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was a pretty busy day for me.I had a few errands that I needed to run.Firstly,I did my personal PC work and I started to get on with my day.I had lots to do and I didn't waste any time.The first place that I went to was my sister's house to pick up a whole bunch of bottles and cans that she said she had.I picked them up and I took them to the local supermarket to turn them in for the money.It was good that I picked these up because the local supermarket was the place where I was heading to pick up some groceries.After turning in the bottles and getting the money,I did the shopping.
I managed to find everything that I was looking for.There was also not a problem finding them.After paying for the groceries,I headed straight home to drop the groceries off before heading back out again.
I went to the friend that owns a record store in town but he wasn't home.I headed back home.
On the way,my mom had called me on my cell phone and told me that my sister had some more beer bottles for me to pick up.I picked them up and immediately turned them in at a nearby convenience store before heading back home.
When I got back home,I registered all the money that I had at the Where's George site,which included the change from the groceries and from all the bottles that I turned in.They are all on the site and I will be sending them on their way very soon.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to do some more personal PC work,including posting here.I also did some internet browsing.Overall,a pretty good and busy day.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.There were quite a few people at the place and I got a lot of positive responses from the crowd.I had a great time and I am looking forward to next Saturday night.I also had a friend with me who came there riding his bicycle and left after singing a couple of songs when finished with his beer.He also called me when he got home and that really relieved me.He told me that he wasn't feeling very well and that he was going home.Overall,a pretty good night.
I am planning to see a movie tonight.I am going to see the film The Haunting in Connecticut.I have heard some mixed reactions to the film and I would like to see it for myself.I am hoping that it is a good movie.After the movie,I am thinking of going to have a drink with the guys at the place where I entertain.I am hoping that I have some good talks with them.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a brief episode while in bed this morning.It came in the form of a dream where a guy I knew was trying to talk me into performing oral sex on him.Fortunately,it was brief.It all ended when I had to get up and use the bathroom.When I went back to bed,I had no problems with SSA and I slept soundly until I finally did get up for the day.I went through the rest of the day unscathed.
Tomorrow is my day off.I have an appointment with a sexual abuse support counselor tomorrow afternoon and I hope that the session goes well.I also have to mail out a payment to a bank for a credit card account that I have with them tomorrow.I am hoping that the whole day goes well.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling very good.I had a very good day today.
First off,I went to the appointment that I had made for this morning and the appointment went well.We had a group meeting where we discussed a few things and we also watched a spiritually enlightened video.It was really awesome.I had a blast just listening to the other men talk and they welcomed me very warmly.It was great and I left feeling better about myself in a long time.After the meeting,I went about to finish what I had set out to do.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby Salvation Army thrift store in the area and bought a few things.I also went to a supermarket nearby the store to pick up some groceries that my mom asked me to get.I managed to find everything that I was looking for.I also went to the nearby Family Dollar store and picked up a couple of bottles of dish detergent.After getting all of these things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I sorted out all of the groceries and I also laid down for a while.I was feeling a little tired.I did not sleep.I simply relaxed while I read from a book that I have.
After my down time,I decided to do my personal PC work.I had put it off all morning while at the meeting and I was glad to get it finished.It was quite a lot and I was glad to to get it done.
After doing that,I ran a few more errands for my mom.I dropped off a birthday gift for my eldest grand-niece and I also bought a few more things at a local supermarket.I headed back home and bathed before I had dinner.
After eating,I ran just one more errand before posting here.I am now done with errands for the day and I am looking forward to what my mom has in store for me tomorrow.
Tonight is the night that I am going out to sing.I am looking forward to entertaining the crowd tonight and I am hoping that the evening goes well.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.Again,I hope that things go well.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.I am planning to see the film The Haunting in Connecticut tomorrow evening.I am hoping that the film is pretty good.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images nor cravings creeping into my mentality.I guess that keeping myself busy doing all the things that I did kept my mind off of sex with other men and the like.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
That was my day today and my hopes for the evening and the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time allotted.After it was all done,I simply bagged everything clean,dropped it off at the rehab center and headed straight home.
After getting home,I went back out to cash my paycheck and withdraw some money for my mom.She wants to buy something for her great grand-daughter for her birthday.There is a birthday party coming up and she wants to make sure that she has a gift for her.
After I got home,I registered all the bills at the Where's George site and managed to get them on the site despite some issues with the internet browser that I was using.After that,I went back out again to get a couple of things while my mom prepared dinner.
After getting home,I speedily checked my e-mail and I also made an Ebay purchase before I sat down at the table to eat.It was a light dinner so I wasn't in no hurry to get to the table.I just wanted to get the purchase done because I had started to do it while waiting.I also managed to buy a DVD set from a seller on Amazon.
After eating,I decided to do some more last minute personal PC work.I still have a couple of more e-mails to write before shutting down the computer.
Tomorrow,I will be meeting with someone at a church in the morning.I talked with the man on Wednesday and the appointment is now set.I am hoping that this goes well.
I am also going to be singing again tomorrow night.I am looking forward to that.I always look forward to singing each and every Saturday night.I am hoping that the evening goes well.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.There were no images nor cravings creeping on me.I kept busy all day with my job and I also read another chapter in the book The Raggamuffin Gospel and so far,it is a very good read.I am hoping to get through the weekend unscathed.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have no plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty eventful day today.
The work shift,despite a minor mishap that I had with a social club member,went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the amount of time that I had.After eating lunch,I bagged everything that was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center.After stopping to get some gas at a nearby gas station,I headed straight home.
I relaxed for a while when I got home.I had an appointment with my eye doctor today and I wanted to prepare for it.I also wanted to be careful not to miss this one like I missed my appointment last week.When it was time to leave,I headed over to the office for my appointment.
When I got there,I was early and they decided to start my test exam early.They did the usual drops in the eyes and checking the eye pressure.I had to wait quite a while for the doctor to talk with me about the results and what he had found out regarding my sight.I have another appointment with him in 6 months.After going to a local supermarket and the local Target to pick up a few things,I headed straight home.Despite the disorganization that I had as a result of the testing,I managed to make it home safe and sound.I even rested for a while before eating when I did get home.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work.It was quite a lot but I got it done.I am still feeling a little disorganized but after a good night's sleep,I know that I will be back in good shape tomorrow morning.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.No images nor cravings crept up into my mentality today.I kept myself busy with all the activity that I had and I am feeling pretty good as a result.Overall,a pretty good day.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay and at the same time,a little "under the weather".I had a pretty eventful day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean up nor were there any problems getting the single bag that I had to the work site.When I arrived at the site,I had lunch before sorting the laundry out.
After getting the job done,I headed over to the local hospital's emergency ward because of some cold symptoms that I had.When I initially got there,I couldn't find a place to park in their parking lot because the parking lot was really filled up.I decided to visit with a friend for a while to see how he was before heading back there.He did initially asked me to take him to the local social services office but later found that he couldn't go because he just remembered that his landlord was coming over to work a matter out with him.After visiting,I headed back to the hospital.
This time,there was a parking space there for me and after I parked,I went right in and signed up to be seen by the doctor.
I was in the ward for a little over a couple of hours.But I was very patient in waiting because they had others that they were seeing.When the doctor did get to me,he examined me and gave me a couple of prescriptions to help with my symptoms.After getting them filled at a local drug store,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things that my mom needed and after paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I took a pill from one of the prescriptions and decided to take a short nap.I rested for a little over an hour and I decided to do some computer work while waiting for dinner to get done.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work.Before posting here,I got a phone call that I was waiting on.I have an appointment to meet with someone at a local church this coming Saturday morning.I am hoping that the meeting with this person goes well.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images nor cravings creeping up into my mind.Plus,when I was resting,I slept very soundly with no images even creeping up into any form of dreams.That made me feel pretty good.I am hoping that I can sleep well tonight.Overall,a pretty eventful day.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.There were no messes to pick up when I did the initial pick-up this morning and when I arrived at the work site,I simply sorted everything out and started a couple of loads before parking my vehicle and heading for the social club.
After spending some time at the social club,I decided to concentrate more on my job and get it done.After the initial loads were done,I started two more.While waiting for those loads to finish,I read for a while.I printed some articles from the internet on how to let go of anger and bitterness and overcoming masturbation.I also read a health article that I also printed off the internet alongside these.I am going to try and use the advice on letting go and overcoming masturbation in the weeks ahead.I am hoping that the advice will work out for me.
As the day was winding down after I had lunch,I started reading the book The Ragamuffin Gospel by Brendan Manning.It looks like a pretty interesting read.The stuff that I read so far are the forwards and words of encouragement that were written by the author and a few friends.I am hoping to get an awful lot out of reading this book.After the day was done,I bagged all that was clean and dropped it off at the rehab center.After dropping off a couple of newspapers at a couple of houses and mailing a birthday card out for my mom,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed because we had rain for much of the day and I didn't feel like going anywhere as a result.
After getting home,I decided to take a nap.I was feeling tired and I felt that a nap would do me some good.while trying to sleep,I was having yet another dream of having sex with a man.I don't know what sparked this but as soon as I dozed off,I started having the dream and I was also talking to myself in my sleep to the person in my dream.Fortunately,it was brief and though I almost gave into a masturbation temptation,I turned to my left side and the dream started dying down and the rest of my nap went great.I slept for over an hour and a half.
After my nap,I had a light dinner and finished my personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day despite the brief episode earlier during my nap.
Regarding my SSA struggles,as stated,I did have that brief episode while trying to take a nap.But again,I was fortunate that it was only brief and though I almost masturbated,it didn't lead to anywhere.I am hoping that I can get through the rest of the week without any problems.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well without any messes to clean up.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I didn't have too much to do today.I simply ran a couple of errands and that sums up how my day went.
After getting out of bed,I ate breakfast and I did my personal PC work.There were not too many issues with the internet browser today though I did close it off for just a few seconds due to the browser freezing up and rebooting itself for a brief time.I managed to finish the work and closed the internet off to get ready for what I had to do.
My first errand today was that I had to go to my mechanic's garage to borrow his scraper so I could remove my old registration window sticker and put my new one on so it can be up to date.After that,I went to a local supermarket to buy a few things that my mom needed.I also bought a couple of birthday cards for a couple of 9 year old cars that I know that my mom wanted me to get.I got them and after paying for them,I headed straight home.I also managed to get a couple things that I needed for myself.
After getting home,I ate a light dinner and I registered a dollar bill that I got in change when I bought the things that I was asked to buy.Overall,a pretty good day.It was also a pretty nice sunny day,weatherwise.
The movie that I went to see,the updated version of The Last House on the Left,was actually a pretty good movie.It was a remake of the 1972 thriller that was created by Wes Craven and Sean S.Cunningham.I really enjoyed the film and I am looking forward to this coming to DVD.The next movie that I am hoping to see is The Haunting in Connecticut.I am hoping that it comes to the bargain theater soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images nor cravings creeping into my mind.I kept myself busy and that kept my mind off of sex with men.I hope that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was a day that I really didn't have too much to do.When I woke up,I simply ate breakfast,did my personal PC work and ran a small errand.I woke up when it was lunchtime.I went to sleep late last night after the night of entertainment that I had the previous night.It was a wonderful night and I had a blast.
When I ran my small errand,I noticed that there was a pack of cigarettes on the floor of my 4X4 and I first wondered how they got there because I don't smoke.I then remembered that I did drop a friend off at home last night and they must have fallen out of his shirt pocket.I went right to his house to drop them off and finished my day.It was nothing much really but I was glad to have been out in the community today.The weather was beautiful and sunny.I just wanted to be out in the community and just be within the presence of others.Again,it was a beautiful sunny day and I was glad to be out.
When I got home,I relaxed a bit while waiting for dinner to get done.It was a light dinner and I just wanted to simply take it easy for a while before it was ready.
After eating,I watched the news on TV for a little over an hour while waiting for my computer to finish restarting because I couldn't get onto the internet due to an issue with the browser.I am now listening to a sermon online and it is pretty good what I am hearing.
Last night,after posting here,I went to the local K-Mart to buy a couple pairs of sneakers.I needed some because the pair that I was wearing were wearing out.I was feeling extreme pain in my right foot and I felt that I needed a new pair.K-Mart was having a sale where if one pair of sneakers is bought,the second pair is 1/2 price.I took advantage of this and bought two pairs.After trying them on for size,I paid for them and headed for home.I wore one of them last night when I went out and I didn't feel any extreme pain.I walked better and I didn't feel like saying "oooch" when I tried to walk.I now have another pair when these wear out.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.I had a blast.I got a lot of positive responses from the crowd.I also had a friend with me and even that made it more worthwhile.I had a great time and I dropped my friend off at home when we were done before I headed straight home.
I do have plans for tonight.I am going to see a movie tonight.I am going to go see the updated version of the classic thriller The Last House on the Left.This is a remake of a film about a family getting revenge on a group of mentally disturbed people after they assaulted their child and her best friend.I am hoping that the film is a good one.After that,I am thinking of going to the place where I entertain and have a drink or two with the gang there.I am hoping that I can have some great conversations with the guys that will be there.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no real problems.I simply went through the day and had no dealings with cravings,feelings and the like.Overall,a pretty fair week because I did have a brief episode on Wednesday afternoon.I am hoping that I can get through the new week unscathed.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes well.I haven't made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it benefits me in a positive manner.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
I really didn't have too much to do today.I simply started the day off by doing my personal PC work and eating breakfast.Despite an issue with the internet browser,I managed to get my work done.I simply closed the browser and restarted the computer so I could increase the speed.It worked and I got the work that I needed to get done accomplished.
I only ran a couple of errands today.I went and got some gas in my tank and I also turned in some bottles that had accumulated in the backseat of my 4x4.I got a little over a couple of bucks but it was great to finally get them to the store and also help the environment a little.
When I got home,I took a bath while mom heated up some homemade soup for dinner.I also did some more personal PC work before even taking my bath,including registering a few more bills at the Where's George site.I am going out tonight and I wanted to be sure that I was cleaned up before anything else.I am going to be doing my usual singing tonight and I am hoping that the evening goes well.Though I rarely have a bad night,I still hope for things to go well.
After eating,I did some more last minute personal PC work.Weatherwise,the wind is blowing and we just had a passing rain shower.We are supposed to get some more rain before the evening is through.I will just have to be more careful while driving home tonight because of the rain.I am going to have a friend with me tonight because he called while I was bathing and said that he would like to go out.Again,I will just have to be careful while I am driving home tonight.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.Nothing crept up into my mentality today.I had no images,cravings nor any desire to act out.I guess that keeping myself busy today was what kept me from thinking of anything sexual with men as well as anything sexual in genral.I am feeling pretty good as a result.I am hoping that I can get through the rest of the weekend unscathed.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have no plans made but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for tonight and the rest of the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly,including the laundry pick up.Before I began my job,I had lunch and socialized for a while.After eating,I sorted the laundry out and did the work.
After I was finished,I bagged everything and dropped it off at the rehab center before heading for home.
I made a few stops on the way home.I first went to the bank to cash my paycheck and I went to the local K-Mart.I was looking for pain relieving patches but couldn't find the ones that I was looking for.I then headed over to the local Wal-Mart and I found the ones that I was looking for.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did some e-mail checking before having dinner.I only had a few e-mails and after reading them,I ate.
After eating,I went out and ran an errand for my mom.I had to pick up one last thing for her before the day was through.I went to the local supermarket to pick up a 1/2 gallon of ice cream and headed for home.Overall,a pretty good day.
I am glad that the weekend is here.I am going to go out and sing tomorrow night for my friends.I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I kept busy to try and keep my mind off of sex with other men and I had no problems.There were no cravings nor any images creeping up in my mind.I am hoping that I can get through the weekend unscathed.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the small amount of time that I had.There were also no messes to clean up during the laundry pick-up this morning.After lunch,I bagged the clean laundry that was already done,drooped it off at the rehab center and headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby gas station to get some gas in my tank and I headed straight home.
When i got home,I decided to take a nap.I slept for over an hour.This time,I slept soundly with no problems with images or cravings.I actually felt refreshed after the nap and when I got out of bed,I decided to finish my personal PC work,but put it off when dinner was ready.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work and I also browsed the internet for a while.I did run into some issues with the internet browser while doing that.It froze for about 10 seconds and rebooted itself.It did this about 3 times before I decided to just close the browser off and restart the computer.
While the computer was restarting,I ran a couple of errands for my mom.My mom wanted me to pick up a few things that she needed for dinner tomorrow night.I went out to get the things.I had to go to 2 different stores to get the stuff but I was glad to have gotten the errands done.I headed for home and didn't stop for anything on the way home.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems with any images,cravings nor did I have anything creeping up into my mind.As stated,even my nap today was pretty smooth with no images nor cravings.I guess the way things went contributed to me not having to deal with the feelings.They do make me feel uncomfortable when the occur and I just have to deal with them whenever they happen or creep up.But again,no problems and I am glad for that.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was simply a laundry pick-up day.The pick-up went well.There were no messes to clean up and everything worked out for the better.After having lunch at work,I sorted out the laundry and headed for home.
On the way home,I mailed out an important letter for my mom and I also dropped something off at my sister's house.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I took a nap for about an hour.I was feeling a little tired and I felt that a nap would be good.After the nap,I got dressed and ran an errand for my mom.
I had to pick up a small thing at a local Dollar General that my mom needed and I went to get that before dinner.On the way home,I stopped briefly to pick up a bag full of empty soda cans that someone left on the street.When I get a chance,I am going to take back the whole bunch of cans that I have in the back seat of my 4X4.I need to free up some room in the back.
When I got home,I ate dinner and did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
With the exception of the errand,I stayed home for much of the day because we had non-stop rain throughout the day.There is nothing to do in my hometown when it is raining.
Regarding my SSA struggles,as far as today went,I had a brief episode.I haven't acted out with someone else as a partner in a long time.But today,I did get cravings.While trying to take a nap,I had a dream where I was being pursued by other guys for sexual favors and even though I tried to escape,I would always wind up stuck in the middle where I would be surrounded by guys with their erections sticking out and them asking me to perform oral sex.Fortunately,I did wake up briefly during my nap and that stopped it.I went back to sleep and nothing happened.I did have a craving to masturbate but didn't do it.I need advice on how I can handle something like that in the near future so it won't lead me to acting out,such as masturbating to these images.I know the root of the issues that I am struggling with but I do need a more better way of coping and escaping.If anyone out there has any advice for me out,I want to hear it.Thanks.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty busy day today.
Today was a work day.I went to work and I did my job.It was quite a lot to do.The laundry pick-up also went smoothly as there were no messes to clean up.The work took me nearly five hours to complete.I also hung out at the social club next door to my work for a while during the morning and for the rest of the day,I concentrated more on my work and I after it was done,I simply dropped off the clean laundry at the rehab center and headed for home.
On the way home,I had to make a stop at a local supermarket to pick up some thin breads for dinner tomorrow night.I also bought a 1/2 gallon of orange juice that my mom asked me at the last minute to get while I was at the supermarket.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I took the garbage out to the curb and I decided to stay home for the rest of the day.The weather was very rainy and dull and there was no place to go.There is never really anything to do in my hometown when it's raining.The only thing that I did do was that I went for a short walk after I had dinner.It was just a stroll in my neighborhood.After I went back into the house,I chose not to go out anymore.
After eating and going for that aforementioned walk,I finished my personal PC work.It was great to be online and getting the necessary work done.Overall,a pretty busy day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.There were no images nor cravings creeping up.If I can get through tomorrow well enough,great.But for tonight,nothing new to report.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well with no messes to clean up.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I had quite a bit to do.Before I did anything,I did my personal PC work and I also had something to eat.After that,I got ready to do what I had to do.
Today,weatherwise,it was raining.Plus,my legs were really hurting me as a result of the weather.But I didn't let the rain stop me from doing what I had to do.I had to get out and do what I had planned and I am glad to have gotten it done.
Firstly,I went to the post office to mail out some bills that needed to be paid.I had only a week to get the payments out so I mailed them out today by three day Priority Mail.They are now on their way and I am hoping that they get to their destination soon.
Second,I ran an errand for my mom.I had to stop at a local supermarket to pick up a few things that my mom needed to make homemade bean soup tomorrow.It took a bit of looking around but I managed to get all the things that my mom needed for the soup so she could make it tomorrow.After getting all of that,I headed straight home.
I relaxed for a bit when I got home while my mom prepared dinner.While relaxing,I watched a little bit of TV and I also browsed the internet for a while.I even visited the YouTube site for a while and watched some more animated shorts that I hadn't seen in years.They were Tales of the Wizard of Oz shorts that I used to watch when I was a kid.I used to watch them in the early Saturday morning hours and on various weekday shows.It was wonderful to watch these after all of these years and they did bring back some positive memories.
After eating,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work.I also registered some more bills at Where's George.
Right now,the only thing that I heard regarding what the governor of New York is trying to make Same-Sex Marriage a law in NY is that in a recent scientific poll,NY state residents were asked if they favored Same-Sex Marriage and 53% said that they did.Of course,this is only a scientific poll and it is not very accurate.Still,the NY state senate are working their hardest to try and keep traditional marriage the way it is and not have it be perverted by the Same-Sex Marriage bill.I am hoping that they succeed in keep this bill from becoming law.There is no need for Same-Sex Marriage to even exist anywhere because it is not what was intended for marriage.Marriage is between a man and a woman and it should be kept that way.Today,I received soem encouraging words from Miss California that she also believes the same thing.All I can say is more power to you and "You Go,Girl".
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.No images or cravings crept into my mind.I simply kept busy all day and didn't even let my mind wander.I am hoping that I can get through the rest of the week unscathed.
Tomorrow is a work day and I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a good day today.
When I woke up this morning,I had something to eat and I also did my personal PC work.While doing that,I listened to a radio sermon online via the website that it originated from.It was wonderful.It was about accepting the truth about Christ's resurrection.It was a wonderful sermon to listen to and I am looking forward to next week's.I am hoping that it's as wonderful as today's was.I also registered a few more bills at the Where's George site.
After doing that,I had to get ready for the day.I had another small errand to run and I needed to get it done.I needed a few personal things for myself and I also had to pick up a prescription from the local drugstore.It was a medication that I needed to get filled immediately because I had only one pill left.After doing all of these things that needed to get done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I laid down relaxing on my bed.I also read from a book that I have until dinner was ready.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and watched a few classic animated shorts on YouTube for a while.The shorts that I watched were from The New Adventures of Pinocchio that were developed by Rankin Bass when their company name was called Videocraft.It was wonderful to watch several of these animated shorts again after all of these years.I used to watch them a lot when I was a little boy and it was great to revisit my childhood for a short time.I have been visiting YouTube quite a bit to revisit my childhood days and I am planning on visiting YouTube quite often in the near future.
Last night,I my night of entertaining the crowd went great.I had a blast singing up a storm.I also got a lot of positive responses from the crowd and it made me feel good.I am looking forward to singing next Saturday night.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had another brief episode this morning.I was still feeling rather tired even after having a good noght's sleep.I guess that it's the side effect of the medication that I am taking while under the supervision of a medical practioner at the local hospital.I was playing with myself and images of men with erections were creeping into my mind.Fortunately,it didn't lead to any masturbatory activity but I still felt pretty down-trodden as a result of it.I am feeling better right now but this episode really got me down for a while this morning.I am just hoping that I can get through the new week unscathed.
I am also thinking of going out tonight and having a drink or two with some of the gang over at the place where I entertain.I am hoping for any really good talks with them.
Tomorrow is my day off.The only thing on my agenda is that I have to mail out a few payments on bills that I need to pay.I am hoping to get through the day pretty well.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am actually feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good,if not too eventful,day today.
Today was the start of the weekend.I simply had breakfast when I woke up and I also did my personal PC work.There wasn't an awful lot to do.After doing that,I started to plan the day.
I had an errand to run today for my mom.I had to pick up a few things that she needed in the house pretty quickly.It was quite a short list she gave me and I managed to find everything at the local Dollar General.After buying all the stuff on my mom's behalf,I headed straight home.
After I got home,I bathed while my mom prepared dinner.I am going out to sing tonight and I wanted to make sure that I was cleaned up so I could be ready to go out.
After eating a light diner,I did some more personal PC work and I also registered the two bills that I got in change at Where's George.I also e-mailed a friend of mine who lives out of town.I managed to get that done despite an issue that my computer was having.I restarted the computer after sending the e-mail because my computer was freezing up and rebooting itself while I was trying to type the e-mail and also sending it.My computer is now working good.I am having no problems.
Tonight,I am going to be singing up a storm tonight.I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well for me because you never know what could happen.But I do have the feeling that everything will work out for me.Still,I hope.
With this being the weekend,the state senate is not working.During the week,the encouraging news that the New York state senate is opposing the Same-Sex Marriage bill was the best news the entire week.At the moment,the senate office is closed and will resume next week.Again,I am hoping that the Same-Sex Marriage bill will never make law in New York state.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a brief episode this morning.I was still trying to wake up even after getting out of bed.Images and cravings were clouding my mind and I was playing with myself as well.But I managed to stop myself before it went any further.I am just fortunate that it didn't lead to masturbation or worse.I have to be on guard.I can't let the cravings overwhelm me like that.
As for the rest of the weekend,I haven't made any plans but whatever I do,I am hoping that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling very good.I had a very good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.After I ate lunch,I did my job and I did everything that I needed to do in the short period of time that I had.After I finished,I bagged everything and I dropped everything off at the rehab center.I headed straight home.
I also left the house after I came home.I went to my regular bank to cash my paycheck and I also withdrew some money for myself that I needed to help me pay a few bills that I need to pay next week.The day also was a bright sunny day and I enjoyed just being out in the community and getting some air.Before heading back home,I went to a nearby gas station to get some gas.
When I got home,I ate a light dinner and afterwards,I registered all the bills that I had at Where's George.It was quite a lot but I managed to get them all on there.I relaxed and listened to some music for a while before going back out again.
I went to a local Wal-Mart to buy some allergy medicine that I needed because I took my last pill this morning.I was blowing my nose quite a bit and I also was clearing my throat constantly.I headed straight home and that is where I am staying for the rest of the night.
I haven't heard anything new in the news regarding what New York governor David Paterson is doing to try and make Same-Sex Marriage legal in New York state.So far,the only thing that I have heard is that the state senate is still working dilligently and agressively to try and keep the bill from becoming law.The NY state senate wants to fight to keep traditional marriage the way it is and not have it be perverted by this bill.I am hoping that the NY state senate can keep the Same-Sex Marriage bill from becoming law.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.No images nor cravings crept up.I am glad for that.If I can get through the weekend unscathed,great.I am just hoping that I can.
Tomorrow night,I am going to be singing up a storm and I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did my required work in the amount of time that I had and when I was done,I simply bagged everything that was clean and dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while because despite having a pretty smooth work day,I was feeling tired and wanted to relax.While relaxing,I watched an episode of the 2nd season of Friday The 13th:The Series on the DVD that I own and I enjoyed it.I was also eagerly awaiting the delivery of a movie that I ordered at the beginning of the week and I wanted to get the movie in the house so it would be in my library.With mail thefts happening on occasion,I just wanted to make sure that it was in the house.After checking the DVD out,I shut off the DVD player and finished my personal PC work.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work by cleaning out my e-mail Inbox after it was all done.I was going to do it right after finishing but I had an issue with the program.I restarted it and did the work.It is now completed.
I also received some news.I heard that New York governor David Paterson is trying to get a bill on Same-Sex Marriage on the law books.The good news is that the state senate is working to make sure that it doesn't get on the books.Lead by George Maziarz,they are working to keep marriage between a man and a woman and that it should always be kept that way.I am hoping that the state senate succeeds in keeping the bill because marriage is between a man and a woman and nothing should change that.I am just glad that I am in the healing process from SSA and not in the rut that I used to be.I am glad to know the truth and I feel free.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems and I also had no images nor cravings while trying to sleep last night.I had a good nights sleep and today,even the news regarding what NY governor Paterson is trying to do didn't have any impact on me.Again,I am hoping that the state senate succeeds in blocking this bill from becoming law.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean up.I simply picked up the bags and dropped them off at the work site.After lunch,I sorted out the laundry before heading for home.
On the way home,I stopped at my regular bank to withdraw some money for my mom and I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I prepared some stuff that I had to mail out.I sent out an RCA DVD Recorder/VCR combo that I bought on credit to the place that I ordered it from because it was defective.I also had to mail out a couple of other things for my mom and after that was done,I headed back home.
I stayed at home for a while waiting for the mail to come.I was waiting on a new movie that I bought off of Ebay.I was checking the USPS's track and confirm and though it informed me that it arrived in my hometown,I didn't receive it.But there is always tomorrow.I am still eagerly awaiting this.I am hoping to add it to my collection pretty soon.
After the mail came,I went to the local drug store to pick up a follow-up prescription on my blood pressure medication and a couple of half gallons of milk.I headed back home.
We had a light dinner early because my grand nieces and grand nephew were coming over for over an hour.While they watched a movie on TV that I put into the DVD player,I went out for a walk for a bit but went back home after staying out for about 20 minutes.I laid down for a while while the kids were watching the movie.I needed some peace and quiet for a while and being upstairs in my room was a way for me to get it.My grand nieces and grand nephew are now home with their mother and it is now pretty quite in the house.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a brief episode overnight while trying to get to sleep.I was also manipulating my sexuality along with the images that were crossing through my head.The intensity was so much that I had to ask the creator to help me remove the images from my mind and as I prayed,the images disappeared and I went to sleep.Today,I had no problems as a result of me staying busy and keeping my mind on my job and the tasks that I had to do today.During the day no images crept into my mind nor any cravings.If I can get through the rest of the week unscathed,good.I am hoping that I can get through the rest of the week.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.I had quite a lot to do.I picked up four heaping bags of laundry and sorted everything out and started my job.I hung out at the social club for a while waiting for the first loads to get done.
After that,I started another load and I decided to pay more attention to my job before my lunch break.After lunch,I simply finished the hours and I read from my copy of "A Christian Perspective on Homosexuality" while waiting for the last loads to get done.After they were done,I dropped off everything that was clean at the rehab center and I headed for home.
When I got home,I saw that a package that I was expecting had come in.It was a four DVD set of the first two movies in the Japanese One Missed Call series.I did play the first one to check it out and it plays terrific.I have yet to try out the second one in the series and I am hoping that this will also play great.I relaxed for much of the afternoon and only did one errand for my mom before I ate dinner.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work and I also added another blog to my watch list.It is a People Can Change blog.I learned about this via a People Can Change online forum that I am a member of.I added it immediately.It is a new blog on Blogger and I am glad to have it on my watch list.
I also received some great news today.I heard on the news that the Same-Sex Marriage bill might not become law in New York state after all.It has passed the New York state assembly but now,it is in the hands of the New York state senate.So far,the vast majority of the NY state senate is opposing the bill,including George Maziarz,who also believes in traditional marriage.Not only that,a pastor named Gerry Gillis also supports the senate majority who are opposed and also hopes that traditional marriage is kept the way it is.I am also hoping that this happens.So far,So Good.Again,I hope that the bill doesn't become law in New York state.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I have nothing negative to report.I had a pretty good day and I kept busy all day with my job and it went well.I know that there is tomorrow and the rest of the week.I hope that I can get by unscated.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I didn't have too much to do today.I had breakfast and I did my personal PC work.After that,I got ready to do what I needed to do.
I had an appointment to day with a sexual abuse support counselor who I had worked with previously.Before heading for that clinic,I had to make a stop over at my doctor's office to inquire about getting a follow-up on my prescription for a blood pressure medication that I am currently taking.They told me that they would call it in before the end of the day but when I called the drug store,they informed me that nothing was called in at the moment.I am hoping that it will be called in soon.I would hate to be without the blood pressure medication that I need.I only have a few pills left and I am going to be needing enough to last me until the next appointment that I have with the doctor.I am going to call tomorrow and see if it has been called in.
My session with the sexual abuse support counselor went well.I told her what I had been doing for the past several months.I told her about the accident that I had in late November 2008,which was why I hadn't come to counseling for a few months.After the session,we made another appointment and I left the office.
On the way home,I stopped at my mechanic's garage so he could check on my wheel alignment.I had a problem trying to steer my 4X4 on Friday trying to go in another area of Western New York and he said for me to bring the vehicle over and have him check it out.After he drove it and checked the undercarriage,he told me that there was nothing wrong and that the reason why I had trouble was that it was windy on the day that I was trying to go out of town.I was relieved and I headed straight home.
I guess that I am still a little nervous after what had happened to me in November of last year.I was in a very bad accident that totaled my car and I had to get my 4X4 back on the road as a result,which took a little over two months and lots of expensive work.I am glad to be driving again but I need to take this slow.I guess that I need to work on my long distance travel and try to overcome the nervousness that I am still feeling as a result of the November accident.I know that I will be back to where I was before that happened but it will take some time to ease back into it.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had really nothing happen.No images or cravings came upon me and I feel pretty good.I know that there is tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I am hoping to get by unscathed this week.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Happy Easter,Everybody!
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good holiday today.
When I woke up,I did my personal PC work and while doing that,I listened to a sermon online.It was really neat.It was all about the resurrection of Jesus Christ and what it truly meant and symbolized.I actually enjoyed listening to the sermon and I am looking forward to next week's.I am hoping that that it will be another wonderful one.
Despite some issues with the internet browser that I used,I finished the work and I closed off the internet after finishing.It was quite a lot to do and I am happy that I did it.
After that,I watched another episode of the classic Friday The 13th:The Series TV show.Since I really didn't have much to do,I just took it easy and I only ran a couple of errands.I had to pick up a couple of things that my mom and I needed.I also went to a local gas station to get some gas in my gas tank.
When I got home,I watched a little bit of TV as I eagerly awaited for dinner to get done.My mom was preparing dinner for the two of us as we decided to stay home for the holiday.
After eating,I registered a bill that I got in change from the gas station that I went to and I also went to check up on someone that I know to see how he was doing.I tried to call him up on the phone but I kept getting a busy signal,so I went to his house only to learn that he was sick from eating something.I told his visitor to wish him well on my behalf and he said that he would do that.I left and headed straight home after that.Overall,a pretty good day.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.It was yet another awesome night.I got a lot of positive responses from the crowd and it really made me feel good.I am looking forward to next Saturday night and I am hoping that next week goes as great as last night did.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems today.No images and no cravings came upon me.I managed to escape almost unscathed without acting out or even masturbating.The new week will be a new beginning and I am hoping that I can get through the week unscathed.I know that the struggles with SSA is no picnic but I have to keep trying.I need prayers and advice on how to keep myself together.
Before the evening is over,I am thinking of going out and having a drink with the guys at the place where I entertain and I am hoping to have some great talks with any guys that will be there.
Tomorrow is my day off.I do have an appointment with a sexual abuse support counselor tomorrow afternoon and I am hoping that the session goes well.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better than I did yesterday.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was a very busy day for me.After eating and doing my personal PC work,I ran to do a few errands today.
Firstly,I went to a public library to print a couple of articles to read during my spare time off the internet.I headed for home after that and I also stopped at a drug store to pick up some medication that my mom needed on the way there.
Second,I also went to a mom's friend;s house to pick up something that she had for mom and I brought it home.I laid down for a short time before taking a bath.
After bathing,I ate a light dinner and I decided to do some last minute personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Today,weatherwise,was sunny and mild but a little chilly still.Since it was a nice day,I went out and did the errands and I enjoyed being out in the community.It was wonderful to be around people and to be out.As stated,I had a pretty good day and I enjoyed myself.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.No images creeped up into my mind nor did I have any cravings.Not only that,the best thing to happen was that I didn't hear anything about Same-Sex Marriage in the news.Though nothing new on that,I still need to be on guard and I need some advice on how I can weather the storm and manage my emotions during this time when they bring it back in the news again.If anyone out there can give me any advice on doing so,please do.I would greatly appreciate that.Thanks in advance.
Tonight is my night to sing for the crowd.I am looking forward to that.I sing each and every Saturday and I always look forward to doing that.I am hoping for a wonderful evening.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well because you never know what might happen.I do have the feeling that everything will work out for me tonight.Still,I hope.
As for tomorrow,which is the holiday,I am going to be staying home tomorrow for dinner.I am really not planning to go anywhere.But if I do decide to go somewhere and do something,I hope that it give's me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for tonight and the holiday ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty good day but I am feeling a little bit down.I am also feeling hopeful and optimistic.
Today was a day off for me.It was Good Friday today and though I had a day off,I still had quite a bit to do today.It was mostly personal stuff but I managed to get everything done.
First,I had to go to a local supermarket to pick up a few more extra things that we needed before the holiday.It was a pretty hectic day at the supermarket.There were a lot of people rushing to get some last minute things before the holiday arrives.It is only two days away and I am glad that this happens only once a year.I wouldn't want to go through this every day.It is just too stressful and hectic just trying to survive when a holiday weekend is upon us.
After dropping the groceries off at home,I registered some bills that I received after cashing my paycheck at the Where's George site and it was quite a lot.They are on the site as of now and I am going to be spending some of them bills tomorrow night when I go out to sing for my friends.I am looking forward to that tomorrow night.
After doing that,I decided to go to a library in another part of Western New York but changed my mind.I was feeling a little nervous while trying to drive out there and I decided to just go and pick up a couple of records that my record store friend was holding for me and head for home.Before going home,I decided to make one last trip to the supermarket and pick up something else for myself.
After getting home,I ate a light dinner and I decided to do some last minute personal PC work after eating.I also watched the season finale of Terminator:The Sarah Connor Chronicles.I have only more thing to do before calling it a day.
The reason why I am feeling mixed emotions is because I have been hearing so much about Same-Sex Marriage as of late.Today,I heard a little bit more regarding this and believe me,it is just weighing me down.I feel depressed and saddened by this very prospect because as I have stated previously,the institution of marriage is between a man and a woman and not the way that these so-called "Gay" activists want it to be.It's bad enough that these so-called "Gay" people believe all the lies that they are told relentlessly that they are "born that way" and that there is nothing they can do to change themselves.I am also fed up with the mental health profession also pushing forth these lies and encouraging those who are living in this sort of lifestyle to just go out and be what they are as well as be proud of it.This is not only WRONG but it is also not the way that it is intended to be.It really makes me angry that many people are believing these lies and are not pursuing the right roads.They believe the lies and then they believe more lies.I know that lies will always be spread no matter how hard the effort to suppress them.But it is just terrible that so many people would rather believe a liar than those who speak truth.
This whole thing is going to be a real test to my SSA struggles.I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride as of late and I am already reaching the height of the ride.I don't know when I am going down again.But when I do,anything can happen.I am just hoping that the governor of New York state and President Obama vetoes the Same-Sex Marriage bills so marriage can be kept between a man and a woman and not be changed to satisfy the political attitudes and beliefs of radicals trying to get their own way with the leaders who were either elected or who take over after the previous elected leaders resigned.
But as stated,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.Despite my depression,I am glad that there are people who believe the truth and are fighting to keep traditional marriage legal.I just uploaded the link to the website for National Organization For Marriage and the commercial AD that they made on my blog.For those visiting,feel free to check them out.Again,I am glad that there are groups of people who believe the truth and are spreading the truth in the midst of this storm that is happening in front of us.Despite the lies,there is truth in the midst of the lies and it makes me feel better knowing that.My love goes out to those spreading the truth.
As I stated,I am going to go out and sing for my friends tomorrow night.I am hoping that the night goes well.As for the holiday,I am going to stay home and take it easy and try to make it a very good day.
That was my day today and my hopes for the upcoming weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did the required work that I had to do in the time that I had.After eating lunch,I bagged everything and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped and got some gas at a nearby gas station.I also visited a friend of mine who owns a record store in my hometown and I gave him some business by buying a couple of record albums.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and took it easy.I needed to sit down for a while before helping my mom with an errand.My mom needed to do some more grocery shopping before the holiday starts.That way,she has some stuff in the house for the holiday.
While my mom was grocery shopping,I decided to go to the local Wal-Mart to buy another movie.But I changed my mind and decided to go back to the store and check up on my mom to see if she was done with her grocery shopping.
After we got home and I unloaded the car,I went back out to get a 1/2 gallon of ice cream at another supermarket in the area because my mom forgot to pick up one at the store that she was shopping at.I headed back home to wait for dinner to get done.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work.It was quite a lot of e-mails to read and I am glad to have gotten it done.I am now relaxing and I am anticipating the upcoming holiday weekend.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,there are being put to the test at the moment.I have been hearing in the news recently about the Same-Sex Marriage bill being presented to Congress and to the governer of my state,David Paterson.This is really going to be a very nerve wracking thing.I am hoping that the bill gets thrown out by Congress.If they pass the bill,which I hope does not happen,I hope that President Barack Obama vetoes the bill and that it doesn't become law.Not only that,I am also hoping that David Paterson doesn't make it legal here in New York state.That would be the "ULTIMATE" death knell in both the state of New York and the country.Same-Sex Marriage is not only WRONG,UNETHICAL & INNAPPROPRIATE,but the marital arrangemnet as a whole was not meant for this purpose.Marriage is a sacred vow and bond between a man and a woman,which is the way our creator intended.He never intended for marriage to be used in such a manner where two people of the same sex could become like a man and a women.Instead of it being "holy matrimony", it will be "unholy matrimony" and it would also be a travesty if this bill would ever get passed.If our founding fathers would ever have heard this going about,they'd turn over in their graves.They would have never intended for this to come to pass.Not only that,it was Adam and Eve who were made,NOT Adam and Steve.I am just hoping that this bill will either be thrown out or simply vetoed.Again,marriage is between a man and a woman and it should be kept that way.Again,it is the way that the creator intended marriage to be because he created the marital arrangemnet to be this way.I am going to need some support,prayers and encouragement because my SSA issues will be put to the test.Anger will also be aroused because it makes me angry that they are considering this and even trying to get this passed into law.Once again,I am hoping that this doesn't happen and I hope that marriage is kept the way it was originally intended.Again,I am going to need prayers,support and encouragement.I am hoping that I can get some of that.Thanks in advance for all of that.
Tomorrow is Good Friday.I have the day off and I have no plans at the moment.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.I will be singing over the weekend as usual.I am hoping that my night of entertaining goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the holiday weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean up and that really made the day for me.After eating lunch at work,I sorted the laundry out at the worksite and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I simply relaxed a bit before helping my mom out on an errand.My mom needed to get some gifts for her great grandchildren for the Easter holiday and I had to take her to the store so she could get the things that she needed.I also had to pick up a few other things that my mom needed at other stores in the area while she was shopping.After we were done,we headed straight home again.
While we were home,I ordered a pizza over the phone at a local Pizza Hut and while we were waiting for the pizza to get done so I could pick it up,I registered a few more bills at the Where's George site and I went to pick up the pizza.
After eating,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work.Before the evening is through,I have to register some more bills at the Where's George.These are bills that we both got in change from shopping and the pizza.
The weather today was pretty fair.The rain that we were supposed to get didn't come.We still had some cold air in the atmosphere and we had some sunshine.Yesterday,because of the snow falling,I felt like putting in one of the Christmas specials that I have on DVD,but I didn't.The feeling was still there but I didn't give in.At least,we didn't get any more snow.I am hoping that this will be the last snowfall for a while until Winter returns.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a brief episode today.I had a pretty negative experience with a social club member.I printed a personal e-mail that a minister I have been conversing with about my SSA struggles and put it on a table face down.The social club member actually picked up and tried to look at it but I took it away from her and said that it was mine and she gave me a look of disgust.The anger I felt in a split second actually caused an immoral image to creep back into my mind.I left the place after tucking the e-mail in my bag.Despite the brief episode that I had,I didn't relapse and despite the anger,it also didn't lead to me acting out.I simply helped my mom out and I kept busy.I felt better after that.I am hoping that I can get through the rest of the week unscathed.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,I have a three day weekend coming to me.I have the day off on Good Friday and I am just going to take it easy.I might even pay a visit to a friend who I have been meaning to visit for quite a while but have been putting off.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.There was quite a lot of laundry to pick up.The bags were really full.I had to make 2 trips to pick up the laundry today.After I started my job,I decided to hang out at the social club next door while waiting for the loads to get done.
After hanging out there for a while,I decided to concentrate more on my job and while waiting for the second loads to get done,I read from a new book that I just started about a week ago.The book is called "A Christian Perspective on Homosexuality" by Daniel Puls, which is published by Concordia House publishing.I have just started reading the book about a week ago and so far,it is a wonderfully written book.I even use my copy of the Life Recovery Bible when I look up scriptures.It is always wonderful to read on a subject from the perspective and style of another person who has been through the same issues.You can learn how they went through them and how they overcame them.Each and everything that I have read has really been a help.I have gained some new insights and I am looking forward to reading even more about the subject.The more I read.The more I learn.The next book that I am hoping to start reading is The Ragamuffin Gospel by Brennan Manning.I purchased the book via Amazon.com on Monday and I am eagerly awaiting the book.I know that it will be a few days and again,I am hoping to start reading it the minute that I receive it.
After my job was done,I bagged what was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center and headed for home before running another errand.
The errand that I ran was to pick up a few more things for my mom at a local supermarket.I managed to find everything that she needed and I also picked up a couple of things for myself. After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,we sorted everything out and I relaxed a bit while waiting for dinner.It was going to be a light dinner of leftover homemade chicken soup.We had a bitterly cold and snowy day today and my mom felt that a hot bowl of homemade soup was appropriate.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work.I didn't get much of a chance to start it whiel on break from work because the social club was having computer problems with one computer.Apparently,a virus or some malaware had gotten into the system and they were working on getting rid of the infection.Nobody know how it got into the system and most of the day was spent working on getting rid of the infection.This is why I couldn't do very much and most of the time I just had to pay attention on my job and let the social club staff take care of the computer problem.But I am just glad to get my e-mails done and doing all the usual personal stuff that I needed to get done online.
I am still finding it hard to believe that we are in the season of Spring.Today,the weather was very December like.It was snowy,cold and a little windy.Fortunately,the roads for driving were not too slick.I managed to get to work and drive home unscathed.Tomorrow,we will be getting snow to start with before it turns into rain.The weather will be a little bit warmer but I won't be convinced that it's Spring until the really warmer weather arrives.
Right now,the weather is cold and windy but the snow has stopped falling for now.But I know that we will be getting more in the early morning hours.It wil be rainy for the rest of the day.Again,I will only be convinced that it's Spring when the really warmer weather arrives.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.No images creeped up into my mind today and there were no cravings to act out.I am glad that I made it through this day unscathed but I still have the rest of the week.I am hoping tyo make it through tomorrow without any issues and even the day after and so on.I still need to take this one day at a time.
I am also adding a new link.It is a link explaining the mission of PFOX.I am hoping that any visitors will check it out.It will explain what the organization is all about and I am also hoping that it helps shatters some of the myths caused by ignorance.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well with no messes to clean up.I also have to help my mom out tomorrow after I am done doing a couple of things for myself after I do my job.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I ran a few errands today and that was it.First,I did my personal PC work and I set out about getting the errands done.Before even getting out,I was waiting for the mail to come,which was late as usual.I then set out to do the errands.
I went to the bank to withdraw some money for my mom and I had lunch at a local shopping mall.Last but not least,I went to a local Wal-Mart to buy several personal items that I needed for the month.I managed to find everything that I needed and after the shopping was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered the bills at Where's George and headed back out again to buy a few snack wraps at a local Tim Horton's for dinner.My mom and I wanted to have something different from eating out rather than the usual burgers.It was really neat and we even had some onion rings as a side dish.After eating,I registered the change that I received at Tim Horton's at Where's George.
Right now,at the moment,the weather is snowing and a light wind is blowing outside.There is really no place to go as well as nothing to do when it is snowing where I am living.We started out having a light rain but it changed to snow when the evening was starting to get underway.I am now at home relaxing anticipating the new day as the snow is falling outside.It's hard to believe that we are in the Spring season but it doesn't even look or even feel like it.But overall,it was a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.There were no issues with unwholesome images or any cravings.Still,while I got through this day unscathed,there is always the next day and the day after that and so on.There is also the chance that they might bring up that dreaded Same-Sex Marriage issue in the news again,which is one of those triggers that really sets me off because of the way I feel about this particular subject area.I still need to be on guard and to be careful.Nobody said that the plight of a man struggling with SSA was going to be easy.While I have accepted that as a fact,there are times that I want to say "BUT THIS IS RIDICULOUS!"I still need to take this one day at a time.I can never think of "never falling short,again", because I know that I can fall short anytime.I do wish that I never have to hear about Same-Sex Marriage in the news.But I know that it can come up in the news again.I just have to deal with this when it comes back.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today despite a very shaky start.
This morning,I fell short once again.I masturbated yet again.Images were clouded in my mind and I was also talking to myself while trying to stay awake.I was still feeling really tired and I wound up giving in.Yes,I was down.Yes,I regretted giving in.But I felt miserable when I did this and after washing myself and asking for forgiveness,I fell back asleep and slept for 2 1/2 hours.I had no problems during that time.
When I did get up finally,I ate and did my personal PC work.While doing that,I listened to a sermon online.The minister was talking about the meaning of Good Friday and why the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ is of very much importance.It was a wonderful sermon and I did feel good after listening to it.After doing my work,I ran a few errands.
I picked up some candy at a local drug store alongside some important personal things that my mom needed for the home.After dropping them off,I went and had a late lunch at a local shopping mall.
After eating lunch,I headed straight home and waited for dinner to get done while doing some more personal PC work.
After eating,I read from a local newspaper and listened to some music while doing so.The day was not to eventful eventful.But I was just glad to be out in the community doing the necessary running around so I could keep busy.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went well.It was yet another awesome night.Despite a minor problem that I had with an inconsiderate and rude person who was trying to get into any song that I was doing despite my resistance,I had a pretty good night and when the night for me was over,I headed for home.
My resolution for this upcoming week is to try and get through the whole week,including weekends,without being unscathed by sexual images of men and being plagued by them.This week was pretty emotional and I had a couple of really bad experiences but I am hoping that this upcoming week will go better and I can get through it without any problems.I have been going pretty good without being plagued by unwholesome thoughts.Nobody said that the struggles of a man with SSA were easy and I have accepted this as a challenge.Plus,the constant hearing of same sex marriage in the news isn't helping either.This has contributed to the way I have been feeling.I hate hearing so much about same sex marriage because the marriage arrangement wasn't meant for the purposes that these so called "Gay" men are trying to use it for.It is also unbelievable hearing about this.I just wish that I don't have to hear about it so much.Again,my resolution is to get through the week without being plagued by any of these things.
Regarding the rest of the night,I am thinking of going out and having a drink or two with the gang at the place where I entertain.
Tomorrow is a day off.I am hoping that whatever I choose to do will benefit me in a positive manner.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ