Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty easy going day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I did my job in the amount of time that I had and when I was finished,I dropped off the clean laundry at the rehab center and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I dropped some of my personal stuff off and I headed back out.I went to the bank to cash my paycheck and to withdraw some money for my mom.I also went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After I was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I waited for dinner to get done.While waiting,I registered all the bills that I had on Where's George.It was a lot of money to register and all that money now on there.It only took me about 20 minutes to do so.I also did some personal PC work and watched some of the evening news before sitting down to eat.
After eating,I decided to do a little bit more personal PC work,including posting here.I plan on doing some internet browsing,including visiting YouTube and watching some videos on there.
At the moment,I am relaxing and taking it easy.I have really no place to go.There is also nothing to do in my hometown.
I am glad that the weekend is here.I will be singing up a storm tomorrow night and I am hoping for a wonderful evening.Tomorrow night is also a party night.The place where I am entertaining is going to be celebrating 9 years of business and I am looking forward to that.I am hoping that the party will be a blast.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I didn't have anything creeping into my mentality.I am hoping that the weekend will go smoothly where I will not have to deal with any images or cravings.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly despite a shaky start.I did what I had to do in the limited time that I had.After I was finished,I dropped the clean laundry off at the rehab center and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit.I had an appointmnet today with a skin doctor to have him examine me about a skin fungus that I have on my chest.He prescribed me a cream and a pill to take care of it and I will be seeing him again in four weeks.After the appointment,I walked around a mall that will be closing up soon and I wanted to walk through one last time before the closing.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few things that my mom needed.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while while waiting for dinner to get done.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work.I also ran a couple more errands.Firstly,I went to a local drug store to pick up the prescriptions that I had dropped off earlier alongside a box of sleep tea.I also picked up a jar of tartar sauce for dinner tomorrow.I also visited with my sister for a while.After that,I headed straight home and I am here to stay.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images or cravings creeping up into my mentality.I am feeling pretty good as a result.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean up,which really relieved me.I wasn't in the mood to clean up after people again.I simply took the only bag that was there and I headed for the work site.
Before sorting out the laundry,I had a light lunch.It only took me a few minutes to sort everything after I ate.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit before going out again to send a few bills out for my mom and to withdraw some money for her.After doing these things,I headed back home.
When I got home,I registered all the money that I withdrew over at the Where's George site and I also did some more personal PC work.
I had only one more errand to run.I went out to a local Wendy's to pick up a few chicken sandwiches and a couple of fries for me and my mom to eat for dinner.
After eating,I watched some of the local news before posting my day on here.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a brief episode early this morning.I was having a terrible dream where I was surrounded by men with huge erections all begging me for sexual favors.I was also experiencing a craving to masturbate to these images.Fortunately,I got up out of bed to use the bathroom and when I went back to bed,I had no problems.Still,those images were quite scary and I almost masturbated to this.I slept for a little over an hour after getting back into bed.
At the moment,I am having no temptation to view pornography online.This is making me feel good.As stated,I still need to be on guard because the temptation can come when least expected.I want nothing to do with pornography because as I stated a few days ago,"pornography is garbage".Still,I am just feeling greatful because I have no cravings to look at that pointless eye candy.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am again feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty so-so day today.
The work day was fair.It started out pretty frustrating.When I went to the rehab center to pick up the laundry,I found that there was an unholy mess there.There was dirty laundry piled on top of more.This really set me off balance.The rehab center sent two people to help me pick it up but they were griping for much of the pick-up.I didn't say anything.I just did the clean up and didn't even bother complaining because complaining would not have done any good.I just wanted to get the laundry bagged and head over to the work site.
When I got to the work site,it took me 1/2 an hour to sort it.I started two loads and I headed over to the social club next door to hang out while waiting for the loads to get done.
During the wait for the second loads,I read another chapter in the book The Ragamuffin Gospel.This is a pretty fascinating book.It talks about the love of God through his son Jesus Christ and the grace that comes with it.I am enjoying this book immensely.After the second loads were done,I started another two loads and had lunch.
After I ate lunch,I decided to go and get some gas in my tank before finishing off the shift.It was pretty easy and the rest of the day went pretty fair.I was still feeling frustrated from that messy pick-up that I had to do and even hearing the negative complaints from the clients assigned to help me.I did tell the staff about it when I dropped off the clean laundry later in the day.Apparently,these people didn't like to be disciplined.
Oh Well!
Some people don't seem to realize that discipline is a part of life.Without it,where would we be?Even I get disciplined at times and even though the feeling isn't pretty,discipline helps mold you and it also helps make you a better person.It doesn't have to be liked.Just accept it and apply it to your life.
When I got home,I picked up a bag of my wet laundry after my mom did it early in the afternoon.I decided to take it to the laundromat and dry it and give my mom a break from hanging it up because she is feeling back pain at the moment.I was glad to do it.It only took 1/2 and hour to dry and after that was done,I headed over to the store to pick up a half gallon of ice cream.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work.I also watched the evening news for a while after finishing it.Overall,a pretty so-so day that actually turned out fair.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had only a brief episode while my time on the job was winding down.The root cause of this was the frustration that I was feeling as a result of how the day started.When this happened,I hung out for a while at the social club next door and this helped alleviate the images that were clouding my head.The images disappeared and I was able to finish off the job today with no problems.
I still have to deal with the temptation to watch pornography while online.But I am handling that as it comes.At the moment,I am not tempted to do that but I know that the temptation can come when least expected and I have to be on guard.The minute that I am tempted,I simply close off the internet and I leave the computer alone for a while.This has been working,so far and I will find other ways to deal with the temptation in the near future.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes better than the pick-up today.I don't know what would happen if I encounter another mess.I will just have to cross that bridge when I come to it.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a lot better than I did yesterday.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today was my day off.I really didn't have too much to do.When I got up out of bed,I had a quick breakfast and I also did my personal PC work.I also did some internet browsing for a while.
I had only a few errands to run.Firstly,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up something that my mom needed and I also went to a local post office to mail out a bill payment that is due in a few days.I shipped it out Priority Mail so it will be there pretty quickly.I also put delivery confirmation on it so I can check the shipment of the payment in a few days to see if it got there.I also paid the friend that I visited yesterday another visit.We talked for a while before I headed for home.
On the way home,I had to make one more stop.I went to a local Dollar General store to pick up a roll of aluminum foil for my mom.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I decided to relax while waiting for dinner to be ready.I did some more internet browsing but closed off the internet when the temptation to visit a pornographic site was starting.That is one thing that I want to avoid.Pornography is garbage and that is all that it is.Garbage is one thing that I wouldn't want to put in my brain and pornography is mental garbage.I felt that closing off the internet was the best way to kill off the temptation to view pornography.
After eating,I eagerly awaited a phone call from a Christian counselor that I have occasional sessions with whenever I need to talk with him.
When he called,we talked for over 1/2 an hour.We did a little tapping exercise and I felt better.I had told him the story of the car accident that I was in back in late November and he guided me through the exercise and he continuously asked me about my anxiety levels at the time of the accident and the anxiety levels that I was feeling now when I was telling hom the story.He told me that I should say to myself "Despite what happened to me,I totally and completely accept myself." and to repeat it each and every time when something that is troubling me comes to mind.Aside from that,I told him about my depression yesterday and why I was feeling the depression that had enveloped me.He understood that those things can be depressing.Plus,the struggle to do the right thing amidst unnatural desires can also bring depression.I told the counselor everything and I left nothing out.When the session was over,I felt way better and much of the way I was feeling has been replaced with a better feeling of self worth.The counselor also advised me to call him when I really need to talk with him about something.I am glad that I can do that.Again,I feel better and I am hoping to carry this feeling into the rest of the week.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I can say that I am having no thoughts or desires regarding sexual relations with other men.I am not having any images of men nor any cravings to indulge in anything sexual with other men.I am feeling good as a result.I am hoping that I can get through the rest of the week with no problems.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty so-so day today.
I got up this morning and had a quick breakfast and I did my personal PC work.It was a lot more than I have had in the past several days but I managed to get it done.I also decided to cancel my membership to some of the Yahoo forums that I was a member of.I am hoping to reduce my e-mail load.I am still working on canceling my membership to other ones.It is going to take several days but I will get that accomplished.I just need to reduce my e-mail load a tad.
Today,I only ran a small errand.While doing that,I stopped over to see the friend that was supposed to celebrate his birthday but he canceled when a member of his girlfriend's family got hurt while playing in a high school football game.He did call me over an hour before I was supposed to pick him up.I only visited him because he called me and I promised that I would.He is doing okay.I am glad that he is.
The reason why I am feeling mixed emotions is because I am depressed.The main reason was last night's cancellation.I understand that what happened was crucial and it couldn't be helped.But I was hoping to have a good time with him and have a memorable night with a friend and his girlfriend celebrating.But this sudden turn of events really brought me down.Again,I understand that this couldn't be helped and I do sympathize and my heart goes out to him and his girlfriend.I am hoping that her relative gets over his injuries and that they are feeling better soon.It was great for me to talk with him today and see that he is alright.I do feel a little bit better as a result of talking with him,though I am still feeling the blues.I did explain to them how I am feeling and they said that it could also be a side effect of the psychiatric medication that I currently taking.I really don't know if that is contributing to this.Still,anything is possible.I am hoping that it isn't.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went well.Though I was feeling down as a result of my good friend canceling at the last minute.Again,I do sympathize and I don't hold it against him or even her.I had a good time but my depression really affected me and the good time didn't seem like a good time to me.I am hoping that I will be feeling better next week.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I think that this is another reason why I am feeling depressed.I haven't acted out in a long time and I haven't watched any pornography nor have I visited any pornographic websites in a long time.I want to do the right thing and stay away from any situation that might tempt me into acting out on these desires.I know that these desires are emotional in nature and I also know that acting out will never get me the fulfillment that I really need to keep going.But these desires are really strong and my cravings to act out are also strong.Still,I am not going to act out.I am not going to have anything sexual with men.I want to continue leaving the Gay(i.e.Homosexual) lifestyle behind and I am not going to let these desires run my life.I also know that I was sexually abused by other guys for their pleasure,including the time that I was raped by that man in my neighborhood when I was 16.There were also the other times that I was used by other guys for their pleasure and I still keep that in mind.Not only that,the physical,emotional and spiritual abuse that I suffered at the hands of my father was also the main root cause of my desires.I know the right thing to do and I am going to do that.I won't act out and I won't let the desires I have make my choices for me.I have made a choice not to act out and I am sticking to that.The only thing that I need to do is to continue seeking healthy relationships with other men.I am going to continue doing that until I do indeed find what I am seeking.I hope that I get there soon.
Plus,it is all this stuff about "Same-Sex Marriage" that is always in the news and hearing about two members of the same gender "getting married" like if they were a man and a woman.This really makes me sick.The institution of marriage was never meant to be this way because it was Adam and Eve that were created and not Adam and Steve.I know that I shouldn't let it bother me and I really don't want it to.But it really sickens me when I hear about this constantly.It is truly sickening to see two members of the same gender doing something that is strictly meant for a man and woman.If anyone out there has any advice on how I can deal with this effectively,I would appreciate some.I don't want to feel sad and/or depressed.I want to feel happy because of the freedom that I have from Homosexuality.Again,any advice would be strongly appreciated.
You know something,just sharing these feelings and thoughts on here has made me feel a lot better.Still,I would appreciate some advice on how to deal with this stuff.
I am thinking of going out to have a drink or two with the guys at the place where I entertain.I am hoping for some great talks with them.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today is Satrurday.I really didn't have too much to do.After getting out of bed,I had a light breakfast and I did my personal PC work.This time,I didn't have too much PC work to do.It only took me an 1/2 hour to get it done.After finishing,I browsed the internet for a while looking at some videos on YouTube and visiting Wikipedia and Muppet Wiki.I closed off the internet and had a light lunch.
I had only one small errand to run.It was to get a couple of things that my mom needed.After purchasing them,I stopped at the local Salvation Army thrift shop in the area before heading straight home.
When I got home,I browsed the internet for a while and I bathed afterwards while mom prepared dinner.It was a light dinner and I bathed quickly so I could be out when it was ready.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work.I had a few e-mails and I posted a message to a Yahoo group that I am a member of.I just wanted to get the message in before the end of the month.It is now in the group archive and I am glad to have gotten it in.I am hoping for some wonderful feedback from the other men in the forum.
Tonight,I am going to be entertaining the crowd.I am hoping for a wonderful evening.I will also be out with a friend celeebrating his birthday.I am hoping for a blast.Though the nights are usually pretty good,I always hope for a wonderful evening as you never know what might happen.I do have the feeling that everything will work out tonight.Still,I hope.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a brief episode early this morning while still in bed.I had a craving to manipulate my sexuality while in bed and the images of a sexual liaison with another man.It is a sexual affair that happened previously.It just repeated itself.Fortunately,I was able to stop it.I simply prayed hard about it and the images faded and I was able to rest for another hour before getting up to start the day.I am hoping that I can get through the rest of the weekend unscathed.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have no plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time that I had and when I was finished,I bagged everything and I dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I dropped off some stuff of mine and I headed back out again to withdraw some money from the bank for my mom and myself as well as cash my paycheck.I also had to hurry because I had to get this money home.After the transactions were finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered the bills from my paycheck at the Where's George site and did some personal PC work while waiting for dinner to get done.
After eating,I registered some more of the bills at the Where's George site and did some more personal PC work.I am still not finished registering the bills.I am going to register the rest of the bills tomorrow.
I am glad that the weekend is here.I am looking forward to entertaining the crowd tomorrow night.Not only that,a friend of mine is celebrating a birthday tomorrow night.I am looking forward to celebrating with him and I am hoping that the night is a blast.I am also hoping that my friend enjoys his birthday tomorrow night.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a couple of brief episodes today.The first episode happened while I was doing my personal PC work this morning when images of me and another guy crept up into my mentality and I immediately got off the internet and shut the computer down.The ultimate irony is that I wasn't even watching any pornography online nor was I tempted to visit any sites.But I felt that temptation would rear it's ugly head if I didn't get off the computer and so,I closed off the internet and shut the computer down.The second episode happened while I was on the job.I was waiting for loads of laundry to get dried when the same images from this morning reemerged.It was something from my past when I was engaging in a sexual liaison with another guy.On both occasions,I prayed really hard to have the images removed.I repeated to the creator to help me remove these immoral images from my mentality and after repeating that,I felt better because they faded.I even asked that the creator forgive me on both occasions.I am feeling better now and I am hoping that I can get through the weekend unscathed.It is scary when something like that creeps up into your mentality when you least expect it.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the new weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the amount of time that I had and after I was finished,I dropped everything off at the rehab center and headed straight home.
When I got home,I watched a little bit of TV and I laid down on my bed for over 1/2 an hour.After taking in the mail,I headed for the bank to withdraw some money.
After getting home and registering the bill that I withdrew,I tried to finish my personal PC work but I had an issue.The internet browser that I was using was constantly rebooting itself and I restarted my computer while I was eating.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work after it was finished restarting.Despite the issues,I managed to get it done.It was great to have finally gotten it done.I am going to do some browsing on the internet before turning in for the night.
Right now,weatherwise,it is raining.It isn't raining too hard.We started having a light rain shower but it turned heavy after a while.I am staying in for the night because there is no place to go when it is raining.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I have had no images nor cravings creeping up into my mentality.I am feeling pretty good as a result.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean up and I wound up taking only a little bit.I sorted out the laundry after I ate lunch and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby Dairy Queen and bought an ice cream sandwich for a snack.I even ran into an old schoolmate of mine there and said hello.After finishing my snack,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I waited for my mom to get ready so we could go grocery shopping.
The grocery shopping went great.We managed to find everything that we were looking for with no problems.After the groceries were paid for,we headed straight home.We also wanted to get home because there was the possibility of a thunderstorm coming and we wanted to get the groceries home before it hit.Fortunately,the storm bypassed us but there is still the high possibility of rain tonight.My mom and I both relaxed for a while after we got home.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work and also browsed the internet by visiting some pages for my own personal research.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.There were no cravings or images creeping up into my mentality.I feel great as a result.I am also still hoping that the state of New York will uphold the traditional marriage bill and reject the Same-Sex Marriage bill.I even signed a few petitions online to urge my senators to keep marriage between a man and a woman.Why?Because there are no substitutes.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the amount of time that I had and when I was finished,I dropped off the clean laundry and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a few places that I needed to go.Firstly,I dropped off a newspaper at a couple of houses and while doing that,I stopped at the same dude's house that I had yesterday to talk with him again.It was yet another great conversation and I felt pretty good to have talked with him.The conversation only lasted a few minutes.It probably would have lasted longer but it was starting to rain and I had to head back out.On the way to drop off the second newspaper,I stopped for some gas.I headed straight home after dropping off the paper.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and took it easy.I also took a nap for a little over 1/2 an hour.After I woke up,I started to finish my personal PC work.Before I did,I was having some issues with the internet browser and I restarted the computer while I sat down to eat.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work after the computer was finished restarting.It was a lot but I got it done.
I did go back out to run a couple of errands.My mom needed me to buy some coffee and a box of hot cereal.I also stopped at the nearby Salvation Army thrift shop and I bought a couple of things.I also had to hurry because they were getting ready to close.I headed straight home after that.
I am now relaxing and getting ready for the new day.Overall,today was a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.There were no images nor cravings creeping into my mentality today.This is great that I didn't have anything to deal with regarding SSA.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes smoothly.I also have to take my mom grocery shopping tomorrow to get some more groceries in the house.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Happy Memorial Day,Everybody.
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
As stated,today is Memorial Day.A day to remember those who gave their lives to make sure that we have freedom.For me,I also use the day to remember those who were close to me who are no longer alive.I was actually remembering my grandfather today.He died when I was 6 years old.
Today,I went back to the community carnival and there were a lot more people there today then there were yesterday.I stopped there to get something to eat.After I ate the food that I got,I headed back out to a couple of stores to pick up a few more things that my mom needed.It was pretty easy finding what she needed and I was glad to be out in the community.I even stopped to talk with someone that I knew as he was busy painting his porch railings.He told me that he lost his job and that he was looking for another one.I wished him the best of success in his job search and I headed straight home.At the same time,I felt bad for him because he is out of work and I still have my job.Still,I meant it when I wished him the best of success in finding another job.I really hope that he does find a job and that he can find joy in working again.It was a pleasant conversation.
After I got home,I watched a little bit of a movie on a DVD that I have and I made my bed.I relaxed for a bit while waiting for dinner to get done after making my bed.
After eating,I did some last minute personal PC work and I also did some internet browsing.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems today,I didn't have no cravings nor did any images creep up into my mentality.I guess that by keeping myself occupied,I kept my mind off of sexual images of men.Still,I need to focus on forming healthy relationships with other guys.I did give another guy my phone number and I am hoping to hear from him soon.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling really good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was a great day to be out in the community.The city that I live in was having a carnival and I decided to go and check it out.After finishing my personal PC work,which included listening to another wonderful radio sermon online,I got cleaned up and dressed and I headed over there.
When I got there,I had a little lunch.I bought a slice of pizza,a bottle of water and a small serving of cheese fries.I even found a picnic table nearby so I could finish my food without walking around with it.I even had a talk with a guy who came to join me.It was wonderful to be out in the community and just be around others.Plus,the weather was nice and sunny with only a light breeze.I am going to go back there tomorrow and have lunch there again.Tomorrow,which will be Memorial Day,will be the last day for the community carnival.The weather tomorrow is also supposed to be nice and sunny.I hope that it will just as wonderful as it was today.
I also went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things that my mom needed to round out the day.I was also fortunate to find everything that she had asked me to get.After paying for the items,I headed for home.I only made one more stop along the way and that was to get some gas in my gas tank.
When I got home,I waited for dinner to get done and while I was doing that,I browsed the internet and I watched some classic Sesame Street clips over on YouTube.I also watched a few other varied videos that were on there.
After eating a light dinner,I watched 60 Minutes.After doing that,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work.While I was typing this,the phone rang and it was a friend of mine from out of town.It was a brief but great conversation.We talked for about a few minutes.Overall,a pretty good day.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.It was yet another aweome night.I also had a friend who came to join me and that even made it even more wonderful.I had a blast entertaining the crowd and I got some positive responses from the crowd.It was really neat and I am looking forward to next week.I am even thinking of going out to have a drink or two with the gang over at the place where I entertain and I am also hoping for some great talks with the gang there.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I have no problems to report.I did not have any images nor cravings creeping up into my mentality today.I guess that just being out in the community today was what took my mind off of anything sexual with men.I feel great as a result.I am hoping to get through the new week unscathed.
Tomorrow is Memorial Day.I hope that the day turns out wonderful.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was a very eventful day.I ran a few errands that needed to be run.Firstly,I ate breakfast when I woke up and I did my personal PC work.It was pretty much and I did get it done.I then set out to get on with the day.
I went out to do a little bit of shopping for my mom.I picked up a few items at a local supermarket and I managed to find everything that I needed to get.After getting these things,I stopped at the local K-Mart to pick up a funnel that I needed because I had to put a quart of motor oil in my engine because I was a quart low.I only had to get one more thing at another local supermarket before I headed straight home.
When I got home,I bathed for a while and after bathing,I had a light dinner of soup and sandwich.
After eating,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work.I also registered some bills at the Where's George site.Overall,a pretty good day.
Tonight is my night to entertain the crowd.I am going to go out and sing and I am hoping for a good night.Though I rarely have a bad night,I still hope for things to go well.I do have a feeling that everything will work out for me.I will also have a friend join me for the evening.Again,I hope that everything will work out for me tonight.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I also had no cravings nor images creeping up into my mentality.That makes me feel good.I am hoping that I can get through the weekend unscathed.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I did what I had to do in the period of time that I had.After finishing,I dropped everything off at the rehab center and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to cash my paycheck and to make a deposit into my account.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I had to pay for my anti-virus software subscription for another year and that is what the deposit was for.I renewed it before I ate dinner and now,I am all set for another year.
When I get home,I relaxed for 1/2 an hour on my bed.I had dinner shortly after getting up.
After eating,I registered all the bills that I had at the Where's George site.They are now all on there and I will be spending some of them tomorrow when I go out.
I am glad that the weekend is here.I am looking forward to going out tomorrow night and entertaining the crowd.I always look forward to singing up a storm each and every week.I will also have a friend join me for the night as well.I am hoping that the evening goes well.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I didn't have to endure any images or cravings.I feel pretty good as a result.I am hoping that I can get through the weekend without any issues.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the upcoming weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty eventful day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I did what I had to do in the time that I had and after I was done,I dropped everything off at the rehab center and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I watched another episode of my After School Specials DVD set.I also had to get ready for my appointment with the sexual abuse support counselor and I managed to make it there on time.
The session went well.We talked a little more about the issues that I am struggling with.The new counselor wants to get to know me a little bit better and I am sharing with her everything that she would like to know.As stated,today's session went well and I was glad.After that,I headed back home.
On the way home,I stopped at the store to pick up something that my mom wanted me to get for her.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I finished my personal PC work and I managed to get it done before I ate dinner.I also did a little bit of browsing online for a while before sitting down to dinner.
After eating,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work before turning in for the night.Overall,a pretty eventful day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images cloud my mentality nor did I have any cravings.I had a pretty good feeling and I am hoping to get through tomorrow without having to deal with that.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty eventful day today.
The laundry pick-up went as smoothly as it could.There were no messes to clean up and after I ate my lunch,I sorted out the laundry at the work site before continuing on with my day.
The first thing that I did was that I went to the post office to mail out a couple of bill payments.They are no on the way and I am glad to get them out of the way.I headed for the doctor's office after that.
I was seen immediately after I arrived at the office.The doctor gave me a good review of my health and he advised to get some blood work done and to exercise more.I am hoping to get the work done soon.I know that it will be difficult but I do need to get it done.After the doctor,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some money for my mom and I went to the store to get a gallon of milk.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I registered the money that I withdrew at the Where's George site and I relaxed a bit while listening some music after making my bed.
I only ran one more errand before calling it a day.I went to a local Subway to pick up a footlong club sandwich for me and my mom to eat for dinner.It was great to have a fresh sandwich to eat for dinner.It was also very filling and delicious.
After eating,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work.Overall,a pretty eventful day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a brief episode.I was having visions of me having sexual relations with another man and I wound up masturbating to the images.I did ask for forgiveness after it was done and I did feel better.I guess what led up to this was that I was a little bit nervous about my medical check-up.I really didn't know what to expect.The nervousness led me to let my mind wander and I gave in.Oh well!I guess that it is back to square one.I am just hoping that I can get through the rest of the week unscathed.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a really good day today.
The work day went smoothly.It was a breeze despite a shaky start with the laundry pick-up.After sorting everything out at the work site,I started a couple of loads.After parking my vehicle in a safe area,I hung out at the social club for a while waiting for the loads to get done.
For much of the day at the social club,they were watching some animated movies to pass the time and it was pretty quiet for a change.There were no fights nor people getting on other's nerves.I am not going to go as far as to say that the day was perfect because there really is no such thing as a perfect day.The lunch hour was equally quiet and they were some great talks with the people.After my work was finished,I bagged everything that was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I was delighted to see a package that I was waiting on.It is another two bottles of the calcium supplements to help take care of the bone spur that I have in my right foot.They have been doing great as I have not felt any extreme pain in my right foot.After dropping off some stuff,I headed to a nearby supermarket to buy some bagels.
After getting back home,I relaxed and I watched another After School Special on the DVD set that I recently bought.It was wonderful.I relaxed for a while while waiting for dinner to get ready.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work.It was quite a lot but I got it done.I also had to make some changes in regards to some of the forums that I am a member of in order to reduce the amount of e-mails that I receive.After finishing,I went out for a while.
I went to a local Dairy Queen and had a dipped cone and I also went to the local Wal-Mart to buy some new underpants.I was running low and I wanted to make sure that I had some extra until the next wash day.I headed for home and that is where I am staying for the night .Overall,a very good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images nor cravings creep up into my mentality.I feel great as a result.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well.I also have a doctor's appointment tomorrow and I am hoping that I get a good report.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I had a couple of things that I needed to do today.Before I did these necessary things,I had a light breakfast and I did 1/3 of my personal PC work.I had an appointment with the medication manager over at the local hospital and I spent some of the time preparing for that.I had to clean up and get ready.I also had to make sure that I left at a time when I would arrive on time and not have too long to wait.
When I got to the hospital,I had lunch in their cafeteria and I went to the waiting room to wait.Fortunately,the medication manager met with me early so we delved into what we needed to talk about the minute that we were in her office.
The session went great.We talked about a lot of things and it was great to get what I wanted to get off of my mind.After the session was over,I left the hospital and headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some money and I went to a nearby supermarket to pick up a few things.After I was done with the shopping,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to lay down for a while.I rested for a little over an hour and I felt refreshed.After getting up,I registered the change from shopping at the Where's George site before eating dinner.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work.I also did a little bit of browsing online for a while.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a brief episode while I was taking a nap.Images of men crept up into my mind and I was tossing and turning to try to rid myself of them.I decided to get up and use the bathroom(which is what I had to do anyway)and get back into bed.This worked.I slept for a while and no more images crept up into my mentality.I felt refreshed and rejuvenated.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
I woke up late today as a result of the late night that I had.I woke up almost when it was lunch.I had a bowl of cereal and I started my personal PC work.While doing that,I listened to another radio sermon and it was yet another wonderful one.It took me about an hour to get my PC work done and after that,I started to get on with my day.
I ran an errand for my mom today to pick up a few things at a local supermarket and fortunately,I managed to find everything.I also had myself another hot dog to help with the local Juvenile Diabetes fund raising drive.After paying for everything,I went over to my record store friend's place to pick him up and bring him to my house to show him what packing my record collection in boxes would entail.After doing that,I dropped him off at his home and headed back to my own home myself.
After eating,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work and I also did some internet browsing.It was to look up some stuff to purchase in the near future.I wanted to look up the prices as to how much they will be.Overall,a pretty good day.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.It was a pretty long night.We had a ton of singers and I was waiting for quite a while to sing my last two songs.It was well worth the wait and I got a lot of positive responses from the crowd.I was tired when I left but fortunately,I made it home in one piece.It was a pretty good night for me and I had a blast.I am looking forward to next week.I am also thinking of going out to the place tonight and have a drink or two with the guys and I am hoping to have a few great talks with them.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.No images or cravings crept up into my mentality.This actually was a great stride after yesterday.I am hoping to get through the new week unscathed.
Tomorrow is my day off.I do have an appointment with the medication manager at the local hospital and I am hoping that the session goes well.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was the start of the weekend.I stayed home for much of the day because it rained.It was also a little chilly.When I got out of bed,I ate a light breakfast and I did my personal PC work.It was quite a lot.But I managed to get it done.After doing that,I proceeded to get on with my day.
The first thing that I did was that I ran an errand for my mom.I had to pick up a few things that my mom needed at a local supermarket.When I got there,they were having a hot dog sale and a small yard sale styled sale to benefit the local chapter of the Juvenile Diabetes Foundation.I bought a hot dog because I hadn't had a bite to eat since I had a bowl of cereal for breakfast.After I did my shopping,they were giving away the stuff that wasn't sold and I grabbed several record albums,a couple of videos,a book of Aesop's fables and a combination scarf and glove set.I headed straight home to drop the stuff off and head back out again.
I went to my record store friend's house to see about having him check out my record collection to see how the work we are setting to do will entail.It is going to be a lot of work spread over some weeks.I really don't know how many weeks it will entail.But I am hoping to get it done before the really warm weather hots so I can protect them.I just hope that it will be done in a few weeks time.I headed back home after talking with him.
When I got home,I bathed.I am going to be going out tonight to entertain the crowd and I needed to get cleaned up.I bathed for about 20 minutes while my mom prepared what I had picked up at the store for dinner.After I was done,I ate.
After eating,I did some last minute personal PC work.I also did some browsing on the internet.I just visited a few sites and started to post here.
I am going to be doing my usual entertaining the crowd as I usually do every Saturday night.I am hoping for a wonderful evening.Though I rarely have a bad night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what could happen.I do have a feeling that things will work out for me and that the night will go well.Still,I hope.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a brief episode this morning while in bed.I was having a dream where I was being begged to perform a sexual favor on a guy and I was also talking to myself in sleep as if this were happening in the room rather than being a dream.This whole thing caused me to masturbate.Afterwards,I felt miserable.I have been sober since the start of the week and I wound up giving in to temptation.I did ask the creator for forgiveness and I felt better.I also slept for about a couple more hours and I felt better.I used to dwell on these failures but I don't anymore.The dwelling on the failures made it more difficult for me to stick to my resolve.Though I do fail from time to time,I don't let the failures bring me down.I simply move on with the rest of the day and just hang in there.I am also moving on from this failure starting now.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time that I had.It wasn't hard.After I was done,I bagged everything that was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at my regular bank to cash my paycheck and I also withdrew some money that my mom needed.After that,I headed for a nearby drug store to buy a bottle of hydrogen peroxide for my mom.I headed straight home afterwards.
After getting home,I relaxed for a bit while waiting for dinner to get ready.I was waiting for a website to come up to connect me to the renewal process of my Norton anti-virus software.I now can simply go to my renewal next week so I can renew my subscription.I am going to be needing this to keep my protection going for another year.You never know when a virus or some spyware will invade or even try to invade the database.
After eating,I registered the bills at the Where's George site and I did some other personal work.Overall,a pretty good day.
I am glad that the weekend is here.I am looking forward to singing tomorrow night.I always look forward to entertaining the crowd and it makes me feel great to do that.I am hoping that the night goes well.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I did not have any images nor did I have any cravings creeping up on my mentality.It is great that I am no longer enslaved to SSA and that I really don't have to act out if I really don't want to.I am hoping to get through the weekend unscathed.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have made no plans but whatever I do,I am hoping that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the new weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good but busy day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time allotted.Despite a shaky start to the day,the day went well and I was pleased with the results.After my job was finished,I bagged everything and I dropped it off at the rehab center before heading straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched another After School Special episode on my DVD set.I also got ready to go to my appointment with the new sexual abuse support counselor.
On the way to my appointment,I stopped to check up on a friend but he wasn't home.After that,I went to get some gas and I headed for the office to wait to see the counselor.
I didn't wait too long.I was called into the office a few minutes after arriving.We talked for about 20 minutes and we ended the session.It did go fairly well but we are looking forward to talking more on my next appointment,which will be in two weeks.
Before heading for home,I headed for the local hospital's emergency ward.I was feeling a resurgence of the same cold symptoms that I had two weeks ago.The in-house doctor there prescribed a nasal spray and some strong cough remedy.I got the prescriptions filled on the way home because I needed them right away.I headed straight home after they were filled.When I got home,I started using the nasal spray right away.I am feeling a little bit better nasal wise but I am still coughing a little.I will be taking a cough pill before I go to sleep tonight.
After eating a light dinner,I finished my personal PC work and I did some online browsing.Overall,a pretty good but busy day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems nor did I have any images or cravings creeping up into my mentality.I am hoping that I can get through the day tomorrow unscathed.I am feeling pretty good as a result.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.I also had a helping hand when I arrived at the work site to drop it off and sort it out.After sorting out the laundry,I headed to my appointment to meet with the minister.
On the way there,I stopped at a Burger King in the area and I had a Veggie burger for lunch.I wanted to have some food in me before anything else.After eating,I headed for my appointment.
It took a bit of doing getting there.I also got lost a couple of times before I had to ask for help from a lady who was working by the side of the road.After she gave me some direction,I took the way she gave me and I found the street that I was looking for and the place where my meeting was going to be.
When I walked into the church,the minister greeted me and I apologized for being a few minutes late due to me getting lost.We talked for almost and hour and it was a very pleasant conversation.He simply advised me to find a church that teaches the bible on a regular basis but also,try to find one that believes in doing the right thing and refuse to compromise due to law.I said that I would try and do that and that I would let him know when I do.He walked me out and I drove away heading for home.
On the way home,I made a couple of stops.Firstly,I stopped at my mechanic's garage to clean out my old car of some cans and bottles that had accumulated in the trunk.I bagged them in a garbage bag and put them in the back seat of my 4X4 before heading off to a local supermarket to return some beer bottles and some cans for the little bit of money that they would give me.I headed straight home after that and I am staying here for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I watched another After School Special from the DVD set that I bought and I laid down for a short while before I had dinner.
After eating,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work and to browse some internet pages.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems whatsoever.I had no cravings nor images creeping up on me.The meeting with the minister really helped me to forget about anything sexual.Plus,all the concentration that I had to do regarding the road also helped.I feel pretty good as a result of this and the day turned out to be pretty wonderful.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.I also have an appointment with a new sexual abuse support counselor and I am hoping that this first session will go well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time allotted.It wasn't quite a bit to do.After finishing,I simply bagged what was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar General store to buy a box of garbage bags and some baby wipes.I headed straight home after paying for them.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched an episode of my new DVD set of After School Specials and it was a treat to watch it.I got this on Monday and I watched one that day that I had missed when I was younger.It was also a treat to watch that one as well.After watching that,I registered a couple of bills at the Where's George site.I then proceeded to go out and get dinner for me and my mom.
I bought a $4.00 sandwich at Quizno's shop and it was delicious.I also had them slice the sandwich in half so me and my mom could eat it.Again,the sandwich was delicious and my mom and I enjoyed it.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work.It was quite a lot but I got it done.I also visited a few other webpages and checked my Yahoo Messenger to see if I had any offline messages and to add a few contacts to my Yahoo messengers list.I didn't stay on messenger for too long as I signed out and closed the messenger.I will be checking it again before I shut down to see if there has been any changes.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images nor cravings creeping up on me.Plus,I had no desire to act out.That actually makes me feel pretty good.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick up goes well.I also have an appointment to meet with a minister tomorrow afternoon and I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I did have a few errands that I needed to run.Firstly,I went to my mechanic's garage so he could check my horn out and see why it was giving out on me.He simply did some cleaning of some dirt on the connectors and after that,the horn worked better than ever.I went straight home after that and got back into bed,where I slept for a little over an hour.
After getting back up,I did my personal PC work and had a light lunch.I also managed to bring my mail in and I got the DVD set that I was waiting on.I then proceeded to continue on with my day.
I went to the post office to mail out a couple of bills that I needed to pay and I also went after picking up my mom's prescription refill.I then went to a mom's friends house to pick up something that she had for her.Lastly,I went to a local supermarket to pick up a bag of bagels.I headed straight home after that and waited for dinner to get done.
After eating,I decided to do some more last minute personal PC work.In between all the errands,I managed to withdraw some money for my mom and I registered all the bills at the Where's George site.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.There were no images nor cravings.I guess that keeping myself busy was what kept my mind off of sex with men and sex in general.I feel pretty good because of it.I hope that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers of the world.
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today despite a shaky start.
When I got out of bed,I had a light breakfast and I did my personal PC work.It was quite a lot and I did have a few issues with the browser that I was using.But again,I managed to get everything done and I proceeded to get on with the day.
I really didn't have too much to do.After I gave my mom her Mother's Day gift,which was the CD that I made for her,I cleaned up,got dressed and went out for a while.My eldest sister was in town visiting with mom and I felt that I should leave them alone for a while.
Firstly,I got some gas at a local gas station and I went to a nearby shopping mall.When I got there,I had a slice of pizza as a late lunch and I headed back home after I was done eating.
When I did get home,my eldest sister was still talking with mom and I chose to browse the internet for a while.I would eventually take my eldest sister to my other sister's house when she felt a little tired.
After getting home,I ate a late dinner and after eating,I chose to do some last minute personal PC work.I also did some browsing and visited a few pages on Wikipedia and Muppet Wiki.Overall,a pretty good day.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.There were quite a few guys there who were having a bachelor party downstairs in the place's basement and they decided to come up and watch the entertainment upstairs once their party ended.It was great to have all of these guys there and I did get some really loud positive responses from them as one by one,most of them left for home.Still,it was a great night and I had a good time.I am looking forward to next week.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had an episode where I wound up masturbating.Images of men with erections crept up into my mentality while I was still in bed sleeping and as stated,I masturbated.I did feel miserable after that but after cleaning up all the seminal residue,I asked the creator to forgive me.I felt better after that.I guess that I need to learn to make alternate decisions before acting out.I have been doing so good but I wound up falling short.There is a new week ahead and I am hoping that I can get through the week unscathed.
I am thinking of going out and having a drink with the guys over at the bar tonight.I am hoping for some good conversations with them.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes well.I do have an appointment with my mechanic tomorrow so he can check out my horn mechanism to see why it has been giving out on me a lot lately.I hope that the problem is not very serious.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was a pretty busy day.After I woke up,I ate and I did my personal PC work.It was quite a lot and I was glad to have gotten it done.After doing that,I started to get on with my day.
I ran a whole bunch of errands today.Firstly,I went and had my hair cut and I had a light lunch at a nearby supermarket.I also went to the local Wal-Mart and bought some new razor blades.Last but not least,I stopped at a local supermarket to buy a few things that my mom needed.I headed for home after that.
When I got home,I unloaded the groceries and I bathed while mom prepared dinner.After the bath,I registered a couple of bills that I got in change after I had my hair cut.After doing a little bit of some personal stuff,I ate dinner.
After eating,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work before shutting the computer down.
I am going to be singing up a storm tonight.I am looking forward to entertaining the crowd as I always do every weekend.I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.I rarely have any bad nights but I always hope that things go well.It is a habit of mine.I do have the feeling that things will work out for me.Still,I hope.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images creeping up on me nor did I have any cravings to act out.I am feeling pretty good as a result.I am just hoping that I can get through the rest of the weekend unscathed.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I had only a small amount of laundry during the pick-up phase but it was better than nothing.I had lunch before starting my job.I had only a couple of small loads to do and it didn't take too much of my time.After I was done.I simply dropped the clean laundry off and headed for home.
I went home before going to the bank because I needed to charge my cell phone.It was beeping repeatedly because the battery was low and it was driving me crazy.After plugging in my phone,I headed for the bank.
After cashing my check,I headed straight home but I went back out again after dropping off my money because my mom needed tartar sauce.I went back out to get it.
When I got home,I ate a light dinner and I made a CD set for my mom for Mother's Day.I am hoping that my mom enjoys this CD set of songs that I made for her.I will be giving it to her on Sunday.Again,I am hoping that she enjoys it.
I also ran one more errand tonight.I ran out to the local Wal-Mart to purchase a few things that I needed for myself.I also had no problems finding the stuff that I needed.Overall,a pretty good day.
I am just glad that the weekend is here.I am looking forward to singing tomorrow night and I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.I haven't made any plans on what I will do the rest of the weekend but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no cravings nor did any images creep up into my mentality.Plus,I haven't watched any pornography nor have I visited any pornographic websites in over two months.I am feeling pretty good as a result.I am hoping that I can get through the weekend unscathed.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling alright.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.The only drawback was that there was no laundry for me to pick up.Fortunately,there was some stuff for me to do at the work site and it wasn't a total loss.I simply did what I had to do job wise and everything worked out.After dropping off the clean laundry at the rehab center,I headed for home.
On the way home,I made a couple of stops.I firstly stopped at a gas station to get some gas and I made a stop at a Dollar Tree store to buy a few things that my mom needed and after paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I laid down for a little over an hour because I was feeling tired after my work day.I slept for a while before finishing my personal PC work.
After eating a light dinner,I read from a local newspaper that I bought at the Dollar Tree store while listening to some music.They were a couple of records that I had bought off of an Ebay seller.
The day started pretty dismal but later wound up nice.For much of the morning,the weather was wet and foggy.It turned sunny after a while but was still pretty cool.Overall,a pretty good work day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images creeping up into my mind nor did I have any cravings.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly despite a minor setback.After I arrived at the work site,I had lunch before sorting out the laundry.There were only a couple of semi-heaping full bags and I had plenty of time before sorting them.After eating,I did what I had to do and I headed for home.
On the way home,I made a couple of stops.I first mailed out some cards for my mom and I stopped at a local Dollar General to pick up a few things that my mom needed.After paying for the items,I stopped at a local Salvation Army thrift shop to look around but couldn't find anything that I wanted.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I decided to lay down for a while and was hoping to rest for an hour but was interrupted by a phone call.The phone call was from a new sexual abuse support counselor that I will be having sessions with.She called to reschedule because something had come up for this coming Monday and she needed to give me a new date.After I jotted down the new appointment date,I hung up and sat down for a while.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to run one last errand for my mom today.I had forgotten to pick up a roll of paper towels for my mom and I went out to buy the roll.My mom said that it could have waited until tomorrow,but I wanted to get it done tonight so they would be in the house.
When I got home,I did some last minute personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems today.There were no images or cravings creeping up on me.I hope that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly despite a shaky start with the laundry pick-up.After the pick-up,I went to the work site to sort the laundry out and start a couple of loads.After doing that,I hung out at the social club for a while and had a pretty good conversation with one of the guys there.
After the social club,I concentrated on my job and getting it done.I only went back to the social club just to have lunch and after that,I finished the work that I needed to finish and dropped the clean laundry off at the rehab center.I headed for home after that.
On the way home,I made some stops along the way.Firstly,I dropped off a couple of newspapers at a couple of friends houses and I picked up my mom's prescription at the drug store while also picking up some cookies.The last things that I did was that I went to get some gas and I also picked up a gallon of milk.I headed straight home after that and that is where I am for the night.
I relaxed for a bit at home while waiting for dinner to get done.I napped on my bed for about an hour after taking a prescription cough pill.I felt better after my nap and I had dinner shortly after getting up.I also received a phone call from a minister that I was waiting to hear from.We have an appointment set up in a week.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work and despite a couple of issues with the internet browser that I was using,I managed to get it done.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images nor cravings to act out in any way,shape or form.Nothing to complain or gripe about.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty busy day today.
Firstly,when I woke up,I ate and I started to get on with my day.I had a lot to do and I wanted to start getting everything that I needed to do.
I did briefly check my e-mail and I deleted some very unimportant things and after closing off the internet,I cleaned up and got dresses and started to do the things that I needed to do.
Firstly,I went shopping to pick up several things for dinner and several Mother's Day cards that my mom had asked me to get.After getting all of these things,I headed for my appointment.
When I got to the office,I learned that my appointment was canceled.This really came as a surprise to me.I was hoping to meet with the counselor but the meeting was canceled.The counselor later apologized for not letting me know of the changes ahead of time and I got a new appointment with a new counselor and I left the office.
After having a light but late lunch,I went to a nearby post office to buy some stamps to mail out some letters that my mom had asked me to mail and I also mailed out my monthly credit card payment by 3 day Priority Mail so it will get there by the date due.After doing that,I visited with someone that I knew for a while before heading for home.
After I got home,I started to do my personal PC work as I awaited dinner too be ready.I had to do it in two separate intervals today.It was quite a lot.When I did bring in the mail,I received some records that I bought off an Ebay seller.I am still awaiting two more that I bought off of the same seller.I even tried them out on my record player and they play great.
After eating dinner,I finished my personal PC work and I also browsed for a while online.Overall,a pretty busy day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems today.I had no images nor cravings creeping up on me.I guess that keeping myself busy with everything that I had to do was what kept my mind off of sex with other men.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was a pretty busy day for me.I had a few errands that I needed to run.Firstly,I did my personal PC work and I started to get on with my day.I had lots to do and I didn't waste any time.The first place that I went to was my sister's house to pick up a whole bunch of bottles and cans that she said she had.I picked them up and I took them to the local supermarket to turn them in for the money.It was good that I picked these up because the local supermarket was the place where I was heading to pick up some groceries.After turning in the bottles and getting the money,I did the shopping.
I managed to find everything that I was looking for.There was also not a problem finding them.After paying for the groceries,I headed straight home to drop the groceries off before heading back out again.
I went to the friend that owns a record store in town but he wasn't home.I headed back home.
On the way,my mom had called me on my cell phone and told me that my sister had some more beer bottles for me to pick up.I picked them up and immediately turned them in at a nearby convenience store before heading back home.
When I got back home,I registered all the money that I had at the Where's George site,which included the change from the groceries and from all the bottles that I turned in.They are all on the site and I will be sending them on their way very soon.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to do some more personal PC work,including posting here.I also did some internet browsing.Overall,a pretty good and busy day.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.There were quite a few people at the place and I got a lot of positive responses from the crowd.I had a great time and I am looking forward to next Saturday night.I also had a friend with me who came there riding his bicycle and left after singing a couple of songs when finished with his beer.He also called me when he got home and that really relieved me.He told me that he wasn't feeling very well and that he was going home.Overall,a pretty good night.
I am planning to see a movie tonight.I am going to see the film The Haunting in Connecticut.I have heard some mixed reactions to the film and I would like to see it for myself.I am hoping that it is a good movie.After the movie,I am thinking of going to have a drink with the guys at the place where I entertain.I am hoping that I have some good talks with them.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a brief episode while in bed this morning.It came in the form of a dream where a guy I knew was trying to talk me into performing oral sex on him.Fortunately,it was brief.It all ended when I had to get up and use the bathroom.When I went back to bed,I had no problems with SSA and I slept soundly until I finally did get up for the day.I went through the rest of the day unscathed.
Tomorrow is my day off.I have an appointment with a sexual abuse support counselor tomorrow afternoon and I hope that the session goes well.I also have to mail out a payment to a bank for a credit card account that I have with them tomorrow.I am hoping that the whole day goes well.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling very good.I had a very good day today.
First off,I went to the appointment that I had made for this morning and the appointment went well.We had a group meeting where we discussed a few things and we also watched a spiritually enlightened video.It was really awesome.I had a blast just listening to the other men talk and they welcomed me very warmly.It was great and I left feeling better about myself in a long time.After the meeting,I went about to finish what I had set out to do.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby Salvation Army thrift store in the area and bought a few things.I also went to a supermarket nearby the store to pick up some groceries that my mom asked me to get.I managed to find everything that I was looking for.I also went to the nearby Family Dollar store and picked up a couple of bottles of dish detergent.After getting all of these things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I sorted out all of the groceries and I also laid down for a while.I was feeling a little tired.I did not sleep.I simply relaxed while I read from a book that I have.
After my down time,I decided to do my personal PC work.I had put it off all morning while at the meeting and I was glad to get it finished.It was quite a lot and I was glad to to get it done.
After doing that,I ran a few more errands for my mom.I dropped off a birthday gift for my eldest grand-niece and I also bought a few more things at a local supermarket.I headed back home and bathed before I had dinner.
After eating,I ran just one more errand before posting here.I am now done with errands for the day and I am looking forward to what my mom has in store for me tomorrow.
Tonight is the night that I am going out to sing.I am looking forward to entertaining the crowd tonight and I am hoping that the evening goes well.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.Again,I hope that things go well.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.I am planning to see the film The Haunting in Connecticut tomorrow evening.I am hoping that the film is pretty good.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images nor cravings creeping into my mentality.I guess that keeping myself busy doing all the things that I did kept my mind off of sex with other men and the like.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
That was my day today and my hopes for the evening and the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time allotted.After it was all done,I simply bagged everything clean,dropped it off at the rehab center and headed straight home.
After getting home,I went back out to cash my paycheck and withdraw some money for my mom.She wants to buy something for her great grand-daughter for her birthday.There is a birthday party coming up and she wants to make sure that she has a gift for her.
After I got home,I registered all the bills at the Where's George site and managed to get them on the site despite some issues with the internet browser that I was using.After that,I went back out again to get a couple of things while my mom prepared dinner.
After getting home,I speedily checked my e-mail and I also made an Ebay purchase before I sat down at the table to eat.It was a light dinner so I wasn't in no hurry to get to the table.I just wanted to get the purchase done because I had started to do it while waiting.I also managed to buy a DVD set from a seller on Amazon.
After eating,I decided to do some more last minute personal PC work.I still have a couple of more e-mails to write before shutting down the computer.
Tomorrow,I will be meeting with someone at a church in the morning.I talked with the man on Wednesday and the appointment is now set.I am hoping that this goes well.
I am also going to be singing again tomorrow night.I am looking forward to that.I always look forward to singing each and every Saturday night.I am hoping that the evening goes well.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.There were no images nor cravings creeping on me.I kept busy all day with my job and I also read another chapter in the book The Raggamuffin Gospel and so far,it is a very good read.I am hoping to get through the weekend unscathed.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have no plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty eventful day today.
The work shift,despite a minor mishap that I had with a social club member,went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the amount of time that I had.After eating lunch,I bagged everything that was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center.After stopping to get some gas at a nearby gas station,I headed straight home.
I relaxed for a while when I got home.I had an appointment with my eye doctor today and I wanted to prepare for it.I also wanted to be careful not to miss this one like I missed my appointment last week.When it was time to leave,I headed over to the office for my appointment.
When I got there,I was early and they decided to start my test exam early.They did the usual drops in the eyes and checking the eye pressure.I had to wait quite a while for the doctor to talk with me about the results and what he had found out regarding my sight.I have another appointment with him in 6 months.After going to a local supermarket and the local Target to pick up a few things,I headed straight home.Despite the disorganization that I had as a result of the testing,I managed to make it home safe and sound.I even rested for a while before eating when I did get home.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work.It was quite a lot but I got it done.I am still feeling a little disorganized but after a good night's sleep,I know that I will be back in good shape tomorrow morning.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.No images nor cravings crept up into my mentality today.I kept myself busy with all the activity that I had and I am feeling pretty good as a result.Overall,a pretty good day.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay and at the same time,a little "under the weather".I had a pretty eventful day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean up nor were there any problems getting the single bag that I had to the work site.When I arrived at the site,I had lunch before sorting the laundry out.
After getting the job done,I headed over to the local hospital's emergency ward because of some cold symptoms that I had.When I initially got there,I couldn't find a place to park in their parking lot because the parking lot was really filled up.I decided to visit with a friend for a while to see how he was before heading back there.He did initially asked me to take him to the local social services office but later found that he couldn't go because he just remembered that his landlord was coming over to work a matter out with him.After visiting,I headed back to the hospital.
This time,there was a parking space there for me and after I parked,I went right in and signed up to be seen by the doctor.
I was in the ward for a little over a couple of hours.But I was very patient in waiting because they had others that they were seeing.When the doctor did get to me,he examined me and gave me a couple of prescriptions to help with my symptoms.After getting them filled at a local drug store,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things that my mom needed and after paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I took a pill from one of the prescriptions and decided to take a short nap.I rested for a little over an hour and I decided to do some computer work while waiting for dinner to get done.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work.Before posting here,I got a phone call that I was waiting on.I have an appointment to meet with someone at a local church this coming Saturday morning.I am hoping that the meeting with this person goes well.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images nor cravings creeping up into my mind.Plus,when I was resting,I slept very soundly with no images even creeping up into any form of dreams.That made me feel pretty good.I am hoping that I can sleep well tonight.Overall,a pretty eventful day.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.There were no messes to pick up when I did the initial pick-up this morning and when I arrived at the work site,I simply sorted everything out and started a couple of loads before parking my vehicle and heading for the social club.
After spending some time at the social club,I decided to concentrate more on my job and get it done.After the initial loads were done,I started two more.While waiting for those loads to finish,I read for a while.I printed some articles from the internet on how to let go of anger and bitterness and overcoming masturbation.I also read a health article that I also printed off the internet alongside these.I am going to try and use the advice on letting go and overcoming masturbation in the weeks ahead.I am hoping that the advice will work out for me.
As the day was winding down after I had lunch,I started reading the book The Ragamuffin Gospel by Brendan Manning.It looks like a pretty interesting read.The stuff that I read so far are the forwards and words of encouragement that were written by the author and a few friends.I am hoping to get an awful lot out of reading this book.After the day was done,I bagged all that was clean and dropped it off at the rehab center.After dropping off a couple of newspapers at a couple of houses and mailing a birthday card out for my mom,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed because we had rain for much of the day and I didn't feel like going anywhere as a result.
After getting home,I decided to take a nap.I was feeling tired and I felt that a nap would do me some good.while trying to sleep,I was having yet another dream of having sex with a man.I don't know what sparked this but as soon as I dozed off,I started having the dream and I was also talking to myself in my sleep to the person in my dream.Fortunately,it was brief and though I almost gave into a masturbation temptation,I turned to my left side and the dream started dying down and the rest of my nap went great.I slept for over an hour and a half.
After my nap,I had a light dinner and finished my personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day despite the brief episode earlier during my nap.
Regarding my SSA struggles,as stated,I did have that brief episode while trying to take a nap.But again,I was fortunate that it was only brief and though I almost masturbated,it didn't lead to anywhere.I am hoping that I can get through the rest of the week without any problems.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well without any messes to clean up.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I didn't have too much to do today.I simply ran a couple of errands and that sums up how my day went.
After getting out of bed,I ate breakfast and I did my personal PC work.There were not too many issues with the internet browser today though I did close it off for just a few seconds due to the browser freezing up and rebooting itself for a brief time.I managed to finish the work and closed the internet off to get ready for what I had to do.
My first errand today was that I had to go to my mechanic's garage to borrow his scraper so I could remove my old registration window sticker and put my new one on so it can be up to date.After that,I went to a local supermarket to buy a few things that my mom needed.I also bought a couple of birthday cards for a couple of 9 year old cars that I know that my mom wanted me to get.I got them and after paying for them,I headed straight home.I also managed to get a couple things that I needed for myself.
After getting home,I ate a light dinner and I registered a dollar bill that I got in change when I bought the things that I was asked to buy.Overall,a pretty good day.It was also a pretty nice sunny day,weatherwise.
The movie that I went to see,the updated version of The Last House on the Left,was actually a pretty good movie.It was a remake of the 1972 thriller that was created by Wes Craven and Sean S.Cunningham.I really enjoyed the film and I am looking forward to this coming to DVD.The next movie that I am hoping to see is The Haunting in Connecticut.I am hoping that it comes to the bargain theater soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images nor cravings creeping into my mind.I kept myself busy and that kept my mind off of sex with men.I hope that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was a day that I really didn't have too much to do.When I woke up,I simply ate breakfast,did my personal PC work and ran a small errand.I woke up when it was lunchtime.I went to sleep late last night after the night of entertainment that I had the previous night.It was a wonderful night and I had a blast.
When I ran my small errand,I noticed that there was a pack of cigarettes on the floor of my 4X4 and I first wondered how they got there because I don't smoke.I then remembered that I did drop a friend off at home last night and they must have fallen out of his shirt pocket.I went right to his house to drop them off and finished my day.It was nothing much really but I was glad to have been out in the community today.The weather was beautiful and sunny.I just wanted to be out in the community and just be within the presence of others.Again,it was a beautiful sunny day and I was glad to be out.
When I got home,I relaxed a bit while waiting for dinner to get done.It was a light dinner and I just wanted to simply take it easy for a while before it was ready.
After eating,I watched the news on TV for a little over an hour while waiting for my computer to finish restarting because I couldn't get onto the internet due to an issue with the browser.I am now listening to a sermon online and it is pretty good what I am hearing.
Last night,after posting here,I went to the local K-Mart to buy a couple pairs of sneakers.I needed some because the pair that I was wearing were wearing out.I was feeling extreme pain in my right foot and I felt that I needed a new pair.K-Mart was having a sale where if one pair of sneakers is bought,the second pair is 1/2 price.I took advantage of this and bought two pairs.After trying them on for size,I paid for them and headed for home.I wore one of them last night when I went out and I didn't feel any extreme pain.I walked better and I didn't feel like saying "oooch" when I tried to walk.I now have another pair when these wear out.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.I had a blast.I got a lot of positive responses from the crowd.I also had a friend with me and even that made it more worthwhile.I had a great time and I dropped my friend off at home when we were done before I headed straight home.
I do have plans for tonight.I am going to see a movie tonight.I am going to go see the updated version of the classic thriller The Last House on the Left.This is a remake of a film about a family getting revenge on a group of mentally disturbed people after they assaulted their child and her best friend.I am hoping that the film is a good one.After that,I am thinking of going to the place where I entertain and have a drink or two with the gang there.I am hoping that I can have some great conversations with the guys that will be there.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no real problems.I simply went through the day and had no dealings with cravings,feelings and the like.Overall,a pretty fair week because I did have a brief episode on Wednesday afternoon.I am hoping that I can get through the new week unscathed.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes well.I haven't made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it benefits me in a positive manner.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
I really didn't have too much to do today.I simply started the day off by doing my personal PC work and eating breakfast.Despite an issue with the internet browser,I managed to get my work done.I simply closed the browser and restarted the computer so I could increase the speed.It worked and I got the work that I needed to get done accomplished.
I only ran a couple of errands today.I went and got some gas in my tank and I also turned in some bottles that had accumulated in the backseat of my 4x4.I got a little over a couple of bucks but it was great to finally get them to the store and also help the environment a little.
When I got home,I took a bath while mom heated up some homemade soup for dinner.I also did some more personal PC work before even taking my bath,including registering a few more bills at the Where's George site.I am going out tonight and I wanted to be sure that I was cleaned up before anything else.I am going to be doing my usual singing tonight and I am hoping that the evening goes well.Though I rarely have a bad night,I still hope for things to go well.
After eating,I did some more last minute personal PC work.Weatherwise,the wind is blowing and we just had a passing rain shower.We are supposed to get some more rain before the evening is through.I will just have to be more careful while driving home tonight because of the rain.I am going to have a friend with me tonight because he called while I was bathing and said that he would like to go out.Again,I will just have to be careful while I am driving home tonight.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.Nothing crept up into my mentality today.I had no images,cravings nor any desire to act out.I guess that keeping myself busy today was what kept me from thinking of anything sexual with men as well as anything sexual in genral.I am feeling pretty good as a result.I am hoping that I can get through the rest of the weekend unscathed.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have no plans made but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for tonight and the rest of the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly,including the laundry pick up.Before I began my job,I had lunch and socialized for a while.After eating,I sorted the laundry out and did the work.
After I was finished,I bagged everything and dropped it off at the rehab center before heading for home.
I made a few stops on the way home.I first went to the bank to cash my paycheck and I went to the local K-Mart.I was looking for pain relieving patches but couldn't find the ones that I was looking for.I then headed over to the local Wal-Mart and I found the ones that I was looking for.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did some e-mail checking before having dinner.I only had a few e-mails and after reading them,I ate.
After eating,I went out and ran an errand for my mom.I had to pick up one last thing for her before the day was through.I went to the local supermarket to pick up a 1/2 gallon of ice cream and headed for home.Overall,a pretty good day.
I am glad that the weekend is here.I am going to go out and sing tomorrow night for my friends.I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I kept busy to try and keep my mind off of sex with other men and I had no problems.There were no cravings nor any images creeping up in my mind.I am hoping that I can get through the weekend unscathed.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the small amount of time that I had.There were also no messes to clean up during the laundry pick-up this morning.After lunch,I bagged the clean laundry that was already done,drooped it off at the rehab center and headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby gas station to get some gas in my tank and I headed straight home.
When i got home,I decided to take a nap.I slept for over an hour.This time,I slept soundly with no problems with images or cravings.I actually felt refreshed after the nap and when I got out of bed,I decided to finish my personal PC work,but put it off when dinner was ready.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work and I also browsed the internet for a while.I did run into some issues with the internet browser while doing that.It froze for about 10 seconds and rebooted itself.It did this about 3 times before I decided to just close the browser off and restart the computer.
While the computer was restarting,I ran a couple of errands for my mom.My mom wanted me to pick up a few things that she needed for dinner tomorrow night.I went out to get the things.I had to go to 2 different stores to get the stuff but I was glad to have gotten the errands done.I headed for home and didn't stop for anything on the way home.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems with any images,cravings nor did I have anything creeping up into my mind.As stated,even my nap today was pretty smooth with no images nor cravings.I guess the way things went contributed to me not having to deal with the feelings.They do make me feel uncomfortable when the occur and I just have to deal with them whenever they happen or creep up.But again,no problems and I am glad for that.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was simply a laundry pick-up day.The pick-up went well.There were no messes to clean up and everything worked out for the better.After having lunch at work,I sorted out the laundry and headed for home.
On the way home,I mailed out an important letter for my mom and I also dropped something off at my sister's house.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I took a nap for about an hour.I was feeling a little tired and I felt that a nap would be good.After the nap,I got dressed and ran an errand for my mom.
I had to pick up a small thing at a local Dollar General that my mom needed and I went to get that before dinner.On the way home,I stopped briefly to pick up a bag full of empty soda cans that someone left on the street.When I get a chance,I am going to take back the whole bunch of cans that I have in the back seat of my 4X4.I need to free up some room in the back.
When I got home,I ate dinner and did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
With the exception of the errand,I stayed home for much of the day because we had non-stop rain throughout the day.There is nothing to do in my hometown when it is raining.
Regarding my SSA struggles,as far as today went,I had a brief episode.I haven't acted out with someone else as a partner in a long time.But today,I did get cravings.While trying to take a nap,I had a dream where I was being pursued by other guys for sexual favors and even though I tried to escape,I would always wind up stuck in the middle where I would be surrounded by guys with their erections sticking out and them asking me to perform oral sex.Fortunately,I did wake up briefly during my nap and that stopped it.I went back to sleep and nothing happened.I did have a craving to masturbate but didn't do it.I need advice on how I can handle something like that in the near future so it won't lead me to acting out,such as masturbating to these images.I know the root of the issues that I am struggling with but I do need a more better way of coping and escaping.If anyone out there has any advice for me out,I want to hear it.Thanks.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ