Tonight,my road to recovery continues to be positive.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,after my early morning bath and my usual quick breakfast alongside my usual 2 cups of coffee,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed.I had several things on my agenda today and I wanted to get them done before the holiday comes.
I first headed over to the post office as I had to mail out a couple of important things that needed to be mailed out.After doing that,I headed over to the Best Buy in the next county to pay my credit card bill.After doing that,I headed back to the home city to go to a local supermarket to pick up a few things for the holiday.After paying for those articles,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I unpacked all the groceries and I put them in their proper places.After doing that,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also ran one more errand before calling it a night.I also did some more personal PC work when I came home to stay for the rest of the night.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues positively,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I really wasn't tempted at all.I really didn't know why.I am usually feeling tempted in the early morning hours when I wake up from my nights sleep.But today,the temptation was nil at best.I simply went through the day doing what I had set out to do and today,no feelings of temptation.Though nothing today,I have to keep in mind that tomorrow is another day and the temptation could arise again and I have to be on guard when that happens.Again,I am still seeking advice and/or suggestions of any sort and if anyone who regularly reads my blog regularly wants to give that,I am open to all of it.Thanks in advance to anyone who offers.
As for tomorrow,I have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor and I am hoping that the session goes well.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up early and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I got dressed.I had a busy day planned for today and I wanted to make sure that everything was working out.
Before going to my groups,I headed over to a community kitchen to have lunch.After lunch,I headed over to the place where they had the groups.I had two of them to attend today and I was looking forward to them.
The groups went well.They went better than I expected them to.After they were finished,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did a little bit more personal PC work and after that,watched a holiday DVD or two.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery from bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies continues to go well,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with them.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am ashamed to admit that I gave into temptation early this morning.I actually masturbated and it was both sexual and emotional.I just can't seem to get the images of naked men flooding my mind off of my mind.I am wondering what am I doing wrong.This is the third consecutive time that I have given into temptation by masturbating.My desires are really getting strong.My temptation to act out on them is also strong.I don't really want to act out on my desires because I know that acting out won't get me what I want and I know that I will never really be satisfied with just one man as I will want to have it with other men as well,because that is what the so called "Homosexual/Gay lifestyle" is all about.It is a life of never ending sexual promoscuity where the real man for any man in that life will never ever find.He will always have sex with a different man every time he turns around.That is something that I don't nor ever would want.I have had enough hurt feelings from that life and I don't want to go back to that.With the knowledge of the Homosexual condition that I have now,why would I want to go back to that life.That would be like as Proverbs 26:11 says about "a dog returning to it's own vomit. so a fool repeats his foolishness" and 2nd Peter 2:22 says repeating not only about the dog but also of "a sow that is washed goes back to her wallowing in the mud". What I am trying to say is that once a person knows the truth about Homosexuality/SSA and chooses to take in more of that truth by continuing to gain knowledge of the condition and also by reading the Holy Bible alongside it and doing what it takes to be free and no longer be enslaved by that immoral and sinful lifestyle,why would they want to go back and repeat the same old sexual thrills that led them nowhere in the first place.If a person now knowing the truth returns to that lifestyle,despite the fact that they know the truth,it would be just like it says in both those scriptures.Why would anyone want to return to that sexually immoral life that they once lived now knowing the truth?It wouldn't make sense.It would be as those scriptures pointed out.Again,I am really being tempted as of late and I really need some help.If anyone out there reads my blog regularly and can offer some suggestions,advice or anything that can be vital for my survival from the immoral and unnatural desires of the Homosexual/SSA condition,please share.I am desperate here and I really could use some advice and much needed help right now.Thanks in advance for providing anything that could benefit me.
Tomorrow,I have mail out an important letter and I also have to pay one of my credit card bills at a store out of the city.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues very positively.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
This morning,when I woke up,I bathed and I really hurried with it.I wanted to make sure that I was cleaned,dressed and ready for this morning's church service.I was looking forward to this morning's service with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
After my bath,before I got dressed,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I hastily did 3/4 of my personal PC work and after that was done,I hastily got dressed up and when the time came to leave,I headed over to the church for the service.
The service was wonderful.The church is really getting ready for the arrival of Christmas and it looks like that it will be a wonderful season.These particular services are the very the first Advent and Christmas styled services that I have attended in many years and this morning,it was yet another wonderful service and the fellowship with the people before and after the service was terrific.I even met some people that I hadn't met before until this morning.I was smiling today at all of this and was once again really overwhelmed by it all.I even had a wonderful talk with the pastor and after all of the fellowship,I headed straight home.
It also felt strange going to church and helping to ring in the season of Christmas and this being the fourth Sunday of Advent,with Christmas actually being next Sunday.The last religious group that I was involved with didn't even celebrate Christmas nor observed anything having to do with the holiday season as a whole.Though it still felt strange for me,I still enjoyed this service as much as I have been enjoying every service and I will be attending next Sunday as next Sunday will be Christmas.I will be looking forward to next Sunday's service for sure.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my casual clothes because I had some errands that I needed to run.Before running them,I finished my personal PC work.
When I went out to run them,I had to stop at a local supermarket to pick up a few things that were needed for the home.After paying for those items,I headed over to a local restaurant to have a light lunch.After that,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I put all the groceries away in their proper places and I relaxed for a while and I also watched a couple of DVD's while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.
Though my recovery from the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies continues to be positive,I am still dealing and struggling with that on a daily basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation late last night by masturbating and it was both emotional and sexual.I really felt lousy afterwards when I gave into that meaningless temptation as I know that masturbating will never give me what I want as far as needs go.I need to be affirmed by my fellow man and I need to feel the authenticity that goes with that affirmation.I want to feel like A MAN and not the opposite.I want to be A MAN that finds the opposite sex more sexually attractive as I no longer want to find men more sexually attractive.With the knowledge that I have now,why would I want to go back to that sinful sexual lifestyle that God abhors in his word the Holy Bible?God condemns the sexual activity between two members of the same gender in both the Old and New Testaments of the Holy Bible.The Holy Bible is God's own word and what it says about this type of thing is that it is wrong to engage in sexual activity between two or more members of the same gender.I want to do the right thing by resisting the temptation to engage in that sort of sexual activity,but my desires want me to do the opposite.Again,as I stated yesterday,I hate finding men more sexually attractive than women.I want to be a normal guy that finds women more attractive and really want to love a woman like a man is supposed to do in the same manner that a woman wants to love a man as God intended us humans and sexuality to be.God never intended sexuality to be used and abused the way that it is being used and abused by the vast majority of the world.He gave sexuality as a gift to be enjoyed in a healthy manner between a man and woman who really love each other and they use it as an expression of that love between the two of them.I asked before and I will ask again;If anyone out there who reads my blog regularly can give me any advice and/or suggestions on how I can resist the temptation to act by masturbation,pornography with masturbation,manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect or near erect for masturbatory purposes and all the emotional stuff that goes with it,I am open to anything.Thanks in advance.
Regarding today,my temptation to act out is nil at best.I have no cravings to act out at the moment.I guess going to church this morning had a lot to do with it.I am hoping that my temptation to act out remains nil for the rest of the day.I know that I still have to be on guard because temptation can rear it's ugly head at me and really get me going again.So,I need to be on guard and watchful.Again,any advice and/or suggestions are always appreciated.Thanks again in advance.
Tomorrow,I have a couple of groups that I need to attend.After them,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed and watched a DVD for a while.
I really didn't have too much on my agenda today.It was Saturday and it also snowed a little very early this morning as I saw that there was yet another light dusting of snow on the ground when I looked out this morning.I looked out to see if the latest free paper was delivered,which it wasn't,and so I went back to work.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda.I went to a local store to pick up a few things and after that,I headed straight home as I had an assignment that I had to complete for my sexual abuse support counselor,which I have an appointment with on Thursday in the mid afternoon.I wanted to get that assignment ready for her and when I was finished,I relaxed again for a while and watched a DVD.There is really nothing much to do on a Saturday in my hometown,especially when it is on the verge of winter and the weather is really cold.Then again,the politicians don't do much to ensure that there are fun things to do at all during any time of the year.Again,I just relaxed and enjoyed the rest of the day.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also watched some holiday themed DVD's after the news was over.I then did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery process from bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies continues to go as positively as it can,I am still,on a daily basis,continue to deal and struggle with the symptoms of that.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery continues to go positively in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I will say that my temptation to act out on my desires is minimal at best at the moment.Last night,I wrote another fantasy story using the word program that I have and I didn't save it.I simply closed off the program and chose not to save the story for future reference.I even kept it really short,which wasn't easy for me to do.I did feel better and I do feel much better than yesterday after I fell short early in the morning and felt miserable afterwards.But today,the feelings are now different.The only other thing that happened to me was that I ran into somebody I know who is still very active in that so called "Homosexual/Gay lifestyle" and since he knows that I left that lifestyle behind several years ago and he asked me a question that really caught me off guard when he asked me "Where is your life now since you left the "Gay" lifestyle behind?" When he asked that,I really didn't know what to say since that question has never been asked to me before by anyone.I simply told him that I couldn't talk about that at the moment as I wasn't in the mood to talk about it at all and I just didn't have the time to do so.He simply said that it was okay and we could talk about it another time when we met.We went our own ways and I went home and I really couldn't get the question off of my mind.I really can't tell him about all of the overwhelming temptation that I have been having to act out and I really can't tell him about all the masturbatory stuff that I have had been doing.The thing is that this guy is still active in that sinful lifestyle and he still believes the lie that "Homosexuals/Gays" are simply born that way and that there is nothing that can be changed about that.Again,I really don't know what I could say to him.I am also hoping that I don't run into him next week or anytime in the near and distant future.Still,despite that experience,my temptation to act out is still minimal at best and I am hoping that it stays that way.I have no craving to watch pornography nor do I have any craving to visit a website dedicated to this sinful lifestyle,which usually consists of looking at pictures of men without their clothes on and drooling over them and later,use those images as masturbatory fuel.Again,I am hoping that my temptation to act out on these unnatural and sinful desires continues to be minimal.I really like where I am at at the moment and I hope that the temptation to act out stays minimal.I know that this is also a one day at a time thing,but I am just hoping that the temptation to act out stays minimal in the near and distant future.
Tomorrow morning,I am planning to attend the morning's church service and I am looking forward to that.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I dried up and shaved and had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day as I had some stuff on my agenda.
I mailed out a couple more Christmas cards today.After mailing those,I headed over to a friends house to help him unload some stuff that he needed to unload by donating them to the Salvation Army.After we did that,I dropped him off at home and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things that were needed.After paying for those articles,I headed over to one of mom's friend's houses to pick up something for her.After picking them up,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor anyplace else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery from bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies continues to go well,I am still,on a daily basis,continue to deal and struggle with it and their symptoms.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better from that in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation early this morning.This time,it was both emotional and sexual.Images of naked men continued to cloud my mind and it was all feeling unbearable for me to handle.Plus,my genitals were about hard and I simply continued manipulating them.I gave into the temptation and I went all the way until I climaxed.I felt miserable and lousy after the whole thing happened.The reason why is because masturbation to any sexual fantasies with men or even for emotional reasons isn't going to get me what I truly need and want,which is affirmation of my gender identity and the feelings of authenticity that go with it.There is also another reason why I do masturbate.It is because I am trying to connect with my lost maleness,which though is senseless and will never give me anything like that at all,because when I finally became an adult man,I really didn't have the sense that I was A MAN as I didn't really feel like a man.I still don't feel like A MAN as I really don't know how a man is supposed to feel.After that masturbatory episode,I knew that I had to do some work.I ended my memberships with online groups that catered to such things as they were the ones that really triggered the fantasy stuff.It took me five minutes,but as of now,I am unsubscribed.It will take several days for the images to diminish,but I will be relieved when they do.Still,any form of advice or suggestions on what worked for any of you out there who regularly read my blog posts would be appreciated.I am always open to learning new positive coping skills.Thanks in advance for anything shared and/or provided.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had some personal stuff planned for today and I wanted to be sure and ready for them all.
I first went to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group.I have been looking forward to this with a lot of enthusiasm and anticipation.
The group was wonderful.After it was all over,I headed over to a local community kitchen to have lunch and after I was finished with that.I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else planned nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I simply relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to go positively,I am still dealing and struggling,on a daily basis,with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation early this morning.I masturbated,but this time,it was more of an emotional craving rather than sexual.I was just feeling something early in the morning and I really can't describe the feeling in words.I simply gave in to the temptation to masturbate and after it was over,I really didn't feel much better.I mean,the initial feelings were positive,but within a split second,they turned into negative feelings of regret and remorse.I will just have to stay on guard and try to watch out the next time.Masturbation will never give me what I want as the feelings afterwards are not pretty once the reality sets in.But I still need to stay on guard and try to be stronger the next time.The craving might have been emotional this time around,but next time,it could be sexual and I need to be careful what I think about and whatever comes into my mind.If anyone is reading out there,I could still use some advice.If anyone can help,please do so.Thanks.It is just that I am so sick and tired of finding men more sexually attractive than women because I no longer want to find men more sexually attractive than women.Please,nobody try to talk me into accepting this and embracing it as I don't want to because it is not what God intended for me to be as a man.God wants me to be Heterosexual and not Homosexual.God made man and woman for a reason and that alone shows that he only approves of healthy and happy Heterosexuality and not Homosexuality as far as sexual activity goes.God never intended for sexuality to be used and abused the way that the world is using it and abusing it.I am really desperate here.I don't want to have anything sexual with a man,but my desires want me to.I am sick of having visions of naked men with impressive sized penises flooding my head.Again,if anyone can be of help and give me advice in this,I would very much appreciate that.Thanks so much in advance.I want my fellow men to accept me as I am and I also want that gender affirmation from them and the feelings of authenticity that go along with that affirmation that I so desperately need and so desperately searching for.Again,any help,advice or suggestions are appreciated.Thanks.Only women are supposed to find men more sexually attractive in the same manner that only men are supposed to find women more sexually attractive,as we are all biologically hard-wired for male-female compatibility.It is not the other way around as sexual relations with two members of the same gender is NOT an alternative to healthy and happy sexual relations between a man and a woman as that is the way that God intended all of us humans to be and also the way he intended sexuality to be as well.He never meant for us humans to find members of our own gender more sexually attractive.The Holy Bible repeatedly states in both the Old and New Testaments that this sort of sexual activity is sinful,wrong and unacceptable.Once again,if anyone out there,especially any really true Christians who read my blog regularly,can give me any helpful advice,suggestions and anything of that sort,please share by commenting on in the comments section.Again,Thanks so much in advance for doing so.I really hate finding men more sexually attractive as this is so wrong for me to be in the eyes of God through Jesus Christ.I want to find women more sexually attractive.Please give any helpful advice or comments in the comments section.Thanks.
Last night,I wrote another fantasy story that was on my mind for a long time and I did feel better.For now,I am putting this type of thing on hold for a while as I don't want to use it too much as it might backfire on me later on.But again,after it was written,the fantasy was out and after closing off the program without saving it,I felt better that it was no longer a part of me anymore.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to prepare to do what I had to do for the rest of the day.
After getting dressed,I started writing out some more Christmas cards for the people that I knew around the town and a few out of town.After they were done,I put stamps on them and I mailed them out when I went out.After that,I had a few more things that I needed to do.
I had to pick up some clothes of mine from the same place where I do my laundry as a result that it is also a dry cleaning and professional cleaning place.After doing that,I headed over to a couple of other stores to pick up things that my mom wanted me to pick up.After doing that,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I simply relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to be positive,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression and the schizophrenic tendencies that I have with it.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am still being tempted to act out.But at the moment,my temptation is minimal at best.Ever since I started writing my fantasies down as short stories and then closing off the word program without saving them for future reference,my temptation to act out has been reduced.For a while,my temptation to act out was really strong,but now,it has been reduced.I even wrote out another fantasy yesterday and afterwards,read from my copy of the Holy Bible.I am now trying to keep my thoughts spiritual and hopefully,this will continue to work for me.I also have to continue to keep in mind that pornography is garbage and that in itself,which is also a form of acting out,will also never give me what I want,which is affirmation of my gender identity and the feelings of authenticity that go along with it.Still,I am looking for any advice oh how I can continue to resist temptation whenever the temptation to act out comes around.If anyone can give any ideas,suggestions or advice as to how I can resist the temptation to act out,please feel free to share.I would really appreciate anything.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I need to attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans and hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues on a positive road.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After bathing,I dried up and had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day as I had only a few things that needed to be done.
Before setting out to do those things,I had lunch of a bowl of soup and a sandwich.After lunch,I headed out to do my duties.
I first went to the post office to get some stamps and mail out some Christmas cards.After that,I proceeded to go to two local stores to pick up a few things.I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things and after that,I went across the street to the nearby supermarket to pick one more thing.After paying for that,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues positively,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my struggles with SSA,my temptation to act out is minimal.It has been since I started writing the fantasies that I have as short stories and then willfully choosing not to save them so I can simply forget them.It has done some good.I am not feeling much of the feelings anymore.I am hoping that I don't have to worry about being afraid of the temptation once it comes around.Temptation still scares me most of the time as I really hate being tempted.I am hoping that my temptation to act out does disappear someday.I guess that I have to just keep right on writing everything down and bot saving it and maybe,my cravings to act out will continue to be minimal or nil.Still,I would like any form of advice.If anyone can suggest something else that I can try,please share any suggestions.They are always appreciated.Thanks.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans made.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After bathing,I dried up and I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day.
On my way to my scheduled groups,I headed over to a community kitchen to have lunch.After lunch,I headed over to the place where the groups were.
Both of the groups that I attended today went great.I got a lot out of them and I really felt better after attending them.When the last group was over,I headed straight home as that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues positively,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out on the unnatural desires associated with the condition are minimal at the moment.Since deciding to write down every fantasy that I have on a word program and closing it off without saving the story for anything has been reducing my temptation to act out.I haven't been manipulating my genitals for the purpose of reaching hardness or near hardness for masturbating to fantasies as a result of my writing all of what I have fantasy-wise and then afterwards forgetting all about them.I even wrote another one last night and I did feel better as I had no desire to even think of acting out.As usual,I read a few chapters in my copy of the Holy Bible as per the recommendation of the daily devotions that I receive courtesy of the radio ministry of the church that I attend.Since this is working,I am going to keep writing these fantasies as stories and then continue closing them off without saving them until I have none.Still,any other advice and suggestions are always welcome.Thanks in advance to anyone who offers such things.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did only half of my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed up to go to the morning's church service.I was looking forward to that with a lot of enthusiasm.
The service was very wonderful and after the service,I had quite a bit of wonderful fellowship with the others and even had the chance to talk with people that I hadn't spoken with before.After all of this,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my casual clothes.I had myself a quick lunch of a bowl of soup with a sandwich and after eating lunch,I finished my personal PC work.After finishing,I decided to get my laundry together to go to the laundromat and get my laundry done.
On the way to the laundromat,I stopped at the local Big Lots to check out a few things.After that,I headed over to two more stores to pick up a couple of things that my mom wanted me to get.After picking those up,I headed straight to the laundromat.
When I got there,I managed to find a machine that wasn't being used and I started to do my laundry immediately.I waited for over half an hour for it to get done and after it was,I put them in the dryer to dry them.
After yet another half an hour,I took my clothes out of the dryer and folded them all.After bagging them,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had no place else to go nor anything else to do.
When I got home,I put all my laundry away and I relaxed for a while and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good and eventful day.
Though my recovery continues to go positively,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression and also,the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside that.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to act out on these desires is minimal.Ever since that I started typing up short stories of fantasies that I have had in the past that have continued to overwhelm me negatively making the healing process difficult at the same time,I have been feeling better.It is simply a process of getting it out of your system and after that,forgetting it.I have been using an office starter program to do that and after I am finished writing it,I close off the program and I don't save the stories for printing or onto disc.After writing them,I close off the program and then forget them.Getting these fantasies out in this way has been really relieving and I am now feeling less temptation to act out.I haven't been manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting hard or near hard for masturbation nor have any images of nude men have come to cloud out my mind.I am feeling better.I am hoping that one day,I will be all fantasied out and I won't have to write anymore short stories about any of them.I know that I will still get the temptation to act out each and every day and I must work through the temptations one day at a time at best.But since this has been minimal,I can now relax and not worry.I even wrote a short story last night and it was the most sick,twisted and perverted fantasy story that I have written so far.I am feeling better now and that is good.Still,if anyone else can help with any more suggestions or advice,that would be appreciated.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I will be attending groups that I must attend and after that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I dried up and I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work.I also read a daily devotion sent to me through the church's radio ministry website and also,the scriptures from the Holy Bible they recommended that I read.
After that,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I didn't have too much to do today.It was still cold and even thought it wasn't snowing like yesterday,I only ran one errand.I simply went to a local supermarket to pick up a couple more things that were needed.After paying for those things,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the day as I had nothing else planned for the day.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while and also watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues positively,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression and the schizophrenic tendencies that are accompanying it.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue on my positive road to recovery and improving in it in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my struggles with SSA,temptation is still with me.Each and every day,I am always tempted to act out on my desires.But today,the temptation to act out isn't as strong as it was yesterday.The craving to indulge in any fantasy styled stuff themed to the so called Homosexual/Gay culture was very overwhelming yesterday.Since I do have a word starter program on my computer,I decided to use it to put the fantasy to a story.Last night,I spent much of the evening typing up the fantasy story and it really took a long time to finish.It was a really long one.It included everything from the culture in the story and after I finished typing it,I simply closed off the word starter program and I didn't save the story at all.After it was closed,it was now out of my system and immediately forgotten.I read some scriptures from the Holy Bible afterwards and the temptation to act out was practically nil at best.Today,my temptation to act out is very slim and not as strong as it was yesterday.Regarding the fantasy story that I wrote and didn't save,I looked at it the same way as when someone writes an imaginary letter to forgive someone that hurt them before,but after it was written,it was crumpled up,ripped or burned so it was all forgotten.With the word starter program,I simply closed off the program after writing the story and rather than save it for printing or to a disc,I simply closed the program and didn't save it for anything.It's almost the same thing.I felt better afterwards and today,the temptation to act out is only minimal at best.I guess that I will have to do that again in the near future whenever the temptation to indulge in fantasy themed to the so called Homosexual/Gay culture gets really strong.Still,I am always open to new suggestions,ideas and advice on how I can continue to resist the temptation to act out on my desires.Thanks in advance to anyone who wants to help.
Tomorrow,I am planning to attend the morning's church service.In the afternoon,I am hoping to get around to doing my laundry.I will probably simply relax for the rest of the day onward.
That was my day today and my plans and hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed as usual.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
Today was a pretty good,if hectic,day.Overnight,we received a dusting of snow,when we were supposed to receive some lake effect styled snow in the form of a storm.But again,we only got a light dusting.I still had some stuff to do and I couldn't let the weather stop me.
I had only one place to go.I went over to a local supermarket to pick up several things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home as a result of the snow and I stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I put all the groceries away and I relaxed while watching a DVD.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good,if hectic,day.
Though my recovery continues positively,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression and the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside it.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my struggles with SSA,I am still being tempted to act out day after day.I had a close call this morning when I was manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them hard or near hard so I could masturbate.Images of naked men with erections were also clouding my mind and that gave me the motivation to do that.But I managed to stop myself.Still,the temptation is as fresh as it was this morning when I woke up.I really need to take sexual activity with other men off of my mind.I don't want to think about it anymore nor do I want to search for a male partner for the purpose of acting out physically.None of that will get me what I want,which is affirmation of my gender identity as well as the feelings of authenticity that go with that affirmation.Sexual activity with another men and masturbating to nude men images,alongside the viewing of pornography while masturbating,will only make me feel empty inside as the temporary fulfillment of these will only fade away after a while.If anyone can give me any ideas,advice or suggestions on how I can rid my mind of sex with other men,I am open to any of that.Thanks.
As for the weekend,I haven't really made any plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues to be positive.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I had a spirituality group that I needed to attend and I just wanted to get to that and be done with it.
The group went better than expected.After the group was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I had to make a couple of stops.I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something that I needed and after that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick a couple boxes of Christmas cards.After that,I headed over to the nearby local supermarket within the plaza to pick up yet one more thing.After paying for that,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I put everything away and after that,I had myself a quick lunch before taking it easy for the rest of the day.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues positively,I am still dealing and struggling with bipolar depression and it's accompanying symptoms alongside the schizophrenic tendencies that I have with this.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am still being tempted to act out on my desires.I know that I do have a choice whether to act out or not.I have chosen to not act out as it is the right thing to do in the eyes of God through his son Jesus Christ.The only problem is that my desires want me to do what is wrong,which is to indulge in sexual activity with members of my own gender.I am not going to do that,even though it isn't easy to make that choice or endure while the desires are at their strongest.Though I did give in 2 nights ago,I didn't give in last night,though the temptation is still strong.I do have the urge to try and manipulate my genitals into hardness or near hardness,but right now,I have chosen not to do that,though it isn't easy putting up with all of that.Still,I am looking for some help and encouragement.If anyone can give me any advice in how I can resist any temptation to act out,I would like any advice or suggestions as they are always welcomed.Thanks.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and got dressed.I had quite a bit on my agenda today and I wanted to get everything done.
Firstly,I paid my DirecTV bill over the phone.After that,I headed over to the post office to buy money orders and to mail out the bill payments.After that was done,I headed over to my insurance agent to pay my car insurance.After that was done,I headed over to the local Sears to pay my credit card bill.After that,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor anyplace else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to go positively,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression and the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside it.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am still being tempted to act out on a daily basis.Last night,I did masturbate to images of naked men flooding my mind.I did feel miserable as a result of that and the misery stuck with me for much of the day.I really don't want to masturbate and I really don't want these images of naked men flooding my mind anymore.I want to let them fade into a memory that I want to forget.I don't want to have these images flood my mind anymore and I no longer want to masturbate.I want to do the right thing by not acting out with another man and also,not to masturbate to these images nor even masturbating to pornography.I want to stop this stuff and again,if anyone has any ideas or advice on how I can do so,please share.Any advice or suggestions is always appreciated.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had a few things on my agenda today.After eating lunch,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few things that were needed for dinner.After paying for those items,I headed over to another local supermarket to pick up another thing.After paying for that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some much needed money that my mom wanted me to withdraw for her.After that,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor anyplace else to go.
When I got home,I unpacked all the groceries and put them in their proper places.I relaxed and watched TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues positively,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression and the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside it.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to act out is just as strong as it has been.I am still being tempted to act out on my desires on a day to day basis.I haven't sought any male partners to act out with,but I am still having visions of naked men cloud my mind and I am still manipulating my genitals to attain hardness or near hardness for the purpose of masturbating to those images.The images still continue to cloud my mind.The thing is that I don't want to act out,but my desires want me to.I want to do the right thing that God expects me to do,but my desires want me to do wrong in God's eyes.The temptation is really strong and I don't want to give in.Again,as I have asked before,if anyone can help me out with any helpful advice on how I can gain strength to resist the temptation to act out,please share.I would greatly appreciate that.Thanks.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues on a positive road.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had a couple of groups that I needed to attend.The first was a recovery group where we all sit and talk about our goals and plans for recovery and after that,I had a work skills group that I also needed to attend,in which we talk about learning new skills,improving current skills and also,how to get along with others in the work place.
The groups both went well.I did get a lot out of them.After the groups,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to pay a bill and to withdraw some money for myself.After that,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to go positively,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of Bipolar Depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am still being tempted to act out on my desires.This morning,I was also tempted to do so.I had the temptation to again manipulate my genitals to get them hard or near hard and to masturbate once that happened.But I managed to stop myself from that.There was also some fantasy involved as well.I do have to say that we men who struggle with SSA really have it tough.We are always tempted to act out on our unnatural desires and though we know that the sexual activity between two members of the same gender is sinful and wrong,we are always in the middle of it all.We are tempted to act out but we also want to do the right thing by resisting the temptation.That is where we are stuck in the middle.By comparison,it is easier to give into the temptation than it is to resist.Resistance is very difficult and we always have to put up with the fact that when we choose to resist,the temptation to act out gets stronger.The best thing is that we all have a choice in this matter.We can choose to act out or we can choose not to act out.But fellow readers,I am still looking for helpful advice.If anyone out there can help me with any advice or suggestions,please do so.Thanks.
As for tomorrow,I have only thing on my agenda.I have to drop off something at the local city hall and after that,I have nothing else planned.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans and hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did only a fraction of my personal PC work because I was planning to go to this morning's church service.After I was done with the computer,I got dressed up and headed over to the church for the morning's service.
The service was wonderful.I got a lot out of it and the fellowship before and after the service was as wonderful as the service itself.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my casual clothes.I had a light lunch of a bowl of soup and after lunch,I finished up my personal PC work.
After the computer,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up several things that were needed for dinner tonight.After paying for all of those items,I headed straight home as that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had no place else to go nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I put all the stuff away and after that,I simply watched a DVD while relaxing.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.
Though my recovery continues on a positive road,I am still dealing and struggling with bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies and the symptoms alongside it.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my struggles with SSA,I fell short early this morning.I masturbated to images of nude men with erections.I simply manipulated my genitals to hardness and masturbated until orgasm and ejaculation.I felt miserable afterwards as I really didn't know what to make of this failure.I felt like that I had failed God and his son Jesus Christ.I so desperately want to heal from unwanted SSA and I do want to become the man that God wants me to be.I don't want to masturbate anymore and I am tired of those nude men images clouding my mind.If anyone out there can help me beat these habits,please do so.Any advice or suggestions are appreciated.I did feel a little bit better once I attended the morning's church service,but the failure until then was a big weight on me.If anyone out there can offer any helpful suggestions,I would really appreciate that.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have a couple of groups that I will be attending in the early afternoon.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go as positive as ever.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up earlier than usual and bathed.After my bath,I quickly did some personal PC work and got dressed.I had an important Men's Network meeting that I needed to attend as there was going to be an important presentation and I couldn't bare to miss it.
The meeting was wonderful.I gained more than I expected from it.After the meeting was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the post office to drop a couple of important letters in the mail for my mom.After that,I stopped at an auto parts store to pick up some windshield washer fluid as I had run out of it in my washer fluid reservoir.After buying it and filling it up,I headed for the gas station next door to get some gas.Last but not least,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few more things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I had a bowl of soup for lunch and I relaxed for a spell.I also did some more personal PC work that I couldn't do this morning as a result of the meeting that I needed to attend.After my work was done,I did the dishes and popped a DVD is the DVD player when I was done with that and I relaxed and enjoyed the DVD.
After a while,I went back out to pick up something that a friend of the family was holding for my mom.After picking that up,I headed over to a friends house to see how he was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor anyplace else to go.
When I got home,I once again took it easy and I watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good and eventful day.
Though my recovery continues to go positively,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I actually gave into temptation early this morning.Yes I did.I admit it.I actually masturbated early this morning.I was simply manipulating my genitals to near hardness and until the orgasmic feeling approached.Yes,my mind was also flooded with images of naked men with erections asking me for to perform oral sex on them and me agreeing while talking to myself.I really felt miserable as a result of that relapse.I was working on never doing this again,but wound up giving into temptation anyway.As all of you can see,I am still always tempted to act out in some capacity one way or another,other than finding an actual male partner to act out my desires with.The latter is what I really don't want to do because acting out in that way isn't going to get me the fulfillment that I so desperately need in the same manner that pornography,fantasy and masturbation also won't get the fulfillment that I so desperately need.I am still seeking advice from any man out there who has been a success in overcoming Homosexuality/SSA and what has worked for them and share that with me.I don't want to act out anymore on these unnatural desires as it is unnatural to find members of one's own gender more sexually attractive rather than members of the opposite gender.I want to be the man that God wants me to be and I am still determined to be that.I know that God doesn't want me to be Homosexual.God wants me to be Heterosexual all the way as God had intended us humans on Earth to be,which is Heterosexual.I want that so bad.I will try anything to be that.Yes I will.Again,any advice would be helpful.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I will be attending the morning's church service.After that,I have no other plans set.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and planes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go positively.I had a pretty good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up an hour earlier than usual and bathed.I had a lot on my agenda today.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work quickly as I had an appointment with a local garage to get the emissions hose replaced to quiet my car down as it was sounding like a lawnmower.After getting dressed,I headed over to the garage.
I got there with only 10 minutes to spare and they took the car in right away to get fixed.I waited almost over an hour for my car to get fixed and also,it was a little bit more expensive than I had expected.But I still needed my car and I had to get it fixed as I was getting fed up with feeling like that I was driving a riding lawnmower down the street rather than a car as the sounds that it was making were like a lawnmower.After paying the bill,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local gas station to put some gas in my tank.After doing that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did some more personal PC work as I needed to finish everything that I couldn't do as a result of my car maintenance appointment.After that,I proceeded to get ready for my other appointment with a sexual abuse support counselor that I was renewing myself with after 2 years.
The meeting with the counselor went as smoothly as expected.After meeting with her for about 1/2 an hour,I headed for home.
On the way home,I decided to stop by a friends house to see how he was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed for the bank to withdraw some money for myself.After the bank,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy.I also watched some TV while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good and eventful day.
Though my recovery continues to go positively,I am still dealing and struggling with depression and it's symptoms.I am dealing with them one day at a time as it is the only way to do so.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am still being tempted.I am feeling temptation to act out each and every day.This morning,while preparing for my car repair appointment,I had a close call as I was manipulating my genitals to achieve near hardness or total hardness for the purpose of masturbation.After I got home,I again had another close call.I was this time in front of my computer and yes,I was looking at pictures of nude men online.I again was manipulating my genitals to achieve near or total hardness for the purpose of masturbation while looking at those nude men pics.But I stopped myself on both close calls and washed my hands.The struggle to heal from SSA is not an easy struggle as I am learning this day in and day out.But I won't surrender to the desires.I won't go out and seek a male partner for the purpose of acting out on these unnatural desires,which is what Satan the Devil wants me to do.I won't seek a male partner nor will I have sex with any man,as I already know that acting out in this way,or in the forms of masturbation and pornography,won't get me what I want.I want gender identity affirmation by other men and I also want the feelings of authenticity that go along with that gender affirmation by other men.I want to be affirmed as a man,because it is what I am,and I want to feel like a man inside and outside.I want to be the man that not only I want to be,but the man that God wants me to be,which is a happy Heterosexual man that finds women sexually attractive as men are naturally supposed to be.I also want the sexual feelings that go along with that attraction to members of the opposite gender.I want to desire,crave and be with a woman as God intended us humans that he created to be.He wants us all to be happy Heterosexuals because that is what God intended us humans to be and also,it is the way that God intended sexuality to be.as he did create man and woman for that one reason alone.Regarding the problems,if anyone has any more ideas or advice on how I can overcome them,please share.Thanks.
Tomorrow morning,I have a Men's Network meeting that I will be attending.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I bathed as usual when I woke up this morning.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and managed to finish it despite issues with Yahoo mail.After that,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had a spirituality group that I needed to attend and I was looking forward to it with a lot of enthusiasm.After the holiday last week,I was looking forward to it this week.
The group meeting was wonderful.After the meeting was over,I headed over to a local community kitchen for lunch and after that was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Big Lots to look around,but didn't really buy anything.After that,I headed over to the drug store to pick up my prescriptions.After paying for those,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to go well,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,temptation still comes around.Each and every day,I am tempted to act out on my desires.I had a close call this morning when I was manipulating my genitals to achieve hardness or near hardness while visions of naked med danced in front of my eyes without even watching any pornography.I really need some support and encouragement here during this really rough period.If anyone out there can offer some words of encouragement and advice,please do so.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have to take my car into the shop to get my emissions hose on my engine replaced.In the afternoon,I have an appointment with a sexual abuse support counselor.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans and hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and afterwards,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day.
I first had lunch at a community kitchen and after that,I headed over to the organizational building to type up something that I needed to type up.After doing that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped over at a local convenience store to pick up a few small things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to go well,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am still being tempted to act out on a daily basis.I had a couple of close calls.One was last night while the other was this morning.The temptation to act out is really getting strong and I really don't know how long that I will be able to hold on or be strong in my resistance to the temptation.I could use some support and encouragement right now.If anyone can help,please do so the best way that you know how.I would really appreciate that.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I will be attending.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues on a positive note.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,as usual,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.I also did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I did have quite a bit to do.I first went to a local garage for an emergency repair.My driver side headlight was out and I needed to replace the bulb.After that was done,which took a few minutes,I headed out to a local restaurant to have lunch.After my lunch,I dropped some newspapers off at certain peoples houses and after that was done,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the most of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go until the early evening.
When I got home,I simply helped my mom out with some small things and I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and after running one more errand,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to progress,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,so far,I am not being tempted to do anything.But last night,I did give into temptation by masturbating to more images of naked men with erect penises.I was at edge as a result of a couple of things that happened yesterday.While having lunch at a local community kitchen,a man all of a sudden started angrily wailing at another man there and it was scaring the daylights out of everybody,including me.After that,while on my way to groups,I was driving down a one way street to get there in the left lane,when all of a sudden,a driver in the right lane had the nerve to make a left turn from the right lane and I had to slam on my brakes to avoid crashing into him.Luckily,there was no crash and I continued on,but it was scary and I was really angry at this whole thing happening to me.I was still feeling at edge and that is what contributed to me giving in.This is the third consecutive relapse that I have had.I am just hoping that I don't give into the urge again as I do want to overcome this dreaded SSA and heal from it.I also want the desires to diminish as I continue in my healing as I know that acting out with another man won't give me the affirmation of my gender identity nor the feelings of authenticity that go with the affirmation of my gender identity.I am not giving up on this and I am going to continue marching forward.I just have to be careful in the long run.Again,any advice or ideas on how I can overcome this would be appreciated.Thanks.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go well.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.I had a lot planned for today.I had to attend 2 groups in the early afternoon and I also had some small stuff that needed to get done.
But before I attended the groups,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.I also did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I did attend both groups.The first was a recovery group and the next was a work skills group.Both of the groups went as well as expected.I did get a lot out of the groups and I also got a lot out of positive output from them.After they were over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up some stuff that was needed for the home.After paying for those things,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to go well,I am still having to deal with depression and it's symptoms.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am still being tempted to act out on my unnatural desires on a day to day basis.Late last night,I actually gave into temptation and I masturbated to images of naked men and them yearning for me to perform a sexual act of my fancy on them.It really made me feel miserable.I felt that there was 20,000 ton weight on me as a result of my giving in and acting out by masturbating to those images.The only thing that I can do is simply pick myself up and start all over again.I just have to be on guard the next time when that temptation rolls around.I am still open to ideas and suggestions on how I can resist the temptation and to completely blot out these images of naked men that keep creeping up in my mentality constantly.Anything is appreciated.Thanks.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did some or my personal PC work and I got dressed up in a suit to go to this morning's church service.I had a lot of anticipation this morning as I was looking forward to this morning's service with a lot of enthusiasm.
The service was wonderful.This service marked the beginning of advent,in which we celebrate the first coming of Jesus Christ,God's own son,and looking forward to his second coming.It was a really wonderful service and I really got quite a bit out of that.After having some wonderful fellowship with some of the people there,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my usual casual clothes.Before I ate lunch,I had a couple of things that needed to get done.I first went to a local Dollar General store to pick up a bottle of dish detergent and after paying for that,I headed over to the local K-Mart to pick up a couple of things for myself.After paying for those items,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I ate lunch and when my mom laid down,I watched a DVD while relaxing.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to be positive,I am still dealing and struggling with depression and it's symptoms.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am still hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my struggles with SSA,I am still being tempted to act out on my desires.Earlier this morning,I was in the midst of manipulating my genitals for the purpose of masturbation.But fortunately,I stopped myself before it could really develop.I took my bath and that was it.Still,I am once again being tempted to act out in other ways other than finding a male partner to act out with.I just have to keep strong and keep seeking the strength that I desperately need to resist all this temptation and hopefully,come out winning over this demon called SSA.It isn't an easy fight,but I know that I can win it if I continue trying hard enough.I am determined to be victorious over this demon and gain control of not only my emotions,which motivate me to continue masturbating,alongside the images of naked men that keep clouding my mind and to nip it in the bud.I can still use some advice.If anyone can share what worked for them,please do so.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have 2 group meetings that I need to attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.I was really hurrying with my bath as I was planning to go to my nieces and babysit for her while she went to work this morning.While drying up,my niece called and told me that I didn't have to come over and babysit because her live-in boyfriend was going to babysit for her rather than go hunting.Admittedly,I was a little disappointed as I was hoping to babysit her kids today.But after the phone call,I settled into my normal routine.
I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I also watched a little bit of TV for a while.
When the afternoon approached,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had only a little bit to do today.It wasn't very much.I simply had to go to a local supermarket to pick up one small thing that was needed and after paying for that,I headed straight home as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while and also watched a DVD while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues on a positive trek,I am still dealing and struggling with depression and it's symptoms.I have been dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my struggles with SSA,the temptation to give in was indeed as strong as ever.I did give in to the temptation to look at porn,but it wasn't videos of two or more men having sexual activity with each other.It was simply looking at pictures of naked men.I actually really gazed at the pictures and I was also trying to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of masturbation.But somehow,I managed to stop myself before it could go too far and got off the computer for a while.This was all in the late afternoon after I had gotten home from my shopping at the AMVETS thrift store in another county.I need to be on guard as to when the temptation to act out really comes around.It has been really strong and resisting the temptation to do that is extremely difficult to do.I am still looking for ways to resist temptation to act out on my desires and I am always open to suggestions.I want to be the man that God wants me to be and not what the world wants me to be,which is to stay trapped in the so called "Gay lifestyle" and act out on my desires when I get the opportunity as well as temptation to act out on them.I don't want to act out as acting out won't really get me what I need and want,which is affirmation of my male gender identity and the feeling of authenticity that goes along with the affirmation of my male gender identity.
Tomorrow,I will be attending the morning's church service and I am hoping to get a positive lot out of it.As for the rest of the day,I have nothing else planned.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans and hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery remains positive.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day as I had something planned.
After having a quick lunch,I headed out to an AMVETS thrift store as they were having a 1/2 off everything you buy Black Friday sale and I wanted to see if I could find anything that I am looking for.
When I got there,I really looked around and I did find a few more vinyl albums and also,a few nice clothes to wear.After paying for the items,I headed for home.
On the way home,when I got back into my hometown,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a small thing that was needed for the home.After paying for that item,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as i had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery from depression and it's symptoms is still going strong and positive,I am still dealing and struggling with that each and every day.I simply deal with them one day a time.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in this department in the near and distant future ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation last night.Images of nude men with erect penises flooded my mind and I wound up manipulating my genitals to them and when my genitals were near hardness,I masturbated until I climaxed.I felt so miserable afterwards and also felt that I failed God and his son Jesus Christ.I also felt that I failed myself.I just sat in a chair wallowing in my failure and really feeling sorry for myself.I really want to get out of this SSA trap and I no longer want to feel sexual feelings towards other men.I want to change into the man that not only I want to be.But,most importantly,the man that God wants me to be.I am still determined to be that and really defeat this demon known as SSA.I am reminded day in and day out that this struggle and the work to overcome this struggle is an extremely difficult one indeed.I am reminded by each failing and relapsing and each misery that I feel when I do fail and relapse.I am still determined to beat this and I am going to keep at it.In no way am I going to seek out a male sexual partner for the purposes of acting out on my desires with him.I already know that acting out won't give me what I really want and need,which is affirmation of my male gender identity and the authenticity that I want to feel when I get that affirmation of my gender identity.That is all that I really want and ask for.Again,my goal is to simply reach the plateau that I need and also want to reach.I am not quitting until I reach it.
As for the rest of the holiday weekend,I have made no plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it does give me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the holiday weekend ahead.I am still in the fight against the dreaded demon known as SSA,but I am still going to fight that demon at all times.I am never giving up.That is right.I am never giving up until I reach that plateau that I want to reach.FJ

Happy Thanksgiving,Everybody who reads.
Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively,but I had a roller coaster ride of a day today as things started out promising,but hit a ditch.
Today,as usual,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.I did my usual personal daily PC work and after that,I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day,but as stated,the day was really a rocky roller coaster ride.
There was a change of plans regarding having dinner today.At first,we were going to have it at our house with my locally living sister and her son,my nephew,coming over.But things changed because my sister bought a huge turkey and she invited my mom and I to come over to her house.We said okay and thanked her.
But things did hit a snag as the morning was winding down.My mom wound up with a terrible headache and also felt very hot.She talked to my sister and said that she wasn't feeling well and all and that she felt that I should only go and have dinner and that she should stay home and rest.My sister agreed and after I did a few more important personal stuff at home,I headed over there.
I didn't stay too long.After eating,I had some small talk with my sister for a while and after that,I headed straight home as there wasn't really anything that I could do as a result of it being a holiday and all.
I simply stayed home when I got there and relaxed while watching a movie on the DVD player.I also kept looking after my mom the rest of the day and I hoped that she would be feeling better before the day was over with.
After a while of resting and with my mom starting to feel a little bit better before the end of the day,I actually did some more personal PC work and made a few phone calls to friends to see how they were doing.Overall,a pretty rough roller coaster ride of a day and I am hoping that tomorrow will be a much better day.
Though my recovery continues to be positive despite some obstacles that I am still working to overcome,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my struggles with SSA,I did give into temptation last night.I simply masturbated after manipulating my genitals with my own hands and when they were near hardness,I masturbated.The trigger for that was images of nude men with erections wanting me to satisfy them sexually with my mouth.There was also a little bit of pornography involved with that as well as I also viewed some Gay themed pornography alongside that.I really felt miserable after giving into temptation and I felt like that I had failed God and myself by giving into that temptation.The sexual feelings that I feel for members of my own gender are really tearing me apart and today's negative happenings also made the struggle as little bit more worse as I was also distracted many times while trying to get personal things done online and otherwise.Fortunately,I managed to get the things that needed to get done accomplished and I did feel marginally better.I am just hoping that the rest of the day and the last several days of this month go by without anything to make my struggles even worse.I am hoping that my mom won't start getting terribly sick on any day as this current month is winding down.I am just hoping that my SSA struggles will start easing up so I can go on with the process of healing and really arrive at the point that I want to be,which is the man that not only I want to be,but the man that God wants me to be,which is a happy,well adjusted Heterosexual man,which is what God intended all humans,both male and female,to be.I am hoping to reach that much needed plateau soon.
Tomorrow,I have plans to go to an AMVETS thrift store in the next county and take advantage of their 1/2 off everything you buy Black Friday sale.I am hoping to find some really great things there.For the rest of the day,when I get home,I will simply relax and take it easy and enjoy the rest of the holiday weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead,as I am still fighting the good fight to overcome SSA and to finally reach that plateau that I want and yearn to reach.Hopefully,one day,I will finally reach it.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I really didn't have too much to do.Since it is the day before the holiday,I simply spent the day just doing some last minute stuff.I had to make sure that things were ready for when the holiday truly approaches.I had to go to a local supermarket to pick up a few more things that were needed for the holiday.After paying for them,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas and after that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a friends house to see how he was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I simply relaxed and watched a DVD while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to go positively,I am still having to deal and struggle with depression and it's symptoms.I am dealing with them one day at a time.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
I am fully aware that I haven't discussed anything regarding my struggles with Homosexuality/Same Sex Attachment Disorder(SSA).But lately,I have been really having a very difficult uphill battle regarding my struggles.I have given into temptation on many occasions.I have watched online pornography and I have also masturbated to that online porn as well.I have also masturbated without watching porn.In those instances,I have been talking to myself pretending that there is another man in the room with me and we talk about sex and of me performing oral sex on him.Also,I have been manipulating my genitals to almost hardness as a result of erectile dysfunction that I am also struggling with alongside the unwanted SSA that I am trying to overcome.When my genitals are at near hardness,I simply masturbate until I climax.Afterwards,I feel miserable as a result of that falling short of what I want to accomplish and strive for,which is overcoming this dreaded demon known as SSA and to be the man that not only that I want to be.But the man that God through his son Jesus Christ wants me to be,which is a healthy and happy Heterosexual,as humans, both male and female are meant and supposed to be.As a result of my constant falling short,I am feeling down,miserable and dirty.I so desperately want to overcome this dreaded SSA and I would really like someone,preferably a male who I can trust,confide and connect with in a healthy authentic manner,to really help me out and show me how I can overcome these nasty habits that I have that only reaffirm the sexual identity that I am seeking to change,which is Homosexuality,and keeps me far away from what I want to accomplish.If anyone out there can help,please do so.I am open to any suggestions and ideas.I would like to know for any man like me,what did you do to resist the temptations to give into those feelings without seeking another male partner for the sake of having sexual activity with him.The reason why most men struggling with SSA like myself masturbate is to try and connect to their lost maleness,but in reality,it doesn't do that.It is simply acting out on the unnatural and sinful desires that are emotional in origin and need to be corrected authentically by positive interaction with other man in a healthy and authentic setting.Again,any help,especially by Christian men who have successfully overcame SSA and anything having to do with it,would be appreciated.Thanks.
Tomorrow is the holiday.I will simply be staying home and taking it easy.My sister who lives locally will also be having dinner with us as she will be all alone this year and has nobody else to spend it with.That is all that I have planned for tomorrow.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead,including the state of my current struggles with SSA and how I can be advised to help me resist the temptation to act out on the desires associated with SSA in other forms other than seeking male partners for sexual activity.Again,any help or advice,especially by those who are Christian who have successfully overcome SSA and anything to do with it,is appreciated.Thanks in advance for anything.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
After getting dressed,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those items,I headed over to another one to exchange something that I picked up by mistake to get something else that I meant to pick up.After doing that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away in their proper places and I relaxed for a bit.I had to make an important phone call in the early afternoon before I set out to do anything else.
After the phone call,I headed over to Best Buy to pay a bill that was due on Friday,but I wanted to pay it now so it would be paid on time,though it was a few days early as I wanted to do it before the holiday came around.After that,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues on a positive road,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues to be positive.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day as I had quite a few things planned.
I had a couple of groups that I had to attend today.The first was a recovery group and that went pretty good.The second was a work skills group where I needed to learn some skills necessary in order to stay working and how to improve my relationships with my colleagues around work.The latter group was also another success and after that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up one small thing and after paying for that,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to progress on a positive level,I am still dealing with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the near and distant future.
As for tomorrow,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.I was really hurrying through it and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I got dressed up and headed over to the church for this morning's service.I had a lot of anticipation for this and was also looking forward to the service with gusto.I had already done my personal PC work before leaving and I was glad that it was done.
The service was wonderful.I really enjoyed the sermon and I did get a lot out of the fellowship with all the other people.After that was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into casual clothes to proceed with the rest of the day as I had only a few things to do.
I first had a quick lunch and after that,I headed out to do what I needed to do.
I first headed over to a gas station to get some gas and after that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something that we needed for Friday's dinner.After doing that,I headed straight home and I was staying home for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor anyplace else to go.
When I got home,I put away what I had bought and I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good and eventful day.
Though my recovery continues to be positive,I am still struggling and dealing with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Tomorrow,I have a couple of groups that I need to attend.Apart from that,I have nothing else planned.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ