Tonight,my road to recovery continues uninterrupted.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the late morning and I bathed.After bathing,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I only had a couple of things on my agenda today and I wanted to get them accomplished.
I had to go to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After that,I went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things at that store.After paying for the items,I headed straight home.I also stayed there as it was raining for much of the day.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD in while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues uninterrupted,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that I will start improving in my recovery soon.It has been a rocky road and a very rocky roller coaster ride,but I am still feeling hopeful and optimistic that my recovery will start improving again very soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to act out twice in the wee early morning hours.I was tempted to masturbate when I was awakened by morning erections at two separate intervals in the wee early morning hours.The first happened at around 4 am and I simply tossed and turned repeatedly until the erection died down.The second happened at around 8:20 am this morning and this time,it was another throbbing erection.My only way of relieving this was to simply get up and head for the bathroom as I had to go there and afterwards,I bathed.Though I escaped both of these,I know that the temptation to act out in any other way other than seeking a male partner to act out with,including masturbation,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Again,though I escaped these two instances,I know that I will be tempted again.Not that I am waiting for it to happen,I am simply saying that it can happen again when it is least expected to happen.I am still open to any suggestions as to how I can keep myself strong to resist the temptation to act out by masturbating or by any other means.Anything is welcomed.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I am planning to attend the morning's church service and also,the Holy Bible study class before the service.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the late morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda.I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something for my mom.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I got for my mom away and after that,I prepared to meet with the pastor of the church as that was the most important thing on my agenda.
The meeting with the pastor went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve in the neat and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours to masturbate as I was again awakened by an erection that was also another throbbing one.Whenever this happens,the temptation to act out by masturbating really gets strong with me.It is to simply masturbate the erection away.But again,as usual,I tossed and turned,but I also had to get up to use the bathroom and that is what killed the erection as I walked to the bathroom.After using the bathroom,I went back to sleep.This morning,the temptation to masturbate the erection away was really strong.Whenever I get erect,my craving to masturbate it away does get overwhelming.I simply have to fight the desire until my genitals soften.Though I escaped this temptation,I know that I still have to be on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form by doing anything other than seeking a male partner to act out with can get really strong and the desire to act out on this can also be very strong.I will just have to stay in the fight to resist any temptation to act out on these unnatural desires.I am still open to anything on how I can do that.Thanks.
As for the weekend,I haven't made any plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had only a few things planed for today and I wanted to get them accomplished.
I had a spirituality group that I had to attend.I was looking forward to this with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group went great.I got a lot out of this.After the group was over,I headed for a community kitchen to have lunch and after eating my lunch,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some money for my mom and after that,I headed over to the drug store to pick up a couple of my mom's prescriptions.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts improving soon in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted in the wee early morning hours to masturbate when an erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.It was another throbbing one and the temptation to masturbate it away was overwhelming.I fought the temptation by tossing and turning until the erection died down.It took several minutes,but it did die down.I went back to sleep afterwards.Though I did escape this temptation,I know that the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form,other than finding a male partner to act out with,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I just have to keep fighting the temptation when it does rear it's ugly head at me.I have to continually keep in mind that masturbation will never give me what I want,which is to make contact with my lost maleness and it also will never give me what I truly need and want,which is the affirmation of my gender identity and the feelings of authenticity that go with that affirmation of my gender identity.I know that I need to make the effort to seek out newer friendships and hopefully,they will develop into something successful,like a healthy male bonding relationship.I hope that one day,I can get that as I so desperately need to have more healthy relationships with other guys in order for me to grow as a man and to just be one of the guys.I am hoping that I will start doing that in the days and months ahead.
Tomorrow,I have a meeting with the pastor of the church that I have been attending worship at.As for the rest of the day and before the meeting,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had some stuff that needed to get done and I wanted to make sure that they were accomplished.
I went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things that my mom needed.After that,I headed over to a friends house to see how he was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to act out by masturbating in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by an erection.It was a very stiff one and also,it was a throbbing one.I tossed and turned to resist the temptation,but I had to get up to use the bathroom and as I was on the way to the bathroom,the erection died down and when I was finished,I laid back down and went back to sleep.Though I escaped that episode,the temptation to act out on these SSA desires can rear it's ugly head when least expected.This current temptation was a strong one indeed and I had to really fight to resist the temptation this time around.I know that we humans will get tempted to act out in any way,shape or form.Not only that,the temptation to act out will come when least expected and when it comes,all the strength that we have has to be used to resist that temptation.I am just hoping that I will be much stronger when the temptation to act out by masturbating or in any way comes around.I am still open to any suggestions by anyone.Thanks,
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues,though a little rocky.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the later morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I only had a couple of things on my agenda.I had to pick up something from a friend of my mom's and after that was done,I went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After that,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues and it is a little rocky,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start improving in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am still being tempted at the moment to act out by masturbating.Yes,the temptation is still as fresh as ever.I am still being tempted to do that and I am still fighting and wrestling that temptation.I understand that this is not an easy thing to do as it is easier to give into the temptation than it is to fight it.I have to continue keeping in mind that masturbation will never give me what I truly want,which is to connect me with my lost maleness and will never really give me what I really want,which is affirmation of my gender identity and the feelings of authenticity that go with that affirmation.In my case,masturbation will only reinforce the Homosexual identity,which is what I am trying overcome as it is not what God intended me to be.It will be a bumpy ride,but I have to keep fighting and hang in there for the long haul.I will still need the encouragement and support of all of those who are with me in this fight.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery go on unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the late morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed as I had a few things on my agenda today.
I had to go to a couple of groups today and I was looking forward to them with a lot of positive anticipation and a lot of enthusiasm.
The groups went well.After the were over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I hope that my recovery starts to improve soon as it has been an emotional roller coaster ride for me as of late.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to act out this morning when I was awakened with an erection.I was tempted to masturbate the erection away.It was also a throbbing erection.I had to really use all the strength that I had to resist the temptation to masturbate this erection away.I simply tossed and turned until the erection died down and I fell back asleep.Though I escaped this current temptation,I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out by masturbating can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I just have to continue using all the strength that I have to continue resisting the temptation to masturbate or to act out on my desires in other ways.I have gotten some advice from one of my regular blog followers and I will try to put it to good use.I am still open to more.Thanks.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit to get ready to go to the morning's church service and it's morning Holy Bible study class.
Both the class and the service were wonderful.I had some wonderful fellowship with the members before and after the service.It was yet another wonderful Sunday and I am really smiling at this.After it was all over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into some casual clothes.I proceeded to get my e-mail work done and also,to run at least one errand that needed to be run.Before I did that,I had a quick lunch of a sandwich before setting out to do what I needed to do.
I only went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things that were needed.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD in to watch while relaxing.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more e-mail work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation late last night when I masturbated.I really felt miserable after that fall and it was really a huge load on me mentally and emotionally.I was also tempted in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by an erection.I tossed and turned to resist the temptation to masturbate the erection away and when my penis softened,I fell back asleep.I really need to get some extra strength to resist even more temptations that can rear their ugly heads when least expected.I want to stop this terrible and unclean habit of masturbation and I really need some encouragement and support.Thanks in advance for anyone giving it.
Tomorrow,I have a couple of groups that I must attend.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day as I had only a few things to do.
I first went to McDonalds to enjoy a Shamrock shake as this was the last day.After that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a bottle of dish detergent.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery improves and that I start to feel better soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by an erection.It was also another throbbing one.I really had to fight the temptation to masturbate it away.I really tossed and turned to fight this temptation and I finally fell back asleep when my penis softened.Though I escaped this one,I know that the temptation to masturbate,or to act out in other ways other than finding a male partner to act out with,will rear it's ugly head when least expected.The temptation to act out can really be strong.I will just have to fight and fight when it does rear it's ugly head again.I don't get erections too often,but when I do indeed get one,my temptation to masturbate it away can be strong.Again,I'll just have to keep fighting the temptation and again,I am open to any ideas or suggestions as to how I can continue to fight the temptation.
Tomorrow,I am hoping to attend the morning's church service and it's Holy Bible study class before the worship service.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I didn't have too much planned for today.I simply relaxed and read for a while and watched a little TV.I had only a couple of things on my agenda today.I had an appointment to meet with the pastor of the church and to do a little bit of grocery shopping.So,I decided to read some stuff while eagerly awaiting the time.
When it came time,I headed for the church to meet with the pastor.
The meeting went great.After the hour was over,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up several things that my mom wanted me to get.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and eagerly awaited for dinner to be ready.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation last night by masturbating.I masturbated last night and after the whole thing,I felt really miserable and felt that I had failed.This is the second consecutive fall this week.It only made me feel miserable because masturbation has a negative effect on my healing from unwanted SSA.It only makes matters worse instead of better.Plus,masturbation won't get me any closer to my lost maleness in any way,shape or form.I don't want to masturbate anymore.Masturbation,in my case,will only reinforce the Homosexual identity and keep me farther away from the true goals,such as being affirmed as a male and feeling like a man.Masturbation is unclean,inappropriate and unhealthy.I want to stop this dirty habit.I am still open to any ideas or suggestions.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I first attended my spirituality group and I was looking forward to this with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.I headed there with a positive outlook.
The group meeting was wonderful.After the group was over,I headed over to a local community kitchen and had lunch.After lunch,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local K-Mart to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery improves and that I start feeling better soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by an erection.I wanted to take my genitals in my hand and masturbate it away.But instead,I fought it by constantly tossing and turning until my penis softened.I fell back asleep once it was soft.Though I escaped this,I still need to stay on guard and be watchful.I know that temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to keep fighting the temptation to act out by masturbating or any other way without seeking a male partner to act out with.I no longer want anything sexual with a man nor do I want to pursue anything of that sort at all.I want to steer clear away from anything like that.Still,I would like some words of encouragement and advice to resist the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form.
Tomorrow,I have a meeting with the pastor of the church.Aside from that,I have nothing else planned.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues uninterrupted.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the late morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had only a few things to do and I wanted to get them done.
I was supposed to meet with my sexual abuse support counselor today,but the office called me and cancelled because my counselor had a family emergency and wasn't in the office as a result of that.I do have an appointment with the counselor 2 weeks from now and that is okay.After hanging up,I had to alter my plans today to fill in this cancellation.
Because of the cancellation,I headed over to the Best Buy in the next county to pay my credit card bill and also,to get a few things that were needed for a new video recorder that I bought a few days ago.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues uninterrupted,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts improving soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation today.I masturbated this morning.Yes,I did.I really felt bad about giving into the temptation to masturbate.I felt bad because I know that masturbation will never give me what I want nor will it make me any closer to my lost maleness.I want to feel like a man and act and react like a man.I have to continually keep in mind that masturbation doesn't give me any fulfillment of any needs that I have that need to be fulfilled.I don't want to masturbate anymore.Why I keep doing it is a mystery to me.I want to stop masturbating.Again,if anyone out there has any ideas or suggestions on how I can accomplish this,I welcome them.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the later morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to prepare for the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda today.I had an appointment to see my general doctor and I was hoping that it would go well.
The meeting with my doctor went well.After leaving the office,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that I will start feeling better in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted early this morning to masturbate when I was awakened by an erection.I really had the urge to grab my genitals and start masturbating.But again,I fought the urge by tossing and turning and fell back asleep when the erection died down.Though I escaped that episode,the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I will just have to keep fighting the urge when it comes around.I do get tempted to act out when least expected.Again,any advice or suggestions are welcomed.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.As for the rest of the day.I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed immediately.I had a lot planned for today and I wanted to make sure that they were accomplished.
I first went to my two groups that I needed to attend.I was looking forward to these groups.
The meetings went great.After the groups were over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some money and after that,I headed for a nearby supermarket to buy several groceries for the house.After paying for the groceries,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the groceries away and I relaxed for a bit.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start to improve soon.It has been a rocky road for me in terms of my recovery,but I am remaining hopeful and optimistic that it will improve very soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am still also dealing with those day by day.I am still putting up with the desires and my fight to resist acting out on them in any way,shape or form.It isn't easy fighting the temptation to act out,but the fight to resist the temptation is worth it.I don't want my desires to own me nor do I want them to define who I am as a person,mostly as a man.I have to continually keep in mind that my body is biologically hardwired to be compatible with a female as I am a male.I also have to continually keep in mind that God made man and woman,Adam and Eve,and that there are no substitutes for that.I know that God only condemns the sexual activity of Homosexuality as he never intended sexuality to be that way at all.He intended sexuality to be between a man and a woman and not between two members of the same gender.He finds that type of activity immoral,unnatural and inappropriate.God only condemns the activity and not the condition.He helps heal the Homosexual if they really and seriously want to heal.Homosexuals can become the people that God intended them to be and with God,all things are possible.Again,I am still in the fight and I am always looking for any new ways to resist the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment with my general doctor and I am hoping that the meeting with her goes well.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit to head for church this morning to attend both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the morning worship service afterwards.I was looking forward to both of these with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
Both the class and the service were wonderful.I got a lot out of both of these things.After some wonderful fellowship after the service,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into some casual clothes.I had a quick lunch and after that,I did my personal PC work.
After I was done with my PC work,I headed out to the local Big Lots to check out what they had on sale.I didn't buy much and after leaving,I headed over to the nearby Dollar Tree store to pick up something.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation last night by masturbating.It is the second consecutive fall for me in the past two days.I felt really bad after the fall as I know that masturbation will never give me what I want,which is to connect with my lost maleness.I want to connect to that,but masturbation will only keep me as far away from it as not having any men to confide,trust,bond and connect with on a healthy and authentic manner.I want to do that.I also want to stop this senseless masturbation habit.Masturbation is dirty,unclean and won't give me the fulfillment or satisfaction that I want and also need.Again,I am open to any suggestions or advice.
Tomorrow,I have a couple of groups that I must attend.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the late morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had a few things planned for today and I wanted to get them done.
I finally got out to that Salvation Army thrift store in the next county that I have been hoping to get out to.When I got there,I looked around and found a few nice things.After paying for what I had found there,I headed for home.
On the way home,when I got back into the city,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of important things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better soon as I am still hanging onto the hope that my recovery will start to improve soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation in the wee early morning hours by masturbating.It really brought me down as I was doing good for a while since my last fall,but this time,I fell again.I really felt lousy afterwards as I knew that masturbation is an unclean and dirty habit that will never connect me to the lost maleness that I am hoping to connect to.I have to continually keep in mind that acting out in any way,shape or form will never get me what I want nor will it ever fulfill any of my much needed needs.I need affirmation of my gender identity and I want to have the feelings of authenticity that go along with that affirmation.Acting out in any way,shape or form will never fulfill the deep need that I really need to have fulfilled.If anyone can help,please offer what has worked for you and I will try to use it the best way that I know how.
Tomorrow,I am hoping and planning to attend the morning's church service and the morning Holy Bible study class an hour and a half before it.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had a few things planned for today and I wanted to get them done.
I first went to a local supermarket to turn in some empty cans and bottles that had accumulated in my trunk from collecting them over the past few months.After that was done,I went over to the bank to cash a couple of checks.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the bills at the Where's George site and after that was done,I relaxed until it was time for me to leave to have a meeting with the pastor of the church this afternoon.I was having high hopes for this and I was hoping that it would go well.
The meeting went better than expected.After it was over,I headed straight home as I had nothing else to do for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I really wasn't tempted much today.I had really no urges to act out on my desires today.Though I escaped today,I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as the urge to act out in any way,shape or form can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to also stay strong when that temptation does indeed rear it's ugly head.I have to fight to resist the temptation to masturbate or when my mind wanders into other territories that it shouldn't be wandering into.I have to stay strong.Again,anything helpful is appreciated.
Tomorrow,I am hoping to get out to another Salvation Army thrift store in the next county and I am hoping that I find quite a few nice things.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the start of the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had a spirituality group that I needed to attend.This is a weekly group where we we read a passage from the Holy Bible and discuss the passage.
The group was wonderful.I got a lot out of it.After the group was over,I headed over to a local community kitchen to have lunch.After eating,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things that my mom needed.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery improves soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation late last night by masturbating.I really felt terrible afterwards.I really want to heal from this unwanted SSA,but masturbation won't get me anywhere near what I want to do.I want to overcome and heal from unwanted SSA and I really don't want to masturbate nor act out in other ways anymore.Masturbation will never connect me to my lost maleness nor will it ever give me what I really need and want,which is affirmation of my gender identity and the feelings of authenticity that go with it.I am still determined to heal from this and I will do whatever it takes to heal from this.I really need to stay on guard and be watchful.I also need to work on staying strong and try to resist the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form.I am still open to any suggestions or advice.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have another appointment with the pastor over at the church that I have been attending since September.I hope that it goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up later than I was hoping to and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day as I did have a few things planned.
I had finally gotten out to a Salvation Army thrift store in the next county that I was hoping to get out to for a long time.I finally got out there and I looked around.I did find some really good things there like a few more vinyls for my ever growing vinyl collection and a few other things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home and it took me a while to finally reach home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that I start improving in my recovery in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted early this morning when I awakened by an erection.I had to toss and turn to resist this temptation until the erection died down.I fell back asleep after that.Though I escaped this one,I know that the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form can rear it's ugly head when least expected.When temptation hits,it can get quite ugly.I will just have to keep on fighting whenever it hits me.I am still open to any advice or suggestions.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had only a few things on my agenda.I first went to the bank to withdraw some money for myself.After that was done,I headed back home and I dropped the money off.I headed back out to run a few more errands that were personal and after those were done,I got ready to go and get the wheels on my car aligned.I needed to get this done so I could go the longer distances that I want to go when I want to check out thrift stores in other areas of the region where I live.
After about 15 minutes,the alignment was done and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-mart to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best.I had really no temptation to act out by masturbating or by any other way way,shape or form.Though I escaped today,I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I also have to fight when it does rear it's ugly head when least expected.There is always tomorrow and the day after that and so on.The temptation to act out can come when anyone least expects it to come.I am also still open to any encouragement from my regular readers.
Tomorrow,I am hoping to get out to a Salvation Army thrift store in the next county.As for the rest of the day,I have nothing else planned.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up a little later than I wanted to and bathed.After my bath,I had mu usual breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee,but I had a third cup as the morning wound down.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda today.I first went to the groups that I needed to attend.After they were over,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things that were needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts improving in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation early this morning by masturbating an erection away.It is the first time in a long time that I gave into this terrible habit in quite a while.I really felt bad and miserable afterwards,but as the day progressed,I felt better.I still need to be on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am still open to any suggestions as to how I can stay strong to resist any temptation.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment to get my car aligned.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed quickly.After my bath,I had my breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I decided to get dressed up for church and I headed over to the church for the morning study class and the worship service afterwards.I was looking forward to both with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.I really did get quite a lot from both.After some wonderful fellowship,where there were a lot more people there this morning than any other,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local 7-Eleven to purchase a couple of pizza slices just to try them.After eating them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and I put on my regular casual clothes.I did my personal PC work and I also got my laundry ready to take to the laundromat so I could get them done.
When I arrived at the laundromat,I immediately found a washer that wasn't being used and I put my entire laundry load in it and started to get them clean.After a little over half and hour,I put all my laundry into two separate dryers and awaited them to get dry.After that,I folded all of my laundry and bagged everything and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the laundry away and I relaxed while awaiting dinner to be ready.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts improving in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out on my SSA desires was minimal if nil at best.I really had no temptation to act out nor did I have any urges to masturbate or watch porn.Though I escaped today,I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out on my desires can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I will just have to keep fighting when the temptation hits again.As usual,I am still open to any advice or suggestions.
Tomorrow,I have a couple of groups that I must attend.For the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my breakfast and coffee and after getting dressed,I headed over to my Men's Network meeting.
I had a pretty tough time getting there as a result of the high winds.But I managed to make it and I joined the rest of the men when I arrived.
The meeting was wonderful.We talked and watched a DVD and after the meeting was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Save-A-Lot to pick up something.After that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up another thing.After that,I headed over to the nearby supermarket to pick up a few more things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home and stayed there as a result of the high winds that were blowing in the area.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work.After that,I had a quick lunch and afterwards,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery continues and that it starts to improve very soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to act out in the wee early morning hours when an erection woke me up.I was really tempted to masturbate the erection away as the erection was also another throbber.I tossed and turned,but I decided to get up since I also had to use the bathroom at that time.After the erection died down,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped that temptation,I still need to be on guard and be watchful.The temptation to act out can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Again,I still need to be on guard and be watchful when that happens again.I also have to continue keeping in mind that masturbation will never get me what I want,which is make contact with my lost maleness.If I am going to start feeling like a man as I am a man myself,I need to d it in a healthy and authentic way with other men in the forms of friendships,bonding and a healthy and authentic connection.I am still open to any suggestions or advice.
Tomorrow,I will be attending the morning's church service and the Holy Bible study class before it.I am also going to do my laundry in the afternoon as it really does need to get done.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had breakfast and my 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had a lot planned and I wanted to get it all done.
I first went to get my hair cut at a local hair shop.After that was done,I went over to the local Super Wal-Mart,which was just across the street,and picked up something that my mom wanted me to get for her.After that,I went over to the bank to withdraw some money for my mom and myself.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the money at the Where's George site and afterwards,I got ready to meet with the pastor of the church to discuss becoming a member again and to learn more about the basics and the teachings of the church.It was for one full hour and beforehand,I did ask another pastor that I communicate with via personal e-mail for advice on what to ask and what to share with the church pastor.
The hour meeting was excellent.We made some arrangements for classes and when they will be and all and after the meeting,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating some take out food that I picked up when I went out again and came home,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts improving in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best.I really had no urge to masturbate or even to watch online porn.Though I escaped today,I know that there is tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I know that the temptation to act out can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to stay on guard and be watchful.Again,I escaped today unscathed,but that temptation or urge to act out by masturbating or watching porn can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Again,I am still open to any advice or suggestions.
Tomorrow,I have a Men's Network group that I will be attending.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda.I had a spirituality group that I needed to attend.I was looking forward to this group with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group went well.After the group,I had a little talk with another counselor at the group place and after that was done,I headed over to a community kitchen for lunch.After lunch,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to start improving in my recovery in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best.I had really no temptation to act out in any way,shape or form.While I escaped today,the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have stay on guard and be watchful.I can also use any suggestions on how to resist the temptation to act out.I just have to hang in there and keep fighting when it happens.
Tomorrow,I will be meeting with the pastor of the church to discuss some things.I am hoping that this goes well and everything works out.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and bathed.After my bath,I had breakfast and 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got a phone call from the local hospital that they faxed a new prescription for my medication after the drug store lost the prescription that I dropped off for them to file.I was really over the edge emotionally when I called the drug store last night to have them fill the prescription and they told me that they didn't have one on file for me even though I dropped one off at their store.This morning,it was all fixed up and my prescription is ready to be picked up,which I will pick up tomorrow when I have some money.After that,I did my personal PC work and I relaxed for the rest of the morning.
As the afternoon was beginning,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.I really didn't have too much to do today.
I went to a local close out bargain store to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start improving in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted in the wee early morning hours as a result of what had happened with the drug store the previous night.I really wanted to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of attaining hardness or near hardness for the purpose of masturbation.I did fight the temptation,though it wasn't an easy thing to do.I managed to escape this one,but I was still,though mildly,tempted to do that for the rest of the day.But I managed to stay strong.I really didn't know how I did that today,but I did.Though I escaped today,there is always tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I will just have to keep fighting the urge when it comes around.I am still open to any ideas.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I will be attending.As far as the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up later than usual and bathed.After my bath,I had breakfast and my coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had some stuff planned for the day and I was looking forward to them with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
For most of the day,I simply relaxed until the time came for me to go to see my sexual abuse support counselor.I headed over to her office and when I got there,I waited for her to call me in.
The session went well.After the session was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out in any way,shape or form was minimal if nil at best.I really didn't have any urge to act out.While I did escape today,I know that there will be tomorrow and the day after that and so on.The temptation to act out can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful whenever that happens.I have to stay strong and I have to keep fighting the urge.Again,if anyone can give me any ways that I can do that,please share.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I got up later than usual and I bathed.After my bath,I had breakfast and after that,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had only a few things planned today.I had to attend a couple of groups today and both the groups went well.After the groups,I headed over to a friend of my mom's house to pick up something and after that was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best today.I simply had no temptation to act out today.I had no urge to masturbate nor any other urges.Though I escaped today,I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Again,I escaped today,but there is always tomorrow and the after that and so on.I am hoping that I can stay strong and resist the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form.I am atill open to any suggestions on how I can do that.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor and I am hoping that the session goes well.As for the rest of the day,I have made no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up to attend the morning's church service and the Holy Bible study class before it.
Both the class and the service were both wonderful.I got a lot out of them both.After some fellowship with the members,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my sweatsuit.I had a quick lunch and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I decided to relax for a while and just enjoy the rest of the day.I even popped a DVD in the DVD player while relaxing.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start improving in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my cravings to act out was minimal if nil at best.I had really no temptation to act out on my desires today.I think that this is a good thing.But again,as I have said previously,though I escaped today,there is still tomorrow and the day after that and so on.The temptation to act out can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Again,though I escaped today,I still have to stay on guard and be watchful.The temptation to act out can come again.The temptation to act out can be very strong and overwhelming when it strikes.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful.When it hits,I just have to fight it and stay strong and not let it weaken me.Again,I am still open to any suggestions.
Tomorrow,I have a couple of groups that I need to attend.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up a little later than usual and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
Today,we had some snow falling,so I decided to do everything close to home.Though the weather wasn't too cold,I chose that in case the weather gets worse,simply keep everything close to home.
I only ran a couple of errands today.I went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After that,I went to the drug store to pick a couple of important things.After paying for the items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start improving very soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours.I woke up to yet another erection that was throbbing.I had to really toss and turn just to resist the temptation to masturbate it away.The erection would soon die down and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this one,I have to keep in mind that temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.It can come in any way,shape or form.Each and every time I get a morning erection,though it doesn't happen too often,I do get the temptation to masturbate it away when it does happen.The resistance of the temptation to masturbate when erect can be very difficult.It is a lot easier to give into the temptation than it is to resist the temptation.I have to stay on guard and be watchful because temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to keep fighting the urge and continue to work on resistance.I am hoping that I can stay strong and stay focused on my goals to heal from unwanted SSA rather than give into the feelings.I am still open to any suggestions.
As for tomorrow,I will be attending the morning's church service and the morning Holy Bible study class before the service.After that,I have nothing else planned.But whatever I do,I hope that it give me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up later than I wanted to and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
We were supposed to get snow today as we were under a "Lake Snow Watch" in my area last night,but I guess that it was cancelled overnight while I was sleeping as when I woke up,all that I heard was rain.I guess that the snow that we were supposed to get bypassed us and went somewhere else.I was relieved.I was actually worried on how was I going to get out of my driveway if we really got the snow that we were supposed to get.
Since the weather pattern changed,I simply decided to do some things.I had a few errands to run.I first went to the public library to print something out of my e-mail box and after that was done,I went to a couple of local stores to pick up some things that I needed.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a DVD or two.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start improving soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted twice in the wee early morning hours.I had two morning erections this morning.When this happens,my cravings to masturbate are at an all time high.I simply tossed and turned until my penis softened and I fell asleep.A few hours later,I was awakened by another erection.I really had to fight this one as it was really hard and throbbing.I was taking deep breaths repeatedly and again,tossing and turning until my penis softened again.This morning was really a double whammy for me as I had to really fight the temptation to masturbate both these erections away.It was difficult,but I managed to escape.This really tells me that I still have to be on guard and be watchful as the temptation to masturbate can really rear it's ugly head.In the healing process from SSA,masturbation has a negative effect on the healing from those unwanted desires as it is a form of acting out without paying the price.Not only that,masturbation only reinforces the Homosexual identity in the case of men wanting to heal from unwanted SSA and change themselves from Homosexual to Heterosexual.Masturbation,in itself,is also a dirty and a very unclean habit.It is also very addicting as once a person starts to do that,they are hooked and it is like a person's sexuality owns them rather than they owning their sexuality.I just have to stay in the fight to abstain from this habit and to resist the temptation to act out in this way.I am still open to any suggestions.
As for the weekend,I haven't really made any plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had a few things planned and I wanted to get them accomplished.
The first thing that I attended was my usual Thursday spirituality group.I was looking forward to this with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group was wonderful.I dd get a lot out of it.After the group,I went to a local community kitchen to have lunch and after I was finished with that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start to improve in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when an erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I fought this urge the usual way that I fight it by simply tossing and turning until the erection died down.I slept for another few hours and got up later on.For the rest of the day,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best.Though I escaped today,the temptation to act out by masturbating can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to continue staying on guard and being watchful.I also have to work on staying strong whenever temptation rears it's ugly head again.I am still open to any suggestions or ideas as to how I can do that.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that was done,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda.I first went to the bank to withdraw some money for my mom.I went back home to register the bills at the Where's George website and after that was done,I went back out to go to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things that were needed.After paying for those items,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I put all the groceries away and I relaxed for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts improving in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best today.I had no desire to masturbate nor to look at porn nor was I feeling hungry to act out with another man.While I escaped today,there is still tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I simply went through the day without having any temptations of any kind.Still,I need to stay on guard and be watchful because temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I need to stay strong whenever temptation can rear it's ugly head.I am still open to any suggestions.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up a little later than usual and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day.
I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a small thing that I needed.After that,I headed over to a copy store to make some copies of something that I had.After doing that,I headed for the public library to do some printing of things and after that,I headed over to a friend's house in the next town within the county that I live to drop off something that I wanted him to give to someone else he knows.After doing that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local small store to pick up something else.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start improving within the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted in the wee early morning hours when I awoke to a morning erection.It was also another throbbing one at that.I really had to fight this temptation.It was a really strong one at that.I tossed and turned repeatedly until the erection died down.I slept for another few hours.Though I did escape this temptation,I know that temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Temptation can come in any way,shape or form.I fought this one,but it can and will happen again.I need to stay on guard and be watchful.The temptation to sin can be very strong and overwhelming.I don't want to act out nor do I want to even think of giving into any temptation.I am still open to any more ideas.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up later than I wanted to and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and afterwards,I got dressed up in a sweatsuit.I really couldn't do too much as a result of the unfortunate thing that happened yesterday regarding one of the wheels of my car.
I only ran one errand today.It was really close to home.I stopped at a local convenience store to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I simply glued myself back to my computer to search for a wheel for my car.
I visited a lot of websites that sold wheels for the particular car that I drive.I found quite a few at various prices and I was trying to search for one that had the lowest price.I did find some reasonably priced ones and I did write them down,including the part numbers and the sits that I saw them on.I gave the people at Goodyear a call to let them know what I had found and I was hoping that in the next few days,I would have the money together to get the job done,but I got some loans from family members and they told me to take my time in paying them back.I simply went to a local junkyard to get the wheel and I was fortunate that they had the particular wheel that I was looking for.After paying him,I took the wheel to the local Goodyear and headed for home to await the call that it was ready.
After that was finished,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I headed over to Goodyear so they could put the wheel with the new tire on.After that was done,I went to a local Wendy's to have a Frosty and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put my pajamas on,took my medication and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve very soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best.I guess that being bored with not going anywhere that I wanted to go as a result of the troubles with my car.It does stink,I know.But what can you do when you have car troubles.I guess that you can do as little as you can.But still,I wasn't really tempted.I actually got through the day without having anything that would make me give into the temptation to act out in other ways other than searching for another male partner for the purpose of acting out.While I did get through this day unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the day after that and so on.Temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.When that happens,I will just have to use all my strength and wits to resist the temptation to act out by masturbating.I am still open to any suggestions from anyone who reads and follows my blog.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do.I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty fair today,though it did start out promising until an unfortunate thing this morning.
The morning started out promising.I got up and bathed.I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up to go to church and that is when things started to go downhill.
On the way to church,my tire went flat.I had to pull over to the side of the road and call AAA.After calling them,I waited for them to come,which they did,earlier than expected.After the AAA guy put the spare wheel on,I continued on my way to church and though I did miss most of the morning Holy Bible study group,I managed to get there for the service afterwards.
The service was wonderful.After some fellowship,I headed straight home as I couldn't go anywhere as a result of my compact spare being on my car.
When I got home,I dressed into my casual clothes and called the local Goodyear and explained my problem to them.They simply told me to drop the wheel off and they would get in touch with me later.After leaving it there,I headed for a copy store in the area and after I was done there,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I had my lunch and started to do my personal PC work when I got a phone call from the local Goodyear telling me that the problem was much worse than I figured.The wheel is bent and as a result of that,the tire was damaged and both need replacing.After I hung up,I resumed with my personal PC work and after I was finished with that,I headed back out to a local Dollar Tree to pick up a bottle of dish detergent that my mom needed.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I simply relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty fair day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I hope that my recovery starts to improve soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours by another erection that woke me up out of a deep sleep.It was also another throbbing one as well.I simply tossed and turned until my penis softened.But the temptation didn't go away too fast.I was still tempted for much of the day as a result of the negative situation that had happened to me this morning.But I managed to hang in there and fight the temptation to masturbate and I did get through the rest of the day.I am still going to stay on guard and be watchful because though I escaped today,temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.When it does,though I am not waiting on it to happen,I will just have to stay in the fight to resist and continue to use all my wits and strength in that resistance from that temptation.I am still open to any new ideas,suggestions and advice.
Tomorrow,I was originally planning to go to another Salvation Army thrift store in the next county,but as a result of what had happened today with my tire and wheel,I will have to put that on hold until the new month.I just hope that no bad stormy weather happens while I am waiting.Because of this,I really don't have anything planned.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up much later than usual and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had only a few things planned for today and I wanted to make sure that I got them done.
I first went to a bargain outlet closeout store to pick up a couple of things there.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things there.After paying for those items,I headed over to a copy store to make a few copies for my mom.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did dome more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve soon in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted in the wee early morning hours again when I was awakened by another erection that was also throbbing.I really had to fight this temptation as it was really overwhelming and strong.I really tossed and turned because I didn't want to masturbate as the urge was really strong.After several minutes,my penis softened and I drifted back into sleep.For the rest of the day,I really had no temptation.But that can change in the near future as temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to be watchful when that happens.I want to stay pure and clean and giving into temptation will only make me the opposite.I will just have to keep fighting when temptation does indeed rear it's ugly head and I have to stay strong.I have to show my body that I own it and not the opposite.Again,I am still open to any suggestions or advice.
Tomorrow morning,I am planning on attending the morning's church service and early Holy Bible study class.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up a little later than I wanted to and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed.I had only a few things planned and I wanted to get them done.
I first went to a local Tim Horton's to buy some ground coffee.After paying for that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few more things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I watched TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours by being awoke by an erection that was throbbing.My temptation to masturbate it away was really strong and overwhelming.I had to really fight this.I simply tossed and turned until the erection died down.I slept for a few more hours.Though I escaped this one,I have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out in other ways will rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to stay on guard and be watchful.The temptation to act out in ways other than seeking a male partner for the purpose of acting out sexually can be very strong and very difficult to resist.It is just a day by day fight.I have to stay in the fight and hang in there.I am still open to any suggestions or advice.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to get ready for the rest of my day.
I had a spirituality group that I needed to attend and I was looking forward to this with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group was wonderful.I got a lot out of it and after it was over,I had lunch at a local community kitchen.After lunch,I headed over to the post office to mail out some important stuff that needed to be mailed out.After that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things for the home.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that,someday soon,my recovery will improve.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours.An erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.It was also yet another throbbing one.I really had to fight the temptation to masturbate the erection away as that is when my temptation to masturbate is the strongest.I had to really toss and turn to get rid of that throbbing erection.After several minutes,my penis softened and I went back to sleep.A couple of hours later,I had to get up and take my bath to clean up before going on with the rest of my day.Though I escaped that occurance,this only shows me that I have to continue staying on guard and being watchful as the temptation to act out by masturbating can get really strong and it can be very hard to resist.I have to keep fighting this temptation as the temptation to act out by masturbating can be strong and overwhelming.I have to keep relying on God and my strength to resist this temptation as it can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Fighting the temptation is the only thing that I can do.Any other advice or suggestions are welcomed.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the morning and I bathed as usual.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to prepare for what I had planned for the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda.I first had to go get my oil changed in my car's engine.After that,I headed over to the bank to withdraw money for myself.After that was done,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up something that was needed for the home.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recover will start to improve soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awoke with an erection that was also a throbber.I simply had to toss and turn repeatedly to rid myself of this as when I am erect,the temptation to masturbate it away is overwhelmingly strong.After a few minutes,my penis softened and I fell back asleep.But a few hours later,I woke up with another erection and again,my temptation to masturbate it away was overwhelmingly strong.I simply got up to use the bathroom and on the way,my penis softened again.While I escaped these occurances,I still need to stay on guard and be watchful.The temptation to act out in any way,shape or form can be very strong.I know that I have a choice to give in or not to give in.While I chose not to give in to these latest bouts,I know that temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to stay on guard and work on staying strong when it does.Today,I did escape.But there is always tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I need to continue fighting temptation whenever it rears it's ugly head again.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had only one thing on my agenda today.I had an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor today and I was eagerly looking forward to this.I always look forward to seeing my counselor in this area as I always have lots to talk about.
The session was great.After she set another appointment with me,I left and headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a store to pick up several things.After paying for these items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will improve soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted twice in the wee early morning hours.I had two morning erections.The first happened at around 4:45am and to get rid of it,I simply tossed and turned around until the erection died down.The second one happened at around 7:56am and to get rid of that,I simply had to get up and use the bathroom and while on the way there,the erection died down.As I have stated previously,my temptation to masturbate gets really strong when I have morning erections because in the past,when I did get them,I would masturbate them away,which is why the temptation to masturbate is really strong when this happens.I escaped these occurances,but I know that I still stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out by masturbating can get overwhelmingly strong.I will have to continue to fight this when it comes and just deal with it when it comes.Still,advice and suggestions are always welcomed.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment to get the oil changed in my engine.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up later than I wanted to and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I got ready to proceed with the rest of my day as I had only a few things planned.
For starters,I went to my usual Monday afternoon groups.These were groups that I needed to attend and they both went well.After they were over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a couple of local stores to pick up a few things that I needed.After I was done shopping at them,I headed for the bank to withdraw some much needed cash.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out was strong,but not as strong as previous times.I still had the urge to masturbate by manipulating my genitals to get them hard or near hardness for that purpose,but I fought it and I did get through it.The temptation to act out in any way,shape or form other than searching for male partners to act out with can be very strong at times.I managed to make it through today,but tomorrow and the day after that and so are new challenges.Each and every day is it's own challenge.I have top fight the urge whenever it comes over me.I have to keep on fighting and keep on enduring whenever the temptation to act out rears it's ugly head.I have to hang in there and simply tough it out.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.Aside from that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up to attend the morning's church service and also to attend the morning's bible study class.I was looking forward to both of them with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.The cold weather did nothing to dampen my mood as I was leaving to go to church.
Both the class and the service were wonderful.I got a lot out of both of these.After some fellowship with the members after the service,I headed for home.
On the way home,I made a few stops.I stopped at a local Tim Horton's to pick up a bag of coffee.After paying for that,I headed over to a nearby bargain outlet closeout store to pick up a few things there.After that was done,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a couple more things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.
While my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I hope that my recovery starts to improve very soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out on my desires was minimal if nil at best.I had really no cravings to act out nor did I have any urges to masturbate nor manipulate my genitals to hardness or near hardness for the purpose of masturbation.While I escaped today,I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out on my desires can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I still have to be on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out can come back in any way,shape or form.Again,while it was good that I escaped today,I still be watchful when it hits again.I have to work on staying strong and work even harder on resisting the temptation to act out when it does indeed rear it's ugly head.Prayers and encouragement are welcomed.
Tomorrow,I have tow groups that I need to attend.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ