Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and headed to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group.I overslept and didn't have the time to really get to doing my personal PC work,so I put it off until later.
The group meting went as well as expected.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen for lunch and after I was finished,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed for a while.
Later on,I went over to my niece's house for dinner,which saved me from cooking.After I was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from day to day,or at other times,from minute/moment to minute/moment within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.Aside from the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD,I also have to put up with the hallucinatory effects of schizophrenia.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in keeping me sustained and also,they both help me in keeping me at a normal level plain.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel only a tad better as I am still battling the issues connected with the double whammy that I have for a psychiatric disability.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.Since I had to use the bathroom,I got out of bed and started towards there.As I headed for there,the erection started to soften and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I did give into yet another later temptation by manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.Yes,sexual images of men clouded my mind while doing that and I gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after them.Fortunately for me,I was able to stop myself before it went too far and asked my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for giving into that particular temptation and I did feel better after that as I truly believed that I was truly forgiven and that the slate was wiped clean.I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in same sex sexual fantasies and to also manipulate my genitals to these sexual images of men.I kept up in prayer all day to my Heavenly Father and asked him for strength to help me resist all of these temptations that kept coming at me from all sides and each and every temptation was stronger than the last.I kept asking my Heavenly Father for strength all day as I didn't want to fall as I am really and truly serious about wanting to be free from the trap of SSA and the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.It is just that lately these temptations have been coming at me from all sides and they keep getting stronger and stronger with each resistance.While I have been keeping up in prayer all day to my Heavenly Father and been keeping up day after day,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue in prayer for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time and also,please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as I really could use some encouragement right now.Please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going.Yes,they really do.Please keep up in prayer and when you visit my blog,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and also,provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first dropped my laundry off at my niece's house and after that,I headed over to a local supermarket to turn in some bottles that I had and I also picked something up that I needed.After that,I headed over to the post office to get a money order to pay my car insurance and after that,I headed over to my insurance agent's office to pay the bill.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the bills that I got from the bottles at the Where's George site and after that,I relaxed for a bit to head over to my niece's house for dinner.I stayed over there for a while and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and watched a little bot of TV.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.If not having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they not only help in sustaining me,but also help to keep me on a steady plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I turned to the left side of the bed and when that didn't work,I sat up for a while and then proceeded to get out of bed,which made the erection soften and when my genitals were fully soft,I went right back to sleep.Throughout the rest of the day,I wasn't tempted to do anything in regards to acting out on SSA and that was good.I kept busy throughout the day doing what I had to do and nothing of any sorts came to my mind.Though I did escape today,I still have to keep in mind that tomorrow is another day and there are also other days as well.I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to continue in prayer for me and also,to please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Both your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome SSA and also to continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to the bank to withdraw some money to pay an important bill.After that,I headed back home to register the bills and after that,I paid the bill and I also returned to the bank to pay another bill.After that,I dropped some newspapers off at a few people's places and after that was done,I sent out another payment through the post office and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions vary by the day,or at other times,by the minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my struggles with BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me and keeping me at a steady level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I had to get up and use the bathroom and I headed for there and as I was doing that,the erection started to soften and was fully dead when I was finished.I went right back to sleep after I was finished.Though I escaped this episode,I gave into yet another later temptation when images of men clouded my mind and I gave into the temptation to lust and fantasize by manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I did feel much better as I truly believed that I was forgiven and that my sin was forgotten by my Heavenly Father.Since I was out for much of the day,I was tempted to do anything,such as lust and fantasize and that was very good.I went through the rest of the day without anything to worry about.Though I did get through the rest of this day,there is still tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue in prayer for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time and also,to please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.My bog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rare.Please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and make me even more determined to overcome and heal from this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I watched another MASH marathon on TVLand and after that was over,I did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had a few things on my agenda today.I first went to the local Sears to pay a much overdue bill and after that,I headed over to a nearby supermarket to pick up a few things.After paying for those things,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up some much needed groceries.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the groceries away and relaxed while watching a little bit more TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggles seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that is not only great,but makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I sat up and proceeded to go the bathroom as I had to use it and after I was finished,the erection fully softened and I went back to sleep.Though I did escape this episode,I did give into a later temptation to fantasize and lust after other men,and I did manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping to the sexual images of men that clouded my mind.I stopped myself and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for sinning against him and I did feel better and I also truly believed that I was truly forgiven and that my sin was forgotten.Throughout the rest of the day,I kept busy doing what I had to do so I wouldn't be tempted as much and it did work.I kept busy and the images didn't cloud my mind nor did I get the temptation to manipulate my genitals.While I did get through the rest of the day without a scratch,I am again asking that all of you continue praying for me and please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Please leave me an encouraging word or two as both your prayers and encouraging words help keep me going in this particular struggle and make me even more determined to continue in overcoming and healing from SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and headed for the church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Target to pick up a small bottle of juice for breakfast tomorrow.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a pair of lounge pants.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I had lunch.After that,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day,as for me,going to church on Sunday always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggles seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply place this struggle in the hands of my heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me and keeping me on a level plain.It does make me feel a tad better when they are taking the lead and getting me through the difficulties of this double whammy of a psychiatric disability that I have.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything they do to help me through all of these difficulties connected with the psychiatric double whammy that I have.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I had to get up and use the bathroom and so,I headed for there and as I was going there,the erection started to soften and was fully soft when I was finished.I went right back to sleep afterwards.I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men,but this time,it wasn't as strong as it was the last two weeks up to my falling yesterday.I did pray to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ whenever these temptations came at me and I asked for strength to fight and resist.I did feel better after praying and I did feel stronger after that.I am again asking for prayers by all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts here.I also need some encouraging words shared by all of you as well.It is just that my blog gets many visitors,but comments of any kind are rare.Please pray for me and please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and for me to also continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA,Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Christ Jesus as well for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to the public library to print something important.After that,I headed over to a nearby Dollar Tree store to pick up something that I needed.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby office surplus store to make copies of my resume.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation during the wee early morning hours when I masturbated an erection away and yes,I was lusting and fantasizing after other men while I did that.I felt so miserable after falling and I hated it that I did.After washing my hands,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning against him in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,I felt better as I truly believed that my sins were forgiven and that the slate was wiped clean.I did keep busy throughout the rest of the day as I was out of the house for much of the day.I simply kept busy and through the rest of the day,I didn't get tempted very much.Though I fell today,I wanted to try and not fall again,though it wasn't easy.I think that it's because I am trying to start relationships with other men and I am striking out big time.I keep asking myself "What am I doing wrong?"The only men that I know are those who make obnoxious and sexist remarks about things having to do with sinful sexual activity and it does throw me off when they do that.I am now really desperate as I am trying to start these types of relationships.I am again appealing to all of my blog followers who have been reading my blog and following it to please keep praying for me as I am going through this rough emotional time.I also ask that you please leave me an encouraging word or two for me as your prayers and your encouragement both help keep me going.I feel like that I am being ignored here and I hate being ignored.Please pray for me and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for doing that.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to the bank to withdraw a little bit of money and after that,I went to get some gas at a local gas station.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a movie.
I also had to babysit for my niece as she went to work and I watched her kids until her live in boyfriend came home.When he did,I headed for home.
On the way home,I was thinking of going to get some take out food,but my niece gave me a few hot dogs to eat and instead,I went to get a loaf of rye bread and a can of baked beans at a couple of local stores.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate what I had bought and watched a little TV.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.As I go from day to day,I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult and/or overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a little bit better as I am still coping with the issues connected with my psychiatric disability.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me again at two separate intervals during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by erections at both these intervals.I sat up on both occasions and though it was slow going,the erections softened and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this double whammy,I was still tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies with images other men and to also manipulate my genitals to these lustful and fantasy images.I prayed real hard for strength to fight and resist these temptations.I asked my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ for strength to fight and resist these overwhelming urges and I did feel better after doing so.The struggle with SSA is a difficult one indeed,but I can't let these unnatural sexual desires that I have own me nor envelope me.I have to show them that I own them and not the other way around.It is difficult,but I know that it can be done.I am again asking for prayers by everyone who follows my blog and reads that posts that I write here.I also ask that you please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need encouragement and the more I get,the more determined I become.The more prayers I get,the more I want to continue in pursuit of overcoming this terrible SSA and heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did 4/5 of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to my weekly spirituality group and it went well.After the group was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Big Lots to pick up something that I needed and after paying for that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up something else that I needed.After paying for that item,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I finished my personal PC work.After that,I relaxed and took it easy for a while and watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both not only help in sustaining me,but also,they both help keep me level and at a hopeful and optimistic plain and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I turned the opposite way that I was sleeping and though it was slow,the erection did die down and I went back to sleep.I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in same sex fantasies and lusting and also,to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping to these lustful and fantasy images of men.I kept up in prayer all day to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I kept asking him for strength to fight and resist all of these temptations and I felt better as I felt much stronger and went with the rest of the day and I prayed whenever these overwhelming urges kept coming at me.I am also again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to continue praying for me and also,to please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging do help keep me going in this fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome this terrible SSA and to also,to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and since I had nothing to do today,I simply stayed home and caught up on some my reading.After doing a little bit of reading,I did a little work around the house and when that was done,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions vary by the day,or at other times,by the minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father,pray about it in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.This shows me that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me again during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection and this time,the urge to masturbate it away was really overwhelming.I turned to the opposite side of the bed while staying in bed and though it was slow,the erection softened and I went right back to sleep.Throughout the rest of the day,I tried to keep busy at home by doing things around the house and cleaning up here and there to try and keep my mind off of anything sexual with men.Though it has been sporadic,I have been tempted to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men and at times,it has made me give into the temptation of manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I am really serious about wanting to heal from this terrible condition and I really don't want to fall again.The temptation to act out on these unnatural sexual desires that I have can be very overwhelming and very difficult to resist.I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue in prayer for me as I am going through this really difficult time and also,please don't be shy and leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,with the exception of my weekly spirituality group and lunch at a local kitchen afterwards,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I had only a couple things on my agenda for today.I first went to a local bargain outlet store to pick up some cereal as I ran out of it today.After paying for that,I proceeded to drop off some newspapers at a few people's homes in the area that I knew.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the cereal that I bought away and I was hoping to relax and catch up on some reading that I had been putting off,but had to babysit for my niece while she went to workI watched her kids until her live in boyfriend came home from work.When he did,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I fixed my evening meal.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions vary by the day,or at other times,by the minute/moment within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I also have to put up with the hallucinatory effects of schizophrenia alongside the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular and difficult struggle with my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.This shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and it does make me feel only a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me again during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,but it didn't last very long.I started sitting up and that is what made the erection soften and after a while of sitting up,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to sleep when they were.Though I did escape this episode,I did give into two later temptations when I,at two separate intervals in the morning,manipulated my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping and yes,there was lusting and fantasizing with other men involved with this fall as well.I asked my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for falling and I did feel better as I truly believed that I was forgiven and that my sin was forgotten.I was tempted throughout the day to act out in many ways,such as fantasies,lusting and also,to manipulate my genitals to these lustful and fantasy images of men.I asked my Heavenly Father to give me the strength to fight and resist these urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ as I know that lust is sinful and must not be fed in any way.I also have to show these lustful thoughts and desires that I own them and not they owning me.I kept up in prayer all day as I went through these terrible lustful images and thoughts.The more resistance that I put up,the more stronger the lust becomes and I must remain strong.I have to keep asking my Heavenly Father in the name of Jesus Christ,his son,to keep giving me strength to fight and resist these temptations.While I am doing this and trying to rely more on God than on my own strength,I am again asking that all of you to continue to pray for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time and also,that none of you be shy and leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.It is just that my blog gets many visitors,but comments are rare.Please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for all of your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Happy Memorial Day,everyone.
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I put a pair of sweat pants on and decided to simply take it easy as I didn't have anything else to do today.I never have nothing to do when holidays,such as Memorial Day, come around.
I simply watched TV for most of the day.There was a special MASH marathon on TVLand and I sat and watched it and it all ended with the series finale "Goodbye,Farewell and Amen."It was really a blast watching this marathon.MASH happens to be one of my favorite classic TV shows.Since I had nothing to do or no place to go today,I simply decided to stay home and make the best of it.It was wonderful.
In between watching the non-stop episodes,I managed to have a nice lunch and relaxed for the whole day.
After eating a light dinner,I continued watching the marathon and when I was all over,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day as I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from day to day,or sometimes,from minute/moment to minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.Aside from the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD,I also have to put up with the hallucinatory effects of schizophrenia at the same time.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication,which was just increased,as directed.I am also still continue to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me and keeping me evenly level.It does make me feel a tad better that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that is actually very good.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when another erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I sat up for a while and I proceeded to get out of bed and that is what made the erection soften.I proceeded to walk to the bathroom as I had to use it and when I was finished with what I had to do,I went right back to bed and back to sleep.Throughout the rest of the day,I wasn't tempted too do anything in regards to SSA.No images of men clouded my mind nor did any lustful and sexual thoughts of men creep up into my mind.I simply kept busy watching TV and simply keeping up with life and just enjoying the day.Though nothing happened today,there is still tomorrow and the days after that.I am again asking that all of you who follow and read the posts on my blog keep up in prayer for me as I am going through this.Please continue to pray for me as I am going through a pretty difficult emotional period even though I wasn't tempted today to do anything sexually sinful in the forms of lusting and fantasies with other members of my own gender.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks again in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did 4.5 of my personal PC work and I got dressed up in a suit quickly to head for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the morning's worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful and I did get a lot out of everything from them.After the whole thing was over,we had a wonderful pancake breakfast in the church's fellowship hall and I had two helpings.After the whole thing was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and finished my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and popped a movie into the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a a wonderful and eventful day,as for me,going to church on Sunday always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If that wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I also have to put up with having hallucinations as well as the emotional roller coaster ride.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my heavenly father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to try to get the better of me and they both help in keeping me sustained,clam and serene.It also shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I tossed and turned,but the erection throbbed only a little.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed and that is what made the erection start to soften.I didn't lay back down until my genitals were fully soft and when they were,I went back to sleep.For today,I really wasn't plagued by temptations to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men.I kept busy watching a movie or two throughout the day and just kept my mind focused on things that were positive.Though I did escape this day,there is always the days after today as each day is different.I am again asking that all of you keep up in prayer for me and also,to please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome this terrible SSA and also to continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,which will be the Memorial Day holiday,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I really didn't have too much to do today.After my personal PC work was done,I decided to fill out a couple of job applications that I recently acquired and after I was done filling them out,I decided to go out and pick up a couple of things in a couple of stores.
I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something that I needed and after that,I went to the drug store to pick up a prescription that I just had refilled.After paying the co-pay on that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult as I also have to put up with the hallucinatory effects of schizophrenia at the same time.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle is seemingly getting way too difficult for me to handle.Whenever I am feeling even a little overwhelmed by this particular struggle,I simply talk about it with my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me and getting me through all the rough stuff.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed and the erection started to soften as I did this.I sat up for a while and though the urge to masturbate the erection away was overwhelming,I worked hard to resist this overwhelming urge and though it took a while for my genitals to soften,I didn't lay back down until they were.I went back to sleep once the erection had died down.Though I escaped this episode,I was still tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men and also,to manipulate my genitals alongside these things.I kept up in prayer to my Heavenly Father throughout the day and I asked him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,for strength to fight and resist these urges as they were pretty overwhelming.I kept it up and kept asking for that strength and after I was finished,I felt much better and also,much stronger.The temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have can get strong as they days pass by and I just have to keep up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ whenever these urges come around.I am also again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to also continue in prayer for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time and also,I also ask that you please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need all the prayers and positive encouragement that I can get as I am really going through a lot of things.Please leave me an encouraging word or two for in the the comments section whenever you visit as my blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome this terrible SSA and to continue in my healing journey to help from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work,but really didn't have much to do today as a result of it raining all through the day.I just stayed home and took it easy for the day.
I managed to get some work done that I have been putting off for quite some time.I chose to do it today and was pleased to get it finished.After that,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating a light dinner,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.Aside from that,I am also plagued with schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I tell him everything.I feel a tad better once I have done that as they both help in sustaining me.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel only a little bot more relieved.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I got out of bed to use the bathroom,as I had to use it,and when I was finished,my genitals had fully softened and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I did escape this episode,I did give into a later temptation while still in bed when I grabbed my genitals and manipulated my genitals to sexual images of men clouding up my mind.I actually managed to stop myself and I immediately asked God to forgive me for sinning against him by doing that and I did feel better as I truly believed that I was forgiven.I was tempted throughout the rest of the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies to sexual images of other men and yes,the temptation to manipulate my genitals to these sexual images also happened as well.I had to keep up in prayer all day to my Heavenly Father and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist all of these temptations and I did feel better and much stronger after doing so.Though I have done that,I am again asking for all of you who follow my blog and also read the posts to continue praying for me as I am going through this very complex emotional time and also,please don't be shy and leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind,especially encouraging ones,are rare.Please don't be shy and leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need some encouraging words right now to help keep me going in this struggle and to also continue motivating me to continue on my healing journey from everything connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday,I have really nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did 4/5 of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and that went as well as expected.After that was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after having lunch,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into a pair of sweatpants and relaxed for the rest of the day.I also finished my personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Christ Jesus whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father and pray about it in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when another erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I sat up for a while and started to get up and that made the erection soften and after walking a little bit,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I did give into a later temptation in the mid afternoon when sexual images of men crept up into my mind while I was lying down and I started to manipulate my genitals to these images and yes,there was lusting involved.I stopped myself before it went to far and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,I did feel better as I truly believed that my sins were forgiven and forgotten by my Heavenly Father.I was tempted throughout the day to act out by fantasies,lusting and also,to play with my genitals to these things.I prayed to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist these overwhelming urges to indulge in lustful fantasies to other men.I also asked that my Heavenly Father keep my mind clean from all of these perverse and negative images of men.While I have been doing that,I am again asking for prayers by all of you who continually follow my blog and read the posts.Please keep up in prayer for me and also,please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue soldiering on in my journey to overcome SSA and also to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to the drug store to pick up some prescriptions refills and after paying the co-pay on those,I delivered a few free newspapers to a few friends of mine.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put my prescriptions away and I relaxed while watching a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day today.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.Aside from the BPD emotional roller coaster ride,I also have to put up with the hallucinatory effects of schizophrenia.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me again during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I sat up for a while and proceeded to walk to the bathroom and that is what made the erection soften.After I was finished in the bathroom,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep afterwards.Though I escaped this episode,I did give into a later temptation by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind,but managed to stop myself before it went too far and immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning against him and I did feel better as I truly believed that I was forgiven and that my sin was forgotten.I was still tempted throughout the day,but it wasn't so bad once I stayed busy.I simply went about the day doing what had to be done and it was wonderful to be out and about.I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up praying for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and lunch at a local kitchen later on,I have really no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

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Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first called the bank to make a deposit from my line of credit to my checking account to remove a small bit of overdrawn funds from my checking account.After that,I headed out to do some important stuff that needed to be done.
I first went to the bank to withdraw a little bit of money and after that,I went to pick up a few applications for employment in the area and after that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things and after paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I registered all the money that I withdrew at the Where's George site.After that,I made a phone call to the job placement agency to let them know that I did pick up a few job applications and that I wanted to make an appointment to discuss these things.After that,I relaxed and watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.Aside from BPD,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult and/or overwhelming for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,talk about it and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last long.I had to use the bathroom really bad,so I headed for there and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.I kept busy again throughout the day as I was out of the house for much of the time.Being out in the community took my mind off of anything sexual and that was good.I didn't think of anything sexual and just keeping busy did it.It was great that I got through this day without anything negative,but there is tomorrow and so on.I am again asking that all of you please continue keeping up in prayer for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or tow for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your words of encouragement both help keep me going.Thanks in advanced to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed over to the church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.It was also a really big day today as it was Confirmation Sunday,as well as the first Sunday of Pentecost.I also did a Holy Bible reading today in front of the congregation.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.I also got positive accolades from everyone in the congregation for my Holy Bible reading.After some wonderful fellowship with the rest of my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into some casual clothes.I also did my personal PC work.After that was done,I got ready to leave the house again as I was invited out to someone else's place to spend the afternoon with.
I spent a few hours with that person and it was a very meaningful time where I really felt appreciated to be in his company.After that few hours with him,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a pack of bar soaps.After paying for then,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD into the DVD player.Since I had dinner at that other man's place,I simply took it easy and enjoyed what I was watching.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church every Sunday makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and my emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply bring this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I let them take the lead.They also both help in sustaining me when they take the lead and get me through it all.I am never alone in this struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again hit with the temptation to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up in bed and proceeded to get out of it,which made the erection start to soften.I started to walk towards the bathroom as I had to use it and after finishing,my genitals were soft and I went back to bed and back to sleep.Throughout the day,I wasn't tempted by anything connected with SSA as I kept busy and tried to keep my mind occupied with other things,such as healthy and positive thinking and also,on things of a more spiritual note and thinking more on these things.It actually worked and I never thought about anything sexual as my mind was cleared and also,cleaned of all things that were sexual in nature.I simply kept my mind focused on these things for today and it helped.Though I did escape today,there is tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read the posts to please continue praying for me and also,please don't be shy and leave me a positive word of two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rare.Please don't be shy and leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I continually ask these things because both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and they also make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome this terrible SSA and to continue to want to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for all of your prayers and words of encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues to move forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed over to the church to help out in some landscaping and general repairs on the property.After a few hours of doing some work,I headed for home.There are still some things that need to be done,but we decided to get that done another day.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and had a light lunch.After that,I relaxed and decided to pop a DVD in the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery to move forward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply put this particular struggle in the hands of my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.This just shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and I do feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed and walk.This actually made the erection soften and I headed for the bathroom as I had to use it.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.I kept busy today bu doing the volunteer work at the church and having some terrific fellowship with the men who were helping alongside.It was great and it took my mind off of everything sexual and that was great.Even after I came home,I still didn't have anything sexual come into my mind as I kept my mind on other things and this helped to keep my mind clean and clear.Though I got through this day,there is still tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I am also again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up praying for me as I am going through this struggle with SSA and also,I would appreciate it that all of you please leave a positive word of encouragement for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors,but comments of any kind are rare.Please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my journey's to overcome and heal from this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have church as usual and I have been invited over to someone's place to hang out with them for a while.After that is all over,I just might take it easy for the rest of the day.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to the bank to withdraw some money and after that,I headed for a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply put this particular struggle in the hands of my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me and also,they help me in my endurance when it comes to coping with the symptoms of both these particular psychiatric disabilities.With God and Christ leading the way,it makes it a tad easier.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection,though it didn't last long.I sat up in bed and proceeded to get out of bed and that is what made the erection start to soften.I didn't go back to sleep until the erection had completely died down as I wasn't about to give into that particular temptation.When my genitals were fully soft,I went right back to sleep.I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men,but I chose to stay busy and try to keep my mind off of anything sexual,including the negative sexual images of men that try to take over my mind.Though it wasn't easy,I managed to stay busy by just doing what I had to do and also,to do whatever it would take to take my mind off of anything having to with the unnatural sexual practices that are connected with the so called "Homosexual/Gay" lifestyle.I always have to keep in mind that God never intended sexuality to be used and abused the way that the world around is using and abusing it.It is never easy to keep your mind on other things that are holy and productive,but with the help of both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,it can be done.I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep me in your prayers as I am going through this difficult emotional time and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as I really could use some encouraging words right now.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle against this terrible SSA and also,they motivate me to continue in my journey to overcome and heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,with the exception of volunteering to help with landscaping at the church,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do after that gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did 4/5 of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.I had a few things on my agenda and I wanted to get them done.
I first went to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group.I also met someone that I knew there who was hanging out there and we made plans to get together later.
The group meeting was wonderful.After it was over,my friend and I headed over to the local kitchen to have lunch and after we were finished,I dropped him off at home and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I finished my personal PC work and I eagerly awaited the arrival of my caseworker who has now returned from her maternity leave.
After the meeting with my caseworker,which went pretty good,I called my friend and I headed over to his place to hang out and talk with him for a while.
After everything was over at my friends house,I headed straight home as I took my medication while I was there and I wanted to be home when it kicked in so I wouldn't drive home drowsy.
When I got home,I simply changed into some night clothes and finished the day with some recommended Holy Bible reading.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one/minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply bring this particular struggle to God and ask him in his son Christ Jesus' name to get me through all of the difficulties and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in my fight and that is good.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.It was also a throbbing erection at that.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed,which made the erection start to soften and I also got up and walked for a bit afterwards.After my genitals were fully softened,I went right back to bed and to sleep.I really wasn't tempted in any other way today as I kept busy with other things.I was out of the house for much of the day as I went to my group,lunch,had a good meeting with my caseworker and spent some time with a friend.I simply kept my mind on other positive things and the unnatural desires that I have didn't pose any problem today.Though this was so as far as today went,I am still asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep me in your prayers,as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.Please keep me in your prayers and when you visit,don't be afraid nor shy to leave a positive word or two of encouragement.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and they also make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I really didn't have too much to do today.Since the weather was windy,I stayed home much of the day and worked on catching up on things that needed to be done.I only went out to one place and that was to a local Salvation Army thrift store to check out their stock of hats and I really didn't find any one hat that interested me.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I simply began picking up where I left off when doing some necessary work that needed to get done.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I am always on an up and down ride when it comes to my emotions and/or moods.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,Temptation tried to get the better of me in the wee early morning hours when another erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I started to get up out of bed and that is what made the erection start to soften and after I walked around for a while,I went back to bed and to sleep.Though I did escape this episode,I did give into a later temptation at two separate intervals of the day when I gave in to manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind.The first was when I was still in bed trying to get up when the alarm went off and the other time was when I had finally gotten up and the images of men started to cloud my mind again.It seems that these negative sexual images of men are starting to really try to overtake and envelope me in a lot of ways.I asked my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for sinning against him by giving into these temptations.I did feel better after that as I truly believed that I was truly forgiven and that my sins were forgotten by God and his son Jesus Christ.I tried throughout the day to keep my mind focused on other positive things to try and get anything having to do with sex off of my mind,though admittedly,it isn't an easy thing to do.I went out to do a little shopping and also,I worked around the house to clean up here and there.I did what I felt that I had to do to try and get sex off of my mind.I also kept up in prayer to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I kept asking him for the strength to fight and resist all of these terrible temptations.Though I have been doing that,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up in prayer for me as I am going through this very difficult emotional time that I am going through.Please keep up in prayer for me as I am going through this very difficult emotional times.I would also appreciate some very encouraging words in the comments section as well.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words to help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle because I really want to heal from this terrible SSA and everything connected with it.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,I have my usual spirituality group and also,an appointment with my caseworker.As for the rest of the day,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I did try to get a few things done.
I first went to a local kitchen for lunch and after having lunch,I dropped off some free newspapers at a few people's places and after that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few important things and after that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that they are there to help me and that is great and also,makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my struggles with SSA,I am going to be very blunt and honest here in regards to this.I again fell early this morning by masturbating to images of men clouding my mind.This was the second consecutive fall that I had this week.I really felt miserable when this happened and really felt terrible afterwards.After getting up and washing my hands,I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for falling and sinning against him.I also begged for God to show me his mercy as I was truly sorry for falling and sinning against him.After the prayer I felt better.I was tempted again throughout the day and I didn't want to fall again.I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ throughout the day to give me the strength to fight and resist all of these temptations.I didn't want to sin again against him.I kept it up and everything.I am also again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue in prayer for me and also,to please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Please don't be shy and say a few encouraging words in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but rarely is a comment of any sorts left.Please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular struggle and make me even more determined to continue in overcoming this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda today.
I first went to a local supermarket to pay my electric bill and after that,I headed over to the local hospital as I had an appointment with therapist today.
The session with my therapist went well and after that was over,I headed for home
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation really early this morning when I masturbated an erection away.I really felt miserable and after washing my hands,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for weakening and falling into sin.I did feel better as I truly believed that I was forgiven and that my sins are forgotten by God and Christ once forgiven.Throughout the rest of the day,I was being tempted to act out on these unnatural sexual desires that I have and at times,the temptations can get very overwhelming.I didn't want to fall again,so I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I kept asking God to give me the strength to fight and resist every temptation that came at me from all sides.It is a difficult life that we who struggle with SSA live and at times,the struggle can get pretty intense.Lately,it has been getting very intense with me as these terrible temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have have really been coming at me.I am really having a difficult time and it isn't pretty.I am really in desperate need for prayers.To those of you who repeatedly visit my blog and read my posts,please keep up in prayer for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rare.Please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I would really appreciate that.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and struggle.They also make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA that I struggle with and also,motivate me to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ