Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I didn't have too much to do today.Before leaving the house,I registered some dollar bills at the Where's George site and after that,I finally got around to folding all of my laundry and filled the bag with dirty laundry to drop off at my niece's house.After all of that was done,I headed out to do what I had to do.
I first went to a local supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After that,I headed out to the drug store to pick up my prescription that I had filled today.After that,I went to visit with a friend to see how he was doing.After a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my clothes and into my home suit.I also popped a DVD in the DVD player and I watched it while relaxing.Before doing that,I put a couple more applications for work online.
After eating,I popped another DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that is part of the territory of having BPD.My moods and/or emotions fluctuate by the day,or at other times,from the minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult to handle.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I throw this struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him for strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.I ask him for this strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me much calmer and more at ease.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.This time,it was a throbbing one and I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this urge.I was also fighting sexual images of men clouding my mind at the same time.I immediately got out of bed and I headed for the bathroom and I hurried to get there.While I was on my way there,though it was slow going this time,my genitals were starting to soften.I did have to use the bathroom badly this time also and my genitals were fully soft after I was finished.I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.I am learning day after day that we men who struggle with SSA lead a very complicated and very difficult life.It is really difficult fighting the urges to masturbate to sexual images of men and also,to fight the urge of going out and seeking out men to act out sexually with,which is my main problem urge.I face these urges day in and day out.It is very difficult to fight and resist them.It is a lot easier to give into these temptations than it is to fight and resist them.Even when you give these urges over to the sovereign Lord and creator of all,our Heavenly Father,and to his son Jesus Christ,it is still difficult to fight and resist these urges.I am always at war with these urges to give into sexual sin.I am glad that my Heavenly Father is there to help me when I need him.I am also glad that his only begotten son Jesus Christ is also there to help him alongside.Why?Because at John 14:6 Jesus Christ explains that we can only to his father through him now and there is no other mediator between his father and we humans here on Earth.It is great that we SSA men who worship the Father through his son Jesus Christ don't have to struggle alone against this terrible monster known as SSA.SSA does nothing to enhance the lives of those,in particular men since I am a man,who struggle with it.The only thing that it does is lead men to live very destructive sexual lives by indulging in the terrible sexual sins that it tempts men to commit,which is the sexual activity between two members of the same gender,which is forbidden by our Heavenly Father through his sacred word,the Holy Bible.It is tough to fight and resist these terrible urges and without the help of our Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,fighting and resisting these terrible urges is impossible.Fellow blog followers and visitors,I ask that y'all please continue to pray for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me some positive words of encouragement.I get a lot of visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments of any kind.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support.The power of prayer and positive verbal encouragement does help in more ways than one and the positive power and energy that they produce is immeasurable,which is why I keep asking for them.Prayers and positive verbal support both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also help strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have(note that I still continue to say "these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have" as I willfully and seriously refuse to let these particular desires define who I am and how I will act or be)that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and proceeded to head over to a local kitchen in my hometown for free food day.When I arrived there,I was given a number and waited for a while to sign in.After signing in,I headed out to get my free food.I also got a bag lunch as a bonus.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up another gallon of milk.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the food away and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed out to do some more running and after I was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.While doing that,I prepared my evening meal and while and after eating,I popped a movie into the DVD player and watched it.I also watched another one after that.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be.They are always on an up and down scale.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,my struggle is even more tougher as a result of the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside the BPD.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both help in sustaining me and also keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for all that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last long.I sat up and I headed for the bathroom and that made the erection soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted,though minimally,throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.Today,it wasn't too big a deal.I stayed out in the community and kept busy just doing what I was doing and that took my mind off of anything sexual with other men.I stayed out and about and that took my mind off of the sexual stuff.It was great not to have a problem by simply staying out and staying busy.While I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you please ease continue praying for me.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and I really need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also need some positive verbal encouragement as well in the comments section.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also strengthen both my determination and motivation in this particular struggle.It is just that my blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.Please pray for me and also,don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit real quickly and I headed for the church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.I also did another reading from the Holy Bible in front of the congregation this morning.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my home suit.I did my personal PC work and when that was done,I got dressed and went out to run some errands that I had to run.After they were done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I popped another DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I also relaxed the rest of the evening.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church on Sunday always the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him for strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both help in keeping me sustained,but also on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom,so I got up out of bed and headed for there.As I did,my genitals started to soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully softened and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men,but I stayed out for a while.I ran my errands and that took my mind off of anything sexual with men.I simply stayed busy and I didn't stop doing what I was doing.Though I escaped unscathed today,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.They both help keep me going and also,they help keep my determination and motivation strong.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,as a change of pace,I am reflecting on the loss of a friend and fellow graduating classmate who died a few days ago.His funeral was today and I want to reflect today on the loss.
I have known this person from elementary school on up.We met at an elementary school that I transferred to and that was close to home years ago.We met and became friends that instant.
We went through all the way to high school and we both graduated together in the very same class.Him and I used to run into each other out in the community and when we did,we talked about a lot of things.We would talk and usually lose track of time and we would part ways and hope to run into each other again.
Today,I decided to visit at the funeral home and pay my respects and say my last goodbye to him.I talked with a few of his relatives and other people that I didn't know before until now.I talked with them for a little over half an hour and after leaving,I made a couple of stops before heading straight home.
When I got home,I changed out of my dress clothes and into my home suit.I then decided to pop a DVD in the DVD player and watch it while relaxing.
I am still feeling the sadness of the loss and I know that forever,I will always be feeling his absence.It is sad that I will no longer run into him out in the community ever again.I am going to miss those long talks that we had where we lost track of time and had to prat when we realized how late it was.Those times were fun.I am going to miss all of these things and I will always be wishing that he was still with us day after day,month after month and year after year.I will never hear his voice again and I will never see him again.I bid him a very fond and memorable farewell.Rest in peace my dear friend and fellow graduating classmate.You will always be sadly missed each and every day.
Tomorrow,I have church as usual.I am going to be doing another reading from the Holy Bible in front of the congregation tomorrow morning.I am hoping that my reading will go good and everybody in the congregation benefits from it.
As a result of the passing of one of my dear friends and graduating classmates,I am not going to discuss my BPD/Schizophrenia or my SSA struggles today.I will start over again in regards to those things tomorrow.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I really didn't have too much to do today.I simply ran a few errands that I needed to run.I was out of the house for much of the day.The most important thing that I got done today was that I had my car inspected and with the exception of replacing a bulb where my license plate area was,my car passed with flying colors.After that was done,I did the aforementioned errands before heading straight home.
When I got home,I put some stuff that I bought away and I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and relax.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky raod to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden and I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to help me endure through the negative effects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in not only sustaining me,but also keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am going to be very blunt and open here.I again gave into temptation by masturbating.Yes,there was lusting and fantasizing of other men involved with this fall as well.After this,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me and I also begged for his mercy.I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ for these things.I did feel better and I moved on with the rest of the day.Fellow SSA strugglers who continually follow my blog and read my posts,I am again asking for prayerful and positive verbal support.I need both very desperately.I am sick of falling so much and I really want to heal from this terrible SSA.Please continue praying for me and please leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.I really felt miserable after this current fall.Please pray for me and please leave me some positive words of encouragement.They both help keep me going.I need them to also keep my determination and motivation strong.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave some encouraging words in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty so-so day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
Today,I received some shocking news.A friend of mine who graduated with me died suddenly yesterday.He was still a young man and his death came as a surprise to me.It did affect my day somewhat.I still went on with what I had planned for the day.
I first stopped at a local supermarket to pay a bill.After that,I headed for my usual Thursday morning spirituality group.
The group meeting was wonderful.After that,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I decided to take part in a Holy Bible study that was at somebody else's place of residence,which was also wonderful.After that,I headed straight home to get ready to retire for the evening.Overall,a pretty so-so day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing with the symptoms of BPD and the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside the BPD.Today,the difficulty of dealing with this psychiatric double whammy got even more complicated with the death of my friend and fellow graduating classmate.My head and brain were really reeling.This coming Saturday is the funeral and I am thinking of going to it to pay my last respects to him.I am going to need some prayers to help get me through this.I just went through the one year anniversary of my mother's passing and now this happens.This death was a huge shock to me and I am hoping to get over the shock soon.I will still miss him and I will always feel and sense his absence.It will be a very difficult road ahead,but I know that I will get adjusted to the loss of a friend.Fellow blog followers,please pray for me and leave some encouraging words.I would really appreciate both of these things.Thanks very much in advance to all of you for all of your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I actually gave into temptation late last night by masturbating.Yes,I did.There was also some lusting and fantasizing involved with this fall.Not only that,the effects of being alone living by myself also played a role in this current fall.Right after the fall,I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning.I asked for this in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I really felt terrible after this sin and I prayed hard and even asked for mercy because I really felt miserable for falling into sin by giving into this temptation.Fellow blog followers,please pray for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.Please pray for me and also,please leave me a few encouraging words in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and your positive verbal support as well very desperately.The support that you give,both prayerful and positive verbal,helps keep me going in this fight and struggle and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.They also motivate me to continues in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have really nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast.I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed quickly after that to proceed with the rest of the day.
Today,I had an appointment with my therapist and I was looking forward to that.I headed over there and I was on time.
The session with my therapist went well.After that was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I dropped off some stuff that I had to drop off and I headed back out as I had a few errands to run.
I first started to collect more cans and bottles and was hoping to get a few more in a few other places,but when I saw the sky,it looked like it might storm with a huge rainy downpour any minute.I reversed course and headed for a local supermarket to buy a couple of things that I needed.After that,I stopped at a nearby Dollar Tree store to pick up a few more things.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and relaxed while watching it.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on My Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me get through all the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me much calmer and level.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again temped to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up in bed and proceeded to get out to stretch my legs and within a few minutes,my genitals were fully soft.I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep after that.Though I escaped this episode,I did give into a later temptation to "near masturbate",and there were sexual images of men clouding my mind while doing that,but I managed to stop myself and ask my Heavenly Father to forgive my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.The SSA struggle is a very difficult one and I am learning that each and every day as the days pass by.The struggle gets even more difficult the more I keep resisting to act out in various ways,other than going out to seek another man for the purpose of acting out with him.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time right now and this struggle really intensifies when this is apparent.I am appealing to all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am going through this very difficult emotional time.I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rare.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also help strengthen both my determination to overcome SSA and my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,I have my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and tomorrow evening,I am hoping to attend another Holy Bible study at somebody else's house.I have nothing else planned in between.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I didn't have too much planned for today.I simply decided to turn in a whole bunch of bottles and cans that I put into garbage bags at a local supermarket.After that was done,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart across the street to buy something that I needed.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I decided to a little bit more personal PC work and I simply relaxed for the rest of the evening.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.If having the ups and downs of BPD weren't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I throw this struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I ask for strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed and that made the erection start to soften.I didn't lay back down until my genitals were fully soft.When they were,I laid back down and dozed off within a few seconds.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.I stayed busy by being out in the community and that helped.By staying out and staying busy,it wasn't that bad today.It kept my mind off of anything sexual with men and that was great.While I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking for prayers from all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts.I still need prayers from all of you.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also strengthen both my determination and my motivation to continue in overcoming and healing from this terrible SSA.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I had only a few small errands to run.I first stopped at the local Salvation Army thrift store and bought a few things.After that,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up some personal hygiene products for myself.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart and picked up a gallon of milk.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the milk away in the fridge and put all my new personal hygiene products away.After that,I spent some time cleaning out my car of all the empty bottles and cans that accumulated in the back seat of my car.It took me a little over an hour,but I got it done.After that,I headed back in the house to wash my hands of all the work that I had done in cleaning up the back seat of my car and started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the player and I watched it.After that,I did some more personal PC work and laid down to read for a while.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult to handle.I throw this struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me strength to help me through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that that do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I had to get up and use the bathroom,so I got out of bed and I headed for the bathroom,which made the erection soften.When I was finished,my genitals were back to full softness and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men as sexual images of men clouded my mind.But today,since I again kept busy,it wasn't that bad.I stayed busy by being out in the community and simply doing what I had to do.I just stayed out in the community and simply did the necessary things that needed to get done.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog to please continue in prayer for me as I still going through a very difficult emotional time.I am also asking that y'all leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of turning in all of the bottles and cans at a local supermarket,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After the service was over,we had a special potluck lunch in the church's fellowship hall.The food and the fellowship were wonderful.After helping out with the clean-up,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.
After eating,I watched another DVD and I did a little bit more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day,as for me,going to church on Sunday morning makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ for strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in keeping me sustained and much calmer.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed.I headed out to the bathroom as I had to use it.This made the erection start to soften,though it was a little slow in doing so.My genitals were fully soft after I was finished in the bathroom.I went back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted,though minimally,to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.Today,it wasn't too big of a problem.After the wonderful day in church,my mind wasn't clouded too much by urges to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.I simply kept my mind on other things.Though I did escape today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me.I need your prayers every day as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that y'all please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need prayers and positive verbal encouragement.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.I need both your prayers and your words of positive verbal encouragement.They both help keep me going.They also strengthen both my determination to overcome SSA and my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I didn't have too much to do today.I simply went out and ran a few errands that needed to be run.I spent out much of the day trying to get everything that needed to get done accomplished.After I was finished with the errands,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched a little TV and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle as a burden.I ask my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular struggle with this psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both help in sustaining me and also help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when another erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I tossed and I turned,but that only made the erection throb.I proceeded to get out of bed and walk for a bit,which made the erection start to soften.After about a few minutes,my genitals returned to full softness and I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in sinful lusting and fantasizing of other men.Yes,I was tempted.Since I was out for much of the day,I stayed busy.It kept my mind off of sexual thoughts of men and also,kept my hands busy,so I wouldn't touch myself inappropriately.It kept my mind on positive things and kept me focused on things that I was doing and I didn't think too much about anything sexual with men.Though I did escape today unscathed,I am still asking for prayers by all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts.Please continue praying for me.I also ask that all of you please leave me an encouraging word of two for me in the comments section.I desperately need both prayers and positive verbal encouragement.They both help keep me going.They also help keep me strong for my determination to overcome SSA and my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have really nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
The first thing that I had planned was a meeting with a priest to hook up with the group Courage International.The priest and I had a wonderful conversation that lasted for an hour and a half.After it was over,I headed back home.
On the way home,I made a few stops.I first stopped at a McDonald's to have a couple of sandwiches to tie me over until I got home for dinner.After that,I stopped at a Salvation Army thrift store and bought a few things.After that,I decided to make some more stops and collect some more bottles and cans.After that was done,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to do a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to do a little bit more personal PC work and after that,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.Overall,a very good and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult to handle.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle onto my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through all the negative effects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me calmer and more level.It also shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I headed for the bathroom and that made my genitals start to soften.When I was finished,I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted,but this time,I managed to escape.The talk that I had with the priest took my mind off of anything sexual with men.I didn't think of anything sexual with men at all today.The talk with the priest really helped me focus on other things.It was great that I talked to him and hopefully,I will be able to hook up with a group real soon.Though I did escape today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog regularly to please keep on praying for me.I need prayers every day.I am also asking you that none of you be shy and leave me an encouraging word of two in the comments section.I need both your encouraging words and your prayers.They both help keep me going.They also show me that there are people out there who care.They both strengthen both my determination and my motivation to carry on this journey and to overcome this terrible SSA.It is just that my blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rare.I need some words of positive encouragement day in and day out.I also need prayers.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual on Sunday,I have really nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work quickly and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a couple of things planned.
I first went to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and that group was awesome.After it was over,I had lunch at a local kitchen and after I was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into dress clothes and I headed back out to turn in another written application.After that was done,I headed back home to change into casual clothes and I ran an errand that I needed to run.After doing that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into a pair of lounge pants and did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player.I also relaxed the rest of the day.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father and I throw it on him as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me calm and level.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I headed for the bathroom as I had to use it and that made the erection start to soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted,though minimally,to indulge in sinful lusting and fantasizing with other men.But today,I stayed busy throughout the day as I ran errands and that took my mind off of anything sexual.I simply stayed busy and no sexual thoughts nor urges came at me.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog to please keep up praying for me.I still need your prayers each and every day.I am also in need of some positive verbal encouragement as well.Please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need some positive verbal encouragement alongside your prayers.Your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They help keep my determination and motivation strong.It is just that my blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.Please don't be shy and leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.I need some positive verbal encouragement alongside your prayers.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of me meeting up with a priest to see if I can get into a SSA support group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work.I was getting ready for the job fair that was in my hometown at one of the local hotels on the area.When the time came for me to go,I got dressed up in dress clothes and headed for there.
The minute that I arrived there,I immediately went right to work seeking out possible job leads.I managed to fill out three applications and after they were done,I turned them in and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my casual clothes and I headed out to run some errands that I needed to run.After they were done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.I was supposed to meet with a priest today,but due to the job fair,I changed it to Friday.
After eating,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.Overall,a very good and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help me stay on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom,so I got out of bed and I headed for the bathroom,which made the erection start to soften.My genitals were fully soft when I was finished using the bathroom,I went back to bed and back to sleep.Throughout the day,I stayed busy by going to the job fair and running the errands that I needed to run.I stayed busy and that kept my mind off of anything sexual.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please keep praying for me.I also ask that you leave me a positive word or two of encouragement.Both your prayers and your continuous positive words of encouragement both help keep me going.They make me more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.They also motivate me to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benfits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Today,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I really didn't have too much to do today.I simply ran a few errands,which included paying my electric bill.I also went to get my hair cut at a local hair place.I also managed to buy a new card for my cell phone to add minutes to it.After all of that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed and I headed for the bathroom.After I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.I stayed outside and out and about in the community and that took my mid off of everything sexual.I simply stayed busy and I escaped.I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I am again asking that all of you please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive words of encouragement.They both help keep me going.They also help keep my determination and motivation strong.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I will be going to a job fair and also,I will be meeting with a priest to discuss coming to a group where men who struggle with SSA support each other.Aside from these,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I didn't have too much to do as a result of winds and rain.I did however manage to get a couple of things done.I first went to the bank to withdraw some much needed money and after that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something I needed.After paying for this,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in keeping me sustained and also,much calmer and level.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I again fell.I masturbated again.Yes,there was lusting and fantasizing involved.This really made me feel miserable.I gave into it Saturday and after yesterday,I gave into it again early this morning.I don't know whether I am coming or going when I fall short.I really want to overcome this terrible SSA,but currently,I am going it alone as I have no local support network at the moment.I have my online friends,but I also need face to face support from my fellow man.When I did sin,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning.I asked him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I did feel better because I knew that I was forgiven.The thing is that I don't want to keep falling every time that I turn around.I have been falling quite a bit lately and each time that I fall,I feel miserable and depressed as I feel that I failed my Heavenly Father.I don't want to keep falling.I am again appealing to all of you fellow blog followers and also,fellow men who also struggle with SSA.Please pray for me.I am going through a very difficult time and I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also need words of positive encouragement.I am appealing to all of you.Please continue praying for me.Please don't be shy and leave me some positive encouraging words as well.I need them both desperately.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.I need them both desperately.They help keep me going.They also strengthen both my determination to overcome this this terrible SSA.They also strengthen my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.They both do help in a lot of ways.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I wok up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up quickly and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby 7-Eleven to buy a sandwich.After that,I went to a local supermarket to buy a can of soup.After that,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple more things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a pair of lounge pants.I put the stuff away and I had my lunch.After lunch,I did my personal PC work.I also had a headache and after I was finished,I took something for it and I laid down for an hour and a half and I felt better upon getting out of bed.I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD in the DVD player and watched it.I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church on Sunday morning always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.It is very difficult dealing with this type of thing daily and I never know how my emotions will pan out.I throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to help me endure through all the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another erection,though it didn't last long.I got up out of bed and I headed for the bathroom and while heading for there,the erection started to soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men,but this time,I threw it all on my Heavenly Father and asked him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to help give me strength to fight and resist the temptations as they kept coming at me.I prayed real hard and after I was finished,I felt better and much stronger.I went through the day praying whenever the temptations kept coming at me.Though I have done this today,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I need both your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Please pray for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks to all of you in advance for your prayers and your continues emotional encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I didn't have too much to do today since it was raining.I only went out once and that was going to the nearby Salvation Army thrift store to buy a new lamp as the one that I have in my living room quit working on me.After paying for that lamp,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I plugged the lamp in and it is great to have a working lamp again.After that,I just relaxed and took it easy for the rest of the day as it was raining today and there really isn't much to do when it rains.I also watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I did a little bit more personal PC work and I also watched a little TV.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to help me endure through the negatives of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.It is never easy having to struggle with this psychiatric double whammy that I have,but my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ fully understand and are always there to help.They both help in sustaining me and also keep me much calmer and level.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted throughout the day to act out on these unnatural sexual desires that I have.I actually gave into temptation by "near masturbation" and yes,there was lusting and fantasizing of other men involved with this occurrence.I really felt miserable when this happened.I really felt terrible as I feel that I am failing miserably in my quest to overcome this terrible SSA.I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning.I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for sinning against him and for falling short of his law in regards to sexuality.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out,I bared all verbally and left nothing out as I prayed.I did feel better after I was finished praying and I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.I still need help from my fellow strugglers who continually read my blog.Please pray for me.I need prayers.I also need positive words of encouragement desperately.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and I really need all the prayers and positive verbal encouragement that I can get.Please continue praying for me.Please don't be shy and leave me positive words of encouragement in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words do help keep me going.They both strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
Today,since it was raining,I was hoping to get around to doing some much needed house cleaning,but my niece called and asked me to babysit for her kids while she went to work and until her live in boyfriend came home.I went over there and everything there went well.After her live in boyfriend came home,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend was doing and after a few minutes,I headed over to the drug store to pick up a prescription.After paying the co-pay on it,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to fix my evening meal and after that,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one minute to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply take this struggle to my Heavenly Father and throw it on him as a burden.I ask him for strength to help me endure through the negative affects in the name of his son Jesus Christ.They both help in keeping me sustained and also,on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation early this morning by masturbating.Yes,I did.It was to sexual images of men clouding my mind.I really felt miserable after this and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and left nothing out.I confessed everything to him.After that,I felt better and I truly believed and knew that I was truly forgiven and that my Heavenly Father wiped the slate clean.I have been falling pretty much over the last several days.I really don't know why.Fellow blog followers,I would really appreciate some prayers right now.I desperately need them.I also desperately need some words of encouragement at this moment.I need them both.I am still going through a very difficult emotional period and these latest falls that I have been experiencing are terrible.I don't want to keep falling and falling every time that I turn around.Please continue praying for me.Please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.They both do help out in a lot of ways.Yes,they do.You never know how powerful prayers and words of encouragement can be.Please pray for me and don't be afraid to leave me some words of encouragement.They can be in the form of being upbuilded by scripture or just something that I know can help from the heart.Thanks to all of you in advance for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work quickly and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,which was a wonderful meeting.We all shared insight from what we were learning from the Holy Bible and it was a very lively discussion.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen for lunch and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I dropped off some things and after that,I headed out again to turn in a whole bunch of cans and bottles that had accumulated in my car and after that was done,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to do some grocery shopping and after that was done,I did some more grocery shopping at other stores and when I was finally finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I had a light evening meal of a bowl of soup and a sandwich as I got home very late in the day as I was out doing all of that grocery shopping.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negatives of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with on a daily basis.They both help in not only sustaining me,but also help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when another erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom and I headed for there.The erection started to soften as I headed for there and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted,though minimally,throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies with other men.I stayed out much of the day and that took my mind off of anything sexual.I simply kept myself busy with my spirituality group,turning in all the bottles and cans that I had and doing the grocery shopping.I stayed busy and nothing sexual entered my mind while doing so.Though I escaped unscathed today,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that all of you please leave me an encouraging word or two.I need both prayers and words of encouragement.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also strengthen both my determination to overcome SSA and my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have really nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I didn't have too much to do today.I simply ran an errand that needed to be run.I went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things that I needed.After that,I picked up several more bottles and cans all over the place and I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.I simply decided to get ready to turn in for the evening.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me calmer and much more level.It shows that I am never alone in this particular fight and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I started to sit up in bed and proceeded to get out of bed,which made the erection soften.I walked for a bit and my genitals softened within a few minutes.I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep after that.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men,but staying out in the community kept my mind off of these things.I stayed out for a while and I kept my mind at what I was doing.This took my mind off of anything sexual with men and I managed to squeeze by without any problems.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking that all of my fellow blog followers who regularly read my posts here to please continue praying for me.I also ask that when you visit,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both help keep me going.They also strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.I need both prayers and positive verbal encouragement as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time at the moment.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I didn't have too much planned for today.I am still fighting cold symptoms,though they're not as bad as they were when my cold first started almost two weeks ago.I am still taking Echinacea teas and taking Echinacea and Golden Seal capsules.I am hopping that by the end of the week,my cold will be completely knocked out.
I still kept busy with life despite the cold.I had to run errands for myself.I had to buy some things that I needed really desperately.I went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up these things and after paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I spent the whole afternoon putting empty cans and bottles from the back seat of my car into black garbage bags after putting the stuff that I bought away.After that was done,I did some more personal PC work while preparing my evening meal.
After eating my evening meal,I went out to run a few more errands again.I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of other things.After that,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the evening as I had to get ready for bed and get up tomorrow morning.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.As I have said before and I will say again,I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with on a daily basis.They both help in keeping me sustained and also keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I turned the opposite way of the bed,but that only made the erection throb.I proceeded to get out of bed to walk a little and when I started doing that,the erection started to soften.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.But today,since I was out in the community,I really didn't have much to worry about.I simply went through the day without the thoughts and I made it through.Though I did escape today,I am asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep on praying for me as I am going through a very difficult emotional time.I need your prayers really desperately.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.They both help in a lot of ways.They help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I didn't have too much to do today.I simply cleaned up around the house and relaxed for a bit.The only real thing that I did was that I had to babysit for my niece's kids.After a few hours with them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did some more personal PC work and also relaxed.
After eating,I watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player and did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help me in keeping me sustained and also,much calmer and level.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was awakened by another erection and I was tempted to grab it and masturbate it away.I sat up in bed and I headed for the bathroom as I had to use it.As I was on my way there,the erection started to soften.My genitals were fully soft when I was finished and I went right back to bed and to sleep when finished.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in sinful lusting and fantasies of other men.Throughout the day,sexual images of men clouded my mind and I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist these overwhelming urges.I asked my Heavenly Father to give me the strength to fight and resist these overwhelming urges.I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me fight and resist these urges.I did feel better and much stronger after I was finished praying.Though I did this throughout the day,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that all of you please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words very desperately.They both help keep me going.They also strengthen both my determination to overcome SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up real quickly and I headed over to the church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.I even had the opportunity to do another reading from the Holy Bible in front of the congregation today.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my home suit.I did my personal PC work and I relaxed for the rest of the afternoon.
After eating,I watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player and I relaxed while watching it.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that does make my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative effects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and keeping me much calmer.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I again gave into temptation yet again by masturbation.Yes,there was lusting and fantasizing with other men involved in this latest fall as it was yesterday.I really felt terrible when this happened as I felt that I really seriously sinned against my Heavenly Father as a result of this latest fall.I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me and I begged for his mercy in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I left nothing out as I prayed to him and I really poured myself out to him.After praying,I felt much better and I knew and truly believed that my Heavenly Father forgave me for my sins and washed the slate clean after doing so.I simply moved on with the rest of the day as it went along.I was home the rest of the day after coming home as I really didn't have much to do.I simply stayed home and took it easy and just watched a movie.Because of my latest fall,I need to keep my mind focused on positive,healthy and holy thoughts.I need to get my mind off of anything sexual pertaining to men and focus on positive and holy thoughts about men.I need to keep in mind that men were made simply to be friends with each other in the forms of friendship,bonding and healthy authentic connections,and not for selfish purposes,such as all forms of sexual activity associated with the so called "Homosexual/Gay" culture and lifestyle.I have to keep saying to myself that I am a man and a male and that male is both my gender identity and my sexual identity.The thing with "Homosexual/Gay" is that it is a simply a label and at the same time,a false identity.Why is this particular identity false?It is because our Heavenly Father at the beginning of things created man and later created woman as a companion and compliment to him.Our Heavenly Father approves only of happy and healthy Heterosexuality as he created man and woman for that reason.Heterosexuality is the true human sexual identity and not Homosexuality,which also includes Bisexuality,which like "Homosexuality/Gay" is as much a false identity as "Homosexual/Gay" is.I have to continually keep in mind that our creator,who is our Heavenly Father and sovereign Lord,only approves of man and woman having sexual activity and relations with each other in the bonds of holy marriage,which is a very sacred thing to our Heavenly Father as he only approves of men and woman marrying each other and having relations with only each other.Our Heavenly Father never intended sexuality to be used and abused in the way that the rest of the world is using and abusing sexuality at this particular moment.To my fellow blog followers,I really need prayers real bad.Please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also desperately need some positive words of encouragement from all of you.I need both prayers and positive verbal encouragement from all of you.I am in desperate need of both of these things.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They both help strengthen my determination to keep going in this struggle and to continue in overcoming it and my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Please fellow followers,I desperately need both your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks to advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ