Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after having a light lunch,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I only did a few things today.I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy a couple of things for dinner and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.
After having a light dinner,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and watched it.I also did a little bit more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,after several days of not having any problems with temptations,I gave into temptation early this morning upon getting out of bed.I manipulated my genitals to sexual images of men that clouded my mind,causing me to fantasize and lust after them and I wound up ejaculating.After washing my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I asked for forgiveness and I also begged him to be merciful to me as I was sorry for sinning against him.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall into sin and I prayed for forgiveness.When I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the day feeling a little bit better,but I still need to work on getting tough with myself.I can't let these terrible and unnatural sexual desires that I have own me.I have to show them that I own them and not the other way around.SSA can really wear anyone who struggles with it down.I need to stay focused on what is right and ignore what is wrong.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,I would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need all the prayerful and positive verbal support that I can get.It is just that when people visit and leave nothing in the comments section,I feel alone in my struggles as far as being on Earth goes.I know that my Heavenly Father is there and he does listen and helps me,but I also still need support from my fellow man as well.This is why I keep asking that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.It really makes my day when I read that someone among my fellow man is there for me and still supports me.Please continue praying for me.Please also leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee.I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Big Lots to buy a small thing and after that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy a few more things and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and had a light lunch.After that,I did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.When that was over,I did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched another DVD that I popped into the DVD player.I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted in any way,shape or form.I wasn't tempted fantasize nor lust after other men and I wasn't tempted to manipulate my genitals nor watch and look at porn.I guess that staying busy by going to church and doing a little bit of shopping kept my mind occupied by keeping my mind off of the negative sexual stuff connected with SSA.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.They will try to tempt me to sin and I have to show them that I am strong in my weakness and that I own my desires and not the other way around.Please continue praying for me.I would really appreciate that.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both types of support,prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.I really want to heal and overcome this terrible SSA and I need all the support that I can get.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good and busy day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed in work clothes and headed for work.
The work day went well.I got a lot done today and when I was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bot and enjoyed a cold drink while listening to a little bit of music.After that,I showered to clean up and after that,I registered some bills at the Where's George site and after that was done,I headed out to run some errands.
I first stopped at the church to donate some money to the current church charity for children in India where we are raising money so they can get clean water in the fall.After doing that,I stopped at the local Salvation Army thrift store and bought a few CD's.After that,I went to a local Subway for another sandwich.After paying for it,I headed straight home to eat it.
When I got home,I ate my sandwich and I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.After that,I did my personal PC work and later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good and busy day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,in regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I will share again tomorrow as I am feeling tired.I know that I promised the same thing yesterday,but the long day that I had has tired me out and I can barely type.The only things that I ask is that you continue praying for me and also,please do leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both of these types of support from all of you daily and often.Thanks for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good and busy day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly got dressed in work clothes and headed for work.
The work day went well,though I did slip and fall on the floor,but fortunately,didn't hurt myself physically.I was advised to go and get a pair of slip proof shoes so I could walk in the kitchen without slipping.After work was over,I headed straight home first.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while as I was tired and in some pain.After the relaxation,I showered again to clean up and when I was finished,I got dressed and headed out to a local Payless to buy the shoes and after paying for them,I headed for home.
On the way home,I cashed my paycheck and after that,got myself a fresh Subway sandwich and after that,I got some gas.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate the sandwich and watched a DVD afterwards.I them quickly did my personal PC work and when that was finished,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good and busy day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles,I will again share about them tomorrow as I am tired and can barely write.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks very much and Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow,I will be working and after that,I really don't know what I will do.But as usual,I hope that what I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed as I had a few things to do today.
I went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things for dinner.After that,I dropped off a few free newspapers at a few people's houses that I knew.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did some more personal PC work and when that was done,I prepared my evening meal as I was eating light tonight.
After eating,I headed over to my usual Thursday evening study group and that went as wonderful as expected.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did a little bit more personal PC work and I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't faced with any temptations of any sort.Though I wasn't too busy today,I still wasn't tempted and that was good.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time and tempt me to do anything that goes against my Heavenly Father's perfect law,especially in regards to sexuality.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am still in need of both prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I need it as bad as ever.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and I need both types of support.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to work,I haven't got anything planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I decided to reduce the amount of e-mails that I had this morning and after that was done,I showered quickly and when I was done showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to see how a friend was doing and after that,I did a little bit of shopping at a local supermarket and after that,I bought a few things at the local Salvation Army thrift store.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did some more personal PC work.After that was done,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I popped a DVD in the DVD player and I watched it.When that was over,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I can report that I wasn't tempted to act out in any way,shape of form.I went through the day and managed to stay busy and no problems with temptations today.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your positive verbal and prayerful support daily and often.It is just that when nobody comments in the comments section,I feel alone and I do need all the support,both prayerful and positive verbal,that I can get.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday evening study group,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did some checking up on my e-mail and reduced some of it.After that,I dropped my laundry off at my niece's house and after coming home from that,I showered and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had a few things on my agenda for today.I had to do some much needed grocery shopping and I did it because there was a severe thunderstorm warning and I wanted to get everything done before the storm.I went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things that I needed and after that,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after that,I went to a local convenience store to buy something for lunch and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I ate my lunch.I even enjoyed a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work and later on,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I relaxed and I listened to some music.As a result of the thunderstorm,I kept my TV off for the rest of the day and just kept the music going on my stereo system.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted in any way,shape or form.I went through the day without any temptations.Though I escaped today unscathed,I still have to stay on guard and be watchful.Satan and his minions can strike at any time.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both these types of support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I had my breakfast first and a 1/2 hour later,I showered and when I was finished showering,I did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I got dressed and I headed out to pay a couple of friends a visit.
The visits were good.After a few minutes with each of them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I heated up some leftovers and at them for dinner.After that,I watched a couple of classic TV episodes on DVD sets that I have.I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Regarding my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I will share and talk about these when I am able.I am feeling tired tonight and can barely type.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.Thanks in advance and Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do give me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit real quickly and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Big Lots to pick up a few things.After that,I headed to a nearby Dollar Tree to pick up a couple more things.After that,I headed toward to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few other important things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I got out of my suit and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I left the house briefly to mail out a couple of important papers.After that,I got some gas at a local gas station and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare my evening meal and while waiting for it to heat up,I did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I also did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I had no problems with temptations of any kind.I went through the day with no problems.I guess that being out and about in the community helped me out a lot.I simply stayed busy and that kept my mind off of the unwholesome sexual stuff connected with SSA.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.It reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in this particular struggle and I need that every day and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good and busy day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and after showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed in work clothes and I headed for work.
The work day was busy,but very productive and very good.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while before jumping in the shower to clean up.After I was done showering,I got dressed in casual clothes and I did a little bit of shopping and I bought a few things at the local Super Wal-Mart and even stopped at a yard sale and bought a few things there.I headed straight home.
When I got home,I took my medication and prepared a light evening meal for myself.I did my personal PC work after eating.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good and busy day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I had no problems with temptations.I wasn't tempted to act out in any way,shape or form.I guess that staying busy with things,such as work and being out and about in the community took my mind off of the unwholesome sexual stuff connected with SSA.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I chooser to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good and busy day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed in work clothes and headed for work.
The work was good.After I was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while before jumping in the shower to clean up and after that,I headed for the bank to cash my paycheck and after that,I headed to the local Super Wal-Mart to purchase some important personal stuff and after that,I stopped at the Subway in the store to order a pizza sub for dinner.After paying for it,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate my sub and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good and busy day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I had no problems with temptations.I stayed busy with work and just doing what I had to do to keep my mind off of the unwholesome sexual stuff.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I am asking that y'all who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue to pray for me.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I never know when the terrible temptations are gonna come at me.Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of work and dropping off some money somewhere,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and when it was finished,I got dressed as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
I first went to my appointment with the nurse practitioner at the local hospital and that session went as well as expected.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few things that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did some more personal PC work.I also prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I headed over to my usual Thursday evening Holy Bible study group,which went as wonderful as expected.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did a little bit more personal PC work and prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I can say that I wasn't troubled by temptations today.It was a relief after yesterday when I was really overwhelmed by numerous forms of temptations.I think that being out and about today took my mind off of the unwholesome sexual stuff.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I am again that y'all who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that y'all leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue praying for me.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have to go to work and after that,cash my paycheck.I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I decided to reduce the amount of e-mail that I had and when that was finished,I showered and after showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed as I had some plans for the day.
I went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things that I needed.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away and I relaxed and watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work and after that,relaxed and enjoyed some music.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,after several days without any temptations,I was overwhelmed by temptations throughout the day.I was tempted to act out by fantasies and lusting and they were intense.I was also tempted to look up online pornography and likewise,it was also an intense temptation.This time,I threw all of these temptations on my Heavenly Father and I asked for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges.They were coming on me real strong.I prayed and prayed real hard.I asked for strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges.I didn't cease praying until the temptations were reduced to nil.When I was finished praying,I felt a huge weight had been lifted off of me.I felt better and stronger.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both these types of support daily and often.Please pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need your support.I need your prayers and your words of encouragement.Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of an appointment with the nurse practitioner and my usual Thursday evening Holy Bible study group,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast and after 1/2 an hour,I showered quickly and when I was done showering,I got dressed and proceeded with the rest of the day.
I first went to my job placement counselor/coach's office to discuss some personal things and after that,I headed for a local kitchen to have lunch and after I was finished eating,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did a little bit more personal PC work before heading out to do some thrift shop hopping and I got some really nice stuff.I went to thrift shops within my county and in the next county and aqain,I bought some nice things.After all of that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket when I got back into town and I bought some food items that I needed for myself.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put some of the stuff away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode that I popped into my DVD player.I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I can report that I wasn't tempted to act out in any way,shape or form.I stayed busy for much of the day being out in the community and stopping at numerous thrift stores.I see that being out in the community took my mind off of the unwholesome sexual stuff connected with SSA.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I am again asking that all of my fellow blog followers and readers to please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both of these types of support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cusp of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and it was a lot.After it was done,I headed for the bank to withdraw some much needed cash and after that,I paid a few bills and when I was finished with that,I did a little bit more shopping.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I had a light evening meal and when I was finished with it,I did some more personal PC work and relaxed for a while before preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I will discuss those tomorrow as I am feeling rather tired and can barely type.All I am asking that you continue to keep me in your prayers and to also please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of meeting with my job placement counselor/coach to discuss something at the agency,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed in a suit real quickly and I headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into casual clothes.I did my personal PC work and later on,I headed out to do some much needed grocery shopping at the local Super Wal-Mart.Before that,I bought some at a local supermarket.I also stopped at a local McDonald's to have a vanilla ice cream cone in between those two trips.After my shopping for the day was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the groceries away and after that,I had a light dinner and I watched s classic TV episode on DVD.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I must report that I wasn't tempted in any way,shape or form.Today was a very clean day.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Fellow blog followers and readers,I ask that you please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both of these types of support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good and very busy day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed in work clothes real quickly and I headed for work.
The work day went great.After the work day is over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed while having some water and I jumped into the shower to clean up.After that,I got dressed and headed downtown to get myself a BBQ chicken dinner as a local ice pavilion was having a BBQ chicken dinner charity sale to help benefit the county junior hockey team.After buying my dinner,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate my BBQ chicken dinner and I watched a classic TV episode while doing so.After I finished eating,I did my personal PC work and I also enjoyed some music while doing so.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good and very busy day today.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted in any way to act out in any way,shape or form.I guess that staying busy at work and going to a charity chicken BBQ help keep my mind off of the unwholesome sexual stuff connected with SSA,which was great.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both of these types of support each and every day and often.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.Please pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need positive verbal support daily and often as much as I need prayerful support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual and the hope of getting some grocery shopping done,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good and busy day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly got dressed in work clothes and headed for work.
The work day was another wonderful one.After I was finished,I checked out and I headed for the bank to cash my first paycheck in over three years and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and after that,I showered quickly to clean up and after I was finished showering,I registered a few of the bills at the Where's George site and headed out.
I first went to get some gas at a local gas station and after that,I headed over to a friends place of business to pick up something that he was holding for me and after buying a few more items,I headed to a local supermarket to pick up a fish dinner and I headed straight home to eat it.
After eating,I did my personal PC work and I relaxed for a while until the time came to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good and very busy day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted to act out in any way,shape or form.No,I wasn't tempted in any way.I guess that staying busy with work and being out and about after work did me a lot of good.It took my mind off of impure and unclean sexual stuff.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.It would show that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance for the prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of working and going to a charity chicken BBQ,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed as I had an appointment with my therapist today at the local hospital and I wanted to make sure that I wasn't late for that.
The meeting with the therapist went well.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the drug store to pick up my prescription refill and a 1/2 gallon of milk.After paying for the milk,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I quickly did some more personal PC work and when I was finished with that,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I was hoping to go to my usual Thursday evening Holy Bible study group,but I got an e-mail that it was cancelled due to a few of the participants feeling under the weather.I simply relaxed ad took it easy for the rest of the evening.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I can report that I had no problems with temptations.I had no temptations to act out by fantasies and lusting after other men and that was good.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Fellow blog followers and readers,please still continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I need to be both reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.My blog does get many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left in the comments section by anyone when they do visit.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,which will be a work day for me and also a day for me to pay a couple of much needed bills,I have really nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and simply stayed home for the day.I simply relaxed while listening to some music and catching up on some much needed work around the house.For much of the day,we had a terrible thunderstorm that lasted for a few hours and I had my television turned off as a result of that and I listened to some of my music.Later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,since the storm was over,I decided to pop a classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have and I relaxed while watching it.I also did some more personal PC work later on and I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,after being bombarded and overwhelmed with numerous temptations yesterday,I had no problems with temptations at all today.It was great to be relieved of temptations and I was glad that there were no problems.I simply stayed busy doing what I had to do and that kept my mind off of the negative sexual stuff.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the day after tomorrow.I am again appealing to all of my fellow blog followers and readers to continue to keep me in your prayers and also,I would appreciate that y'all leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I would appreciate some encouraging words very much in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a meeting with my therapist in the early afternoon,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and for much of the day,I was home,until the late afternoon.
In the late afternoon,I went to a local supermarket to turn in a few bottles and after that,I did a little shopping and bought a couple of small frozen burritos and after paying for them,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy a can of chili and after paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare my evening meal and when I was finished eating it,I watched a couple of classic TV episodes on DVD and when that was finished,I listened to a little music while doing some more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I am being overwhelmed by temptations of all sorts coming at me.It is also becoming very stressful for me as I am dealing with these temptations.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section as well.Again,I am being overwhelmed by temptations right now and I need all the support,both prayerful and positive verbal,that I can get.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support and also,a big Thanks to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I did my personal PC work and since it was raining for much of the day,I stayed home and relaxed.I simply laid down and listened to a sermon on CD that I received as a gift from a ministry that I asked some spiritual questions at one time.After that sermon was over,I decided to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched another classic TV episode on DVD and I did some more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement later on as evening was approaching.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though I am a little scared to share this and feel embarrassed at the some time and also,feel ashamed that I did,I did give in again to temptation and I was really miserable after that.I gave in by genital manipulation to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I wound up ejaculating.After washing my hands,I prayed to my Heavenly Father and I asked that he forgive me and show me his mercy in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall and when I was finished,I felt better and I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I need to really work on myself.I have to stop this constant pattern of falling into sin and asking for forgiveness.I have to really go to my Heavenly Father and ask for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I really need to show my Heavenly Father that I am serious about wanting to heal from and overcome SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both of these types of support daily and often.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and I need all the support that I can get.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans made.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good and busy day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was done showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed in dress clothes and I headed for church for the outdoor service and the brunch afterwards.
Both the service and the brunch were wonderful.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After paying for the item,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did some personal PC work since I had some time before work to kill.When I was finished and I saw that it was time to head for work,I got dressed in my work clothes and headed for work.
The work day was busy,but was glad to do so.After my work time was up,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while as I was tired and after relaxing for a while,I showered quickly and after I was finished,I ate a light dinner and watched a classic TV episode on DVD.I then did some more personal PC work and when I was finished with that,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good and busy day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I am feeling extremely tired tonight,so I will report on my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA tomorrow when I am more awake.
As for tomorrow,since I have the day off,I have nothing planned,but I hope that whatever I do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good and busy day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and headed for work.
The work day was just as busy as it was yesterday.After the day was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I showered quickly to clean up and after that,I had a light dinner and watched a classic TV episode on DVD.I also did my personal PC work and did some visiting online with a few of my online friends.A little later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good and busy day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I didn't have any problems in regards to temptations.I wasn't tempted to fantasize nor lust after other men nor was I tempted to manipulate my genitals to any sexual images.I guess that staying busy and working hard took my mind off of the unwholesome sexual stuff.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Fellow blog followers and readers,I continue to ask that y'all continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't be afraid to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need all of your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,though I haven't had any problems with temptations for the past few days.They both help keep me going and also help reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have church as usual in the morning and I also have to work in the afternoon.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed real quickly and I headed to work for the first day on my new job.
The first day on the job went wonderful.According to my boss and his assistant,I did a terrific job today on the first day.My job placement counselor/coach was also pleased.After the work day was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while as I was tired.After some relaxation and watching a classic TV episode on a DVD set,I showered quickly for a quick clean up as I did sweat today.After my shower,I got dressed and did some personal PC work and when I was finished with that,I headed over to my niece's house for dinner and that was great to be there with her and her children.After some wonderful hang out time with them,I headed out to the local Big Lots to pick up some stuff that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few more things.After paying for that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up one more thing.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched another classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,wonderful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I had no problems with temptations.I wasn't tempted to act out in any way,shape or form.I guess that having a job and working this first day on the job helped.My tasks took my mind off of unwholesome sexual stuff.It was great to work and having that take my mind off of the unwholesome sexual stuff.Though I escaped today,I still have to stay on guard and be watchful.Why?Because Satan and his minions can strike at any time.They will try to tempt me to go against my Heavenly Father and break his perfect law in regards to sexuality.I don't want to do that,but my sinful nature,which Satan and his minions love to play with,wants me to do the opposite.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both of these types of support daily and often.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,it is another work day.I am hoping that it goes as well as today.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and after picking a note up from my niece's house,I headed over to the local social services office to drop off some paperwork and after that,I headed over to a local kitchen for some lunch and after eating lunch and picking up some free food giveaways,I headed over to a local supermarket to turn in some bags of bottles and after doing that and getting the money from them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the money at the Where's George site that I had from the bottle returns and after that,I headed back out to do a little bit of shopping.After doing that,I headed straight home again.
When I got home,I quickly did my personal PC work and I also registered some more bills at the Where's George site from the change that I received.After that,I relaxed and started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I got ready to go to my Thursday evening Holy Bible study group,which went as wonderfully as expected and I got a lot out of it.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to turn in early so I could get up in the morning to head over to my first day at work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I had no problems with temptations.I stayed busy throughout the day and that kept my mind off of the unwholesome stuff.It kept my mind focused and that was good.I had no sexual images of men cloud my mind nor was I tempted to fantasize and lust,which also included manipulating my genitals.Though I escaped today,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both of these types of support daily and often,especially the positive verbal support.It reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both our Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow is a big day for me.I start my new job tomorrow and I am hoping that everything will go well.After that,I will just relax for a while before going over to my niece's house for dinner.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I quickly showered and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and for most of the day,I relaxed and took it easy for much of the day.I also had a talk with my father for a while and when that was finished,I got dressed and headed out to do a few things.Before all of that,my caseworker came over and we talked for a few minutes.
I first went over to my sister's house to pick up something.After that,I dropped my laundry off at my niece's house.When that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a few classic TV episodes on a DVD set that I have.I also did some more personal PC work while preparing my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to go out and get some gas in my tank and I also stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing.After a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched another classic TV show episode that I popped into the DVD player from a set that I own.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I did give into temptation again in the early morning.I manipulated my genitals to sexual images of men,but I managed to stop myself before it went to far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and left nothing out.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall.When I was finished praying,I felt much better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven for my sins.I went through the rest of the day without any problems.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.Your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,is very important to me.I need it to stay afloat and also to help me keep going in this particular struggle,as well as to both reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday evening study group,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and since I had nothing to do today,I decided to relax and take it easy.
I watched a couple of classic TV episodes on a DVD set that I have and I also enjoyed a beer that was in the refrigerator.I am not worried about my meds.By the time that I have to take them,the alcohol from the beer would have worn off as it takes four hours for alcohol to leave the body.I just felt that I should enjoy one as I haven't had a beer in a long time.After that,I laid down in bed and read a chapter in a book that I have been reading and after that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.After that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched another classic TV episode from the DVD set that I have.I also did a little bit more personal PC work.After a while,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I fell into sin by giving into temptation.I gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men when sexual images clouded my mind,which tempted me to manipulate my genitals,and at the moment of orgasm,I masturbated the rest of the way.I really felt miserable and after I washed my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked him to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and left nothing out.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall while asking for the forgiveness.When I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day just catching up on some things that needed to be done.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I really need all the support that I can get as I fell today and need everything that I can get in the way of support,both prayerful and positive verbal.Please leave me something encouraging in the comments section as I need positive verbal support as much as I need prayerful support.I need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a visit with my caseworker to discuss some personal stuff,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair over the sink as I overslept from the time that I actually wanted to get up.After I washed and dried my hair,I neatly brushed it,ate my quick breakfast a little faster than usual and I got dressed up in dress clothes to head for the job placement agency so my job placement counselor/coach and I could fill out some paperwork that I had to turn in to my employer.
After the paperwork was filled out,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and I jumped into the shower to clean up.After I was finished,I waited for the time to come so I could turn my paperwork into my employer and when the time came,I got dressed in dress clothes again and I headed for the hotel whose kitchen I will be working in.I turned in my paperwork in to the employer and he gave me a quick tour of the place.After it was over,he made copies of my driver's license and social security card and when that was done,we shook hands and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I quickly did my personal PC work and when I was finished with it,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode from a DVD set that I own.After that was done,I left the house again to do something that I had to do and when I was finished with that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I popped another classic TV episode from a DVD set that I own.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I must say that I had no problems with temptations of any kind.No,I didn't.I guess that staying busy and doing what I had to do to jump start my employment kept my mind off of the sexual stuff.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.I have to keep in mind that they can try to tempt me into sinning against my Heavenly Father by trying to get me to break his perfect law in regards to sexuality.I can't let them do that.I have to show the unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and that they don't own me.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both of these types of support day in and day out.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.Today,we had a visiting pastor from Indiana join us for worship and that was great.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into some casual clothes.I quickly did my personal PC work and after I was finished with that,I headed out to do some much needed errand running.
I first went to a local supermarket to turn in some bottles and cans.After that,I headed for a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple cans of peas and a bottle of liquid soap.After paying for these things,I headed for a nearby Big Lots to pick up a bottle of salad dressing.After that,I headed for a gas station to get some gas and after that,I went to see a friend to share my good news,but he wasn't home.After I left there,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a gallon of milk.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into my DVD player and watch it while relaxing.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I did give into temptation by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men that clouded my mind in the early afternoon,causing me to fantasize and lust after the images.Fortunately for me,I managed to stop myself and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and I left nothing out as I did.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall into sin and when I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day with no problems as I worked to stay busy and to keep my mind off of anything sexual.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time right now.I also ask that you please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support daily and very often.Please leave me some verbal encouragement in the comments section as I need it as much as I need prayers.They both help in many ways,such as they keep me going and show that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of turning in paperwork that my job placement counselor/coach and I have to fill out to my new employer,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I went online to reduce some of my e-mail load and when I was done with that,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and though it did rain for most of the day,I got dressed because I had to go and buy myself a new watch battery for my wristwatch.
I first went to the local K-Mart,but they told me that while I could buy the battery that I needed,they couldn't install it as they didn't do that.After leaving,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart and they installed it when I got there and after paying for it,I headed over to a local McDonald's to have a vanilla ice cream cone.After I was finished with that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local pizzeria for a few slices of pizza.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and had my slices of pizza that I bought.After eating them,I did a little bit more personal PC work and after that,while waiting for my dinner to get done in the oven,I watched a classic TV show episode from one of my DVD's of the show.
After eating,I decided to do a little bit more personal PC work and after that,I relaxed and took it easy and watched another classic TV show episode from the same DVD set.I also prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I had no problems with temptations of any kind.I wasn't tempted to act out in any way,shape or form.I stayed busy with what I had to do today and that was great.Though I escaped today unscathed,I still have to keep in mind that there is always tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I have to continually stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.I don't want to give them what they want,which is to break my Heavenly Father's perfect laws in regards to sexuality.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual in the morning,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.I am still eagerly waiting to start working at my new job.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work during the rest of the morning while eagerly anticipating a phone call from the place that interviewed me last Friday for a dishwashing position in the kitchen that is a part of a local hotel.I waited all day at home and I decided to pay them a visit and they told me that I was hired,which made me very happy.After three years of trying and praying constantly,I am finally employed and I shared the good news with a few people that I know in the wake of receiving the good news,including my job placement counselor/coach and on Monday,she and I will be filling out some paperwork to turn into the head chef of the kitchen and as of now,I am not unemployed anymore.I am glad that I have a job finally and I am going to do my very best to stay hired.After receiving the news,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed from dress clothes into casual clothes and did a little bit more personal PC work.I then headed out later on to buy a ready made fish dinner and eat it at home.Before leaving the house,I thanked my Heavenly Father happily for helping me get the job that I got today.He has answered my prayers and I am thankful that he did.Thanks to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and watch it while relaxing.I also listened to some music on my stereo and relaxed.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I was tempted to act out on the unnatural sexual desires that I have by fantasizing and lusting after other men and to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind.When these terrible temptations came around to me,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and kept praying until the temptations were reduced to nil.After I was finished praying,I felt much stronger as I truly believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.I went through the rest of the day unscathed with no temptation problems.I have to be be fully alert as Satan and his minions can strike at any time,which means continuing to stay on guard and be watchful.Though I did escape the rest of the day unscathed,I still have to keep in mind that there is always tomorrow and the day after tomorrow.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers as I am still going through a difficult emotional time,although I did finally accomplish getting a job,I am still going through a tough emotional time and I still need prayers for my fellow blog followers and readers.I also need some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide,including helping me get employed,for which I am still thankful for.
As for the weekend,with the exception of going to church this Sunday as usual,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the upcoming weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work as I had an appointment to meet with a minister at my house in regards to my SSA struggles.After my personal PC work was finished,I relaxed and waited for the minister to come over,which he did and we had another talk.After the hour was up,he left and I got dressed in my casual clothes as I wore sweatpants during the talk and headed out to do a little bit of shopping.
I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up some canned vegetables and after paying for them,I decided to stop at the local Salvation Army thrift store and I bought something that I liked and after paying for it,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put my canned vegetables away and after that,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.I relaxed for much of the afternoon before preparing my evening meal.
After eating,I headed back out to my usual Thursday evening Holy Bible study group and that went as wonderful as expected.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit more work online and I prepared for retirement for the evening.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted to act out by fantasies and lusting after men nor was I tempted to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men.I guess that having the talk with the minister today did a lot of good.It was great that I gout out a little more and shared with him what had been going on.It was great that I didn't have any problems today.I also went through the day getting things done that had to get done and that gave me a sense of accomplishment.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Satan and his minions can strike at any time,so I need to continue to stay on guard and be watchful.They can tempt me to go against my Heavenly Father and his perfect law in regards to sexuality.I can't let Satan and his minions get what they want from me.I have to show them that with the help of my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,I am stronger than they are,even though this particular struggle is still difficult.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am again asking that you continue to keep me in your prayers and also again,that you leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both types of support from y'all constantly and daily.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and again,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good,but not too eventful,day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I decided to hold off on showering and had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did some checking up online and reduced my e-mail load and when I was done with that,I showered.After my shower,I quickly did my personal PC work and I relaxed for a bit while listening to some music.
A little later in the day,I headed out to the local Super Wal-Mart and I picked up something light for dinner.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I was going to eat for dinner away and I did some more personal PC work.I then decided to heat up what I was going to eat for dinner in the microwave and I ate it.After that,I relaxed a little bit more and listened to a little more music.I also watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and later on,I did a little bit more personal PC and after that,I prepared to retire for the evening.Overall,a pretty good,but not too eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,after several days of not being tempted,I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind,which led me to give into the subsequent temptation to fantasize and lust after these sexual images.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked him to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and left nothing out as I prayed.I confessed everything to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ.When I was finished praying,I knew that I was truly forgiven and I went on with the rest of the day.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this struggle.Please continue your prayers for me and again,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of having a visit with a minister,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work and I also called a place to check on the status of my application and there was nobody there for me to talk to.After that,I relaxed and decided to watch a few music videos online.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work and I decided to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to get my recyclables ready for pick-up tomorrow and I also watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I listened to some music and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I am glad to report that I had no problems with temptations today.Nothing clouded my mind nor did I even get tempted to touch myself inappropriately.I simply went through the day still eagerly awaiting hearing anything in regards to jobs.I am still hoping to get the job at the local hotel kitchen.I am still hoping that I will hear from them on Friday.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time to try and tempt me.They can also try to make me think that there is no way out for me,but they would be lying,as I did find the way out.They can try to get me to break my Heavenly Father's perfect laws in regards to sexuality,but when that happens,I will simply turn to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for the strength to fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.If I do fall short,I know that my Heavenly Father is there to forgive me in the name of his on Jesus Christ.It is a very difficult life that SSA strugglers like me have in regards to this particular struggle.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.= in the comments section.I need both types of support daily as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I really appreciate your support.Please continue to pray for me and please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and throughout the day,I eagerly awaited a phone call in regards to my job interview this past Friday.For most of the day,I didn't get any calls,except for some calling and not bothering to leave a message.I did talk with my job placement counselor/coach and she simply told me to keep her informed on any developments and I said that I would.After that,I decided to head out to the public library to type up a small note for the person who interviewed me on Friday and I dropped it off,after coming home to change into dress clothes,for him to read it,only to meet him outside the place and he actually said that he was happy that I stopped by and that it saved him from calling me.After we met and talked for a bit,with him telling me that Friday will be the latest day he will get back to me,I headed back home to change into casual clothes and I headed out to do some thrift shop hopping and to buy something light for dinner tonight.I headed straight home once I finished everything that I did.
When I got home,I fixed my evening meal and after eating it,I did some more personal PC work and relaxed for much of the rest of the evening while also preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I had no problems with any forms of temptations today.I guess that by keeping busy and eagerly anticipating a phone call in regards to the job interview.Being out in the community and anticipating the phone call all day,it kept my mind off of anything sexual in regards to SSA.I felt really good that I didn't have problems nor worries about being tempted.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.I don't want to give them what they want,which is to get me to sin and make me feel that I can never heal from nor overcome this terrible SSA.I don't want that to happen.Satan and his minions want to have the SSA own me and not me owning it.They will continue to do whatever it takes to get me to surrender to the unnatural sexual desires that I have and live in sin.It's a good thing that I have my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ there for me so Satan and his minions don't get what they want.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and off I went to church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.I also helped out during the worship service by helping collect the offerings by passing the collection plates around.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I hurriedly dashed into a local supermarket to pick up a few things that I needed and after paying for them,I headed straight home as I wanted to get home before a torrential rain storm was going to hit as I didn't want to get caught in it.
When I got home,I hurriedly went into the house having to make two trips to bring stuff in and when I was finished,I put everything away and I quickly cleaned the bathtub in the bathroom.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work and I relaxed for much of the afternoon listening to music and watching a classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have.After that,I took out my garbage to be picked up on Wednesday and tomorrow,I am going to be putting in some recyclables in a recycling can that has been provided by my hometown.After that was done,I started to prepare for my evening meal.
After eating,I relaxed and listened to a little bit more music.I also did some more personal PC work.After that,I relaxed a little bit more and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I was tempted to fantasize and lust after other men and to also manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him for the strength to help me fight and resist these temptations in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and didn't cease until the temptation died down.After I was finished praying,I felt better and much stronger as I truly believed that I got what I asked for.I went through the rest of the day without anything else,but still continued to stay on guard and be watchful as I knew that Satan and his minions can strike again at any time.I don't want the desires to own me.I want to own them.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time at the moment.I also ask that y'all leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive verbal support.They are both very important to me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section and also,please continue to keep me in your prayers.Your support really matters to me as it helps keep me going.It also reaffirms and reassures me that I an not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayers and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I am hoping to hear from the place that interviewed me for a job and I am hoping that I get hired.I am hoping.I will keep praying and I am hoping that I will finally be hired.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ