Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I did some much needed cleaning up around the house and after that,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.
I stayed home for the day as there was rain for much of the day.I relaxed and took it easy and later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched some TV and I did some more personal PC work.I also enjoyed a little bit of music.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am now feeling much better.I am no longer in the dark depression that I was for much of last week.Yesterday,the anniversary of my mother's passing came and went.I was depressed and didn't feel much like myself,but I stayed the course and now,I am feeling much better as far as my emotions go.I kept on it and hung in there and now,I am feeling a lot better.
However,though I am feeling better as far as my emotional make-up goes,I did fall into sin today.I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men clouded my mind as I did this,which led to fantasizing and lusting after those images.I wound up masturbating the rest of the way.After it was over,I washed my hands and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I poured everything out and I left out nothing.I really felt miserable for falling into sin.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out.I told my Heavenly Father everything and when I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven for my sins today.I still need to work on getting tough with myself.I need to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I can't let these unnatural sexual desires continue to have a hold of me.I have to show them that I am stronger than they are,even in my inherent imperfection and weakness.I can't keep on giving into these terrible desires and repenting each time.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,really matters and is also very important to me.I need to be shown that I am not alone in any of my struggles.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up something for lunch.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a sweatsuit.I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I laid down for a while as I was still feeling a little tired.After that,I relaxed and watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I cleaned up a little bit around the house and after that was done,I did a little bit more personal PC work.I also watched a little TV and did some more work on my PC.Later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Today,it is the 2nd anniversary of my mom's passing and I am not feeling up to snuff yet.I am still in a very dark place emotionally and I really still can't talk about my struggles.I am hoping that by tomorrow,I will feel much better and I can start talking again.In the meantime,please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and when I was finished,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to Best Buy to pay something and after that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy a few things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched some TV and I did some more personal PC work.I also prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles,I will start to talk about them when I am feeling better.I am still in a very dark place emotionally and I haven't fully recovered yet.I am hoping that I will feel better after tomorrow,which is the anniversary of my mother's passing away.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Your support not only matters,but is also very important to me.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after my caseworker came over,I got dressed and proceeded with the rest of the day.
I first went to a local supermarket to pick up something to eat and after that,I headed over to a local restaurant to pick up something to have along with my light dinner.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I sat down to eat and after I was finished,I wet to my usual Celebrate Recovery group,which went wonderfully well.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby convenience store to pick up a light snack.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into night clothes and I did a little bit more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I did manage to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles,I will start reporting about them when I am feeling better.I am still in a very dark place emotionally and I haven't fully gotten out of it yet.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I really need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Thanks in advance to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual on Sunday,I have made any plans.But I do hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fairly decent day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I did half of my personal PC work.I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only one thing on my agenda for today.I had an appointment with my therapist today at the local hospital and I had to make sure that I was on time for it.
The session with my therapist went well.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby gas station to get some much needed gas.After that,I had a light lunch at a local pizzeria.After that,I picked up my prescription refill at the drug store and when that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put my prescription refill away and I finished my personal PC work.After that,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched some TV and I did some more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fairly decent day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,though I am feeling a little bit better,I am still in a very dark place emotionally and I don't know when it will lift.I am still feeling some very negative emotions,such as depression and sadness.I am hoping to feel better after the 2nd anniversary of my mom's death passes.Today,upon arising,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals as sexual images of men clouded my mind,which led to fantasizing and lusting after the images that were clouding my mind.I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning against him and his perfect law in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I pleaded for my Heavenly Father's mercy and when I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I am hoping to be back on track emotionally by the start of next week.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me as I am still going through a very dark period emotionally.Please also leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often,especially since I am going through a very dark depression right now.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I relaxed for much of the day.I watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player and after that,I decided to change from my sweatsuit into casual clothes to do some shopping.
I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a gallon of milk and after that,I headed over to a local Wendy's to pick up something for dinner tonight.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the milk in the fridge and I sat down to enjoy my meal.
After eating,I watched a little bit of TV and I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am pleased to report that I am feeling much better.Yes,I am.I am feeling a little bit happier now.I have been not forgetting to take my medication the last few nights and it has been contributing to my feeling much better.Though I have been feeling better,I am still putting up with some dark emotional feelings.4 days away,the anniversary of my mom's passing will be here.I guess that I won't be back on track emotionally until after the 2nd anniversary of my mom's death,which will be this Sunday.I am hoping to be back on track emotionally after that day,but I really don't know if I will.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still all of your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.In my current emotional time,I need all of the support that I can get from all of you.I also would appreciate your support right now.I need it desperately and some positive verbal support in the comments section would be great.I also still need your prayers as well.Thanks in advance to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my appointment with my therapist,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fairly decent day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and after that,I had my usual quick breakfast.When I was finished,I got dressed and I headed out to my job placement/counselor's/coach's office to make a copy of a sales receipt to be sent to an local organization so I can get reimbursed for a shoes purchase that I made.After that,I headed over to a local kitchen for a light lunch and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and when that was done,I was still feeling the dark emotions of depression and I laid down.After listening to an inspirational record,I decided to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer.I confessed some sins of acting out by fantasies and lusting.I also asked for forgiveness for those sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also talked about the dark depression that I was in and that I wanted to feel better.I even talked about the forgetfulness of taking my medication on Saturday night and that the 2nd anniversary of my mother's death was approaching.I prayed for a while and after I was finished,I knew that I was forgiven for my sins.I am still in that dark place,but I know that I will feel better soon and I am hoping that the relief comes soon.After doing a little bit more personal PC work,I started prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little bit of TV and I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fairly decent day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Fellow blog followers and readers,though I am feeling a little bit better,I am still in a very dark place emotionally and I really can't talk anymore about this.I am still hoping that I will start to feel better soon.I am already tired of being in this dark emotional place where I am feeling sadness and downcast feelings.I am hoping for the best and I am hoping that the dark depression lifts soon.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am still in need of both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I really need it now as I am going some very dark feeling emotions and not feeling much like myself.Please continue to pray for me.Please also leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good,but not too eventful,day today.
Today,I woke up in the early afternoon and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I got a phone call from my niece asking me to babysit for her and I agreed to do so.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed and I headed over to my niece's house to babysit for her and when she got home,I headed for home myself.
When I got home,I registered a bill at the Where's George site and I went back out to get some fresh chili and a Hot Pocket for dinner.I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate my dinner and I watched a little TV after that.I also did some more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good,but not too eventful,day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am still in a very dark place emotionally.I am still not up to snuff yet in regards to sharing on here where I am at in regards to my struggles.I don't know when I will be feeling better enough to share my struggles.I am hoping that I will be feeling better by tomorrow.I didn't feel as much darker as I did yesterday when I woke up in the early afternoon,but I am still not feeling up to par yet emotionally to share where I am at in regards to my struggles.The only thing that I ask is that y'all continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I need your support to help get me out of this dark emotional place that I am at right now.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a couple of important appointments,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me not only positive benefits,but helps get me out of this dark emotional place that I am in right now.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into some casual clothes.I did my personal PC work and later on,I headed out to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I had a light evening meal and I watched some TV.I also did a little reading and some more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am in a very dark place emotionally and I don't know why.I have been feeling down since the evening began.I have a hunch or two as to why I am feeling this way.The 2nd anniversary of my mom's passing is approaching.My mom has been dead for two years and I am still missing her.I still find it hard to believe that she's gone and I miss having her around.Plus,I forgot to take my medication last night as usual.I took another sleep aid to help me sleep when I realized that I forgot to take my medication when I tried to get some sleep.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I will start reporting regularly when I am feeling better.Please keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Your support does mean a lot to me and I appreciate that.Thanks very much.
I haven;t really got anything planned for tomorrow as of yet.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work,but stayed home for the day as it was raining for much of the day.I simply stayed home and I relaxed.I listened to some music and watched some TV.I also stayed online for much of the day as well.I was communicating with many of my online friends.After that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little bit more TV and I also did some more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I will keep you all updated on them tomorrow as I am feeling very sleepy.Please continue in prayer for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often to help keep me going.Thanks to y'all for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that that do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I decided to do my personal PC work first and after that was done,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I decided to do a little bit more personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed while watching a movie that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I headed out to my usual Celebrate Recovery group,which went as wonderfully as expected and after that was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I have some things that I need to say in this regard to my struggles with SSA and it isn't pretty.This week has been an up and down roller coaster weekend.I have been struggling a lot this week and as a result,I have given into temptations a few times this week.I have given into the temptations to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind,which led to me fantasizing and lusting after other men and on a couple of occasions,it led to ejaculation.On these occasions,I felt really miserable after doing these things as I know that my Heavenly Father condemns such activity and I really felt sorry for myself as a result of me giving into these terrible,meaningless and worthless temptations.On all of these occurrences,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and I confessed all of my sins to him and I also accepted full and total responsibility for my falls into sin.I also begged and pleaded,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,for both his forgiveness and his mercy.I begged for him to be merciful towards me and to forgive my sins.I was really sorry for doing that and again,these activities are things that my Heavenly Father not only condemns,but also,abhors.When I was finished,I felt better and knew and truly and totally believed that I was forgiven.I really need to start getting tough with myself.The emotional factor was that I was angry this week.The reason for my anger was because my sister had the gall to call me three nights ago when I was about to go to sleep and say that she needed to pick up a couple of things.This really made me angry because I was tired,very sleepy and wanted to go to bed.The worst part of her coming over was her meddling into my life and my business,which I didn't appreciate at all.That led to all the stuff and falling that few times this week.I am not saying that it excuses it,but it was the motivator and the way that I was feeling.I also need to work on not letting my anger get the better of me when things that I don't want happening happen.Again,I need to get tough with myself and start showing these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I really want to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.I hate that I have sexual feelings for men and I hate this struggle.I want to do what is right,but my sinful nature wants me to do the opposite.I have to show my sinful nature that I am no longer interested in any of those things that are connected to the so called "Pro-Gay" agenda.I want to be what my Heavenly Father wants me and intends me to be.I happen to be a man and a male and that is what I am identity wise.All other identities,such as "Homosexual/Gay" are false identities.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am still in desperate need of your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I would really appreciate both of these things.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the upcoming weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of errands to run.I went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things and after that,I went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few more things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away and I had a light evening meal tonight.After I was finished eating,I watched some TV and I did a little bit more personal PC work.I then prepared for my evening retirement as evening came.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I an putting off talking about them until tomorrow.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am still in dire need of both your prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks in advance for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and did some much needed cleaning up around the house.I had to get rid of a whole bunch of paper piles that had accumulated over a span of time.I put all of them into trash bags and I headed for my church because they had dumpsters where you can dump recyclable papers to help raise funds for the church and it's accompanying school.After that,I headed for a local supermarket to dump a whole bunch of plastic shopping bags into their recycling can.After that,I purchased a few needed things and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff that I bought away and I did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little TV and I also did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I will start talking about them again tomorrow as I am really tired.Please continue praying for me and please leave me some positive verbal support.I really need and appreciate all the support that I can get.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have n plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only one thing on my agenda for today.I went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I relaxed and I watched a little TV.Later on,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I wasn't tempted in any way to act out on my desires.I simply went through the day without any problems nor anything to get me to compromise.It was good that I had no problems today,but I still need to stay on guard and be watchful.Why?Satan and his minions can strike at ant time when least expected and try to tempt me to break my Heavenly Father's perfect law in regards to sexuality.I can't let the unnatural desires that I have own me.I have to show these desires that I have that I own them.I am going to try and make it my resolve to start setting aside a time for prayer.Lately,I have been only going to my Heavenly Father when I am in need of strength to help me fight and resist the urges when they come around and I feel that this is why that the temptations keep coming at me.I can't let Satan and his minions have their way.I have to show them that I worship the only true God,our sovereign Lord and creator,our Heavenly Father and that I have his son Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior.I am going to make it my effort and resolve to make prayer a regular part of my day.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I really need your prayers right now as well as daily and often.I also need your positive verbal support in the comments section right now as well as daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

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Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit real quickly and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study group and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into casual clothes.I left the house to see about work this week,but I have the week off again.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and after that,I relaxed for a while.After the relaxation,I headed back out to get a few things at a couple of local supermarkets.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched some TV and I did some more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted in any way shape or form.I went through the day unscathed.It was great that I wasn't tempted to do anything in a sexual way that is connected with SSA.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the day after tomorrow.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time with temptations of all sorts.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue praying for me also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things and after that,I picked up a few more things at the local Super Wal-Mart.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put everything away and I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched something on DVD and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I was tempted yet again to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other upon arising as sexual images of men clouded my mind.I was also tempted to manipulate my genitals to these images as well.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked in the name of his son Jesus Christ for strength to help me fight and resist.I prayed hard and when I was finished,I felt stronger as I truly knew and believed that I received what I asked for.I wen through the rest of the day unscathed.I still have to keep in mind that Satan and his minions can strike at any time.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful because of that.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast and since I had the day off I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I only had a few things to do today.I cashed my paycheck and after that,I headed straight home to register the bills at the Where's George site.After that,I went to the post office to send out an important bill payment and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did a little bit more personal PC work and I had a light meal.
After eating,I headed out to the Friday night Celebrate Recovery group and I had a wonderful time discussing with them my week and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,upon arising out of bed,I was tempted to act out by fantasizing and lusting after other men as sexual images of men were clouding my mind.I was also tempted to manipulate my genitals to these images.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to help me fight and resist these urges.I prayed real hard and I didn't cease praying until the urges were nil.When I was finished praying,I felt better and stronger as I knew and truly believed that I received from my Heavenly Father what I asked for.I went through the rest of the day unscathed,but there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.They can strike with temptations when least expected and I need to be ready when they do.Fellow blog followers ad readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I don't want to feel alone in this particular struggle.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I also ask that you continue praying for me as well as I am getting pelted with temptations left and right.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't got anything planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I reduced the amount of my e-mail and after that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.I then got dressed and I decided to turn in a little bit of bottles that I had in the back seat of my car.After that,I went to a local used music store to pick up a CD that was being held for me.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I dropped the CD off and after relaxing a while.I gave a friend a call to see if they were home so I could visit for a while,but they told me that they still weren't feeling well and after that,I headed back out to do some shopping.I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few more things and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.When that was over,I did some more personal PC work and after that,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.My usual Thursday night study was canceled tonight and so,I relaxed and enjoyed watching a DVD.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I was tempted to indulge in fantasizing and lusting after other men and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind.Fortunately,I went to my Heavenly Father and asked for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.It was overwhelming,but not as overwhelming as the last two days.Still,I prayed for strength to help me fight and resist the urges and when I was finished,I felt better and know that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.I went through the rest of the day unscathed,but despite that,I still have to keep in mind that there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Satan and his minions can strike at any time with many ways to try and tempt me to go against my Heavenly Father's perfect law.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I don't want to feel alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,since I have the day off from work,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a fairly decent day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and later on,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I only had a couple of errands to run.I first withdrew some money from the bank and after that,I paid a bill.After that,I stopped to see how a friend was doing and after that,I did my grocery shopping.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away and I ate my evening meal.After that,I watched a DVD and I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a fairly decent day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I was overwhelmed again by temptation.It was in the morning after I got out of bed and I was sitting down in a chair.Fortunately,I went immediately to my Heavenly Father and I prayed for strength to help me fight and resist the temptations.I prayed and I prayed until the temptations were nil.When I was finished,I felt better and much stronger.I went through the rest of the day unscathed.Though I did,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful.Satan and his minions can strike at any time.I need to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer habitually and pray for strength to help me fight and resist all sorts of temptations.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I reduced some of my e-mail load and after that,I relaxed for much of the morning.I was still feeling tired as mid morning approached and I decided to simply have my usual quick breakfast and after that,I laid down for a little over an hour to rest and get rid of some of the drowsiness.After I got back up,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I did my personal PC work and I simply relaxed and watch a portion of a movie that I put into the DVD player,but got bored while watching it and turned it off.I did a little bit more personal PC work and later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.I stayed home today due to it being a rainy day and I had nothing to do and no place to go.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.I also did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I was overwhelmed by repeated temptations.I was tempted when I was laying down.I was also tempted when I was trying to relax and watch the movie.I went to my Heavenly Father and I prayed for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed for the strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges.In prayer,I kept telling Satan and his minions to hit the road as James 4:7b says to "Resist the devil and he will flee from you",but I am learning more and more when you fight and resist temptations,even with the help from the sovereign Lord and creator,Heavenly Father,and his son Jesus Christ,the temptations keep coming back stronger and the more resistance is put up,the more stronger the temptations will be.I prayed and I prayed until the temptations were reduced to nil.When I was finished praying,I felt better and much stronger.I knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me the strength that I asked for and I did feel it.I am still working on making it a habit to go to my Heavenly Father and ask him for that strength whenever these temptations come around.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am again asking that y'all continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Yes,I do.I need to know that I am not alone in this particular struggle and both your prayerful and especially,your continued positive verbal support both reaffirms and reassures that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue in prayer for me.I also ask that you please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't got anything planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Happy Labor Day to my fellow USA citizens.
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a fairly decent day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I didn't have too much to do today.I simply ran a few errands.I also paid a visit to a couple of people who I hadn't seen in a while.I also did some shopping at a local Dollar Tree store and picked up a couple of burgers from a local Burger King,which I had for my dinner with some heated up macaroni and cheese.After I ate,I relaxed while watching a DVD and did some more personal PC work.After that was done,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a fairly decent day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I didn't have any problems with temptations.But last night,as I was trying to get some sleep,temptations really started to hit me.I was tempted to act out by fantasies and lusting as sexual images of men were clouding my mind.This time,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and prayed until the temptations were reduced to nil.When I was finished praying,I went right to sleep and slept soundly for the rest of the night.That temptation last night was a close call.Satan and his minions can strike at any minute at any time.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as they can strike at any time when least expected.Last night,thanks to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,I barely escaped.I now need to work on habitually going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to pray for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide as they provide power that surpasses all of humanity.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and after my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in dress clothes and I headed for church for both the outdoor worship service and the brunch afterwards.
Both the service and the brunch were wonderful.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and since I was feeling a little sleepy,I decided to lay down and take a nap and I slept for a little over 2 hours.After getting back up,I did my personal PC work while listening to some music.After that was done,I relaxed for a while and later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to watch a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have and after that,I did some more personal PC work.I relaxed again and also,enjoyed some more music.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Fellow blog followers and readers,I have to vent and get something out of me again.Last night,it was for mental illness,but tonight,it is regarding my struggles with SSA.If any or all of you have felt that I haven't been open and straight with y'all in regards to them,your assumptions are correct.I haven't been totally straight with y'all.I have been hiding things from y'all.Now,I am going to be honest and straightforward with y'all.Fellow blog followers and readers,including those who struggle with SSA and are also supporting me,I have been leaving out a lot.I have been giving into temptations galore.I have been giving into the temptations to watch porn online,including,but not limited to,pictures of men in the nude alongside some pretty extreme and degrading stuff on video.I even masturbated to these pictures and videos.I have also given into the temptations to fantasize and lust after other men and yes,I have manipulated my genitals whenever nude images of men clouded my mind,which motivated the temptation to fantasize and lust after the images,which I did give in to.I have felt nothing but misery and shame as a result of my constant and continuous giving into the temptations to commit these sinful,terrible and immoral practices.I have not been doing a good job in fleeing from these immoral practices nor have I been doing a good job in showing that I am very serious about wanting to heal from SSA and wanting to overcome SSA,which I really am serious about.Last night,before going to bed,I prayed to my Heavenly Father and I told him everything.I left nothing out.I bared all to him in prayer.I told him all the sins and the temptations that I gave in to.I confessed all to him and asked not only for him to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ,but I also begged and pleaded for him to be merciful to me for sinning constantly and habitually giving into temptation and sinning by doing so.I also must admit that tears were also starting to trickle down my face as I was talking to him and admitting all the wrongs and sins that I committed.I felt so unworthy,but continued to beg and plead for his forgiveness and mercy.I didn't cease praying.I even asked me to help me to continually go to him when I need the strength to help me fight and resist.I also asked him to help me where I needed faith.Again,I left nothing out as I prayed and prayed.When I was finished,I felt great as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven and that my Heavenly Father had forgiven me and showed his mercy upon me.I slept very good last night.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue praying for me.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide,especially for the divine gift of forgiveness and mercy that my Heavenly Father provides to me and all of us even though they are both undeserved things.Thanks Heavenly Father and Thanks to his son,our divine Lord and savior Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
Since I had the day off from work today,I had a few errands to run.I first went to have some lunch at a local pizzeria.After that,I dropped off some money to help a charity drive at my church.After that,I turned in some bottles and cans that I had in the back seat and after that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree and bought a few important things that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I need to get something out of me.I need to vent tonight.Why?Because last night,when I checked my e-mail,I received an anonymous message from somebody that didn't have the audacity to leave their name nor their identity.I felt that this was hopefully an encouraging word,but it was a negative personal attack.This anonymous person said that there was no such thing as Bipolar Depression/Disorder and that mental illness is fake and a lie.Fellow blog followers and readers,this anonymous person is the one who is wrong.Mental illness is real and there are people who are living with mental illness all over the world.No matter where you go,there will be people who are mentally ill.I myself am one of these and I know that it is very real.My moods vary day by day.One minute/day,I can be up and feeling good.The next minute/day,down and feeling not so good.I do get depressed and yes,it is a part of the territory of having Bipolar.Aside from Bipolar,I also have Schizophrenia and that makes this even worse.Aside from the emotional roller coaster ride of Bipolar Depression/Disorder,I also have to put up with the hallucinatory effects of Schizophrenia at the same time.At times,I hear voices calling my name and at other times,I hear other things,such as footsteps and whenever I turn around,I see nobody there.I also hear voices talking to me and at times,I am talking to myself like if I am carrying on a conversation with somebody else.This is why I am therapy and I am taking medication daily.The therapy and the medication helps,but it isn't a cure.The anonymous person even said that psychiatry and psychology are pseudo sciences and that those who practice them are liars.The thing is that psychiatry and psychology don't claim to be exact sciences and that all science,no matter what type of science it is,it isn't perfect as humans created science and their opinions do change from time to time.No science is exact and it changes from day to day.I feel that the anonymous person who left me that negative personal attack,which I rejected and didn't have posted in the comments section,is possibly somebody who is also mentally ill,but is living in denial and refuses to accept the hard reality that they are mentally ill.Me,it was a very difficult thing for me to accept,but I had to learn to accept that hard reality and learn how to live with my mental illness diagnosis and live my life as such.It wasn't an easy thing for me to do,but since I have been in therapy and have been taking medication,I have it under control and managing it very well.I am continuing my therapy and continuing my medication treatment.As for that anonymous person,I do feel sorry for them that they possibly live in denial and can't accept the heard reality of their situation.I am hoping that one day,they stop their possible denial and start getting the help and therapy that they need.Fellow blog followers and readers,mental illness is real.Yes it is.People with mental illness are all over.They live and work around others.I work myself and I try to spend as much time as I can with others.I try to blend in and try to fit in the best way that I can.I look for support and positive upbuilding.I look for encouragement and acceptance,which includes affirmation.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to support me by your prayers and your continued positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to support me in both of these areas.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good and busy day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed in work clothes and headed for work.
The work day went well.After work,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and showered again.After that,I got dressed and headed for the bank to cash my check and when that was done,I bought a sandwich for dinner at a local Subway.
When I got home,I ate my sandwich and after registering some bills at the Where's George site,I headed for the Celebrate Recovery group,which was also wonderful.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Denny's to have a sundae and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good and busy day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Regarding my struggles,I will talk about them tomorrow as I am really tired tonight.Please continue praying for me and please leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I postponed my shower to do some reduction in my e-mail accounts and after that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After some relaxation and doing my personal PC work,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I did some more personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I only made a couple of trips out today.I first went to get some gas and after that,went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a small thing.After that,I went to a local Dollar Tree store and bought another small thing there.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I headed over to my usual Thursday night Holy Bible study group,which went as wonderful as expected.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,after a few days of sobriety,I gave into temptation again.I manipulated my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind causing me to fantasize and lust after the images and I wound up ejaculating.After washing my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and left nothing out and I did feel better after that as I knew that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day with no problems.I have said it before and I will say it again,I need to really get tough with myself.I need to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I need to also show to my Heavenly Father that I am very serious about wanting to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA,but habitually falling into sin is not the way to show him that.I really need to stop this spiral of sinning habitually and going in repentance to my Heavenly Father.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue praying for me.I also ask that you please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support right now.I am in a rut in regards to giving into sin habitually and going to my Heavenly Father in repentance and asking to be forgiven,which is something that I really need to stop and nip in the butt permanently.I need your prayers and your positive verbal support in the comments section.Please leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to work and hopefully,the Celebrate Recovery meeting,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few errands to run.I first went to a photography studio to pick up a picture that was processed at my request.After that,I dropped off a few free newspapers and after that,I did a little bit of shopping at the local Salvation Army thrift store.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and listened to a little bit of music.Later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have and after that,I did some more personal PC work.I again relaxed while listening to some music and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I had no problems with temptations today.No,I didn't.I simply just stayed busy with what I had to do and that took my mind off of the unwholesome sexual stuff that is connected with SSA.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time with all sorts of temptations.Fellow blog followers and readers,I continue to ask that y'all continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time right now and I need all the support,both prayerful and positive verbal,that I can get.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday evening Holy Bible study group,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I read for a while and after finishing that,I got dressed to run an important errand.
I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something that I needed.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I did some more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is.I had no problems with temptation today.I wasn't tempted to act out in any way,shape or form.I went through the day with no problems and that was great.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am again asking that y'all continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I feel alone when none of my fellow man who visits doesn't any verbal encouragement to me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section and also,please continue to keep me in your prayers.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed for my mechanic's garage to get one of my tires fixed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and I had a light lunch.After that,I watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player.When that was over,I headed out to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into temptation for a second consecutive time I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind,causing me to fantasize and lust after other men and again,I wound up ejaculating.I really felt miserable after that and after washing my hands,I pleaded to my Heavenly Father for forgiveness and for his mercy upon me.I prayed real hard as I really wanted him to forgive me and be merciful to me.When I was finished,I felt much better and I truly believed and knew that I was forgiven.I really need to work on getting tough with myself.I need to really start making it a habit of going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask him for strength to help me fight and resist all of these terrible temptations in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to show my Heavenly Father that I am really serious about wanting to heal and wanting to overcome this terrible SSA.I really am.I want to heal and I want to overcome this terrible SSA.I can't keep going on this constant and destructive spiral of falling and asking for forgiveness.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.As I said,I need both of these types of support every day and often.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and I relaxed for a while.I also did my personal PC work while relaxing.Later on,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.
After eating,I popped another DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,after being sober for a while,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I wound up ejaculating.After washing my hands,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and left nothing out.When I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven for my sins.I still need to work on getting tough with myself.I need to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the opposite.I need to work on going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to show my Heavenly Father that I am serious about wanting to heal and wanting to overcome this terrible SSA.I don't want to fall into the trap and habitually sinning and asking for forgiveness after doing so.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I don't want to feel alone in this particular struggle as a result of not getting the positive verbal support that I need alongside the prayerful support.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I did my personal PC work as I had the day off from work today.
I relaxed for much of the day as I had the day off.I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.After that,I headed over to the scheduled church picnic.
The picnic was wonderful.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I had to reduce some of my e-mails as I had no time to review them.I only kept the important stuff and deleted the rest.After I was finished with that,I relaxed and watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.Later in,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good and busy day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted to act out in any way,shape or form.No,I wasn't.I guess that staying busy with work and having fun at the church picnic took my mind off of the negative sexual stuff that is connected with SSA.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful.Satan and his minions can strike any time when least expected.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,means a lot to me.I need it daily and often.Yes,it both reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Your support also helps keep me going.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that that do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing else planned.But Hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good and busy day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed in work clothes and headed for work.
The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a few minutes and I showered again to clean up.After that,I went and cashed my paycheck and headed back home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while again before having a light evening meal.When I was done eating,I headed back out to a Celebrate Recovery group,which went wonderful.I had a talk with a minister a little bit more about my SSA struggles and after sharing with the group,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare for my evening retirement as I was tired.Overall,a very good and busy day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I can report another day of not having any problems with temptations.I guess that staying busy with work and going to the recovery group helped.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Satan and his minions can strike at any time.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both types of your support daily and often.Your support helps keep me going.Your support also helps reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,since I have the day off from work,I will relax for much of the day before attending the scheduled church picnic,I will simply relax and take it easy at home when that is over.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was done showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and it was a lot.After that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I stayed at home for much of the day.I did get out in the late afternoon to pick up a few things.After I did that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I had myself a light dinner and I after I was finished,I headed over to my usual Thursday night Holy Bible study group,which went as wonderful as expected.After that was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I had no temptations.I went through the day with no problems.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time with their terrible temptations.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your support,prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.I need to be reaffirmed and reassured constantly that I am not alone in the SSA struggle.I know that there is my creator,my Heavenly Father,and his son Jesus Christ,but I still need the support of my fellow man daily and often.Your support in both of these areas helps keep me going.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of work and going to a Celebrate Recovery meeting,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I reduced some of my e-mail and when I was finished with that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed and proceeded with the rest of the day.
Since we had a high percentage chance for rain,I decided to get out and do some much needed shopping.I first went to a local supermarket to buy something there and when I was finished,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy something else.After that,I headed straight home as I wanted to get home before the storm hit.
When I got home,I hurried into the house and put the stuff that I bought away.After that,I did some more personal PC work and also had a visit with my caseworker,which went well.After that,I finished what I started to do online and when that was done,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I listened to some music while relaxing and doing some more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
By the way,the storm that we were supposed to get bypassed and went elsewhere.Still,it was better to be safe than sorry.
While my rocky road to recovery to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't hit by any temptations of any kind.I went through the day without any serious or not too serious problems.I guess that staying busy throughout the day kept my mind off of the negative sexual stuff connected with SSA.Though i escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I still struggle immensely and I need all the support that I can get.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday night study group,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
I first went to a local photography studio to pick up a disc with my senior year pics on them and after that,I headed for home to drop the disc off and I headed back out again and went to a local supermarket to turn in some empty bottles and after that was done,I headed the public library to print something that I had to print.After that,I headed back to that same local supermarket to turn in more bottles that I had collected at a park.After doing that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar tree store to pick up a little something for dinner and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the dinner stuff away for the time being and after that,I did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode that I popped into the DVD player and I did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted to act out in any way,shape or form.I guess that staying busy with what I had to do kept my mind off of the negative and unwholesome sexual stuff connected with SSA.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time to try and tempt me into breaking my Heavenly Father's perfect law,including,but not limited to,his perfect law in regards to sexuality.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,since it looks like that it might rain,I have made no plans,but I just might stay home and simply take it easy.If the weather changes,I might go out.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after having a light lunch,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I only did a few things today.I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy a couple of things for dinner and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.
After having a light dinner,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and watched it.I also did a little bit more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,after several days of not having any problems with temptations,I gave into temptation early this morning upon getting out of bed.I manipulated my genitals to sexual images of men that clouded my mind,causing me to fantasize and lust after them and I wound up ejaculating.After washing my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I asked for forgiveness and I also begged him to be merciful to me as I was sorry for sinning against him.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall into sin and I prayed for forgiveness.When I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the day feeling a little bit better,but I still need to work on getting tough with myself.I can't let these terrible and unnatural sexual desires that I have own me.I have to show them that I own them and not the other way around.SSA can really wear anyone who struggles with it down.I need to stay focused on what is right and ignore what is wrong.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,I would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need all the prayerful and positive verbal support that I can get.It is just that when people visit and leave nothing in the comments section,I feel alone in my struggles as far as being on Earth goes.I know that my Heavenly Father is there and he does listen and helps me,but I also still need support from my fellow man as well.This is why I keep asking that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.It really makes my day when I read that someone among my fellow man is there for me and still supports me.Please continue praying for me.Please also leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee.I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Big Lots to buy a small thing and after that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy a few more things and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and had a light lunch.After that,I did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.When that was over,I did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched another DVD that I popped into the DVD player.I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted in any way,shape or form.I wasn't tempted fantasize nor lust after other men and I wasn't tempted to manipulate my genitals nor watch and look at porn.I guess that staying busy by going to church and doing a little bit of shopping kept my mind occupied by keeping my mind off of the negative sexual stuff connected with SSA.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.They will try to tempt me to sin and I have to show them that I am strong in my weakness and that I own my desires and not the other way around.Please continue praying for me.I would really appreciate that.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both types of support,prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.I really want to heal and overcome this terrible SSA and I need all the support that I can get.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ