Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the kitchen sink as well as as shaved.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I relaxed for much of the day as I had nothing to do.
Later on,I headed out to withdraw some money from the bank and after that,I went to get a little bit of gas at a local gas station.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at my workplace to see if I was working this week,but I wasn't on.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the bills at the Where's George site and also did a little bit more personal PC work.After that,I went to a local church for a free dinner and after eating and talking with the wonderful people there,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into pajamas and relaxed for the rest of the evening while doing some more personal PC work.I started to prepare for my evening retirement as it was getting late.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.However,I am still struggling daily with my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I wasn't tempted to act out in any way,shape or form.I went through the day without any problems.I simply kept busy with what I had to do and that kept my mind off of the sexual stuff.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after that.I need to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time when least expected.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Your support helps keep me going and also both reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
I first paid my car insurance bill to jump start my policy for another year.After that,I headed over to my doctor's office for a follow-up and to get new prescriptions for my medical drugs.After that,I went to a nearby post office to mail out some stuff to a friend in another state.After that,I had a late lunch at a nearby McDonald's.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into a sweatsuit and I did some more personal PC work.After that,I went out to get a take out meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode that I had on a DVD set.I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted in any way,shape of form to act out on the unnatural sexual desires that I have.I guess that staying busy with everything that I had to do kept my mind off of the sexual stuff that is connected with the SSA struggle.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike when least expected.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often to help keep me going.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed for much of the day watching a few classic TV episodes on DVD's that I have.After that,I relaxed for the rest of the day and as the evening was coming,I got dressed and I headed out to a couple of stores to pick up a few things for dinner.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I heated up everything that I had bought and ate it.After that,I did the dishes and watched a couple more classic TV shows on DVD's that I have.I also took my medication and as the early evening started to drift into late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,though I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I gave into the temptation to masturbate when I was awakened in the wee early morning hours by a throbbing erection.After that,I washed my hands and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I really felt guilty for giving into this terrible temptation.I prayed hard and I left nothing out and when I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day with no problems,but still continued to stay on guard an be watchful.I really need to get tough with myself.I can't keep giving into the temptation to sin and asking for forgiveness.I have to show my Heavenly Father that I am really serious about wanting to heal and overcome SSA and I need to stop this pattern.I need to stop giving into temptation and then asking for forgiveness.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a doctor's appointment that I had set up today for tomorrow,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair over the sink as well as washed my face.After that,I shaved.When I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I watched a few classic TV episodes on DVD's that I have.After that,I got dressed and headed out to run a few errands.
I first went to a local nursing facility to see if a friend that is temporary staying there if he was going back home,but they told me that he wasn't and it would depend on what the local mission organization would say when.After talking with a social worker at the nursing facility,I left the facility and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the post office to pick up a Priority Mail envelope.After that,I stopped a few local restaurants to pick up a few things for lunch.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate everything that I bought and when that was finished,I made a couple more phone calls and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a few more classic TV episodes on DVD's that I have.I also did some more personal PC work.I relaxed while preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though lately,I have been struggling in regards to SSA.All the tension that is going on in my family is making the temptations go into overdrive.I have given into the temptations to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men clouded my mind while doing so,which led to the temptation to fantasize and lust after these images.Last night,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I unloaded everything to him in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I asked him to forgive me for sinning against him by giving into the terrible temptations.I also talked about all the tensions that are going on within my family and that I didn't know whether I was coming or going with all this happening.I prayed and prayed and I left nothing out.When I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I also knew and truly believed that he heard everything that I told him about.I said one final prayer last night before going to bed.Today,I kept myself busy by simply doing what I had to do personal errands wise and I had no thoughts creep up into my mind.On the other hand,in regards to my BPD/Schizophrenia struggles,I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride for a while,but has been made worse as a result of all the tension within my family.One day,I am feeling pretty good,but the next day,down and not so good.I have also had periods where I was in a rut for a while and it would lift,but the depression would return a day or two later.I did make the phone call to the psychiatric center and I am hoping that they will return my call soon.I am hoping to finally find the right therapy to help me let go of the unresolved issues and start to transcend and heal so Can finally heal from and overcome SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to pray for me.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,since it will be Veteran's Day,I have no plans made.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church.Today,we had a visiting missionary pastor and his family.They gave a talk in the study class about what being a missionary was about and he also gave a wonderful sermon during the worship service,which was a very affirming sermon.After some wonderful fellowship with him and the rest of my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few more things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a sweatsuit.I started doing my personal PC work,but remembered that I had to do a couple of things.I shut my computer down and got dressed and I headed downtown.
I was supposed to take a friend home today from a local nursing facility,but he was sound asleep when I got there.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I made a phone call to another friend that I was supposed to get together with,but they told that something came up and we couldn't.After hanging up,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I realized that I needed a couple more important things and I headed back out again.
I first went to another local supermarket to buy another box of cereal.After that,I headed to a nearby Dollar Tree store to buy a tube of toothpaste.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the cereal and the toothpaste away.I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,there is so much tension going on in my family that I really can't talk right now in regards to my SSA struggles or my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia.I am down and also feeling angry and miserable that I really can't talk about anything at the moment.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please also leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often,especially with all the negative stuff going on in my family at the moment.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I decided to simply wash my hair and face over the sink,including shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had a few things on my agenda for today.I first went to see how a friend of mine was doing and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed out to a Goodwill store in another area of the county that I live and I bought a few things.After that,I went to a used record store in the area and purchased a record album.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Big Lots when I got back into town to buy a few things.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart when I got back into town and I bought some cereal and milk.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.I was going to watch another one,but I realized that I forgot to buy something that I needed at the local Super Wal-Mart.I headed back out again to buy what I had forgotten,which was coffee.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into night clothes and did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.However,I am still in the process of finding the right therapeutic approach to help me let go of the unresolved anger,resentment and trauma issues so I can finally transcend and heal from this terrible SSA.On Monday,I am going to call a psychiatric rehabilitation center and see if I can make an appointment to talk with someone there.I am hoping that this works out for me in the long run as I really do want to heal from this terrible SSA and I now realize that the unresolved issues are what's holding me back from becoming the man that I am meant to be.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me,especially to help me find the right therapy for needing to let go and transcend from all of these issues.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I made a phone call to a company that was looking for janitorial workers and left a message.After that,I did my personal PC work and I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had only one thing on my agenda for today.I went to a spaghetti dinner at a local church and after I was finished eating it,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local used record store and bought a record.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I can't really talk tonight as I am getting really tired as my medication is kicking in.All I ask is that you all keep me in your prayers and that you all also leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section,I still need your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.It's just that I am very tired and really can't talk about these things.I can barely type this.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I got dressed and proceeded with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda for today.I first went to the job placement agency to sign a couple more papers and after that,I went to another local agency to sign some more papers.After having a light lunch that I bought at a convenience store,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at my workplace to see into something and they told me that when things start picking up,they'll let me know.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered some bills at the Where's George site and after that,I headed back out to a local church near my house to have a light free dinner and after that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the drug store to drop off a prescription that the nurse practitioner gave me recently and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did some more personal PC work and I relaxed for a bit.Later on,I prepared to get ready to turn in for the night.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Fellow blog followers and readers,there is a growing negative rift within my family right now and I really don't know how long it will last.I had a long talk with my sister tonight before going out and she told me about what her daughter did to her.She even played me a message that was left on her voice mail.There were very harsh words said and it really hurt my sister terribly.I was shocked to hear those words.I was also upset,but tried to stay cool.Right now,I am so upset that I am being tempted left and right to act out on the unnatural sexual desires that I have and I don't want that.I don't want to run back like a coward to that sinful way at all.I need prayers right now and also,prayers for my family.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.I also ask that you please pray for my family that these negative rifts are healed soon.Please do these things as I so desperately need your prayers and positive verbal support.I also need prayers for my family as well.Thanks in advance for everything.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.I did say a prayer earlier tonight when I came home from everything that I had to do.Thanks again to y'all.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I got dressed as I had to head over to the job placement agency to sign a few more papers and after that,I headed back out to drop something off at my workplace for my supervisor to sign.After that,I headed out to pay a couple of bills,one to mail out and one to pay in person.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy myself a light lunch.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put some of the stuff that I bought away and I ate my lunch.After that,I did my personal PC work and later on,after I was finished with that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues to move forward.However,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult struggle of the two for me.I know that I have not been talking too much about my struggles.Tonight,I need to talk a little.During the week when I was in a very dark place emotionally,I was miserable as a result sinning repeatedly.During the time in the dark place,I didn't pray very much.I was too depressed and sad to talk.I sinned repeatedly by looking up sexual images of men online.I also gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after them and I sank deeper and deeper into misery,sadness and depression.There were times that tears came out of my eyes and I at times felt that I could not go on.That Saturday night,November 1st,I prayed and laid everything on my Heavenly Father and I did feel better.Last night,I didn't really talk to my Heavenly Father,but dozed off in bed with the light on.I have not been trying to stick to my resolve in drawing closer to my Heavenly Father and I do feel miserable for not doing so.I am hoping to start doing so hopefully tonight before I go to sleep.I know that I need to draw closer to my Heavenly Father in order to start healing and overcoming.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I really need both your prayers and positive verbal support daily and often.Please pray for me that I draw closer to my Heavenly Father and if anyone out there can advise me in that area,Thanks.I need advice and I also need both your prayerful and positive verbal support.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow or perhaps Friday,I am going to call a psychiatric center to arrange an appointment.I still need to get these issues of anger,resentment and trauma resolved soon so I can finally discover healing and work to overcome SSA and other things.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of meeting with someone at another local agency,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and proceeded with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda for today.I first went to the job placement agency to sign a few more papers.After that,I headed over to a local kitchen for lunch and after that,I went shopping at the local Super Wal-Mart.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did my personal PC work.After that,I relaxed for a while and watched a little TV.I also did some rearranging around my living room.Later on,I went out to a local convenience store to buy myself something light for dinner.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode that I have on a DVD set.I also did a little bit more rearranging around my living room.I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I am still not up to sharing where I am at in them.I have been feeling extremely tired lately as a result of my medication kicking in earlier than expected.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often to help keep me going.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Chris for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I returned a couple of phone calls and after that,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I got dressed and proceeded with the rest of the day.
I had only two things on my agenda for today.I first went to the bank to withdraw some money.After that,I got some gas in my gas stank and I headed for the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and after that,I laid down for a while,though I made sure that I didn't fall asleep.After getting back up,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I am feeling way too tired to talk about them at this point.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of signing some more papers at the job placement agency,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit real quickly and I headed for church for both morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed from my suit into casual clothes and I headed out to get myself a light lunch at a local convenience store.After that,I headed back home.
When I got home,I ate my light lunch and when I was finished,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I decided to lay down for a while as I was feeling tired and drowsy.I didn't get back up until after 2 & a 1/2 hours.After that,I headed back out to get a box of light bulbs as my dining room needed one.When I got home,I prepared a light evening meal.
After eating,I watched a couple of cartoons on DVD and when they were finished,I did more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.But right now,I ma feeling depressed again.I don't know why I do,but I do.I am also feeling tired and just don't know what to do to help me feel better.I am just hoping that I will feel better tomorrow in the morning when I wake up.Please continue to pray for me.I also ask that you leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda for today.I first went to a local restaurant to have a light lunch and when I was finished,I went to a local supermarket to buy a gallon of milk.After that,I bought a Subway sandwich for dinner.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I sat down to eat my sandwich after putting my milk in the fridge.After eating,I watched a couple of Halloween cartoon DVD's that I didn't get to watch last night due to me getting tired early.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I can report that I am starting to feel a lot better emotionally.For quite a while,I was feeling down in the dumps and I just didn't know whether I was coming or going.I was sad and feeling even more sad as the days went along.Tonight,I am starting to finally feel better.I actually prayed to my Heavenly Father tonight and I unloaded everything onto him.I prayed in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and left nothing out.I told my Heavenly Father exactly how I was feeling and that I wanted to feel the opposite of how I was feeling at that time.I left nothing out.When I was finished praying,I felt better and much more at ease emotionally.Though I do feel better,I know that there are still the days ahead and I have to continue drawing closer to my Heavenly Father day after day.I haven't been doing that lately as during the dark days,I didn't communicate with my Heavenly Father as I felt too down and out to talk about anything.Tonight,I finally approached my Heavenly Father and I let it all out.While I was talking to him,my eyes were starting to tear and I felt that an enormous weight had been lifted off of me.I am going to make it my resolve to draw even closer to my Heavenly Father and try to establish a personal relationship with him.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,I would really some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both types of your support daily and often.Your support is also still very important to me.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance too y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda for today.I went to a couple of local stores to pick up some things that I so desperately needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and after that,I relaxed while watching a few Halloween themed DVD's.I then prepared a light evening meal.
After eating,I enjoyed some more Halloween themed DVD's while also enjoying some candy that I bought for myself.When they were all done,I did some more personal PC work.As the night was getting darker,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery is still at a standstill.Why is that?I am still in a very deep and dark emotional place right now.I am feeling depressed and down and I really don't know why.I have been feeling this way for quite some time and I really don't know when I will be snapping out of it.I was feeling really good for a while,but now I am down and feeling not so good emotionally.I feel good physically,but not so good emotionally.Again,I really don't know why,but I am hoping that it lifts pretty soon and I will be back to my old self again.I hate being in this dark place where I am at now.I really hate it.I am just hoping that this lifts soon and I can feel and be myself again.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I really need the support of all of you right now,especially the prayerful support.But again,your positive verbal support also helps as well and is just as important.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee.I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed and proceeded with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda.I first went to the bank to withdraw a little money.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered a little bit of the money on Where's George and after that,I headed back out to go to a local supermarket to pick up a few things that I needed.After that,I headed to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up one more thing that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that was over,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I popped another DVD into the DVD player and watched it.After that was over,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare to turn in for the night when I got really sleepy.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Right now,I am still in a very dark place emotionally right now,so I can't share anything in regards to my struggles at this certain time.I am still looking for that much needed right therapeutic method that I need.I need the right therapy to help me let go and transcend from the unresolved issues that I have been trying to get resolved.I really don't know how to go about this.If anyone has any idea,please let me know and share it.I will try anything.All that I ask is that you all continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I need to be both reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished.I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda for today.I first went to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After that,I went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few more things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away in their proper places.After that,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that was over,I watched another one.After that was over,I proceeded to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I popped another DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After it was over,I did some more personal PC work.As it was getting late,I proceeded to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though right now,it is at a standstill.Last night,I reported that I was in a very dark place as far as my emotions go.I am still in that dark place and I don't know when I am going to get out of it.I have been taking my meds and trying to keep up with my therapy,but I still need more.As I have also previously reported,I still have some unresolved anger,resentment and trauma issues that I would like to get resolved.I want to be able to let go and transcend from these issues.I have not been successful at this and I still need more help.I don't know what I am going to do in the meantime,but I am going to continue trying to find a way and the right therapeutic approach.I want to heal and I want to overcome,but I haven't been too successful in my goals.Every time I turn around,I am back at square one having to start all over again.I want to heal.I want to overcome,but I am having terrible difficulties in wanting to do so.I feel like I am stuck in the middle still searching for the right and true way.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support.Your support really matters and is very important to me.Your support does help in more ways than one.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair over the sink and I shaved.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda for today.I had to get a few important things that I needed.I first went to a local Dollar Tree store to get a couple of things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the things that I bought away and I popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.After that,I headed back out again to a local supermarket to pick up a gallon of milk.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the milk in the fridge and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and watched a cartoon on DVD.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I am again going to hold off on discussing my struggles until I feel ready and up to discussing them.I am in a very dark place right now emotionally and I really can't talk a lot at this juncture.Please try to understand that this deep and dark place I am at right now is just interfering with my train of thought and I just can't talk a lot about my struggles yet.All I ask is that all of you continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need the support of all of you daily and often.Your support is very valuable to me and also,very important.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only one important thing on my agenda for today.I had to see the nurse practitioner at the local hospital.I headed over there so I could be there on time.
The meeting with her went well.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my casual clothes and into a sweatsuit.I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that was over,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I got dressed back in casual clothes and I headed out to get a take out meal.
When I got home,I ate my take out meal and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I know that for the past several days,I have been holding off talking about my struggles with SSA.Tonight,I want to share with you some things about my other struggle,which I don't talk about very much.It is my struggle with BPD/Schizophrenia.With the stress of the previous week,my emotions have not been the way that I would like them to be.I am back at square one in regards to where I am at.I am now back to saying angry things to myself pretending that there are people there,but there is no one there.I am also hallucinating again.I have been hearing loud voices calling my name and when I turn around,there is nobody there.I also hear things like footsteps walking and other various sounds,but when I turn around,nobody and nothing is there.I feel like I am climbing the walls and bordering on hurting myself,though I haven't attempted to do so as of yet.I guess that I still have some of my sanity with me.I don't want to start hurting myself or I might be forced against my will to check into the mental health ward at the local hospital.I have never been in that ward and I don't want to nor do I plan to check in there.I have been looking into seeing how I can acquire a service that will help me let go and transcend from all the unresolved issues that I am currently struggling with.These issues have been holding me back from growing and becoming the man that I am meant and intended to be.They are also holding me back from the healing that I desperately need to help me finally heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please pray that I find the right therapy so I can finally let go and start transcending from these unresolved issues so I can finally discover the real healing that I need to help me heal and overcome.I really do want to heal and overcome and I really need to find the right therapy to finally let go and transcend from these unresolved issues.I want to finally discover and experience real healing.I really want to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.Please pray that I find that right therapy.I also ask that you continue to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work and when I was finished with that,I popped a movie into the DVD player and I watched it.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work and after that,I went out to pick up some dinner for me.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and relaxed for the rest of the evening.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Right now,I am in a very difficult place as far as my emotions go and I really don't feel like talking very much in regards to where I am at in my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.I am still not feeling any relief right now as a result of the stressful situations that happened within this past week.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of seeing the nurse practitioner at the local hospital,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I reduced some of the personal PC work that I would do later on in the day.After that,I washed my hair over the faucet in the kitchen sink.I also shaved after washing my face.After that,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I decided to relax and pop a movie in the DVD player to watch it.After that was over,I got dressed into my usual casual clothes and I went out to get myself a sandwich for dinner at a local Subway.
Before going to Subway,I went to a local supermarket to buy a gallon of milk.After paying for that,I bought my sandwich along with a bag of cool ranch tortilla chips and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate my sandwich and chips and decided to do a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Fellow blog followers and readers,I am still trying to recover from all of the stressful situations that happened me during this past week.I am still feeling over the edge and I really can't talk about my struggles at this moment.The stress of the week was a little too much for me to handle and I really can't bare to talk right now in regards to where I am at in my struggles.All I ask from all of you is your patience as I try to get back to where I can be emotionally as right now,I really don't know if I am coming or going.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I am really on edge right now as a result of the stress and strain that has been going on in my life this past week.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had a few things on my agenda for today.I first went to pick up my paycheck and after that,I decided to have lunch at a local restaurant that just opened up.After I was finished eating there,I headed back out to cash my paycheck and another check that I received a few days ago.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did some more personal PC work and after that,I popped a movie into the DVD player and I watched it.After that was over,I heated up some leftovers and ate them.
After eating,I decided to pop another movie into the DVD player and watch it.After that was over,I decided to do a little bit of cleaning up around the house and after that was done,I did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
As for my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I am still not up to par as of yet to share where I am at with these struggles that I have.I am still resting and relaxing and hoping to start healing and feeling more at ease in the next few to several days.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often as I am feeling overwhelmed by all the stress and strain that has been going on in my life that last two days.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of going to church as usual on Sunday,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the upcoming weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair,but also, very stressful day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual cups of coffee.After my coffee,I had to wash my hair over the sink and when that was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I went to my mechanic's garage for inspection and he told me that I needed two new tires for the front for it to pass.After that,I went to another local garage that sells used tires and I had them installed.After that,I headed straight home as I had to do a little bit of work at home before heading back to my mechanic's garage to get the new sticker for a year.When I had that done,I headed for home.
When I got home,I got yet another phone call as my phone had been ringing off the hook all of the day.It was a friend of mine who needed my help desperately.After hanging up,I headed out to help my friend.This was a disappointing thing.I was hoping to get around to doing some more much needed work around the house,but had to drop that to accommodate that friend of mine who needed help.It took me a little over half an hour and when I was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare my evening meal when again,my phone rang again and it was my niece telling me that they were installing the new hot water tank and that also put a monkey wrench in my evening as I was hoping to have my evening meal and enjoy a movie,but again,I had to change everything to accommodate her and her kids alongside her live-in boyfriend so that could be done.I still had my evening meal,but I felt that my evening was ruined.After nearly and hour and a half,they all left and I had the rest of the evening to rest and take it easy.I am hoping that the next few days will be beneficial as I am going to need some rest from all the stress that have accumulated over the last couple of days.Overall,a pretty fair,but also very stressful day today,I still managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I am feeling rather tired and somewhat stressed out as a result of the last two days.I will start sharing in regards to my struggles,such as where I am at and where I am hoping to get at,hopefully tomorrow.All I ask is that y'all continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair,but stressful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first checked the work schedule to see if I was on there,but I wasn't.After that,I headed over to a local supermarket to turn in some bottles that were left for me.After that,I bought a few things from the supermarket and after that,I went to the bank to withdraw some much needed money.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I called my niece to explain a problem that I was having.My hot water heater tank sprung a leak and a representative from the city came over to shut the water off for the time being and left.I told her the problem and she and her live-in boyfriend came over.He fixed it a little and also advised not to use too much water unless necessary.I gave my niece part of the money to help towards getting the new one and they left.After she left,since it was too late to cook,I went out to pick up a take out meal from Wendy's and Taco Bell.I also bought a small bag of tortilla chips from a nearby 7-11.I headed straight home and I ate my meal.I also watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player.When the movie was over,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Over the next several days,I have to start doing some more much cleaning up around the house as I have been putting it off for much too long.That is my resolution for the next several days.Since I am laid off,I need to start doing this or I will never get it done.Overall,a pretty,but stressful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I will share where I am at in my struggles tomorrow as I am really tired from all the stress of the day and my medication is starting to kick in.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't be afraid to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I will also work to keep up on my personal praying time as well.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of having my car inspected tomorrow morning and hoping that it doesn't need any repairs to pass,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the late morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed out to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that was over,I started to reheat some leftovers.
After eating,I popped another DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that was done,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though it does,I am still in my usual daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult struggle that I have.Today,I wasn't tempted to act out in any way,shape of form.I guess that by staying busy with what I had to do kept my mind off of the sexual stuff that is connected with the SSA struggle.though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the day after tomorrow.Satan and his minions can strike at any time.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Your support in both of these areas is still very important to me.I need to reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Your support also helps keep me going.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair over the sink and after that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly headed for the post office to mail out an important money order and I headed for home after that.
On the way home,I stopped at a local 7-11 to pick up a gallon of milk.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the milk away and I quickly did my personal PC work.After that,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that was over,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I popped another DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.This is the week before Halloween and I am watching the entire Halloween film series non-stop for the week.I will be watching these until the 2009 sequel to the 2007 re-imagining of the original 1978 film that started it all.I have a blast watching these films each and every year around this time.When the Halloween week comes,I will be watching a couple more Halloween related films alongside some TV specials that are also related.I also did some more personal PC work when the movie ended.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles,I am feeling rather tired tonight and can barely type anything as I am always correcting myself in terms of spelling mistakes.I will start informing all of you in regards to them tomorrow.In the meantime,please continue to keep me in your prayers and please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you and Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.There was also a charity pasta lunch after that service and I had a nice plate of pasta and some wonderful fellowship with some or my fellow worshipers.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a sweatsuit.I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed in casual clothes as I had some important stuff that I needed to do.
I first went to the Best Buy in the next county to pay a bill.After that,I made a few stops at a few stores.I had to pick up some things that I needed and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away for tomorrow.I was hoping to have a nice dinner,but it was too late to start cooking.I went back out again to pick up some take-out food from a few local restaurants.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I sat down too eat my dinner and I also watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player.I also did some more personal PC work.After that,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though it does,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I wasn't tempted to act out in any way,shape or form.I stayed busy much of the day by doing my computer work and being out and about in the community.It kept my mind off of the sexual stuff connected with the SSA struggle.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful.Satan and his minions can strike at any time when least expected.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue keeping me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good and busy day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I got dressed for work and I proceeded to head for work.
The work day went as well as expected.After it was all over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while before showering quickly again.After that,I headed out to check out a sale that was in my area,but couldn't find anything that interested me.After that,I headed for a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of Hot Pockets to have with my dinner.After that,I went to check out a local mattress store to check out their mattress stock.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that,I prepared a light evening meal.
After my light evening meal of a bowl of soup and the two Hot Pockets that I bought,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and watch it.After that was over,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good and busy day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult struggle that I have.Early this evening,I was tempted to indulge in fantasizing and lusting after other men,including imagining myself in sinful sexual activity with them.But this time,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him for the strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and didn't cease praying until the temptations died down.I prayed and I prayed and when I was finished,I felt better and much stronger.I am now going to make it my resolve to pray whenever temptations come around.I am also going to make it my resolve to start to try and pray frequently to him.I may need to ask for strength daily and often.I don't want to fall back into the trap of falling into sin and repenting.I also still have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike again when least expected.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to pray for me and again,I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual in the morning,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had a few things on my agenda for today.I first went to pick up my paycheck from work and after that,I headed out to the post office to mail out a money order.After that,I headed for a local supermarket to pick up a gallon of milk.After that,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up something that I needed.After that,I got some gas at a local gas station.I also cashed my paycheck as well.After all of these things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put everything that I bought away and I enjoyed a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.After it was over,I did some more personal PC work.After that was done,I headed back out to get myself another sandwich from Subway.I headed straight home to eat it.When I was finished eating it,I relaxed as I wasn't feeling too well to go anywhere.My head was hurting me and I was also feeling some pains in my legs.I just laid down and read and prepared for my evening retirement as I had to get up early tomorrow morning and head for work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though it continues to do so,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,with the latter being the most difficult struggle of the two.Tonight,I was at home much of the time as evening came.In the mid evening,I went into my room and I sat down on the edge of my bed.I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I first confessed sins to him that I committed today when I gave into temptation.After that,I unloaded all of the unresolved anger,resentment and trauma issues that were in my life and that contributed to why I was struggling with SSA and everything connected with it.It may also be the reason why I have been giving into these terrible temptations that have been overwhelming me as of late.Yes,temptations have been overwhelming me lately and they have been piling on me one after the other.I unloaded everything and asked him for strength to help me let go of all of these negative things and also to help me develop a very forgiving heart as well.My anger and resentment has been towards my father,my locally living sister,my other sister who lives out of town,the man that she was involved with who hurt her and myself physically,the bullies in school that called me names and constantly harassed me,the teachers and administrators that did nothing to stop the bullying by the bullies and inadvertently letting these bullies walk over them as if they,the bullies,were truly running the school and they were simply getting paid by the school district to simply sit down and do nothing to stop the bullying and the harassment.It was also towards those who sexual abused me for their pleasure,including the incidents that happened to me at 10 years of age and 16 years of age and all the other members of my own gender who used and abused me for their own pleasure.Last but not least,to the boys who chased me into the path of two cars that hit me when I was 17 years old.I also had anger and resentment towards the religious cult that I followed for two brief years,especially those who made up phony stories about me although I was innocent of the things that they said about me.I threw everything on my Heavenly Father and while doing so,tears did start to come out of my eyes,though it didn't lead to full blown crying.I prayed for I don't know how long as I wasn't concentrating on the time as I was.But when I was finished,I felt a lot better as again,I felt that a huge weight had been lifted off of my shoulders.I also asked that my Heavenly Father help point me in the right direction to help me in letting go of these things so I can not only transcend,but also start finally discovering real healing and also,overcoming this terrible SSA.Last week,I did have a talk with my pastor about these things and he said that he would like for us to schedule a talk that we can have to discuss these things.We haven't set up anything yet,but I will be meeting with him Sunday morning to do so.I hope that this is a true start to transcending and finally,healing from and overcoming this terrible SSA.Also,I prayed that my Heavenly Father forgive me for not letting him in those times that I stumbled and fell and for not letting him in when I should have.I confessed that leaving him out and not letting him in was wrong and again,asked that he forgave me for that sin.I am now hoping that this is the true as well as a new and fresh start.I want to start transcending now and start the real process of healing from and overcoming this terrible SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,I still need your prayerful support and your positive verbal support.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I would appreciate these things very much.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I will be working and earning a little bit of money.After that,I don't know what else I might do.But I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

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Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.While having my second cup,I got a phone call from my job placement counselor/coach and she said that I had to come to the agency to fill out some paperwork so they can transfer my case to another agency.After washing my hair,face and shaving over the kitchen sink,I got dressed up in dress clothes and I headed for the job placement agency to fill out the paperwork.After filling it all out,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local former shopping mall parking lot as there was a contest by a local car dealership there.I won a gift card that can be redeemed at the local Super Wal-Mart.After that,I bought a bottle of dish detergent at a local supermarket.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,a DirecTV person was there to meet me to help me get my DirecTV service up and running again.It took a little over an hour,but it's finally up and running again.When the repair person was doing his work,I showered quickly and finally had my usual quick breakfast later than usual.After all the stuff was done,I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that,I headed out to run a few errands that needed to be run.After I was done running them,I stopped at a local church that was having a free dinner.After I was finished eating,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed from my casual clothes into a sweatsuit and I enjoyed a little TV.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though it does,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult struggle of the two.There is also something that I haven't really talked about much in my struggles,I have been focusing so much on temptations related to the SSA struggle that I haven't talked about one other thing in my struggles.The link between my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and my SSA struggles and what role the former has on the latter.You see,as I have been reporting,I do have BPD,which is an acronym for Bipolar Disorder/Depression.My emotions can be on a roller coaster ride and that can make it tough for me to stay on top.One day/minute,I can be up and feeling pretty good,but,at times,the next day/minute,I can be down and feeling not so good.I never know how my moods will be from one day/minute to the next day/minute.If that wasn't bad enough,I also have to put up up with the hallucinatory effects of Schizophrenia.I sometimes hear things that others can't hear.At times,when I walk,I hear footsteps walking and when I stop to see who or what it is,I see nobody and/or nothing.I also hear voices calling my name and when I turn to see who it might be,the same results as in nobody and/or nothing there.My struggles with this mental illness double whammy also makes my SSA struggles more difficult because,at times,I hear voices in my head telling me to grab my private parts and start to manipulate them and yes,sexual images of men do cloud my mind when I do this and it's like I hear these images talking to me asking for sexual favors and even showing their own private parts to me in hopes that I would provide them relief or anything that they want.Plus,past sexual experiences that I have previously can be rehashed and that starts the whole chain all over again.My struggles with the mental illness double whammy were caused by all the traumatic experiences that I had in my life that I shared in my Saturday October 11th post.I also must add that when my mother rescued me from my father's abuse,a bitter custody battle ensued between the two of them.During that bitter custody battle,my father was the cause of another traumatic experience.My mother put me in a particular local school that was affiliated with the church and one day,my father tried to take me out of the school by force after I refused to go with him.I screamed for him to let me go and that I didn't want to go with him,but he ignored my loud pleas.If it weren't for two janitorial workers who were in the right place at the right time,I would've been on my way back to the state of Oklahoma against my will.The police were called and before the custody battle was over and my mother got full custody,he took off and was too cowardly to appear in court.Not only that,at the court house,I was in a literal tug of war between my mother and my father because my father refused to let go of me and all of these things messed me up mentally and emotionally.This,alongside the sexual abuse that I endured when I a 16 year old kid talked me into performing oral sex on him when I was 10 years old and also,the rape episode that I endured when I was 16 years old when a man in my neighborhood tried to ram his genitals up my rectum without using a condom and it hurt horribly.There were also other instances when I was also used and abused by other members of my own gender for their own pleasure.These experiences and all the other traumas in my life,including the spiritual abuse caused by my father and the religious cult that I followed for two brief years,is why I am still caught in the emotional trap of this terrible SSA struggle.As I said before,I have been in therapy all of my life from child therapy to various psychiatrists,psychologists and my current therapy with the nurse practitioner and the social worker who serves as my therapist now at the local hospital,but none of the therapies that I have been with never ever pointed me in the direction of letting go,transcending and going on to discover the true and vital healing that I truly and desperately need.I want to heal from and finally overcome this terrible SSA,but I first need to learn how I can let go,start transcending and really discover the real healing that I so desperately need as I really don't want to repeat this same old cycle of falling and repenting.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I also would like some advice on how I can finally let go and transcend from these experiences to discover true healing and finally and really heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a Celebrate Recovery group in the evening,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and later on,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda for today.I first helped out a friend who needed my help.After that,I turned in a few bottles that I had in the back seat of my car.After that,I went to a local Subway to buy a sandwich.After that,I headed straight home as I didn't like the look of the sky when I was heading for home.
When I got home,I ate my sandwich and while doing so,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that,I did some more personal PC work and later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult struggle that I have.At times,I wish that I didn't have to struggle with SSA.The struggle to try and stay sexually sober in the SSA struggle can be very difficult.It isn't easy to stay sexually sober in the struggle.It is always a constant fight to maintain sobriety.I know because I am always in a constant battle to maintain sobriety.I am always being tempted to act out in many ways.There are many ways that someone with SSA can act out besides seeking out partners of the same gender to indulge in sinful sexual activity with.The other ways of acting out are fantasies,lusting and masturbation,which also includes genital manipulation when the genitals are flaccid,that usually goes along with the fantasizing and the lusting.Of course,there is another way that many do and that is looking up porn online and watching it.The thing with all of this is that it does little if nothing to reaffirm a man's true gender identity.The only thing it reaffirms is the so called "Homosexual/Gay" identity,which is a false identity in and of itself.It does get rough for me at times.I am always bombarded by temptations to act out on these unnatural sexual desires that I have.As I stated before,I talked with someone about this sort of thing and they said that I may have some unresolved anger,resentment and trauma issues from my childhood.I am thinking that this could be why I keep getting bombarded as at times,when I get a new therapist,I am always recycling my old stories of all the abuse that I endured throughout my life,which is physical,emotional and sexual.The thing is that while I survived these things,I have never been pointed in the right direction to transcend and move on.I want to discover and actually feel real healing from SSA.I also want to overcome this terrible SSA.I hate that I have these unnatural sexual desires.I also hate it that I struggle with this terrible emotional condition.As I said,I wish that I didn't have to struggle with SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am again asking that you all continue to keep me in your prayers.Please pray that I find the right sort of counseling so I can let go of these issues,start transcending and moving on so I can finally feel the healing that I truly and desperately need.I need that counseling so bad and desperately.I also ask that y'all leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your verbal encouragement as much I need your prayers.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I quickly washed my hair and shaved.After that,I got dressed up in dress clothes and I headed out to the job placement agency to meet with my job placement counselor/coach to go over a job application that I filled out over the weekend and after that,I signed it and left the agency to drop it off at a local restaurant.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed in casual clothes and I headed out to help a friend.After that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Salvation Army thrift store and I bought a few nice things.After that,I headed over to the drug store to pick up my prescription refill.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into sweatpants and did a little bit more personal PC work.I also started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and watch it.I also relaxed while doing so.I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though it does,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult struggle of the two.Right now,the only thing that I need to work on is how I can transcend the traumatic and abusive situations that I am currently struggling with now.The thing is that if I want to discover and get the real healing that I really need,I need to start learning how to get the issues resolved and start transcending from these experiences.I need to find the right help and therapy so I can start doing that.It is just that I don't want to keep on falling into sin by manipulating my genitals to any sexual images of men that cloud my mind,which leads to fantasizing and lusting after these images.I talked this over with someone that is one of those reparative or conversion therapists and they say that the reason could be that I have some unresolved anger and trauma issues from my childhood and that is the reason why I keep doing this sort of thing repeatedly.If that is the reason,I simply need to see how I can get these issues finally resolved so I can let go,transcend and start moving on to become the man that my Heavenly Father wants and intends me to be.I really want that and I don't want to feel sexual feelings for men anymore.I hate that I have these disgusting and unnatural feelings and I do want to heal from them and also,I want to really overcome this terrible SSA and start being the man I am meant to be.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue your prayers for me as I still really need them.I also still need your positive verbal support as much as your prayerful support.Thanks in advance for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of helping a friend out with something,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I had to return a couple of important phone calls,which were by my job placement counselor/coach and my mechanic.I had to reschedule my appoint with the former for tomorrow morning and with the latter,I have to call him back on Thursday.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and while doing that,I got another phone call from my urologist's office to reschedule my appointment tomorrow to next Wednesday.After that,I finished my personal PC work.When that was finished,I had a light lunch and I watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player.Since it was raining today,I stayed home and took it easy.I was also still exhausted from my working yesterday into the late evening.I also in pain here and there.During the relaxation time,I did some more personal PC work and later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I popped a DVD into my DVD player and I watched it.After that,I did some more personal PC work.I also enjoyed some music while doing so.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though it is,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.In my Saturday night post,I revealed all of the negative experiences that I went through in my life.All the trauma,physical,emotional and sexual abuse and all the issues and hurtful feelings related to these things that I went through.While being a survivor of it all is one thing,I was never able to transcend all of these things.I have been in therapy all of my life.I have been from child psychologists to psychiatrists to social workers and nurse practitioner and none of them ever tried to point me in the direction of letting go,transcending and moving on.I am also taking psychiatric medication alongside the therapy.I really want to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA,but all of the issues that I have gone through haven't been resolved yet,but I want to get them resolved so I can go on and become the man that my Heavenly Father wants and intended me to be.I want to heal from these unnatural sexual desires and go on to become the man I'm meant to be as my Heavenly Father wants and intends me to be.I just need to find the right therapy to do that.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Please pray that I find the right help and therapy that I need to get these negative issues resolved so I can let go and heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,is still very important to me.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of meeting with my job placement counselor/coach to go over an employment application and helping a friend out in the afternoon,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful,eventful and busy day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and after showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got into a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow members,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at another local church that was having a pasta dinner there.After I ate with the people,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a sweatsuit and I did my personal PC work.While doing that,I got a phone call from my workplace saying that a position opened up for the afternoon and I was asked if I could come in and work.I said sure and after we hung up,I finished my personal PC work.After that was done,I filled out a job application and after that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.After that,I got dressed in work clothes and I headed for work.
When I got to work,I immediately got started and it was great to finally be working.The work time went by pretty fast and when I was finished,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped and got a bite to eat as I was hungry.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate my light dinner and waited a while before turning in for the night.I got out of my work clothes and into bed clothes.After relaxing a while,I decided to retire for the evening.Overall,a wonderful,eventful and busy day.I still managed to get a little bit of recommended Holy Bible reading done.
Tonight,since I am exhausted and tired from working,I will not talk about where my struggles are and vice versa as I am tired.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Thanks to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support and to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of meeting with my job placement counselor/coach for some application assistance,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ