Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the late morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair over the sink.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed as I had attending a friend's birthday party in my plans for today.I headed there after I was done with my personal PC work at home.
The party was wonderful.After it was all over,I dropped a guest off at his place and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the drug store to pick up a couple of prescription refills.After that,I headed straight home as it was storming and I wanted to be home before it got worse.
When I got home,I hurried into the house and changed from my casual clothes into my sweatsuit and did some more personal PC work.
Later on,when it was mealtime,I heated up some leftovers from last night and I ate them.After that,I watched a classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work and as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading as well.
My left eye is still in the healing process at this time.I have been putting drops in all day per requirement,but I am still not at 100%.When I got up out of bed,I had a wee bit of pain and I put the drops in when I got to the bathroom.I also put in more before I left the house.My nose still hurts a little when I blow it,but I know that will still take time to pass.I am hoping that by the end of the week,I will be at 100% and if not,I will have to see my general medical doctor Monday afternoon and I will let them know.For now,please continue to pray for me while I am still going through this thing with my left eye and also,leave some verbal encouragement in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I relaxed for much of the day as I had nothing to do nor anyplace to go.I watched a few classic TV episodes from a DVD set that I have.
Later on,as the early evening was coming,I got dressed and I headed out to a local supermarket to pick up a few things for dinner.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched another classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,though I am feeling better in regards to the conjunctivitis in my left eye,I am still not at 100% yet.I still get pain on the left of my nose when I blow it.I am hoping that after tomorrow or a few more day from now,I will be at 100%.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Please pray that I fully recover from this condition.Your positive verbal support in the comments section would also help me as well.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a birthday party that I was invited to,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly as I needed to clean myself up after not showering the last two days because I was taking care of my left eye and rested for the whole time.It was great to shower and finally feel clean again.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I got dressed in casual clothes and I headed out to the post office to mail out an important bill payment.After that was done,I stopped at a gas station to get a little bit of gas and when that was done,I headed straight home.The birthday party that I was supposed to go to has been postponed until Wednesday.I got a phone call from the person that is throwing the party and they told me that.
When I got home,I changed into a pair of sweatpants and did some more personal PC work.I also watched a couple of classic TV episodes on a DVD set that I have.
After having a light evening meal,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am still not out of the woods as of yet.I am still treating my left eye.While most of the pain around my eye has disappeared,I am still feeling pain on the left side of my nose when I blow it.I am still treating the problem and I am hoping that it heals soon.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please continue to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need the support of all of you.I need it daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the late morning as I chose to sleep in as a result of eye condition,and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I continued to put drops in my eyes and after that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I continued to take care of my left eye throughout the day while also staying busy with other things.I also watched some TV and did some personal PC work throughout the day.
After having another light evening meal,I chose to watch a movie that I popped into the DVD player.Later on,while continuing to take care of my left eye,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
As I have been reporting,I have been taking care of my left eye as a result of the Conjunctivitis that I was diagnosed with on Friday.I am feeling much better,but I am still not out of the woods yet.Until I am feeling 100%,I will continue to talk about this.Please continue praying for me and please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to a birthday party,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I had my usual quick breakfast and after that,I put a couple more drops in my eyes as a result of my having Conjunctivitis.After that,I laid down for the rest of the morning to rest my eye and when I got back up later in the afternoon,I put more drops in my eye and laid down while listening to some music.I continued to treat my eye for the day and laid down for much of the day to rest my eye and hopefully,get right back to being myself and resuming my life.
Likewise with last night,I had a light evening meal and rested again.Later on,as it was getting late,I took my last drops for the day and went to sleep.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
As I said,I have Conjunctivitis and I am currently treating it.Though much of the pain is gone,I am still not out of the woods yet.I am going to continue with my treatment and hope for the best.Your prayers ad positive verbal support are always appreciated.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,though I was hoping to attend church as usual,but as a result of my eye problem,I am going to stay home and rest up.I am hoping that my condition improves and my left eye will be back at 100% soon.I will try to get a follow-up with either my eye doctor or my general doctor if my condition doesn't improve or worsens.Again,please continue to pray for me and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed in casual clothes to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had a few things on my agenda for today.I first went to the rehab center to visit with my therapists and with the job placement counselor,which all went great.After that,heeding their advice when I explained about the problem that I have been having with my left eye,I headed for the emergency ward at the local hospital to get my problem checked out.They diagnosed the problem as Conjunctivitis and gave me two different kinds of eye drops for the problem.After leaving the hospital,I stopped at a nearby drug store and got the prescriptions filled and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I took one of the drops and after that,I had a light evening meal as I really wasn't in the mood to eat anything,but had a light meal.An hour later,I took another drop and didn't take any more until it was close to my bedtime.I relaxed while doing some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Right now,I am currently treating my left eye for the problem that it has.I have just started taking the drops tonight and so far,the pain has been slowly dissipating.However,it will take a few more days to see if the treatment will work out and the problem will heal.I am hoping and praying to my Heavenly Father constantly and I am hoping that the problem will heal and I won't have the problem anymore.They did advise me at the hospital that if the problem doesn't go away within the few days,see if I can make a ready appointment with either my eye or general medical doctor to discuss further treatment options.I am hoping that my problem will heal soon.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I need all the prayers that I can get.I also need some positive verbal support in the comments section.Please continue to be with me while I am going through this difficult time with the problems that I am having with my left eye.Please continue to pray for me.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with hoping to at least attend church this Sunday if my problem hopefully improves,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the upcoming weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and when that was finished,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda for today.I first went to cash a check at the bank and after that,I went to my general doctor's office to make an appointment.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the drug store to pick up a few things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away and I headed back out again to go to a free dinner at a local church.
The dinner was great.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did some more personal PC work and I watched a little TV.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am still not feeling up to snuff.My left side is still hurting me terribly.The area around my eye is still hurting.I am still having an excessively watery eye.I am still getting congested and though I have been blowing my nose throughout the day,it isn't going away.It seems to be getting worse instead of better,which is why I made the appointment with my general doctor.If this problem doesn't get better soon,I don't know what I will do.I am sick of the pain.I am sick of the watery eyes and I am sick of blowing my nose constantly to keep my nasal passages clear.The pain is becoming unbearable and it's also affecting my mood.I am always putting my hands on my head and I don't know whether I am coming or going.Please pray for me that I recover from this soon.I need all the prayers that I can get.I am tired of feeling this way and I want to be relieved of it.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Thanks to all of you for your prayers.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of seeing my counselors at the rehab center,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.I am also hoping to be starting to feel better by tomorrow.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I hurriedly washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed quickly to head for the place where my weekly Wednesday morning and afternoon groups are.
The morning group went well.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and when I was finished,I headed back for the afternoon group.
The afternoon group went as wonderfully as the morning did.After that,I headed straight home as I wasn't feeling too well.I had a terrible headache on the left side of my neck that was caused by nasal congestion and seasonal allergies.
When I got home,I changed into my pajamas and I took something for my headache and congestion.I laid down for a while and that did some good,although I was still aching a little on the left of my head.I took a little bit more of something that I took earlier and I relaxed in a chair while waiting for the headache to completely disappear.
After changing back into casual clothes,I went back out to check up on a friend that I hadn't seen nor heard from in a while.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into a pair of sweatpants,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Today,I went through most of the day without any problems.When I was laying down trying to get rid of my terrible headache,the temptation to act out by fantasies and lusting started coming over me.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked him for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and I prayed for that strength until the temptation was reduced to nil.I slept for a while and there were no problems.Still,I would appreciate the continued prayerful and positive verbal support of my fellow blog followers and readers.I still need both your prayers and positive verbal support.Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work.When that was finished,I had a terrible headache,so I took something for it and laid down for a while.My problem with my left eye was making my head hurt.It has been watery and the area around the eye has been hurting.After laying down for a while,I sat up and relaxed,though my head and the area around my eye was still hurting.
When it was the mid afternoon,I decided to change from my sweatsuit and into casual clothes,I headed out to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things that I needed.After paying for these things,I headed for the drug store to pick up a prescription refill.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put everything away and prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little TV and I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked for strength to help me fight and resist temptations in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and didn't cease praying until the temptations were reduced to nil.When I was finished,I felt stronger and knew that I received what I asked for.I have to make it a habit of praying daily and establishing a personal relationship with my Heavenly Father.I can't fall back into the trap of relying more on myself and less on my Heavenly Father.I have to keep on remembering that I am imperfect and I need my Heavenly Father to help sustain me.I can't do it alone.I have to have the sovereign Lord and creator,my Heavenly Father,on my side and in my life daily and constantly.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support daily and often.I need to be constantly reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to pray for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a couple of groups that I will be attending tomorrow,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I went and did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed for much of the day as I had nothing else to do.
Later in the afternoon,I decided to get out and buy some microwavable dinners to have for dinner tonight.After paying for those,I headed back home to heat them up.
After I was done eating,I watched a little TV and I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to get ready for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I must talk about something that I need to talk about.This morning,upon arising,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer.I went to him in the name of his son Jesus Christ.The prayer was about some things that I needed to get off of my chest.What motivated this was a couple of posts here by a regular follower and reader of my blog.Those posts made me realize something in my SSA struggle.Lately,I have been relying more on myself and my own personal strength rather than on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.This is why I have been giving into temptations an awful lot lately.I also realized that not relying on my Heavenly Father and his son is,in itself,a sin.I have also been neglecting lately to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer quite a bit.Not doing this,I actually was letting Satan and his minions in to make me stumble and fall and every time I stumbled and fell,it made me miserable because I knew that that the things that they were making me were wrong and unacceptable.When I went to him in prayer,I unloaded all the sins that I committed during that time.I unloaded everything from all the fantasies and lusting to the giving into the temptations surrounding these.It was terrible that I was giving into these terrible things.I have been at the bottom lately as a result of some negative things happening in my life,with the worst being that two weeks ago,I learned that I was let go from my job,with the reason being that they are going to start with new people and also,because the then head chef,who hired me,resigned from his position.I was heartbroken by this report and now,I am back at square one in regards to my job status.Again,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and confessed every sin.I left nothing out.I prayed and I prayed.I unloaded everything in prayer to him in the name of his son Jesus Christ.Again,I left nothing out as I prayed.I also said that I was sorry for not relying on him and his son in my struggles and I repeatedly begged for his mercy.I didn't cease praying until everything was unloaded and also,while I was praying,tears were coming down my eyes because I really was sorry and really wanted him to forgive me and to be merciful to me as well.When I was finished praying,I felt a whole lot better as I felt that a very heavy weight had been lifted off of my shoulders.I also felt better because I truly believed that I was forgiven.After that,I went on with the rest of the day.I also asked for strength to help me in my struggle for today.I now have to make it a habit of going to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to ask for this strength daily and not just when I need it.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to also keep me in your prayers.I still need need your prayerful support constantly.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I also still need your positive verbal support constantly alongside your prayers.I need to be constantly reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone and that there are people still behind me every step of the way in this struggle.Please continue to pray for me.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ simply for being there and for everything that they both give.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.We had a substitute pastor give the sermon today and it was great.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree to pick up a few things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into casual clothes.I quickly did my personal PC work while listening to some good music.
The only disappointment of the day was that my niece canceled the dinner we were going to have.After hearing this,I went out for a dive and stopped at the local Target to pick up a gallon of milk.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the milk away and I had a bowl of soup for dinner.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Today,my depression started to get worse and on top of it,my left eye was getting watery and it also was painful.I did take something for my sinuses,but that didn't do much help.I also used eye drops,but that didn't stop the watery eye.I am going to have to make an appointment with my eye doctor to see if I can get anything for a prescription for this problem.I don't feel like reporting anything on my struggles tonight.I am hoping that I am feeling better by tomorrow.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed quickly and I headed out to the monthly Men's Network meeting.
The meeting was wonderful.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed back into pajamas and I laid down as I was still feeling sleepy.After getting back up,I quickly did my personal PC work and listened to a little music while doing so.When that was done,I relaxed and enjoyed a classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have.I also would prepare my evening meal after doing so.
After eating,I watched another classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have.I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult struggle that I have.Today,though it is,I had no problems in regards to temptations nor cravings to act out.While that was good,I was awakened from a deep sleep in the wee early morning hours when I was having a really terrible dream.The dream was about a married man and I having a secret Homosexual affair with each other.The man didn't resemble anyone that I know personally nor anyone that I have known previously in my life.Fortunately,I woke up with a gasp and I also had an erection as well.I simply dismissed the dream as being just that,a dream,and went back to sleep with no problems as the dream didn't recur nor come back.I went through the day today without any issues nor negativity.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am still needing your support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Your support helps keep me going and helps strengthen my determination.Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual and dinner at my niece's house,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair over the sink and after I was finished with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I relaxed for much of the day as the day was really windy.I stayed home and watched a few classic TV episodes on a DVD set that I have.After that,I got dressed in casual clothes and I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched another classic TV episode from the DVD set that I have.I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,I changed into pajamas and I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult struggle of the two and also,it's even more difficult because of the mental illness combination that I have.I am still a work in progress and I know what I need to do is to try and get myself going in a positive way to get these SSA issues resolved.I am still having a hard time and at times,it can drive me up the wall.Right now,I am still hoping that the therapeutic road that I am going on will help in getting these issues resolved.I still have to get the unresolved anger,trauma and trust issues resolved and I am hoping that this new route will help me.I have found that this is the reason why I can't stop the constant falling and repenting in regards to SSA when I get tempted to act out by fantasizing and lusting after other men.I also still need spiritual direction aside from the secular direction that I am currently on in regards to my therapy.I still have to keep in mind that the sexual activity between two members of the same gender is wrong,unnatural and also,inappropriate.I also still have to keep in mind that my Heavenly Father,when he created all human kind on Earth,that he never intended for sexuality to be used and abused the way that the world around us is using and abusing it.I can't let the world nor the unnatural sexual desires that I have define nor dictate to me how I will act or the type of person that they presume for me to be.I have to keep in mind that I am a man made in my Heavenly Father's image and that my body is biologically hard-wired to be compatible with a female as my Heavenly Father created man and woman,male and female,and accepts no substitutes nor anything out of that.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need the support of all of you,both prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.I need to be constantly reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.I also need to be shown that I am loved like a human being and I also need constant reaffirmation that I am a man and a male.Please continue to pray for me.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for simply being there and helping me get through the negative aspects of the struggle that I have.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual on Sunday,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the upcoming weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed and watched a little TV for much of the afternoon.I also laid down and read for a while as I listened to some music.
Later on,as the early evening was approaching,I got dressed in casual clothes and I headed for a local church for a free meal,which was wonderful.After that,I for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local 7-11 to pick up an ice cream treat.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the ice cream treat in the freezer and I did some more personal PC work.After that,I watched a little more TV before preparing to retire for the evening.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though it does,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I can say that I wasn't tempted by the unnatural desires that I have.I will continue to keep up in my prayers to my Heavenly Father so I can hope to conquer this terrible SSA and hopefully,also to heal and overcome it.At times,SSA has stressed me out and at other times,I don't know whether I am coming or going.I am learning day after day that the SSA struggle is a difficult one,but my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia make this particular struggle even more difficult because I have to also put up with sounds and voices that only I can hear and nobody else can.At times,I hear voices telling me to grab my private parts and mess with them and when that happens,sexual images of men cloud my mind.There are times that I wish that I didn't have to struggle with this terrible condition.I know that it isn't my fault that I struggle with SSA as many factors and experiences in my life contributed to my struggles that I had no control over.Still,I am not letting those things be a crutch to me as I am going to continue in the fight and I am going to work on going to my Heavenly Father in prayer a lot more so I can finally conquer this terrible thing.I also still need prayers from all of you.I also still need some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need the support of all of you daily and often.I need to be both reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly got dressed and I headed for the place where the groups I attend each week are held.
The morning group went well.After it was over,I headed out to a local kitchen for lunch and after I was finished eating,I headed back for the afternoon group.
The afternoon group went very well also.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local pizzeria by my house to buy a few pizza slices.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate the slices of pizza that I bought and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I decided to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a couple of classic episodes of a TV show that I have on DVD.I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
This morning,when I got out of bed,I felt that while I was sleeping,I had a nocturnal emission and I didn't discover it until I got out of bed.When I immediately felt the wetness on my right side,I changed my underwear and had my coffee after doing so.Today,I was so busy with my groups and such that I had no problems with any temptations today in regards to my SSA struggles.I am also feeling a lot better that I had been from the last several days.I was feeling very down and depressed for a while,but I am feeling much better and even more happier,but still,I am not at 100%.I think that I am only at 90% at this moment,but I guess that is better than a lower grade.I am hoping to be at 100% pretty soon.I still need prayers from all of you and positive verbal support in the comments section very much.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed for a local garage to get new tires put on my front wheels.After they were put on,I had lunch at a nearby pizzeria.After I was finished,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into a sweatsuit and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed for a while and after that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I am still feeling down in the dumps.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks to all of you and Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a couple of groups that I go to each week,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had a few things on my agenda for today.I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up some important things.After that,I went to another store to pick up a few more important things.After I was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.After was done,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting later,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I apologize for not really sharing where I am at in my struggles,but lately,my medication has been kicking in earlier than usual.I can barely type right now.I will hopefully start sharing where I am at in regards to my struggles tomorrow.I have been feeling so tired,exhausted and down in the dumps as of late and I don't know when I will be fully out of it.Please continue to pray for me.Please continue to leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Happy Easter to everyone in the world.
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished with my shower,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church.They were having an Easter breakfast in the morning before the worship service and that is why I headed for there without eating.
The breakfast was wonderful.The worship service was equally wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into casual clothes.I quickly did my personal PC work and when it was done,I headed out to a friend's place for dinner.
The dinner at my friend's place was wonderful.After hanging out there for a while,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket and picked up a few things.After that,I headed over to a nearby Dollar Tree store to pick up a few more things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my sweatsuit and did some more personal PC work.I was still feeling hungry,so I fixed up a light steamer dinner in the microwave and ate.After that,I watched a little TV.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am again feeling really tired and exhausted.I had an eventful day and I am feeling sleepy.I will start reporting where I am at with my BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA struggles again tomorrow.I am also still feeling down in the dumps,although I did have a good time today.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need the support of all of you daily and often.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued support and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that was done,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and when that was finished,I relaxed and enjoyed the second part of a movie and after that,I headed out to do some errand running at a few local stores.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did some more personal PC work.When that was finished,I started to prepare a light evening meal.
After eating,I watched a few cartoons themed to Easter and after they were done,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late and I was getting tired,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I am feeling extremely tired like last night and I am not feeling very good emotionally.I am hoping that by tomorrow,I am feeling better as it will be Easter and I want to be in better moods than I was in today.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support daily and often.It both reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in my struggles,whether it's BPD/Schizophrenia or SSA.Please continue to pray for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual and dinner at a friend's house after that,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I went out to do some much needed errand running,including withdrawing money from the bank and much needed shopping.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I went and did my personal PC work and when that was done,I popped a movie into the DVD player and watched it.After that,I went back out to get a money order for my car insurance.After that,I went straight to pay for my automobile registration online.After that,I did some more personal PC work.After that,I had a light evening meal and when I was finished,I got dressed up in dress clothes and I headed for church the evening's Good Friday service.
The service was wonderful.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into pajamas and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,as a result of my busy day,I am really feeling tired and exhausted,so I will leave it here.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Your support is very important to me as I need it each and every day.Thanks to all of you and Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church on the holiday and having dinner with a friend,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the upcoming holiday weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I went to the bank to make payment on something and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that,I popped a movie into the DVD player and watched it.While watching it,my case worker came over and we talked for a few minutes.After that,I went back to the movie and when it was over,I did some more personal PC work.After that was done,I went back out and picked up a little bit of take-out food from a local Wendy's.After that,I headed home to eat it.
After I was finished eating,I got dressed up in dress clothes and I headed for church for the Maundy Thursday/Holy Communion service.
The service was wonderful.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into pajamas and did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am not feeling up to snuff.Last night while in bed,I didn't get much sleep and I woke up a couple of times,but went back to sleep.I am still feeling the ill effects of last night,though I had a pretty good day.I don't remember if I took my medication last night or not,but I must have as I did get sleepy prior to going to bed,but didn't sleep much.I am hoping to get much more sleep tonight when I get into bed.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support fellow blog followers.I still need reassurance that I am not alone in my struggles.Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to the bank to withdraw money and the Good Friday evening service at my church,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I got dressed and I headed out to the place where I have both a morning and afternoon group.
The morning group went well.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch.After that,I headed back for the afternoon group.
The afternoon group went as well as the morning.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did my personal PC work.After that,I relaxed and watched a short cartoon.After that,I headed back out to pick up some take out food for dinner and after that,I went home to eat it.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,upon arising,I gave into temptation.I gave into temptation to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men clouded my mind and I wound up ejaculating.After washing my hands,I went to my Heavenly Father and asked,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to forgive me for sinning and also to be shown mercy because I had given into this for a third consecutive time.I really felt terrible for that and I prayed hard.I left nothing out.I prayed and I prayed and when I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.Truthfully,I don't know what is wrong with me.I can't seem to shake the obsessiveness that I have nor the obsession in itself.I don't know whether I am coming or going.I can't seem to shake this terrible obsession loose.I want to break free and overcome this terrible obsession that I have with members of my own gender,which includes their bodies and everything related to men in general.If any one of you out there ever had this particular obsession,how did you manage to break free from it and overcome it.Please share with me that and I am hoping that it will work for me.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need the support of all of you daily and often.Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of the Maundy Thursday service in church tomorrow evening,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did 3/4 of my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed and left the house as I had a couple of things on my agenda.
I first helped take a friend to their doctor's to get a check-up.After dropping her off,I popped in to see how another friend in the city was doing as I hadn't heard from him in a while.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I finished my personal PC work and I popped a movie into the DVD player and I watched it.After that,I did some more personal PC work and when that was done,I headed out to get some take out food from a local restaurant in my hometown.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate my take out meal and after finishing,I took out the trash and recyclables to be picked up tomorrow morning.After that,I changed into pajamas and did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I am feeling extremely tired tonight after all the activity that I did for today.I will talk about where I am at in regards to my struggles tomorrow.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support daily and often.Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a couple of groups in the morning and afternoon,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I didn't get up out of bed until the early afternoon.It's hard to believe,but it's true.I didn't get up until a little after 1:00pm in the afternoon.After having my usual 2 cups of coffee,I washed my hair over the sink and had my usual quick breakfast,which was long overdue.I quickly did my personal PC work and since it was raining for much of the day,I stayed home and I took it easy.I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it and after that was over,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a couple of classic TV episodes on a DVD set that I have and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I am feeling 100% percent better than yesterday.I am no longer feeling any queasiness in my stomach and I am no longer feeling any pains in my head.I guess that resting and a couple good nights of sleep,alongside medication,both medical and spiritual do a world of good to help relieve the pains.The only pains that I had for much of the day were weather pains within my pelvic region as we had rain all day.Whenever dampness in the weather forecast,I get pains in that area as my pelvis was once fractured when I was younger.I am feeling better now and I am also in better spirits mood wise and that is very good.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section as well.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I still need constant reassurance that I am not alone.Please continue to pray for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of taking a friend to her doctor's office and to check up on another friend that I haven't heard from in a while,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I quickly got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed from my church suit into casual clothes and quickly did my personal PC work.I was doing it quickly because I had a dinner invitation and I wanted to get the work done.When I went to call the person who invited me,they told me that it was canceled because her family canceled coming over.After hanging up,I decided to watch a couple of movies that I had on a DVD while I relaxed.After that,I headed out to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a pack of Charco-Caps for my repeated gas and bloating problems.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I took some of the caps and started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode that I popped into the DVD player and watched it while relaxing.I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting later,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am feeling much better than I did the last two days.My stomach wasn't as queasy today like it was Friday night and all day Saturday.I was also passing terrible and foul smelling gas like you wouldn't believe.I am still feeling some queasiness,but I am hoping to feel better by tomorrow.If I have to get any Maalox or Mylanta,then so be it.I haven't felt this way in a long time.I did take the two aforementioned Charco-Caps and that helped relieve the gas,but I am still feeling somewhat queasy even after eating a full meal.I am just hoping that I am feeling better by tomorrow.I don't want to stay in bed all day and feel sorry for myself as that won't get me anywhere.I am hoping that I will be feeling better by tomorrow.I can't take the queasy painful feelings anymore.I won't report anything on my struggles until I start feeling really better.Please continue to pray to pray for me that I get better soon.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need prayers and positive verbal support as I am not feeling up to snuff yet.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to y'all for your continued support and Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning to use the bathroom as I had to go big time.For last night,I slept on the couch as I wasn't feeling too good last just in case my queasy stomach would have went on to more worse things,but fortunately,it hadn't.After using the bathroom,I transferred all of my blankets to my bed and I went back to sleep for a few more hours because though I was feeling a little bit better,I still wasn't out of the woods yet.
After getting back up again,I used the bathroom again and after that,had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair over the sink and after that,I had my usual quick breakfast.I laid down for much of the day as I wasn't still feeling up to snuff yet.I am glad that my stomach-ache didn't go from bad to worse,but I was still aching for much of the day.Later on,I decided to get get dressed and head for the local Super Wal-Mart to get another box of Alka-Seltzer,a bottle of aspirin and a gallon of milk.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I heated up a can of chicken noodle soup for dinner as I didn't want to eat anything heavy while my stomach was still hurting a little.I also watched a couple of classic TV episodes from a DVD set that I have.Later on,after doing the dishes and taking some more Alka-Seltzer,I started to prepare for my evening retirement hoping that my stomach will be 100% better tomorrow.Overall,it was a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Please continue to keep me in your prayers as I am still not at 100% yet in regards to my physical health.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Please continue to pray for me and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support and Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I am hoping that I will feel a lot better so I can attend church as usual tomorrow morning.Please pray for me that I do.I prayed last night that my Heavenly Father heal me from the stomach-ache and that it wouldn't go on to anything worse and it worked.I will be praying again tonight that my Heavenly Father,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,will also take my headache and heal my stomach fully.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I went out for a drive to get an estimate on used tires for my car's front end,but the man who owned the place advised me to try getting a pair of band new ones at the local Super Wal-Mart once I have the money to purchase them.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up something for dinner.After that,I headed for a local Burger King to have a light snack of a sandwich.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I bought away and after that,I relaxed and watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode from that a DVD set that I have into the DVD player.When it was over,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am not feeling very good.My stomach has been hurting me and I have been feeling warm all over the place.Plus,I am also again feeling extremely tired as my medication is kicking in yet again when least expected.I am hoping that this is only a short spell and doesn't develop into anything really serious.I am hoping to feel better by tomorrow.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Please pray that I feel better by tomorrow and also in regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Please continue to pray for me.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for the weekend,if I feel better by tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the upcoming weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I wound up waking up in the early afternoon and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work and when that was finished,I got dressed and went out to the bank to withdraw some money.After that,I headed back home to register some of the bills at the Where's George site and after that,I headed back out to a church for a free dinner,which was wonderful.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something important that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed from casual clothes into pajamas and after that,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting later,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am again feeling extremely tired as a result of my medication kicking in when least expected.I can barely type this without misspelling words.I will start talking about my struggles tomorrow.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and positive verbal support in the comments section is always appreciated.Thanks in advance to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I quickly washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly got dressed and I headed out as I had a couple of groups today that I didn't want to miss.
The first group went wonderfully well.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after that,I headed back for the afternoon group.
The afternoon group also went wonderfully well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I immediately went and did my personal PC work.It was a lot,but I got it done.After that,I relaxed and listened to some music for a while.After that,I headed back out for the final Lenten dinner at my church's fellowship hall.
The dinner was wonderful.I had some wonderful fellowship and it was great to be around my fellow worshipers.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into pajamas and prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted to act out in any way,shape of form.I guess that by keeping busy with the things that I participated in,it kept my mind off of the sexual aspects and that was very good.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Satan and his minions are out there and they relentlessly try to tempt all humans who worship the only true sovereign Lord and creator of the world and universe,our Heavenly Father,to break his laws in regards to,but not limited to,sexuality.They will try and try.I am still working on getting tough with myself.I need to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I,with the help of my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,own them and not the other way around.I can't let these unnatural sexual desires that I have dictate to me how to act nor define who I am as a human being.I need all the help that my Heavenly Father can give in the name of his son Jesus Christ.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I need to both reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed and proceeded with the rest of the day.
I had a few things on my agenda for today.I first went to the rehab center to meet with the center manager and with the job placement counselor there.
Both meetings went well.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a couple of thrift stores in the area to look around.After that,I bought a couple of things at a nearby Dollar Tree store.After that,when I arrived back in my home area,I stopped at a local bargain supermarket for a gallon of milk.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched another classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,after a short sober period,I gave into temptation.I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals this morning upon arising and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and left nothing out.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall and pleaded for my Heavenly Father to be merciful towards me.After I was finished,I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I don't know what's wrong with me.Why do I keep giving into the same old temptations?Every time I turn around,I am getting tempted to act out by fantasizing and lusting after other men,and I keep giving into that particular terrible temptation.Again,I don't know what's wrong with me.I need to learn how I can break free from this terrible obsession that I have with members of my own gender and overcome it at the same time.If anyone out there can give me any advice,I would really appreciate that.I also feel that this obsession is connected with the unresolved anger and trauma issues that have happened in my life coupled also with the sexual abuse that I endured when I was younger when I was abused by members of my own gender.I want to stop this and I need all the help that I can get.I am afraid to reveal this to my therapist as I don't want this terrible false identity of Homosexual to be affirmed on me as the Homosexual identity is a false identity and there's no legitimacy with it.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section,especially some advice on how I can break free from this terrible obsession that I have and how I can overcome it.I need all the help,prayerful and positive verbal,that I can get.I am hoping that all of you will be here for me and to help me with any helpful advice that can be given.Even if you know of articles written by Christian writers about this particular subject,share those as maybe they could help me.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my daytime groups and the final Lenten dinner at my church fellowship hall,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After having coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that,I popped a movie into the DVD player and watched it.After that,I got dressed in casual clothes and I headed out.
I went to the local Big Lots and I bought something.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my sweatsuit and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for turning in for the night.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am again feeling way too tired.I will talk about my struggles tomorrow when I am more able.Please continue to pray for me and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of seeing the manager of and the job placement counselor at the rehab center,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.I did another reading from the Holy Bible and I also volunteered to help with the offering collecting.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local bargain supermarket to pick up something I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my sweatsuit.I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a couple of classic episodes from a TV show that I have on DVD.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day,as for me,going to church on Sunday always makes the day eventful.I also manage to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I can say that no temptations came my way.I went through the day with no problems.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Satan and his minions will always try to get me to go against my Heavenly Father's perfect law in regards to,but not limited to,sexuality.I can't let Satan and his minions get what they want.I have to show them,with the help of my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,that I am much stronger than they are.I also have to show them that the unnatural sexual desires that I have don't own me,but that I own them.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and I need all the support,both prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda for today.I first went to a local Dollar Tree to pick up a few important things.After that,I went to a nearby supermarket to pick up something else.After that,I headed over to the local Big Lots to buy something else that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away and I did some more personal PC work.After that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a couple more classic TV episodes from a DVD set that I have.After that,I quickly did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted today.I went through the day without any problems and that made me feel good.Though I escaped today,I still have to keep in mind that there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time with temptations galore.They will try to tempt me to break my Heavenly Father's perfect law in regards to,but not limited to,sexuality.I have to show them,with the help of my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,that I am much stronger than they are and that the unnatural sexual desires that I have don't own me,but I own them.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need the support of all of you daily and often.I need to be shown that I am not alone in this particular struggle constantly.Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section as well.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual in the morning,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and when that was finished,I got dressed to get out and buy something that I wanted for dinner.Regarding my appointment with the job placement counselor at the rehab center,I postponed the appointment until Tuesday afternoon as the manager of the center changed his appointment with me for Tuesday afternoon.
I went to the local Big Lots to pick up a couple of things that I wanted to eat for dinner.After paying for these things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my sweatsuit and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a couple of classic TV episodes on a TV set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I changed into pajamas and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,as a result of my medication kicking in,I can't really talk about where I am at in my struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.I am feeling extremely tired once again this evening and I can barely type with yawing and almost feeling asleep.Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support and Thanks also goes to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I quickly washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work.When that was finished,I relaxed for much of the day while listening to music.After that,I headed out to a local church for a free dinner and after that,I got some gas at a local gas station.I also went to a local bargain supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After dropping these things off at home,I went for a drive and when it was getting evening,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree to pick up something and after that,a nearby supermarket to pick up another thing.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am feeling tired.I will start to talk about my struggles and where I am at in them tomorrow when I am more awake.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of meeting with my employment counselor,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I didn't have time to shower,so I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving and cleaning my underarms to apply fresh deodorant.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed out to my groups.
The morning group went well.After it was over,I went to a local kitchen for lunch.After that,I headed back for my afternoon group.
The afternoon went as well as the morning group.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I had a phone conversation with my case worker.After that was over,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I got dressed and headed over to a Lenten dinner at my church's fellowship hall.
The dinner was wonderful and I also had some wonderful fellowship.After it was all over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into pajamas and prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,though it is,I had no problems.I went through the day and had nothing in regards to temptations get at me.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I head my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and decided to go to the bank to cash my state income tax refund check,only my bank told me that I would have to wait a day to claim the funds.After I withdrew a little bit of money,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I quickly did my personal PC work and also relaxed for much of the afternoon.I listened to some music while relaxing in the afternoon.Later on,I went back out to pick up some take-out food for dinner.
After eating my take out food,I did some more personal PC work and again relaxed while listening to some music.Later on,as it was getting late,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted in any way,shape or form to act out.I went through the day and nothing happened.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Satan and his minions are out there and they can and will try to get me to break my Heavenly Father's perfect laws,including,but not limited to,the laws regarding sexuality.They will try to get me to act out on the unnatural sexual desires that I have and I can't let that happen.I have to show them,with the help of my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,that I am stronger than they are.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support daily and often.I need to be continuously reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my groups and a Lenten dinner in my church's fellowship hall,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I would wash my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed over to another local garage to see if I had a coolant leak anywhere.
The second opinion was the same as the first.This particular garage informed me that there was no leak anywhere and after that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I quickly did my personal PC work and since I was having leg cramp pain in my right leg that I had since this morning,I took a few leg cramp pills and laid down for a while.After getting back up,though I was feeling a little bit better,but still had some pain,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I did give into temptation this morning upon getting out of bed.I manipulated my genitals and yes,sexual images of men clouded my mind,but fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far.I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I pleaded with my Heavenly Father to be merciful to me as I fell short today and I was really sorry.I prayed and I prayed.I left nothing out as I prayed.When I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I still need to work on getting tough with myself.I can't fall into the trap of falling into sin and later repenting.I have to work on constantly going to my Heavenly Father and asking him for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible urges.I can't keep giving in to them.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.I need all the support that I can get for this particular struggle.Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow church people,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a tube of toothpaste.After that,I headed for the drug store to pick up a couple of prescriptions.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed from my suit into a sweatsuit and I quickly did my personal PC work.After that,I had a terrible screeching headache,so I took something for it and I laid down for a while.After getting up,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I can safely report that I had no problems with temptations today.I went through the day without anything wrong and that was great.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Satan and his minions are out there and they will try to get me to break my Heavenly Father's perfect laws,including those regarding,but not limited to,sexuality.I can't let that happen.I have to show them,with the help of my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,that I am stronger than they are and that they don't own me.I also have to show the unnatural sexual desires that I have that they also don't own me.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.I need support not just from fellow SSA strugglers,but also from Christian men who are straight and also understand what SSA men are going through and what they need to become the whole man that I am meant to be and the man that my Heavenly Father wants me to be.Please continue to pray for me.Please continue to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of getting a second opinion from another local garage to see if I have a coolant leak anywhere,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and relaxed for much of the afternoon.Later on,I decided to get dressed in casual clothes and headed out.
I went for a drive to get out to another repair garage in town.On Monday,I will be going to that garage to get a second opinion to see if there is a coolant leak.I am hoping that there isn't but one can't be too sure.After that,I went to the local shopping mall and had a slice of pizza in the food court.After that,I bought a few small things at the local Taco Bell and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I fixed a small green salad and ate the stuff from Taco Bell along with the salad.After I was done eating,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though it does,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into temptation early this morning by masturbating an erection away.I felt miserable after giving into this particular temptation and after I was finished washing my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and I prayed and I left nothing out.I begged for my Heavenly Father to be merciful towards me and to forgive my sin.When I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I really need to continue working on getting tough with myself.I can't keep on sinning and repenting of my sins constantly.I have to avoid falling into that particular trap.The thing is that I am really serious about wanting to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.Yes,I am.I want to overcome this terrible thing and become the whole man that I am meant to be in the eyes of my Heavenly Father.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I would really appreciate some positive verbal and prayerful support right now.I am still going through a very rough emotional time and I need all the help and support that I can get.Please continue to pray for me.I still also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support,both prayerful and positive verbal.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the ahead.FJ