Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning,had coffee and got dressed real quickly.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.After that,I had a light evening meal and did some more personal PC work.I later prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

I am very tired right now and can barely type.I will share more when I'm able.Please continue praying for me and please leave me some spiritually upbuilding and encouraging comments in the comments section.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day,which I hope goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning,had my coffee and got dressed real quickly.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a bit as I was really tired.Later on,I did my personal PC work.

I had a light evening meal in the early evening and I also did some more personal PC work.I later prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Last night,I turned to my Heavenly Father in prayer.I unloaded everything from my fantasies and lusting to my acting out to these things.I bared my soul and was almost at the point of tears while I was confessing all to my Heavenly Father.I also said a prayer for a friend of mine after that.I felt better and I slept well.However,I still need prayers from all of you.Please continue praying for me.I also would appreciate some spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words in the comments section.I still need all the support that I can get.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning,had coffee,showered and got dressed up in a suit real quickly.I headed for church as we had a special service today honoring church run schools this week.

The service was wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I stopped at a local Tim Horton's for a light and late breakfast and after that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed from my suit into pajama pants and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I did some vacuuming in the house and cleaned the bathroom.I also did some dishes.After that,I got dressed in casual clothes and headed back out.

I shopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few needed things.After that,I had a light evening meal at McDonald's.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and I did some more personal PC work.I relaxed for a while and after that and later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

I need some helpful and spiritual advice.I have been again falling into sin.I have been giving into the terrible temptations to fantasize and lust.Each and every time that I've fallen,I feel terribly miserable.I've fallen into a terribly vicious and evil cycle of falling into sin habitually.I want to stop doing this.I want to stop this vicious and evil cycle that I've fallen into.Yes,I have given into the terribly unclean habit of masturbation as well,which contributes to the fantasizing and lusting that I've fallen back into.I am still feeling miserable.I want to stop and break free.If anyone who reads my blog can provide any helpful advice,please do so.I really need some encouraging words and spiritual upbuilding right now.Please pray for me.Please leave me some spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words in the comments section.Please help me.Please point me in the right direction.I need all the help and support that I can get.Please help me.Please offer some helpful and spiritual advice.Thanks in advance to y'all for all of your help and support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

I also would appreciate prayers that I repair my relationship with my Heavenly Father as I have been failing to go to him in prayer as of late.I need some spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words on how I can do that.Thanks.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had a couple cups of coffee.I also would make a little more coffee for myself later on.After that,I did some of my personal PC work and when I was finished,I got dressed and headed out to do a little bit of shopping at the local Super Wal-Mart.After that,I went and bought a few slices of pizza at a local pizzeria and ate them.I also went to the local Taco Bell and had a couple of things there.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I relaxed and finished my personal PC work.I later went back out to a local taco place and had a light evening meal.After that,I had a Blizzard at a local Dairy Queen and after that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and I did some more personal PC work and after that,I prepared to retire for the evening.A pretty good day overall.

Please continue praying for me and also,I would appreciate some positive encouraging words and spiritual upbuilding in the comments section.Thanks to y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church as usual and I'm hoping to get some positive benefits out of it.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up early and after having my usual coffee,I got dressed and headed for work.

The work day was a little hectic,but okay.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and did 3/4 of my personal PC work.After that,I went back out to get something to eat.I headed for the drug store,but didn't find anything that I was looking for.I then headed for a nearby 7-11 and bought a couple of things.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I relaxed and finished my personal PC work.I then prepared to retire for the evening.A very good,but a little hectic,day overall.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave some verbal encouragement in the comments section.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow starts the weekend and I hope that it will be wonderful.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I got up early and after my coffee,I got dressed and hurried to work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I went to the drug store to pick up a pain reliever.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I relaxed and did some of my personal PC work.After I had a light evening meal at home,I finished my personal PC work and later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some encouraging and spiritually upbuilding posts.Thanks to y'all and Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that the day goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.After getting washed up and dressed,I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and after that,I headed to a local 7-11 to buy a sandwich and after that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I heated up a can of soup and had that with my sandwich as my evening meal.I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me and please continue leaving me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee and after washing up quickly,I got dressed and headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I stopped at a local store to turn in some empty bottles and headed straight home afterwards.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and did my personal PC work.

I also ate a light meal and did some more personal PC work.I later prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me.Though I am feeling better,I am still battling this cold and I am still coughing and sneezing with a runny nose.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I so desperately need some support in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.Thanks to y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day and I hope that it goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and had my usual coffee.I then showered quickly and got dressed.

Since it was holiday and I had the day off,I decided to spend some time with a friend and we spent a few hours together.I headed for home after that.

On the way home,I had a light lunch at a local small restaurant.I then headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.I later went out for a bite to eat.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and did some more personal PC work.I later retired for the evening.A pretty good day overall.

Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is back to work and I hope that the day goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and I washed up and shaved real quickly.After getting dressed up in a suit,I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.

Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I had a light lunch at a local Arby's and headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I changed into casual clothes and did my personal PC work.I then headed back out and had a few slices of pizza and after getting something to drink at a local 7-11 and dropping off some free newspapers at a few people's houses,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I vacuumed a little in the house and cleaned the bathroom.After that,I had a light evening meal and I quickly did more personal PC work.I later retired for the evening.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

I am still battling a terrible cold,but I am feeling better,though I'm still not out of the woods yet.Please continue praying for me that I get over this cold and please continue leaving some encouragement in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a day off from work and I am going to spend a few hours with a friend tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the late morning and had a few cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and got dressed to get a couple of money orders at the bank.After a light lunch at Burger King,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed again for a while.

After a light evening meal,I did some more personal PC work and later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A pretty good day overall.

I am still battling cold symptoms,though not as badly than the last few days.Please continue praying that I get over this cold very soon.I also would really appreciate some positive verbal support in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.Thanks to y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church as usual,which I'm looking forward to.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual coffee and I washed up.I got dressed and headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I filled my gas tank at a local gas station and headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while and I also did my personal PC work.I later prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

After my work day was finished,I had to really scrape ice off of my car as we had freezing rain and it was a chore getting all of the ice off my windshield and my passenger side windows.However,I managed to get it all off,but right now,it is snowing and it's a little windy.But I'm in the house and enjoying the peace and quiet.I have a three day weekend coming up and I'm glad for that.

Please continue praying for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the start of a three day weekend.I'm glad for that.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.I also washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed for the drug store to pick up a few prescriptions.I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and after that,I headed for a local church for a free dinner and after that,I went to a local supermarket to pick up a few needed things.I then headed straight home.

When I got home,I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

I am still battling cold symptoms,but not as badly as I was a few days ago,but still not out of the woods yet.Please continue praying for me that I get over this cold soon and please leave me some positive spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.Thanks for that from all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day and I hope that all goes well.After that,it's a three day MLKJR Holiday weekend.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I got up,had coffee,washed up and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed for home.

I stopped at a local 7-11 on the way home and a local Dollar Tree.I bought a few things there and I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and had a light evening meal.After that,I did my personal PC work and when that was finished,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I am still battling cold symptoms and I need prayers in hopes of getting well.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,which can be both spiritual upbuilding and words of encouragement.Thanks for that and Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning,had coffee and washed up quickly.I got dressed and headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I did a little snow shoveling and went back out to pick up a few things at a local Dollar General store.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did my personal PC work.Later on,I showered quickly and did some more personal PC work.I later prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

I am still battling terrible cold symptoms.Please continue praying for me that I get over this cold soon.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.Thanks to y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and washed up real quickly.I also had coffee and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed over to the bank to withdraw money and I headed straight home.

When I got home,I did a little vacuuming and I did my personal PC work.I later went out to a Chinese restaurant to pick up a couple pints of soup as I still have a cold.I headed straight home.

When I got home,I ate the soups that I bought and I did more personal PC work.I later retired for the evening.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I am still battling a terrible cold.I also would appreciate some verbal encouragement and spiritual upbuilding in the comments section.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I got up in the early morning and washed up real quickly.After that.I got dressed up in a suit and headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.

Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for a local drug store to buy Vitamin C supplements and after that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed from my suit into casual clothes and did my personal PC work.I have been battling cold symptoms for a while and as a result of this,I headed for the local hospital's emergency room.

I waited there for a while and after getting a couple of prescriptions,I got them filled at a nearby drug store and headed straight home.

When I got home,I took a little bit of the medicine and then,I headed back out to get a hot bowl of chicken noodle soup from a local Chinese restaurant.I also picked up a sandwich and a couple small bottles of orange juice at a local 7-11 and headed straight home.

When I got home,I ate my soup and sandwich and did some more personal PC work.I later retired for the evening.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

Please pray that I get over this cold soon and please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks and Thanks also top both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I got up and took my grand-niece to her job and after getting home,I washed myself and did my personal PC work.After having some coffee and doing a little vacuuming in the house,I headed out to do some shopping at the local K-Mart and the local Super Wal-Mart.I had to get some ice melt and a I bought myself a robe.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I cleaned the bathtub and the bathroom sink.I showered and shaved after that.I also did some more personal PC work.

Later on,I headed over to church for an Epiphany service and dinner,which was wonderful.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and I did some more personal PC work and later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day and a very good start to the weekend overall.

Please continue praying for me.Please continue to offer some positive verbal support in the comments section,which can be spiritually upbuilding and encouraging words.Thanks and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church in the morning as usual and after that,I have really nothing planned for the rest of the afternoon,but I'll simply play it by ear and hope for the best.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning,had coffee and got dressed quickly.I headed for work.

The work day was very hectic.Nothing was going right at the facility.Every time I turned around,the clients were complaining about something not working right or that it was too cold in one of the rooms.Not only that,the sign-in and sign-out computer went down all of a sudden.This really made the day very hectic.I also had to postpone doing a few jobs to accommodate other things that I had to do,but fortunately,I managed to get everything done,but the day was still hectic and stressful.After it was finally over,I headed for home.

On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few needed things and headed straight home once I got them.

When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy and did my personal PC work.Later on,I had a light evening meal and did some more personal PC work.I later prepared for my evening retirement.A very hectic and stressful day overall.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers as I'm really struggling right now as a result of the hectic day that I had.I really need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words in the comments section.Thanks for your continued support and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

The weekend starts tomorrow and I have nothing planned,except going to church on Sunday as usual.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I got up and had my usual coffee and after getting dressed,I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I did a little relaxing and headed back out to a local church for a free dinner.

The dinner was wonderful.After getting some gas at a local gas station,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and I did my personal PC work.I later retired for the evening.A very good day overall.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I really need prayerful support right now.I also would appreciate some needed positive verbal support right now.Thanks to y'all for your support.Thanks also to both your Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day,which I hope goes well.After that,it's the weekend.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I got up and had coffee.I got dressed real quick and headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.After that,I had a light evening meal and I did some more personal PC work before preparing to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I have a headache and I can barely type.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that the day goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up and washed up.I also had some coffee.I got dressed and headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.

I had a light evening meal and I did my personal PC work.I later retired for the evening.A very good day overall.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.I also washed up and got dressed up in a suit.I headed for church for the New Year's Day service.

The service was wonderful.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I got out of my suit and into casual clothes.I also helped take down the Christmas tree and after that,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I watched a few videos on YouTube.

Later on in the early evening,I went over to one of my nephew's house for dinner and after eating,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and I did some more personal PC work before retiring for the evening.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

Please continue praying for me and please leave me some spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words in the comments section.Thanks to y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is back to work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I got up in the morning and had coffee and after that,I got dressed up in a suit and headed for church.

The church service was wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed from my suit into casual clothes and I did my personal PC work.After that,I headed out to a local supermarket to pick up a few grocery items as I had a gift card to do so.After that,I got some gas and headed straight home.

When I got home,I did some work around the house by vacuuming a few rugs and cleaning the bathroom.After that,I had a light lunch and did some more personal PC work.

later on,in the evening,I showered and changed into dress clothes to head for the New Year's Eve church service.It was another wonderful worship service and after picking up a few slices of pizza at a local pizzeria,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and ate my pizza slices.I did a little bit more personal PC work before preparing for my evening retirement.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

I am feeling extremely tired.Please continue praying for me and please leave me some positive support in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.Thanks y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the New Year's Day church service and after that,I have no plans.I'll simply play by ear and see what happens.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had a few cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and relaxed for much of the morning.I did my personal PC work and after finishing that,I headed out to a friend's place to visit with him for a while.

The visit was wonderful.We also had dinner and after dropping his girlfriend off,I headed for a gas station to get some windshield washer fluid and after that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I did a little vacuuming in the house and I washed my face and shaved.After that,I showered quickly and I did some more personal PC work before preparing to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

I am feeling really tired tonight.Please continue praying for me and please leave me some spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words in the comments section.Thanks to y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church in the morning and also,in the evening.I am also hoping to get around to doing a little more cleaning before the day is through.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I got up and had coffee and hurriedly got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while.I also did personal PC work.I later had an evening meal and I did more personal PC work before retiring for the evening.A very good day overall.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please continue to leave me some spiritually upbuilding and encouraging words in the comments section.I am tired and I can barely type.I will try to share more tomorrow or when I can.Thanks.

This coming weekend,I am hoping to get together with a friend that I haven't spoken with in a while and church as usual on Sunday.I hope that the weekend,which will be three days,goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I got up out of bed and had my usual coffee.I then got dressed real quick and headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a short time and headed back out again.

I went to a local church for a free dinner and it was wonderful.After I was finished eating,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.After that,I planned to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Tonight,I'm feeling extremely tired as my medication is kicking in and I can barely type.Please continue praying for me.Please continue to leave me some spiritually upbuilding and encouraging words posts in the comments section.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that the day goes well for me.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.I was running late as I had to get my vehicle to the garage to get fixed as the muffler and exhaust system needed replacing and fixing.After dropping it off at the garage,I was given a ride to work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I called the garage and they picked me up from work.After paying for the repairs,I shopped at the local K-Mart and after that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and did my personal PC work.I also had a light evening meal.After that,I did some more personal PC work before preparing for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

My head is hurting me real bad.The pain is hurting me and I can barely think.I will try to post anything on my struggles hopefully by tomorrow or when I am feeling better.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some upbuilding and encouraging words in the comments section.Thanks to y'all and Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that the day goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,since I had the day off from work,I decided to catch up on some much needed cleaning in the house.After that,I went out shopping at the local K-Mart and after that,I had a light lunch at a local pizzeria and also shopped a little at the local Super Wal-Mart before heading straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for the rest of the day and quickly did my personal PC work.

After a light evening meal,I did some more personal PC work and after that was finished,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

My emotional state right now is varied.While I'm feeling at peace at the moment,I still feel anger and rage burning inside of me.I would like to let go of this unresolved anger and rage,but again,I don't know how to go about it.I am still asking for advice on how this can be done.I have been trying to let go of these things,but have failed.If anyone can help me,please do so.I need help and advice and also,as much prayerful support that I can get,alongside the spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words that I seek.Please pray for me and show me your verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a back to work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ

Merry Christmas to you all.

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.I then cleaned up and got dressed up in a suit.I headed for church for the Christmas Day worship service.

The service was wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I had a light lunch at the local Denny's.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my pajama pants and did my personal PC work.I also shoveled snow and showered quickly.I then got dressed in casual clothes and headed over to my nephew's house for Christmas dinner,which was wonderful.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and did some more personal PC work before preparing for my evening retirement.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

My head is hurting me and I am going to hold off sharing more about my struggles when I'm feeling better.Please continue praying for me and please leave some spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words in the comments section.Thanks for your continued support and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I got up and washed up quickly.I then got dressed up in a suit and headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.

Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I had a light late breakfast at a local McDonald's before heading straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did some personal PC work.After that,I had a light lunch at the local Taco Bell.After getting some gas and shopping at a local Dollar Tree,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and did some vacuuming up in the house.I also did some more personal PC work.I then relaxed again for a while until early this evening,when I attended the Christmas Eve candlelight service,which was another wonderful service.After some more wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and did some more personal PC work.I later retired for the evening.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,I would appreciate some spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words in the comments section.Thanks for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the Christmas Day church service and dinner at my nephew's house.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,though today,it was a little on shaky ground.

Today,I woke up and had a couple cups of coffee.After my coffee,I decided to do some of my personal PC work,but had to stop so I could take my live-in grandniece to work.

After dropping her off,I decided to do a little holiday shopping.I bought gift cards for some of my family members,but the day almost took a turn for the worse when I was going to get the last gift certificate when I discovered that my wallet was missing.I went back into the last store that I went into,but they said that nobody turned anything in.I also asked another store,but I got the same answer.Throughout my looking for it,I prayed to my Heavenly Father to help me find it as I was really sad and desperate to find it.I kept on praying and praying that the Lord would help me find it and I did.I was overjoyed to find it and I let the stores know that it was found and after that,bought the last gift certificate that I needed and then,I got my hair cut.I headed over to a local supermarket to buy a few things and after that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and finished my personal PC work.After that,I headed back out again to drop off a few free newspapers at a few people's houses with a Christmas card in each of them.After that,I also picked up a couple packs of Winter socks at the local Target.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I shoveled a little snow and I cleaned the bathroom.After that,I heated up my evening meal and ate it while watching a video online.After that,I simply did some more personal PC work.When the time came,I planned to retire for the evening.A pretty good day,though stressful when my wallet was missing for a while,overall.

Tonight,I am feeling thankful to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for helping me to find my wallet.I had to find it and relied on my faith,though I also needed help where I needed faith,in my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ to help me and that faith paid off.This shows that he is a very loving father and his son is a very loving savior.They helped me where and when I needed help.I am going to let this be a lesson to me.It is a very hard lesson.I needed to find it to make sure that my wallet didn't fall into the wrong hands with identity theft running rampant nowadays.Thanks to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything they've done.I truly appreciate what they did for me not only today,but every day.Thanks to them.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would still appreciate some spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words of support in the comments section.Thanks to y'all in advance for your help and support.

Tomorrow,it will be church as usual in the morning and for the evening's Christmas Eve candlelight service.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I got up and washed up real quickly.I then got dressed and headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I stopped at the local Target to pick up something that I really needed.After that,I went over to a local supermarket to pick up something for dinner.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and checked my e-mail and after that,I vacuumed the rugs in the house and showered quickly afterwards.I then started to heat up my evening meal and relaxed while waiting for it to get done.I also checked out some videos online while doing so.

After my meal was finessed heating,I ate it and watched a few more videos online.I also did my personal PC work and after that was done,I did some online browsing for a while until I decided to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Tonight,I am still feeling sad by the state that I'm in.I have still been saying angry things to myself under my breath and there is nobody there in front of me.I don't know why I keep doing this.I feel so terribly depressed and down as a result of this thing that I have,or should I say problem that I have.I'm afraid that if this keeps up,people will be afraid to come up to me to talk to me.I want people to come near me and not be afraid of me.I want to stop doing this,but don't know how to go about doing it.I have been asking for helpful advice from y'all,but nobody has stepped up.I need help and I need some helpful advice on how I can stop this.This anger and rage burning within me is making me miserable.The angry things I've been saying under my breath are making me miserable.Again,if anyone can help,please help me.I'm crying out for help and reaching out for support,but so far,nothing.Please help me.Please pray that I find help and that I break free from this terrible thing that is depressing me and making me sad so much.Please pray for me.Please leave any helpful advice in the forms or spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.I really need both of things real badly and seriously.Thanks to y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

The holiday weekend starts tomorrow and I will have a four day weekend coming to me.I am planning to shop tomorrow and attend both church services on Sunday and the Christmas morning service on Christmas.I hope that this holiday weekend goes wonderfully for me.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up and washed up quickly.After that,I drank some coffee to try and wake up and after getting dressed,I headed for work.

The work day went as well as expected.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and after that,I headed out to a local church for a free dinner,which was wonderful.After that,I went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things and got some gas at a local gas station.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I put the groceries away and shaved.I also showered after that and when I was finished,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.After that,I did some video watching on a few sites and did a little bit more personal PC work.I later retired for the evening as I was getting tired.A very good day overall.

Tonight,I am still feeling down and depressed over the issues that I have.My anger and rage issues have made me sad.I have been again saying terrible things in anger to myself under my breath and I don't know why.I have been saying really terrible things under my breath about my relatives and such.I don't know why I have been doing this,but I have been doing this for a long time.It always makes me feel miserable as these particular people have never done anything to me at all.I also really don't know any of these people in my family.I always feel miserable and ashamed of myself after I do this.I want to stop doing this.I want to stop saying angry things to myself under my breath.I am seeking answers/advice on how I can stop doing this.It's making me feel so miserable,sad,depressed and above all,I feel like the lowest on Earth as a result of this.I don't want to do this anymore as I am getting tired of saying these things in anger under my breath.If anyone can give me any answers or advice on how I can stop doing this,please share in the comments section.I need some positive support in the comments,such as encouraging words and/or spiritual upbuilding as I need both of these things real bad.I would greatly appreciate anything.Thanks for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day and I hope that it all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up and had coffee and also cleaned myself up.After that,I got dressed real quickly and headed for work.

The work day went well.There was also a small Christmas party in the staff break room,which was wonderful.After the day was over,I headed for a nearby post office to mail out some late Christmas cards and to get a money order.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and did my personal PC work.Since I had ate a lot of food today at work,I was still feeling full from what I ate there that I didn't eat anything at home.I simply settled into my routine at home and relaxed.I did personal PC work for a while until it was time for me to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

I am feeling extremely tired tonight and I can barely type.I will share more about my struggles when I am feeling more able.In the meantime,please keep up praying for me and leaving me both encouraging words and spiritually upbuilding comments in the comments section.Thanks to all of you and Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day and I am hoping that it all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

This morning,I got up out of bed and washed up quickly.After a couple cups of coffee,I got dressed and headed for work.

The work day went well,though it was also stressful.After it was all over,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree to pick up a couple boxes of Christmas cards.After that,I headed for home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while as I was really tired from my hard and stressful day.I also took the trash out to the curb.I then quickly did my personal PC work.I also posted a few comments in a few Facebook groups that I'm a member of.After that,I had a light evening meal as I wasn't very hungry.I did some more personal PC work.I later prepared for my evening retirement.A very good,but also stressful day overall.

In my last few posts,I have discussed my issues with anger,rage,trust and fear.For me,it was a very good unblocking posting all of these things and seeking advice form all of you.I will post more when I can about my struggles.Please continue praying for me.Please continue to leave me some positive verbal support in the forms of encouraging words and spiritual upbuilding as I need both of these things really bad.Thanks to y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day and I hope that all goes well for me.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I got up out of bed and had coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed to get ready for work,which I headed for.

The work day went well,though it was a little stressful.After it was over,I headed for home and while on the way,I stopped at a local 7-11 to pick up a sandwich for dinner and a packaged dill pickle,then headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I did my personal PC work and after that,when it was time,I ate the sandwich and dill pickle that I bought.After that,I did some more personal PC work.I later prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

I'm still yearning to break free from the anger that I feel.This anger that I feel is hurtful.I am also still saying terrible things under my breath and I want to stop doing that.I want to break free from all of these negative things and want to heal and transcend.I don't know how to do it.I want to do it,but need some advice on how to.If anyone has any ideas or advice,please share in the comments section.I am open to anything that can help me.I also ask for y'all to share what has worked for you and how it worked as maybe it could work for me.Please continue to pray for me and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section,which can be either encouraging words or spiritual upbuilding things.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well for me.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up and had coffee and washed up.I then dressed up in a suit and headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.

Both the class and the worship service were wonderful as always.I also read from the Holy Bible in front of the congregation today.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.

On the way home,I stopped at a local McDonald's for a quick bite to eat.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed from my suit into casual clothes.I quickly did my personal PC work and decided to go out and get a few slices of pizza for lunch.After eating them,I went shopping at a local supermarket and picked up several groceries.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I put the groceries that I bought away and did some cleaning up around the house.After that,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.I also had a light evening meal and did some more PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared for my evening retirement.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

Last night,I shared more about my emotional struggles,but I am still not getting any helpful advice from anyone.

I still have this intense anger and rage burning inside of me.I feel like a ticking bomb set to go off on impact.This anger and rage feels like a fire burning inside of me out of control.I just don't know what to do about these intense feelings burning within me.I still feel like I'm all alone at times,although I know that I'm not really alone.I also know that there are others who have the same struggles that I have and that they also have anger and rage issues as well.

However,there is one issue that I have kept hidden and that is the issue of trust.I am now admitting that I also have trust issues.Yes,I have issues with trust.

Why?

Because with my background as someone who has been used,abused in various ways and was the victim of bullying,I feel that there are certain people that I can't trust at all.Plus,with my religious background as following a cult for a short time in my early 20's,I was taught that those who were outside the cult couldn't be trusted.I was also the victim of relentless peer pressure to indulge in things that I wasn't comfortable with and when I wouldn't comply,I was called names and insulted.I was also made to look bad in front of others all because these people weren't getting their way with me.Like this one so called friend,he was a very promiscuous young man and when I refused to indulge in anything that he did,he made me the object of ridicule and wouldn't take me seriously as a person when I refused to do so.This affected the way that I trusted others and were contributors to my issues with trust.I was always afraid that he would try to set me up for a situation that I wouldn't have been able to escape from right away and that is why I put up a front that wasn't really me,which caused even further friction between him and I.Not only that,this particular guy was a narcissist.He always talked about himself.He would always brag about how much he was getting.How big he was and even rubbed my nose in his promiscuous lifestyle.I didn't bow down to his pressure nor did I follow him in his sexually active lifestyle mainly because I was afraid that I would turn out like him if I became promiscuous like he was.I didn't want to be like him as a result of his behavior and attitude and chose not to do so.There were also other young men that I knew that were the same way and that only made my issues with trust even worse.I still have issues with trusting others and I feel that this is hampering my healing and not getting me what I really need.

If anyone has any advice on how I can resolve these trust issues that I have,please share in the comments section.I need some helpful advice on how I can overcome and resolve these issues of trust that I have.I want to trust others,but feel trapped by the issues that I have with this particular area.Please help me.I need all the help that I can get.Thanks in advance for any help or advice offered.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that all goes well for me.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up and after washing up and getting dressed,I headed for work.

The work shift,which I had to make up for not working the afternoon on Tuesday,went well.After it was done,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed back out and had a bite to eat at a pizzeria in another area and after that,bought a bottle of windshield washer fluid and dumped it into my car's reservoir.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared for my evening retirement.A pretty good day overall.

For the last few days,I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride.I have been feeling sad and depressed one day/minute and feeling some happy feelings the next.But lately,I am still feeling the intense anger and rage that I have been feeling all of my life.I have said some really terrible things underneath my breath about certain people in my life,although they haven't done anything.I don't know why I'm feeling this way.The things I've said under my breath have been very atrocious and inappropriate.I don't know whether I'm coming or going.

I have also been struggling with SSA.I have given into sinful temptations quite a few times.It always makes me sad when I give into these things.On Thursday,after I was finished with a certain thing that I had to do at my work place,I went into the office,shut the door and asked my Heavenly Father for forgiveness and mercy in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I felt better,but I still need to work on repairing my relationship with my Heavenly Father as I haven't been really going to him lately as a result of the intense anger and rage that I feel.No,I'm not angry with my heavenly Father at all,but I have said some really angry things to myself lately and there's nobody in front of me as I'm saying these things.I feel so lousy as a result of all this emotionally tangled mess that I'm in because I feel that I'm sinning when I'm saying these angry things to myself.

I want to let go of these negative things and emotions,but I haven't been able to.

What am I doing wrong?

What is the right thing I need to do to let go?

I need some help fellow followers and readers.Please help me.Any advice is appreciated.

I want to let go and transcend.How can I do that?

Thanks in advance for anything helpful.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please continue to leave me some encouraging words and spiritually upbuilding posts in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church as usual.I hope that the day goes wonderfully well for me.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I got up and got ready for work.I headed out to work when fully dressed.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and did some snow shoveling.I also went out to a local 7-11 and bought a few things.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I had a light evening meal and I did my personal PC work before retiring for the evening.A very good day overall.

I will post some things in regards to my struggles hopefully tomorrow.I am feeling tired right now.Please continue keeping me in your prayers.Please continue to leave me some encouraging words and spiritual upbuilding in the comments section.Thanks to all of you and Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a day where I have to make up hours I didn't work Tuesday due to my doctor's appointment.I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up and washed up.After a couple cups of coffee,I headed for work.

The work day went well,though it was a little stressful.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and I headed back out again to a local church for a free dinner,which was wonderful.After picking up a few things at the local Super Wal-Mart and getting some gas,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I did a little cleaning work in the house and washed a few dishes.I did some more personal PC work before preparing to retire for the evening.A very good,but a little stressful,day overall.

I am feeling extremely tired tonight and I can barely type.I only ask you all that you please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some positive encouraging words and some spiritual upbuilding as I really need both of these things right now.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that the day goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today was a work day,which went well.After that,I headed for home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did some of my personal PC work.After that,I left the house to pick up a few things at the drug store and at a local 7-11.I headed straight home.

When I got home,I ate a light meal and I did some more personal PC work before preparing to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Tonight,I am extremely tired as my medication is kicking in.Please continue praying for me and please leave me some encouraging support and spiritual upbuilding in the comments section.Thanks for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that it goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up and washed up.I also had coffee and after getting dressed,I headed for work.

The half work day went well.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I showered quickly to clean up and after that,I headed for my doctor's appointment.

On the way there,I stopped at the local Denny's to have lunch,which was a breakfast dish.After that,I paid a much needed bill at the local city hall and hung out for a few minutes with a few people that I know.After that,I headed for my doctor's office.

The visit with the doctor went better than expected.They said that my blood pressure was good and that my heart rate was good.After that was over,I stopped at a nearby McDonald's for a cup of coffee and a few hash browns.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed clothes and helped out with some clean-up work in the house.After that,I had a light evening meal and I did my personal PC work.I later prepared for my evening retirement.A pretty good and somewhat eventful day overall.

Tonight,my head is hurting and I can barely write.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section,which is encouraging words and spiritual upbuilding that I really need.Thanks very much and Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up and washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work as it was a work day for me today.

The work day was pretty hectic in the afternoon.It was easier in the morning,but the afternoon was tough.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,there were a couple of workers working on one of the rooms upstairs in the house.They left over an hour after I gad gotten home.During this time,I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed out to a local supermarket to pick up some coffee and headed to a nearby Burger king for a sandwich and onion rings.I headed straight home afterwards.

When I got home,I cleaned myself a little and shaved.I did more personal PC work and prepared to retire for the evening.A very hectic and stressful day overall.

Please continue to pray for me as I am still struggling terribly right now.I also would appreciate some positive encouraging words and spiritual upbuilding in the comments section.Thanks for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day in the morning and a visit with my general doctor in the afternoon.I hope that both go well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I got up and washed up and shaved quickly.I then got dressed up in a suit and headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.

Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.After that,I ran a few errands that I needed to run and after that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I showered and cleaned the bathroom after that.I also had a light evening meal and I did some more personal PC work.I later retired for the evening.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

I am feeling really tired tonight.I can barely type and my head is hurting.Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that it goes very well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I got up to wash my hair and get dressed.I had to head for work today to make up three hours I didn't work on Wednesday due to my seeing my therapist.

The short make-up went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I did some cleaning up around the yard of the house and packed everything in big garbage bags.When that was done,I went on an errand to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I had a light evening meal and I did my personal PC work.I also watched a little TV.I later retired for the evening.A pretty fair day overall.

Please continue praying for me and please leave me some encouraging words and spiritual upbuilding in the section.My head is hurting me bad.I will hopefully share more tomorrow.Thanks again.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I got up and washed up quickly.After a couple of coffee,I got dressed and headed for work.

The work day went a little bit better than yesterday.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I did a little bit of cleaning in the house and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I simply relaxed for a while and had a light evening meal.I also did some more personal PC work.I later retired for the evening.A very good day overall.

I am still struggling terribly with fantasies and lusting.I don't know whether I'm coming or going.I am still seeking Christian counseling,but haven't found any yet.I will keep on searching for a Christian counselor until I find one.I still need to learn how to let got of past anger,rage and trauma issues.I could still use some helpful advice from all of you.

How did all of you learn to let go of past anger,rage and trauma issues?

Maybe what you all learned can work for me.Please share any helpful advice.Thanks.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section,which can be both encouraging words and spiritually upbuilding posts.Thanks.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I washed up quickly,got dressed and headed for work.

The work day was hectic.It went okay through the morning,but the afternoon was when the hectic stuff began.

I work as a janitor for a drug/alcohol rehab facility.The first thing to happen was a guy singing a song with the line "I need another cigarette"Later on,another guy,who was checking out and was waiting for a ride,accused me falsely of saying "Heroin" under my breath,which I didn't.I even told the guy he was mistaken,but he kept trying to argue with me that I said it,though I didn't.Fortunately,my fellow colleagues helped me out and told this particular guy to shut up.After some time,I managed to calm down and finish what I started around that time and did my last job of the day within the time frame.After it was over,I headed straight home and after a while,I changed clothing a little bit and I headed for a local church for a free dinner.After some shopping at 7-11,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I showered and did my personal PC work.I later retired for the evening.A pretty hectic day overall.

Tonight,my head is hurting me again.Please continue praying for me.Please continue to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need some encouragement and spiritual upbuilding and you can leave all of that in the comments section.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that it will be better than today.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up and washed up real quick,had a couple cups of coffee and got dressed.I headed for work.

The half a day at work went well.I headed over to my therapist's office for a session.I had a lot to talk with her about what had been happening with me over the last month.

The meeting with my therapist went as well as expected.After it was over,I had lunch at a nearby restaurant.After that,I bought myself an egg nog milkshake at a nearby McDonald's.After that,I was hoping to go to the public library,but when the snow got too intense,I decided to head straight home instead.

When I got home,I did some dishes and also cleaned around the kitchen after doing so.I also did some vacuuming.After that,I had a light evening meal and I did my personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

I really need some helpful advice.I haven't begun to let go of the anger and rage that is burning within me.This anger and rage has been burning within me for a long time.As I shared in previous posts,it's the way that I've been feeling towards my father,my paternal grand-mother,those who sexually used and abused me for their pleasure,the lies and deceit that I suffered while part of a religious cult for only two brief years and those who bullied me and called me names.This anger and rage burns really terribly and I would love to simply let it go,but I don't know how.It's easier to hang on to these negative emotions and feelings,but it's so difficult to let them go.I want to,but don't know how to go about it.I was also the victim of trauma all through my life.The trauma was caused by my father and his legalistic ways and his physical and emotional abuse of me.The rape that I endured when I was 16 years of age by a man who lived in my neighborhood.It was also being used and abused by various guys for their own pleasure and the near death experience I had when I was chased into the path of two cars when I was 17 years of age and the painful healing process that went with it.I want to let go,heal and transcend,but simply don't know how.I have held on to these things for so long that it has gotten very difficult for me to let it all go.

At times,I also have very strange and bad dreams at times.I really can't go into detail as to what happens to them because many of them are way too terrible to talk about.Some of these dreams are also very strange.At times,I see wild animals in my dreams.I don't know why,but I do.In one dream I had,I walked and saw a baby elephant who actually talked to me.There are also others where I keep walking and walking,but get nowhere.I even had one weird dream where I was sitting in a chair and the phone rang.The voice-mail came on and it was the voice of my deceased next door neighbor.This dream actually woke me up out of a deep sleep.I've even had dreams where I hung myself in an abandoned location and nobody was there to see.These dreams have also woke me up out of a deep sleep.One night,I had a dream where I was swimming to try to get to shore,but the shore kept getting farther and farther away the closest I got to the shore.I can't even understand these dreams nor do I know why I have them.

My fellow readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both encouraging words and spiritual upbuilding.I need all the verbal support and spiritual upbuilding that I can get.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that the day goes well for me.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I went to work and though the day was well,it was also a little hectic.I headed straight home after it was all over.

When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy.I also did my personal PC work.

After a while,I went back out to get a sandwich for dinner.After I got home,I ate it and did some more personal PC work.I later retired for the evening.A very good,but a little hectic,day overall.

Tonight,my head is hurting me and I am really tired.I can't really post anything in regards to my struggles as my head is hurting me terribly.Please keep me in your prayers and leave me some encouraging word in the comments section.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is work in the morning and my therapist in the early afternoon.I hope that both go well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today was a work day.It went well,though it was also hectic.I had to repeatedly tell the clientele at the place where i work the same old rules and such.They simply weren't listening too much.I was finally glad when it was all over when I punched out and headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I showered quickly and headed out to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things and I headed straight home.

When I got home,I had a light evening meal and I did some more personal PC work.I also did a little vacuuming in the house.Later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good,but also hectic,day overall.

Please pray that I make the move to seek Christian counseling.Please pray that I don't procrastinate.I need to seek it.I also really need it.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section,which can be both words of encouragement and spiritual upbuilding.Thanks for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that it goes better than today.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up and after cleaning up,I got dressed up real quick and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.

Both the class and the worship service were wonderful,with the fellowship after the service being equally wonderful.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I changed into casual clothes and quickly did my personal PC work.After that,I did some vacuuming in the house and went back out to get a few slices of pizza for a late lunch.After that,I headed back home to pick up a bagful of empty plastic water bottles at a local supermarket.After that,I did some shopping and when I was finished,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I put the groceries that I bought away and I showered quickly.I also washed my face and shaved after that.I also prepared my evening meal and after I ate it,I did some more personal PC work.As the evening was winding down,I prepared to retire for the evening.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

Last night,I posted that I am seeking Christian therapy and maybe it would help me with my struggles and also,to get me on the right track to healing and to find affirming relationships with other men.As I said,I simply want to be one of the guys in a healthy and authentic social setting.I want nothing sexual as sexual activity between two members of the same gender is wrong and sinful.I know that there are those who will disagree with that,but that's their choice to do so.I am hoping that by tomorrow or during the week,I will be making that step to make that phone call to make an appointment with a Christian counselor,especially that particular pastor that I've been meaning to call.I am hoping that this gets me finally on the path that I really need to get on and finally attain the healing that I so need to set me back on track.Please pray for me that I will make that decision and that I finally get what I need to finally have real healing and real affirmations that I need so much to get me on the right path.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section and again,please make it in the form of encouraging words and spiritual upbuilding as I really need both of these things.Thanks to y'all for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the start of the new work week and I hope that the first day goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the mid morning and worked on my personal PC work.I had to stop it for a while to drop my grand-niece off at work.After that,I went straight home to finish it.

I then took a quick shower to clean up and I watched a few YouTube videos.After that,I went back out to do a few things I needed to do.

I turned in some bottles at a local bottle and can return center.I then headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy a few things that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and watched a couple more YouTube videos.I then had a light evening meal and I did some more personal PC work.

I then headed out to a local 7-11 to buy a couple more things and headed straight home once I was done.

When I got home,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work and later prepared to retire for the evening.A pretty good day overall.

Two nights ago,I shared that I was trying to seek out healthy and affirming relationships with other men and how I was failing.Well,a close friend of mine and blog follower gave me some helpful advice that I truly appreciated.It was upbuilding in a friendly, loving and spiritual way.It was also loving advice that I also needed.It made me wake up that I need to work on my relationship with my Heavenly Father mostly than with other humans.While my therapy is doing well,I also need to seek out Christian therapy as this might help me get back on the right track and help me in my working on and with my relationship with my Heavenly Father.I have to start that right now and hopefully,I will feel better in the long run.

I've been wanting to seek Christian therapy and counseling for a long time,but keep procrastinating.I think that I'm scared to seek it or maybe I am not too sure about it.We just had a new pastor fill in the previous pastor's spot in my church and he seems nice.I've been meaning to ask him if he'd like to meet with me for something,but have been too fearful of it or not knowing how I should ask.I have also been meaning to call this other pastor that I know,but again,the same fears and uncertainty have been coming upon me and I procrastinate even further.I don't know how to go about this and I also don't know what to expect or anticipate.I don't know what could be wrong with me.I want to seek and pursue this,but my fears and uncertainty keep coming back.I am thinking of making this step maybe tomorrow or Monday.Please pray that I make this step and that I can get the right Christian therapy and counseling.Your prayers mean a lot to me and also,please continue to leave me some positive and encouraging words in the comments section,which includes more spiritually upbuilding comments.Thanks to y'all for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church as usual.I hope to get a lot out of it and learn to live by the lessons learned.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,i went to work and after it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and did a little bit of my personal PC work.

Later on,I went out to get a sandwich for dinner and a few other needed things.I headed for home and when I got there,I did some vacuuming in the house.

I ate my dinner and did some more personal PC work.I later retired for the evening.A very good day overall.

I will start posting more about my struggles tomorrow as I am feeling tired and my head is hurting.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some encouraging and spiritually upbuilding words.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

The weekend is here and with the exception of church on Sunday,I have nothing planned.But I hope that I get positive benefits out of something I do.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I went to work and it went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I did some checking up on my messages online and after that,I shaved quickly and headed out to a local church for a free dinner.After eating,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and quickly did my personal PC work.I also showered quickly and prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Lately,I haven't been posting very much in regards to my struggles.But I want to share another struggle that I have.It is in regards to my struggles with SSA,but only in another area.I am still trying to gain and find healthy and authentic relationships with fellow men.However,I have been striking out big time in my pursuit of these sorts of relationships.I have tried many means to try and gain these,but I'm failing.When I used to go out to hang out with some guys,I would give them my phone number and my home address for them to call me and arrange for get together's.But they never called me nor did they even offer anything in that regard.This has been frustrating me.I have been striking out in my pursuit of these sorts of healthy relationships where I can relate,identify and connect with other men.I simply want and need healthy and affirming relationships with other guys where the only real benefits are friendship,closeness,bonding and just being one of the guys.However,as I said,I've been striking out big time and it's not only frustrating me,but is also making me feel sad.It also makes me feel lonely.This is also making my SSA struggles worse.

I hate that I struggle with this terrible emotional condition.

I hate having these unnatural desires that go with this terrible struggle.

I also have a psychological sexual dysfunction problem as a result of this and also,all the sexual abuse that I suffered endured,alongside the religious/spiritual abuse that I suffered and endured at an early part of my life as a young man.I'm still feeling the effects of both of these abuses and I don't know if I will ever fully recover from it all.I have been in therapy all throughout my life as a result of all of this.I simply want to heal and recover from this terrible thing that I struggle with.The thing is that nobody wants to really help me.I feel all alone and it's making me feel really sad and depressed.I get hit with spells of the blues when least expected.I've been taking my medication and continuing my therapy,but these spells still hit.

I need more than just therapy and medication.I need to have healthy affirming relationships.I need to find myself in this terrible,cruel and mad world.I want to be accepted by other guys as I am,faults and all.I am hoping to find and have these types of relationships soon.If anyone can give me any good advice,please do so.Thanks.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please continue to leave me some encouraging and spiritually upbuilding words in the comments section.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I went to work and the work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I put some stuff in the garage and after that,I helped with a little cleaning in the house.After that,I went back out to the drug store to pick up my prescription and after that,I headed over to a local Dollar General store to pick up a few things.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I cleaned the bathroom and after that was done,I headed over to a local 7-11 to buy a sandwich.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I relaxed and ate my sandwich.I also did my personal PC work.After that,I planned for my evening retirement as the evening was winding down.A very good day overall.

Tonight,I am feeling a little tired.My psychiatric medication kicks in when least expected and right now,it is.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please continue to encourage me with encouraging words and spiritual upbuilding.Thanks to y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I went to work and the work day went well.After it was over,I headed Straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and took it easy as I was beat.

I had a light evening meal and I did my personal PC work before preparing for my evening retirement as I was tired.A very good day overall.

Right now,my head is starting to hurt terribly and I can't think straight.I will start posting a little more tomorrow.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave some encouraging and spiritually upbuilding words in the comments section.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

I went to work today and it went well.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and did my personal PC work.

Later on,I had a light evening meal and did some more personal PC work.I also helped in putting up a Christmas tree in the house.A very good day overall.

I will start talking about my struggles again when I can.I am just too tired right now and I need my rest.Please continue praying for me and please continue leaving me some positive encouraging words and spiritual upbuilding in the comments section.Thanks.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and I cleaned up real quickly.After that,I got dressed up in a suit and I went to church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.

Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.I also went out and had lunch at a local pizzeria.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while again and I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

Please continue praying for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I will start talking more about my struggles tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had my coffee.I did my personal PC work and later on,I got dressed,washed my hair and shaved.I then headed out to run a few errands.After they were done,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and had a light evening meal.I did some more personal PC work.I later prepared for my evening retirement as I was very tired.A pretty fair day overall.

I will share more stuff hopefully after the weekend.I still need prayerful and positive verbal support in the comments section.My only thing tomorrow is church in the morning.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.

Today,i woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and after that,I showered and shaved.After that,I got dressed and paid a bill that needed to be paid.After that,I went home to pick up a few things and I headed back out.

Since it was Black Friday today,I went thrift shop hopping and bought a pair of second hand jeans.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did more personal PC work.I also went back out to get something to eat.I headed for home.

When I got home,I ate what I bought for dinner and also had a few snacks.I did some more personal PC work and when I was getting sleepy,I retired for the evening.A pretty good day overall.

I will post more about my struggles soon.All I ask is that y'all continue praying for me and also,leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section in the forms of encouraging words and spiritually upbuilding.FJ

Happy Thanksgiving to all of my readers who are living in the USA.

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues onward.

Today,I woke up in the morning and had my coffee and I did my personal PC work.I later showered and did some vacuuming in the house.

Later on,in the early afternoon,I went over to my nephew's house for a wonderful dinner and after that,I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I retired for the evening as I was really tired.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

I will post more about my struggles after the holiday.The only thing that I ask is that you all continue praying for me and continue to leave me some encouraging words and spiritually upbuilding posts.Thanks to all of you and Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

As for the rest of the holiday weekend,I have no plans,but I hope that it all goes well for me.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today was a work day,which went okay.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy while doing my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed out to get a few things at the local Super Wal-Mart and a small thing at a local Dollar Tree.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I relaxed and had my evening meal.I also did some more personal PC work.I later prepared to retire for the evening.a very good day overall.

I will post some more things after the Thanksgiving holiday.I will report about how the holiday went for me tomorrow and hopefully by Friday,I will post more.

Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section,which can be words of encouragement and spiritual upbuilding.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today was a work day and it went okay.After it was over,I headed for home and relaxed for a bit while doing my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed out to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things for dinner and after that,I went to a local Dollar Tree to pick up one more thing before heading back home.

When I got home,I showered and cleaned the bathtub.I then had my evening meal and I did a little vacuuming.I also did some more personal PC work,which included some recommended Holy Bible reading.I later prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

In my last blog posts,I talked about being sexually abused in both physical and verbal senses.It wasn't grand nor pretty being sexually abused in any of these cases.As I said,sexual abuse can be the ultimate brainwash and make people think differently about themselves,especially if they've been abused in a Homosexual/Gay way by another man,such as myself.As i also said,I'm still recovery and I don't know if I'll ever fully recover,but only time will tell.

I will now talk about spiritual abuse.Yes,I too was abused in a spiritual sense.First,my father who claimed to be "Christian" physically and emotionally abused me.He also forcefully tried to indoctrinate me into believing his agenda.The thing is that I didn't believe in this sort of thing that he believed in.At that time,I was still a child and didn't really have a set or system of beliefs at that time.Though my mother rescued me,it was already too late as the damage was already done and I suffered a lot more abuse when I was rejected by my fellow peers and wasn't accepted.Then,when I was in my early 20's,I endured more spiritual abuse at the hands of the religious cult that I followed for two brief years.They too forcefully tried to indoctrinate me.Though I was enthusiastic and zealous for what I was learning from them,it all died when I was the victim of lies and other things,especially when someone poked their nose in my business in regards to things that I wrote in notebooks that I had written in and was the victim of false accusations and misunderstandings.Though I pleaded my innocence and tried to tell them that it wasn't what they thought,my pleas fell on death ears and that drove me away.I haven't followed them for twenty-three years,though I did almost rejoin nearly eight years later,I changed my mind when I heard about them hiding and protecting child molesters from authorities and doing nothing to protect their victims.This really angered me as how can they tell me that sexual activity out of wedlock is wrong,but condone pedophilia.Plus,since I too was the victim of a pedophile at three separate intervals of my life,this only made me even more angry.Thank goodness that I no longer follow any cults and have now found a wonderful Christian spiritual home.I made that a lesson learning experience about jumping on bandwagons without doing research first.I also now help other victims of that particular cult and it does make me feel a little good.

I still need prayers by every one of you.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to post something encouraging and spiritually upbuilding in the comments section.Thanks to y'all and Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that it goes well.After that,a four day holiday weekend that I will so truly need after some hectic days over the last few weeks.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I went to work and the work day went pretty well.After it was over,I headed straight home and I took my grand-niece to work.After that,I did a little bit of shopping at the local Super Wal-Mart and bought a small thing at a local Dollar Tree.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I did some dishes and cleaned up a little bit.I did my personal PC work.After that,I showered quickly and ate a light evening meal.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.I later retired for the evening.A very good day overall.

In the last two posts,I shared that I was sexually abused by other guys,both physically and verbally.I was used and abused by other guys for their own pleasure and I endured a lot of verbal abuse by being inundated by repeated sexual innuendos by other guys.I was also harassed by many guys when they kept repeatedly bothered me to have sex with members of the opposite gender,but refused due to the teachings of a religious cult,which is what I will discuss here right now.

When I was in my early 20's,I jumped on the bandwagon of a religious cult.I abandoned my previous church affiliation to do so as per their requirement.I was planning to make this a lifelong commitment,but I dropped out after only two brief years.At first,I was love bombed by many in the cult,but after that first year passed,it all stopped.I became the victim of lies when a few young ladies made up stories about me to their elders and though I proclaimed my innocence repeatedly,they took the young ladies words over mine.I was also the victim of relentless criticisms by my last study conductor and that made me feel worse.He lambasted me repeatedly.When I appealed to him to lay off of me and let me work on one thing at a time,he simply refused to do so.He also saw notebooks of things that I wrote and he even severely criticized me for that as well.He was always on my case and never laid off.He didn't care whether he was hurting my feelings by his relentless criticisms of me.They taught me that sex out of wedlock was wrong and sinful,but eight years after drooping out,I learned that they condone pedophilia.They simply hide and protect the child predators and do little if nothing top help their victims.They also forbid their followers to get the proper authorities involved and to leave them handle it and put it "in the Lord's hands". The thing is that this made me angry because I too am a victim of child sex abuse in my own right and I know the pain and the hurt that goes with being abused in that way.How can they teach that sex is strictly for married people,but condone the evil of pedophilia?This really made me angry.I too am a victim of child sex abuse and I know the pain that goes with it.I also know the hurt that goes with it.I am still in healing from it and I am hoping to fully recover.

I still need prayerful support from y'all.I also still need some positive verbal support from y'all.I need both encouraging words and spiritual upbuilding.Thanks to all of you and Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that it all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today was a day to go to church.I went to church and both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service were wonderful.Though they were,we did have a couple of men who had to be taken to the hospital,which was the only setback.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I did some much needed cleaning work in the house and when that was finished,I quickly did my personal PC work.When that was finished,I went out to a local Denny's for lunch and did some shopping at a few stores.I headed straight home when I was done.

When I got home,I did some more cleaning up and I ate my evening meal.I also did some more personal PC work.I relaxed for the rest of the evening and did some more PC work before preparing to retire for the evening.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

In my last post,I shared that I was sexually abused by other guys,including a rape episode that happened to me when I was 16 years old.This was sexual abuse in a physical and psychological sense.It messed me up and confused me as to what it was.To put it a better way,I was brainwashed by the sexual abuse and that is where the confusion and messing me up was instigated.I learned the hard way that sexual abuse can be the ultimate brainwash as it can make you think and feel some thing(s) that isn't/aren't legit.It made me think that I was "Homosexual/Gay" and that is what my purpose in the world was,but I later learned that it was wrong and that the acts themselves were wrong.Good thing I woke up and started to distance myself from that terrible and destructive life before I wound up with something that I wouldn't want.

Now,I want to share another type of sexual abuse that I endured.It was verbal sexual abuse.I was called very sexist type names when I was growing up.Most of these was when I wouldn't give people what they wanted in a sexual sense.No,it wasn't refusing to give them sexual favors,but there were a few of those that did happen.I was called names like "faggot", "Homo", "dickhead",(reference to oral sex), "fag whore", "fag slut" and "male bitch" as a result of my refusal to fool around with sexual stuff when I was studying the bible with a religious group that turned out to be nothing more than a cult.They taught me man-made doctrines and twisted Holy Bible scripture around to emotionally manipulate and brainwash me into believing that they were "THE only true Christian congregation/organization on Earth." I suffered verbal sexual abuse repeatedly during my life growing up and into adulthood and I never heard the end of it.At one time,I was disowned by a friend all because I refused to indulge in sinful activity with a prostitute,although this so called "Friend" was footing the bill.This only made this worse as the name calling continued and that I was rejected as a result of this guy not getting what he wanted from me.These things still plague my mentality and I would like for that not to anymore.I don't know how to go about stopping these things from plaguing my mind.If anyone can offer any advice,please share in the comments section.I also still need both prayerful and positive verbal support as well.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the start of another work week.I hope that the day goes well.FJ