Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was all over,I headed for the local U-Haul to pay on the storage facility.I then went to the local Super Wal-Mart To pick up a few things.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and relaxed.I later had a light evening meal and I did my personal PC work.Later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me and please leave me some positive verbal support within the comments section.Thanks for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the start of the weekend.With the exception of church on Sunday,I have nothing planned,but I hope that what I choose to do gives me positive benefits.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was all over,I stopped at a local 7-11 for a small slurpee and headed straight home.

When I got home,I showered quickly and shaved.I then put my clothes back on and headed for a local church for a free dinner,which went well.After it was over,I headed for a gas station to get some gas and drove around for a bit.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I realized that I forgot to do a couple of things,which I did once I got home and after they were done,I headed back home to change into pajamas and did my personal PC work.I also watched a few videos on YouTube and when it was time,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Right now,as a result of all the hateful things that I have been saying under my breath to myself,I am actually at the point where I hate myself.I know that I shouldn't say this,but I can't help feeling the way that I feel.There has been so much negative family drama within my life and it's been getting worse.I'm feeling worse and worse by the day.It has been a crushing bind on me that I still don't know whether I'm coming or going.I feel like I'm stuck in the middle of the road.I don't know which way to go or what to do.I am still saying hateful things under my breath and I feel that I don't know how to stop.I do want to stop.I'm very serious about me wanting to stop this.I simply don't know how.All of the things in my life,such as the negative family drama,the clients at my work place always getting on my case and at times,getting very argumentative when it comes to the rules of the facility,feeling angry at a few family members who are a part of this family drama and even the anger that I still feel at my own father for his physical and emotional abuse of me and even the non-acknowledgement of my paternal grandmother.I have so much emotional baggage on my shoulders.It's really bringing me down and negatively overwhelming me.Not only has it been a crushing bind on me,but it has also been a crushing and heavy weight upon me,especially on my mind.I just want this terrible family drams to stop.I also want these hateful and nasty things that have been flooding my mind to go away and stay away.I want to stop saying these things.I want them to simply go away and never come back.

If anyone out there has any advice to offer,please share it within the comments section.I'm open to anything offered.I want to stop this and I also want these hateful and terrible things to stop flooding my mentality.

Please continue praying for me.I really need all the prayerful support that I can get.Please continue praying for me.As stated,I also need some positive verbal support that might/will help me stop saying these terrible things.Thanks for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I did a little bit of work in the house.I even ran an errand by going to a local supermarket to pick up a few needed things for dinner.

When I got home,I relaxed and did 4/5 of my personal PC work.I then had a light evening meal and did some more personal PC work.I then prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some encouraging words and spiritual upbuiling in the comments section.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I helped my sister with some work of getting rid of drywall.After that was done,I relaxed and waited a while to shower after that.I did my personal PC work work while waiting and showered later on.After showering,I had a light evening meal and I did some more personal PC work.I later prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Today,I said a few more hateful nasty things under my breath.Please continue praying for me as I really need to stop doing this.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks for your continued support.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed for the bank to withdraw cash and after that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed a little bit of clothing and headed out again.I got some gas and took a drive for a while.I then picked up a take-out meal from a local Wendy's and headed straight home.

When I got home,I ate my meal and watched a video on the web while doing so.After that,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I showered quickly and did some more personal PC work.I later planned to retire for the evening as I was getting tired.A very good day overall.

I shared yesterday about saying hateful things under my breath in an angry sort of way.Today,I said some of the same hateful things again.It was towards my own relatives.I felt terribly miserable after that.I also felt sad and depressed.I still don't know what's wrong with me.I still don't know whether I'm coming or going.I want to stop saying these things.I'm not a hateful person,but the things have said under my breath make me look like the opposite of myself.It's driving me crazy.It's also making me feel miserable.I do want to stop,but don't know how.

Can somebody out there help me?

I really need some help.I'm open to anything that's useful and has worked for other people.

I also still need all the support that I can get.Please continue praying for me.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding with Holy Bible scripture and Christian styled consultation and encouraging affirming words,within the comments section.Thanks to y'all for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up quickly and got dressed in a suit.I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.

Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for a local Arby's for a quick lunch and headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I changed from my suit into casual clothes and after that,called someone who's been helping out with the remodeling and said he needed a ride,so I picked him up and dropped him off and after that,went to get a can of paint and some sanding screens and headed straight home.

When I got home,I took the paint and the sanding screens to him and went right away to do my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and later,took the guy who's helping us home.

When I returned,I had a light evening meal and I did more personal PC work.I continued online watching a few videos and sending important e-mail's and then,prepared for my evening retirement.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

Tonight,I need to get something off of my mind.I have been in a rut for a while.No,it has nothing to do with my SSA struggles,but it may have little to do with them,I feel at the same time.Lately,I have been saying very hateful things under my breath.Yes,I have.I don't know why I've been doing so,but I have been.These hateful things are directed towards my own relatives and even to some of the clients at the drug/alcohol rehab facility that I work at.Fellow readers,friends and followers,I'm not a totally hateful person.But lately,I have been saying these terrible things under my breath.Again,I don't know why.I have also been saying other mean things connected with my relatives.I have been saying negative things about their annual get together's every year.I have also been saying very judgmental things about certain relatives and every time I do,I feel miserable and also,angry at myself for saying them.I also continue to say angry things to myself aiming these things at people who aren't there.This has been really shaking me up and making me hate myself and also,angry at myself at the same time.I also still get depressed whenever these things happen.It saddens me that things have been flooding my mind and that I've been saying them.I am hoping that I don't get into trouble for these things at work and most importantly,my own relatives as if they hear that I have been saying these terrible hateful things under my breath and that I yell these things to someone else in my family,I am afraid that my own family will disown me and want nothing to do with me.I can't have that happen.I also could lose my job over this and also,I can't have that happen either.Again,I'm really not a hateful person,but these hateful things that I've been saying under my breath are making me sad,miserable and angry at myself for having them.

Could it be that I still have some unresolved anger and trauma issues?

Could it also be that I hate myself for having these unnatural SSA desires that I struggle with daily?

Could it also be that I hate myself for having this terrible SSA struggle in the first place?

Could it also be that I hate myself overall for even having these terrible unnatural desires and struggle with them?

I don't know whether I'm coming or going.

I don't know what I'm going to do to stop this terrible hateful and angry tirade that I have.

The thing is that I'm supposed to be a Christian.I go to church each Sunday morning.I also go to church during the holy days of Christmas and Easter.I worship with very loving,friendly and wonderful people.I also do Holy Bible readings when I can and even share in Holy Communion with my fellow worshipers.I also volunteer by ushering by helping out with collections and Holy Communion.Christians are supposed to be loving people as much as Jesus Christ,the founder of the Christian faith,was/still is loving.Christians are also supposed to be compassionate as Jesus Christ was/still is compassionate.

The problem is that lately,as a result of this terrible tirade that I have and my SSA struggles,I have not been acting like a Christian.No,I haven't.I humbly admit it.I have been acting more like a worldly person who has distanced himself from the Christian faith and chooses to do what they want to do regardless of whether it hurts others or not.I hate that about myself.I really do hate that.

I want to stop,but don't know how.If anyone can help,please do so.I need prayerful support.I need all of you to continue praying for me.I also need all of you to continue believing in me and not give up on me.I do want to change.I do want to be a loving person.I also want to get rid of these hateful things that I have been saying.I also want to stop this angry and hateful tirade that I have.I feel miserable and angry at myself as a result of these things.

I also need some spiritual upbuiliding in the forms of Holy Bible scriptures and spiritual counseling to go with it.I also need a lot of encouraging words to go along with the spiritual upbuilding and counseling.Please leave these things within the comments section on my blog.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the start of the new work week.I hope that all goes well with me tomorrow and onward.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had coffee.After my coffee,I washed up and shaved real quickly and got dressed.I headed out to the public library.

At the public library,I printed some pictures from my e-mail as I need to file a claim with the postal service for damaged property.I sent out some of my tapes and a portable player unit to fix and tune-up for me, but the player arrived damaged.After printing the pictures,I also did some personal stuff online,such as bill paying and all that.I also did my personal PC work while there as well.After that was done,I had a light lunch at a local pizzeria.I then headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I relaxed and helped out with some cleaning around the house and later on,I did some more personal PC work.

I later had a light evening meal and did some more personal PC work.I later prepared to retire for the evening.A pretty good day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I'm still struggling right now.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding(i.e. Bible scriptures sharing and how they apply)and encouraging words.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church as usual and I'm hoping to get a lot out of that.I also hope that the rest of the day goes well for me,too.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.I also did my personal PC work.After that,I had a light evening meal and did some more personal PC work.I later prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me.I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the start of the weekend.With the exception of church as usual on Sunday,I have nothing else planned.I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well,though a little stressful.After it was over,I donated some stuff at the local Salvation Army thrift store.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I showered quickly and put my clothes back on.I went to a local church for a free dinner and after that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and did my personal PC work.Later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me.I need all the prayerful support that I can get from all of you.I'm still struggling and I need some loving and affirming support from all of you,both prayerful and positive verbal.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day and after that,it's the weekend.I hope that the work day goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the morning and had coffee.After my coffee,I got dressed and headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I mailed out an important letter and got a money order from the bank.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and also did some moving around here and there.I also ran a small errand that needed to be run.

After a light evening meal,I quickly did my personal PC work.I then relaxed for the rest of the evening while preparing to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I'm still struggling.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,I'm feeling really tired.I can barely type and can barely keep my eyes open.Please continue praying for me.Please also leave me some positive verbal support.Will write tomorrow if I'm able.Thanks.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.After my coffee,I washed up quickly and got dressed.I headed for work as it was my return to work day after taking off for three paid personal days.

The work day went well.After it was over,I got gas in my gas tank and also picked up a prescription refill at the drug store.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and quickly did my personal PC work.After that,I did a little bit of cleaning up and vacuumed.I then had a light evening meal and I did some more personal PC work.I then later prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,both spiritually upbuilding and encouraging words posts,within the comments section.Thanks for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day,which I hopes goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.After my coffee,I showered and shaved quickly.I then got dressed up in a suit and headed for church.They were having an Easter morning breakfast and Holy Communion worship service afterwards.

Both the breakfast and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I did my personal PC work and did some cleaning up around the house.After that,I relaxed for a while and just chilled.

After a light evening meal,I did some sorting out in the kitchen and did some more personal PC work while relaxing.Later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I'm still struggling and I need all the helpful and prayerful support that I can get.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.You can spiritually upbuild me with appropriate Holy Bible scriptures and also with encouraging words.Thanks for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is back to work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed over to the garage to get my car fixed.

After the repairs were done,I sent out a whole bunch of my tapes to get fixed and tuned-up.After that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few needed things.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I cleaned out a corner cupboard in the kitchen and I also cleaned the cupboard .I then sorted out some plastic stuff and had them put back neatly.After that,I relaxed for a while and after that,I had a light evening meal.I then did my personal PC work.Later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both types of support as I'm still struggling.Thanks for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is Easter.I will be going to church tomorrow morning as there will be an Easter breakfast and then,the worship service.I'm hoping for an eventful day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.

Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and did some of my personal PC work.After that,I got dressed and headed over to the local Home Depot to pick up a can of paint and a paint brush.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I relaxed and finished my personal PC work.After that,I went through some tapes that I had to see which ones that I wanted to send out to be fixed and tuned up.

Later on in the afternoon,I did some cleaning up in the house and did some more personal PC work.I also showered quickly.I later had a light evening meal.After eating,I got dressed up in dress clothes and headed out to church for the Good Friday worship service.

The service was wonderful.After it was over,I stopped at a local Dairy Queen to have a small blizzard.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and did some more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

The only things that I have planned for tomorrow is that I am going to get my car fixed and sending out the tapes that I want to get fixed and tuned up.As for the rest of the day,I'll simply play it by ear and hope that what I choose to do gives me positive benefits.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,.I woke up in the mid morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and quickly did my personal PC work.After that,I headed out to the local Social Services offices to let them know that I'm back to work.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.After that was done and when it was time,I headed over to a local garage to get my oil changed and checked out for other things.I have to return Saturday morning so they can replace two of my tires and the Axle boot on the passenger side front wheel.I then headed for the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things.I then headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and did some more personal PC work.After showering,I got dressed up in dress clothes and headed for the Maundy Thursday church service.

The service was wonderful.I then headed to a local Wendy's to get a couple of things to eat.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and I did some more personal PC work before retiring for the evening.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me.I am still struggling and I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words in the comments section.Thanks for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a continuation of my mini-vacation,where I really don't have much planned,except the Good Friday service at church.I hope that whatever else I do gives me positive benefits.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.After that,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I had an appointment to meet with someone at 9:30am and headed over there.

The meeting went well.After that,I went to a local McDonald's and had a light lunch.After that,I dropped off some free newspapers with Easter cards included.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and I did my personal PC work.After that,I went through a few of my personal things and helped clean up around here and there.

Later on,as it was getting late,I had my evening meal and I did some more personal PC work.I later prepared to retire for the evening.A pretty good day overall.

I really enjoyed having a personal day today from work.I still have two more.It was great to take a breather and be away from my work place for a day.

Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I really need some support right now as I'm still struggling.Thanks for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another day off.I still have a lot to do and I'm going to continue it tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and changed my clothes.After that,I relaxed for a bit and then,I went out to withdraw some money from the bank.I also bought a few Easter cards and got gas.I then headed straight home.

When I got home,I did my personal PC work and went out again,I went to a local Wendy's to pick up a few things for me to eat for dinner.I headed straight home.

When I got home,I ate what I had bought from Wendy's and I also watched a video online.I did a little bit more personal PC work and then prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

I will be off of work for the next three days as I am taking personal days as a break from my work place,but I will be going back on Monday.I hope that this little mini vacation will be what I need.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.After that,I washed up quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and did my personal PC work.After that,I headed back out and picked up a couple of things at a local Burger King.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and ate what I had bought at Burger King and did some more personal PC work.I later prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me.Please also leave some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,within the comments section.I really need your support as it does help keep me going.Thanks for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day.I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up and had coffee.After that,I washed up real quickly and got dressed up in a suit.I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.

Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I got out of my suit and into casual clothes.I also did my personal PC work.After that was done,I went out to do some shopping at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few needed things.I then headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a little bit and I also showered quickly.After my shower,I had a light evening meal and I did some more personal PC work.I later prepared for my evening retirement.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

Please continue praying for me and please leave me some verbal encouragement and spiritually upbuilding posts within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I got up in the late morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and relaxed for a while.I did some of my personal PC work,but had to stop a few times due to internet issues.I kept getting "No Internet Connection" flashing constantly and had to turn off my modem several times until it stopped.I finally finished it and there were no problems.After that was done,I got dressed and left the house to run an errand.

I went to a local Dollar Tree to pick up a box of allergy medication.After that,I went to a local pizza place and bought a few slices for lunch.After eating them,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did more personal PC work.After that,I watched a few videos on YouTube while also doing some more personal PC work in between.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A pretty good day overall.

Please continue to pray for me.I still need all of your prayers as I'm still struggling right now.Yes,I'm still struggling with racing sexual thoughts going through my head and the temptations that go with them.Please continue praying for me that I get through this terrible struggle and emotional mess that I'm in.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need some spiritual upbuilding right now and I also need some encouraging words from all of you.I have many people visiting my blog and checking it out,but rarely is anything left in the comments section.I still need to continue to be let known that I'm not alone in this particular struggle that I have,which is with this terrible SSA and everything related to it.Thanks in advance for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church as usual and I hope that the day goes well for me.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,since I was off from work,I got up and had my usual coffee.I then quickly did my personal PC work.After that,I had a bowl of cereal and showered and shaved real quickly.I got dressed and headed out to do what I had planned for today.

I first went to a local Arby's to have a sandwich and water.After that,I went to see someone in regards to my job and my disability benefits.

The meeting went well,but I have to return Wednesday morning for a follow-up.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and after that,I had a light evening meal.I also did some more personal PC work.I also watched a few videos on YouTube.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A pretty good day overall.

Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some spiritually upbuilding and encouraging words posts within the comments section.I need both types of support right now as I'm still struggling.Thanks to y'all for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the start of the weekend.I have no plans for tomorrow,but I do have church as usual on Sunday.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.I washed up and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I showered quickly and after drying up and getting dressed,I headed for a local church for a free dinner,which was wonderful.After that,I got gas at a local gas station and headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.Later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me.I really need prayerful support as I'm struggling.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging posts,in the comments section.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow,I am taking a Spring Floater off from work.I have to meet with someone locally in regards to my work and my disability benefits.I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the morning and had coffee.After that,I washed up quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while as I was feeling a little tired.Later on,I had a light evening meal and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I showered real quickly to clean up and after that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Again,I am asking that all of you continue praying for me.I am still struggling and I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also would still appreciate some positive spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words in the comments section.Thanks for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day.I hope that the day goes well.FJ

Tonight,I'm feeling really and extremely tired.I can barely type.Please continue praying for me and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Will post more hopefully tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up early and had my usual coffee.I also washed up real quickly and got dressed quickly.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I stopped at a local bargain supermarket to pick up something for dinner and then to a local WalGreen's for a few more things.I then headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did some of my personal PC work.I then showered quickly and heated up my evening meal,which I ate.I then finished my personal PC work.I later prepared to retire for the evening when I got really tired and drowsy.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me.I'm still struggling at the moment and I need all the prayerful support that I can get from all of you.I also would still appreciate that you continue to support me verbally by leaving me some spiritually upbuilding posts and encouraging words in the comment section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up early and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed up in a suit.I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.

Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed clothes and did some of my personal PC work.After that,I relaxed and even did some vacuuming and did the dishes.After that,I had a light evening meal and after doing some more dishes,I finished my personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared for my evening retirement.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

Please continue praying for me.I'm still struggling at the moment and still need all the prayerful support that I can get from all of you.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need some spiritually upbuilding and encouraging words by all of you.Please support me by praying for me and leaving some positive verbal support that I really need right now.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up midway into the morning and had my usual coffee.While enjoying my coffee,I did my personal PC work in the morning and when the afternoon came,I vacuumed a little bit around the house and also showered and shaved.I then got dressed and headed out to do some personal stuff that needed to be done.

I was out for a while and while out,I had a few slices of pizza for lunch and picked up a few things at a local bargain supermarket in the area.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.I also had a light evening meal.I also watched some videos on YouTube.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared for my evening retirement.A pretty good day overall.

Please continue praying for me.I'm still struggling and I still need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also would still appreciate positive verbal support,in the ways of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,within the comments section.Thanks to y'all for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church as usual and I also hope that the rest of the day goes well.FJ

Tonight,I'm again feeling extremely tired.Please continue praying for me and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you and Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.I washed up after that and after getting dressed,I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I went to the post office to mail out an important letter.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I relaxed for a bit.I also had a light evening meal and I did my personal PC work after that.I also watched a few videos online as well.

When the time came and I was tired,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Again,please continue praying for me.I need all the prayerful support that I can get.Yes,I need prayers by all of you real bad.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.I really appreciate your support very much.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day.After that,it's the weekend.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I dropped off some stuff at the local Salvation Army thrift store and paid my storage facility bill.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and showered quickly later after that.I also had a light evening meal and I did my personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,I'm feeling extremely tired.I can barely type this.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please continue to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Hopefully,I can type some tomorrow.Thanks.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up early and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for much of the afternoon and did my personal PC work.

Later on,I had a light evening meal and I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I still need prayerful support right now.I am still struggling terribly.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuiling and encouraging words,in the comments section.Thanks to y'all for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed up in a suit.I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.

Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed over to a fire hall not too far away for a charity chicken barbecue,which was wonderful.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed into casual clothes and quickly cleaned the bathroom.After that was done,I headed out to a few stores in the area to pick up a few needed things.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and had a light evening meal.I also did more personal PC work.I later prepared to retire for the evening.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

Again,please continue to keep me in your prayers and again,I still would appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,in the comments section.Thanks for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that the day goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had my usual coffee.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I showered and shaved real quickly.I then got dressed as I had a lot to do today.

I first had lunch at a local Arby's.After that,I dropped off some free newspapers at a few people's houses.I then headed over to a local hair place to get my hair cut as it really needed to be cut.After that was done,I was about to head for my church for a charity pasta dinner,but noticed that my head was hurting me terribly.I headed straight home to take something for my headache.After that,I drove to the church for the charity pasta dinner.

The dinner was wonderful.After I was finished eating,I headed for home.

On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas.I then took a drive around for a while and then,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and I did some more personal PC work.I relaxed for a while until it was time for me to prepare for my evening retirement.A very good and eventful day overall.

Again,all I ask is that all of you continue praying for me.I still need prayerful support from all of you.It has been a struggle for me.I have been losing sleep the last few nights.I have also been feeling some sadness as a result of blues' spells that have been hitting me.As a result of my loss of sleep,I have been extremely tired and have been drinking anything with caffeine to stay awake,so I won't fall asleep,especially where my job is concerned.Please continue praying for me.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,in the comments section.If there is Holy Bible scripture that you can share,please do so.I need the help and support of all of you to help me keep going.It will also show me that I'm not alone in this struggle and that none of you have given up on me.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church as usual and I also hope that the day goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up early and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I got dressed real quickly and I headed for work.

The work day went well,in spite of a few unavoidable stress situations.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and did some of my personal PC work.

Later on,I had a light evening meal and I finished my personal PC work.After that,I relaxed and prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Again,I'm asking that all of you continue praying for me.I am still struggling terribly at the moment and need some prayerful support.Yes,I do need a lot of prayerful support right now.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.I also need to know that nobody has given up on me.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the start of the weekend.I hope that all goes well for me.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After that,I washed up quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I washed my face and shaved.I then later went out to a local church for a free dinner,which was wonderful.After that,I headed for a local supermarket to pick up a couple of needed things.I then got some gas at a local gas station and headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I took a quick shower,then changed into pajamas after that,and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

As usual,I am asking that you continue praying for me.I still need your prayerful support.Where I live,I feel all alone as I have no groups locally to support me or help me in regards to SSA.This is why I keep asking for y'all to continue praying for me.I still need prayers.I am still looking for at least any local spiritual support groups that use the Holy Bible in their approach.Yes,please pray that I find a group of that sort.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,in the comments section.Thanks to y'all for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.After that,it's the weekend.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.After that,I got dressed real quick and headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and I went back out to buy a sandwich for dinner at a local 7-11.I headed straight home.

When I got home,I ate my sandwich dinner and I did my personal PC work.Later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I really need both types of support.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that it goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I got dressed real quickly and headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and started doing my personal PC work.

I had a light evening meal and I did some more personal PC work.I later prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Tonight,I need some prayerful support from y'all as I am still struggling terribly right now.I don't know whether I'm coming or going.I need all of you to pray for me right now.I want to overcome this terrible SSA that I have and I need all the help and support that I can get.I need both prayerful support and positive verbal support.I need spiritual upbuilding and I also need encouraging words.Please pray for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day.I hope that all goes well for me.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the morning and had my usual coffee.After that,I got dressed and headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I showered quickly and did my personal PC work.I then relaxed for a while and even did a little bit of dishes that were in the sink.

I had a light evening meal and I did some more dishes.I also did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Earlier today,and I still feel miserable about this,I gave into the terrible temptation to fantasize and lust after other men.I also masturbated to these images.Again,I feel terribly miserable because I did this terrible thing.I felt sad for most of the day as a result of my falling into sin by giving into this terrible temptation.As I have said,my struggles with SSA have been very overwhelming as of late.I can't seem to stop thinking about sexual images of men.I'm supposed to be a man.A man is not supposed to have these terrible and unnatural desires for other men.I don't want to have these unnatural desires that I have anymore.I want to feel like a man is supposed to feel.Right now,I don't feel like a man is supposed to feel.These desires that I have are unnatural and inappropriate.I also want to stop thinking about men in a sexual way.I want to think of men in a Christian way.I want to think of men as brothers,friends,buddies and want to bond with them in a healthy authentic way.It's the only way that men are supposed to think of other men.This has been really bringing me down.The thing is that I'm supposed to be a Christian,but I haven't been very Christian as of late.I have been acting like more of a person in the world rather than within the Lord's fold.

I don't know what's wrong with me.

Why has this been happening to me?

How can I stop?

I only ask the above because I do want to stop.I want to stop thinking of men in a sexual way.I want to think of men in a Christian way.As I said before,but will reiterate;I feel like the worst sinner of all,which is how the Apostle Paul felt when he wrote a letter to a particular group of Christians in his day.I do feel like the Apostle Paul.

I have been struggling terribly as of late.I still need all of you to pray for me.I also need to know that none of you have given up on me,although I have given into terrible temptations as a result of this SSA struggle that I have.Please continue praying for me.I need prayers right now very much.I seriously need to be prayed for.Please continue praying for me.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support,such as spiritually upbuilding posts and encouraging words.Please leave your positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.After my coffee,I washed up and shaved real quickly.I got dressed up in a suit and headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.

Both the class and the worship service went well.After it was over,I stopped at McDonald's for a Shamrock shake and a Bacon McDouble.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I changed from my suit into casual clothes and did my personal PC work.After that,I headed out and had a few slices of pizza for lunch.I then headed for a local supermarket to pick up a few things for dinner and I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I cleaned the bathroom and showered not too long after that.I heated up my evening meal and after eating it,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

My struggles with SSA are still overwhelming me.Please continue praying for me as I really need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section,which can be both spiritually upbuilding and encouraging words.Thanks to y'all for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the start of the new work week and I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the later morning and had coffee.After coffee,I did a little bit of personal PC work.

Later on,I went out to shovel some snow and apply ice melt to where there was ice.After that,I relaxed for a while and then,I went out to pick up a few things at the local Super Wal-Mart.I headed straight home.

When I got home,I had a light evening meal and I finished my personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A pretty good day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I am still struggling terribly with SSA.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section,which can be both spiritually upbuilding and encouraging words.Thanks for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church as usual and I hope that the rest of the day goes well.FJ

Triggers

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.After my coffee,I washed up and got dressed quickly.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and did my personal PC work.After that,I ran out to run an errand and I stopped at a local 7-11 to pick up a gallon of milk and a sandwich for dinner,with a pickle.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and I ate my sandwich and pickle.After that,I did some more personal PC work.I then watched a few videos on YouTube and when it was time,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Tonight,I am asking for more prayerful support.I again gave into terrible temptations today.I gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after men and I masturbated to the images.I felt so terrible after that.It really was a crushing weight on me emotionally.As I said,I'm sick of these terrible temptations.I'm sick of falling into sin by giving into them.I need help.I need people to pray for me.I need people to support me verbally.I need spiritual upbuilding and I also need encouraging words.I still need to know that there are people out there still rooting for me and haven't given up on me.I am human and I'm imperfect.Please pray for me that I stop giving into these terrible temptations.Please offer me any advice on how I can deal with these terrible temptations in the right way.I would really appreciate prayerful and positive verbal support.Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the start of the weekend.With the exception of church as usual on Sunday,I have nothing planned.But I do hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.After my coffee,I got dressed real quickly and headed out for work.

The work day,though a little stressful,went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and after that,I headed out for a free dinner at a local church,which was wonderful.After it was over,I got gas at a local gas station and picked up a couple of prescriptions at the drug store.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I showered quickly and changed into pajamas.I quickly did my personal PC work.I also did some browsing online and as it was getting late,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good,though a little stressful,day overall.

Fellow blog followers and readers,I am still in need of prayerful support from all of you.I am still struggling terribly with SSA and it's been very overwhelming.I really need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also need some positive verbal support from all of you.Yes,I seriously need some spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words from all of you.I still need to know that there are people who are still behind me all the way and haven't given up on me,even though I still feel like a complete basket case as a result of my recent falling into sin and terrible temptations.Please continue praying for me and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to y'all in advance for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day.I hope that all goes well.After that,it's the weekend.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the morning and had coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while as I was tired from my work day,though it did go well.I relaxed and checked up on a few e-mail messages.

I later had a light evening meal.I also did my personal PC work.I also showered to clean up and did more personal PC work before preparing for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I need prayers right now as I'm still struggling terribly with SSA right now.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day was a little hectic and crazy.After it was all over,which made me happy,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.I was tired not just from working,but also from a lack of sleep the previous night.I was glad to finally be home and rest up.

Later on in the evening,I had a light evening meal and I did my personal PC work.After that,I relaxed until it was time for me to prepare to retire for the evening.A very hectic,crazy and stressful day overall.

I am feeling a little tired from the lack of sleep the previous night and I need prayers.Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some spiritual upbuilding posts and encouraging words in the comments section.I need both of these things because I am feeling really low right now.I need all the prayerful and spiritually upbuilding and encouraging posts in the comments section.I really need to know if y'all still support me and that none of you have given up on me.Please continue praying for me.Please leave me spiritually upbuilding and encouraging words in the comments section.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and had coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work quickly and after that was done,I showered quickly and shaved.I then got dressed to get ready for my therapist's appointment.When it was close to the time for me to go,I headed for my therapist's office.

The meeting with my therapist went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and did some more personal PC work.After that,I went to a local 7-11 to buy a small sandwich for dinner as I really wasn't too hungry.I headed straight home.

When I got home,I ate my sandwich meal and did some more personal PC work.As it was getting late,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

While sleeping last night and into the morning,I had a really strange,but scary,dream.I dreamed that I was all alone in my house and the phone was ringing.I answered and these voices came at me through the phone saying things so fast and what they said didn't sound too nice,but nasty and negative.I kept shouting into the phone for them to leave me alone and I even pushed the hang-up button,but the voices wouldn't let me disconnect.I then started hearing loud voices around me shouting and saying things,which I couldn't understand.I was starting to go crazy and messed-up emotionally that I shouted for them to "STOP!!!" and that woke me up out of a deep sleep at almost 9:00am in the morning.I then got up and said to myself "Wow! What a strange and scary dream." I then got off the bed and started the day.I am hoping that I never have a dream like this ever again.Plus,it also made the SSA that I have skyrocket and I gave into those terrible temptations again.I felt really terrible after this.

I need all the prayerful support that I can get.Please continue praying for me.I need prayers as I'm still struggling terribly right now.Yes,I need everybody out there who are Christians to pray for me.Please pray that I overcome these terrible struggles and temptations,which are coming at me on all sides.I also would appreciate some spiritual upbuilding by being shared Holy Bible scriptures and also encouraging words in the comments section.Thanks to y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is back to work for me.I hope that all goes well for me tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.

Today,I woke up in the morning and had coffee.After that,I washed up and shaved real quickly.I got dressed up in a suit and headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.

Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow congregants,I went to McDonald's for a quick lunch and headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I got out of my suit and into casual clothes.I quickly did my personal PC work.After that,I went out for a few slices of pizza.After getting some gas at a local gas station,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.I then jumped into the shower to clean up while my meal was heating up in the oven.After I finished showering,I ate my light evening meal and did some more personal PC work.I later prepared for my evening retirement.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

To all my fellow blog followers and readers,please continue praying for me.I'm still struggling terribly with SSA and I need all the prayerful support that I can get.Yes,I really need prayerful support.I am struggling terribly with SSA and I don't know where ti turn nor who to talk to.I am appealing to any of my followers and readers who are Christians.Please continue praying for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding from the Holy Bible and encouraging words,in the comments section.I also really need that type of support as well.Thanks for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a paid sick day from work for me as I have an appointment with my therapist.I am hoping that my session with my therapist goes well.FJ

Tonight,I'm feeling extremely tired and can barely type.Please continue praying for me and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need all the prayerful and positive verbal support that I can get.Thanks to all of you and thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my coffee.I washed up and got dressed real quickly.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I showered quickly and got dressed as I headed for my church for a little charitable dinner that they were having in the fellowship hall.

The dinner was wonderful.I ate a lot and it filled me up.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and I did my personal PC work.I then relaxed for a while as I also prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I am still struggling terribly with SSA.I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also need to know that those who are praying for me haven't given up on me,although I do feel like a basket case for the constant falling and relapsing that I have been going through.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding with the Holy Bible and some truly encouraging words,in the comments section.Thanks to y'all for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the start of the weekend.With the exception of church as usual on Sunday,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.FJ

Possible Triggers

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up early and had coffee.After that,I washed up quickly,got dressed and headed for work.

The work day went better than the last two days.It was stressful and draining the last two days.Today,it was a little bit easier and I managed to get everything done on schedule.After the work day was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed a bit and after that,I showered.I then headed back out for a free dinner at a local church,which was wonderful.After that,I bought a few things at a local supermarket and after getting some gas,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.Later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.A pretty fair to good day overall.

In regards to my SSA struggles,I am still struggling terribly.I have had relapses over the last 2-3 days and I'm feeling miserable.I have relapsed by masturbating to numerous sexual images of men and many other things.I feel very terrible after these terrible relapses.I am also getting sick and tired of falling into these terrible sins.I have been really overwhelmed by fantasizing and lusting after these images.Each and every time I fall,I feel miserable and terrible.I feel like I have failed my Heavenly Father and even myself.I always hate myself after a relapse as this SSA struggle that I have is terrible.SSA is a terrible thing.SSA doesn't do anything to enhance lives.It only makes misery,regret,sadness,depression and confusion because the struggle is very difficult.In my case,since I have both Bipolar Disorder and Schizophrenia,my personal struggle is even more difficult because of my mental health issues and such.I know that I'm a person and not a diagnosis,but these mental health issues coupled with the intense emotional issues that I struggle with alongside SSA make my personal struggles with SSA more difficult.I feel that I hear voices in my head telling me to manipulate my genitals to these images and I also feel that Satan and his minions are the ones overwhelming me with these terrible images.I am also sick of hearing so much "La-Di-Da" talk about the sinful sexual lifestyle that is connected with the terrible "Same-Sex Agenda".To that agenda,their advice is to simply accept your desires and accept the identity that you have and go out and live that identity.

There's just one problem with that.The so called "Homosexual/Gay" identity is a false identity.It is not a true identity at all.The only really true identity is "Heterosexual/Straight". Even the identity of "Bisexual" is as false as "Homosexual/Gay". I don't want this identity.I want to be what I am,which is a man,and not any other identity.

I understand that the sovereign Lord and creator,our Heavenly Father,doesn't condemn anyone for having SSA or the unnatural sexual desires that go with it,but he does condemn the sexual activity associated with the SSA condition.I simply want to stop giving into these terrible and unnatural urges that I have.I also want to stop giving into the perversions that I have,which are just as terrible as the unnatural sexual desires that I have.

What am I doing wrong?

How can I stop giving into these urges?

How can I stop being enslaved by these unnatural sexual desires and perversions that I have?

How can I stop relapsing?

How can I think pure thoughts about my fellow men and not impure ones?

I need helpful answers and advice.Anything helpful that can and will help me is appreciated.You can share them in the comments section.Your helpful advice can be both encouraging words and spiritually upbuilding posts with Holy Bible scripture and many true and positive affirmations.

Please continue to say prayers for me that I can overcome these relapses and get back on the path to true healing and connecting with my true identity,which is male/man.Please continue to pray for me.I also still want to read that those who are still supporting me haven't given up on me.That would really make me feel better.It will also not make me feel so alone in my struggles as I do feel alone right now as nobody really leaves me anything in the comments section.I need some positive verbal support to help keep me going and show me that I am not facing this terrible SSA struggle alone.I need encouragement.I need reassurance.I also need affirmations and spiritually themed posts.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,I'm feeling extremely tired.Please continue praying for me and please keep up your positive verbal support in the comments section.Will post some stuff tomorrow.Thanks.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.After washing up real quick,I got dressed and headed for work.

The work day was stressful.For most of the afternoon,I and a client had to mop the floor with stripper and water as someone poured an oil based thing on the floor.It was a tough job,but it was done,though it took the rest of the afternoon to get it done.After the work day was over,I stopped at a local supermarket for some ground coffee and I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I took out the garbage and did a little bit of work in the house.Later on,I did my personal PC work and had a light evening meal.I also did some more personal PC work.I later prepared for my evening retirement.A pretty stressful day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I am still struggling with the terrible SSA.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,within the comments section.Thanks in advance for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day and I hope that it goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Since I had the day off,I woke up late and had coffee and quickly did my personal PC work.After that,I got dressed and headed out.

I took a drive for a while.I got some gas,a bottle of water to drink and stopped at a small store in another area of the county and picked up a few things.After that,I dropped some recyclable papers in the church dumpster and I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.I later heated up a few things in the oven and that was my evening meal.It was light as I wasn't very hungry.After that,I changed into pajamas and I did some more personal PC work.I also did some dishes that needed to get done.I also did a little bit more personal PC work and even watched some videos on YouTube.Later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Please continue to pray for me as I am still struggling terribly with SSA.It has really been taking a toll on me emotionally and I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,in the comments section.Thanks to y'all.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day after the holiday off.I hope that all goes well.FJ

Again, Possible Triggers

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the morning and had coffee.After that,I hurriedly got dressed up in a suit and headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service after that.

Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed from my suit into casual clothes and finished taking the last few boxes of my record albums to the storage facility.Of course I still have more to box and take down there,but I can do that another day.After that was finished,I had a light lunch and after that,I cleaned the bathroom and wiped down a few places here and there.I then went back out to drop off some free newspapers at a few houses and even turned in some bottles at a local supermarket.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I did my personal PC work and even watched a few videos online.I did go back out again for a little drive and went back home.

When I got back home,I changed into pajamas and I did some more personal PC work.I relaxed for a while until it was time for me to retire.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

Last night,I wrote in detail about my SSA struggles being difficult and the desires skyrocketing on me all due to the stresses of the last few weeks.I also want to share that my mental health struggles with Bipolar Disorder and Schizophrenia actually make my SSA struggles even more difficult.Yes,I do have both of these mental illnesses,which is a double whammy for me mentally,as I struggle not only with emotional roller coaster rides associated with Bipolar Disorder,but also with hallucinations associated with Schizophrenia.I hear things that nobody else hears,such as voices,footsteps and something calling my name causing me to turn around,only to see nothing or nobody there.This really gets to me negatively.I often wonder what's going on and even ask myself things such as:

What's wrong with me?

Is there really something wrong or is it just me?

What problem do I really have?

At times,these voices and hallucinations,I feel,are what's causing me to give into these terrible temptations that keep coming at me at both sides.My mental health and emotional issues contribute to the difficulty that I have with my struggles with SSA.I simply don't know whether I'm coming or going.I also feel trapped in the middle between where I'm stuck and where I really want to be.I want to get unstuck.I want to break free.I want to discover real and true healing,but don't know where to start.If anyone can help me,please leave me something in the comments section.I need advice.I need spiritual help and upbuilding and some encouraging words.I feel like a complete basket case.I know that I shouldn't feel that way,but I do.I also feel that I have no place or nobody else to turn to or to run run to.Again,if anyone reading can help,please do so.I also need to know that there are people out there who still support me and haven't given up on me,although I still feel that I am stuck somewhere in the middle not knowing which road to go or follow.

I remember when I first started this process,I was feeling good.This process made me discover that I don't have to live a sinful sexual lifestyle that others who are "Homosexual/Gay" are living and that I acting out was a choice and not an inevitability as many claim that it is.Now,I'm back where I was before and I am feeling terribly and extremely miserable.Depression has really sunk in and I feel sad and lonely.I need to get back to that joy that I felt when I first discovered this process and I need all the helpful support that I can get.

Please continue praying for me.I really need all the prayerful support that I can get.I am always in need of prayerful support.Please continue praying for me.I also need some verbal encouragement and spiritual upbuilding and encouragement.The more that I can get the better.I need to get unstuck and on the right path.Please pray for me and encourage me with your verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a holiday and I have the day off.I haven't made any plans,but I hope that whatever I do gives me positive benefits.FJ

Possible Triggers

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I managed to move some more boxes containing another portion of my record collection to the rented storage unit.I still have a few more to bring there,which will be done tomorrow after I get home from church.

After all of that,I managed to get some shopping done at a local supermarket.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I had a light evening meal and I changed into pajamas.I also did some more personal PC work.I relaxed for the rest of the evening until it was time for me to prepare for my evening retirement.A pretty good day overall.

My SSA struggles have been tough as of late.The stress of the past week and also the previous week have made the SSA that I have skyrocket.I have had to put with the baloney from the clients at the facility.I also faced persecution from one of them after I let one of the staffers know that I smelled tobacco in one of the restrooms at the facility.They called me vile names and continued to persecute me.They even followed me around when I was walking to find something that I needed to get a certain job done.All of this really made SSA skyrocket for me.I was being tempted to act out on all the perversions that I have.The temptations were attacking me at both sides.I was tempted not only to fantasize and lust,but also to watch "Homosexual/Gay" themed pornography.I feel like I'm going up a steep hill with no end in sight.I have even had some bizarre dreams where I'm stuck in the middle of a deserted road trying to find which way to go.I have also had dreams where I meet wild animals that talk to me and say all sorts of things and gibberish.With the temptations,I have also been tempted to touch myself inappropriately to sexual images of men clouding my mind.Coupled with all of the abuse,physical,emotional and sexual,that I have endured and suffered,the bullying that I endured during much of my school years and also,outside of school and being used and abused by others for their own pleasure,I feel like I'm being worn out and messed up emotionally and mentally.I still don't know whether I'm coming or going.I also feel trapped in a shell with all of my negative emotions and the unnatural sexual desires that I have.I would love to break free from this shell and feel like I'm finally free.As I have said before and I will say again,this terrible SSA struggle that I have made me realize that I have perversions that I never thought I had nor ever knew that I had,but again,I'm not going to go into them as I don't want to trigger anything in anyone nor scare anyone away from me.I am still seeking to break free from these terrible and sinful perversions that I have.I just need some helpful advice.I also need some spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.I also still need to fix and repair my own relations with my Heavenly Father as I haven't been talking to him regularly like I should.Any advice on how I can do that is appreciated.

Please continue to pray for me.I really and desperately need all the prayerful support that I can get from all of you who are Christian and follow my blog.Yes,I still need your prayers as I really need to know that there are people out there who haven't given up on me.This helps keep me going.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuiling (i.e. Holy Bible scriptures to help me out and see what I can do to keep fighting and seek the healing that I so desperately need) and encouraging words.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church as usual and I hope that it goes well and that the rest of the day goes well also.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.I then washed up and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day was stressful,but not like yesterday.I still managed to get a lot done both on and off the schedule.After it was over,I headed for the bank to withdraw some money.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.I also showered after that and had a light evening meal.After that,I did more personal PC work.I later prepared to retire for the evening.A pretty stressful day overall.

I still need prayerful support as I am still struggling terribly with SSA.These struggles are really becoming difficult.I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,in the comments section.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow starts the weekend.I hope that all goes well for me as I will have a three day weekend coming up.FJ

Possible Triggers in this post

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.After that,I washed up and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day was chaotic and stressful.We had to work non-stop and quickly to get the facility clean and up to snuff as we were having an inspection coming today.We were all given tasks to do and we managed to get things done within the time span that we needed to do.After that,it was back to the normal schedule as I had to do a couple of things today to catch up from yesterday.I was forced to go off my usual schedule many times today,but was glad when the work day was over.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I loaded some boxes of record albums into my car and after that,showered quickly and did some of my personal PC work.After that,I went to a local church for a free dinner and after that,I dropped off those boxes of records at a local storage facility.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and finished my personal PC work.I relaxed for a while until it was time for me to retire.I am really tired from that stressful work day I had today and will be glad when the weekend comes so I can relax and relieve some stress.This makes me better appreciate the weekends as I technically have off on them.Thank goodness.

My struggles with SSA have been terrible.All the stress of the past week and the chaos and stress of the day today really made SSA skyrocket.I have given into temptation to fantasize and lust many times over the last several days and each time I would fall,it made me miserable.Yes,I felt really and extremely miserable for giving into these terrible temptations.I want to be strong in order to fight and resist these terrible temptations,but I'm weak.I know that there's no such thing as a perfect human,be they male or female,but I feel like the worst sinner in the world as a result of my struggles with this terrible SSA that I have.I feel like the Apostle Paul as a result of the way that I feel.He said that he was the worst sinner of all,which is the way that I feel.I need some guidance.I need some reassurance.I need someone to help me with spiritual upbuilding from the Holy Bible and encouraging words in the comments section.I also still need prayerful support.Please continue praying for me.I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also need to repair my relationship with my Heavenly Father as I haven't been going to him regularly and talking with him through prayer.Please continue praying for me.I would really appreciate prayerful support.I so desperately need it right now.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day.I'm hoping that it goes smoothly.After that,it's the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I'm feeling extremely tired.I can barely type this.I will share only that I did go to church tonight for Ash Wednesday,which was a wonderful worship service.I am tired and I will post either tomorrow or when I can.Please continue to keep me in your prayers as I am really struggling terribly with this terrible SSA at the moment and I don't know whether I'm coming or going.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,in the comments section.Thanks to y'all for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.FJ

I am not feeling well tonight.My head is hurting and I'm in pain. I can barely type this.Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.After that,I washed up quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed for home.

On the way home,I stopped at the local U-Haul store to buy some storage boxes.I also got some gas at a local gas station and headed straight home.

When I got home,I went to work and filled the boxes with more of my record albums.After they were all filled,I showered quickly and had a light evening meal.I also did my personal PC work.Later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

I am still struggling terribly with this terrible SSA that I have.Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I really need both spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words by all of you.Thanks for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day.I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.After that,I showered quickly,alongside shaving and got dressed up in a suit to head for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.

Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.

On the way home,I stopped and had a light lunch at McDonald's.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I changed from my suit into casual clothes and quickly did my personal PC work.I later went back out again to a local U-Haul store to buy some boxes to pack some record albums of mine in.I headed straight home.

When I got home,I packed some record albums in the boxes that I bought.It was a work-out and I did sweat.I also moved some of my cassettes that were in storage things into the garage.After that,I showered again as I had to clean myself from all of the sweat.I then had a light meal and I did some more personal PC work.I later prepared to retire for the evening.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

After the terrible week that I had,I am hoping that this week goes better.I also still need all the prayerful support that I can get.Please continue to pray for me that things will start getting better soon.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I really need some spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words right now.Thanks for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the late morning and had coffee.However,early in the morning while I was still in bed,I got an attack of painful leg cramps in both of my legs.They really terribly hurtful.I had to immediately stand up and wait for the pain to be reduced,but it did affect my ability to walk.I wasn't walking very good for much of the morning.After some more coffee and relaxation,I got dressed to head for the local Super Wal-Mart.

While there,I picked up leg cramp pain supplements,a tube of itch cream,a carton of half and half and a gallon of milk.After paying for these things,I headed over to a local McDonald's and had a light lunch.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I took a few leg cramp supplements and decided to do some snow shoveling outside as we did get hit with snow overnight.It was a work-out,but I managed to get what I had to get done accomplished.After that was done,I relaxed for a while and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I went back out to get a take-out Chinese meal and when I got home,I ate it.I also did some more personal PC work.After that,I relaxed until it was time for me to retire.A good,but not too eventful,day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I am still struggling terribly with SSA after the events of this terrible 5 day week.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I really need some spiritual upbuilding and also some encouraging words.Thanks to y'all.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church as usual and I hope that this and the rest of the day goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning.I had coffee and brushed my hair.I got dressed and headed for work.

The work day went fair.After that,I headed for an office to get my taxes filed and after that was done,I got gas and headed straight home.

When I got home,I ate quickly and did my personal PC work.I also relaxed and took it easy.Later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A fair day overall.

This week,I didn't post too much as I was not feeling well emotionally.I was the victim of a break-in on Monday.It was a member of my family that did this.They broke in through the cellar and stole some clothes that belonged to my sister.They also took what was their's as well.They ruined the plumbing and we're hoping to get it fixed tomorrow.This is the reason why I haven't been feeling too well emotionally.It's one thing when a total stranger breaks in.But when it's a member of your own,especially one that you helped by letting them live with you,it's even more devastating.This also made me feel violated and affected my sense of security.It also made me angry and also,sad.This is why my emotions have not been good or even stable as of late.I just want to heal from these negative emotions and also,help heal from the affects of the break-in by one of my own relatives.My family relations have been going down the tubes as this is the third relative that has caused trouble.I am hoping to get over this soon.Please continue praying for me.Please pray that I get over this soon and that I heal from these terrible emotions.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section,which can be both spiritually upbuilding and encouraging words.Thanks to y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

This has been a terrible week for me.I hope that the weekend will good for me to get over this things.FJ

I'm still not feeling well emotionally.Please continue to pray for me.Please continue to leave me positive verbal support,such as spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.Thanks very much.FJ

I am still not feeling well emotionally.I will post when I do.There has been a lot going on in my life,with most of it being negative.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please continue to leave me some positive verbal support,which can be spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,in the comments section.Thanks to y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.FJ

I'm still not feeling well tonight.No,I'm not physically ill,but emotionally ill.Please continue praying for me that I get better emotionally and that I get through the rest of the week.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.I am hoping that I feel emotionally better soon.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.FJ

Tonight,I'm not feeling very good.I won't be posting anything tonight as a result of that.Please continue praying for me and don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.Thanks to all ofyou and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and I washed up real quickly.After that,I got dressed up in a suit and headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.

Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.

On the way home,I stopped at a local McDonald's for a light lunch and after that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed out of my suit into a pair of pajama pants and did some cleaning around the house,including the bathroom.After that was done,I relaxed and did some of my personal PC work.After that,I got dressed in casual clothes and did some shopping at a local bargain supermarket,a local Dollar Tree and a local Auto Zone.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I put the stuff away and I finished my personal PC work.After that,I relaxed and watched some videos on YouTube.I also had a light evening meal and later on,I showered and after that,I prepared to retire for the evening.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I am still struggling terribly right now with this terrible SSA that I have.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support,in the form of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,in the comments section.Thanks to y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ