Tonight,I check in with mixed emotions.After a pretty smooth work day,I had to have a negative verbal scuffle with an unreasonable person.It was a misunderstanding over snack foods that were left around the social club when a person said that I could help myself.I did and what happens,this guy comes off the street after having a cigarette and gets apprehensive about it.Apparently,the food was meant for something else but when I tried to tell him calmly that somebody offered it to me,he still remained apprehensive.After three tries,I gave up and told the staff about it.It worked out pretty good.Fortunately for me,I had to go home because my work day was through.I did not let it get to me because I felt that the coordinator will do his job and everything will turn out for the better.Again,though minor,I did not let it get to me.My day was over and it was pretty smooth up to that point.
I also had to help my mother out today after I got home from work.After that,I did some work around the house and I also had to help my niece out.It was not too bad of a night.
The only really good thing to happen tonight was a Buffalo Sabres victory.They defeated the Ottawa Senators in a shootout by a score of 6-5.There was a really big brawl tonight at the game between several Senators and Sabres players in which even the goaltenders got in a scuffle.The big brawl lasted 15 minutes.There was also a shouting match between Sabres coach Lindy Ruff and Senators coach Bryan Murray behind the benches.What a night it was for the Buffalo Sabres and even the fans who were at the game.I just caught the footage on the news and it was intense.The only noteable thing is that it marked the debut of a hometown boy named Pat Kaleta.Plus,the best thing was Drew Stafford scoring the game winner in the shootout.Still,what a night it was for the Sabres and the fans.This game is truly one of those "unforgettable experiences" in the game.Ice Hockey can be a rough sport but it is always FUN and EXCITING to watch.
Tomorrow is another work day.After that,it's the weekend and I will again be entertaining the crowd as I usually do.I can hardly wait for that.
That was my day and night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling good.I had a wonderful day and night.Today,after dropping off the laundry at work,I went and did a little shopping at a thrift store.I found some really nice clothes that fit me pretty good.I did not even have to try them on.I just went over to a ruler they had and they were my size.The vast majority of them did not fit me but I found a few that did,which was great.This coming Monday,I might go out to another thrift store and see if there is anything more that do.Not only that,I also managed to add a few more record albums and singles to my ever growing record collection,which was also great.
Plus,I had a great session with my sexual abuse support counselor this afternoon.She gave me a little bit more good advice on how I can effectively handle my emotional problems and not be afraid to write what I am feeling down whenever an old feeling of anger comes around and all of a sudden,I am wound up in it.She is showing me how to handle the rage of emotions properly and tactfully so I do not get wound up in it.That made feel good.
Tonight,I went to my support group at the church and that went terrific.I made up for lost time from the cancellation last week and talked about everything that I wanted to get off my chest and that made me feel good.I shared what my sexual abuse support counselor advised me to do and the men simply nodded to indicate that they were listening,which was great.Again,I am glad to have found this group and I am also glad that I am attending the meetings.It feels great to finally feel accepted and have other men listen to you,which is better than ignoring you.Ignoring others is the worst form of emascualtion.
Tomorrow night,the Buffalo Sabres are hosting the Ottawa Senators.I am hoping for another win by them.
That was my day and night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling good.I had a wonderful day and night.Today,after dropping off the laundry at work,I went and did a little shopping at a thrift store.I found some really nice clothes that fit me pretty good.I did not even have to try them on.I just went over to a ruler they had and they were my size.The vast majority of them did not fit me but I found a few that did,which was great.This coming Monday,I might go out to another thrift store and see if there is anything more that do.Not only that,I also managed to add a few more record albums and singles to my ever growing record collection,which was also great.
Plus,I had a great session with my sexual abuse support counselor this afternoon.She gave me a little bit more good advice on how I can effectively handle my emotional problems and not be afraid to write what I am feeling down whenever an old feeling of anger comes around and all of a sudden,I am wound up in it.She is showing me how to handle the rage of emotions properly and tactfully so I do not get wound up in it.That made feel good.
Tonight,I went to my support group at the church and that went terrific.I made up for lost time from the cancellation last week and talked about everything that I wanted to get off my chest and that made me feel good.I shared what my sexual abuse support counselor advised me to do and the men simply nodded to indicate that they were listening,which was great.Again,I am glad to have found this group and I am also glad that I am attending the meetings.It feels great to finally feel accepted and have other men listen to you,which is better than ignoring you.Ignoring others is the worst form of emascualtion.
That was my day and night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling good.It was a pretty good day today and I had a very smooth work day.The day went by pretty well and that was great.I even managed to make it to a store to try on some clothes.The only disappointment is that they did not fit.But then again,what can you expect at times from a second hand store.Sometimes you will find something that fits and sometimes you don't.But it is fun wanting to try something on before you buy it.
I even talked to a friend of mine tonight and he's doing good.He and his girlfriend were watching the Buffalo Sabres hosting the Philadelphia Flyers in Buffalo.I had the game on the radio because I do not have the luxury of cable TV at the moment.But that can change later on.Right now,cable TV is expensive and even satellite,though cheaper by comparison,is also expensive.But when I can afford it,I would like to get it.But now,I will just have to settle on the old radio.
Speaking of the Sabres game tonight,they clobbered the Philadelphia Flyers by a score of 6-3.It was non-stop Sabres scoring the whole game that made it.It was like that they scored 2 goals a period.It was AWESOME!Yes it was.The Buffalo Sabres host the Ottawa Senators on Thursday night.I am hoping that they can close their home stand with a victory over the Senators.After that,the Sabres travel to Ottawa for a re-match on Saturday night.I am hoping that the Sabres can get two consecutive wins over the Senators.They did defeat them in Buffalo on the 7th of this month by a score of 3-2.Again,I am hoping that the Sabres can do it again.
Tomorrow morning is a pick-up.Tomorrow afternoon is my appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.Tomorrow night is my support group meeting at the church tomorrow night.I am hooping that all goes well throughout the day.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.It was a pretty quiet day and it also was a holiday.Nothing really to do on a holiday except stay at home and take it easy.I did manage to run a few errands today.I also managed to help out a relative who was quite appreciative in me helping her.I went home and I took it easy for the rest of the night.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the work day goes smoothly.They have been going better since I have made some changes to the way I do things during the day and that is making me feel better.I have been keeping my emotions under control and I have been complimented on my progress by my supervisor and my counselors.The compliments have made me feel good.But still,I am taking this one day at a time.If I go through one day without getting angry and/or enraged,that is good.There is always another day and that day has it's challenges.Not only that,I can not think of "never getting angry again" because I will get angry at times and when it happens and how I express it,I'll just have to cross that bridge when I come to it.
Tomorrow night,the Buffalo Sabres are hosting the Philadelphia Flyers and I am hoping for a Buffalo Sabres victory.A victory would be really great.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling good.I have a very eventful day.I had to run errands for my mom and I also helped out a friend tonight.That made feel good.He also thanked me for helping me,which really made feel great inside.It is great to help a friend out and have him show his appreciation to you for helping him.It also makes a man feel really good.I really like that.I am going to strive to help out people more often when asked.
Last night,I went out and had a ball.I sang the three new songs that I was planning and the crowd really enjoyed them.They said that it was wonderful what I did and they showed their appreciation in more ways than one.I really enjoy what I do.I also enjoy it when others enjoy what I do.It makes me feel good inside.That is why I do it every week because it makes me feel good to make them feel good.
The Buffalo Sabres lost in a shootout to the Boston Bruins last night by a score of 4-3.But the Sabres put a great effort in the game and for that I am proud.The Sabres host the Philadelphia Flyers on Tuesday night.I am hoping that they can emerge victorious after that disappointing loss.A win would be awesome.
That was my day and my night last night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.I had a pretty decent day today in my neck of the woods.I took it easy for most of the day.I did run a small errand for my mom today and I also had to help my niece out earlier tonight.Again,it was pretty decent day today and I got at least a little bit done.It was still an accomplishment and it made me feel good.I am at home at the moment relaxing until I go out to entertain the crowd tonight.I hope that it goes well.Again,though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.I am hoping to try out a few new songs tonight and I hope that it works out.
Right now,the Sabres are playing the Bruins tonight.The Bruins are leading 3-1 at the moment but I am still hoping for a Sabres win tonight.I hope that they can win.Right now,the Bruins have been penalized for a delay of game.The Sabres are going to be on the power play for the next two minutes.I hope that they can tie the score.It is in the second period at the moment.Again,I hope that the Sabres can get another victory tonight.Another victory would be totally sweet.
That was my day and my hoped for night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.The work day went by as smoothly as expected and it was wonderful.I just did my job and the day went by pretty well.I had a good day and that was pretty good.
The weather is still COLD and the wind is blowing.I am at home relaxing as the wind blows the snow all over the place.According to the National Weather Service,we have to endure two more days of extreme COLD before it starts warming up starting next week.On Monday,it will be in the upper 20's before going in the 30's on Tuesday.There is nothing to do when the weather is COLD and there is no place to go in the area where I live.But I am not complaining.It is just the way of the season and I am just going with the flow.That is all I can do.But I am remaing hopeful that things will get better weatherwise and I also hope that the jet stream does not change and we get it COLD again.But again,that is the way of the season and I am just going with it.
Tomorrow night is the night that I go out to entertain the crowds and I am hoping for a wonderful night.The Boston Bruins are coming to town to play the Buffalo Sabres and I am hoping for another Sabres win.Regarding my entertaining the crowds every Saturday night,I rarely have an off night but I still hope for things to go good.You never know.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling a little bit better than yesterday.Yesterday I was depressed due to the fact that the weather was COLD and that the meeting that I was supposed to go to was cancelled.Again,I understand why they had to cancel and I respect their reason for doing so,mainly due to the weather.But it was still depressing.I was looking forward to the meeting.But again,I understand the reasons why and I respect them.There is always next Wednesday night and I am going to that meeting.I hope that the meeting goes great.
Today was yet another work day and it was a full day.It went by as smoothly as expected and that was good.I got a lot done and that made me feel good.Yes it did.It was a pretty good day.The weather was cold but not as cold as it was yesterday.Tonight,it is pretty COLD and the wind is lightly blowing.I can not wait until next week when it starts to warm up starting Tuesday.Until then,we have to deal with and endure more frigid winter conditions and some more bitterly COLD temperatures.Boy,I can not wait for it to get warmer.I know that it's winter and this type of weather is to be expected during this time of the year.But again,I still can not wait for it to get warmer.
Tonight,I am feeling better because the Buffalo Sabres were victorious yet again.The defeated the Edmonton Oilers in overtime by a score of 2-1.Thanks once again to Daniel Briere for the game winner in overtime.
Tomorrow is Friday.It is another work day and then,the weekend will be upon us.I can hardly wait to entertain the crowds again Saturday night.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in with mixed emotions.The reason being is that the meeting that I was supposed to go to was cancelled due to the snow storm that we are having.Don't get me wrong,I do respect the reasons why the meeting was cancelled and I understand that the weather is really treacherous at the moment with all the snowfall and bitter wind chills and travel would be dangerous in this type of weather.I was disappointed but it was for a good reason.It also saved me from making a phone call and it also saved me a trip and some gas.The only good thing is that there will be one next Wednesday night and I will be looking forward to that.It was disappointing,yes.But still,it is better to be safe than sorry.
Right now,the weather is COLD.The snow is falling and the wind chills are in the minus teens.But the snow is supposed to taper off by tomorrow early morning.I hope so.We are going to get another snow fall in the area Thursday night into Friday morning.We are supposed to get a break on Saturday but it will start again Saturday night into Sunday morning that will progress on into Sunday evening.The cycle of winter.Then again,we have not had it that bad in this neck of the woods this year,so far.By comparison to the rest of the state of New York,specifically the Southern Tier and Ski Country's,we have a light dusting by comparison.It has not been this bad in 30 years since the infamous Blizzard Of '77.But still,this snowfall pales in comparison and though the weather has been COLD,we still have a light dusting by comparison to the rest of New York state.Still,it's winter and we have to expect this.
Tomorrow is another work day.It will be a full day.Tomorrow night,the Buffalo Sabres are playing the Edmonton Oilers when they come to Buffalo.I hope that the Sabres can beat the Oilers tomorrow night.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.The work day went by as smoothly as expected and that was good.I concentrated on my job and the day went by pretty smoothly.It makes me feel a bit better.Tomorrow is just a pick up day.I am just going to pick up and go home.
Tonight,the snow is falling and it is COLD.The heavy snow warning that was issued was originally supposed to expire at 5:00p.m. tomorrow but that has been changed to 2:00p.m. tomorrow.I am still hoping to go to the meeting tomorrow night at the church and I am hoping that the snow is not too heavy for my half-hour drive to get there.I am geting a lot out of these meetings and I am enjoying them.The men in the group are a swell bunch and they are actually making me feel right at home with them,which is terrific.Again,I am planning to be there.I am going to get an awful lot out of the meeting as I have been.
The Buffalo Sabres are playing again on Thursday night when the Edmonton Oilers come to town.I am hoping for another Buffalo Sabres win.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling pretty good.The weather is still COLD but I am hanging in there.We will have a Hevay Snow Warning in effect for my area from 5:00 p.m.Tuesday to 5:00p.m. Wednesday.But again,it's winter and we have to expect these things to happen.According to the National Weather Service,there will be heavy snowfall during the afternoon,evening and overnight and will taper off by mid afternoon on Wednesday.I hope that it does not get too heavy because I am still planning to go to my group on Wednesday night to get a lot out of what I am getting out of it at the moment.These group metings have been helping me a lot and they have been very awarding.Again,I am hoping that it does not get too heavy.I am still planning to go to the group meeting.
Today,I just took it easy for most of the day.I only ran a couple of errands for two of my members and that was it.Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the work day goes as smoothly as expected.
The next time the Sabres play is Thursday night when the Edmonton Oilers come to town.I hope that the Sabres can beat the Oilers.They have been doing great since February began and I hope that they can continue to do great.
That was my day and night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.I am at home right now relaxing.The weather is still COLD with bitter wind chills in the minus single digits with no end in sight for the foreseeable future.February is definitely the coldest month in the winter and the weather right now shows it.
Last night,I went out to entertain the crowd and the night was yet another huge success for me.The crowd enjoyed my song selections and they did show their appreciation in more ways than one.That made me feel good.It was a wonderful night.I enjoyed myself and the crowd enjoyed me.Not only that,the Buffalo Sabres won in a shootout last night over the Calgary Flames by a score of 3-2.Ales Kotalik was the hero last night who won it for Buffalo in the shootout.It was a great night with the crowd enjoying me and the Buffalo Sabres won.It was a wonderful night.I had a ball and that made me feel good.
Today,I had to run an errand for my mom to get something for dinner tonight.That went well as planned.The weather was cold but not as cold as it is tonight.But still,I got something done and that made me feel good.
I did have a talk with a friend from New Jersey and he is doing good.I had a nice talk with him and that made my night a little bit better.Again,I am right now relaxing and taking it easy.
Tomorrow is a day off for me.I am going to take it easy tomorrow and enjoy my day off.I am also going to get ready for Tuesday,which is a work day for me.
That was my day and my night last night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling a little bit better than the past couple of days.I have been feeling just okay the last couple of days/nights and now tonight,I can say that I am feeling a bit better.Tonight is my night to entertain the crowds again.I am looking forward to that with a lot of enthusiasm and anticipation.I am hoping that the night goes great.Again,I rarely if ever have an off night,I still hope for things to go good.You never know what might happen.Plus,after what happened to me on Thursday,I can now forget that and be where there are people who do indeed appreciate me and what I do.If the night's a success,I can say YES within myself and smile brightly.Why?Because my night was a success and those who like to put me down for my talent and show off how jealous they are,they actually know where they can go and what they can do to themselves.That is why I will be smiling.
Another reason why I am feeling better is this;I have now added a few more friends to my friends list over on My Space and they are entertainers themselves.It's great to meet other people who have something in common with you.I am feeling a bit better and that is great.
Tonight,the Buffalo Sabres are playing the Calgary Flames in Buffalo.I hope that the Sabres can win another one tonight.It was wonderful finally seeing them defeat the Ottawa Senators on Wednesday night.Now tonight,I hope that they can beat Calgary.Another win would be SUPER.Yes it would.
That was my day and again,I am hoping that the night goes well.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.The work day went as well as expected.Not too bad of a day with nothing negative to write home about.I am at home at the moment typing up this post and sharing what went on im my day.Nothing really negative happened.I just did my job and when the time came to leave,I just did.Today was a bit warmer with some cold staying around.Right now,it is a bit windy.I have no place to go tonight and I am just going to stay home and relax.
The weekend will be here any minute.I can hardly wait for that.I am going to be singing up a storm tomorrow night.I always look forward to entertaining the crowds on Saturday night.I do not know what I am going to do tomorrow night,but I know it will be great.Again,I am looking forward to that.
Later on,I am just going to sit down in the living room and watch a movie.After that,I am going to go to bed.I do have the day off tomorrow and Sunday so I am just going to watch a movie and go to bed afterwards.
The Buffalo Sabres are playing tomorrow night against the Calgary Flames in Buffalo.I am hoping for another Buffalo Sabres win tomorrow night.I am glad that the Buffalo Sabres are doing great this year.I hope that they continue to do great through the rest of the season.It would be great to finally have a world championship team in Buffalo.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.The work day went by as smoothly as it should and it was pretty good.I simply did my job and let nothing get in the way of doing it.I also had to do a couple of favors for my mom today before I went home.When I got home,I simply took it easy for a while and did my personal computer work.It was not too bad of a day today despite a negative occurance that happened between me and some jerk who loves to criticize other people's talents because he does not have that certain talent.After I told him to "Go To Hell!",he simply left and did not return.It just goes to show that if you can't take it,don't give it.
Tonight,the weather is once again COLD.The winds are blowing and the wind chill is -8 below freezing.The winds are making it feel COLDER than it really is.But I am in the house and I am relaxing.The wind can blow all it wants to.I am just going to stay inside and get ready for the next day.It is another work day and I am hoping that it goes smoothly as the work day for me did today despite that negative occurance.But hey,that person was just showing off how jealous he was of my singing talent.I happen to be a respected entertainer in my hometown and I always look forward to doing that every Saturday night in front of the people who truly appreciate me.I can hardly wait for that.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I am checking in feeling really good.It was another wonderful Wednesday night for me.I went to my group meeting tonight at the church and it went great.I had another wonderful meeting with them.I really like going to these groups.They are really swell.The men in the group are a swell bunch.I have said it before.I'll say it again.I am glad to have found out about this group.It has been doing me a lot of good.I am looking forward to the next meeting.I hope that it's just as wonderful as tonights.
Tonight,I am also jumping for joy.The Buffalo Sabres defeated the Ottawa Senators tonight by a score of 3-2.This finally ends Ottawa's domination over Buffalo.Ever since this season began,the Senators have owned the Sabres.It was hard to believe that the Sabres eliminated the Senators from the playoffs last year in overtime.But tonight,the Sabres finally turned the tables on the Senators by defeating them on home ice.How sweet it is!Their next game,on home ice,is Saturday night when the Calgary Flames come to town.Tonight's game is the start of a 6 game home stretch.I am hoping for a third consecutive win Saturday night.Yes I do.They are in 1st Place in their division at the moment.That is totally AWESOME.A win Saturday night would be even more AWESOME.I hope that it happens.
That was my night.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.The work day went as well as expected.I am now at home relaxing and listening to the hockey game.The game,between the Buffalo Sabres and the Atlanta Thrashers,is tied 3-3.I am hoping that the Sabres can win this game tonight.It will be neat for them to win this game after two consecutive disappointing losses.Again,I am hoping for a Buffalo win.Right now,they are in overtime.
Tonight,the weather is COLD.The wind chill is -15 below freezing at the moment and I am in the house.Earlier today,when I returned to my vehicle after sorting out the laundry while my vehicle was still running,I saw that my coolant gage was in the middle,which was unusual.I drove to find a parking space and I turned on my heater and the gage went back to just before the middle,where it normally is when I am driving.After waiting a while after parking my vehicle,I went out to it around lunch time to check my radiator and I noticed that it was low.I filled it with a little bit of anti-freeze and closed the radiator.Later,when I went out to my vehicle to warm it up,no problems as I was driving it home.But still,I am going to have my mechanic check it out to be on the safe side because I have a group meeting tomorrow night and I don't want nothing to go wrong as I am going down or even coming back.I want to go to my meeting and I want to get what I am getting out of these meetings whenever I attend them.Again,I am hoping that nothing is really wrong.I am determined to go to the meeting.
Tomorrow is another appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.I am hoping that the meeting with her goes well.
This just in,the Buffalo Sabres defeat the Atlanta Thrashers in a shootout by a score of 4-3.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.I am at home at the moment.It is bitterly COLD out and there is nothing to do nor is there anywhere to go on a night like this when the weather is as COLD as it is tonight.It can be boring when there is a situation like this one.Yes it can be.But I am just going with the flow,staying home and getting ready for the work day tomorrow.I am hoping that the work day goes good tomorrow.
I had my couseling session today for anger management and that went well.My next session,which is next month,will be my last session with him and I will be going back to regular med management.My counselor is impressed with the progress that I have made in the last several months and so is my supervisor.It is a great feeling knowing that you are accomplishing something that you have been trying to accomplish for a long time and not getting anywhere.I have seen that I have come a long way since then.But still,I am taking life one day at a time and looking at terms of overcoming and controlling emotions as one day at a time accomplishments.If you suceed one day,enjoy it.But the next day will be different and it has it's own challenges as the previous day.It goes on every day and you can't let any good progress go to your head.You have to keep on,press on and take it,again,one day at a time.
That was my day.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling okay.I had to run a few errands today and that kept me busy.It was a bitterly COLD day today as I was doing them.Yes it was.But I was just getting on with my business and getting my errands done so I could relax and take it easy for the rest of the day.There is really nothing to do in my area with the weather being as bitterly COLD as it is at the moment.Right now,I am at home and it is COLD at the moment.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowds was another success.The only drawback was that there was not an awful lot of people there last night due to the COLD weather but it was still a great night.I had a ball and the crowd enjoyed my song selections and that made me feel good.The only disappointment was that the Buffalo Sabres lost to the New Jersey Devils last night by a score of 3-2.Their next game is on Tuesday night against the Atlanta Thrashers in Atlanta.I hope that they can beat them on Tuesday night.A win would be totally sweet and it would make me feel better after that disappointing loss to the New Jersey Devils.
Tonight,I am sitting at home relaxing.Again,the night is bitterly COLD and windy with wind chils in the -15 range.If that's not COLD,then I don't know what is.During the superbowl,my mom and I watched the Beatles movie A Hard Day's Night in my VCR/DVD Player combo on DVD and that was neat.It was wonderful to have this film on DVD and watch it on that format.It was a wonderful night despite the FRIGID COLD temperatures.But I had nothing else to do due to the weather,so it was a wonderful night.
The National Weather Service has already stated that there is no relief in sight at the moment from the weather we are having.The weather will continue for quite a while with no relief in the near future as far as the rest of this week and the next few weeks go.But still,that could change,though I will not hold my breath on it.
That was my day and night.FJ