Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time that I had.It wasn't hard.After I was done,I bagged everything that was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at my regular bank to cash my paycheck and I also withdrew some money that my mom needed.After that,I headed for a nearby drug store to buy a bottle of hydrogen peroxide for my mom.I headed straight home afterwards.
After getting home,I relaxed for a bit while waiting for dinner to get ready.I was waiting for a website to come up to connect me to the renewal process of my Norton anti-virus software.I now can simply go to my renewal next week so I can renew my subscription.I am going to be needing this to keep my protection going for another year.You never know when a virus or some spyware will invade or even try to invade the database.
After eating,I registered the bills at the Where's George site and I did some other personal work.Overall,a pretty good day.
I am glad that the weekend is here.I am looking forward to singing tomorrow night.I always look forward to entertaining the crowd and it makes me feel great to do that.I am hoping that the night goes well.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I did not have any images nor did I have any cravings creeping up on my mentality.It is great that I am no longer enslaved to SSA and that I really don't have to act out if I really don't want to.I am hoping to get through the weekend unscathed.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have made no plans but whatever I do,I am hoping that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the new weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good but busy day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time allotted.Despite a shaky start to the day,the day went well and I was pleased with the results.After my job was finished,I bagged everything and I dropped it off at the rehab center before heading straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched another After School Special episode on my DVD set.I also got ready to go to my appointment with the new sexual abuse support counselor.
On the way to my appointment,I stopped to check up on a friend but he wasn't home.After that,I went to get some gas and I headed for the office to wait to see the counselor.
I didn't wait too long.I was called into the office a few minutes after arriving.We talked for about 20 minutes and we ended the session.It did go fairly well but we are looking forward to talking more on my next appointment,which will be in two weeks.
Before heading for home,I headed for the local hospital's emergency ward.I was feeling a resurgence of the same cold symptoms that I had two weeks ago.The in-house doctor there prescribed a nasal spray and some strong cough remedy.I got the prescriptions filled on the way home because I needed them right away.I headed straight home after they were filled.When I got home,I started using the nasal spray right away.I am feeling a little bit better nasal wise but I am still coughing a little.I will be taking a cough pill before I go to sleep tonight.
After eating a light dinner,I finished my personal PC work and I did some online browsing.Overall,a pretty good but busy day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems nor did I have any images or cravings creeping up into my mentality.I am hoping that I can get through the day tomorrow unscathed.I am feeling pretty good as a result.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.I also had a helping hand when I arrived at the work site to drop it off and sort it out.After sorting out the laundry,I headed to my appointment to meet with the minister.
On the way there,I stopped at a Burger King in the area and I had a Veggie burger for lunch.I wanted to have some food in me before anything else.After eating,I headed for my appointment.
It took a bit of doing getting there.I also got lost a couple of times before I had to ask for help from a lady who was working by the side of the road.After she gave me some direction,I took the way she gave me and I found the street that I was looking for and the place where my meeting was going to be.
When I walked into the church,the minister greeted me and I apologized for being a few minutes late due to me getting lost.We talked for almost and hour and it was a very pleasant conversation.He simply advised me to find a church that teaches the bible on a regular basis but also,try to find one that believes in doing the right thing and refuse to compromise due to law.I said that I would try and do that and that I would let him know when I do.He walked me out and I drove away heading for home.
On the way home,I made a couple of stops.Firstly,I stopped at my mechanic's garage to clean out my old car of some cans and bottles that had accumulated in the trunk.I bagged them in a garbage bag and put them in the back seat of my 4X4 before heading off to a local supermarket to return some beer bottles and some cans for the little bit of money that they would give me.I headed straight home after that and I am staying here for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I watched another After School Special from the DVD set that I bought and I laid down for a short while before I had dinner.
After eating,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work and to browse some internet pages.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems whatsoever.I had no cravings nor images creeping up on me.The meeting with the minister really helped me to forget about anything sexual.Plus,all the concentration that I had to do regarding the road also helped.I feel pretty good as a result of this and the day turned out to be pretty wonderful.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.I also have an appointment with a new sexual abuse support counselor and I am hoping that this first session will go well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time allotted.It wasn't quite a bit to do.After finishing,I simply bagged what was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar General store to buy a box of garbage bags and some baby wipes.I headed straight home after paying for them.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched an episode of my new DVD set of After School Specials and it was a treat to watch it.I got this on Monday and I watched one that day that I had missed when I was younger.It was also a treat to watch that one as well.After watching that,I registered a couple of bills at the Where's George site.I then proceeded to go out and get dinner for me and my mom.
I bought a $4.00 sandwich at Quizno's shop and it was delicious.I also had them slice the sandwich in half so me and my mom could eat it.Again,the sandwich was delicious and my mom and I enjoyed it.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work.It was quite a lot but I got it done.I also visited a few other webpages and checked my Yahoo Messenger to see if I had any offline messages and to add a few contacts to my Yahoo messengers list.I didn't stay on messenger for too long as I signed out and closed the messenger.I will be checking it again before I shut down to see if there has been any changes.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images nor cravings creeping up on me.Plus,I had no desire to act out.That actually makes me feel pretty good.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick up goes well.I also have an appointment to meet with a minister tomorrow afternoon and I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I did have a few errands that I needed to run.Firstly,I went to my mechanic's garage so he could check my horn out and see why it was giving out on me.He simply did some cleaning of some dirt on the connectors and after that,the horn worked better than ever.I went straight home after that and got back into bed,where I slept for a little over an hour.
After getting back up,I did my personal PC work and had a light lunch.I also managed to bring my mail in and I got the DVD set that I was waiting on.I then proceeded to continue on with my day.
I went to the post office to mail out a couple of bills that I needed to pay and I also went after picking up my mom's prescription refill.I then went to a mom's friends house to pick up something that she had for her.Lastly,I went to a local supermarket to pick up a bag of bagels.I headed straight home after that and waited for dinner to get done.
After eating,I decided to do some more last minute personal PC work.In between all the errands,I managed to withdraw some money for my mom and I registered all the bills at the Where's George site.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.There were no images nor cravings.I guess that keeping myself busy was what kept my mind off of sex with men and sex in general.I feel pretty good because of it.I hope that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers of the world.
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today despite a shaky start.
When I got out of bed,I had a light breakfast and I did my personal PC work.It was quite a lot and I did have a few issues with the browser that I was using.But again,I managed to get everything done and I proceeded to get on with the day.
I really didn't have too much to do.After I gave my mom her Mother's Day gift,which was the CD that I made for her,I cleaned up,got dressed and went out for a while.My eldest sister was in town visiting with mom and I felt that I should leave them alone for a while.
Firstly,I got some gas at a local gas station and I went to a nearby shopping mall.When I got there,I had a slice of pizza as a late lunch and I headed back home after I was done eating.
When I did get home,my eldest sister was still talking with mom and I chose to browse the internet for a while.I would eventually take my eldest sister to my other sister's house when she felt a little tired.
After getting home,I ate a late dinner and after eating,I chose to do some last minute personal PC work.I also did some browsing and visited a few pages on Wikipedia and Muppet Wiki.Overall,a pretty good day.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.There were quite a few guys there who were having a bachelor party downstairs in the place's basement and they decided to come up and watch the entertainment upstairs once their party ended.It was great to have all of these guys there and I did get some really loud positive responses from them as one by one,most of them left for home.Still,it was a great night and I had a good time.I am looking forward to next week.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had an episode where I wound up masturbating.Images of men with erections crept up into my mentality while I was still in bed sleeping and as stated,I masturbated.I did feel miserable after that but after cleaning up all the seminal residue,I asked the creator to forgive me.I felt better after that.I guess that I need to learn to make alternate decisions before acting out.I have been doing so good but I wound up falling short.There is a new week ahead and I am hoping that I can get through the week unscathed.
I am thinking of going out and having a drink with the guys over at the bar tonight.I am hoping for some good conversations with them.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes well.I do have an appointment with my mechanic tomorrow so he can check out my horn mechanism to see why it has been giving out on me a lot lately.I hope that the problem is not very serious.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was a pretty busy day.After I woke up,I ate and I did my personal PC work.It was quite a lot and I was glad to have gotten it done.After doing that,I started to get on with my day.
I ran a whole bunch of errands today.Firstly,I went and had my hair cut and I had a light lunch at a nearby supermarket.I also went to the local Wal-Mart and bought some new razor blades.Last but not least,I stopped at a local supermarket to buy a few things that my mom needed.I headed for home after that.
When I got home,I unloaded the groceries and I bathed while mom prepared dinner.After the bath,I registered a couple of bills that I got in change after I had my hair cut.After doing a little bit of some personal stuff,I ate dinner.
After eating,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work before shutting the computer down.
I am going to be singing up a storm tonight.I am looking forward to entertaining the crowd as I always do every weekend.I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.I rarely have any bad nights but I always hope that things go well.It is a habit of mine.I do have the feeling that things will work out for me.Still,I hope.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images creeping up on me nor did I have any cravings to act out.I am feeling pretty good as a result.I am just hoping that I can get through the rest of the weekend unscathed.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I had only a small amount of laundry during the pick-up phase but it was better than nothing.I had lunch before starting my job.I had only a couple of small loads to do and it didn't take too much of my time.After I was done.I simply dropped the clean laundry off and headed for home.
I went home before going to the bank because I needed to charge my cell phone.It was beeping repeatedly because the battery was low and it was driving me crazy.After plugging in my phone,I headed for the bank.
After cashing my check,I headed straight home but I went back out again after dropping off my money because my mom needed tartar sauce.I went back out to get it.
When I got home,I ate a light dinner and I made a CD set for my mom for Mother's Day.I am hoping that my mom enjoys this CD set of songs that I made for her.I will be giving it to her on Sunday.Again,I am hoping that she enjoys it.
I also ran one more errand tonight.I ran out to the local Wal-Mart to purchase a few things that I needed for myself.I also had no problems finding the stuff that I needed.Overall,a pretty good day.
I am just glad that the weekend is here.I am looking forward to singing tomorrow night and I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.I haven't made any plans on what I will do the rest of the weekend but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no cravings nor did any images creep up into my mentality.Plus,I haven't watched any pornography nor have I visited any pornographic websites in over two months.I am feeling pretty good as a result.I am hoping that I can get through the weekend unscathed.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling alright.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.The only drawback was that there was no laundry for me to pick up.Fortunately,there was some stuff for me to do at the work site and it wasn't a total loss.I simply did what I had to do job wise and everything worked out.After dropping off the clean laundry at the rehab center,I headed for home.
On the way home,I made a couple of stops.I firstly stopped at a gas station to get some gas and I made a stop at a Dollar Tree store to buy a few things that my mom needed and after paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I laid down for a little over an hour because I was feeling tired after my work day.I slept for a while before finishing my personal PC work.
After eating a light dinner,I read from a local newspaper that I bought at the Dollar Tree store while listening to some music.They were a couple of records that I had bought off of an Ebay seller.
The day started pretty dismal but later wound up nice.For much of the morning,the weather was wet and foggy.It turned sunny after a while but was still pretty cool.Overall,a pretty good work day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images creeping up into my mind nor did I have any cravings.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly despite a minor setback.After I arrived at the work site,I had lunch before sorting out the laundry.There were only a couple of semi-heaping full bags and I had plenty of time before sorting them.After eating,I did what I had to do and I headed for home.
On the way home,I made a couple of stops.I first mailed out some cards for my mom and I stopped at a local Dollar General to pick up a few things that my mom needed.After paying for the items,I stopped at a local Salvation Army thrift shop to look around but couldn't find anything that I wanted.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I decided to lay down for a while and was hoping to rest for an hour but was interrupted by a phone call.The phone call was from a new sexual abuse support counselor that I will be having sessions with.She called to reschedule because something had come up for this coming Monday and she needed to give me a new date.After I jotted down the new appointment date,I hung up and sat down for a while.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to run one last errand for my mom today.I had forgotten to pick up a roll of paper towels for my mom and I went out to buy the roll.My mom said that it could have waited until tomorrow,but I wanted to get it done tonight so they would be in the house.
When I got home,I did some last minute personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems today.There were no images or cravings creeping up on me.I hope that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly despite a shaky start with the laundry pick-up.After the pick-up,I went to the work site to sort the laundry out and start a couple of loads.After doing that,I hung out at the social club for a while and had a pretty good conversation with one of the guys there.
After the social club,I concentrated on my job and getting it done.I only went back to the social club just to have lunch and after that,I finished the work that I needed to finish and dropped the clean laundry off at the rehab center.I headed for home after that.
On the way home,I made some stops along the way.Firstly,I dropped off a couple of newspapers at a couple of friends houses and I picked up my mom's prescription at the drug store while also picking up some cookies.The last things that I did was that I went to get some gas and I also picked up a gallon of milk.I headed straight home after that and that is where I am for the night.
I relaxed for a bit at home while waiting for dinner to get done.I napped on my bed for about an hour after taking a prescription cough pill.I felt better after my nap and I had dinner shortly after getting up.I also received a phone call from a minister that I was waiting to hear from.We have an appointment set up in a week.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work and despite a couple of issues with the internet browser that I was using,I managed to get it done.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images nor cravings to act out in any way,shape or form.Nothing to complain or gripe about.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty busy day today.
Firstly,when I woke up,I ate and I started to get on with my day.I had a lot to do and I wanted to start getting everything that I needed to do.
I did briefly check my e-mail and I deleted some very unimportant things and after closing off the internet,I cleaned up and got dresses and started to do the things that I needed to do.
Firstly,I went shopping to pick up several things for dinner and several Mother's Day cards that my mom had asked me to get.After getting all of these things,I headed for my appointment.
When I got to the office,I learned that my appointment was canceled.This really came as a surprise to me.I was hoping to meet with the counselor but the meeting was canceled.The counselor later apologized for not letting me know of the changes ahead of time and I got a new appointment with a new counselor and I left the office.
After having a light but late lunch,I went to a nearby post office to buy some stamps to mail out some letters that my mom had asked me to mail and I also mailed out my monthly credit card payment by 3 day Priority Mail so it will get there by the date due.After doing that,I visited with someone that I knew for a while before heading for home.
After I got home,I started to do my personal PC work as I awaited dinner too be ready.I had to do it in two separate intervals today.It was quite a lot.When I did bring in the mail,I received some records that I bought off an Ebay seller.I am still awaiting two more that I bought off of the same seller.I even tried them out on my record player and they play great.
After eating dinner,I finished my personal PC work and I also browsed for a while online.Overall,a pretty busy day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems today.I had no images nor cravings creeping up on me.I guess that keeping myself busy with everything that I had to do was what kept my mind off of sex with other men.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was a pretty busy day for me.I had a few errands that I needed to run.Firstly,I did my personal PC work and I started to get on with my day.I had lots to do and I didn't waste any time.The first place that I went to was my sister's house to pick up a whole bunch of bottles and cans that she said she had.I picked them up and I took them to the local supermarket to turn them in for the money.It was good that I picked these up because the local supermarket was the place where I was heading to pick up some groceries.After turning in the bottles and getting the money,I did the shopping.
I managed to find everything that I was looking for.There was also not a problem finding them.After paying for the groceries,I headed straight home to drop the groceries off before heading back out again.
I went to the friend that owns a record store in town but he wasn't home.I headed back home.
On the way,my mom had called me on my cell phone and told me that my sister had some more beer bottles for me to pick up.I picked them up and immediately turned them in at a nearby convenience store before heading back home.
When I got back home,I registered all the money that I had at the Where's George site,which included the change from the groceries and from all the bottles that I turned in.They are all on the site and I will be sending them on their way very soon.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to do some more personal PC work,including posting here.I also did some internet browsing.Overall,a pretty good and busy day.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.There were quite a few people at the place and I got a lot of positive responses from the crowd.I had a great time and I am looking forward to next Saturday night.I also had a friend with me who came there riding his bicycle and left after singing a couple of songs when finished with his beer.He also called me when he got home and that really relieved me.He told me that he wasn't feeling very well and that he was going home.Overall,a pretty good night.
I am planning to see a movie tonight.I am going to see the film The Haunting in Connecticut.I have heard some mixed reactions to the film and I would like to see it for myself.I am hoping that it is a good movie.After the movie,I am thinking of going to have a drink with the guys at the place where I entertain.I am hoping that I have some good talks with them.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a brief episode while in bed this morning.It came in the form of a dream where a guy I knew was trying to talk me into performing oral sex on him.Fortunately,it was brief.It all ended when I had to get up and use the bathroom.When I went back to bed,I had no problems with SSA and I slept soundly until I finally did get up for the day.I went through the rest of the day unscathed.
Tomorrow is my day off.I have an appointment with a sexual abuse support counselor tomorrow afternoon and I hope that the session goes well.I also have to mail out a payment to a bank for a credit card account that I have with them tomorrow.I am hoping that the whole day goes well.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling very good.I had a very good day today.
First off,I went to the appointment that I had made for this morning and the appointment went well.We had a group meeting where we discussed a few things and we also watched a spiritually enlightened video.It was really awesome.I had a blast just listening to the other men talk and they welcomed me very warmly.It was great and I left feeling better about myself in a long time.After the meeting,I went about to finish what I had set out to do.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby Salvation Army thrift store in the area and bought a few things.I also went to a supermarket nearby the store to pick up some groceries that my mom asked me to get.I managed to find everything that I was looking for.I also went to the nearby Family Dollar store and picked up a couple of bottles of dish detergent.After getting all of these things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I sorted out all of the groceries and I also laid down for a while.I was feeling a little tired.I did not sleep.I simply relaxed while I read from a book that I have.
After my down time,I decided to do my personal PC work.I had put it off all morning while at the meeting and I was glad to get it finished.It was quite a lot and I was glad to to get it done.
After doing that,I ran a few more errands for my mom.I dropped off a birthday gift for my eldest grand-niece and I also bought a few more things at a local supermarket.I headed back home and bathed before I had dinner.
After eating,I ran just one more errand before posting here.I am now done with errands for the day and I am looking forward to what my mom has in store for me tomorrow.
Tonight is the night that I am going out to sing.I am looking forward to entertaining the crowd tonight and I am hoping that the evening goes well.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.Again,I hope that things go well.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.I am planning to see the film The Haunting in Connecticut tomorrow evening.I am hoping that the film is pretty good.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images nor cravings creeping into my mentality.I guess that keeping myself busy doing all the things that I did kept my mind off of sex with other men and the like.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
That was my day today and my hopes for the evening and the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time allotted.After it was all done,I simply bagged everything clean,dropped it off at the rehab center and headed straight home.
After getting home,I went back out to cash my paycheck and withdraw some money for my mom.She wants to buy something for her great grand-daughter for her birthday.There is a birthday party coming up and she wants to make sure that she has a gift for her.
After I got home,I registered all the bills at the Where's George site and managed to get them on the site despite some issues with the internet browser that I was using.After that,I went back out again to get a couple of things while my mom prepared dinner.
After getting home,I speedily checked my e-mail and I also made an Ebay purchase before I sat down at the table to eat.It was a light dinner so I wasn't in no hurry to get to the table.I just wanted to get the purchase done because I had started to do it while waiting.I also managed to buy a DVD set from a seller on Amazon.
After eating,I decided to do some more last minute personal PC work.I still have a couple of more e-mails to write before shutting down the computer.
Tomorrow,I will be meeting with someone at a church in the morning.I talked with the man on Wednesday and the appointment is now set.I am hoping that this goes well.
I am also going to be singing again tomorrow night.I am looking forward to that.I always look forward to singing each and every Saturday night.I am hoping that the evening goes well.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.There were no images nor cravings creeping on me.I kept busy all day with my job and I also read another chapter in the book The Raggamuffin Gospel and so far,it is a very good read.I am hoping to get through the weekend unscathed.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have no plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty eventful day today.
The work shift,despite a minor mishap that I had with a social club member,went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the amount of time that I had.After eating lunch,I bagged everything that was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center.After stopping to get some gas at a nearby gas station,I headed straight home.
I relaxed for a while when I got home.I had an appointment with my eye doctor today and I wanted to prepare for it.I also wanted to be careful not to miss this one like I missed my appointment last week.When it was time to leave,I headed over to the office for my appointment.
When I got there,I was early and they decided to start my test exam early.They did the usual drops in the eyes and checking the eye pressure.I had to wait quite a while for the doctor to talk with me about the results and what he had found out regarding my sight.I have another appointment with him in 6 months.After going to a local supermarket and the local Target to pick up a few things,I headed straight home.Despite the disorganization that I had as a result of the testing,I managed to make it home safe and sound.I even rested for a while before eating when I did get home.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work.It was quite a lot but I got it done.I am still feeling a little disorganized but after a good night's sleep,I know that I will be back in good shape tomorrow morning.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.No images nor cravings crept up into my mentality today.I kept myself busy with all the activity that I had and I am feeling pretty good as a result.Overall,a pretty good day.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay and at the same time,a little "under the weather".I had a pretty eventful day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean up nor were there any problems getting the single bag that I had to the work site.When I arrived at the site,I had lunch before sorting the laundry out.
After getting the job done,I headed over to the local hospital's emergency ward because of some cold symptoms that I had.When I initially got there,I couldn't find a place to park in their parking lot because the parking lot was really filled up.I decided to visit with a friend for a while to see how he was before heading back there.He did initially asked me to take him to the local social services office but later found that he couldn't go because he just remembered that his landlord was coming over to work a matter out with him.After visiting,I headed back to the hospital.
This time,there was a parking space there for me and after I parked,I went right in and signed up to be seen by the doctor.
I was in the ward for a little over a couple of hours.But I was very patient in waiting because they had others that they were seeing.When the doctor did get to me,he examined me and gave me a couple of prescriptions to help with my symptoms.After getting them filled at a local drug store,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things that my mom needed and after paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I took a pill from one of the prescriptions and decided to take a short nap.I rested for a little over an hour and I decided to do some computer work while waiting for dinner to get done.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work.Before posting here,I got a phone call that I was waiting on.I have an appointment to meet with someone at a local church this coming Saturday morning.I am hoping that the meeting with this person goes well.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images nor cravings creeping up into my mind.Plus,when I was resting,I slept very soundly with no images even creeping up into any form of dreams.That made me feel pretty good.I am hoping that I can sleep well tonight.Overall,a pretty eventful day.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.There were no messes to pick up when I did the initial pick-up this morning and when I arrived at the work site,I simply sorted everything out and started a couple of loads before parking my vehicle and heading for the social club.
After spending some time at the social club,I decided to concentrate more on my job and get it done.After the initial loads were done,I started two more.While waiting for those loads to finish,I read for a while.I printed some articles from the internet on how to let go of anger and bitterness and overcoming masturbation.I also read a health article that I also printed off the internet alongside these.I am going to try and use the advice on letting go and overcoming masturbation in the weeks ahead.I am hoping that the advice will work out for me.
As the day was winding down after I had lunch,I started reading the book The Ragamuffin Gospel by Brendan Manning.It looks like a pretty interesting read.The stuff that I read so far are the forwards and words of encouragement that were written by the author and a few friends.I am hoping to get an awful lot out of reading this book.After the day was done,I bagged all that was clean and dropped it off at the rehab center.After dropping off a couple of newspapers at a couple of houses and mailing a birthday card out for my mom,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed because we had rain for much of the day and I didn't feel like going anywhere as a result.
After getting home,I decided to take a nap.I was feeling tired and I felt that a nap would do me some good.while trying to sleep,I was having yet another dream of having sex with a man.I don't know what sparked this but as soon as I dozed off,I started having the dream and I was also talking to myself in my sleep to the person in my dream.Fortunately,it was brief and though I almost gave into a masturbation temptation,I turned to my left side and the dream started dying down and the rest of my nap went great.I slept for over an hour and a half.
After my nap,I had a light dinner and finished my personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day despite the brief episode earlier during my nap.
Regarding my SSA struggles,as stated,I did have that brief episode while trying to take a nap.But again,I was fortunate that it was only brief and though I almost masturbated,it didn't lead to anywhere.I am hoping that I can get through the rest of the week without any problems.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well without any messes to clean up.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I didn't have too much to do today.I simply ran a couple of errands and that sums up how my day went.
After getting out of bed,I ate breakfast and I did my personal PC work.There were not too many issues with the internet browser today though I did close it off for just a few seconds due to the browser freezing up and rebooting itself for a brief time.I managed to finish the work and closed the internet off to get ready for what I had to do.
My first errand today was that I had to go to my mechanic's garage to borrow his scraper so I could remove my old registration window sticker and put my new one on so it can be up to date.After that,I went to a local supermarket to buy a few things that my mom needed.I also bought a couple of birthday cards for a couple of 9 year old cars that I know that my mom wanted me to get.I got them and after paying for them,I headed straight home.I also managed to get a couple things that I needed for myself.
After getting home,I ate a light dinner and I registered a dollar bill that I got in change when I bought the things that I was asked to buy.Overall,a pretty good day.It was also a pretty nice sunny day,weatherwise.
The movie that I went to see,the updated version of The Last House on the Left,was actually a pretty good movie.It was a remake of the 1972 thriller that was created by Wes Craven and Sean S.Cunningham.I really enjoyed the film and I am looking forward to this coming to DVD.The next movie that I am hoping to see is The Haunting in Connecticut.I am hoping that it comes to the bargain theater soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I had no images nor cravings creeping into my mind.I kept myself busy and that kept my mind off of sex with men.I hope that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was a day that I really didn't have too much to do.When I woke up,I simply ate breakfast,did my personal PC work and ran a small errand.I woke up when it was lunchtime.I went to sleep late last night after the night of entertainment that I had the previous night.It was a wonderful night and I had a blast.
When I ran my small errand,I noticed that there was a pack of cigarettes on the floor of my 4X4 and I first wondered how they got there because I don't smoke.I then remembered that I did drop a friend off at home last night and they must have fallen out of his shirt pocket.I went right to his house to drop them off and finished my day.It was nothing much really but I was glad to have been out in the community today.The weather was beautiful and sunny.I just wanted to be out in the community and just be within the presence of others.Again,it was a beautiful sunny day and I was glad to be out.
When I got home,I relaxed a bit while waiting for dinner to get done.It was a light dinner and I just wanted to simply take it easy for a while before it was ready.
After eating,I watched the news on TV for a little over an hour while waiting for my computer to finish restarting because I couldn't get onto the internet due to an issue with the browser.I am now listening to a sermon online and it is pretty good what I am hearing.
Last night,after posting here,I went to the local K-Mart to buy a couple pairs of sneakers.I needed some because the pair that I was wearing were wearing out.I was feeling extreme pain in my right foot and I felt that I needed a new pair.K-Mart was having a sale where if one pair of sneakers is bought,the second pair is 1/2 price.I took advantage of this and bought two pairs.After trying them on for size,I paid for them and headed for home.I wore one of them last night when I went out and I didn't feel any extreme pain.I walked better and I didn't feel like saying "oooch" when I tried to walk.I now have another pair when these wear out.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.I had a blast.I got a lot of positive responses from the crowd.I also had a friend with me and even that made it more worthwhile.I had a great time and I dropped my friend off at home when we were done before I headed straight home.
I do have plans for tonight.I am going to see a movie tonight.I am going to go see the updated version of the classic thriller The Last House on the Left.This is a remake of a film about a family getting revenge on a group of mentally disturbed people after they assaulted their child and her best friend.I am hoping that the film is a good one.After that,I am thinking of going to the place where I entertain and have a drink or two with the gang there.I am hoping that I can have some great conversations with the guys that will be there.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no real problems.I simply went through the day and had no dealings with cravings,feelings and the like.Overall,a pretty fair week because I did have a brief episode on Wednesday afternoon.I am hoping that I can get through the new week unscathed.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes well.I haven't made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it benefits me in a positive manner.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ