Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went over to my niece's house to pick up some of my laundry and after that,I dropped it off and I headed over to a local supermarket to turn in some cans and bottles that had accumulated in the back seat of my car and after that,I headed straight home to register all of the bills at the Where's George website and after that,I headed back out again to a local bargain outlet store to pick up a giant jar of pasta sauce and after paying for that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a gallon of milk and a few other things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I relaxed while doing some more personal PC work.I then relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming and/or difficult for me to handle.When it seems to try to envelope me and make me feel worse,I simply bring this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through all the rigamarole of this particular struggle and they both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a calm and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and I headed for the bathroom,as I had to use it,and that helped soften the erection and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in same sex fantasies and lusting after sexual images of men that were clouding my mind.I had to really pray hard to my Heavenly Father and I asked him for strength to fight and resist these terrible temptations that were coming at from all sides.I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help keep me strong and to help me fight and resist all of these terrible temptations and I did feel better and much stronger after I was finished praying each time.I didn't want to fall into anything sinful again like i did this week and I wanted to show my Heavenly Father that I am serious about wanting to heal and overcome this terrible SSA.I am again asking that all of you please keep up in praying for me as I am going through this difficult and emotionally trying time as I really and desperately need prayers from all of my fellow supporters and strugglers.Please keep me in your prayers as I am going through this difficult time.I also ask that all of you who follow my blog and read the posts to please offer some encouraging words in the comments section.They can be in the form of upbuilding with scriptures of something to help keep me going and to motivate me to keep up the fight.Your prayers and encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also increase my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to motivate me to continue in my journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the upcoming weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday,I haven't got anything planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did 4/5 of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
I first went to my spirituality group and that went as well as expected.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something that I needed.After paying for that,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and finished my personal PC work.When that was done,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be like from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I ask my Heavenly Father to help get me through the difficulties of this particular struggle,this psychiatric double whammy that I have,in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I fell twice within a fifteen hour period.Last night,I gave into temptation by masturbating and yes,there was lusting and fantasizing of other men involved and I manipulated my genitals while those images were flashing through my mind and later on in the early afternoon,I fell again by the same thing again.I masturbated on both occasions after the genital manipulation.On both of these occurrences,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning on both occasions and on the second fall,I asked for my Heavenly Father's mercy as I gave into the same thing again because I really felt terrible and worthless after that.I begged for my Heavenly Father's mercy to the point where tears fell from my eyes and I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for sinning against him on both of these occurrences.I did feel better as I truly and totally knew and believed that I was truly forgiven for my sins and that my Heavenly Father wiped the slate clean and it gave me a pretty good feeling.These falls were terrible and I really felt bad after that,but I am forgiven and I am going to try and work on myself.Please fellow blog followers,I am again appealing to all of you to please keep praying for me as I am going through this difficult emotional and trying time.I need all the prayers that I can get.I also could use some words of encouragement as I am going through this terribly emotional and trying time.Please leave me a word of encouragement or two in the comments section.Please do so as I am in desperate need of some verbal encouragement right now.I need to know that many of my fellow strugglers are behind me a whole 100% and I really could use the encouragement right now.Your prayers and your encouragement do indeed keep me going in this fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to motivate me to continue in my journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.I need both prayerful and emotional support from positive encouragement from everyone who also struggle with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for being there and also,for all that they do as well as provide.
Tomorrow,with the exception of returning some bottles that have accumulated in my back seat,I have really nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

July 10th

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work,had a quick,but light,lunch and got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things to do today.I cleaned out the back seat of my car and bagged quite a few loose bottles and cans that were in the back seat.It took me about fifteen minutes to do that and after that,I went back into the house to do some cleaning up here and there and after that was done,I relaxed and did a little bot of reading.
In the mid afternoon,I went over to my nieces house to babysit her kids for a few hours.I also had a light dinner over there as well.When my niece got home,I I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I watched a little TV and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply throw any burdens that this particular struggle can bring on my Heavenly Father and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ and ask them both to help get me through the rigamarole of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with and suffer from and they both help in sustaining me as well as keep me on a calm and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I started to sit up and get out of bed and since I had to use the bathroom,I headed over there and that is what made the erection soften and after I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men and also,I was tempted to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I prayed to my Heavenly Father constantly as these temptations were coming at me from all sides and I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist these urges that were coming at me and after I was finished praying,I felt better and much stronger as I truly believed and knew that they gave me what I was seeking from them.It is just that I don't want to fall again like I did several days ago.I am also again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read the posts that I write here almost every day to please continue in prayer for me as I am still going through a very emotionally difficult and trying time.Please keep up in prayer for me as I truly and desperately need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also ask that you leave an encouraging word or two for in the comments section also.I need some words of encouragement as I am also in desperate need of some emotional verbal encouragement.My blogs gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave anything as far as comments are concerned.I need some positive verbal encouragement as I really need to see that there are people like me who are also struggling and also want to support me in my struggle.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to motivate me to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA condition.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ fr everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,I have my usual spirituality group and lunch at a local kitchen afterwards.Aside from these things,I don't have anything else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

July 9th

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did 4/5 of my personal PC work as I awaited my niece to call me and when she did,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
After dropping off my niece's car at her place,we went to a local repair garage to pick up my car as the starter had to replaced.After that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up something for lunch and after that,I dropped off some free newspapers at a few people's houses and after that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I finished my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed and caught up on some reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.Whenever this particular struggle seems to try to get me down and make me emotionally exhausted,I simply take it to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ and I ask them both to help get me through and endure all of these negatives and they both help in not only keeping me sustained,but also on a very calm and level plain.It shows that I don't have to struggle alone and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to walk a little and that made the erection soften and when my genitals were fully soft,I went back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men and also,to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I prayed real hard to my Heavenly Father as these temptations were really overwhelming.I prayed for strength and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations and after I was finished praying each time,I felt much better and also,much stronger.While I have been doing that,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts regularly to please continue in prayer for me and also,to please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments.I need both your prayers and your positive encouragement.Your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement both help keep me going in this fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue my journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

July 8th

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today,despite some setbacks.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,my niece called me saying that she was going to work and I accompanied her because I had to use her car again to do what I had to do.After she was dropped off at her work,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to pay a much delayed bill that I had to pay and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,my niece gave me a ring the minute that I was in the house and I had to go back out again to do a favor for my next door neighbor whose car battery was dead.I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a gallon of milk for her and on the home,I stopped at the local Salvation Army thrift store and bought a few things and after paying for them,I headed over to my insurance agent's office to pay my car insurance for the month and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I dropped the milk off at my neighbor's house and went in to do my personal PC work and listen to some music while I was doing that,but my niece called me and told me that she was feeling sick and needed to see her doctor immediately.I immediately got into her car and drove to where she was working and she took over the driving after that and her doctor told her to check in at the nearby hospital,which she did at it's emergency ward and after she entered the hospital,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I dined on some Japanese raw fish delicacy that she was hoping to have for her lunch,but got sick to her stomach and that was both my lunch and dinner for the day as it was pretty filling.After that,I watched some classic TV reruns on TVLand and simply relaxed.I also managed to finish my personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day despite some setbacks.I also managed to get that recommended reading of the Holy Bible for the day done as well.I also heard from my niece and she informed me that one of her girlfriends was going to pick her up and take her home.I couldn't go out and drive because I had taken my medication and when it kicks in,I can't leave the house nor drive under the influence as it is against the law to drive under the influence of anything that can impair anyone's ability to operate any type of machinery.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.Aside from that,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father and ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure and get me through the difficulties and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I tossed and I turned,but that only made it throb.I started to get out of bed and I walked a little bit and that made the erection soften and when my genitals were fully soft,I went back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men as sexual images of men were clouding my mind.I was also tempted to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I was extremely vulnerable as the negative things that we happening to me today with my niece getting sick and getting worried about her as a result of her being sick.I kept up in prayer to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed for strength to help me fight and resist these temptations and I also said a few words on behalf of my niece as well.I felt much better and much stronger after praying as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ heard me and gave me what I asked for.While I have been doing that,I am again asking for all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am going through this really difficult emotional time as I need all the prayers that I can get.I also need some encouraging words by my followers.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.Please pray for me and please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and they also make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

July 7th

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the morning's worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.I also did a reading from the Holy Bible today in front of the congregation.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a pair of lounge pants.I had no place to go for a while and I relaxed and did my personal PC work.I also relaxed and listened to some music.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I went to pick up my niece from where she was working.After she dropped me off at home,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church on Sunday always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride that at times gets very complicated.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.Aside from the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD,I also have to put up with the hallucinatory effects of schizophrenia at the same time.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply bring this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father and ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure and get through this.They both help in not only sustaining me,but also to help keep me on a normal level plain.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up in bed and sensing that I had to use the bathroom,I got out of bed and headed for the bathroom.As I did that,the erection started to slowly soften and when I was finished in the bathroom,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men and also,I was tempted to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I kept up in prayer to my heavenly Father throughout the day.I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist these terrible temptations that kept coming at me from all sides.I prayed really hard for this and when I was finished praying each time,I felt much stronger each time as I knew and truly believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and gave me what I asked for.While I have been doing that,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue in prayer for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time.I really need prayers real bad as I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also could use some words of encouragement in the comments section as I really need some encouragement right now.Please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rare.I need both your prayers and your encouragement.They both help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

July 6th

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I didn't have too much to do today as a result of me not having my car on the road.My niece worked for much of the day and I didn't get the car until the mid afternoon.When I did,I had to go out and do a little bit of shopping that I had to do.I had to get some personal stuff that I needed and after I was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed for a while and also did some reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.It never gets any easier to deal with.I am always on an up and down ride in regards to my emotions and my emotional make-up.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply bring this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me get through the all the negatives of this particular double whammy of a psychiatric disability that I suffer from.They both help in sustaining me and also,to keep me on a normal level plain and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I started to sit up and proceeded to get off the bed and that is what made the erection soften.After a few minutes,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I did escape this episode,I did give into a later temptation by manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.There was also some lusting and fantasizing with images of men involved.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ as I really was sorry for what I had done.I pleaded to my Heavenly Father and asked him to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ for my sins as I really was sorry for sinning and I did feel better as I truly knew and believed that I was truly forgiven for my sins.I kept up in prayer to my Heavenly Father all day and asked him to keep me strong in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I didn't want ti sin again and I asked my Heavenly Father for strength to help me fight and resist these urges that were coming at me from all sides and I did feel stronger after I finished in prayer to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Christ Jesus.Though I am now really keeping up in that,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read the posts that I post here to please keep up in prayer for me as I am going through this difficult emotional period as a result of what happened on Wednesday when my car's starter mechanism went out.Please keep me in your prayers and also,I am again asking that all of you don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets quite a few visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.Please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as I truly and desperately need some encouraging words.Your prayers and encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church on Sunday,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

July 5th

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed quickly to proceed with the rest of the day.
After dropping my niece off at work using her car,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some money and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the bills that I had withdrawn and headed back out again to pay a couple of bills.One of them had to be mailed while the other I paid in person.After that,I headed straight home to pay my phone bill over the phone and after that was done,I headed out to pick up my niece from work.
After she dropped me off,I headed back into the house and I stayed there for the rest of the day as I had really no place to go since I still haven't gotten my car back on the road as of yet.I know that it will be a while,so I'll just have hang in there.Later on,my niece dropped off some sunburn relief spray.I also did more personal PC work.
After eating.I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.Today,I was marginally better as things are now starting to gradually improve.I will feel better once my car is back on the road and I am driving again to do the things that I have to do.Though I am feeling marginally better,I am still also dealing with the schizophrenic tendencies that I also have alongside the symptoms of BPD.It is never an easy thing to deal with.I have a double whammy of a psychiatric disability and it gets even more difficult to deal with by the day.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me get through the rigamarole of my psychiatric disability and they both help in sustaining me and keeping me level.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I started to sit up in bed and I got up to head for the bathroom and that is what made the erection soften and when I walked back to bed,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies with other men and also,to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/full erection and/or to point of orgasm and stopping.I kept up in prayer to my Heavenly Father all day and asked him for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I asked him for strength to help me fight and resist all of these temptations as I didn't want to fall again like I did this week a couple nights ago.I did feel better and much stronger after doing so.Though I have been doing this,I am again asking that all of you continue to please pray for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time and also,to please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I am in desperate need for prayer and also,for some words of encouragement.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.I need both prayers and encouragement.They both help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and to also continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual on Sunday,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Happy 4th To All Americans

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a little bit improved day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did much of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
For much of the day,I went out and did my grocery shopping and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the groceries away and I started to get ready to go to have dinner with somebody who invited me over and when the time had come for me to go,I headed over that and I made it there despite some heavy traffic that I encountered getting there as a result of this being the 4th of July holiday.
We had some pizza and chicken wings for dinner and after we were finished,we had some small talk and when he told me that he was going to rest for a while,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put on some music,took my medication and finished my personal PC work.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done.Overall,a little bit improved day over yesterday,though not much different.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.This time around,my moods have been fluctuating quite a bit.This is the result of what has been wrong with my car and I am really feeling pretty much at edge and also,I am really feeling the negatives of what I am going through psychiatric disability wise.The schizophrenic tendencies have also been striking me pretty hard as well.I have been hearing so much around me that it is to the point where it is beyond insane.In almost another week,I have to see the nurse practitioner at the local hospital and I will be explaining this to her when the day comes.I now have to work on keeping my therapy sessions in check as to try not to miss them like I accidentally missed my therapist appointment recently.I am also going to rely heavily on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ to make sure that I stay sustained,stabilized and on a more level styled plain.If they can get me through this negative time,I will be extremely and positively thankful to both of them.I am going to need all the help that I can get from my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation during the wee early morning hours by masturbating to lustful and fantasy styled images of men.I actually manipulated my genitals to the images and I wound up ejaculating.After cleaning myself from that,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ as I was truly sorry and repentant for my actions.I did feel better after that,but for much of the night,I had a difficult time trying to get to sleep as a result of what went on with my car and the starter problems and I was really worried about what could happen if it stays in the same place for too long a time.I did manged to doze off without realizing it and though I did have an erection later on as the wee early morning hours were winding down,but this didn't last very long.I now have to work on staying close to my Heavenly Father and his son Christ Jesus in prayer so I won't fall again.I am also again asking for prayers by everyone who follows my blog and read the posts.Please continue to pray for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.Both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and struggle and they both make me more determined to continue in my journey to overcome and heal from this terrible SSA as I really need many people to support me in this struggle as I can't go it alone.Please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section and also,please continue to pray for me.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers positive encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

July 3rd

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty so-so day today.
Today,I woke up in mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to a spirituality group at the place where the groups are at as tomorrow,the group place will be closed in observance of the holiday on the 4th tomorrow.
The group meeting was wonderful and after it was over,I was going to do a little bit of grocery shopping,but ran into some problems.
My car wouldn't start and I tried repeatedly to get it going,but nothing.I called my niece and she sent her former step-father to help,but he couldn't get it going either.We concluded that it could something wrong with the starter mechanism,such as the starter itself,or the starter cellnoid,or it could be a blown fuse of a starter relayer wire.He dropped me off at home as I had to abandon my car at the parking lot there and I also had to let the bank,which was in the same building where the group place.know about this so they wouldn't have my car towed away.
My niece is loaning me her car until my car is back on the road and I went and did the grocery sopping that I had to do and it was great to get it all done.I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to get some stuff and at another local supermarket for more.After all of that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and finished my personal PC work.
After eating a light dinner,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty so-so day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to tale my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I ask them to help me endure and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to walk out of my room and the erection started to soften.After a while,my genitals were soft and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted pretty much throughout the day as the stressful things that were happening to me made my SSA skyrocket.I kept close to my Heavenly Father in prayer and kept asking him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to keep me strong and to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.After praying,I did feel better and also much stronger.I am again asking that all of you keep up in prayer for me and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Both you prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and motivate me to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and also,motivate me to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,I got invited out to dinner at a friend's house.That is all that I have planned for tomorrow.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

July 2nd

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I really didn't have too much to do today.I went out to drop off some free newspapers to people that I know within my hometown.I also turned in a small amount of bottles and cans that I had in the back seat of my car.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the money that I had gotten for the bottles and cans that I turned in at the Where's George site and after that,I headed for a local Dollar Tree store to buy something I really needed at the last minute and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit of reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My emotions are always on an up and down scale and I never know how they will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk to my Heavenly Father about this particular struggle and ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure these issues that at times,can try to get me down and make me emotionally exhausted at times and they both help in sustaining me and also,help keep me on a normal level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up for a while and since I sensed that I had to go to the bathroom,I headed for there and the erection started to soften as I headed for there.After I finished in the bathroom,at which time,my genitals were fully soft,I headed right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies of other men and they were really strong.I had to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist all of these temptations that were coming at me from all sides.I prayed really hard to my Heavenly Father and I asked him for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.I didn't want to sin against my Heavenly Father as I didn't want to displease him.After I was finished praying each time,I felt much better and also,felt much stronger as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and gave me what I asked for.I am also again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue in prayer for me as I am going through this rough and difficult emotional time.Please keep up in prayer for me and also,please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayers and your encouraging words.My blog gets quite a few visitors,but comments are rarely left for me in the comments section.Again,I need prayers and encouraging words from all of you really desperately.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and also provide.
Tomorrow,with the exception of me attending a Wednesday afternoon spirituality group as a result of there being no group Thursday as a result of it being the 4th of July holiday,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

July 1st

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in mid morning and I showered.After showering,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned for today,though most of it was at home.
I had some more cleaning up that I had to do around the house and that is what I did for most of the day.I simply cleaned up here and there around the house and after that was done,I relaxed and did some reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I have a very complicated emotional system where my mood can be up and good one day or minute/moment and down and not so good the next day or minute/moment.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles,alongside my SSA struggles,even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply have my Heavenly Father take over and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the worst of this psychiatric double whammy that I have and they both help in not only sustaining me,but also help keep me on a relatively calm and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for being there and for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the we early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up for a while and I didn't lay back down until the erection had fully softened.It was slow going,but the erection did soften and when my genitals were fully soft,I laid back down and went right back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies of other men.The burning lust that I had within me was starting to burn again as it did the last few days.I really had to pray hare to my Heavenly Father and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist these temptations and also,to help me control this burning lust that I had within me.I prayed really hard and again,asked for strength to fight and resist all of these terrible temptations and also asked my Heavenly Father that he removed the burning lust that was within me if that were possible and I felt much better and much stronger as I finished praying as I truly believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and gave me the strength that I asked for to help me fight and resist all of these temptations.While I have been doing that,I am also again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up prayer for me as I am going through this difficult and trying emotional time.I also ask that all of you please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as well.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rare.Please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as I really could use some encouraging words right now.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going and also,they make me even more determined to continue in my determination to overcome this terrible SSA that I struggle with and also,they motivate me to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA condition.Thanks in advance to all of you for all of your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for being there and also,for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up quickly to head for church for an outdoor service and brunch afterwards.
The outdoor service was wonderful.The brunch afterwards was also wonderful as I had some wonderful fellowship with many of my fellow worshipers.After it was all over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and into a pair of lounge pants.I did my personal PC work and after I was finished with that,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.I also did a little bit of reading as well.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church each Sunday always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing with the symptoms and the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD on a daily basis.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.Aside from that,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I talk often about my BPD/Schizophrenia struggles with my Heavenly Father and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through all the negatives and rigamarole of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have and they both help in keeping me sustained and a little more at ease.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed as I had to use the bathroom and that made the erection start to soften.My genitals were fully soft once I was finished in the bathroom and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to act out with lustful images of men and to fantasize with these lustful images.I also had the temptation to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I also had lust burning inside of me.It was really terrible and I was stuck in the middle as to what to do.I also had the temptation to look up pornography online.I got away from the computer and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father for strength to fight and resist all of these temptations and also,for strength to fight and resist the burning lust that was within me.I asked my Heavenly Father to help keep me strong and to help me fight and resist all of these things.I kept up in prayer until the temptations and the lust had dissipated.I felt better after doing that and I also felt more at ease and better yet,I felt much stronger after praying to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I truly believed that they heard me and I received what I needed from my Heavenly Father and he gave me all that I asked for and needed in the name of his son Christ Jesus.While I have been keeping up in prayer,I am also asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time and also,I ask that none of you who follow my blog be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Don't be shy and afraid to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments.Please leave me something encouraging in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue the fight against this terrible SSA that I struggle with and also,to motivate and inspire me to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA that I struggle with and also,to also motivate me to continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and also provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I didn't have too much to do today.I simply went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After that was done,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up another thing that I needed.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit of reading and later,watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still dealing with the symptoms and the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD daily.It never gets any easier as I go from one day to the next as my emotions can vary by the day,or at other times,by the minute/moment within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes both my BPD struggles and my SSA struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle and I talk about it with my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I leave nothing out,as I ask for strength to get me through the difficulties of this psychiatric double whammy that I have and they both help in sustaining me and also,keeping me serene and at a good and level plain.I am never alone in this struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me again twice during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by erections at two separate intervals during that time.With the first occurrence,I sat up and proceeded to get up off of the bed and head for the doorway and that made the erection start to die down.I walked for a while until my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep after that.Regarding the second occurrence,I had to get up and use the bathroom pretty badly and I got off the bed and headed for the bathroom and after I was finished,my genitals were fully limp and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this double whammy,I was tempted after fully getting up out of bed for the day as I had a burning lust within me and the temptations to act out on the unnatural sexual desires that I have were really coming on strong from all sides.I also had the temptation to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/full erection and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping to these lustful images of men.I really had to fight and resist these terrible temptations,but I knew that I couldn't do it alone as by myself,I would have given into these terrible temptations.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and I asked him for strength to help me control this burning and powerful lust that was within me.I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me control the burning lust that I had burning within me.I also asked my Heavenly Father to also take away this lust as well and I really prayed hard.I didn't want to give into these terrible temptations as that would be sinning against my Heavenly Father and the prefect law that he set forth in regards to sexuality and his true purpose.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out and after I was finished praying,I felt much stronger and also knew that my Heavenly Father made me feel stronger and he also heard me.I felt wonderful and I kept up with my business for the day to keep my mind off of anything sexual and lustful.I did pray again when the lusts kept coming back and I felt better each time.It was the same as yesterday in the early evening when I also felt that same burning lust within me and I also asked my Heavenly Father in prayer in Christ Jesus' name to help me control the lust and also,to take away the lust within me as I didn't want to feel it anymore.Though I got through the day today,I still have to keep in mind that the lust can come back tomorrow or the day after that and so on.I have to stay on guard as the lust can come back and when it does,I need to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer again in the name of his son Jesus Christ to ask again for the strength to help me fight and control the lust and also,to ask him to remove the lust from within me.Though I have been praying lots lately,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read the posts to please keep up in prayer for me as I am going through this difficult and trying emotional time and also,to please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as I really need both prayers and words of encouragement.My blog gets many visitors,but comments of any kind are rarely left for me.Please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this difficult SSA struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.I need both badly and often,so please leave me an encouraging comment of two as I know that those who visit are behind me and are supporting me 100% all the way.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
Since today was rainy and a little foggy in my neck of the woods,I decided to catch up on some much needed work around the house.I have been putting it off for quite some time and I felt that today was the best day to catch up on it.I dove head first into doing all of this work around the house and though it was a lot,I managed to get a lot done in the short period of time that I had.After it was done,I relaxed and did some reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.Whenever the symptoms of this psychiatric double whammy try to get the better of me or try to weigh me down,I simply talk really hard to my Heavenly Father and I leave nothing out.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through all the negatives of this particular thing that I struggle with and they both help in keeping me sustained and also,keeping me level.I am never alone in this particular mental health struggle that I am going through and it does make me feel a tad better and a little more at ease.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted twice to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by erections at two separate intervals during that time.On the first occurrence,I sat up for a while and proceeded to stand up and the erection died down within a matter of minutes.On the second occurrence,I had to use the bathroom,so I got out of bed and I headed for the bathroom and as I headed there,the erection started to soften and after I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and and I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this double whammy,I did give into a later temptation while I was still in bed by manipulating my genitalia for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.Yes,lustful images did cloud my tired mind as I did this.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning in the name of his his son Jesus Christ and after that,I felt much better as I knew as well as believed that my Heavenly Father did forgive me for my sins and that the slate was wiped clean.I was tempted throughout the day to act out on these unnatural sexual desires that I have by fantasies,lusting and also,to look at online pornography.I kept up in prayer all day to my Heavenly Father whenever these temptations came at me from all sides.The temptations were also pretty overwhelming and I really had to use all of the strength that I had to pray to mt Heavenly Father and I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist these terrible temptations.I didn't want to sin again as I did this morning and I prayed real hard to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to have strength to fight and resist all of these terrible temptations as they kept coming at from all sides.I did feel much better as I did that and I knew that I was given that strength to fight and resist all of those terrible temptations.One thing I know that each and every time you resist temptations,they keep coming back stronger and stronger each time.But I know that my Heavenly Father is there to give me strength to fight and resist all of these terrible temptations.While I have been doing that,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my daily posts to please keep up in prayer for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time and also,I also ask that none of you be shy and please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need encouraging words really badly and desperately as I am continuing to fight this terrible SSA.My blog gets quite a few visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected to this terrible SSA.I really want to heal and overcome and also,to continue to be free from the sinful sexual practices of all sorts that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual,I have no plans.But I do hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did 4/5 of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and that went as well as expected.After that was over,I stopped to get some gas at a nearby gas station.After that,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and when I was done with that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and I finished my personal PC work.After that,I did some reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed,as usual,to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming and/or difficult for me to handle.I simply bring this particular struggle in prayer to my Heavenly Father and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ for strength to help get me through the difficulties of this psychiatric double whammy that I have and they both in keeping me sustained and level.It does make me feel a tad better knowing that my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ are there leading the way and keeping me a little more at ease.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed to use the bathroom and as I headed for the bathroom,the erection started to soften and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies of other men and also,to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/full erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping alongside the temptation to fantasize and lust.I kept up in prayer to my Heavenly Father all day as these terrible temptations kept coming at me from all sides.I asked for strength to fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ as these temptations kept coming at me and I felt better and much stronger when I finished praying each time.I also felt that I was heard and that my Heavenly Father gave me everything that I asked for.While I have been doing that,I am again asking for prayers from everyone who follows my blog and reads my posts here.Please continue praying for me as I am still going through this very difficult emotional time.I also ask that none of you be shy by leaving me an encouraging word or two in the comments section as I really need some words of encouragement really badly.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave comments of any kind.Don't be shy and please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.They both,your prayers and encouraging words,help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible and also,to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you who follow my blog for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I really didn't have too much to do today,except some stuff that needed to get done around the house.I simply did a little bit of work around the house here and there and after that was done,I relaxed for a bit and did some reading.I also watched a little bit of TV afterwards.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from day to day,or at other times,minute/moment to minute/moment within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father whenever this struggle tried to get the better of me and I ask him in the name of his son Christ Jesus to get me through it and they both help in not only sustaining me,but also,keeping me calm and on a normal level plain.It makes me feel a little bit better knowing that they are leading the way and getting me through all of the negatives.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted twice to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by erections at two separate intervals during that time.I sat up on both occasions and with the first occurrence,the erection went flaccid,but with the second occurrence,I had to get up and head for the bathroom as I had to use it.After I was finished,the erection had fully died down and I went back to bed and to sleep when I was done.Though I escaped this double whammy,I did give into two later temptations after getting up.On both of these,I manipulated my genitals to sexual images of men that clouded my mind and on both occasions,I had to pray to my Heavenly Father and ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ's name to forgive me and also,I begged for my Heavenly Father to show me his mercy when it happened the second time.I kept up in prayer all day to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ as these terrible temptations kept coming at me from all sides.I never ceased praying whenever these terrible temptations came at me as I didn't want to sin again.I kept it up and I asked for strength repeatedly and after each time I prayed,I felt much better and much stronger as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father heard me.While I have been doing that,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog to please continue to pray for me as I am going through all of this trying and difficult emotional time.Please pray for me and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Aside from prayers,I also need encouraging words to help keep me going and to strengthen my determination to continue in my journey to overcome this terrible SSA,but also to continue to seek healing healing from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.When people visit and don't leave any encouraging words,I feel that I am all alone in this particular struggle and I don't want to feel alone.Please leave me an encouraging word.It could be anything from a Holy Bible scripture to help build me up or it can be something that lets me know that I am not alone and there are people who support my endeavors to overcome and heal from this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I put off doing my personal PC work to help out my niece,who asked me to drop off some paperwork at the local Social Services office for her.Before doing that,I stopped at a local kitchen to have a light lunch and after that,I dropped off the paperwork and headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I paid a very important bill over the phone and after that,I headed back out again to drop off some newspapers and after that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be as I go through day to day,or at other times,from minute/moment to minute/moment within the same day.If having to contend and endure with BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.It also doesn't make my SSA struggles any easier,either.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply bring this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father and I ask him to get me through in the name of his son Jesus Christ and also,to give me the strength to get through any difficulty that comes with the territory of having the psychiatric disability that I have and they both help in sustaining me and keeping me at a normal level plain.I also feel a tad better knowing that they are both there and leading the way.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me twice during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by erections at two separate intervals in the wee early morning hours.On the first occasion,I turned to the opposite side and within a few minutes,the erection softened and I went back to sleep.Regarding the second one,I sat up and headed for the bathroom as I had to go and use it.As I headed for the bathroom,the erection started to soften and was fully soft when I was finished.I went back to bed and to sleep after that.Though I escaped this double whammy,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in same sex sexual fantasies and to also lust after other men when sexual images tried to cloud my mind.I also was tempted to manipulate my genitalia for the purpose of getting them near/full erection and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I prayed to my Heavenly Father and I prayed real hard.I prayed in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist all of these terrible temptations and after I was finished praying each time,I felt stronger and I also knew that my Heavenly Father heard me and I just kept praying all day whenever these temptations came at me from all sides.I also kept busy doing other things to keep my mind off of sexual things and that also helped as well.I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read the posts here to please keep up in prayer for me as I am still going through an emotionally trying and difficult time.I also ask that you leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rare.Please leave me an encouraging word or two for me as I can use some encouragement right now.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome SSA and also,to motivate me to continue to seek healing from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.For those unaware,what I mean by "the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have",is that I willfully refuse to let these unnatural sexual desires for members of my own gender dictate nor determine how I will behave or act.Our Heavenly Father made us in his image and also,he made woman as a compliment and also,a compatibility partner as we are all biologically hard-wired for male-female compatibility and our Heavenly Father only accepts and approves of healthy and happy heterosexuality and also,he accepts no substitutes as the order that he gave is man and woman and nothing else.That is what I mean by that.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I didn't have too much to do today.I simply went to the public library to do some stuff that I couldn't do at home computer-wise.After that was done,I headed for a nearby Dollar Tree store to pick up a small thing that I needed.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms and the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD.It is a very difficult thing to deal with and endure on a daily basis.Aside from the emotional ups and downs of BPD,I also have to deal with and endure the schizophrenic tendencies that I have,which make both my struggles with BPD and SSA even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father and I ask him in the name of his Christ Jesus to get me through and to keep me stable.I always feel a tad better as they both help in sustaining me and also,they both help keep me on a steady and level plain.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed to go to the bathroom,and as I headed there,the erection started to soften and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went back to bed and to sleep afterwards.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in same sex sexual fantasies and also,to lust after them,including the temptation to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/full erection and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I had to really pray hard to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ for strength to fight and resist these urges.These urges can and do get very overwhelming at times and the more resistance that is put up,the more stronger the temptations/urges get.I had to really ask for strength to fight and resist these overwhelming urges and I prayed very hard.I did feel better and much stronger after praying and I knew that my Heavenly Father heard me and gave me what I asked for.While I have been doing that,I am again asking that all of you who continue to follow my blog and read the posts to please keep up in prayer for me and also,don't be shy and please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayers and encouraging words to help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They both help keep me going and they also both motivate me to continue in this fight and struggle and also,to continue in wanting to overcome SSA and also,to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship after the service,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the drug store to pick up a prescription and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a pair of lounge pants.After that,I had a light lunch.After lunch,I did my personal PC work and when that was done,I relaxed and watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day,as for me,going to church on Sunday always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or sometimes,from one minute/moment to the next.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles,alongside my SSA struggles,even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle and I talk to my Heavenly Father about it and I leave nothing out.I tell him what is wrong and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to get me through and they both help help in keeping me sustained and at a steady and level and level plain.This shows me that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to head for the bathroom as i had to use it.As I headed for there,the erection softened and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in same sex sexual fantasies and lusting after other men as sexual images of men were trying to cloud my mind.I also had the urge to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping alongside these temptations.I had to really pray hard to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to fight and resist all of these urges to act out with the temptations to indulge in the same sex sexual fantasies and the lusting.I prayed hard for strength to fight and resist all of these urges and after each prayer,I felt better as I knew that my Heavenly Father heard me and he gave me what I had asked for.While I have been doing this,I am again asking for all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to continue in prayer for me and also,to please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I am still going through a really difficult and trying emotional time and I am going to need all the prayers and all the encouragement that I can get.Your prayers and your encouraging both help keep me going in this particular struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my determination and journey to overcome this terrible SSA and to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Please pray for me and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ