Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today,though last night,it was a rough night sleeping for me.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cps of coffee.I was still feeling tired and drowsy from my rough night sleeping.I went back to bed and slept for a few hours and when I got back up,I showered quickly and had my usual quick breakfast when I was finished showering.After that,I did my personal PC work and when I was finished,I got dressed and decided to head somewhere to see about a job and they advised me to do a search on Google for jobs at their particular company and go on from there.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day despite the hard night in bed trying to sleep.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into temptation twice.On both of these occurrences,I manipulated my genitals to sexual images of men that clouded my mind,causing me to fantasize and lust after other men.I guess that I was still tired from the difficult night trying to get to sleep motivated both of these falls as I was still tired and groggy from the night before.On both of these occurrences,I stopped myself and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I confessed everything and I also accepted full and total responsibility for both of the falls.I prayed and I left nothing out.I told my Heavenly Father everything and when I was finished,I felt better and I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive verbal support.I need them both desperately and every day.I want and need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this struggle.I need all the support that I can get in both the areas of prayer and positive verbal support.Your support in both of these areas helps me keep me going.They also help keep me strong in both my determination and motivation.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.
As for the weekend,with the exception of putting in more job applications online and church as usual on Sunday,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered real quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I went through my personal PC work and for most of the day,I tried to get in an online job application for the local Target store.I went to the store and an assistant manager helped get me through the obstacle and when I got home,I finished the rest of the application and after that,I called a friend up to see how they were doing and after a few minutes talking with them,I finished some more personal PC work.After that was done,I got dressed and I headed for a friend's house for a BBQ.
The BBQ was wonderful as I did eat a lot of food and enjoyed some wonderful music and conversations.After it was all over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did a little bit more personal PC work and I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Though it is,I actually managed to get through the day without any problems with temptations.I wasn't tempted to act out by fantasies or lusting and I also wasn't tempted to manipulate my genitals in any way.While that is good that I escaped unscathed today,I must say that there is tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.I need to continue working on getting tough with myself and going to my Heavenly Father and asking him for strength to fight and resist the urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to make that a habit and not let the unnatural sexual desires that I have own me as I want to own them.Fellow blog followers and readers,I still would appreciate it if you would continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate it if you would leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both these types of support.I need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of trying get more job applications in online,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work.Since there was a possibility for rain today,which never came to pass,I stayed home to catch up on some much needed work that I had to do and when I was finished with that,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player to watch it.After that was over,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I relaxed and enjoyed some music and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,while still in bed,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals and sexual images of men clouded my mind.Yes,I fantasized and lusted after those images.Fortunately,I was able to stop myself before it went to far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and left nothing out as I did.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall and I asked to be forgiven.When I was finished,I felt better as I truly believed that I was forgiven and I went on for the rest of the day with no problems.In the ensuing days,I am hoping that I can get the strength to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me fight and resist these terrible urges when they come.I need to really get tough and tell Satan and his minions that they have no power over me.I need to show these unnatural desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I need to really work on going to my Heavenly Father and ask him for strength to help me fight and resist when these temptations come around.I don't want to have these terrible and unnatural sexual desires that I have own me and not let them dictate nor define who I am and how I will act out.I am a man and my body is biologically hard-wired for compatibility with a woman as our Heavenly Father created man and woman and there are no substitutes nor exceptions.I have to continually keep that in mind.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both of these types of support each and every day and desperately.I need to reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.I also want to be stronger than the unnatural sexual desires that I struggle with on a daily basis.I don't want them defining who I am nor dictating to me how I will be or act.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayers and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my evening study group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I went to my bank to work out some difficulties that I had with them in regards to my account and when I was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I eagerly awaited for my caseworker to show up and when she did,we talked about some things and when we finished and she left,I headed back out.
On the way to the Best Buy that was in the next county,I got some gas and after that,I headed to Best Buy to pay a bill and bought a few nice things.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket and picked up something that I needed.After that,I headed for a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few other things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and when that was done,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Though it is,I report that I had no problems nor issues with temptations today.I guess staying busy and simply doing what I had to do kept my mind off of those negative things that at times start clouding my mind when least expected.I stayed busy by doing my personal PC work and just keeping me occupied with things that were necessary.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Satan and his minions can strike at any time and I need to be prepared for that.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support in many ways as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time right now.I need your positive verbal support as much as I need your prayerful support.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left in the comments section.You support in both of these areas is very important to me and I really need it.They both help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.They also both reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned mainly because it's going to rain tomorrow.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in dress clothes and I headed for the job placement agency to pick up some copies of my revised resume and I headed for home.
On the way home,I dropped off a job application at a place where I picked it up from a few days ago.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and I did my personal PC work.I also enjoyed some relaxation while listening to music and after that,went to the USA Jobs website to start an account and hopefully,get somewhere for employment.I still have to fill out another application online before the day ends or by tomorrow.After all of this,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I got dressed in casual clothes and I headed for a local supermarket to turn in some cans and bottles that I had collected and some that were given to me.After that,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a gallon of milk.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did some more personal PC work and relaxed for a while.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,upon arising out of bed,I manipulated my genitals while sexual images of men clouded my mind and I fantasized and lusted after the images.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for falling into sin.I asked for this forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also accepted full and total responsibility for falling and I left nothing out.I prayed hard and when I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day without any more troubles with temptations.I really need to start getting tough with myself as I don't want to keep doing this sort of thing.I really need to start making it a habit of going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for strength to help me fight and resist these sorts of temptations.I need to go to him constantly as I want to avoid falling into the trap of habitually sinning and going to my Heavenly Father and ask for forgiveness.I want to show my Heavenly Father that I am very serious about wanting to overcome and heal from this terrible SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I would love some positive verbal support alongside your continued prayerful support.I need to be constantly reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.I also need to be reassured that there are people out there who understand what I struggle with and are willing to help by not just prayerful support,but positive verbal support.I want to be strong and I want to be understood as well as want to be helped.Your support in both of these areas helps keep me going and also,strengthens both my determination and motivation to keep going.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful as always.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into casual clothes.I headed over to my sister's house to help her clean up some stuff around her backyard after the party that was there yesterday.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and I relaxed for a bit while enjoying some music.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and I also did some more personal PC work.I relaxed a little bit more and enjoyed some more music.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I didn't get any temptations to act out on the unnatural desires that I have.I went through the day with no problems.Though I did,this isn't a time for rejoicing or dancing around happily.I still have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful.Satan and his minions can strike at any time.They can tempt me to do anything that is sinful in the eyes of my Heavenly Father and I have to show them that I own the desires that I have and that they don't own me.I have to show them,with help from my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,that I am stronger than they are and not the other way around.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers as I still really need them.I also ask that y'all leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need positive verbal support as much as I need prayerful support.Your support in both of these areas is very important to me.It helps me in a lot of ways.They both help keep me going.They also help reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this struggle.Yes,both types of support from y'all helps keep me strong in terms of my determination and motivation.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please also leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of meeting with my job placement counselor/coach tomorrow to pick more copies of my resume,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I relaxed for much of the day and did a little bit of cleaning up here and there.After much of that,I got dressed and headed over to my sister's house for a birthday party where one of my family members was celebrating.
The party was wonderful.I had a pretty good time with my family and celebrating.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did some more personal PC work and I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I fell into sin by giving into temptation to fantasize and lust after other when sexual images of men clouded my mind and I also manipulated my genitals to these images and when I was at the point of orgasm,I masturbated the rest of the way.I really felt miserable and ashamed of myself for this and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and I left nothing out.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall into sin and asked for forgiveness.I prayed real hard and when I was finished,I felt better as I believed that I was forgiven and that the slate was wiped clean.I really felt terrible after this fall.I really want to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.I am having a very difficult time as it is trying to do so.With things happening in the news with certain churches allowing "Gay" marriages and couplings and others ordaining "Gay" bishops and the anger and sadness that I feel as a result if these things happening.All of these things actually contributed to my fall into sin and it also depressed me.I am struggling with SSA and I want to do what is right in the eyes of my Heavenly Father,but these things happening is really making it difficult for me to live.The world around is actually becoming secular in it's approach and those so called "Christian Churches" are just going with the flow rather than accept the truth and do what is right in the eyes of the sovereign Lord and creator of the world and the universe,our Heavenly Father.Our culture is getting even more warped by the day and it's disgusting.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am again appealing to y'all to please keep me in your prayers.I also ask that y'all leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both of these supports right now and also,every day after today.Please continue praying for me.I also ask that you please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I really need your support right now as I am going through a very difficult emotional time right now.I need to continue fighting this terrible SSA and your support,both by prayers and verbal encouragement,really matters to me.They both help keep me going.They also help me to stay the course and make me even more determined and motivated to continue on and continue to hope for healing and affirmation.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual in the morning,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I checked my e-mail in all of the sites that I have it and I reduced some of it.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I went out to run an errand.I first went to a prospective employment place,but they advised me to go to a government jobs website and look up jobs available on there and after I left,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things and I headed straight home afterwards.
When I got home,I did some more personal PC work and as the night started coming,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Though it is,I must say that I didn't have any troubles with temptation today.I went through the day and I wasn't tempted in any way,shape or form.I went through the day and did what I had to do,which took my mind off of anything sexual.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful.Satan and his minions can strike at any time.I have to remember to always be on guard and watch every move I make as Satan and his minions can strike me with temptations when least expected.Fellow blog followers and readers,I still need prayerful and positive verbal support even though today was good.I need both your prayers and I still need positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need all the support that I can get.I need both prayers and encouragement.Your support helps keep me going.Your support also helps reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Your support also helps keep me strong in both my determination to overcome and motivation to heal.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to a birthday party,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.When I was finished,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to leave the house to run an errand and when the errand was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did some more personal PC work and later on,started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I headed over to my usual Thursday night study group,which went as wonderful as expected.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did a little bit more personal PC work and as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues to move forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I wasn't tempted to act out on the unnatural sexual desires that I have by any means,which includes fantasizing and lusting after other men nor by sexual images of men and I also wasn't tempted to watch porn either.It was great that this didn't happen and it made me feel a little bit better.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I am not worried about tomorrow.It is just that Satan and his minions can strike at any time when least expected and I still need to stay on guard and be watchful for that.I don't want to give them what they want because they want to break my Heavenly Father's perfect law in regards to sexuality and I don't want to do that.They also want to make me think that there is no hope for me nor is there any way out for me,but I know that both of these things are lies.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day and also,desperately.Please pray for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and also,I need all the positive verbal support that I can get.Your support in both of these areas helps keep me going.Your support in both of these areas also reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and when that was done,I decided to relax for a while and take it easy.Though I have my car back on the road,I chose to simply stay home and relax.I even rescheduled an appointment with my caseworker for next week.After browsing the internet for a while,I decided to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.I also did some more personal PC work.I then decided to start preparing for evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me and has been really bothersome to me as of late.The stress of the job search has been really getting to me and the temptations to act out by fantasies and lusting after other men as sexual images of men cloud my mind.This has really been difficult for me as of late.I seriously want to work and I seriously like to work.I have been putting applications in everywhere,but so far,no calls for an interview as my last interviews were almost a month ago.Today,as a result of the stress and strain of the job search and really not getting anywhere,I gave into temptation again as mentioned above and again,I managed to stop myself and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father.I asked him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and I prayed.I left nothing out.I admitted everything to my Heavenly Father and I also accepted full and total responsibility for my falling into sin.When I was finished,I did feel much better as I knew and believed that I was forgiven.I really felt terrible because of my falls and I still want to heal and overcome this terrible SSA.I want to heal and I want to overcome. I am very serious about that.I don't want to go back to that sinful lifestyle that I have now abandoned as that lifestyle will only make me feel miserable and it won't give me what I truly want and need,which is affirmation of my gender identity and the feelings of authenticity that go with that affirmation.Fellow blog followers and readers,Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate that you would leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support desperately.I need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Your support helps keep me going.It also helps keep me strong in terms of both my determination to overcome and motivation to want to heal.Please continue keeping me in your prayers and also,please don't be afraid to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning to my phone ringing,but I didn't get out of bed right away.When the phone rang a second time this morning,I slowly started to get out of bed and I immediately returned the phone calls and after that was done,I had my usual 2 cups of coffee and when I was finished with that,I decided to have my usual quick breakfast right away and when I was finished with that,I had to wait awhile before taking my shower and when I did and was finished,I immediately got dressed and I walked over to the garage to pick up my car as what was wrong with it wasn't that bad.After picking it up,I took a little drive,but didn't stop anywhere.I headed for home after that.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and when it was late afternoon,I decided to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to watch a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and I relaxed while watching it.I also did a little bot more personal PC work and later on,I started preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult for me.Today,after doing pretty good the last few days,I fell by giving into temptation to fantasize and lust after other men and I did manipulate my genitals to these images.I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and I left nothing out.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall and when I was finished,I felt better as I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven and that the slate was wiped clean by my Heavenly Father.I went through the rest of the day with no problems,but I need to prevent falls from happening as I do have the power to prevent falls before they happen.I need to get to my Heavenly Father and ask for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations when they come around.I am really serious about wanting to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.I want to continue to be free and stay free.I don't want to give Satan and his minions what they want,which is break the laws that my Heavenly Father set forth in his sacred word,the Holy Bible,as his laws are perfect and flawless.Fellow blog followers,I am again asking that you continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Yes,I do.I need all the support that I can get.Please continue praying for me.I also ask that you please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I started to do my personal PC work and was midway through it when I received a phone call.I answered it and it was a friend from my church and he wanted to take me to a place where he wanted to buy me a new suit and get my car towed to the garage.He came over about twenty minutes after I hung up and after the tow truck driver came,we headed out to a clothing store and he got me a really nice suit to where and it will be altered a little and done in a couple of weeks.After that,we had ourselves a light lunch and after that,he dropped me off at home and I did a little bit more personal PC work,but had to put it off when my niece came over to take me to a local Dollar Tree store so I could pick up a few things that I needed and I also went into a nearby supermarket to pick up a few more things.After paying for everything,my niece dropped me off at home and I put everything away.I finished my personal PC work and when that was finished,I decided to prepare my evening meal.
After eating a light meal,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I relaxed for the rest of the day and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Though it is,I had no problems with temptations today.Since I was out for much of the afternoon,it took my mind off of anything sexual.It was great that I didn't have any problems today.Though I escaped unscathed today,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I still need your prayers and your positive verbal support each and every day and desperately.Your support in both of these areas helps keep me going.They also help keep me strong in my determination and motivation.They also help reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to give me your support through prayers and positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up real quickly and I waited for a ride to church.When my ride came,they dropped me off and I went in for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful as always.After some brief fellowship with some of the worshipers,I went out to meet my ride and he dropped me off at home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a pair of sweatpants.I did my personal PC work quickly and after that was done,I walked over to the drug store to pick up a new prescription of one of my vital medications and I also bought a couple of microwavable soups.After paying for those things,I headed back home and when I got there,I put everything away and I popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.When that was over,I heated up one of the soups and that was my evening meal for the day.After I was finished eating,I did some more personal PC work and relaxed for the rest of the evening.I also planned for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Though it the most difficult struggle for me,I must say that today,I had no problems with temptation.No,I wasn't tempted today.I went through the day with no problems.It was great that I had no problems nor issues with temptation today.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.It's not that I am worried about tomorrow.It is just that I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful.Satan and his minions can strike at any time and I need to be prepared when they do,so I can go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and pray for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I have to continue working on showing these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't be afraid to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I still need prayerful and positive verbal support,though things were good today.They are very important to me as they both work in a lot of ways.They help keep me going.They also help keep me strong in terms of my motivation and determination.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of having my niece take me to a local Dollar Tree store,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I spent the rest of the morning doing my personal PC work.After it was done,I relaxed for a while and I decided to watch a documentary DVD that I popped into the DVD player.After it was over,I decided to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work and I watched a little TV.I also started preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My car is still out of commission at this moment.When it will be back,I don't know when.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,in the mid afternoon,I was tempted to fantasize and lust after other men and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations as I really didn't want to give Satan and his minions what they wanted me to give them.They are trying everything in their power to get me to disobey my Heavenly Father and his perfect law in regards to sexuality.It actually started to get worse as a result of the problem that I am having with my car.I prayed real hard to my Heavenly Father and I left nothing out.I threw everything on him and when I was finished,I felt stronger as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.I went through the rest of the day with no problems nor troubles,but continued to stay on guard and be watchful.I have to continue keeping in mind that Satan and his minions can strike at any time during the day or at any other time.I don't want to give Satan and his minions what they want as I want to do what is right in my Heavenly Father's eyes,but my sinful nature,which Satan loves to use against me,wants me to do what is the opposite.I have to continually stay on guard and be watchful.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also ask that y'all please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I also need all the positive verbal support that I can get.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments in the comments section.Your support in both of these areas is very important to me and it also works in a variety of ways.It also matters to me because I do need boosting and upbuilding.They both help keep me going.They also help reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue your prayerful support and also,please leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I did my personal PC work and I simply relaxed for much of the day as I had nothing to do nor anyplace to go due to the reality that my car is out of commission right now.
For the day,I relaxed and spent a lot of time online.I also watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player.After that was over,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and I relaxed for the rest of the evening.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though I am still feeling guilty about this,I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitals and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind and alongside the genital manipulation,I gave into fantasizing and lusting after other men and when I was at the point of orgasm,I masturbated the rest of the way.I really felt miserable after this and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I asked him to forgive me for sinning in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall and I told my Heavenly Father everything and I left nothing out.I prayed for a while and when I was finished,I felt much better as I truly believed that I was forgiven.After that,I had some rough going for the rest of the day.The rough thing was that my mind was being pelted with sexual images of men.I also had temptations to act out again by fantasies and lusting after these sexual images of men.I didn't want to give in again and later this afternoon,acting on the advice of the former pastor who visited me two days ago,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and told him about the temptations that were getting thrown at me.I told my Heavenly Father that I didn't want to give into any temptations and that I hated that I was getting pelted again by sexual images of men.I also said that I hated that I was still finding men sexually attractive and that I hated everything connected to Homosexuality/SSA in general.I also asked my Heavenly Father what was holding me back from becoming the man that he wants me and intends me to be,as well as the man that he wants me to be.I asked him that as tears were starting to come down my eyes.I really don't know how my Heavenly Father will answer that.I really have no idea on how he communicates with us through prayer when we ask him something.If anyone has any ideas,please share them with me in the comments section.I really need answers and I would appreciate some.Fellow blog followers and readers,while I would appreciate some answers to what I asked here,I am again asking that you continue to keep me in your prayers and and also,please leave me some positive verbal support.I would really appreciate some support right now because I am really going through some rough stuff right now with temptations to act out on the unnatural sexual desires that I have and I don't want to act out on them.Because acting out on these unnatural sexual desires that I have will never give me what I want and need,which is affirmation of my gender identity and the authenticity that goes with that affirmation.Please pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed for much of the day and listened to some music and I also watched some cartoons and music videos online.
For much of the day,since my car is out of commission,I simply relaxed and took it easy.I didn't watch any TV as there really wasn't anything on for me to watch.I just relaxed,watched some videos online and listened to some music.
Earlier today,I had heard from a friend and schoolmate that they would pick me up for tonight's study group.I told them that I would be available for the time to pick me up.After that,I relaxed a little bit more and just enjoyed the rest of the rest of the afternoon.
Later on in the day,I heard from the friend and schoolmate that the study group tonight was canceled as a result of her mother not feeling well.I told her to wish her mother get well wishes on my behalf and that was it.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and I relaxed for the rest of the evening.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two for me.Today,upon getting out of bed,I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitals and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind.Fortunately for me,I stopped myself before it went too far and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and I left nothing out.I told my Heavenly Father everything and when I was finished praying,I felt much better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day with no problems,but I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any minute.I don't want to give Satan and his minions what they want.I still need to work on being tough with myself.I also still need to work on showing these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I won then and not the other way around.I am really serious about wanting to heal from and overcome SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me.I would also appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support desperately and daily.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left in the comments section.I need positive verbal support as much as I need prayerful support.Prayers do work and yes,even positive verbal support works.The positive verbal support reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Alongside the prayerful support,the positive verbal support help keeps me going and makes me more determined and motivated to continue in this process of healing and change.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had two cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished with my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and ready for a visit with a former pastor in regards to SSA.When he arrived,I let him in and he also had a friend with him who sat in on the conversation.
The conversation,which went for about 45 minutes,was wonderful.He supplied his e-mail address and we shook hands as they left.After they left,I did my personal PC work.After that was finished,I did some more work around the house that had to get done.After that was done,I relaxed for a while did some reading online.After doing some more personal PC work,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I relaxed and enjoyed some music.Later on,as the day wound down,I did some more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,as a result of the visit with the former pastor,I had no temptations to indulge in anything sinful in regards to acting out by fantasies and lusting.I still was tempted to look up some online porn,but instead chose to watch some music videos and cartoons online,which killed that particular temptation.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I need to still stay on guard and be watchful.Satan and his minions can strike at any time and I have to be prepared when they do.When they do,I need to go to my Heavenly Father and ask for strength to help me fight and resist the temptation.I need to really work on this and show my Heavenly Father that I mean it when I say that I want to overcome and heal from this terrible SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also need some positive verbal support in the comments section as well.I really need some support of both kinds as I really don't have much of a support network in my hometown.I need both your prayers and your positive verbal support.They both help keep me going.They also help keep me strong in terms of my determination and motivation.The positive verbal support also reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would like for all of you who visit my blog regularly to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did some checking up online and after that,I decided to have my usual quick breakfast early.Before I showered,I did some more cleaning up around the house and when that was finished,I showered quickly.After my shower,I did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I decided to relax and take it easy for a while.Since my car is out of commission right now,I have nothing to do nor anyplace to go.
I simply spent most of my time online as I tried to keep myself busy by reading things online,such as news articles and Wikipedia pages.I also did a little bit more cleaning up around the house to keep myself busy.I am hoping that my car can get fixed soon as I really need it.After doing a little bit more of the cleaning,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to watch a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and I relaxed while watching it.I also did some more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I had no problems with temptations today.It was a relief,but I still need to continue to stay on guard and be watchful.Satan and his minions can strike at any minute of any day.I want to show my Heavenly Father that I am serious about wanting to heal from and overcome SSA.I have to show the unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I need to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask in the name of his son Jesus Christ for the strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.I want to avoid sinning against my Heavenly Father as much as possible.Fellow blog followers and readers,I would appreciate it if you would continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support real badly and desperately as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time with my car out of commission at the moment.I really need all the prayerful and positive verbal support that I can get.Your support in both of these areas do help me in a big way.They really do.They both help keep me going each and every day.They also show me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a visit at my house by a former pastor who also has struggled with SSA in his own life,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was done with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I had to make a couple of phone calls and I went and did my personal PC work.After that,I cleaned up around the house for a while and I relaxed for a bit.
Since I have no car at the moment,I have no place to go or anything to do.I simply stayed home and just caught up on some much needed work that had to be done.After that was done,I did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to enjoy a little music and I also did some more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though I am a little fearful and scared to admit this,I gave into temptation twice today.I gave into the temptations to fantasize and lust after other men and I also manipulate my genitals to these images and I finished by masturbating the rest of the way.On both of these occurrences,I prayed to my Heavenly Father and I asked for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.However,on the second occurrence,I also asked for my Heavenly Father to show his mercy as I sinned a second consecutive time and it was the same thing.I begged for his mercy in the name of his son Jesus Christ alongside asking for forgiveness.I prayed real hard on both of these occurrences and I left nothing out.I told my Heavenly Father everything and when I was finished the second time,I did feel better as I truly believed that I was forgiven and that my Heavenly Father showed me his mercy when I asked for it regarding the second consecutive fall.I really need to start getting really tough on myself.I need to start making it a habit of going to my Heavenly Father daily and asking for strength to help me fight and resist whenever temptation rears it's ugly head on me.I can't let these unnatural sexual desires own me.I have to own them and not the other way around.I need to show my Heavenly Father that I am serious about wanting to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA that I struggle with.Instead of enhancing the lives of others,in particular,men,it only destroys and wrecks lives and leads people on the road to nowhere.I need all the help and support that I can get from my fellow blog followers and readers.Please continue to pray for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also need some positive verbal support in the comments section real bad.I get many visitors to my blog,but comments are rarely left in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support real badly and desperately.They both help keep me going,They also help reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.They also help keep me strong in terms of both my determination and motivation.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful,exciting and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had a cup of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had another cup of coffee and my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly got dressed up in a suit and I phoned my niece and she took me to church today so I could be there for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
It was an exciting day in church this morning as it was not only the day of Pentecost,but it was also Confirmation Sunday as six youngsters were confirmed today.I also did another Holy Bible reading in church in front of the congregation this morning and there was also Holy Communion.
The whole morning in church was wonderful.After it was over,I phoned my niece and she picked me up and we headed for home.
On the way home,we stopped at the local Sears so I could pay a bill there and after that,we went to a nearby supermarket to pick up a few things.After we were finished,we headed straight home.She dropped me off first and she headed for home.
When I got into the house,I got out of my suit and into a pair of shorts and started to do my personal PC work.Later on,as I was doing this,my niece came back over and she did my front lawn and when she was finished,she went back to her own house.I finished my personal PC work and I even had a talk with a former pastor who called me and we talked about struggles with SSA.We are hoping to meet this Tuesday and after we finished talking and hung up,I decided to do some cleaning up in the kitchen and after it was finished,I received another phone call from a friend who I have been reconnecting with through Facebook and we talked for a few minutes.After we hung up,I ate.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work and relaxed for the rest of the evening.I also prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful,exciting and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I was tempted to act out on the unnatural desires that I have and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I was tempted to fantasize and lust after other men and I really needed my Heavenly Father to give me strength to help me fight and resist.I prayed and I prayed until the temptation was nil and when I was finished,I felt stronger as I truly believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.I went through the rest of the day with no problems,but stood on guard and continued to be watchful as Satan and his minions could strike again any minute.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I still need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and I need all the support that I can get.Your support helps keep me going.They also continue to reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this struggle.They also help keep both my determination and my motivation strong.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I don't have much planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ