Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda today.I first went to a local supermarket to turn in a few bottles and cans and after that,I headed for a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a box of mac and cheese.After that,I went to the drug store to pick up a couple of prescriptions.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare my evening meal and the mac and cheese was going to be a part of it.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.After that,I decided to do some more personal PC work.Later on,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day today.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals when sexual images of men clouded my mind.I fantasized and lusted after them and I masturbated the rest of the way when I was at the point of orgasm.After washing my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I begged for my Heavenly Father to be merciful towards me because I was really sorry for giving into these terrible temptations.I prayed and I left nothing out.I threw everything on my Heavenly Father and when I was finished,I felt better and also,relieved as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went on with the rest of the day.I really need to start getting tough on myself.I can't keep giving into these terrible temptations and repenting and going to my Heavenly Father to be forgiven.I really need to show him that I am really serious about wanting to heal from and wanting to overcome this terrible SSA.I have to stop this habit of falling into sin and going to my Heavenly Father to be forgiven.I don't want to feel that I am abusing the divine gift of forgiveness by doing this so much.I am hoping that my session with the psychiatrist or psychologist that I am going to see on Tuesday will be the start of a new beginning for me where I can finally let go and start transcending from the unresolved anger,resentment,trauma and trust issues that I have.I really want to start healing from this terrible SSA and I am hoping that I can finally discover real healing and real overcoming from SSA.Every time I fall short in this repetitive and destructive cycle,I feel like a complete basket case in this regard.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.They both help keep me going and also both reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of going to a local laundromat and getting my laundry done and church as usual on Sunday,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the kitchen sink as well as as shaved.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I relaxed for much of the day as I had nothing to do.
Later on,I headed out to withdraw some money from the bank and after that,I went to get a little bit of gas at a local gas station.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at my workplace to see if I was working this week,but I wasn't on.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the bills at the Where's George site and also did a little bit more personal PC work.After that,I went to a local church for a free dinner and after eating and talking with the wonderful people there,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into pajamas and relaxed for the rest of the evening while doing some more personal PC work.I started to prepare for my evening retirement as it was getting late.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.However,I am still struggling daily with my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I wasn't tempted to act out in any way,shape or form.I went through the day without any problems.I simply kept busy with what I had to do and that kept my mind off of the sexual stuff.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after that.I need to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time when least expected.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Your support helps keep me going and also both reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
I first paid my car insurance bill to jump start my policy for another year.After that,I headed over to my doctor's office for a follow-up and to get new prescriptions for my medical drugs.After that,I went to a nearby post office to mail out some stuff to a friend in another state.After that,I had a late lunch at a nearby McDonald's.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into a sweatsuit and I did some more personal PC work.After that,I went out to get a take out meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode that I had on a DVD set.I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted in any way,shape of form to act out on the unnatural sexual desires that I have.I guess that staying busy with everything that I had to do kept my mind off of the sexual stuff that is connected with the SSA struggle.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike when least expected.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often to help keep me going.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed for much of the day watching a few classic TV episodes on DVD's that I have.After that,I relaxed for the rest of the day and as the evening was coming,I got dressed and I headed out to a couple of stores to pick up a few things for dinner.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I heated up everything that I had bought and ate it.After that,I did the dishes and watched a couple more classic TV shows on DVD's that I have.I also took my medication and as the early evening started to drift into late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,though I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I gave into the temptation to masturbate when I was awakened in the wee early morning hours by a throbbing erection.After that,I washed my hands and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I really felt guilty for giving into this terrible temptation.I prayed hard and I left nothing out and when I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day with no problems,but still continued to stay on guard an be watchful.I really need to get tough with myself.I can't keep giving into the temptation to sin and asking for forgiveness.I have to show my Heavenly Father that I am really serious about wanting to heal and overcome SSA and I need to stop this pattern.I need to stop giving into temptation and then asking for forgiveness.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a doctor's appointment that I had set up today for tomorrow,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair over the sink as well as washed my face.After that,I shaved.When I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I watched a few classic TV episodes on DVD's that I have.After that,I got dressed and headed out to run a few errands.
I first went to a local nursing facility to see if a friend that is temporary staying there if he was going back home,but they told me that he wasn't and it would depend on what the local mission organization would say when.After talking with a social worker at the nursing facility,I left the facility and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the post office to pick up a Priority Mail envelope.After that,I stopped a few local restaurants to pick up a few things for lunch.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate everything that I bought and when that was finished,I made a couple more phone calls and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a few more classic TV episodes on DVD's that I have.I also did some more personal PC work.I relaxed while preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though lately,I have been struggling in regards to SSA.All the tension that is going on in my family is making the temptations go into overdrive.I have given into the temptations to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men clouded my mind while doing so,which led to the temptation to fantasize and lust after these images.Last night,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I unloaded everything to him in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I asked him to forgive me for sinning against him by giving into the terrible temptations.I also talked about all the tensions that are going on within my family and that I didn't know whether I was coming or going with all this happening.I prayed and prayed and I left nothing out.When I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I also knew and truly believed that he heard everything that I told him about.I said one final prayer last night before going to bed.Today,I kept myself busy by simply doing what I had to do personal errands wise and I had no thoughts creep up into my mind.On the other hand,in regards to my BPD/Schizophrenia struggles,I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride for a while,but has been made worse as a result of all the tension within my family.One day,I am feeling pretty good,but the next day,down and not so good.I have also had periods where I was in a rut for a while and it would lift,but the depression would return a day or two later.I did make the phone call to the psychiatric center and I am hoping that they will return my call soon.I am hoping to finally find the right therapy to help me let go of the unresolved issues and start to transcend and heal so Can finally heal from and overcome SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to pray for me.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,since it will be Veteran's Day,I have no plans made.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church.Today,we had a visiting missionary pastor and his family.They gave a talk in the study class about what being a missionary was about and he also gave a wonderful sermon during the worship service,which was a very affirming sermon.After some wonderful fellowship with him and the rest of my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few more things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a sweatsuit.I started doing my personal PC work,but remembered that I had to do a couple of things.I shut my computer down and got dressed and I headed downtown.
I was supposed to take a friend home today from a local nursing facility,but he was sound asleep when I got there.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I made a phone call to another friend that I was supposed to get together with,but they told that something came up and we couldn't.After hanging up,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I realized that I needed a couple more important things and I headed back out again.
I first went to another local supermarket to buy another box of cereal.After that,I headed to a nearby Dollar Tree store to buy a tube of toothpaste.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the cereal and the toothpaste away.I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,there is so much tension going on in my family that I really can't talk right now in regards to my SSA struggles or my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia.I am down and also feeling angry and miserable that I really can't talk about anything at the moment.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please also leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often,especially with all the negative stuff going on in my family at the moment.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I decided to simply wash my hair and face over the sink,including shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had a few things on my agenda for today.I first went to see how a friend of mine was doing and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed out to a Goodwill store in another area of the county that I live and I bought a few things.After that,I went to a used record store in the area and purchased a record album.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Big Lots when I got back into town to buy a few things.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart when I got back into town and I bought some cereal and milk.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.I was going to watch another one,but I realized that I forgot to buy something that I needed at the local Super Wal-Mart.I headed back out again to buy what I had forgotten,which was coffee.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into night clothes and did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.However,I am still in the process of finding the right therapeutic approach to help me let go of the unresolved anger,resentment and trauma issues so I can finally transcend and heal from this terrible SSA.On Monday,I am going to call a psychiatric rehabilitation center and see if I can make an appointment to talk with someone there.I am hoping that this works out for me in the long run as I really do want to heal from this terrible SSA and I now realize that the unresolved issues are what's holding me back from becoming the man that I am meant to be.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me,especially to help me find the right therapy for needing to let go and transcend from all of these issues.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I made a phone call to a company that was looking for janitorial workers and left a message.After that,I did my personal PC work and I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had only one thing on my agenda for today.I went to a spaghetti dinner at a local church and after I was finished eating it,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local used record store and bought a record.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I can't really talk tonight as I am getting really tired as my medication is kicking in.All I ask is that you all keep me in your prayers and that you all also leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section,I still need your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.It's just that I am very tired and really can't talk about these things.I can barely type this.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I got dressed and proceeded with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda for today.I first went to the job placement agency to sign a couple more papers and after that,I went to another local agency to sign some more papers.After having a light lunch that I bought at a convenience store,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at my workplace to see into something and they told me that when things start picking up,they'll let me know.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered some bills at the Where's George site and after that,I headed back out to a local church near my house to have a light free dinner and after that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the drug store to drop off a prescription that the nurse practitioner gave me recently and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did some more personal PC work and I relaxed for a bit.Later on,I prepared to get ready to turn in for the night.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Fellow blog followers and readers,there is a growing negative rift within my family right now and I really don't know how long it will last.I had a long talk with my sister tonight before going out and she told me about what her daughter did to her.She even played me a message that was left on her voice mail.There were very harsh words said and it really hurt my sister terribly.I was shocked to hear those words.I was also upset,but tried to stay cool.Right now,I am so upset that I am being tempted left and right to act out on the unnatural sexual desires that I have and I don't want that.I don't want to run back like a coward to that sinful way at all.I need prayers right now and also,prayers for my family.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.I also ask that you please pray for my family that these negative rifts are healed soon.Please do these things as I so desperately need your prayers and positive verbal support.I also need prayers for my family as well.Thanks in advance for everything.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.I did say a prayer earlier tonight when I came home from everything that I had to do.Thanks again to y'all.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I got dressed as I had to head over to the job placement agency to sign a few more papers and after that,I headed back out to drop something off at my workplace for my supervisor to sign.After that,I headed out to pay a couple of bills,one to mail out and one to pay in person.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy myself a light lunch.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put some of the stuff that I bought away and I ate my lunch.After that,I did my personal PC work and later on,after I was finished with that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues to move forward.However,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult struggle of the two for me.I know that I have not been talking too much about my struggles.Tonight,I need to talk a little.During the week when I was in a very dark place emotionally,I was miserable as a result sinning repeatedly.During the time in the dark place,I didn't pray very much.I was too depressed and sad to talk.I sinned repeatedly by looking up sexual images of men online.I also gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after them and I sank deeper and deeper into misery,sadness and depression.There were times that tears came out of my eyes and I at times felt that I could not go on.That Saturday night,November 1st,I prayed and laid everything on my Heavenly Father and I did feel better.Last night,I didn't really talk to my Heavenly Father,but dozed off in bed with the light on.I have not been trying to stick to my resolve in drawing closer to my Heavenly Father and I do feel miserable for not doing so.I am hoping to start doing so hopefully tonight before I go to sleep.I know that I need to draw closer to my Heavenly Father in order to start healing and overcoming.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I really need both your prayers and positive verbal support daily and often.Please pray for me that I draw closer to my Heavenly Father and if anyone out there can advise me in that area,Thanks.I need advice and I also need both your prayerful and positive verbal support.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow or perhaps Friday,I am going to call a psychiatric center to arrange an appointment.I still need to get these issues of anger,resentment and trauma resolved soon so I can finally discover healing and work to overcome SSA and other things.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of meeting with someone at another local agency,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and proceeded with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda for today.I first went to the job placement agency to sign a few more papers.After that,I headed over to a local kitchen for lunch and after that,I went shopping at the local Super Wal-Mart.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did my personal PC work.After that,I relaxed for a while and watched a little TV.I also did some rearranging around my living room.Later on,I went out to a local convenience store to buy myself something light for dinner.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode that I have on a DVD set.I also did a little bit more rearranging around my living room.I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I am still not up to sharing where I am at in them.I have been feeling extremely tired lately as a result of my medication kicking in earlier than expected.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often to help keep me going.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Chris for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I returned a couple of phone calls and after that,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I got dressed and proceeded with the rest of the day.
I had only two things on my agenda for today.I first went to the bank to withdraw some money.After that,I got some gas in my gas stank and I headed for the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and after that,I laid down for a while,though I made sure that I didn't fall asleep.After getting back up,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I am feeling way too tired to talk about them at this point.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of signing some more papers at the job placement agency,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit real quickly and I headed for church for both morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed from my suit into casual clothes and I headed out to get myself a light lunch at a local convenience store.After that,I headed back home.
When I got home,I ate my light lunch and when I was finished,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I decided to lay down for a while as I was feeling tired and drowsy.I didn't get back up until after 2 & a 1/2 hours.After that,I headed back out to get a box of light bulbs as my dining room needed one.When I got home,I prepared a light evening meal.
After eating,I watched a couple of cartoons on DVD and when they were finished,I did more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.But right now,I ma feeling depressed again.I don't know why I do,but I do.I am also feeling tired and just don't know what to do to help me feel better.I am just hoping that I will feel better tomorrow in the morning when I wake up.Please continue to pray for me.I also ask that you leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda for today.I first went to a local restaurant to have a light lunch and when I was finished,I went to a local supermarket to buy a gallon of milk.After that,I bought a Subway sandwich for dinner.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I sat down to eat my sandwich after putting my milk in the fridge.After eating,I watched a couple of Halloween cartoon DVD's that I didn't get to watch last night due to me getting tired early.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I can report that I am starting to feel a lot better emotionally.For quite a while,I was feeling down in the dumps and I just didn't know whether I was coming or going.I was sad and feeling even more sad as the days went along.Tonight,I am starting to finally feel better.I actually prayed to my Heavenly Father tonight and I unloaded everything onto him.I prayed in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and left nothing out.I told my Heavenly Father exactly how I was feeling and that I wanted to feel the opposite of how I was feeling at that time.I left nothing out.When I was finished praying,I felt better and much more at ease emotionally.Though I do feel better,I know that there are still the days ahead and I have to continue drawing closer to my Heavenly Father day after day.I haven't been doing that lately as during the dark days,I didn't communicate with my Heavenly Father as I felt too down and out to talk about anything.Tonight,I finally approached my Heavenly Father and I let it all out.While I was talking to him,my eyes were starting to tear and I felt that an enormous weight had been lifted off of me.I am going to make it my resolve to draw even closer to my Heavenly Father and try to establish a personal relationship with him.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,I would really some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both types of your support daily and often.Your support is also still very important to me.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance too y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda for today.I went to a couple of local stores to pick up some things that I so desperately needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and after that,I relaxed while watching a few Halloween themed DVD's.I then prepared a light evening meal.
After eating,I enjoyed some more Halloween themed DVD's while also enjoying some candy that I bought for myself.When they were all done,I did some more personal PC work.As the night was getting darker,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery is still at a standstill.Why is that?I am still in a very deep and dark emotional place right now.I am feeling depressed and down and I really don't know why.I have been feeling this way for quite some time and I really don't know when I will be snapping out of it.I was feeling really good for a while,but now I am down and feeling not so good emotionally.I feel good physically,but not so good emotionally.Again,I really don't know why,but I am hoping that it lifts pretty soon and I will be back to my old self again.I hate being in this dark place where I am at now.I really hate it.I am just hoping that this lifts soon and I can feel and be myself again.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I really need the support of all of you right now,especially the prayerful support.But again,your positive verbal support also helps as well and is just as important.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee.I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed and proceeded with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda.I first went to the bank to withdraw a little money.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered a little bit of the money on Where's George and after that,I headed back out to go to a local supermarket to pick up a few things that I needed.After that,I headed to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up one more thing that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that was over,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I popped another DVD into the DVD player and watched it.After that was over,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare to turn in for the night when I got really sleepy.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Right now,I am still in a very dark place emotionally right now,so I can't share anything in regards to my struggles at this certain time.I am still looking for that much needed right therapeutic method that I need.I need the right therapy to help me let go and transcend from the unresolved issues that I have been trying to get resolved.I really don't know how to go about this.If anyone has any idea,please let me know and share it.I will try anything.All that I ask is that you all continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I need to be both reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished.I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda for today.I first went to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After that,I went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few more things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away in their proper places.After that,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that was over,I watched another one.After that was over,I proceeded to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I popped another DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After it was over,I did some more personal PC work.As it was getting late,I proceeded to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though right now,it is at a standstill.Last night,I reported that I was in a very dark place as far as my emotions go.I am still in that dark place and I don't know when I am going to get out of it.I have been taking my meds and trying to keep up with my therapy,but I still need more.As I have also previously reported,I still have some unresolved anger,resentment and trauma issues that I would like to get resolved.I want to be able to let go and transcend from these issues.I have not been successful at this and I still need more help.I don't know what I am going to do in the meantime,but I am going to continue trying to find a way and the right therapeutic approach.I want to heal and I want to overcome,but I haven't been too successful in my goals.Every time I turn around,I am back at square one having to start all over again.I want to heal.I want to overcome,but I am having terrible difficulties in wanting to do so.I feel like I am stuck in the middle still searching for the right and true way.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support.Your support really matters and is very important to me.Your support does help in more ways than one.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair over the sink and I shaved.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda for today.I had to get a few important things that I needed.I first went to a local Dollar Tree store to get a couple of things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the things that I bought away and I popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.After that,I headed back out again to a local supermarket to pick up a gallon of milk.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the milk in the fridge and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and watched a cartoon on DVD.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I am again going to hold off on discussing my struggles until I feel ready and up to discussing them.I am in a very dark place right now emotionally and I really can't talk a lot at this juncture.Please try to understand that this deep and dark place I am at right now is just interfering with my train of thought and I just can't talk a lot about my struggles yet.All I ask is that all of you continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need the support of all of you daily and often.Your support is very valuable to me and also,very important.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only one important thing on my agenda for today.I had to see the nurse practitioner at the local hospital.I headed over there so I could be there on time.
The meeting with her went well.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my casual clothes and into a sweatsuit.I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that was over,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I got dressed back in casual clothes and I headed out to get a take out meal.
When I got home,I ate my take out meal and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I know that for the past several days,I have been holding off talking about my struggles with SSA.Tonight,I want to share with you some things about my other struggle,which I don't talk about very much.It is my struggle with BPD/Schizophrenia.With the stress of the previous week,my emotions have not been the way that I would like them to be.I am back at square one in regards to where I am at.I am now back to saying angry things to myself pretending that there are people there,but there is no one there.I am also hallucinating again.I have been hearing loud voices calling my name and when I turn around,there is nobody there.I also hear things like footsteps walking and other various sounds,but when I turn around,nobody and nothing is there.I feel like I am climbing the walls and bordering on hurting myself,though I haven't attempted to do so as of yet.I guess that I still have some of my sanity with me.I don't want to start hurting myself or I might be forced against my will to check into the mental health ward at the local hospital.I have never been in that ward and I don't want to nor do I plan to check in there.I have been looking into seeing how I can acquire a service that will help me let go and transcend from all the unresolved issues that I am currently struggling with.These issues have been holding me back from growing and becoming the man that I am meant and intended to be.They are also holding me back from the healing that I desperately need to help me finally heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please pray that I find the right therapy so I can finally let go and start transcending from these unresolved issues so I can finally discover the real healing that I need to help me heal and overcome.I really do want to heal and overcome and I really need to find the right therapy to finally let go and transcend from these unresolved issues.I want to finally discover and experience real healing.I really want to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.Please pray that I find that right therapy.I also ask that you continue to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work and when I was finished with that,I popped a movie into the DVD player and I watched it.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work and after that,I went out to pick up some dinner for me.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and relaxed for the rest of the evening.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Right now,I am in a very difficult place as far as my emotions go and I really don't feel like talking very much in regards to where I am at in my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.I am still not feeling any relief right now as a result of the stressful situations that happened within this past week.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of seeing the nurse practitioner at the local hospital,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ