Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning.I had coffee and brushed my hair.I got dressed and headed for work.

The work day went fair.After that,I headed for an office to get my taxes filed and after that was done,I got gas and headed straight home.

When I got home,I ate quickly and did my personal PC work.I also relaxed and took it easy.Later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A fair day overall.

This week,I didn't post too much as I was not feeling well emotionally.I was the victim of a break-in on Monday.It was a member of my family that did this.They broke in through the cellar and stole some clothes that belonged to my sister.They also took what was their's as well.They ruined the plumbing and we're hoping to get it fixed tomorrow.This is the reason why I haven't been feeling too well emotionally.It's one thing when a total stranger breaks in.But when it's a member of your own,especially one that you helped by letting them live with you,it's even more devastating.This also made me feel violated and affected my sense of security.It also made me angry and also,sad.This is why my emotions have not been good or even stable as of late.I just want to heal from these negative emotions and also,help heal from the affects of the break-in by one of my own relatives.My family relations have been going down the tubes as this is the third relative that has caused trouble.I am hoping to get over this soon.Please continue praying for me.Please pray that I get over this soon and that I heal from these terrible emotions.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section,which can be both spiritually upbuilding and encouraging words.Thanks to y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

This has been a terrible week for me.I hope that the weekend will good for me to get over this things.FJ

I'm still not feeling well emotionally.Please continue to pray for me.Please continue to leave me positive verbal support,such as spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.Thanks very much.FJ

I am still not feeling well emotionally.I will post when I do.There has been a lot going on in my life,with most of it being negative.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please continue to leave me some positive verbal support,which can be spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,in the comments section.Thanks to y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.FJ

I'm still not feeling well tonight.No,I'm not physically ill,but emotionally ill.Please continue praying for me that I get better emotionally and that I get through the rest of the week.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.I am hoping that I feel emotionally better soon.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.FJ

Tonight,I'm not feeling very good.I won't be posting anything tonight as a result of that.Please continue praying for me and don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.Thanks to all ofyou and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and I washed up real quickly.After that,I got dressed up in a suit and headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.

Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.

On the way home,I stopped at a local McDonald's for a light lunch and after that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed out of my suit into a pair of pajama pants and did some cleaning around the house,including the bathroom.After that was done,I relaxed and did some of my personal PC work.After that,I got dressed in casual clothes and did some shopping at a local bargain supermarket,a local Dollar Tree and a local Auto Zone.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I put the stuff away and I finished my personal PC work.After that,I relaxed and watched some videos on YouTube.I also had a light evening meal and later on,I showered and after that,I prepared to retire for the evening.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I am still struggling terribly right now with this terrible SSA that I have.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support,in the form of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,in the comments section.Thanks to y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.

Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had coffee.After that,I did some of my personal PC work.After that,I showered quickly and after that,washed my face and shaved.I then finished my personal PC work before getting dressed and headed out to an AMVETS store in the next county.Before that,I had lunch at a Chinese restaurant that was located in another area of the next county.

I did manage to buy a few things at the store.It was wonderful.After that,I bought something to drink at a nearby Dollar General store and after that,I headed for home.

When I arrived back in my home area,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.I also had a light evening meal and did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

I am still struggling terribly with SSA at the moment.I need some prayerful support,so please continue to keep me in your prayers.I need prayers from all of you.I also could use some spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words in the comments section.I also desperately need some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to y'all for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a church as usual and after that,I have really nothing planned,but I hope to get positive benefits from anything I choose to do.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.After that,I washed up real quickly,got dressed and headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did some of my personal PC work.After that,I went back out to a local supermarket to pick up a few things for dinner and I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I heated up what I bought for dinner and ate it.After that,I finished my personal PC work.I started getting ready for my evening retirement when I got tired.A very good day overall.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,which can be in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.I need both of these things desperately.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

I hope that my weekend goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up early and had my usual coffee.After that,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day,though again a little stressful,went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did some of my personal PC work.I also went back out to a local church for a free dinner.After that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few things I needed.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I showered quickly and changed into pajamas.I finished my personal PC work and when it was time,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good,but a little stressful,day overall.

I'm still struggling terribly with SSA and related stuff.Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I desperately need both types of support.I need both spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,alongside prayers.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and after that,it's the weekend.I hope that the work day goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up early and had coffee.After that,I washed up,got dressed quickly and headed for work.

The work day,though a little stressful,went well.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I had a light evening meal and did my personal PC work.

After relaxing for a while,I showered quickly and after that,I did some more personal PC work.I later prepared for my evening retirement.A very good,but a little stressful,day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I really need prayers right now.I'm still struggling terribly with this terrible SSA that I have.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,which can be both spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day,which I hope goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual coffee and washed up real quickly.I then got dressed real quickly and headed for work.

The work day went well,though it was a little stressful.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did some of my personal PC work,but couldn't really finish it because my sister took me out to dinner for my birthday.

The dinner was wonderful.My sister dropped me off at home and when I got in,I changed into pajamas and finished my personal PC work.After that,as I was getting tired.I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day,though a little stressful during work,overall.

Please continue praying for me and please leave me some positive verbal encouragement,which can be both spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.Thanks to y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up early and had my coffee and washed up.I got dressed quickly and headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.After that,I showered quickly and had a light evening meal.

I did some more personal PC work before preparing to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I am still struggling terribly right now.I also would appreciate some spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words in the comments section.Thanks to y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.I also showered and shaved quickly.I got dressed up in a suit and headed for church.

The Holy Bible study class and the worship service were wonderful.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed into casual clothes and did some cleaning up around the house,including cleaning the bathroom.After that,I went out to get a few slices of pizza for lunch and ate them.After that,I stopped at a few stores and delivered a few free newspapers at a few people's houses.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed for a while and I headed out to get a light meal at a local Arby's.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and I did a little bit more personal PC work and later on,prepared to retire for the evening.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section,which can be spiritually upbuilding and encouraging words.Thanks for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day,which I hope goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had my usual coffee,but before I could do anything,I washed up real quickly and got dressed as I had to take my live-in grand-niece to work and after that,I bought a few slices of pizza from a local pizzeria.After eating them,I stopped at the local K-Mart to pick up a few things.I also went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things for my dinner tonight.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I put the stuff away and relaxed while doing my personal PC work.After that was done,I vacuumed the rugs in the house and also vacuumed the floors.After that was done,I showered and cleaned my body and after that,I heated up my evening meal.

After eating,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as the evening was winding down,I prepared for my evening retirement.A pretty good day overall.

The stress of the past week has really made my SSA struggles difficult.I have been tempted to act out on these unnatural desires that I have.Today,I did give into these terrible temptations again,but felt so terrible about doing so that I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for doing so and even pleaded with him to be merciful towards me.Tears even started coming from my eyes as I prayed and prayed.I hate myself when I give into these terrible temptations of the flesh as when someone,such as myself,gives into them,they are only gratifying their own flesh and feeding their sinful nature rather than fighting and resisting them and also,neglecting to ask the sovereign Lord and creator of all things,our Heavenly Father,to give them the strength to fight and resist these terrible temptations.The thing is that in Homosexuality and other types of unacceptable behaviors,the only things that get gratification are the flesh,the sinful nature that we all have and also,when they do these things,they reap corruption rather than reaping the positive spiritual things that come when someone works to fight and resist and ask for the strength to help them in their fighting and resisting.It also shows a lack of self-control on their part as self-control is necessary in fighting and resisting the sinful patterns and longings of the imperfect fleshly and sinful nature.Nobody said that the SSA struggle was going to be easy.I'm learning that day in and day out every day.

I still need advice.I would like for y'all to share what has worked for you.Maybe what worked for you can work for me.Please share as I would greatly appreciate that,which is why the comments section is there.Thanks very much in advance.

Please continue praying for me as I really need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section,which can be both spiritually upbuilding posts and positive encouragement.Thanks to y'all in advance for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church as usual and I hope that I get a lot out of it.I also hope that the rest of the day goes well for me,too.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up early,had coffee,washed up and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day,like yesterday,went well,but a little stressful.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and did my personal PC work.After that,I showered quickly and got dressed to head out again to a local Burger King for a light evening meal.After I was finished with that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and I did more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good,but a little stressful,day overall.

Lately,I have been on a roller coaster ride regarding my SSA struggles.The stress that I've been having,mostly from my job,has really been getting to me.I have been getting tempted to act out by fantasizing and lusting.The desires have really been giving me a hard time.Sexual thoughts and feelings have been really clouding my mind,including images of men dancing within my mind.It's really been difficult.This struggle that I have gets more difficult when stressful situations become a factor.It all tempts me to fantasize and lust after other men and imagining myself in sinful and degrading sexual activity with them.The thing that I have to continually keep in mind is that acting out on these unnatural desires that I have will never get me the true fulfillment that I need.It will only make me feel fulfilled temporarily.What I need is to have healthy and authentic relationships with members of my own gender.That is what I need.The only real benefits of these is friendship,bonding,relating,identifying and connecting with other men in a healthy and authentic way,which is non-sexual.Sexual activity will never give me the real and true fulfillment that I need,but only friendships and relating,alongside identifying and healthy authentic connections is what I truly need.I don't need nor want sex,just friendships with other guys.That is all that I need as I really and seriously want to heal from these unnatural desires that I have.

Please continue to pray for me.Pray that I find and get these types of relationships with other men.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section,which can be both spiritually upbuilding posts and encouraging words.Please leave me positive verbal support.I really need that alongside the prayers.Thanks to y'all for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the start of the weekend,which I'm glad for after the stress of the last few days on the job,where Sunday will be church as usual.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After washing up real quickly,I got dressed and headed for work.

The work day went pretty well,though it was a little stressful.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I showered real quickly and after that,I got dressed again and headed for a local church for a free dinner.After that,I went shopping at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things that were needed.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away,did the dishes and changed into pajamas.I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good,but a little stressful,day overall.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive encouragement and spiritual upbuilding in the comments section.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day,which I hope goes well.After that,it's the weekend.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning,had coffee and got dressed real quickly.I headed for work.

The work day went well,but it was a little stressful.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed a little and after that,showered quickly.After showering,I quickly did my personal PC work.After that,I had a light evening meal and did some more personal PC work.

Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good,but a little stressful,day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I am still struggling terribly right now.Yes,I'm still struggling terribly as I feel like I'm stuck in the middle.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support by way of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.Thanks to y'all for your support.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day,which I hope goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning,had coffee and got dressed real quickly.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.After that,I had a light evening meal and did some more personal PC work.I later prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

I am very tired right now and can barely type.I will share more when I'm able.Please continue praying for me and please leave me some spiritually upbuilding and encouraging comments in the comments section.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day,which I hope goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning,had my coffee and got dressed real quickly.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a bit as I was really tired.Later on,I did my personal PC work.

I had a light evening meal in the early evening and I also did some more personal PC work.I later prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Last night,I turned to my Heavenly Father in prayer.I unloaded everything from my fantasies and lusting to my acting out to these things.I bared my soul and was almost at the point of tears while I was confessing all to my Heavenly Father.I also said a prayer for a friend of mine after that.I felt better and I slept well.However,I still need prayers from all of you.Please continue praying for me.I also would appreciate some spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words in the comments section.I still need all the support that I can get.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning,had coffee,showered and got dressed up in a suit real quickly.I headed for church as we had a special service today honoring church run schools this week.

The service was wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I stopped at a local Tim Horton's for a light and late breakfast and after that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed from my suit into pajama pants and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I did some vacuuming in the house and cleaned the bathroom.I also did some dishes.After that,I got dressed in casual clothes and headed back out.

I shopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few needed things.After that,I had a light evening meal at McDonald's.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and I did some more personal PC work.I relaxed for a while and after that and later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

I need some helpful and spiritual advice.I have been again falling into sin.I have been giving into the terrible temptations to fantasize and lust.Each and every time that I've fallen,I feel terribly miserable.I've fallen into a terribly vicious and evil cycle of falling into sin habitually.I want to stop doing this.I want to stop this vicious and evil cycle that I've fallen into.Yes,I have given into the terribly unclean habit of masturbation as well,which contributes to the fantasizing and lusting that I've fallen back into.I am still feeling miserable.I want to stop and break free.If anyone who reads my blog can provide any helpful advice,please do so.I really need some encouraging words and spiritual upbuilding right now.Please pray for me.Please leave me some spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words in the comments section.Please help me.Please point me in the right direction.I need all the help and support that I can get.Please help me.Please offer some helpful and spiritual advice.Thanks in advance to y'all for all of your help and support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

I also would appreciate prayers that I repair my relationship with my Heavenly Father as I have been failing to go to him in prayer as of late.I need some spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words on how I can do that.Thanks.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ