Tonight,I am feeling great.I had a wonderful day today.As stated yesterday,I went to the shopping mall where the Buffalo Sabres trio of the 1970's known as the French Connection were signing autographs and it was great to see those guys again.Yes it was.I had a wonderful time waiting in the line to get their autographs and it was well worth the wait.I even had a few great talks with some of teh other fans who were waiting to get their autographs as well.I also got a free ticket to another event there.It is to get FREE pictures of some select athletes from many Western New York sports teams on the 11th of September.I can hardly wait for that.I will be meeting a few current Buffalo Sabres players there that day.It will be totally awesome.I can hardly wait for that.It will at 6:oop.m.on the 11th of September.
Tonight is my night to entertain the crowd at the place where I do sing.I am looking forward to this with of enthusiasm and optimism.I am hoping that the night goes well.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.
Tomorow is Sunday.I am hoping to finally get together with that old friend who I have been meaning to do that with.I will be calling him tomorrow afternoon to see if it is going to be.I hope that it will be what it will.It would be great to sit face to face with him talking about a lot of things.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty tough day today.I had to take over for the normal Friday morning cleaner this morning.I got a couple of hours in this morning and I did my normal job in the afternoon.The laundry pick-up was smooth.No mess to pick up at the pick up place.The rest of the day went by smoothly but I was tired.I am glad that I do not have to do that every time.I am used to resting up in the morning while working to keep myself awake so I can go to work in the afternoon on Fridays.But I am greatful for the extra pay.I am going to need it.
I am glad that the weekend is finally here.I am going to do my usual entertaining the crowd tomorrow night.I am hoping that it goes well.I also have other plans for tomorrow.I am going to a shopping mall where I will be meeting the Buffalo Sabres trio from the 1970's known as The French Connection.I always go somewhere when they sign autographs for their fans and this time,there will be pictures taken as well.That will be neat.I am looking forward to that with a lot of enthusiasm.It will be great to get more autographs.
I also had a talk with an old friend tonight.It was that same friend that I was hoping to get together with last Sunday but he was sick.But we are hoping for this Sunday.I hope that it can happen.I have not seen him in quite a long time.I have talked with him over the phone lots of times.But to see him face to face will be great.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I am feeling mostly anger because I had a very difficult day at work today.The day started out promsing and I had a lot of optimism in me as the day started.
But the day turned difficult after I had a run in with a guy who thought his shit didn't stink.The run in was regarding the social club computer.As I have stated previously,there have been some problems in the past regarding the social club computer regarding people not recording their time down and all sorts of stuff,such as pornographic web addresses appearing in the history even when the person who was on there during the specific time was not even logging on to.This time,a guy recorded his time down but it was not the correct time based on the computer clock and also,he was also on too long.At the social club,the rules state that you must record time on and off and you also have to use the computer clock and not the clock on the wall.Plus,when I made a statement what that guy told me about his being unaware of that rule,I simply and politely informed him that "Ignorance Of The Rules Is No Excuse."He jumped to the wrong conclusions,got really angry and threatened me right in front of a female staffer and even had to nerve to swear an even swearing(i.e.profanity)was against the rules.Apparently,the coordinator talked with him and told him that threats against other members were inappropriate and that he would be suspended for a week the next time he did so.Of course,while that might have worked out well,I am still feeling at edge over it because I was angry at that guy for what he did wrong to me.I am hoping that I feel better tomorrow.I am hoping that a good night sleep will help me out.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am working a full day tomorrow.The normal Friday morning cleaner called in sick and I am taking over for the cleaner.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.I did my typical laundry pick-up today and it went well.There was no mess today for me clean up and after I picked up,I dropped it off at the work site and sorted out the laundry.I left afterwards.I did not make any stops on the way home except to withdraw some money for my mom and have a light lunch at Burger King.It was nothing special.It was just a Rodeo Cheeseburger and after I finished,I drove home.Before I did that,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas in my tank.
When I got home,I simply finished up my personal computer work.It was a lot to do.But I managed to get it done.
For the rest of the afternoon,I simply took it easy and watched some of the special features on my copy of the special unrated and fully extended edition of Seed Of Chucky.It was great.I saw some stuff on there where they talked about why the movie was made and why they felt it should be made.It was interesting to see all of this stuff and learn something new at the same time.
Later this afternoon,I heard from,via e-mail,the guy who I bought records from on Monday.He told me that he searched high and low for his cell phone but never found it.He also informed me that he bought a new one.I replied thanking him for letting me know and I apologized for his inability to find it.
I attended my support group meeting at the church tonight and it was wonderful as always.Once again,it was wonderful to let go of some emotional baggage and hear the stories of the other men.I am looking forward to next Wednesday night's meeting.I hope that it is as wonderful as the last.
Tomorrow is simply another work day.I hope that the shift goes well for me.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth work day today.It was just the same old same old.But again,it went smoothly and fast.There was a lot to be picked up today and there was also a lot to drop off.I also had a helping hand today in the form of a man that I used to work with and that made me feel pretty good.Afterwards,I went to buy something for my mom and went home.
When I got in,I got a phone call.It was from the guy that I bought the records from yesterday.Apparently,his cell phone was missing.He asked me if I had taken it accidently.I said that I didn't and that if I did,I would've returned it to him.He said that the reason why that he asked was because he left it in his garage and that he really needed it desperately because of his heart condition.I wished him the best of success in finding it and that I do hope that he does.He said Thanks and hung up.After that,I laid down until dinner.We had a light meal.
I also went and picked up some donuts at a local Dunkin Donuts.We had a spare coupon for buy 6 get 6 free and I thought that I would take advantage of this once again.I am always up for something different regarding desserts rather than have the same old stuff every time.It was not a very eventful day but I did get a lot done.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.After that,I will just relax and take it easy for much of the afternoon.After that,I have my Wednesday night support group meeting at the church and I am hoping that it goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a not too eventful day day today.I woke up today around 12:30 p.m. and was greeted by the unexpected.My grandnieces and grandnephew came over to spend the afternoon here.Yes they did.I don't mind but I was a little disappointed because I was hoping for a nice quiet afternoon at home but I did not get it.I know that I won't always get the things that I feel I deserve but having them over when they do at times fight a lot especially when they are on the couch and they sometimes unintentionally hurt themselves and make noise.Don't get me wrong,I know that kids are going to be noisy and that they can be unpredictable in their actions but it is really not a good thing to hear kids scream and holler quite a bit.They were here for a few hours and their mother,my niece,picked them up.
While they were over here,I went out for a while.I stopped over a guy's house who was hanging on to some records for me.When I got there,I checked them out and bought them all.They were mostly old fashioned 78's,where some of them still looked like new and unplayed.It is hard to believe that quite a bit of them looked like brand new and that they were also now being cared for in a good caring home.I also had a couple of record albums added to the set.I also went and had a light but late lunch to tie me over until dinner.
When I did get home,I stayed in my room upstairs for the rest of the afternoon.Of course,being up there was not a very good idea though I did need some quiet time and privacy,I wound up relapsing by masturbating again.I am hoping that this does not happen again.I did ask for forgiveness from the creator and he even helped me to forgive myself for that.Still,it did bring me down for a short while and it was devastating to fail.But I am slowly feeling better about this and I am hoping that tomorrow,I will feel much better.
Last night,I did go out for a quick drink.I hung out with some of the guys at the place where I sing and entertain.I did not do any singing.I just hung out for a few minutes and had a quick drink,which was a bottle of non-alcoholic beer.I do take psychiatric medication and that is why I could not have any alcohol in my system so that when I took it,I had nothing to worry about.I did another scan on my computer last night after the anti-virus software caught a virus,which was a Trojan.Dropper virus,in my system.After restarting the computer while having the system recovery turned off,I did the scan and my computer was clean.What a relief.I stopped a virus before it could do any damage to my system.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I did have a fairly decent day today.I was hoping to get together with that friend that I was talking to on Friday but he wasn't feeling well.Apparently,he went walking for a little over 3 hours and his feet were hurting him.I was disappointed.I was hoping to get together and watch a movie with him that I had told him about.Oh well.But we are hoping that next Sunday will be a better day and that he is hoping that he is feeling better soon.I also hope so.I had high expectations of getting together with him.But I do understand when a person's health isn't teh way they feel it should be because I at times feel the same way myself because I am a human being.But again,we are both hoping that next Sunday will be a better day.For the day,I just ran an errand for my mom and that was it.
Last night,my Elvis Presley tribute was a hit.Each and every one loved my tribute to The King Of Rock & Roll.The night was a huge success and I felt good about what I had accomplished.It was wonderful and it was also fun.Next week,it will be back to normal.I will be doing the dame old type of stuff that I am used to doing.But again,the next tribute will be for George Harrison when the anniversary of his death rolls around alongside the anniversary of the death of John Lennon.That will be 3.4 months away but those will be my next ones.
For the rest of the night,I have not made any plans but Ia m thinking about going out and having a friendly drink.I have not really made up my mind but if I do,I will keep it safe and sane.
That was my day today,my night last night and my hopes for the rest of tonight and tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I am also feeling very hopeful and optimistic.I had a pretty good day today.I ran a couple of errands for my mom today.I also managed to check up on a friend that I had been meaning to check up on for a while.He is doing great.That made me feel better.After checking up,I finished the errand.It was nothing much.I had to pick up a few things for the home.While I was doing that,I managed to drop off some things at a Salvation Army thrift shop in my area because somebody threw away a whole bunch of useful stuff in the garbage after an unsuccessful garage sale.I figured that if they did not want the stuff,there were people who could use it.It was great to do a little something for the community and make sure that at least,the stuff can be used by someone who could very well find a use for it.
Right now,I am at home relaxing.I am getting ready for tonight.I am planning to do a tribute to Elvis Presley tonight when I go out to sing tonight.I am hoping that my tribute to Elvis goes well tonight.As stated before,I rarely,if ever,have an off night.I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.Again,I am hoping that the night goes over well.I am getting ready for the night and I am eagerly awaiting the time where I will be there to entertain.I hope that the night is a smashing success.
Tomorrow is Sunday.I am not sure what I will do tomorrow but whatever it is,I hope that it will be something that will give me a positive feeling.
That was my day today and my hoped for night tonight,including my hopes for the day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a long talk with a friend who I do not see very much.He is doing good.He told me that he is looking for another job because he quit his previous job and he says that he is looking for something better.I wished him the best of success and that I hoped that it worked out well for him.During the long time we talked,we talked about a lot of things,mostly things that we have in common.It was a very long conversation.We talked for over an hour.The only reason why we did talk for that long because we don't get to talk very much.But again,it was great to talk with him and we had a great time talking with each other.We are still hoping to get together in the near future for a little social thing and I am hoping that it is very soon.
Since I had the day off today,I helped my mom with her grocery shopping.We finally got it done and we were glad to get it accomplished.We bought a lot of stuff to get us through the rest of the month and that was great.We also had a wonderful day getting it done.We also had to hurry home afterwards because we did not like the look of the sky.It looked like that it might storm so we wanted to get home immediately before any possible storm would hit.It did rain on the way home but it was not much.Just a few droplets and a brief heavey downpour before returning to droplets and stopping.We did make it home.After my mom put the groceries away,we had a light dinner.We had a California Styled Salad with Shrimp and Ginger dressing.It was awesome.It was also neat having something different for a change.I enjoyed it and my mom enjoyed it as well.
I can not believe that the weekend is finally here.I am looking forward to singing up a storm tomorrow night.As stated previously,I will be doing a tribute to Elvis Presley because this week is the week of his death's anniversary.Elvis has been dead for 30 years.Where did all the time go?The time went by pretty fast.It is like that his death happened only yesterday.I am hoping that my tribute to the King Of Rock & ROLL goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a not too eventful day today.The work shift went by smoothly.I did not have any mess to pick up at the pick-up place and that was good.I simply picked up the one bag they had and took it to the work site.I did not do too much.I simply did what I had to do and the time went by fast.After I dropped off the laundry,I simply went home afterwards because my mom was planning to go grocery shopping initially but when I got home,she was not feeling well and said that we could do that tomorrow.I said okay and I took it easy.I relaxed for much of the afternoon because it looked like that it was going to rain as I was driving home and I did not go out and do anything due to the possibility of rain.The only things that came down were a few droplets and that was it.But just in case it was going to do that,I stayed home and relaxed.
I was feeling a little at edge this afternoon.As I was laying down on my bed ,I had a strong urge to masturbate.Images of men in the nude demanding favors from me were also coming back.I tried tossing and turning but the images never left.The only thing that broke it was when I got a phone call from a doctor's office.I was relieved when that happened because I probably would have masturbated if that did not happen.Thank goodness for that phone call.
I have been feeling at edge ever since the death of the member of my support group at the church.I am still feeling the effects of his death.I have really been at edge and I have been feeling angry because he did not have to go.He was taken away from us too early.I still feel his absence and I am missing him terribly.Again,he was taken away too soon.He was at the meeting about two weeks ago and now,he was taken away so suddenly.He was also in the process of reconciling with his family when this happened.I am hoping that I get over this soon.He was like a partner in healing with me at these group meetings.I still find it hard to believe that he's gone.
Tomorow is my first Friday off in a long time.I only have to do a pick-up for the Monday people and I am free for the rest of the day.There is a staff picnic and I have chosen to help my mom with her grocery shopping tomorrow.After I cash my paycheck,I am taking my mom to do her shopping.I am getting an early start to my weekend.I will be doing my usual singing for the crowd on Saturday night.I can hardly wait for that.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I did not have too exciting of a day today.I did the laundry pick-up today but I did have to pick up a mess.It was not too big a mess to clean but it was still a mess nonetheless.After picking it up,I dropped the laundry off at the worksite and after doing someone a favor,I finished an errand for my mom and went home.I did my personal PC work and relaxed for the rest of the afternoon.
I did attend my support group meeting at the church tonight and it went great.I got to shed some more emotional baggage and it made me feel better.There was also a lot of reflections about the member that died so suddenly.I guess that we are all going to miss him always.It's still hard to believe that he's gone.
There was an unfortunate accident tonight in the church parking lot.An 11 year old boy ran over a pothole in the parking lot and got hurt after he took a terrible tumble on the concrete.I stayed a little while longer until help arrived.When the ambulance arrived,I waited until it left the parking lot.The boy's father also was there and he followed the ambulance to the local hospital.I said to his father that I hope his son recovers soon.I did pass on that they should work on getting that pothole filled and they said that they would work on it.After that,I went home.
Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.The work day went by pretty smoothly.There was a huge pick-up today.I had a lot to deliver to the work spot today and I did get a little bit of it done.During the waits for loads to get done,I managed to watch a movie at the social club and that was pretty good.It was the live action remake of the classic children's book Charlotte's Web.Of course,I did favor the original cartoon version better but this was pretty good in it's own right.Again,I had a pretty smooth day today and that made me feel a bit good.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy.Though the day went by smoothly,I was tired because I did not get an awful lot of sleep last night.I don't know why I did not.I guess that it was because of the heat of the previous day that contributed to my lack of sleep.After a nap,I had dinner and did my personal PC work.I also went out to pick up a couple of donuts at a local donut shop and I also turned in some more bottles that had accumulated in the trunk of my car over the past several days.It wasn't quite a bit of money but it was better than nothing.I just had to get them out of my trunk because my mom needs to go grocery shopping this week and I need all the room that I can get in that trunk.
Tomorrow is simply a pick up day.I am hoping that there is no mess to clean up when I do.Tomorrow night is my support group meeting at the church.I am hoping that it goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a not too exciting of a day today.I simply ran a few important errands for myself today alongside an errand for my mom.I also had to pay my car insurance bill today.I also managed to pay a visit to my auto mechanics garage to inquire about what I had left to pay him.Again,nothing to special.Just a few important things that I had to get out of the way so I can enjoy the rest of the day.
Weatherwise,it was a pretty nice day today.It was not too hot but the sun was shing and it was great to get out and enjoy the day and get some important stuff done.Today was a day off and I really did not have too much to do,which is the usual case.But I did manage to get a few things done and I got to get out.Not too shabby.
Last night,I did go out for a couple of drinks.I even had a few laughs with a few guys and we even reminiced about the good old days on how the city that we lived in used to be.We talked about all the businesses that came and went.It was great that so many people remember how it all used to be.It seems like only yesterday that the city I lived in was booming with lots of business and that there was always some place to go.Nowadays,the city has changed.There is hardly any place to go out and the city is just about dead.But again,it was great to get out last night and I had a ball talking about old times.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today,my night last night and my hopes for tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.Though it rained for much of the day,I managed to get a few things done for myself.I stopped at a music store in my area and picked up the latest KISS DVD set.It is Volume 2 of KISS concert footage.I watched soem of it tonight after I got home and it is an awesone set.I enjoyed what I saw on this set even though I did watch only a few samples.But still,I enjoyed it.It was great to finally have it.I am now eagerly awaiting the next one.
Today,it rained for most of the day.I did not let the rain stop me from enjoying the day.I went to a shopping mall to have a slice of pizza to tie me over until dinner.I just had to have some food in my system because I feel a bit hungry and I also did not want to eat too much because it was too close to dinner time.It was great to get out and have at least a little bit of fun.After dinner,I simply relaxed a bit and watched some of the DVD set that I bought.
Right now,the weather is now cooled down.The rain really cooled the atmosphere and it now very comfortable.For the rest of the evening,I am not sure what I will do.I might go out and have a drink before turning in for the night.I do not know.But if I do,I will not drink anything alcoholic because I do have to take my medication later.
Tomorrow is my day off.I have not made any plans for tomorrow but whatever I do,I hope that it will help me in a positive way.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am again feeling okay.I had a not too eventful of a day today.I simply ran a few errands today for my mom and myself.I had to pick up a few things for dinner tonight and I also had to turn in some more empty bottles and cans.It was only a few dollars but still,it was better than nothing.It was also good to to clean the trunk out of all these.That way,when I have to take my mom grocery shopping this month,there will be lots of room in the trunk for the groceries.I also had to mail out a couple of things so they would go out on Monday morning.
I am now relaxing.I had a light dinner tonight and I am taking it easy.The weather now is a little bit cooler.It was pretty hot but it was not too humid or hazy.
I am getting ready for tonight.I am going to gout and sing up a storm.I always look forward to entertaining the crowd every Saturday night.I always have a blast entertaining them.I always look forward to singing up a storm every Saturday night.I am hoping that the night goes well.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I always hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.Again,I hope that the night goes well.
Tomorrow is Sunday.I have not really made any plans for tomorrow.I do not know what I will do but whatever I do,I hope that it will help me in a very positive way.
That was my day today and my hoped for night tonight,including my anticipation for tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a not too bad of a day today despite a minor negative thing that hapened to me today.A very inconsiderate guy answered the phone over at the social club and would not give me his name as I asked for it.I then asked if I could talk to a staff member and he refused to let me do that.He got really nasty and hung up.I called nearly a minute later and the same guy answered the phone.I got really insistant in talking to a staff member and he finally did.After talking to the staffer,I told the staffer how the guy who answered the phone was very rude,cocky and nasty with me over the phone.When I arrived there to get my lunch,that guy avoided me and did not speak to me.I guess that the staffer advised him to stay away with me and that he was not allowed to use the phone for the rest of the day,with the latter being a rule there if you use innappropriate language and/or conduct when answering the phone.
The work shift went by pretty well.There was not really an awful lot to do.The shift went by pretty fast.As a result,I simply bagged the little bit that I did and dropped off the clean laundry at the rehab center.Afterwards,I stopped at a supermarket to pick up a few things for dinner.Tonight's dinner was pretty light.I did not eat too much.I did a little bit more personal PC work and relaxed.
I even managed to visit with a friend and his live in girlfriend and they are doing great.I was happy.While I was out,I did a virus scan on my computer and my database was clean.It is great to have a nice clean computer that is virus and spyware free.
Tomorrow night starts the weekend.I am eagerly awaiting tomorrow night because I will be singing up a storm tomorrow night.I am hoping that the night goes by well.Of course,I will be singing amidst depression of losing a friend so suddenly.But I am going to try and move on and hope to be over this soon.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a day that was not too exciting.I did not do too much except my usual going to work this morning and going home.The work shift went by smoothly but I was still feeling the ill effects of losing a friend all so suddenly.I still find it hard to believe that he is gone.One minute he was there.The next minute he is gone.I don't know why that had to happen to him so suddenly and so young.He was still a very young man.I even shared how I felt with someone over at the social club.It was a shocker to have found out that he was dead.It is going to be tough to try and get along without him for quite some time.Again,I am still feeling the effects of this loss.It is pretty HUGE.I do not know how long it will take for me to get over this but I am going to have to do that.I can not dwell on this loss forever.I know that if I don't want to do that,I am going to need some advice on how to do that.This is the fourth consecutive death to happen where someone I knew died too fast.Again,he was at the meeting last Wednesday and now he is no longer here on earth.
When I did get home,I did some of my personal computer work and saved some for later.I only finished it because my grand nieces and grand nephew were here for much of the late afternoon.I simply went upstairs and laid down for much of the late afternoon because I did not want to be bothered by all the noise that they were making.I know that kids will make noise but I needed some quiet time for myself.So,I stayed upstairs in my room and laid down.They did leave soon when the evening was starting and I had a nice quiet dinner.I am now relaxing and getting ready for the next day,which is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes by smoothly.I am still going to need some moral support in hopes to recover from this all too soon and sudden loss.I am still going to go to the meetings every Wednesday and I am still going to continue and try to get a lot out of them.I hope that this will be the best possible way to help me get over this sudden tragedy.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.The reason why I am feeling this way is because of what I had just found out tonight while at the meeting.
First off,the laundry pick-up went great.There was no mess to clean up anywhere and I dropped it off and sorted it out at the work site.Afterwards,I picked up something for dinner for myself and relaxed for much of the afternoon.I did do my personal PC work today and even that was great.The day,though it was a little HAZY & HUMID,it was actually not as that as it had been the past several days.It was great to have even minimal relief from all of that.
My appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor went great as well.We talked for almost an hour.This was my last meeting with her prior to her leaving for maternity reasons.She will be assigning me a temporary replacement counselor until she returns in January.I am going to miss her and I did wish her well on her pregnancy and that her conception goes well.
Tonight,while the meeting was wonderful.There was a certain sadness within the group tonight.Apparently,one of the members of the support group had passed away.He was killed in an auto accident.A car hit his motorcycle and he was thrown pretty severely off of his cycle and he hit the ground really hard.According to reports,he died on the way to the hospital.I had heard this on Sunday evening when watching the news.I did not know that it was one of the support group members until I got to the meeting tonight.I arrived there with joy and a lot of enthusiasm over the past few days only to be hit really hard by this tragedy.What was surprising about this was that he was at the meeting last Wednesday evening and he was full of life but now,he's gone.It is hard to believe that he is gone.One minute he was there.The next minute,he's gone.I am now wondering WHY HIM?!He was still a very young man.He was working on a reconciliation with his family when this tragedy happened.Why did it have to heappen?I am going to miss him.He wil be missed by everybody in the group and with the people that he worshipped with.
That is why I am feeling mixed emotions tonight.I was feeling joy and enthusiastic about being at the meeting because I wanted to share what went on with me over the last few days.I am also feeling sadness because a member of my support group at the church is now dead.This death was the most shocking thing to happen this week.It is also the fourth consecutive death where someone very close to me died so suddenly.One minute the people are there.The next minute they are gone.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes by smoothly.I am hoping that the next two days go by smoothly.After the shocking and sad news that I received tonight,the next couple of days I am hoping for to go better.
That was my day today and my hopes for the next two days.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth work day today.There was no mess to clean but I did not pick up too much as far as dirty laundry.Apparently,some of the client's have not bothered to change their stuff as of yet.But I am hoping that in the next few days,there will be some to pick up.While the day went by smoothly,the day was nothing to smile about.It was HAZY,HOT,MUGGY & HUMID.The heat and humidity wore me out as I was driving home.Plus,I had to do a detour due to road reapairs on an expressway that I was driving on to make up for lost time.Fortunately,I managed to get everything that I had to do done.I also managed to finally pay my bank for a line of credit account that I have with them.Afterwards,I took it easy for much of the day and had a light dinner.
I did have minor computer issues today.I tried to connect to the internet twice but had to restart my computer both times before I finally managed to log on.I got my personal PC work done and that was it.
I also ran a personal errand for myself to get a couple of things that I personally needed.When I got home,I bathed and watched a little bit of TV.It was great to clean up and get rid of all that sweat and odor of the day.I I hear that tomorrow is supposed to be a repeat of today.We did have a little bit of rain but it did little to cool the atmosphere.Oh Well!
Tomorrow is simply a pick up day.I also have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor tomorrow afternoon and I also have my usual Wednesday night support group meeting at the church.I just that all goes well for me tomorrow.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very good day today.I had my first session with the counselor and the session went great.We talked for a little over two hours today in her office and it was great to finally get a lot of what I had to get off of my chest regarding what led me to having SSA and how I can go about resolving the issues.Though I did have to pay some money for the session,it was worth the money that I had paid.She also informed me that she is going to get ahold of some other group in another area to see when their next meeting will be.She said that it would be great for me to get involved with this group and share some of the same stuff that I had shared with her.Again,it was a wonderful session.I am looking forward to another session with her next month when I have some money within the next month.I had a great time talking with her.I am looking forward to talking with her again.She also informed me that she will have another lady call me who also was once in the lifestyle herself and I will be talking with her until she finds a man for me to talk to about the same issues.I am hoping that my first conversation with that lady goes over well.Again,I will talk with her until a man has been found who can talk with me about this.
After the meeting,I stopped at a Salvation Army Thrift Shop in the area and I found a couple more hard to find records there.I also found a few old tapes.It took me over an hour to get back home but the drive was well worth it.It will be great to get involved with another group.I am hoping that the other group also works out well when I meet with them.
Last night,I did go out and have a quick drink at the cafe with a few of the patrons.It was wonderful to be there and talk with them.I am looking forward to Saturday night so I can entertain them yet again.
Tomorrow is a work day I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.After the great weekend,a smooth work day would be the right way to start.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ