Tonight,I am feeling okay but also,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.I really did not do too much today.I simply went to check up on a friend of mine,which is my usual Saturday thing to do.He was okay but his live in girlfriend was not feeling too well.Apparently,she possibly had a case of the flu.I only stayed a few minutes and left.I then went to back to the shopping mall to have a light but quick lunch,which was a couple of vegetable spring rolls with sweet and sour sauce to dip them in.It was pretty good.I went home afterwards.
After I had a quick bath,I ate a light dinner and finished my computer work.It was nothing much,really.It was something that I started when I woke up and I finished this evening.I also did a little searching while I was online.It was nothing much.I was trying to find where I could purchase upcoming DVD sets that are supposed to be coming out in Canada soon and I am hoping to see if I can purchase them myself.They were cartoon series that I used to watch when I was younger.I am hoping that I can purchase them soon from any source that is going to sell them.I would love to have them.
I am getting ready for tonight.I will be doing my usual singing up a storm for the crowd.I am hoping that the night goes well for me.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.But I have a feeling that it going to work out fine.
Tomorrow is Sunday.I am hoping that the day goes well.I have not really decided what I am going to do but whatever I do,I hope that it affects me in a positive way.
That was my day today and my hopes for tonight and the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very good day today.The stores were having their after Thanksgiving sales.It was really hustling and bustling.Again,while at a shopping mall,I had a pretty tough time trying to find a parking space in the parking lot.But I managed to find one.After parking my car,I walked right into the mall and headed for an Old Navy store.They were having select clothing on sale.I simply bought a belt and a pair of slippers.After paying for them,I went to a music store and bought a copy of the Deluxe Edition of Paul McCartney's Memory Almost Full with a few bonus tracks and a bonus DVD.I managed to also make it out to that Roman Catholic shrine again to say a prayer for guidance and strength to help me with my anger issues and my sexual addictions,which are Gay pornography and masturbation to name a few.After the prayers,I felt better and felt more optimistic.I also had lunch at a Mighty Taco in my area and last but not least,I went back to the shopping mall to go to the "A Dollar" store to pick up a package of toilet tissue.I headed for home.
After I got home,I did a scan on my computer to check for viruses and spyware and my computer is clean.There was nothing in it that should not be on there.That was great.While this was going on,I had a light dinner.After dinner,I went back to the shopping mall and agaion,went back to the music store.I picked up The McCartney Years,which is a 3 DVD set of music videos and select concert performances.I also watched my DVD copy of Christmas Eve On Sesame Street after dinner because I was in the mood for it due to the weather being the way it is.It has been cold and snowy for the past few days.Though it was a little early and it isn't that close to Christmas,I watched this and it was wonderful.Again,the weather motivated me to watch this classic special and asin,it was wonderful.I am going to be watching this again soon enough.
Tomorrow starts the weekend.I am looking forward to entertaining the crowd tomorrow night.I am also looking forward to a hopeful great night.So far,the Thanksgiving holiday weekend has been going great for me.I bought some new clothes and I also bought a couple things that I really enjoy.It was a nice holiday for me and the rest of the weekend has been really grand,so far.I am hoping that the rest of the weekend goes well for me.There are only two days left,which are tomorrow and Sunday.Tomorrow is my night to entertain the crowd and Sunday is where I have nothing scheduled.But whatever I do,I am hoping that it will help me out in a positive way.
The best thing to happen tonight is that the Buffalo Sabres won tonight.They defeated the Montreal Canadians on home ice by a score of 4-2.They also defeated the Ottawa Senators on Wednesday night on home ice by the same score.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the holiday weekend.FJ

Happy Thanksgiving Everybody!
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very good day today.As usual,I went over to my sister's house for dinner and it was great.My niece and her kids alongside her new boyfriend were there.My other sister,whose a flight attendant,was also there.I ate so much food and I was stuffed after I ate what was on my plate.I couldn't have any desert if I could.I simply cut a piece of pie and wrapped it up to take home.During the time there,my brother in-law and I talked about Crosby,Stills,Nash & Young because we were listening to a CD of their songs in the DVD Player and we started talking about their music.The CD was simply a mix of songs from CSN and CSN&Y rolled onto one CD.It was neat.My mom wanted to go home and so we left.
After we left my sister's house,my mom and I took a drive around to warm up the engine.I had a tough time trying to unlock the doors on my car due to it being very cold.The locks were frozen.But after that drive,we went home and that is where I am at right now.
I am now relaxing and taking it easy.When we got home,I simply put in my copy of Mr.Magoo's Christmas Carol in the VCR part of my VCR/DVD combo(I haven't gotten the DVD of it as of yet)and watched it because there was not much on TV when we got in.It was wonderful.I am hoping to get the DVD of it soon this year when I have some money.That way,I can preserve the VHS tape of it for collector reasons.Overall,a very good holiday.
Tomorrow is a day off for me.I will be trying to fill the gap in somehow.I am going to need the extended weekend off.I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride as of late and I am going to need it to rest off and hope to get back on an even keel.Again,I am just going to have to fill in the gap.I will also be entertaining the crowd again on Saturday night and I am hoping that this also goes well enough.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.After I finished the laundry pick-up and had lunch,I went to run a couple of errands for my mom.First,I had to pick up a couple of things at a supermarket and I also had to drop off a tax exemption application at City Hall so my mom could have some certain taxes exempt and have other taxes cut in half.After that was done,I went to a Roman Catholic shrine to pray for help.First,I prayed for myself and asked for help in dealing with my anger problems and sexual addiction and I also prayed for a friend of mine who was having some really serious issues with his ex-wife.After the prayers,I felt better and I felt that everything would be okay.I left the shrine feeling optimistic and hopeful.I will be going back on Friday afternoon to pray again.I really need the guidance and support each and every time I pray and need to feel hopeful and optimistic after doing so.Again,I will be going back again Friday afternoon.
I went to my support group meeting at the church tonight and it was wonderful.Since we are winding down,we shared our feelings about the groups not meeting anymore and how we are going to try to fill in the gaps after we go our separate ways.It is not going to be easy.When I was speaking,I was almost in tears.But the door is being closed and now,we have to move on and seek other groups.But as stated last week,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.I have a feeling that there will be another group lined up soon enough.When that happens,I will be going to that.Next week,we will be having our final meeting and than after that,we will just have to wait and see,especially me.
Tomorrow is the Thanksgiving holiday.I have the day off from work and I will be spending the day with my family.I have the entire weekend off.It will be a great five day weekend.At least,I am hoping that it will be.
That was my day today and my hopes for the upcoming holiday and accompanying weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good work day today.Despite a shaky start,which involved me picking up a mess in the laundry room,the rest of the day worked out well.I simply did my job and the rest took care of itself.After I was done,I dropped off what I did after bagging it and went home.
I had to go out and pick up something that I ordered at a local music store.It was a DVD of a horror movie that I plan to watch during the Thanksgiving weekend.It is going to be a long one.It will be four days for me.I am eagerly awaiting this.I can use the four day weekend to rest up and try to overcome some of the stuff that has piled up on me emotionally.The last few weeks have been an emotional roller coaster ride for me.I am hoping that the weekend will do me a lot of good.I feel that I need this weekend to cool off and restart myself.Again,I am hoping that it will help me out a lot.
I am now at home relaxing.I am anticipating the next day.The only thing that I will be doing is a laundry pick up.But I am hoping that there will not be another mess.I can't stand cleaning up messes in the laundry room at the drug/alcohol rehab center.I hate cleaning up after people who can clean up after themselves.It is such a chore.But again,I am hoping that there will be no mess to clean.
Aside from the pick-up,I do have my support group meeting at the church tomorrow night.This will be the next to last meeting tomorrow night.After next Wednesday,there will be no more.But I have heard that there may be another group being started at another church.I will be checking to see if it is a go.I hope that it will be.I look forward to attending that group if it is a go.
As stated above,I am hoping that everything goes well tomorrow.
That was my day today and my hopes for tomorrow and the holiday weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good,if not too exciting,of a day today.I woke up late today around a little bit after 1:00 p.m. today.I went to sleep late last night after coming home.I watched bits and pieces of certain movies in my DVD library until I got tired.Plus,I was also posting messages in an online forum that I am the owner of on Yahoo.It has been bustling on there over the past few days and that is great.I am glad that the forum is now seeing light.The members of the forum are really swell.It was great to communicate with them.
Today was a pretty quite day.I did not do to much.I just did some personal PC work and I also had to make some readjustments on my database,including the desktop screen saver.Somehow,while I was online,my desktop screen saver was switched to something that I did not want.I tried restarting the computer but that did not work,I just fiddled with my computer until I found out how.I simply opened up one of the programs files regarding the desktop and I fixed in in no time at all.My computer is back to the way that it should be and that is great to have it that way.Little by little,I am learning how to work on my own computer regarding programs and all of that.I am learning little by little and that is very grand.
I went to my anger management/conflict resolution group tonight and it was great.It was wonderful to hear other people and also to be heard.It is wonderful also to learn how to better manage my anger and how to react properly when a situation goes awry.One day at a time is how I am learning to manage.It makes me feel good.But still,I need to work on not saying angry things to myself when I am alone and there is nobody in the room with me.I still need to work on that.
I am now at home relaxing.I am anticipating the new day ahead.I am hoping that the day works out for the better and that everything goes as planned.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.The only disappointment that I had was that I was supposed to get together with a friend but I did not hear from him.I left him a few messages on his voice mail but he hasn't returned any phone calls that I had made over the past two days.I will leave another message for him over the next few days.I am hoping to hear from him.
Today,I did a few errands for my mom.It was just some last minute stuff that my mom needed before the holiday.They supermarket that I went to didn't have everything that she needed but I did get most of the stuff.I also had a couple slices of pizza for lunch.It was a late lunch but I needed to eat.Fortunately,we had another light dinner.
I am now at home relaxing.I am anticipating the upcoming holiday weekend.I don't have too many work days this week but whatever money that I make,it's better than nothing.It won't be much but again,it will be better than nothing.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd was a huge success.There was also a birthday party going on at the same time and a friend that I have had for a few years also came out.It was a total blast.There was plenty of audience members in the place.The guest of honor left early mainly because he wasn't feeling to well.He had gotten really depressed all of a sudden as the real festivities were getting underway.He left home not feeling well enough to celebrate and the leftover food that was originally strictly for the party guests was then open to the rest of teh people of the place.I ate at least four slices of pepperoni pizza and some penne pasta with meatballs.My friend who was there also had some as well.We were both full.I also talked with the guest of honor's sister and hoped that her brother was feeling better soon.She said simply Thanks and I also said that I hoped to see her and her friends there again one of these days.She said Thanks again and left.What a night it was.I had another blast.
Tomorrow is a day off as usual.I do have my weekly anger management/conflict resolution tomorrow night and I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
As for the rest of the night,I am thinking of going out and having a friendly drink at the place where I entertain for a bit.
That was my day today and how my night went last night and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty decent day today.I ran a small errand for my mom and I also did something for myself.It wasn't anything much.I simply judt did what I had to do and that was it.The day,weatherwise,was pretty cold but it was not freezing.It was mild but it felt like it was freezing just a tad.A pretty decent day.
I also had myself a late but light lunch.I had a Wendy's burger today.It was pretty good.It was something to tie me over until dinner.After I did all of this,I headed for home.
We had a light dinner.It was baked chicken with scalloped potatoes and beans.It was nice and filling.After dinner,I finished my personal computer work that I started earlier.
I am now at home relaxing.I am just getting ready for the night.I am going to be singing up a storm for the crowd.I am looking forward to this.I always look forward to singing up a storm.I am anticipating a pretty good time and I am hoping that the evening goes well.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.Still,I have a feeling that it will be a wonderful evening.But I always continue to hope for everything to go well no matter what.
As for Sunday,I am hoping to get together with a friend who I talked with last week.If it happens,I hope that it is a wonderful time.
That was my day today and my hopes for tonight and the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty good day today.The work day went by a lot smoother than yesterday.Nobody left their work for me to finish.That was great.I simply did the work that I needed to do and that was it.After my shift was over,I simply bagged the clean laundry and dropped it off at the drug/alcohol rehab center and went to cash my paycheck.I also got a few Buffalo Sabres themed DVD's as a freebie at the bank where I cashed it.I got one for myself and a couple more for my nephews.I am going to surprise them this Christmas when I give them as gifts alongside the usual CD's that I give.After doing that,I headed for home.
When I got home,I did some personal computer work for a while before dinner.I had to register some bills at Where's George and I did some e-mail work.
While I was eating my dinner,I did a scan on my computer to check for viruses and spyware and there were two viruses in my database.They were both Trojan.Byte Verify viruses and according to the Symantic website,they were mild but were still a low risk.I had to restart my compute two times with the system recovery turned off to get rid of them.I also deleted my temporary internet files and deleted cookies at the same time.I also checked my Norton program to delete these viruses that were captured in my system and did another scan.The result from the new scan was that the viruses were successfully removed.
While the initial scan was going on,I was upstairs in my room making my mom a CD for Christmas.I was burning her vinyl copy of Christmas With Eddy Arnold onto the CD-R.I tried out by sampling some of the music track by track and it sounded pretty good.I know that my mom will be surprised when she hears this on the CD-R that I burned for her.I will be doing another one for her later on.It will be Mario Lanza singing Christmas carols.It is also on a vinyl record and I know that she will be surprised.
I am now at home relaxing.I am anticipating the weekend,which I am glad is here.I will be doing my usual entertaining the crowd on Saturday night and I am hoping that it goes well.I always look forward to singing for the crowd every Saturday night.I am hoping that the night goes well.
Earlier this evening,I went out to an A.J.Wright store in my area and I picked up a mini keychain digital camera and I can hardly wait to use it.I have to upload the program that was included with the camera when I got it.I can hardly wait to do that.I also picked up a couple of big cans of sweet potatoes so my mom can prepare them for Thanksgiving,which is next Thursday.I also have the entire holiday weekend off and that is great.I can use a break from all of the hustle and bustle from this week.It will be great.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead and the upcoming holiday weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay with a little bit of edginess.I was hoping for a great work day but that all ended when I arrived at the work and found that the person from the previous day did not finish his job.I had to finish it for him.He overloaded one of the washers and one of the dryers.This really put my schedule out of proportion.I had to finish his job before I could do anything.First,I had to separate the load in the dryer.I had to take one of the articles out and put it in the other dryer due to dampness.I had to start with only a small load due to the fact of the other washer being overloaded.When those loads were done,I had to once again separate the loads and put each separate load in the dryer.This really was not too thrilling.I mean,I try to do my job and try my best to finish it.But when somebody does not finish their job,it does put me at edge.Fortunately,I managed to get everything done in the time period that I had to do it and I also informed the supervisor's about this morning.They again said that the would look into it.After I was done,I dropped off the laundry and I also went to the post office to mail out an important letter for my mom before heading home.
After I got home,I rested for a bit and did some personal computer work.I also helped my mom get a few things for a birthday party.One of my grand-nieces and my niece alongside my brother in law were celebrating birthdays tonight so my mom went over there for a while.After I dropped my mom off at my niece's house,I went home because I did not feel too good.I had the runs twice and I had to take medicine for it.I did manage to eat dinner but I still had a gnawing pain in my stomach that lasted for a while.I am hoping to feel better before the night is over.
While my mom was over at my niece's,I spent some time home alone and caught up on some much needed stuff.It was great to have some quiet time in the house.I did not even turn on the TV during this time.I actually felt better emotionally and I am hoping that the day tomorrow is a great one.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty topsy-turvy day today.First of all,the laundry pick up went smoothly.There was no mess to clean up and that was great.I sorted out the laundry at the work site and afterwards,I went shopping for my mom to pick up some last minuet stuff before the holiday.So far,the day was going by pretty good.
But that all changed when I had an experience with an inconsiderate Canadian driver in the parking lot of a Target department store in my area.I was going straight in the parking lot when all of a sudden,he had the nerve to make a left turn while I was going straight.According to law in the area I live alone,people driving straight have the right of way in any situation,including a parking lot.An argument ensued between him and I,with him almost threatening me out loud.If it weren't for the department store security guard getting involved,it would have probably turned uglier than it was already.I simply continued to my original destination,which was the bank and I withdrew some money for my mom.
One thing,I don't mind Canadians coming here to shop.But at least they should be courteous by obeying the laws,including those pertaining to driving.Too many times when Canadians have come here to shop,they have broken driving laws and have caused accidents as a result of breaking them.Not only that,they also throw trash around everywhere when they do shop rather than use the proper receptacles to throw their trash in.I have sen trash left by them when I am driving on certain roads in my area where a shopping mall is at and I have had to swerve past where the trash was so I would not hit it and it would cause me to swerve and hit something causing damage to my vehicle.
Before I did the pick-up,I went to my insurance agent to pay the renewal fee on my auto insurance.I also had to return later in the day to pick up change because my agent's receptionists were not in the office earlier in the day.But I am glad that this has been paid and I await the next bill.
Tonight's support group meeting at the church went great.It was wonderful to let loose some more emotional baggage once again.It was great to be heard and also to hear what the other men had to say.I am also sad to say that in a couple of weeks,the meetings will no longer be there due to a lack of attendance at the meetings as of late.But I did talk with one of the men in the group,they are hoping that another group will be stared at another church and they will let me know when that starts.I am looking forward to hearing when it will start.I will be checking next week to see when it will be a go.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.I also have to help my mom with a few things tomorrow after work.I am hoping that tomorrow goes better than today.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.The work day went by smoothly but I was tired when I got in.I had an awful lot of work to do.I picked up four heaping and heavy bags of laundry today.It was a chore getting them to the car.But I managed.When I got to the work site,I sorted everything out,which took me nealy half an hour to do.I started a couple loads the minute that I was finished with that.It was an awful lot of laundry and it was a chore getting it to teh site after the pick-up.But I managed to get everything that I needed to get done accomplished.But I was tired by the end of the day.After I dropped the laundry off,I simply went home to relax.I was tired and I needed to rest.I was planning to go to the laundromat to get some of my laundry done but didn't get to that.Hopefully,I'll get that done on Thursday.
I am now at home relaxing.I am simply getting ready for bed.I am also anticipating the next day.I have to do a pick-up as usual tomorrow morning and I also have to run an errand for my mom after I am done doing that.I also have my weekly Wednesday night support group meeting at the church tomorrow night.I am hoping that all will go well tomorrow.
I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride lately.I am working on rebounding.I am hoping that things will get better as the days progress.I will be paying my car insurance renewal tomorrow.I am also hoping that my niece is careful where she parks the next time.I can not afford any hassles from the police department in any area.That would not sit well with me.I know that for a fact.
Before the evening was through,I managed to stop at a Big Lots store in my area and bought a few more CD-R's and I even went to a supermarket in teh same area and picked up the latest copy of Ebony magazine that features an interview with Michael Jackson.I hope that it is a good read.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a not too exciting of a day today.Most of the day,I was at home because my car was in the shop.It needed to have some front break work done.Initially,I dropped it off to get the front break calipers put on and to have an oil change done.But later,I received a phone call from the garage that it also needed pads and rotors and I said okay.I also promised them another $100.00 deposit when they did that.I don't owe very much to them.It is great to have a mechanic who catches something when really needed.I drove for a while and the breaks are working great.They are working better than ever.While waiting for the repairs,I was at home for much of the day.I also went back to bed when I got home.I was still sleepy and I drove the car still half drowsy but I am fortunate that nothing happened nor did I fall asleep.I got the car there and my mechanic's step-daughter drove me home.
A friend of my mom's was here for much of the afternoon.They were having a conversation and as they talked,I was on my computer doing my personal work.When two ladies talk,it's best to let them have their talk.I also spent most of teh time upstairs in my room cleaning up.A little later,some boxes containing my 45 r.p.m.singles collection toppled over and I had to pick them up and stack the back up again.I also tried to put the in a way so at least,they would not fall again.I hope that whatever I am trying to do works.
Today was a holiday.It was Veteran's Day.There was no anger management/conflict resolution meeting today due to it being that.To take it's place,I went to a Salvation Army thrift shop in my area and picked up a few more vinyl records to add to my ever growing collection.I also managed to find a Scooby Doo air popcorn popper.I thought that it looked really neat.I now have it on display on my computer desk.I think that it makes a nice conversation piece and also,I think that it looks right on my desk.The store was having a 1/2 off sale today so I felt that this would be great to have.You never know what you'll find at those thrift shops.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that day goes by well.After work,I am going to be washing some of my clothes at the laundromat.I need to get these things clean.I am hoping that this also goes as well as I hope it will.
It's hard to believe that Thanksgiving is only a week away starting this coming Thursday.I have a four day weekend coming up when that happens.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.I visited a friend of mine that I had not seen in quite a while.I had talked with him over the phone many times and it was always great to talk with him.But seeing him face to face was really neato.I had not seen him in quite a while and he was in a very happy mood.It was great to see him and it was also great to meet his new girlfriend.His girlfriend is a very sweet doen to earth gal.Him and I talked about a lot of things.We talked about music and we both shared some music trivia.We talked for about twenty minutes.I also showed him the DVD that I have of The Paul Lynde Halloween Special with KISS on the special.After we talked and I helped him out with something,I left.He and her had some stuff that they needed to do.
Afterwards,I went to get a few slices of pizza to help tie me over until dinner.While eating them in the parking lot of a city park,I saw a 1973 Winnebago motor home in the same lot.It was in very good condition body wise and it was hard to believe that I was seeing one.I thought that most of these disappeared after a while because I hardly ever see one.But it was neat to see one after all these years.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a bit vefore having dinner.We had a light supper and it was filling.I even talked with a friend of mine who lived in New Jersey.He is doing good.I talked with him about the emotional roller coaster that I was on this week.He assured me that I will be okay.I hope that I will be.
Tonight,I did mange to go to the place where I entertain at to have a friendly drink.When I got there,I was the only one there because there was a dart tournament going on somewhere else.It was great to talk with the bartender there and have a nice drink while talking to her.While I was talking with her,another person came in while they were on their way home from work.He stopped to also have a drink and we talked for a bit.After I finished,I bid them a fond farewell and left.I stopped for gas at a convienience store on the way home and I also stopped at an all night supermarket to pick up a few things.Overall,a pretty good day and night.
Tomorrow is a holiday.There will be no anger management/conflict resolution group meeting tomorrow due to it being a holiday.But I still have my Wednesday night support group meeting at the church to look forward to.
That was my day today and my night tonight.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty hectic day today.The first thing that I did today was to get my haircut.When I got to the shopping mall to where the place where I go to get my hair cut is,I saw that the parking lot was really full.I spent nearly ten minutes trying to find a parking space.I did manage to get one but it was frustrating trying to accomplish this.I was fortunate to catch a car leaving it's spot and I snatched it.After parking my car,I walked into the mall to get my hair cut.When I was leaving the mall,I had a tough time trying to find my car.I did find it but it took a bit of doing.But it was difficult in that huge parking lot.Again,I did manage to find it.
While I was waiting for my time to come,I had a slice of pizza to tie me over until dinner.When I was finished with that,I went to the hair place and my hair was cut.I also had to do a few more things before I went home.I checked on a friend of mine to see if he was doing good,which he was but his live in girlfriend was not feeling well.I also had to do some shopping for my mom and I also had to pick up some things for myself at a local Wal-Mart.When I finally accomplished everything that I set out to accomplish,I headed for home.
When I got home,I saw that my mom was not home.She was over at my sister's house having some pizza and chicken wings with some cake and ice cream for dessert.I did go over there for some and I went home after eating because I had to get ready for tonight.
When I got home again,I sorted out my stuff and I tried to complete my computer work but my computer was giving me issues.After several restarts,I finally got online.But all the stress and strain of all that happened today combined with the issues with the computer caused me to masturbate again.I feel better now but it was a big letdown for myself.I am hoping that the rest of the weekend works out for me,including tonight.
Tonight,I am going to be entertaining the crowd again as usual.I am hoping that the night goes well for me.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night singing.I still hope for things to go well.Tomorrow will be Sunday.I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it affects me in a positive way.I also hope that Sunday is a good day.Afterwards,I can look forward to the week ahead.
That was my day today and my hopes for tonight and the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a very good day today.The work shift went by smoothly and I also had a great lunch before I began my shift.I also had some great conversations with some of the social club members while I was eating my lunch.It was wonderful to let loose some steam and have some great talks where information can be shared.Again,a great shift and a great lunch.After I dropped off the laundry at the rehab center,I went home.
After I got home,I had to drop my mom off at the supermarket so she could get some shopping done.While she was shopping,I went to another supermarket to turn in some empty bottles and cans that had accumulated in my trunk over the past few weeks.While I was busy putting the aluminum cans in the proper deposit machines,I saw a couple of people that I had not seen in a while.It was the bartender from the previous bar that I used to entertain at before it closed and her daughter.I talked with them both for only a couple of minutes while they were leaving the market and after that,I went to pick up my mom at the other supermarket and hoped that she would be done when I got there.She wasn't but she almost was and I simply helped her to get it done.After that,we went home.
When we got home,I checked my computer to see if my usual weekly virus scan was done and it was.I am also glad to say that my computer was clean with no viruses or spyware on it.That was great.After that,we had a light dinner.
I am glad that the weekend is here.I will be doing my usual entertaining the crowd tomorrow night and I am hoping that it goes well.I always enjoy entertaining the crowd every Saturday night.It always goes great and it's always a blast.I can hardly wait for that tomorrow night.Again,I am hoping that it goes well.
Earlier this evening,I made my mom a CD for her birthday.It is a compilation of Teresa Brewer songs that I had in my singles and old fashioned 78's collections.My mom likes Teresa Brewer and I am hoping that she enjoys this CD that I made for her.I hope that it makes her happy.Her birthday is tomorrow.Again,I am hoping that she enjoys it.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty smooth work day today and I had a wonderful meeting with my sexual abuse support counselor.I also managed to buy a new portable CD player today and even a new car adaptor where I can plug it into my car cigarette lighter socket.It played better than my previous one,especially the CD-R's that I made of a few of my vinyl albums.
But it all took a turn for the worse when I got an extremely rude awakening in my mail today.I got a letter from another area in the county that I live in.The letter was from the Police department in that area.My niece is on my insurance and her vehicle is on my vehicle registration.The letter was a reminder to pay for a parking ticket that she received last year over the Thanksgiving weekend.Apparently,she stayed too long in a NO PARKING zone and was issued a parking citation.I knew nothing about it until I got that letter in the mail today.This really put me at edge and my emotional state today drastically changed.The worse part of it was that all of that unneeded and even unwanted stress and strain that I received from this really got me in such a tizzy that I masturbated,which really made me feel bad afterwards.But I am feeling a little bit better.I am just hoping that this does not happen for quite a while because I did this for her as a favor because she needed her vehicle to go back and forth to work and take her children to school.But when things like this happen,it sends my SSA up too many notches and my emotional state worsens.Again,I hope that this doesn't happen again or for quite a while.I hate it when stuff like this happens.
I am now relaxing.I am also anticipating the day ahead.I am hoping that the day works out well tomorrow.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.I also have to take my mom grocery shopping because we need to get groceries in the house before the holiday rush happens.I am hoping that this also goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.The laundry pick up that I had to do went over well.There was no mess to clean up and that made me feel happier.I just hate to pick up after people who can pick up after themselves.It made me feel pretty good.When I got to the work site,I dropped off and sorted out the laundry and after paying everyone at the social club a visit,I left for home.
After I got home,I simply relaxed for a bit.I also finished my personal computer work,which I started this morning before I went to do the laundry pick-up.It was a pretty good day.I also went to a Target in my area and checked out their stock of portable CD players that I can hook up to my car's radio w/cassette player.I have been trying to find a portable CD player that will play CD-R's better.The current one that I have doesn't play them too well.I guess that when this one was made,they really did not make it to really play CD-R's.But again,I am going to buy a new one when I can and I am hoping that it works out better for me.
My support group meeting at the church went over great.Our first meeting in two weeks and it was super.It was great to be around the men again and just be a man.It was wonderful to have them to listen and also to listen to them.A lot of us have issues in our lives that we are trying to resolve and sometimes,a group of this sort is the best thing to have.There are not a lot of support groups out there which can accomodate this sort of thing.Again,a wonderful meeting and I am looking forward to the next meeting.
When I was out,I got a call from somebody that I have been trying to get ahold of for a long time.He finally called and it was a relief that I heard from him.He said that he would call me tomorrow night and we can talk then.I look forward to talking to him.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes over well.I also have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor tomorow and I hope that this goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good work day today.The work day went by smoothly.I did the pick-up at the rehab center and there was NO mess to clean.That was great.When I arrived at the work site,I seperated the laundry and started working immediately.It was pretty smooth.There was no work left behind by the previous days workers and that was good.After my job was done,I bagged the clean laundry and dropped it off at the rehab center and went to a supermarket in the area and picked up a few things for dinner.Afterwards,I went home.
Earlier today,before I went to work,I voted.It was my duty and I did it.It is also an end to all the negative campaign TV and newspaper ads that are rampant whenever this day rolls around and it does get irritating and monotonous after a while when you hear too much.I am just glad that the day is about over.
I am now at home relaxing.I am just anticipating the day ahead.
Earlier this evening,I went to a Radio Shack in my area and asked for some advice on portable CD players.I do have one but lately,it has not been performing up to par.It has been shutting off at times and when I try to play a burned CD from my CD recorder,it does not play at all too well.But when I try them out on my CD-ROM drive on my computer,they play beautifully with no problems.I guess that I have to look at buying a new portable in the near future when I have some money.OH WELL!
Tomorrow is a pick-up day.I am hoping that there is no mess to clean up.I am hoping that I can just pick up and drop off at the work site.Tomorrow night is my support group meeting at the church.I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day and night ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.I did not do too much.I simply went to the post office to mail out a money order.I also had to pay an installment on my line of credit at the bank today beforehand.Afterwards,I simply went back home.
The only thing was that I woke up late when I wanted to wake up early.Oh well.
The rest of the day's activities were not an awful lot.I simply did some personal stuff.Not too special.I also went to check up on another friend of mine who lived a few blocks down from me.He and his wife and family are doing good.That made me feel good.
The only other things that I did today was that I went to get dinner at a Subway restaurant in my area and they were having a customer appreciation day.It was where you could get two 6 inch subs when you bought two 21 ounce drinks.I simply bought two Hi-C's and the cost was only $3.00 even.That was great.The sandwiches were fresh as well and they tasted really good.It was a good dinner.It was also something different for a change over fast food,which is sometimes what we have on certain Monday's when my mom is not in the mood to cook.Again,it was a wonderful meal and then some.
My anger management/conflict resolution group went great.We talked about a lot of things.It was wonderful having people listnening and hearing me.It was also great to listne and hear them.It was a great meeting.Next Monday,there will not be a meeting due to it being Veteran's Day next week.There will be one in two weeks.It will be a pretty good wait but I'm going to hang in there.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.Tomorrow is also Election Day.It will be a day where we elect new officials.I am hoping that it works out for the good of everybody.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ