Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
I woke up very late this morning.I had my usual breakfast and I waited for the Christian counselor that I have telephone sessions with to call.He called an hour late but I didn't care and I didn't mention that he was late in calling.We talked for about a 1/2 hour about a lot of things.After I hung up,I finished up my personal PC work for the afternoon before shutting down.
After that,I relaxed for a bit and I ran an errand for my mom.It was to pick up something for dinner tonight and a couple of other things.We had a pretty nice day today and it was wonderful to be out even if it was for an errand.I had a wonderful day out for a bit and when I got home,I bathed before eating because I needed to clean myself up for the night.I am going to go out and entertain the crowd tonight and I want to be clean for the occasion.
After eating,I decided to catch up on some much needed personal PC work.It was only a few e-mails and I also managed to check up on the online forum that I am a moderator of.So far,so good.I guess that the group owner will not be able to do anything for now due to it being the weekend.But I am hoping that he will be back on Monday ready to do some correction work on what that ex-girlfriends kid did when he invaded his privacy.I am also hoping that he will be able to solve the problems of his privacy being invaded.He will probably call me on Monday.I will be looking forward to that call.
I am glad that the weekend is here.As stated,I will be doing my usual entertaining the crowd by singing.I look forward to that every Saturday night.I am hoping that the evening goes great for me.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what could happen.But as usual,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.I have a feeling that things will go well for me tonight.Still,I hope.
As for tomorrow,I haven't really made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went as smoothly as it could.There wasn't an awful lot to do.I simply did what I had to do and dropped everything off when I had to.I also managed to get a couple of small things for my mom done as well.
On the way home,I cashed me paycheck and I headed for home.I also had to go to my regular bank and withdraw some money for my mom and pay on a bill that was past due.I also went to Subway and got a footlong sub for me and my mom for dinner.
After eating,I registered many bills at the Where's George website.It was an awful lot for me to register and I am glad that they are all on there.I also got a few hits on some dollar bills that I had registered some time ago and even that was terrific.
I also had another talk with the group owner today and he gave me some additional information regarding what he has been trying to do to get his personal stuff back in order.He told me that he failed in getting that son of his ex-girlfriend to reveal the stuff that he had changed but he informed that he was going to keep on trying.I wished him the best of success and I am hoping for the best.
The weekend is finally here.I am glad for that.I will be singing tomorrow night and I am hoping that the night goes well.I really enjoy singing and I really enjoy the compliments from the crowd.It is really a blast entertaining people and I enjoy it each and every week.
As for the rest of the weekend,I haven't made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the upcoming weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.There was also NO mess to clean up when I went to to do the initial pick-up and that was great.When I got to the work site,I simply sorted out everything and started a couple of loads.I also made sure that there was laundry detergent for the afternoon worker because I ran out when I started the second load.After eating,I simply bagged the clean laundry and dropped it off at the rehab center before heading for home.
When I got home,I decided to go to my bedroom and take a nap.I had to catch up on some lost sleep from the night before.I got over an hour and I felt better.During the time that I laid down,it rained pretty hard for about 10 minutes.I saw it in the clouds today and the dismal looks the sky had that it was going to rain.
I also got a rude awakening in my e-mail.One of the online Yahoo groups that I help moderate was sabotaged by someone who had a close relationship with the group owner.He also put a false message in the group home page.He and I will be talking later tonight as to what we can do to remedy the situation.I am hoping that this can be remedied to both of our satisfactions.
As a result of the group owner's phone call,I had to once again put the support group regarding sexual addiction on hold.I will be calling the support group leader tomorrow afternoon when I get home to explain my situation and I am hoping and praying that he understands.I really hate missing meetings but when a sudden emergency comes up,what can you do except help to remedy the situation that aroused the emergency.Again,I am hoping thet the situation regarding the online group can be remedied satisfactorily and that the support group leader understands my situation.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work and also went out to run an errand.It was simply a small errand that I had to run for my mom and I also got something done for myself.
I am now relaxing and anticipating the call from the online group owner.As stated,I am hoping that this situation regarding the group can be worked out.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was simply a laundry pick-up day for me.There were no problems such as being no mess to clean up.After I ate my lunch,I simply sorted out all the bagged laundry and left for home.
I had to make another trip out today because I had forgotten to buy a few things that my mom needed.I did buy them and when I got back home,I decided to take a nap for about an hour and it was wonderful.
When I woke up,I decided to watch a little TV and do some more personal PC work.This was mandatory because I had to post a message in an online forum that I am a member of in order to keep my membership in the group.I am glad that this is done and my membership will remain intact for another month.It is a requirement that each member posts one message a month that is an answer to the group's topic of the month.It was about shame and the sex drive.I posted my message and now,I am glad that I did.
After eating,I did some more last minute personal PC work.
For much of the day,I stayed home due to it being a very rainy day.It was really raining hard today so I chose to stay home because there is really nothing to do in my hometown when it rains.I chose to take it easy and catch up on sime much needed lots sleep the night before.I didn't get to sleep all too quickly last night and I felt tired.Instead of drinking another cup of coffee,I decided to go back to bed and take a nap.I felt better afterwards.Though I did drink a cup of coffee later on,I made sure that I put lots of half and half in my cup so it will be really light and that the caffeine levels were really down.It worked and I don't feel much edgy nor have I said any more angry things to myself pretending that there are people there when there isn't nobody even there.I feel pretty good as a result.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,I will relax and get ready for my meeting later in the evening.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went by smoothly.I got quite a bit done in the amount of time that I had.Not only that,with both dryers working right now,I have been doing a lot more.It is really wonderful to get one obstacle out of the way so the job can get done.After I was done,I dropped off the clean laundry at the rehab center.I headed for home afterwards.
When I got home,my grandniece's and grandnephew were over.They were watching PBS and I went upstairs to lay down the minute that I walked in the house.I laid down for a little over an hour.I felt tired and my right foot was hurting.According to the weather reports that I have been checking all day,we are going to have rainy weather tomorrow and that is why my right foot is hurting.We have been having crazy weather since July has begun.One day it is sunny and the next day it rains.I am hoping that this crazy weather ends very soon because I can't take much more of this.My foot is hurting and I always get an uneasy feeling in my stomach when the weather patterns keep changing.Plus,my emotional state also gets affected.I have been feeling depressed ever since this ever-changing weather pattern has been happening.I am just hoping that this pattern ends soon so I can get back on track.
As a result of my foot pain,I stayed home tonight and didn't go anywhere.I was hoping to start going back to the sex addicts support group at the chapel but I didn't due to the pain I have been feeling.I am hoping that this stuff ends soon.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work.It was quite a bit but I got it done pretty quickly.I am now relaxing and sharing what happened during my day on this site.Despite the negatives,I have been feeling okay.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes smoothly without any messes to clean up.After that,since it will rain,I will be staying home tomorrow and simply take it easy.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

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Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
I went out for a while today and ran some errands.I bought a few things at a few stores and even helped out a charity today by buying a hot dog combo for lunch in front of a local Wal-Mart.I even bought some personal stuff there.I also went out for a country drive after doing that.The day was really sunny and bright.There wasn't a cloud in the sky.I had a very nice day out.It was really nice and I had some fun.
Before I did go out,I managed to get my personal computer work done.It was not a lot but I had to get it done.After that,I began my day out.
When I got home,I took it easy while waiting for dinner to get done.I simply watched a few special features on a DVD that I have and relaxed.
After I ate,I decided to catch up on some much needed computer work before the day is through.It's hard to believe that the day is almost over.The day went by pretty fast,but at least nothing negative happened.I had a blast.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.It was yet another awesome night.I had fun and I got a lot of positive responses from the crowd.I am looking forward to next Saturday night.
I am thinking of going out tonight and having a drink or two with a few of the guys at the place where I do entertain.I am hoping for some wonderful and interesting talks.
Tomorrow is my day off.I have no plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me posiytive benefits.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
I didn't do too much today.Since we had a couple of small rain showers earlier,I stayed home.I simply took it easy and did my personal PC work for the day.After that,I simply watched a little TV and made my bed.
I also laid down for part of the early afternoon.As stated,it was raining and on rainy days,there's really not a lot to do where I am living.So,I laid down.
Later on,I ran a couple of errands for my mom.It was only a few small items that my mom needed and I ran out to get them.The weather did improve with some sun for only few hours.But now,the sun is no longer shining.I am now relaxing and taking it easy.I have a big night ahead of me tonight and I want to be ready.
Tonight is my night to entertain the crowd.I am hoping that the night goes well for me.I always look forward to singing up a storm and just having a good time while I am doing it.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.But I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.I have a feeling that everything will work out well tonight.Still,I hope for it.
As for the rest of the weekend,I haven't decided what I am going to do.But whatever I plan,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went by a lot more smoothly than in previous days.This time,both the dryers worked great.I got to use both of the dryers and it was wonderful.I got a lot more done.After I was finished,I dropped all of the clean laundry at the rehab center and headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a bank to cash my paycheck and I also had to make a deposit at my normal bank.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to relax for a bit and enjoy some nice music in my bedroom.This time,I felt a little bit better and I could lay down in my room without having to worry about having a relapse.Still,I had the craving but I didn't give in.
After eating,I registered all my bills at Where's George and a couple of them were already registered and when I typed the serial numbers in,one came from Florida and the other from Ohio.I sent them on their way tonight when I bought a previously viewed DVD at Blockbuster for only $3.99.It is a classic western called Valdez Is Coming that stars Burt Lancaster.I also bought the film 28 Days Later for only $9.99.I also ran an errand for my mom while I was out for much of the evening.It was a nice night to be out and I enjoyed myself.
I also had a talk with a friend of mine who I have been trying to get ahold of for a long time.He called me this afternoon and it was wonderful to talk with him.He told me that he had been busy with his job and that he was taking all the added overtime to pay off all the bills that had been piling up when he had no money due to being laid off.He said that he was happy that he was no all caught up and he can relax.Still,he informs me that he needs to work so he can also pay his other bills.
I can't believe that the weekend is finally here.It was a pretty rocky week with one of the dryers not working and I have also been on an emotional roller coaster ride.Plus,the weather hasn't been very well either.It has been an ever changing pattern but I am hoping that we don't have anything like this for a long time to come.
As for the weekend,I will be singing up a storm tomorrow night and I am hoping that the night works out for me.As for the rest of the weekend,I haven't made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it benefits me in a positive manner.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went by smoothly.The best thing about it was that a repairman came to check the dryer and see what it needed in order to fix it.I am hoping that this can be resolved so we can start using two washers again.It has been pretty monotonous using only one washer while the laundry has been piling up.There is a mountain of blankets at the moment and I am hoping that it can get less and less over the next few days.Of course,there will be the weekend and then the week will start all over again.Again,I am hoping that the problem with the dryer is resolved so two washers and dryers can be used.
After I ate lunch,I bagged all the clean laundry that was done and after waiting for the repairman to get to the work site,I dropped it all off at the rehab center and I headed for home.
On the way home,I went to a supermarket to buy a box of herbal sleep tea.I drink this while taking my psychiatric medication to help me sleep pretty good.I know that lately I have been losing sleep as of late but I am hoping to resolve that.I am hoping that starting tonight,I can finally get the much needed necessary sleep that I need.I headed straight home afterwards and didn't stop for anything except when I needed to.
When I got home,I tried to take a nap.But I also wound up masturbating again.I did ask to be forgiven by the creator and while I felt better,I still had only a small measure of guilt.But I'm feeling better now and I am hoping that I can combat this habit once and for all.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work.I started it at work during break and it is now finished.I am hoping that the rest of the day goes well.
I also had to deal with a case of the runs(i.e.diarrhea) for much of the afternoon.I went to the bathroom around 3-4 times in a row,including during dinnertime.Though I did take diarrhea medicine,I still had at least one more loose bowel movement.I haven't had any for the past 45 minutes and I am hoping that the last loose bowel movement is hopefully and really my last.
The weather was rainy for most of the day.The sun shined for a few hours but it did thunder for a bit afterwards.I really didn't hear any rain falling during that time but I guess that it was a light passing shower.I am hoping that this insane ever changing weather pattern stops pretty soon.This is probably why my system has been going haywire or it could be because I took a little too much fiber laxative last night before going to bed.I guess that I have to be careful in how I consume that.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.There was no mess to clean up.I simply sorted out the laundry after I ate lunch.It wasn't really anything much nor a very big load.It only took me a minute.
When I did go to get my lunch first,I had a hard time.There was a guy trying to get an electronic wheelchair with his girlfriend sitting in it into the social club but the battery fell off.The guy was tatally clueless as to how to get the battery connected properly.Not only that,it started to rain and this was really making me ansy.I almost lost my temper with these two because I was waiting in the rain and I was also hungry.After nearly 10 minutes,they were finally in and I ate.After eating,as stated,I sorted out the laundry and headed for home.I didn't go back to the social club because I still felt angered by the whole nonsense thing that happened earlier and I really didn't want to be around anyone in the place because I was afraid that if they said the wrong thing to me,I would really explode.I didn't want that to happen so I went straight home.
On the way home,I stopped at a Salvation Army thrift store in my hometown and picked up a few things.It was simply a cassette tape case and a few recordable cassettes and a few record albums.I also waited within the store because of the weather outside,which was a torrential downpour of rain accompanied by thunder and lightning.I also forgot to bring my umbrella with me into the store but I left it in the car because I didn't want to forget it in the store.After the rain calmed down,I went home.
After I got home,I called my brother in law on his phone and told him about a problem that I was having with my window in one of the upstairs rooms.He checked it out while I was at my appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.
Since I did bring that up,my session with my sexual abuse support counselor went great.I simply shared with her the day and what had happened.I also shared with her what had happened within the past two weeks regarding my mother's health and my emotional state and my relapses.It was great to talk with her and share with her what had been going on.I left and stopped at a store on the way home to pick up something for dinner tonight.
When I got home,my brother in law informed me of the problem with the window.He informed me that he had to air nail it so it wouldn't go broke,which he did when he came back later in the evening after dinner.It is now fixed.I have nothing to worry about for a while.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly.I also have a sexual addicts support group tomorrow evening.I really haven't decided if I am going to go or not.But if I do,I hope that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went by smoothly.I simply did what little I had to do in the short time allowed.But by the end,I got a lot done.After finishing,I bagged everything and dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed for home afterwards.
On the way home,I had to make a couple of personal stops along the way.It was nothing much.It was just dropping off a newspaper at a couple of houses.I headed straight home afterwards.
When I got home,I laid down for a while.I was feeling tired and I felt that a nap would do me a world of good.I really did not go to sleep like I had hoped.I simply relaxed for a while before deciding to finish my personal PC work.It wasn't an awful lot to do.I started it during break time at work and I managed to finish it at home in a short period of time.
While on my lunch hour,I dropped off some important papers at a government office downtown.After that,I headed back to work to finish my job.
After a light dinner,I decided to do some more much needed catching up on some more personal PC work.I am glad to have done so.
I have been feeling okay but I have also had some emotional stress and strain.I wound up masturbating today while trying to take a nap.I was feeling tired and I was also feeling at edge for some of the stuff that has been happening within my family.I did ask the creator to forgive me for giving in to the habit,I still felt guilty for a while after that but as the rest of the day progressed,I began to feel better.I really need to learn better techniques on how to STOP masturbating.I feel that I am doing something wrong and that is causing me to give in to the temptation to do so.I have been also simply manipulating my sexuality in order to masturbate.Plus,images from the past of nude men and men having their erect genitals out have been popping back up.I really don't know what has been going on.Why have they been coming back?I'm sick of these things coming back and I am sick of having these negative sexual feelings towards members of my own gender.I will NEVER believe that "born that way" crap because I have never believed it and one of the contributing factors of my struggles with SSA has been the sexual abuse that I had endured when I was younger when I was used for other guys pleasures by being manipulated into performing oral sex on them constantly when they displayed their erect genitals and me giving in when they did.I still remember the rape that I endured when I was 16 years old.Again,I want to overcome these feelings and the immoral urge to manipulate my sexuality and then progressing to masturbation.If anyone out there has any ideas,PLEASE HELP ME.Thanks.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes smoothly.I also have a meeting with my sexual abuse support counselor tomorrow afternoon and I am hoping that the session goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.But I still had quite a bit to do.First,I had to take my mom to the local medical facility to have her blood work done and while she was doing that,I went to a supermarket in the area to get some groceries for her.It wasn't very much.It was simply a few things that she felt that we needed.After I did the shopping,I went back to the facility to pich her up.She was done when I got there.
After coming home,I did my personal PC work and it was quite a bit.After finishing,I left to finish everything I needed to finish.
First of,I had to go to the post office to mail out a money order that is a past due payment for services provided by the Christian counselor that I have been having telephone sessions with.I am hoping that the money order gets to him soon.I also had to mail out an important letter for my mom.I headed for home afterwards.
On the way home,I stopped at Blockbuster to purchase some previously viewed DVD's.They had tons of them for $3.99 and I picked up some really scary gems.I am hoping that they are really good.
After a light dinner,which we had late due to a visit by my brother in-law,I decided to catch up on some much needed PC work.I am glad that I did.My days is now complete.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for teh day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The day started out rainy and it was really coming down.It really wasn't a big storm but it felt like it.I also had a icky feeling in my stomach but that passed when I turned on all the fans in the house and the feeling went away when I sat in front of one in the family room.
I still had something that I needed to do.I ran an errand for the house and I also did a couple of things for myself.It was nothing much.It was just a few small things that we needed.I went home after I was finished.
While it was raining,I managed to finish my personal PC work before heading out.There really wasn't much happening around the town so I stayed home for much of the day with the only exception being the errands.There is really nothing much to do in the city that I live in when it rains.They were having a charity chicken barbecue at the local Salvation Army but because I didn't want to dilute my appetite before eating dinner,I simply bought a bottled water for only $1.00 to help them out and left.I was feeling thirsty and I felt that I was getting what I wanted while helping out an organization.
After a light dinner,I decided to catch up on some much needed late personal PC work.I also had a talk with a friend of mine from out of town and that was a wonderful talk.Overall,a pretty good day.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.I even ran into an old friend from the previous lounge where I used to entertain and that even made it even more special for me.It was a wonderful night.I had a blast and I am looking forward to next week.
Before the night is through,I am thinking of going out and having a drink or two at the place where I entertain and I am also hoping to have a nice talk or two with anyone that is there.
Tomorrow is my day off.I will be taking my mom back to have some tests done at the local mediacl facility and I am hoping that everything goes alright.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty decent day today.
I was home for most of the time.The day was pretty HAZY,HOT & HUMID to start with but later turned rainy.It was raining pretty hard when I went out to run an errand for myself.It was nothing much but I am glad to have accomplished this.Plus,my brother in law came over because he said that there was a call from my mom on his cell phone even though the call was made less than a week ago.He also took a look in my record room to check out a leak and he said that it wasn't a very terrible leak and that it probably could use some patching up.He said that he doesn't know when he'll be able to do it but he would when he had some time.He left after about 15 minutes.
After a light dinner,I decided to catch up on some more much needed personal PC work.I am now glad that this is accomplished and I can go on with the rest of the day.
Tonight is my night to entertain the crowd.I am hoping that the night goes well for me.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.I have a feeling that the night will go well.Still,I hope.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty fairly decent day today.
After I did the laundry pick-up,I went to the company picnic.It was a nice gathering and I enjoyed it.But after a while,I was feeling a thumping headache alongside a minor stomach ache and I felt that I should go home and get some rest in hopes that I would feel better.I bid everyone a farewell and headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a bank to cash my paycheck and I headed straight home afterwards.I still wasn't feeling very good and I felt that a little rest would do me a world of good.
When I got home,I laid down for a while and slept off my headache and my stomach was also feeling better.I also watched soem bits and pieces of one of my movies to pass the time.Still,it was a pretty fairly decent day and I had a pretty good time.
After my nap,I finished my personal PC work.It was quite a bit of stuff and I got it all done.I also had a light dinner because of all the food that I ate at the picnic and I didn't want to eat too much.
I am glad that the weekend is finally here.I am looking forward to singing tomorrow night at the place where I normally do that.I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.
As for the rest of the weekend,I haven't made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the upcoming weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I am not as depressed as I have been in the last few days.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went by smoothly and I managed to get a lot done despite the negative circumstances.I also had a wonderful lunch and after everything was done,I simply bagged everything that was cleand and dropped it off at the rehab center before heading home.
On the way home,I dropped an important letter in the mail and I withdrew some money for my mom out of her checking account.I went straight home afterwards.
I relaxed for much of the day when I got home.I didn't go to the sex addicts group meeting tonight because I didn't feel like going and I was feeling a little too depressed over my masturbatory failings that had happened on Sunday and Wednesday.All of the emotional stress and strain regarding my mother's health and worrying about it was what led to my falls.But I do feel better about it now with my mom feeling better and I am hoping that she will start feeling better in the next few days.I will be calling the leader of the group to explain why I didn't come tonight and I am hoping that he will understand.
I will be getting a break from work tomorrow.I will be going to a company picnic tomorrow afternoon and I am hoping that it will all go well.I will also be visiting the pool and having a little swim or two.Again,I am hoping that the picnic goes well.After that,it's the weekend and I will be singing up a storm on Saturday night.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better though I am still feeling depressed and I really don't know why.I had a pretty fair day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.I managed to pick up a lot of it.I picked up six bags full.This really gives us a lot to do.I also had a very good lunch.After eating,I sorted out the laundry and dropped the empty bags off at the druc/alcohol rehab center so they could use them to put more dirty laundry in.I headed for home afterwards.
When I got home,I went to pick up some money that I had so I could go out to find some more collectable stuff.I did manage to find a few more good cassette tapes.After paying for them at the thrift store,I went home.
I relaxed for the whole time waiting for my mom to come home from the doctor's office.He gave her a few prescriptions and told her to rest and be careful.She told him that she would try and when she got home,I was glad to hear the news.
Before I ate,I left to pick up the medications that the doctor prescribed for her.I wanted her to have them in the house so she could start taking them right away.When I got home,I ate and ran just one more errand for my mom.
I went to a local supermarket to buy a 1/2 gallon of ice cream and a roll of paper towels.I also went to a local gas station to get some gas.I have a long drive ahead of me tomorrow and I wanted to make sure that I had a full tank.The way that gas prices are going,I really don't know what I am going to do.The fuel prices are what's contributing to my depression.I am hoping that the fuel prices start going down soon.I don't know how much more I am going to take.
I am now at home relaxing.I am anticipating the coming day.I am thinking of turning in early tonight.I have been losing sleep lately and I really can't afford to lose any more.I am hoping for a good night's rest.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty so-so day today.
The work day went by smoothly and I did get a lot done.But when the day was over,I had to leave one job unfinished.One of the dryers was not performing up to snuff as I was waiting for some blankets that I had put into the dryer once they were done in the washer.It's bad enough that one of the dryers is out of order at the moment but when one is not drying like it should and it takes nearly half an hour to switch from wet to damp,you often wonder what's going wrong.But I couldn't stay for too long.I simply bagged what was clean and prepared to drop it off.But before I left,I managed to leave a note for the job coach explaining the reasons why I had to leave what I had to leave the way it was.I will be calling tomorrow to see if everything is cool.I would hate it that there is anything negative about this situation with the job coach.So,I am hoping and praying that everything will work out fine when I do indeed talk to her.
I also have not been feeling good.My mom being sick during the weekend and my sister and her husband having problems with two of her children turning against her.This has not been a very happy month for me.The financial crisis that my mom and I are currently in and the problems that are apparent between my sister and her family.It just hasn't been very happy.In fact,it has been rocky(though that's putting it mildly)and pretty stressful.My mom and I had to pay over half of a big water bill and we still have to set aside money for the property taxes.I am hoping that this crisis is over soon and that my sister can resolve the issues are going on in her life.This all has not been very good in trying to hold my anger because issues like this really get me hot.I am having a difficult time trying to hold my own because old issues are actually renewing themselves and making me mad and saying terrible things in anger to myself pretending that there are people there.Again,it hasn't been a very good month moneywise or emotionalwise.I am hoping that this month ends soon so I can forget this stuff.
Tonight,as a result of my mom's illness and me feeling way too down,I chose to stay home.I didn't go to any meeting tonight.I am just too way down to do anything.Tomorrow,my mom is going to see a doctor and I am hoping that she can get her tests done soon so she can get her medication prescriptions and finally get back to where she was before.I think that I might not be able to take much more of this.I am hoping that it's all over soon.
This afternoon,after I got home,I left again to go to K-Mart to get five quarts of motor oil because my engine was low on oil.You never know what might happen when your engine's oil level gets too low.After doing that,I had my mechanic checked out the level on the dipstick and he said that I was fine.I left for home after that.
After a light dinner,I finished my personal PC work.It was a lot of e-mails and I managed to get it all done in a short period of time.I feel like I have accomplished something.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well and that there is isn't a big mess to clean.I am also hoping to check out a new thrift shop within the area that I live and see if there is anything collectable.I am also going to be hoping for the best for my mom when she goes to the doctor tomorrow.I am hoping for a good day today.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a satisfactory day today.
Today was my day off.I really did not do too much.I simply did my personal PC work and took it easy.I woke up very late today and I figured that I would get some personal stuff done before anything else.
Later this afternoon,my mom and I did the grocery shopping.While she was shopping,I went to visit with a friend for a bit because I had to let him know that he didn't have to do what I had asked to do.He simply said okay and I looked around the stuff that he had for sale in his store before going back to the store to pick my mom up.On the way,I stopped at an area Wendy's for a small chicken nuggets with ranch dressing and went to the store.
When I got there,my mom was just finishing up but when we went to check out,my mom forgot the grocery money that she needed so I had to go back home to get it so she could pay for the groceries.I also had to rush because the sky looked like that it was going to storm any minute.
When I got back to the store,my mom paid for the stuff and we bagged it all abd headed for home.
After a light dinner,I decided to catch up on some much needed personal PC work.I am now done.I am now relaxing and anticipating the day ahead.One of the best things is that my mom is starting to feel better right now.But she does have a doctor's appointment on Wednesday and I am hoping that everything works out.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ