Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today is the start of a not very good weekend.I am going to be staying home tonight as a result of what happened to me last week on an expressway.But I am feeling better emotionally and I am hoping that things start working out for me in the end.I am still hoping that my compact 4X4 will be on the road very soon and I am still awaiting what my mechanic has to say regarding what other repairs that it might need aside from the alternator.I know that I will have to wait an entire weekend to get the answers but I have no choice.But I am hoping to have some wheels by next week.I just can't stand not having a vehicle.
I only did a little bit today.I went to a local small restaurant that is near where I live and had a light lunch of nachos with cheese to dip them in.It was really great.I even saw somebody that I had not seen in quite a while.We talked for a while while I ate my nachos and we talked about a lot of things.It was great.After I ate,I paid for my food and left.
On the way home,I stopped over at my niece's place to let her know that her grandmother has been trying to reach her and she told me that she will try to call her when she can.I left and went straight home.
After having some homemade soup,I laid down for a while and I decided to do some last minute computer work and I am glad.It has been pretty sad and bogus not having a car,but I am still hanging onto the hope that my compact 4X4 will be road worthy pretty soon.
For tomorrow,I might take another walk and get a bite if I am in the mood.Then again,I also have to run an errand for my mom tomorrow.I will have to walk it but at least,it will get done.
As stated,I will be staying home tonight.I will be taking it easy.I might watch a movie tonight.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the short period of time that I had.After doing that,I simply bagged everything that was clean and with the help of a job coach,I dropped everything off at the rehab center.I went to a public transportation center to catch a bus home.
While waiting for the bus,I decided to turn in some cans at a nearby store and I went to a store where everything sold there was only a dollar and I bought some elbow macaroni.I reached the public transportation center just in time to catch the bus to go to the bank and cash my paycheck.
After cashing my paycheck,I took a taxi cab home because of all the money that I had.I didn't want to take a chance of getting followed home by someone I hardly know.Plus,after getting taken advantage of two weeks ago,I also didn't want to take any chances.I made it home safe and sound.
After I ate a light dinner,I registered all the bills that I had at the Where's George site and I also decided to do some last minute personal PC work.I still have a lot to do before I can call it a night.
I am going to be staying home this weekend.I have no car at the moment and the garage hasn't gotten around to fixing up my compact 4x4 yet.But they assured me that they will get around to it on Monday and I am hoping that it will not be as bad as I fear.I know that it needs an alternator and a belt.But if it needs everything else,I will have to cross that bridge when I come to it and take it one day at a time.
I am now at home relaxing.I am just going to sit down and get comfortable.I am not going out anywhere tonight or this weekend.So,I am just going to get comfortable.Again,since I have no car,I will just have to stay home this weekend.I know that it's sad.But what can you do when you don't have anything to drive to go out.
That was my day today and my plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went well.I simpky did what I had to do and I got everything that I needed to do done.After that,I went home.
When I got home,I had a tough time trying to relax.I tried taking a nap on the sofa but my mom constantly talking made it difficult.I did go to my room upstairs and again,I had a tough time trying to do that.While trying to do so,I wound up masturbating again and after asking the creator for forgiveness,I finally dozed off and I slept for about 90 minutes.
After getting back up,I decided to start finishing my personal PC work.But I was cut short due to a pizza that we ordered getting delivered and I ate.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work and I can get on with the rest of the evening.
Before laying down,my mechanic's step-daughter came to pick up a cash deposit for an alternator that needs to be put on my compact 4X4's engine to get it running and I am hoping that I can get the vehicle running very soon.I hate not having a vehicle.I now have a resolution to be a lot more careful in driving so I will not get into an accident again.I know that it's easire said than done but I am going to try and work hard at it.I am still feeling the effects of this past late Saturday/early Sunday morning.I know that I will be feeling these effects for a long time to come until I am fully back in the spirit of driving again.I am just hoping that this Winter will not be treacherous.But it might be.Still,I will hope.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly and after lunch,I got a ride home from work.
When I got home,I took a nap for a little over two hours.I was feeling tired and I felt that I needed this nap because I lost a little bit of sleep overnight.I felt better after that.
But I did have a hard time trying to for a short time.I wound up masturbating and after asking for forgiveness,I finally fell asleep.
After I woke up,my niece helped me out by taking me to a friend of my mom's house to pick up a bag and drop off some money.I also had to stop at a couple of stores to pick up a few personal items and to pick up my mom's prescriptions at the local drug store.
After eating a light dinner,I finished my personal PC work,which I started while I was out at the social club after the laundry pick-up and sorting out.Overall,a pretty good day.
I am now relaxing.I am also anticipating the next day.I am just hoping that everything will work out for me in teh long run regarding the car situation.My compact 4X4 is still at my mechanic's garage waiting to be fixed.But I am hoping that everything will turn out good in the end.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do.I had help in doing the pick-ups and drop-offs from the job coaches and that really made it.I also did some of the loads that I picked up.The whole day worked well and that was pretty good.
I still did my usual after work stuff.The only difference is that I had to walk.I was tired when I was through.I am not used to all the walking.But I managed to get what I had to do done.I dropped off a couple of newspapers at a couple of houses and I went straight home after that.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a few cartoons on a DVD that I bought yesterday.It was great.I was really exhausted.But it was worthwhile.I had a good day and that was something.
After eating a light dinner,I finished off my personal PC work.It took a bit of doing and several server issues but I managed to get it done despite that.
I am now at home relaxing.I am simply awaiting the start of the new day.I am hoping that tomorrow will work out as well as today.I did check with my mechanic and he is looking for a brand new alternator for my compact 4X4 so I can get it on the road.He also had informed me yesterday that he has to check it thoroughly to see if it will pass inspection in order for my 4X4 to be safe to drive during the bitterly cold winter.I am glad to have such a great mechanic.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes smoothly.I will also be checking with my mechanic tomorrow to see if he has found a new alternator.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the new day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.Though I am still feeling some negative emotions over what happened to me late Saturday/early Sunday morning.But the day turned out to be pretty fair.
Today,I had to have my compact 4X4 towed to my mechanic's garage so it can be fixed and I can put it on the road.I am just hoping that the cost is not going to be too much.But if it is,I will just have to work out something with my mechanic and I am hoping that he will agree with it.
On the way home from his garage,with his step-daughter giving me a ride home,I stopped at a small store to pick up a few things.I picked up two boxes of instant oatmeal and a box of generic Cheerios.I also managed to pick up a 3 DVD set of cartoons for only $6.00.When I got out and got back into the car,we went straight home.
When I got home,we had a light dinner and my sister and her husband came over to hang out.It is my mom's birthday today and they came over with cake.It was pretty good and my sister and her husband tried the cake my mom made,which they enjoyed.It was pretty good having them around.They left after they received a phone call.
After they left,I finished my personal PC work and I watched the latest episode of Terminator:The Sarah Connor Chronicles.Afterwards,the conclusion of the Two & A Half Men two parter.Overall,a pretty fair day.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.I will have to take the bus to work tomorrow as per the fact that I don't have a vehicle for now.But I am hoping to have my compact 4X4 off and running before the week is through.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling really awful,angry and depressed.This has not been a very good day.
Last night,on the way home after dropping my friend off,I had an accident.While on the expressway,I suddenly lost control of my car and I crashed into the concrete wall on the expressway.I was feeling really shaken up by this and when I got out of the car,I saw that there was a lot of traffic backed up.As I turned my motor off,I stood by my car to watch all the other cars drive by and even a few of the drivers stopped to see if I was okay.I was physically okay but emotionally I was not very well at all.I felt a nagging pain in my stomach and I was also feeling a little shocked and disorganized.I even phoned 911 to report this and I saw that there was help there in the form of New York state Park Police and there was also an ambulance at the scene.Not only that,one SUV full of people was also there and they stayed until the whole thing was over.For most of the time,I was questioned by the park police & the paramedics.The paramedics took vital signs and even had me sign a statement as to them advising me to go to the hospital,but I refused.I just wanted to go home and put this anguish behind.One of the park policemen took me home.I had to show him how to get there because the area outside the nearby state park was foreign to him.Before I did get home,I phoned my mom to tell her what went wrong and what had happened.I also assured her that I was physically okay but I was really shaken and really over the hill when it came to my emotional state.I also had to do the usual stuff like the breathalizer test,the 9 step walk and the eyes moving with the pen.I passed 2 out of three,which is fairly decent.
When I got home,I phoned my friend and told him what happened and he said that he was sorry for what happened to me and that he hoped that I would be okay.He even phoned me earlier this afternoon.Before I heard from him,I did call the Christian counselor that I talk to every 2 weeks and I told him everything that happened and my state of emotional health.After a 5 minute conversation,he said a prayer over the phone and hoped that everything will work out for the better in the end for me.
Despite having a wonderful night of singing,my entire weekend was a wash-out.This accident really ruined for me.I am now at home feeling the same way that I felt last night.I am just distressed because I can't go out tonight as a result of what had happened.I will have to call the place tonight to inform them that I won't be coming in tonight.I am just hoping that I can get out of this rut fast and that everything will work out for me.
Right now,my car is at my regular mechanics garage.I will be calling him tomorrow morning to explain the whole story to him as to what happened to the car.I know that he will tell me that there is nothing that he can do to fix or even save the car.Fortunately,I still have a vehicle that has been off the road for a little over a year.I am hoping to get some use out of this vehicle until I can get another 4 door car.I am hoping that this can be on the road soon.It is a compact 4X4,but I assume that it's better than nothing.The only drawback is that I will have hardly any room to put laundry bags in it when I get this back on the road if ever.But again,I am hoping that this can work out either way.
I had a light dinner tonight.I really didn't feel too hungry but I ate so not to hurt my mom's feelings.I had to show appreciation for all the hard work that she did.
Overall,this wasn't a very good week.I lost some of my money.I lost a personal bag of mine and now this crash.The only fortunate thing is that I didn't ram into anyone elses cars on the expressway and that I wasn't seriously hurt.
Tomorrow is my day off as usual.I am hoping that everything will work out for me so I will have a vehicle to use.Again,I am hoping that everything will go well.
That was my disastrous weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.But I am still feeling at edge over what has happened in the past week.I had a pretty decent day today.
After I had a talk with the phone counselor,I had to go to the local optical for an eye exam to get a new pair of glasses.The doctor at the optical assured me that I would get the new glasses in about 1-2 weeks.I told him okay and went about my day.
I didn't have too much to do.I simply ran an errand for my mom where I had to get a few things at a local supermarket for dinner.I also had to go out later tonight to get a couple more things that she needed.While doingthat,I went to get a bottle of anti-freeze at the local Target store.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I returned a phone call to a friend of mine who told me that he wanted to go out and have some fun tonight.I said okay and I hung up.After talking with him,I bathed for a bit and shaved.
After eating dinner,I decided to do some much needed catching up on my personal PC work.I am now caught up and I am ready for the rest of the evening.
I am going to be singing up a storm tonight.I have been looking forward to thsi all week.I will have my friemd along and that will be great.I am hoping that the evening goes well for me tonight.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.I am still feeling optimistic.I have a feeling that things will go well for me tonight.Still,I hope.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for teh day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling really depressed and angry.I didn't have a very good day today.
I was the victim of a theft today.Somebody stole my bag that had some of my personal medicine items that I use every day.I left the bag alone for only one second and when I got back to the main room in the social club,it was gone.I was really angry and very emotional.I looked frantically for that bag and it was nowhere to be found.The social club staff filed a missing items theft report and I called the police to file a report of theft.This really threw me off guard and I was also on a tirade for much of the day.Though nothing went wrong job wise,the loss of that bag of mine was very distressing.Fortunately,my real personal stuff like my ID,credit cards and money were still with me.I carry those in a separate fanny pack and they are with me at all times.Still,it was pretty disheartening to lose something that had stuff that I really needed and used everyday.As a result of that,I had to go back out and get some more medicine stuff and a new bag to carry it in just in case the previous bag that was stolen from me does not turn up.I did that all after I had a light dinner and I registered some more bills at the Where's George site.It cost me some money but I had to do it.I am hoping that this bag does not get taken from me like the previous one did.
I had just gotten over losing money to a con man earlier this week when he sold me DVDs that he rented from a local Family Video and tried to pass them off as previously viewed DVDs that he just bought.Fortunately,as stated,I did return them to the store and they are now back in stock at the location where they were rented.I am hoping that the person pays a hefty price for that.This has been a pretty bad start for me.A lot of unfortunate things have happened to me all in one week.Still,I am greatful to be alive and that I still have my Id's and credit cards.I had to pay some money to replace the stuff that was taken from me.But I am just glad that I still have my life.This is going to take me a long time to get over.I am just hoping that the upcoming weekend and the new week will be a lot better,alongside the rest of the month.
I do have a lot to tell my counselor tomorrow afternoon when he calls.I have to tell him what happened to me this week and what happened to me last week with the death of my friend.The best thing out of the latter is that the guy responsible is behind bars.May my friend Rest In Peace.
I am glad that the weekend is finally here.I am hoping that the weekend will be better than the rest of the week.I am going to be entertaining the crowd tomorrow and I am hoping that the night goes well for me.
As for Sunday,I have made no plans as of yet.But whatever I do,I hope that it benefits me in a positive way.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good but also exhausted.I had a very eventful day today.
The work shift went by smoothly.There were hardly any problems.I simply did what I had to get done and I managed to get quite a bit done in the period of time that I had.After finishing,I dropped everything off at the rehab center before heading for home.
When I got home,I got all the money ready that I had withdrawn for my mom yesterday for the taxes and the bills that have to be paid.I left to pay the property taxes.
After I paid the city property tax bill for the year,I headed for home to drop off the payment receipts and I had to head back out again to get some money orders made for the bills that my mom has to pay.I will be sending those out tomorrow.I also had to go to a couple of supermarkets to buy some stuff that my mom needed.In between these,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas in my tank.I had only one more stop to make,which was at a local drug store to pick up a few prescriptions for my mom and myself.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I laid down for a little over 45 minutes.I couldn't get to sleep but I did relax for a bit and I did feel better.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work and I registered a few more bills at the Where's George site.Overall,a very eventful day.I am feeling exhausted from all the stuff that I had to do today.I will sleep well tonight,that is for sure.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.At least,it was better than yesterday.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean up.I simply picked up the bags and dropped them off at the work site.Before I sorted out the laundry,I had a light lunch and when I was done,I left to run a few errands for my mom.
I had to withdraw some money for my mom at the bank so we could pay the property taxes and the bills.I will be paying the tax bill tomorrow when I get home from work.I am hoping that everything works out well.
After I dropped off the money,I went out to do a few personal things.I had to take some empty bottles and cans back to the store.I wanted to free up some space in my car and my trunk.I had so much and I felt that it was high time to turn them in so there is some space in the car and the trunk.I did get a decent amount of money for them and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a Salvation Army thrift store in another part of Western New York.I bought some more stuff.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the money at the Where's George site.It took quite a long time for me to get them on the site but I did get them on there.After stamping them,I put them in a secret place.
After eating a light dinner,I registered a few more bills at the Where's George site and I finished my personal PC work.These later bills were from change that I got when I bought 4 burgers and 2 boxes of fries at a local Wendy's for dinner.It was a pretty good day.I was glad and overjoyed that nothing hectic happened and that I escaped everything that did happen unscathed.I am hoping that this never happens again.I can't afford to lose any more money.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,I am going to pay the tax bill and do a little grocery shopping.Again,I am hoping that everything goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a very hectic day today.
The only thing that went well was the work day.I did what I had to do and I got it done.But I was caught off guard by a con man today who sold me DVD's that he had rented at a Family Video store in my area.He took me to the cleaners when he sold me these and when I was hoping that I would get some more great stuff,I got an empty white box that had a piece of cinder rock in it.Fortunately,I did get some compensation in the form of several VHS tapes.But this whole thing was hectic because I had long talks with a local private salesman and that guy who took advantage of me also took advantage of him.He sells used videos,CD's and DVD's from his apartment and that guy was supposed to sell for him and bring him his money.But he never did.That salesman had it out with that guy over this matter and sent out people to look for him.I heard from someone else that the results were not pretty when they did.I am not going to report on here what happened to that guy,but I will say that it was ugly and violent.Later on in the evening after I ate dinner,I chose to take the DVD's back to a Family Video store location that was within the area that I lived and I am glad that I did.I learned tonight that these were rented from another location in town and that they will be returned to stock at the location.I was relieved because I realized that I did the right thing and trusted my gut instinct.I do feel a little bit better that I did this.At least,it saves me from getting arrested for being an accessory to stolen property.I didn't get the money that I spent back but I feel good that I did the right thing.I lost some money but I still have my life and for that,I am greatful.I am glad to be alive still and to be able to enjoy it until the day I do depart for a better world.Yes I am still glad to be alive.
Earlier this afternoon when I finally got home,I tried to take a nap but I wound up falling.All the emotional turmoil that had happened to me and the stress that went with it made me fall.I wound up manipulating my sexuality and I masturbated when I was at the point of ejaculation.After washing myself after that fall,I asked the creator to forgive me for that.But tonight,I also have to say a prayer because I do have a lot to tell the creator about what happened to me today.I do have a lot to say.I am also asking the good creator to forgive that guy for conning me and taking advantage of me.It is the least that I can do.I am hoping that the creator will forgive him.I am also hoping to feel a lot better in doing so.I am also going to say to the creator that I want to forgive him in my prayers tonight.Again,I am hoping to feel better after doing so.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick up goes smoothly with no messes to clean up.I also have several errands to run for my mom tomorrow after that and I am hoping that they all go well.
That was my hectic day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I went out and made the most of it.But before I did,I was waiting on my direct deposit to come in.It was my monthly disability check coming in.While waiting for that,I decided to do my personal PC work and it was not too much.After that,I checked again and it came through.After that,I went about my day.
First,I had to buy a few things that my mom needed and I also went and did something for myself.I decided to go out and buy a brand new Buffalo Sabres jacket for this winter.I wanted to buy one with a hood.I went to a coat store in another part of Western New York and I bought it there for only $40.00.It was wonderful.I also bought an original Sabres hat there as well.After paying for them,I started to head for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a Goodwill store in the area and I bought a whole bunch of stuff.I bought several records and several cassette's.I paid for those and I headed straight home.
On the way,I ran into a traffic jam on the highway.I had to wait at least 20 minutes for the traffic to ease up.After all that aginy,I finally found an open way and it was smooth sailing after that.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas.After all that driving,I needed to fill the tank back up again.After filling up,I headed straight home.
After getting home,I ate a light dinner.It was a pretty good day.I had fun and I enjoyed myself.It was wonderful to get out of the city for a while and enjoy the scenery.I also bought several nice things,including something that I can use when winter comes.Overall,a pretty good day.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.Tomorrow is Election Day.I have to set aside a little time to get out and vote before the day is through.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty good day today but right now,I am feeling depressed.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went pretty well,even though there weren't too many people there.There was just a few people and I was doing most of the singing.I didn't mind.I still got a positive response from the crowd and that made me feel good.
When I got home,I was originally going to go to bed the minute that I got in.But instead,I procrastinated and watched a movie instead.I did get really tired and I do go to sleep.
Earlier this morning,I fell.I once again masturbated.This was the third time this week that I had fallen.I have been on an emotionally roller coaster ride this week since I heard about the death of my friend in that hit and run that didn't have to happen.I am glad that they apprehended the driver that was responsible but I am still feeling sad over my fallings and feeling the absence of my friend who is now gone who I will never see again.It's hard to believe.I talked with him two weeks ago and it was wonderful.He also came to see me sing a couple of times and that was really neat.Now,he is dead and I am still feeling the effects.I miss him already and I wish that this hit and run didn't happen.I wish that he were still here right now.Of course,I know that I shouldn't dwell on this.I am going to move on teh best way that I know how and I am hoping that the pain passes in time.
Regarding last night,I still regret that procrastination.I was hoping to get up early this morning to start going back to church but I was too tired to get up.So,I listened to a radio sermon and that was great.When I finally had the strength to get up,I ate and I got on with the day.
I ran a few errands for my mom and I also had a light lunch at a local Taco Bell.I also stopped at a local dairy to have some frozen yogurt.This was the dairy's last day open.Tomorrow,they will be closed for the season.I was just glad to get something before this happens.Because after tonight,I would have to wait until next year.But it is well worth the wait.
After eating,I decided to catch up on some last minute personal PC work.I also watched a college production of Carrie:The Musical on YouTube.It was great to see this.It is not as bad as the critics said that it was.It was pretty good.I also managed to register a few more bills at the Where's George site and that is great.Overall,a pretty good day.
The depression that I am feeling right now is just a sudden spell.I know that I will feel better after a good nights sleep.This does happen once in a while.Again,this will pass and I will feel better after a good night's sleep.
Before I retire for the night,I am hoping to go out and have a drink or two with the guys at the place where I entertain and I am hoping that I will get some great tlaks with them.
I did have a talk with an out of town friend tonight.He is doing good and we are going to talk again next Sunday.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes well.I am hoping to go to a coat store in another part of Western New York and get a new coat.They are having a sale and I would like to take advantage of the sale before it is over.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

To all devout Roman Catholics,I wish all of you a very Happy All Saints Day.
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Yesterday,they apprehended the guy who killed my friend in that hit and run that happened nearly a week ago.They have him currently in custody and he is being held without bail.I hope that they never let him out.He deserves to be in the jail that they are holding him in.That way,he will not cause any trouble.I am just glad that he is behind bars and he will not bring any more harm to anyone.I am relieved that he is off the streets.
Last night,the Halloween party went okay.There wasn't an awful lot of people there like there was last year.But I did get to sing for a bit and that is better than nothing.I had a pretty decent time and again,I did get to sing and entertain.That went well and I am glad.
Tonight,I am going to go out and sing tonight again.I am looking forward to that.I am hoping that the evening goes well.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what could happen.I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.I have a feeling that things will go well.Still,I hope.
As for tomorrow,I haven't decided.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend ahead.FJ

Happy Halloween,Everybody!
Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.There wasn't an awful lot to do.I simply did what I had to do and I bagged everything when I was done and dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed for home after that.
On the way home,I went to my regular bank to cash my paycheck and I headed straight home afterwards.
When I got home,I registered the bills at the Where's George site and I did some more personal PC work.I went out and picked up a fresh sandwich at a Subway at the local Wal-Mart.While there,I also bought a few more horror film DVD's before buying the footlong sandwich.
After eating the sandwich,which my mom and I shared by having it cut in half,I registered the change at Where's George and I also typed up a few e-mails to a few friends of mine.Overall,a pretty good day.
Tonight,I am going to a Halloween party at the place where I entertain.I will also be singing up a storm tonight and I will also be singing again tomorrow night.I am hoping that both nights go well.
As for Sunday,I have no plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the short period of time that I had and after I ate lunch,I simply bagged everything and dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit before laying down to try and take a nap.But the old images of having sexual relations with men began to take over and I found myself manipulating my sexuality while this was happening.I stopped when I was at the moment of ejaculating.This has been a crushing weight on me.This has been happening to me for quite some time since the death of my friend at the hands of a hit and run driver.They still haven't found the driver responsible as of yet and personally,I am getting impatient.I want justice for my friend who is dead and didn't deserve to die.He was also too young to die.Again,they haven't found the person responsible and I am getting ansy.There will also be no funeral for him.They are just going to bury him and I am hoping to find out where they are going to do that so I can pay my respects to him.This has been an incredible bearing on me and I am hoping that this passes soon.I really miss him and I still find it hard to believe that he is gone.I still have a lot of sadness in me and I am always going to have that due to his absence.I am hoping that justice is served soon and that the person responsible gets the full maximum punishment for what they did.
Again,I am still being plagued by images of men and having sexual relations with them.If anyone out there who is also in the healing process from unwanted Homosexual/SSA desires or has been in the process for a long time,I really need some advice on how to handle this and how I can replace these images with wholesome and pure images of men and even thoughts of them in the same manner.I want to see men as brothers and not as future possibilities as sexual partners.I have to also keepp remembering that it's men and women and not men and men as the so-called Gay culture wants to keep alive and well,which they have no right in doing because the sexual activity is sinful,gross,immoral and inappropriate.I want wholesome and healthy relationships with other men and NOT sex.Again,any advice would be appreciated.
After eating a light dinner,I registered a few more bills at the Where's George site and earlier tonight,I bought a few movies at Blockbuster video.I still have one more thing to do before turning in for the night.After that,I am staying home.
Tomorrow is another work day and I am hoping that the shift goes well.I am also attending a Halloween party tomorrow night at the place where I entertain each and every week and I am going to do that tomorrow night and even Saturday night.I am hoping that both nights go well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day and weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The laundry pick-up went a bit rocky.No,there were no messes to clean up but I got some orders from the boss at the rehab center that they needed some blankets and comforters.I informed them that I would talk to the job coach and see what she had to say.I left the rehab center after this.
When I arrived at the work site,I ate lunch and I sorted out the laundry.It was quite a bit to sort out.After that,I started a couple of loads of blankets alongside the laundry bags after taking a couple of comforters out of the dryers.I talked to the job coach and informed her of the rehab center's request and she said that she would get right on it.I also dropped off a few things at the rehab center before heading for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Salvation Army thrift store and I bought some things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to lay down for a bit and I slept for over an hour.I ate dinner after that and I registered a few more bills at the Where's George site.
After that,I went out again and I bought a few more things at the local Salvation Army thrift store.I also filled my gas tank while out before heading for home,where I am here to stay until tomorrow morning.
I am now relaxing and enjoying the night.The night is going to be pretty cold.But I have no place to go until tomorrow morning.
As for the case involving the death of my friend to that hit and run driver,no changes yet.But I am still remaining hopeful.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a smooth work day but I am feeling mighty depressed over the fact that there is nothing new in the hit and run death of a friend that happened early Sunday morning.
At the moment,there have been no arrests made in this case.The police are still investigating the details and they haven't gotten any information as of yet as to who was driving the car that was involved in that deadly hit and run.I know that there will be something soon.But I hate that this is taking quite a while.True,I can't expect results in one day but still,it is aggravating and nerve-wracking waiting for anything new in a case like this especially when it involves the death of a friend.I am remaining hopeful that something will come out of this and that the person involved will be brought to justice real soon.I hope that this person gets the full maximum punishment for what he did.That friend of mine didn't deserve to die.He was a great guy who deserved to live the rest of his days until it was the right time.Again,I hope that justice is served very soon.
As stated,the work day went smoothly with really no problems.I managed to get a lot done.I also had a wonderful lunch and after finishing,I bagged everything clean and dropped it off at the rehab center before heading for home.
When I got home,I decided to take a nap because I was feeling tired.I lost sleep last night over what happened on early Sunday.I am still feeling the shock over the loss of my friend.But I am trying to move on and do the best I can to adjust to life without ever seeing him again.It is going to be strange not having him around.I am still feeling the void of not having him here.I guess that I will be feeling the void of this for quite some time.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work and I also ran an errand before the TV specials that I was going to watch were going to come on.I had to move fast because it was going to start right away.Fortunately,it was close to home.
I watched the TV specials of It's The Great Pumpkin,Charlie Brown and You're Not Elected,Charlie Brown tonight on ABC.Though they do bring these on each year,I look forward to them and I still enjoy them each and every year.I did feel a little bit better after watching them.But still,I am feeling the void left behind by the loss.But I did get some laughs tonight and that is good.
I am now relaxing and getting ready to retire for the evening.I am going to try to get a good night's sleep.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes smoothly with no messes to clean up.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling alright.But I am still feeling sadness over what has happened.I did manage to have a pretty fair day today.
I woke up around the lunch hour and had a bowl of cold cereal.I also did my personal PC work and after I was finished,I left the house to run a few errands.
Before I did the stuff for my mom,I went to a local restaurant to eat a late lunch.It was a pasta lunch and after eating,I paid for my meal and left the restaurant to finish my errands.
I stoppd at the local bank to withdraw some money for my mom and after dropping the money off,I registered a bill that I was going to use at the Where's George site and went to a local supermarket to buy a few things.
While on the way,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas and I also bought a couple of candy items.I went to the local supermarket to buy the things that my mom needed and I also went to a local drug store to get one more thing.I headed for home after that.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work and I also registered all the money that I had withdrawn from the bank at the Where's George site and I now feel that my day is completed.
I am now at home relaxing.The weather at the moment is COLD,WINDY & RAINY.I have no place to go,so I am just going to stay home for the evening and relax.
What happened yesterday to my good friend is the talk of the town at the moment.Each and every one in my hometown is talking about it.I did reveal to them that the guy that was killed was a friend of mine and they all gave me their condolences,which made me feel a little bit better,though I am still feeling the sadness.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day will go smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ