Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Thw work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time alloted and after I was finished,I simply bagged what was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center.I heade straight home after that.
When I got back home,I dropped off some things before heading back out again to go to the bank to cash some checks.After that,I went to a local Dollar General store to buy my mom some pain relief PM pills that she needed.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got back home,I went on the computer to do some more personal PC work and to await dinner to get done.
After eating,I registered all the bills that I had at the Where's George site.I also stamped them the minute that I registered them.I also watched the evening news for a while.
I also had a talk with the Drop-In Center earlier this evening and the conversation went well.I also had a hard time getting through for a little over 1/2 an hour because of a busy signal.But I did and I talked for about 15 minutes.
I was also in a depressive funk for most of the day.I was still feeling the sadness and emptyness that I have been feeling for quite some time.The only weird thing was that it always levels off a little in the early evening.I am hoping to be out of this funk really soon.
I will not be posting tomorrow.I am going out of town with my father and sister.I am going to be visiting relatives in Pennsylvania tomorrow.We will be only staying a night there and we will heading back on Sunday.I will post a message here Sunday evening the minute that I am back in town.Please be patient.Thanks.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems nor do I have the temptation to watch pornography.I am hoping to get through th eweekend unscathed.
I will be away tomorrow.But I will be back on Sunday.As stated,I will not be posting tomorrow as a result of me being away visiting relatives.
That was my day today and my hopes for the entire weekend.FJ
Friday, August 07, 2009
Thursday, August 06, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time allotted and after I was done,I bagged the clean laundry and I dropped it off at the rehab center.I also had lunch before that and I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,my mom and I got ready to do some grocery shopping because we needed to have some food in the house.While she was shopping,I stopped over at my mechanic's garage to see how he was doing.He told me that it has been stressful and after talking with him for a few minutes,I headed back to the supermarket to check and see if my mom was done,which she was.
After we bagged the groceries,we drove home and I helped her unload when we got there.I also relaxed a bit after that and so did my mom.She was feeling exhausted and she rested up.The weather was feeling pretty hot today and I am just happy that we have the food in the house so we can be prepared when the really humid days come.We are supposed to get some really hot days next week.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.I also had a talk with the Drop-In Center earlier and the conversation went well.I also had a talk with my brother in-law and also with my sister who lives locally.It was great and I headed for home after that.
When I got back home,I decided to post my day on here.Overall,a pretty good day.
This morning,I was in a depressive funk and it really made me feel like dirt.I was starting to slowly get out of it but the depressiveness really hit when I least expected it.Though it has leveled off some in the early evening,I am still feeling the negative feelings.I am hoping to get out of this funk really soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am not feeling any feelings nor do I have the temptation to watch any pornography.I am hoping to get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it is the weekend.My father is coming into town and I am hoping that the time I spend with him goes well.He has invited me to go with him out of town but I haven't decided whether I want to or not.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time allotted and after I was done,I bagged the clean laundry and I dropped it off at the rehab center.I also had lunch before that and I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,my mom and I got ready to do some grocery shopping because we needed to have some food in the house.While she was shopping,I stopped over at my mechanic's garage to see how he was doing.He told me that it has been stressful and after talking with him for a few minutes,I headed back to the supermarket to check and see if my mom was done,which she was.
After we bagged the groceries,we drove home and I helped her unload when we got there.I also relaxed a bit after that and so did my mom.She was feeling exhausted and she rested up.The weather was feeling pretty hot today and I am just happy that we have the food in the house so we can be prepared when the really humid days come.We are supposed to get some really hot days next week.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.I also had a talk with the Drop-In Center earlier and the conversation went well.I also had a talk with my brother in-law and also with my sister who lives locally.It was great and I headed for home after that.
When I got back home,I decided to post my day on here.Overall,a pretty good day.
This morning,I was in a depressive funk and it really made me feel like dirt.I was starting to slowly get out of it but the depressiveness really hit when I least expected it.Though it has leveled off some in the early evening,I am still feeling the negative feelings.I am hoping to get out of this funk really soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am not feeling any feelings nor do I have the temptation to watch any pornography.I am hoping to get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it is the weekend.My father is coming into town and I am hoping that the time I spend with him goes well.He has invited me to go with him out of town but I haven't decided whether I want to or not.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, August 05, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The laundry pick up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean up and I simply grabbed the bag and left.After sorting out the laundry,I had lunch over at the social club.
After eating my lunch,I headed straight home to prepare for the rest of the day.
Firstly,I had to drive down to the local city hall to a pay a bill that needed to be paid.I also stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things that my mom needed.Last but not least,I went to a local laundromat to do my underwear.It was a pretty busy day and I managed to get an awful lot done.After the laundry was done,including folding and sorting it out,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I sorted out the laundry and put everything in their proper place.I also relaxed for a bit and took it easy while waiting for my computer to warm up so I could use it to register a few bills at the Where's George site that I got in change after paying that much needed to be paid for bill.I also did some e-mail work that needed to be done.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a bit and did some more personal PC work.I also had another talk with the Drop-In Center and that conversation,though short,went great.I even talked to my brother in-law for a while on the phone and I am hoping to meet with him tomorrow during the day.Overall,a pretty good day.
As I stated yesterday,I am slowly getting out of the funk that I have been in for the past several weeks.I am still feeling some of the sad feelings but they are not as intense as they used to be.I am hoping that the depression will leave very soon.I know this doens't mean that I will never be depressed again but I can feel assured that feelings of it can be overcome if one only knows the right way to go about it.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am having no issues nor am I having the temptation to watch any pornography at the moment.I am hoping to get through tomorrow and the rest of the week unscathed.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
The laundry pick up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean up and I simply grabbed the bag and left.After sorting out the laundry,I had lunch over at the social club.
After eating my lunch,I headed straight home to prepare for the rest of the day.
Firstly,I had to drive down to the local city hall to a pay a bill that needed to be paid.I also stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things that my mom needed.Last but not least,I went to a local laundromat to do my underwear.It was a pretty busy day and I managed to get an awful lot done.After the laundry was done,including folding and sorting it out,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I sorted out the laundry and put everything in their proper place.I also relaxed for a bit and took it easy while waiting for my computer to warm up so I could use it to register a few bills at the Where's George site that I got in change after paying that much needed to be paid for bill.I also did some e-mail work that needed to be done.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a bit and did some more personal PC work.I also had another talk with the Drop-In Center and that conversation,though short,went great.I even talked to my brother in-law for a while on the phone and I am hoping to meet with him tomorrow during the day.Overall,a pretty good day.
As I stated yesterday,I am slowly getting out of the funk that I have been in for the past several weeks.I am still feeling some of the sad feelings but they are not as intense as they used to be.I am hoping that the depression will leave very soon.I know this doens't mean that I will never be depressed again but I can feel assured that feelings of it can be overcome if one only knows the right way to go about it.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am having no issues nor am I having the temptation to watch any pornography at the moment.I am hoping to get through tomorrow and the rest of the week unscathed.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, August 04, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly,including the pick-up,where there were no messes to clean up.After picking up the laundry,I headed over to the worksite to sort out the laundry and start a couple of loads.After parking my vehicle,I hung out at the social club while waiting for the loads to get done.
At the social club,we were talking about how to learn and appropriate job interview skills.It was very interesting to talk about and very educational.After that meeting,I did my personal PC work while waiting for the second loads to get done because I wanted to reduce my e-mail load so I wouldn't have too much to read when I got home.After doing that,I eagerly waited for the second loads to get done and for lunch to be ready.
After eating lunch,I concentrated more on my job and after it was done,I bagged the clean laundry and I dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed for home after that.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar General store to pick up a few things that were needed at the house.After doing that,I dropped off a a couple of newspapers at a couple of houses and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and took it easy because I was feeling a little bit tired after the days work.I didn't watch too much TV,except for the start of the evening news.I also registered a couple of bills at the Where's George site that I had gotten in change from my purchase at the Dollar General store.
After eating,I watched some more of the evening news and I also did some more personal PC work.I still have a couple more things that need to be done before the evening is through.
I am feeling a little bit better.The depression that I have been going through is slowly disappearing.I am hoping to be out of this funk really soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am having no issues nor do I have the temptation to watch any pornography,which is pretty good.I am hoping to get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well.I also have a few other important things that need to be done before the end of this month tomorrow after that it done.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
The work day went smoothly,including the pick-up,where there were no messes to clean up.After picking up the laundry,I headed over to the worksite to sort out the laundry and start a couple of loads.After parking my vehicle,I hung out at the social club while waiting for the loads to get done.
At the social club,we were talking about how to learn and appropriate job interview skills.It was very interesting to talk about and very educational.After that meeting,I did my personal PC work while waiting for the second loads to get done because I wanted to reduce my e-mail load so I wouldn't have too much to read when I got home.After doing that,I eagerly waited for the second loads to get done and for lunch to be ready.
After eating lunch,I concentrated more on my job and after it was done,I bagged the clean laundry and I dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed for home after that.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar General store to pick up a few things that were needed at the house.After doing that,I dropped off a a couple of newspapers at a couple of houses and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and took it easy because I was feeling a little bit tired after the days work.I didn't watch too much TV,except for the start of the evening news.I also registered a couple of bills at the Where's George site that I had gotten in change from my purchase at the Dollar General store.
After eating,I watched some more of the evening news and I also did some more personal PC work.I still have a couple more things that need to be done before the evening is through.
I am feeling a little bit better.The depression that I have been going through is slowly disappearing.I am hoping to be out of this funk really soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am having no issues nor do I have the temptation to watch any pornography,which is pretty good.I am hoping to get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well.I also have a few other important things that need to be done before the end of this month tomorrow after that it done.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, August 03, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I still had quite a bit to do.Firstly,I ate a quick breakfast when I got up out of bed and I did my personal PC work.There wasn't an awful lot to do on the PC and I got it done in under an hour.After that,I simply relaxed as I prepared to go to my appointment to see the nurse practitioner.
The meeting with the nurse practitioner went as well as expected.I told her exactly how I was feeling and how I have been feeling.I left nothing out.I shared everything that I needed to share and it was good to get everything out in the open.She prescribed me with a new medication and I left for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some money for my mom.It was quite a bit that I had to take out for her and after that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,my mom asked me to pick up something for her at a girlfriend's house.After registering a few of the bills at the Where's George site,I left to pick up the stuff.
When I got to the house,I saw that the bag was hanging outside and after putting the money inside the door and picking the bag up,I headed back home.
When I got home,I relaxed a bit while waiting for dinner to get ready.I watched some of the evening news while I was waiting.
After eating,I registered the rest of the bills at the Where's George site.It was quite a lot of money to register and I got them all on there.I was also surprised that one of the bills came from Flint Michigan.There were no markings on the bill that indicated that this was a Where's George bill.But I stamped it and I am sending it on it's way very soon.
I also had another talk with the Drop-In Center tonight.The conversation was short but it was worthwhile.I did get something out of it and after hanging up,I felt a little bit better though I was still feeling the funk that I have been feeling for quite some time.I am hoping to be out of this funk very soon.I am also hoping that the new prescription will help get me out because I really didn't know what else to do if I couldn't get anything to help.I also had another talk with my brother in-law about the way I have been feeling and though it was pretty short,it was still great to talk with him.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I fell early this morning.Images of men crept up into my mind and I wound up masturbating to these images.I did ask the creator for forgiveness and I did feel better after doing so.I am hoping to get through the rest of the week without any problems.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today was my day off.I still had quite a bit to do.Firstly,I ate a quick breakfast when I got up out of bed and I did my personal PC work.There wasn't an awful lot to do on the PC and I got it done in under an hour.After that,I simply relaxed as I prepared to go to my appointment to see the nurse practitioner.
The meeting with the nurse practitioner went as well as expected.I told her exactly how I was feeling and how I have been feeling.I left nothing out.I shared everything that I needed to share and it was good to get everything out in the open.She prescribed me with a new medication and I left for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some money for my mom.It was quite a bit that I had to take out for her and after that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,my mom asked me to pick up something for her at a girlfriend's house.After registering a few of the bills at the Where's George site,I left to pick up the stuff.
When I got to the house,I saw that the bag was hanging outside and after putting the money inside the door and picking the bag up,I headed back home.
When I got home,I relaxed a bit while waiting for dinner to get ready.I watched some of the evening news while I was waiting.
After eating,I registered the rest of the bills at the Where's George site.It was quite a lot of money to register and I got them all on there.I was also surprised that one of the bills came from Flint Michigan.There were no markings on the bill that indicated that this was a Where's George bill.But I stamped it and I am sending it on it's way very soon.
I also had another talk with the Drop-In Center tonight.The conversation was short but it was worthwhile.I did get something out of it and after hanging up,I felt a little bit better though I was still feeling the funk that I have been feeling for quite some time.I am hoping to be out of this funk very soon.I am also hoping that the new prescription will help get me out because I really didn't know what else to do if I couldn't get anything to help.I also had another talk with my brother in-law about the way I have been feeling and though it was pretty short,it was still great to talk with him.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I fell early this morning.Images of men crept up into my mind and I wound up masturbating to these images.I did ask the creator for forgiveness and I did feel better after doing so.I am hoping to get through the rest of the week without any problems.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, August 02, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I ran a couple of errands that needed to be run.Firstly,I went to a local supermarket and I picked up a couple of things that my mom needed for dinner tonight.Secondly,I drove over to a friend's house to drop off a bottle of cough medicine.After doing these things,I headed for home.
Before doing any of these things,I ate a quick breakfast after getting out of bed and I did my personal PC work.It wasn't very much to do and I got it done in under an hour.I also did some internet browsing for a while before closing it off.I also watched some TV for a bit before going to run my errands.
When I got home,I waited for dinner to get ready.It was almost ready when I got in and I waited for my mom to say that it was ready.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also talked with someone at the Drop-In Center tonight.I had to make a few calls because they were getting a lot of people calling and coming in to the center and I had to call at separate intervals during the evening.But I got out what I needed to talk about and that was better than nothing.I also had a talk with my brother in law for a while over at his house and it was a great conversation.I headed back home after that.
Last night,I did not go out because I wasn't up to going out.I stayed home for the evening and watched a movie.I still didn't feel any better but as stated,I didn't feel like going out.
Tomorrow,I have to see the nurse practitioner over at the local hospital and I am going to tell her how I have been feeling lately.I still have been feeling pretty bummed out as of late and it seems that this funk isn't going to leave me.I am hoping that she can give me some good advice and maybe try to adjust my medication so I can get out of this funk and feel better.I hope that everything will work out for the better for me and I can finally stop feeling so depressed.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I can say that I am not having the temptation to watch any pornography and I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow without any problems.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ
Today,I ran a couple of errands that needed to be run.Firstly,I went to a local supermarket and I picked up a couple of things that my mom needed for dinner tonight.Secondly,I drove over to a friend's house to drop off a bottle of cough medicine.After doing these things,I headed for home.
Before doing any of these things,I ate a quick breakfast after getting out of bed and I did my personal PC work.It wasn't very much to do and I got it done in under an hour.I also did some internet browsing for a while before closing it off.I also watched some TV for a bit before going to run my errands.
When I got home,I waited for dinner to get ready.It was almost ready when I got in and I waited for my mom to say that it was ready.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also talked with someone at the Drop-In Center tonight.I had to make a few calls because they were getting a lot of people calling and coming in to the center and I had to call at separate intervals during the evening.But I got out what I needed to talk about and that was better than nothing.I also had a talk with my brother in law for a while over at his house and it was a great conversation.I headed back home after that.
Last night,I did not go out because I wasn't up to going out.I stayed home for the evening and watched a movie.I still didn't feel any better but as stated,I didn't feel like going out.
Tomorrow,I have to see the nurse practitioner over at the local hospital and I am going to tell her how I have been feeling lately.I still have been feeling pretty bummed out as of late and it seems that this funk isn't going to leave me.I am hoping that she can give me some good advice and maybe try to adjust my medication so I can get out of this funk and feel better.I hope that everything will work out for the better for me and I can finally stop feeling so depressed.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I can say that I am not having the temptation to watch any pornography and I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow without any problems.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ
Saturday, August 01, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was the start of the weekend.I really did not do too much.I ate a quick breakfast after I woke up and I did my personal PC work.It was only very little and I managed to get it done in less than an hour.After finishing that,I did some online browsing before closing the internet.
In the early afternoon,I ran an errand for my mom.I went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things that my mom wanted me to get.I also helped a lady that I knew from around the town by taking her home because she had three bags full of groceries and she wanted to get home.I dropped her off at her place and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I dropped off the stuff that I had gotten and I headed back out to get a couple of small things at another local supermarket in my hometown and I headed back home after that.
When I got back home,I relaxed for a bit and I took a bath while my mom prepared dinner.A bath before dinner on Saturday is a habit of mine and I wanted to be clean and shaven.After finishing,I put on some clean clothes and I ate.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.I also called the Drop-In Center again and the conversation that I had was another pleasant one.I will be calling tomorrow and I am hoping for yet another pleasant talk with someone.
Though I am feeling okay,I am still feeling the depressive funk that I have been in for the past several weeks.It seems that I just can't snap out of this.I have been trying everything and it hasn't been working.If anyone out there can help me with any encouraging words,I would appreciate that.Thanks.
Before posting here,I had another talk with my brother in-law at the same place that he was yesterday and I also got a phone call from my father while waiting for the internet connection.Both of these conversations,though short,were very pleasant.I will be talking with my brother in-law tomorrow and I am hoping that it will be yet another pleasant talk.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am having no temptation to watch pornography and that is great.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow without any temptation.
As for tonight,I am going to go out even though I really don't feel like it.I am hoping to have a good time.
As for tomorrow,I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today was the start of the weekend.I really did not do too much.I ate a quick breakfast after I woke up and I did my personal PC work.It was only very little and I managed to get it done in less than an hour.After finishing that,I did some online browsing before closing the internet.
In the early afternoon,I ran an errand for my mom.I went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things that my mom wanted me to get.I also helped a lady that I knew from around the town by taking her home because she had three bags full of groceries and she wanted to get home.I dropped her off at her place and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I dropped off the stuff that I had gotten and I headed back out to get a couple of small things at another local supermarket in my hometown and I headed back home after that.
When I got back home,I relaxed for a bit and I took a bath while my mom prepared dinner.A bath before dinner on Saturday is a habit of mine and I wanted to be clean and shaven.After finishing,I put on some clean clothes and I ate.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.I also called the Drop-In Center again and the conversation that I had was another pleasant one.I will be calling tomorrow and I am hoping for yet another pleasant talk with someone.
Though I am feeling okay,I am still feeling the depressive funk that I have been in for the past several weeks.It seems that I just can't snap out of this.I have been trying everything and it hasn't been working.If anyone out there can help me with any encouraging words,I would appreciate that.Thanks.
Before posting here,I had another talk with my brother in-law at the same place that he was yesterday and I also got a phone call from my father while waiting for the internet connection.Both of these conversations,though short,were very pleasant.I will be talking with my brother in-law tomorrow and I am hoping that it will be yet another pleasant talk.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am having no temptation to watch pornography and that is great.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow without any temptation.
As for tonight,I am going to go out even though I really don't feel like it.I am hoping to have a good time.
As for tomorrow,I have not made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Friday, July 31, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
The work shift went smoothly despite a minor setback at the rehab center when I made the pick-up.I had to pick up a mess when I was there but I didn't let it ruin the day for me.I simply bagged the stuff and I headed for the worksite.
After getting there,I had lunch first before sorting out the laundry.After I ate,I went to sort out the laundry and start a couple of loads.I also hung out at the social club for a while and I also sat in on a meeting that was there to talk about coping skills for people with mental illness.
Though the work shift smoothly,I was still in a funk for much of the day.I was feeling sad and feeling unable to carry on with the day.But I did get through the day the best way that I knew how.But still,I had the sad feelings of depression and that actually made the day feel even harder.After the loads of laundry were done,I bagged everything that was clean and I dropped it all off at the rehab center before heading straight home.
When I got home,I dropped some stuff off and I headed for the bank to cash some checks.After doing that,I headed back home to drop the money off.
When I got home,I registered all the bills that I had at the Where's George site.It took me a long time but I got them all on there and after stamping them as well as doing some personal PC work,I headed back out again to get something for dinner at a local Burger King and a local Wendy's.I also got a surprise phone call from my father earlier today when I got home from the bank.The conversation was only a few minutes but it was still good to talk with him.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and I again called the Drop-In Center to talk about my day and the funk that I was in for much of the day.It was another wonderful conversation and after hanging up,I felt a little but better though the depression is still there.
I also hung out with my brother in-law for a bit and I talked with him about the way I am feeling and he listened and understood.I told him that I didn't know what caused this and I am trying to get out.I told him that nothing really has cheered me up and how empty that I felt as a result of this depression.We talked for quite a while and since it was getting late,we called it a night and we both headed for home.
When I got home,I got out of my clothes and I am now trying to relax comfortably.I still have to take a bath before my day is through.
The weekend is finally here and I am hoping to start going back out again.I am just hoping that I feel up to it.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am not having any temptations to watch any pornography.After finishing here,I am going to close off the internet and finish what I have to do.
That was my day today and my hopes for the upcoming weekend ahead.FJ
The work shift went smoothly despite a minor setback at the rehab center when I made the pick-up.I had to pick up a mess when I was there but I didn't let it ruin the day for me.I simply bagged the stuff and I headed for the worksite.
After getting there,I had lunch first before sorting out the laundry.After I ate,I went to sort out the laundry and start a couple of loads.I also hung out at the social club for a while and I also sat in on a meeting that was there to talk about coping skills for people with mental illness.
Though the work shift smoothly,I was still in a funk for much of the day.I was feeling sad and feeling unable to carry on with the day.But I did get through the day the best way that I knew how.But still,I had the sad feelings of depression and that actually made the day feel even harder.After the loads of laundry were done,I bagged everything that was clean and I dropped it all off at the rehab center before heading straight home.
When I got home,I dropped some stuff off and I headed for the bank to cash some checks.After doing that,I headed back home to drop the money off.
When I got home,I registered all the bills that I had at the Where's George site.It took me a long time but I got them all on there and after stamping them as well as doing some personal PC work,I headed back out again to get something for dinner at a local Burger King and a local Wendy's.I also got a surprise phone call from my father earlier today when I got home from the bank.The conversation was only a few minutes but it was still good to talk with him.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and I again called the Drop-In Center to talk about my day and the funk that I was in for much of the day.It was another wonderful conversation and after hanging up,I felt a little but better though the depression is still there.
I also hung out with my brother in-law for a bit and I talked with him about the way I am feeling and he listened and understood.I told him that I didn't know what caused this and I am trying to get out.I told him that nothing really has cheered me up and how empty that I felt as a result of this depression.We talked for quite a while and since it was getting late,we called it a night and we both headed for home.
When I got home,I got out of my clothes and I am now trying to relax comfortably.I still have to take a bath before my day is through.
The weekend is finally here and I am hoping to start going back out again.I am just hoping that I feel up to it.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am not having any temptations to watch any pornography.After finishing here,I am going to close off the internet and finish what I have to do.
That was my day today and my hopes for the upcoming weekend ahead.FJ
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time that I had and after I was finished,I simply bagged what was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center before heading for home.I also had lunch before heading for home.
When I got home,I decided to relax and have a nap.I was feeling a little tired and I felt that a nap would do me some good.This time,it actually did.I got back up refreshed and feeling a little bit better.
I also managed to get out and check up on a friend that had just been released from the hospital.I spent a few minutes with him and he was in pretty good spirits.After talking with him for a few minutes,I left for home.
When I got back home,I had to make a few phone calls.It was to check up on some accounts that I had to see if my payments had been received,which they were.I was relieved to hear that the payments were received and I could move on with the rest of the day.
I watched a little bit of TV for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.I also managed to find some time to play a couple of online games by myself.After doing that,I closed off the internet and I waited for dinner to get done.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also called the Drop-In Center and talked with them for a while.These talks that I have been having with them have been doing quite a bit of good.The lady that I have been talking to said to me that I am sounding better than I have been and she feels that I will come out of this funk very soon.I am hoping that I do get out of it.I am sick of this negatively funky feeling.
Though I am slowly getting out,I am still feeling some of the depressive feelings that I have been feeling.I am still sighing repeatedly and I am still not feeling as cheerful as I should be.I still can't laugh at some things at the moment and I am still feeling like that I was run over by something.I am hoping to be fully out of this funk soon.I want to feel like myself and not like the depressive feelings that I have been feeling.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am not having the temptation to watch pornography.This is also giving me a pretty decent feeling of accomplishment.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time that I had and after I was finished,I simply bagged what was clean and I dropped it off at the rehab center before heading for home.I also had lunch before heading for home.
When I got home,I decided to relax and have a nap.I was feeling a little tired and I felt that a nap would do me some good.This time,it actually did.I got back up refreshed and feeling a little bit better.
I also managed to get out and check up on a friend that had just been released from the hospital.I spent a few minutes with him and he was in pretty good spirits.After talking with him for a few minutes,I left for home.
When I got back home,I had to make a few phone calls.It was to check up on some accounts that I had to see if my payments had been received,which they were.I was relieved to hear that the payments were received and I could move on with the rest of the day.
I watched a little bit of TV for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.I also managed to find some time to play a couple of online games by myself.After doing that,I closed off the internet and I waited for dinner to get done.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also called the Drop-In Center and talked with them for a while.These talks that I have been having with them have been doing quite a bit of good.The lady that I have been talking to said to me that I am sounding better than I have been and she feels that I will come out of this funk very soon.I am hoping that I do get out of it.I am sick of this negatively funky feeling.
Though I am slowly getting out,I am still feeling some of the depressive feelings that I have been feeling.I am still sighing repeatedly and I am still not feeling as cheerful as I should be.I still can't laugh at some things at the moment and I am still feeling like that I was run over by something.I am hoping to be fully out of this funk soon.I want to feel like myself and not like the depressive feelings that I have been feeling.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am not having the temptation to watch pornography.This is also giving me a pretty decent feeling of accomplishment.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty so-so day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean up nor was there any trouble.I simply sorted out the laundry when I got to the worksite and after I ate lunch,I hung out at the social club for a while and I headed for home.
When I got home,I laid down for a while and took a nap.I was feeling tired and a little anxious and I felt that the nap would do me a world of good.I didn't know how long that I slept but I still didn't feel any better.I was still feeling anxious and I didn't know whether I was coming or going.I have been having these feelings for too long and I am hoping that these feelings go away very soon.I am already getting sick of these feelings and I want to feel like myself and not like the depression and anxiety that I have been feeling.I am hoping that these feelings go away soon.I am already getting sick of them.
I did have a talk with a therapist and she simply advised me to start taking the samples that the nurse practitioner had given me.I took the advice and took only one.But I am not feeling good.My stomach is hurting a little and so is my head.I will have to take something for the pain later on.I have taken so much medication and have withdrawn from some and the feelings that I have been feeling are not the way that I want to feel.I am feeling depressed and anxious over the days coming and going and I don't know how long I will be able to take it.If anyone out there can help me how to get through this,please do so.Thanks.
After eating,I watched the evening news and I talked with the Drop-In Center again and the conversation was yet another pleasant one.I will be calling tomorrow and I am hoping that the conversation goes well.
I am still feeling down and I have been sighing like crazy.I have been doing nothing but sighing as of late.As stated,I am feeling the worst form of depression that I have ever felt and I am hoping that this will pass.It has also been very weird.I feel down for most of the day and then it lets up when the evening rolls around.As stated,I have been feeling this way for far too long and again,I am hoping that it will pass and I will be myself again.Any form of advice and encouragement is greatly appreciated.Thanks.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I can report that,despite the depression,I am not having the temptation to watch any pornography at the moment.In the past,when I was depressed,I used to watch porn as a pick me up and it worked only half the time while the other half of the time,it didn't.But I now know that I do have a choice and I am not going to watch any porn.After I am done here,I am going to do something else or just close off the internet.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean up nor was there any trouble.I simply sorted out the laundry when I got to the worksite and after I ate lunch,I hung out at the social club for a while and I headed for home.
When I got home,I laid down for a while and took a nap.I was feeling tired and a little anxious and I felt that the nap would do me a world of good.I didn't know how long that I slept but I still didn't feel any better.I was still feeling anxious and I didn't know whether I was coming or going.I have been having these feelings for too long and I am hoping that these feelings go away very soon.I am already getting sick of these feelings and I want to feel like myself and not like the depression and anxiety that I have been feeling.I am hoping that these feelings go away soon.I am already getting sick of them.
I did have a talk with a therapist and she simply advised me to start taking the samples that the nurse practitioner had given me.I took the advice and took only one.But I am not feeling good.My stomach is hurting a little and so is my head.I will have to take something for the pain later on.I have taken so much medication and have withdrawn from some and the feelings that I have been feeling are not the way that I want to feel.I am feeling depressed and anxious over the days coming and going and I don't know how long I will be able to take it.If anyone out there can help me how to get through this,please do so.Thanks.
After eating,I watched the evening news and I talked with the Drop-In Center again and the conversation was yet another pleasant one.I will be calling tomorrow and I am hoping that the conversation goes well.
I am still feeling down and I have been sighing like crazy.I have been doing nothing but sighing as of late.As stated,I am feeling the worst form of depression that I have ever felt and I am hoping that this will pass.It has also been very weird.I feel down for most of the day and then it lets up when the evening rolls around.As stated,I have been feeling this way for far too long and again,I am hoping that it will pass and I will be myself again.Any form of advice and encouragement is greatly appreciated.Thanks.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I can report that,despite the depression,I am not having the temptation to watch any pornography at the moment.In the past,when I was depressed,I used to watch porn as a pick me up and it worked only half the time while the other half of the time,it didn't.But I now know that I do have a choice and I am not going to watch any porn.After I am done here,I am going to do something else or just close off the internet.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty so-so today.
The work day went as well as expected.I did my work but I was in a funk the whole day.The funk actually made the work seem difficult.I did do a little bit of talking today with some of the social club staff today and they could tell that I was in a negatively funky state.I was in this funk throughout the entire morning.I was also saying some bad things to myself and this really scared me.Fortunately,I made it through the day and I managed to make it home after I was finished with my job.
When I got home,I had to leave again to run an errand for my mom and I also had to do something for myself.After doing these things,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the day.
I took a nap for the rest of the afternoon and the afternoon was very quiet.I didn't turn on the TV nor did I turn on anything that was noisy.I also had a fan going on because the day was a little humid.I didn't sleep for too long but I was still feeling funky.Though the funk had let up some,I was still feeling the depressive feelings that I have been feeling.I am hoping that I can get through this.It has been very rough and I am already at the point where I can't stand it anymore.I am hoping to get through this funk and I know that I can't go through this alone.If anyone has any advice,please share.Thanks.
After I ate dinner,I watched the evening news for a while and after that,I called the Drop-In Center and talked with them for a while.It was good to talk with them for a while and after hanging up,I did feel minimally better.I will be calling them tomorrow unless something comes up.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am not having any temptations to watch any pornography.I am feeling like I am accomplishing something here but I don't know what it could be.The minute that I am done posting here,I am going to visit elsewhere and afterwards,close off the internet.
Tomorrow is a simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick up goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
The work day went as well as expected.I did my work but I was in a funk the whole day.The funk actually made the work seem difficult.I did do a little bit of talking today with some of the social club staff today and they could tell that I was in a negatively funky state.I was in this funk throughout the entire morning.I was also saying some bad things to myself and this really scared me.Fortunately,I made it through the day and I managed to make it home after I was finished with my job.
When I got home,I had to leave again to run an errand for my mom and I also had to do something for myself.After doing these things,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the day.
I took a nap for the rest of the afternoon and the afternoon was very quiet.I didn't turn on the TV nor did I turn on anything that was noisy.I also had a fan going on because the day was a little humid.I didn't sleep for too long but I was still feeling funky.Though the funk had let up some,I was still feeling the depressive feelings that I have been feeling.I am hoping that I can get through this.It has been very rough and I am already at the point where I can't stand it anymore.I am hoping to get through this funk and I know that I can't go through this alone.If anyone has any advice,please share.Thanks.
After I ate dinner,I watched the evening news for a while and after that,I called the Drop-In Center and talked with them for a while.It was good to talk with them for a while and after hanging up,I did feel minimally better.I will be calling them tomorrow unless something comes up.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am not having any temptations to watch any pornography.I am feeling like I am accomplishing something here but I don't know what it could be.The minute that I am done posting here,I am going to visit elsewhere and afterwards,close off the internet.
Tomorrow is a simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick up goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, July 27, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
After getting up out of bed this morning,I ate a quick breakfast and I had a couple cups of coffee.I also did my personal PC work and after that was done,I simply closed off the internet and started to get ready for the day.
This afternoon,I had a talk with a neighbor of mine and I also went to a gas station to get a little bit of gas.After that,I took my mom to a local supermarket so she could do some last minute shopping.
I also had a talk with the counseling center today.Unfortunately,they couldn't hook me up with anyone to talk to and referred me back to the local hospital,which I called the minute that I hung up with the center.I talked with the medication manager and told her exactly how I felt and she advised to try and hang in there until next Monday.She told me to share how I am feeling and to take any advice that she gives and if she wants to prescribe me with any new medication,just give it a try.It wouldn't hurt to just try something instead of avoiding the situation.I have only one fear.I fear that the nurse practitioner is going to overmedicate me and I don't want that.I don't want what happened to Elvis Presley or Michael Jackson to happen to me.I did talk with the Drop-In Center tonight and they advised me not to have any worries and not to dwell on anything negative.I told them that the only thing that I can do is hope.I am just hoping that I will be okay after I see the nurse practitioner because I can't take this depressive funk anymore.Though the depression has leveled off a little,I am still feeling the feelings of being depressed and I am hoping that I will be out of this funk soon.I just can't take it anymore.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I as stated,I talked with the Drop-In Center for a short time.It was another pleasant conversation and I will be calling again tomorrow night.
I am now relaxing and I am getting ready for tomorrow.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
After getting up out of bed this morning,I ate a quick breakfast and I had a couple cups of coffee.I also did my personal PC work and after that was done,I simply closed off the internet and started to get ready for the day.
This afternoon,I had a talk with a neighbor of mine and I also went to a gas station to get a little bit of gas.After that,I took my mom to a local supermarket so she could do some last minute shopping.
I also had a talk with the counseling center today.Unfortunately,they couldn't hook me up with anyone to talk to and referred me back to the local hospital,which I called the minute that I hung up with the center.I talked with the medication manager and told her exactly how I felt and she advised to try and hang in there until next Monday.She told me to share how I am feeling and to take any advice that she gives and if she wants to prescribe me with any new medication,just give it a try.It wouldn't hurt to just try something instead of avoiding the situation.I have only one fear.I fear that the nurse practitioner is going to overmedicate me and I don't want that.I don't want what happened to Elvis Presley or Michael Jackson to happen to me.I did talk with the Drop-In Center tonight and they advised me not to have any worries and not to dwell on anything negative.I told them that the only thing that I can do is hope.I am just hoping that I will be okay after I see the nurse practitioner because I can't take this depressive funk anymore.Though the depression has leveled off a little,I am still feeling the feelings of being depressed and I am hoping that I will be out of this funk soon.I just can't take it anymore.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I as stated,I talked with the Drop-In Center for a short time.It was another pleasant conversation and I will be calling again tomorrow night.
I am now relaxing and I am getting ready for tomorrow.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was a much better day than yesterday.After eating a quick breakfast and doing my personal PC work,I was still feeling a little drowsy and I laid down for the rest of the morning.The medication that I am currently taking is making me feel this way and all I want to do is lay down and go to sleep.I am hoping that this side effect passes and I will be back to my old self again.
Lately,I have not been feeling like myself.I have been feeling really and mightily depressed for the past several weeks.I have been calling this place called the Drop In Center to talk and they talks have been really great.I enjoy talking with the people there and it is always a pleasure to find someone who will listen to you and talk to you like normal human beings without being judgemental.After hanging up with them,I decided to go on here and post my day on here.
I also had another talk with my father this afternoon.As usual,the conversation was only a few minutes but still,it was great to talk with him.I am still hoping that he comes up for a visit soon.Right now,he has to get some personal stuff out of the way before he can even come up for a visit.Again,I am still holding onto the hope that he will come up and we will talk and spend as much time as possible together.
I had only small errand to run.I went to a local drug store to pick up a couple of things that my mom needed from there and after that,I chose to stay home as there was really no place to go.The weather might have been better but still,there was no place to go.
Though I had a pretty good day and though I am saying that I am feeling okay,I am still feeling some depressive feelings and I am still feeling the full effects of the funk.Though it has leveled off some in the evening(which is weird in itself),I am still feeling the feelings of sadness.I will be calling the office tomorrow to see if they can possibly hook me up with a counselor until my regular one is back at the office.I am going to tell the office how I am feeling and again,I hope that they can hook me up with someone to talk to.I really do need someone to talk to on a regular basis and I am hoping to find just that.I hope that they can hook me up with someone.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also watched a little bit of 60 Minutes.There was some pretty interesting stuff that they were talking about and it was great to watch it.
Regarding my SSA struggles,tonight is the first time in a long time that I am not having any temptation to watch any pornography. I am feeling a little bit better as a result.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow without any problems.
Tomorrow is my day off and I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today was a much better day than yesterday.After eating a quick breakfast and doing my personal PC work,I was still feeling a little drowsy and I laid down for the rest of the morning.The medication that I am currently taking is making me feel this way and all I want to do is lay down and go to sleep.I am hoping that this side effect passes and I will be back to my old self again.
Lately,I have not been feeling like myself.I have been feeling really and mightily depressed for the past several weeks.I have been calling this place called the Drop In Center to talk and they talks have been really great.I enjoy talking with the people there and it is always a pleasure to find someone who will listen to you and talk to you like normal human beings without being judgemental.After hanging up with them,I decided to go on here and post my day on here.
I also had another talk with my father this afternoon.As usual,the conversation was only a few minutes but still,it was great to talk with him.I am still hoping that he comes up for a visit soon.Right now,he has to get some personal stuff out of the way before he can even come up for a visit.Again,I am still holding onto the hope that he will come up and we will talk and spend as much time as possible together.
I had only small errand to run.I went to a local drug store to pick up a couple of things that my mom needed from there and after that,I chose to stay home as there was really no place to go.The weather might have been better but still,there was no place to go.
Though I had a pretty good day and though I am saying that I am feeling okay,I am still feeling some depressive feelings and I am still feeling the full effects of the funk.Though it has leveled off some in the evening(which is weird in itself),I am still feeling the feelings of sadness.I will be calling the office tomorrow to see if they can possibly hook me up with a counselor until my regular one is back at the office.I am going to tell the office how I am feeling and again,I hope that they can hook me up with someone to talk to.I really do need someone to talk to on a regular basis and I am hoping to find just that.I hope that they can hook me up with someone.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also watched a little bit of 60 Minutes.There was some pretty interesting stuff that they were talking about and it was great to watch it.
Regarding my SSA struggles,tonight is the first time in a long time that I am not having any temptation to watch any pornography. I am feeling a little bit better as a result.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow without any problems.
Tomorrow is my day off and I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a boring day today.
Today,it rained for much of the day and I didn't do anything as a result of the rain.In my hometown,there is really not an awful lot to do so I stayed home.The only things that I did do was eat a quick breakfast and did my personal PC work.
Since the day was rainy,I decided to relax and take it easy.I laid down for much of the day and I also had a small talk with my father several minutes ago.My father is doing good and he is looking forward to visiting once he gets his personal and legal work out of the way.I am still looking forward to seeing him come up and I am hoping that this visit,if it ever happens,will work out and everything will go good.
I am still feeling depressed as I have been feeling for the past several weeks.I don't know when this funk will be over with and I am really getting impatient.Though I am still holding onto the hope that I will be out of this soon,the funk is going way too slow.I feel sad for much of the day but by the evening,it lets up just a tad.This is weird.I have not felt anything like this before and this is the worst case of the blues that I have been through.If anyone out there can offer any encouraging words,please share.I could use some encouraging words right now.Thanks.
After eating,I watched the evening news and I also had that talk with my father,which,though short,was a pleasant conversation.It was only a few minutes and I did feel minimally better as a result of that.
I am getting the temptation to watch porn but the minute that I am done here,I will try to focus on something else and view something positive on the web.If it doesn't work,I will simply close the net off and shut down the computer.
Since I am not feeling well,I am going to stay home and rest up.I cam always go out next week.
As for Sunday,I have no plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits and that it will help lift me out of this funk that I am in.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,it rained for much of the day and I didn't do anything as a result of the rain.In my hometown,there is really not an awful lot to do so I stayed home.The only things that I did do was eat a quick breakfast and did my personal PC work.
Since the day was rainy,I decided to relax and take it easy.I laid down for much of the day and I also had a small talk with my father several minutes ago.My father is doing good and he is looking forward to visiting once he gets his personal and legal work out of the way.I am still looking forward to seeing him come up and I am hoping that this visit,if it ever happens,will work out and everything will go good.
I am still feeling depressed as I have been feeling for the past several weeks.I don't know when this funk will be over with and I am really getting impatient.Though I am still holding onto the hope that I will be out of this soon,the funk is going way too slow.I feel sad for much of the day but by the evening,it lets up just a tad.This is weird.I have not felt anything like this before and this is the worst case of the blues that I have been through.If anyone out there can offer any encouraging words,please share.I could use some encouraging words right now.Thanks.
After eating,I watched the evening news and I also had that talk with my father,which,though short,was a pleasant conversation.It was only a few minutes and I did feel minimally better as a result of that.
I am getting the temptation to watch porn but the minute that I am done here,I will try to focus on something else and view something positive on the web.If it doesn't work,I will simply close the net off and shut down the computer.
Since I am not feeling well,I am going to stay home and rest up.I cam always go out next week.
As for Sunday,I have no plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits and that it will help lift me out of this funk that I am in.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Friday, July 24, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly despite one obstacle.It was to clean up a mess at the rehab center that I had to bag.Fortunately,it was only a small mess and I got it done in less than a minute.After that,I headed over to the worksite to start my job.But first,I had a little lunch.
I simply did what I had to do in the time that I had and after I was finished,I dropped off what was clean at the rehab center and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to cash my paycheck and I also bought something that my mom wanted me to buy to have with dinner.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I took a nap for about an hour.I slept on the sofa because I was feeling a little tired.I have been feeling drowsy as of late and I have been nodding pretty much while at work waiting for loads of laundry to get done.I guess that it is a side effect from the medication that I am currently taking but I am hoping that the side effects disappear as my body adjusts to the medication.I would hate my supervisor or even the job coach to catch falling asleep on the job.That would be embarrasing.I am also hoping for things to start looking up jobwise.I have been having anxieties as of late regarding my job.I am just hoping that things start looking up and that I will have more to pick-up in the near future.I would hate it not having anything to do workwise.
After eating,I registered all the bills that I had at the Where's George site and I also did some more personal PC work.I even watched the evening news and I also had a small talk with the lady over at the Drop-In Center.But they were having some problems and they advised me to call back later,which I will do.I am hoping for another pleasant conversation.
This depression that I am going through is weird.For most of the day,I am feeling really down and funky in a negative sense but by the early evening,it starts to let up.I don't really know what to make of this or how to put it into words.If anyone has any answers or advice,please share.Thanks.I don't want to be in this state forever and I hate that I am in it right now.Again,if anyone out there has any encouraging words,please share.Thanks.I hope that anything provided or shared will help me and be for my benefit.Thanks again.
Tomorrow is the start of the weekend.I am hoping that the weekend will be good.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the weekend ahead.FJ
The work shift went smoothly despite one obstacle.It was to clean up a mess at the rehab center that I had to bag.Fortunately,it was only a small mess and I got it done in less than a minute.After that,I headed over to the worksite to start my job.But first,I had a little lunch.
I simply did what I had to do in the time that I had and after I was finished,I dropped off what was clean at the rehab center and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to cash my paycheck and I also bought something that my mom wanted me to buy to have with dinner.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I took a nap for about an hour.I slept on the sofa because I was feeling a little tired.I have been feeling drowsy as of late and I have been nodding pretty much while at work waiting for loads of laundry to get done.I guess that it is a side effect from the medication that I am currently taking but I am hoping that the side effects disappear as my body adjusts to the medication.I would hate my supervisor or even the job coach to catch falling asleep on the job.That would be embarrasing.I am also hoping for things to start looking up jobwise.I have been having anxieties as of late regarding my job.I am just hoping that things start looking up and that I will have more to pick-up in the near future.I would hate it not having anything to do workwise.
After eating,I registered all the bills that I had at the Where's George site and I also did some more personal PC work.I even watched the evening news and I also had a small talk with the lady over at the Drop-In Center.But they were having some problems and they advised me to call back later,which I will do.I am hoping for another pleasant conversation.
This depression that I am going through is weird.For most of the day,I am feeling really down and funky in a negative sense but by the early evening,it starts to let up.I don't really know what to make of this or how to put it into words.If anyone has any answers or advice,please share.Thanks.I don't want to be in this state forever and I hate that I am in it right now.Again,if anyone out there has any encouraging words,please share.Thanks.I hope that anything provided or shared will help me and be for my benefit.Thanks again.
Tomorrow is the start of the weekend.I am hoping that the weekend will be good.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the weekend ahead.FJ
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did all the required work that I had to do in the time allotted.After I was finished,I dropped the clean laundry off and I headed for home.
On the way home,I withdrew some money for my mom and I went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things that my mom wanted me to pick up.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and this time,I wasn't feeling any restlessness.I slept for over an hour on the living room sofa.I only had to get up a couple of times to go to the bathroom but for most of the time,I wasn't restless.I had a good relaxation and I felt a little refreshed.
I also did some more personal PC work and I also registered the bill that I got from the bank at the Where's George site.It is now on there and I can't wait for the hit when I spend the bill.
I watched a little bit of TV for a bit.It was the Doctor's TV show that I watched.They do have a lot of interesting things to say on that show regarding medical conditions and what the right thing to do is.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a bit and after that,I called that Drop-In Center again to talk with the same person.It was yet another pleasant conversation and though it wasn't as long as it was yesterday,I still enjoyed talking with her and I will be calling her tomorrow evening after I eat.
Though I am still feeling depressed,I am still holding onto the hope that I will overcome this depression.I don't know how long it will take but I am willing to do anything to overcome this depression.This has been the worst spell that I have been in for a long time.I am hoping that I will be out of this funk soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am not having the temptation to watch any pornography in any way,shape or form.Though I still have to be on guard,because the temptation will come back when I least expect it.But for now,I am just going to be satisfied with not having the temptation to watch pornography.I also have to keep remembering what pornography really is and what it represents.I am hoping that when this funk passes,I will not be tempted to watch any porn.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for teh day ahead.FJ
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did all the required work that I had to do in the time allotted.After I was finished,I dropped the clean laundry off and I headed for home.
On the way home,I withdrew some money for my mom and I went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things that my mom wanted me to pick up.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and this time,I wasn't feeling any restlessness.I slept for over an hour on the living room sofa.I only had to get up a couple of times to go to the bathroom but for most of the time,I wasn't restless.I had a good relaxation and I felt a little refreshed.
I also did some more personal PC work and I also registered the bill that I got from the bank at the Where's George site.It is now on there and I can't wait for the hit when I spend the bill.
I watched a little bit of TV for a bit.It was the Doctor's TV show that I watched.They do have a lot of interesting things to say on that show regarding medical conditions and what the right thing to do is.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a bit and after that,I called that Drop-In Center again to talk with the same person.It was yet another pleasant conversation and though it wasn't as long as it was yesterday,I still enjoyed talking with her and I will be calling her tomorrow evening after I eat.
Though I am still feeling depressed,I am still holding onto the hope that I will overcome this depression.I don't know how long it will take but I am willing to do anything to overcome this depression.This has been the worst spell that I have been in for a long time.I am hoping that I will be out of this funk soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am not having the temptation to watch any pornography in any way,shape or form.Though I still have to be on guard,because the temptation will come back when I least expect it.But for now,I am just going to be satisfied with not having the temptation to watch pornography.I also have to keep remembering what pornography really is and what it represents.I am hoping that when this funk passes,I will not be tempted to watch any porn.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for teh day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The laundry pick-up didn't turn out so good.I had a huge mess to clean up.But I did get it cleaned up and I managed to drop off the laundry at the work site and even sort it out.But still,I had a huge mess to clean up and I really wasn't too happy about picking up after people who actually know how to pick up after themselves.After eating lunch,I hung out at the social club for a while and headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas in my tank and I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and I also went to a local laundromat to do my dirty underwear.It had accumulated pretty much over the past few weeks and I felt that it was high time that it got done.It took a while but after it was finished,I folded everything and I bagged it all.I headed back home afterwards.
When I got home,I relaxed again for a bit while waiting for dinner to get done.My mom was already working on it when I walked in.I sorted out all my underwear once I got it in the house.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I talked on the phone with a crisis counselor over at a Drop-In Center for a while.We talked for over 1/2 an hour about my bout with depression and what I believed on how it got started.She also told me that she wanted me to call back tomorrow night after I ate dinner because she was going to look up any counseling for me in the area that I live in.The reason is because she told me that she wanted me to feel better and feel much happier.I am hoping that she can because at the moment,I have really nobody to talk to in the area.My sexual abuse support counselor is out of her office due to personal reasons and I don't know when she will be back.Again,I am hoping that I can hook up with someone in my area so I can talk about how I am feeling and I am also hoping that the person that I will talk to will listen and avoid being judgemental in their approach.I really need somebody to talk to about the way I am feeling and at the moment,I have nobody to talk to regarding the way that I feel.I am also feeling sad as a result of this and I am in desperate need of someone to talk to because I am feeling alone like if nobody is there and nobody cares.I am hoping that I can hook up with someone in my area so I can talk about these feelings.
I am also having the temptation to watch pornography online but after I am done here,I am going to do something else.I will NOT watch any pornography in any way,shape or form.I am determined not to fall.I am also determined to be strong and not give in to the temptation.Again,the minute that I am done here,I am going to do something else.If that doesn't work,I am going to simply close off the internet and shut the computer down.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
The laundry pick-up didn't turn out so good.I had a huge mess to clean up.But I did get it cleaned up and I managed to drop off the laundry at the work site and even sort it out.But still,I had a huge mess to clean up and I really wasn't too happy about picking up after people who actually know how to pick up after themselves.After eating lunch,I hung out at the social club for a while and headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas in my tank and I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and I also went to a local laundromat to do my dirty underwear.It had accumulated pretty much over the past few weeks and I felt that it was high time that it got done.It took a while but after it was finished,I folded everything and I bagged it all.I headed back home afterwards.
When I got home,I relaxed again for a bit while waiting for dinner to get done.My mom was already working on it when I walked in.I sorted out all my underwear once I got it in the house.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I talked on the phone with a crisis counselor over at a Drop-In Center for a while.We talked for over 1/2 an hour about my bout with depression and what I believed on how it got started.She also told me that she wanted me to call back tomorrow night after I ate dinner because she was going to look up any counseling for me in the area that I live in.The reason is because she told me that she wanted me to feel better and feel much happier.I am hoping that she can because at the moment,I have really nobody to talk to in the area.My sexual abuse support counselor is out of her office due to personal reasons and I don't know when she will be back.Again,I am hoping that I can hook up with someone in my area so I can talk about how I am feeling and I am also hoping that the person that I will talk to will listen and avoid being judgemental in their approach.I really need somebody to talk to about the way I am feeling and at the moment,I have nobody to talk to regarding the way that I feel.I am also feeling sad as a result of this and I am in desperate need of someone to talk to because I am feeling alone like if nobody is there and nobody cares.I am hoping that I can hook up with someone in my area so I can talk about these feelings.
I am also having the temptation to watch pornography online but after I am done here,I am going to do something else.I will NOT watch any pornography in any way,shape or form.I am determined not to fall.I am also determined to be strong and not give in to the temptation.Again,the minute that I am done here,I am going to do something else.If that doesn't work,I am going to simply close off the internet and shut the computer down.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time allotted and after the work was done,I dropped off what was clean at the rehab center and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a couple of stores to pick up a few things that my mom and I needed.The first store that I stopped was a local Dollar General store to buy a few things that my mom needed.I also went to a local drug store to pick up a prescription that was waiting for me.The hassle with the insurance company finally ended last night when I heard from the company that they were approving the filling of the medication.I was relieved.I picked up the prescription today on the way home and I have it here in the house so I can start using it right away.I am relieved that the hassle is finally over.It was really stressful waiting for a week just to get a prescription filled on my insurance approval.But now,it is finally here and I can start using it tonight when I am ready to go to bed.
When I got home,I made a couple of phone calls to the Social Security administration to check up on something that I had sent them a couple of weeks ago.So far,they haven't received it as of yet and I am still hoping that they will receive it soon.I will just have to keep checking until I hear that it is on the record.I relaxed for a bit while waiting for my computer to be fully on so I could do some more work.
After eating,I watched the evening news and I also registered a couple of bills at the Where's George site.This was change that I received after I bought those things at the Dollar General store.Overall,a pretty good day.
I have been reporting so much on my depression lately.I am sorry if I have inconvenienced anyone by constantly talking about it.But I feel that if I don't talk about it,I am not going to feel any better.I also need the help and support of my fellow people out there,especially if you also struggle with depression.I have been in this funk for a little over three weeks and I am hoping to be out of it soon.If anyone out there can give me any words of encouragement,I would appreciate that.Thanks.Right now,the depression has leveled off some but it has not left.Again,any support or encouragement would be appreciated.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am having the temptation to watch pornography but I am not going to watch it.I am just going to do something else after I am done here.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
The work day went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time allotted and after the work was done,I dropped off what was clean at the rehab center and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a couple of stores to pick up a few things that my mom and I needed.The first store that I stopped was a local Dollar General store to buy a few things that my mom needed.I also went to a local drug store to pick up a prescription that was waiting for me.The hassle with the insurance company finally ended last night when I heard from the company that they were approving the filling of the medication.I was relieved.I picked up the prescription today on the way home and I have it here in the house so I can start using it right away.I am relieved that the hassle is finally over.It was really stressful waiting for a week just to get a prescription filled on my insurance approval.But now,it is finally here and I can start using it tonight when I am ready to go to bed.
When I got home,I made a couple of phone calls to the Social Security administration to check up on something that I had sent them a couple of weeks ago.So far,they haven't received it as of yet and I am still hoping that they will receive it soon.I will just have to keep checking until I hear that it is on the record.I relaxed for a bit while waiting for my computer to be fully on so I could do some more work.
After eating,I watched the evening news and I also registered a couple of bills at the Where's George site.This was change that I received after I bought those things at the Dollar General store.Overall,a pretty good day.
I have been reporting so much on my depression lately.I am sorry if I have inconvenienced anyone by constantly talking about it.But I feel that if I don't talk about it,I am not going to feel any better.I also need the help and support of my fellow people out there,especially if you also struggle with depression.I have been in this funk for a little over three weeks and I am hoping to be out of it soon.If anyone out there can give me any words of encouragement,I would appreciate that.Thanks.Right now,the depression has leveled off some but it has not left.Again,any support or encouragement would be appreciated.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am having the temptation to watch pornography but I am not going to watch it.I am just going to do something else after I am done here.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, July 20, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
Firstly,I woke up and I ate a quick breakfast before doing my personal PC work.Again,despite some connection problems,I managed to get everything done.I also did not have too many e-mails to read so I got it done in under 1/2 an hour.
I really didn't have too much to do.I only ran a couple of errands today.One for myself and one for my mom.The one that I did for myself was that I went to check up on a friend who had just checked out of the hospital but his live in girlfriend had informed me that he was at a doctor's office getting a check-up.I said okay and I left.I went to a local supermarket for my mom to pick up a couple of things that my mom wanted me to get.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I tried to once again relax but couldn't.I was feeling really restless and jittery though I was also feeling tired at the same time.I just couldn't lay down or even sit down to take it easy.I am hoping that this passes and I will be able to relax again.
Last night,I went out for a short to see some of my friends at the place where I entertain people.Unfortunately,the night didn't go all too well because one of the people saw that I was not being myself.I know that lately I haven't been myself lately and I have been really down.Though I am okay,I am still feeling the rut of sadness that has been plaguing me for the past few weeks.I have been hoping that this will soon pass but it looks like that it isn't.I am hoping that this sadness spell passes soon and I will be back to my old self again.I feel that I am in a hopeless case(though I know that there is no such thing as hopeless when it comes to human beings in ruts)and that there may be no way out.If anyone out there is reading,I would appreciate some advice on how I can overcome this.I have been going through drug withdrawal from my previous medication and I am already getting tired of being in this.If anyone can help me,please help.Thanks.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a bit and I decided to post my day on here.Overall,a pretty fair day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I have been having the temptation to watch pornography since the day began but I haven't been doing that.I have been closing the internet each and every time the temptation comes up.I might just close the net off if the temptation does not die down soon.I don't want to watch porn because,as I have stated previously,pornography is garbage and it is also unhealthy eye candy.I am hoping that the temptation does soon because I don't want to get myself into trouble.Any prayers would be appreciated.Thanks.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Firstly,I woke up and I ate a quick breakfast before doing my personal PC work.Again,despite some connection problems,I managed to get everything done.I also did not have too many e-mails to read so I got it done in under 1/2 an hour.
I really didn't have too much to do.I only ran a couple of errands today.One for myself and one for my mom.The one that I did for myself was that I went to check up on a friend who had just checked out of the hospital but his live in girlfriend had informed me that he was at a doctor's office getting a check-up.I said okay and I left.I went to a local supermarket for my mom to pick up a couple of things that my mom wanted me to get.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I tried to once again relax but couldn't.I was feeling really restless and jittery though I was also feeling tired at the same time.I just couldn't lay down or even sit down to take it easy.I am hoping that this passes and I will be able to relax again.
Last night,I went out for a short to see some of my friends at the place where I entertain people.Unfortunately,the night didn't go all too well because one of the people saw that I was not being myself.I know that lately I haven't been myself lately and I have been really down.Though I am okay,I am still feeling the rut of sadness that has been plaguing me for the past few weeks.I have been hoping that this will soon pass but it looks like that it isn't.I am hoping that this sadness spell passes soon and I will be back to my old self again.I feel that I am in a hopeless case(though I know that there is no such thing as hopeless when it comes to human beings in ruts)and that there may be no way out.If anyone out there is reading,I would appreciate some advice on how I can overcome this.I have been going through drug withdrawal from my previous medication and I am already getting tired of being in this.If anyone can help me,please help.Thanks.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a bit and I decided to post my day on here.Overall,a pretty fair day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I have been having the temptation to watch pornography since the day began but I haven't been doing that.I have been closing the internet each and every time the temptation comes up.I might just close the net off if the temptation does not die down soon.I don't want to watch porn because,as I have stated previously,pornography is garbage and it is also unhealthy eye candy.I am hoping that the temptation does soon because I don't want to get myself into trouble.Any prayers would be appreciated.Thanks.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
I didn't have an awful lot to do.When I got up,I ate a quick breakfast and I did my personal PC work.Despite some connection issues,I managed to get the work done.I also did not have too many e-mails in my e-mail boxes and I got the work done in almost 1/2 an hour.I also did some other personal things on the computer before closing off the internet.
For much of the day,I stayed home because I didn't have much to do.I did hear from my father a little late in the afternoon and though it was only for a few minutes,it was a pleasant conversation.After I hung up the phone,I decided to go out to a local store to buy something for my mom.
I went to a local Dollar Tree store to buy a bottle of dish detergent for my mom.She was running low and I took it upon myself to buy a bottle so she will have some when she does indeed run out.After getting a little bit of gas at a nearby gas station,I headed for home.
On the way home,I saw an ice cream truck and I bought myself a sherbet bar because I was in the mood for a snack and since it was fat free,I figured that I would buy one and have it right then and there.After I ate it,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I tried to relax for a bit but I had to keep getting up to use the bathroom.I have been urinating pretty much the entire early evening.I am hoping that this will pass and I will be soon back to normal.Last week,I had the same problem but I got checked out and the doctor who checked me out told me that everything was okay.I may have to make another appointmnet with the doctor this week and I hope that I can get one this week.I hope that I don't have to but if I do,I do.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while.It really was great to stay informed and I also decided to post my day on here.Overall,a pretty fair day.
I am still feeling some depressive feelings from the past few weeks.I am hoping that this also will soon pass.I have been in this funk for quite some time and I am hoping that I will be out of it soon.I really hate this funk.This has been the longest that I have been depressed in quite a while.My normal spells have usually lasted a day or two but this time,it has been pretty much with me for the past few weeks.Again,I am hoping that this will pass soon and I will be back to normal.
Reagrding my SSA struggles,I am having no problems.I am also not having the temptation to watch any pornography.I am hoping to get through the new week without any issues or problems.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.It was a pretty wonderful night and I did have a good time despite the funk.I am hoping that next week goes well.
Tomorrow is my day off.I have made no plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ
I didn't have an awful lot to do.When I got up,I ate a quick breakfast and I did my personal PC work.Despite some connection issues,I managed to get the work done.I also did not have too many e-mails in my e-mail boxes and I got the work done in almost 1/2 an hour.I also did some other personal things on the computer before closing off the internet.
For much of the day,I stayed home because I didn't have much to do.I did hear from my father a little late in the afternoon and though it was only for a few minutes,it was a pleasant conversation.After I hung up the phone,I decided to go out to a local store to buy something for my mom.
I went to a local Dollar Tree store to buy a bottle of dish detergent for my mom.She was running low and I took it upon myself to buy a bottle so she will have some when she does indeed run out.After getting a little bit of gas at a nearby gas station,I headed for home.
On the way home,I saw an ice cream truck and I bought myself a sherbet bar because I was in the mood for a snack and since it was fat free,I figured that I would buy one and have it right then and there.After I ate it,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I tried to relax for a bit but I had to keep getting up to use the bathroom.I have been urinating pretty much the entire early evening.I am hoping that this will pass and I will be soon back to normal.Last week,I had the same problem but I got checked out and the doctor who checked me out told me that everything was okay.I may have to make another appointmnet with the doctor this week and I hope that I can get one this week.I hope that I don't have to but if I do,I do.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while.It really was great to stay informed and I also decided to post my day on here.Overall,a pretty fair day.
I am still feeling some depressive feelings from the past few weeks.I am hoping that this also will soon pass.I have been in this funk for quite some time and I am hoping that I will be out of it soon.I really hate this funk.This has been the longest that I have been depressed in quite a while.My normal spells have usually lasted a day or two but this time,it has been pretty much with me for the past few weeks.Again,I am hoping that this will pass soon and I will be back to normal.
Reagrding my SSA struggles,I am having no problems.I am also not having the temptation to watch any pornography.I am hoping to get through the new week without any issues or problems.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.It was a pretty wonderful night and I did have a good time despite the funk.I am hoping that next week goes well.
Tomorrow is my day off.I have made no plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ
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