Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go as positive as ever.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up earlier than usual and bathed.After my bath,I quickly did some personal PC work and got dressed.I had an important Men's Network meeting that I needed to attend as there was going to be an important presentation and I couldn't bare to miss it.
The meeting was wonderful.I gained more than I expected from it.After the meeting was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the post office to drop a couple of important letters in the mail for my mom.After that,I stopped at an auto parts store to pick up some windshield washer fluid as I had run out of it in my washer fluid reservoir.After buying it and filling it up,I headed for the gas station next door to get some gas.Last but not least,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few more things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I had a bowl of soup for lunch and I relaxed for a spell.I also did some more personal PC work that I couldn't do this morning as a result of the meeting that I needed to attend.After my work was done,I did the dishes and popped a DVD is the DVD player when I was done with that and I relaxed and enjoyed the DVD.
After a while,I went back out to pick up something that a friend of the family was holding for my mom.After picking that up,I headed over to a friends house to see how he was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor anyplace else to go.
When I got home,I once again took it easy and I watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good and eventful day.
Though my recovery continues to go positively,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I actually gave into temptation early this morning.Yes I did.I admit it.I actually masturbated early this morning.I was simply manipulating my genitals to near hardness and until the orgasmic feeling approached.Yes,my mind was also flooded with images of naked men with erections asking me for to perform oral sex on them and me agreeing while talking to myself.I really felt miserable as a result of that relapse.I was working on never doing this again,but wound up giving into temptation anyway.As all of you can see,I am still always tempted to act out in some capacity one way or another,other than finding an actual male partner to act out my desires with.The latter is what I really don't want to do because acting out in that way isn't going to get me the fulfillment that I so desperately need in the same manner that pornography,fantasy and masturbation also won't get the fulfillment that I so desperately need.I am still seeking advice from any man out there who has been a success in overcoming Homosexuality/SSA and what has worked for them and share that with me.I don't want to act out anymore on these unnatural desires as it is unnatural to find members of one's own gender more sexually attractive rather than members of the opposite gender.I want to be the man that God wants me to be and I am still determined to be that.I know that God doesn't want me to be Homosexual.God wants me to be Heterosexual all the way as God had intended us humans on Earth to be,which is Heterosexual.I want that so bad.I will try anything to be that.Yes I will.Again,any advice would be helpful.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I will be attending the morning's church service.After that,I have no other plans set.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and planes for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, December 03, 2011
Friday, December 02, 2011
Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go positively.I had a pretty good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up an hour earlier than usual and bathed.I had a lot on my agenda today.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work quickly as I had an appointment with a local garage to get the emissions hose replaced to quiet my car down as it was sounding like a lawnmower.After getting dressed,I headed over to the garage.
I got there with only 10 minutes to spare and they took the car in right away to get fixed.I waited almost over an hour for my car to get fixed and also,it was a little bit more expensive than I had expected.But I still needed my car and I had to get it fixed as I was getting fed up with feeling like that I was driving a riding lawnmower down the street rather than a car as the sounds that it was making were like a lawnmower.After paying the bill,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local gas station to put some gas in my tank.After doing that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did some more personal PC work as I needed to finish everything that I couldn't do as a result of my car maintenance appointment.After that,I proceeded to get ready for my other appointment with a sexual abuse support counselor that I was renewing myself with after 2 years.
The meeting with the counselor went as smoothly as expected.After meeting with her for about 1/2 an hour,I headed for home.
On the way home,I decided to stop by a friends house to see how he was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed for the bank to withdraw some money for myself.After the bank,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy.I also watched some TV while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good and eventful day.
Though my recovery continues to go positively,I am still dealing and struggling with depression and it's symptoms.I am dealing with them one day at a time as it is the only way to do so.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am still being tempted.I am feeling temptation to act out each and every day.This morning,while preparing for my car repair appointment,I had a close call as I was manipulating my genitals to achieve near hardness or total hardness for the purpose of masturbation.After I got home,I again had another close call.I was this time in front of my computer and yes,I was looking at pictures of nude men online.I again was manipulating my genitals to achieve near or total hardness for the purpose of masturbation while looking at those nude men pics.But I stopped myself on both close calls and washed my hands.The struggle to heal from SSA is not an easy struggle as I am learning this day in and day out.But I won't surrender to the desires.I won't go out and seek a male partner for the purpose of acting out on these unnatural desires,which is what Satan the Devil wants me to do.I won't seek a male partner nor will I have sex with any man,as I already know that acting out in this way,or in the forms of masturbation and pornography,won't get me what I want.I want gender identity affirmation by other men and I also want the feelings of authenticity that go along with that gender affirmation by other men.I want to be affirmed as a man,because it is what I am,and I want to feel like a man inside and outside.I want to be the man that not only I want to be,but the man that God wants me to be,which is a happy Heterosexual man that finds women sexually attractive as men are naturally supposed to be.I also want the sexual feelings that go along with that attraction to members of the opposite gender.I want to desire,crave and be with a woman as God intended us humans that he created to be.He wants us all to be happy Heterosexuals because that is what God intended us humans to be and also,it is the way that God intended sexuality to be.as he did create man and woman for that one reason alone.Regarding the problems,if anyone has any more ideas or advice on how I can overcome them,please share.Thanks.
Tomorrow morning,I have a Men's Network meeting that I will be attending.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up an hour earlier than usual and bathed.I had a lot on my agenda today.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work quickly as I had an appointment with a local garage to get the emissions hose replaced to quiet my car down as it was sounding like a lawnmower.After getting dressed,I headed over to the garage.
I got there with only 10 minutes to spare and they took the car in right away to get fixed.I waited almost over an hour for my car to get fixed and also,it was a little bit more expensive than I had expected.But I still needed my car and I had to get it fixed as I was getting fed up with feeling like that I was driving a riding lawnmower down the street rather than a car as the sounds that it was making were like a lawnmower.After paying the bill,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local gas station to put some gas in my tank.After doing that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did some more personal PC work as I needed to finish everything that I couldn't do as a result of my car maintenance appointment.After that,I proceeded to get ready for my other appointment with a sexual abuse support counselor that I was renewing myself with after 2 years.
The meeting with the counselor went as smoothly as expected.After meeting with her for about 1/2 an hour,I headed for home.
On the way home,I decided to stop by a friends house to see how he was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed for the bank to withdraw some money for myself.After the bank,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy.I also watched some TV while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good and eventful day.
Though my recovery continues to go positively,I am still dealing and struggling with depression and it's symptoms.I am dealing with them one day at a time as it is the only way to do so.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am still being tempted.I am feeling temptation to act out each and every day.This morning,while preparing for my car repair appointment,I had a close call as I was manipulating my genitals to achieve near hardness or total hardness for the purpose of masturbation.After I got home,I again had another close call.I was this time in front of my computer and yes,I was looking at pictures of nude men online.I again was manipulating my genitals to achieve near or total hardness for the purpose of masturbation while looking at those nude men pics.But I stopped myself on both close calls and washed my hands.The struggle to heal from SSA is not an easy struggle as I am learning this day in and day out.But I won't surrender to the desires.I won't go out and seek a male partner for the purpose of acting out on these unnatural desires,which is what Satan the Devil wants me to do.I won't seek a male partner nor will I have sex with any man,as I already know that acting out in this way,or in the forms of masturbation and pornography,won't get me what I want.I want gender identity affirmation by other men and I also want the feelings of authenticity that go along with that gender affirmation by other men.I want to be affirmed as a man,because it is what I am,and I want to feel like a man inside and outside.I want to be the man that not only I want to be,but the man that God wants me to be,which is a happy Heterosexual man that finds women sexually attractive as men are naturally supposed to be.I also want the sexual feelings that go along with that attraction to members of the opposite gender.I want to desire,crave and be with a woman as God intended us humans that he created to be.He wants us all to be happy Heterosexuals because that is what God intended us humans to be and also,it is the way that God intended sexuality to be.as he did create man and woman for that one reason alone.Regarding the problems,if anyone has any more ideas or advice on how I can overcome them,please share.Thanks.
Tomorrow morning,I have a Men's Network meeting that I will be attending.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Thursday, December 01, 2011
Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I bathed as usual when I woke up this morning.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and managed to finish it despite issues with Yahoo mail.After that,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had a spirituality group that I needed to attend and I was looking forward to it with a lot of enthusiasm.After the holiday last week,I was looking forward to it this week.
The group meeting was wonderful.After the meeting was over,I headed over to a local community kitchen for lunch and after that was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Big Lots to look around,but didn't really buy anything.After that,I headed over to the drug store to pick up my prescriptions.After paying for those,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to go well,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,temptation still comes around.Each and every day,I am tempted to act out on my desires.I had a close call this morning when I was manipulating my genitals to achieve hardness or near hardness while visions of naked med danced in front of my eyes without even watching any pornography.I really need some support and encouragement here during this really rough period.If anyone out there can offer some words of encouragement and advice,please do so.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have to take my car into the shop to get my emissions hose on my engine replaced.In the afternoon,I have an appointment with a sexual abuse support counselor.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans and hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I bathed as usual when I woke up this morning.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and managed to finish it despite issues with Yahoo mail.After that,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had a spirituality group that I needed to attend and I was looking forward to it with a lot of enthusiasm.After the holiday last week,I was looking forward to it this week.
The group meeting was wonderful.After the meeting was over,I headed over to a local community kitchen for lunch and after that was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Big Lots to look around,but didn't really buy anything.After that,I headed over to the drug store to pick up my prescriptions.After paying for those,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to go well,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,temptation still comes around.Each and every day,I am tempted to act out on my desires.I had a close call this morning when I was manipulating my genitals to achieve hardness or near hardness while visions of naked med danced in front of my eyes without even watching any pornography.I really need some support and encouragement here during this really rough period.If anyone out there can offer some words of encouragement and advice,please do so.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have to take my car into the shop to get my emissions hose on my engine replaced.In the afternoon,I have an appointment with a sexual abuse support counselor.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans and hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and afterwards,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day.
I first had lunch at a community kitchen and after that,I headed over to the organizational building to type up something that I needed to type up.After doing that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped over at a local convenience store to pick up a few small things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to go well,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am still being tempted to act out on a daily basis.I had a couple of close calls.One was last night while the other was this morning.The temptation to act out is really getting strong and I really don't know how long that I will be able to hold on or be strong in my resistance to the temptation.I could use some support and encouragement right now.If anyone can help,please do so the best way that you know how.I would really appreciate that.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I will be attending.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and afterwards,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day.
I first had lunch at a community kitchen and after that,I headed over to the organizational building to type up something that I needed to type up.After doing that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped over at a local convenience store to pick up a few small things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to go well,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am still being tempted to act out on a daily basis.I had a couple of close calls.One was last night while the other was this morning.The temptation to act out is really getting strong and I really don't know how long that I will be able to hold on or be strong in my resistance to the temptation.I could use some support and encouragement right now.If anyone can help,please do so the best way that you know how.I would really appreciate that.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I will be attending.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Tonight,my road to recovery continues on a positive note.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,as usual,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.I also did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I did have quite a bit to do.I first went to a local garage for an emergency repair.My driver side headlight was out and I needed to replace the bulb.After that was done,which took a few minutes,I headed out to a local restaurant to have lunch.After my lunch,I dropped some newspapers off at certain peoples houses and after that was done,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the most of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go until the early evening.
When I got home,I simply helped my mom out with some small things and I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and after running one more errand,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to progress,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,so far,I am not being tempted to do anything.But last night,I did give into temptation by masturbating to more images of naked men with erect penises.I was at edge as a result of a couple of things that happened yesterday.While having lunch at a local community kitchen,a man all of a sudden started angrily wailing at another man there and it was scaring the daylights out of everybody,including me.After that,while on my way to groups,I was driving down a one way street to get there in the left lane,when all of a sudden,a driver in the right lane had the nerve to make a left turn from the right lane and I had to slam on my brakes to avoid crashing into him.Luckily,there was no crash and I continued on,but it was scary and I was really angry at this whole thing happening to me.I was still feeling at edge and that is what contributed to me giving in.This is the third consecutive relapse that I have had.I am just hoping that I don't give into the urge again as I do want to overcome this dreaded SSA and heal from it.I also want the desires to diminish as I continue in my healing as I know that acting out with another man won't give me the affirmation of my gender identity nor the feelings of authenticity that go with the affirmation of my gender identity.I am not giving up on this and I am going to continue marching forward.I just have to be careful in the long run.Again,any advice or ideas on how I can overcome this would be appreciated.Thanks.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,as usual,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.I also did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I did have quite a bit to do.I first went to a local garage for an emergency repair.My driver side headlight was out and I needed to replace the bulb.After that was done,which took a few minutes,I headed out to a local restaurant to have lunch.After my lunch,I dropped some newspapers off at certain peoples houses and after that was done,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the most of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go until the early evening.
When I got home,I simply helped my mom out with some small things and I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and after running one more errand,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to progress,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,so far,I am not being tempted to do anything.But last night,I did give into temptation by masturbating to more images of naked men with erect penises.I was at edge as a result of a couple of things that happened yesterday.While having lunch at a local community kitchen,a man all of a sudden started angrily wailing at another man there and it was scaring the daylights out of everybody,including me.After that,while on my way to groups,I was driving down a one way street to get there in the left lane,when all of a sudden,a driver in the right lane had the nerve to make a left turn from the right lane and I had to slam on my brakes to avoid crashing into him.Luckily,there was no crash and I continued on,but it was scary and I was really angry at this whole thing happening to me.I was still feeling at edge and that is what contributed to me giving in.This is the third consecutive relapse that I have had.I am just hoping that I don't give into the urge again as I do want to overcome this dreaded SSA and heal from it.I also want the desires to diminish as I continue in my healing as I know that acting out with another man won't give me the affirmation of my gender identity nor the feelings of authenticity that go with the affirmation of my gender identity.I am not giving up on this and I am going to continue marching forward.I just have to be careful in the long run.Again,any advice or ideas on how I can overcome this would be appreciated.Thanks.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, November 28, 2011
Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go well.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.I had a lot planned for today.I had to attend 2 groups in the early afternoon and I also had some small stuff that needed to get done.
But before I attended the groups,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.I also did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I did attend both groups.The first was a recovery group and the next was a work skills group.Both of the groups went as well as expected.I did get a lot out of the groups and I also got a lot out of positive output from them.After they were over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up some stuff that was needed for the home.After paying for those things,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to go well,I am still having to deal with depression and it's symptoms.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am still being tempted to act out on my unnatural desires on a day to day basis.Late last night,I actually gave into temptation and I masturbated to images of naked men and them yearning for me to perform a sexual act of my fancy on them.It really made me feel miserable.I felt that there was 20,000 ton weight on me as a result of my giving in and acting out by masturbating to those images.The only thing that I can do is simply pick myself up and start all over again.I just have to be on guard the next time when that temptation rolls around.I am still open to ideas and suggestions on how I can resist the temptation and to completely blot out these images of naked men that keep creeping up in my mentality constantly.Anything is appreciated.Thanks.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.I had a lot planned for today.I had to attend 2 groups in the early afternoon and I also had some small stuff that needed to get done.
But before I attended the groups,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.I also did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I did attend both groups.The first was a recovery group and the next was a work skills group.Both of the groups went as well as expected.I did get a lot out of the groups and I also got a lot out of positive output from them.After they were over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up some stuff that was needed for the home.After paying for those things,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to go well,I am still having to deal with depression and it's symptoms.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am still being tempted to act out on my unnatural desires on a day to day basis.Late last night,I actually gave into temptation and I masturbated to images of naked men and them yearning for me to perform a sexual act of my fancy on them.It really made me feel miserable.I felt that there was 20,000 ton weight on me as a result of my giving in and acting out by masturbating to those images.The only thing that I can do is simply pick myself up and start all over again.I just have to be on guard the next time when that temptation rolls around.I am still open to ideas and suggestions on how I can resist the temptation and to completely blot out these images of naked men that keep creeping up in my mentality constantly.Anything is appreciated.Thanks.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did some or my personal PC work and I got dressed up in a suit to go to this morning's church service.I had a lot of anticipation this morning as I was looking forward to this morning's service with a lot of enthusiasm.
The service was wonderful.This service marked the beginning of advent,in which we celebrate the first coming of Jesus Christ,God's own son,and looking forward to his second coming.It was a really wonderful service and I really got quite a bit out of that.After having some wonderful fellowship with some of the people there,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my usual casual clothes.Before I ate lunch,I had a couple of things that needed to get done.I first went to a local Dollar General store to pick up a bottle of dish detergent and after paying for that,I headed over to the local K-Mart to pick up a couple of things for myself.After paying for those items,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I ate lunch and when my mom laid down,I watched a DVD while relaxing.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to be positive,I am still dealing and struggling with depression and it's symptoms.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am still hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my struggles with SSA,I am still being tempted to act out on my desires.Earlier this morning,I was in the midst of manipulating my genitals for the purpose of masturbation.But fortunately,I stopped myself before it could really develop.I took my bath and that was it.Still,I am once again being tempted to act out in other ways other than finding a male partner to act out with.I just have to keep strong and keep seeking the strength that I desperately need to resist all this temptation and hopefully,come out winning over this demon called SSA.It isn't an easy fight,but I know that I can win it if I continue trying hard enough.I am determined to be victorious over this demon and gain control of not only my emotions,which motivate me to continue masturbating,alongside the images of naked men that keep clouding my mind and to nip it in the bud.I can still use some advice.If anyone can share what worked for them,please do so.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have 2 group meetings that I need to attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did some or my personal PC work and I got dressed up in a suit to go to this morning's church service.I had a lot of anticipation this morning as I was looking forward to this morning's service with a lot of enthusiasm.
The service was wonderful.This service marked the beginning of advent,in which we celebrate the first coming of Jesus Christ,God's own son,and looking forward to his second coming.It was a really wonderful service and I really got quite a bit out of that.After having some wonderful fellowship with some of the people there,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my usual casual clothes.Before I ate lunch,I had a couple of things that needed to get done.I first went to a local Dollar General store to pick up a bottle of dish detergent and after paying for that,I headed over to the local K-Mart to pick up a couple of things for myself.After paying for those items,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I ate lunch and when my mom laid down,I watched a DVD while relaxing.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to be positive,I am still dealing and struggling with depression and it's symptoms.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am still hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my struggles with SSA,I am still being tempted to act out on my desires.Earlier this morning,I was in the midst of manipulating my genitals for the purpose of masturbation.But fortunately,I stopped myself before it could really develop.I took my bath and that was it.Still,I am once again being tempted to act out in other ways other than finding a male partner to act out with.I just have to keep strong and keep seeking the strength that I desperately need to resist all this temptation and hopefully,come out winning over this demon called SSA.It isn't an easy fight,but I know that I can win it if I continue trying hard enough.I am determined to be victorious over this demon and gain control of not only my emotions,which motivate me to continue masturbating,alongside the images of naked men that keep clouding my mind and to nip it in the bud.I can still use some advice.If anyone can share what worked for them,please do so.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have 2 group meetings that I need to attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.I was really hurrying with my bath as I was planning to go to my nieces and babysit for her while she went to work this morning.While drying up,my niece called and told me that I didn't have to come over and babysit because her live-in boyfriend was going to babysit for her rather than go hunting.Admittedly,I was a little disappointed as I was hoping to babysit her kids today.But after the phone call,I settled into my normal routine.
I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I also watched a little bit of TV for a while.
When the afternoon approached,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had only a little bit to do today.It wasn't very much.I simply had to go to a local supermarket to pick up one small thing that was needed and after paying for that,I headed straight home as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while and also watched a DVD while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues on a positive trek,I am still dealing and struggling with depression and it's symptoms.I have been dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my struggles with SSA,the temptation to give in was indeed as strong as ever.I did give in to the temptation to look at porn,but it wasn't videos of two or more men having sexual activity with each other.It was simply looking at pictures of naked men.I actually really gazed at the pictures and I was also trying to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of masturbation.But somehow,I managed to stop myself before it could go too far and got off the computer for a while.This was all in the late afternoon after I had gotten home from my shopping at the AMVETS thrift store in another county.I need to be on guard as to when the temptation to act out really comes around.It has been really strong and resisting the temptation to do that is extremely difficult to do.I am still looking for ways to resist temptation to act out on my desires and I am always open to suggestions.I want to be the man that God wants me to be and not what the world wants me to be,which is to stay trapped in the so called "Gay lifestyle" and act out on my desires when I get the opportunity as well as temptation to act out on them.I don't want to act out as acting out won't really get me what I need and want,which is affirmation of my male gender identity and the feeling of authenticity that goes along with the affirmation of my male gender identity.
Tomorrow,I will be attending the morning's church service and I am hoping to get a positive lot out of it.As for the rest of the day,I have nothing else planned.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans and hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.I was really hurrying with my bath as I was planning to go to my nieces and babysit for her while she went to work this morning.While drying up,my niece called and told me that I didn't have to come over and babysit because her live-in boyfriend was going to babysit for her rather than go hunting.Admittedly,I was a little disappointed as I was hoping to babysit her kids today.But after the phone call,I settled into my normal routine.
I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I also watched a little bit of TV for a while.
When the afternoon approached,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had only a little bit to do today.It wasn't very much.I simply had to go to a local supermarket to pick up one small thing that was needed and after paying for that,I headed straight home as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while and also watched a DVD while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues on a positive trek,I am still dealing and struggling with depression and it's symptoms.I have been dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my struggles with SSA,the temptation to give in was indeed as strong as ever.I did give in to the temptation to look at porn,but it wasn't videos of two or more men having sexual activity with each other.It was simply looking at pictures of naked men.I actually really gazed at the pictures and I was also trying to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of masturbation.But somehow,I managed to stop myself before it could go too far and got off the computer for a while.This was all in the late afternoon after I had gotten home from my shopping at the AMVETS thrift store in another county.I need to be on guard as to when the temptation to act out really comes around.It has been really strong and resisting the temptation to do that is extremely difficult to do.I am still looking for ways to resist temptation to act out on my desires and I am always open to suggestions.I want to be the man that God wants me to be and not what the world wants me to be,which is to stay trapped in the so called "Gay lifestyle" and act out on my desires when I get the opportunity as well as temptation to act out on them.I don't want to act out as acting out won't really get me what I need and want,which is affirmation of my male gender identity and the feeling of authenticity that goes along with the affirmation of my male gender identity.
Tomorrow,I will be attending the morning's church service and I am hoping to get a positive lot out of it.As for the rest of the day,I have nothing else planned.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans and hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Friday, November 25, 2011
Tonight,my road to recovery remains positive.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day as I had something planned.
After having a quick lunch,I headed out to an AMVETS thrift store as they were having a 1/2 off everything you buy Black Friday sale and I wanted to see if I could find anything that I am looking for.
When I got there,I really looked around and I did find a few more vinyl albums and also,a few nice clothes to wear.After paying for the items,I headed for home.
On the way home,when I got back into my hometown,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a small thing that was needed for the home.After paying for that item,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as i had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery from depression and it's symptoms is still going strong and positive,I am still dealing and struggling with that each and every day.I simply deal with them one day a time.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in this department in the near and distant future ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation last night.Images of nude men with erect penises flooded my mind and I wound up manipulating my genitals to them and when my genitals were near hardness,I masturbated until I climaxed.I felt so miserable afterwards and also felt that I failed God and his son Jesus Christ.I also felt that I failed myself.I just sat in a chair wallowing in my failure and really feeling sorry for myself.I really want to get out of this SSA trap and I no longer want to feel sexual feelings towards other men.I want to change into the man that not only I want to be.But,most importantly,the man that God wants me to be.I am still determined to be that and really defeat this demon known as SSA.I am reminded day in and day out that this struggle and the work to overcome this struggle is an extremely difficult one indeed.I am reminded by each failing and relapsing and each misery that I feel when I do fail and relapse.I am still determined to beat this and I am going to keep at it.In no way am I going to seek out a male sexual partner for the purposes of acting out on my desires with him.I already know that acting out won't give me what I really want and need,which is affirmation of my male gender identity and the authenticity that I want to feel when I get that affirmation of my gender identity.That is all that I really want and ask for.Again,my goal is to simply reach the plateau that I need and also want to reach.I am not quitting until I reach it.
As for the rest of the holiday weekend,I have made no plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it does give me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the holiday weekend ahead.I am still in the fight against the dreaded demon known as SSA,but I am still going to fight that demon at all times.I am never giving up.That is right.I am never giving up until I reach that plateau that I want to reach.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day as I had something planned.
After having a quick lunch,I headed out to an AMVETS thrift store as they were having a 1/2 off everything you buy Black Friday sale and I wanted to see if I could find anything that I am looking for.
When I got there,I really looked around and I did find a few more vinyl albums and also,a few nice clothes to wear.After paying for the items,I headed for home.
On the way home,when I got back into my hometown,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a small thing that was needed for the home.After paying for that item,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as i had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery from depression and it's symptoms is still going strong and positive,I am still dealing and struggling with that each and every day.I simply deal with them one day a time.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in this department in the near and distant future ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation last night.Images of nude men with erect penises flooded my mind and I wound up manipulating my genitals to them and when my genitals were near hardness,I masturbated until I climaxed.I felt so miserable afterwards and also felt that I failed God and his son Jesus Christ.I also felt that I failed myself.I just sat in a chair wallowing in my failure and really feeling sorry for myself.I really want to get out of this SSA trap and I no longer want to feel sexual feelings towards other men.I want to change into the man that not only I want to be.But,most importantly,the man that God wants me to be.I am still determined to be that and really defeat this demon known as SSA.I am reminded day in and day out that this struggle and the work to overcome this struggle is an extremely difficult one indeed.I am reminded by each failing and relapsing and each misery that I feel when I do fail and relapse.I am still determined to beat this and I am going to keep at it.In no way am I going to seek out a male sexual partner for the purposes of acting out on my desires with him.I already know that acting out won't give me what I really want and need,which is affirmation of my male gender identity and the authenticity that I want to feel when I get that affirmation of my gender identity.That is all that I really want and ask for.Again,my goal is to simply reach the plateau that I need and also want to reach.I am not quitting until I reach it.
As for the rest of the holiday weekend,I have made no plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it does give me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the holiday weekend ahead.I am still in the fight against the dreaded demon known as SSA,but I am still going to fight that demon at all times.I am never giving up.That is right.I am never giving up until I reach that plateau that I want to reach.FJ
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Happy Thanksgiving,Everybody who reads.
Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively,but I had a roller coaster ride of a day today as things started out promising,but hit a ditch.
Today,as usual,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.I did my usual personal daily PC work and after that,I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day,but as stated,the day was really a rocky roller coaster ride.
There was a change of plans regarding having dinner today.At first,we were going to have it at our house with my locally living sister and her son,my nephew,coming over.But things changed because my sister bought a huge turkey and she invited my mom and I to come over to her house.We said okay and thanked her.
But things did hit a snag as the morning was winding down.My mom wound up with a terrible headache and also felt very hot.She talked to my sister and said that she wasn't feeling well and all and that she felt that I should only go and have dinner and that she should stay home and rest.My sister agreed and after I did a few more important personal stuff at home,I headed over there.
I didn't stay too long.After eating,I had some small talk with my sister for a while and after that,I headed straight home as there wasn't really anything that I could do as a result of it being a holiday and all.
I simply stayed home when I got there and relaxed while watching a movie on the DVD player.I also kept looking after my mom the rest of the day and I hoped that she would be feeling better before the day was over with.
After a while of resting and with my mom starting to feel a little bit better before the end of the day,I actually did some more personal PC work and made a few phone calls to friends to see how they were doing.Overall,a pretty rough roller coaster ride of a day and I am hoping that tomorrow will be a much better day.
Though my recovery continues to be positive despite some obstacles that I am still working to overcome,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my struggles with SSA,I did give into temptation last night.I simply masturbated after manipulating my genitals with my own hands and when they were near hardness,I masturbated.The trigger for that was images of nude men with erections wanting me to satisfy them sexually with my mouth.There was also a little bit of pornography involved with that as well as I also viewed some Gay themed pornography alongside that.I really felt miserable after giving into temptation and I felt like that I had failed God and myself by giving into that temptation.The sexual feelings that I feel for members of my own gender are really tearing me apart and today's negative happenings also made the struggle as little bit more worse as I was also distracted many times while trying to get personal things done online and otherwise.Fortunately,I managed to get the things that needed to get done accomplished and I did feel marginally better.I am just hoping that the rest of the day and the last several days of this month go by without anything to make my struggles even worse.I am hoping that my mom won't start getting terribly sick on any day as this current month is winding down.I am just hoping that my SSA struggles will start easing up so I can go on with the process of healing and really arrive at the point that I want to be,which is the man that not only I want to be,but the man that God wants me to be,which is a happy,well adjusted Heterosexual man,which is what God intended all humans,both male and female,to be.I am hoping to reach that much needed plateau soon.
Tomorrow,I have plans to go to an AMVETS thrift store in the next county and take advantage of their 1/2 off everything you buy Black Friday sale.I am hoping to find some really great things there.For the rest of the day,when I get home,I will simply relax and take it easy and enjoy the rest of the holiday weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead,as I am still fighting the good fight to overcome SSA and to finally reach that plateau that I want and yearn to reach.Hopefully,one day,I will finally reach it.FJ
Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively,but I had a roller coaster ride of a day today as things started out promising,but hit a ditch.
Today,as usual,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.I did my usual personal daily PC work and after that,I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day,but as stated,the day was really a rocky roller coaster ride.
There was a change of plans regarding having dinner today.At first,we were going to have it at our house with my locally living sister and her son,my nephew,coming over.But things changed because my sister bought a huge turkey and she invited my mom and I to come over to her house.We said okay and thanked her.
But things did hit a snag as the morning was winding down.My mom wound up with a terrible headache and also felt very hot.She talked to my sister and said that she wasn't feeling well and all and that she felt that I should only go and have dinner and that she should stay home and rest.My sister agreed and after I did a few more important personal stuff at home,I headed over there.
I didn't stay too long.After eating,I had some small talk with my sister for a while and after that,I headed straight home as there wasn't really anything that I could do as a result of it being a holiday and all.
I simply stayed home when I got there and relaxed while watching a movie on the DVD player.I also kept looking after my mom the rest of the day and I hoped that she would be feeling better before the day was over with.
After a while of resting and with my mom starting to feel a little bit better before the end of the day,I actually did some more personal PC work and made a few phone calls to friends to see how they were doing.Overall,a pretty rough roller coaster ride of a day and I am hoping that tomorrow will be a much better day.
Though my recovery continues to be positive despite some obstacles that I am still working to overcome,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my struggles with SSA,I did give into temptation last night.I simply masturbated after manipulating my genitals with my own hands and when they were near hardness,I masturbated.The trigger for that was images of nude men with erections wanting me to satisfy them sexually with my mouth.There was also a little bit of pornography involved with that as well as I also viewed some Gay themed pornography alongside that.I really felt miserable after giving into temptation and I felt like that I had failed God and myself by giving into that temptation.The sexual feelings that I feel for members of my own gender are really tearing me apart and today's negative happenings also made the struggle as little bit more worse as I was also distracted many times while trying to get personal things done online and otherwise.Fortunately,I managed to get the things that needed to get done accomplished and I did feel marginally better.I am just hoping that the rest of the day and the last several days of this month go by without anything to make my struggles even worse.I am hoping that my mom won't start getting terribly sick on any day as this current month is winding down.I am just hoping that my SSA struggles will start easing up so I can go on with the process of healing and really arrive at the point that I want to be,which is the man that not only I want to be,but the man that God wants me to be,which is a happy,well adjusted Heterosexual man,which is what God intended all humans,both male and female,to be.I am hoping to reach that much needed plateau soon.
Tomorrow,I have plans to go to an AMVETS thrift store in the next county and take advantage of their 1/2 off everything you buy Black Friday sale.I am hoping to find some really great things there.For the rest of the day,when I get home,I will simply relax and take it easy and enjoy the rest of the holiday weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead,as I am still fighting the good fight to overcome SSA and to finally reach that plateau that I want and yearn to reach.Hopefully,one day,I will finally reach it.FJ
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I really didn't have too much to do.Since it is the day before the holiday,I simply spent the day just doing some last minute stuff.I had to make sure that things were ready for when the holiday truly approaches.I had to go to a local supermarket to pick up a few more things that were needed for the holiday.After paying for them,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas and after that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a friends house to see how he was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I simply relaxed and watched a DVD while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to go positively,I am still having to deal and struggle with depression and it's symptoms.I am dealing with them one day at a time.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
I am fully aware that I haven't discussed anything regarding my struggles with Homosexuality/Same Sex Attachment Disorder(SSA).But lately,I have been really having a very difficult uphill battle regarding my struggles.I have given into temptation on many occasions.I have watched online pornography and I have also masturbated to that online porn as well.I have also masturbated without watching porn.In those instances,I have been talking to myself pretending that there is another man in the room with me and we talk about sex and of me performing oral sex on him.Also,I have been manipulating my genitals to almost hardness as a result of erectile dysfunction that I am also struggling with alongside the unwanted SSA that I am trying to overcome.When my genitals are at near hardness,I simply masturbate until I climax.Afterwards,I feel miserable as a result of that falling short of what I want to accomplish and strive for,which is overcoming this dreaded demon known as SSA and to be the man that not only that I want to be.But the man that God through his son Jesus Christ wants me to be,which is a healthy and happy Heterosexual,as humans, both male and female are meant and supposed to be.As a result of my constant falling short,I am feeling down,miserable and dirty.I so desperately want to overcome this dreaded SSA and I would really like someone,preferably a male who I can trust,confide and connect with in a healthy authentic manner,to really help me out and show me how I can overcome these nasty habits that I have that only reaffirm the sexual identity that I am seeking to change,which is Homosexuality,and keeps me far away from what I want to accomplish.If anyone out there can help,please do so.I am open to any suggestions and ideas.I would like to know for any man like me,what did you do to resist the temptations to give into those feelings without seeking another male partner for the sake of having sexual activity with him.The reason why most men struggling with SSA like myself masturbate is to try and connect to their lost maleness,but in reality,it doesn't do that.It is simply acting out on the unnatural and sinful desires that are emotional in origin and need to be corrected authentically by positive interaction with other man in a healthy and authentic setting.Again,any help,especially by Christian men who have successfully overcame SSA and anything having to do with it,would be appreciated.Thanks.
Tomorrow is the holiday.I will simply be staying home and taking it easy.My sister who lives locally will also be having dinner with us as she will be all alone this year and has nobody else to spend it with.That is all that I have planned for tomorrow.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead,including the state of my current struggles with SSA and how I can be advised to help me resist the temptation to act out on the desires associated with SSA in other forms other than seeking male partners for sexual activity.Again,any help or advice,especially by those who are Christian who have successfully overcome SSA and anything to do with it,is appreciated.Thanks in advance for anything.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I really didn't have too much to do.Since it is the day before the holiday,I simply spent the day just doing some last minute stuff.I had to make sure that things were ready for when the holiday truly approaches.I had to go to a local supermarket to pick up a few more things that were needed for the holiday.After paying for them,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas and after that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a friends house to see how he was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I simply relaxed and watched a DVD while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to go positively,I am still having to deal and struggle with depression and it's symptoms.I am dealing with them one day at a time.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
I am fully aware that I haven't discussed anything regarding my struggles with Homosexuality/Same Sex Attachment Disorder(SSA).But lately,I have been really having a very difficult uphill battle regarding my struggles.I have given into temptation on many occasions.I have watched online pornography and I have also masturbated to that online porn as well.I have also masturbated without watching porn.In those instances,I have been talking to myself pretending that there is another man in the room with me and we talk about sex and of me performing oral sex on him.Also,I have been manipulating my genitals to almost hardness as a result of erectile dysfunction that I am also struggling with alongside the unwanted SSA that I am trying to overcome.When my genitals are at near hardness,I simply masturbate until I climax.Afterwards,I feel miserable as a result of that falling short of what I want to accomplish and strive for,which is overcoming this dreaded demon known as SSA and to be the man that not only that I want to be.But the man that God through his son Jesus Christ wants me to be,which is a healthy and happy Heterosexual,as humans, both male and female are meant and supposed to be.As a result of my constant falling short,I am feeling down,miserable and dirty.I so desperately want to overcome this dreaded SSA and I would really like someone,preferably a male who I can trust,confide and connect with in a healthy authentic manner,to really help me out and show me how I can overcome these nasty habits that I have that only reaffirm the sexual identity that I am seeking to change,which is Homosexuality,and keeps me far away from what I want to accomplish.If anyone out there can help,please do so.I am open to any suggestions and ideas.I would like to know for any man like me,what did you do to resist the temptations to give into those feelings without seeking another male partner for the sake of having sexual activity with him.The reason why most men struggling with SSA like myself masturbate is to try and connect to their lost maleness,but in reality,it doesn't do that.It is simply acting out on the unnatural and sinful desires that are emotional in origin and need to be corrected authentically by positive interaction with other man in a healthy and authentic setting.Again,any help,especially by Christian men who have successfully overcame SSA and anything having to do with it,would be appreciated.Thanks.
Tomorrow is the holiday.I will simply be staying home and taking it easy.My sister who lives locally will also be having dinner with us as she will be all alone this year and has nobody else to spend it with.That is all that I have planned for tomorrow.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead,including the state of my current struggles with SSA and how I can be advised to help me resist the temptation to act out on the desires associated with SSA in other forms other than seeking male partners for sexual activity.Again,any help or advice,especially by those who are Christian who have successfully overcome SSA and anything to do with it,is appreciated.Thanks in advance for anything.FJ
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
After getting dressed,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those items,I headed over to another one to exchange something that I picked up by mistake to get something else that I meant to pick up.After doing that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away in their proper places and I relaxed for a bit.I had to make an important phone call in the early afternoon before I set out to do anything else.
After the phone call,I headed over to Best Buy to pay a bill that was due on Friday,but I wanted to pay it now so it would be paid on time,though it was a few days early as I wanted to do it before the holiday came around.After that,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues on a positive road,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
After getting dressed,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those items,I headed over to another one to exchange something that I picked up by mistake to get something else that I meant to pick up.After doing that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away in their proper places and I relaxed for a bit.I had to make an important phone call in the early afternoon before I set out to do anything else.
After the phone call,I headed over to Best Buy to pay a bill that was due on Friday,but I wanted to pay it now so it would be paid on time,though it was a few days early as I wanted to do it before the holiday came around.After that,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues on a positive road,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, November 21, 2011
Tonight,my road to recovery continues to be positive.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day as I had quite a few things planned.
I had a couple of groups that I had to attend today.The first was a recovery group and that went pretty good.The second was a work skills group where I needed to learn some skills necessary in order to stay working and how to improve my relationships with my colleagues around work.The latter group was also another success and after that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up one small thing and after paying for that,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to progress on a positive level,I am still dealing with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the near and distant future.
As for tomorrow,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day as I had quite a few things planned.
I had a couple of groups that I had to attend today.The first was a recovery group and that went pretty good.The second was a work skills group where I needed to learn some skills necessary in order to stay working and how to improve my relationships with my colleagues around work.The latter group was also another success and after that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up one small thing and after paying for that,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to progress on a positive level,I am still dealing with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the near and distant future.
As for tomorrow,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.I was really hurrying through it and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I got dressed up and headed over to the church for this morning's service.I had a lot of anticipation for this and was also looking forward to the service with gusto.I had already done my personal PC work before leaving and I was glad that it was done.
The service was wonderful.I really enjoyed the sermon and I did get a lot out of the fellowship with all the other people.After that was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into casual clothes to proceed with the rest of the day as I had only a few things to do.
I first had a quick lunch and after that,I headed out to do what I needed to do.
I first headed over to a gas station to get some gas and after that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something that we needed for Friday's dinner.After doing that,I headed straight home and I was staying home for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor anyplace else to go.
When I got home,I put away what I had bought and I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good and eventful day.
Though my recovery continues to be positive,I am still struggling and dealing with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Tomorrow,I have a couple of groups that I need to attend.Apart from that,I have nothing else planned.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.I was really hurrying through it and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I got dressed up and headed over to the church for this morning's service.I had a lot of anticipation for this and was also looking forward to the service with gusto.I had already done my personal PC work before leaving and I was glad that it was done.
The service was wonderful.I really enjoyed the sermon and I did get a lot out of the fellowship with all the other people.After that was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into casual clothes to proceed with the rest of the day as I had only a few things to do.
I first had a quick lunch and after that,I headed out to do what I needed to do.
I first headed over to a gas station to get some gas and after that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something that we needed for Friday's dinner.After doing that,I headed straight home and I was staying home for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor anyplace else to go.
When I got home,I put away what I had bought and I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good and eventful day.
Though my recovery continues to be positive,I am still struggling and dealing with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Tomorrow,I have a couple of groups that I need to attend.Apart from that,I have nothing else planned.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, November 19, 2011
Tonight,my road to recovery continues to be positive.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.I did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I didn't really have too much to do.I simply had only a few errands that needed to be run around the city.Since I am still living with my mom at home,I have to really get out there and really do everything that needs to be done in order for the individual day to be complete.
I went to a local supermarket to pick up several things that the home needed and after that,I proceeded to go to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick some stuff that was also needed for the home.After paying for those things,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped in to see a friend to see how he was doing and after a few minutes with him,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day today.
Though my recovery continues to be positive,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Tomorrow,I am planning to attend the morning's church service and after that,I have nothing planned as of yet.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans and hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.I did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I didn't really have too much to do.I simply had only a few errands that needed to be run around the city.Since I am still living with my mom at home,I have to really get out there and really do everything that needs to be done in order for the individual day to be complete.
I went to a local supermarket to pick up several things that the home needed and after that,I proceeded to go to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick some stuff that was also needed for the home.After paying for those things,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped in to see a friend to see how he was doing and after a few minutes with him,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day today.
Though my recovery continues to be positive,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Tomorrow,I am planning to attend the morning's church service and after that,I have nothing planned as of yet.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans and hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Friday, November 18, 2011
Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
After fixing my mom's breakfast,I went out to the bank to withdraw some money.After that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After doing that,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor anyplace else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched A DVD while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to go positively,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
After fixing my mom's breakfast,I went out to the bank to withdraw some money.After that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After doing that,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor anyplace else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched A DVD while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to go positively,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had a spirituality group that I needed to attend today.I was having high hopes for the group today as I was fully prepared for the group.Before heading for the group location,I had to pick up a new pair of glasses from the eye doctor in town and after that,I headed over to the group location.
The group went better than expected.I did get a lot out of it and after it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch.After I was done eating,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor anyplace else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues positively,I am still dealing and struggling with depression and it's symptoms.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had a spirituality group that I needed to attend today.I was having high hopes for the group today as I was fully prepared for the group.Before heading for the group location,I had to pick up a new pair of glasses from the eye doctor in town and after that,I headed over to the group location.
The group went better than expected.I did get a lot out of it and after it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch.After I was done eating,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor anyplace else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues positively,I am still dealing and struggling with depression and it's symptoms.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had only one thing planned for today.I headed over to the post office to mail out and important letter and after that was done,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few more things that were needed for the home.After that was done,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor anyplace else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues positively,I still have to deal and struggle with depression and it's symptoms.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I will be attending and I am hoping that this goes well.As for the rest of the day,I have made no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had only one thing planned for today.I headed over to the post office to mail out and important letter and after that was done,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few more things that were needed for the home.After that was done,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor anyplace else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues positively,I still have to deal and struggle with depression and it's symptoms.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I will be attending and I am hoping that this goes well.As for the rest of the day,I have made no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had only one small errand to run and that was to go to a local supermarket to pick up a few small things.After paying for them,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a few friends houses to see how they were doing.After spending a few minutes with them,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues positively,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had only one small errand to run and that was to go to a local supermarket to pick up a few small things.After paying for them,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a few friends houses to see how they were doing.After spending a few minutes with them,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of day as I had nothing else to do nor any place else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues positively,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am dealing with them on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, November 14, 2011
Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed to clean up.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.I also did my personal PC work and I got ready to proceed with the rest of the day as I had plenty on my agenda today.
I had tow groups that I needed to attend today.The first was a local recovery group and that went great.I also attended a group to further enhance my work skills and that also went as well as expected.After the latter group was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things that were needed for the home and after that,I headed over to see how a friend was doing and after a few minutes with him,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor anyplace else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.I also watched a DVD while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to be positive,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am doing so on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it give me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed to clean up.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.I also did my personal PC work and I got ready to proceed with the rest of the day as I had plenty on my agenda today.
I had tow groups that I needed to attend today.The first was a local recovery group and that went great.I also attended a group to further enhance my work skills and that also went as well as expected.After the latter group was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things that were needed for the home and after that,I headed over to see how a friend was doing and after a few minutes with him,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the day as I had nothing else to do nor anyplace else to go.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.I also watched a DVD while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to be positive,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am doing so on a one day at a time basis.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it give me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
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