Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up a little later than usual and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
Today,we had some snow falling,so I decided to do everything close to home.Though the weather wasn't too cold,I chose that in case the weather gets worse,simply keep everything close to home.
I only ran a couple of errands today.I went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After that,I went to the drug store to pick a couple of important things.After paying for the items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start improving very soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours.I woke up to yet another erection that was throbbing.I had to really toss and turn just to resist the temptation to masturbate it away.The erection would soon die down and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this one,I have to keep in mind that temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.It can come in any way,shape or form.Each and every time I get a morning erection,though it doesn't happen too often,I do get the temptation to masturbate it away when it does happen.The resistance of the temptation to masturbate when erect can be very difficult.It is a lot easier to give into the temptation than it is to resist the temptation.I have to stay on guard and be watchful because temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to keep fighting the urge and continue to work on resistance.I am hoping that I can stay strong and stay focused on my goals to heal from unwanted SSA rather than give into the feelings.I am still open to any suggestions.
As for tomorrow,I will be attending the morning's church service and the morning Holy Bible study class before the service.After that,I have nothing else planned.But whatever I do,I hope that it give me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, February 25, 2012
Friday, February 24, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up later than I wanted to and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
We were supposed to get snow today as we were under a "Lake Snow Watch" in my area last night,but I guess that it was cancelled overnight while I was sleeping as when I woke up,all that I heard was rain.I guess that the snow that we were supposed to get bypassed us and went somewhere else.I was relieved.I was actually worried on how was I going to get out of my driveway if we really got the snow that we were supposed to get.
Since the weather pattern changed,I simply decided to do some things.I had a few errands to run.I first went to the public library to print something out of my e-mail box and after that was done,I went to a couple of local stores to pick up some things that I needed.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a DVD or two.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start improving soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted twice in the wee early morning hours.I had two morning erections this morning.When this happens,my cravings to masturbate are at an all time high.I simply tossed and turned until my penis softened and I fell asleep.A few hours later,I was awakened by another erection.I really had to fight this one as it was really hard and throbbing.I was taking deep breaths repeatedly and again,tossing and turning until my penis softened again.This morning was really a double whammy for me as I had to really fight the temptation to masturbate both these erections away.It was difficult,but I managed to escape.This really tells me that I still have to be on guard and be watchful as the temptation to masturbate can really rear it's ugly head.In the healing process from SSA,masturbation has a negative effect on the healing from those unwanted desires as it is a form of acting out without paying the price.Not only that,masturbation only reinforces the Homosexual identity in the case of men wanting to heal from unwanted SSA and change themselves from Homosexual to Heterosexual.Masturbation,in itself,is also a dirty and a very unclean habit.It is also very addicting as once a person starts to do that,they are hooked and it is like a person's sexuality owns them rather than they owning their sexuality.I just have to stay in the fight to abstain from this habit and to resist the temptation to act out in this way.I am still open to any suggestions.
As for the weekend,I haven't really made any plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up later than I wanted to and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
We were supposed to get snow today as we were under a "Lake Snow Watch" in my area last night,but I guess that it was cancelled overnight while I was sleeping as when I woke up,all that I heard was rain.I guess that the snow that we were supposed to get bypassed us and went somewhere else.I was relieved.I was actually worried on how was I going to get out of my driveway if we really got the snow that we were supposed to get.
Since the weather pattern changed,I simply decided to do some things.I had a few errands to run.I first went to the public library to print something out of my e-mail box and after that was done,I went to a couple of local stores to pick up some things that I needed.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a DVD or two.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start improving soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted twice in the wee early morning hours.I had two morning erections this morning.When this happens,my cravings to masturbate are at an all time high.I simply tossed and turned until my penis softened and I fell asleep.A few hours later,I was awakened by another erection.I really had to fight this one as it was really hard and throbbing.I was taking deep breaths repeatedly and again,tossing and turning until my penis softened again.This morning was really a double whammy for me as I had to really fight the temptation to masturbate both these erections away.It was difficult,but I managed to escape.This really tells me that I still have to be on guard and be watchful as the temptation to masturbate can really rear it's ugly head.In the healing process from SSA,masturbation has a negative effect on the healing from those unwanted desires as it is a form of acting out without paying the price.Not only that,masturbation only reinforces the Homosexual identity in the case of men wanting to heal from unwanted SSA and change themselves from Homosexual to Heterosexual.Masturbation,in itself,is also a dirty and a very unclean habit.It is also very addicting as once a person starts to do that,they are hooked and it is like a person's sexuality owns them rather than they owning their sexuality.I just have to stay in the fight to abstain from this habit and to resist the temptation to act out in this way.I am still open to any suggestions.
As for the weekend,I haven't really made any plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had a few things planned and I wanted to get them accomplished.
The first thing that I attended was my usual Thursday spirituality group.I was looking forward to this with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group was wonderful.I dd get a lot out of it.After the group,I went to a local community kitchen to have lunch and after I was finished with that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start to improve in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when an erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I fought this urge the usual way that I fight it by simply tossing and turning until the erection died down.I slept for another few hours and got up later on.For the rest of the day,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best.Though I escaped today,the temptation to act out by masturbating can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to continue staying on guard and being watchful.I also have to work on staying strong whenever temptation rears it's ugly head again.I am still open to any suggestions or ideas as to how I can do that.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had a few things planned and I wanted to get them accomplished.
The first thing that I attended was my usual Thursday spirituality group.I was looking forward to this with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group was wonderful.I dd get a lot out of it.After the group,I went to a local community kitchen to have lunch and after I was finished with that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start to improve in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when an erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I fought this urge the usual way that I fight it by simply tossing and turning until the erection died down.I slept for another few hours and got up later on.For the rest of the day,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best.Though I escaped today,the temptation to act out by masturbating can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to continue staying on guard and being watchful.I also have to work on staying strong whenever temptation rears it's ugly head again.I am still open to any suggestions or ideas as to how I can do that.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that was done,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda.I first went to the bank to withdraw some money for my mom.I went back home to register the bills at the Where's George website and after that was done,I went back out to go to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things that were needed.After paying for those items,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I put all the groceries away and I relaxed for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts improving in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best today.I had no desire to masturbate nor to look at porn nor was I feeling hungry to act out with another man.While I escaped today,there is still tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I simply went through the day without having any temptations of any kind.Still,I need to stay on guard and be watchful because temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I need to stay strong whenever temptation can rear it's ugly head.I am still open to any suggestions.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that was done,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda.I first went to the bank to withdraw some money for my mom.I went back home to register the bills at the Where's George website and after that was done,I went back out to go to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things that were needed.After paying for those items,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I put all the groceries away and I relaxed for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts improving in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best today.I had no desire to masturbate nor to look at porn nor was I feeling hungry to act out with another man.While I escaped today,there is still tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I simply went through the day without having any temptations of any kind.Still,I need to stay on guard and be watchful because temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I need to stay strong whenever temptation can rear it's ugly head.I am still open to any suggestions.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up a little later than usual and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day.
I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a small thing that I needed.After that,I headed over to a copy store to make some copies of something that I had.After doing that,I headed for the public library to do some printing of things and after that,I headed over to a friend's house in the next town within the county that I live to drop off something that I wanted him to give to someone else he knows.After doing that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local small store to pick up something else.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start improving within the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted in the wee early morning hours when I awoke to a morning erection.It was also another throbbing one at that.I really had to fight this temptation.It was a really strong one at that.I tossed and turned repeatedly until the erection died down.I slept for another few hours.Though I did escape this temptation,I know that temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Temptation can come in any way,shape or form.I fought this one,but it can and will happen again.I need to stay on guard and be watchful.The temptation to sin can be very strong and overwhelming.I don't want to act out nor do I want to even think of giving into any temptation.I am still open to any more ideas.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up a little later than usual and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day.
I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a small thing that I needed.After that,I headed over to a copy store to make some copies of something that I had.After doing that,I headed for the public library to do some printing of things and after that,I headed over to a friend's house in the next town within the county that I live to drop off something that I wanted him to give to someone else he knows.After doing that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local small store to pick up something else.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start improving within the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted in the wee early morning hours when I awoke to a morning erection.It was also another throbbing one at that.I really had to fight this temptation.It was a really strong one at that.I tossed and turned repeatedly until the erection died down.I slept for another few hours.Though I did escape this temptation,I know that temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Temptation can come in any way,shape or form.I fought this one,but it can and will happen again.I need to stay on guard and be watchful.The temptation to sin can be very strong and overwhelming.I don't want to act out nor do I want to even think of giving into any temptation.I am still open to any more ideas.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, February 20, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up later than I wanted to and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and afterwards,I got dressed up in a sweatsuit.I really couldn't do too much as a result of the unfortunate thing that happened yesterday regarding one of the wheels of my car.
I only ran one errand today.It was really close to home.I stopped at a local convenience store to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I simply glued myself back to my computer to search for a wheel for my car.
I visited a lot of websites that sold wheels for the particular car that I drive.I found quite a few at various prices and I was trying to search for one that had the lowest price.I did find some reasonably priced ones and I did write them down,including the part numbers and the sits that I saw them on.I gave the people at Goodyear a call to let them know what I had found and I was hoping that in the next few days,I would have the money together to get the job done,but I got some loans from family members and they told me to take my time in paying them back.I simply went to a local junkyard to get the wheel and I was fortunate that they had the particular wheel that I was looking for.After paying him,I took the wheel to the local Goodyear and headed for home to await the call that it was ready.
After that was finished,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I headed over to Goodyear so they could put the wheel with the new tire on.After that was done,I went to a local Wendy's to have a Frosty and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put my pajamas on,took my medication and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve very soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best.I guess that being bored with not going anywhere that I wanted to go as a result of the troubles with my car.It does stink,I know.But what can you do when you have car troubles.I guess that you can do as little as you can.But still,I wasn't really tempted.I actually got through the day without having anything that would make me give into the temptation to act out in other ways other than searching for another male partner for the purpose of acting out.While I did get through this day unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the day after that and so on.Temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.When that happens,I will just have to use all my strength and wits to resist the temptation to act out by masturbating.I am still open to any suggestions from anyone who reads and follows my blog.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do.I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up later than I wanted to and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and afterwards,I got dressed up in a sweatsuit.I really couldn't do too much as a result of the unfortunate thing that happened yesterday regarding one of the wheels of my car.
I only ran one errand today.It was really close to home.I stopped at a local convenience store to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I simply glued myself back to my computer to search for a wheel for my car.
I visited a lot of websites that sold wheels for the particular car that I drive.I found quite a few at various prices and I was trying to search for one that had the lowest price.I did find some reasonably priced ones and I did write them down,including the part numbers and the sits that I saw them on.I gave the people at Goodyear a call to let them know what I had found and I was hoping that in the next few days,I would have the money together to get the job done,but I got some loans from family members and they told me to take my time in paying them back.I simply went to a local junkyard to get the wheel and I was fortunate that they had the particular wheel that I was looking for.After paying him,I took the wheel to the local Goodyear and headed for home to await the call that it was ready.
After that was finished,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I headed over to Goodyear so they could put the wheel with the new tire on.After that was done,I went to a local Wendy's to have a Frosty and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put my pajamas on,took my medication and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve very soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best.I guess that being bored with not going anywhere that I wanted to go as a result of the troubles with my car.It does stink,I know.But what can you do when you have car troubles.I guess that you can do as little as you can.But still,I wasn't really tempted.I actually got through the day without having anything that would make me give into the temptation to act out in other ways other than searching for another male partner for the purpose of acting out.While I did get through this day unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the day after that and so on.Temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.When that happens,I will just have to use all my strength and wits to resist the temptation to act out by masturbating.I am still open to any suggestions from anyone who reads and follows my blog.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do.I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, February 19, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty fair today,though it did start out promising until an unfortunate thing this morning.
The morning started out promising.I got up and bathed.I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up to go to church and that is when things started to go downhill.
On the way to church,my tire went flat.I had to pull over to the side of the road and call AAA.After calling them,I waited for them to come,which they did,earlier than expected.After the AAA guy put the spare wheel on,I continued on my way to church and though I did miss most of the morning Holy Bible study group,I managed to get there for the service afterwards.
The service was wonderful.After some fellowship,I headed straight home as I couldn't go anywhere as a result of my compact spare being on my car.
When I got home,I dressed into my casual clothes and called the local Goodyear and explained my problem to them.They simply told me to drop the wheel off and they would get in touch with me later.After leaving it there,I headed for a copy store in the area and after I was done there,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I had my lunch and started to do my personal PC work when I got a phone call from the local Goodyear telling me that the problem was much worse than I figured.The wheel is bent and as a result of that,the tire was damaged and both need replacing.After I hung up,I resumed with my personal PC work and after I was finished with that,I headed back out to a local Dollar Tree to pick up a bottle of dish detergent that my mom needed.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I simply relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty fair day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I hope that my recovery starts to improve soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours by another erection that woke me up out of a deep sleep.It was also another throbbing one as well.I simply tossed and turned until my penis softened.But the temptation didn't go away too fast.I was still tempted for much of the day as a result of the negative situation that had happened to me this morning.But I managed to hang in there and fight the temptation to masturbate and I did get through the rest of the day.I am still going to stay on guard and be watchful because though I escaped today,temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.When it does,though I am not waiting on it to happen,I will just have to stay in the fight to resist and continue to use all my wits and strength in that resistance from that temptation.I am still open to any new ideas,suggestions and advice.
Tomorrow,I was originally planning to go to another Salvation Army thrift store in the next county,but as a result of what had happened today with my tire and wheel,I will have to put that on hold until the new month.I just hope that no bad stormy weather happens while I am waiting.Because of this,I really don't have anything planned.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
The morning started out promising.I got up and bathed.I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up to go to church and that is when things started to go downhill.
On the way to church,my tire went flat.I had to pull over to the side of the road and call AAA.After calling them,I waited for them to come,which they did,earlier than expected.After the AAA guy put the spare wheel on,I continued on my way to church and though I did miss most of the morning Holy Bible study group,I managed to get there for the service afterwards.
The service was wonderful.After some fellowship,I headed straight home as I couldn't go anywhere as a result of my compact spare being on my car.
When I got home,I dressed into my casual clothes and called the local Goodyear and explained my problem to them.They simply told me to drop the wheel off and they would get in touch with me later.After leaving it there,I headed for a copy store in the area and after I was done there,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I had my lunch and started to do my personal PC work when I got a phone call from the local Goodyear telling me that the problem was much worse than I figured.The wheel is bent and as a result of that,the tire was damaged and both need replacing.After I hung up,I resumed with my personal PC work and after I was finished with that,I headed back out to a local Dollar Tree to pick up a bottle of dish detergent that my mom needed.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I simply relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty fair day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I hope that my recovery starts to improve soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours by another erection that woke me up out of a deep sleep.It was also another throbbing one as well.I simply tossed and turned until my penis softened.But the temptation didn't go away too fast.I was still tempted for much of the day as a result of the negative situation that had happened to me this morning.But I managed to hang in there and fight the temptation to masturbate and I did get through the rest of the day.I am still going to stay on guard and be watchful because though I escaped today,temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.When it does,though I am not waiting on it to happen,I will just have to stay in the fight to resist and continue to use all my wits and strength in that resistance from that temptation.I am still open to any new ideas,suggestions and advice.
Tomorrow,I was originally planning to go to another Salvation Army thrift store in the next county,but as a result of what had happened today with my tire and wheel,I will have to put that on hold until the new month.I just hope that no bad stormy weather happens while I am waiting.Because of this,I really don't have anything planned.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, February 18, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up much later than usual and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had only a few things planned for today and I wanted to make sure that I got them done.
I first went to a bargain outlet closeout store to pick up a couple of things there.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things there.After paying for those items,I headed over to a copy store to make a few copies for my mom.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did dome more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve soon in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted in the wee early morning hours again when I was awakened by another erection that was also throbbing.I really had to fight this temptation as it was really overwhelming and strong.I really tossed and turned because I didn't want to masturbate as the urge was really strong.After several minutes,my penis softened and I drifted back into sleep.For the rest of the day,I really had no temptation.But that can change in the near future as temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to be watchful when that happens.I want to stay pure and clean and giving into temptation will only make me the opposite.I will just have to keep fighting when temptation does indeed rear it's ugly head and I have to stay strong.I have to show my body that I own it and not the opposite.Again,I am still open to any suggestions or advice.
Tomorrow morning,I am planning on attending the morning's church service and early Holy Bible study class.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up much later than usual and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had only a few things planned for today and I wanted to make sure that I got them done.
I first went to a bargain outlet closeout store to pick up a couple of things there.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things there.After paying for those items,I headed over to a copy store to make a few copies for my mom.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did dome more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve soon in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted in the wee early morning hours again when I was awakened by another erection that was also throbbing.I really had to fight this temptation as it was really overwhelming and strong.I really tossed and turned because I didn't want to masturbate as the urge was really strong.After several minutes,my penis softened and I drifted back into sleep.For the rest of the day,I really had no temptation.But that can change in the near future as temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to be watchful when that happens.I want to stay pure and clean and giving into temptation will only make me the opposite.I will just have to keep fighting when temptation does indeed rear it's ugly head and I have to stay strong.I have to show my body that I own it and not the opposite.Again,I am still open to any suggestions or advice.
Tomorrow morning,I am planning on attending the morning's church service and early Holy Bible study class.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Friday, February 17, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up a little later than I wanted to and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed.I had only a few things planned and I wanted to get them done.
I first went to a local Tim Horton's to buy some ground coffee.After paying for that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few more things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I watched TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours by being awoke by an erection that was throbbing.My temptation to masturbate it away was really strong and overwhelming.I had to really fight this.I simply tossed and turned until the erection died down.I slept for a few more hours.Though I escaped this one,I have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out in other ways will rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to stay on guard and be watchful.The temptation to act out in ways other than seeking a male partner for the purpose of acting out sexually can be very strong and very difficult to resist.It is just a day by day fight.I have to stay in the fight and hang in there.I am still open to any suggestions or advice.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up a little later than I wanted to and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed.I had only a few things planned and I wanted to get them done.
I first went to a local Tim Horton's to buy some ground coffee.After paying for that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few more things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I watched TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours by being awoke by an erection that was throbbing.My temptation to masturbate it away was really strong and overwhelming.I had to really fight this.I simply tossed and turned until the erection died down.I slept for a few more hours.Though I escaped this one,I have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out in other ways will rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to stay on guard and be watchful.The temptation to act out in ways other than seeking a male partner for the purpose of acting out sexually can be very strong and very difficult to resist.It is just a day by day fight.I have to stay in the fight and hang in there.I am still open to any suggestions or advice.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Thursday, February 16, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to get ready for the rest of my day.
I had a spirituality group that I needed to attend and I was looking forward to this with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group was wonderful.I got a lot out of it and after it was over,I had lunch at a local community kitchen.After lunch,I headed over to the post office to mail out some important stuff that needed to be mailed out.After that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things for the home.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that,someday soon,my recovery will improve.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours.An erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.It was also yet another throbbing one.I really had to fight the temptation to masturbate the erection away as that is when my temptation to masturbate is the strongest.I had to really toss and turn to get rid of that throbbing erection.After several minutes,my penis softened and I went back to sleep.A couple of hours later,I had to get up and take my bath to clean up before going on with the rest of my day.Though I escaped that occurance,this only shows me that I have to continue staying on guard and being watchful as the temptation to act out by masturbating can get really strong and it can be very hard to resist.I have to keep fighting this temptation as the temptation to act out by masturbating can be strong and overwhelming.I have to keep relying on God and my strength to resist this temptation as it can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Fighting the temptation is the only thing that I can do.Any other advice or suggestions are welcomed.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to get ready for the rest of my day.
I had a spirituality group that I needed to attend and I was looking forward to this with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group was wonderful.I got a lot out of it and after it was over,I had lunch at a local community kitchen.After lunch,I headed over to the post office to mail out some important stuff that needed to be mailed out.After that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things for the home.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that,someday soon,my recovery will improve.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours.An erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.It was also yet another throbbing one.I really had to fight the temptation to masturbate the erection away as that is when my temptation to masturbate is the strongest.I had to really toss and turn to get rid of that throbbing erection.After several minutes,my penis softened and I went back to sleep.A couple of hours later,I had to get up and take my bath to clean up before going on with the rest of my day.Though I escaped that occurance,this only shows me that I have to continue staying on guard and being watchful as the temptation to act out by masturbating can get really strong and it can be very hard to resist.I have to keep fighting this temptation as the temptation to act out by masturbating can be strong and overwhelming.I have to keep relying on God and my strength to resist this temptation as it can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Fighting the temptation is the only thing that I can do.Any other advice or suggestions are welcomed.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the morning and I bathed as usual.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to prepare for what I had planned for the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda.I first had to go get my oil changed in my car's engine.After that,I headed over to the bank to withdraw money for myself.After that was done,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up something that was needed for the home.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recover will start to improve soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awoke with an erection that was also a throbber.I simply had to toss and turn repeatedly to rid myself of this as when I am erect,the temptation to masturbate it away is overwhelmingly strong.After a few minutes,my penis softened and I fell back asleep.But a few hours later,I woke up with another erection and again,my temptation to masturbate it away was overwhelmingly strong.I simply got up to use the bathroom and on the way,my penis softened again.While I escaped these occurances,I still need to stay on guard and be watchful.The temptation to act out in any way,shape or form can be very strong.I know that I have a choice to give in or not to give in.While I chose not to give in to these latest bouts,I know that temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to stay on guard and work on staying strong when it does.Today,I did escape.But there is always tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I need to continue fighting temptation whenever it rears it's ugly head again.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the morning and I bathed as usual.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to prepare for what I had planned for the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda.I first had to go get my oil changed in my car's engine.After that,I headed over to the bank to withdraw money for myself.After that was done,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up something that was needed for the home.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recover will start to improve soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awoke with an erection that was also a throbber.I simply had to toss and turn repeatedly to rid myself of this as when I am erect,the temptation to masturbate it away is overwhelmingly strong.After a few minutes,my penis softened and I fell back asleep.But a few hours later,I woke up with another erection and again,my temptation to masturbate it away was overwhelmingly strong.I simply got up to use the bathroom and on the way,my penis softened again.While I escaped these occurances,I still need to stay on guard and be watchful.The temptation to act out in any way,shape or form can be very strong.I know that I have a choice to give in or not to give in.While I chose not to give in to these latest bouts,I know that temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to stay on guard and work on staying strong when it does.Today,I did escape.But there is always tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I need to continue fighting temptation whenever it rears it's ugly head again.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had only one thing on my agenda today.I had an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor today and I was eagerly looking forward to this.I always look forward to seeing my counselor in this area as I always have lots to talk about.
The session was great.After she set another appointment with me,I left and headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a store to pick up several things.After paying for these items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will improve soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted twice in the wee early morning hours.I had two morning erections.The first happened at around 4:45am and to get rid of it,I simply tossed and turned around until the erection died down.The second one happened at around 7:56am and to get rid of that,I simply had to get up and use the bathroom and while on the way there,the erection died down.As I have stated previously,my temptation to masturbate gets really strong when I have morning erections because in the past,when I did get them,I would masturbate them away,which is why the temptation to masturbate is really strong when this happens.I escaped these occurances,but I know that I still stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out by masturbating can get overwhelmingly strong.I will have to continue to fight this when it comes and just deal with it when it comes.Still,advice and suggestions are always welcomed.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment to get the oil changed in my engine.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had only one thing on my agenda today.I had an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor today and I was eagerly looking forward to this.I always look forward to seeing my counselor in this area as I always have lots to talk about.
The session was great.After she set another appointment with me,I left and headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a store to pick up several things.After paying for these items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will improve soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted twice in the wee early morning hours.I had two morning erections.The first happened at around 4:45am and to get rid of it,I simply tossed and turned around until the erection died down.The second one happened at around 7:56am and to get rid of that,I simply had to get up and use the bathroom and while on the way there,the erection died down.As I have stated previously,my temptation to masturbate gets really strong when I have morning erections because in the past,when I did get them,I would masturbate them away,which is why the temptation to masturbate is really strong when this happens.I escaped these occurances,but I know that I still stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out by masturbating can get overwhelmingly strong.I will have to continue to fight this when it comes and just deal with it when it comes.Still,advice and suggestions are always welcomed.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment to get the oil changed in my engine.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, February 13, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up later than I wanted to and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I got ready to proceed with the rest of my day as I had only a few things planned.
For starters,I went to my usual Monday afternoon groups.These were groups that I needed to attend and they both went well.After they were over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a couple of local stores to pick up a few things that I needed.After I was done shopping at them,I headed for the bank to withdraw some much needed cash.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out was strong,but not as strong as previous times.I still had the urge to masturbate by manipulating my genitals to get them hard or near hardness for that purpose,but I fought it and I did get through it.The temptation to act out in any way,shape or form other than searching for male partners to act out with can be very strong at times.I managed to make it through today,but tomorrow and the day after that and so are new challenges.Each and every day is it's own challenge.I have top fight the urge whenever it comes over me.I have to keep on fighting and keep on enduring whenever the temptation to act out rears it's ugly head.I have to hang in there and simply tough it out.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.Aside from that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up later than I wanted to and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I got ready to proceed with the rest of my day as I had only a few things planned.
For starters,I went to my usual Monday afternoon groups.These were groups that I needed to attend and they both went well.After they were over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a couple of local stores to pick up a few things that I needed.After I was done shopping at them,I headed for the bank to withdraw some much needed cash.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out was strong,but not as strong as previous times.I still had the urge to masturbate by manipulating my genitals to get them hard or near hardness for that purpose,but I fought it and I did get through it.The temptation to act out in any way,shape or form other than searching for male partners to act out with can be very strong at times.I managed to make it through today,but tomorrow and the day after that and so are new challenges.Each and every day is it's own challenge.I have top fight the urge whenever it comes over me.I have to keep on fighting and keep on enduring whenever the temptation to act out rears it's ugly head.I have to hang in there and simply tough it out.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.Aside from that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up to attend the morning's church service and also to attend the morning's bible study class.I was looking forward to both of them with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.The cold weather did nothing to dampen my mood as I was leaving to go to church.
Both the class and the service were wonderful.I got a lot out of both of these.After some fellowship with the members after the service,I headed for home.
On the way home,I made a few stops.I stopped at a local Tim Horton's to pick up a bag of coffee.After paying for that,I headed over to a nearby bargain outlet closeout store to pick up a few things there.After that was done,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a couple more things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.
While my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I hope that my recovery starts to improve very soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out on my desires was minimal if nil at best.I had really no cravings to act out nor did I have any urges to masturbate nor manipulate my genitals to hardness or near hardness for the purpose of masturbation.While I escaped today,I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out on my desires can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I still have to be on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out can come back in any way,shape or form.Again,while it was good that I escaped today,I still be watchful when it hits again.I have to work on staying strong and work even harder on resisting the temptation to act out when it does indeed rear it's ugly head.Prayers and encouragement are welcomed.
Tomorrow,I have tow groups that I need to attend.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up to attend the morning's church service and also to attend the morning's bible study class.I was looking forward to both of them with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.The cold weather did nothing to dampen my mood as I was leaving to go to church.
Both the class and the service were wonderful.I got a lot out of both of these.After some fellowship with the members after the service,I headed for home.
On the way home,I made a few stops.I stopped at a local Tim Horton's to pick up a bag of coffee.After paying for that,I headed over to a nearby bargain outlet closeout store to pick up a few things there.After that was done,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a couple more things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.
While my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I hope that my recovery starts to improve very soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out on my desires was minimal if nil at best.I had really no cravings to act out nor did I have any urges to masturbate nor manipulate my genitals to hardness or near hardness for the purpose of masturbation.While I escaped today,I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out on my desires can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I still have to be on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out can come back in any way,shape or form.Again,while it was good that I escaped today,I still be watchful when it hits again.I have to work on staying strong and work even harder on resisting the temptation to act out when it does indeed rear it's ugly head.Prayers and encouragement are welcomed.
Tomorrow,I have tow groups that I need to attend.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, February 11, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up later than usual and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.I only had very little to do today and I wanted to get everything done.
I had only a couple of things that I needed to do.I first went to the drug store to pick up my prescription for the pain in my lower back.After that,I headed over to another local store to pick up something else.After paying for that,I headed straight home as since it was snowy and cold today,I had really nothing else to do.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start to improve positively in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I really didn't have any temptation to act out in any way,shape or form.This morning,when I woke up,I had really no temptations to masturbate nor any other temptations to act out by masturbating.While that was good,I know that I still have to stay on guard and be watchful because the temptation to act out by masturbating can be overwhelmingly strong and temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to stay strong and continuously be on guard against all temptations to act out by masturbating or any other way.While I escaped today,I have to keep in mind that there is always tomorrow and the day after that and so on.Each and every day brings anything that is different,including the temptation to act out on my desires as a result of my struggles with SSA.
Tomorrow,I will be attending the mornings church service.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans and hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up later than usual and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.I only had very little to do today and I wanted to get everything done.
I had only a couple of things that I needed to do.I first went to the drug store to pick up my prescription for the pain in my lower back.After that,I headed over to another local store to pick up something else.After paying for that,I headed straight home as since it was snowy and cold today,I had really nothing else to do.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start to improve positively in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I really didn't have any temptation to act out in any way,shape or form.This morning,when I woke up,I had really no temptations to masturbate nor any other temptations to act out by masturbating.While that was good,I know that I still have to stay on guard and be watchful because the temptation to act out by masturbating can be overwhelmingly strong and temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to stay strong and continuously be on guard against all temptations to act out by masturbating or any other way.While I escaped today,I have to keep in mind that there is always tomorrow and the day after that and so on.Each and every day brings anything that is different,including the temptation to act out on my desires as a result of my struggles with SSA.
Tomorrow,I will be attending the mornings church service.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans and hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Friday, February 10, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up later than I wanted to and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed.I had some stuff that I needed to do and I wanted to start getting them out of the way.
I had to go to the bank to withdraw some money for my mom and myself.After that,I dropped the money off at home and proceeded onward with the rest of what I had to do.
I had to do some shopping for my mom.I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up several things and after that was done,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few more things.After paying for all of those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve soon in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I didn't really feel any temptation to act out in any way,shape or form.I had no urges nor temptations to masturbate nor did I have any temptations to look at anything forbidden.Though today was good and I had nothing that would try to make me compromise,I still need to be on guard and to be watchful.Temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.It can strike anytime and I need to stay on guard when that happens.I escaped today unscathed,but tomorrow is another day and so is the day after that and so on.I need to stay on guard and be watchful for any temptations.I will simply have to fight them when they happen.That is all that I can do.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up later than I wanted to and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed.I had some stuff that I needed to do and I wanted to start getting them out of the way.
I had to go to the bank to withdraw some money for my mom and myself.After that,I dropped the money off at home and proceeded onward with the rest of what I had to do.
I had to do some shopping for my mom.I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up several things and after that was done,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few more things.After paying for all of those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve soon in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I didn't really feel any temptation to act out in any way,shape or form.I had no urges nor temptations to masturbate nor did I have any temptations to look at anything forbidden.Though today was good and I had nothing that would try to make me compromise,I still need to be on guard and to be watchful.Temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.It can strike anytime and I need to stay on guard when that happens.I escaped today unscathed,but tomorrow is another day and so is the day after that and so on.I need to stay on guard and be watchful for any temptations.I will simply have to fight them when they happen.That is all that I can do.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ
Thursday, February 09, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day as I had some stuff that I need to do.
I first went to a spirituality group that I needed to attend.I was looking forward to the group with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group was wonderful as I got a lot out of it.After the group,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local community kitchen to have lunch and after eating,I headed over to a nearby gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit because I had yet another thing on my agenda today.I had a doctor's appointment to get myself checked out as a result of me having lower back pain for a while.I headed over to the doctor's office when it was time.
The session went well.The doctor advised me to get some x-ray's done on my lower back and call them for the results.After that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up some things that my mom wanted me to get.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I hope that my recovery starts improving soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am feeling a little bit better after yesterday.I simply shared my relapses(I had a second one in the late afternoon yesterday)and I got some overwhelming support and encouragement from the groups that I ma a member of with whom I shared this with.It is wonderful to have all of that.The more support that I can get the better.As for today,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best and that was good.But still,I have to continue to gain more strength to resist the temptation to sin.I have to continue to resist the temptation to act out by masturbating as masturbation is a form of acting out.I have to continue to be strong and ask for more strength when I need it.Again,any support or encouragement is appreciated.Thanks.
As of tomorrow,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day as I had some stuff that I need to do.
I first went to a spirituality group that I needed to attend.I was looking forward to the group with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group was wonderful as I got a lot out of it.After the group,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local community kitchen to have lunch and after eating,I headed over to a nearby gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit because I had yet another thing on my agenda today.I had a doctor's appointment to get myself checked out as a result of me having lower back pain for a while.I headed over to the doctor's office when it was time.
The session went well.The doctor advised me to get some x-ray's done on my lower back and call them for the results.After that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up some things that my mom wanted me to get.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I hope that my recovery starts improving soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am feeling a little bit better after yesterday.I simply shared my relapses(I had a second one in the late afternoon yesterday)and I got some overwhelming support and encouragement from the groups that I ma a member of with whom I shared this with.It is wonderful to have all of that.The more support that I can get the better.As for today,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best and that was good.But still,I have to continue to gain more strength to resist the temptation to sin.I have to continue to resist the temptation to act out by masturbating as masturbation is a form of acting out.I have to continue to be strong and ask for more strength when I need it.Again,any support or encouragement is appreciated.Thanks.
As of tomorrow,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, February 08, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning hours and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day as I had quite a bit to do.
I first went to the post office to buy some money orders and mail out some important bills that needed to be mailed out.After that was done,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few boxes of cereal.After the cereal was paid for,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to go positively soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation in the wee early morning hours.Yes I did.I admit it.I masturbated a morning erection away.I really felt terrible after all of that.For a long time,I was resisting and doing good,until this relapse.I felt bad because I felt that I failed God and Christ in my endeavors.This relapse was terrible and as I have said before here,it really didn't make me feel like a man nor did it get me any closer to the full maleness that I want to achieve and need so I can feel like a man.This masturbation episode made the matter worse and I just didn't know whether I was coming or going.Though I felt bad about the relapse,I know that I have to move on and continue working on myself.It was really terrible giving into the unclean habit of masturbation,but I now have to move on and try to not let it happen again.I have to continually keep in mind that masturbation will never give me what I want in terms of gender identity affirmation or feeling like a man.I also have to keep in mind that masturbation will never connect me to my lost maleness.I will just have to work on stopping to practice this unclean habit and get back on track.Again,I am open to any ideas or suggestions.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning hours and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day as I had quite a bit to do.
I first went to the post office to buy some money orders and mail out some important bills that needed to be mailed out.After that was done,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few boxes of cereal.After the cereal was paid for,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to go positively soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation in the wee early morning hours.Yes I did.I admit it.I masturbated a morning erection away.I really felt terrible after all of that.For a long time,I was resisting and doing good,until this relapse.I felt bad because I felt that I failed God and Christ in my endeavors.This relapse was terrible and as I have said before here,it really didn't make me feel like a man nor did it get me any closer to the full maleness that I want to achieve and need so I can feel like a man.This masturbation episode made the matter worse and I just didn't know whether I was coming or going.Though I felt bad about the relapse,I know that I have to move on and continue working on myself.It was really terrible giving into the unclean habit of masturbation,but I now have to move on and try to not let it happen again.I have to continually keep in mind that masturbation will never give me what I want in terms of gender identity affirmation or feeling like a man.I also have to keep in mind that masturbation will never connect me to my lost maleness.I will just have to work on stopping to practice this unclean habit and get back on track.Again,I am open to any ideas or suggestions.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, February 07, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the late morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had a few things planned for today and I wanted to get them done.
I first went to the local Sears to pay my credit card bill and after that,I headed over to a tax office in another city within the region that I live in New York state and after that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up some stuff that my mom needed.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff away and I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve soon as I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride for quite a while.I am hoping that it stops soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours by a morning erection,which woke me up out of a deep sleep.I was really tempted to masturbate that away,but I fought the temptation by tossing and turning until my penis softened.It was really tough,but I managed to resist successfully.For the rest of the day,my temptation to act out in any way,shape or form was minimal if nil at best.Though I escaped again this morning,I still need to be on guard and be watchful.The temptation to sin by masturbating away an erection can be very strong and the urge to give into the temptation can be even stronger.Temptation is an ugly demon indeed.It is just as ugly as the SSA demon.I still have to keep on guard when that happens.Today was one thing.But there is always tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I just have to keep fighting the temptation when it does rear it's ugly head at me.I just have to keep fighting,to stay strong and continue to resist when it happens.If any of you who read and follow this blog want to offer any words of encouragement,please do so.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have to buy a few money orders to mail out some important letters.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the late morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had a few things planned for today and I wanted to get them done.
I first went to the local Sears to pay my credit card bill and after that,I headed over to a tax office in another city within the region that I live in New York state and after that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up some stuff that my mom needed.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff away and I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve soon as I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride for quite a while.I am hoping that it stops soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours by a morning erection,which woke me up out of a deep sleep.I was really tempted to masturbate that away,but I fought the temptation by tossing and turning until my penis softened.It was really tough,but I managed to resist successfully.For the rest of the day,my temptation to act out in any way,shape or form was minimal if nil at best.Though I escaped again this morning,I still need to be on guard and be watchful.The temptation to sin by masturbating away an erection can be very strong and the urge to give into the temptation can be even stronger.Temptation is an ugly demon indeed.It is just as ugly as the SSA demon.I still have to keep on guard when that happens.Today was one thing.But there is always tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I just have to keep fighting the temptation when it does rear it's ugly head at me.I just have to keep fighting,to stay strong and continue to resist when it happens.If any of you who read and follow this blog want to offer any words of encouragement,please do so.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have to buy a few money orders to mail out some important letters.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, February 06, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up later than usual and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I immediately went into doing my personal PC work and before finishing it,I made an appointment with my general medical doctor because I am having a really bad pain in my lower back region and I would really like to get it checked out.I have an appointment for Thursday and I am hoping that the session goes well.
After I was done,I got dressed and I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.I had a couple of groups that I needed to attend and I wanted to make sure that I got there in time for them.
Both the group meetings went well.I did get a lot out of them.After the last meeting was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Big Lots to buy a couple of things for myself.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things.After paying for those items,I headed over to my insurance agents office to pay my car insurance for the month.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by an erection.It was also another throbber.It was really difficult to resist,but I managed.I again tossed and turned until my penis softened.It was a tough thing,but I got through it.After that,I fell back asleep and had no troubles for the rest of the time.When I finally got up,I simply settled into my normal routine.For the rest of the day,I had no temptation to act out on my desires in any way,shape or form.My temptation or urge to act out was minimal if nil at best for the rest of the day.I simply went through the day and nothing really happened.Though I escaped this morning,I still have to be on guard and be watchful because temptation can rear it's ugly head yet again when least expected.I am not waiting for temptation to come around,but I know that it can happen again and I have to be on guard and be watchful.As stated,I escaped this morning,but there is always tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I still have to fight temptation when it does indeed rear it's ugly head again.There will be many more urges to battle and I want to be ready for them when they happen.
Tomorrow,I will be going to a tax office to file my income tax return.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans as well as hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up later than usual and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I immediately went into doing my personal PC work and before finishing it,I made an appointment with my general medical doctor because I am having a really bad pain in my lower back region and I would really like to get it checked out.I have an appointment for Thursday and I am hoping that the session goes well.
After I was done,I got dressed and I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.I had a couple of groups that I needed to attend and I wanted to make sure that I got there in time for them.
Both the group meetings went well.I did get a lot out of them.After the last meeting was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Big Lots to buy a couple of things for myself.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things.After paying for those items,I headed over to my insurance agents office to pay my car insurance for the month.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by an erection.It was also another throbber.It was really difficult to resist,but I managed.I again tossed and turned until my penis softened.It was a tough thing,but I got through it.After that,I fell back asleep and had no troubles for the rest of the time.When I finally got up,I simply settled into my normal routine.For the rest of the day,I had no temptation to act out on my desires in any way,shape or form.My temptation or urge to act out was minimal if nil at best for the rest of the day.I simply went through the day and nothing really happened.Though I escaped this morning,I still have to be on guard and be watchful because temptation can rear it's ugly head yet again when least expected.I am not waiting for temptation to come around,but I know that it can happen again and I have to be on guard and be watchful.As stated,I escaped this morning,but there is always tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I still have to fight temptation when it does indeed rear it's ugly head again.There will be many more urges to battle and I want to be ready for them when they happen.
Tomorrow,I will be going to a tax office to file my income tax return.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans as well as hopes for the day ahead.FJ
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