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Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
The most important thing on my agenda was that I had to see my therapist today.I went over to my therapist's office as I had a some things that I needed to talk about.
The sessions went well.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby Dollar Tree store to pick up something that I would have for dinner.After that,I headed over to the post office to mail out something important.After that,I headed over to the local Sears to pay a bill.After that,I stopped at a nearby supermarket to pick up a few things.After that I headed over the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few more things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff that I bought away and paid another bill over the phone.After that,I relaxed and watched a DVD that I just put into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father and throw it on him as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.It is a very difficult struggle in itself and the ups and downs of this are never pleasant at all.After praying,I feel much better as I feel sustained and on a much calmer and level plain.It does make me feel a little bit better that I am not alone here in this particular struggle.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get up and walk and that made the erection soften.Though it was slow going,my genitals fully softened and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to fantasize about and lust after other men.Throughout the day,sexual images of men tried to cloud my mind.I had to really keep up in prayer all day to my Heavenly Father when these images kept coming at me mentally.I asked my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist all of these images and also,I asked for strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges as they kept coming at me from all sides.I prayed real hard as I didn't want to fall into sin by giving in to these overwhelming urges.I did feel much better and much stronger after I was finished praying and I truly believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and gave me what I asked for.While I have been doing that,I am again asking that y'all who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am going through a very difficult emotional time.Yes,I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and it is getting more difficult by the day.Please keep up in prayer for me.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both work wonders in many ways.Your prayers and words of encouragement both help keep me going in this particular struggle and also,they also help strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA,and my my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Both your prayers and your words of encouragement both help out in many ways than any of you can think.The words of encouragement that you give anyone who struggles with SSA can be vital to that particular person's survival and even the prayers that you say on their behalf can also do the same for them as well.Thanks in advance to all of you for both your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of a men's meeting that I will be attending,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did most of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,which went well.After the group was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have some lunch and after eating,I decided to head for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a few places to see if there were any empty bottles and cans,which there were.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.II am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and keeping me on a much calmer and level plain.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and didn't lay back down until my genitals softened,which they did,but it was pretty slow going.When my genitals were fully soft,I went back to bed and subsequently too sleep.Though I did escape this episode,I was tempted,though minimally,throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.I simply kept busy with things that I had to do and that kept my mind off of sexual things.I went through the day just doing what I had to do.Though I did escape today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that all of you please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.They both help in many big ways.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also strengthen both my determination to overcome SSA and my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of an appointment with my therapist,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did most of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I had only one important thing on my agenda for today.I had to see my general doctor for a follow-up on a few things and to get some much needed prescriptions.After the sessions,I headed for a nearby Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things to eat.After paying for those things,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Salvation Army thrift store to look around and after that,I headed over to a nearby car wash to pick up some bottles.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to heat up a can of soup and heat up some breaded mushroom snacks that I bought at the Dollar Tree store.After eating that for dinner,I headed over to a neighbor's house to pick up something that they had for me and I headed back home once that was completed.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father.I throw it on him as a burden and ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative effects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in not only sustaining me,but they also help keep me on a calmer and level plain.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sat up and I had to use the bathroom.I headed over there and that made the erection start to soften.When I was finished in the bathroom,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men,but I stayed out for much of the day and that kept my mind off of anything sexual.I simply kept my mind focused on the day as I went through it.I was mostly at the doctor's office and though it was stressful waiting to be called,it took my mind off of anything sexual.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you please continue praying for me.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I am also in need of some positive verbal encouragement.Please leave some encouraging words in the comments section.I need those as much as I need prayers.They both do help me in extraordinary ways.They both help keep me going.They also help strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also help strengthen my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did 4/5 of my personal work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a couple of things planned.
The main thing this afternoon that I had on my agenda was that I had to see my urologist in regards to the problem that I had in my groin area before I started to take Proscar for the problem.He simply asked some questions and he said another appointment for six months.After I left the doctor's office,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things for dinner tonight.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put a few things away and I started to heat up a can of soup for dinner.I also had a half a submarine sandwich as a side dish and that was my meal for the night.After I had my meal,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I also finished my personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions fluctuate by the day,or at other times,by the minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.I pray real hard and they both help in sustaining me and keeping me on a much calmer level plain.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another erection,though it didn't last long.I simply sat up and I sensed that I had to use the bathroom.I headed for the bathroom and the erection started to soften.When I was finished in the bathroom,my genitals were fully soft.I went back to bed and subsequently to sleep after that.Though I did escape this episode,I was tempted a few times throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.I kept busy by simply being out in the community and that took my mind off of sinful sexual thoughts of other men.I simply kept my mind on the activities of the day and that kept me occupied.Though I did escape unscathed today,there is always tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I am again asking that y'all who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up in prayer for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I need your prayers.I also need some words of positive encouragement as I am going through this.They do help me in many ways.They both help keep me going.They also both help strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also help strengthen my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my appointment with my general doctor,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work.Since today was a holiday and it rained the entire day,I stayed home and watched a few movies in my DVD player while relaxing.It is just that I have an eventful week planned with appointments with a urologist tomorrow,my general doctor tomorrow afternoon and my therapist on Friday.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPS struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggles seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They help in both sustaining me and keeping me on a calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get up and walk,which made the erection soften,though it was slow going this time.I walked for a while and when my genitals were fully soft,I went back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men,but this time,it wasn't too bad.I kept busy by watching movies all through the day and try not to have the negative sexual images of men cloud my mind.It actually did help keep the negative images at bay.I was also much happier as a result.Still,I am continuing to ask that y'all who follow my blog and read the posts to please keep up in prayer for me.I also need your words of encouragement as well.I am still going through a very rough emotional period and I need your prayers and encouraging words day after day.Please continue in both of these things.They both help keep me going.They also help to strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also help to keep my motivation strong in continuing my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my urologist appointment,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed real quickly and I headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.I did another Holy Bible reading in front of the congregation and we also had Holy Communion.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into some casual clothes.I headed over to a friend's place and we both went out to a flea market in the next county.I didn't buy anything as I didn't have an awful lot of money,but my friend bought a few things.After that,we headed for home.
On the way home,we stopped somewhere to grab a bite to eat.After that,we headed straight home.
I dropped him off at his place and hung out a few extra minutes with him.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.Though I did have a light snack on the way home,I had a small bowl of soup as I still felt hungry.I relaxed for the rest of the evening.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also still managed to get some more recommended Holy Bible reading as well.Even if I didn't get out to have some fun today,going to church today would have still made the day eventful for me.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions,for which I have one this Friday.I also continue to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have.I also ask for strength to deal and endure through it all.They both help in sustaining me and also,help keep me on a calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get up and walk and that made my genitals soften.I didn't lay back down until my genitals were fully soft.I also went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Throughout the day,since I was out in the community and having fun,I didn't think about my struggles all day.I just went through the day without anything negative happening.Nothing crossed nor clouded my mind.I had fun and that was great.Still,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up in prayer for me and also,don't hesitate to leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.They both help keep me going,They also strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the holiday tomorrow,I am just going to relax and take it easy.It is going to rain tomorrow and I will simply stay home and watch a few movies.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
For much of the day,I was out collecting bottles around the community.I also managed to find some loose change on the ground,mostly pennies.After I had accumulated quite a bit,I turned them in at a local supermarket.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered the bills at the Where's George site.After that,I went back out to pick up something at a local Dollar Tree store.After paying for that item,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through all the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have.I alos ask for strength to help me stay calm and also,to not let the negatives of this double whammy that I have try to bring me down.They both help in sustaining me.They also help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and stayed sitting up until the erection softened.I got up out of bed and I walked for a while and that made the erection start to soften,though it was slow going.When my genitals were fully soft,I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men.Images of men in a sexual sense were really clouding my mind.I prayed and prayed to my Heavenly Father.I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges.I didn't want to sin and give into these temptations.I felt much stronger as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and gave me what I asked for.I am again asking that all of you please keep praying for me as I am going through this really difficult emotional time.Please keep praying for me.I also ask that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They help strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also help strengthen my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I decided to take a drive to pick up someone that I knew years ago and wanted to hook up again.
I drove through the area that he said that he lived,but couldn't find his house number.I even tried to find an extension of the street that he claimed to live on,but couldn't.Disappointed,I headed back home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
A little later on,I decided to get some gas in my gas tank and I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch.After eating lunch,I decided to pay a visit to a friend that I haven't talked to in a while.After talking with him for a few minutes,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening new for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle as a burden and I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to get me through the negative affects of this particular struggle.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a much calmer plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sat up and I had to use the bathroom,so I headed for the bathroom and that made the erection start to soften.After I was finished in the bathroom,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men.They kept coming at me from all sides.I kept up in prayer to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.Throughout the day,I asked for strength,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to fight and resist these overwhelming urges.I didn't cease praying as these temptations kept coming at me.I felt much stronger after I finished praying each time.I knew and truly believed that my Heavenly Father heard my prayers and gave me what I asked for.Though I have done that throughout the day,I am again asking that all of you to please keep up in prayer for me as I am going through this very difficult emotional time.I need prayers by all of you.I also need encouraging words and comments by all of you.Your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement both do help in many ways.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They help strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also help strengthen my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Please pray for me and also,please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,I haven't made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did 3/5 of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
I first went to my Thursday morning spirituality group,which went well.After the group was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch,but for the second consecutive week,it was bag lunches.After I received my bag lunch,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things that I needed.After paying for those items,I headed over to a nearby car dealership to enter some contests that they were having.After dropping off the entry blanks that I filled out while there,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away that I bought and I ate my bagged lunch.After that,I finished the rest of my personal PC work.I relaxed for a while and I took it easy when I was finished with that.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negatives of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and keeping me on a much calmer level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed and that made my genitals start to soften,though it was slow going.I headed for the bathroom as I sensed that I had to use it.My genitals were fully soft when I was finished in the bathroom.I went back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I did escape this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in sinful sexual fantasies and lusting of other men.I was tormented by these negative sexual images and I had to fight and resist these urges as they were coming at me from all sides.I had to pray real hard to my Heavenly Father as these temptations were really starting to envelope me.I prayed and ask my Heavenly Father,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to give me the strength to fight and resist these urges as they were coming at me from all sides.I felt better and much stronger as I knew and truly believed that my Heavenly Father was there and he gave me what I asked for.While I have done that,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotion time.I am also asking that all of you please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both help in very big ways.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They help strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also strengthen my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't really gotten anything planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first headed over to the public library to type an important business letter and also,to print a reading from the Holy Bible that I will be doing in front of the congregation at my church this coming Sunday.After that was done,I headed over to the post office to mail out the business letter and a payment to a finance company.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare dinner as I was really hungry.I did have a couple of sandwiches at Burger King while on the way to the post office,but was still hungry when I got home.
After I had my dinner,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little more at ease.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sat up and I sensed that I had to use the bathroom.I got up to use the bathroom and that made the erection start to soften.When I was finished in the bathroom,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.I wasn't tempted very much today as I was out in the community and that took my mind off of all the negative sexual images of men.I stayed busy and I kept thinking of positive things.It actually was good for me to be out and about in the community and just being out and about around people did help.Though I did escape with no problems today,I am still asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me.I also ask that you also please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words do help a lot.They both keep me going.They also strengthen my determination to continue in my goals to overcome SSA.They also strengthen my motivation to continue in the journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual spirituality group and lunch at a local kitchen afterwards,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I only had a few things to do today,I first went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things that I needed.After paying for those things,I decided to take a trip around to see if a friend of mine was home,which he wasn't.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle and throw it on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in keeping me sustained,but also on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does ease me a little bit.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that that do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom,so I got up and headed for there and that is what made my genitals start to soften.They were fully soft when I was finished in the bathroom.I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.However,I stayed out most of the day and didn't even think of anything sexual at all.I simply let the temptations slowly fade into nothing by simply staying out in the community and keeping my mind on other things.I also managed to watch a pretty good movie later on.Though I did get by without any falling into sins,I am still asking that all of you who regularly follow my blog to please keep up in prayer for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that y'all leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.They both help out in many ways.Prayers and words of encouragement are very powerful weapons in the fight against this terrible SSA.For me,they both help keep my determination to overcome this terrible SSA strong.They also keep me motivated to continue on the journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and words of encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I got dressed.I headed for the local hospital to get much needed blood-work done.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I showered and after that,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and since it rained for much of the afternoon,I stayed home and took it easy.I just relaxed for a bit and just enjoyed the much needed rest.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle as a burden on my Heavenly Father.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have and I really talk about it in prayer.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get up out of bed and that helped make the erection soften.After several minutes,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men.I kept up in prayer all day as the temptations kept coming at me from all sides.I asked my Heavenly Father in prayer to give me the strength to help me fight and resist all of these temptations.I asked him for this strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help give me the strength that I needed to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.I felt better and much stronger after praying and I knew and believed that my Heavenly Father heard me.I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up in prayer for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time.I am also asking that all of you please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They both also strengthen my determination to continue in overcoming this terrible SSA.They also help strengthen my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in dress clothes and I headed for church for the last Summer outdoor service,which are always held the last Sunday of each Summer month from June to August.
The worship service was wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the the local Big Lots to pick up a box of cereal.After paying for that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few more things.After that,I headed over to a local Dollar General store to pick up one more thing.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and I did my personal PC work.I also had a light lunch as well.
I relaxed for much of the day and took it easy.
I did hear from that friend that I was hoping to re-connect with yesterday.He sent me an e-mail that he had to work overtime and that he was working out of state yesterday and didn't come home until the wee early morning hours.He apologized for that and he said that he was hoping that we can get together tomorrow afternoon.I told him that this would be okay.I am hoping that nothing comes up that prevents us from getting together after so long.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I then ask my Heavenly Father to help get me through the negatives in the name of his son Jesus Christ.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat yup and proceeded to get up out of bed.This made the erection start to soften,though it was slow going.I didn't lay back down until my genitals were fully soft.I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep when they were fully soft.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men.This time,it wasn't so bad.I simply kept busy with my day.I relaxed and tried to think of more positive things and that took my mind off of anything sexual with other men.Still,I am again asking that all of you continue praying for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time.Please continue praying for me.I also ask that you please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section and continue praying for me.They both help keep me going in this fight.They also strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also strengthen my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of getting much needed blood work done at the local hospital,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

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Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
The very first thing that I did today was that I returned some cans and bottles that had accumulated in the back seat of my car.After doing that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the drug store to pick up my prescription.After paying the co-pay for it,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to get me through the negatives and that both help in sustaining me and keeping me on a calmer level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I turned to my right side,but the erections wouldn't soften.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom and I got up to use it.While on the way there,though it was slow going,the erection started to die down and when I was finished in the bathroom,my genitals were fully soft and I went back t bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.I stayed busy throughout the day just doing the things that needed to be done.I kept my mind on the things that I was doing and I didn't let nothing sexual take over my mind.I simply stayed out in the community and that is what helped me take my mind off of the negative sexual images of men.While I escaped today without anything happening,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time at this moment.I am also asking that all of you followers of my blog to please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.Your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also strengthen my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did 4/5 of my personal PC work as I didn't have the time to finish and I got dressed quickly as I had to get to my spirituality group and also,be on time for it.
The group meeting was wonderful.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen that I eat lunch at every Thursday,but got a back lunch as they were going to have an important meeting there.I simply took my bag lunch and headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a gallon of milk.After paying for it,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I dropped off everything and I headed back out again to deposit a little bit of money in my checking account.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate my bag lunch and I finished my personal PC work.I simply relaxed for the rest of the afternoon.
I did go back out to get a sandwich to have with some soup that I had as that was going to be my evening meal.After eating that,I simply went back out for a while and when I came back home,I stayed home.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in both sustaining me and keeping me on a much calmer level plain.It makes me feel a little bit better knowing that my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ are there to help me get through the negativism's of this psychiatric double whammy that I have.Thanks to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another erection.I sat up and I proceeded to get out of bed.Though it was slow going,it made the erection start to soften.When my genitals were fully soft,I laid back down and subsequently went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was again tempted to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men,but today,it wasn't too big of a thing as I kept busy with things.I simply kept my mind on other things,and didn't let my mind wander off into forbidden territory,in regards to anything having to do with sexual things.I kept my mind focused and I had a pretty good feeling all over about that.While today wasn't big on anything like that,I am again asking that all of you who continue to follow my blog and read my posts to please keep praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I am also asking that all of you leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments.Your prayers and words of encouragement do matter and they do help me in more ways than one.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.They also motivate me to continue in my healing journey from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work quickly and after a while of relaxation for mot of the morning,I got dressed up in dress clothes to prepare for my two interviews today for jobs in my area.
The first interview,which was supposed to be a phone interview,never called.The substitute job placement counselor and I waited for almost half an hour for the phone to ring.I had to call the place to see what was what and since the substitute job placement counselor had another client to meet at a certain time,she left.Not too long after she left,another substitute job placement counselor came and took me to the other interview,which did happen.It was at a local nursing home and the interview went great and they informed me that they would let me know in two weeks.After it was over,I was dropped off at home and I changed clothes real quickly as I had a few things to do,such as a much needed errand that needed to be run.After that was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also went out again for a while.When I got home,I got ready to retire for the evening.Overall,a pretty good and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father and I throw it in him as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative effects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and didn't lay back down until my genitals,though it was pretty slow going,softened.When my genitals were fully softened,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting with sexual images of other men.But today,I kept my mind focused on the things that were going on with me.I kept my mind focused on my job interview and the errand that I had to run when I got home from my interview.This time,I didn't have to worry about falling into sin via temptation and that was great.I am still asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me and also,please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both help keep me going.They also strengthen both my determination to continue in overcoming this terrible SSA.They also help strengthen my motivation to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected to this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned for today.
Before I went out to do anything,I got two phone calls in regards to applications that I filed for work in my hometown.I have two interviews for jobs tomorrow.One will be a phone interview that will take place at home with a substitute job placement counselor sitting in on the interview.The next will be at a local nursing home looking for someone to work as a kitchen assistant.I am hoping and praying that at least one of these will lead to a job.I am getting sick of being unemployed and not doing anything except sitting on my butt and getting bored.Again,I am hoping and praying that this leads to a job.
After the phone calls,I headed out to see how a friend of mine was doing and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed out to a nearby Goodwill thrift store that just opened up in the area where my friend was living.I bought some nice things there and after that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Salvation Army thrift store and I bought a few more things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed for a bit.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They help in both sustaining me and keeping me on a calmer level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular psychiatric struggle that I have and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up for a while and I proceeded to get out of bed.My genitals were starting to soften and when they were fully soft,I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I did escape this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasizing of other men.This time,I kept myself busy by being out in the community today.Since I was out in the community,sexual thoughts didn't take over my mind as I was going over what I was doing at the thrift stores and visiting my friend.It was great.I had a wonderful day out in the community.I also had my mind on the job interviews that I have tomorrow afternoon.Again,I am hoping that these lead to a job.I am hoping and praying that it does.I am again asking for prayers by my fellow followers here as I desperately need them.Please keep me in your prayers that these interviews lead to a job and also,please continue praying for me as I am still going through a rough emotional time here.I also ask for some encouraging words in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words really help.They both help keep me going.They also keep strengthening my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also keep strengthening my determination to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with daily.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of the two job interviews,I have really no plans.But I hope that the interviews lead me to a job and that what I choose to do after them give me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I had to take my niece to work as her car was in the shop.On the way there,I stopped to get some gas at a local gas station and after that was done,we headed for her work place.After dropping her off,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work.I also had a light lunch after doing that.After lunch,I eagerly awaited for the time to leave the house to pick her up and when it came,I hurried out to where she worked and picked her up.After dropping her off at home,I also headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply throw this struggle as a burden on my Heavenly Father and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They help in both sustaining me and keeping on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened out of a deep sleep by another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed and that made my genitals soften.After a few minutes,when my genitals were fully soft,I went back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I did escape this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men,but today,it wasn't as bad as it has been on past days.Today,I received an e-mail from someone that I was trying to help on Facebook and he actually did what I advised him to do.He actually prayed to our Heavenly Father and asked for strength to fight and resist the temptations that he was experiencing at that time.He asked for that strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ for that strength and that made me feel joyful.I was really overwhelmed that my prayers were answered and that he did the right thing,by going to our Heavenly Father for strength to fight and resist the temptations.Again,that made me feel joy and exuberance.My faith in my Heavenly Father has also strengthened as a result of that.For the rest of the day,I felt nothing but joy and happiness that my helping someone in a time of need had actually really helped them.Thank you Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything.Fellow followers,I am still going to ask for prayers by all of you.I am also asking that y'all leave an encouraging word or two.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also strengthen both my determination to overcome SSA and my motivation to continue in my journey of healing from these unwanted and unnatural desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks again to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ