Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was done,I had my usual quick breakfast.I also got dressed and I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed out to do some stuff.
I first went to the local shopping mall to pick up a job application.After that,I did some shopping at a couple of local Dollar Tree stores.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to do some more personal PC work.I also listened to some music.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.I also prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,I was really struggling with temptation when I arose out of bed.I was really tempted to fantasize and lust after other men and to also manipulate my genitals to these sexual images of men.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I asked him for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I pleaded for strength.I didn't want to sin nor give into these terrible temptations that were being thrown at me from all sides.I prayed and I prayed and when I was finished,I felt stronger as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.I went on with the rest of the day.For the rest of the day,I had no problems with temptations.I simply kept my attention to what I had to do and that kept my mind off of anything sexual with men.I have to continually keep in mind that my Heavenly Father never intended for his gift of sexuality to be used and abused the way that the world is currently using and abusing it right now.I have to keep that in mind constantly and each and every day.I must never forget that my Heavenly Father meant for sexuality to be used responsibly and not for the selfish self-serving purposes that the world is using it for.They are also using sexuality irresponsibly and that is why there are so many STD cases each and ever year and the rise of AIDS,genital warts and genital herpes are examples of sexuality being used irresponsibly.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left in the comments section.Please leave me some positive verbal encouragement and don't forget keeping me in your prayers.Prayerful and positive verbal support both help keep me going in this struggle and they both help keep both my determination and motivation strong.It also reaffirms that I am not alone in this particular struggle as nobody,male or female,who struggles can't ever go it alone.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After having my coffee,I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I quickly did my personal PC work.When that was done,I headed over to my appointment with the priest.
The meeting with the priest went great.After our talk,I stopped and had a sandwich at a nearby McDonald's.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up something for dinner.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I bought in its proper place and I did some more personal PC work.After that,I took something for a headache that I had and I relaxed for a bit until the headache was gone.
After eating,I was hoping to go to my Friday night Celebrate Recovery group,but was feeling dizzy from the headache that I had.I chose to stay home and relax.I listened to a little bit of Christian music and simply prayed for relief.I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Though it is,I must say that today,I had no troubles with temptation.I simply went forward with my day and I had no problems with any sexual images of men crossing my mind.The talk with the priest and just being out in the community really helped take my mind off of these things.It was really wonderful.While I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after that.It is not that I am worried or anxious about tomorrow and the days after that.It is just that I have to stay on guard and be watchful as temptation can strike when least expected.I have to keep in mind that Satan and his minions can bring on temptations anytime and knowing that we are imperfect,Satan and his minions can use human imperfection to bring out the worst in me and I have to keep on remembering that.I need to stay strong and stand tall.I need to keep going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask him for strength to help me fight and resist these urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to tell these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I also need to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I am not going to let them define who I am nor dictate to me how I will be and act.I also have to keep in mind that the sexual activity between two members of the same gender is NOT approved of by my Heavenly Father.His sacred word,the Holy Bible,says in it's own words that this type of thing is wrong,inappropriate,degrading,detestable,obscene and sinful.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I am also still struggling and I need prayers by everyone who follows my blog and reads the posts.I also need some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section as well.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.I also need both of these things to reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle because when I get no comments in the comments section,I feel alone.Please don't be shy and leave me some positive verbal encouragement alongside your prayerful support for me.I want to heal and overcome Homosexuality/SSA and I need all the prayerful and positive verbal support that I can get.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday as usual,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had two cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered and when I was done,I had my usual quick breakfast.When that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to a local kitchen for lunch and when I was finished eating,I went to the public library to register some money that I withdrew at the Where's George website.After that,I headed to a local hair place to get my hair cut.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I checked my phone to see if there were any messages and there was one by my niece asking me to babysit her kids and to take her youngest one to her dance class.Before going over there,I did my personal PC work.After dropping her youngest daughter off at her dance class,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to do some more personal PC work.After that was done,I had a light meal and I headed over to my usual Thursday evening Holy Bible study group,which went as wonderfully well as expected.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Today,I had no troubles with temptation.It was wonderful.Today,no images of men clouded my mind and I think what helped that I kept my mind on other things that I had to do.I just went through the day doing what I felt that I had to do and it was great.I was also out in the community today and that also helped.Plus,helping my niece out by babysitting her kids and taking her youngest kid to her dancing lesson also helped.I also had a wonderful evening at my usual Thursday evening study and that was great.Though I escaped today,there is still tomorrow and the days after that.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as temptations can happen when least expected.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am again asking that y'all continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I still need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day,although I had no problems today.I still need both of these things from my fellow man because I still need the reaffirmation that I am not alone in this struggle and I need support constantly.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to my session with the priest in the early afternoon and my Celebrate Recovery group in the evening,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had two cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed out to drop off two job applications.
Before I did that,I had lunch at a local kitchen.After lunch,I dropped the applications off at the places that I picked them up.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to do my personal PC work.After that was done,I put on some wonderful Christian themed music while reading a Christian based book.I also did some banking on the telephone.After doing a little bit more personal PC work,I headed over to the church to attend a Lenten dinner with my fellow worshipers,which was wonderful.I enjoyed the fellowship and some of the lessons that our pastor taught us.After helping out with the clean-up,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement and also enjoyed a little bit more Christian themed music.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Why?It is because I endure unnatural sexual desires towards members of my own gender daily.Today was no exception.I was tempted upon arising out of bed to act out by fantasizing,lusting and to manipulate my genitals to the fantasies and lusting,but this time,I threw them on my Heavenly Father and asked him to give me the strength to help me fight and resist the temptations to indulge in these sinful sexual practices.I asked for that strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I prayed real hard for this strength.I didn't want to sin nor affirm the false Homosexual/Gay identity that I am determined to overcome and heal from.I prayed and prayed until the selfish self serving desire was gone.After praying,I felt better and much stronger.I went on with the rest of the day with no problems with temptations.I simply stayed busy for the rest of the day by going out and doing what I had to do,which took my mind off of anything sexual in a selfish self serving way,which is what the sexual activity connected with Homosexuality/SSA is.I am learning day in and day out that the sinful sexual activity between two members of the same gender fits no purpose in life nor has anything in my Heavenly Father's way when he created and gave humanity the gift of sexuality.The sexual activity between two members of the same gender is not only sinful,but it selfishly and self-servingly uses and abuses the bodies of men for inappropriate sexual connections that are very destructive and contradicts what my Heavenly Father set forth.It also does the same for women and their bodies as well.My Heavenly Father condemns any sexual activity outside his original plan for humanity and sexuality.My Heavenly Father's original plan for humanity is just as valid as the day he initially introduced that plan.His plan is described in the Holy Bible book of Genesis Chapter's One and Two.Right now,as a result of going to my Heavenly Father in prayer whenever these temptations come at me,I am now feeling better and much stronger.My Heavenly Father,through his only begotten son Jesus Christ,gives me this strength in my human weakness and that strength is powerful than anything.Still,in spite of this,I am still in need of prayerful support from my fellow blog followers and readers.I am also still in need of positive verbal encouragement to be left in the comments section.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support as well.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support in the comments section each and every day to reaffirm me that I am not alone in my struggle.Please continue to pray and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I wok up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I received a phone call from my job placement counselor/coach from the job placement agency and an appointment was set up for me to meet with her and the head of the agency this coming Monday.After the phone call,I jumped into the shower to clean up and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed over to the job placement agency to pick up some business cards to attach to paper application after I fill them out alongside my resume.After that,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and when I was finished eating,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things.After paying for those things,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did my personal PC work.When I was finished with that,I laid down to read for a while.After reading,I did the breakfast dishes and started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and watch it.I also did a little bit more reading while preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Today,I was again overwhelmed by temptation,but again,I threw the temptations on my Heavenly Father and asked him for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.I asked for that strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard as these temptations were really overwhelming and strong.When I was finished,I felt better and much stronger.It is a great feeling to have that sort of feeling after praying for strength.Throughout the rest of the day,I had no problems with temptations.I simply kept my mind on the stuff that I had to do and it took my mind off of anything sexual with men.I am now going to start to make it my resolve to pray for strength whenever temptations rear their ugly heads at me.I have to show these unnatural desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I am also sending a message to Satan and his minions that I worship the sovereign Lord and creator of the universe and the world and that I follow Jesus Christ alongside following what my Heavenly Father's word,the Holy Bible,says in regards to sexuality and not the world's way,which is influenced by Satan and his minions.Though I have been doing this the last couple of days,I am still asking that my fellow blog followers and readers to please continue to keep me in your prayers because I still need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also ask that you please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments.I need all the positive verbal encouragement that I can get alongside the prayerful support.They both help keep me going and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of turning in the applications that I picked up Monday and the evening's Lenten dinner at my church,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had two cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly.After my shower,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I did my personal PC work and I proceeded to continue on with the rest of the day.
I first went to pick up a couple of job applications at a couple of places in my hometown.After that,I went to a local supermarket to pick up a gallon of milk.After that,I went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple more things.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away in their proper places and did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I filled out the two job applications that I picked up and I stapled everything together that I needed to staple onto them.I also filled a few more applications online after that.I then relaxed and I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.I then proceeded to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,I was being tempted to act out on the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA condition,but this time,I went right to my Heavenly Father in Heaven and I prayed for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I asked my Heavenly Father to give me the strength to help me fight and resist the temptations that were coming at me from all sides.They were pretty overwhelming,though not as overwhelming as yesterday,but still overwhelming nonetheless.I prayed real hard to my Heavenly Father to help me fight and resist these temptations and to help me reject and remove the immoral images that had come into my mind.I kept on praying until the desires disappeared.When I finished praying,I felt much stronger and could move on with the rest of the day,where I had no further problems with temptations coming at me.Though I escaped the rest of the day unscathed,there is till tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time with their evil temptations.I have to keep telling Satan and his minions to hit the road whenever this happens.Plus,the more resistance that I put up,even with the help of my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,the more stronger and overwhelming the temptations return and at times,they can return with a vengeance.This is why I am again asking for my fellow blog followers and readers to please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I still need both prayerful and positive verbal support from my fellow blog followers and readers each and every day.I need them desperately because it affirms me that I am not alone.They also help keep me going.They also keep both my motivation and determination strong.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the hopefulness of turning in the applications that I picked up today,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had two cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After paying for these things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and I quickly did my personal PC work.I also watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I decided to pop another DVD into the DVD player and watch it.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,I was hounded by temptation left and right.Sexual images of men were clouding my mind.I was tempted to manipulate my genitals to these images as fantasies and lusting to them.I was also tempted to go out and seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them.Yes,I was really overwhelmed with temptation today and the temptations were strong and overwhelming.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer.I asked my Heavenly Father to give me strength to help me fight and resist these urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I poured my soul out to him.I left nothing out as I prayed as I threw everything on my Heavenly Father as burdens and even ordered Satan and his minions to get out and to take his baggage with him.I kept up praying until the temptations were gone.When I was finished praying,I felt much stronger and also,relieved of all the terrible temptations that were overwhelming me today.I also felt great as I went through the rest of the day not having any temptations to act out as the day went on.I am now going to work on making it a habit to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask him for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to tell these unnatural desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I also have to tell my sexuality that I own it and not the other way around.I am still going to need the help and support of all my blog followers.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I went to the bank to withdraw some much needed money.After doing that,I headed straight to shower and after my shower,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After that was done,I did my personal PC work and when that was done,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and watch it.I also did some more personal PC work when that was over.
A little later on,I decided to go out and run a small errand.I went to the local Salvation Army thrift store to look around,but didn't buy anything.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to watch a little bit of TV and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.This morning,while still in bed,I again gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitalia with sexual images of men clouding my mind.Fortunately,I again managed to stop myself before it went too far and I also felt really miserable after doing this.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I asked him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I was truly sorry for what I did wrong while in bed this morning.I prayed real hard and left nothing out.After I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I had no problems for the rest of the day as I went through the rest of the day and no temptations nor did anything lustful come into my mind.I went and simply did what I had to do and that took my mind off of anything sexual with men.Still,I really need to get tough with myself and I really need to work on going to my Heavenly Father and ask him for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.I also need to find out why I keep giving into these terrible urges when they come around.I don't want to give into these terrible temptations anymore,but I keep giving into them and I don't know why.Again,I really need to work on going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask him for that strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both of these things desperately and every day as I am still going through a very complex and difficult emotional time.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly.After my shower,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I proceeded with the rest of the day.
I first went to the bank to withdraw a little money that I needed for gas.After that,I took it home and registered the bill on the Where's George site.After that,I had myself some lunch and when I was done with that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.After that,I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to meet a few Buffalo Sabres alumni players to get autographs for my Buffalo Sabres history picture book and to get a gallon of milk that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put my book back where it was before and proceeded to do a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I headed over to a Celebrate Recovery group,which was my first meeting in a couple of months as I missed other meetings due to illness and to terrible Winter weather,which was very wonderful.After that was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to get ready for my evening retirement and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the worst of two.This morning,while still in bed,I again gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men that were clouding my mind,but I managed to stop myself before it went too far.After washing my hands,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and after I was finished,I felt much better as I knew that I was truly forgiven.I went through the rest of the day without any problems nor any more temptations.The thing is that Satan and his minions are out there and they are trying everything to tempt me and get me to sin.I really need to start getting tough on myself and going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask him for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I really need to start showing these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and that they don't own me.I need to get tough and really start asking for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible urges.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support desperately.Please pray for me and leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I need both of these things to help keep me going.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments.Please leave me some encouraging comments and also.please continue to keep me in your prayers.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done,I got dressed real quickly and had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I headed out to a meeting,only to find out when i arrived that the meeting was canceled.After spending a few minutes socializing with the people,I headed over to a local kitchen for lunch.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed over to my sister's house for dinner and when I was finished eating,I headed back home to drop off something and pick up my medication.After that,I headed over to my Thursday evening Holy Bible study group,which went as wonderfully well as expected.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did some more personal PC work and I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.This morning while still in bed,I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I gave into fantasizing and lusting.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went to far and when I did,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him to forgive my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and left nothing out and when I was finished,I felt better as I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.For the rest of the day,I had no problems with fantasies and lusting as I went through the day doing what I had to do.I kept busy by being out in the community and just keeping my mind on what I had to do.It was great that I had nothing like that for the day.But,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.I am still trying to work on staying on guard and being watchful.Satan and his minions are out there and I need to stay on guard.They can strike at anytime and anywhere without me knowing it.I really need to start getting tough on myself and asking my Heavenly Father for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ when these temptations come around.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support desperately and daily.Please keep praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.It is just that my blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.Please leave some encouraging words and also,please continue to keep me in your prayers.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to an evening Celebrate Recovery group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.I also did my personal PC work and I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had a few things on my agenda for today.I first folded up some clean laundry and when that was done,I did my breakfast dishes.After that,I did a little bit more cleaning up around the house.After that,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it while relaxing.
Later on,I went to attend a Lenten dinner at my church.It was wonderful to be around my fellow worshipers and eating with them.I am really satisfied with where I am at spiritually and that is terrific.It was great.We ate some wonderfully delicious food and we watched some children singing and a bell choir doing a really beautiful hymn.After that,we watched a little bit of a video about the lift of Jesus Christ and his earthly walk to bring people back to his father,the sovereign Lord and creator of the Earth and everything in it and around it.After it was over,I helped with the clean-up details and after some more wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I went into the house and changed into my night clothes to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against the symptoms of BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult struggle.Today,while still in bed,I gave into temptation to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind as I was doing this.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and bared my soul.I left nothing out.After I was finished,I felt better and I moved on with the rest of the day.For the rest of the day,there were no problems with temptations nor were there any other problems as I kept busy with other things.The fellowship dinner with my church family also helped.It was great that for the rest of the day,I had nothing spring up nor tempt me.It was really wonderful.Still,I am again asking that y'all who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support desperately each and every day.They both help me in a lot of ways.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also keep my motivation to want to overcome and heal from SSA alive.Please pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my Thursday evening study group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly.After showering,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.When I was finished,I headed out to do some stuff that I needed to get done.
Before I did all that I had to do,I went to a local kitchen for lunch and when I was finished,I dropped a couple of people that I knew at a couple of places.After that was done,I headed out to do some much needed stuff.I went to Best Buy to pay a bill and after that,I headed over to a Dollar Tree within the county that I lived and picked up a few things.After paying for these things,I headed over to the drug store to pick up some prescriptions that my doctor prescribed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did my personal PC work.After that,I decided to relax and watch a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to watch another DVD that I popped into the DVD player while relaxing.Later on,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPS/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Though it is,I must say that today,since I kept busy with what I had to do,I really had no troubles with any temptations.I was out for much of the day and just did what I had to do and it was great.It is just that being out in the community took my mind off of the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.I had no problems today.While that was a good thing,I must keep in mind that there is always tomorrow and the days after that,I have to take this struggle one day at a time and while one day may be successful,there are the days ahead of today.Don't get me wrong,I am not worried about tomorrow nor am I worried about the future days.It is just that I have to stay alert and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at anytime.They can strike in the morning,afternoon and/or evening.I need to stay on guard and be watchful as they can strike at any time.Whenever they do strike,I have to go my Heavenly Father and ask him for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me fight and resist any temptations that they want to throw at me.I am still a work in progress and that is cool.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue praying for me and also,please don't be afraid to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support day in and day out.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.Please leave me some positive verbal encouragement and please continue to pray for me.I really need both of these things right now as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a Wednesday night church Lenten dinner,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and after that,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work and I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I only had one thing on agenda for today.I had a doctor's appointment today as a follow-up to some lab work that I had done during the month of February.According to the doctor,everything was good and after that,I headed for home.Before heading for the doctor's office,I withdrew some money from the bank so I can pay a bill tomorrow.I also got some gas in my gas-tank.
After leaving the doctor's office,I had a quick lunch at a nearby restaurant.After that,I headed to the local Super Wal-Mart to return something.When I was done with that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare my evening meal and while that was being done,I did more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and watch it while relaxing.I also started preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Today,I gave into temptation while still in bed by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind,but I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I poured everything and left nothing out.After I was finished,I felt better and I moved on with the rest of the day.Fellow blog followers and readers,I really need your prayers right now and I also need some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.Please leave me some encouraging comments in the comments section.Again,please keep me in your prayers.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time right now and I really need your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going out to pay a bill,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my casual clothes.I did my personal PC work and when that was done,I did some much needed cleaning up and threw a lot of stuff into garbage bags.It was just mountains of paper junk that had accumulated over several months.After that was done,I began to watch a DVD,but felt tired and sleepy.I turned it off and after getting into pajamas,I laid down for a little over an hour and a half.
After getting back up,I headed back out to buy a few things for dinner.After eating,I watched another DVD and I did some more personal PC work.I also prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,I had no problems with fantasies or lusting.I just keep busy with everything that I had to do and it was great.I didn't have nothing go through my mind nor did I have any thoughts of lusting.I simply went through the day unscathed,but there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Satan and his minions can strike and try to tempt me to act out on these unnatural sexual desires that I have.They try to get me to think that acting out is an inevitability rather than a choice.But I know that acting out is a choice and I don't want to act out any longer.Acting out will never give me what I truly want and need,which is affirmation of my gender identity and the feeling of feeling like a man.I am still hoping and praying for healthy and authentic relationships with other men where I can relate,identify and connect with them in a healthy authentic Christian way.I want to to connect with other men in a healthy and authentic way.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support.Please continue praying for me and please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a doctor's appointment in the mid afternoon,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had two cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I did my personal PC work.After that,I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I first went to the public library to type up that letter that I needed to do and I also printed something from my e-mail.After that,I headed for a nearby restaurant to have a quick lunch and after that,I headed for a nearby Dollar Tree store to pick up something that I needed.After that,I headed for a local Dairy Queen for a dessert.I then went to the local Big Lots to pick up something else that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched a little TV and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.This morning,I once again gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and at the moment of climax,I masturbated the rest of the way.After washing my hands,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning in the name of his son Jesus Christ,and I accepted full and total responsibility for my sins.I confessed all and I left nothing out.I bared my soul and pleaded for forgiveness and when I was finished,I felt much better and believed that I was truly forgiven.I still need to be tough on myself.I have to change my game plan for the mornings when I wake up out of bed first thing.I don't want to start falling back into the trap of sinning and repenting of it constantly.This practice is abusing the my Heavenly Father's gift of forgiveness and I want to avoid abusing that.Again,I need to be tough on myself and change my game plan for the morning upon arising.I have to upon arising jump into the shower and clean up and then,have my morning meal and coffee and also,get dressed in my casual clothes so I can avoid the trap of manipulating my private parts.I also really need to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer often and ask my Heavenly Father for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible sinful urges that keep coming at me when I least expect them to come at me.I need to habitually ask for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible urges.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am again that you continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time right now.Please pray for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and after my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and did my personal PC work.When that was done,I headed out to run a few errands.
As my errand running was winding down,I paid a visit to a friend to see how he was doing.After spending some time with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.
For a change of pace and a break from cooking,my family invited me out to dinner as many of my family were also going.It was great.The dinner was wonderful and I had a pretty good time.On the way home,we stopped at a local Dairy Queen for a Blizzard treat.I was then dropped off at home and when I got into the house,I prepared for my evening retirement while doing some last minute personal PC work.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,as a result of the events of the day,I didn't have many problems.I just kept my mind on the tasks that I had to do and also,the time spent with my family going out to dinner.It was great.Nothing passed through my mind and I didn't have any problems with temptations.Fellow blog followers,I am again asking that you keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.Though I escaped unscathed today,I still need prayerful and positive verbal support day in and day out.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast and I cleaned up around the house.After that,I showered in the early afternoon and after getting dressed,I headed out to the local Denny's for a light lunch and after that,I left to go to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things for a light dinner.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating a light dinner,I went over to my Thursday evening Holy Bible study group,which was as wonderful as ever and I learned a great deal from it all.After it was all over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my night clothes and did a little bit more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two and at times,my worst struggle of the two.Today,I gave into temptation twice in the same day by fantasies and lusting after other men and on both occasions,I manipulated my genitals and when I was at the point of climax,I masturbated the rest of the way.On both of these occasions,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ,but with the second occurrence,I begged for my Heavenly Father to be merciful towards me and I begged and pleaded for my Heavenly Father's mercy on me.I was really sorry for that second fall within the same day and I asked for mercy and I admitted my shortcomings to him to the point where tears were coming down from my eyes.I really poured my soul out to my Heavenly Father and repeatedly begged for mercy.It was terrible that I fell short twice in the same day.After I was finished praying,I felt much better and I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I moved on with the rest of the day.I must admit that there are times that when I do fall short into sin in regards to this terrible SSA struggle,I feel trapped within the realm of Homosexuality/SSA because I always hate it when I fall short of my Heavenly Father's perfect law and will and wished that I didn't have this struggle to deal with each and every day.Not only that,my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia also make the SSA struggle even more difficult for me because I hear things and voices in my head to do these terrible wrong things,such as fantasy,lusting and to inappropriately touch my genitalia to these things.I also feel like a basket case at times when I fall short repeatedly.Fellow blog followers,please continue to pray for me.I really need your prayerful support right now.I also need for y'all to leave me some words of positive encouragement as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time at the moment and this fall into sin today didn't help matters at all.Please continue praying for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support right now as I really need that as much as the prayerful support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of having dinner at my niece's house tomorrow evening,I have really no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and after my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I got dressed and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I went outside to shovel snow on my driveway and my sidewalk for the mail people to come,which took me 45 minutes to do.After that was done,I went back into the house.
When I got back into the house,I heated up water in a cup in the microwave and made hot chocolate.I also popped some popcorn in the microwave and sat down to watch a movie that I bought yesterday.I also had another cup of hot chocolate as well.After the movie was over,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work and I relaxed for the rest of the evening while I was preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.This morning,while still in bed,I gave into the terrible temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I did feel really terrible after that.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer to ask him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out as I poured my soul out to him.After I was finished,I felt better and truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day unscathed,but I have to keep in mind that there is tomorrow and the days after that.Fellow blog followers,please keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support real desperately as I need it both day in and day out.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks so much in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of shoveling the driveway and the sidewalks again as result of the blizzard that my hometown is having now.I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do give me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast and when I was finished with that,I got dressed and did my personal PC work.When I was done with that,I headed out to do some running that needed to be done.
I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things that I needed and after that,I picked up a few slices of pizza as a late lunch.When I was finished with that,I picked up a DVD that was being held for me by a local business.After picking that up,I bought some things at a local Dollar Tree store and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and I did some more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed top get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitalia upon arising and sitting down and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind.I stopped myself before it went to far and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked him to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ for falling short and I also accepted full and total responsibility for my sins and falling short.I poured my soul out to him and I left nothing out.After I was finished praying,I felt better because I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.I need to really buckle down and get tough with myself because I can't keep doing these things.I need to go to my Heavenly Father and ask for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ whenever these terrible temptations come around.I need to really buckle down and go to my Heavenly Father and regularly ask for strength.I can't fall back into the trap of falling short and repenting each time.I need to go in prayer to my Heavenly Father whenever these terrible temptations come around.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me and also,I really need some positive verbal support right now.Please pray for me and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support day in and day out.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with a Winter Storm Warning in effect for my area beginning at 2:00am late Tuesday/early Wednesday morning,I have really nothing planned.If the storm gets too intense,I think that I might stay home to be on the safe side and watch a movie or two while trying to stay warm.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I heard from the garage and my car simply needed a tune-up and it was done quickly.After that,I showered quickly and I got dressed.I quickly did my personal PC work and when that was done,I walked over to the garage to pick up my car and after that,I decided to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had lots of grocery shopping to do as I was running out of food.I first went to a local supermarket to pick up a few packs of boneless meat steaks.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up some cereal,milk,pickles and orange juice,alongside some personal stuff that I needed.After paying for that,I headed over to another local supermarket to pick up a pack of boneless chicken breasts.After paying for them,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few more things that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff away and I relaxed for a while.
After eating a light meal,I decided to do some more personal PC work and after that,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I then proceeded to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the worst of the two.Today,upon arising,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind.I also wound up ejaculating and I masturbated the rest of the way.I really felt miserable and ashamed of myself as a result.After washing my hands,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for sinning against him and I accepted full and total responsibility for my falling short.I left nothing out and I admitted everything.I left nothing out as I poured my soul out to my Heavenly Father and after I was done,I felt better as I knew and believed that I was truly forgiven for my sins and I moved on with the rest of the day.I have to watch myself when I get up out of bed in the mornings.I have to stay on guard and be watchful as the morning time when I wake is the weakest time for me as my mind isn't fully awake,although I am up out of bed and my eyes are awake.I need to start jumping in the shower after having my usual 2 cups of coffee.I am still working on being tough with myself and do the needful things that I need to do in the morning so I don't give Satan and his minions what they want.Fellow blog followers,I really need your prayers right now.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Your encouraging words help out a great deal and they also motivate me to keep going,alongside the prayers.Please pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ