Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had two cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done cleaning myself up,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I got dressed and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed back out to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I did a little bit more personal PC work and watched a little bit of TV.I also prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two that I struggle with.Today,upon arising,I was tempted to act out by fantasies and lusting after other men and to manipulate my genitals to the sexual images of men that were clouding my mind.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard for that strength and I pleaded with my Heavenly Father to help me.I prayed until the temptations were reduced to nothing and when I was finished praying,I felt much stronger as I knew and truly believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.For the rest of the day,I had no problems with temptations.I simply went out and did what I had to do throughout the day and it kept my mind off of the negative stuff.I simply did my shopping and ran into people as well as talked to them.I went through the rest of the day with no problems.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I need the support of my fellow men,including and especially those who are Christian and who also struggle.I need both types of support real desperately as if I don't get any verbal support,I feel alone.The positive verbal support given reaffirms me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.They also help keep me going.They also keep both my motivation and determination strong.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I got dressed and I headed out to a local kitchen for lunch and when I was finished,I went and did some shopping at various stores in the area.After I was finished shopping,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I started to prepare a light evening meal.
After eating,I headed back out again to attend my Friday night recovery group,which was as wonderful as I hoped that it would.After that was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my night clothes and I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Today,I was tempted to act out by fantasies,lusting and to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind.This time,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and prayed for strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard for that strength as I didn't want to fall into sin again like I had the last several days of this week.After I was finished praying,I felt much stronger and also,knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.I had no problems for the rest of the day.I was out in the community and kept my mind on what I had to do while out and about.I simply ran the errands that needed to be run and I kept up with everything.I just stayed out and did what I had to do because it had to be done.It was wonderful that I had no problems with temptations for the rest of the day.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.I have to still work on being tough with myself and make praying for strength from my Heavenly Father a daily thing and also,to ask him to help keep my mind and heart pure and clean from all immoral thoughts in the sexual vein.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also would appreciate a few encouraging words in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers but comments of any kind are rarely left.Please leave me some positive verbal support alongside your prayers.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support to help keep me going in this particular struggle and also,positive verbal verbal support reaffirms that I not alone in this particular struggle as I feel alone when nobody posts any positive verbal support in the comments section.Please continue keeping me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual on Sunday,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I wound up waking up at noon and when I did,I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After a while of being up,I showered quickly and when I was done with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I left the house to take my youngest grand-niece to her dance lesson.After that,I headed over to a nearby Dollar Tree store to pick up some things that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started preparing my evening meal.I also did some more personal PC work while waiting for my meal to get ready.
After eating my evening meal,I did some more personal PC work and I also listened to a little bit of music.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against the symptoms of BPD/Schizophrenia and the most difficult one of the two,SSA.Today,I again gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and this time,I wound up ejaculating as a result of that.I really felt miserable when this happened as I had failed my Heavenly Father yet again for the fourth consecutive time.After washing my hands,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I begged for his forgiveness and mercy in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I accepted full and total responsibility for my fall into sin and I prayed for his forgiveness and mercy as I was sorry for what I had done.I prayed and I prayed and I left nothing out and when I was finished,I felt better and Truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.I am now going to make it my resolution to go to my Heavenly Father and pray for strength to help me fight and resist these urges.I need to show my Heavenly Father that I am serious about wanting to heal from and overcome SSA.I really want to heal from and overcome this terrible emotional condition.I don't want the unnatural sexual desires that I have to own me.I want to own them and not have them own me.Again,I need to get really tough with myself and also,make it my resolve to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer to ask him for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible urges and temptations when they come around.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support desperately as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.Your prayerful and positive verbal support helps keep me going and reaffirms me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I Choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and did my personal PC work.After that,I went out to visit a new pizzeria that just opened up and decided to give their pizza a try,which was very good.After eating,I headed over to my sister's house to pick up something and after that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy a few more food items.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and did some more personal PC work.After that,I relaxed for a short time listening to a little bit of music before heading back out to a Lenten dinner in my church's fellowship hall.
The Lenten dinner was wonderful.There was some wonderful fellowship and I had a blast.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and did a little bit more personal PC work.I then decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two struggles that I have.Today,upon arising,I gave into temptation again by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind.I really felt miserable as this was the third consecutive fall that I have had over the last three days.Fortunately,I immediately stopped myself and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and left nothing out.I pleaded for my Heavenly Father's forgiveness as I was sorry for what I had done.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my falling short.When I was finished praying,I felt much better as I knew that I was forgiven for my sins.The thing is this;I need to really get tough on myself when I arise in the mornings.Though I am awake with my eyes,my mind really isn't fully awake at that time.As a result of that,Satan and his minions can take advantage of this to take over my mind by having sexual images of men cloud my mind at their disposal.They also know that I know the truth about SSA and that I am still working on doing something about it.They are trying everything in their power to manipulate my way of thinking and try to get me to change my mind about wanting to heal from and overcome SSA.I need to tell them to hit the road constantly because I don't want these unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA to own me.I want to own them and tell them that I won't let them define who I will be nor dictate to me how I will act.I have to constantly keep in mind that the sexual activity between two members of the same gender is wrong in the eyes of my Heavenly Father.It is also sinful,unacceptable and above all,obscene,degrading and destructive.I have to continually keep that in mind.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.I also need them desperately as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave comments of any kind.Both of these types of support help keep me going and also,the reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,I would really appreciate some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I got dressed up in dress clothes and I headed for the job placement agency to sign some job applications that my job placement counselor/coach and the head of the agency filled out for me.They also made copies of my resume for the applications and they even made a few extra copies for me.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up something light for lunch.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into casual clothes and I did my personal PC work.After that,I had lunch and I left the house again to go to an appointment that I had with my urologist.
The session with the urologist went well as I got a clean bill of health.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a small country store to pick up a few things.After paying for these things,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up some canned vegetables.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the canned vegetables away and I started to prepare my evening meal.While it was in the oven,I did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.I also listened to some music and read for a while.I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.This morning upon arising,I again gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for falling short in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my falling short.I prayed and I left nothing out.When I was finished,I felt much better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.For the rest of the day,I had no problems with temptations nor any problems with sexual images clouding my mind.I simply went on with my day by going to both my appointments and simply keeping my mind on the things that I needed to do.Though I escaped the rest of the day with no problems,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day and also,desperately because when I don't get any positive verbal support in the comments section,I feel that I am alone.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section alongside your prayers.I need both of these types of support to help keep me going and to keep both my determination and motivation strong.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a Lenten dinner in my church's fellowship hall,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning with the phone ringing.I answered it and it was the head of the job placement agency informing me that I have to come in tomorrow to fill out some more job applications and have them turned in.After we talked for a few minutes,I hung up the phone and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I also had my usual quick breakfast and since it was mid morning,I simply decided tow ash my hair over the sink and I got dressed to head over to a local kitchen for lunch.After that,I headed over to the post office to get a money order so I could pay my car insurance.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I paid a couple more bills over the phone and I showered quickly to clean up.After my shower,I did my personal PC work and when that was done,I headed back out to get a couple of things for me to eat for dinner at the local Super Wal-Mart.
After eating my light dinner,I did some more personal PC work and I relaxed while watching a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into temptation twice by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind.The first occurrence was in the morning upon arising and the second occurrence was in the early afternoon.I really felt miserable after both of these occurrences,especially after the second one.On both of these,I went to my Father in prayer and asked him to forgive me for my falling short in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my falling short and really prayed for my Heavenly Father to forgive me as I was really sorry for my sins.When I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I am still a work in progress as I really need to start getting really tough on myself.I have to show these unnatural desires that I have that are connected with SSA that I own them and not the other way around.I want to show my Heavenly Father that I am truly serious about wanting to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.I do want to heal from this terrible emotional condition.I also want to overcome this terrible condition as well.It is just that I can't keep doing these things and going to my Heavenly Father to ask for forgiveness constantly.I don't want my Heavenly Father to think that I am abusing these divine gifts that he has for us in regards to his forgiveness.I need to really start getting tough on myself and show these unnatural desires that I won them and not the other way around.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support desperately.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my meeting with the head of the job placement agency and my later appointment with my urologist,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

This particular post on here will be a catch-up on the last two days.I forgot to post my day yesterday.My rocky road to recovery still continues moving forward.
Yesterday,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.I showered quickly afterwards and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I headed over to my monthly Men's Network meeting,which went well,although not too many men attended this time around.After the meeting was over,I headed over to a nearby Salvation army thrift store and bought a few things.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Sears to pay a bill.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I headed back out to another area of the county where I live and I went shopping at the Salvation Army thrift store that was there.After having lunch at a nearby Denny's,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something for dinner and other things that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the groceries away and I did some more personal PC work.I had my light dinner and I relaxed for the rest of the evening.It was a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Today,I had a wonderful and eventful day.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee to wake up.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I got dressed up in a suit and I went to church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things for lunch and a few other needed things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate my lunch and put the other stuff that I bought away.After that,I did my personal PC work.After that,I went out to a local supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After that,I went to another Super Wal-Mart that is in another area of the county that I live.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church on Sunday always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Over the past couple of days,my rocky road to recovery still continues to move forward,I had been on a roller coaster ride in regards to my struggles with SSA.My BPD/Schizophrenia have stayed stable thanks to my medication,but my SSA struggles have not been stable.I have been enduring overwhelming temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have that are connected with SSA and I have given in a couple of times,and on both occasions,I have asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ while at the same time,I accepted full and total responsibility for my falling short on both of these occasions.These were the usual fantasizing and lusting after other men and manipulating my genitalia to these images of men clouding my mind.Temptation can strike anytime anywhere and even this morning,I was tempted twice and I asked my Heavenly Father for strength to help me fight and resists these overwhelming urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and prayed for strength to help me fight and resist and after I was finished,I felt better and much stronger as I truly believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and gave me what I asked for and needed.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support right now and desperately as I am really going through a very difficult emotional time right now.I need both your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.They both reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.They both help keep me going and keep both my motivation and determination strong.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of turning in another job application,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my last two days and my hopes and plans for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly.After my shower,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work and when that was done,I headed out to go to the bank to withdraw some much needed money.After that,I headed straight home to register the bills on the Where's George site.I went back out after that to head over to the post office to mail out an important payment that I had to mail out.After that,I headed over to the bank again to withdraw a little bit more money so I could stop by a local church to pick up a fish fry dinner for myself.After that,I headed straight home to eat it.
On the way home,I almost wound up in a car accident when a driver who tried to make a left turn onto the avenue when I was going straight,but I managed to act fast by swerving to avoid us crashing into each other.I continued onward towards home,though I was a little shaken by this.
When I got home,I ate my fish fry dinner and enjoyed an episode of a classic TV series that I popped into the DVD player.I was hoping to go to my usual Friday night recovery group,but the intense rainy weather kept me home.I simply relaxed and did some more personal PC work and still managed to get my recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.I then started to plan my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day and was a little bit better than yesterday,though it could've been much better if it weren't for the almost accident that thankfully didn't happen.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,upon arising,I gave into temptation again by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind.The root cause of this was all the stress that I had yesterday and I was still feeling stressed as a result of all of these things that happened yesterday.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins.I accepted full and total responsibility for my falling short and I asked that I be forgiven for my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and when I was finished,I felt better as I truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day with hardly any negative things happening until that near accident in the early evening.It did stress me out a little bit,but I think that I will fell better after a good night's sleep.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am again asking that you continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and I need all the prayerful and positive verbal support that I can get.Please continue praying for me and also,I would appreciate some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of a Men's Network meeting tomorrow morning and church as usual on Sunday,I have made no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,but has hit some bumps.I had a pretty stressful day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I got dressed and proceeded to move forward with the rest of my day,but that was when the bumps came about.
While I was on my way to have lunch somewhere,My driver's side rear wheel went flat.A cab driver pulled up aside me and informed me of it.I had to pull into a parking lot of a plant and called my niece,who advised me to call her mother,which I did.She came and picked me up and dropped me off at home and I was at home for much of the day as a result of me not having my car.I did my personal PC work and I awaited anyone that could help.
I called my nephew,but he advised me to call his father,which I did and his father got me going.He put air in my wheel's tire and advised me to take it to the local Dunn Tire,which I did and I was fortunate to get it in at that moment.They simply fixed the rim by placing a new sealant on it and they put the tire back on and inflated it.After paying the costs of the repair,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things for dinner and I headed straight home to eat it quickly as I had my Thursday evening Holy Bible study group to attend and that actually made me feel a lot better after all the stresses of today.When it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I went inside and I did some more personal PC work.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,it was a pretty stressful day.I did manage to get my recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,with the road being bumpy today,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.This morning upon arising,I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitals and sexual images of men clouded my mind at that point.I managed to stop myself and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and left nothing out.When I was finished praying,I felt better and believed that I was forgiven.Though I had a pretty stressful day today,I had no problems with temptation and that was pretty good.I went through the rest of the day unscathed.Though I did,I have to keep in mind that there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Fellow blog followers,lease continue keeping me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support daily as I never know what the next day and the day after next will have.Please continue keeping me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly.After my shower,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I headed out to a local kitchen for lunch,but got a bag lunch for today.After receiving that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped a local Dollar tree store to pick up a bottle of tomato juice.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate my given bag lunch and had a glass of tomato juice with it.After that,I did my personal PC work quickly and I relaxed for the rest of the early afternoon reading a book.
Later on,I headed over to my church for a Lenten dinner in the church fellowship hall,which was great and wonderful.After helping out with the clean-up,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my night clothes and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,I was being overwhelmingly tempted to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men and to manipulate my genitals to the sexual images of men that were clouding my mind.I threw everything on my Heavenly Father and I asked for strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges that were coming at me from all sides.I asked for this strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and I prayed real hard.I kept up in prayer to my Heavenly Father and I didn't cease until the temptations that I was experiencing had dissipated into nothing.When I was finished praying,I felt much better and much stronger.This wasn't the only time I had to pray for something.Later on,I had to pray again because negative thoughts were racing through my mind and I was saying things to myself that were the opposite of what my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ preached and taught through the Holy Bible.Since I am a combination BPD/Schizophrenia as far as my psychiatric disability goes,anything can happen in my mind and at times,what can go through my mind can be either negative or even totally bad and/or evil.I was grabbing my head as these things were happening as I wanted them to stop as I felt that I was being tortured by unseen forces,such as Satan and his minions,and hearing voices and other sounds in my head.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer before it got worse.I prayed real hard and asked that my Heavenly Father clear my head of anything that was going through it in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and even demanded that Satan and his minions hit the road as I wasn't going to give them the satisfaction that they wanted.They,Satan and his minions,are now using everything in their power,even taking advantage of the fact that I am a combination BPD/Schizophrenic to start trouble and try to cause commotion with my mentality by trying to put things in my head that I don't want in there.I prayed and I prayed and when I was finished,my mind was clearer and I felt a lot better.I went through the rest of the day without any problems,but I have to keep in mind that there is always tomorrow and the days after that.I need to stay on guard as a result of that because Satan and his minions can attack at any times with overwhelming temptations and use my psychiatric disability to put negative and evil thoughts into my head to make me shout out hateful remarks to myself or to try to keep me caught in the grip of other negative emotions,such as anger,sadness and other sorts.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue praying for me as I am going through this very difficult time.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments sections as I really need some affirming words right now.I am going through a very difficult time right now and I need both prayerful and positive verbal support like never before.They both help keep me going and also,keep both my determination and motivation strong.Please continue keeping me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was done,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I got dressed up in dress clothes and I headed for the job placement agency for my meeting with my job placement counselor/coach and the head of the agency.
The meeting went wonderfully well.They simply informed that they will be transferring me to a new counselor/coach and advised me to continue putting in the job applications.After the meeting,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some much needed money and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my casual clothes and did my personal PC work.I also had a light lunch after that at home.I also e-mailed my resume to a couple of employers that I learned about via e-mail.
A little later on,I went out to get some gas and after that,I stopped by to see how a friend of mine was doing.After a few minutes with him,I headed for the public library to print a job application from an employer's website.After that,I headed back home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recomended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Today,I was being overwhelmingly tempted to act out by fantasizing and lusting after other men as sexual images of men were starting to cloud my mind.I was also tempted to manipulate my genitals to these images that were clouding my mind.This happened upon arising out of bed and sitting down.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges as I didn't want to sin against my Heavenly Father in any way.I prayed real hard and I asked for that strength.I prayed and I prayed because I didn't want to sin nor give into these terrible temptations that were coming at me from all sides.When I was finished praying,I felt better and stronger as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.I went through the rest of the day without any problems with temptation to act out in any way.My mind was clear and I simply went on with what I had to do.It was great that I had nothing to worry about in regards to temptations and anything sexual.Though I escaped the rest of the day unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also would appreciate it if you would leave me an encouraging comment or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support every day as it reaffirms that I am not alone.I also need both of these types of support because I get overwhelmed by temptations to act out when least expected and I do need prayerful support from my fellow blog followers and readers.They also help keep me going in this particular struggle and also,they keep both my determination and motivation strong.I want to overcome this terrible SSA and I need all the support that I can get from everyone who follow my blog and read my posts.I also want to heal and I still need all the support that I can get.The SSA struggle is a very difficult struggle indeed and nobody who struggles should struggle and endure alone.It is jusy that when I don't get any positive verbal support in the comments section by visitors and/or curiosity seekers,I feel alone as a result of that.I would really appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section and also,please continue to keep me in your prayers.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to an evening Lenten dinner at my church's fellowship hall,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I quickly showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch.After that was done,I dropped a friend off at home and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I laid down to read and I relaxed while doing so.
After eating,I decided to do a little bit more personal PC work and later on,a little bit more reading.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today upon arising and sitting down,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind,which gave way to lusting and fantasizing.Fortunately,I stopped myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my falling short in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and left nothing out.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall while asking for the forgiveness.When I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven for my sins.For much of the day,I had no problems with temptation until the mid afternoon when I laid down to read.I was reading a book by a Christian author on how anyone can find and have strength in their own weakness and the temptations were coming at me strong.I put down the book and got up off the bed.I went to a chair and sat down.I prayed to my Heavenly Father and asked him for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and i prayed.I threw everything on my Heavenly Father that I was being tempted to do.I was tempted to repeat the same pattern that I gave into this morning upon arising,but again,I prayed for strength instead of giving in.I prayed hard and threw everything on my Heavenly Father and asked him for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I am learning day after day that Satan and his minions never rest.They will try to get anyone who worships the sovereign Lord and creator of all things to sin against him and to also think that they have no hope because of their sinful conditions.But I know one thing,as every other Christian knows,that Satan and his minions are liars.There is hope for everyone who call upon our Heavenly Father,the sovereign Lord and creator of all things,to ask him to help them with their struggles and to help them overcome their struggles.He helps us with the help of his son Jesus Christ,the Lord and savior who was sent to Earth to not only bring people back to his father,but to die for our sins so we would never be enslaved to sin ever again as his precious stainless blood washes away all sins.I know that my Heavenly Father heard me as I felt much stronger after I was finished praying.I know that whenever I ask my Heavenly Father for something,I know that I get it because I feel it whenever I pray,with today being a very good example of that.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also ask that you please leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.I also need all the positive verbal support that I ca get.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time in my life and I need all the support,both prayerful and positive verbal,that I can get.They both help keep me going.They also reaffirm that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of meeting with my job placement counselor/coach and the head of the job placement agency,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I quickly showered and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.I also did another reading from the Holy Bible in front of the congregation that was again well received.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my casual clothes.I also did my personal PC work.After that was over,I decided to pop a movie into the VCR part of my VCR/Region Free Format Free DVD player/recorder and I watched the movie while relaxing.I also did a little bit more personal PC work.
I also went out for a bit to get myself a gallon of milk from the local Super Wal-Mart.I also got myself a small bottle of orange juice.After that,I went to another local business to pick up a job application.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the milk and the juice in the fridge and I sat down to complete the job applications.After that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and relaxed.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.It's bad enough struggling with mental illness,but it is another to struggle with SSA.Why?It's because I have to deal and put up with unnatural sexual desires that I have.Today,I was tempted to act out on these unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.I was tempted to lust and fantasize after other men and to also manipulate my genitals to these images to get them erect and/or near to the point of orgasm and stopping.I threw the temptation on my Heavenly Father and asked him for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and asked for that strength.I didn't cease praying until the temptations had died off.I am still learning that the more I resist temptations to act out in this particular way in regards to SSA,the more stronger they come back each time.Satan and his minions never give up.Today was no exception.After I was finished praying,I felt much better and much stronger as I truly believed that my Heavenly Father gave me the strength that I asked for.I escaped the rest of the day unscathed.Fellow blog followers and readers,while I did go through the rest of the day unscathed,I am again asking for your continued prayerful support.I still need your prayers as these terrible temptations might/will come back stronger and I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also ask that y'all leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left for me in the comments section.Your encouraging comments do help and I would really like it if y'all leave me some positive verbal support,alongside your prayers.They both do help in a lot of ways as they have power beyond imagination.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of turning in the applications that I picked up today,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was done,I had my usual quick breakfast.I also got dressed and I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed out to do some stuff.
I first went to the local shopping mall to pick up a job application.After that,I did some shopping at a couple of local Dollar Tree stores.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to do some more personal PC work.I also listened to some music.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.I also prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,I was really struggling with temptation when I arose out of bed.I was really tempted to fantasize and lust after other men and to also manipulate my genitals to these sexual images of men.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I asked him for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I pleaded for strength.I didn't want to sin nor give into these terrible temptations that were being thrown at me from all sides.I prayed and I prayed and when I was finished,I felt stronger as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.I went on with the rest of the day.For the rest of the day,I had no problems with temptations.I simply kept my attention to what I had to do and that kept my mind off of anything sexual with men.I have to continually keep in mind that my Heavenly Father never intended for his gift of sexuality to be used and abused the way that the world is currently using and abusing it right now.I have to keep that in mind constantly and each and every day.I must never forget that my Heavenly Father meant for sexuality to be used responsibly and not for the selfish self-serving purposes that the world is using it for.They are also using sexuality irresponsibly and that is why there are so many STD cases each and ever year and the rise of AIDS,genital warts and genital herpes are examples of sexuality being used irresponsibly.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left in the comments section.Please leave me some positive verbal encouragement and don't forget keeping me in your prayers.Prayerful and positive verbal support both help keep me going in this struggle and they both help keep both my determination and motivation strong.It also reaffirms that I am not alone in this particular struggle as nobody,male or female,who struggles can't ever go it alone.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After having my coffee,I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I quickly did my personal PC work.When that was done,I headed over to my appointment with the priest.
The meeting with the priest went great.After our talk,I stopped and had a sandwich at a nearby McDonald's.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up something for dinner.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I bought in its proper place and I did some more personal PC work.After that,I took something for a headache that I had and I relaxed for a bit until the headache was gone.
After eating,I was hoping to go to my Friday night Celebrate Recovery group,but was feeling dizzy from the headache that I had.I chose to stay home and relax.I listened to a little bit of Christian music and simply prayed for relief.I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Though it is,I must say that today,I had no troubles with temptation.I simply went forward with my day and I had no problems with any sexual images of men crossing my mind.The talk with the priest and just being out in the community really helped take my mind off of these things.It was really wonderful.While I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after that.It is not that I am worried or anxious about tomorrow and the days after that.It is just that I have to stay on guard and be watchful as temptation can strike when least expected.I have to keep in mind that Satan and his minions can bring on temptations anytime and knowing that we are imperfect,Satan and his minions can use human imperfection to bring out the worst in me and I have to keep on remembering that.I need to stay strong and stand tall.I need to keep going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask him for strength to help me fight and resist these urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to tell these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I also need to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I am not going to let them define who I am nor dictate to me how I will be and act.I also have to keep in mind that the sexual activity between two members of the same gender is NOT approved of by my Heavenly Father.His sacred word,the Holy Bible,says in it's own words that this type of thing is wrong,inappropriate,degrading,detestable,obscene and sinful.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I am also still struggling and I need prayers by everyone who follows my blog and reads the posts.I also need some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section as well.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.I also need both of these things to reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle because when I get no comments in the comments section,I feel alone.Please don't be shy and leave me some positive verbal encouragement alongside your prayerful support for me.I want to heal and overcome Homosexuality/SSA and I need all the prayerful and positive verbal support that I can get.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday as usual,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had two cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered and when I was done,I had my usual quick breakfast.When that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to a local kitchen for lunch and when I was finished eating,I went to the public library to register some money that I withdrew at the Where's George website.After that,I headed to a local hair place to get my hair cut.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I checked my phone to see if there were any messages and there was one by my niece asking me to babysit her kids and to take her youngest one to her dance class.Before going over there,I did my personal PC work.After dropping her youngest daughter off at her dance class,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to do some more personal PC work.After that was done,I had a light meal and I headed over to my usual Thursday evening Holy Bible study group,which went as wonderfully well as expected.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Today,I had no troubles with temptation.It was wonderful.Today,no images of men clouded my mind and I think what helped that I kept my mind on other things that I had to do.I just went through the day doing what I felt that I had to do and it was great.I was also out in the community today and that also helped.Plus,helping my niece out by babysitting her kids and taking her youngest kid to her dancing lesson also helped.I also had a wonderful evening at my usual Thursday evening study and that was great.Though I escaped today,there is still tomorrow and the days after that.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as temptations can happen when least expected.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am again asking that y'all continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I still need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day,although I had no problems today.I still need both of these things from my fellow man because I still need the reaffirmation that I am not alone in this struggle and I need support constantly.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to my session with the priest in the early afternoon and my Celebrate Recovery group in the evening,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had two cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed out to drop off two job applications.
Before I did that,I had lunch at a local kitchen.After lunch,I dropped the applications off at the places that I picked them up.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to do my personal PC work.After that was done,I put on some wonderful Christian themed music while reading a Christian based book.I also did some banking on the telephone.After doing a little bit more personal PC work,I headed over to the church to attend a Lenten dinner with my fellow worshipers,which was wonderful.I enjoyed the fellowship and some of the lessons that our pastor taught us.After helping out with the clean-up,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement and also enjoyed a little bit more Christian themed music.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Why?It is because I endure unnatural sexual desires towards members of my own gender daily.Today was no exception.I was tempted upon arising out of bed to act out by fantasizing,lusting and to manipulate my genitals to the fantasies and lusting,but this time,I threw them on my Heavenly Father and asked him to give me the strength to help me fight and resist the temptations to indulge in these sinful sexual practices.I asked for that strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I prayed real hard for this strength.I didn't want to sin nor affirm the false Homosexual/Gay identity that I am determined to overcome and heal from.I prayed and prayed until the selfish self serving desire was gone.After praying,I felt better and much stronger.I went on with the rest of the day with no problems with temptations.I simply stayed busy for the rest of the day by going out and doing what I had to do,which took my mind off of anything sexual in a selfish self serving way,which is what the sexual activity connected with Homosexuality/SSA is.I am learning day in and day out that the sinful sexual activity between two members of the same gender fits no purpose in life nor has anything in my Heavenly Father's way when he created and gave humanity the gift of sexuality.The sexual activity between two members of the same gender is not only sinful,but it selfishly and self-servingly uses and abuses the bodies of men for inappropriate sexual connections that are very destructive and contradicts what my Heavenly Father set forth.It also does the same for women and their bodies as well.My Heavenly Father condemns any sexual activity outside his original plan for humanity and sexuality.My Heavenly Father's original plan for humanity is just as valid as the day he initially introduced that plan.His plan is described in the Holy Bible book of Genesis Chapter's One and Two.Right now,as a result of going to my Heavenly Father in prayer whenever these temptations come at me,I am now feeling better and much stronger.My Heavenly Father,through his only begotten son Jesus Christ,gives me this strength in my human weakness and that strength is powerful than anything.Still,in spite of this,I am still in need of prayerful support from my fellow blog followers and readers.I am also still in need of positive verbal encouragement to be left in the comments section.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support as well.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support in the comments section each and every day to reaffirm me that I am not alone in my struggle.Please continue to pray and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I wok up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I received a phone call from my job placement counselor/coach from the job placement agency and an appointment was set up for me to meet with her and the head of the agency this coming Monday.After the phone call,I jumped into the shower to clean up and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed over to the job placement agency to pick up some business cards to attach to paper application after I fill them out alongside my resume.After that,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and when I was finished eating,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things.After paying for those things,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did my personal PC work.When I was finished with that,I laid down to read for a while.After reading,I did the breakfast dishes and started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and watch it.I also did a little bit more reading while preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Today,I was again overwhelmed by temptation,but again,I threw the temptations on my Heavenly Father and asked him for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.I asked for that strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard as these temptations were really overwhelming and strong.When I was finished,I felt better and much stronger.It is a great feeling to have that sort of feeling after praying for strength.Throughout the rest of the day,I had no problems with temptations.I simply kept my mind on the stuff that I had to do and it took my mind off of anything sexual with men.I am now going to start to make it my resolve to pray for strength whenever temptations rear their ugly heads at me.I have to show these unnatural desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I am also sending a message to Satan and his minions that I worship the sovereign Lord and creator of the universe and the world and that I follow Jesus Christ alongside following what my Heavenly Father's word,the Holy Bible,says in regards to sexuality and not the world's way,which is influenced by Satan and his minions.Though I have been doing this the last couple of days,I am still asking that my fellow blog followers and readers to please continue to keep me in your prayers because I still need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also ask that you please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments.I need all the positive verbal encouragement that I can get alongside the prayerful support.They both help keep me going and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of turning in the applications that I picked up Monday and the evening's Lenten dinner at my church,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had two cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly.After my shower,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I did my personal PC work and I proceeded to continue on with the rest of the day.
I first went to pick up a couple of job applications at a couple of places in my hometown.After that,I went to a local supermarket to pick up a gallon of milk.After that,I went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple more things.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away in their proper places and did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I filled out the two job applications that I picked up and I stapled everything together that I needed to staple onto them.I also filled a few more applications online after that.I then relaxed and I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.I then proceeded to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,I was being tempted to act out on the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA condition,but this time,I went right to my Heavenly Father in Heaven and I prayed for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I asked my Heavenly Father to give me the strength to help me fight and resist the temptations that were coming at me from all sides.They were pretty overwhelming,though not as overwhelming as yesterday,but still overwhelming nonetheless.I prayed real hard to my Heavenly Father to help me fight and resist these temptations and to help me reject and remove the immoral images that had come into my mind.I kept on praying until the desires disappeared.When I finished praying,I felt much stronger and could move on with the rest of the day,where I had no further problems with temptations coming at me.Though I escaped the rest of the day unscathed,there is till tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time with their evil temptations.I have to keep telling Satan and his minions to hit the road whenever this happens.Plus,the more resistance that I put up,even with the help of my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,the more stronger and overwhelming the temptations return and at times,they can return with a vengeance.This is why I am again asking for my fellow blog followers and readers to please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I still need both prayerful and positive verbal support from my fellow blog followers and readers each and every day.I need them desperately because it affirms me that I am not alone.They also help keep me going.They also keep both my motivation and determination strong.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the hopefulness of turning in the applications that I picked up today,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had two cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After paying for these things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and I quickly did my personal PC work.I also watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I decided to pop another DVD into the DVD player and watch it.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,I was hounded by temptation left and right.Sexual images of men were clouding my mind.I was tempted to manipulate my genitals to these images as fantasies and lusting to them.I was also tempted to go out and seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them.Yes,I was really overwhelmed with temptation today and the temptations were strong and overwhelming.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer.I asked my Heavenly Father to give me strength to help me fight and resist these urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I poured my soul out to him.I left nothing out as I prayed as I threw everything on my Heavenly Father as burdens and even ordered Satan and his minions to get out and to take his baggage with him.I kept up praying until the temptations were gone.When I was finished praying,I felt much stronger and also,relieved of all the terrible temptations that were overwhelming me today.I also felt great as I went through the rest of the day not having any temptations to act out as the day went on.I am now going to work on making it a habit to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask him for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to tell these unnatural desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I also have to tell my sexuality that I own it and not the other way around.I am still going to need the help and support of all my blog followers.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ