Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After coffee,I was up for much of the rest of the morning and I held off showering for a while.As noon was approaching,I had my usual quick breakfast and a half hour after that,I showered quickly to clean up.After showering,I tried calling someone I knew to check up on them,but they wouldn't answer.Concerned,I took a drive out to his place to see if he was okay and I was relieved to see that he was.After a few minutes at his place,we went out for a bot and picked up a few slices of pizza.After we had the pizza,we went to a nearby Dairy Queen to have some ice cream and after that,I dropped him off at home and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare my evening meal as I was still hungry.While it was being prepared,I did 3/4 of my personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to relax and finish my personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I wound yup giving into temptation twice.Upon arising,I gave into the temptations to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I fantasized and lusted after the images.On both occurrences,I managed to stop myself and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning against him in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my falling into sin.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out as I prayed.I confessed everything to my Heavenly Father and when I was finished,I felt better as I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day without any problems.I still need to really work on getting tough with myself.I need to tell my body that I own it and that it doesn't own me.I also need to work on letting these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I also own them and that they don't own me.I want to be like the Apostle Paul when he said in 1st Corinthians 9:27 that he beats his body and makes his body his slave.This means that Paul says that he owns his body and everything on it and not the other way around.Plus,I also have to continually keep in mind that the body is the Lord's temple and not meant for any form of sexual immorality.I have to work on going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I don't want to fall into the trap of falling into sin and going to my Heavenly Father in prayer for forgiveness.I want to show my Heavenly Father that I mean it when I say that I want to overcome and heal from SSA.I also want to show him that I am serious about wanting to change and that I want to do what is right in his eyes.I can't keep falling into sin and going to him for forgiveness as I feel that I am abusing that divine gift that he gives when people are really sorry for their sins when they fall short.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support desperately.The positive verbal support reassures and reaffirms me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.I also need prayerful support each and every day.They both help keep me going.They also help keep me strong in both my determination and motivation.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to church as usual,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.I didn't have much time to shower,so I washed my hair over the sink and after that,I dried and brushed it.I also washed my face and shaved and when I was finished with that,I got dressed up in my new dress interview clothes and headed for the agency to fill out another application for the place where I was interviewed yesterday for another position,which I turned in shortly after leaving the agency.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local restaurant to ask for an employment application,but the said that they were out of paper applications.After I left,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I made a phone call to the agency to let them know and after hanging up,I quickly did my personal PC work and later on in the afternoon,I showered to clean up and when I was finished,I watched a little TV and after turning it off,I did some more personal PC work.After that,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I headed over to my usual Friday night Celebrate Recovery group,which was wonderful.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into night clothes and prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and at the same time,fantasized and lusted after them.I felt really miserable and I went to my Heavenly Father and asked for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my falling short into sin and I left nothing out as I prayed.When I was finished,I felt better as I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven for my sins.For the rest of the day,I had no more problems,but I stayed on guard and kept being watchful.I didn't want to fall back into sin again and I had to be careful.I have to continue working on getting tough with myself and going to my Heavenly Father in prayer to ask for strength whenever these terrible temptations come around.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need some serious positive verbal support right now alongside your prayers.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support real badly and desperately.They both help keep me going.They also help keep me strong in both my determination and my motivation.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday as usual,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I decided to do my personal PC work first and quickly and when I was done with that,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I got dressed up in dress clothes quickly because I had a job interview in the early afternoon.
During the interview,they advised me what the job was about and it was for a handy-man maintenance position.They also advised me to fill out another application for housekeeping duties and tomorrow,my job placement counselor and coach will be filling out the application together.I dropped off another application after that and I headed straight home afterwards.
When I got home,I changed into casual clothes and I headed back out to do a little bit of shopping and when I was finished with that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did some more personal PC work and after that,I prepared a light meal for my evening meal.
After eating,I headed over to my evening Holy Bible study group,which went wonderfully.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into night clothes and prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Though it is,I wasn't tempted today to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.I was too busy getting ready for my job interview and eagerly anticipating what to say to the interviewer.This kept my mind off of sexual stuff.Tomorrow,I will be going to the agency to help fill out another application and I am still hoping for the best.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support as well.I need both types of support desperately and every day.They both help out in a lot of ways.They both help keep me going.They also help keep me strong in both my determination and motivation.It is just that my blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to the agency and helping to fill out an application,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I didn't shower for a while as I had a couple of phone calls this morning.One from a place that arranged for me to come in for a job interview and another from my job placement counselor and coach.After these calls,I was relaxing for much of the morning and when it was approaching noon,I finally jumped into the shower and cleaned up and when I was finished cleaning myself,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and most of the time,I had to prepare for my appointment with my general medical doctor as a result of the cold that I had last week and also,to get new prescriptions for two of my most important medical conditions.
The session with the doctor went well and after it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to turn in some empty bottles and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I caught up on my personal PC work and I relaxed for the rest of the evening while watching a DVD.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,upon arising out of bed,I gave into the temptation to lust and fantasize and I manipulated my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and when I reached orgasm,I masturbated the rest of the way.I felt terrible for doing this and when I was finished washing my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and prayed to him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I accepted full and total responsibility for my falling into sin to my Heavenly Father as I confessed my sins to him.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out as I prayed to him.I prayed and told him everything and when I was finished,I felt better and I knew and believed that I was truly forgiven for my sins.I went through the rest of the day feeling better that I was forgiven.I still need to really get tough on myself.I have to learn how to say "NO" to these terrible temptations when they come around.I need to really work on showing these unnatural desires that I have that I own them and that they don't own me.I can't let myself fall into the trap of habitually sinning and going to my Heavenly Father to be forgiven for sinning.I need to really get tough with myself ans say "NO" to these temptations.I need to really work on going to my Heavenly Father and asking for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to make that a habit and go to him every day and asking for that strength.If I don't,I am up the creek with no place to go.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am going through a very difficult emotional time right now and I need all the prayerful and positive verbal support that I can get.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support desperately and every day.They do both help in a lot of ways.They both help keep me going.They also help keep me strong in both my determination and motivation.They also both reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a job interview tomorrow in the early afternoon,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I got dressed up and had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I headed over to the local Sears to have some interview clothes bought for me.
The purchasing went great and after it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got back into a pair of sweatpants and I did my personal PC work.After that,I spent the rest of the time preparing for my latest job interview today.
When the time came,I headed over to the local Motel 6 where the interview was and though the interview went great,it was for something that I had no experience in.After it was over,I thanked the manager for the time and shook his hand and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into casual clothes and headed for a local supermarket to turn in some empty bottles and cans and after that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy a gallon of milk.After that,I headed over to the drug store to pick up a prescription refill.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the milk in the fridge and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and later on,I relaxed and enjoyed a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I actually managed to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I was tempted to fantasize and lust after other men and to also manipulate my genitals to the sexual images of men that were clouding my mind.This was after I had gotten home from getting interview clothes.I prayed and I prayed for strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges because I didn't want to give into these things.I didn't want to sin against my Heavenly Father.I also wanted to stay within his perfect law in regards to sexuality.When I was finished praying,I felt better and also,much stronger as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.I went through with the rest of the day with no problems.Though I did escape the rest of the day unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support every day and desperately.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.I need both of these types of support.I need to continue knowing that I am not alone in this particular struggle.They both help keep me going.They also help keep me strong in terms of my determination and motivation.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a doctor's appointment in the mid afternoon,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I got dressed and went out to the bank to withdraw some money so I could get my driver's side rear wheel tire replaced and it was a good thing that I had it replaced as it was starting to bubble on the rear of it.After having the tire put on by a local garage,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I checked my voice-mail and my job placement counselor/coach left a message and I returned the call.I will be meeting her at the local Sears to see about getting interview clothes and prepare for my job interview tomorrow.After talking with her,I undressed and showered quickly and when I was finished,I got dressed again and had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I proceeded to head over to the local hospital for my appointments with both my therapist and the nurse practitioner.
Both the sessions went well.After they were over and I got a new prescription for my medication,I headed for home.
On the way home,I dropped my prescription off at the drug store and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I checked my voice-mail and saw that another place where I dropped an application off called to set up an interview and I called them back and left a message.I also left a message for my job placement counselor/coach regarding this and after that,I did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I relaxed for a bit and I did some more personal PC work.I also prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the worst of the two for me.Today,I had no problems with temptations.I wasn't tempted in any way to fantasize nor lust after any men and no sexual images of men clouded my mind at all today.I was relieved that this didn't happen at all today.I guess keeping my mind on getting my tire replaced and the appointments and preparing for tomorrow kept my mind off of these things.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.It isn't that I am worried about tomorrow,which I am not.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can attack at any minute trying to tempt me to fantasize and lust after other men.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support every day.They both help keep me going.They also reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.They also help keep my determination and motivation strong.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of shopping for interview clothes,preparation for my job interview and the interview itself tomorrow,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke in the early morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly got dressed up in a suit and headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to get a couple of things that I needed.After paying for these things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and since I was still feeling tired,I decided to lay down for a while and rest.
After getting up,I headed for the local Super Wal-Mart to buy something for dinner,but I saw that this wasn't what I wanted after looking at the ingredients,I headed for the local supermarket and they had what I was looking for.After paying for it,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I bought away and I finally got around to doing my personal PC work.After that was done,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to do a little bit more personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,while I was laying down,I gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men when sexual images of men clouded my mind.I also manipulated my genitals to these images.I managed to stop myself and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for falling short in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my falling short and I also pleaded for my Heavenly Father's mercy on me.I prayed hard and I left nothing out.When I was finished praying,I felt better as I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.I really need to start getting tough on myself.I need to really work on making it a habit in going to my Heavenly Father and asking for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I am serious about wanting to overcome and heal from this terrible SSA.I really need to show this to my Heavenly Father by going to him constantly and asking him for help whenever these terrible and overwhelming urges come around.I want to avoid falling into the trap of habitually sinning and going to my Heavenly Father and asking to be forgiven.I really need to work on myself and really be tough.I want to heal and I want to overcome,but I won't if I habitually keep falling and going to ask for forgiveness.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue in prayer for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support really badly and desperately.They both help keep me going.They also help reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my appointments with my therapist and the nurse practitioner in the early afternoon,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I got dressed and I headed out to the bank to withdraw a little bit of money and I headed straight home.When I got home,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I put my clothes back on and I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I headed out again to pick up some more cold and cough medicine.I first turned in some cans and bottles at a local supermarket and when I was finished,I first headed to the local Super Wal-Mart,but couldn't find anything that I could use.After that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store and I picked up four bottles of mucus relief DM pills.After paying for those,I headed to a nearby supermarket and pick up a bottle of cough syrup.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the cold remedy's that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.While it was cooking,I quickly did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I also did some more personal PC work afterwards.I then decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I am still battling a terrible cold and I still have a cough that won't leave.However,I have chosen to share my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA today.Today,with the stress of the job search and trying to get rid of this darned cold,I wound up giving into the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men when sexual images of men clouded my mind by manipulating my genitals to these images and when I reached orgasm,I masturbated the rest of the way.I really felt miserable after this and when I was finished washing my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed to him and revealed everything that I did to him and I left nothing out.I prayed real hard pleading for his forgiveness and I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall.When I finished praying,I felt much better and I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section as I really need some positive verbal support right now.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section and also,please continue your prayerful support.Your support in both of these areas helps keep me going.They also reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.They also help keep my determination and motivation strong.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual in the morning,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.I did my personal PC work after that and I also watched a little bit of TV.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.It was raining for much of the day today and I just stayed home to relax and take it easy.
After eating,I decided to head out to attend my usual Friday night Celebrate Recovery group,but ran into a major setback when my driver's side rear wheel went flat again and my former brother in-law came out to pump it again.He advised to head for home and I did.On the way home,I stopped at the drug store to pick up some nighttime cough medicine that also helps me with my nasal passages.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my night clothes and I did a little bit more personal PC work.I also prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I will update everyone here on my struggles when I am up to it.Right now,I am still working on getting rid of these terrible cold symptoms as they keep recurring no matter what I take for them,especially the coughing.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual this coming Sunday morning,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the upcoming weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.I also did my personal PC work and when I was finished with that,I watched a little TV.I also laid down and relaxed as I am still battling cold symptoms from the weekend.I am feeling a little bit better now,but I am still fighting the symptoms as I am still coughing,though not as much as before and I still have a dry scratchy throat.I am hoping to feel a lot better when the weekend hits.I don't want to have any cold symptoms when my interview comes up on Tuesday afternoon.
Earlier this evening,I went to a local supermarket to pick up a gallon of milk and some frozen Chinese for dinner.I also managed to get a couple of egg rolls as well.When I got home,I heated up the frozen dinner that I bought and I ate it alongside the egg rolls.After I ate everything,I headed over to my Thursday night Holy Bible study group.
The group meeting went as wonderfully as expected,After some wonderful social time,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into a pair of sweatpants and I prepared my coffee for the next morning.I did some more personal PC work.I also prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Since I am still trying to get over a cold,I will share my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA when I am feeling better.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing really planned as it is going to be raining very heavily tomorrow until the evening.If the weather improves by tomorrow evening,I will head to my usual Friday night Celebrate Recovery group.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had two cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed over to the emergency ward at the local hospital as a result of my cold symptoms not going away despite the treatments that I was giving it.
After they checked me out,they gave me a prescription and I headed over to a nearby drug store to get it filled and after it was filled,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I took a couple of pills to start with and I will take another before going to bed.I also prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I did my personal PC work and I relaxed for the rest of the evening.I also prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Since I am still feeling under the weather as a result of the cold symptoms that I am trying to get rid of,I will share my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA when I am feeling a lot better.
As for tomorrow,with a "Severe Thunderstorm Warning" in effect for my region until tomorrow evening,I really don't know what I will do.I may simply have to stay home and catch up on some much needed work that I have been putting off.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I got dressed in dress clothes and I headed for the job placement agency to fill out the job applications that I picked up and when we were finished,I dropped them off at the respective places that I picked them up at.After that,I did some shopping at a couple of local Dollar Tree stores and I also shopped at the local Super Wal-Mart.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I quickly did my personal PC work.I also laid down for a while as I am still battling cold symptoms,such as sniffles,sneezing,coughing and throat irritation.I have been taking natural herbal medications by drinking hot tea,tablets that are supposed to relieve mucus in the lungs,taking Airborne cold remedy and also sucking on throat and cough lozenges and throat spray.I am feeling a little bit better,but if the symptoms don't subside by tomorrow morning,I am going to have to go to the emergency ward to see what can be done.I can't have a cold of any sort while I am looking for work.I also can't have this when my interview comes up next week.I will continue to take the medication and hope for the best and if it doesn't get better by tomorrow,I'll go to the emergency ward at the local hospital.The stress of the job search and the ever changing weather patterns is really taking a toll on me.I have been feeling really stressed and the atmosphere can't seem to make up it's mind whether it wants to be nice and sunny or rainy and cool.I am hoping that the really nice weather starts to stay soon.I can't take any more of this constantly changing weather patterns.After laying down for a while,I went back out to get something light for dinner as I wasn't really too hungry.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work and I relaxed for the rest of the evening.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I will start talking about my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA the minute that I get over this terrible cold.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned due to the rainy weather tomorrow.I am just going to stay home and take it easy and continue to take care of my cold.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today I woke up in the late morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I decided to have my usual quick breakfast early and after that,I signed onto all my e-mail boxes to check and reduce some of the stuff that I had.After that,which took nearly half an hour,I showered quickly to clean up.After my shower,I got dressed and returned the phone call that my job placement counselor/coach made earlier while I was still in bed,but I was still tired and sleepy to answer.After that,I quickly did my personal work and I headed out to do a few things that needed to be done.
I went to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things and after paying for them,I headed straight home as I saw it was starting to rain.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Today,though it is,I didn't have any problems with temptations.I went through the whole day and I had no temptations to do anything wrong in a sexual way with men.I had no temptations to fantasize and lust after other men.I also had nothing of that sort to tempt me to manipulate my genitals either.Though I was home much of the day,I didn't have no temptations at all today.I simply did what I had to do at home and that kept my mind off of anything sexual in a fantasy and lustful way.These are my two main problems in my struggle and I am still working on them.I know one day that I will successfully overcome these things.I also know that I will successfully overcome the temptation to manipulate my genitals one of these days.When?I don't know.But I will one of these days.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.I still have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike ant time when least expected.I don't want to give them what they want,which is to sin by acting out on the unnatural desires that I have in the ways that they try to tempt me to,such as by fantasies and lusting,as well as to manipulate my genitals to any sexual images of men they use to cloud my mind,which causes the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left in the comments section.They both help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.They also reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of your for you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed real quickly and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up some cough drops and some herbal cold remedy.After paying for these things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away,got out of my suit and into a pair of sweatpants and I quickly did my personal PC work.I also got a phone call from my niece and she told me that we would be having dinner at a local Japanese restaurant and after hanging up,I concluded my personal PC work and got dressed to head for the restaurant and for dinner.
The dinner was wonderful.It was prepared right in front of us on a grill.After I was finished eating,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got back into my sweatpants and I watched a classic episode from a TV show that I have on DVD.After that,I did some more personal PC work.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Though it is,I had no problems with temptations today.I stayed busy with doing what I had to do.I went to church and later on,went to have dinner with my family at a local Japanese restaurant.It was great that I had no problems with temptations today.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Satan and his minions can strike at any time when least expected.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful.When they strike,I have to remember to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I have to show them that I am really serious about wanting to heal from and wanting to overcome SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.They both help keep me going.They also reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular fight and struggle.They also help keep me strong in both my determination and motivation.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of filling out a few more job applications at home,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work.After that,I decided to proceed with the rest of my day.
I had only a few things planned for today.I went out to pick up a few more job applications.After that,I headed for a local supermarket to pick up a couple loaves of whole wheat bread and chicken breasts.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away in their proper places and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work and make a few phone calls.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.I also got a phone call from one of the places that I applied to and I have an interview appointment for Tuesday the 20th of this month at 3:00pm.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding in my mind upon arising.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and left nothing out as I bared all in my prayer and when I was finished,I felt much better and I also knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I am still working on getting tough with myself in this regard.I am still working on trying to regularly go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for the strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations when they come around.I am serious about wanting to heal.I am also serious about wanting to overcome.I need to really work on going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask him to help me regularly.I have to stop giving into these terrible temptations.I don't want to disappoint my Heavenly Father by giving into these terrible things.I don't want to give Satan and his minions the satisfaction that they want,which is to sin against my Heavenly Father and disobey his perfect law in regards to sexuality.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left by anyone.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support.They both help keep me going.They also keep both my determination to overcome and motivation to heal strong.They also reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular fight and struggle.Please continue keeping me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered and when I was done with that,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I called ahead for a haircut at the newly opened place where I get my hair done.After my hair was done,I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas.After that,I stopped at a local store to pick up a small bag of ranch flavored tortilla chips.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed while doing some more personal PC work.
After eating,I was hoping to head out to my usual Friday night Celebrate Recovery group,but a severe thunderstorm warning kept me home and I didn't want to take any chances,so I chose to stay home to be on the safe side.which went as wonderfully as expected as the sharing was enormous and overwhelming.I simply did some work at home and later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,upon arising,I was again tempted overwhelmingly to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men and also,to manipulate my genitals to the sexual images of men that were clouding my mind.My mind wasn't fully awake at that point and again,the temptations to indulge were overwhelming.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked for strength to help me fight and resist these urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard for that strength as the temptations today were very overwhelming.I prayed and I prayed until the desires were nil.It took a while,but when I finished praying,I felt better and much stronger as I knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.I went through the rest of the day just doing what I had to do and I had no more problems with temptations.I stayed busy just doing what I had to and it kept my mind off of everything sexual with other men and that was good.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Satan and his minions can strike at any time and I need to stay on guard and be watchful as when they strike,I need to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer to ask for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am again asking that you continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support.The positive verbal support reassures and reaffirms me that I am not alone in this particular fight and struggle.They also help keep me going.They also help keep my determination to overcome and motivation to heal strong.As I have said before and I will say it again,my blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left in the comments section and I really do need some positive verbal support really desperately in the same way that I need the prayerful support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had no time to eat,so I got dressed in dress clothes and I headed for the job placement agency with job applications in hand.
My job placement counselor/coach and I filled them out within 45 minutes.After we were done,I headed out to drop them off at the places where I picked them up,with the exception of two,which I held onto until the late afternoon.After that,I headed straight home and when I got there,I had my usual quick breakfast a little late.I did my personal PC work afterwards and I had a few PB & J sandwiches for lunch.After that,I headed back out to do some shopping at the local Super Wal-Mart and when that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I got dressed up again in the dress clothes and I dropped off the last two applications.On the way to do that,I picked up another application.I headed for home after that.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a a friend of mine was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into casual clothes and I did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and when I was done with that,I relaxed while preparing for my evening retirement as tonight,my usual Thursday evening Holy Bible study group was cancelled,but will resume next week.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Today,upon arising,I was tempted to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and also,I was tempted to fantasize and lust after them.The temptation was overwhelming and strong.I actually turned the temptations over to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I asked him for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.I prayed real hard and I kept praying until the temptations were reduced to nil.When I was finished,I felt stronger and I knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.I also thanked him for giving me that strength.For the rest of the day,I kept busy putting the job applications in and hoping that I will eventually be hired soon.I have been getting my name out there and hoping and praying for something to happen,but so far,nothing new has happened since mid last year.I am hoping that something happens soon.The task of handing in the job applications today took my mind off of sexual stuff and that was good.Nothing came into my mind as I was out and about today handing in the job applications.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Satan and his minions can strike at any time with temptations.I need to continue to be on guard and watchful.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also need some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section and continue to keep me in your prayers.Your prayers and positive verbal support help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination to overcome and motivation to heal strong.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments in the comments section.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my evening Celebrate Recovery group,I haven't any plans made.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and when I was finished with that,I had a light lunch.After eating that,I headed out to do some stuff that I had to do.
I picked up a couple more job applications and after that,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After paying for those things,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart,but chose not to get anything there today.After leaving there,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I had myself a light dinner and when I was finished eating,I did some more personal PC work.I then prepared for my early retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I managed to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for strength to help me fight and resist the temptations to sin in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I was tempted with the usual temptations to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men that were clouding my mind and I also had the temptation to fantasize and lust after them.I prayed real hard for that strength as I really wanted to fight and resist these terrible,but overwhelming,urges.When I was finished,I felt better and stronger and I went through the rest of the day unscathed.I simply went about my day and stayed busy so I could keep my mind on other things and throughout the day,I didn't have any problems with any temptations.I stayed busy and I kept at what I had to do and it kept my mind off of anything sexual.It is wonderful that I have a loving Heavenly Father and loving savior,his only begotten son Jesus Christ,to be there for me to give me strength to fight and resist all sorts of terrible temptations.While I did escape today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.I need to make it a habit of going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for the strength to help me fight and resist these temptations when they come around.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support from all of you.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.I need positive verbal support in the comments section alongside your prayerful support.They both help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination to overcome and motivation to heal strong.They also both reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular fight and struggle.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of meeting with my job placement counselor/coach to help me fill out those applications that I picked up over the last 2 days,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.I had a rough time waking up as I woke up with terrible leg cramp pain.I also had a tough time walking around the house as I felt pain every time that I walked.
I did my personal PC work quickly and when that was done,I decided to take a drive out to a Salvation Army thrift store in the next county.
On the way there,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas.After that,I stopped by a friend's pizzeria to see if he was in,which he wasn't and after having a slice of pizza and a bottle of water,I headed back out and stopped at a nearby Super Wal-Mart and picked up a can of soup and a small hero sandwich for dinner.I also picked up a couple of leg cramp homeopathic medication.After paying for these things,I headed to the thrift store and when I got there,I looked through the CD's to see if there were any Christian music CD's and there were quite a few that I bought.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I prepared my evening meal and while I was doing that,I also washed my breakfast dishes.When my soup was done,I put some mustard on my sandwich and I ate.After I was finished,I did more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into temptation twice during the morning after arising.On both occurrences,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind causing me to fantasize and lust after the images of men that were clouding my mind.I felt miserable on both of these occurrences and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ for my giving into these terrible temptations and I also accepted full and total responsibility for my falling into sin.On the second prayer of forgiveness,I had to really pour out my soul and asked my Heavenly Father to not only forgive me but to also help me.I pleaded for him to help me because I don't want to keep giving into the same old things and ask to be forgiven constantly.I have to show my Heavenly Father that I am serious about wanting to heal and wanting to overcome SSA.I really am and I need to really start to get tough with myself.I have to avoid falling into the trap of habitually sinning and going to my Heavenly Father for forgiveness.I have to make it a habit of going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asking for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptation.I have to make a habit of that.I can't be enslaved to the unnatural desires that I have nor be enslaved to my gender identity and worship my Heavenly Father.It has to be one thing or the other.Fellow blog followers and readers,I really need your prayers right now.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support right now as I am going through a very difficult emotional time right now.I need your support desperately.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me positive verbal support in the comments section.Please support me.I need your support right now.Your support helps keep me going.It also reassures and reaffirms me that I am not alone in this particular fight and struggle.It also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and after my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and had a light lunch afterwards.After that,I headed out to do some important things that I needed to get done.
I first went to the post office to have a money order made so I could pay my car insurance,which I did.I also managed to pick up a few more job applications while doing this and after that,I also did a little bit of shopping at the local Super Wal-Mart.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and relax.After it was over,I did some more personal PC work.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult for me.This morning,upon arising,I gave into temptation again by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind,and that gave way to fantasizing and lusting after other men and when the moment of orgasm came,I masturbated the rest of the way.I really felt miserable after this as I felt that I had failed my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ by my fall.After I washed my hands,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive and to have mercy on me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out.I confessed everything to him and when I was finished,I felt a lot better as knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went on with the rest of the day with no problems.Still,I do feel miserable whenever I fall short.I feel that I let my Heavenly Father down by falling into sin,though I know that I am as imperfect as any other human being living in the world,and I know that I will fall short form time to time.Also still,I don't want to fall back into the trap of habitually sinning against my Heavenly Father and going to him to confess and asking to be forgiven by him.I need to figure out what I need to do to avoid falling into that particular trap.I also need to figure out why I am doing that right now.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate it if you would also leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments of any sort are rarely left.Please leave me an encouraging comment in the comments section as I really need some positive verbal support right now.Your prayers and your positive verbal support both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also both reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular fight and struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two or more in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ