Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.While having my coffee,I watched a little TV and after that,I showered.When I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast and after that,I did my personal PC work.When I was finished with my PC work,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that,I headed out to do a little bit of shopping and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare my evening meal and I also did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still going through my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult struggle.That gets too apparent day in and day out every day.Today,likewise with today,I was overwhelmed by temptations.I was tempted to act out with fantasies and lusting after other men and to also manipulate my genitals.It was tough fighting and resisting these terrible unnatural urges that were overwhelming me.These urges really get stronger every time resistance is put up.I went to my Heavenly Father and asked him to give me the strength to help me fight and resist these terrible urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and didn't cease until the urges were completely gone.When I was finished praying,I felt better and much stronger.Now,I need ti work on asking for strength daily from my Heavenly Father whenever these urges come around.I need and have to show my Heavenly Father that I am very and totally serious about wanting to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.I hate finding members of my own gender sexually attractive and I also hate that I struggle with this terrible condition.I want to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.When I don't get any positive verbal support in the comments section,I feel alone and lonely in this particular struggle.I need your positive verbal support to help keep me going and hanging in there.Your positive verbal support helps reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.I also need your prayerful support as well.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing else planned.But I Hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues to move forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed and I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I only had two things on my agenda for today.I first went to the bank to withdraw some much needed money.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered a couple of the bills on Where's George.After that,I did some more personal PC work and after that,I headed out to get some dinner at a local take-out place.I headed for home after that.
When I got home,I ate my take-out dinner and after that,I headed for my weekly Celebrate Recovery group,which was wonderful.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into sleep clothes and I did a little bit more personal PC work.After that,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues to move forward,I am still struggling with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I was overwhelmed by temptation.It started as I was about to get out of bed this morning.Satan and his minions really try to get anyone who wants to do the right thing to do what is wrong.I had to really fight today to stay strong and resist these overwhelming urges.The SSA struggle gets more difficult every day.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and I also would really appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to pray for me.I also need some positive verbal support in the comments section.Your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,helps keep me going.It also helps reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to pray for me and also,I again ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in dress clothes and I headed out to the job placement agency to sign a job application that my job placement counselor/coach filled out on my behalf and also said that she would turn it in for me on my behalf.After that,I headed straight home to change into casual clothes and I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after I was finished,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and relaxed for much of the day.I also watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
I decided to eat out tonight.A local church in the area near my house was having a free dinner night and I headed over there.The food was great and the people I met there were wonderful.After I was finished,I stopped at a local 7-11 to pick up some cookies.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.I also did some more PC work.I later prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still going through my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of my struggles.Today,though it is painful and shameful for me to admit this,I did give into temptation by looking up online porn and also,I manipulated my genitals to what I was watching.I stopped myself and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out.I admitted everything to my Heavenly Father and when I was finished,I felt much better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.That slip was one slip too many.I need to start buckling down and stop these things.I am really serious about wanting to heal and overcome SSA.I can't keep giving into these things.I still need to work on getting tough with myself and showing this terrible SSA that I own it and not the other way around.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your positive verbal support as much as I need your prayerful support.Your support helps keep me going.It also reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Celebrate Recovery group meeting tomorrow evening,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work and I also cleaned up a little bit around the house.Later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little bit of TV and after that,I did some more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I stayed home for much of the day as I had nothing to do nor anyplace to go.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward and I am feeling better from last week.However,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of them.Today,though it is,I can say that I wasn't tempted to fantasize nor lust after other men nor was I tempted to manipulate my genitals and for the first time in a quite a while,no sexual images of men clouded my mind.I was glad that for the first time in a while,I wasn't overwhelmed by temptations.However,though I did escape today,there is still tomorrow and the day after tomorrow.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful.Satan and his minions can strike at any time.I need to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I have to make the resolve to fully rely on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for this particular struggle as I know that I can never go this struggle alone.I also need the support of those who continually visit my blog and read my posts.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,really matters to me and also,it's very important to me.Your support not only helps keep me going,but also both reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to pray for me.I also ask that you leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do an provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of an appointment with my job placement counselor/coach to sign a job application that I will be turning in tomorrow,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery is still moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I went out to check up on my schedule at work and I am still not getting any hours in since the start of this month.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped somewhere to pick up an empty cardboard box that I needed to put some stuff in.After picking it up,I purchased something at a local close-out store and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I had bought away and I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched some TV and I did some more personal PC work.As it was approaching later evening,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery is still moving onward,especially after last week when I was in a state of depression over the approaching 2nd anniversary of my mom's passing away,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Emotionally and mood wise,I am feeling much better as I have gotten through last week and the day that the anniversary came.In regards to my SSA struggles,I need prayers please.I have been overwhelmed by temptation much of the day.I need prayers by every one of you.Please pray for me.When I am overwhelmed by temptation,I,at times,never know whether I am coming or going.I feel stuck in the middle between Homosexuality and Heterosexuality most of the time.It always happens when I am being overwhelmed by temptation.I also ask that y'all leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need your positive verbal support as much I need your prayerful support.Your positive verbal support both reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Your support in both of these areas also helps keep me going.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I did some much needed cleaning up around the house and after that,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.
I stayed home for the day as there was rain for much of the day.I relaxed and took it easy and later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched some TV and I did some more personal PC work.I also enjoyed a little bit of music.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am now feeling much better.I am no longer in the dark depression that I was for much of last week.Yesterday,the anniversary of my mother's passing came and went.I was depressed and didn't feel much like myself,but I stayed the course and now,I am feeling much better as far as my emotions go.I kept on it and hung in there and now,I am feeling a lot better.
However,though I am feeling better as far as my emotional make-up goes,I did fall into sin today.I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men clouded my mind as I did this,which led to fantasizing and lusting after those images.I wound up masturbating the rest of the way.After it was over,I washed my hands and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I poured everything out and I left out nothing.I really felt miserable for falling into sin.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out.I told my Heavenly Father everything and when I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven for my sins today.I still need to work on getting tough with myself.I need to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I can't let these unnatural sexual desires continue to have a hold of me.I have to show them that I am stronger than they are,even in my inherent imperfection and weakness.I can't keep on giving into these terrible desires and repenting each time.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,really matters and is also very important to me.I need to be shown that I am not alone in any of my struggles.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up something for lunch.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a sweatsuit.I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I laid down for a while as I was still feeling a little tired.After that,I relaxed and watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I cleaned up a little bit around the house and after that was done,I did a little bit more personal PC work.I also watched a little TV and did some more work on my PC.Later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Today,it is the 2nd anniversary of my mom's passing and I am not feeling up to snuff yet.I am still in a very dark place emotionally and I really still can't talk about my struggles.I am hoping that by tomorrow,I will feel much better and I can start talking again.In the meantime,please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and when I was finished,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to Best Buy to pay something and after that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy a few things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched some TV and I did some more personal PC work.I also prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles,I will start to talk about them when I am feeling better.I am still in a very dark place emotionally and I haven't fully recovered yet.I am hoping that I will feel better after tomorrow,which is the anniversary of my mother's passing away.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Your support not only matters,but is also very important to me.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after my caseworker came over,I got dressed and proceeded with the rest of the day.
I first went to a local supermarket to pick up something to eat and after that,I headed over to a local restaurant to pick up something to have along with my light dinner.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I sat down to eat and after I was finished,I wet to my usual Celebrate Recovery group,which went wonderfully well.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby convenience store to pick up a light snack.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into night clothes and I did a little bit more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I did manage to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles,I will start reporting about them when I am feeling better.I am still in a very dark place emotionally and I haven't fully gotten out of it yet.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I really need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Thanks in advance to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual on Sunday,I have made any plans.But I do hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fairly decent day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I did half of my personal PC work.I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only one thing on my agenda for today.I had an appointment with my therapist today at the local hospital and I had to make sure that I was on time for it.
The session with my therapist went well.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby gas station to get some much needed gas.After that,I had a light lunch at a local pizzeria.After that,I picked up my prescription refill at the drug store and when that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put my prescription refill away and I finished my personal PC work.After that,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched some TV and I did some more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fairly decent day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,though I am feeling a little bit better,I am still in a very dark place emotionally and I don't know when it will lift.I am still feeling some very negative emotions,such as depression and sadness.I am hoping to feel better after the 2nd anniversary of my mom's death passes.Today,upon arising,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals as sexual images of men clouded my mind,which led to fantasizing and lusting after the images that were clouding my mind.I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning against him and his perfect law in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I pleaded for my Heavenly Father's mercy and when I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I am hoping to be back on track emotionally by the start of next week.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me as I am still going through a very dark period emotionally.Please also leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often,especially since I am going through a very dark depression right now.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I relaxed for much of the day.I watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player and after that,I decided to change from my sweatsuit into casual clothes to do some shopping.
I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a gallon of milk and after that,I headed over to a local Wendy's to pick up something for dinner tonight.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the milk in the fridge and I sat down to enjoy my meal.
After eating,I watched a little bit of TV and I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am pleased to report that I am feeling much better.Yes,I am.I am feeling a little bit happier now.I have been not forgetting to take my medication the last few nights and it has been contributing to my feeling much better.Though I have been feeling better,I am still putting up with some dark emotional feelings.4 days away,the anniversary of my mom's passing will be here.I guess that I won't be back on track emotionally until after the 2nd anniversary of my mom's death,which will be this Sunday.I am hoping to be back on track emotionally after that day,but I really don't know if I will.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still all of your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.In my current emotional time,I need all of the support that I can get from all of you.I also would appreciate your support right now.I need it desperately and some positive verbal support in the comments section would be great.I also still need your prayers as well.Thanks in advance to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my appointment with my therapist,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fairly decent day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and after that,I had my usual quick breakfast.When I was finished,I got dressed and I headed out to my job placement/counselor's/coach's office to make a copy of a sales receipt to be sent to an local organization so I can get reimbursed for a shoes purchase that I made.After that,I headed over to a local kitchen for a light lunch and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and when that was done,I was still feeling the dark emotions of depression and I laid down.After listening to an inspirational record,I decided to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer.I confessed some sins of acting out by fantasies and lusting.I also asked for forgiveness for those sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also talked about the dark depression that I was in and that I wanted to feel better.I even talked about the forgetfulness of taking my medication on Saturday night and that the 2nd anniversary of my mother's death was approaching.I prayed for a while and after I was finished,I knew that I was forgiven for my sins.I am still in that dark place,but I know that I will feel better soon and I am hoping that the relief comes soon.After doing a little bit more personal PC work,I started prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little bit of TV and I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fairly decent day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Fellow blog followers and readers,though I am feeling a little bit better,I am still in a very dark place emotionally and I really can't talk anymore about this.I am still hoping that I will start to feel better soon.I am already tired of being in this dark emotional place where I am feeling sadness and downcast feelings.I am hoping for the best and I am hoping that the dark depression lifts soon.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am still in need of both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I really need it now as I am going some very dark feeling emotions and not feeling much like myself.Please continue to pray for me.Please also leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good,but not too eventful,day today.
Today,I woke up in the early afternoon and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I got a phone call from my niece asking me to babysit for her and I agreed to do so.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed and I headed over to my niece's house to babysit for her and when she got home,I headed for home myself.
When I got home,I registered a bill at the Where's George site and I went back out to get some fresh chili and a Hot Pocket for dinner.I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate my dinner and I watched a little TV after that.I also did some more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good,but not too eventful,day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am still in a very dark place emotionally.I am still not up to snuff yet in regards to sharing on here where I am at in regards to my struggles.I don't know when I will be feeling better enough to share my struggles.I am hoping that I will be feeling better by tomorrow.I didn't feel as much darker as I did yesterday when I woke up in the early afternoon,but I am still not feeling up to par yet emotionally to share where I am at in regards to my struggles.The only thing that I ask is that y'all continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I need your support to help get me out of this dark emotional place that I am at right now.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a couple of important appointments,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me not only positive benefits,but helps get me out of this dark emotional place that I am in right now.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into some casual clothes.I did my personal PC work and later on,I headed out to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I had a light evening meal and I watched some TV.I also did a little reading and some more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am in a very dark place emotionally and I don't know why.I have been feeling down since the evening began.I have a hunch or two as to why I am feeling this way.The 2nd anniversary of my mom's passing is approaching.My mom has been dead for two years and I am still missing her.I still find it hard to believe that she's gone and I miss having her around.Plus,I forgot to take my medication last night as usual.I took another sleep aid to help me sleep when I realized that I forgot to take my medication when I tried to get some sleep.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I will start reporting regularly when I am feeling better.Please keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Your support does mean a lot to me and I appreciate that.Thanks very much.
I haven;t really got anything planned for tomorrow as of yet.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work,but stayed home for the day as it was raining for much of the day.I simply stayed home and I relaxed.I listened to some music and watched some TV.I also stayed online for much of the day as well.I was communicating with many of my online friends.After that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little bit more TV and I also did some more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I will keep you all updated on them tomorrow as I am feeling very sleepy.Please continue in prayer for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often to help keep me going.Thanks to y'all for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that that do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I decided to do my personal PC work first and after that was done,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I decided to do a little bit more personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed while watching a movie that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I headed out to my usual Celebrate Recovery group,which went as wonderfully as expected and after that was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I have some things that I need to say in this regard to my struggles with SSA and it isn't pretty.This week has been an up and down roller coaster weekend.I have been struggling a lot this week and as a result,I have given into temptations a few times this week.I have given into the temptations to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind,which led to me fantasizing and lusting after other men and on a couple of occasions,it led to ejaculation.On these occasions,I felt really miserable after doing these things as I know that my Heavenly Father condemns such activity and I really felt sorry for myself as a result of me giving into these terrible,meaningless and worthless temptations.On all of these occurrences,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and I confessed all of my sins to him and I also accepted full and total responsibility for my falls into sin.I also begged and pleaded,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,for both his forgiveness and his mercy.I begged for him to be merciful towards me and to forgive my sins.I was really sorry for doing that and again,these activities are things that my Heavenly Father not only condemns,but also,abhors.When I was finished,I felt better and knew and truly and totally believed that I was forgiven.I really need to start getting tough with myself.The emotional factor was that I was angry this week.The reason for my anger was because my sister had the gall to call me three nights ago when I was about to go to sleep and say that she needed to pick up a couple of things.This really made me angry because I was tired,very sleepy and wanted to go to bed.The worst part of her coming over was her meddling into my life and my business,which I didn't appreciate at all.That led to all the stuff and falling that few times this week.I am not saying that it excuses it,but it was the motivator and the way that I was feeling.I also need to work on not letting my anger get the better of me when things that I don't want happening happen.Again,I need to get tough with myself and start showing these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I really want to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.I hate that I have sexual feelings for men and I hate this struggle.I want to do what is right,but my sinful nature wants me to do the opposite.I have to show my sinful nature that I am no longer interested in any of those things that are connected to the so called "Pro-Gay" agenda.I want to be what my Heavenly Father wants me and intends me to be.I happen to be a man and a male and that is what I am identity wise.All other identities,such as "Homosexual/Gay" are false identities.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am still in desperate need of your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I would really appreciate both of these things.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the upcoming weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of errands to run.I went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things and after that,I went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few more things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away and I had a light evening meal tonight.After I was finished eating,I watched some TV and I did a little bit more personal PC work.I then prepared for my evening retirement as evening came.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I an putting off talking about them until tomorrow.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am still in dire need of both your prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks in advance for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and did some much needed cleaning up around the house.I had to get rid of a whole bunch of paper piles that had accumulated over a span of time.I put all of them into trash bags and I headed for my church because they had dumpsters where you can dump recyclable papers to help raise funds for the church and it's accompanying school.After that,I headed for a local supermarket to dump a whole bunch of plastic shopping bags into their recycling can.After that,I purchased a few needed things and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff that I bought away and I did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little TV and I also did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I will start talking about them again tomorrow as I am really tired.Please continue praying for me and please leave me some positive verbal support.I really need and appreciate all the support that I can get.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have n plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only one thing on my agenda for today.I went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I relaxed and I watched a little TV.Later on,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I wasn't tempted in any way to act out on my desires.I simply went through the day without any problems nor anything to get me to compromise.It was good that I had no problems today,but I still need to stay on guard and be watchful.Why?Satan and his minions can strike at ant time when least expected and try to tempt me to break my Heavenly Father's perfect law in regards to sexuality.I can't let the unnatural desires that I have own me.I have to show these desires that I have that I own them.I am going to try and make it my resolve to start setting aside a time for prayer.Lately,I have been only going to my Heavenly Father when I am in need of strength to help me fight and resist the urges when they come around and I feel that this is why that the temptations keep coming at me.I can't let Satan and his minions have their way.I have to show them that I worship the only true God,our sovereign Lord and creator,our Heavenly Father and that I have his son Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior.I am going to make it my effort and resolve to make prayer a regular part of my day.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I really need your prayers right now as well as daily and often.I also need your positive verbal support in the comments section right now as well as daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

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