Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I got up in the late morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and relaxed for a while.I did some of my personal PC work,but had to stop a few times due to internet issues.I kept getting "No Internet Connection" flashing constantly and had to turn off my modem several times until it stopped.I finally finished it and there were no problems.After that was done,I got dressed and left the house to run an errand.

I went to a local Dollar Tree to pick up a box of allergy medication.After that,I went to a local pizza place and bought a few slices for lunch.After eating them,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did more personal PC work.After that,I watched a few videos on YouTube while also doing some more personal PC work in between.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A pretty good day overall.

Please continue to pray for me.I still need all of your prayers as I'm still struggling right now.Yes,I'm still struggling with racing sexual thoughts going through my head and the temptations that go with them.Please continue praying for me that I get through this terrible struggle and emotional mess that I'm in.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need some spiritual upbuilding right now and I also need some encouraging words from all of you.I have many people visiting my blog and checking it out,but rarely is anything left in the comments section.I still need to continue to be let known that I'm not alone in this particular struggle that I have,which is with this terrible SSA and everything related to it.Thanks in advance for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church as usual and I hope that the day goes well for me.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,since I was off from work,I got up and had my usual coffee.I then quickly did my personal PC work.After that,I had a bowl of cereal and showered and shaved real quickly.I got dressed and headed out to do what I had planned for today.

I first went to a local Arby's to have a sandwich and water.After that,I went to see someone in regards to my job and my disability benefits.

The meeting went well,but I have to return Wednesday morning for a follow-up.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and after that,I had a light evening meal.I also did some more personal PC work.I also watched a few videos on YouTube.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A pretty good day overall.

Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some spiritually upbuilding and encouraging words posts within the comments section.I need both types of support right now as I'm still struggling.Thanks to y'all for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the start of the weekend.I have no plans for tomorrow,but I do have church as usual on Sunday.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.I washed up and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I showered quickly and after drying up and getting dressed,I headed for a local church for a free dinner,which was wonderful.After that,I got gas at a local gas station and headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.Later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me.I really need prayerful support as I'm struggling.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging posts,in the comments section.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow,I am taking a Spring Floater off from work.I have to meet with someone locally in regards to my work and my disability benefits.I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the morning and had coffee.After that,I washed up quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while as I was feeling a little tired.Later on,I had a light evening meal and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I showered real quickly to clean up and after that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Again,I am asking that all of you continue praying for me.I am still struggling and I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also would still appreciate some positive spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words in the comments section.Thanks for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day.I hope that the day goes well.FJ

Tonight,I'm feeling really and extremely tired.I can barely type.Please continue praying for me and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Will post more hopefully tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up early and had my usual coffee.I also washed up real quickly and got dressed quickly.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I stopped at a local bargain supermarket to pick up something for dinner and then to a local WalGreen's for a few more things.I then headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did some of my personal PC work.I then showered quickly and heated up my evening meal,which I ate.I then finished my personal PC work.I later prepared to retire for the evening when I got really tired and drowsy.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me.I'm still struggling at the moment and I need all the prayerful support that I can get from all of you.I also would still appreciate that you continue to support me verbally by leaving me some spiritually upbuilding posts and encouraging words in the comment section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up early and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed up in a suit.I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.

Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed clothes and did some of my personal PC work.After that,I relaxed and even did some vacuuming and did the dishes.After that,I had a light evening meal and after doing some more dishes,I finished my personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared for my evening retirement.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

Please continue praying for me.I'm still struggling at the moment and still need all the prayerful support that I can get from all of you.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need some spiritually upbuilding and encouraging words by all of you.Please support me by praying for me and leaving some positive verbal support that I really need right now.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up midway into the morning and had my usual coffee.While enjoying my coffee,I did my personal PC work in the morning and when the afternoon came,I vacuumed a little bit around the house and also showered and shaved.I then got dressed and headed out to do some personal stuff that needed to be done.

I was out for a while and while out,I had a few slices of pizza for lunch and picked up a few things at a local bargain supermarket in the area.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.I also had a light evening meal.I also watched some videos on YouTube.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared for my evening retirement.A pretty good day overall.

Please continue praying for me.I'm still struggling and I still need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also would still appreciate positive verbal support,in the ways of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,within the comments section.Thanks to y'all for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church as usual and I also hope that the rest of the day goes well.FJ

Tonight,I'm again feeling extremely tired.Please continue praying for me and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you and Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.I washed up after that and after getting dressed,I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I went to the post office to mail out an important letter.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I relaxed for a bit.I also had a light evening meal and I did my personal PC work after that.I also watched a few videos online as well.

When the time came and I was tired,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Again,please continue praying for me.I need all the prayerful support that I can get.Yes,I need prayers by all of you real bad.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.I really appreciate your support very much.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day.After that,it's the weekend.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I dropped off some stuff at the local Salvation Army thrift store and paid my storage facility bill.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and showered quickly later after that.I also had a light evening meal and I did my personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,I'm feeling extremely tired.I can barely type this.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please continue to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Hopefully,I can type some tomorrow.Thanks.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up early and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for much of the afternoon and did my personal PC work.

Later on,I had a light evening meal and I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I still need prayerful support right now.I am still struggling terribly.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuiling and encouraging words,in the comments section.Thanks to y'all for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed up in a suit.I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.

Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed over to a fire hall not too far away for a charity chicken barbecue,which was wonderful.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed into casual clothes and quickly cleaned the bathroom.After that was done,I headed out to a few stores in the area to pick up a few needed things.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and had a light evening meal.I also did more personal PC work.I later prepared to retire for the evening.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

Again,please continue to keep me in your prayers and again,I still would appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,in the comments section.Thanks for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that the day goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had my usual coffee.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I showered and shaved real quickly.I then got dressed as I had a lot to do today.

I first had lunch at a local Arby's.After that,I dropped off some free newspapers at a few people's houses.I then headed over to a local hair place to get my hair cut as it really needed to be cut.After that was done,I was about to head for my church for a charity pasta dinner,but noticed that my head was hurting me terribly.I headed straight home to take something for my headache.After that,I drove to the church for the charity pasta dinner.

The dinner was wonderful.After I was finished eating,I headed for home.

On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas.I then took a drive around for a while and then,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and I did some more personal PC work.I relaxed for a while until it was time for me to prepare for my evening retirement.A very good and eventful day overall.

Again,all I ask is that all of you continue praying for me.I still need prayerful support from all of you.It has been a struggle for me.I have been losing sleep the last few nights.I have also been feeling some sadness as a result of blues' spells that have been hitting me.As a result of my loss of sleep,I have been extremely tired and have been drinking anything with caffeine to stay awake,so I won't fall asleep,especially where my job is concerned.Please continue praying for me.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,in the comments section.If there is Holy Bible scripture that you can share,please do so.I need the help and support of all of you to help me keep going.It will also show me that I'm not alone in this struggle and that none of you have given up on me.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church as usual and I also hope that the day goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up early and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I got dressed real quickly and I headed for work.

The work day went well,in spite of a few unavoidable stress situations.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and did some of my personal PC work.

Later on,I had a light evening meal and I finished my personal PC work.After that,I relaxed and prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Again,I'm asking that all of you continue praying for me.I am still struggling terribly at the moment and need some prayerful support.Yes,I do need a lot of prayerful support right now.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.I also need to know that nobody has given up on me.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the start of the weekend.I hope that all goes well for me.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After that,I washed up quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I washed my face and shaved.I then later went out to a local church for a free dinner,which was wonderful.After that,I headed for a local supermarket to pick up a couple of needed things.I then got some gas at a local gas station and headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I took a quick shower,then changed into pajamas after that,and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

As usual,I am asking that you continue praying for me.I still need your prayerful support.Where I live,I feel all alone as I have no groups locally to support me or help me in regards to SSA.This is why I keep asking for y'all to continue praying for me.I still need prayers.I am still looking for at least any local spiritual support groups that use the Holy Bible in their approach.Yes,please pray that I find a group of that sort.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,in the forms of spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words,in the comments section.Thanks to y'all for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.After that,it's the weekend.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had coffee.After that,I got dressed real quick and headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and I went back out to buy a sandwich for dinner at a local 7-11.I headed straight home.

When I got home,I ate my sandwich dinner and I did my personal PC work.Later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I really need both types of support.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that it goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I got dressed real quickly and headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and started doing my personal PC work.

I had a light evening meal and I did some more personal PC work.I later prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Tonight,I need some prayerful support from y'all as I am still struggling terribly right now.I don't know whether I'm coming or going.I need all of you to pray for me right now.I want to overcome this terrible SSA that I have and I need all the help and support that I can get.I need both prayerful support and positive verbal support.I need spiritual upbuilding and I also need encouraging words.Please pray for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day.I hope that all goes well for me.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the morning and had my usual coffee.After that,I got dressed and headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I showered quickly and did my personal PC work.I then relaxed for a while and even did a little bit of dishes that were in the sink.

I had a light evening meal and I did some more dishes.I also did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Earlier today,and I still feel miserable about this,I gave into the terrible temptation to fantasize and lust after other men.I also masturbated to these images.Again,I feel terribly miserable because I did this terrible thing.I felt sad for most of the day as a result of my falling into sin by giving into this terrible temptation.As I have said,my struggles with SSA have been very overwhelming as of late.I can't seem to stop thinking about sexual images of men.I'm supposed to be a man.A man is not supposed to have these terrible and unnatural desires for other men.I don't want to have these unnatural desires that I have anymore.I want to feel like a man is supposed to feel.Right now,I don't feel like a man is supposed to feel.These desires that I have are unnatural and inappropriate.I also want to stop thinking about men in a sexual way.I want to think of men in a Christian way.I want to think of men as brothers,friends,buddies and want to bond with them in a healthy authentic way.It's the only way that men are supposed to think of other men.This has been really bringing me down.The thing is that I'm supposed to be a Christian,but I haven't been very Christian as of late.I have been acting like more of a person in the world rather than within the Lord's fold.

I don't know what's wrong with me.

Why has this been happening to me?

How can I stop?

I only ask the above because I do want to stop.I want to stop thinking of men in a sexual way.I want to think of men in a Christian way.As I said before,but will reiterate;I feel like the worst sinner of all,which is how the Apostle Paul felt when he wrote a letter to a particular group of Christians in his day.I do feel like the Apostle Paul.

I have been struggling terribly as of late.I still need all of you to pray for me.I also need to know that none of you have given up on me,although I have given into terrible temptations as a result of this SSA struggle that I have.Please continue praying for me.I need prayers right now very much.I seriously need to be prayed for.Please continue praying for me.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support,such as spiritually upbuilding posts and encouraging words.Please leave your positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that all goes well.FJ