Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go forward.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed quickly.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed over to the church for the morning's worship service and the Holy Bible study class before the service.I am always looking forward to church every Sunday since I started going back in September of last year.I headed over there with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful as always.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas and after paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a pair of sweatpants.I had a quick lunch and after eating that,I did my personal PC work and despite a minor difficulty with the Yahoo service,I managed to get it all done.After that was done,I got dressed in casual clothes because I had to do some shopping for myself.I headed over to the local K-Mart to do that.After that was done,I headed back home.
When I got home,I put everything away and relaxed.I also watched a DVD that I put into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.I also managed to do some recommended Holy Bible reading as well.Overall,a very good and eventful day.For me,going to church always makes the day eventful.
My recovery continues unabated and since I started to really communicate with God,I have been feeling better.I haven't really been on any continuous emotional roller coaster rides as of late.Still,I do have to put up and struggle with BPD no matter what as that could change any day or any minute.I also still have schizophrenic tendencies and that is probably why I have had those repeated impure thoughts and/or temptations happening constantly.Again,I have been leaning more on God now and it has been improving little by little.I realized the hard way that I was relying more on my own strength and less or nil on God and that is why I kept failing.Now,with me relying on God more,I have been feeling pretty good and still hanging in there.I still get tempted,but it doesn't overwhelm me like it has in the past several months.I have now learned that those who rely on God through his son Jesus Christ more will get results and will feel stronger than those who rely on their own strength.I am glad that I had that talk with the Christian counselor as that was not only a much needed wake up call,but also a much needed slap in the face.Thanks to God and his son Jesus Christ for everything.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I did get yet another wee early morning hour erection and yes,it did wake me out of a deep sleep.Yes,I was also tempted to masturbate that erection away,but I stayed strong and fought to resist that temptation.I simply got up to use the bathroom and while walking there,the erection died down and after using the bathroom,I simply went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I know that temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.It always seems to come back stronger each and every time that it hits.The more resistance,the more stronger the temptation will be.Still,all I also need to do is to simply rely on God and his his son Jesus Christ for strength.I will feel much stronger the more that I rely on them.I will never rely strictly on my own strength as those who do will always fail and fall.Those who rely on God and his son Jesus Christ will not only feel stronger, but will gain more strength each and every time that any temptations or burdens are upon anyone.Again,I am making it my resolution to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ for strength and will continue to throw my burdens and/or temptations on him and let God handle them through his son Jesus Christ.Again,I will always be grateful to that Christian counselor for pointing out to me that only God can make anyone stronger and not anyone themselves personally.Again,Thank God through his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow,I have an improving self esteem group that I must attend.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day as I had only a few things planned.
I first went to a local supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After paying for that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up something else that I needed.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD in the DVD player for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My recovery continues marching forward and that is good.I have been feeling a little bit better as a result of having that conversation with the Christian counselor on Monday night.I have been really talking to God through his son Jesus Christ and everything has been pretty much okay.I have been feeling better and I am hoping that these good feelings last a while longer.I guess that I have just have to keep leaning on God through his son Jesus Christ a lot more and the good feelings will continue.But still,I will continue my therapy sessions and I will continue to take my medication as directed.As stated,I am hoping that these good feelings last a long time and I will try to stay in contact with God through his son Jesus Christ.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was once again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was again awakened by an erection that was also another throbbing one at that.This was a very overwhelming urge and I always get the urge to masturbate whenever I get an erection as that is when the urge is strongest.I simply got up and walked to the bathroom as I had to use it anyway and on the way there,the erection softened and after I used the bathroom,I simply went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I have to stay on guard and be watchful as the urge to masturbate can come in any way,shape or form.Escaping like this is easy,but throughout the day,the urge can creep up on me and then,I am faced with the dilemma of either giving into the temptation or asking God through his son Jesus Christ to help strengthen me and get me through the temptation.I see that no mere human being can tough it out like they try to do as I have learned the hard way that toughing it out relying on my own strength never really works at all.I will simply have to stay in touch with God and his son Jesus Christ whenever I have the urges.I now realize that they are the only ones that can help get me through any difficult trials with temptation.I may also have to talk with the Christian counselor again whenever possible.
Tomorrow,it will be church as usual,including the Holy Bible study class that is held before the worship service.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day as I had only a few things planned.
I first went to the local Sears store to pick up some new underwear and after paying for those,I dropped the underwear at home and I relaxed for a while and got ready with my meeting with the pastor in the late afternoon.I was looking forward to this with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The meeting was wonderful.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My recovery continues to move forward and for the last few days,I have been feeling better than ever.I am not feeling so down nor am I having any sort of anxiety.I have been doing quite a bit of praying and quite a bit of leaning on my creator and his son Jesus Christ for the last few days and the feelings have been wonderful.It is great to finally throw everything on God and let him control everything.I haven't had no temptations to act out by either watching porn nor to go out and seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful and unnatural sexual activity with them.It has been great and believe me,I now know what to do when it seems pretty unbearable for me to continue that I can always throw everything on God and let him control everything.I have learned that if you to rely more on your own than God,you will come into difficulty and you will be frustrated when you fail or fall.Again,good feeling.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when another erection awakened me out of a deep sleep.It was also another throbbing erection as well.I really had to fight to resist this overwhelming urge to masturbate.I simply got up and went to use the bathroom and that is when the erection died down.I also realized that I forgot to plug my cell phone in to get recharged and I did that before going back to sleep.I did escape this episode and I am glad.I always get the overwhelming urge to masturbate whenever an erection occurs in the wee early morning hours.I am now in the process of learning to not let my sexuality own me.I am learning to tell my sexuality that I own it and not the other way around.I know that it is never easy to fight the urge and resist any temptation,but I would rather fight and resist than give into any temptation as anything having to do with sexual activity will never give me the fulfillment that I so desperately need.I am really in desperate need to relate,identify and connect with my fellow man in a healthy and authentic way.I am looking to have close relationships with my fellow men and just be one of the guys as I am a guy myself.I already know that sexual activity will only leave me empty and wanting more sex and that is not what I want.Again,it isn't easy fighting any urges,but fighting and resisting with God as an aid,it does make me feel good that I do have somebody helping me out and that I am not alone.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery moves forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed quickly.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I first had a spirituality group that I needed to attend.I was looking forward to this with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.I headed over there hoping to get a lot out of the group.
The group meeting was wonderful as I did get a lot out of it.After the meeting was over,I headed over to a local kitchen for lunch and after eating,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up something for dinner.After paying for it,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My road to recovery continues to go forward and since I started praying a little each day,I am feeling better.The talk that I had with the Christian counselor really did some good.I even prayed yesterday when I was feeling temptation trying to get the better of me and I felt better after that.I just relaxed after that and I took it easy and watched something that I popped in the DVD player.Despite these good things,I am still going to continue my therapy sessions and I am going to continue taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that these good feelings last quite a while.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another morning erection and it was another throbbing one.I had to really fight this overwhelming temptation as it was really strong.I simply got up to go to the bathroom and the erection softened.After using the bathroom,I went back to sleep.I did get a semi-erection later on when it was almost daylight,but that soon died after I got up to sit up for a bit and went back to sleep afterwards.I must say that temptation can try to get the better of anyone whenever it hits.Though I felt the overwhelming desire to masturbate the erection away,I felt pretty good that I didn't give into the temptation.I am hoping that I can still get this strength and use it to the best of my ability in the near and distant future.Also,for the first time in quite a while,I didn't have the temptation to watch porn nor the temptation to go out and seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them.This has been giving me a pretty good feeling and I am hoping that these good feelings continue for a long time.
Tomorrow,I have a meeting with the pastor of the church.Aside from that,I have nothing else planned,but whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

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Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better after I had a talk with a counselor last night.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day.
I had a meeting with someone from the church in the early afternoon and I rushed to get ready for it.I was looking forward to this with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.I headed over there when the time came to go there.
The meeting was wonderful.After the meeting was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After paying for those items,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few more things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.In between all of that,I managed to withdraw some money for my mom from the bank.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good day.
My recovery continues and today,for the first time in quite a while,I was feeling a little bit better.After having a talk with a Christian counselor over the phone last night and I discussed with her about what I was going through.We talked for a while and we prayed together and after it was over,I felt better.I slept pretty good during the night and I didn't have any sexual images of men cloud my mind.I slept wonderfully and I got up in the mid morning feeling like a 1,000,000 ton weight had been lifted off of my shoulders.Last night's talk with her made me realize that I need to rely on God more than my own personal strength.I am weak,but God can make me strong with his power.I guess that throwing everything of yours on the Lord really makes a difference.I am not feeling sad nor anything negative.It was great and I am looking forward to talking with her again in the near future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when an erection awakened me.I simply got up to use the bathroom as I had to use it.After using it,I simply went back to sleep and slept well until I did get up.For the first time in a long time,I had no temptation to act out in any way,shape of form.I also didn't have any cravings for anything sexual with other men nor to watch any porn.It was great.I went through the day without any anxieties nor any fears or temptations.I am just hoping that I can get through the near and distant future without having any of these temptations.I know that I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as those temptations can rear their ugly heads when least expected.I now know that I can pray and give these things to God through Jesus Christ now.I feel relieved and wonderful.Thank God and his son Jesus Christ for that.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward,though it is still rough and rocky.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only one thing on my agenda today.I had a group to go to today.The group was an improving self esteem group and I had to attend today.I headed over to the group with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm because this is an area where I really need to improve.
The group was wonderful.I got quite a lot out of it.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my road to recovery continues,it is still a rough and rocky one at that.I suffer and struggle with BPD and it is always a difficult struggle to deal with.I have to put up with the constant emotional roller coaster ride that I am usually on.I don't know if I will be up and feeling good one day or if I will be down and feeling not so good the next.It also happens within the same day sometimes.Aside from that,I also have schizophrenic tendencies alongside the BPD and that makes the struggle even more difficult.It also doesn't make my struggles with SSA any easier at all.I will still continue my therapy sessions and I will also continue to take my medication as directed.I am hoping that one of these days,my recovery will improve and I will start feeling good for a long time rather than this constant emotional roller coaster ride.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate twice in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by erections at two separate intervals in the wee early morning hours.Both of these erections were really stiff and throbbing ones at that.With the first erection,I tried to toss and turn,but it only got stiffer.I had to get up and when I started to get up,the erection softened and after being up for a few minutes,I went back to sleep.Regarding the second erection,I had to get up and use the bathroom and as I walked there,the erection softened and after using the bathroom,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped these two double whammy's,I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have can rear it's ugly head when least expected.It can come in any form,such as the temptation to masturbate,which is one of my problem areas,and the temptation to watch porn,which is another one of my problem areas.I have to learn to really stay strong and fight and resist these temptations when they occur.I also still get tempted,on a daily basis,to go out and seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,but when that temptation happens,I simply and willfully choose to stay home when that particular temptation occurs.I am still in desperate need for advice and/or suggestions on how I can stay strong to continue to fight and resist the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form.If any one of you out there who regularly checks out this blog of mine have anything that you think could benefit me,then please share and please don't be shy.I am open to anything that could work for me.Please share.I would really appreciate that.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment to meet with somebody with the church and I am hoping that the meeting will go well.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward,though the road is still a rough and rocky one.I had a pretty good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed quickly.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in just a dress shirt,tie and dress pants to head over to the church as they were having an outdoor service as they usually do during the Summer months on the last Sunday of each month during the Summer season.
The service was wonderful and we had some fellowship with each other in the fellowship hall and also had some refreshments alongside some wonderful conversation.After I had eaten some stuff and some great talks,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I immediately got out of my dress clothes and into a pair of sweatpants.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed and popped a DVD in to watch while doing so.I had really nothing else to do for the afternoon except look in on my mom who though feeling much better than before,is still feeling a little under the weather.I kept my eye on her as I feel it is my duty to do that.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good and eventful day.For me,going to church and having some wonderful fellowship afterwards always makes the day eventful.
My road to recovery continues to soldier onward,but I must admit that the road is still a rough and rocky one at that.I struggle with BPD and it's symptoms and the struggle is always a difficult one.I am always on an emotional roller coaster ride that never seems to let up.On some days,I can be up and feeling good,while on other days,down and feeling not so good.It also happens within the same day at times.Aside from that,I also have to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have and that makes the BPD struggle even more difficult.It also doesn't make my struggles with SSA any easier at all.I am still continuing my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am hoping that one day,my recovery will improve and I will be feeling good for a long time rather than this constant emotional roller coaster ride.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when an erection awakened me from a deep sleep.It was also another throbbing erection at that.I had to really use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation.I tried to toss and turn,but that only made my genitals harder.I then decided to get up and go to the bathroom since I had to use it anyway.My erection softened while on the way there and after using the bathroom,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this torturous episode,I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it is,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am always staying on guard and being watchful when this happens.Aside from the temptation to masturbate erections away,I also get tempted to watch porn,which is another one of my main problem areas.I,on a daily basis,also get tempted to go out and seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,but as I have said before and I will say it again,I simply and willfully choose to stay home rather than give into that particular temptation.But the areas of masturbation and porn are my main problem areas as I get tempted to masturbate whenever an erection occurs or to watch porn and also masturbate while watching porn.I really need some advice and/or suggestions to help me out here.I need to keep fighting to resist the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have and I am still open to any ideas on How I can continue to do that.Again,if anyone out there has anything that they feel that I could use or even need,please share and I will try to use it to the best of my ability.Thanks in advance for anything offered.
Tomorrow,I have a group that I need to attend.Aside from that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go forward,though the road is still a rough and rocky one.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the late morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day as I had only a few things planned.
I first went to the public library yet again to print some more important stuff.After that was done,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up something that was needed for the home.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I had bought away and I relaxed while watching a DVD.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my road to recovery continues to go forward,I must say that the road is still a rough and rocky one at that.I struggle with the symptoms of BPD and that struggle is very difficult to deal with.Day in and day out,I have to put up with the continuous emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I don't know if I will be up and feeling good or if I will down and feeling not so good.At times,it happens on the same day.I sometimes don't know if I am coming or going.Aside from BPD,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my struggles with BPD even more difficult.It also doesn't make my struggles with SSA any easier as I am trying and wanting to heal from that condition as well.I will still continue my therapy sessions and I will continue taking my medications as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start improving and I will feel good for a while instead of having to be on this constant emotional roller ride that I constantly on.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate twice in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by morning erections at two separate intervals.The first one was a really stiff and throbbing one that really had me fighting to resist the temptation.I had to get up and walk until the erection softened and I went back to sleep.With the second one,which was also stiff and throbbing,I had to really toss around until the erection softened and again,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this double whammy,I still have to continually stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am always having to work on staying strong and resisting these terrible temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have.I don't want to act out on them at all as that would be sinful.I also have to keep in mind that God never intended for sexuality to be used and abused the way that the world around us today is using and abusing it.God had intended for all of us to be Heterosexual and not otherwise as he created man and woman for a reason.I still get tempted to go out and seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,but I always choose to stay home and feed nor satisfy that temptation.I also get tempted,on a daily basis,to watch porn,but that is also a form of acting out and it is very hard for me to resist.I am again appealing to those who check my blog out regularly to please share some advice or suggestions as to how I can continually resist these terrible temptations.I am desperate here and I am seeking how I can stay strong and not give into temptations of any kind.Please help me everyone out there.Thanks in advance for doing so.
Tomorrow,it will be church as usual and I am eagerly looking forward to that.As for the rest of the day,I have made no other plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues,though still rough and rocky.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I hurriedly did my personal PC work and I got dressed as I had only a few things on my agenda today.
I first went to the bank to withdraw some money for my mom.After that,I headed over to the public library to print an e-mail that was sent to me by someone that I have been conversing with.After that was done,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few things there.After paying for those things,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up one last thing.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed a bit while getting ready for my meeting with the pastor of the church.When the time to head there had come,I headed over there with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The meeting was wonderful.After meeting with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My road to recovery continues,though the road is still rough and rocky.Then again,when somebody,such as myself,struggles with BPD,it is never an easy thing.I have to continually put up with the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I don't if I will be up and feeling good or if I will be down and feeling not so good.At times,it all happens on the same day.Aside from BPD,I have to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I also have alongside BPD.It really makes my recovery even more difficult.It also doesn't make my struggles with SSA any easier at all.The only things that I can do is continue to attend my therapy sessions and continue taking my medication as directed.I am still holding onto the hope that I will start to feel good and continue feeling good for a while rather than this emotional roller coaster ride that I am on constantly.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another erection that was also another throbbing one.I had to really use all of my strength to fight and resist this current temptation as it was a really overwhelming one.After my last falls,I didn't want to fall again.I simply got up and took a short walk and went back to sleep after the erection died down.Though I did escape this episode,I still have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form of acting out it is,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am always in a fight to resist any temptations when they come.Aside from masturbation,I also get tempted to watch porn on a daily basis and that is another problem area of mine.I still get tempted to go out and seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,but again,I simply choose to stay home rather than go out and give into that particular temptation.The other aforementioned ones are really the most difficult ones for me as I get these temptations every day and it is never easy to resist as the lure to watch pornography is a really strong one and even the craving to masturbate is also as strong as the lure to watch pornography.Again,I get many readers to my blog,but nobody really leaves anything encouraging or helpful.Please,anyone who does visit my blog,leave anything that will encourage or help me to resist these temptations and to stay strong in my fight to resist them.Please leave a little advice and/or any suggestions that could help me.Thanks in advance for doing so.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward,though the road is still a rough and rocky one.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I first went to my weekly spirituality group and I was looking forward to this.I had high hopes and positive anticipation.I headed over there and again,I was looking forward to it.
The group meeting was wonderful.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen for my lunch.After lunch,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I popped a DVD in the DVD player and relaxed while watching the movie.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my road to recovery continues onward,it is still a rough and rocky road at that.On a daily basis,I have to put up and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that I am continuously on.I don't if I will be up and feeling good or down and not so good.It also happens within the same day at times.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that my struggle with BPD even more difficult.It also doesn't make my SSA struggles any easier.I will still continue with my therapy sessions and I will continue taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start improving and I will be feeling good for a while instead of this constant emotional roller coaster ride that I am usually on.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation in the wee early morning hours when I masturbated an erection away.It really made me feel terrible and it also made me feel like a failure because I really want to overcome SSA and be the whole man that I want to be and the whole man that God wants me to be.I still get tempted to go out and seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,but as I have stated before,I simply choose to stay home and not feed nor satisfy that temptation.I also still get tempted to watch porn day in and day out and that temptation at times can get really overwhelming,in as much the same way that the temptation to act out by masturbation can get really overwhelming.I again appeal to those who stop by my blog to check out my posts and give me some much needed advice and encouragement.People do visit and check out my posts here,but nobody ever leaves anything.Please leave something that can help me,such as advice and/or suggestions on how I can stay strong whenever any temptations to act out,no matter what form of acting out it is,rear their ugly heads when least expected.Please help me.I am really desperate here.Thanks in advance for anything offered.
Tomorrow afternoon,I have a meeting with the pastor of the church.As for much of the day before and after,I have nothing else planned.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues,though the road is still a rough and rocky one.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the day as I had only a few things planned.
I first headed over to a local laundromat to pick up some laundry for my mom.After paying for it,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things that were needed.After paying for them,I headed over to the local K-Mart to pick up a few things for myself.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.After watching the DVD,I talked with a Christian counselor for a while about the temptations that have been overwhelming me as of late and sought advice as to how I can stay strong and resist the temptation to act out in many ways,shapes and forms.
After the talk,which went great,I relaxed again for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
As stated,my road to recovery continues to go forward,but the road is still a rough and rocky one at that.I have BPD and the symptoms that many who have BPD have is a struggle in itself.I have to put up with emotional roller coaster rides on a continuous basis.I don't if I will be up and feeling good or if I will be down and feeling not so good.At times,it all happens on the very same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies alongside the BPD and that makes the struggle with BPD even more difficult.It also doesn't make my SSA struggles any easier at all.I am going to continue my therapy sessions and I will continue taking my medication as directed.I am still holding onto the hope that one of these days,my road to recovery will take a positive turn and I will start feeling good for a long period of time and not be on this continuous emotional roller coaster ride.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was once again tempted to masturbate twice in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened,at two separate intervals,with erections.They both were throbbing erections as well.I really had to fight both of these overwhelming temptations as they were really strong.With the first,I had to get up and walk for a bit and as I did,the erection softened.With the second,I simply tossed and turned and when that didn't work,I started to get up and that is when the erection died down.I went back to sleep after both of these occurrences.While I escaped these two episodes,I have to continually keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form of acting out it may be,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.This time,it was to act out by masturbating,but at other times,I do get tempted to watch porn where there are two members of the same gender indulge in sinful sexual activity with each other.I also get tempted to go out and seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,but as I have stated previously,I have chosen to stay home rather than feed or satisfy that particular temptation.The other two,masturbation and porn,are my two main problem areas as they are simply acting out on these unnatural desires without paying the price of doing it with another male partner.Acting out,no matter what form it is,will only reinforce the Homosexual identity,which is the identity that I am trying to escape and distance myself from.The only identity that I want reinforced is the identity that I am gender wise,which is male.I am a member of the male sex and that is what I am and all I am.God intended for me and other men to be Heterosexual as that is what he supports and approves of.He doesn't approve nor support any sinful sexual activity between two members of the same gender and anything connected with it.I want to remain true to myself as a male and I refuse to accept or even acknowledge the identity that I am not supposed to have,which is Homosexual.I am a man and a male and that is all that I accept about myself,which in itself,is not an easy thing to do.Regarding temptations,I am still seeking advice and/or suggestions as to how I can continually fight and resist these temptations.Please offer anything that you may have and don't be shy.Don't just check my blog out and read what I post,but give me helpful encouragement and advice in the comments section.I yearn for that and I will repeatedly say this until those who read and check this out do share some words of encouragement and advice.Thanks in advance for doing so.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.After the group,it will be lunch at a local kitchen.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go forward,despite the road being rough and rocky.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day.
I first had to run an errand for my mom.I had to stop at a local supermarket to pick up a few things that my mom needed.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and popped a DVD in the DVD player and watched it.
As the afternoon progressed,I went to get ready for my appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.I had a lot to talk about with her as it has been several weeks since I last spoke with her.I had quite a lot on my mind and I wanted to get it out in the open.
The meeting with her went well as expected and after the meeting was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local laundromat to pick up some laundry for my mom.After paying for the laundry,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the laundry away and I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my road to recovery continues to move forward,the road is still a very rough and rocky one at that.As someone who suffers from BPD,I have to continually put up with the symptoms of this and also,the continuous emotional roller coaster ride that I constantly on.I don't know if I will be up and feeling good or if I will be down and not so good.At times,it all happens within the same day as I could be up one minute and down the next minute.Aside from that,I also have to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside the BPD,which makes it even more difficult.It also doesn't make my struggles with SSA any easier at all.I will still continue my therapy sessions.I will also continue taking my medication as directed.I am still holding onto the hope that one of these days,my recovery will start improving and I will feel good for a while rather than this constant and continuous emotional roller coaster ride that I am usually on.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was one again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when yet another erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.This was also another throbbing erection as well and the temptation to masturbate it away was really overwhelming.I had to really use up all of my strength to really resist this temptation.I tried to toss and turn,but it still wouldn't soften.Suddenly,I felt that I had to use the bathroom and I got up to head for the bathroom and as I was walking there,the erection softened.After using the bathroom,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this particular episode,I have to continually kep in mind that the temptation act out on these unnatural desires,no matter what form it is,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am tempted on a daily basis to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,with the most common temptation being that I get tempted to go out and seek out other men for the purposes of indulging in sinful and inappropriate sexual activity with them,but I simply and willfully choose to stay home whenever that particular temptation comes around.The other temptations that I get are to watch porn and also,to masturbate,including the temptation to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect or near erect for the purpose of masturbation.Those latter aforementioned temptations are my main problem areas.Again,I have seen that there are people who do read and visit my blog frequently,but usually,nobody leaves a kind word or two to help me.If anyone out there stops by or regularly checks my blog here,please leave an encouraging word or two so I can keep going.Please advise me on how I can stay strong whenever temptation rears it's ugly head at me.Anything in the form of advice and/or suggestions are always appreciated and they are also welcomed.I will try to use them to the best of my strength and ability.Thanks so much in advance.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward,though the road is still a rough and rocky one.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda today.I first went to a new group called Self Esteem Improvement and I was looking forward to that.I am looking for ways to improve self esteem and I am hoping that this group can help.
The group meeting went well.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some money for my mom.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the money that I withdrew and after that was done,I relaxed and popped a DVD in.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My recovery continues onward,but the road is still rough and rocky for me.Then again,when somebody,such as myself,suffers from BPD,one can never tell how they will feel from one day to the next.I don't if I will be up or if I will be down and at times,it happens all in the same day.Aside from that,I also have schizophrenic tendencies,which makes the struggle with BPD even more difficult.It also doesn't make my struggles with SSA any easier.The only things that I can do is to continue my therapy sessions and continue taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that one of these days,my recovery will start to improve and I will feel good for a while instead of enduring this emotional roller coaster ride that I am constantly on.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection that was also another throbbing one.After giving into this terrible and unclean habit twice yesterday,I didn't want to give into this again today.I fought like crazy to resist this current temptation to act out on the unnatural desires that I have as this was a very overwhelming one.With a couple of minutes,the erection died down and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to continually keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what for it is,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I get tempted to act out on a daily basis,with the most common temptation being that I am tempted to go out and seek other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,but I always choose to stay home and not feed nor satisfy that particular temptation.I also get tempted to watch porn and that is one of my main problem areas alongside masturbation.The temptation to watch online porn can be overwhelming and the lure of porn can be very strong.Though I do close off the internet and leave the computer in order to kill off that temptation,it sometimes doesn't and the temptation gets stronger.I really don't want to watch porn,by these unnatural desires that I have want me to do that.I will just have to keep fighting these temptations one day at a time or when they start to happen.Again,if anyone out there is reading what I am posting here,please offer me some help in the form of advice and/or suggestions as to how I can stay strong when these temptations come around.Please help me as I am really desperate here.Thanks in advance for anything offered.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor and I am hoping that the meeting goes well.As for the much and the rest of the day,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues,though the road is still a rough and rocky one.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed quickly.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly got dressed up in a suit and I headed for the church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with all of the people,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I quickly got out of my suit and into a pair of sweatpants.I had a quick light lunch and after eating,I did my personal PC work.
After my personal PC work was done,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.
My recovery does continue onward,but the road still remains rough and rocky at the moment.Then again,when somebody,such as myself,struggles with BPD and the symptoms of this,it is never an easy thing to struggle with.I have to continually put up with the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I don't if my mood will be up or if my mood will be down.It also happens on the same day at times.I also have schizophrenic tendencies alongside the BPD and that makes the struggle even more difficult.It also doesn't make my struggles with SSA any easier.I still continue to attend my therapy sessions and I still continue to take my medication as directed.I am hoping that one of these days,my recovery will start improving and I will feel good for a long time rather than this continuous emotional roller coaster ride.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I admit that I am feeling really crummy at the moment as I gave into temptation twice by masturbating.The first occurrence was late last night and the next occurrence happened in the wee early morning hours.On both occasions,I really felt miserable and for a while,I felt these feelings.But as the day wore on,I did start feeling better and wasn't sad about both of these falls anymore.The thing is that I did sin in the eyes of God by acting out in the form of masturbation twice and it was very heartbreaking,but again,as the day went on,I didn't feel so bad after that.Fellow men,who read this blog of mine,please share with me any form of advice and/or suggestions as to what has worked for you,why it worked and how it worked.Please share.I want to gain more strength to resist the temptation to act out in other ways aside from going out to seek out other men for teh purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them.I do get that latter temptation on a day to day basis,but I simply and willfully chose to stay home rather than feed or satisfy that temptation.If anyone out there can help me by giving me any encouragement,advice or suggestions,please do.I see that people are reading and checking out the posts,but usually,nothing is left in the comments section.I am eager and desperate to break free from these practices and I also want to break free from this SSA trap.I know that relief doesn't happen in one night,week,month or year,but I really want to stay free and not be enslaved to anything sinful.If anyone out there reading this can help me.please do so.Thanks in advance for anything provided.
Tomorrow,I have a self esteem improvement group that I need to attend,Aside from that,I have nothing else planned.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues,though the road is still a rough and rocky one.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I only had a few things planned.I first went to Best Buy to pay on my credit card and after that was done,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things that were needed.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I popped a DVD in the DVD player and relaxed for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my recovery continues onward,the road is still a rough and rocky one.Then again,when somebody,such as myself,is battling the symptoms of BPD,the road is never an easy one.I have to put up with being on a continuous emotional roller coaster ride.I don't know if I will be up or down on certain days or if it will be on the same day where I am feeling up and good one minute and down and not so good the next.At times,it can be and feel unbearable.I also have to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside the BPD and that makes it even more difficult.It also makes my struggles with SSA even more difficult to endure.The only things that I can do is continue my therapy sessions and continue taking my medication as directed.I am still holding onto the hope that one day,I will feel good and continue to feel good for a while rather than this dreaded continuous emotional roller coaster ride.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another erection that was also another throbbing one.I really had to fight and resist this overwhelming temptation.I had to really toss and turn to get rid of this erection and when that didn't work,I had to get up and walk to the bathroom to use it and while I did that,the erection died down.I went back to sleep shortly afterwards.Though I escaped this episode,I am still having to stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out,no matter what form of it is,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to put up with the temptations to act out as they come and believe me,the struggle to fight and resist these temptations is a very difficult one.I still get tempted to watch porn and also,I still get tempted to go out and seek other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual relations with them.When that latter temptations starts to occur,I simply choose to stay home and not feed nor satisfy that particular temptation as acting out,no matter what form it is,will never give me what I so desperately need and want,which is affirmation of my gender identity and the feelings of authenticity that go with that affirmation.I seek to have healthy affirming relationships with my fellow men in the forms of close friendships that can lead to closeness,bonding and connecting with them in a healthy and authentic way.The only love that a man can give another man is brotherly love and that love is non-sexual and very real and affirming.As I have stated before,I am still seeking advice and/or suggestions as to how I can continue resisting these temptations that I keep getting.I know that being tempted isn't sinful,but giving into the temptations are sinful.If anyone is reading these posts and has any ideas on how I can continue to stay strong,please share them.I am open to anything that is encouraging and supportive.Thanks in advance for anything offered.
Tomorrow morning,it is church as usual and the morning's Holy Bible study class an hour and a half before the worship service.As for the rest of the day,I have nothing else planned.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it give me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward,though still rough and rocky.I had a pretty good day.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day.
I had only a few things to do today.I simply stayed close to home so I could be near my mom whenever she would need me.She hasn't been feeling well as of late and I just wanted to be near her whenever she would need me for anything.I simply ran a few errands close to home and just stayed local just in case she would need me for anything.
I first went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things that we needed.After paying for those items,I headed over to the local Sears to pick up something for myself.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.I also popped a DVD in the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my road to recovery continues onward,the road is still a very rough and rocky one.Then again,when one,like myself,struggles with BPD,it is never an easy one.I have to continually put up with the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I don't know if I will be up or down as I go on my day to day life.Sometimes,it happens all in the same day where I am up one minute and I am down the next minute.It is always a very difficult struggle and it never gets easier.Aside from the BPD,I also struggle with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have,which makes it even more difficult.It also doesn't make my struggles with SSA any easier at all.Despite that,I will still continue my therapy sessions and I will continue to take my medication as directed.I am hoping that someday soon,my recovery will improve and I will feel good for a long while rather than this emotional roller coaster ride that I am constantly on.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another morning erection.This also was another throbbing erection.My temptation to masturbate are strongest when I have an erection in the wee early morning hours.I had to really fight his overwhelming temptation.The erection was also painful as I was breathing heavily to try and resist that temptation.I tried to toss and turn,but it didn't work.I had to get up and walk about and head for the bathroom because I had to use it.As I was walking there,the erection died down and after using the bathroom,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped that episode this morning,I still have to put up with the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have whenever the temptation comes.The temptation does vary as it can be to masturbate,watch porn or going out to seek other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them.The third temptation is the most common for me as it happens on a daily basis.When that temptation occurs,I simply choose to stay home and not feed nor satisfy that temptation.The other two are my main problem areas as they are the most difficult to resist for me.The temptation to act out,regardless of what type of acting out it is,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to continually endure these temptations as these unnatural desires that I have can get really strong.In the past,I used to indulge in sinful sexual activity when the opportunity presented itself to me as that was way of coping with the unnatural desires during that time.But now,my priorities have changed and since I know the truth about Homosexuality and it's root cause and contributors,I no longer want to be a part of that sinful sexual lifestyle that a lot of men with these desires have chosen to live rather than search with themselves to find out what was the root cause and what possible contributors had led them to acquire this identity.I have read the books and I am a member of many online support groups that help many men,such as myself,overcome these unnatural desires.Though I have those resources,I am always wanting more.If anyone out there can offer any encouraging words that will support me in my endeavors to overcome these things,please share and I will try to the best of my strength to put these to work for me.I no longer want to reinforce the Homosexual identity because that is the identity that I am trying to escape and distance myself from.I only want to reinforce my true identity,which is male and because I am a man and a member of the male sex,that is the only identity that I want to reinforce.I will never accept no other identity other than the male identity,which is what I am and I am nothing else other than a human being.Again,any encouraging words in the forms of advice and/or suggestions are truly welcomed.Thanks in advance for anything offered.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues to move forward,though the road is a rough and rocky one.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did part of my personal PC work as I had to rush to get ready for my Thursday morning spirituality group as I was looking forward to that.After I was done with that partial PC work,I got dressed and headed over to the group.
The group meeting was wonderful.I got a lot out of it.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen for lunch.After eating,I headed for a nearby post office to mail out something important.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I headed back out again to pick up something that my mom needed.After that was paid for,I headed over to a local bargain outlet store to pick up a couple of things for myself.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I finally finished all of my personal PC work.I relaxed and popped a movie in the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My recovery continues onward,though the road is still a rough and rocky one.Day after day,I am struggling with BPD and its symptoms.I have to continually put up with the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I don't know if I will be up or if I will be down.It sometimes also happens within the same day.Aside from that,I also have to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside the BPD and that makes it even more more difficult.It also doesn't make my struggles with SSA any easier at the same time.I will still continue my therapy sessions and I will continue taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that one of these days,my recovery will start improving and I will be feeling good for a long time rather than this constant emotional roller coaster ride that I am usually on.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another morning erection.I really had to fight this overwhelming temptation to masturbate the erection away.I tried tossing and turning and it didn't work.The temptation was so overwhelming that I was breathing heavily as the erection was painful and was also a throbbing one.I started to get up and walk around briefly and as I was doing this,the erection started to soften.After it softened,I simply went back to sleep and I slept for several more hours.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to continually stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires,no matter what form it is,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Temptation has been really overwhelming me as of late.I have been in the fight to resist these temptations for quite some time now and they have been wearing me out.I am trying to stay strong and using all of what I have got to stay strong in the face of temptation,but it has been extremely difficult.I still get tempted to go out and seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,but when that happens,I simply and willfully choose to stay home rather than feed or satisfy that temptation.Aside from that,I even get tempted to watch pornography and that is another extremely difficult temptation to resist.I know that being tempted isn't a sin,but giving into the temptation is a sin.I am still seeking help and support from everyone who reads this blog of mine.I am really desperate.To all of those who visit this blog,please leave some encouraging words and helpful advice and/or suggestions on how I can stay strong as I want to know what has worked for you and how it worked for you.Please share.Don't just read the posts and leave.Please share something that will encourage me and will help me to stay strong.Thanks in advance for anything left.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward,though the road is still a rough and rocky one.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had only a few things planned and I wanted to get them done.
I first went to the bank to get some change from a twenty dollar bill that I had.After getting the change,I headed back home to register all of the money at the Where's George site and after that was done,I headed over to the post office to send out a money order for an item that I am purchasing on layaway through the mail.After sending out that money order,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I had a light lunch and afterwards,I popped a DVD in the DVD player and I also did some recommended Holy Bible reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to move forward,I am still putting up and struggling with the continuous emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.It is always a very difficult thing to deal with.I never know how my mood will be from one day to the next.I never know if my mood will be up or if my mood will be down.Sometimes,it happens all in the same day.Aside from BPD,I also have to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have as well,which makes the struggle with BPD even more difficult and also doesn't make my struggles with SSA any easier,either.I will continue my therapy sessions and continue taking my medications as directed.I am just hoping that someday soon,my recovery will improve and I will be feeling good for a while rather than this emotional roller coaster ride that I am constantly on.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another erection that was also another throbbing one.I really had to fight the overwhelming urge to masturbate the erection away.I tried tossing and turning,but it wasn't working.I had to get up and walk around for a while and I had to use the bathroom.As I was doing all of that,the erection died down and after I was finished in the bathroom,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it is,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am always in the fight for my strength as a result of these temptations.I still get tempted to go out and seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,but as I have said before and I will say again,I willfully choose to stay home rather than satisfy or feed that temptation.I also get tempted to watch pornography on a daily basis as well and that is a very difficult temptation to resist as pornography is now everywhere as a result of the internet.Again,if anyone out there is reading these posts that I am submitting and checking out my blog regularly,I encourage you to please post an encouraging word to me and also,please share whatever advice and/or suggestions that you may have to offer.I am open to anything.Please share what has worked for you and how it worked for you.I am really desperate here as I really want to resist these temptations that I have and I don't want to act out on the unnatural desires that I have,which are what the temptations are all about.Please help me.I would greatly and lovingly appreciate that.Thanks so much.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I need to attend and also,I will have lunch at a local kitchen afterwards.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues,though the road is still a rough and rocky one.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda.I first went to a friend of mom's house to pick up something for my mom and after that was done,I headed to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things for my mom.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My road to recovery continues to move forward,although the road is still a rough and rocky one at times.It goes with the territory of having BPD.I am always on an emotional roller coaster ride where one day I might be up and feeling good while the next day,down and feeling not so good.Sometimes,it happens all on the same day.Aside from BPD,I also have to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have as well and that makes my struggles with BPD and SSA even more difficult.I am still continuing my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am hoping that one of these days,my recovery will improve and I will feel better for quite a while rather than this constant emotional roller coaster ride.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened yet again by another erection.It was also another throbbing erection.I had to really fight this overwhelming temptation to masturbate this erection away.I simply got up and walked for a bit and used the bathroom and while doing that,the erection died down.I simply went back to sleep after that.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have can rear it's ugly head when least expected.It can come in any form.I still get tempted to go out and seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sexual activity with them,but as I have said previously,I choose to stay home rather than feed or satisfy that temptation.Acting out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter form of acting out it is,will never give me the fulfillment that I so desperately need and want.It also won't affirm my gender identity nor make me feel authentic.Acting out,no matter what form it is,will only reinforce the Homosexual identity,which is the identity that I am trying to escape and distance myself from.Again,I am appealing to those who do stop by my blog to read what I have posted.Please post some words of encouragement to me and also,anything that can help give me strength to continually resist the temptation to act out on thee unnatural desires that I have.I would really appreciate anything given.Thanks in advance.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues to move forward,despite the road being rocky.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I got up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed as I had a few things planned for today and I wanted to get them done.
I first attended my usual Monday online recovery resources group and since I missed it last week due to battling the common cold,I was looking forward to this meeting with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.I headed over there hoping to get quite a bit out of it.
The meeting went great.After the meeting,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local convenience store to pick up a couple of things and after paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I simply relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my recovery continues to move forward,I am still on that rough and rocky road.Then again,I have BPD and the road to recovery is never easy.I have to continually put up with the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD and it really is a tough one.I don't know if I will be up or if I will be down.It sometimes happens all in the same day.Aside from that,I also have schizophrenic tendencies alongside the BPD and that makes it even more difficult and even makes my SSA struggles even more difficult.I will still continue my therapy sessions and continue taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will start improving and I will start feeling good for quite a while instead of always being on this emotional roller coaster ride.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by an erection.While it wasn't as stiff as the previous ones nor did it throb as much,it was still a very overwhelming temptation.I had to fight this temptation as it was really tough as I was still feeling sleepy and tired.I started to get up and when I did,that is when the erection died down and after using the bathroom,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I really need some help here everyone.I am still continuing to be tempted to act out on these unnatural desires that I have and I don't want to.I still get tempted to go out and seek other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful and unnatural sexual with them,but as I have said previously,I choose to stay home and not feed nor satisfy that particular temptation as it will never give me what I want or so desperately need.The temptation to act out,no matter what form it is,can be very powerful and overwhelming.I am stil desperately seeking advice and/or suggestions as to how I can continue to stay strong when the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires rears it's ugly head.Please help me everyone as I am really desperate here.Many of you visit and read the posts,but nobody comments or leaves anything encouraging.Thanks in advance for anything offered.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward,though the road is still a rough and rocky one.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed quickly.After my bath,I has my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.I headed there looking forward to attending as I always do.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with everyone after the service,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into casual clothes.I headed out to the local Super Wal-Mart to get my mom something that she needed.After paying for that,I went to a local pizzeria to have a quick lunch.After lunch,I stopped at a nearby 7-Eleven to have a sugar free Super Mango slurpee.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and afterwards,I popped a DVD in the DVD player and I relaxed.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.
While my recovery continues onward,the road is still a rough and rocky one.Then again,when one,like myself,has BPD,it is a very difficult road to be on.I have to continually put up with being on a constant emotional roller coaster ride and I really don't know how my mood will be from one day to the next.Aside from that,I also have schizophrenic tendencies alongside the BPD and that makes it even more difficult.It also makes my struggles with SSA even more difficult to deal with.I will still continue my therapy sessions and I will continue taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that someday soon,my recovery will improve and I will feel pretty good for a long while instead of this blasted emotional roller coaster ride.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by an erection that was also another throbbing one.I had to get up and walk to the bathroom and as I walked there,the erection died down.I went back to sleep afterwards.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to continually put up with temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have.I still get tempted on a daily basis to go out and seek other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,but I willfully choose to stay home rather than give into that sort of temptation.I have to constantly keep in mind that acting out on these unnatural desires that I have will never give me what I want and so desperately need,like affirmation of my gender identity and the feelings of authenticity that go with that affirmation.I also want to have healthy relationships with my fellow men in the forms of real friendships and male bonding and not anything sexual with them as that is not only unnatural and sinful,but it is also inappropriate.I want to be the man that God intended me to be and I know that he never intended me to be anything but a man as I am a member of the male sex and my gender identity is male.I know that he never intended me to be Homosexual as his sacred word,the Holy Bible,condemns such activity.I am still desperately seeking any words of encouragement,advice and/or suggestions on how I can keep fighting temptation.I know that there are plenty of readers of my blog,but nobody ever leaves anything encouraging or anything that can help benefit me in the long run.Please don't be shy.If anyone out there has anything that they would like to share in teh form of advice and/or suggestions on how I can continue to stay strong in the face of temptation,please share.I would greatly appreciate that.Thanks so much in advance.
Tomorrow,I have a meeting that I need to attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope it give me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues,though the road is still a rough and rocky one.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I got dressed and I headed over to my Men's Network meeting and I was having high hopes for this and was looking forward to the meeting with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The meeting was wonderful.I got an awful lot out of this meeting and I headed straight home after the meeting was over.We won't be meeting again until September.
When I got home,I changed into a pair of sweatpants and settled into doing my personal PC work.After that was done,I decided to do some much needed homework for my Holy Bible study class tomorrow before the morning's worship service.
It only took me a few minutes,but I got my homework done.After it was done,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.I also did some recommended Holy Bible reading afterwards.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My road to recovery moves onward,but the road is still a very rough and rocky one.Then again,it is how it is when one,such as myself,is struggling with BPD.Day after day,I am on a constant emotional roller coaster ride.I don't know if my mood will be up or if my mood will be down.It also at times occurs on the same day where I can be up one minute and down the next minute.It is a really constant struggle emotions wise as I am going from day to day.Aside from BPD,I also put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have and that makes my BPD struggle even tougher.It also makes my struggles with SSA even more difficult.Though the vast majority of the mental health professionals still hold onto their opinions about Homosexuality/SSA,I am still going to attend my therapy sessions and continue taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that one of these days,my recovery will improve and I will feel good for a long time to come.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection that was also another throbbing one.It was also a very overwhelming urge that really enveloped my entire body.I had to really fight this temptation.I tried to toss and turn,but it didn't work.I was also breathing very heavily as it was a painful feeling that I was feeling and I didn't want to give into the temptation to masturbate.I simply got up and walked to the bathroom and when I was heading for there,the erection died down and after I used the bathroom,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this current episode,I am still staying on guard and being watchful as the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it is,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to constantly stay on guard and be watchful as that temptation can come and then,I have to try and use all of my strength to resist the temptation.I still get tempted every day to go out and seek out men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,but I always decide to stay home and not feed nor satisfy that sort of temptation.I have to constantly keep in mind that acting out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form of acting out it is,will never give me the positive fulfillment that I so desperately need and want,which is affirmation of my gender identity and the feelings of authenticity that go with that affirmation.I also have to constantly keep in mind that God never intended for sexuality to be used and abused the way that world today is using it.God never intended for any of us to be Homosexual as he created man and woman for a reason.God's creation of man and woman firmly shows that God only approved of healthy and happy Heterosexuality and that is what God intended for sexuality to be.No questions asked.No if's,and's or but's.No substitutions.Fellow readers and followers,I am always seeking guidance and advice on how I can continually resist the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have and I am always in desperate need for it.If anyone who follows or reads drops by,please offer some suggestions and/or some words of encouragement to keep me going.Please do that as I would really appreciate that.Thanks in advance for doing so.
Tomorrow,it will be church as usual and also,the morning's Holy Bible study class an hour and a half before the worship service.Aside from that,I have nothing else planned.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go forward,but the road is still a rough and rocky one.I had very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed to get on with the rest of my day.
I had a few things planned.I first went to the local City Hall to pay a couple of important bills that needed to be paid.After doing that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After paying for them,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few more things.After that,I headed over to another local supermarket to pick up a couple more things.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the groceries away and prepared to get ready for my appointment with the pastor of the church.I have been eagerly awaiting this for a while and I had high hopes for this.I headed over there when it was time.While awaiting that time,I did some recommended Holy Bible reading.
The meeting went wonderfully well.I got quite a bit out of it.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy while awaiting for dinner to get done.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good day.
While my road to recovery continues to move forward,it is still a very rough and rocky road.I am still having to put up with the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I don't know how my mood will be from one day to the next.I don't know if I will be up or if I will be down.Aside from that,I also have to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside the BPD and that makes it even more difficult.It also doesn't make my struggles with SSA any easier at all.I am still continuing my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed,though at times I wish that I didn't have to take it.I am hoping that one day,my recovery will start improving and I will start to feel good for a while rather than be on this constant emotional roller coaster ride.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation in the wee early morning hours when I masturbated an erection away.It really made me feel miserable and gave me feelings that I failed.Plus,it really brought me down.Later on,I did get another erection,but that died down when I got up and I simply went back to sleep.I have fallen at least three times in the past two weeks and I sometimes don't know whether I am coming or going.The struggle to try and resist the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires,other than having sexual activity with another member of the same gender,is really a difficult one.I no longer want to act out on these unnatural desires and I no longer want to have sexual feelings for members of my own gender.Aside from the temptation to act out by masturbating,whether it is emotional or sexual fantasy,I still get tempted to go out and seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,but as I have said previously,I willfully choose not to satisfy nor feed that temptation and I simply stay home whenever that particular temptation occurs.I have to constantly keep in mind that acting out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form of acting out it is,will never give me the fulfillment that I so desperately need,crave and want.Acting out will only reinforce the Homosexual identity and that's the identity that I am so desperately trying to escape and distance myself from.I also no longer want to be a Homosexual.I want to be the man that God intended me to be.I also want to be the man that God wants me to be.I know that God never intended me to be a Homosexual as his sacred word,the Holy Bible,condemns the sexual activity between two members of the same gender.I want to be the happy,healthy and masculine man that God wants me to be and also,strive to become the Heterosexual man that he intended me to be.I am still seeking advice and/or suggestions from those who have been checking out my blog by visiting and reading what I post.Please don't be shy.Please post comments that are and will be encouraging to me and will get me back on the right track and keep me going in this fight against these unnatural desires that I have.I would greatly appreciate that as a positive word or two would really make my day.Thanks in advance.
Tomorrow,I have a Men's Network meeting in the morning and I will be attending that.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues,but still rough and rocky.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day as I had some stuff planned.
I first went to my Thursday morning spirituality group and I was looking forward to that with a lot of enthusiasm.I headed over there with high hopes.
The meeting went wonderfully well.I got a lot out of it.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch.After lunch,I headed over to a nearby supermarket to pick up several things that my mom wanted me to get.After paying for the groceries,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I dropped the groceries off and put them in their proper places.After doing that,I headed out the door again to go to an AMVETS thrift store in the next county.I had been meaning to get out there for a long time and thought that I could get out there today.
I did find quite a few things there and after I paid for the stuff that I found,I headed straight home.
When I came home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed and took it easy for a while.I also did some recommended Holy Bible reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My recovery continues marching forward,but the road is still a rough and rocky one.I am still struggling with this emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I don't know how my mood will be from day to day.I don't know if I will be up or if I will be down.I sometimes wish that I didn't have to go through this.Aside from that,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes the struggle with BPD even more difficult and also doesn't make my struggles with SSA any easier at all.I will continue my therapy sessions and I will continue taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that one of these days,my recovery will improve and I will be feeling good for a long time rather than this emotional roller coaster ride that I am constantly on.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another erection.It was also another throbbing one.I had to really fight this overwhelming temptation to masturbate as it was really strong.I tried to toss and turn and it didn't work.I simply had to get up and walk and when I did,the erection died down and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out,in any way,shape or form,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I still get tempted to go out and seek other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,but I simply ignore that by staying home and not feed nor satisfy that temptation.I still have to keep in mind that acting on these unnatural desires will never give me what I want nor will it solve any problems.Acting out,no matter what form of acting out it is,will only reinforce the Homosexual identity and that is the identity that I trying to escape and totally distance myself from.I also don't want to masturbate anymore and I am so desperately seeking how I can continue to resist the temptations to act out and so far,nobody has said anything.Silence is never the answer.To all those who visit here and read,please leave and encouraging word or two and/or something that can help me out on how I can continue to resist the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have.I would greatly appreciate that.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have a meeting with the pastor of the church.Aside from that,I have nothing else planned.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues going forward,but the road is still a rough and rocky one.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed as I had an appointment that I had to keep as a result of me battling cold symptoms over the past several days.
I headed over to the doctor's office and I had quite a bit to tell her.I wanted to stop feeling these cold symptoms and I was hoping to get a prescription to knock them out.
The meeting with the doctor went well and I got a prescription.After getting the prescription filled at a nearby drug store and taking one pill after it was filled,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I popped a DVD in the DVD player and relaxed.I also did some recommended Holy Bible reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues,it is still a very rough and rocky road.I am continuing to put up with the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I can never predict how my mood will be from one day to the next or from one minute to the next.I don't know if I will be up or feeling down.Aside from that,I also have to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside the BPD and that really makes it even tougher to deal with.It also doesn't make my struggles with SSA any easier,either.I will continue to attend my therapy sessions and continue to take my medication as directed.I am hoping that one of these days,my recovery will improve and I will start feeling good for a while rather than deal with the ups and downs in regards to my mood.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate when I was awakened by yet another morning erection in the wee early morning hours.It was also another throbbing erection and the temptation to act out by masturbating was very overwhelming.I had to get up and head for the bathroom as I felt that I needed to go and when I headed for there,the erection died down and after I was finished,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to put up with the temptations that I have been getting constantly as of late.Day after day,I am getting tempted to act out on these unnatural desires and at times,the temptation to act out can be very overwhelming like it was in the wee early morning hours this morning.I am still getting tempted to to go out and search for male partners for the purpose of acting out sexually with them,but when that happens,I willfully choose to stay home and not satisfy nor feed that particular temptation.I have to continually keep in mind that acting out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form of acting out it is,will never give me the fulfillment that I truly and so desperately need and want,which is affirmation of my gender identity and the feelings of authenticity that go with that affirmation.I also have to continually keep in mind that God,when he created humans male and female,never intended for sexuality to be used and abused in this manner.God intends for all of us to be healthy and happy Heterosexuals as that is what he intended sexuality to be and not between two members of the same gender.I am getting tempted constantly as of late and I really need the help and support of those who read and follow this blog of mine.Please help me.I am still seeking some advice and/or suggestions as to how I can remain strong in the face of these overwhelming temptations.Please help me.Thanks in advance for anything provided.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I need to attend.As for the rest of the day,I have made no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ