Tuesday, February 26, 2019

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,i woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.At least,it went better than yesterday.After it was over,I stopped at a gas station to get a little gas in my tank.I then headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a bit while having a light evening meal.I then did some of my personal PC work.

In between doing that,I helped a little bit around the house and helped also with clean-up.After that,I finished my personal PC work.

I also watched a few videos online.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

I'm still dealing and struggling with the same issues that I've been dealing and struggling with for quite a while.I keep asking for helpful advice,but nobody ever provides any.I get many readers and visitors,but at the moment,nobody ever shares any helpful advice nor any positive verbal support within the comments section.

I'm serious about asking for help.I need help desperately.I want to stop these anger and rage issues before they ruin me.I want to stop this "couldn't care less" attitude that I have in regards to my co-workers and the clients there.I don't want any of the supervisors finding out about this because if they do,it could mean me being out of a job.I also need some help on how I can stop "the silent treatment" that I've been giving them as well.The thing is that this/these type(s) of an attitude(s) can get a person terminated from their job if this isn't stopped and contained.It also would make it difficult for that particular person to find another job when word gets out about this sort of thing from the last job held.

What can I do to stop this?

Is there any helpful advice that can be offered to me to stop this?

Please share anything helpful within the comments section.I also would still appreciate that all of you continue to keep me in your prayers.I need prayerful support,alongside the positive verbal,and helpful advice,support.I also ask that you also pray for others who are also dealing and struggling with these same issues.Thanks to all of you for your support and helpful advice.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

In the morning,I have to see a doctor,but will be working later in the day once that is done.I hope that the day goes well.FJ

Monday, February 25, 2019

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day was tough today.I suffered a chewing out today by one of the supervisors for not returning a "Good Morning" to him.This really made me not only angry,but contributed to the tough and terrible day that I had.So,when quitting time came,I was glad when it did and after my day at work was finished,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I showered quickly and changed clothes.I headed for my weekly anger management meeting.

The meeting was wonderful.After it was over,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree to pick up a few needed things.I then headed straight home.

When I got home,I helped out my sister with a few things in the house and after that,I did my personal PC work.I had a light bite to eat on the way home.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very tough and somewhat terrible day overall.

Today made me realize that this attitude that I've been having,this "couldn't care less" attitude that I've been having.I'm also realizing that I've been using "the silent treatment" a lot when it comes to both my co-workers and the clients.I realize that this is wrong and it could get me into trouble.I don't want to lose my job nor do I want to have any difficulties.This is becoming a major issue with me.I want to stop this thing,but don't know how.I also want to stop this as I don't want the clients nor my co-workers to get the wrong impression of me nor do I want them to inform any of the supervisors there at the workplace about this.Again,I really need to stop this.I could lose my job.I also could lose respect from others.I don't want neither of these to happen.

How can I stop this?

What do I need to do to stop this.

Please provide any helpful advice within the comments section.I need all the advice and positive verbal support that I can get.I also would appreciate that all of you continue praying for me that I overcome and contain these terrible problems that I have once and for all.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also would appreciate if you also pray for others who are also struggling with anger,rage and SSA issues.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day.I hope that tomorrow goes better than today.FJ

Sunday, February 24, 2019

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed in dress clothes.I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.

Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things.I then headed straight home.

When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and into casual clothes.I then did my personal PC work.I also watched a few videos online.

I also cleaned the kitchen floor of the dirty paw prints left by the dog.I also did a little bit of my laundry.I also did some more personal PC work.

Later on,I had a light evening meal and after that,I did some more personal PC work.I also watched a few more videos online.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers as I'm still struggling with both SSA and the same anger and rage issues.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,alongside some helpful advice,within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the start of a new work week.I hope that the day goes well for me.FJ

Saturday, February 23, 2019

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and moved some stuff of mine out of the garage and into the storage unit that I'm renting.I also went to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy a few needed things.I then headed straight home.

When I got home,I put everything away.In between doing those things,I was waiting all day for a guy to come and help rip out the ceiling in the dining room of the house,but he never called me.I also sent him a text,but he never replied.I simply waited all day,but I did manage to wipe down and clean the bathroom awaiting for him to call me or reply to my text message.This really frustrated me as I was going to do some things that I wanted to do,but put that on hold as a favor.But again,he never called nor did he ever reply to my text message.I felt as if a whole day was wasted.

When the early evening came,I had a light evening meal and in between waiting and the meal,I did my personal PC work.I also watched a few videos online.I also watched a few videos online.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A not too good of a day,but frustrating and somewhat uneventful.

I'm still struggling with the same issues that I've been having for quite some time.I have talked about these issues yesterday and a few days ago.I need help and advice on how I can get rid of this "couldn't care less" attitude that I've been having lately.As stated,I've been having this type of attitude towards my co-workers and the clients at the facility.I need to stop this and get rid of it,but don't know how.I don't want to lose my job nor do I want anyone to get an unfavorable impression of me.This is making me sad and miserable.This type of attitude gets nobody nowhere nor does it create a positive atmosphere,but a negative and hostile one.I really want to stop this.I also want to overcome and contain the anger and rage issues that I also still struggle with.

I again ask:

"What's wrong with me?"

"Why can't I stop this?"

I also ask:

"How can I stop this?"

Any helpful advice or answers are appreciated.I also would still appreciate your continued prayerful support.I need all the prayers that I can get.I also ask that all of you pray for others who are also struggling with this same thing,including those who are still struggling with SSA issues,such as myself.Thanks to all of you for your prayers and support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church as usual.I hope that the day goes well for me.FJ

Friday, February 22, 2019

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I did some of my personal PC work and washed up and shaved real quickly.I then finished my personal PC work.After that was finished,I got dressed and headed for my therapist's office.

My session with my therapist went well.I got a lot out of the session.After that,I had my income tax filed and after that,I headed for home.

On the way home,I stopped at a local bottle return place to turn in some empty bottles and cans.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I vacuumed a couple of rugs and did some more personal PC work.Later on,I heated up my evening meal.

After eating,I watched a few videos online and did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

I still ask myself these questions:

"What's wrong with me?"

"Why can't I stop this?"

I'm still struggling with anger and rage issues.I have been struggling with these things for quite some time.I want to overcome and contain these issues for good.I still have this "couldn't care less" attitude towards the clients and my co-workers.I need to get rid of this attitude.I don't know how I started this nor where it came from.I'm desperate to get rid of this.If I don't,it could result in my losing my job.I don't want that to happen.I need help.I need to learn how I can contain and overcome these terrible anger and rage issues and also,get rid of this "couldn't care less" attitude that I have.I need help.I need all of you to give me any helpful advice and positive verbal support.I also need prayerful support.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I would really appreciate that.Thanks in advance to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the start of the weekend.I hope that the weekend starts off well for me.FJ

Thursday, February 21, 2019

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I shopped at the local Super Wal-Mart and bought a few things.I then headed straight home.

When I got home,I dropped off a few things at home and headed back out to a local church for a free dinner.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I showered quickly and did a little bit of cleaning up in the house.I also did my personal PC work.I also watched a few videos online.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A Very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I'm still struggling with anger and rage issues.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,alongside some helpful advice,within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

I have the day off tomorrow as I have an appointment with my therapist.I'm hoping that the session goes well.I also hope that my extended weekend is also wonderful.FJ

Wednesday, February 20, 2019

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and had a light evening meal.I then did my personal PC work.I later also helped with some minor cleaning up around the house.I also watched a few videos online.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I'm still struggling with anger and rage issues.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,alongside some helpful advice,within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day.I hope that the day goes well.FJ

Tuesday, February 19, 2019

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was all over,I did a little bit of shopping at the local Super Wal-Mart and bought a few needed things.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I got out of my work clothes and showered quickly.After that,I ate a light evening meal and did my personal PC work.I also watched a few videos online.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I'm still struggling with the same anger and rage issues,which I shared last night,and still need prayerful support.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,alongside some helpful advice,within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day.I hope that the day goes well for me.FJ

Monday, February 18, 2019

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,and since I had the day off due to it being a holiday today,I did my personal PC work.I then got dressed and went outside to shovel some snow that fell last night and after that,I washed up and shaved real quickly.I relaxed while my face warmed-up after that and I went out to run a few errands.

I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things.After that,I stopped at at a local Rite Aid to buy a few more needed things.I then headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had a light evening meal.

After eating,I did some more personal PC work and watched a few videos online.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

I need to be open right now.I have been struggling with intense anger and rage issues lately.Lately,I have been having a "couldn't care less" attitude about the people I work with and the clients of the facility.This is really bothering me.I am also feeling intense misery and sadness as a result of this thing.I have been muttering angry and uncaring words under my breath,especially at work.So far,none of the clients have reported this to the supervisor(s),but I'm afraid that one day,they will do so and then,I could be out of a job if this is brought to their attention,which is something I don't want to have happen.Right now,during this time of the year,employment opportunities are scarce and I can't afford to be out of a job at all.This is also making me ashamed and hateful of myself.I don't want to be out of a job.I also don't want to be in any other negative situation as a result of this.I need to eliminate this terrible problem to save myself and most importantly,to hold onto my job.I'm also starting to have a "can't stand the sight of them" attitude towards my co-workers and the clients themselves,which is also making me feel miserable and ashamed of myself.Again,I need and want to stop this terrible problem.I can't have this type of thing where I work,as again,it could mean that I lose my job and again,I don't want that to happen.I also don't know whether I'm coming or going as a result of this.

What's wrong with me?

Why can't I stop this?

If anyone has any advice on how I can,please share within the comments section.I also need all the prayerful support that I can get.Please continue praying for me because this is becoming a terrible and real struggle for me.Please pray for me that I stop and eliminate this terrible problem that I have.I'm desperate for anything helpful,both prayerful and positive verbal support,alongside any helpful advice,within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is back to work day.I hope that the day goes well for me.FJ

Sunday, February 17, 2019

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed up in a suit.I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.

Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I stopped at McDonald's for a light lunch and after that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I got out of my suit and into casual clothes.I helped my sister out around the house with hanging some stuff up.My nephew also came over to help out as well.

After all of that work,we had a light evening meal and I did my personal PC work.I also watched a few videos online.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared for my evening retirement.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I'm still struggling with anger and rage issues.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,alongside some helpful advice,within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a day off as it is a holiday for me.I hope that the day goes well for me.FJ

Saturday, February 16, 2019

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I did some work around the house.I wiped down and cleaned the bathroom.I also wiped down and cleaned the kitchen floor and vacuumed some rugs.I then fixed the garage door by screwing the lock mechanism back in place.

After all of that was done,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I talked with a few friends on the phone and afterwards,I washed my hair and shaved.I then got dressed and headed out to do some running.

I went to another AMVETS thrift store within the next county and bought a few things.After that,I had a light evening meal at a nearby Arby's.I then headed straight home.

When I got home,I decided to do some more personal PC work.I also watched a few videos online.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I'm still struggling with anger and rage issues.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,alongside some helpful advice,within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church as usual.I hope that the day goes well for me.FJ
My day yesterday.

Yesterday,I woke up and after having my coffee,I went to work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I ran a few errands and paid a few bills.I then did a little shopping at the local Super Wal-Mart before heading straight home.

When I got home,I showered real quickly and after that,I heated up my evening meal.

After eating,I did my personal PC work.It was a lot and it took me some time to finish.I also watched a few videos online.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

That was my day yesterday.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please leave me any positive encouragement and helpful advice within the comments section.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

I will report more later on this evening.Thanks.FJ

Friday, February 15, 2019

Tonight,I'm feeling extremely tired.I can barely type.I will share my day today tomorrow.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support,alongside some helpful advice,within the comments section.Thanks.FJ

Thursday, February 14, 2019

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a while and took it easy.I also did my personal PC work.

Later on,I had a light evening meal and I did some more personal PC work.As it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening as I was getting tired.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I'm still struggling with the same anger and rage issues.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,alongside some helpful advice,within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day.I hope that the day goes well.After that,it's a three day weekend for me.FJ

Wednesday, February 13, 2019

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed for the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few needed things.I then got a little bit of gas in my gas tank and headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I showered quickly and after that,I head light evening meal.I also did my personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I'm still struggling with anger and rage issues.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,alongside some helpful advice,within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day.I hope that the day goes well.FJ

Tuesday, February 12, 2019

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,i woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.O headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I helped out in putting wood in the ceiling of the house.I also did some cleaning up a mess and after having a light meal,I did the dishes.

I then did my personal PC work and I also watched some videos online.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I'm still struggling with anger and rage issues.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,alongside some helpful advice,within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day.I hope that the day goes well.FJ

Monday, February 11, 2019

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I ran a few errands and I headed straight home.

When I got home,I showered quickly and after that,I had a light evening meal.I also did my personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Right now,I'm feeling really depressed right now.I don't know why.I just feel really down at the moment.It started this afternoon as I was on my way home from work after running the errands.I feel sad at this time,but don't know what's causing this spell of the blues to hit me.I have been feeling fine for a long time,despite the anger and rage issues that I struggle with,but right now,I feel this blues spell.I'm hoping that it's temporary and that it will go away after I have a good nights sleep.Please pray for me that this spell goes away and that I feel better.I don't want to feel these depressed feelings.I am hoping that I will feel better once I get some sleep.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I need prayers by all of you to hope that I get over this spell soon.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,alongside some helpful advice,within the comments section.I really all the support that I can get,both prayerful and positive verbal,alongside the helpful advice.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that the day goes by well.FJ

Sunday, February 10, 2019

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed up in a suit.I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.

Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed from my suit into casual clothes and quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I ran a few errands,including turning in some bottles and cans at a nearby bottle and can deposit place.After that,I stopped at a local restaurant for a quick lunch and bought a few things at a local Dollar Tree after that.I then headed straight home.

When I got home,I started doing some laundry and did some more personal PC work.I also had a light evening meal and when I was finished with that,I did some more personal PC work.I also watched a few videos online.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I'm still struggling with the same anger and rage issues.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,alongside some helpful advice,within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his on Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the start of a new work week.I hope that the day goes well for me.FJ

Saturday, February 09, 2019

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I did my personal PC work.I then washed up real quickly and got dressed.I ran a few errands that needed to be run as I went to buy a few things.I then headed straight home.

When I got home,I vacuumed a few rugs,alongside wiping down and cleaning the bathroom.I also called a friend and talked with him for a while.After that,I took a drive and went to an AMVETS thrift store in the next county and bought a few still sealed CD-R discs.I then headed for home.

On the way home,when I was back in my hometown,I stopped at a local Dollar General store to pick up some cooking spray.I then headed straight home.

When I got home,I heated up my evening meal while also doing some more personal PC work.After that,I ate my evening meal and watched a few videos online.I then did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I'm still struggling with the same anger and rage issues.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,alongside some helpful advice,within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church as usual.I hope that the whole day goes well for me.FJ

Friday, February 08, 2019

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I did a little bit of shopping and I headed straight home.

When I got home,I showered quickly and changed into different clothes.I had a light evening meal and I did my personal PC work.

I then watched a few videos online and I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I'm still struggling with anger and rage issues.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,alongside some helpful advice,within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the start of the weekend.I hope that the weekend starts off well for me.FJ