Tonight,I check in feeling great with a lot of optimism in me.Saturday night is here and soon I will be going to sing for my friends.I am hoping that everything goes well tonight.Even though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for the night to go well.I am still practicing real hard on the songs that I am going to do tonight and again,I hope that all goes well.I can hardly wait to get to the place and sing.I am hoping that it goes great and that I have a great night.Again,I rarely have an off night but it still does not hurt to hope for everything to go good.I am hoping for a super night and that would be totally excellent.
Tonight,the Sabres are going against the Ottawa Senators in Ottawa.At the moment,the score is 1-0 in favor of Buffalo.It is the second period as I am typing this up to you.I am hoping that the Buffalo Sabres avenge themselves for Wednesday night's loss against the Senators at home,which was very disappointing.A win tonight would be neat.I wouldlove to see the Sabres victorious again after beating the Pittsburgh Penguins last night 4-2 at home.They are currently with the best record in the league and that is truly awesome.A win tonight would be another road win for the record books.They are currently in the record books with the most road wins,so far.The more road wins,the better.It's great to finally see the team get into the record books after all these years.Each and very year,I always hope that they one day bring home the Stanley Cup.That would also be awesome.Until they do,I am just going to keep on hoping until it happens.Again,I hope that they win and I have a good night singing.
That is all for now.Thoughts are always appreciated.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling a little bit better than last night.I had some time to myself tonight while my mom was over at my niece's house celebrating her birthday with her.It was great to finally have some peace and quiet in the house for a change after the array of last week when I had to deal with a bunch of noisy kids and rotten attitudes courtesy of a few family members.It felt great to not hear kids screaming,running around and fussing and not having to deal with rude relatives.Don't get me wrong,I have nothing personal against my family members but sometimes I do need a break from them.Tonight was that break and I could finally relax and take it easy and not have to worry about noisy kids and the attitudes of relatives who crave nothing more than pushing your buttons for no particular reason.On the other hand,the work day went as well as expected.Nothing really negative to write about nor even vent about.It is great to finally not really have too much to deal with at the moment after the frustrations of the previous week where I was cleaning up after drug addicts who could actually pick up after themselves and bag everything so I would not have to worry about it.Oh well,that's life.
On a even better note,the Buffalo Sabres win again tonight at home.They defeated the Pittsburgh Penguins by a score of 4-2.It was disappointing that they lost on Wednesday night but they were victorious tonight.Tomorrow night,they're having a rematch with the Ottawa Senators in Ottawa and I am hoping for yet another win.It would be great for the Sabres to avenge themselves after Wednesday's loss.A win would be totally sweet.I will also be singing again tomorrow night for my friends and i am hoping that this goes well.
That was my day and night.Thoughts are always appreciated.FJ

Tonight,I check in with mixed emotions.I had a pretty decent work day today.I also had to pick up a few things at the supermarket for dinner because me and my mom were eating light tonight.As me and my mom were sitting down to enjoy our meal,we get a phone call from my niece saying that the sitter that was supposed to come over called in saying that she had to take one of her kids right away to the hospital because it got hurt.Truthfully,I really did not like that.I do not like being rudely interrupted when I am about to eat.I had to abruptly stop and take my mom over to my niece's house so she could babysit her great grand kids.I understand the situation surrounding her sitter but I still did not like being interrupted while I was attempting to have my evening meal.I felt that my niece could have waited until we had finished eating and then have me drop off mom at her house.When I did get home,I had my meal finally and I later did the dishes after letting them soak in water for a while.I am feeling a bit better though I still feel a little at edge after what happened.I know and understand that situations such as what happened to her sitter can not be helped and that they are unexpected.But being interrupted as we were sitting down to eat gave me an unsettling feeling.
Before the dinner fiasco,I did take a nap for over an hour to relax because I felt a little sleepy.As I was napping,I had yet another bad dream.I dreamed that I was in a room full of naked men and when they saw me,they all approached me with their genitals at full erection asking that I give them head.I even started talking to myself in my sleep and when I awoke,I had another horrendous throbbing erection myself,I said a little prayer for these images to disappear from my head and that the immoral thoughts related to them be removed.Within a few moments,they did disappear and I went back to sleep.Nothing happened after that.I had a good nap after that.
Tomorrow is yet another work day and I am hoping that it goes well.Tomorrow night,the Buffalo Sabres are taking on the Pittsburgh Penguins in Buffalo.After that disappointing loss to the Ottawa Senators on Wednesday night,I am hoping for them to bounce back.A win would be great.On Saturday night,it is a rematch with the Ottawa Senators this time in Ottawa.I am also hoping that the Sabres will avenge the Wednesday night loss.It that happens,it would be super.Yes it would.
That was my day and night.As always,comments are appreciated.FJ

Tonight,I check in feeling great.It was a great night for me.I attended that support group at the church tonight and it was wonderful.The meeting was wonderful and we talked about a lot during the time.I shared my life story and why I came there and it was super.I even talked a few minutes with some of the people I met and that also was great.I actually went home feeling a little bit better about myself that I have in quite a while,which,in itself,says a lot.I will definitely be going next week and get some more rewarding information.I have a feeling that this is going to work out just fine.Again,it was a wonderful meeting and very rewarding.The people there were terrific.I can hardly wait until next week.I have a smile on my face that is not leaving.
I am right now at home and I am still feeling great.It was awesome to find out about this group and attend my first meeting.I am now looking forward to the next meeting.What a night this has been.
Of course,I have just learned that the Buffalo Sabres lost to the Ottawa Senators tonight by a score of 4-2.Though I am disappointed by this loss,I am still proud of my hockey time because they did put a great effort into the game tonight.Still,after the positive experience that I had tonight,I am still feeling good.Yes I am.Plus,I have new tires on my vehicle and that is also a great thing.I had to wait a while for it but when I got it back,it was well worth the wait.
That was my day and night.As always,thoughts are always welcomed.FJ

Tonight,I check in with mixed emotions.The work day went as well as expected with nothing negative to write in about.But at the moment,I am feeling pretty nervous.Tomorrow night,I am going to be checking out that support group at the church and I do not not know what to expect.I will be meeting some new faces and I am hoping to make some new friends to share my experiences with and to just be there and feel like a part of a group.I am hopeful about that but I am still feeling nervous about the whole thing.I guess since the sexual abuse support group has ended several months ago,I have not even attended anything since then and I am hoping that the nervousness goes away little by little.I am still hoping for a positive experience and that it will be well worth it.It will be awesome to attend the group and participate in group discussions and again,just to be a part of the group where I can be myself and just have a positive experience from it all.
Again,the work day went as expected.It went by well without anything negative happening with the exception of getting scoffed at when I cracked a wisecrack at the kitchen lady.That really was not what I was expecting.I guess that she was having a bad day.But anyway,I did my work and finished it.I also went to the post office to have a money order prepared to send out to somebody in Oregon for an Ebay purchase that I made.I even went to the supermarket to pick up a couple of things.I went home,relaxed and had a light supper.A pretty good day.But I am remaining optimistic despite my nervousness regarding the group.I am hoping for a positive experience.
That was my day.Any thoughts?FJ

Tonight,I am checking in feeling really good.It was truly a wonderful day today.I did what I had to get done and that was truly an amazing accomplishment.I feel really good about myself for all I accomplished and that gives me a wonderful feeling.
I actually received in the mail today a VHS tape of a 1980's teen flick caled Lovelines.I saw it on HBO back in 1986 and I have not seen it since then until I got it in the mail today.I also watched a little bit of it to try out the tape in my VCR/DVD combo and the tape played really good.The picture was bright and it was awesome seing that movie again after 20 years.
Today,I did everything that I set out to do.I went to the bank to withdraw some money.I also went shopping to pick up a few things for the home.It was a great day.Nothing negative happened to me and even the traffic was good.I am now at home and feeling good.
Tonight,the Buffalo Sabres win again.They have now won a record 10 straight road games.They beat the reigning Stanley Cup champions the Carolina Hurricanes by a score of 7-4.10 straight road wins is nothing to sneeze at.They are playing the Ottawa Senators in Buffalo Wednesday night.I am hoping for another win.They already have the best record in the league at the moment but I would like for it to get even better.Another win would be totally sweet.Yes it would be.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the work day goes as well as expected.I am also hoping that the week goes by great as well.I am just going to take everyday one day at the time.
That was my day.Comments are welcomed.FJ

Tonight,I am checking in with a lot of good feelings.It was a wonderful day today.I got a lot done today and I had a great day just doing them.Yes,today was my day off and I enjoyed it.Again,I got a lot done today and I had a great time doing it.Yes I have.
I received a video in the mail today of a movie that I have been looking for.The movie is called Lovelines and it was a teen movie from the 1980's that I had seen on HBO back in 1986.It was great to see that movie again after 20 years.It was a treat.Tomorrow is a work day and I am hoping that this goes well all the same.I will be working a full day and again,I hope that it goes well.
Tonight,the Buffalo Sabres won yet another game.They now have 10 road wins on record and that is sure terrific.They actually beat the reigning Stanley Cup champions the Carolina Hurricanes by a score of 7-4.This is the second time that they beat the reigning NHL champs.Again,they now have a record 10 straight road wins,which is impressive.They are playing the Ottawa Senators on Wednesday night at home.I am hoping for yet another win.That would be something.The Buffalo Sabres already have the best record in the league at the moment but I am hoping that it will be better with another win against another tough team.A win would be totally sweet.Yes it would.
Once again,I accomplished a lot.I went to the bank to withdraw some money.I had to do a little shopping for the home.Nothing negative happened and that is good.I am hoping for yet another good day at work tomorrow.I also hope for a good week.
Well,that was my day.It was a great day.As always,comments are welcomed.FJ

Tonight,I am checking in feeling good.It was a pretty good day.I got a lot done.I checked up on my friend and his live in girlfriend and they are doing good.I had to go to a card store to get some birthday cards for a few members of my family because there are more birthdays coming up but they are going to be celebrated on Friday all at once.I told my mother that I am planning on staying home on Friday because I feel that I need some time to myself to relax,meditate and just clear my mind.I will be glad for that time.I am thinking of just sitting at home and watching a movie or simply whatever else I like to do.I am also hoping that this week goes by better than last week.I hope that there are no messes to clean when I pick up laundry on the days I have to pick,which is four days a week.Monday is my day off.I pick it up the rest of the work week.I had a wonderful dinner of pork chops and vegetables and I also had a talk with a friend of mine from New Jersey and it was a great talk.I am feeling good.I am hoping for a good work week.
Last night,I went out to sing for my friends and that was terific.I got to do three new songs and it was awesome.Plus,the Buffalo Sabres defeated the Philadelphia Flyers last night in overtime by a score of 5-4.Daniel Brieire once again scored yet another overtime winning goal. The Sabres have now set a new record in road wins this season so far with 9 consecutive road wins at the start of the season.That is totally awesome.They are playing the Carolina Hurricanes next and I am hoping that they make it 10.LET'S GO SABRES!LET'S GO!
I also managed to watch an episode of an old PBS show online that I used to watch when I was younger called All About You,which was hosted by Louise MacNamara and that was a treat.I have not seen this show in years and it was terrific to see that show after all these years.It was like taking me back to those pleasant childhood memories before enduring some of the tribulation that lead me to having SSA.But again,I am remaining hopeful that I will overcome it one of these days.
That was my day.Comments are always welcomed.FJ