Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty good day today.It was not too eventful but I did manage to get a few things done today.I helped my mom out around the house today and I also had a little talk with a friend who I have not spoken with in quite a while.It was nice and I did have a great conversation with him in the short time that we talked.But again,I was happy to hear from him and I was also happy to talk with him.Overall,a pretty good day.
I can't believe that the New Year's weekend is upon us.I am going out tonight to entertain the crowd.But I am also going to do it again on New Year's Eve.The New Year's time is a very busy time for me as an entertainer.The Christmas Holiday weekend was busy but the New Year's holiday weekend is going to be the busiest.There will be a lot of people coming in and that is a plus.I always look forward to singing every Saturday night because I enjoy doing that.But this weekend is the New Year's holiday weekend and I am looking forward to it.After that not so Merry Christmas that I had,I am hoping that the New Year's holiday weekend makes up for that.If the New Year's holiday works out for the better and I have a blast as I usually do,than I can say that it was a very wonderful holiday season.Again,after that not so Merry Christmas that I had this year,a wonderful New Year's weekend will make up for that.I am hoping that the holiday weekend will work out.Though I rarely,if ever,have an off night entertaining the crowds anytime,I still hope for everything to go well.You never know what might happen.But I am feeling very optimistic.I have a feeling that the whole holiday weekend will be wonderful.
Regarding tomorrow,I have not decided what I am going to do but whatever I do,I hope that it will affect me in a positive manner.
That was my day today and my hopes for the entire holiday weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better though I am still at edge.The only reason why I am feeling better is that I found out last night that my father was no longer in town.He left at the same time that my flight attendant sister left town.Fortunately for my flight attendant sister,he flew on a different airline and not the one my sister works for.Good thing.I was relieved to hear that my father is no longer in town.He's on the way home at the moment or he could be already home.But still,I can now relax and take it easy.He's no longer in town and I am hoping that the New Year's Weekend will make me forget about that.If I can get through New Year's unscathed,then I can say that it was a nice holiday season for me.I am looking forward to the New Year's festivities because I can ring in the new year with my friends and I will also be soinging for them.I am hoping that the weekend goes well enough.
The work shift went by well.There were no messes to clean up at the drug/alcohol rehab center and it wasn't an awful lot to pick up either.After I was done,I dropped the laundry off and I went to cash my paycheck and make an important deposit into my checking account so I can pay a bill that I need to pay online on either Sunday or Monday.Afterwards,I went home.
I did a scan on my computer and once again,my computer is clean with no viruses or spyware.While the scan was going on,I ate and I went out to turn in some bottles that had accumilated in my trunk.It was an awful lot in there and it got me a little over $14.00 in cash.It is good money and is much needed.I also had to get rid of them because I needed to keep my trunk clean so my mom and I can put groceries in the trunk whenever needed.
I am now at home relaxing.It has been a pretty eventful day.I am now feeling hopeful that the weekend will go well and I am hoping that it will work out.Still,I also have the feeling that all will go well and I will have a wonderful weekend.
As stated,the New Years weekend is upon us and I am hoping that all will go well for me.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the holiday weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.But I am feeling hopeful.I am hoping that things will start to brighten after the new year begins.The work shift went by smoothly and I had a wonderful lunch.But I was still feeling anger and depression over what happened on Christmas.The mere fact that my father came into town unannounced with my flight attendant in town also was still fresh in my mind.I know that my flight attendant sister is probably back to work as I am typing this up but the negative emotions and feelings that I felt throughout the weekend were still fresh.Though I had a pretty work day and a nice lunch period after my work was done.I still felt the pangs of negativity and anger.I felt them so much that I actually masturbated earlier this afternoon after I got home from work.Of course,I did ask for forgiveness from God above and I felt better.But the negative vibes that I felt are still fresh.I could not get over having my father in town at the same time my flight attendant sister was in town and staying at my nurse sister's house.I really did not like that situation.It was not a very good situation.But I am hoping that my father is going home soon so I can forget about him being here.He always comes when you least expect him and when he turns up,it's usually at a pretty not too good of a time.
Again,I am hoping that New Year's Eve will make me forget about him being here.If that goes well enough,I can say that it wasn't such a bad holiday season after all.If my New Year's Eve goes well and I have a blast partying up a storm and entertaining the crowd,then,that will make up for that unexpected turn of events on Christmas.I just hope that my nurse sister does not find out where I am at this year for New Year's.At the moment,I am not too fond of her for what happened on Christmas.I mean,my father could have called and asked if it was a good time for him to be in town.She also could have encouraged my father to see if there were any motel/hotel rooms available for staying at within town.But I guess that you can't always get what you want.But what I would've appreciated was some consideration for my feelings.My nurse sister has never shown any consideration for my feelings nor has she cared.I think that it's about time that she has.I just can't stand this stuff anymore.This whole thing STINKS!
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the New Year's weekend and I am hoping that the weekend goes well enough for me to help me forget the negativisms that took place on during the Christmas weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the remainder of the week and the upcoming New Year's holiday weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little down in the dumps.The pick-up today went well and there was no mess to clean up at the drug/alcohol rehab center when I did the pick up.But the reason why I am depressed is because of the lackluster holiday that I had.It would have been a nicer day if my father hadn't shown up unannounced while my flight attendant sister was in town for the holiday.It just didn't feel right having these two in the same room or even the same house together.This was mainly because she couldn't stand the sight of him after he insulted her occupation when she graduated from flight attendant school and woudl not even help her with a minor financial problem that she had to attain that.Fortunately,my sister got help from another source and she succeeded.The worst part of it was when he insulted her occupation and even compared it with prostitution.That really hurt her so much that she has refused to speak with him for a long time.Apparently,my nurse sister still is holding on to the illusion that everything is okay and there is nothing to be angry about.But that latter sister is wrong.Forgiveness does not mean that everything is okay.Forgiveness really does not erase everything done.It does not erase pain,nor does it erase sadness or any other feelings that go along with it.Everything is never always okay.Forgiveness may be divine but it does not erase anything that is etched in stone.Once you cause pain on someone,though you are forgiven,that pain stays and stays.
But anyway,the 2nd phase of the holiday season is past.The 3rd and final phase will be New Year's.With the new year,it brings new hope and it brings new beginnings.If my New Years goes well,I can then say that it was a nice holiday season.As stated,I will be going out to sing for my friends on New Years and I am hoping that the night is a real blast.I know that it is only a few days away but I am looking forward to it.
We had take out pizza for dinner tonight.My mom did not feel like cooking tonight so we had pizza from a local Pizza Hut.It was wonderful.It was deep dish pizza.It was delicious.
I am now at home relaxing.I am anticipating the work day tomorrow.I am hoping that the shift goes by smoothly and I am hoping that the rest of the day afterwards goes well enough.I do have a lot to do after work tomorrow and I am hoping that it can be accomplished.
As stated,tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly tomorrow.
That was my day today and my hopes for tomorrow and the rest of the holiday week.FJ

Merry Christmas Everybody!
Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.The holiday did turn out better than I thought it would and everything went well.But I am still feeling anger at my father due to what he has done to our family.I am also feeling anger at my sister who lives here in the city that I live in.How can she go about saying that everything's okay when everything really is not okay?My father inflicted so much pain in the family and tries to blame everyone else but himself.Plus,him coming into town unannounced with my other sister who is a flight attendant in town despite her feelings for him did not rub me the right way.After I ate dinner,I took a little ride around town for a bit before going home.I needed to look around he town and think a little bit.Plus,I really needed to get rid of these feelings of anger that I had.After the drive,I went home to be by myself.
When I did get home.I popped in the movie Planet Terror in the DVD player part of my VCR/DVD Combo.I saw this movie several months ago at a movie theatre in my hometown when it was a part of the super long movie Grindhouse w/Death Proof as the latter film w/fake preview trailers to spice it up a bit to make it look like we are actually a double feature.But when released on DVD,they were released separate rather than as one.But I needed to watch something to eleviate the boredom and negative feelings that I had and watching Planet Terror took my mind off of my father being in town and the negative vibes that I was feeling.Planet Terror is a spoof of zombie flicks so it really wasn't scary but it was funny and action packed.It is a very entertaining movie that is not a waste of time.It was great.Again,it took my mind off of the negative vibes that I was feeling.If the rest of the week goes by well and if I have a wonderful New Year's Eve,than I'll be alright.I am also hoping that my father will leave town soon so I can even forget that he was here.I was thinking of going out for a drink tonight but I do have to get up in the morning for work to do a laundry pick up and I need some sleep for that.Not only that,I am still feeling somewhat at edge over the negative vibes so I felt that it would be better if stayed home rather than go out.Besides,I need to get up in the morning anyway and I can wait until Saturday night to go out.There is also New Year's Eve to go out as well so I am going to have fun for 2 nights before this month is out.After New Year's Day is over,the holiday season will be officially over.I will be sad to see it end but I will also be happy about it as well so I can forget some of the negativisms that happened over the course of the holiday season this year.
As stated,tomorrow is simply a pick up day.I am hoping that the pick up goes over well with no messes or hassles.After that,I can take it easy for the rest of the day.
That was my day today and my hopes for tomorrow and the rest of the holiday week.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty hectic day today.It would not be hectic if it were not for my father being in town coming in unannounced and when I wanted to drop something off and asked for help in bringing it in,they simply got angry at me and I had to bring it in myself.This really disgusted me.It is bad enough that my father just wizzes into town unannounced with my flight attendant sister in town for the holiday at the same time but not helping me with a simple task so I could be on my way in a hurry was a little too much for me to take.I had to bring it in myself and left disgustedly.
I am now at home relaxing.But I am still feeling perterbed over what happened.I have talked to a lot of people that I know and even they said that it was inconsiderate of my father not calling to say that he was coming into town.I also have the feeling that my sister who lives in this town actually set it up for him to be here at the same time as my other sister.Don't ask me how and why I have this feeling but I do have it.I also have a feeling that something terrible is going to happen and I am hoping that it doesn't.The holiday is tomorrow and instead of feeling joy,happiness and anticipation,I am feeling angry and at edge.Again,though I have the feeling that something is going to happen tomorrow,I hope that nothing happens.I want to enjoy the holiday and I want to be happy but I am feeling depressed and anger.But then again,depression is anger turned inward.Again,I hope that the holiday is nice and I am hoping to Heaven that nothing negative happens.If anyone is reading this,please say a prayer for me that nothing happens tomorrow while I am at my local sister's house.Thanks in advance.
As stated,tomorrow is the Christmas holiday.I hope that the holiday goes well despite the negative circumstances that is going on at the moment.
That was my hectic day today and my hopes for the holiday tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had yet another not too eventful day.I simply ran another last minute errand for my mom and I also managed to pick up something for myself along the way.Not only that,I also had to get some gas for my car so it will be full.
At the moment,the weather is windy and the winds are really blowing hard.Earlier today,we also had sleet falling for a short time.But other than that,it has been blowing wind like crazy and the winds are blowing strong and hard.The region that I am living is under a High Wind Warning until early tomorrow morning.Right now,the wind is blowing and the winds are blowing strong and hard.
I am now at home relaxing.My mom and I watched another holiday special tonight while we were eating.It was Ziggy's Gift.It's a Christmas special starring the comic strip Ziggy wanting to spread some holiday cheer to everyone.It's a pity that this is only a Christmas special and there are no other Ziggy cartoons available for everyday watching.Still,it was wonderful to watch and after Christmas,I know that I have to put my Christmas videos and DVD's away until next year.But for now,I am just going to sit and enjoy them while the season lasts.
Last night,the Christmas party was a blast.I sang some Christmas songs last night and ate too much pizza.But I enjoyed myself and I the crowd enjoyed my selections and it was all wonderful.Again,the party was a blast and I had a blast entertaining the crowd.My next party night to entertain will be New Year's Eve.I am looking forward to that as well.I also have my night to entertain the Saturday night prior to New Year's Eve and I'm also looking forward to that.It's hard to believe that the holiday season is upon us and that Christmas is almost here,which will be in 2 more days.While I do enjoy this time of the year very much,it is also a relief when it's over with.It takes very long for the season to get here but it always ends very fast.
As stated,the holiday is just two days away.I am looking forward to that.I am also hoping that the holiday goes by good.
Regarding the rest of the night,I might go out and have a drink or two with the guys.If I do,I hope that it will be a wonderful experience.
That was my day today and my night last night,including my hopes for the rest of the holiday weekend.FJ