Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Firstly,when I woke up,I felt like giving back to the community.I donated a whole bunch of cassette tapes to the Salvation Army after I had ate breakfast.They were very appreciative of my generous contribution and thanked me.I headed back home after that.
I did my personal PC work after I had gotten home.It was only very little that needed to be done.I haven't had many e-mails since I stopped memberships in several online groups that I was a member of.I am glad for that.That way,I can cut my internet time in half and so far,it has been working.I have not been online too much as of late and I am glad that I could reduce the amount of time by simply stopping my memberships in some groups.Most of these groups delivered pornographic styled materials to my e-mail box and as I have stated before,I needed to break free from pornography and stay away from it.So far,I am making progress in that.I got rid of all the pornography that I had and I had to stop my memberships in all of these groups that delivered stuff like that to my e-mail box.I am glad that I am no longer ensnared by porn and that gives me a really good feeling.
I stayed home for most of the day and I went out only once since this morning.I just took a drive around my area and enjoy the nice weather that we were having.I went back home after the drive and took it easy.I really didn't have anyplace to go.
While waiting for dinner to get done,I took a bath and cleaned up for tonight.When I finished,I decided to relax some more because I was feeling tired.I slept for only 20 minutes until my mom called me for dinner.
After eating,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work,including posting here.I am feeling pretty good and I am anticipating the night ahead where I will be singing up a storm tonight.I am thinking of doing my all time favorite Michael Jackson song as a tribute to him because I am already missing him.It is a shame that he died so suddenly and still a young man.I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.I rarely have a bad night,but I always hope for things to go well because you never know what might happen to really ruin things.I do have the feeling that things are going to go well.Still,I hope.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.There were no images nor cravings creeping up into my mentality.This is a wonderful thing.I am hoping that I can get through the rest of the weekend unscathed.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have no plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I got everything that needed to get done accomplished and after I was done,I dropped everything off at the rehab center.
Today,I did hang out at the social club while waiting for the laundry loads to get done and this time,it was a little bit better.I did have another encounter with the same guy that I had yesterday but this time,I was prepared.He had the nerve to ask me to sing a song by Cyndi Lauper but I just brushed it off.I did have some nice talks with a few of the others there and that was something.
Though I was feeling better today,I did get a minor spell of the blues.It just hit me all of a sudden.I was saying things like "Oh Boy" to myself for no particular reason.But I did get over this.I am feeling pretty good at the moment.The weather was nice today despite a passing thundershower that was in the area for about 20 minutes.It was later sunny and a little humid.
On the way home,I did stop over at the bank to cash my paycheck and when I did get home,I decided to throw out some more garbage that had accumulated in my room throughout the years.IIt was hard work and I was sweating most of the time as I was working.I was also killing time while waiting for my computer to warm up and for dinner to get ready.I did get this accomplished and on Tuesday night,all that garbage is going to the curb to be taken away by the garbagemen.Most of what I was throwing out was more pornographic magazines that I had and forgotten about.I am just glad to have gotten this done and I am going to be doing more in the coming weeks as the summer is winding down.I am hoping that the garbage loads will not be as big as they have been since I've started this.I am just glad to have gotten this accomplished.There is still more to be done and I will be doing that in the next several weeks.
After eating,I registered all the bills that I had at the Where's George site and I also did some e-mail work.Overall,a pretty good day.
I am not feeling any depression at the moment.As stated,I did get a minor spell of the blues during the day but I got over that.This has been the only depression that I have been feeling,which is sudden depression and these spells hit when least expected.But again,I am not feeling anything bluesy at the moment and I am hoping that the rest of the evening goes well enough.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am having no problems.I am not having any images clouding my mind nor am I having any cravings.This is contributing to how I am feeling and again,I am hoping that these good feelings last for a while.
I am going to be going out to sing tomorrow night and I am hoping that the evening goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.This hasn't been a very good day for me.
Firstly,the work shift went pretty smooth.I didn't have too much to do and I managed to get everything done in the period of time that I had.After bagging everything,I dropped everything off at the rehab center before heading straight home.
I only headed straight home because there was a Thunderstorm Warning in effect for the area that I am living in and I wanted to be sure that I was home before it hit.
When I got home,I started to do some catching up on some room cleaning and I managed to get 4 garbage bags filled with a lot of paper residue and it was hard to get it done.After I was done with that,I relaxed just as the storm hit.It was a big storm at that and I was glad to be home.
When the storm ceased,I managed to get out to a local Dollar General store to buy some more garbage bags because I am now low on these and I wanted to have more when I continue to do the work that I need to get done.I also managed to get some books gathered together and I am going to donate these to a charitable organization that can use them.I am at the start of cleaning up this mess and I will be glad to get this done.
The reason why I am feeling mixed emotions is because I was shocked at some really tragic news.The deaths of Farrah Fawcett and Michael Jackson are the main reason why I am feeling down.Plus,I was once again haggled by a guy over at work.This guy asked me a nonsense question in the form of asking if he could play with my antenna.I did say NO to the guy but he kept ranting and raving up a storm and it made me nervous.This was bad enough and the deaths of Fawcett and Jackson also contributed to the way I am feeling at the moment.These people were both a part of my life.I used to watch the TV show Charlie's Angels and I'm also a fan of Michael Jackson's music.These events really didn't make the day any better and the incident over at work was just so insane.I am just hoping that the rest of the day will end positively.I could use a good night's sleep and I am hoping that it will help dispell some of the negative emotions that I am feeling right now.
After eating,I watched the evening news and I also decided to go out for a drive.I stopped to see how my brother in-law was doing.He was busy talking with a guy from the neighborhood that he was in and I couldn't really talk to him.But there are other days and I am hoping to get some more good talks with him.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am going to need a lot of encouragement.I am also going to need the support and advice from all of my fellow human beings at the moment.I don't want to act out nor do I want to watch any pornography.Again,I am going to need some encouragement and support.I am hoping to get some and I just want to get through this difficult time.After having some great days with no depression or temptations,I am now feeling depressed and I know that I will be tempted to do things that would make me compromise or act out.Please fellow human beings,I need some encouragement and support.Thanks in advance.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes better tomorrow than it did today.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean up.It wasn't very much and I managed to sort out the laundry before I had lunch.I headed straight home after eating.
Before I went to work,I ran an errand for my mom.I had to pick up a couple of things that my mom needed from a local drug store.After dropping the stuff off,I headed for work.
When I returned home,I relaxed and watched another one of the After School Specials that I had on the DVD set that I own.I also managed to clean the bath tub this afternoon,which was loaded with soap scum.It was a difficult job but I managed to get it done.The tub is now clean.
After watching the DVD,I headed back out to a local laundromat to clean my dirty underwear.I decided to give my mom a break from doing that.Not only that,we are also trying to save on water.I also want to show her that I can do this myself even if I do have to spend money.After cleaning the underwear,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped off at my brother in law's to talk with him for a while and to see when he was going to come over to check and fix a few fans that we had in the house.After working on them,they are now working and are in use.We need to keep the house cool during these HAZY,HOT & HUMID days that we are having right now.The house is now feeling cool and that is great.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I decided to do some last minute personal PC work,which includes posting my day here.It was a pretty good day.
At the moment,I am not feeling any depression.I haven't felt any of that for the past couple of weeks.I also have not had any bad dreams nor any recurring ones.I have been feeling good.I guess having those little talks with my father have been doing some good.I know that I have been posting this for quite some time on this blog but I just can't help believing that talking with my father and learning to let go of anger would be beneficial.I am going to talk with my father again this coming Sunday and I am hoping that the talk will go well.I am still looking forward to his visit next month.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am having no problems.There are no cravings nor images creeping up into my mentality.I am not feeling any temptations at the moment.I hope to get through tomorrow the same way.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went as smoothly as it could.The only disappointment was that there wasn't an awful lot of laundry for me to pick up.But I managed to get through the day and I did get a lot of work done.After I was finished,I dropped everything off at the rehab center and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up some pepperoni for some pizza that we have.After paying for it,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I installed a window fan up in my room and I relaxed for a bit.While relaxing,I watched another After School special on the DVD set that I own.After watching that,I decided to do some more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a bit before posting my day on here.It was a pretty good day and I did get an awful lot done.
Weatherwise,the weather is HOT and HUMID,which was the main reason why I put the window fan up in my room.I need it to keep my room cool in weather like this.For most of June,we had a mixed bag of weather where it was nice and sunny one minute and the next day was raining hard.But now,we are having some humid days with the possibility of rain before the end of the week.
Moodwise,I am feeling pretty good.I am not feeling any depression at the moment and I am also feeling hopeful.The hopefulness is the result of the conversations that I have been having with my father and how well that they are going.I never thought that I would feel an inner peace from talking with my father.I am not as depressed as I have been and that is really great.I am hoping that these good feelings will last for a long time.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I can still report that I am not feeling any feelings of the condition right now.I am not feeling any cravings nor any images creeping up into my mentality.I am also not having any temptation to watch pornography at the moment.I am glad to be free of pornography and not only that,I haven't masturbated in a long time.I don't know how long it has been since I masturbated last but I know that it has been quite a while.I am feeling really good as a result of this.I also have to keep in mind that I have to take this as a "One Day at a Time" thing.If I get through one day without any problems with SSA,Good.There is still the day after that and so on.I can never think of "Never Again" because that would be unrealistic.The realistic way is simply "One Day at a Time".I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
I am also keeping an eye on another blog here because the blogger,who also struggles with SSA,is going through a rough period at the moment.He messed up and I offered him some words of encouragement.I am hoping that he gets through this.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick up goes smoothly with no messes to clean up.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I only had one small thing to do today,which was for my mother.I had to drop her off at a local supermarket to get her shopping done.After I did that,I paid a visit to my mechanic to see how he was doing and after a few minutes of talking with him,I headed over to the post office to mail out a bill payment that I needed to get out.
After mailing out my bill payment,I headed over to the supermarket to see if my mom was done with her shopping,which she was.After bagging the groceries,we headed for home.
After unpacking the groceries,we relaxed and took it easy for a bit.It was a pretty hot and humid day and we felt that we needed a little rest after all the work that was done.
After eating,I decided to go out to an anger management group meeting.While I have gotten some stuff out of these in the past,I didn't get an awful lot out of tonights meeting.Because two of the men there who were venting their issues were talking about how they wished that they had weapons and that triggered something for me.Instead of losing my temper,I got up and I walked around the place where the meeting was being held because I didn't want to embarass myself with losing my temper and having a fit.So,I felt that a little walk was a better idea.Idid feel better but there was still the triggers and fortunately,I got through the meeting and I have a few weeks off due to them not having any due to the upcoming 4th of July weekend.
When I got home,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work before turning in for the night.Overall,despite the negative stuff,it was a pretty good day.
I am not feeling any depression at the moment.I have been feeling pretty good.I guess those little talks that I have been having with my father over the phone on Sunday's have been doing me a lot of good.I have not been feeling the blues as much.I used to get really down on certain days for no particular reason and just lull around in the blues for quite some time.But tonight,as I have been feeling over the past week,I have been feeling the opposite and I am glad for that.It has been just positive for me and I am hoping that these feelings will last.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I have had no problems.I have not had any cravings nor images cloud my mentality and that is great.I am also not having any temptation to watch any pornography in any way,shape or form.But again,I know that I will still get the temptation to watch pornography when I least expect it and I will deal with the temptation when the temptation comes around.But for now,I can rest easy because the temptation is nill at the moment.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Happy Father's Day to all the fathers out there.
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
This morning,when I woke up,I ate a quick breakfast and I did my personal PC work.It only lasted for about 45 minutes.I didn't have too much to do.After I was finished,I shut my computer down.
For most of the day,I was at my sister's house where my brother in-law cooked up a great fish fry.It was really neat.I was filled after eating my first helping.I had a great time eating with my family.I even had a small talk with my father while there.I also told him that I would call him tonight to talk with him again.We stayed at the house for quite a while and we headed for home as everything was winding down.
When we got home,my mom laid down and read while I watched a couple of After School Specials on the DVD set that I have.It was a wonderful day and I had a great time.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went well.The night started out slow but did improve as the night got underway.I managed to get my usual allotment in and I had a pretty good time.
At the moment,I am not feeling any depression.I did have a minor spell for much of the day but I got over it as the day was getting off.I have had no recurring bad dreams nor have I had any flashbacks to my Novemeber accident last year.I am feeling pretty good and I am also hoping that these feelings last for quite a while.I will simply have to deal with the depression when the spells come.But I am just going to enjoy these good feelings for now.I also had another talk with my father tonight and it was a pleasant conversation.I am looking forward to talking with him next week.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I am having no cravings nor any images clouding my mentality.I am also not feeling any temptation to watch pornography online or otherwise.Still,I need to be on guard.I know that the temptation to watch pornography will come and I will have to deal with this when it happens.I guess that the good feelings that I am having are contributing to my temptations being nill.As stated,I am glad that I have a choice whether to act out or not.I have chosen not to act out when the desires come and that is good.Plus,I haven't masturbated in quite a while.It has been a long time since I last did that.I am hoping that whatever I am doing right is that it continues to work for me.
Tomorrow is my day off.I do have an anger management support group meeting tomorrow night and I am hoping that it goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ