Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and when I finished with that,I laid down for a while and read.I later got dressed and proceeded with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda for today.I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After paying for them,I headed over to the local Target,but couldn't find what I was looking for.After that,I went to a nearby local supermarket and they had what I was looking for.After paying for it,I headed over to a gas station to get some gas and when that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed for a while doing a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched a little TV and I also did a little bit more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult struggle.Aside from the up and down roller coaster ride of BPD and the hallucinatory effects of Schizophrenia,I have to put up with and endure unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with the terrible SSA condition.The SSA condition does nothing to enhance the lives of others.It only serves to bring people down with the destructive and sinful sexual lifestyle that it is notorious for.I have been seeking healing from this terrible condition for a little over a decade.I have to put up with these unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.I also have to endure temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,which are acting out with another man or simply lusting and fantasizing as sexual images of men do cloud my mind from time to time,which in turn gives birth to the temptation to manipulate my genitals to these images,which is where the fantasizing and lusting is borne from.The SSA struggle is a very difficult struggle and at times,it can be both physically,but mostly,emotionally draining.At times,I have to use all of my emotional energy to fight and resist these terrible and overwhelming urges.They are very difficult to resist and the more resistance that I put up,the more stronger they become.Fellow blog followers and fellow SSA strugglers,I am again asking that y'all continue offering prayers and also,please don't be shy and leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support.I need both of these things day in and day out.Please continue doing both of these things for me as I would really appreciate that.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,including the morning's Holy Bible study class,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I relaxed much of the day reading.
In the mid afternoon,I got dressed and I decided to take a drive out to a city within the county that I lived.It was pretty good to get out and just be out in the community.I stopped at a nearby Salvation Army thrift store to see what they had and after looking around,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed back into my sweatsuit and relaxed.I also did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to watch a DVD and after it was over,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,with the SSA struggle being the worst of the two.I am still having to put up with the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.It can get pretty monotonous and tiresome most of the time.Not only that,the SSA struggle can drain out both energy and emotions,including emotional energy, and wear anyone out with exhaustion.As I have said before and I will say it again,I wish that I didn't have to struggle with this terrible SSA condition.I wish that I was a whole man as I don't feel like a whole man as a result of this terrible SSA struggle.I want to be a whole man.I want to feel like a whole man.I also want to be the man that my Heavenly Father intended me to be.I wish that I can find some men that I can be friends with,where the benefits are close friendships,bonding,acceptance,affirmation and where I can share anything with them without fear of being judged and rejected as a result of my struggles.I understand that relationships of that sort are difficult to find and I have been praying to my Heavenly Father in hopes that I will start having these sorts of relationships and also,I keep asking that my Heavenly Father points me in the right direction where it leads to relationships of this sort.I need these healthy relationships in order to grow,mature and also,to put me on the path to becoming that whole man that I want to be and want to feel like,including the man that my Heavenly Father intended me to be.I have also been very overwhelmed by temptations and I need prayers for strength.Fellow blog followers,please pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I need both prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Please leave me the positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of going to church this Sunday,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly got dressed and I headed for my Thursday morning Holy Bible study group.
The group meeting went as well as expected.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen for lunch and after I ate there,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my sweatsuit and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and did a little reading while laying down.
After eating,I got dressed and I headed over to my Thursday evening Holy Bible study group,which was also wonderful.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into night clothes and prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.I never know how these struggles will be any time during the day or the week.Aside from putting up with the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD and the hallucinatory effects of Schizophrenia,I also have to put up with the difficulties of SSA,which is a lot more difficult than the psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with and also,for me,the SSA struggle is more difficult because of the psychiatric double whammy that I have.I hear voices telling me things to do that are unclean and impure and at times,it is very difficult to fight and resist these urges.The temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have can be very overwhelming.I get tempted to manipulate my genitals constantly.I am always asking for strength from my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me fight and resists these overwhelming urges.It can be very difficult to resist them.Each and every time temptations of this sort are resisted,the more stronger they come back.I wish that I didn't have to struggle with this terrible thing at times.The SSA condition does little to enhance the lives of others.It only leads to destruction as the sinful sexual lifestyle is connected to is a destructive one where the only thing that one active in that lifestyle can get is that terrible killer disease AIDS,which is something that I would never want at all.I want to heal from this terrible SSA and I also want to be a whole man where I feel like a man inside and outside.Fellow blog followers,please continues praying for me as I am going through this terrible time and also,please don't forget to leave some positive verbal encouragement.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

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Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.My day didn't start out too good.My internet modem went out and after talking with my internet service provider for a little over half an hour,I managed to get my internet service back up and running with a new modem that I received early last year and it is now working good.After that hassle,I went out to do some important things that I needed to get done.
I first stopped at my bank to pay a bill that needed to be paid.After that,I went to a local supermarket to buy a few things.After paying for those things,I headed for the nearby Dollar Tree store to buy a few more things.After paying for those things,I headed for the post office to buy a money order to pay for my car insurance for the month.After I dropped the money order off at my insurance agent's office,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I immediately jumped into the shower to clean myself up.After the shower,I ate my much delayed quick breakfast and after that,paid my electric bill online and then did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and took it easy while reading some news articles online.
After eating a light meal,I watched a couple of DVD's in the DVD player and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against the symptoms of BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.With the exception of going out in the early afternoon,I stayed home much of the day as the weather was COLD and we were under a Wind Chill Warning that would last until 4:00am tomorrow morning.I also worked to stay warm,which isn't easy with that sort of Wintry weather pattern.Since I was home for much of the day,temptations were really starting to come at me.They were pretty overwhelming,but this time,I decided to turn them over to my Heavenly Father and asked him to help get me through these temptations.I asked him this in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I did feel better and I went on with the rest of the day.It wasn't easy with me being stuck at home as a result of the bitterly COLD temperatures we were having,but I managed to hang on and stay in there.Fellow blog followers,please keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.I still need both of these things.Please keep on with them.It would make me feel better knowing that I am getting much needed prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work quickly and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had a few things on my agenda for today.I first went to the post office to mail out an important bill payment.After that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed for a little bit at home as in the mid afternoon,I had an appointment with my general doctor to get a few new prescriptions for my daily daytime medications.When the time came to head over there,I headed for there and I was also careful driving as it was a very COLD day and there was a little bit of slickness on the roads.
The meeting with my general doctor went as well as hoped and after getting my new prescriptions,I headed for home.
On the way home,I dropped off my prescriptions at the drug store and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I went into the house and prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I was hoping to go to the Epiphany service at my church,but the weather was much too intense for me to go.Though I did make it home in one piece with no crashes or any slips while driving,the weather was getting worse with the visibility not being very good.I decided to simply stay home and work on keeping warm.Later on,I simply planned my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,since I did stay busy,it wasn't much of a problem.I went out to do a very important thing,which was my visit with my general doctor and that was very important.Though I was tempted,it was minimal as I stayed busy with simply doing what I had and wanted to do.Though I escaped today,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Tomorrow,since my hometown will be under a Wind Chill Warning,I am going to simply stay home and try to keep warm.With bitterly cold temperatures,staying warm,even inside a house with heat,is never easy.I am just going to have to work on trying to stay warm and not let myself get too cold.The only things that I will do is simply shovel the walk for the mail people and clean my car off of any snow and ice.I will also warm up my car for a few minutes to prevent stalling when it is really needed.The thing is when I stay home due to the Winter weather conditions,temptations can come around and can be very overwhelming.Fellow blog followers,please keep praying for me as I going through the next two days and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day to help keep me going in my struggles against the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As stated,I will be staying home tomorrow as a result of the Wind Chill Warning that will be in effect for 24 hours starting tonight at 6:00pm.I will try to stay warm and simply do the responsible things that I need to do tomorrow.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I quickly showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up real quickly and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a pair of long thermal underwear as I need it for when the bitter chills come as we are going to be under a Wind Chill Warning starting tomorrow at 6:00pm.I want to make sure that I have these so that way,my body can stay warm and I don't catch any cold.After paying for the long thermal underwear,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up several more things.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I also put my long thermal underwear away.I also got out of my church suit and into my sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work after that and I also relaxed for a while when I was finished.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggle against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.The SSA struggle is the most difficult of the two.I am still having ti put up with temptations to act out on the unnatural desires that I have and at times,the temptations can be very overwhelming.They can be so very overwhelming that I don't know whether I am coming or going at times.I do see that Satan and his minions can try to make a person like myself who is an SSA struggler to act out on these unnatural desires that I have that are connected with SSA.The thing is this;When you resist temptation,it comes back stronger.The more that any temptation is resisted,the stronger it gets the more resistance is put up.I know that for a fact as it is very difficult for any SSA struggler.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support.Yes,I need them both day in and day out.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a doctor's appointment in the mid afternoon and an evening Epiphany church service,which I am hoping to attend,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ