Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and when I finished with that,I laid down for a while and read.I later got dressed and proceeded with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda for today.I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After paying for them,I headed over to the local Target,but couldn't find what I was looking for.After that,I went to a nearby local supermarket and they had what I was looking for.After paying for it,I headed over to a gas station to get some gas and when that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed for a while doing a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched a little TV and I also did a little bit more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult struggle.Aside from the up and down roller coaster ride of BPD and the hallucinatory effects of Schizophrenia,I have to put up with and endure unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with the terrible SSA condition.The SSA condition does nothing to enhance the lives of others.It only serves to bring people down with the destructive and sinful sexual lifestyle that it is notorious for.I have been seeking healing from this terrible condition for a little over a decade.I have to put up with these unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.I also have to endure temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,which are acting out with another man or simply lusting and fantasizing as sexual images of men do cloud my mind from time to time,which in turn gives birth to the temptation to manipulate my genitals to these images,which is where the fantasizing and lusting is borne from.The SSA struggle is a very difficult struggle and at times,it can be both physically,but mostly,emotionally draining.At times,I have to use all of my emotional energy to fight and resist these terrible and overwhelming urges.They are very difficult to resist and the more resistance that I put up,the more stronger they become.Fellow blog followers and fellow SSA strugglers,I am again asking that y'all continue offering prayers and also,please don't be shy and leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support.I need both of these things day in and day out.Please continue doing both of these things for me as I would really appreciate that.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,including the morning's Holy Bible study class,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ