Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.But I am still feeling at edge over what has happened in the past week.I had a pretty decent day today.
After I had a talk with the phone counselor,I had to go to the local optical for an eye exam to get a new pair of glasses.The doctor at the optical assured me that I would get the new glasses in about 1-2 weeks.I told him okay and went about my day.
I didn't have too much to do.I simply ran an errand for my mom where I had to get a few things at a local supermarket for dinner.I also had to go out later tonight to get a couple more things that she needed.While doingthat,I went to get a bottle of anti-freeze at the local Target store.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I returned a phone call to a friend of mine who told me that he wanted to go out and have some fun tonight.I said okay and I hung up.After talking with him,I bathed for a bit and shaved.
After eating dinner,I decided to do some much needed catching up on my personal PC work.I am now caught up and I am ready for the rest of the evening.
I am going to be singing up a storm tonight.I have been looking forward to thsi all week.I will have my friemd along and that will be great.I am hoping that the evening goes well for me tonight.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.I am still feeling optimistic.I have a feeling that things will go well for me tonight.Still,I hope.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for teh day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling really depressed and angry.I didn't have a very good day today.
I was the victim of a theft today.Somebody stole my bag that had some of my personal medicine items that I use every day.I left the bag alone for only one second and when I got back to the main room in the social club,it was gone.I was really angry and very emotional.I looked frantically for that bag and it was nowhere to be found.The social club staff filed a missing items theft report and I called the police to file a report of theft.This really threw me off guard and I was also on a tirade for much of the day.Though nothing went wrong job wise,the loss of that bag of mine was very distressing.Fortunately,my real personal stuff like my ID,credit cards and money were still with me.I carry those in a separate fanny pack and they are with me at all times.Still,it was pretty disheartening to lose something that had stuff that I really needed and used everyday.As a result of that,I had to go back out and get some more medicine stuff and a new bag to carry it in just in case the previous bag that was stolen from me does not turn up.I did that all after I had a light dinner and I registered some more bills at the Where's George site.It cost me some money but I had to do it.I am hoping that this bag does not get taken from me like the previous one did.
I had just gotten over losing money to a con man earlier this week when he sold me DVDs that he rented from a local Family Video and tried to pass them off as previously viewed DVDs that he just bought.Fortunately,as stated,I did return them to the store and they are now back in stock at the location where they were rented.I am hoping that the person pays a hefty price for that.This has been a pretty bad start for me.A lot of unfortunate things have happened to me all in one week.Still,I am greatful to be alive and that I still have my Id's and credit cards.I had to pay some money to replace the stuff that was taken from me.But I am just glad that I still have my life.This is going to take me a long time to get over.I am just hoping that the upcoming weekend and the new week will be a lot better,alongside the rest of the month.
I do have a lot to tell my counselor tomorrow afternoon when he calls.I have to tell him what happened to me this week and what happened to me last week with the death of my friend.The best thing out of the latter is that the guy responsible is behind bars.May my friend Rest In Peace.
I am glad that the weekend is finally here.I am hoping that the weekend will be better than the rest of the week.I am going to be entertaining the crowd tomorrow and I am hoping that the night goes well for me.
As for Sunday,I have made no plans as of yet.But whatever I do,I hope that it benefits me in a positive way.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good but also exhausted.I had a very eventful day today.
The work shift went by smoothly.There were hardly any problems.I simply did what I had to get done and I managed to get quite a bit done in the period of time that I had.After finishing,I dropped everything off at the rehab center before heading for home.
When I got home,I got all the money ready that I had withdrawn for my mom yesterday for the taxes and the bills that have to be paid.I left to pay the property taxes.
After I paid the city property tax bill for the year,I headed for home to drop off the payment receipts and I had to head back out again to get some money orders made for the bills that my mom has to pay.I will be sending those out tomorrow.I also had to go to a couple of supermarkets to buy some stuff that my mom needed.In between these,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas in my tank.I had only one more stop to make,which was at a local drug store to pick up a few prescriptions for my mom and myself.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I laid down for a little over 45 minutes.I couldn't get to sleep but I did relax for a bit and I did feel better.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work and I registered a few more bills at the Where's George site.Overall,a very eventful day.I am feeling exhausted from all the stuff that I had to do today.I will sleep well tonight,that is for sure.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.At least,it was better than yesterday.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean up.I simply picked up the bags and dropped them off at the work site.Before I sorted out the laundry,I had a light lunch and when I was done,I left to run a few errands for my mom.
I had to withdraw some money for my mom at the bank so we could pay the property taxes and the bills.I will be paying the tax bill tomorrow when I get home from work.I am hoping that everything works out well.
After I dropped off the money,I went out to do a few personal things.I had to take some empty bottles and cans back to the store.I wanted to free up some space in my car and my trunk.I had so much and I felt that it was high time to turn them in so there is some space in the car and the trunk.I did get a decent amount of money for them and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a Salvation Army thrift store in another part of Western New York.I bought some more stuff.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the money at the Where's George site.It took quite a long time for me to get them on the site but I did get them on there.After stamping them,I put them in a secret place.
After eating a light dinner,I registered a few more bills at the Where's George site and I finished my personal PC work.These later bills were from change that I got when I bought 4 burgers and 2 boxes of fries at a local Wendy's for dinner.It was a pretty good day.I was glad and overjoyed that nothing hectic happened and that I escaped everything that did happen unscathed.I am hoping that this never happens again.I can't afford to lose any more money.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,I am going to pay the tax bill and do a little grocery shopping.Again,I am hoping that everything goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a very hectic day today.
The only thing that went well was the work day.I did what I had to do and I got it done.But I was caught off guard by a con man today who sold me DVD's that he had rented at a Family Video store in my area.He took me to the cleaners when he sold me these and when I was hoping that I would get some more great stuff,I got an empty white box that had a piece of cinder rock in it.Fortunately,I did get some compensation in the form of several VHS tapes.But this whole thing was hectic because I had long talks with a local private salesman and that guy who took advantage of me also took advantage of him.He sells used videos,CD's and DVD's from his apartment and that guy was supposed to sell for him and bring him his money.But he never did.That salesman had it out with that guy over this matter and sent out people to look for him.I heard from someone else that the results were not pretty when they did.I am not going to report on here what happened to that guy,but I will say that it was ugly and violent.Later on in the evening after I ate dinner,I chose to take the DVD's back to a Family Video store location that was within the area that I lived and I am glad that I did.I learned tonight that these were rented from another location in town and that they will be returned to stock at the location.I was relieved because I realized that I did the right thing and trusted my gut instinct.I do feel a little bit better that I did this.At least,it saves me from getting arrested for being an accessory to stolen property.I didn't get the money that I spent back but I feel good that I did the right thing.I lost some money but I still have my life and for that,I am greatful.I am glad to be alive still and to be able to enjoy it until the day I do depart for a better world.Yes I am still glad to be alive.
Earlier this afternoon when I finally got home,I tried to take a nap but I wound up falling.All the emotional turmoil that had happened to me and the stress that went with it made me fall.I wound up manipulating my sexuality and I masturbated when I was at the point of ejaculation.After washing myself after that fall,I asked the creator to forgive me for that.But tonight,I also have to say a prayer because I do have a lot to tell the creator about what happened to me today.I do have a lot to say.I am also asking the good creator to forgive that guy for conning me and taking advantage of me.It is the least that I can do.I am hoping that the creator will forgive him.I am also hoping to feel a lot better in doing so.I am also going to say to the creator that I want to forgive him in my prayers tonight.Again,I am hoping to feel better after doing so.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick up goes smoothly with no messes to clean up.I also have several errands to run for my mom tomorrow after that and I am hoping that they all go well.
That was my hectic day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I went out and made the most of it.But before I did,I was waiting on my direct deposit to come in.It was my monthly disability check coming in.While waiting for that,I decided to do my personal PC work and it was not too much.After that,I checked again and it came through.After that,I went about my day.
First,I had to buy a few things that my mom needed and I also went and did something for myself.I decided to go out and buy a brand new Buffalo Sabres jacket for this winter.I wanted to buy one with a hood.I went to a coat store in another part of Western New York and I bought it there for only $40.00.It was wonderful.I also bought an original Sabres hat there as well.After paying for them,I started to head for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a Goodwill store in the area and I bought a whole bunch of stuff.I bought several records and several cassette's.I paid for those and I headed straight home.
On the way,I ran into a traffic jam on the highway.I had to wait at least 20 minutes for the traffic to ease up.After all that aginy,I finally found an open way and it was smooth sailing after that.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas.After all that driving,I needed to fill the tank back up again.After filling up,I headed straight home.
After getting home,I ate a light dinner.It was a pretty good day.I had fun and I enjoyed myself.It was wonderful to get out of the city for a while and enjoy the scenery.I also bought several nice things,including something that I can use when winter comes.Overall,a pretty good day.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.Tomorrow is Election Day.I have to set aside a little time to get out and vote before the day is through.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty good day today but right now,I am feeling depressed.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went pretty well,even though there weren't too many people there.There was just a few people and I was doing most of the singing.I didn't mind.I still got a positive response from the crowd and that made me feel good.
When I got home,I was originally going to go to bed the minute that I got in.But instead,I procrastinated and watched a movie instead.I did get really tired and I do go to sleep.
Earlier this morning,I fell.I once again masturbated.This was the third time this week that I had fallen.I have been on an emotionally roller coaster ride this week since I heard about the death of my friend in that hit and run that didn't have to happen.I am glad that they apprehended the driver that was responsible but I am still feeling sad over my fallings and feeling the absence of my friend who is now gone who I will never see again.It's hard to believe.I talked with him two weeks ago and it was wonderful.He also came to see me sing a couple of times and that was really neat.Now,he is dead and I am still feeling the effects.I miss him already and I wish that this hit and run didn't happen.I wish that he were still here right now.Of course,I know that I shouldn't dwell on this.I am going to move on teh best way that I know how and I am hoping that the pain passes in time.
Regarding last night,I still regret that procrastination.I was hoping to get up early this morning to start going back to church but I was too tired to get up.So,I listened to a radio sermon and that was great.When I finally had the strength to get up,I ate and I got on with the day.
I ran a few errands for my mom and I also had a light lunch at a local Taco Bell.I also stopped at a local dairy to have some frozen yogurt.This was the dairy's last day open.Tomorrow,they will be closed for the season.I was just glad to get something before this happens.Because after tonight,I would have to wait until next year.But it is well worth the wait.
After eating,I decided to catch up on some last minute personal PC work.I also watched a college production of Carrie:The Musical on YouTube.It was great to see this.It is not as bad as the critics said that it was.It was pretty good.I also managed to register a few more bills at the Where's George site and that is great.Overall,a pretty good day.
The depression that I am feeling right now is just a sudden spell.I know that I will feel better after a good nights sleep.This does happen once in a while.Again,this will pass and I will feel better after a good night's sleep.
Before I retire for the night,I am hoping to go out and have a drink or two with the guys at the place where I entertain and I am hoping that I will get some great tlaks with them.
I did have a talk with an out of town friend tonight.He is doing good and we are going to talk again next Sunday.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes well.I am hoping to go to a coat store in another part of Western New York and get a new coat.They are having a sale and I would like to take advantage of the sale before it is over.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ