Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a very hectic day today.
The only thing that went well was the work day.I did what I had to do and I got it done.But I was caught off guard by a con man today who sold me DVD's that he had rented at a Family Video store in my area.He took me to the cleaners when he sold me these and when I was hoping that I would get some more great stuff,I got an empty white box that had a piece of cinder rock in it.Fortunately,I did get some compensation in the form of several VHS tapes.But this whole thing was hectic because I had long talks with a local private salesman and that guy who took advantage of me also took advantage of him.He sells used videos,CD's and DVD's from his apartment and that guy was supposed to sell for him and bring him his money.But he never did.That salesman had it out with that guy over this matter and sent out people to look for him.I heard from someone else that the results were not pretty when they did.I am not going to report on here what happened to that guy,but I will say that it was ugly and violent.Later on in the evening after I ate dinner,I chose to take the DVD's back to a Family Video store location that was within the area that I lived and I am glad that I did.I learned tonight that these were rented from another location in town and that they will be returned to stock at the location.I was relieved because I realized that I did the right thing and trusted my gut instinct.I do feel a little bit better that I did this.At least,it saves me from getting arrested for being an accessory to stolen property.I didn't get the money that I spent back but I feel good that I did the right thing.I lost some money but I still have my life and for that,I am greatful.I am glad to be alive still and to be able to enjoy it until the day I do depart for a better world.Yes I am still glad to be alive.
Earlier this afternoon when I finally got home,I tried to take a nap but I wound up falling.All the emotional turmoil that had happened to me and the stress that went with it made me fall.I wound up manipulating my sexuality and I masturbated when I was at the point of ejaculation.After washing myself after that fall,I asked the creator to forgive me for that.But tonight,I also have to say a prayer because I do have a lot to tell the creator about what happened to me today.I do have a lot to say.I am also asking the good creator to forgive that guy for conning me and taking advantage of me.It is the least that I can do.I am hoping that the creator will forgive him.I am also hoping to feel a lot better in doing so.I am also going to say to the creator that I want to forgive him in my prayers tonight.Again,I am hoping to feel better after doing so.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick up goes smoothly with no messes to clean up.I also have several errands to run for my mom tomorrow after that and I am hoping that they all go well.
That was my hectic day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ