Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a not too eventful of a day today.
Today,I only an a small errand for myself.I mailed out a credit card payment for the month ahead of time because it was due on Tuesday.I am glad to get that out and I am also happy that I got that accomplished.After I made a small purchase at a convienience store,I boarded a bus after a long 25 minute wait and headed for home.The weather today was extremely COLD!!!!!!
I had to make one more stop on the way.I went to a beverages store to pick up a 6-pack of non-alcoholic beer for tonight at the stroke of midnight.Since I am staying home tonight,I feel that I should make the best of it.I simply bought something to celebrate with at home and after it is the new year,I will put a movie in the DVD player and watch it.Since I don't have to get up in the morning due to the New Year holiday,I can stay up longer and watch a good movie.I will be sleeping in tomorrow morning.
I have to admit that I do miss being with my friends.I have had this feeling since I haven't had a vehicle.Yesterday,I had it and I was driving but I had to have it towed back to the shop due to an anti-freeze leak.But I am hoping to have it back by next week so I can get my life back on track and I can start going out and having fun again singing for my friends.I do miss singing for them and I do miss being around them in general.Again,I am hoping that by next week,I will have my 4X4 back on the road and get my life back on track.
Tomorrow is a day off due to it being a holiday.I am just going to take it easy.After tomorrow,the holiday season of 2008 will be officially over.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty stressful day today.
The work day went by smoothly.I did everything that I needed to do in the amount of time that I had and when I was done,I dropped the laundry off at the rehab center.I also had to run an errand for my mom while I was out.I had to pick up a couple of boxes of hot cereal for her.
While the work day went smoothly,some of the day didn't go so smoothly.One of the things to happen today was an incident at the social club.One of the social club members was ranting and raving like a crazed maniac.He also shouted that he wanted to kill Olympic Gold Medal swimmer Michael Phelps.This threat was taken seriously and the local Police special task force arrived on the scene to take care of the situation as well as resolve it and make sure nobody else got hurt.Apparently,the situation worked out where the guy was taken to the local hospital's mental ward for a psychiatric evaluation and to see how they can adjust his medication.This was a very scary situation and everyone around had the daylights scared out of them.I also was scared and even when the situation was resolved,I still felt tensed up because of it.I was just glad to get out of there and finish up my job.
When I was running the errand,I ran into some trouble.I discovered that I had an anti-freeze leak.I discovered this when I was reversing out of the parking lot and I saw white smoke coming from my engine.I opened up the hood and saw that there was a lot of smoke and I smelled anti-freeze while I was waiting for the tow truck getting all the stuff that I needed to get out of my 4X4 so I could take a bus home.After the tow truck came,I hopped a bus to a nearby transit and transfered to another bus to go home.Overall,what a day.
I am now at home relaxing and awaiting the next day.Since there will be no laundry pick up tomorrow as a result of me not having a vehicle,I will have to go to a local post office to mail out an important credit card payment.After that,I will just have to stay home and take it easy.For the first time in 9 years,I will be ringing in the new year at home.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off and I went to the garage to drop off some money at the garage.It went really well.Though the ball joint is not on my 4X4 as of yet,I decided to drive it since there is hardly any snow and icy patches on the road.I now have it and I am only feeling slightly better.Still,I wished that the lone mechanic at the garage would have fixed the ball joint for me so I wouldn't have to worry about the steering problems.But I have to endure this until the boss gets back from his vacation.
I am only concerned about one thing.I saw that there was a leak coming from somewhere and the radiator was smoking.I noticed this when I went to a local shopping mall.Despite this,I drove to a nearby supermarket but I didn't see any leaks nor did my radiator smoke.But still,I might have to get my vehicle towed to the garage to have it checked out.I am hoping that this is nothing serious.But if it is,I will just have to get it fixed.
After doing my shopping,I went straight home and I had a light pasta dinner.After eating,I am now relaxing and getting ready for the new day.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
As with yesterday,I had only one errand to run.I went to the local drug store to pick up some additional cookies for snacking.I went out to endure the high winds that we were having.After all the rain that we had to melt most of the snow that we had from the terrible blizzard that happened a week ago,we now had high winds to endure.Not only that,they day was also COLD!!!!Fortunately,most of the snow was gone and there were not too many slick spots anywhere.Most of them went away.In other areas of Western New York,there was lots of flooding.But we here in my hometown were fortunate not to receive any flooding.Again,I ran an errand and I endured high winds going about 55-60 miles per hour.But I made it home in one piece.My mom was actually concerned about why I went out just for cookies but I told her that it was close to home and that we were running low.
While eating a light supper,we watched The Little Drummer Boy on DVD.There was a lot of sports on today and we wanted to watch another holiday special again because we felt bored.After eating,I simply relaxed in my room and listened to some music.I also received a phone call from a friend of mine in New Jersey.It was a short conversation but it was great.
I am now relaxing.I am anticipating the new day tomorrow.It's hard to believe that the holiday season is almost over.In just 4 days,the 2008 holiday season and the year will be history.Though I do hate to see it end,I am also glad that I don't have to endure it for another year.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes well.Tomorrow,I will also go to the garage to drop off some money that I owe and I am hoping that the ball joint will finally be on my 4X4.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
I had only one errand to run.I had to pick up a few things from a local drug store that were needed in the home.The weather was rainy for much of the day so I waited for the rain to calm down so I could go out and get the stuff.It was a very good walk and I managed to get everything that was needed.I headed straight home afterwards.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and I had a light dinner.While eating,we watched the special Nestor,The Long Eared Christmas Donkey on DVD.The holiday season is almost over and so,my mom and I are simply rewatching what we can until after New Year's Day is over,which will be the official end of the holiday season for another year.Overall,this holiday season,despite the setbacks,was very good.I enjoyed it and everybody was happy.
The only unfortunate thing to happen was that my father came into town unexpectedly.He came into town yesterday looking for me,but I was working.He is currently at my sister's house and will be leaving for North Carolina tomorrow morning.He just wanted to stop in and say Hello and now,he is going back home.Though I really didn't want to,I called my sister's house and talked with him for a bit.But he is going back home tomorrow morning and I hope that he makes it home safely.
As I stated yesterday,I will be staying home tonight due to the fact that I still haven't got my 4X4 back on the road as of yet.But I am hoping that it will be ready on Monday so I can at least go out on New Year's Eve.I am hoping.
As for tomorrow,I am just going to stay home and take it easy.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly and fast.I did not have too much to do today.I did what I had to do in the short period of time that I had.They also let me off early because there was really nothing going on and most of the people who worked at the offices were all home on holiday break.But I managed to get some work done and that was great.Not only that,there was also a radio on and the station that they had it on was still playing some holiday music because I guess that there were still some people celebrating somewhere and that is cool.
After I cashed my paycheck,I walked home from the bank after I went to a nearby Burger King to use the restroom.It wasn't a very long walk and I got to at least exercise.It was also not too cold out because of some of the warm weather that we had.We had lots of rain on Christmas Eve and it did melt some of the snow and ice.But it did cool down but not to the point where it was freezing.But there are still some icy patches here and there and it is still pretty slippery in some spots around.But we are supposed to get some more warm rain tomorrow and it will melt some more of the mess that we got from the blizzard that we had for much of last week and early this week.
I laid down for much of the afternoon when I got home.I also had a light dinner of homemade soup that my mom made.It was awesome.My mom and I also watched some more holiday themed videos and DVD's.There were mostly reruns on the TV tonight and we decided that these were a reasonable substitution.Reruns can be quite boring and sometimes,there isn't an awful lot of choice when they come on.But my mom and I felt that watching holiday specials on video and DVD were better than that.We still have some snow on the ground and it still feels like the holiday season.The feeling never really goes away until Spring hits and all the snow melts.But that is the way it goes.
I still don't have my 4X4 back as of yet.But I am hoping that Monday will be the day I get it back on the road.As a result of that,I will have to stay home tomorrow night again.But I am hoping to go back out and sing for my friends next week or even better yet,New Year's Eve.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead.FJ

Merry Christmas,Everybody!
Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.Though I am still feeling over the edge over the situation regarding my vehicle,I am feeling hopeful and optimistic.
The holiday today went surprisingly well.I really wasn't expecting much today but I got a lot.Of course,I didn't get too much today but seeing everyone happy when they got what I bought for them was better than nothing and it made me feel good.I actually forgot about my situation.I also had a nice dinner and I felt full even with only one helping.But it was wonderful.
At the moment,I am home.The holiday is almost over and I am now anticipating the work day tomorrow.
When we got home,my mom and I watched a few holiday specials on video and DVD.It was neat.The last one that we watched was Rudolph and Frosty's Christmas in July.It is about when two of Christmas time's most popular icons Rudolph and Frosty's family decide to take part in a 4th of July circus with the hopes that Santa Claus will come and take them back home to the North Pole when the whole affair is over.But there is evil afoot because an evil winter magician wants to end the icon's lives for good and is also behind this whole plot to let them do the performance so he can do just that.It is a very interesting crossover and it is always worth watching each and every Christmas season.Overall,it was a wonderful holiday today.
When the holiday officially ends tonight at midnight,I have to be prepared to go back to work tomorrow.I will be sleeping when the clock strikes midnight.But I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly and that everything will start working out for me again before the year draws to a close,including getting my 4X4 back soon so I can get my life back on track.I am sick of being at home each and every weekend and I am now facing the concept of staying home and missing the New Year's party at the place where I entertain the crowd.This is what not having my vehicle is doing to me.The only thing that needs to be done is a simple ball joint job.But it hasn't been done as of yet and it has been driving me up the wall.I am hoping that by Monday when I bring some money into the garage as a payment,that my 4X4 has the ball joint on and I can drive it again and I will have my life back.I can only hope.
As previously stated,tomorrow is return to work day after the holiday today.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead and that I will have my vehicle back finally on Monday.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty so-so day today.
Today was my day off.I simply did some catching up on some shopping.It was an accomplishment.Since I haven't had a vehicle for much of the month(as of this writing,I still don't have a vehicle),I couldn't do much of what I wanted to do.I have missed some very great things this month because of me not having a vehicle.I am feeling really angry at the moment because my mechanic's assistant at the garage hasn't gotten around to it and I keep getting the same old "BULLSHIT STORY!!!!" as to why he hasn't started it yet.I understand that he is all alone there and that he is only one man.But my 4X4 has been there for over a month.The fuel leak has been fixed but it is in desperate need of that new ball joint on the driver side.Since we have been having some treacherous winter weather lately,I don't want to take any chances.A bad ball joint is bad news because it means that the vehicle is not safe.I am afraid that I could be endangering the lives of other drivers and even pedestrians as a result of this.I don't want to put other people's lives in danger nor do I want to endanger myself.This is a big deal to me because I am trying to love my neighbor and I feel that this is the best way I can do that.They have been insisting that I drive the vehicle with that bad ball joint on it but I keep saying NO.I feel that they are not being considerate of my feelings regarding this.Again,I don't want to hurt nobody.I just want my vehicle to be safe and I want it to be totally fixed so it will be.The minute that the ball joint is on my vehicle,it will be safe.Right now,it isn't.As I am writing this,my anger is really INTENSE!I don't want to be angry.I want to feel joy and happiness.But right now,I am not feeling that way.I am hoping that I can get some answers on Monday when I have to bring in some money.I just want this whole thing to be over with so I can have my vehicle back and I can start driving as well as getting my life back on track.I haven't had a real life since this whole thing happened and I am feeling INTENSELY ANGRY as a result.I want my 4X4 back and I want it to be safe for driving.I feel that I am not asking for too much.
As for the shopping,I got practically everything that I needed to get.My shopping is now complete.It took a bit of doing but I am glad to get that done.The only thing that I need is for my vehicle to be back on the road.I have to wait another weekend.But I am hoping that this can get finished and I can drive it without feeling any source of guilt or fear.
Tomorrow is Christmas.I am hoping that the day will go greatly and that everything will work out for the better.I could use a nice holiday in helping me get over this whole thing that I am going through right now.
That was my day today and my hopes for the holiday ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.I did quite a bit in the period of time that I had.After the work day had ended,with help from a job coach,I dropped off some clean laundry at the rehab center and was dropped off at a nearby transit center to take the bus home.
When I got home,I helped my mom out with a few little things and I made my bed.I also finished my personal PC work.I was glad to get that accomplished.
After I ate a light dinner,I watched some TV for a bit and I went to the movies.I went to see the movie Quarantine and I enjoyed it immensely.It was well worth waiting for to come to the local bargain theater that I like to go to when movies come there to be shown.It had been a long wait and the wait was well worth it.I enjoyed it immensely and I was glad to have gotten out to see this film.I am now waiting for it to come out on DVD.It will be quite a while but it will be well worth it.
I have the day off tomorrow.I am hoping to finally get some shopping done and I am also hoping to get a lot of things out of the way so I can finally take it easy and enjoy the holiday.I am hoping that the holiday is truly a great one indeed.I will also be checking with the garage to see if my 4X4 will be ready tomorrow.I can hardly wait for that.If I start driving it again,I hope that I will not have any problems for a long time.I have to go to the garage to drop some money off tomorrow and I am hoping that my vehicle will be ready by tomorrow as they promise.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a not too eventful of a day today.
Today was my day off.I did not have too much to do.I was hoping to drop off some money to my mechanic today but the weather kept me home.The wind was really blowing and it was COLD!!!!But I am hoping to drop the money off Wednesday morning after I wake up.I am still hoping to get to the movies that night and I am not going to let nothing stop me from seeing the movie Quarantine.I have been dying to see this movie for a long time and I am determined to see it.As stated,I am hoping that this is a very good film.
The only thing that I really did today was that I shoveled the walk for my mom today and also for the mail person so they will have an open walk to bring the mail.Apparently,we didn't receive any mail today but that is cool.We were'nt expecting anything much anyway so that is cool.At least,I shoveled the sidewalk and that is better than doing nothing.
We are supposed to get warmer temperatures in the midst of this week.Apparently,though the temps will be warmer on Wednesday,we are supposed to get snow and sleet.But again,it will be warmer and that will be nice.We are supposed to get rain on Wednesday night before Christmas.That will be a nice change of pace.
I am hoping to have my vehicle back on Wednesday.According to my mechanic's step-daughter,the ball joint is supposed to go on my 4X4 on Wednesday.I hope that this can be done.I have been without my vehicle for over a month and I am going crazy without it.I hope that it can be fixed by Wednesday.
I am now relaxing and hoping for the next day.
Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that the day goes well.I am also hoping that I can get to Wal-Mart after work and get a few things for the holidays.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had another hectic day today.
Today,I only went out once to run an errand for myself and my mom.It was to simply go to the drug store to pick up a few prescriptions and to buy another bag of salsa tortilla Combos.It was a chore just getting to that drug store.It was because that the winter storm that we started on Friday has revamped itself and is now wreaking unholy havoc on the town.The wind chills are ranging from 0 to -5 below zero.The winds are blowing very violently and there is snow blowing and drifting everywhere.It has been like Hell here with all of this.It is bitterly COLD!!!!, CHILLY!!!! and very BLUSTERY.The weather pattern is going to be continuing into tomorrow.I am just hoping that this insanity ends soon.It is supposed to warm up on Wednesday into the lower 40's with rain to melt this mess all over.It won't necessarily be "The January Thaw" but it will be better than what we are going through now.This Wednesday,which will be Christmas Eve,I am hoping to go see a movie.It is the movie Quarantine,which is a remake of a 2007 Spanish thriller named Rec.I have been waiting for this movie to come for a long time since I heard about it earlier this year.Again,this Wednesday,I am hoping to go see it and I am hoping that it is a very good film.I have been dying to see this since it was released late this year.I am going to see this and again,I hope that it is a good one.
I also had a talk with a friend out of town.He is doing good and he also tells me that he is also having a horrendous weather pattern where he is living.We talked for only 10 minutes before hanging up.
Right now,I am relaxing.I have no place to go since I have no car and because it is bitterly COLD!!!!I am just going to pop a movie in and relax for a bit before going to bed.
I do have some stufff that I need to do tomorrow and I am hoping to get them done.It will be some last minute shopping that needs to be done.Again,I am hoping to get that done.It will also be my day off.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty eventful day today.
I did quite a bit.I dropped a holiday card off at a house that I had forgotten to send it too when I initially sent out the holiday cards.After that,I went to a local drug store and bought a Hannah Montana calendar for my eldest grand niece and I hope that she really enjoys that.
But before I did any of these things,I had to shovel the sidewalk by the house and I also had to clear the way for the mail person on the front porch.That way,we would get our mail and there would be no problems.It was a very hard job doing all of that shovelling because of the high volume of snow that was on the sidewalk due to the terrible snowstorm that we had yesterday.According to the National Weather Service,we are supposed to get more snow.Oh well.This is the winter season and it is to be expected.I will have to shovel again when the time comes.
My mom and I went out to do some holiday shopping and to finally get the grocery shopping done.It took us several hours to get done.It also took me over 8 dollars in cab fare.But this couldn't be avoided.We were glad to get this done.We still need to do a little more holiday shopping before the holiday comes around.
Right now,the weather is COLD!!!!There is no snow falling at the moment but the weather is bitterly COLD and CHILLY!!!!Again,it is to be expected for this time of the year.My legs are hurting and the bone spur in my right foot is also hurting.The pain is excruciating.But I am hoping that it will pass.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to do some catching up on some personal PC work.It wasn't an awful lot but I am glad to get it done.
The only really disappointing thing is that I am staying home again tonight.The roads are really terrible and I still don't my 4X4 back on the road.It is still in the shop.But I am hoping to have it back on the road just in time for the holiday.
As for tomorrow,I will just stay home and take it easy.I have nothing else to do or anyplace to go.
That was my day today and my plans for the day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty hectic day today.
I had an unexpected surprise when I arrived at work this morning.I found that I had the day off.At the moment,we are in the middle of a terrible snowstorm.It is blowing and drifting everywhere.It is also COLD!!!!The weather is really horrendous and the snow is really coming down.After I ate a light lunch,I left my work to go to the bus stop.
I waited for over 20 minutes for the bus to come.It was really blowing and the visibility was really terrible.I could hardly see down the street when I was looking out for a bus on my way to work and on my way home.I had to wear my sunglases so I could keep my eyes open because the snow was really falling into my eyes thanks to the high winds and I could hardly keep them open because of that.But when the bus came,I boarded and I headed for the bank.
Though the bank was a short distance away from the stop,I had a tough time getting there because of the weather.I almost slipped on some ice on the street and that was no help.But I made it.I cashed my paycheck and headed for the nearby stores in the area.
I went to a Dollar Tree in the area and bought some things at the store.I also went to a nearby supermarket and bought a few important things that were needed,especially one that I needed.After doing the shopping,I called a cab and headed for home.
When I got home,I opened the door but it got hit by a passing motorist.Fortunately,I didn't get hurt but the door got a small nick on it.It had to be beaten into shape again and the guy that did it offered to do it.I apologized to the cab driver for opening the door too early and that was great to work out.
When I got into the house,I got out of my clothes and into my pajamas to relax and lay down.I really did not do too much.I simply relaxed a bit because I was feeling tired.I didn't go to sleep but it was just great to lay down and take it easy from enduring the Winter storm that is happening right now.I am glad to be inside.
After I ate a light pasta dinner,I decided to do some catching up on some personal PC work.I also registered a whole bunch of new bills at the Where's George site.It was quite a lot.I had fun and now,they are on the site.
I did hear from the garage.Though my mechanic is on vacation for the last two weeks of the month,I heard from his sideman.He told me that the gas tank is on my 4X4,but he told me that there is still a leak.He is trying to locate the part that is needed.He also informed me that he has tried every auto parts store in town but they didn't have it.He told me that he would have to check with auto dealerships parts departments to see if they have it.He told me that he would resume the search on Monday and he hopes to have it soon.I will be heading to the garage on Monday anyway.I have to drop off some money at the garage as I promised my mechanic.I am hoping that the weather will be decent so I can bring it there.
I am now relaxing.I am just taking it easy and I am hoping that the storm we are currently having will end soon.
Since I have no car and because of the storm,I will have to stay home again.This will be the first time that I will be missing the annual Christmas party at the place where I entertain.If the weather does change,I will go out.If now,I'll stay home to be on the safe side.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.II had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.It was pretty easy.I had only a little bit to do and when I was finished,I I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby post office.I had to mail out my monthly payment to the finance company.When I got that accomplished,I headed for a nearby bus stop to take the bus home.
When I got home,I simply relaxed for a bit and took it easy.I also phoned my mechanic and he assured me that he was working on my 4X4 well into the evening.He desperately wants me to get this back on the road again.He also wants to go on a two week vacation to visit with his family during the holidays and that is why he is working and racing against time.I am hoping that he can get this done tonight.I would hate having to wait two weeks for my vehicle to get back on the road.I have a temptation to call and see if the work is now completed.I am hoping that it is completed so I can pick it up and start driving it again.I would hate to wait another two weeks.I hope that it will be done by tomorrow.
Earlier this evening,I had to walk to a supermarket in my hometown to pick up a few things.I am glad that I did this.I just had to get out for a while.I was going bonkers just waiting for my vehicle to get out of the shop.It was a nice walk.I bought a few things that were needed and I managed to make it home.It is a bitterly cold night but I managed to get something accomplished.
I am now at home releaxing and I am just anticipating the next day.As stated,I am hoping that my 4X4 will be ready tomorrow morning.That would be really great.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Since I had the day off today,I decided to do some catching up on some much needed important things that I had to do.I mailed out a bunch of Christmas cards.I also managed to stop over at my mechanic's garage to drop off the CD's that I had made for him.He really appreciated that.He also told me,in a hopeful manner,that my 4X4 could be ready by tomorrow or Friday.I was thrilled.After hearing this,I headed for a nearby bus stop to catch the bus to the nearby transit center.
Before heading for home,I headed for a local Dollar General store to pick up a couple of things that we needed at home.After paying for them,I headed for a nearby bus stop to go home.It took half an hour but when the bus came,I got on and headed for home.
When I got home,I took off my wet sneakers and my wet socks.I put a pair of clean and dry socks and changed into my sweatsuit.My mom and I decided to order a pizza for dinner and while eating,we watched another holiday video,which was The Flintstones:Christmas in Bedrock.It was really neat.
After that,I decided to do some catching up on some personal PC work.I am now done.
The only thing that I didn't get accomplished was that I forgot my payment for my monthly finance company bill.There is always tomorrow,which is what I will do after I am done with work.
As stated,tomorrow is a work day and I am hoping that the shift goes well.I am also hoping that when I call my mechanic tomorrow,my 4X4 will be all set for me to drive.After that,if that happens,I can finally get my life back on track.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.The reason is that they haven't gotten around to putting the parts on my 4X4 yet.This really gotten me feeling at edge.I understand the dillemma that they are having at the garage but they have been promising me that they are going to start my vehicle soon,but I keep hearing the same old story everytime I turn around.I am getting tired of this.
Despite that,the work day went smoothly with no problems.But the news from my mechanic really threw me.I understand what he is going through.But I am also having problems.I can't help my family out with their stuff and I haven't even finished my shopping as of yet.This has been very stressful for me and I can't take it anymore.
Fortunately for me,I will be able to use the extra time that I have tomorrow to catch on some stuff.I have to mail out a check and a money order to the finance company this month for my payment on my line of credit.I also have several Christmas cards that I have to mail out.I have the day off and I am going to use the day to catch up on some much needed important things that I need to do before the month is out.This has been a very nerve wracking month for me.It has been one thing after another concerning my vehicle and all the other things.I am hoping that this situation gets resolved very soon.I don't think that I will be able to take much more of this.I am feeling anger and rage and I am also feeling over the edge over this.Why did that accident that happened to me over a month ago had to happen to me at a time like this?!I am just hoping that this whole thing is over soon and I wil be driving again.Again,this has been a very nerve wracking month and I don't know whether I'm coming or going.
Any prayers will be appreciated.Thanks in advance for them.
That was my day today.I am just hoping that everything works out for me tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty fair day today but I did receive some very good news.
I managed to have a talk with my mechanic today and he is hoping to start on my vehicle eitehr later tonight or early tomorrow.He really wants me to start having a vehicle again and I am hoping that this can happen.I even told him that the CD's that I made for him were done and he thanked me.I hung up and started to get through the rest of the day.
I finished my personal PC work and I also ran an errand for my mom.I walked to a local convienience store to pick up a can of pasta sauce for dinner tonight.We had a light pasta dinner tonight and it was pretty filling.I also managed to get something for myself.
After eating and watching the news,I decided to do some catching up on some much needed personal PC work.I am glad that this is done and I can now relax and take it easy for the rest of the evening.
I am hoping that my vehicle will be ready by tomorrow.I have been without a vehicle for over a month now and it has been driving me crazy.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
I really did not do too much today.The weather was a little chilly and it was raining for only a short time.I only went out to run one errand,which was to get a couple of things that my mom needed at a near by drug store.
After I got home,I decided to go upstairs and make another copy of a CD that I was making for my mechanic.I only did that because the first one did not turn out so well.There was a chunk of music missing on one song and I had to redo the whole thing all over again.Before I finalized the disc,Itest played it and this time,there were no problems.I just got done playing them both on my computer's CD-ROM drive and they both came out great.My mechanic,at least I hope,will really like these.Tomorrow,I will be calling him to let him know that they are ready and I would like to drop them off at his garage.I will be making him another CD in the near future.This time,it will be a CD of mixed songs.I will make it when I have another opportunity.Right now,the only thing that I am hoping is that my 4X4 will be on the road this coming week.
This morning,I listened to a sermon online and while listening to it,I did my personal PC work.It was an interesting sermon about the real meaning of Christmas and why Jesus Christ came to earth in the form of a man to save mankind.It was really nice and i enjoyed it immensely.I will be looking forward to next week's sermon.
While eating a light dinner,we watched the classic holiday story The Little Drummer Boy on DVD.It was really great to see this without commercial interruptions of any kind.Overall,a pretty good day.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes great.I will have to get to the post office tomorrow because I have to mail out my payment to the finance company and some Christmas cards.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
I really did not do too much.I only ran a small errand today for my mom and myself.I bought a few things that were needed for the house.I bought them at a nearby Rite-Aid.On the way there,I saw that there was a small blue Sears shopping basket on the street.I simply picked it up and took it with me to Rite-Aid and used it to carry all the groceries that I had to buy home.The minute that I get my 4X4 back on the road,I am going to make sure that it's returned to Sears because it is the right thing to do.
When I got home,I relaxed and put in Elmo Saves Christmas in my DVD player and also watched the classic Cricket on the Hearth.We watched them while we were having a light pasta dinner.It was pretty good.
Earlier today,I managed to make a CD for my mechanic.He wanted me to burn the entire Soft Cell album Non-Stop Erotic Cabaret for him.I did that and managed to finish it despite a minor problem having with the CD burner that I have.I am going to make one more CD for my mechanic because he wants me to make two of them for him.I am glad to do it.I am hoping that he enjoys them when I am finished.
As with last Saturday night,I am staying home on the ground that I do not have a car.But I am hoping that my vehicle will be up and running next week.
Tomorrow,I have to buy a copy of the Buffalo News because they are starting another Buffalo Sabres picture thing.I need the coupon to buy a Ryan Miller puck with his picture on it.I am hoping that I can get mine and that there are still some left.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.Though I am still feeling a little at edge,I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply dropped off quite a bit of clean laundry with the help of a job coach.I only picked up a little bit and that was it.After the shift was over,I headed for the nearest transit center to take a bus to the bank and head for home.
On the way there,I stopped at a nearby Dollar Tree to pick up a box of Christmas cards and a small roll of duct tape.I also stopped at a nearby Rite-Aid to buy a box of penne pasta.After that,I waited at the transit center for the bus.
Whiel waiting for the bus to leave,I received a phone call from my mechanic to inform me that he needed to pick up the money that I had for him for the new gas tank.He said that it was mandatory and that he needed it now.I called my mom to tell her where the money was and where she would find it.After talking with her,I called my mechanic back and told him that it was set and he could go and pick it up right then and there.
After cashing my paycheck,I headed straight home by taking a cab home and when I got home,my mom informed me that my mechanic came and picked up the money.I paid her back the money that she put on top of it so he wouldn't have to come back later on in the evening.After that,I dressed up in my sweats and I relaxed for a bit before eating a light dinner.
After dinner,I finished my personal PC work and my day is now complete.I am just hoping that my compact 4X4 will be back on the road soon so I can start driving again.My life has been really plain since my 4X4 has been in the shop and getting fixed,including when I had a crash over a month ago.But I am hoping that I will be driving very soon.
I will be staying home tomorrow night once again since I haven't had a car.But I am hoping to go out next Saturday night.Tomorrow night,I will be watching a movie again.
That was my day today and my plans for tomorrow night.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a roller coaster ride of a day today.
The work shift managed to go smoothly.I did what I had to do in the period of time that I had.After I was done,I simply went home for the day.
When I got home,I relaxed a bit and took it easy.But it wasn't for long.I had to run a a couple of important errands for my mom today.I had to pick up somethine from the house of a friend of hers and I also had to go to the drug store to pick up a few things.Two of them were prescriptions that she needed.I had the help of my niece today for those things and I was greatful.After she dropped me off at home,I got out of my clothes and into my sweats.
Early this evening,I watched a holiday special on video that I have had for several years,which was A Flintstones Christmas Carol.It was a sweet treat watching this.
I also had a talk with my mechanic early this evening after I ate a light dinner.He told me that the parts that I needed,which were a ball joint and a fuel tank were in and they will be putting them on next week.All I need to do is give him the money for the fuel tank and I am set.I will be giving him more money in the near future each and every week.I am still waiting on a reimbursement from my work of money that I spent on my auto repair work that I had done so far.I am hoping that it will be enough to offset the balance that I owe him.
The reason why I am feeling mixed emotions is because I had to do a lot of work in my vinyl room tonight.After straightening out some piles of records that I have,I had to go back into that room to do a lot more work when a stack of records toppled over and made another pile topple over.I spent over an hour straightening out those piles again and to make sure that this wouldn't happen again for quite a while.I worked for over 2 and 1/2 hours initially and I had to work another hour,which totaled over 3 hours.I am hoping that I do not have to do this again for quite a while.I will be glad to get those boxes that I need so I can put my record albums in them and stack the boxes neatly so I will not have to worry about them anymore.It is becoming a pain in the butt to maintain this room each and every time I turn around.Fortunately,none of them are broken or cracked and that is a relief.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes over smoothly and that tomorrow is a better day.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I managed to get something accomplished today.
I couldn't do the laundry pick-up because there was nobody there to help me out with it.Oh well.There's always tomorrow.
But when i got home,I called my brother in-law to see if he could still take me to the finance company to pick up the check that I needed so I will have some money to give my mechanic to pay for the new fuel tank.That went well.I picked the check up and the trip went smoothly.I also cashed it when I got back into the city and I also withdrew some more money from my checking account to have some additional money.I have almost all of what I need to get the part.On Friday,I will have it all.
When I got home,I saw that a package that I was expecting had come in.It was three hard to find record albums.I am glad to have these.I also got a couple more important things that I was waiting on.Overall,a really great day.
I am also feeling better because there was no trouble at the social club today.It was a pretty quite day with nobody there to rub me the wrong way.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to catch up on some much needed personal PC work.I can now take it easy for the rest of the evening.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am again feeling mixed emotions.I had a very hard day today.
The work day started very rocky.I had another run in with an inconsiderate person while at the social club.This was the same person that started with me the day before Thanksgiving and he tried to do it again with me this time over the radio.I assured him that it was at the volume level that the club requires but he wouldn't take my word for it.He even accused me of not being in my right mind,which I was.Apparently,this guy always tries to start stuff with me and this time,a loud disagreement happened and he even called me some really dirty names.This led to even more shouting and conferences with the social club coordinator.Fortunately,I chose to focus more on my job and less on the social club.The rest of the day went smoothly.But I was still feeling at edge over this whole thing and I am hoping that a good nights sleep will help me out.I also hope that everything works out tomorrow when I will be going to a finance company that is currently holding a line of credit account in my name so I can pick up a check with some money so I can put it towards the new fuel tank.I am hoping that everything works out tomorrow.
After having a bowl of homemade soup,I finished my personal PC work.I can now relax.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that this goes smoothly with no messes to clean up.After that,it is off to the finance company to pick up the money.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty uneventful day today.
Today,I only ran a few errands that I needed to get out of the way.It was nothing really special.It was just some things that I needed to get for the home.I also had to go later and get a few other things.I had to get some soap for myself and a couple boxes of cookies.I also had to withdraw some money for my mom and myself.I had to take a taxi cab home due to all the money that I had on me.
I also got a phone call from my mechanic.It is going to take over $300.00 to replace the fuel tank.I am hoping that by the end of the week,I can get all of it together.I just have to make some sacrifices and take whatever I can get.I need my 4X4 back on the road soon.I am hoping for a reimbursement to come in from work so I can at least give my mechanic something.But I am hoping to have that money by the end of the week.
Aside from that,I have nothing else new to report.It is just the same old things on a different day.I hope that things will get better for me.
Tomorrow is a work day and I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions once again.Today was a very uneventful day.
Since I have no vehicle,I am staying home tonight.I will not be doing my usual singing tonight.It is depressing but what can you do when you have no vehicle and hardly any money.I had a blast last week singing but I have no meny for cab fare back and forth this week.The money that I got when I cashed my paycheck had to be used to buy some food.But I am hoping that I will have my vehicle back soon so I can start going out again.
The only thing that I did get done tonight was that I had to drop off some keys at my mechanic's garage today.He was doing some last minute repair work for a friend of his on his truck.Apparently,this friend needed to get his truck fixed up so he could go away to spend he holiday with his family in another state.But I managed to get the key there and I am glad.This coming Monday,I have to make a withdrawl from my mom's and my account so my mom will have some money to pay the county tax bill and so I can pay my half of the insurance when it is due.All I will need is my niece's half and I am set.I still have one more bill to pay and after that,I have some extra money for myself.The only other thing that I have done is that I stopped at a local drug store to pick up some more snacking food.
I am hoping to have my 4X4 back soon so I can start doing what I need to do this season.Thank goodness that this holiday only comes once a year.I am going to miss driving for a while but it is reality.
As for tomorrow,I will just have to take it easy once again.I will just watch a movie or two and then,I don't know.
That was my day today and my plans for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty shaky and hard day today.
After a promising start,I was caught off guard by a fuel leak on my 4x4.After filling up my tank,I saw that some fuel leaked out near my passenger side rear wheel.I drove to work immediately after that.But when I got there,I saw that I was still leaking and that there was a puddle of fuel underneath the vehicle.After sorting out the laundry pretty fast,I had to move my vehicle onto the street and the maintenance crew had to come over to clean up all the fuel on the driveway.Fortunately,my laundry work shift was not compromised and I managed to get a little bit done in the short time that I had to do it.After getting my 4x4 back on the road and having to have a minor ball joint repair done on Monday,I find that I need a new fuel tank and fuel line to get this back into the best running condition.It is running good but now,I have to have this get more repairs.That is life,I know.But it is still pretty sad and depressing.I was hoping to go out tomorrow and entertain the crowd but now,I have to stay home.Hopefully,by next week,I can have these repairs done and my vehicle back on the road.
To be on the safe side,I had my vehicle towed to my mechanic's garage so he can check it out on Monday.The only thing that is looking up is that someone is interested in buying my smashed up 1994 Toyota Corolla.If that guys pays well enough,I will have to say yes.This will make it a little bit easier for me.I am hoping that the guy is till interested when my mechanic calls him when the keys are there.I will also have to get the title ready so it can be sold to that guy.I am hoping that something can come of this.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work.I will be taking it easy for the rest of the night.I will just have to get used to being home for a while until I start driving again.
That was my day today and my plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the short period of time that I had and I did quite a bit.After eating lunch,I bagged all the clean while my 4X4 was warming up and when I got to the vehicle,I saw that my coolant gage was right in the middle.I drove for a while and while it did go back to just before the middle,I felt that I needed a bottle of anti-freeze just in case.After dropping off the laundry,I went right to a local drug store on the way home and bought a bottle.I filled my coolant reservoir clear to the top and I headed for home.Before topping off my radiator to be on the safe side,I waited for my vehicle to cool down for a few hours.Before eating,I topped off my radiator and visited with a neighbor of mine for just a few minutes.
After eating a light dinner,I finished my personal PC work.It was quite a bit to do and I am glad to have gotten it done.I can now take it easy for the rest of the day.
Earlier this afternoon,when I first got in,I wound up giving into temptation by masturbating.I was playing with myself and wound up masturbating later until ejaculation.I felt miserable after that but after asking for forgiveness,I felt better.But I need to work on not touching myself in my genital area so I can avoid the trapfalls.I have been overwhelmed lately by images of men and also of having sexual relations with them in visions.I've even been talking to myself pretending that there are there in the room with me,agreeing to perform sexual favors for them,such as fellatio.I need to get my mind off of sex and having sex with men.If anyone can help me get these things off of my mind and how I can go about ridding myself of these things,please let me know.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.But I am also feeling tired and exhausted.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was simply a pick-up day.The pick-up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean and that was great.I headed over to the work site after that.
Before I sorted out the laundry,I hung out at the social club for a while and after I ate lunch,I did my duties.I sorted out the laundry and after that,I left for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby post office.I had to mail out a credit card payment and I also mailed out a payment for some record albums that I ordered.The people that I ordered from found these for me and I am glad to have them.I will have to wait for a little over a week to get them,but I don't care.It will be well worth the wait.
After that,I had to withdraw some money from my account for some further repair work to be done on my 4X4.A ball joint has to be replaced.Each and every time that I steer it,I hear a squeak.My mechanic already said that this was a ball joint and on Monday,I am going to have it replaced.I also need an oil change done as well and that will be done on the same day.It will be great to have this in good working and driving condition.
I ran several errands today for my mom and myself.I simply bought some more holiday DVD's for myself and I bought some groceries for my mom.I was out for much of the day.I also managed to go to a local Salvation Army thrift shop and bought some more stuff there as well.Overall,a pretty good day.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,I have to pick up something for my mom on the way home.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty fair work day today and I'm also driving again.
I started driving my compact 4X4 today after I got home from work and I am happy to be driving again.After not having a vehicle for over 3 weeks,I am driving again and I am feeling a little bit better.
The work day went fairly well.I simply did my job and it was easy.I had to do a lot more than I was used to because the rehab center really needed some clean stuff so I did double the amount but I kept it clean and neat.It was great.After dropping off the clean,with the help of a job coach,I was let out at a nearby bus stop to get on a bus and go home.
After getting off,I dropped off a couple of newspapers at a house and I walked home.When I got home,I waited until 4:00p.m.before calling my mechanic.
When I did,I received the greatest news.My 4x4 was ready to be driven.After paying for the repairs,I drove off to get some gas and after that,I headed for home.
Wnen I got home,I had a light dinner of homemade chicken soup and it was delicious.I also finished my personal PC work and I can take it easy for now.I have no place to go tonight so I am going to take it easy for a while.Though I do have wheels now,I am still going to stay home.The weather is windy,snowy,wet and COLD!
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes smoothly with no messes to clean up.
That was my day today and my hopes for teh day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
I talked with my mechanic today.He told me to get back to him in over 1/2 hour.After I ran an errand,I called and got his stepdaughter and she advised me to cal tomorrow afternoon around 2:00p.m.I said okay and I hung up.
I ran a small errand for my mom today.I had to buy a few things that were needed in the house and I went to a nearby drug store to get the items.After purchasing them,I headed straight home to make the aforementioned phone call and I sat down to eat dinner,which was mostly leftovers but it was great.
After eating,I decided to do some last minute catching up on personal PC work.I am just glad that I got that errand done because it is now windy and rainy outside.The winds are very high and blowing pretty fast.It is also raining outside.On top of all that,it is COLD!I am glad to be in the house right now.I am also gald that I don't have to go out anymore tonight.But I still have to brave the elements tomorrow morning when I have to go to work.I am just hoping that it will not be that bad as it is right now.
I am hoping that tomorrow will finally be the day that I can start driving again.I have been waiting for a little over 3 weeks.Again,I hope that I can start driving again tomorrow.
As stated,tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a non-eventful day today.
Most of the day,I stayed home and did my personal PC work.There was no place to go and nothing to do,which is basically what this hometown of mine is known for.There is never anything to do.I am simply bored and I have really nothing to do.The only thing that I really did was lay down and listen to a little bit of music.I also tried to locate a few U2 45's that I own.I haven't found them yet but I know that I will if I keep trying.I did manage to locate a U2 CD that I own but the 45's are still missing in action.After I am done here,I am going to go back to my room upstairs and look for them.
For dinner tonight,we had a small turkey dinner.It was all the food that you would expect and it was great.I also received a phone call from a friend of mine out of town and that was good.After that phone call,I went back to my computer and finished up some stuff that I started.
Last night,I went out to sing for the first time in 2 weeks.It was wonderful.I did a tribute to George Harrison,which is what I usually do every year when the anniversary of his death rolls around.I did a George solo hit and I followed it with a Beatles song that he sang lead on.It was great to be out with the gang again.I am hoping to go back out next week as well as to be getting my 4X4 back on the road tomorrow.I will leave a message on my mechanic's answering machine tonight to remind him to make sure that I get a NYS inspection sticker so I can drive it.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes well.I am still hoping to get my 4X4 back on the road again this week.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
I did not do too much today.I simply woke up this morning and ate breakfast.After that,I decided to do my personal PC work.It was nothing much to do.I got several e-mails and one from a friend of mine who sent me his new e-mail address.After I was finished,I shut down my computer and I took it easy for a while.I smply watched a few previews on a few of the DVD's that I have and then shut off the TV.
The only errand that I ran today was to pick up a couple of things that I needed for the house.I had to go and buy a box of cold cereal and a candy bar for my mom.The walk there was pretty good and the weather was pretty mild.It wasn't too cold.Plus,it wasn't snowing either.I walked to a nearby drug store to buy those things.
While I was on my way home,I found a 50 dollar bill that some had lost.I put it in my pocket and I headed straight home after that.I didn't stop anywhere.I simply went home.
When I got home,I took a bath and cleaned up a bit.I washed my hair and I really cleaned myself up.I now feel clean and refreshed.
After eating dinner,I registered the 50 dollar bill at the Where's George site and I did some last minute personal PC work.
Tonight,I am going out to sing.I will be taking a cab down and back.It will be a little over 20 dollars but I want to go out and have fun.I am bored just staying home doing nothing but watch movies and just sitting around.I am hoping to have a good time tonight.
I will just stay home and take it easy for the day tomorrow.On Monday,I will call my mechanic to see if he got the sticker that I need for my compact 4X4.
That was my day today and my hopes for tonight and the days ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.A little unusual for me but I went out and tried to enjoy it.First,I went to my regular bank to cash my paycheck and I went to a nearby Blockbuster and bought a few DVD's.I was just in a buying mood because it was Friday and I felt like building up my collection.I bought a few horror films and I also bought a couple of comedies.After paying for them,I went to a Radio Shack and bought a cable so I can be ready for the switch to digital TV when the change comes in February.I did connect the converter box to the set and it did work.The only problem was that a couple of other local channels haven't gotten their digital signals as of yet.I even called the toll free number on the back of the remote control and they said that not having their signals was a big possibility.I simply disconnected the box and put it back in the box that it came in.At least,I will be ready when the switch comes when I do hook it up for good the next time.Not only that,I now know that the box does work.The only other drawback was that I got a weak signal on a couple of stations.But hopefully,that will be resolved when the time does indeed truly come.
After that,I went to a nearby supermarket to buy a few hoagy rolls and a big tomato for dinner tomorrow night.My mom is hoping to make sausage hoagies tomorrow night and I am hoping that they turn out well.When I was done with the shopping,I took a taxi cab home.I had so much stuff and money on me that I didn't want to take any chances.
When I got home,I had a light dinner and I watched a few features on the new DVD's that I bought.I also watched a few holiday special DVD's because there was nothing but reruns on the TV tonight.Later on,I finished my personal PC work and that is great.I can now relax and take it easy for the rest of the night.
As for tomorrow night,I am thinking of going out to sing.If I do,I am going to take a taxi cab to and from the place where I sing.I am just bored sitting here at home on Saturday nights.I want to go out and have some fun.On Monday,I am hoping that I can finally start driving again.I will call my mechanic and I am hoping that there will be a new inspection sticker on it.Again,I am hoping that I can start driving again.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Happy Thanksgiving,Everybody!
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I am feeling better because I am getting a welcome relief from all the hassles and the attitudes of the people around the social club,After what happened on Wednesday,I really needed this break.It was a pretty good day today.I really didn't eat too much but I felt stuffed after the one plate load that I had.
After I started my personal PC work,I shut down and I got ready to go to my sister's house for dinner.My nephew picked us up in his truck and we went over to her house.It was pretty good.We watched some football while waiting for dinner to get ready.I also managed to use my sister's computer to check up on my e-mail and I browsed Wikipedia for a while.
When dinner was ready,we ate.I ate quite a bit and though it really wasn't much compared to what the other family members,such as my mom,my nephews and my brother in law,I still felt stuffed after I was finished.
After that,I waited until I had digested a little before eating some dessert.The dessert was a variety of pies.I had a piece of pumpkin pie and a piece of cheesecake.I felt really stuffed after that and when we were ready to go home,my niece and her current boyfriend dropped us off at home.
When I got home,I laid down for a while because I really felt tired from the stuffed feeling that I had.I slept for over an hour and when I awoke,I had to use the bathroom and I went back upstairs to listen to a little bit of music.I also watched a rerun of A Charlie Brown Thanksgiving and the Peanuts historical episode of The Mayflower Voyagers of It's America Charlie Brown.It was really wonderful.
After that,I finished my personal PC work and I am getting ready for tomorrow.I haven't made any plans but whatever I do,I hope that it benefits me in a positive way.The only thing on my agenda is that I want to cash my paycheck.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling rather relieved for this being the extended holiday weekend.After having a pretty rotten day today,I am glad for that.
First off,my mechanic went on an early vacation from all the work that he had from the garage.He told me that yesterday that he has had it for now and has decided to start his holiday weekend early rather than wait for Thursday.I called the garage and they informed me to check back on Monday to see if he will continue to get me the sticker needed so I can start driving again.I have been really restless since this whole thing has been going on.I will have to do another weekend without wheels.But I am hoping that this will be resolved on Monday and that I will start driving soon.I can hardly wait for that.
The other thing happened when I went to work.There was nobody available to do the laundry pick-up and I had a run in with a social club member that had to be a meddlesome person in a converstaion that I was having with someone else.After I repeatedly told him to "Never Mind" to the point where I was screaming really loud at him,the staff got involved and broke it up.But the guy who instigated this lied to the staff that he was trying to talk to me and I got all hissy at him when it was the other way around.I almost really lost it with this whole thing.But the staff advised the instigator to avoid me for the rest of the day and I was also advised to avoid him as well.We both followed the advice and everything was cool for the rest of the time that I was there.
After I ate lunch,I went home courtesy of the organization.When I got home,I put my pajamas back on and decided to relax a bit for a while.My mom and my sister went out to do some last minute grocery shopping before the holiday tomorrow.I stayed up until my mom got home so I could help unload the groceries from my sister's car and help my mom out of the car.
After helping my mom put the groceries away,I laid down for a bit becuase I really needed to rest up after all the stress of today.I feel a little bit better because of that and I am glad for the holiday weekend.I am going to need it after what happened today.
Tomorrow is the Thanksgiving holiday and it is also a day off for me as is Friday.I am greatful for the holiday weekend and I am hoping to feel refreshed after the whole thing is over.
That was my day today and my hopes for the upcoming holiday weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay but a little at edge because my mechanic informed me that my 4X4 was ready but had no NYS inspection sticker on it as of yet.This really threw me off because I was hoping to be driving it today.Aside from that,I had a pretty fair day today.
The work day went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the short period of time that I had.It was only five hours.But I got a lot done.After bagging everything,with the aid of a job coach,I simply dropped everything off and I was dropped off at a local bus station so I could take a bus home.
After I got home,I relaxed and took it easy before dinner.I also managed to finish my personal PC work and I left a message on my mechanic's garage answering machine.I will be calling him back tomorrow morning and I am hoping that I can finally get my 4X4 on the road with a NYS inspection sticker.According to him,everything is great on it but the sticker is all that is needed so it can be driven.I am hoping that I will have it before the end of the week.I am getting sick and tired of being at home,especially on the weekends.Again,I am hoping that my 4X4 will be on the road soon.
After eating a light dinner,I did some more personal PC work and I have a feeling of accomplishment.I am glad to get this done.My next accomplishment will be to get my 4X4 back on the road.I will have to call my mechanic tomorrow morning.
Tomorow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes smoothly.As stated,I am hoping to have my 4X4 back on the road again tomorrow or hopefully,before the end of the week.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.But the day was a little disappointing.
Today was supposed to be the day that I was to see the medication manager over at the hospital.But she called this morning to cancel and said that something had come up.I was still sleeping in bed but my mom told me that I was not home.I will have to call her tomorrow afternoon to arrange another appointment.This really sucked.I was hoping to meet with her and talk with her about what had been happening to me.But it wasn't meant to be.OH WELL!!!!
I did get one thing accomplished.I managed to get my vehicle registered.That is right.My compact 4X4 is now fully legal.I did talk with my mechanic earlier this evening and he said that it was okay.But he is going to check it out anyway to see if it is indeed safe.I would hate it if it were not safe to drive.With the winter driving season coming up,I want to make DOUBLE sure that the 4X4 is safe and road worthy.You never know.I am hoping that it will be ready before the week is out.I would like to start driving again.My niece gave me a ride to my mechanic's garage so I could drop off the registration sticker.
After I dropped off the registration sticker off at my mechanic's garage so he could test drive it,I only ran one errand for my mom.The errand was to get a small box of vanilla pudding so my mom could prepare her minty cake.Though the weather was wet,cold and rainy,I managed to get the errand done and I was glad to get it accomplished.It was really neat to get it done.I got some air and some exercise.But my right foot is still hurting from all the walking and mostly,from the bitterly cold weather.I am just hoping that the weather will improve a little bit.I am also hoping that my 4X4 will be ready for the upcoming winter driving season.
I am now relaxing.I am just glad that everything is now falling into place.I am also hoping that the outcome is positive in the end.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly for me.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I spent most of my time cleaning up around my record room.Overnight,stacks of record albums that I have toppled over and it was an incredible mess that I had to clean up.There were record albums all over the place.I spent over an hour picking everything up and straightening everything out so it won't,at least I hope that it won't,topple over again.It was tough because 2 more piles toppled over while I was straightening out another.But I managed to get it done.It was tough but I got it accomplished.I was really exhausted when I was finished but I had to do it.I am hoping that I don't have to do this again for quite a while.
After that was done,I relaxed and I waited for dinner to get done.We were eating light again and I was waiting for it to get done.I was panting very heavily while relaxing in a chair but I had to get this finished.I couldn't let that mess be.It didn't look good.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to catch up on some much needed personal PC work.It was only a small bit but I am glad to have done it.I am staying home again tonight.But I am hoping that next week,I will have my compact 4X4 on the road again.I can then put my life back on track again.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes well.I do have an appointment with the med manager over at the local hospital.While I am heading there,I have to go to my insurance agent to have my insurance transferred over to my 4X4 so I can have it registered finally.The minute that I get it registered is the minute that any more repairs,if needed,can be done.I am just hoping that it doesn't need anymore but if the worst should happen like I am expecting,I will have to deal with it when that comes.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I went out for a walk to a couple of nearby stores to pick up some snacking foods.At a drug store,I picked up another bag of zesty salsa totilla Combos and a box of extreme butter microwave popcorn.I went to a nearby convienience store and picked up a couple of flavored pretzel pieces bags.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,though I am not going out tonight,I bathed and cleaned myself up.I ate a light supper after that and I decided to finish my personal PC work.
I am still feeling depressed because I still don't have a car running.I am still feeling bad due to what happened.Though my mechanic informed me that he did put the alternator on my 4X4,he still insists on test driving the vehicle to see if it needs anything else other than the alternator.But despite the way I am feeling,I am trying to make the best of this.I am going to be watching a movie later tonight and I am hoping that it will make me feel better.I watched several movies last week over the weekend and it was fun.But I do miss entertaining the crowd over at the place where I sing.I am hoping that I can get back into the spirit of things next week.I miss singing and having fun.Again,I am hoping that I will be driving next week.
I will also be staying home tomorrow in the daytime and the nighttime.It is really sad,depressing and boring not having a car.But as stated,I am trying to make the best of it.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I did what I had to do in the short period of time that I had and when I was done,I had the laundry dropped off with the help of a job coach.After that,the job coach dropped me off at a nearby bus station and I hopped on a bus to go to my regular bank to cash my check.
After that,I called a cab to take me home and when I got home,I settled down for a bit doing my a little bit of my personal PC work.I ate a light dinner of homemade soup after that.
After eating,I waited for my brother in law to come and help me out.I asked him if he could give me a ride to pick up a new pair of glasses that I had made when I lost my other ones two weeks ago when my bag was stolen.But I am glad to have a new pair and at the moment,my life is almost caught up.The only thing that I have to do is get my 4X4 registered so my mechanic can test drive to see if it needs any more work other than the alternator.I am hoping that it doesn't but I am expecting the worst.If the worst does indeed come to be,I will have to deal with it in the appropriate time.
On the way home from getting my glasses,we stopped at a nearby drug store to pick up my prescription refill and a box of sleep tea that I needed.I also bought some Salsa tortilla Combos and we went straight home after that.
When I got home,my brother in law had some of my mom's homemade soup and he enjoyed it.He said that it ws awesome.He left after talking with her for only a few minutes while I finished my personal PC work.I even managed to get an e-mail reply from a ministry that I e-mailed recently and it was a great way of advice that they gave,.They advised me to read a certain book about how to overcome struggles with SSA and also another book that can help me.I will be looking forward to ordering those books in the near future.
I am now relaxing.I had a pretty fair week.I will have to stay home again tomorrow night due to the fact that I don't have a car.But I am going to keep myself entertained watching a movie or two so I don't get too depressed.I will be going to sing again next week when my 4X4 is back on the road.I can hardly wait for that.
I will not be doing much on Sunday because of the situation regarding my car.But I am looking forward to getting back to driving real soon.
That was my day today and my stay at home plans for the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the short period of time that I had.After I ate lunch,I went home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while before my mom and I went to do our grocery shopping.We had to go to the supermarket closest to our home and though we spent a lot more for less that we should have,we are relieved to get that done.It was a chore trying to figure out how we could get our shopping done but we got it done and we are glad for that.We also had to get by with cab rides to the store and home.Again,we got our shopping done and that was great.
After we got home,we put the groceries away and I decided to register some bills over at the Where's George site.These were bills that I got as change at the store and from the cab ride home.
After having a light dinner,I finished my personal PC work.I am now all set for the evening and I am looking forward to tomorrow.
I am now at home relaxing and I am also anticipating the next day.I am just hoping that the new day will go good.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes over well.I will also be staying home again this weekend due to the fact that I don't have a car.But my compact 4X4 is still over at my mechanic's garage with a new alternator but my mechanic wants me to get it registered so he can test drive it and see if it does indeed need more work to get it working properly for the winter.I will be doing that on Monday.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay but still on edge.I had a pretty not too good day today.
The laundry pick-up was called off today due to the job coaches going to an in-service meeting at the main offices.I was disappointed that I didn't get to do the job that I had my heart set on doing.But it does happen.When I did get to work,I simply had my lunch and when it came time for me to leave,I did.
An organization employee dropped me off at the post office so I could mail out a payment to the finance company that holds another one of my line of credit accounts.I haven't had a chance to pay off the one that I would like to pay off.There is always next month.But I will mail out a payment for this month on Monday afternoon when I go to see the med manager over at the hopsital.I am just hoping that my compact 4X4 will be ready by then.I just can't stand not having any wheels.This was a pretty terrible time for an accident to happen to me.We now have to go to the nearest supermarket to buy our groceries and that place is pretty expensive.But I am still holding onto the hope that my 4X4 will be ready soon.If I can get it back on the road by next week,that will be great.The only thing that I managed to accomplish was that I mailed out my payment this month to the finance company who loaned us money to get our roof fixed and that is better than nothing.
When I did get home,I took a nap for about a couple of hours and after waking up,I finished my personal PC work.I also ate a light dinner and I had to run a small errand for my mom.I went to a local drug store to get a big can of coffee that they had on sale.The weather is really snowy and it is COLD!I am just hoping to get wheels back on the road soon so I can get my life back on track.Again,I hate not having a vehicle.
I did manage to talk with the garage and the alternator is now on the engine and it is running.Tomorrow,they will get around to checking to see if it needs anything else other than that.The 4X4 has been sitting for over a year so I am expecting the worst.It that happens,I'll take care of that when it comes around.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good work day today.
The work day went great.I did quite a bit in the required time that I had.After I was finished,with the help of one of the job coaches,I dropped off the clean laundry and I was dropped off at a bus depot to take a bus home.
Before I got home,I had to make a couple of stops along the way.I had to drop a couple of newspapers off at a house and I went to a local convienience store to pick up a box of hot chocolate.I headed straight home after that.I stayed here for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I called my mechanic and the alternator that I needed finally came in.He informed me that he was going to do it tomorrow morning and to call him around the times of 1:30-2:30 to see if the job has been done.
After talking to him,I decided to watch a few DVD's and I even watched another episode of Terminator:The Sarah Connor Chronicles First Season on the DVD set that I have.I just wanted to be cheered up.I had a pretty good work day but I am still feeling sad and depressed over what happened over a week ago to my car.I am hoping that the repairs of my compact 4X4 will not be an awful lot.But the vehicle has been sitting for a little over a year and I am expecting the worst.If the worst does indeed come to that,then I will have to deal with it when that comes around.By the way,I did manage to finish my personal PC work when I got home.
After eating a light dinner, I decided to do some more personal PC work and I am now all finished.I am just going to take it easy for now until tomorrow.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well without any messes to clean up.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty faid day today.
Today was my day off.I didn't have too much to do today.The only really important thing that I had to do was go see a practitioner at the local hospital,which I fulfilled.
I had a light breakfast and I did a little bit of my personal PC work.I only did a small fraction because I didn't have an awful lot of time on my hands.After shutting down,I washed my hair for the first time in three days and I got ready to go to my appointment.
I left to go to the bus stop and while on the way there,I stopped at a local Wendy's and bought a Jr.Cheeseburger Deluxe to eat while I was waiting for the bus to take me to the hospital.
When I arrived there,I had my meeting with the practitioner and the meeting went well.I have another appointment with her in a couple of months.After leaving,I went to a couple of stores to pick up a few things that were needed.
I bought a can of diced tomatoes and a can of tomato sauce at a Dollar Tree store and a gallon of milk over at a nearby supermarket.I went right to a center when I was finsihed to wait for a bus to go home.
When I got home,I ate dinner and I finished my personal PC work.I am now ready to retire for the evening.
Tomorrow is a work day and I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
I did not do too much today.I simply took it easy for much of the day and I did my personal PC work after I had a light breakfast.
After that was done,I spent some time on the internet for a while and I had some fun watching some cartoons on YouTube and jsut browsing.I really did not do too much.It was just a very boring day with really nothing to do.But I did make the best of it.
After doing all of that,I decided to run an errand for my mom.I went out to get her a small bottle of dish detergent and I also picked up a few other things for myself and for her.Though the weather was cold and wet for much of the day,I still managed to get out and do some stuff.I also had to get out for a short spell because I just couldn't stand being in the house.I was feeling like a potted plant.I just has to stretch my legs and get some exercise.I am just trying to adjust to life not having a vehicle.I am just trying to to get on with my life and get things done that need to get done.I am suceeding in doing that.But I still miss having a vehicle.I am still holding onto the hope that I will have a vehicle very soon.I will feel much better when I do.
After having a light dinner,I decided to catch up on some much needed personal PC work.I am now aiting on a phone call from a friend of mine in New Jersey.He should be calling me any minute now.I'll be looking forward to that call.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes well.I do have an appointment with a practitioner over at the local hospital and I am hoping that the meeting goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today is the start of a not very good weekend.I am going to be staying home tonight as a result of what happened to me last week on an expressway.But I am feeling better emotionally and I am hoping that things start working out for me in the end.I am still hoping that my compact 4X4 will be on the road very soon and I am still awaiting what my mechanic has to say regarding what other repairs that it might need aside from the alternator.I know that I will have to wait an entire weekend to get the answers but I have no choice.But I am hoping to have some wheels by next week.I just can't stand not having a vehicle.
I only did a little bit today.I went to a local small restaurant that is near where I live and had a light lunch of nachos with cheese to dip them in.It was really great.I even saw somebody that I had not seen in quite a while.We talked for a while while I ate my nachos and we talked about a lot of things.It was great.After I ate,I paid for my food and left.
On the way home,I stopped over at my niece's place to let her know that her grandmother has been trying to reach her and she told me that she will try to call her when she can.I left and went straight home.
After having some homemade soup,I laid down for a while and I decided to do some last minute computer work and I am glad.It has been pretty sad and bogus not having a car,but I am still hanging onto the hope that my compact 4X4 will be road worthy pretty soon.
For tomorrow,I might take another walk and get a bite if I am in the mood.Then again,I also have to run an errand for my mom tomorrow.I will have to walk it but at least,it will get done.
As stated,I will be staying home tonight.I will be taking it easy.I might watch a movie tonight.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the short period of time that I had.After doing that,I simply bagged everything that was clean and with the help of a job coach,I dropped everything off at the rehab center.I went to a public transportation center to catch a bus home.
While waiting for the bus,I decided to turn in some cans at a nearby store and I went to a store where everything sold there was only a dollar and I bought some elbow macaroni.I reached the public transportation center just in time to catch the bus to go to the bank and cash my paycheck.
After cashing my paycheck,I took a taxi cab home because of all the money that I had.I didn't want to take a chance of getting followed home by someone I hardly know.Plus,after getting taken advantage of two weeks ago,I also didn't want to take any chances.I made it home safe and sound.
After I ate a light dinner,I registered all the bills that I had at the Where's George site and I also decided to do some last minute personal PC work.I still have a lot to do before I can call it a night.
I am going to be staying home this weekend.I have no car at the moment and the garage hasn't gotten around to fixing up my compact 4x4 yet.But they assured me that they will get around to it on Monday and I am hoping that it will not be as bad as I fear.I know that it needs an alternator and a belt.But if it needs everything else,I will have to cross that bridge when I come to it and take it one day at a time.
I am now at home relaxing.I am just going to sit down and get comfortable.I am not going out anywhere tonight or this weekend.So,I am just going to get comfortable.Again,since I have no car,I will just have to stay home this weekend.I know that it's sad.But what can you do when you don't have anything to drive to go out.
That was my day today and my plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went well.I simpky did what I had to do and I got everything that I needed to do done.After that,I went home.
When I got home,I had a tough time trying to relax.I tried taking a nap on the sofa but my mom constantly talking made it difficult.I did go to my room upstairs and again,I had a tough time trying to do that.While trying to do so,I wound up masturbating again and after asking the creator for forgiveness,I finally dozed off and I slept for about 90 minutes.
After getting back up,I decided to start finishing my personal PC work.But I was cut short due to a pizza that we ordered getting delivered and I ate.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work and I can get on with the rest of the evening.
Before laying down,my mechanic's step-daughter came to pick up a cash deposit for an alternator that needs to be put on my compact 4X4's engine to get it running and I am hoping that I can get the vehicle running very soon.I hate not having a vehicle.I now have a resolution to be a lot more careful in driving so I will not get into an accident again.I know that it's easire said than done but I am going to try and work hard at it.I am still feeling the effects of this past late Saturday/early Sunday morning.I know that I will be feeling these effects for a long time to come until I am fully back in the spirit of driving again.I am just hoping that this Winter will not be treacherous.But it might be.Still,I will hope.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly and after lunch,I got a ride home from work.
When I got home,I took a nap for a little over two hours.I was feeling tired and I felt that I needed this nap because I lost a little bit of sleep overnight.I felt better after that.
But I did have a hard time trying to for a short time.I wound up masturbating and after asking for forgiveness,I finally fell asleep.
After I woke up,my niece helped me out by taking me to a friend of my mom's house to pick up a bag and drop off some money.I also had to stop at a couple of stores to pick up a few personal items and to pick up my mom's prescriptions at the local drug store.
After eating a light dinner,I finished my personal PC work,which I started while I was out at the social club after the laundry pick-up and sorting out.Overall,a pretty good day.
I am now relaxing.I am also anticipating the next day.I am just hoping that everything will work out for me in teh long run regarding the car situation.My compact 4X4 is still at my mechanic's garage waiting to be fixed.But I am hoping that everything will turn out good in the end.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do.I had help in doing the pick-ups and drop-offs from the job coaches and that really made it.I also did some of the loads that I picked up.The whole day worked well and that was pretty good.
I still did my usual after work stuff.The only difference is that I had to walk.I was tired when I was through.I am not used to all the walking.But I managed to get what I had to do done.I dropped off a couple of newspapers at a couple of houses and I went straight home after that.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a few cartoons on a DVD that I bought yesterday.It was great.I was really exhausted.But it was worthwhile.I had a good day and that was something.
After eating a light dinner,I finished off my personal PC work.It took a bit of doing and several server issues but I managed to get it done despite that.
I am now at home relaxing.I am simply awaiting the start of the new day.I am hoping that tomorrow will work out as well as today.I did check with my mechanic and he is looking for a brand new alternator for my compact 4X4 so I can get it on the road.He also had informed me yesterday that he has to check it thoroughly to see if it will pass inspection in order for my 4X4 to be safe to drive during the bitterly cold winter.I am glad to have such a great mechanic.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes smoothly.I will also be checking with my mechanic tomorrow to see if he has found a new alternator.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the new day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.Though I am still feeling some negative emotions over what happened to me late Saturday/early Sunday morning.But the day turned out to be pretty fair.
Today,I had to have my compact 4X4 towed to my mechanic's garage so it can be fixed and I can put it on the road.I am just hoping that the cost is not going to be too much.But if it is,I will just have to work out something with my mechanic and I am hoping that he will agree with it.
On the way home from his garage,with his step-daughter giving me a ride home,I stopped at a small store to pick up a few things.I picked up two boxes of instant oatmeal and a box of generic Cheerios.I also managed to pick up a 3 DVD set of cartoons for only $6.00.When I got out and got back into the car,we went straight home.
When I got home,we had a light dinner and my sister and her husband came over to hang out.It is my mom's birthday today and they came over with cake.It was pretty good and my sister and her husband tried the cake my mom made,which they enjoyed.It was pretty good having them around.They left after they received a phone call.
After they left,I finished my personal PC work and I watched the latest episode of Terminator:The Sarah Connor Chronicles.Afterwards,the conclusion of the Two & A Half Men two parter.Overall,a pretty fair day.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.I will have to take the bus to work tomorrow as per the fact that I don't have a vehicle for now.But I am hoping to have my compact 4X4 off and running before the week is through.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling really awful,angry and depressed.This has not been a very good day.
Last night,on the way home after dropping my friend off,I had an accident.While on the expressway,I suddenly lost control of my car and I crashed into the concrete wall on the expressway.I was feeling really shaken up by this and when I got out of the car,I saw that there was a lot of traffic backed up.As I turned my motor off,I stood by my car to watch all the other cars drive by and even a few of the drivers stopped to see if I was okay.I was physically okay but emotionally I was not very well at all.I felt a nagging pain in my stomach and I was also feeling a little shocked and disorganized.I even phoned 911 to report this and I saw that there was help there in the form of New York state Park Police and there was also an ambulance at the scene.Not only that,one SUV full of people was also there and they stayed until the whole thing was over.For most of the time,I was questioned by the park police & the paramedics.The paramedics took vital signs and even had me sign a statement as to them advising me to go to the hospital,but I refused.I just wanted to go home and put this anguish behind.One of the park policemen took me home.I had to show him how to get there because the area outside the nearby state park was foreign to him.Before I did get home,I phoned my mom to tell her what went wrong and what had happened.I also assured her that I was physically okay but I was really shaken and really over the hill when it came to my emotional state.I also had to do the usual stuff like the breathalizer test,the 9 step walk and the eyes moving with the pen.I passed 2 out of three,which is fairly decent.
When I got home,I phoned my friend and told him what happened and he said that he was sorry for what happened to me and that he hoped that I would be okay.He even phoned me earlier this afternoon.Before I heard from him,I did call the Christian counselor that I talk to every 2 weeks and I told him everything that happened and my state of emotional health.After a 5 minute conversation,he said a prayer over the phone and hoped that everything will work out for the better in the end for me.
Despite having a wonderful night of singing,my entire weekend was a wash-out.This accident really ruined for me.I am now at home feeling the same way that I felt last night.I am just distressed because I can't go out tonight as a result of what had happened.I will have to call the place tonight to inform them that I won't be coming in tonight.I am just hoping that I can get out of this rut fast and that everything will work out for me.
Right now,my car is at my regular mechanics garage.I will be calling him tomorrow morning to explain the whole story to him as to what happened to the car.I know that he will tell me that there is nothing that he can do to fix or even save the car.Fortunately,I still have a vehicle that has been off the road for a little over a year.I am hoping to get some use out of this vehicle until I can get another 4 door car.I am hoping that this can be on the road soon.It is a compact 4X4,but I assume that it's better than nothing.The only drawback is that I will have hardly any room to put laundry bags in it when I get this back on the road if ever.But again,I am hoping that this can work out either way.
I had a light dinner tonight.I really didn't feel too hungry but I ate so not to hurt my mom's feelings.I had to show appreciation for all the hard work that she did.
Overall,this wasn't a very good week.I lost some of my money.I lost a personal bag of mine and now this crash.The only fortunate thing is that I didn't ram into anyone elses cars on the expressway and that I wasn't seriously hurt.
Tomorrow is my day off as usual.I am hoping that everything will work out for me so I will have a vehicle to use.Again,I am hoping that everything will go well.
That was my disastrous weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.But I am still feeling at edge over what has happened in the past week.I had a pretty decent day today.
After I had a talk with the phone counselor,I had to go to the local optical for an eye exam to get a new pair of glasses.The doctor at the optical assured me that I would get the new glasses in about 1-2 weeks.I told him okay and went about my day.
I didn't have too much to do.I simply ran an errand for my mom where I had to get a few things at a local supermarket for dinner.I also had to go out later tonight to get a couple more things that she needed.While doingthat,I went to get a bottle of anti-freeze at the local Target store.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I returned a phone call to a friend of mine who told me that he wanted to go out and have some fun tonight.I said okay and I hung up.After talking with him,I bathed for a bit and shaved.
After eating dinner,I decided to do some much needed catching up on my personal PC work.I am now caught up and I am ready for the rest of the evening.
I am going to be singing up a storm tonight.I have been looking forward to thsi all week.I will have my friemd along and that will be great.I am hoping that the evening goes well for me tonight.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.I am still feeling optimistic.I have a feeling that things will go well for me tonight.Still,I hope.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for teh day ahead.FJ