Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I didn't have too much to do today.I simply went out and ran a few errands that needed to be run.I spent out much of the day trying to get everything that needed to get done accomplished.After I was finished with the errands,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched a little TV and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle as a burden.I ask my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular struggle with this psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both help in sustaining me and also help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when another erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I tossed and I turned,but that only made the erection throb.I proceeded to get out of bed and walk for a bit,which made the erection start to soften.After about a few minutes,my genitals returned to full softness and I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in sinful lusting and fantasizing of other men.Yes,I was tempted.Since I was out for much of the day,I stayed busy.It kept my mind off of sexual thoughts of men and also,kept my hands busy,so I wouldn't touch myself inappropriately.It kept my mind on positive things and kept me focused on things that I was doing and I didn't think too much about anything sexual with men.Though I did escape today unscathed,I am still asking for prayers by all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts.Please continue praying for me.I also ask that all of you please leave me an encouraging word of two for me in the comments section.I desperately need both prayers and positive verbal encouragement.They both help keep me going.They also help keep me strong for my determination to overcome SSA and my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have really nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
The first thing that I had planned was a meeting with a priest to hook up with the group Courage International.The priest and I had a wonderful conversation that lasted for an hour and a half.After it was over,I headed back home.
On the way home,I made a few stops.I first stopped at a McDonald's to have a couple of sandwiches to tie me over until I got home for dinner.After that,I stopped at a Salvation Army thrift store and bought a few things.After that,I decided to make some more stops and collect some more bottles and cans.After that was done,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to do a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to do a little bit more personal PC work and after that,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.Overall,a very good and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult to handle.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle onto my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through all the negative effects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me calmer and more level.It also shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I headed for the bathroom and that made my genitals start to soften.When I was finished,I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted,but this time,I managed to escape.The talk that I had with the priest took my mind off of anything sexual with men.I didn't think of anything sexual with men at all today.The talk with the priest really helped me focus on other things.It was great that I talked to him and hopefully,I will be able to hook up with a group real soon.Though I did escape today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog regularly to please keep on praying for me.I need prayers every day.I am also asking you that none of you be shy and leave me an encouraging word of two in the comments section.I need both your encouraging words and your prayers.They both help keep me going.They also show me that there are people out there who care.They both strengthen both my determination and my motivation to carry on this journey and to overcome this terrible SSA.It is just that my blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rare.I need some words of positive encouragement day in and day out.I also need prayers.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual on Sunday,I have really nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work quickly and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a couple of things planned.
I first went to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and that group was awesome.After it was over,I had lunch at a local kitchen and after I was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into dress clothes and I headed back out to turn in another written application.After that was done,I headed back home to change into casual clothes and I ran an errand that I needed to run.After doing that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into a pair of lounge pants and did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player.I also relaxed the rest of the day.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father and I throw it on him as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me calm and level.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I headed for the bathroom as I had to use it and that made the erection start to soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted,though minimally,to indulge in sinful lusting and fantasizing with other men.But today,I stayed busy throughout the day as I ran errands and that took my mind off of anything sexual.I simply stayed busy and no sexual thoughts nor urges came at me.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog to please keep up praying for me.I still need your prayers each and every day.I am also in need of some positive verbal encouragement as well.Please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need some positive verbal encouragement alongside your prayers.Your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They help keep my determination and motivation strong.It is just that my blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.Please don't be shy and leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.I need some positive verbal encouragement alongside your prayers.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of me meeting up with a priest to see if I can get into a SSA support group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work.I was getting ready for the job fair that was in my hometown at one of the local hotels on the area.When the time came for me to go,I got dressed up in dress clothes and headed for there.
The minute that I arrived there,I immediately went right to work seeking out possible job leads.I managed to fill out three applications and after they were done,I turned them in and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my casual clothes and I headed out to run some errands that I needed to run.After they were done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.I was supposed to meet with a priest today,but due to the job fair,I changed it to Friday.
After eating,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.Overall,a very good and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help me stay on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom,so I got out of bed and I headed for the bathroom,which made the erection start to soften.My genitals were fully soft when I was finished using the bathroom,I went back to bed and back to sleep.Throughout the day,I stayed busy by going to the job fair and running the errands that I needed to run.I stayed busy and that kept my mind off of anything sexual.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please keep praying for me.I also ask that you leave me a positive word or two of encouragement.Both your prayers and your continuous positive words of encouragement both help keep me going.They make me more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.They also motivate me to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benfits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Today,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I really didn't have too much to do today.I simply ran a few errands,which included paying my electric bill.I also went to get my hair cut at a local hair place.I also managed to buy a new card for my cell phone to add minutes to it.After all of that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed and I headed for the bathroom.After I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.I stayed outside and out and about in the community and that took my mid off of everything sexual.I simply stayed busy and I escaped.I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I am again asking that all of you please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive words of encouragement.They both help keep me going.They also help keep my determination and motivation strong.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I will be going to a job fair and also,I will be meeting with a priest to discuss coming to a group where men who struggle with SSA support each other.Aside from these,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I didn't have too much to do as a result of winds and rain.I did however manage to get a couple of things done.I first went to the bank to withdraw some much needed money and after that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something I needed.After paying for this,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in keeping me sustained and also,much calmer and level.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I again fell.I masturbated again.Yes,there was lusting and fantasizing involved.This really made me feel miserable.I gave into it Saturday and after yesterday,I gave into it again early this morning.I don't know whether I am coming or going when I fall short.I really want to overcome this terrible SSA,but currently,I am going it alone as I have no local support network at the moment.I have my online friends,but I also need face to face support from my fellow man.When I did sin,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning.I asked him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I did feel better because I knew that I was forgiven.The thing is that I don't want to keep falling every time that I turn around.I have been falling quite a bit lately and each time that I fall,I feel miserable and depressed as I feel that I failed my Heavenly Father.I don't want to keep falling.I am again appealing to all of you fellow blog followers and also,fellow men who also struggle with SSA.Please pray for me.I am going through a very difficult time and I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also need words of positive encouragement.I am appealing to all of you.Please continue praying for me.Please don't be shy and leave me some positive encouraging words as well.I need them both desperately.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.I need them both desperately.They help keep me going.They also strengthen both my determination to overcome this this terrible SSA.They also strengthen my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.They both do help in a lot of ways.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I wok up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up quickly and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby 7-Eleven to buy a sandwich.After that,I went to a local supermarket to buy a can of soup.After that,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple more things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a pair of lounge pants.I put the stuff away and I had my lunch.After lunch,I did my personal PC work.I also had a headache and after I was finished,I took something for it and I laid down for an hour and a half and I felt better upon getting out of bed.I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD in the DVD player and watched it.I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church on Sunday morning always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.It is very difficult dealing with this type of thing daily and I never know how my emotions will pan out.I throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to help me endure through all the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another erection,though it didn't last long.I got up out of bed and I headed for the bathroom and while heading for there,the erection started to soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men,but this time,I threw it all on my Heavenly Father and asked him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to help give me strength to fight and resist the temptations as they kept coming at me.I prayed real hard and after I was finished,I felt better and much stronger.I went through the day praying whenever the temptations kept coming at me.Though I have done this today,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I need both your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Please pray for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks to all of you in advance for your prayers and your continues emotional encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ